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JOURNAL 


LIFE  AND  RELIGIOUS  SERVICES 


WILLIAM  EVANS, 


A    MINISTER    OF    THE    GOSPEL 


SOCIETY  OF  FRIENDS. 


PHILADELPHIA: 

FOE  SALE  AT  FRIENDS'  BOOK  STOEE,  No.  304  AECH  ST. 

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TO    THE     READER. 

In  the  preparation  of  the  following  pages  for  publication,  there 
has  been  little  more  required,  than  to  select  and  arrange  the 
matter,  from  the  copious  and  long-kept  diary  of  my  late  beloved 
brother.  In  them  will  be  found  depicted,  in  simplicity  and  self- 
abasement,  the  dealings  of  the  Lord  with  one,  whose  main  de- 
sire from  early  life,  next  to  the  salvation  of  his  soul,  was  to 
be  qualified  for  the  service  of  his  Divine  Master,  and  to  be  rightly 
employed  in  his  Church. 

As  the  reader  traces  his  growth  in  Grace,  he  can  form  his  own 
judgment  of  the  stature  he  attained  in  Christ  Jesus  his  Lord. 
It  will  be  seen,  that  in  common  with  other  faithful  seiwants  of  a 
crucified  Master,  he  was  often  baptized  into  suffering  and  death ; 
that  he  might  be  prepared  to  visit  the  oppressed  Seed,  to  par- 
take, in  his  measure,  of  the  afflictions  to  be  filled  up  for  the 
body's  sake,  which  is  the  Church,  and  to  experience  in  himself 
the  work  of  sanctification,  and  the  renewings  of  that  life  which 
is  hid  with  Christ  in  God. 

He  shows  that  he  knew  what  it  was,  to  be  often  clothed  with 
an  humbling  sense  of  his  frailty  and  his  inability,  as  a  man, 
fbr  any  good  word  or  work ;  that  he  felt  the  necessity  of  keep- 
ing constantly  on  the  watch,  lest  he  should  be  betrayed  into 
trusting  in  anything  belonging  to  himself,  and  to  seek  for  that 
Divine  anointing,  which  alone  could  fit  him  for  the  position  he 
occupied  in  the  Church,  and  to  engage  in  the  work  assigned  him. 

But  while  a  correct  estimate  of  his  religious  character  may 
be  drawn  from  the  record  made  by  his  own  pen,  it  may  not  be 
inappropriate  to  add  a  few  words,  to  enable  the  reader  to  form 
some  correct  appreciation  of  his  natural  endowments,  and  his 
bearing  in  the  domestic  and  social  circles  in  which  he  moved. 


IV  PREFACE. 

He  possessed  good  mental  abilities,  and  though  his  scholastic 
education  was  not  equal,  in  some  respects,  to  that  now  provided 
for  the  children  of  Friends,  yet  hia  quick  perception,  his  habits 
of  accurate  observation  and  correct  reasoning,  together  with  a 
fondness  for  instructive  reading,  enabled  him  to  store  his  mind 
with  a  fund  of  sound  knowledge,  that  rendered  his  conversation 
interesting  and  profitable.  With  warm,  natural  affection  for  his 
family  and  other  connections,  he  attached  them  moi-e  strongly 
to  himself  by  kindness  and  manifest  interest  in  their  welfare, 
than  by  the  ties  of  consanguinity.  Though  he  speaks  of  being 
often  cast  down  and  distressed,  on  account  of  the  state  of  the 
professing  Church,  yet  such  was  his  care  to  wash  and  anoint, 
so  as  not  to  appear  unto  men  to  fast,  that  there  were  few  who 
more  generally  maintained  a  chastened  cheerfulness,  or  whose 
deportment  was  more  free  from  repulsive  reserve.  His  manner 
was  genial,  and  marked  by  simplicity  and  sincerity ;  and  social 
intercourse,  however  diversified,  soon  revealed,  that  the  sub- 
jects which  lay  nearest  to  his  heart,  were  the  work  of  salvation, 
and  the  spread  of  the  Hedeemer's  kingdom. 

His  ministry  was  fervent,  forcible  and  fluent ;  manifesting 
concern  to  reach  the  Witness  for  Truth  in  the  hearts  of  his 
hearers,  rather  than  to  convince  by  argument,  or  please  by  elo- 
quence ;  and  while  his  Christian  love  embraced  those  of  every 
denomination,  who  loved  the  Lord  Jesus  in  sincerity,  it  flowed 
pre-eminently  to  his  fellow  members  in  the  Society  of  Friends, 
whose  religious  growth  and  stability  were  objects  of  his  deepest 
solicitude ;  to  promote  which,  he  was  ever  ready  to  spend  and 
be  spent. 

Charles  Evans. 

Philadelphia,  Tenth  month,  1870. 


The  Journal  having  been  examined  by  a  Committee  of  the 
Meeting  for  Sufi'eriugs,  its  publication  was  approved  by  that 
meeting. 


JOURNAL. 


CHAPTEE    I. 

1787—1813. 


Introduction — Parentage  and  Birth — School  days — Apprcnticesliip— Divine 
Visitation — Keligious  Exercises — Notices  of  eminent  Ministers — Views  of 
the  Church — Excursions  from  the  City — Experience  respecting  true  Faith- 
Enters  into  Busmess — Scruples  respecting  extensive  Trade — Divine  promise 
of  a  Sufficiency — Marriage — Keflections  on  visits  to  Watering  Places — Visit 
from  Susanna  Home  and  T.  Scattergood— War  with  Great  Britain— Accom- 
panies his  Mother  to  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting. 

For  the  purpose  of  commemorating  the  mercy  and  goodness 
of  God  extended  to  me  from  early  life,  and  to  encourage  others 
to  yield  to  the  visitations  and  convictions  of  his  Holy  Spirit,  that 
through  obedience  thereto  the  kingdom  of  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ 
may  spread  and  prevail,  I  have  believed  it  right  from  time  to  time, 
to  preserve  memorandums  of  his  dealings  with  me,  and  to  leave 
them  as  a  testimony  to  his  unfailing  goodness  and  faithfulness  to 
the  children  of  men  who  love,  serve,  honor  and  put  their  trust  in 
Him  alone.  And  especially  that  my  dear  children,  should  they 
survive  me,  may  be  drawn  more  and  more  to  dedicate  themselves 
to  the  God  of  their  fathers,  and  walking  in  the  Truth  all  the  days 
of  their  lives,  become  instrumental  in  the  divine  hand,  in  hold- 
ing up  toothers  the  purity  and  spirituality  of  the  religion  of  the 
Lord  Jesus,  as  He,  by  his  Holy  Spirit,  revealed  it  to  the  holy 
Apostles,  and  to  those  whom  He  made  ministers  and  promulgators 
of  it  at  the  rise  of  our  religious  Society.  1  believe  that  George 
Fox,  Eobert  Barclay,  Isaac  Penington,  William  Penn,  George 
"Whitehead,  and  many  others,  were  divinely  prepared  and  anoint- 
ed by  Christ  Jesus,  the  minister  of  the  sanctuary  and  true  taber- 
nacle which  God  hath  pitched  and  not  man,  for  reviving  and  ef- 
fectually preaching  the  same  gospel  of  life  and  salvation,  in  its 
original  purity  and  clearness,  which  had  been  much  lost  sight  of 
through  a  long  night  of  apostacy.  And  though  the  spirit  of 
2  (5) 


6  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

anti-Christ,  and  sorao,  who  are  more  or  less  darkened  and  dehid- 
ed  by  it,  may  seek  to  obscure  the  spiritual  nature  of  the  gospel, 
as  professed  from  the  beginning  by  Friends,  yet  a  blast  will  be 
bi^ought  over  all  such  attempts  in  the  Lord's  time,  and  He  will 
raise  up  from  generation  to  generation,  living  witnesses  of  the 
power  and  coming  of  the  Lord  Jesus  in  his  spiritual  appearance 
in  the  souls  of  his  children — who,  as  they  are  faithful  in  the  day 
of  small  things  to  the  unfoldings  of  his  Spirit,  will  be  qualified 
in  living  faith  to  call  Jesus,  Lord  and  Saviour,  both  from  what 
they  have  experienced  of  his  redeeming  power  in  their  hearts, 
and  from  a  true  and  certain  belief  of  all  the  doctrines  and  pre- 
cepts of  the  gospel  as  recorded  in  the  Holy  Scriptures. 


M}' beloved  and  honored  parents,  Jonathan  and  Hannah  Evans, 
were  true  believers  in  these  doctrines,  and  their  lives  and  conver- 
sation were  consistent  therewith.  Walking  in  the  simplicity  and 
uprightness  which  the  Truth  leads  into,  they  became  bright  ex- 
amples in  the  church  of  Christ,  and  growing  from  stature  to  sta- 
ture, were  made  pillars  in  the  Lord's  house,  that  went  no  more  out. 

1  w^as  born  in  Philadelphia,  on  the  5th  of  the  Tenth  month, 
1787,  and  at  a  suitable  age  was  placed  at  a  school  under  the  care 
of  a  member  of  the  Monthly  Meeting  to  which  I  belonged.  I 
soon  contracted  a  strong  fondness  for  liberty  and  pla3^  in  the 
streets  with  my  school-fellows,  with  some  of  whom  as  I  grew 
in  years,  I  was  at  times  involved  in  childish  disputes,  more  ex- 
cited by  rude  boys,  who  delighted  to  urge  a  Quaker  child  into 
broils,  than  from  any  fondness  myself  for  such  collision — 
though  I  felt  a  strong  disinclination  to  submit  to  imposition. 
I  underwent  much  persecution  in  the  street  on  account  of  a 
plain  dress,  an  aversion  to  which  increased  with  age.  My 
mother  watched  over  us  with  affectionate  and  religious  solici- 
tude, taking  suitable  opportunities  to  induce  serious  reflection, 
telling  us  that  our  Heavenly  Father  saw  us  wherever  we  were 
and  knew  all  that  wo  did — that  He  was  displeased  when  we 
did  wrong,  and  that  there  was  a  place  of  everlasting  punish- 
ment if  we  died  in  sin — but  on  the  contrary.  He  would  continue 
to  love  us  if  we  did  right,  and  receive  us  into  heaven  if  we  thus 
lived  and  died  in  his  favor.  But  she  did  not  adopt  the  modern 
system,  relying  entirely  u])on  reasoning  with  the  children  to 
convince  their  understanding,  but  at  times  resorted  to  correc- 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  7 

tion  to  sujjport  authority  and  procure  submission  to  her  dic- 
tates. 

Keeping  to  the  truth  and  strict  integrity  were  early  incul- 
cated and  enforced,  any  departure  from  which  brought  distress 
over  me. 

Disinclination  to  restraint  increased  with  years,  and  condem- 
nation for  sin  rendered  serious  things  and  the  society  of  religi- 
ous people  irksome  to  me,  I  sought  the  company  of  those 
whose  passions  and  propensities  were  unsubjected,  and  took 
more  satisfaction  in  their  conversation  than  in  the  sobriety  and 
reserve  of  the  lovers  of  the  cross.  By  such  means  corruption 
strengthened,  the  innocency  of  childhood  was  tarnished,  and 
my  carnal  appetites  began  to  seek  indulgences  totally  at  vari- 
ance with  purity  of  heart,  and  that  life  which  my  parents  earn- 
estly labored  to  inculcate  and  keep  their  children  in. 

In  the  year  1798,  one  of  my  brothers  and  myself  were  sent 
to  the  country  for  the  school  vacation,  to  board  with  Philip  and 
Hannah  Price,  in  Kingsessing  township,  where  we  remained 
till  the  yellow  fever  appeared  in  the  city.  Their  son's  family 
moving  out  there,  we  were  taken  to  Darby  and  placed  at  school. 
This  was  a  sorrowful  change  to  us — among  strangers  and  in  a 
family  which  seemed  to  have  little  interest  in  us.  We  felt  keenly 
the  separation  from  our  parents,  and  those  Friends  in  whose 
house  we  had  enjoyed  ourselves,  and  to  whom  we  had  become 
much  attached,  particularly  Hannah  Price,  who  had  been  very 
kind  and  attentive  to  us.  Those  feelings  of  sadness  eventually 
subsided  in  a  measure,  and  some  persons  coming  into  the  family 
not  very  proper  for  us  to  associate  with,  I  sought  for  gratifica- 
tion in  their  society,  which  was  far  from  contributing  to  my 
benefit,  and  thereby  the  way  was  opened  to  temptation  and  in- 
creased insensibility.  Being  from  under  the  care  of  my  parents, 
who  did  not  leave  the  city  for  several  weeks,  and  released  from 
the  restraint  which  their  example  and  presence  often  inspired, 
I  indulged  in  light  and  loose  conversation,  for  which  1  was 
brought  under  condemnation,  and  would  have  been  ashamed 
they  should  have  been  apprised  of. 

It  was  a  time  of  awful  calamity  in  Philadelphia;  many  fled 
to  the  country,  which  made  it  difficult  to  procure  accommoda- 
tions, and  as  soon  as  it  could  be  efi:ected  our  family  removed  from 
the  city  into  Upper  Darby,  where  several  of  them  were  taken 
sick  with  the  fever.     This  kept  my  brother  and  myself  away 


8  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

from  them  longer  than  they  desired.  It  is,  however,  very  im- 
portant to  place  children,  when  sent  from  home,  with  religious 
caretakers,  who  feel  the  obligation  to  watch  over  their  morals, 
and  to  guard  them  from  the  contaminating  influence  of  de- 
praved domestics  or  persons  hired  as  laborers,  who  have  had 
little  care  bestowed  upon  their  bringing  up,  and  are  not  under 
the  government  of  religious  principles.  We  did  not  return 
to  the  city  until  late  in  the  fall,  after  frost  and  snow;  the  ma- 
lignancy of  the  fever  rendering  it  unsafe  for  those  who  had  been 
inhaling  a  pure  atmosphere,  to  return  before  a  thorough  change 
had  been  effected  by  frost. 

In  the  Fifth  month,  1799.  the  boarding  school  at  "Westtown, 
instituted  by  our  Yearly  Meeting,  was  opened  for  the  reception 
of  scholars,  and  I  was  one  of  the  first  twenty  admitted  there, 
my  brother  Joseph  also  remaining  a  few  months.  It  was  quite  a 
novel  scene,  and  required  time  before  a  proper  system  of  order 
and  government  was  established.  Everything  seemed  in  a  crude 
state ;  the  yards  not  laid  out  and  regulated,  shavings  and  chips 
from  the  hewed  timber  and  the  shingles,  the  woods  grown  up 
very  thick  with  bushes,  so  that  it  was  difficult  to  get  through 
them,  all  contributed  to  give  the  whole  a  rude  appearance.  All 
this  made  work  and  amusement  for  the  boys,  who  employed 
themselves  under  the  supervision  of  the  teachers  in  burning  up 
the  great  beds  of  shavings,  cutting  openings  for  walks  through 
the  woods,  and  making  arbors  with  seats  to  recreate  themselves 
in  during  the  warm  weather. 

The  school  was  frequently  visited  by  the  committee  of  the 
Yearly  Meeting  who  had  the  charge  of  the  institution,  and  by 
ministers  travelling  through  the  country.  Under  their  ministry 
and  sometimes  in  the  silent  meetings,  my  mind  was  brought  to 
contemplate  the  character  of  the  holy  men  of  old  who  served 
God  in  their  generation,  and  sincere  desires  were  sometimes 
felt  that  I  might  become  like  them.  I  was  full  of  activity  in 
the  amusements  and  recreations  which  we  were  allowed,  keep- 
ing pace  with  most  of  my  schoolmates  in  the  studies  pursued 
at  that  early  period  of  the  school,  and  was  quite  contented, 
while  some  indulged  a  fault-finding  disposition.  Sometimes  I 
took  liberties  with  others  in  going  beyond  our  prescribed  bounds, 
but  was  restrained  from  any  very  flagrant  violations  of  order, 
or  joining  the  worst  boys  in  bad  language,  or  a  systematic  do- 
fiance  of  the  authority  of  the  teachers.     On  one  provocation  I 


JOURNAL    OF    "WILLIAM    EVANS.  9 

used  a  bad  expression  resembling  swearing,  which  struck  me 
with  horror. 

Our  anxious  parents  frequently  wrote  us  lettci-s  containing 
excellent  advice,  showing  their  rehgious  concern  for  our  welfare  ; 
of  which  the  following  are  extracts  : 

From  my  mother,  dated  Fifth  month,  21,  1799 : 

"I  hope  my  dear  children  you  do  not  forget  our  anxious  con- 
cern and  solicitude  for  your  good  when  present  with  us,  and  I 
trust  it  hath  not  abated,  but  desires  are  raised  that  the  Lord 
may  be  pleased  to  take  you  under  his  peculiar  care  and  notice, 
and  that  you  may  indeed  be  afraid  to  oifend  Him  in  word  or 
action.  Be  obedient  to  those  who  have  the  care  over  you,  and 
kindly  affectionate  one  to  another.  Endeavor  after  stillness, 
and  remember  the  many  favors  you  receive ;  and  may  the 
reverent  inquiry  of  your  minds  be,  AVhat  shall  I  render  unto  the 
Lord  for  all  his  blessings  ?  Your  dear  father  set  off  this  morn- 
ing with  Euth  A.  Eutter  and  Sarah  Cresson  to  Ehode  Island, 
and  as  he  had  not  time  to  write,  desired  his  love  to  be  remem- 
bered to  you,  and  that  you  would  let  us  hear  from  you  as  often 
as  you  can. 

"  With  desires  for  your  preservation  in  the  innocency  and 
simplicity  of  the  Truth  I  conclude. 

"  Your  affectionate  mother, 

"Hannah  Evans." 

After  my  beloved  father's  return  from  his  journey  with  E.  A. 
Eutter  and  S.  Cresson,  he  wrote  us  frequently — from  one  of  his 
letters  the  following  is  taken  : — 

Philadelpliia,  19th  of  Second  month,  1800. 
My  Dear  Children  : — I  have  been  much  concerned  on  your 
account  for  some  time  past,  understanding  several  of  the  boys 
had  given  a  great  deal  of  trouble  to  those  who  had  the  care  of 
them ;  and  though  I  could  scarcely  think  either  of  you  were  of 
the  number,  yet  not  hearing  anything  particular,  my  mind  was 
made  very  uneasy,  but  I  hope  better  things  of  you.  And  if  at 
any  time  you  feel  any  disquietude  of  mind,  be  patient  and 
endeavor  to  bear  your  trials  in  meekness,  looking  with  reverent 
confidence  to  your  great  Creator,  who  compassionately  regards 
every  sigh  and  tear  of  the  sincere  in  heart ;  whether  they  be 
children  or  more  advanced  in  years.     But  then  we  must  also  at 


10  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

all  times  strive  to  conduct  so  as  not  to  grieve  his  Holy  Spirit  in 

our  hearts,  which  is  a  continual  witness   against  every  evil 

thought,   word   or   action.      Let    your  innocent,   circumspect 

deportment  be  observed  by  all;  join  not  with  any  in  the  least 

evil,  but  let  the  fear  of  the  Lord  be  ever  present  with  you,  and 

that  will  keep  you  harmless,  and  make  you  dear  unto  Him  and 

to  all  good  people. 

*  *  ^  ■*  *  * 

Your  mother  joins  me  in  near  love  to  you  both,  desiring  your 
welfare  every  way.        Your  loving  father, 

JoNA.  Evans. 

Philadelphia,  21st  of  Ninth  month,  1800. 
Dear  Children  : — Feeling  desirous  at  all  times  you  may  do 
well,  I  cannot  but  endeavor  to  revive  in  your  remembrance  the 
necessity  of  attending  with  all  diligence,  to  the  small,  gentle 
intimations  and  reproofs  of  the  Holy  Spirit  of  Truth  in  your 
own  minds.  Keep  near  to  its  blessed  instructions  at  all  times, 
and  it  will  preserve  in  every  season  of  trial  and  difficulty,  and 
as  an  inexhaustible  fountain,  sustain  your  little  minds  when 
depressed  with  anxious  thoughts  or  discouraging  fears.  This  is 
the  alone  way  to  happiness  here  or  blessedness  hereafter.  For 
in  obedience  to  this  light  in  our  minds,  we  are  brought  to  love 
the  Lord  our  most  gracious  Eedeemor  above  jjll,  and  by  Him 
are  regarded  as  his  children,  which  is  treasure  indeed,  that 
raises  the  spirit  above  earthly  pleasures,  to  a  sense  of  the  un- 
speakable comforts  in  the  regions  of  immortal  bliss.  Here,  in 
this  state  the  fear  of  death  is  taken  aAvay,  because  we  know 
that  in  the  presence  of  the  Lord  there  is  life,  and  as  we  are  kept 
near  him,  nothing  can  hurt  us.  Now,  my  dear  children,  let  me 
earnestly  entreat  you,  to  mind  the  reproofs  which  you  feel  for 
doing  wrong;  this  is  the  Spirit  of  Truth  I  have  been  speaking 
of,  and  as  you  carefully  attend  to  it,  it  "will  lead  into  all  truth — 
you  will  fear  to  offend  by  a  repetition  of  those  things,  for  which 
you  have  been  reproved.  It  penetrates  through  every  cover- 
ing, and  no  dissimulation  can  possibly  escape  its  all-searching 
jiower.  "Whenever  through  unwat<3hfulnes3  you  have  given 
way  to  temptation,  and  by  the  merciful  calls  of  this  holy  teacher, 
you  become  sensible  of  it,  retire  alone,  and  endeavor  to  get  your 
minds  drawn  from  every  outward  thing,  to  a  reverential  waiting 
upon  your  Holy  Creator  for  a  renewal  of  his  light  and  grace 
upon  you,  that  you  may  be  strengthened  to  resist  the  enemy  of 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS.  11 

all  good  in  his  future  attempts ;  aud  be  sure  to  avoid  those 
things  that  have  thus  beguiled  you,  and  brought  distress  upon 
the  tender  mind;  for  in  this  "watchful  state  your  minds  will 
often  be  tendered,  and  at  times  sincere  petitions  will  ascend  for 

preservation,  and  support  in  this  world  of  vanity  and  trouble. 

*  *  *  *  *  * 

Your  affectionate  father,  Jona.  Evans. 

Philadelphia,  Fifth  month  Gth,  1801. 

Dear  Child: — I  received  thy  letter  dated  4th  inst.,  and  was 
glad  to  hear  of  thyself  and  sister  being  in  health,  which  is  a 
blessing  among  the  many  received,  we  ought  to  be  thankful  for. 
Indeed,  many  ai'e  the  obligations  we  are  under  to  that  bountiful 
hand  from  whence  all  our  blessings  flow.  Let  us  then  evince 
our  gratitude  by  endeavoring  to  love  Him  above  all,  and  then 
we  shall  be  afraid  to  offend  Him  in  thought,  word  or  deed.  My 
dear  child,  I  feel  anxious  for  thy  preservation,  and  desire  thou 
may  be  careful  to  associate  with  such  of  thy  school-mates,  as 
are  most  seriously  inclined ;  and  be  sure  not  to  do  anything,  in 
the  absence  of  those  who  have  the  care  over  thee,  that  thou 
wouldst  be  afraid  they  should  know,  or  that  would  in  any 
degree  wound  thy  own  mind.  Learn  to  love  silence ;  and  seek 
for  strength,  that  thou  may  be  preserved  in  time  of  temptation. 

With  love  to  thyself  and  sister,  conclude  thy  affectionate 
mother,  Hannah  Evans, 

My  brother  had  been  taken  from  the  school  at  this  time  on 
account  of  his  health,  and  one  of  my  sisters  introduced  there — 
The  above  letter,  expressive  of  the  best  wishes  of  an  anxious 
and  affectionate  mother,  was  addressed  to  me,  but  at  that  time 
I  was  too  full  of  my  own  plans  for  recreation  and  enjoyment,  to 
give  that  heed  to  such  solicitude  for  a  wild  son,  as  I  ought  to 
have  done,  yet  I  have  no  doubt  these  admonitions  had  a  restrain- 
ing influence,  and  at  times  tended  to  bring  me  to  some  serious 
reflection. 

In  the  Second  month  of  1802,  being  then  a  little  over  fourteen 
years  of  age,  I  was  removed  from  the  school,  having  been  there 
about  two  yeai'S  and  nine  months,  and  being  rather  young  to  be 
placed  an  apprentice,  my  fixther  got  me  into  the  counting-house 
of  two. Friends,  in  the  flour  business,  in  order  to  acquire  some 
knowledge  of  book-keeping.     Their  store  was  on  the  wharf,  and 


12  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

when  tliei-e  was  nothing  urgent  in  the  business,  my  inclination 
led  me  into  the  company  of  persons  in  the  neighborhood  whose 
sentiments  and  halnts  w^ere  not  congenial  with  a  religious  life  ; 
and  thus  hud  it  not  been  for  the  mercy  of  my  Heavenly  Father, 
I  was  in  great  danger  of  entering  rapidly  the  broad  way  to 
destruction.  The  yellow  fever  again  appeared  in  the  city  this 
summer,  and  after  leaving  the  store  on  that  account,  I  did  not 
return  to  it,  but  in  the  fall  of  the  year  1802,  w^as  apprenticed  to 
a  Friend  to  learn  the  drug  business.  Being  introduced  to  a 
strange  family  and  business,  I  endured  new  difficulties.  It  was 
the  business  of  my  choice,  but  after  the  novelty  had  in  measure 
subsided,  I  began  to  question  whether  I  had  made  a  proper 
selection,  and  for  a  while  felt  unsettled  ;  but  reflecting  that  it  was 
done  after  some  deliberation,  and  that  if  I  left  it  for  any  other, 
I  might  find  the  same  difficulty  to  contend  wuth,  I  concluded  to 
endeavor  to  make  myself  satisfied,  hoping  that  1  should  find  it 
:is  suitable  as  any  other  I  could  adopt,  and  accordingly  applied 
myself  to  the  business  and  the  interests  of  my  master,  as  well  as 
I  was  capable. 

In  my  new  situation  I  had  many  temptations  to  war  with 
from  within  and  without.  The  business  of  a  store  that  w^as 
much  frequented,  subjected  me  to  intercourse  with  those  who 
knew  little  or  nothing  of  the  work  of  religion,  and  a  volatile, 
active  spirit  often  led  me  from  under  the  cross  into  converse 
with  such,  by  which  I  suflFered  loss.  I  was  much  separated  from 
the  care  of  anxious  and  exercised  parents,  and  though  I  was 
afraid  of  close  intimacy  with  young  persons  who  were  of  a 
libertine  class,  yet  more  or  less  I  was  drawn  into  the  company 
of  two  of  them  residing  near  the  store,  but  their  wdcked  habits 
and  conversation  created  a  dread  in  me  of  being  joined  to  and 
carried  into  their  depraved  practices.  One  fine  winter  evening, 
my  master's  sleigh  and  horses  having  been  out,  he  told  the 
apprentices  we  might  take  a  ride,  and  accordingly  with  one  of 
these  young  men,  we  set  off,  and  rode  out  a  few"  miles  to  the 
l>ank  of  the  Schuylkill,  where  this  young  man  proj)osed  we 
should  go  into  a  tavern  and  get  something  to  drink.  This  w^as 
a  new  proposition  to  me,  upon  which  I  hesitated — having  never 
been  accustomed  to  go  to  taverns,  or  di'ink  anything  like  ardent 
spirits.  We  got  out  of  the  sleigh,  but  I  did  not  move  from,  the 
side  of  it,  and  while  hesitating,  the  countenance  of  my  father 
presented  to  my  view,  as  though  he   had  suddenly  appeared 


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before  me,  which  immediately  conveyed  the  idea  of  disapproba- 
tion, and  I  gave  my  voice  against  going  into  the  tavern,  and  we 
accordingly  resumed  our  seats  and  rode  home.  This  was  an 
evidence  of  the  watchful  care  of  the  unslumbering  Shepherd  of 
the  sheep,  in  bringing  to  my  mind  the  conviction,  that  were  my 
father  present  I  would  not  dare  to  go  into  such  a  place,  and 
further  shows  the  importance  of  the  circumspect  deportment  of 
parents  before  their  children,  and  of  the  application  of  salutary 
restraint  towards  them. 

Notwithstanding  I  had  been  thus  far  carefully  educated  and 
watched  over  by  my  parents,  attended  steadily  the  meetings  for 
worship  to  which  I  belonged,  and  had  been  taught  in  the  prin- 
ples  of  the  Christian  religion  as  set  forth  in  the  New  Testament, 
and  in  the  writings  and  journals  of  Friends  ;  believing  that  Jesus 
Christ  was  the  Saviour  of  the  world,  that  He  died  for  all  man- 
kind, and  would  save  all  who  were  obedient  to  Him  ;  that  my 
Heavenly  Father  who  is  almighty,  saw  me  wherever  I  was  and 
every  thought  and  every  action  that  I  did,  and  by  his  Holy 
Spirit  in  the  heart  convicted  me  for  sin,  bringing  me  under  the 
fear  of  death  and  everlasting  torment,  but  gave  peace  whenever 
I  resisted  temptation  and  did  right;  yet  so  far  as  I  can  remem- 
ber, I  had  never  yet  had  a  full  sense  of  my  lost  condition,  and 
the  necessity  of  an  entire  change  of  heart,  in  order  that  I  might 
be  brought  into  his  favor,  and  sanctified  so  as  to  be  fitted  for 
spiritual  communion  with  Him.  My  father  frequently  read  the 
Bible  to  us,  as  well  as  other  religious  books,  particularly  on 
First-day.  One  evening  when  collected  for  that  purpose,  I  read 
to  the  family  William  Leddra's  epistle,  written  the  day  before 
he  was  executed.  It  had  a  very  powerful  effect  on  me,  tender- 
ing my  heart  in  an  unusual  degree,  and  bringing  me  to  trem- 
bling; under  which  I  was  favored  with  an  extraordinary 
visitation  of  heavenly  love,  producing  a  sense  of  my  sinful, 
impure  condition,  and  fervent  desires  after  holiness — that  I 
might  become  changed,  and  hereafter  live  a  life  of  acceptance 
with  my  Heavenly  Father.  I  had  never  had  the  same  view  of 
myself,  nor  felt  the  same  willingness  and  desire  to  dedicate 
myself  to  Him  as  at  that  time.  The  savor  of  it  continued  many 
days.  The  light  of  Christ  shone  clearly  into  my  heai%  showing 
me  that  many  of  my  habits  were  contrary  to  the  Divine  purity 
and  must  be  abandoned — that  many  of  my  words  were  light 
and  unsavory,  and  a  guard  must  be  placed  at  the  door  of  my 


14  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

lips.  Love  flowed  in  1113-  heart  towards  my  gracious  Almiglity 
Parent  pre-eminently,  and  then  towards  all  men  as  brethren 
and  creatures  of  the  same  all-powerful  hand.  I  deaircd  above 
all  things  to  be  with  Jesus,  and  to  know  Him  to  continue  with 
me,  and  at  that  time  it  seemed  as  if  He  did  condescend  to  mani- 
fest himself  in  a  clear  manner,  so  that  his  countenance  was 
lovely,  and  I  walked  under  his  guidance  and  protection  with 
great  delight.  It  was  the  baptism  unto  repentance,  the  day  of 
my  espousals— the  beginning  of  a  new  life;  and  while  favored 
with  these  heavenly  feelings,  I  thought  nothing  would  be  too 
hard  to  part  with  in  ol)edience  to  the  will  of  my  Saviour. 

From  this  time  1  began  to  love  retirement  and  serious  medi- 
tation, and  to  present  myself  in  the  presence  of  the  Lord  to 
partake  of  his  favor,  and  know  my  strength  from  time  to  time 
renewed.  I  felt  more  than  ever  bound  to  be  faithful  to  my 
master  in  all  things,  both  in  the  performance  of  the  duties  of 
the  station,  and  in  taking  care  of  his  property  and  the  interests 
of  the  business ;  appropriating  nothing  to  my  own  use  that  did 
not  belong  to  me.  To  do  justly  and  faithfully  in  all  things  as 
in  the  Divine  sight,  was  one  of  the  earliest  requisitions.  If  I 
accidentally  broke  anything  of  value,  I  was  not  easy  to  conceal 
it  from  him,  though  sometimes  it  was  a  trial  to  tell  him  of  it, 
but  when  I  did  inform  him  under  feelings  of  regret,  it  seemed 
to  disarm  him  from  blaming  me. 

The  heavenly  visitation  which  I  have  described  was  like  the 
baptism  of  love  unto  repentance,  in  which  I  felt  confident,  like 
Peter,  of  adhering  closely  to  the  Master,  though  others  might 
forsake  Him.  He  knew  when  it  was  proper  to  withdraw  those 
sensible  manifestations  of  his  presence  and  support  under  which 
I  was  forming  such  conclusions,  and  when  the  dispensation  was 
changed,  and  no  comeliness  could  bo  seen  in  Him  or  in  myself, 
I  soon  found  that  my  constancy  would  bo  easilj^  shaken. 
There  was  a  wilderness  travel  to  pass  through,  in  wdiich  1  Avas 
to  feel  the  strength  of  my  evil  propensities,  and  the  subtlety 
and  power  of  Satan  as  I  never  yet  had  witnessed.  The  change 
was  hard  to  endure,  and  though  I  strove  for  a  time  to  maintain 
the  ground  I  had  taken,  yet  being  assailed  again  and  again 
with  temptation,  and  looking  at  it  instead  of  looking  towards 
Him,  who  alone  could  preserve  mo,  I  let  go  my  faith  in  his 
unfailing  regard,  concluded  I  might  as  well  gratify  myself  this 
once,  and  when  I  had  yielded,  distress  came,  upon  mo.     Having 


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cast  away  my  shield,  I  felt  like  a  poor  fallen  creature,  unwor- 
thy of -Divine  notice,  and  not  likely  to  be  again  favored  with  it. 
Shut  up  in  darkness  the  tempter  vaunted  over  me,  and  sug- 
gested that  it  was  not  worth  while  for  me  to  attempt  to  walk 
in  the  narrow  way,  that  I  wpuld  not  be  able  to  resist  and  con- 
trol my  passions  and  inclinations,  and  therefore  might  as  well 
continue  to  indulge  them. 

To  be  thus  overcome  at  the  commencement  of  the  warfare, 
and  so  soon  deprived  of  those  heavenly  sensations  which  I  had 
enjoyed  in  the  presence  and  company  of  the  Deliverer  of  the 
captive  soul,  filled  me  with  sadness,  and  I  went  mourning  on 
my  way.  Divine  displeasure  was  administered,  but  in  the 
midst  of  judgment,  the  Lord  remembered  mercy,  and  through 
the  operation  of  his  blessed  Spirit,  brought  me  again  into  ten- 
derness of  heart,  and  I  was  humbled  under  a  sense  of  my  un- 
worthiness  of  his  condescension  and  love  towai'ds  such  a  poor 
rebellious  creature. 

I  was  educated  in  the  belief  that  divine  worship  was  per- 
formed in  spirit  and  in  truth,  and  that  the  qualification  for  this 
essential  duty  was  to  be  waited  for  in  the  silence  of  all  flesh. 
When  in  meeting  I  endeavored  to  have  mj  mind  gathered  from 
all  visible  things,  and  at  times  was  favored  with  the  presence 
of  the  Shepherd  and  Bishop  of  souls,  who  is  in  the  midst  of 
those  who  arc  met  together  in  his  name,  sometimes  tendering 
my  spirit  with  his  goodness,  and  at  others  instructing  me  in 
those  things  which  pertain  to  salvation ;  and  I  felt  it  to  be  a  re- 
ligious duty  diligently  to  attend  all  the  meetings  to  which  I 
belonged  as  they  came  in  course. 

My  father's  house  was  visited  by  many  of  the  most  substan- 
tial Friends,  of  whose  company  I  was  glad,  and  was  interested 
and  instructed  by  their  solid  conversation,  and  sometimes  by 
religious  opportunities  in  the  family.  Thomas  Scattergood, 
whose  first  wife  was  a  sister  of  my  mother,  frequently  visited 
us,  and  having  a  peculiar  gift  for  entering  into  the  condition  of 
others,  he  mostly  had  a  word  of  counsel  or  encouragement  to 
the  children. 

Having  never  been  accustomed  to  keep  much  company,  and 
believing  that  a  retired  life  was  best  for  me,  I  contracted  very 
little  intimacy,  excepting  with  one  or  two  persons  of  a  serious 
character.  Our  business  required  attention  until  10  o'clock  in 
the  evening,  and  when  it  was  my  turn  to  be  at  the  store  at 


16  JOURNAL   OF   AVILLIAM    EVANS. 

night,  if  the  buj>iuess  admitted  of  it,  I  passed  the  time  in  medi- 
tation, and  reading  religious,  historical  or  scientific  works.  I 
had  frequent  conversation  on  points  of  doctrine  with  an  orderly 
young  man,  a  methodist,  apprenticed  in  the  neighborhood  to 
the  same  business,  and  a  few  times  accompanied  him  to  their 
meeting,  out  of  curiosity  to  observe  their  mode  of  woi-ship ;  but 
I  never  saw  anything  among  them  that  attracted  me,  or  pro- 
duced any  dissatisfaction  with  my  own  religious  profession. 
On  the  contrary,  in  some  of  their  prayer  meetings,  the  passions 
appeared  to  be  much  excited,  and  their  efforts  to  convert  per- 
sons from  their  evil  ways,  that  they  might  "  get  religion,"  as 
they  call  it,  seemed  to  operate  much  through  the  nervous  system. 
Familiar  association  with  other  pi'ofessors,  or  attending  their 
meetings,  appears  to  me  quite  improper  for  the  members  of  our 
Society.  Those  whose  feelings  are  lively  may  be  caught  by  the 
excitement,  and  receive  a  bias  which  may  unsettle  them  a  long 
time,  perhaps  thi'ough  life.  If  we  keep  to  our  divine  Lord  and 
Master,  lie  will  instruct  us  in  the  mysteries  of  his  kingdom,  and 
nourish  with  the  bread  and  water  of  life  which  He  gives,  by 
which  the  inner  man  will  be  strengthened,  and  the  soul  made 
wiser  than  all  teachers  who  are  acting  in  their  own  spirit. 
"  He  that  drinketh  of  this  water  shall  thirst  again,  but  he  that 
drinketh  of  the  water  that  I  shall  give  him,"  said  Christ,  "shall 
never  thirst,  but  it  shall  be  in  him  a  well  of  water  springing 
up  unto  evei'lasting  life." 

I  had  now  put  my  hand  to  the  plough,  and  hoped  never  to  look 
back  again  into  the  condition  I  was  once  in ;  but  a  long  fight 
of  affiiction  was  passed  through,  before  1  was  in  any  good  de- 
gree brought  from  under  the  bonds  of  corruption.  Refraining 
froin  company,  tended  to  keep  me  out  of  the  way  of  the  gross 
evils  which  abound  in  populous  cities,  yet  for  want  of  watch- 
fulness and  close  obedience  to  the  will  of  my  Heavenly  Father, 
I  was  often  overcome  by  temptation,  which  brought  great  dis- 
tress upon  me.  In  my  trouble  I  looked  towards  Him  whom  I 
had  offended,  and  in  mercy  He  would  bring  me  up  out  of  the 
pit  and  put  a  new  song  of  thanksgiving  into  my  heart.  These 
seasons  of  rejoicing  were  succeeded  by  feelings  of  great  strip- 
pedness,  and  instead  of  keeping  the  faith  and  patiently  waiting 
for  the  appearance  of  my  Lord,  I  was  too  easily  drawn  aside 
again  by  a  light  and  frothy  spirit,  and  received  fresh  wounds 
from  my  enemy.     He  seemed  to  rejoice  over  me,  and  suggested 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  17 

that  it  was  impossible  for  me  to  overcome,  which  I  was  sometimes 
ready  to  fear  would  be  the  case ;  yet  through  all  my  combats, 
the  power  of  darkness  over  me,  and  the  strength  of  my  pro- 
pensities to  evil,  gradually  diminished.  I  frequently  walked 
into  solitary  places,  either  for  the  purpose  of  meditation  or  to 
bemoan  my  condition,  and  one  dark  night  in  the  skirts  of  the 
city,  where  no  sound  was  heard  but  the  howling  of  some  dogs, 
I  thought  the  state  of  my  mind  bore  a  strong  resemblance  to 
the  darkness  of  the  night  and  the  doleful  noise  of  those  crea- 
tures. When  I  was  thus  plunged,  and  endeavored  to  bear  it 
patiently  and  steadfastly.  He  whose  tender  mercies  are  over  all 
his  works,  again  appeared  in  the  needful  time  with  healing  in 
his  wings,  and  then  I  rejoiced  in  his  judgments  as  well  as  his 
mercies,  and  would  be  thankful  that  I  had  endured  instead  of 
seeking  relief  in  a  wrong  way. 

At  one  time  when  I  was  passing  through  much  mental  con- 
flict, an  impression  was  distinctly  made  upon  my  mind  that  at 
a  certain  period  I  should  be  favored  with  a  renewed  visitation. 
It  was  a  season  of  great  trial  to  Friends  of  this  city,  in  which  I 
partook  very  keenly  according  to  my  capacity;  and  when  it  had 
in  some  measure  passed  over,  a  divine  visitation  was  extended 
to  me  of  the  most  remarkable  character  I  had  yet  experienced; 
in  which  I  saw  in  the  openings  of  divine  light,  the  power  of 
darkness  whence  all  temptation  proceeded,  and  was  also  favored 
to  see  the  power  of  divine  Grace  which  was  over  all,  and  as  it 
is  obeyed,  would  effectually  give  the  victoiy  over  all  sin  to  those 
who  unreservedly  give  themselves  up  to  it.  I  never  had  before 
such  a  clear  and  undoubted  sense  of  the  two  powers  of  light 
and  life,  and  of  death  and  darkness,  and  my  faith  was  strong 
and  unshaken  in  the  unlimited  superiority  of  the  former  over 
the  latter.  But  instead  of  hiding  it  in  my  own  heart  and 
quietly  dwelling  under  its  heavenly  operation,  I  spoke  of  it  too 
freely  to  my  religious  companions,  desirous  that  they  should  see 
it  as  clearly  as  I  did,  and  thereby  talked  it  much  away,  and 
failed  to  partake  of  the  full  benefit  of  the  divine  visitation  as  I 
ought  to  have  done. 

During  my  apprenticeship  there  was  a  large  body  of  substan- 
tial ministers  and  elders  of  extraordinary  gifts  belonging  to  our 
Yearly  Meeting;  and  as  I  made  progress,  though  slowly  and  often 
in  a  halting  way,  in  religious  experience,  my  concern  strength- 
ened to  attend  meetings  for  discipline,  as  well  as  for  worship. 


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Those  large  annual  assemblies,  where  there  was  such  a  concen- 
tration of  giftS;  talents  and  religious  weight,  were  very  interest- 
ing, especially  when  a  concern  for  the  welfare  and  encourage- 
ment of  the  young  members  took  hold  of  them.  George  Dill- 
wyn,  who  reminded  me  of  the  beloved  disciple  that  leaned  on 
Jesus'  bosom,  rarely  forgot  those  who  were  in  difficulty  and 
needed  help,  and  he  was  at  times  very  instructive  in  his  appli- 
cation of  doctrine  to  the  different  states  and  growths,  and  very 
cheering  to  the  youthful  disciple.  The  gravity  with  which 
they  sat  in  those  assemblies,  and  the  solemnity  with  which 
manj"  of  them  delivered  their  sentiments  were  impressive  on 
young  minds,  and  tended  to  inspire  a  love  for  the  religion  which 
produced  such  men,  and  such  fruits,  and  for  the  beauty  and  dig- 
nity of  the  church  and  its  concerns.  Eli  Yarnall  was  remark- 
able for  the  inwardness  of  his  spirit,  his  great  caution  in  speak- 
ing, and  the  peculiar  brightness  of  his  countenance,  reminding 
me  of  Stephen,  of  whom,  it  is  said,  that  all  who  beheld  him, 
"  saw  his  face  as  it  had  been  the  face  of  an  angel." 

Our  Quarterly  Meeting  was  held  in  the  North  house,  in  Key's 
alley.  A  large  number  of  ministers  belonged  to  it ;  and  during 
my  minority  Ann  Alexander  paid  a  religious  visit  to  this 
country,  whose  Gospel  labors  were  evidently  from  a  living 
spring.  At  one  of  these  meetings  she  foretold  in  a  very  im- 
pressive manner  the  reduction  of  the  ministers,  and  the  scarcity 
of  spiritual  food  instrumentally  communicated.  I  concluded 
then  to  treasure  up  the  prediction  for  the  purpose  of  ascertain- 
ing what  dependence  could  be  placed  upon  it — and  it  has  since 
been  fully  and  strikingly  realized.  A  number  in  that  station 
were  in  a  few  years  I'cmoved  by  death,  others  have  fallen  away, 
several  joined  with  the  separation  which  took  place  in  1827, 
and  very  few  in  our  Quarterly  Meeting  have  since  been  raised 
up. 

William  Savery,  a  minister  much  beloved  and  very  decided  in 
his  public  testimony  to  the  divinity,  and  the  various  offices  of 
our  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  died  during  my  apprenticeship.  I  at- 
tended the  Market  street  Meeting  on  the  evening  of  the  25th 
of  the  Twelfth  month  when  he  preached,  appearing  to  be  in  a 
declining  state  of  health,  and  which  I  Ix'licve  was  the  last  time 
he  appeared  in  the  ministry  in  a  pubHc  meeting.  AVhat  made 
the  opportunity  more  impressive  was  his  pallid  countenance, 
and  the  text  with  which   ho  rose,  '*  Abraham  saw  my  day  and 


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was  glad,"  and  which  he  uttered  with  a  heavenly  spirit  and 
solemn  tone  of  voice.  This  was  the  subject  of  all  others  which 
lay  near  his  heart — and  he  was  an  indefatigable  advocate  for 
the  truths  and  the  importance  of  Christianity^ 

Eebecca  Jones,  a  minister  and  mother  in  Israel,  who  had  paid 
a  religious  visit  to  Friends  in  England,  and  was  highly  esteemed 
by  her  contemporaries,  for  religious  experience,  a  sound  judg- 
ment and  spiritual  discernment,  resided  in  this  city,  and  her 
house  was  frequented  by  ministers  and  elders,  and  the  younger 
members  coming  under  the  love  of  the  Truth,  who  sought  the 
benefit  of  her  counsel  and  instructive  conversation.     Her  cir- 
cumstances were  limited — at  one  time  she  kept  a  school  for 
small  children — and  sold  some  books  and  articles  of  dress  worn 
by  females  of  plain  habit.     Among  others  who  visited  her  com- 
pact habitation  in  Brooke's  court,  I  was  one  who  found  the  way 
there,  after  being  brought  under  religious  concern.     She  treated 
her  young  friends  in  a  kind  and  affable  manner,  and  yet  with 
Christian  dignity  and  gravity ;  sometimes  entertaining   them 
with  anecdotes  of  her  early  religious  life,  or  her  travels,  particu- 
larly in  Europe,  having  in  view  the  object  of  drawing  them  into 
a  love  for  the  Truth,  or  strengthening  their  desires  and  resolu- 
tions to  persevere  in  the  good  way  in  which  they  had  commenced 
walking.     She  told  me  that  when  quite  a  young  woman,  after 
the  power  of  Truth  had  taken  hold  of  her  heart,  and  brought 
her  to  seek  for  those  things  which  belong  to  the  everlasting 
welfare  of  the  immortal  soul,  she  was  introduced  to  the  house 
of  Daniel  Stanton,  then  one  of  the  principal  ministers  in  this 
city.     It  was  a  place  of  resort  for  the  young  converts  of  that 
time,  and  deriving  much  help  from  the  society  of  that  valuable 
man,  she  then  concluded  if  she  ever  became  a  housekeeper,  her 
house  should  be   open  to   the   visits  of  persons   seeking  after 
heavenly  treasure.     Her  conclusions  were  realized  to  the  com- 
fort of  many.     In  a  little  religious  communication  one  evening 
to  a  young  Friend  and  myself,  she  gave  us  the  excellent  advice, 
which  had  been  given  to  her  in  early  experience,  "  Keep  near  to 
Truth,  and  the  friends  of  Truth,  and  the  Truth  will  keep  you." 
It  made  a  strong  impression,  and  so  far  I  have  realized  its 
verity,  and  have  had  frequent  occasion  to  hand  it  to  others. 
To  have  such  a  Friend  to  resort  to  when  beset  with  temptation, 
or  closely  tried  with   desertion  and  poverty  of  spirit,  was  a 
great  benefit  to  the  weary,  inexperienced  traveller;  from  whose 


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company  we  sometimes  returned  comforted  and  cheered  to  hold 
on  our  way. 

My  uncle  Thomas  Scattergood's  residence  was  a  house  of 
similar  resort,  where  the  mourner  found  a  deeply  sympathizing 
friend,  and  the  young  soldier  one  who  had  large  experience  in 
the  trials  of  the  spiritual  warfare,  and  who  gladly  seized  the 
opportunity  of  cheering  him  on  to  victory.  Sometimes  when  I 
have  visited  him,  and  would  silently  sit  without  doing  anything 
to  prompt  him  to  conversation, — for  he  passed  much  time  in 
meditation  and  in  communion  with  the  Lord, — he  would  brighten 
up,  and  enter  into  the  subject  which  he  knew  had  taken  hold 
of  my  mind,  and  relate  portions  of  his  own  experience  and 
travels — or  of  the  openings  of  Truth  in  his  mind  relative  to  the 
great  cause  of  universal  righteousness,  and  the  events  passing 
in  Christendom.  He  was  not  only  remarkable  for  the  gift  of 
the  ministry  of  the  gospel  of  life  and  salvation,  but  also  for  the 
spirit  of  prophecy,  with  which  he  was  at  times  clearly  endowed, 
and  under  M'hich  he  often  foi'etold  coming  events ;  being  a  man 
who  lived  in  the  Spirit  and  walked  in  the  Spirit,  and  to  whom 
the  Lord  condescended  to  make  known  his  secrets  relating  to 
the  spiritual  condition  of  others,  and  of  his  works  among  the 
children  of  men.  I  loved  him  much,  and  he  manifested  his 
love  and  interest  for  me,  like  a  tender  father  in  the  Truth. 

As  I  advanced  through  my  apprenticeship,  at  times  deeply 
afflicted  that  I  did  not  gain  that  victory  over  my  jDassions  and 
propensities,  which  I  believed  through  the  grace  of  our  Lord 
Jesus  Christ,  the  obedient  soul  would  attain — at  others  consoled 
with  his  peace  and  the  blessed  hope  that  I  should  eventually 
be  made  a  conqueror,  over  all  the  powers  of  darkness ;  I  w^as 
often  favored  with  clear  views  of  the  condition  of  the  true 
church,  clothed  with  the  sun,  having  the  moon  under  her  feet, 
and  of  the  certainty  that  the  prophecies  would  be  fulfilled  in 
the  Lord's  way  and  time,  when  the  earth  shall  be  filled  with 
the  knowledge  of  the  glory  of  the  Lord,  and  righteousness 
shall  cover  it  as  the  waters  do  the  sea.  It  then  appeared 
clearly  to  me,  that  the  members  of  our  religious  Society  col- 
lected in  the  capacity  of  Yearly,  Quarterly  and  Monthly  Meet- 
ings, ought  individually^,  as  members  of  Christ's  visible  church, 
to  wait  upon  Ilim  for  wisdom,  ability  and  authority,  to  engage 
in  and  to  manage  the  affairs  of  the  church.  That  the  work  is 
the  Lord's  J  that  it  is  his  prerogative  to  select  whom  Ho  will  to 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  21 

take  an  active  part  therein  ;  and  that  such  should  depend  upon 
the  immediate  aid  of  his  Holy  Spirit,  in  the  discharge  of  the 
various  duties,  which  pertain  to  the  oversight  of  the  flock — in 
reclaiming  or  disowning  ti'ansgressors,  and  in  the  general 
administration  of  the  discipline.  Also  that  those  who  were  not 
called  upon  to  take  so  active  a  part  as  some  others,  would  never- 
theless have  their  allotment  of  service,  both  in  a  silent,  sj)iritual 
travail  for  the  prevalence  of  Divine  life  and  power  in  our  meet- 
ings, and  at  times  in  showing  their  unit}'  with  the  judgment 
and  concerns  of  others. 

The  dignified  station  of  a  minister  and  messenger  of  the 
gospel  of  Christ,  for  the  pui'pose  of  gathering  souls  to  Him  and 
exalting  his  name  and  kingdom  among  men,  was  opened  before 
me,  and  I  fully  believed  that  all  who  are  rightly  placed  in  that 
honorable  office,  are  made  ministers  by  Christ  himself;  and  that 
what  they  preach  should  be  from  the  direct  openings  and  com- 
munication of  his  Spirit  in  the  heart,  who  only  knows  when 
his  flock  need  instrumental  helj:),  and  what  is  suited  to  their 
respective  conditions.  These  things  I  was  favored  to  see  in  the 
light  of  the  Lord  Jesus,  and  at  times  I  felt  as  if  I  could  stand 
forth  as  a  servant  under  his  authority  to  proclaim  the  glad 
tidings  of  life  and  salvation,  and  gather  souls  in  the  gospel  net. 

While  an  apprentice,  I  accompanied  my  mother  and  two 
other  ministers  of  our  meeting  to  Cain  Quarterly  Meeting. 
This  introduced  me  to  some  substantial  Friends  in  the  country, 
whose  society  and  conversation  were  very  interesting  and 
instructive,  particularly  of  that  innocent-spirited  and  livel}^ 
minister,  James  Wilson  of  the  Western  Quarter,  who  was  then 
at  Cain.  To  sit  down  in  a  strange  meeting  and  partake  of  sen- 
»:ations  either  of  enjoyment  or  suffering,  and  to  mingle  with 
Friends  at  the  different  houses  where  we  were  entertained,  was 
a  new  scene,  and  gave  rise  to  views  and  feelings,  of  a  cast  con- 
tributing to  my  attachment  to  the  cause  of  Truth.  At  another 
time  I  was  sent  to  Oley  with  Mercy  Ellis  and  her  companion, 
who  had  visited  the  families  of  our  Monthly  Meeting.  It  took 
us  two  days  to  accomplish  it.  We  put  up  at  Thomas  Lee's, 
and  on  the  following  morning  I  intended  to  retui*n,  but  the 
Aveather  set  in  wet  and  I  was  persuaded  to  stay  their  meeting. 
Among  strangers  and  the  weather  gloomy,  I  felt  depressed ;  but 
going  to  their  meeting,  my  mind  was  replenished  with  a  sense 
of  the  love  of  my  Heavenly  Father,  which  was  a  full  reward 
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22  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

for  the  difficulty  I  had  in  taking  these  dear  Friends  thus  far  on 
their  journey  homeward.  I  believe  it  is  good  for  young  people 
to  be  iu  the  way  of  the  society  of  substantial  Friends,  and  to 
cherish  a  disposition  to  wait  npon  them  and  aid  them  in  the 
prosecution  of  their  religious  services:  a  blessing  will  attend 
those  who  render  such  assistance  from  sincere  motives,  inas- 
much as  "lie  that  giveth  to  one  of  these  a  cup  of  cold  water,  in 
the  name  of  a  disciple,  shall  receive  a  disciple's  reward." 

David  Sands,  an  eminent  minister  belonging  to  New  York 
Yearly  Meeting,  visited  our  city  about  this  period.  His  minis- 
try was  peculiar,  addressed  to  the  states  of  the  people,  and  at 
times  describing  in  very  vivid  terms  the  joys  of  a  future  state 
prepared  for  the  righteous,  which  had  a  quickening  effect.  He 
came  to  my  father's  house ;  I  felt  a  particular  desire  that  he 
Avould  preach  to  one  of  my  brothers  and  myself,  he  being 
reputed  a  man  who  was  favored  with  a  clear  discernment  of  the 
conditions  of  people.  He  did  address  us  in  that  way,  but 
not  according  to  my  wishes.  He  simply  told  us  that  we  kncAV 
the  path  we  should  walk  in,  and  exhorted  us  to  keep  in  it. 
But  I  wanted  something  more  definite  and  impressive,  like  the 
Syrian,  a  little  display  of  divine  power  and  condescension  in 
opening  our  particular  states. 

In  the  course  of  my  exercises,  I  was  at  times  persuaded  that 
it  would  become  my  place  to  engage  in  the  work  of  the  minis- 
tr}';  and  had  I  been  faithful  in  denying  self  and  steadfastly 
bearing  the  cross  as  I  ought  to  have  done,  it  is  not  improbable 
I  sliould  have  been  sufficiently  reduced  into  the  state  of  a  little 
child,  so  as  to  be  entrusted  with  the  gift  at  an  earlier  period  of 
life.  But  my  unstable  nature  was  hard  to  curb,  and  though 
this  prospect  at  times  presented,  and  some  hints  were  given  by 
others,  yet  not  having  a  distinct  pointing  of  duty  to  engage  in 
it,  and  being  persuaded  of  the  great  importance  of  being  right 
in  that  weighty  work,  I  dared  not  to  put  forth  a  hand,  until  the 
period  came  round  in  which  a  necessity  was  laid  upon  me,  and 
the  fear  came  over  me,  that  l)}-  putting  off,  I  should  be  left  in 
darkness. 

About  the  seventeenth  j-ear  of  my  age,  our  beloved  friend 
Sarah  Cresson,  a  valuable  minister,  staying  then  at  my  father's, 
suggested  whether  I  would  not  derive  benefit  from  reading 
Robert  Barclay's  Apology.  I  had  occasionally  looked  into  it, 
but  not  thoroughly,  and  at  her  suggestion,  I  went  through  the 


JOURNAL   or   WILLIAM   EVANS.  23 

work,  which  was  of  use,  confirming  me  in  the  doctrines  of  the 
Christian  religion  as  held  by  Friends,  and  as  they  were  opened 
to  me  in  reading  the  Holy  Scriptures.  I  consider  it  the  clearest 
and  best  argumentative  exposition  of  the  principles  and  the 
effects  of  the  Christian  religion,  in  print. 

After  having  passed  through  many  baptisms  and  mortifying 
dispensations  in  order  to  reduce  the  old  inhabitants  of  the  land; 
and  also  experienced  many  seasons  of  divine  consolation, 
wherein  I  was  enabled  to  pour  out  my  soul  before  the  Lord,  and 
fervently  to  desire  to  be  made  one  of  his  children,  and  to  serve 
Him  all  the  days  of  my  life,  it  pleased  Him  to  hide  his  face  from 
me,  and  to  withdraw  the  sensible  influences  of  his  blessed  Spirit ; 
through  which  alone  we  derive  living  faith,  and  are  enabled 
savingly  to  believe  in  Him.  The  enemy  soon  took  advantage 
of  this  bereaved  condition,  and  started  the  doubt  whether  Jesus 
Christ  was  my  Saviour.  I  remembered  that  He  had  declared: 
"My  sheep  hear  my  voice  and  they  follow  me;"  and  then  I 
began  to  doubt  whether  I  was  one  of  his  sheep ;  for  Satan 
insinuated  that  I  had  never  heard  his  voice.  This  was  a  new 
trial ;  but  when  I  was  so  clouded  that  I  could  not  be  certain  I 
bad  really  heard  the  voice  of  the  true  Shepherd,  then  the  devil 
raised  the  doubt,  whether  Jesus  Christ  was  the  Son  of  God;  and 
without  having  done  anything  that  I  knew  of,  to  bring  myself 
into  this  state,  I  found  I  was  incapable  of  really  believing  in  the 
Saviour  of  the  world.  I  felt  no  disposition  to  deny  or  to  reject 
Him,  but  I  could  not  command  that  faith  in  the  Lord  Jesus 
Christ,  which  I  had  heretofore,  as  I  once  thought,  possessed. 
Great  distress  and  anxiety  came  upon  me.  Unwilling  to  lose 
my  faith,  I  searched  the  Holy  Scriptures,  and  diligently  read 
various  religious  works  which  I  hoped  would  restore  the  lost 
pearl ;  but  it  was  all  in  vain.  I  was  utterly  unable  to  regain  my 
faith  in  Christ,  which  had  been  an  anchor  to  my  soul  in  many 
tossings  and  tempests.  For  a  long  time  I  was  kept  shut  up  in 
this  condition,  until  I  gave  over  searching  books,  or  striving  to 
satisfy  myself  by  any  argument.  I  looked  up  to  my  Heavenly 
Father,  but  all  was  hid  from  me,  and  I  wondered  how  it  was, 
that  I  should  be  unable  to  believe  in  the  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  who 
I  had  been  taught  to  believe  and  never  before  doubted,  was  the 
Saviour;  and  yet  through  all,  something  kept  me  steadfast  and 
patient ;  and  I  never  told  any  one  of  my  suffering  condition. 

One  evening  as  I  was  walking  out  for  meditation,  according 


24  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

to  my  frequent  custom,  with  my  mind  turned  towards  the  Lord, 
He  whom  my  aoul  sought  ahove  all  things,  suddenly  came  to 
his  temple,  and  by  his  Holy  Sjjirit,  revived  my  faith,  and  gave 
me  to  sec,  that  He  alone  is  the  author  of  that  faith  which 
entereth  within  the  vail,  and  giveth  victory  over  the  world,  the 
flesh,  and  the  devil ;  and  that  it  is  not  founded  merely  on  what 
is  read,  but  is  really  of  the  operation  of  God  on  the  heart.  I 
rejoiced  exceedingly  and  gave  thanks  to  Him  who  is  worthy  of 
all  praise  and  honor,  and  who  will  not  give  his  glory  to  another. 
I  could  now  tirml}'  believe  in  the  Lord  Jesus  as  my  Saviour, 
because  of  the  renewed  revelation  by  the  Holy  Spirit  giving  me 
that  faith  in  Him — and  through  mercy  I  have  never  since  been 
jiermitted  to  feel  any  doubt  respecting  his  divinity,  his  media- 
tion, or  any  of  his  offices  in  the  redemption  and  salvation  of 
man.  I  record  this  under  a  sense  of  my  own  nothingness,  and 
for  the  purpose  of  exalting  the  glory  of  his  Grace;  believing 
that  the  foundation  of  true  gospel,  saving  faith  is  the  immediate 
manifestations  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  and  it  is  this  which  draws  the 
dedicated  soul  to  Christ,  and  enables  it  to  believe  in  Him 
savingly,  to  rely  upon  and  to  follow  Him  in  the  regeneration, 
as  our  Kedeemer  and  the  Captain  of  our  salvation.  This  faith 
woi'ks  by  love,  and  this  love  is  evidenced  and  maintained  in 
obedience.  No  man  can  be  in  the  true  faith  unless  Jesus  Christ 
dwells  in  him  ;  and  w'here  He  rules,  the  fruits  and  the  works  of 
the  Spirit  will  be  brought  forth;  and  the  faith  of  such,  though 
it  may  be  tried  as  gold  in  the  fire,  will  be  renewed  from  time  to 
time,  and  give  the  victory  over  all  the  powers  of  darkness. 

Although  this  trial  occurred  some  time  before  I  was  of  age,  I 
have  often  referred  to  it  since  as  a  peculiar  favor  and  blessing, 
especially  when  the  separation  of  the  Hicksites  drew  on ;  inas- 
much, as  that  turned  upon  the  denial  of  the  divinity  and  atone- 
ment of  the  Lord  Jesus — and  also  when  some  have  been  dis- 
posed to  make  the  Holy  Scriptures  the  origin  and  foundation  of 
true  faith  in  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ.  They  are  an  invaluable 
record  of  all  those  things  most  surely  believed  by  the  faithful 
followers  of  Christ,  who  have  the  opportunity  of  reading  them, 
but  it  is  God  alone  who  can  give  true  and  saving  faith  in  his 
beloved  Son  and  in  the  truths  of  the  (iosjicl,  and  it  is  by  his 
mercy  we  are  preserved  to  the  end  in  possession  of  that  faith. 

When  I  became  of  ago  the  prospect  of  commencing  business 
for  myself  involved  mc  in  serious  thoughtfulness,  but  as  it  was 


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for  my  support,  I  took  a  house  and  opened  a  drug  store  in  a 
moderate  way,  in  the  Twelfth  month,  1808 ;  but  while  it  was  a 
necessary  duty  to  provide  for  my  own  subsistence,  the  kingdom 
of  heaven  and  the  righteousness  thereof  were  in  my  view,  prim- 
ary to  everything  else.  I  set  out  with  the  desii-e  to  have  the 
world  kept  under  foot,  and  to  devote  myself  to  the  Lord  and  to 
whatever  service  He  might  call  to ;  at  the  same  time  it  was  my 
settled  conviction,  that  to  provide  things  honest  in  the  sight  of 
all  men  is  a  bounden  duty  w^here  health  permits,  and  that  in  the 
pi'osecution  of  business,  strict  integrity  in  dealing,  and  a  scru- 
pulous guard  against  contracting  debts  without  ability  to  dis- 
charge them,  and  to  live  within  the  limits  of  our  income,  are 
also  duties  indispensable  to  the  Christian. 

I  had  a  great  fear  of  bringing  any  shade  or  reproach  upon 
the  profession  of  the  Ti-uth,  or  upon  the  Society  to  which  I  be- 
longed ;  and  whenever  any  business  presented,  however  profit- 
able, which  appeared  to  me  to  conflict  with  either,  I  felt  most 
easy  to  decline  engaging  in  it.  Although  my  transactions  were 
on  a  small  scale,  and  consequently  did  not  open  the  way  for  the 
accumulation  of  riches,  which  sometimes  was  humiliating,  and 
produced  sensations  of  dissatisfaction  that  I  was  not  likely  to 
stand  among  men  as  independent  as  many  others,  or  procure 
the  accommodations  which  they  had,  yet  I  never  was  involved 
in  any  diflSculty  in  timely  meeting  my  engagements,  and  was 
alwaj'^s  able  to  provide  every  comfort  in  life  that  I  desired. 
Since  that  day  I  have  observed  some  among  us  who  had  suc- 
ceeded in  accumulating  wealth,  plain  in  their  gai'b  and  active  in 
religious  society,  who  looked  upon  those  who  were  in  small 
business  with  contempt,  and  at  times  spoke  slightly  of  their 
scruples  respecting  Friends  engaging  in  extensive  concerns. 

But  the  latter  have  a  refuge  which  cannot  be  assailed  by  the 
pride  or  superciliousness  of  man,  into  which  they  are  often 
permitted  to  flee  and  find  safety.  "Whenever  I  was  subjected  to 
sensations  of  that  kind,  retirement  to  my  divine  Lord  and  Mas- 
ter, committing  myself  and  the  course  I  had  taken  to  Him,  and 
looking  to  Him  for  consolation  and  the  recompense  of  reward 
at  the  end  of  the  race,  raised  me  above  these  earthly  and  sordid 
views,  and  gave  me  an  authority  and  dominion  over  that  spirit, 
of  which  none  could  deprive  me.  Wealth  and  the  importance 
arising  from  it  were  nothing  to  me,  and  not  worthy  of  compari- 


26  JOURJJAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

son  with  a  place  in  the  Lord's  house,  and  the  honor  and  dignity 
with  which  He  clothes  his  humble,  faithful  children. 

1809.  Business  opening  very  slowly  in  the  following  spring, 
I  fflt  concerned  lest  it  should  not  prove  adequate  to  my  neces- 
sities, and  one  day  sitting  in  the  store  seriously  and  solitarily 
contemplating  my  prospects,  my  gracious  Master  condescended 
to  show  me  that  if  I  was  faithful  to  his  requirings,  I  should 
never  want  food  nor  raiment.  The  language  and  impression 
were  so  clear,  humbling  my  heart  befoi*e  Him,  that  I  believed  his 
word,  and  thereby  proved  that  that  faith,  of  which  He  is  the 
author,  is  the  substance  of  things  hoped  for,  the  evidence  of 
things  not  seen ;  my  mind  firmly  and  peacefully  rested  in  it,  as 
much  as  it  would  have  done  in  an  independent  estate,  although 
no  change  in  the  business  very  soon  occurred. 

On  the  11th  of  the  Twelfth  month,  1811,  I  was  married  to 
Deborah,  daughter  of  Aaron  and  Abigail  Musgrave.  Some 
time  before,  she  had  been  brought  under  the  convicting  power 
of  Truth,  with  several  other  young  persons  who  attended  our 
meeting,  and  was  strengthened  to  exchange  a  life  of  gaiety  and 
mirth  for  one  of  simplicity  and  humble  walking  with  her  divine 
Lord  and  Master,  and  was  then  received  a  member  among 
Friends.  Our  engagement  was  not  entered  upon  without  the 
requisite  deliberation,  and  strong  desire  to  be  preserved  from 
taking  such  an  important  step,  unless  accompanied  with  a  sense 
of  divine  approbation.  This  was  graciously  atforded  by  Him 
whom  we  desired  to  obey  in  all  things ;  and  although  many 
years  were  not  allowed  for  our  earthly  pilgrimage  together,  yet 
the  few  were  passed  in  much  sweetness  of  fellowship,  and  their 
termination  was  a  bitter  cup  to  the  survivor. 

Being  now  settled  in  life,  my  time  was  necessarily  occupied 
with  the  various  duties  pertaining  to  a  jiroper  provision  for  a 
family;  wlach  were  attended  to  in  unison  with  that  dedication 
to  the  will  of  my  Heavenly  Father,  and  to  the  various  services 
of  religious  society,  which  I  felt  of  indispensable  obligation  and 
connected  with  a  growth  in  the  life  of  religion.  I  was  not 
without  seasons  of  close  trial  and  humiliation,  all  which  were 
needed  to  humble  my  proud  and  volatile  spirit;  and  had  1  main- 
tained more  faithfull}' the  watch,  1  should  have  made  more  pro- 
gress in  the  Christian  warfare,  and  attained  a  deeper  and  firmer 
establishment  in  religious  weight  and  solidity. 

In  the  summer  of  1812,  I  went  with  several  members  of  our 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  27 

meeting  to  Long  Branch  for  the  purpose  of  sea  bathing.  It  wa^ 
the  first  view  I  had  of  the  ocean,  and  standing  on  the  beach 
contemplating  the  works  of  the  Ahiiighty  hand,  man  seemed 
like  a  speck  in  comparison  with  the  irresistible  force  of  such  a 
vast  body,  when  its  mighty  billows  are  wrought  into  fury  by  the 
power  of  the  tempest.  We  put  up  at  a  private  house  with  few 
besides  ourselves,  and  attended  the  meeting  at  Shrewsbury. 
At  that  time  it  was  a  place  of  little  resort  compared  with  what 
it  has  been  since.  To  weakly  or  sick  persons,  sea  air  and 
bathing  are  doubtless  often  useful ;  but  amongst  the  mixed  com- 
panies that  resort  to  these  watering  places,  there  are  many 
incitements  to  throw  off  the  restraints  of  the  cross,  and  to  fall 
in  with  the  current  of  fashion  and  dissipation,  and  the  use  of 
language  and  manners  quite  at  variance  with  our  religious  pro- 
fession. Being  removed  from  the  society  of  parents  and  religi- 
ous friends,  and  consequently  from  under  the  influence  of  their 
example  and  their  known  sentiments  in  opposition  to  these  cor- 
rupt liberties,  a  salutary  restraint  is  withdrawn,  which  makes  it 
easier  for  3"0ung  persons  to  take  liberties  they  would  not  resort 
to  under  their  supervision ;  and  they  may  be  too  easily  induced  to 
frequent  those  places,  where  they  may  receive  moral  wounds 
more  dangerous  than  the  physical  disorders  which  they  seek  to 
have  cured. 

Voluntary  subscriptions  being  set  on  foot  to  create  a  fund  for 
the  erection  of  an  asylum  for  the  benefit  of  persons  deprived  of 
the  use  of  their  reason, — members  of  our  religious  society  and 
professors  with  us, — I  accompanied  one  or  two  Friends  in  so- 
liciting the  subsQijij^/'aons  of  some  of  our  members,  and  found  that 
the  proposed  institution  was  generally  approved.  Much  good 
has  been  conferrea  on  that  afflicted  class  since  that  day,  who 
have  been  placed  in  it,  and  doubtless  it  had  a  right  origin. 

First  month  27th,  1813.  Susanna  Home  from  England,  and 
Thomas  Scattergood  each  opened  in  our  Monthly  Meeting  a 
religious  concern  to  visit  the  families,  which  was  united  with. 
They  came  to  our  house  on  the  29th,  and  had  a  religious  op- 
portunity with  my  wife  and  myself.  My  uncle  Scattergood  sat 
a  considerable  time  in  deep  silence  after  Susanna  had  relieved  her 
mind.  He  seemed  impressed  with  a  sense  of  afllictious  to 
come,  and  then  spoke  on  the  necessity  of  close  adherence  to  the 
internal  guide,  in  order  to  witness  preservation  on  the  sure 
foundation  in  times  of  deep  trial,  that  might  be  permitted  to 


-O  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

assail,  for  further  purification,  and  preparation  to  bear  burdens 
that  may  be  assigned  or  permitted  to  come  upon  us. 

Our  country  being  now  at  war  with  Great  Britain,  business 
was  much  at  a  stand,  and  the  state  of  the  countrj-  at  large  was 
glooni}'  and  distressing.  At  such  a  time  wickedness  is  let  loose, 
and  unprincipled  men  strive  to  gain  the  ascendency  in  power, 
manifesting  very  little  feeling  for  those  who  are  conscientiously 
restrained  from  falling  in  with  the  current.  A  bill  was  intro- 
duced this  spring  into  the  legislature  of  this  State  for  a  new 
organization  of  the  militia,  containing  provisions  that  would 
operate  with  great  severity  upon  Friends.  Our  Meeting  for 
Sufferings  prepared  a  remonstrance  against  it,  which  was  taken 
to  Ilarrisburg  by  a  committee  appointed  for  that  purpose.  The 
bill  was  finally  thrown  out  by  the  Senate,  and  of  course  did  not 
become  a  law. 

Fifth  month  7th.  The  sudden  death  of  the  Friend  who  had 
very  faithfully  waited  on  Susanna  Home  in  her  travels  in 
this  country,  produced  strong  sensations  among  his  friends 
and  accpiaintance.  He  had  taken  up  his  saddle-bags  at  his 
own  house  to  set  off  in  order  to  meet  her  in  New  Jersey,  when 
he  fell  on  the  floor,  having  been  previously  sick  at  the  stomach 
and  complained  of  pain  in  the  head ;  and  though  great  efforts 
were  made  by  several  physicians,  they  were  unable  to  revive 
him.  Information  of  the  afflicting  event  was  communicated  to 
Susanna  Home,  and  she  came  to  the  city  and  attended  the 
burial  on  the  9th,  being  first  day.  She  knelt  in  supplication  at 
the  grave  side,  and  Arthur  Howell  and  Thomas  Scattergood 
spoke  in  testimony  to  the  dedication  of  thyi'riend,  and  their 
undoubted  persuasion  that  he  now  enjoyedia  mansion  among 
the  blessed.  The  suddenness  of  his  death  V^hen  apparently  in 
usual  health,  and  just  intending  to  set  out  on  a  journey,  was  an 
impressive  instance  of  the  great  uncertainty  of  life,  and  a  loud 
call  to  faithfulness  to  the  manifested  will  of  our  Heavenly 
Father,  that  when  our  day  is  over,  we  may  be  ready  to  meet 
the  awful  Judge  of  quick  and  dead. 

The  English  vessels  of  war  being  now  on  our  coast,  and  com- 
mitting depredations  in  many  places,  the  coasting  trade  was 
almost  entirely  stopped,  which  kept  awtxy  from  the  neighbor- 
hood of  my  store,  which  was  in  sight  of  the  river,  most  of  the 
craft  usually  there.     This  greatly  lessened  what  little  business 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  29 

I  had,   and  could  not  but   produce  serious  thoughtfulness  in 
relation  to  the  means  of  subsistence. 

In  the  fall  of  this  year  my  beloved  mother,  being  liberated  by 
the  Monthly  Meeting  to  visit  the  Meetings  comjbosing  Salem 
Quarter,  and  the  two  on  Great  Egg  Hai'bor,  I  drove  the  car- 
riage, Ann  Offley  being  her  companion.  John  Baldwin,  a 
minister  living  near  Downingtown,  Chester  county,  Pennsyl- 
vania, and  Isaac  W.  Morris  in  another  carriage,  went  in  com- 
pany. We  travelled  in  much  harmony,  visited  all  the  meetings, 
in  the  course  of  which  we  had  some  solid  opportunities,  and 
returned  the  last  day  of  the  Eleventh  month. 


CHAPTEE   II, 

1813—1819. 


Proposed  change  of  Business — Uneasiness  therewith — Relinquishes  it  and 
finds  Peace — Before  a  Court  Martial— Keflections  on  the  Unchristian  Prac- 
tice of  War — Peace  Principles  applicable  to  National  Government — Death 
of  T.  Scattergood — Commencement  of  his  Wife's  last  Illness — Her  Charac- 
ter and  Convincement — Her  last  Sickness  and  Death — Weighty  Expres- 
sions during  her  Illness — Accompanies  his  Mother  on  a  Religious  Visit — 
Goes  to  reside  with  his  Pai-ents — Accompanies  his  Mother  to  Kew  York 
Yearly  Meeting — Death  of  his  Father-in-law — Accompanies  his  Mother  to 
New  England  Yearly  Meeting — First  Appearance  in  the  IMinistry — Source 
of  True  Faith — Necessity  of  keeping  to  First  Principles — Death  of  Sarah 
Wilson. 

In  consequence  of  the  war  with  England,  business  was  much 
depressed,  and  having  the  expenses  of  a  family  to  meet,  which 
it  seemed  improbable,  if  the  difficulties  continued,  the  little  I 
had  to  do,  would  be  sufiicient  for,  I  became  so  dissatisfied  that  I 
resolved  to  make  some  change.  A  relative,  who  was  a  dealer 
in  dry  goods,  wanting  a  partner,  I  concluded  to  join  him  as 
soon  as  the  war  was  brought  to  a  close,  and  made  arrangements 
to  borrow  a  sum  of  money,  which  with  that  employed  by  him, 
was  deemed  a  sufiicient  caj^ital.  The  prospect  of  the  connec- 
tion, and  engaging  in  a  business  that  looked  likely  to  be  profit- 
able, was  animating  and  pleasant;  and  from  the  feelings  of  my 
mind,  I  thought  I  had  given  the  subject  ample  consideration. 
We  entered  upon  some  of  the  preparatory  steps,  which  brought 


30  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

US  frequently  together,  and  to  convei'se  upon  the  business  and 
the  manner  of  conducting  it.  As  I  was  led  into  a  knowledge 
of  the  course  pursued  in  that  line,  scruples  occasionally  arose 
in  my  uiind,  which  I  attributed  to  fear  produced  by  the  novelty 
of  my  situation.  Selling  articles  which  I  should  not  be  easy  to 
wear,  or  recommend  others  to  Avear,  presented  some  apprehen- 
sion of  difficulty,  but  I  concluded  these  might  be  dispensed 
with,  and  the  business  still  be  large  enough;  or  perhaps  when 
I  became  fully  engaged,  these  feelings  would  wear  off.  Then 
arose  the  thought  of  entering  into  a  business  which  I  did  not 
understand,  and  the  condition  in  which  I  should  find  myself, 
were  my  partner  removed  by  death.  This  circumstance  I 
hoped  would  not  occur,  and  I  endeavored  to  suppress  my  appre- 
hensions with  the  belief  that  experience  would  soon  render  me 
familiar  with  my  new  employment.  In  his  desire  to  open  the 
Ava}'  for  our  imion  and  future  operations,  ni}'  relative  told  me 
that  besides  the  amount  of  our  capital,  which  was  borrowed,  it 
would  be  necessary  to  purchase  on  credit  large  quantities  of 
certain  articles,  the  payment  of  which  would  be  provided  for  in 
the  returns  of  our  sales.  This  w^as  a  further  insight  of  the 
responsibilities  we  were  about  to  take  upon  us,  and  which 
raised  fresh  doubts  and  fears. 

My  present  business  being  small  and  one  that  I  understood, 
was  managed  with  ease.  It  required  little  capital,  and  involved 
me  in  no  engagements  that  I  did  not  hold  the  means  to  meet ; 
so  that  I  was  free  from  anxiety  on  that  account,  and  at  liberty 
to  attend  unincumbered,  to  anj^  of  the  appointments  of  the 
Society,  or  any  impression  of  duty  to  go  to  a  meeting  that  I 
might  have.  When  I  contrasted  my  present  situation,  for  1 
had  not  yet  given  up  the  drug  business,  with  the  project  before 
me,  and  recollected  that  I  had  never  been  accustomed  to  the 
anxiety  which  often  attends  large  commercial  concerns,  I  began 
to  feel  stronger  doubts  of  the  safety  of  making  so  great  change. 
These  doubts  increased  ;  and  one  day  sitting  in  our  religious 
meeting,  it  phiinly  appeare<l  to  me,  that  though  the  mind  ma}" 
be  able  to  compass  much,  j^ct  beyond  its  capacity  it  cannot  go. 
If  all  its  enei-gies  are  enlisted  in  the  concerns  of  the  world,  and 
their  pressure  is  as  great  as  it  is  capable  of  bearing,  the  all-im- 
])0rtant  work  of  religion  must  be  neglected.  This  ajtpeared  to 
me,  must  inevitably  be  my  case.  My  time  and  talents  would 
be  wholly  engrossed,  and  I  must  abandon  all  prospect  of  useful- 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  31 

ness  in  religious  society  for  the  servitude  of  a  man  of  the  world. 
It  seemed  if  I  pursued  the  prospect  of  adopting  the  proposed 
change  of  business,  that  I  should  be  lost  to  religious  society  and 
to  the  work  of  religion  in  my  own  heart. 

These  views  brought  me  to  a  full  stop.  I  was  afi-aid  to  risk 
my  everlasting  salvation  for  the  sake  of  worldly  eraiolfiment; 
and  notwithstanding  the  mortification,  I  determined  that  it  was 
best  to  inform  my  proposed  partner  in  a  proper  manner,  that  I 
could  not  proceed,  and  also  of  the  cause  ;  which  was  a  trial  to 
him  as  well  as  to  mj-self,  though  no  steps  had  been  taken,  that 
would  involve  him  in  difficulty.  After  having  come  to  this  con- 
clusion, and  my  concern  for  his  disappointment  had  subsided,  I 
felt  relieved  of  a  great  burthen,  and  then  resolved  that  as  long 
as  I  could  make  a  living  by  the  business  I  Avas  brought  up  to, 
I  would  not  abandon  it  for  any  other,  but  labor  after  content- 
ment in  such  things  as  my  Heavenly  Father  granted  to  me.  I 
looked  forward  with  renewed  peace  and  satisfaction  at  the  path 
and  the  business  before  me,  though  small,  remembering  that 
the  earth  is  the  Lord's,  and  the  cattle  on  a  thousand  hills, 
and  He  in  his  inscrutable  wisdom  and  kindness,  will  dispense 
what  He  knows  we  need. 

3Iy  relative  died  in  less  than  three  years,  and  the  very  great 
losses  produced  by  a  falling  market,  proved  in  the  end  that  I 
had  escaped  from  a  load  of  anxiety,  and  almost  inextricable 
embarrassment.  Indeed,  being  left  alone  in  a  business  I  was  in 
nowise  fitted  for,  it  is  probable  it  would  have  proved  my  ruin. 
It  is  good  to  trust  in  the  Lord,  and  to  mind  the  secret  intima- 
tions of  his  blessed  Spirit ;  for  I  believe  it  was  nothing  less  than 
his  merciful  superintending  care  that  snatched  me  from  the 
thraldom  I  was  preparing  for  myself 

In  the  fall  of  1813,  the  citizens  illuminated  their  houses  on 
the  event  of  a  victory  gained  by  the  Americans  over  the  British 
in  a  naval  engagement,  which  produced  sadness  in  many  minds. 
Our  Saviour  forbad  his  disciples  to  rejoice,  even  when  spirits 
were  made  subject  to  them,  in  their  religious  engagements;  and 
when  some  enquired  whether  they  should  command  fire  to  come 
down  from  heaven  as  Elijah  did,  to  consume  his  opponents.  He 
replied,  "Ye  know  not  what  manner  of  spirit  ye  are  of;  the 
Son  of  Man  came  not  to  destroy  men's  lives,  but  to  save  them." 
How  lamentable  it  is  that  men  calling  themselves  Christians, 
can  promote  the  destruction  of  their  fellow  creatures,  and  when 


32  JOUKNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

many  have  been  killed,  or  wounded  and  crippled  for  life,  then 
make  a  festival  and  rejoice  over  them.  What  difference  in  this 
respect  is  there  between  the  savage  and  the  professed  Christian? 
Jesus  Christ  declared,  "My  kingdom  is  not  of  this  world,  else 
would  my  servants  fight,"  evidently  implying  that  those  who 
do  fight,  are  not  servants  and  subjects  in  his  holy  and  peaceful 
kingdom. 

Second  month  24th,  1814.  I  was  compelled  to  appear  before  a 
court-martial  sitting  in  this  city,  to  answer  a  charge  of  disobe- 
dience of  the  orders  of  the  President  of  the  United  States,  in 
refusing  to  march  as  a  militiaman  last  spring.  I  stated  to  the 
court-martial,  that  I  was  conscientiously  bound  to  decline  all 
warHke  measures,  and  could  not  by  any  means  comply  with 
such  requisitions.  That  I  was  a  member  of  the  Society  of 
Friends,  and  although  we  cannot  actively  comply  with  laws 
that  would  violate  our  consciences,  yet  we  do  not  rise  against 
the  Government;  we  passively  suffer  the  penalty  which  they 
inflict — ut  the  same  time  we  think  it  right  to  plead  for  liberty 
of  conscience,  to  maintain  our  rights  in  a  peaceable  manner, 
and  not  tacitly  suffer  distraint  or  imjjrisonment  without  law. 
They  heard  me  patiently  and  respectfully,  making  but  little 
exception  to  what  I  advanced.  I  understood  they  decide  the 
question  by  vote,  whether  the  fine  shall  be  exacted :  what  was 
their  course  in  my  case  I  never  heard,  but  they  never  attempted 
to  collect  any  fine  of  me,  and  I  suppose  they  voted  me  free. 

It  is  very  important  at  all  times  to  bear  a  clear  and  faithful 
testimony  to  the  coming  and  kingdom  of  the  Prince  of  peace,- 
and  when  the  noise  and  spirit  of  war  are  over  the  land,  and 
wicked  men  are  ready  to  make  a  prey  of  those  who  cannot  join 
in  their  measures,  the  times  call  for  increased  watchfulness  that 
we  may  not  be  caught  with  that  spirit,  and  the  desire  of  success 
on  the  arms  of  either  belligerent  party,  or  in  any  manner  let 
the  testimony  against  war  and  bloodshed  fall  to  the  ground. 

Seventh  month  17th.  There  is  now  a  great  pleading  by  many 
for  war.  Some  who  assume  the  name  of  Christians  say  they 
deprecate  such  a  state  of  things  as  much  as  an^^ ;  but  when 
their  rights  are  invaded,  their  dwellings  and  the  lives  of  their 
families  endangered,  they  ought  to  defend  themselves — and 
though  they  wish  not  to  destroy  life,  yet  if  in  self-defence,  the 
aggressor  is  killed,  they  consider  themselves  justified.  But 
while  they  think  his  blood  will   lie   upon   his  own  head,  they 


JOURNAL   OF   %YILLIAM    EVANS.  33 

know  not  how  far  the  act  of  taking  human  life  may  rest  with 
awful  weight  on  their  consciences,  when  the  heat  of  passion 
and  revenge  has  gone  off.  They  lose  sight  of  the  superintend- 
ence and  protection  of  an  Almighty  Providence,  and  of  the  duty 
of  putting  their  trust  in  Him.  They  argue  that  power  is  the 
support  of  government,  and  that  it  is  the  knowledge  of  this 
power  that  compels  many  to  comply  with  the  requisitions  of 
the  law — that  there  is  an  analogy  between  nations  and  indi- 
viduals. When  differences  occur  between  individuals,  it  is 
power  that  obliges  the  aggressor  to  make  restitution  to  the  in- 
jured— so  when  a  dispute  arises  between  nations,  which  they 
plead  cannot  be  amicably  adjusted,  the  advocates  of  war  say 
that  recourse  must  be  had  to  the  sword,  to  obtain  that  which 
the  jarring  views  of  the  parties  prevent  taking  place.  At  the 
same  time  they  acknowledge  that  war  is  a  dreadful  evil  which 
ought  if  possible  to  be  avoided — that  the  time  will  come  when, 
sin  being  banished  from  the  earth,  war  will  cease  ;  but  in  the 
present  state  of  the  world,  it  is,  they  think,  inevitable  and  justi- 
fiable. 

Power  may  be  exercised  in  a  government  to  great  extent 
without  destroying  life,  for  the  purpose  of  punishing  the  trans- 
gressor, and  preserving  the  peace  and  the  property  of  the  citi- 
zen. As  true  religion  prevails,  less  physical  force  will  produce 
greater  effect  on  the  remaining  vicious ;  and  in  proportion  as 
the  former  spreads,  the  latter  will  be  less  needed.  Where  no 
military  force  is  called  in,  there  is  less  cause  to  excite  the  evil 
part  of  the  community  to  retaliate  and  resort  to  the  same.  The 
use  of  arms  stirs  up  men  to  provide  themselves  with  and  to  use 
them.  How  much  wiser  and  better  would  it  be  to  settle  differ- 
ences between  nations  b}^  the  arbitration  of  a  friendly  Power — 
inasmuch  as  after  having  fought  and  killed,  negotiation  must 
be  the  final  resort  to  settle  the  dispute. 

In  reflecting  upon  this  subject,  it  may  be  right  to  take  a  view 
of  the  character  of  a  disciple  of  Christ,  and  how  he  became  a 
disciple.  "  Take  my  yoke  upon  you,"  said  our  blessed  Lord, 
•'and  learn  of  me,  for  I  am  meek  and  lowly  of  heart."  Here 
the  attention  of  the  mind  is  arrested,  and  as  it  submits  to  Him, 
He  gradually  unfolds  to  it  what  He  would  have  us  to  leave 
undone  and  what  to  do.  As  his  requirings  often  prove  the 
reverse  of  our  inclinations,  we  need  the  aid  of  his  Spirit  in  con- 
forming to  them ;  which  in  this  case  is  compared  to  a  yoke  to 


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JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 


keep  down  our  propensity  to  evil ;  or  a  cross  to  crucify  our 
stubborn  wills,  which  often  rise  in  opposition  to  the  coming  of 
his  kingdom  in  the  heart.  "  If  any  man  will  come  after  me  let 
him  deny  himself,  take  up  his  cross  daily  and  follow  me."  The 
direction  and  rule  of  the  heart  are  to  be  entirely  given  into  his 
hands.  We  are  not  to  choose  for  ourselves,  but  simply  as  little 
children  attend  to  his  daily  instructions,  which  as  we  carefully 
follow  will  produce  a  growth  and  increase  of  spiritual  strength. 
Our  sinful  propensities  and  passions  will  become  gradually 
weakened — our  affections  loosened  from  things  below,  and  set 
on  things  above ;  and  through  the  prevalence  of  his  love,  it  will 
become  our  meat  and  our  drink  to  do  the  will  of  our  Father 
who  is  in  heaven.  Various  are  the  baptisms,  the  inward 
plunges  and  washings  that  we  must  witness,  before  this  state  is 
attained  ;  but  it  is  nevertheless  our  duty  and  our  highest  interest 
to  come  to  it,  and  without  it  we  shall  fall  short  of  the  stature 
of  a  perfect  man  in  Christ  Jesus. 

Living  under  the  yoke  and  daily  cross  of  Christ  wo  become 
joined  to  Ilirn  in  one  Spirit,  and  according  to  our  measures  are 
partaking  of  the  divine  nature;  for  saith  He,  "He  that  doeth 
the  will  of  my  Father,  the  same  is  my  mother,  and  sister,  and 
brother;"  and  again,  "I  am  the  vine,  ye  are  the  branches." 
Here  such  a  union  is  formed  between  Christ  and  his  brethren, 
that  those  who  touch  them,  touch  him.  and  not  an  hair  of  their 
head  shall  perish  without  his  notice.  They  can  suffer  no  injury, 
nor  be  in  any  emergency  however  secret  or  pressing,  without 
his  knowledge ;  and  as  all  power  in  heaven  and  in  earth  is  given 
to  Him,  they  have  great  cause  to  put  their  trust  in  Him,  be- 
lieving if  it  be  for  their  good,  and  the  promotion  of  his  right- 
eous cause.  He  will  deliver  them  as  He  has  defended  many  of 
his  children,  in  the  hour  of  appalling  danger.  He  has  also  per- 
mitted some  of  his  most  faithful  servants  to  seal  their  testimony 
with  their  blood,  but  the  proportion  of  these  to  the  whole  of 
his  family  is  small.  But  yet  in  this  they  have  infinitely  the 
advantage  over  their  enemies,  in  that  standing  faithful  to  their 
Master  they  have  been  made  partakers  of  his  glory ;  whereas  their 
persecutors,  if  they  do  not  repent  and  bow  to  his  name,  will  in 
the  end  be  cast  into  utter  darkness,  where  will  be  weeping  and 
wailing  and  gnashing  of  teeth.  The  longest  life  is  short — the 
duration  of  suffering  here  is  limited,  and  as  the  design  of  our 
creation  is  the  glory  of  God,  if  He  sees  meet  in  the  promotion 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  35 

of  it  to  suffer  our  life  to  be  terminated  by  the  hands  of  cruel 
men,  we  have  nothing  to  fear  or  to  miu'mur  at :  but  rather 
through  the  power  of  his  love  to  rejoice  in  suffering,  which  is 
but  for  a  moment,  and  that  it  will  work  for  us  a  fur  more  ex- 
ceeding and  eternal  weight  of  glory. 

The  smallness  of  the  number  of  righteous  men  and  women, 
conscientiously  opposed  to  war,  who  suffer  violent  death  from 
mobs  or  armies,  is  quite  remarkable.  These  are  rarely  assaulted 
either  in  their  dwellings  or  on  the  high  road,  which  shows 
that  the  protection  of  Divine  Providence  is  extended  to  them. 
From  this  we  may  suppose,  that  were  there  a  nation  of  such 
Christians,  who  lived  in  love  and  harmony  amongst  them- 
selves, and  who  from  conviction  of  its  unlawfulness,  never  could 
resort  to  arras  to  defend  themselves,  it  would  become  known 
among  the  nations  of  the  earth;  and  from  the  fact  that  no  war- 
like resistance  would  be  made  on  any  occasion,  they  would 
refrain  from  meddling  with  them;  either  because  He  who 
turneth  the  heart  of  a  man  as  a  man  turneth  the  water-course 
in  his  field,  would  show  them  it  would  be  wrong  to  disturb  them 
and  would  not  permit  them  ;  or  from  the  principle,  that  as  there 
would  be  no  resistance  by  arms,  it  would  be  unmanly  and  un- 
worthy to  assail  such  a  people. 

In  the  Fourth  month,  my  beloved  uncle  Thomas  Scattergood 
died,  after  an  illness  of  but  a  few  days.  He  attended  about  half 
the  sittings  of  the  Yearly  Meeting  when  he  was  taken  sick,  and 
on  the  first  day  morning  following  he  was  released  from  the  trials 
of  this  earthly  ]jilgrimage,  and  I  have  no  doubt  passed  into  the 
church  triumphant.  On  seventh  day,  a  Friend  expressed  to  him 
that  he  felt  consolation  in  sitting  by  him ;  he  replied  that  he  had 
experienced  it  also,  and  that  his  mind  was  established  on  the 
sure  foundation.  One  of  the  physicians  saying  something  re- 
specting his  dissolution,  he  answered  that  if  it  was  to  take  place 
now  it  was  hid  from  him,  as  many  of  the  Lord's  secrets  arc, 
from  his  servants.  He  was  a  living,  baptising  minister,  often 
led  into  the  states  of  the  people,  and  made  instrumental  in 
quickening  many  to  a  more  fervent  exercise  for  their  own  sal- 
vation. 

1815.  My  late  beloved  wife  was  of  a  delicate  constitution  ; 
last  winter  her  health  and  strength  were  much  reduced.  She 
contracted  several  colds  which  were  accompanied  by  cough  and 
pain  in  the  chest;  and  being  appointed  a  representative  of  the 


36  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM   EVANS. 

Moutlily  Meeting,  she  attended  the  Quarterly  Meeting  in  the 
Second  month,  although  very  untit  to  go  out.  She  came  home 
much  spent,  and  becoming  much  indisposed  kept  her  room  very 
generally  afterwards.  We  did  not  apprehend  for  a  considerable 
time  that  her  lungs  were  affected,  though  the  obstinacy  of  some 
of  the  symptoms  and  the  variable  state  of  her  feelings  excited 
anxiety  respecting  the  issue  of  the  complaint ;  she  being  some- 
times apparently  so  free  from  disease,  as  to  seem  to  be  fast  re- 
covering, and  then  would  suddenly  become  so  unwell,  as  to  be 
scarcely  able  to  keep  out  of  bed.  The  spring  was  unusually 
cold  with  easterly  storms  of  rain.  It  was,  however,  hoped  not- 
withstanding her  discouraging  symptoms,  that  when  the 
weather  became  warm  and  settled,  a  few  Aveek's  residence  in  the 
country  would  check  the  progress  of  the  disease,  and  restore 
her  to  health  and  to  her  family  and  friends.  She  was  accord- 
ingly taken  out  on  the  22d  of  the  Fifth  month,  and  continued 
in  the  country  three  wrecks.  The  air  was  cool  for  the  season, 
and  the  change  did  not  produce  any  intermission  of  her  com- 
plaint ;  and  the  w^eather  becoming  warm  during  the  last  week, 
she  weakened  very  fast.  One  evening  her  mother  observing 
her  to  be  in  pain  expressed  her  sympathy ;  when  she  answered, 
"  We  ought  not  to  murmur  at  the  dispensations  of  Providence," 
and  added,  "  Mother,  most  of  thy  children  are  in  heaven,  and  I 
shall  soon  be  there  with  them."  She  concluded  to  return  to  the 
city,  and  remarked  that  though  the  state  of  her  body  was 
changed,  that  of  her  mind  was  not;  believing  it  was  right  that 
the  trial  had  been  made. 

She  was  naturally  of  a  sprightly,  amiable  disposition,  and  in  the 
early  part  of  her  life,  fond  of  gaiety  and  the  amusements  which 
her  companions  partook  of  This  drew  her  into  company  that 
was  calculated  to  keep  her  from  yielding  to  the  convictions  of 
Divine  Grace,  which  at  times  were  powerfully  brought  over  her. 
On  some  occasions  when  associated  with  others  who  wore  danc- 
ing and  singing,  her  mind  was  so  arrested  with  the  visitations 
and  reproofs  of  heavenly  love,  that  she  would  be  unable  to  par- 
ticipate in  the  mirth  and  amusements  surrounding  her.  Through 
J>ivine  mercy  she  was  finally  brought  to  submit  to  these  visita- 
tions, to  withdraw  from  all  these  vain  delights,  and  to  seek  a 
closer  acquaintance  and  union  with  the  Lord,  who  had  thus  en- 
lightened her  by  his  Spirit  to  see  the  emptiness  of  her  ibrnier 
pursuits,  and  the  necessity  of  seeking  enduring  substance. 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  37 

Persevering  in  fiiitlifiilncss  to  the  unfoldings  of  Divine  Light, 
she  was  convinced  that  simplicity  in  dress  and  manners  was  ob- 
ligatory upon  the  follower  of  Christ,  and  she  became  an  ex- 
ample therein,  even  to  those  whose  opportunities  of  a  religious, 
guarded  education  had  been  widely  ditlerent  from  hers.  On 
this  subject  she  remarks  in  some  of  her  memoranda,  that  "The 
evidence  was  confirmed  to  her,  that  simplicity  in  life  and  man- 
ners attends  the  narrow  way  which  leads  to  life,  while  the 
partaking  of  the  enjoyments,  possessions  and  allurements  of  this 
deceitful  world,  will  inevitably  lead  to  destruction." 

In  the  twentieth  year  of  her  age,  she  made  application,  and 
was  received  into  membership  in  our  religious  Society  by  the 
Southern  District  Monthly  Meeting.  She  was  much  beloved  by 
her  intimate  acquaintances,  and  was  engaged  privately  to  seek 
their  furtherance  in  the  path  of  dedication  to  their  divine  Lord 
and  Master.  With  some  of  these  she  was  frequently  employed 
in  visiting  the  habitations  of  the  poor,  manifesting  much  tender 
feeling  for  them  in  their  distresses,  by  her  persevering  efforts  in 
procuring  and  administering  the  requisite  comforts  for  their 
rehef.  A  select  school  for  girls  being  opened  within  the  limits 
of  her  Monthly  Meeting,  she  took  charge  of  it  for  about  eigh- 
teen months,  and  proved  herself  well  qualified  for  the  care  of 
the  little  children.  When  she  entered  into  the  married  life  her 
testimony  to  plainness  was  still  kept  in  the  furniture  of  her  house, 
guarding  against  a  conformity  to  the  fashions  of  a  vain  world 
with  which  many  are  led.  astray.  Her  gentle  sj^irit,  softened 
and  regulated  by  the  love  of  God,  rendei-ed  her  a  faithful  and 
affectionate  wife,  and  she  was  religiously  concerned  for  the  future 
welfare  and  preservation  of  her  tender  offspring. 

Having  in  health  submitted  to  bear  the  yoke  of  Christ,  and 
in  good  measure  experienced  its  sanctifying  operations  in  her 
heart,  she  was  now  favored  at  a  time  when  under  an  incurable 
pulmonary  consumption,  as  she  said,  with  an  "  heavenly  state 
of  mind,"  and  enabled  with  great  calmness  to  look  towards  her 
dissolution,  which  she  was  early  sensible  would  be  the  termina- 
tion of  this  sickness.  The  disease  made  steady  progress  after 
her  return  to  the  city,  and  she  suffered  much. 

In  the  course  of  her  sickness  she  uttered  many  weighty  ex- 
pressions, showing  a  living  experience  of  inward  communion 
with  her  Saviour,  and  of  that  redemption  from  sin  and  the  fear 
of  death,  which  by  the  working  of  his  mighty  power  in  the 
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38  JOURNAL    OV    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

soul,  He  effects  for  his  obedient  children.  Before  she  went  into 
the  country,  a  few  Friends  having  culled  to  see  her,  after  a  time 
of  silence,  a  belief  was  exi^ressed  by  one  of  them,  that  her  bed 
had  been  made  in  her  sickness,  and  that  the  guai'dian  angel  of  the 
Lord's  presence,  had  encamped  around  about  her,  and  supported 
her,  when  outward  help  failed.  After  a  short  pause  she  uttered 
some  expressions  of  thanksgiving  for  Divine  support  during  her 
sickness,  and  added,  "  I  feel  that  I  am  unworthy  of  so  many 
favors."  Then  with  uncommon  energy,  she  broke  forth  nearly 
in  these  words :  "  Oh  that  I  had  the  opportunity  to  testify  to 
the  goodness  of  the  Almighty,  and  that  it  was  in  my  power  to 
impress  on  the  young  people  the  very  great  importance  of  giving 
up  in  early  life,  that  the  mind  may  have  a  foundation  to  rest 
upon  in  the  time  of  trial,  when  the  world  is  as  nothing." 

The  prospect  of  parting  with  my  beloved  wife  was  at  times 
attended  with  feelings  that  seemed  insupportable.  We  had 
"been  married  but  a  few  years,  and  to  be  obliged  to  give  up  one 
whose  purified  spirit  rendered  her  a  most  desirable  companion 
in  this  scene  of  probation,  appeared  at  some  seasons  altogether 
irreconcilable.  And  one  day  the  prospect  came  over  me  with 
such  force,  that  I  was  tossed  with  a  tempest  I  could  hardly  sup- 
port; but  as  I  was  walking  alone  up  and  down  the  floor  in  this 
state,  the  Saviour  graciously  appeared,  and  in  the  midst  of  my 
perturbation,  said  to  my  mental  ear,  "  Peace,  be  still,"  and  there 
was  a  great  calm.  I  then  became  more  resigned,  but  still  se- 
cretly clung  to  the  hope  that  she  would  be  spai'cd. 

On  the  18th  of  the  Sixth,  she  was  visited  by  one  of  her  cousins, 
whose  mind  had  been  brought  under  religious  exercise,  to  whom 
she  said :  "  My  desire  for  thee  since  thou  hast  been  sitting  here, 
dear  Susan,  has  been,  that  thou  ma}'  dig  deep,  and  get  to  that 
sure  foundation,  against  which  storms  and  tempests  shall  never 
bo  able  to  prevail ;  that  when  thou  comes  to  be  laid  on  such  a 
bed  as  I  now  am,  thou  may  have  a  well  grounded  ho])e  of  enter- 
ing into  that  rest,  where  sorrowing  and  sighing  will  be  done 
away."  This  cousin  died  in  a  short  time  after  her.  One  of  her 
aunts  sitting  by,  observing  her  to  be  in  much  suffering,  said  she 
believed  it  was  not  because  she  was  cast  oil",  that  her  distress 
of  body  was  so  great;  she  rejoined,  "Whom  the  Lord  loveth, 
He  chasteneth."  And  in  the  course  of  the  same  day,  her  father 
remarking  that  she  had  a  suffering  time,  she  sweetly  replied, 
"  Yes,  father,  but  I  have  an  Almighty  Friend  underneath  who 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  39 

supports  me  over  all."  On  the  19tli,  she  supplicated  thus,  "  Oh 
great  and  glorious  Lord,  grant  me  patience  that  will  carry  even 
through  the  gates  of  death.  Thou  knowest  that  I  have  en- 
deavored to  serve  thee  according  to  my  measure ;  prejiare  for 
me  according  to  thy  eternal  goodness,  a  mansion  of  rest ;  and 
shorten  the  time,  if  consistent  with  thy  holy  will."  After  a  few 
minutes,  "  In  all  my  trials  and  deep  afflictions,  I  have  refreshing 
seasons." 

At  a  time  of  great  bodily  suffering,  her  mother-in-law  being 
present,  she  said,  "  I  should  consider  it  a  favor  to  be  removed 
in  one  of  these  spells,  but  I  am  resigned;  it  is  my  meat  and 
drink  to  do  the  Lord's  will."  Some  time  after  she  expressed, 
"  Well  is  it  for  me,  that  part  of  the  work  was  done  before  such 
a  time  as  this."  Then  making  a  solemn  payse,  she  broke  forth  in 
commemoration  of  His  goodness,  and  in  intercession,  "Almighty 
God,  my  soul  doth  magnify  thee,  and  my  spirit  rejoieeth  in  thy 
salvation.  Oh,  grant  that  I  maj^  receive  daily  a  portion  of  thy 
holy,  everlasting  patience." 

On  the  22d,  being  in  much  pain  she  said,  "  I  had  need  to  cry 
aloud  for  patience.  O  Lord,  hear  the  voice  of  my  supplication ; 
be  near  in  the  hour  of  deep  distress."  Some  little  time  after, 
on  taking  some  drink  she  said,  "  I  ought  to  be  thankful  for  the 
many  blessings  and  favors  I  receive ;  there  are  many  poor  things 
who  have  to  suffer  all  this,  and  have  not  these,"  alluding  to  the 
refreshments  furnished  her. 

Her  father  and  mother-in-law  being  present  in  the  evening, 
she  said  to  them,  "  You  have  not  heard  me  my  dear  parents, 
say  much  respecting  these  dear  children  I  am  about  to  leave. 
In  the  early  part  of  my  sickness  I  had  a  comfortable  impression 
on  my  mind,  that  if  I  should  be  taken  from  them,  there  was  a 
Father  to  the  fatherless  and  a  Husband  to  the  widow,  so  I  have 
been  mercifully  kept  from  anxiety  about  them ;  yet  I  have  been 
at  times  concerned  for  their  everlasting  welfare ;  desiring  they 
might  know  the  God  of  their  fathers,  that  they  may  become 
earlier  acquainted  with  their  Creator  than  their  mother  was ; 
though  when  but  about  eleven  years  old  I  was  so  clearly  convinced 
of  a  principle  within,  that  condemned  for  doing  wrong,  and  led 
to  do  that  which  was  right,  that  I  have  been  induced  to  leave 
my  pillow,  with  my  cheeks  bathed  with  tears,  and  on  my  knees 
pray  that  I  might  be  a  good  child.  I  have  craved  that  they 
may  remember  their  Creator  in  the  days  of  their  youth,  and 


40  JOURNAL    OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

have  desired  that  rather  than  they  should  not  walk  in  the  way 
that  is  well  pleasing  to  llini,  He  would  be  pleased,  while  in  theil 
iunocency,  to  take  them  to  Himself." 

On  the  morning  of  the  23d.  "  Oh  great  and  holy  Eeing,  be 
pleased  to  grant  fresh  supplies  of  th}^  patience.  Oh  hear 
the  voice  of  my  supplication  ;  be  near  and  uphold  me,  for  I  have 
none  in  heaven  to  look  unto  but  thee,  nor  in  all  the  earth  in 
comparison  with  thee.  I  magnify  thee  for  thy  mercy,  and  for  all 
thy  benefits ;  I  love  to  speak  of  thy  goodness." 

Her  sufferings  on  the  morning  of  the  2-4th  were  very  great 
and  exhausted  her  much.  About  4  o'clock  in  the  morning,  in 
much  agony,  she  prayed,  "  O  Lord  be  near  ;  grant  me  patience 
in  this  trying  hour."  Then  said,  "  Oh  what  a  trial  and  conflict 
I  have  had !  Had  my^God  been  pleased  to  have  taken  me  in  this 
trying  hour,  what  a  favor !  Oh  grant  me  patience  ;  let  resigna- 
tion be  my  constant  theme.  Thou  art  great,  and  thou  art 
merciful.  Thou  knowest  all  my  deep  afiiictions ;  thou  wilt  not 
try  me  beyond  what  1  am  able  to  bear ;  therefore  let  me  bless 
and  praise  thee  with  this  poor  breath ;"  her  breathing  being  very 
diflicult.  A  little  while  after,  "  O  Lord,  take  me  to  thj-self.  O 
Lord  how  good  art  thou  to  me.  My  heart  is  filled  with  praises 
to  the  High  God  who  reigneth  above  with  the  Lamb  forever. 
Oh  the  sweet  peace."  After  those  trying  sensations  had  a  little 
subsided,  she  appeared  like  one  just  about  to  enter  the  king- 
dom, clothed  with  the  meekness  and  purity  of  one  of  the  Lord's 
redeemed  children.  In  a  sweet  and  heavenly  tone  she  said,  "I 
have  been  thinking  of  the  expression  of  our  Saviour,  Suffer 
little  children  to  come  unto  me,  for  of  such  is  the  kingdom  of 
heaven — their  angels  do  always  minister  to  my  Father  who  is  in 
heaven.  I  do  not  know  whether  it  is  correct,  but  it  is  what  I 
have  been  thinking  of." 

She  took  some  nourishment,  and  endeavored  to  compose  her- 
self to  sleep,  but  the  cough  being  frequent  it  was  much  inter- 
rupted. Her  mind  appeared  to  be  occupied  with  her  two  infant 
children,  of  whom  she  had  spoken  but  a  few  times  throughout 
her  sickness.  In  her  sweet  and  affectionate  manner  she  said, 
"  Oh  my  dear  little  jirattlings ;  when  I  see  them  under  the  pro- 
tection of  an  omnipotent  and  omniscient  Being,  overshadowed 
as  with  the  banner  of  his  love,  my  soul  is  filled  with  love,  with 
praises,  high  ])rai8cs  to  his  great  and  most  excellent  name — a 
Saviour  that  will  go  with  them  and  preserve  them  in  the  slip- 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  41 

peiy  paths  of  youth.  Oh  if  the  Lord  will  hear  my  prayer,  and 
check  their  early  propensity  to  evil." 

On  parting  with  her  brother,  Joel  Evans,  who  had  called  to 
see  her,  she  said,  "  Farewell  my  dear  brother ;  and  wdiether  I 
ever  see  thee  in  this  life  or  no,  may  the  Lord  bless  thee — bless 
thee  with  the  dew  of  heaven ;  and  mayest  thou  walk  w^orthy 
of  his  Holy  name,  that  so  thou  mayest  glorify  Him,  not  only  in 
this  world,  but  in  the  world  to  come — Farewell." 

Being  asked  in  the  afternoon  how  she  felt,  she  replied,  "  The 
body  is  comfortably  fixed."  It  was  then  inquired  whether  she 
did  not  feel  comfortable  in  mind,  she  answered,  "  Yes,"  and  then 
proceeded,  "  That  glorious  Presence  is  not  withdrawn,  but  I 
believe  is  near  to  support  my  poor,  weary,  tried,  tossed  mind ; 
not  tossed  with  tempest  but  weakness;  and  w^hen  it  shall  be  his 
glorious  will  to  take  me  hence,  I  go  rejoicingly.  If  I  love  and 
"serve  him,  will  He  not  keep  his  covenant  ?  yea,  most  surely." 

On  the  25th  her  brother  and  sister-in-law,  Joseph  and  Grace 
Evans,  from  the  country,  came  to  see  her,  and  previously  to 
their  leaving  she  addressed  them  in  this  wise,  "  I  cannot,  my 
dear  brother  and  sister,  let  you  pass  away,  as  my  time  here  may 
be  short,  perhaps  very  short — which  will  be  cause  of  rejoicing 
to  me  and  thankfulness  to  my  heavenly  Father— without  men- 
tioning what  has  presented  to  my  mind  of  the  importance  of 
becoming  acquainted  with  what  it  is  to  be  a  true  Christian  ;  not 
only  to  believe  in  the  Scriptures  that  Christ  was  born,  died 
and  rose  again,  but  come  to  experience  Him  to  visit  you,  guide 
you  and  direct  your  path  through  life.  Do  what  your  hands 
find  to  do,  not  only  as  it  regards  the  outward,  but  know  the  in- 
ward work  to  go  on  wath  the  day.  Thus  you  will  become 
united  to  the  Son  of  God.  This  will  sweeten  your  path  through 
life,  and  at  the  close  give  you  an  inheritance  in  his  kingdom, 
where  there  is  peace  and  jo}^  forevermore." 

ISTotwithstanding  the  intense  suffering  which  at  times  she  en- 
dured, her  heart  was  often  filled  with  praise  to  Him  who  had 
redeemed  her  by  the  spirit  of  judgment  and  of  burning,  and 
washed  away  her  sins  by  his  precious  blood.  In  the  course  of 
the  day  she  said,  "  Praise  the  Lord,  Oh  my  soul,  bless  his  holy 
name;  glorify  Him  whilst  thou  art  here;  sing  of  his  mercy  and 
goodness,  for  they  are  very  great." 

In  the  course  of  the  night,  her  beloved  friend  Mary  Morton, 
who  was  watching  with  her,  observing  to  her  that  she  had  in- 


42  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

deed  need  of  patience,  and  that  she  thought  she  was  abundantly 
supplied  with  it,  she  rei^licd,  "I  am  sensible  of  it  and  it  is  a 
great  mercy," — and  holding  her  friend's  hand,  she  coutinued 
nearly  in  these  words :  "I  have  much  to  be  thankful  for,-  I  was 
visited  in  very  early  life,  and  was  enabled  to  yield  to  the  heav- 
enly visitation ;  this  was  a  great  favor.  lie  has  been  with  me 
all  my  life  long,  and  does  not  forsake  me  in  this  closing  period ; 
but  is  graciously  pleased  at  times  to  qualify,  me  under  all  my 
bodily  sufferings,  to  commemmorate  his  marvellous  goodness, 
and  to  sing  praise,  high  praises  to  his  ever-excellent  Name." 

In  the  afternoon  of  the  27th,  a  few  hours  before  her  death, 
she  said :  "Praise  the  Lord,  jj raise  the  Lord,  Oh  my  soul ;  praise 
his  great  and  glorious  name.  Lean  upon  him  that  thou  mayest 
know  him  to  be  thy  support  in  the  hour  of  deep  conflict,  and  to 
receive  thee  into  the  kingdom  of  everlasting  rest." 

Her  close  drawing  near,  she  took  a  solemn  leave  of  her  con- 
nections present.  To  her  husband  she  said,  "Farewell,  farewell, 
dear  William — we  shall  meet  in  a  better  world  ;  the  Lord  will 
bless  us  there."  "Lord  Almighty  receive  my  spirit ;  angels  wait 
to  receive  my  spirit ;" — then  as  if  something  held  her,  she  said, 
"  Don't  hold  me,  don't  hold  mo  to  this  world."  She  quictl}'  dej:)arted 
about  twenty -five  minutes  past  11  o'clock  at  night,  the  27th  of 
the  Sixth  month,  1815,  in  the  twenty-eighth  year  of  her  age ; 
and  doubtless  has  entered  one  of  those  mansions  which  the  Son 
of  God  went  before  to  prepare  for  his  devoted  followers. 

My  situation  was  felt  to  be  destitute,  and  as  our  two  children 
were  mere  infants,  it  was  concluded  that  I  should  break  up 
housekeeping  and  return  to  board  with  my  parents. 

My  dear  mother  having  a  religious  concern  to  visit  Burling- 
ton, Shrewsbury  and  Eahway,  and  Bucks,  and  Abingtou  Quar- 
terly Meetings,  and  some  one  being  needed  to  drive  the  horses, 
it  was  concluded  that  I  should  undertake  it ;  and  my  health 
being  somewhat  impaired  by  confinement  and  waiting  on  my 
late  dear  wife,  the  journey,  particularly  through  the  pines  in 
New  Jersey,  would  probably  have  a  restorative  elfect.  We  set 
out  in  the  Eighth  montb,  and  visiting  all  the  meetings  in  pros- 
pect ;  we  were  absent  about  eight  weeks.  It  could  not  be  sup- 
posed the  journey  would  be  to  me  a  very  cheering  one,  but 
notwithstanding  my  own  situation,  and  the  trials  wo  met  with 
among  those  who  were  but  little  alive  to  the  great  cause  of  reli- 
gion, I  was  satisfied  with  having  given  up  to  it,  and  was  forci- 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  43 

bly  struck  as  we  rode  home  with  the  reflection,  how  short  tlie 
time  had  been.  It  seemed  an  emblem  of  hfe.  Looking  forward 
to  so  many  meetings  and  pkxces,  the  time  requisite  to  accom- 
plish it  all,  looked  long;  but  after  it  was  concluded,  it  was  like 
a  dream  or  a  vapor  that  soon  vanished. 

After  my  return  I  broke  up  housekeeping,  and  took  up  my 
residence  with  my  beloved  parents  on  the  10th  of  the  Eleventh 
month. 

Eleventh  month  13th.  Since  the  decease  of  my  dear  wife,  I 
have  often  had  to  feel  the  loss  of  her  precious  society,  but  a  be- 
lief that  she  is  in  the  company  of  saints  and  angels,  and  the 
spirits  of  the  just  made  perfect,  and  the  recollection  that  my 
own  time  will  be  short,  incite  me  to  endeavor  patiently  and 
cheerfully  to  hold  out  to  the  end.  This  is  a  state  of  mutability ; 
it  is  therefore  necessary  we  should  be  sensible  that  every  out- 
ward gift  is  held  by  a  very  slender  thread — let  us  then  strive 
to  become  increasingly  acquainted  with  that  which  never 
changes,  but  will  endure  beyond  time. 

1816.  In  the  Fourth  month  of  this  year  my  mother  having 
a  religious  concern  to  attend  New  York  Yearly  Meeting,  in 
which  Sarah  Wilson  a  minister  belonging  to  our  meeting  united, 
I  accompanied  them.  We  made  our  home  at  Thomas  Eddy's, 
who,  with  his  exercised  wife,  received  and  entertained  us  with 
much  kindness.  There  was  a  spirit  at  work  in  some  there  who 
put  on  great  plainness,  but  who  under  the  profession  of  8uj> 
porting  spiritual  religion,  were  beginning  to  undervalue  the 
benefits  and  importance  of  the  Holy  Scriptures. 

In  the  course  of  the  sittings  of  the  Yearly  Meeting,  an  epistle 
was  prepared  in  reply  to  that  received  from  the  London  Yearly 
Meeting,  in  which  the  frequent  reading  of  the  Scriptures  and 
the  proper  observance  of  the  first  day  of  the  week,  were  en- 
forced in  a  manner  which  appeared  to  me  consistent  with  the 
views  the  Society  of  Friends  had  always  held  on  these  subjects. 
Elias  Hicks  made  an  attack  upon  those  parts  of  the  epistle,  iu 
which  he  spoke  very  disparagingly  of  the  Sacred  Writings,  and 
improperly  of  the  observance  of  the  first  day ;  affirming  that 
the  spreading  of  the  Bible  w^as  a  part  of  the  system  of  priest- 
craft. 

We  visited  Mamaroneck  Meeting  and  the  meetings  on  Long 
Island.  When  at  Jericho,  the  women  Friends  lodged  at  Elias 
Hick's — I  staid  at  his  son-in  law's.     My  mother  told  me  that 


44  JOURNAL    OP    AVILLIAM    EVANS. 

she  had  a  serious  opportunity  with  him  respecting  the  course 
he  was  pursuing,  and  remonstrated  firmly  against  it,  endeavor- 
ing to  bring  him  to  feel  the  danger  that  awaited  himself,  and 
the  prejudicial  effects  it  must  have  upon  others.  She  said  he 
appeared  to  be  affected  by  her  hibors  with  him.  It  however 
availed  little,  as  his  after  course  proved.  After  getting  through 
with  the  services  which  my  mother  and  Sarah  Wilson  had  in 
view,  we  returned  home.  • 

1817,  Second  month  15th.  The  Delaware  river  closed  about 
the  24th  of  last  month;  preceding  that  time  the  weather  had 
been  unusually  mild,  which  gave  rise  to  the  expectation  that 
we  should  hfive  a  very  moderate  winter ;  but  the  greater  part 
of  the  last  two  weeks  has  been  excessively  cold.  Sleighs,  carts 
and  wagons  have  been  running  on  the  river  without  the  small- 
est apprehension  of  danger.  This  morning  the  mercury  stood  at 
five  degrees  below  zero. 

16th.  This  morning  my  father-in-law,  Aai'on  Musgrave,  died, 
ill  the  54th  year  of  his  age.  He  manifested  a  steady  patience 
throughout  his  illness,  and  though  ho  expressed  but  little  re- 
specting his  prospects  of  futurity,  yet  his  quiet,  resigned  frame 
of  mind,  left  no  doubt  with  those  who  attended  him  in  his  sick- 
ness, that  his  end  was  peace. 

The  view  of  a  fellow  mortal  gradually  wasting  away,  until 
the  earthly  tabernacle  is  no  longer  able  to  retain  that  part 
which  is  designed  for  an  eternal  duration,  is  humbling.  It 
shows  the  weakness  of  the  tenure  of  all  sublunary  enjoyments, 
and  calls  loudly  to  those  yet  left  behind,  to  use  all  diligence  in 
the  great  business  of  salvation,  liut  how  easily  do  we  suffiT 
ourselves  to  elude  the  force  of  impressions  made  by  such  ex- 
amples. Self-denial  of  the  fleeting  gratifications  of  this  world 
is  a  work  very  unwelcome  to  the  natui-al  man  ;  but  it  must 
nevertheless  be  submitted  to,  if  we  expect  to  become  conquerors 
through  Him  that  loved  and  died  for  us.  "  They  that  are 
Christ's  have  crucified  the  flesh,  with  the  affections  and  lusts." 

Sixth  month.  Hannah  Shinn,  a  minister  belonging  to  our 
Monthly  Meeting,  and  my  dear  mother,  having  concerns  to  at- 
tend New  England  Yearly  Meeting,  I  accompanied  them  to  it. 
We  went  to  New  York  and  from  thence  in  the  steamboat  for 
New  London,  where  we  took  stage  for  Providence,  Rhode 
Island,  and  put  u])  at  Obadiah  Brown's.  Our  women  Frienda 
were  taken  in  their  carriage  to  Newport,  and  I  went  by  water. 


JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  45 

In  Kewport  we  were  quartered  at  D.  Williams',  where  we  often 
had  the  company  of  many  Friends.  The  Yearly  Meeting  was 
one  of  considerable  exercise  to  our  women  Friends. 

During  the  week  we  had  several  religious  opportunities;  in 
one  of  them  at  our  lodgings,  my  mind  was  so  brought  under  ex- 
ercise on  account  of  some  present,  and  the  passage  presenting, 
"  If  any  man  among  you  seemeth  to  be  wise  in  this  world  let 
him  first  become  a  fool  that  he  may  be  wise,"  that  I  felt  con- 
strained to  revive  it,  with  a  short  application.  A  minister*  took 
it  up  and  spoke  upon  it,  which  seemed  confirming  that  I  was 
not  mistaken.  We  attended  a  few  meetings  after  the  Yearly  Meet- 
ing, crossed  to  Conanicut  Island,  and  thence  on  to  Nai'raganset, 
where  we  procui-ed  a  conveyance  to  New  London.  Next  morning 
left  the  wharf  in  a  steamboat  for  New  Haven,  and  thence  to  New 
Y''ork — attended  the  meeting  at  Liberty  Street,  and  next  morn- 
ing took  our  departure  for  home,  which  we  reached  the  follow- 
ing day  about  11  o'clock. 

Eighth  month  8th.  In  consequence  of  the  fines  assessed  by 
the  late  court-martial,  upon  Friends,  who  could  not  comply  with 
the  requisitions  of  the  Government,  either  to  serve  in  the  recent 
war  with  Grreat  Britain,  or  to  furnish  substitutes,  the  houses  of 
many  were  visited  by  the  marshal's  deputies,  and  their  bedding 
and  furniture  carried  off  by  cart  loads.  In  several  instances  the 
value  of  the  goods  distrained  was  from  one  hundred  to  two 
hundred  dollars.  One  Friend,  residing  in  the  vicinity  of  the 
city,  had  his  carriage,  worth  one  hundred,  dollars  taken  and  sold 
for  rather  more  than  forty  dollars.  The  fine  being  fifty  dollars, 
the  deputy  returned  and  took  his  chaise,  which  lately  cost  one 
hundred  dollars.  Thus  a  family  were  not  only  deprived  of  the 
means  of  conveyance  to  their  religious  meetings,  but  compelled 
to  sustain  a  loss  of  two  hundred  dollars  to  meet  a  fine  of  fifty 
dollars,  arbitrarily  imposed  by  a  court-martial,  from  whose  deci- 
sions there  is  no  appeal.  These  decisions  were  evidently  marked 
with  great  partiality ;  as  a  neighbor  of  the  Friend  was  fined 
but  nine  dollars,  though  no  shade  of  difference  could  be  per- 
ceived in  the  circumstances  of  the  respective  cases;  except  that 
one  was  a  member  of  a  religious  society  whose  testimony 
against  war  is  coeval  with  its  existence.  While  these  distraints 
and  great  sacrifice  of  Friends'  property  were  carrying  on,  they 
did  not  fail  to  lay  account  of  them  befox-e  the  public  through 

*  Stephen  Grellet. 


46  JOURXAL    OF    WILLIAM   EVANS. 

the  mediiini  of  one  of  the  daily  papers,  and  some  of  them  were 
such  flagrant  violations  of  what  even  military  men  would  re- 
gard as  just,  that  they  brought  some  of  the  deputies  to  shame, 
and  a  stop  was  put  to  it. 

The  unjust  proceedings  consequent  upon  the  late  war,  often 
led  me  to  many  serious  reflections  upon  its  desolating  ettects, 
both  in  the  destruction  of  human  life,  and  the  unjust  persecu- 
tion of  conscientious  men  who  cannot  join  in  with  it.  The 
mind  that  is  clothed  with  Divine  love,  the  charity  which  endu- 
reth  all  things,  sincerely  and  humbly  desires  the  welfare  of  all 
men,  even  of  those  who  treat  us  with  coldness,  or  actuated  by 
the  spirit  of  rev^enge,  seek  to  injure  us.  Where  this  heavenly 
feeling  subsists,  the  spirit  of  revenge,  which  is  the  spirit  of  war, 
has  no  place.  One  is  from  heaven,  from  the  Fountain  of  love, 
which  seeks  the  salvation  of  all  men;  the  other  is  derived  from 
the  malevolence  of  the  fallen  spirits  or  devils,  who  are  constantly 
seeking  the  injury  and  final  destruction  of  all  men. 

Ninth  month  9Lh.  At  different  times  in  the  course  of  my 
life  I  have  apprehended  that  at  some  period,  I  should  be  en- 
gaged in  publicly  laboring  in  the  great  cause  of  Truth,  to  turn 
the  attention  of  others,  through  its  constraining  power,  from 
darkness  to  light  and  from  the  power  of  Satan  unto  God.  Clear 
and  distinct  openings  have  been  made  upon  my  mind  in  a  very 
impressive  manner,  in  relation  to  the  standing  and  qualification 
of  a  gospel  minister.  It  has  appeared  to  me  necessary  that 
through  the  humbling  power  of  Christ,  and  the  baptisms  of  the 
cross,  his  will  should  be  reduced,  and  a  state  of  childlike  r^ 
liance  on  the  Leader  of  Israel,  in  a  good  degree  attained,  that 
he  may  be  prepared  to  stand  as  an  instrument  through  whom 
the  Lord  condescends  to  speak  to  his  people. 

For  several  months  past  the  time  appeared  to  be  drawing 
nigh  for  me  to  make  more  public  the  concern  that  had  been 
shut  up  in  my  own  breast.  I  had  many  impressive  openings 
which  seemed  nearly  ripe  for  communicating,  but  remembering 
the  awfulness  and  importance  of  the  work,  I  kept  back.  Some- 
times I  rejoiced  after  meetings  in  believing  they  were  Divine 
impressions,  and  sometimes  I  felt  concerned  that  by  putting  otf 
too  long,  I  might  get  into  the  habit  of  slighting  them,  while  I 
was  looking  for  satisfactory  evidence  of  the  origin  of  the  con- 
cern. But  He  who  knows  how  to  deal  with  his  children,  did 
not  forsake  me,  but  furnished  with  a  fresh  opening  this  morn- 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  47 

ing  in  our  Fourth-day  meeting.  As  heretofore  1  was  preparing 
to  set  it  aside  for  further  confirmation,  when  a  beloved  Friend 
was  engaged  to  call  upon  some  to  be  faithful — that  no  sign 
should  be  given,  but  that  of  the  prophet  Jonah,  who  for  his 
disobedience  was  permitted  to  descend  into  deep  suffering  and 
anguish.  This  seemed  so  clearly  applicable,  that  recollecting 
1  had  passed  through  many  night  seasons,  and  feeling  after 
she  sat  down  the  Iresh  arisings  of  the  concern,  I  stood  up 
and  with  an  audible  voice,  said,  "  God  is  our  refuge,  in  Him 
will  we  put  our  trust.  They  that  trust  in  the  Lord  shall  never 
be  confounded,  but  they  shall  be  as  Mount  Zion  that  cannot  be 
removed.  Christ  Jesus  remains  to  be  the  eternal  Kock  and 
foundation ;  blessed  are  all  they  that  are  built  upon  Him." 

My  mind  was  preserved  in  calmness  throughout  the  day,  free 
from  doubt  of  the  propriety  of  my  moving  in  the  weighty  and 
solemn  work.  My  dear  friend,  Thomas  Kite,  called  down  at  the 
store  to  see  me,  and  though  he  said  but  little,  seemed  like  one 
who  rejoiced  that  a  child  was  born,  secretly  desiring  that  preser- 
vation and  proper  nourishment  might  be  vouchsafed  by  Him 
who  alone  can  give  them. 

Tenth  month  15th.  "  Who  do  men  say  that  I,  the  Son  of 
Man,  am  ?"  And  they  said,  "  Some  say  that  thou  art  John  the 
Baptist ;  some  Elias,  and  others,  Jeremias,  or  one  of  the  pro- 
phets." Yarious  have  been  the  opinions  of  many,  perhaps  in 
every  age  since,  respecting  the  Messiah,  and  in  none,  more  so 
than  in  the  present.  There  are  societies  who  consider  them- 
selves Christians  that  make  no  scruple  to  profess  they  believe 
Him  to  be  no  other  than  man,  though  they  acknowledge  He 
was  a  great  prophet,  divinely  insj)ired,  but  in  no  way  differing 
from  those  prophets  and  good  men  who  preceded  Him.  It  is  a 
most  fearful  state  of  unbelief  to  be  introduced  into,  and  must 
finally  land  the  mind  in  great  wretchedness. 

When  Jesus  put  the  question  to  his  discij)les,  "But  who  say  ye 
that  I  am  ?"  Peter  answered,  "  Thou  art  the  Christ,  the  Son  of 
the  living  God.  And  Jesus  answered  and  said  unto  him.  Blessed 
art  thou,  Simon  Barjona,  for  flesh  and  blood  hath  not  revealed  it 
unto  thee,  but  my  Father  which  is  in  heaven ;  and  I  say  also  unto 
thee,  that  thou  art  Peter,  and  upon  this  rock  1  will  build  my 
church,  and  the  gates  of  hell  shall  not  prevail  against  it."  Men 
may  endeavor  to  satisfy  themselves,  from  the  testimony  of  the 
prophets  and  apostles,  respecting  our  blessed  Saviour,  whose  tes- 


48  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

timony  is  true  and  invaluable  to  the  true  believer,  yet  I  believe 
the  saving  knowledge  of  Cfod  and  of  his  dear  Sou,  and  true  faith 
in  Him,  are  received  in  no  other  way  but  by  the  revelation  of 
the  Spirit  in  the  soul.  By  a  childlike  reception  and  reliance 
upon  its  divine  openings,  walking  in  the  obedience  of  faith,  we 
shall  be  prepared  for  further  discoveries  of  his  will,  and  be 
gradually  enabled  to  comprehend  in  degree,  as  He  sees  fit,  the 
mystery  of  Godliness.  Numerous  are  the  testimonies  of  Christ 
himself  and  of  his  apostles  to  his  eternal  divinity,  as  recorded 
in  the  Scriptures  of  Truth,  which  become  substantial  evidence 
to  us,  as  they  are  unfolded  and  confirmed  by  the  Holy  Spirit ; 
leading  us  to  an  unreserved  belief  of  them,  as  it  would  assur- 
edly^ do  all  who  have  the  Holy  Scriptures,  and  are  entirely 
given  up  to  its  requirings.  The  apostle  Paul  clearly  shows  the 
distinction  between  the  Son  and  Sent  of  the  Father,  and  his 
angels  and  ministers.  "Who  maketh  his  angels,  spirits,  and 
his  ministers  a  flame  of  fire;  but  unto  the  Son  he  saith.  Thy 
throne,  O  God,  is  forever  and  ever ;  a  sceptre  of  righteousness 
is  the  sceptre  of  thy  kingdom." 

Tenth  month  25th.  In  our  morning  and  afternoon  meetings 
the  prevalence  of  a  worldly  spirit  was  felt.  If  the  profits  and 
friendship  of  the  world  be  our  primar}''  pursuit,  thej''  become 
in  a  great  measure  the  gods  we  worship;  and  it  is  not  to  be 
supposed,  that  such  worshippers  who  have  their  backs  to  the 
temple,  will  be  favored  to  feel  the  life  of  Truth  to  rise  into 
dominion  over  their  fleshly  minds,  just  when  they  may  choose 
to  assemble  in  the  character  of  public  wor8hi])pers. 

Tenth  month  28th.  This  day  was  held  our  Monthly  Meeting 
for  the  Southern  District.  We  had  the  company  of  Silas  Down- 
ing from  Long  Island,  and  William  Eiekman  from  England. 
On  answering  some  of  the  Queries,  it  Avas  evident  that  much  de- 
linquency prevailed  in  the  attendance  of  our  meetings  for  wor- 
shi])  and  discipline — the  free  circulation  of  true  love,  and  its  in- 
variable com])anion,  unit}'',  has  been  much  impeded  ;  and  hence 
the  barrenness  often  felt  in  our  meetings  for  Divine  worship ; 
which  no  doubt  is  a  discouragement  to  many^  who  are  not  suf- 
ficiently zealous  in  the  performance  of  this  essential  duty. 
There  is  a  number  who  are  concerned  at  heart  for  the  u])right 
support  of  our  discipline  and  cannot  rest  satisfied  with  su])er- 
ficial  conclusions:  but  the  same  cause  which  hinders  the  arising 
of  Divine  life  in  our  assemblies  fur  pulilic  worship,  operates  to 


JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS.  49 

produce  indiifereBce  and  unsound  judgment  on  the  part  of  others, 
iu  relation  to  the  disposal  of  some  cases  that  come  before  us. 

Eleventh  month  1st.  This  morning  the  meeting  was  held  in 
silence.  When  the  disciples  enquired  of  the  Master  "Who  is  the 
greatest  in  the  kingdom  of  heaven  ?  Jesus  called  a  little  child 
unto  Him  and  set  him  in  the  midst  of  them  and  said,  verily,  I  say 
unto  you,  except  ye  be  converted  and  become  as  little  cliildi'cn, 
ye  shall  not  enter  into  the  kingdom  of  heaven.  Whosoever 
therefore  shall  humble  himself  as  this  little  child,  the  same  is 
greatest  in  the  kingdom  of  heaven."  Oh  the  great  value  of 
true  humility!  not  a  mere  voluntary  servile  humility,  which  is 
often  accompanied  with  an  improper  admiration  of  the  gifts 
and  standing  of  others.  True  humility  is  attained  through 
mortification  and  the  abasement  of  self,  while  the  false  and 
spurious,  may  be  held  with  imaginary  importance  and  a  quick- 
ness of  sensibility  that  is  incapable  of  bearing  the  reproaches  of 
others.  Under  the  humbling  operations  of  the  power  of  Truth 
we  are  prepared  for  the  Master's  use,  either  silently  to  suffer 
with  the  Seed  that  is  oppressed  in  the  hearts  of  men,  or  when 
He  arises,  openly  to  advocate  his  blessed  cause,  to  bring  judg- 
ment home  to  the  transgressor,  and  encourage  the  sincere 
travellers  to  hold  up  their  heads  in  hope. 

4th.  The  marriage  of  Joseph  Ehoads  with  my  sister  Hannah 
was  accomplished  to-day.  Being  surrounded  by  friends  and 
connections,  the  occasion  frequently  revived  the  recollection  of 
mj'^  own  marriage  a  few  years  since,  and  the  endearing  coun- 
tenance and  manners  of  a  beloved  companion,  now  among  the 
spirits  of  the  blessed;  and  also  the  uncertain  tenure  of  all 
earthly  joys.  Eichard  Jordan  attended  the  meeting  and  dined 
with  us.  He  mentioned  in  his  testimony,  that  our  trials  if 
rightly  profited  by,  would  tend  to  advance  the  great  work  of 
man's  salvation.  I  remembered  some  of  my  own  conflicts,  and 
hoped  that  through  the  continued  goodness  of  my  Heavenly 
Father,  I  might  not  miss  of  being  benefited  b}^  them,  but 
might  spend  my  strength  and  the  remainder  of  my  time  in  my 
blessed  Master's  service ;  either  in  bearing  the  requisite  share 
of  baptism  for  myself  and  for  the  sake  of  others,  or  in  more 
openly  advocating  his  glorious  cause  of  truth  and  righteous- 
ness in  the  earth. 

15th.  I  have  felt  concerned  for  the  lapsed,  mixed  state  of  the 
church.     I  have  seen  a  spirit  at  work  among  us,  which  aims  at 


50  JOURNAL   OF   AVILLIAM   EVANS. 

drawing  the  minds  of  many  from  a  simple  dependence  uj^on  the 
internal  guidance  of  the  Head  of  the  Church,  and  is  opposed  to 
the  administration  of  sound  discipline.  It  is  very  ready  to 
judge  the  ministry  of  substantial  Friends,  while  it  pleads  for 
that  which  is  supported  with  money,  and  stands  in  the  will  and 
wisdom  of  man.  We  are  weak  enough  already,  but  propagat- 
ing unsound  opinions,  neither  contributes  to  our  own  good  nor 
that  of  others.  As  certainly  as  we  forsake  the  secret  sense 
which  the  Truth  begets  in  relation  to  our  individual  duty,  and 
depend  upon  the  wisdom  and  the  reasoning  of  man,  our  minis- 
try will  become  destitute  of  the  quickening  power  and  virtue 
of  the  Holy  Spirit,  and  the  Society  dwindle  into  lifeless  for- 
mality. 

I  have  continued  attending  the  meeting  to  which  I  belong, 
without  feeling  any  inclination  to  go  to  any  other  in  the  city. 
They  have  not  been  without  instruction  to  myself,  though  I 
have  not  felt  it  to  be  right  to  impart  the  exercise  which  has 
come  over  me  at  times,  until  this  morning,  when  the  impres- 
sions attending  a  little  opening  were  such,  that  I  was  induced 
to  offer  it. 

26th.  There  are  many  pollutions  in  the  world  with  which 
we  are  liable  to  be  defiled,  through  unwatchfulness,  or  disobedi- 
ence ;  but  the  Lord  of  life  and  glory  will  not  dwelf  in  a  defiled 
heart.  How  necessary  then  to  submit  to  his  purifying  bap- 
tisms— that  of  the  Holy  Ghost  and  fire ;  and  when  in  his  un- 
speakable goodness,  He  has  cleansed  and  prepared  the  heai't  a 
fit  temple  for  his  Holy  Spirit  to  dwell  in,  let  us  be  very  careful 
how  we  defile  it.  '  <'If  any  man  defile  the  temple  of  God,  him 
will  God  destroy." 

"  One  day  is  with  the  Lord  as  a  thousand  years  and  a  thou- 
sand years  as  one  day."  There  is  no  haste  with  Him  in  carry- 
ing on  his  work;  and  in  order  to  witness  the  accomplishment 
of  his  gracious  purposes  concerning  us,  we  must  learn  to  dwell 
in  the  faith  and  patience  of  the  saints.  Christ  Jesus  is  the 
blessed  author  and  finisher  of  the  saints'  faith  ;  He  will  furnish 
with  sufficient  light  to  discover  our  respective  duties,  and  as 
Ave  humbly  follow  his  leadings,  will  carry  on  and  perfect  his 
work,  to  his  own  praise  and  our  everlasting  peace.  ' 

Twelfth  month  31st.  On  the  29th,  about  two  o'clock  in  the 
afternoon,  died  our  beloved  friend,  Sai-ah  Wilson,  (wife  of  Ed- 
ward,) a  minister  and  member  of  our  Monthly  Meeting.     She 


JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  51 

was  taken  sick  on  the  26th,  and  on  the  28th  became  alarm- 
ingly ill,  and  sank  very  fast.  Her  mind  was  kept  in  a  tranquil 
state,  and  with  much  composure  she  took  leave  of  all  her 
family.  Richard  Jordan,  who  was  strongly  attached  to  her,  I 
understood  was  present  at  her  departure,  and  afterwards  said 
he  thought  he  had  never  witnessed  such  feelings  of  solemnity 
and  awfulness,  as  on  that  occasion ;  accompanied  with  an  indu- 
bitable evidence  that  she  was  received  into  the  arms  of  her 
Saviour  in  the  mansions  of  everlasting  blessedness.  She  was 
possessed  of  a  mild  temper  and  affable  manners  —  cheerful 
though  not  light — dignified  in  her  deportment,  yet  truly  hum- 
ble, and  manifesting  a  sympathizing  spirit  towards  those  in 
affliction.  Her  gift  in  the  ministry  was  precious — her  appear- 
ances were  not  frequent,  but  attended  with  a  degree  of  baptis- 
ing virtue,  and  evidently  the  product  of  heartfelt  exercise  on 
account  of  those,  to  whom  her  divine  Master  put  her  forth  to 
minister.  We  might  have  expected  from  her  age  and  health, 
and  her  qualifications  for  usefulness,  that  at  this  time  of  weak- 
ness in  the  church,  and  departure  of  many  from  a  steady  sub- 
mission to  the  yoke  of  Christ,  she  would  have  been  continued 
long  to  occupy  her  valuable  gift  and  talents  in  helping  to  guard 
the  flock,  and  to  build  up  the  waste  places  of  Zion.  But  He 
who  made  her  what  she  was,  has  in  his  unsearchable  wisdom, 
cut  short  her  work  in  righteousness,  and  although  the  priva- 
tion of  her  society  and  labors  has  been  painful  to  us,  it 
must  be  her  gain.  We  have  our  day's  work  to  perform,  and  to 
endeavor  to  have  our  lamps  trimmed  and  loins  girded.  Wait- 
ing daily  upon  our  Lord  to  know  and  to  fulfil  his  will,  is  our 
individual  duty ;  and  happy  will  it  be  when  the  end  comes,  to 
have  a  well-grounded  hope,  from  the  testimony  of  the  Holy 
Spirit,  that  a  place  of  glorious  rest  is  prepared  for  us  through  the 
imutterable  mercy  of  God  in  Christ  Jesus  our  Lord ;  having 
walked  in  faithfulness  to  his  divine  requirings. 


52  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

CHAPTEE   III. 

1819—1823. 

Waiting  before  the  Lord — Visit  to  Ohio — Unsound  Sentiments  of  Eliaa 
Hicks — Necessity  for  Watchfulness — Family  Visit — Duty  of  Keeping  in 
True  Patience — Severe  Ilhiess — Desertion  and  Distress — Trial  of  Faith — 
Letter  from  a  Friend — Acknowledged  as  a  Minister — Yearly  Meeting — 
Discouraging  Fears — Ranterism  in  New  England — Spread  of  Unsound 
Doctrines — Testimony  of  J.  Whitall — Reflections  on  the  State  of  Society. 

1819,  First  month  10th.  There  is  a  material  difference  be- 
tween what  we  call  good  thoughts,  and  being  brought  to  sit 
under  the  teachings  of  Christ  in  our  own  hearts,  when  assem- 
])led  for  divine  worship.  His  words  are  spirit  and  they  are 
life  to  tlie  soul;  but  the  wanderings  of  the  mind  in  contem- 
plating religious  truths,  without  the  influence  of  his  Spirit, 
must  end  in  barrenness  and  poverty.  Hence  it  is  our  chief 
])usine8S  to  labor  to  get  to  a  state  of  humble  waiting  before 
Him,  that  wo  may  be  instructed  by  the  gracious  words  that 
still  proceed  from  Ilim  in  his  spiritual  appearance  in  tlie  heart. 

Fifth  month  2d.  It  is  a  great  favor  to  be  redeemed  from  all 
outward  and  human  dependence,  and  to  have  the  mind  brought 
simply  and  singly  to  w^ait  upon  God.  In  a  state  of  reverent 
silence  before  him.  He  is  at  times  pleased  to  manifest  himself 
l>y  the  diffusion  of  his  light  and  love,  and  the  soul  being 
clothed  with  gratitude  to  the  Author  of  all  its  sure  mercies,  is 
enabled  to  worship  as  in  his  presence,  and  to  offer  up  thanks- 
givings and  praise  to  his  great  name.  Herein  is  experienced 
the  communion  of  saints  as  at  his  table,  a  participation  of  the 
l)ody  and  blood  of  Christ.  The  soul  is  nourished  and  strength- 
ened not  only  l)y  the  living  virtue  immediately  flowing  from 
the  Head,  but  is  edified  by  that  strength  which  every  joint 
supplieth,  by  the  effectual  working  of  the  measure  of  Grace  in 
every  part  of  the  body.  These  vicAVS  0])ened  before  me  this 
mornin",  but  for  want  of  coming  to  a  state  of  humble,  patient 
waiting,  I  did  not  fully  realize  them  in  my  own  experience, 
liatterly  this  has  been  nothing  new — but  perhaps  the  period  is 
not  far  distant,  when  I  shall  be  again  restored  to  a  more  steady 
and  sensible  enjoyment  of  this  blessed  communion,  so  essential 
1o   our  spiritual    life,   and   the  successful  maintenance  of  the 


JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  53 

Christian  warfare.  Oh !  the  necessity  of  keeping  the  faith  in 
times  of  stripping  and  desertion.  Without  it  we  shall  be  over- 
come by  temptation,  rather  than  be  made  conquerors. 

Sixth  month  11th.  After  a  time  of  silence  for  several  months, 
on  fourth-day  the  9th,  I  again  apprehended  myself  called 
upon  to  communicate  some  matter  which  was  opened  beiore 
me.  Like  many  other  presentations,  I  had  doubts  whether  it 
was  designed  for  others,  and  nearly  concluded  I  should  leave 
the  meeting  in  silence ;  but  after  attaining  a  state  of  resigna- 
tion either  to  speak  or  to  be  silent,  all  doubt  was  removed,  and 
I  was  enabled  to  otfer  what  came  before  me,  with  calmness  and  a 
degree  of  innocent  boldness.  I  make  these  memoranda  for  my 
own  use  at  a  future  period  of  life,  should  it  be  prolonged,  that  on 
looking  back  I  may  see  how  I  have  progressed  from  one  time 
to  another. 

There  are  many  lessons  to  be  learned  in  silence  as  well  as  in 
speaking,  and  to  be  brought  into  a  state  of  childlike  docility, 
and  obedience  to  the  leadings  of  our  heavenly  Shepherd,  seems 
to  be  the  principal  end  of  all  the  dispensations  of  his  wisdom. 
The  haughtiness  of  man  must  be  laid  low,  and  the  Lord  alone 
exalted  in  that  heart  which  is  prepared  to  be  acceptably  en- 
gaged in  his  service.  In  a  state  of  deep  humility  and  patient 
waiting  upon  Him,  we  become  prepared  to  discern  the  motions 
of  his  Spirit,  and  in  simplicity  to  yield  compliance  therewith. 
There  is  as  much  need  to  learn  to  be  still,  and  to  know  the 
active,  forward  disposition  of  the  human  mind  reduced  to  sub- 
jection, as  there  is  to  experience  a  willingness  wrought  to  per- 
f<)rm  the  Lord's  will  when  it  is  manifested.  He  is  a  wise 
Master  Builder,  and  if  we  abide  under  his  preparing  hand,  He 
Avill  fashion  us  into  vessels  and  instruments  for  his  use. 

Ninth  month  26th.  Having  had  some  views  of  attending 
Ohio  Yearly  Meeting,  and  being  desirous  of  seeing  a  beloved 
sister-in-law,  I  set  off  the  17th  of  last  month,  for  Zanesville,  to 
which  town  she  had  removed  with  her  husband  last  winter.  I 
got  there  on  the  28th,  after  a  lonely  ride  through  a  country  al- 
together new  to  me,  and  remained  with  them  five  days.  I  set 
out  homeward  for  Mount  Pleasant,  and  on  the  way  came  up 
with  a  Friend  residing  in  that  State,  who  was  going  to  the 
Yearly  Meeting.  It  was  pleasant  to  fall  in  with  a  Friend, 
though  a  stranger  to  me,  and  we  kept  in  company  throughout 
the  remainder  of  the  journey  there.  I  went  to  a  public  house, 
5 


54  JOURNAL   OF    WTLLIAM    EVANS. 

but  was  soon  eomfbrtahly  provided  Tor  at  a  Friend's  house  in 
the  village.  1  attended  the  sittings  of  the  Yearly  Meeting, 
which  were  accompanied  with  a  good  degree  of  solemnity. 
They  had  been  engaged  in  revising  their  discipline,  which  was 
read  and  adojited.  A  proposition  to  divide  the  Yearly  Meet- 
ing, which  had  been  under  consideration  for  two  years,  Avas 
dismissed,  from  a  belief  that  the  time  for  such  a  measure  was 
not  yet  come.  This  conclusion  appeared  to  be  nnexpected 
by  many,  but  such  was  the  evidence  of  its  propriety,  that 
Friends  generally  expressed  their  satisfaction  with  it.  This 
opportunity  furnished  fresh  evidence  of  the  goodness  and  care 
of  our  Holy  Shepherd,  who  watches  his  flock  by  night  and  by 
day,  and  in  the  needful  time,  as  He  is  waited  upon,  manifesteth 
himself  for  its  preservation.  Several  Friends  from  the  eastern 
Yearly  Meetings  were  present.  I  returned  home,  having  been 
absent  five  weeks  and  four  days. 

Vessels  must  be  emptied  belbrc  they  are  prepared  to  be  filled; 
and  not  only  emptied,  but  cleansed.  This  is  especially  the  case 
with  the  vessels  of  the  Lord's  house. 

Tenth  month  11th.  Attended  the  Monthly  Meeting  of  Ilad- 
donfield,  in  which  I  had  a  little  service.  It  was  accompanied 
and  concluded  with  peaceful ness. 

Eleventh  month  2d.  Elias  llicks  having  been  in  the  city  six 
daj's,  went  out  to  Germantown  this  morning.  The  meetings 
where  he  was  present  have  been  very  large.  The  variety  and 
novelty  in  his  communications  excited  much  curiosity,  a  great 
deal  of  remark,  and  perhaps,  in  some  instances,  disgust.  Ho  is 
hold  in  assertion,  extensive  in  his  ranges,  and  not  nnfreqnently 
appears  inconsistent  with  his  previously  expressed  opinions. 
I  was  tried  with  his  manner  of  treating  the  doctrine  of  the 
Three  that  bear  record  in  heaven,  in  one  of  his  testimonies  at 
Mount  Pleasant,  Ohio.  In  speaking  of  the  new  birth  in  man, 
as  cifected  by  the  Holy  Spirit,  he  said,  here  is  Father,  Son  and 
Holy  Ghost;  which  according  to  the  nuinner  in  which  he  and 
his  adherents  applied  Scripture,  appeared  to  me  to  be  designed 
to  draw  away  the  mind  from  a  sound  belief  in  the  Three  that 
bear  record  in  heaven,  and  fjisten  uj)()n  hisht^arers  the  idea  that 
in  no  other  way  are  wo  to  believe  in  the  Son  of  God  than  as 
the  new  birth  in  man.  I  spoke  to  him  as  wo  walked  ft'om  meeting 
•over  to  Jonathan  Taylor's,  and  remarked  that  it  a]>peared  to 
nie  lie  had  not  held  forth  the  faith  of  Friends  in  our  Saviour,  as 


JOURNAL   OF   AVILLIAM    EVANS.  55 

he  is  glorified  at  the  right  hand  of  the  Father.  He  turned  away 
from  the  subject  by  saying,  "  The  Apostles  were  often  misunder- 
stood;" but  he  avoided  giving  any  further  explanation  of  his 
opinions,  as  we  might  suppose  a  man  would  do  who  was  not 
afraid  of  being  detected,  and  really  held  and  wished  to  advocate 
the  doctrines  of  our  Saviour  and  his  Apostles. 

It  is  a  favor  amidst  the  noises  and  confusion  there  arc  in  the 
world  to  feel  something  on  which  we  can  rest  with  certainty. 
As  we  labor  to  dwell  near  the  Truth  in  our  own  hearts,  this  is 
at  such  seasons  more  eminently  experienced,  and  its  advantages 
more  correctly  prized.  "My  sheep,"  said  Christ,  "hear  my 
voice  and  I  know  them,  and  they  follow  me ;  and  I  give  unto 
them  eternal  life  and  they  shall  never  perish,  neither  shall  any 
pluck  them  out  of  my  hand."  He  is  still  the  Bishop  and  Shep- 
herd of  his  flock ;  He  still  feedeth  them  by  day  and  keepeth 
them  by  night ;  He  causeth  them  to  feed  in  green  pastures,  the 
pastures  of  life;  He  makeththem  to  lie  down  beside  still  waters. 
This  is  a  state  of  true  peacefulness,  the  enjojTiient  of  that  jieaco 
which  passeth  the  understanding  of  man,  and  of  which,  as  we 
abide  under  the  shadow  of  his  wing,  the  world  and  all  its  com- 
motions cannot  rob  us. 

Eleventh  month  5th.  I  attended  the  meeting  at  Springfield 
yesterday,  where  I  was  impressed  Avith  the  belief  it  was  right 
to  communicate  some  matter  which  opened  before  me ;  but  on 
sitting  down  an  inquiry  was  raised  in  my  mind  whether  I  had 
not  better  have  kept  silent.  I  could  not  perceive  any  uneasi- 
ness that  convinced  me  I  had  erred,  and  therefore  concluded  the 
sensation  of  desertion  was  best  for  me,  though  not  pleasant  to 
the  creature.  It  is  an  humbling,  mortifying  work ;  but  if  we  are 
preserved  in  the  Lord's  hand,  not  running  without  his  com- 
mand, nor  lagging  behind  our  guide,  it  will  be  enough  ;  and 
when  He  sees  proper.  He  will  give  evidence  that  the  work  is 
his,  and  that  as  we  faithfully  submit  to  him  in  all  things.  He 
will  perfect  it  to  his  praise — at  least  this  is  my  sincere  hope  and 
belief. 

Eleventh  month  16th.  The  instances  that  have  occurred  of 
persons  who  began  well,  but  afterwards  made  shipwreck  of  foith 
and  of  a  good  conscience,  are  subjects  of  mournful  reflection, 
both  for  their's  and  the  great  cause'  sake.  Under  feelings  of 
love  to  our  Heavenly  Father,  we  may  at  times  be  ready  to  con- 
clude, that  we  are  resolved  to  follow  Him  and  shall  no  more 


56  JOURNAL    OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

forsake  him.  The  power  of  temptation  is  often  strong  and 
potently  pressing,  and  although,  so  far,  we  have  been  kept  from 
being  cast  away,  j^et  unless  the  watch  is  maintained ;  and  we  are 
frequently  brought  to  feel  our  need  of  daily  help,  and  that  of 
ourselves  we  cannot  stand,  and  thereby  are  led  to  cry  unto  the 
Lord  for  preservation,  we  may  be  overtaken  in  an  unwary  hour, 
and  carried  by  temptation  into  a  land  of  pits  and  snares,  whence 
we  cannot  easily  escape,  and  may  bring  upon  ourselves  deep 
suffering,  and  reproach  on  the  holy  cause  we  had  espoused. 
The  growth  from  infancy  to  manhood  is  by  slow  and  almost 
imperceptible  gradations ;  as  Ave  advance  in  religious  experi- 
ence by  little  and  little,  so  by  a  gradual  neglect  of  watchful- 
ness and  prayer,  we  may  decline  and  finally  lose  our  standing 
in  the  Truth.  How  important  then  frequently  to  remember 
the  rock  whence  we  were  hewn,  and  the  hole  of  the  pit  wdience 
w'e  were  digged.  It  was  not  our  own  arm  that  effected  this, 
but  His  who  saw  us  in  a  state  of  corruption,  and  in  mercy  said 
unto  us,  live !  Oh  let  us  lie  low  before  Him,  and  above  all 
things  desire,  that  in  heights  and  in  depths.  He  will  be  pleased 
to  keep  us  in  the  hollow  of  his  holy  hand,  and  by  the  cleansing 
operations  of  his  baptizing  power,  qualify  us  for  the  perform- 
ance of  our  allotted  service  in  his  church  militant  on  earth. 

Eleventh  month  17th.  When  the  Master  directed  Simon  and 
his  companions  to  launch  out  into  the  deep  and  let  down  the  net 
for  a  draught;  thinking  perhaps  it  would  be  unavailing,  he  re- 
plied, that  they  had  toiled  all  the  night  and  had  taken  nothing  ; 
nevertheless,  at  thy  word  I  will  let  down  the  net ;  and  com- 
plying with  his  direction  when  and  where  to  cast  it,  they  en- 
closed a  great  multitude  of  fishes.  If  this  is  figurative  of  the 
Christian's  duty  and  experience,  it  shows  that  our  exertion,  in- 
dependent of  Divine  direction  and  aid,  will  prove  unavailing , 
that  Ave  must,  notAvithstanding,  be  prepared  to  receive  the  com- 
mand of  our  divine  Master,  and  that  l)y  obedience  we  shall 
not  fail  to  obtain  that  heaAi-cnly  food  which  Avill  noui-ish  and 
sustain  the  soul. 

Twelfth  month  26th.  Last  fifth-day  I  attended  Green  Street 
Monthly  Meeting.  It  required  some  exertion  to  get  through  the 
discouragement  presented  in  the  way ;  but  I  was  satisfied  in  going, 
as  it  furnished  an  opportunity  of  viewing  some  of  the  defects, 
and  the  AA'ant  of  a  liA^ely  zeal  in  some — a  worldly  spirit  having 
so  gained  the  ascendency,  that  many  do  not  sec,  or  vicAV  with 


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much  iudiifereuce,  the  degeneracy  that  has  overtaken  us. 
Others  having  become  accustomed  to  this  state  of  things,  al- 
though they  sometimes  show  some  concern  for  the  support  of 
Truth's  cause,  yet  in  a  general  way,  they  seem  to  have  scarcely 
energy  to  make  any  opposition  to  unsound  measures  and  con- 
clusions ;  and  thus  they  drag  along,  keeping  up  something  of 
the  form,  without  knowing  the  power  to  be  in  dominion.  A 
little  service  in  the  second  meeting,  opened  the  way  for  me 
from  under  a  cloud  which  had  rested  on  me  for  several  months. 
My  way  was  shut  uj)  during  that  period  for  any  public  service, 
although  I  was  frequently  favored  with  instructive  openings  in 
relation  to  the  Christian  warfare,  and  would  be  almost  ready 
to  conclude  they  were  designed  for  others  ;  but  as  I  kept  pa- 
tiently waiting  for  a  satisfactory  evidence,  they  gradually  dis- 
apj)eared.  These  dispensations  are  comparable  to  a  state  of 
death  and  burial ;  out  of  which  nothing  but  the  same  quicken- 
ing power  that  reanimated  Lazarus,  can  raise  the  soul  and 
qualify  it  for  service  in  the  great  cause ;  and  this  He  will  cer- 
tainl}^  do,  as  we  endeavor  to  keep  the  faith,  waiting  upon  Him 
for  his  appearance.  "I  am  the  resurrection  and  the  life ;  he 
that  believeth  in  me,  though  he  were  dead,  yet  shall  he  live ; 
and  whosoever  liveth  and  believeth  in  me,  shall  never  die." 
The  life  of  these,  though  not  visible  to  themselves,  is  hid  with 
Christ  in  God ;  and  in  these  seasons,  some  may  be  ready  to 
conclude,  as  Martha  did  respecting  her  brother,  that  all  hope 
of  restoration  to  life  is  lost,  and  by  this  time  they  have  be- 
come offensive.  They  may  suppose  that  Divine  Goodness  has 
seen  them  unworthy  of  his  gifts,  and  consequently  He  has 
wholly  taken  them  away.  But  let  none  of  the  tribulated  fol- 
lowers of  Christ  cast  away  their  confidence  in  Him.  Although 
He  is  called  the  Lord  that  hideth  his  face  from  the  house  of 
Jacob,  He  has  never  said  to  his  wrestling  seed,  ''Seek  ye  my 
face  in  vain ;"  but  when  the  end  of  these  necessarj^  baptisms  is 
attained.  He  wull  again  appear  to  their  unspeakable  comfort, 
renew  their  faith,  and  clothe  them  with  fresh  qualification  to 
sing  of  his  mercies  and  of  his  judgments. 

1820.  Third  month  30th,  The  Monthly  Meeting  having  been 
brought  under  religious  exercise  on  account  of  the  frequent  ab- 
sence of  some  of  the  members  from  many  of  our  meetings,  be- 
lieved it  right  to  separate  a  few  Friends  to  take  the  concern  in 
charge,  and  as  way  opened  to  visit  the  objects  of  it.     When  we 


58  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

sat  down  together,  a  sense  of  our  weakness  and  poverty  wa8 
felt ;  but  believing  that  as  our  dependence  was  steadily  placed 
upon  Him  who  declared,  that  if  two  of  his  disciples  agreed 
touching  anything  they  should  ask  in  his  name,  it  should  be 
done  for  them  of  his  Father,  He  would  grant  the  requisite 
ability  to  discharge  the  duties  He  required  of  us,  we  proceeded 
in  making  the  necessary  arrangements  for  the  performance  of 
the  service  ;  and  so  far  as  I  have  been  a  witness,  there  was  rea- 
son for  humble  thankfulness,  for  the  timely  manifestation  of 
his  goodness,  in  covering  our  hearts  with  love,  and  furnishing 
matter  for  the  different  states  of  the  visited ;  with  whom  w^e 
were  favored  with  some  seasons  of  great  tenderness. 

Sixth  month  11th.  On  reviewing  our  progress  in  the  above- 
mentioned  visit,  I  believe  it  was  peculiarly  useful  to  myself. 
It  afforded  an  opportunity  of  experiencing  the  gentle  openings 
of  Truth,  at  times  when  nothing  else  could  supply  ability  to 
discharge  the  service  which  was  laid  upon  us ;  thereby  strength- 
ening our  confidence  in  the  alone  Arm  of  saving  help,  and 
showing  that  however  destitute  we  may  feel,  as  we  are  rightly 
introduced  and  engaged  in  his  work.  He  will  not  fail  in  due 
season  to  show  Himself  strong  on  the  behalf  of  his  children 
whose  trust  is  in  Him  alone.  He  will  string  their  bow  and 
cover  their  heads  in  the  time  of  every  battle,  and  cause  them  to 
rejoice  in  his  unmerited  goodness  and  condescension.  Oh!  that 
all  who  are  employed  in  his  service,  would  hold  fast  their  con- 
fidence, not  daring  to  go  forth  without  the  evidence  of  his  pre- 
paring power,  but  firmly  possess  their  souls  in  patience  until 
the  evidence  is  given ;  and  then  their  bow  would  not  be  turned 
backward,  nor  would  they  fail  to  perform  the  work  to  which 
He  has  sent  them. 

For  want  of  keeping  the  word  of  the  Lord's  patience,  how 
are  many  warming  themselves  with  sparks  of  their  own  kind- 
ling, and  thereby  not  only  reaping  the  reward  of  poverty  and 
sorrow,  but  bringing  into  disrepute  the  precious  cause,  and  the 
dignified  office  of  a  Gospel  minister,  in  which  they  profess  them- 
selves to  have  a  part.  Neither  the  most  extensively  gifted,  nor 
those  of  the  largest  experience,  have  anything  of  their  own  to 
communicate  which  can  really  profit  the  people.  All  must 
reverently  wait  upon  Him,  without  whom  they  can  do  nothing; 
and  it  is  only  as  He  opens  the  spring  and  causes  it  afresh  to 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS.  59 

flow,  that  an}-,  the  least  or  the  greatest,  are  authorized  and 
qualified,  to  attempt  to  minister  to  the  states  of  others. 

Sixth  month  18th.  The  Meeting  for  Sufferings  was  held 
on  the  16th,  which  I  attended,  having  been  appointed  by  the 
late  Yearly  Meeting  to  supply  a  vacancy.  It  was  an  interest- 
ing occasion.  The  degree  of  responsibility  which  is  attached  to 
that  body  is  weighty.  They  seem  like  the  guardians  of  the 
principles  and  character  of  the  Society,  in  relation  to  its  pub- 
lications, and  its  appearance  before  the  world  in  vindication  of 
our  civil  and  religious  rights,  and  the  rights  of  the  oppressed 
who  are  unable  to  plead  their  own  cause. 

Seventh  month  16th.  Several  weeks  past  have  been  a  time  of 
much  stripping  of  all  qualification  for  religious  service.  Such 
seasons  are  abundantly  necessary  for  me,  in  order  that  I  may 
from  real  experience  and  feeling,  become  effectually  convinced 
that  He  who  puts  forth  his  own  sheep  and  goeth  before  them, 
is  the  only  Source  whence  ability  can  be  derived  for  any  good 
word  or  work.  Nothing  so  indelibly  stamps  the  conviction  of 
this,  as  the  withdrawal  of  his  sensible  presence.  When  this  is 
the  case,  our  situation  resembles  Mount  Gilboa,  w^here  David 
wished  there  might  be  neither  dew  nor  rain,  nor  fields  of  offer- 
ing. Those  seasons  would  no  doubt  be  shortened  if  we  adhe- 
red faithfully  to  the  Captain  of  our  salvation.  But  how  apt 
are  we  to  become  weary  of  a  state  in  which  all  our  building 
seems  to  be  taken  down,  and  all  capacity  that  was  heretofore 
furnished  for  the  work  seems  to  be  almost  lost.  Were  it  not 
for  a  secret  confidence  in  the  Lord's  unfailing  goodness,  the 
hope  of  its  restoration  must  be  entirely  abandoned.  He  that 
w^alketh  about  as  a  roaring  lion,  seeking  whom  he  may  devoui", 
is  also  not  wanting  in  attempts,  through  his  subtle  insinua- 
tions, to  destroy  the  love  and  unity  which  has  been  felt  with  tho 
brethren,  and  which  seems  the  only  remaining  stay  to  the 
tossed  mind.  But  all  bitterness  and  evil  surmising  must  be 
purged  out,  and  we  brought  to  dwell  under  the  covering  of  that 
charity  which  thinketh  no  evil,  and  enables  to  bear  patiently 
the  reproaches  or  unfavorable  opinions  of  others. 

Eighth  month  21st.  Until  yesterday  I  had  been  silent  in 
our  meetings,  nearly  three  months.  My  mind  has  not,  through 
that  period,  been  without  encouraging  and  instructive  openings; 
but  I  did  not  feel  authorized  to  communicate  them  ;  although 
sometimes  almost  readj^  to  conclude  they  were  designed  for 


60  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

others  as  well  as  myself.  But  carefully  waiting  for  a  satisfac- 
tory evidence  of  this,  they  have  been  gradually  withdrawn,  and 
the  persuasion  has  generally  remained  that  silence  was  pro- 
perly my  duty.  tSometimes  I  thought  perhaps  I  should  no  more 
be  called  on  to  expose  myself  in  that  way,  though  I  had  no 
reason  to  doubt  the  propriety  of  my  previous  steps  in  this 
work  ;  yet  the  floods  of  temptation  w^ere  such,  that  I  had  not 
always  kept  the  faith  so  as  to  have  my  thoughts  sufficiently 
brought  into  captivity  to  the  obedience  of  Christ,  and  therefore 
I  should  not  be  favored  with  a  qualification  to  advocate  the 
power  of  Divine  Grace  in  enabling  to  resist  temptation,  and 
thus  tread  down  the  enemy  in  all  his  approaches. 

Purity  of  heart  is  unquestionably  a  necessary  preparation  for 
the  Lord's  work  ;  and  it  is  an  abominable  sentiment  that  a  man 
may  be  a  minister  and  servant  of  Jesus  Christ,  while  he  is 
trampling  upon  his  holy  law  written  in  the  heart,  serving  his 
own  lusts.  We  must  in  a  good  degree  experience  the  work  of 
regeneration,  before  we  can  expect  to  be  entrusted  with  his 
gifts  for  the  edification  of  the  church.  After  He  has  given  the 
o-ifts,  if  any  man  sin  we  have  an  advocate  with  the  Father, 
even  Jesus  Christ  the  righteous,  who  knew  no  sin.  In  his 
adorable  condescension,  He  is  pleased,  upon  unfeigned  repent- 
ance, to  blot  out  our  misses  and  transgressions,  restore  us  to  his 
favor,  and  again  clothe  with  authority  to  preach  the  glad 
tidings  of  the  gospel  of  salvation. 

Ninth  month  27th.  Several  weeks  past  a  malignant  fever 
has  prevailed  in  this  city,  which  proved  mortal  in  most  of  the 
cases.  They  were  not  numerous,  yet  it  was  found  necessary  to 
remove  the  inhabitants  from  the  neighborhood  where  it  first 
appeared,  and  to  fence  in  the  district.  It  was  a  little  distance 
from  my  store,  and  on  the  night  of  the  26th  of  last  month,  I 
was  attacked  with  the  disease,  and  confined  about  twelve  days, 
greater  part  of  the  time  to  the  bed.  Eeflecting  upon  the  uncer- 
tainty of  the  result,  and  the  instances  of  my  unfaithfulness 
which  presented,  my  situation  felt  truly  awful.  I  remembered 
the  description  of  those  who  had  eaten  and  drunk  in  the  Lord's 
presence,  partaken  of  his  teachings,  and  had  cast  out  devils, 
and  performed  many  wonderful  works ;  but  for  want  of  keeping 
their  integrity  to  the  end,  received  at  last  the  awful  sentence 
of  separation  from  his  holy  presence.  I  seemed  to  be  in  com- 
pany with  the  spirits  of  those  unfaithful  servants.     The  eun 


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was  turned  into  darkness  and  the  moon  into  blood,  the  heavens 
passed  away  like  a  scroll,  and  every  mountain  and  island  was 
removed  out  of  its  place.  The  beams  of  the  Sun  of  righteous- 
ness were  entirely  withdrawn,  and  the  sentence  of  death 
seemed  to  have  gone  forth.  All  my  former  experiences  were 
perfectly  obliterated,  and  there  ajspeared  nothing  left  upon 
which  I  could  ground  any  hope  of  happiness. 

After  passing  several  days  of  darkness,  distress  and  uncer- 
tainty, a  glimmer  of  hoj^e  that  this  was  a  dispensation  for  my 
refinement,  was  produced  by  the  presentation  of  those  expres- 
sions :  "  The  kings  of  the  earth,  the  great  men,  and  the  mighty 
men,  hid  themselves."  I  saw  that  everything  "  high  and  lifted 
u]},"  had  now  disappeared,  and  I  was  ready  to  surrender  all 
that  the  Lord's  controversy  was  with,  if  I  should  be  again  en- 
trusted with  time  to  perform  the  duties  that  yet  remained  to 
fill  up  my  allotted  measure.  I  think  I  never  passed  through  a 
season,  wherein  every  feeling  of  Divine  good  was  so  entirely 
removed.  After  some  time,  my  hoj)e  and  confidence  in  Divine 
mercy  were  gradually  restored.  Some  passages  of  the  Scrip- 
tures were  opened,  and  the  views  I  was  again  favored  with,  df 
the  humility  and  purity  indispensably  necessary  for  a  minister 
and  servant  of  Christ,  raised  the  belief  that  the  Divine  hand 
was  still  at  work.  The  language  that  perhaps  "  This  sickness 
was  not  unto  death,  but  for  the  glory  of  God,"  raised  a  further 
hope  that  I  was  not  cast  off;  but  that  He  would  again  have 
mercy,  and  that  it  would  prove  the  means  for  preparing  me, 
more  acceptably  to  come  up  in  his  service.  For  if  these  w^ere 
his  fatherly  dealings  for  my  purification,  though  in  judgment. 
He  had  not  entirely  forsaken  me,  but  in  due  time  would  again 
manifest  Himself  to  my  comfort  and  rejoicing. 

A  few  days  after  the  crisis  of  the  disease,  I  began  to  take 
nourishment,  and  when  sufficiently  restored,  went  to  my  bro- 
ther's, at  Springfield,  to  recover  my  former  strength. 

Twelfth  month  24th.  In  the  revelations  made  to  the  apostle 
John,  he  had  a  view  of  those  who  had  come  through  great  trib- 
ulation, and  had  washed  their  robes  and  made  them  white  in  the 
blood  of  the  Lamb.  This  vision  was  corroborative  of  the  testi- 
mony of  our  blessed  Lord  to  his  disciples :  "  In  the  world  ye 
shall  have  tribulation,"  but  He  immediately  adds,  "Be  of  good 
cheer,  I  have  overcome  the  world."  It  is  in  this  path  the 
righteous  have  trodden  in  all  ages,  and  it  is  only  by  faithfully 


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adhering  to  the  invincible  Captain  of  salvation,  that  any  of  the 
pi'esent  or  of  any  succeeding  day,  will  be  enabled  to  walk  in 
their  footsteps.  There  are  seasons  of  bitter  trial,  and  dispensa- 
tions peculiarly  abasing,  which  are  necessary  for  our  humilia- 
tion and  refinement,  and  which  w^e  have  need  to  recollect 
during  their  operation,  are  nothing  new.  But  oh  !  the  reluct- 
ance we  feel  at  taking  these  cups.  How  many  start  aside  at 
the  presentation,  and  seem  determined  to  walk  no  more  with 
their  Lord.  Such,  if  they  persist,  will  be  cripples  all  their 
lives ;  they  cannot  attain  to  the  measure  of  the  stature  of  the 
fulness  of  Divine  power,  which  lie  would  bestow,  where  simple 
obedience  accompanies  all  his  requisitions. 

In  our  meeting  last  fourth-day,  the  20th,  I  felt  an  intimation 
to  kneel,  which  after  a  time  of  shrinking,  was  given  up  to.  It 
was  such  a  trial  as  I  had  never  before  experienced.  I  was  favored 
to  get  through,  though  under  such  feelings  of  great  unworthi- 
ness  and  deep  mortification,  that  afterwards  I  thought  if  the 
elders  were  to  inform  me  they  were  now  satisfied  I  had  no  part 
in  the  ministry,  it  would  be  sufficient  to  induce  me  to  refrain 
hereafter  from  appearing  in  that  way.  Although  very  little 
sense  of  Divine  power  seemed  to  accompany  my  mind  in  the 
performance  of  what  I  believed  was  the  Master's  requiring,  I 
have  not  felt  anything  like  condemnation,  but  a  desire  to  be 
more  steadily  devoted  to  his  service,  that  in  childlike  simplicity 
I  may  comply  with  his  commands,  however  foolish  the  work 
may  appear  in  the  eye  of  worldly  wisdom — this  must  all  be  mor- 
tified and  laid  in  the  dust. 

1821,  Second  month  4th.  This  morning  we  had  a  stranger 
at  our  meeting.  In  his  testimony  he  told  us  his  mind  had  been 
much  exercised  for  several  days  past,  under  a  belief  that  con- 
siderable change  would  be  made  among  us  in  this  place.  Many 
who  were  as  spiritual  fathers  and  mothers  would  be  removed  ; 
and  he  wished  the  younger  part  of  the  Society  might  manifest 
the  desire  Elisha  did  to  continue  with  his  master  Elijah,  so  as 
to  bear  up  their  hands  during  their  stay  amongst  us  ;  and  that 
as  he  did,  wo  also  should  be  engaged  to  desire  that  a  double 
portion  of  the  good  Spirit  which  had  influenced  them,  might 
rest  on  their  successors. 

It  is  consistent  with  Infinite  Wisdom  in  his  dealings  with  his 
children,  to  strip  them  at  times  of  the  armor  which  He  had 
furnished  for  his  work,  and  to  draw  their  attention  to  the  state 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  63^ 

of  their  own  minds  ;  that  having  been  engaged  to  promote  the 
cultivation  of  the  vineyards  of  others,,  their  own  may  not  be 
neglected.  In  this  disjDensation  it  is  necessary  to  watch  against 
the  feeling  of  impatience,  so  as  to  be  induced  to  seek  after 
something,  to  supply  the  loss  which  is  experienced  by  the  re- 
moval of  that  portion  of  exercise  we  have  had  for  others,  and. 
in  which  we  have  been  furnished  with  suitable  matter  for  them 
and  food  for  ourselves.  Here  it  is  necessaiy  to  keep  the  faith 
and  the  patience  of  the  saints ;  in  which  we  shall  be  enabled  to 
resist  temptation,  and  be  prepared  to  receive  our  Lord  at  his 
coming,  who  will  pronounce  those  servants  blessed,  whom  He 
shall  find  w^atching. 

25th.  Several  daj^s  ago,  I  had  some  instructive  conversation 
with  my  beloved  father  respecting  the  ministry,  and  the  present 
very  depressed  state  of  our  religious  Society.  The  falling  away 
among  us  of  many,  W' ho  had  been  divinely  favored  w4th  gifts 
for  the  edification  of  the  church,  and  perfecting  the  work  as- 
signed them,  appeared  to  me  to  have  produced  a  slight  estima- 
tion of  these  gifts,  and  to  create  the  opinion  that  very  little 
dependence  was  to  be  placed  upon  those  occupying  this  station  ; 
as  such  sorrowful  evidence  had  been  given  of  great  instability 
in  some  who  had  made  high  profession,  and  preached  much 
against  the  defects  of  others.  He  remarked  that  the  degene- 
racy was  not  greater  than  among  the  Jews  ;  and  yet  the  pro- 
phets, by  faithfulness  to  the  Heavenly  Leader,  were  enabled  to 
stand  their  ground,  and  boldly  declare  against  the  corruptions 
of  that  day.  That  a  gift  in  the  ministry  was  more  important 
than  any  other.  By  living  in  the  gift,  keeping  daily  under 
religious  exercise,  so  as  to  be  prepared  to  act  whenever  the  gift 
opens  any  service,  and  in  simplicity,  without  creaturely  contri- 
vance or  adorning,  yielding  obedience  thereto,  we  may  experi- 
ence a  growth,  and  be  instrumental  in  building  up  the  waste 
places  of  Zion.  On  the  other  hand,  if  we  keep  not  close  to  our 
gifts,  w^e  may  miss  of  a  growth,  and  become  the  means  of  in- 
troducing a  lifeless,  windy  ministry  into  the  church,  which 
may  bring  people  into  a  form  of  godliness,  but  without  the 
powen 

Fifth  month  10th.  When  we  seem  a  little  to  have  left  that 
innocency  and  childlike  dependence  which  is  essential  to  those 
who  desire  to  be  the  faithful  companions  of  a  crucified  Lord, 
He  in  whom  are  hid  all  the  treasures  of  wisdom  and  knowledge, 


64  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

sees  proper  to  vary  his  dispensations  in  order  to  bring  back 
and  to  show  us  by  experience,  that  safety  is  only  to  be  wit- 
nessed througli  close  watchfulness  and  entire  reliance  upon 
Him.  In  our  meeting  on  first-day  morning  the  sixth,  a  number 
of  instructive  views  passed  before  my  mind,  in  relation  to  the 
fearful  condition  which  those  will  be  found  in  who  have  been  living 
as  without  God  in  the  world,  when  He  rises  up  to  judgment ; 
and  also  regarding  the  fallacy  of  cherishing  any  disposition 
or  practice,  opposed  to  the  humility  and  self-denial  of  Christ ;  to 
which  seemed  applicable  his  declaration,  "Every  plant  w^hich 
my  heavenly  Father  has  not  planted  shall  be  rooted  up." 
As  has  been  the  case  before,  these  openings  disappeared  with- 
out leaving  much  impression,  and  a  time  of  wrestling  with 
floating  thoughts,  in  order  to  get  to  a  place  of  steady  waiting, 
ensued.  Towards  the  latter  part  of  the  meeting,  that  expres- 
sion again  came  up,  producing  the  sensation  of  duty  to  com- 
municate it,  accompanied  with  the  reluctance  to  engage  in 
the  awful  work.  I  endeavored  to  wait  for  the  perturbation  to 
subside,  that  if  anything  was  said,  it  might  be  with  proper  de- 
liberation ;  and  when  the  word  seemed  to  be  in  my  mouth,  I 
stood  up  and  repeated  the  above  expression  of  our  Saviour,  with 
some  little  addition ;  but  as  I  waited  in  expectation  that  further 
matter  would  be  furnished,  as  it  had  been  at  other  times,  to  my 
admiration,  the  prospect  died  away,  with  all  ability  to  say  a 
word.  A  declaration  of  the  Most  High,  respecting  his  own 
Divine  character  presented,  but  fearing  to  utter  anything  as  in 
his  name,  without  feeling  his  authority,  and  thus  be  liable  to 
the  query,  "Who  hath  required  this  at  thy  hand?"  I  omitted  it 
and  stood  silent  for  some  little  time,  and  then  closed  with  a 
short  observation  in  reference  to  the  passage  I  had  recited,  and 
sat  down.  I  felt  quite  calm,  and,  though  without  seeing  how  I  had 
missed  my  way,  concluded  the  atfair  had  laid  me  open  to  criti- 
cism, and  perhaps  just  censure ;  but  I  believed  it  best  to  submit 
quietly  to  all  the  consequences ;  not  doubting  that  if  I  labored 
to  keep  near  to  Him  whom  I  desired  to  serve,  it  would  prove 
useful  in  the  end. 

When  an  opportunity  occurred,  I  made  the  enquiry  of  my 
beloved  parents,  whether  they  did  not  think  I  had  missed  in 
some  way?  My  father,  in  a  tender  manner  replied,  it  was  best 
not  to  dwell  too  much  upon  it ;  what  I  had  said  was  not  un- 
sound, and  it  was  our  duty  to  endeavor  to  keep  near  to  the  gift, 


JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  65 

and  in  simplicity  to  yield  to  its  requirings.  lie  had  found  in 
his  services,  that  to  begin  low  and  gradually  to  rise,  as  the 
oj)ening  strengthened,  was  safest.  This  led  me  to  apprehend  I 
had  spoken  too  loudly  and  strongly,  from  a  degree  of  excitement, 
and  that  might  have  been  one  cause  of  closing  the  opening,  if 
there  was  no  other.  How  necessary  is  it  for  all  who  have  been 
in  measure  cleansed  by  his  sanctifying  Word,  carefully  to  guard 
against  the  subtilty  of  the  enemy  in  all  his  presentations,  lest 
they  thereby  become  wounded ;  and  in  the  day  when  they  should 
have  on  their  armor  to  engage  in  the  Lord's  cause,  they  may 
find  that  He  is  not  with  them,  as  He  was  wont  to  be  in  seasons 
of  greater  tenderness,  and  more  faithful  obedience  to  his  will. 

After  the  above  event,  I  received  the  following  note  from  a 
tender-feeling  Friend  in  the  ministry ; 

"Dear  Friend:  If  I  was  capable  of  feeling  with  thee  this 
morning,  I  supposed  the  opening  closed  unexpectedly ;  and  am 
free  to  tell  thee  it  has  several  times  been  my  case :  when  I  have 
risen,  as  I  thought  in  the  clearness,  the  opening  has  suddenly 
closed,  and  I  have  taken  my  seat  in  much  self-abasement, 
and  been  brought  into  deep  searching  of  heart.  But  as  I  have 
endeavored  to  yield  myself  to  the  all-wise  disposal  of  Him,  who 
knoweth  the  motive  for  action  better  than  we  know  it  our- 
selves, I  have  found  them  instructive  lessons.  He  condescends 
to  make  use  of  the  means  best  calculated  to  humble  our  proud 
natures,  and  promote  our  purification,  and  furtherance  in  the 
way  and  work  whereunto  He  hath  called  us ;  making  us  fully 
sensible  from  whence  cometh  our  sufficiency,  that  we  may  draw 
all  our  supplies  from  the  alone  sure  Source  of  strength  and  con- 
solation. For  verily  the  applause  or  the  reproaches  of  men,  will 
avail  but  little  in  the  hour  of  trial.  I  feel  my  own  littleness, 
and  am  aware  that  my  experience  is  small,  but  desire  thy  en- 
couragement and  j)reservation  in  the  Truth. 

Thy  affectionate  Friend,  S.  H." 

27th.  Living  near  the  river,  I  have  often  observed  great  care 
is  taken  by  the  seamen  when  they  come  into  port,  to  secure 
their  vessels  properly  at  the  wharf.  While  they  are  thus  riding 
in  deep  water,  although  high  winds  may  arise,  creating  much 
agitation  in  the  imstable  element,  they  remain  uninjured.  Equal 
caution  is  manifest  when  they  are  about  taking  their  departure. 


66  JOURNAL   OP   AYILLIAM    EVANS. 

All  j)arts  of  the  rigging  are  put  in  complete  readiness ;  the  fasts 
are  gradually  loosened,  and  the  jn'oper  time  is  watched  to  de- 
tach the  last  mooring,  in  order  to  guard  against  running  in 
contact  with  other  vessels,  and  thereby  damaging  themselves 
and  others.  When  they  have  satisfactorily  made  the  stream, 
the  commands  of  the  pilot  must  be  strictly  observed  to  keep 
from  grounding  on  either  shore.  This  caution  is  necessarily 
observed  in  vessels  of  all  dimensions,  in  proportion  to  their  size 
and  importance.  These  circumstances  conveyed  instruction  to 
me  on  the  subject  of  the  ministry.  When  the  mind  is  in  a  state 
of  rest,  the  first  openings  of  Truth  may  produce  a  slight  im- 
pression of  the  service  to  be  performed ;  or  an  introduction  into  a 
painful  labor  after  the  life  of  Truth,  under  a  conviction  of  our 
inability  to  do  anything  for  ourselves  or  others,  may  tend  to  let 
the  mind  down  into  a  view  of  its  own  weakness.  These  sensa- 
tions seem  like  loosening  it  from  its  moorings,  and  beget  a  wil- 
lingness to  do  anything  that  the  Lord  may  require.  Sometimes 
these  openings  are  taken  away  and  seem  lost,  and  are  followed 
with  the  apprehension  they  Avill  not  reappear.  But  He  in  whose 
hand  the  work  is,  knows  when  to  put  forth  his  own.  He  gently 
brings  the  concern  up  with  more  life  and  clearness,  until  the 
word  is  in  the  mouth,  and  we  feel  released  from  all  impediment 
to  communicate  what  the  Lord  may  gradually  open  before  us. 
If  this  preparation  is  not  carefully  waited  for,  either  the  Gos- 
pel may  not  be  preached,  or  the  instrument  labor  with  pain  to 
himself,  or  to  those  who  hear  him.  It  is  of  great  importance 
to  wait  for,  and  to  move  in  the  Lord's  time.  Then  shall  we  be 
enabled,  through  humble  reliance  uj)on  Him,  faithfully  and  ac- 
ceptably to  comply  with  all  his  requirings,  in  the  prosecution 
of  this  truly  weighty  and  awful  work. 

Sixth  month  6th.  Last  week  my  brother  Thomas  and  my- 
self, went  to  John  Comfort's,  in  Bucks  county,  and  attended  the 
Quarterly  Meeting  held  the  31st.  The  want  of  faithful,  skilful 
standard-bearers,  who  know  how  to  keep  their  places  in  pa- 
tience, appeared  evident.  A  meeting  may  be  easily  drawn  from 
a  solid,  gathered  state,  by  hasty  and  unadvised  interference  and 
creaturely  activity. 

Seventh  month  26th.  There  are  seasons  in  which  it  is  pecu- 
liarly needful  to  profit  by  the  exhortation  of  Paul  to  Timothy: 
"Thou  therefore  endure  hardness  as  a  good  soldier  of  Jesus 
Christ."     We  cannot  suppose  he  wished  him  to  become  callous 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EYANS.  67 

and  insensible  to  the  natural  effect  on  his  feelings,  of  those 
things  which  are  hard,  to  bear,  but  that  he  might  attain  to  that 
state  of  quiet,  firm  standing,  in  which  he  could  patiently  endure 
them,  without  being  in  danger  of  making  shipwreck  and  be- 
coming cast  away.  When  little  encouragement  is  to  be  derived 
from  others,  and  the  soul  is  closely  beset  with  tossing,  and  is 
tempted  to  apply  to  the  creature  for  relief  and  consolation, 
how  needful  is  it  to  feel  after  a  renewal  of  the  invincible  faith, 
by  which  we  may  be  enabled  to  possess  the  soul  in  patience, 
and  to  stand  still,  confiding  in  the  eternal  arm ;  in  the  belief 
that  according  to  his  ancient  goodness,  the  Lord  will  appear  in 
due  time  for  our  help,  and  enable  us  to  tread  Satan  and  all  his 
presentations  under  foot,  and  to  ascribe  unto  the  Lord  God,  the 
power  and  the  glory,  and  the  right  to  rule  and  to  reign  in  the 
hearts  of  all  his  rational  creation. 

Ninth  month  9th.  Within  the  last  two  months  I  have  passed 
through  several  close  trials,  which  I  hope  terminated  to  my  ad- 
vantage. The  enemy  of  all  righteousness  seeks  to  destroy  the 
Ijrecious  birth  which  is  of  Divine  begetting.  It  matters  not  to 
him  by  what  means ;  and  unless  those  w^ho  are  the  disciples  of 
Christ  keep  steadily  upon  the  watch,  he  may  even  delude  them 
tinder  the  pretext  of  religious  concern  for  the  preservation  of  an 
individual,  to  speak  of  his  defects,  or  to  represent  actions  which 
he  has  done  innocently,  in  such  a  manner  to  another,  as  to  create 
an  unfavorable  prejudice  against  him,  and  thereby  block  up  his 
way  for  the  free  exercise  of  his  gift.  What  mischief  would  be 
prevented,  if  the  Divine  exhortation  was  always  complied  with, 
under  the  clothing  of  a  restoring  spirit :  ''If  thy  brother  shall 
trespass  against  thee,  go  and  tell  him  his  fault  between  thee 
and  him  alone."  Many  surmises  respecting  actions  and  motives 
would  prove  unfounded,  and  the  precious  unity  of  the  Spirit  be 
preserved  and  strengthened.  But  through  all  my  besetments 
and  plungings,  gracious  Goodness  was  near,  and  manifested  itself 
for  my  help ;  and  when  the  tempest  beat  high,  at  times  the 
Master  commanded  a  calm ;  furnishing  renewed  ability  to  rise 
above  all  the  swellings  and  raging  of  the  enemy,  and  to  put  my 
trust  in  Him  alone,  who  tenderly  watcheth  over  his  flock,  and 
preserveth  by  day  and  by  night. 

16th.  The  goodness  and  mercy  of  our  Heavenly  Father  are  often 
manifested  in  visiting  us  with  his  love  and  life,  even  at  times 
when  we  have  not  as  faithfully  kept  his  command  as  Ave  should ; 


68  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

giving  us  a  share  of  the  work  in  his  vineyard,  and  thereby  en- 
gaging lis  to  bow  before  Him  in  gratitude  and  humility.  What 
cause  have  we  reverently  to  acknowledge  his  long  suffering  and 
kindness  toward  us,  in  plucking  our  feet  out  of  the  miry  clay, 
and  setting  them  upon  a  Eoek  that  is  higher  than  we,  again 
establishing  our  goings,  and  j)utting  a  new  song  into  our  mouths, 
even  praises  to  his  great  and  everlastingly  worthy  name.  I  feel 
desirous  to  increase  in  dedication  and  obedience  to  Him  ;  so  that 
everything  that  defiles  may  be  escaped,  and  my  heart  be  made 
and  preserved  a  temple  for  his  holiness  to  dwell  in. 

1822,  Second  month  3d.  The  Monthly  Meeting  having  re- 
commended me  to  the  care  of  the  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Minis- 
ters and  Elders  in  the  Eleventh  month  last,  after  holding  the 
subject  under  its  consideration,  I  was  yesterday  acknowledged 
a  minister  by  that  meeting,  and  acquainted  with  its  conclusion 
this  morning,  by  two  Eriends,  nominated  for  the  purpose.  !No 
station  in  the  church  will  exempt  us  from  temptation.  Poverty 
has  been  my  clothing,  and  the  evil  one  has  not  been  wanting 
in  his  presentations  in  order  to  draw  the  mind  from  the  watch, 
and  render  it  unfit  for  the  reception  of  heavenly  good. 

Third  month  1st.  The  ministry  of  the  Grospel  is  a  deep  and 
weighty  work.  Many  baptisms  and  mortifications  are  often 
necessary,  to  prepare  the  creature  to  minister  altogether  from 
the  gift,  and  unreservedly  to  attribute  the  praise  and  the  power 
to  Him  from  whom  alone  it  is  derived,  and  to  whom  it  belongs. 
These  dispensations  are  ungrateful  to  our  natural  feelings. 
Abas'ement  and  insufficiency  in  ourselves,  manifested  to  the 
view  of  others,  seem  the  opposite  of  that  ability  with  which 
the  creature  delights  to  be  furnished,  and  which  the  great  Head 
of  the  church,  at  times,  graciously  affords,  but  for  wise  purposes, 
also  sees  proper  to  withhold  in  a  great  degree,  even  when  a  neces- 
sity is  imposed  to  stand  forth  in  the  work.  In  such  case  it  is 
difficult  to  see  the  right  stepping  stones;  and  if  we  do  not  abide 
under  the  cross,  we  may  utter  what  He  does  not  give ;  which 
confuses  the  mind,  exposes  our  impotence,  and  fails  to  profit  the 
people.  I  think  this  was  my  own  case,  in  some  measure,  about 
two  weeks  back.  It  had  an  humbling  effect,  producing  convic- 
tion of  my  utter  incapacity  for  the  work,  only  as  the  Lord  is 
pleased  renewedly  to  endow  with  fresh  qualification  and  matter 
for  the  service. 

Fourth  month  21st.     During  the  past  week  was  held  our 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  69 

Yearly  Meeting.  On  the  previous  seventh-day  I  attended  that 
for  ministers  and  elders,  the  first  Select  Meeting  I  have  sat 
in.  The  answers  to  the  queries  would  indicate  a  sound  sub- 
stantial ministrj"  among  us  ;  hut  it  is  sorrowful  to  believe  that 
they  do  not  all  give  a  just  view  of  its  state.  There  is  much 
passed  off  upon  the  people  for  Gospel  ministry,  which  is  no  better 
than  the  divination  of  man,  having  its  origin  in  his  w411  and 
contrivance.  Many  are  deceived  with  it,  for  want  of  having 
access  themselves  to  that  which  is  within  the  veil,  and  would 
give  a  true  sense  of  what  is,  and  what  is  not  of  the  pure  Truth. 
While  the  minds  of  people  are  outward,  looking  for  words, 
and  ministers  are  not  careful  steadfastly  to  keep  in  their  tents, 
until  the  true  Shepherd  puts  forth  and  goes  before,  but  are 
seeking  to  gratify  the  itching  ear  and  their  own  unruly  tongues, 
we  shall  have  a  ministry  of  words  ;  which  though  amusing  to 
the  multitude  and  tickling  the  vanity  of  the  preacher,  will 
eventually  land  both  in  confusion  and  barrenness. 

Our  beloved  Friend,  George  Withy,  from  Frenchay,  near 
Bristol,  England,  was  with  us,  and  faithfully  bore  testimony  to 
the  ancient  foundation  on  which  the  Church  of  Christ  is  built, 
and  to  the  doctrines  of  the  everlasting  Gospel;  cautioning 
Friends  against  airy  flights  into  the  region  of  speculation ;  and 
declaring  that  however  some  may  soar,  as  among  the  stars, 
or  build  their  nests  as  with  the  eagles,  the  Lord  in  his  time 
would  bring  them  down,  and  lay  their  honor,  (if  honor  it  might 
be  called,)  in  the  dust.  It  w^as  now  a  time  of  peculiar  trial, 
permitted  to  come  upon  us;  but  as  Ave  dwelt  in  the  everlasting 
patience,  the  time  would  again  come,  when  the  Lord  would  take 
his  work  into  his  own  hands,  and  it  should  again  be  said,  "The' 
Lord's  power  is  over  all." 

We  got  through  the  business  of  the  meeting  for  discipline  in 
SI  pretty  satisfactory  manner.  In  all  the  sittings  a  degree  of 
weight  and  solemnity  was  felt,  although  in  one  a  spirit  of 
darkness  got  up,  through  the  unadvised  interference  of  a  few, 
as  well  as  the  unsavory  doctrine  one  of  them  held  forth.  Sev- 
eral important  subjects  were  brought  before  the  meeting.  A 
committee,  which  had  been  appointed  to  visit  the  Quarterly  and 
Monthly  Meetings,  made  an  explicit  report  of  the  state  of  things 
within  our  borders,  exhibiting  evidence  of  great  declension 
from  the  life  and  powder  we  make  profession  of  The  propriety 
of  endeavoring  to  advance  our  testimony  against  the  distilla- 
6 


70  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

tion,  trading  in  and  retailing  of  spirituous  liquors,  was  called 
i7ito  view  by  a  minute  from  Haddontield  Quarterly  Meeting, 
and  the  subject  was  recommended  to  the  weighty  attention  of 
subordinate  meetings,  which  were  desired  to  report  the  result  of 
their  labors. 

Seventh,  month  17th.  Under  an  apprehension  it  would  be 
proper  for  me  to  attend  the  meeting  at  the  Twelfth  Street  house, 
last  first-day  morning,  I  went  to  it.  It  was  a  trial,  but  being 
desirous  to  be  wherever  it  was  my  place,  I  gave  up  to  the  im- 
pression, though  not  without  various  thoughts  how  it  might 
terminate.  In  the  course  of  the  meeting,  there  seemed  to  me 
much  want  of  a  real  sensibility  on  the  important  object  for 
which  we  had  convened.  The  minds  of  some  seemed  outward, 
and  destitute  of  that  travail  and  exercise  of  spirit  which  must 
be  maintained,  in  order  to  experience  the  arising  of  Divine  life 
and  virtue  in  themselves.  As  these  thoughts  and  sensations 
continued  with  me  much  of  the  time,  I  believed  it  right  to  stand 
up,  and  as  it  might  be  opened  before  me,  express  the  views  we 
hold  of  the  nature  of  Divine  worship,  and  the  requisite  prepar- 
ation for  its  right  performance.  Thei'e  was  something  of  the 
openings  of  Divine  life  experienced  ;  but  not  kee^^ing  sufficiently 
low,  I  got,  as  I  apprehended  afterward,  a  little  from  the  gift, 
and  expressed  a  sentence  or  two,  w^hich  though  sound,  yet  wanted 
the  savor  of  life ;  and  on  sitting  down  I  "svas  apprehensive  that 
very  little  baptising  influence  had  accompanied  my  testimony. 

I  was  almost  a  stranger  in  the  meeting,  having  but  seldom 
attended  it,  and  felt  mortified  and  concerned  lest  I  was  instru- 
mental in  ministering  to  a  state  of  death,  painful  to  those  w^ho 
ai'e  preserved  alive  in  the  Truth.  On  returning  home  and  re- 
flecting upon  what  had  passed,  I  gave  way  to  the  suggestions 
of  the  evil-one  to  such  degree,  that  I  became  carried  away  with 
his  insinuations.  My  pride  was  mortified  wuth  the  belief,  that 
those  at  meeting  must  have  seen  my  inability  for  the  work,  and 
I  concluded  it  was  evident  I  was  unfit  for  the  ministry.  Under 
jnuch  distress,  and  fear  lest  I  might  be  drawn  from  the  true 
foundation,  my  secret  petitions,  through  an  interval  of  tender- 
31CSS,  were  put  up,  that  He  who  only  could  preserve  from  falling, 
would  be  round  about,  and  still  keep  the  swellings  of  tempta- 
tions from  overpowering  mc.  I  hope  the  instruction  conveyed 
under  this  oecurrcncc  will  not  be  soon  forgotten.  The  repeti- 
tion of  such  is  very  undesirable  to  the  unmortificd  pride  of  man, 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  71 

and  doubtless  would  be  less  frequent  if  we  dwelt  in  the  valley 
of  humility,  keeping  a  watch  over  that  tendency  in  us  to  be 
exalted  by  the  favors  conferred  ;  not  to  feed  our  pride,  but  for 
the  honor  of  his  great  Name  who  immediately  bestows  them, 
and  for  the  advancement  of  his  cause  in  the  earth. 

About  a  week  afterward  I  met  a  beloved  elderly  Friend, 
and  told  him  of  the  distress  I  had  passed  through,  from  the  ap- 
prehension that  my  appearance  at  their  meeting  was  not 
accompanied  with  the  savor  of  life,  as  gospel  ministry  ought  to 
be.  He  was  very  tender  of  me,  and  gave  me  to  understand 
that  it  had  not  given  him  any  uneasiness.  So  I  hoped  that,  in 
part,  my  distress  had  been  produced  through  the  butfetings  of 
Satan. 

Ninth  month  17th.  In  the  course  of  the  last  five  years,  a 
few  members  of  our  religious  Society  in  the  Eastern  States, 
having  indulged  a  disposition  to  think  themselves  wise  above 
what  is  written,  fell  into  the  practice  of  spiritualizing  many 
parts  of  the  Holy  Scriptures  which  have  a  literal  meaning. 
Differing  from  their  Friends  respecting  some  passages,  and 
imagining  they  had  attained  to  greater  light  and  experience, 
they  pretended  that  as  every  one  had  the  light  in  himself,  their 
supposed  revelations  were  not  to  be  submitted  to  the  judgment 
of  others,  as  any  criterion  of  their  correctness.  Their  preten- 
sions were  plausible  in  the  view  of  those  who  were  unacquainted 
with  the  delusions  of  Satan,  and  as  they  could  make  long 
speeches  with  feigned  words  and  high  sounding  sentiments, 
they  deceived  some  into  the  opinion  that  they  were  to  revive 
the  ancient  principles  and  spirituality  of  the  Society ;  from 
which,  they  averred,  it  had  now  lamentably  degenerated.  At 
first  their  real  sentiments  were  much  concealed ;  but  as  they 
became  exalted  in  their  own  conceit,  and  the  childlike  state,  in 
which  alone  there  is  safety,  was  lost,  they  grew  more  bold, 
their  errors  more  apparent,  and  they  denounced  the  Society 
generally,  as  corrupt ;  and  some  went  so  far  as  to  pronounce 
individuals  as  cursed.  They  were  labored  with  by  their 
friends  for  their  preservation  and  recovery,  but  to  little  effect ; 
they  alleged  that  they  could  see  the  states  of  others,  but  such 
were  their  attainments,  that  others  could  not  comprehend  them. 
All  kind  of  restraint  was  irksome.  They  pronounced  the  dis- 
cipline mere  tradition,  and  useless  to  those  who  had  a  spiritual 
guide ;  meetings  of  ministers  and   elders  were   compared   to 


72  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS. 

synagogues  of  Satan,  where  the  power  and  influence  of  mystery 
Bab3'lou  were  peculiarly  exerted.  Thus  a  disposition  was 
openly  manifested  wholly  to  disregard  the  order  of  the  Society, 
and  to  set  at  defiance  the  government  and  subordination  which 
must  be  maintained,  to  preserve  a  religious  body  from  anarchy 
and  confusion. 

Several  of  those  people  having  run  out  in  principle,  and  in 
their  unbecoming  conduct,  given  great  disturbance  to  some 
meetings,  they  were  finally  disowned.  But  the  delusive  spirit 
which  actuated  those  persons,  was  not  slain  or  banished  from 
our  borders.  It  is  covertly  at  work  in  other  Yearly  Meetings, 
sowing  the  seeds  of  disorganization,  and  laboring  to  destroy 
the  faith  of  the  members  in  the  fundamental  doctrines  of  the 
gospel,  as  laid  down  in  the  New  Testament,  and  professed  and 
fully  believed  by  our  religious  Society  from  its  riee.  And 
what  adds  to  the  mournful  consideration,  is,  that  many  w^ho 
have  been  divinely  visited,  and  in  measure  obedient  to  the 
visitation,  do  not  believe  this  to  be  the  case ;  but  are  giving  their 
strength  to  that  spirit,  which  it  is  much  to  be  feared  has  gained 
the  ascendancy  in  some  persons  of  influence  in  the  Society. 
Efforts  have  been  made  to  lay  waste  the  faith  of  Friends,  in  the 
divinity  and  atonement  of  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  and  in  the 
Divine  authority  of  the  Holy  Scriptures ;  doubtless  for  the 
purpose  of  destroying  them  as  a  test  of  doctrines,  and  to  make 
way  for  the  introduction  and  more  easy  spread  of  infidel  senti- 
ments. The  qualifications  and  authority,  which  through  long 
faithfulness  to  the  Truth,  have  been  given  to  some  by  the 
blessed  Head  of  the  church,  for  the  care  and  edification  of 
others,  are  by  these  unsound  and  disaffected  members,  consid- 
ered an  arbitrary  assumption  of  power.  Although  well  ac- 
quainted with  the  leadings  of  the  true  Shepherd,  if  such 
experienced  Friends  unite  in  opposing  the  disorganizing  at- 
tempts of  the  enemies  of  wholesome  government  and  sound 
doctrine,  they  are  considered  as  dangerous  to  the  religious 
liberty  of  the  members  of  the  Society ;  while  their  concern  and 
labor  are  designed  to  guard  it  from  licentiousness  of  principle 
and  practice. 

It  is  a  time  of  peculiar  trial,  in  which  it  is  truly  needful  for 
every  sincere-hearted  disciple  to  have  his  loins  girded  and  light 
burning,  waiting  and  watching  for  the  coming  of  his  Lord. 
Unless  our  hearts  arc  kept  pure  and  faithful  to  Him,  wo  shall 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  73 

not  be  prepared  to  meet  Him  at  his  coming;  and  it  is  only 
when  He  appears,  that  ability  is  received  to  advocate  his  cause 
availingly,  and  to  exalt  the  Truth  and  its  blessed  testimonies, 
over  all  unruly  spirits. 

Eleventh  month  20th.  Last  first-day  I  attended  Darbj^  Meet- 
ing. The  advantages  of  a  humble,  dedicated  state  of  mind, 
carefully  leaning  on  the  gentle  openings  of  the  Shepherd  of 
Israel,  were  experienced,  to  my  comfort  and  the  renewal  of  faith 
in  his  goodness  and  all-sufficiency. 

Twelfth  month  14th.  Elias  Hicks  having  been  set  at  liberty 
by  his  Monthly  and  Quarterly  Meetings,  to  visit  parts  of  our 
Yearly  Meeting,  and  to  attend  Baltimore  Yearly  Meeting,  he 
arrived  in  Philadelj)hia  the  7th  of  this  month. 

The  following  testimony  was  drawn  up  by  Joseph  Whitall, 
a  minister  who  was  remarkably  well  versed  in  the  doctrines  of 
our  religious  Society,  a«  set  forth  by  Robert  Barclay,  and  other 
ancient  Friends,  and  a  most  firm  and  steadfast  believer  in 
them : 

"Having  attended  the  last  Yearly  Meeting  at  New  York,  I 
heard  Elias  Hicks  declare,  in  a  public  testimony,  in  a  large 
meeting  in  the  North  House, that  "The  same  power  that  made 
Christ  a  Christian  must  make  us  Christians;  and  the  same 
power  that  saved  Him  must  save  us."  Being  very  uneasy  with 
the  doctrine,  I  took  a  private  opportunity  to  state  to  him  my 
uneasiness.  I  informed  him  that  for  several  years,  reports  had 
been  in  circulation  unfavorable  towards  him,  and  that  on  those  oc- 
casions, I  had  vindicated  his  character,  from  a  belief  that  he  must 
have  been  misrepresented ;  until  last  fall  I  met  with  a  piece  in 
writing,  said  to  be  from  his  pen,  in  which  he  called  Christ  the 
Jewish  Messiah;  that  He  was  only  the  Saviour  of  the  Jews; 
and  that  He  was  not  the  Son  of  God,  till  after  the  baptism  by 
John,  and  the  descent  of  the  Holy  Ghost.  To  this  I  offered  my 
objections  as  unseriptural ;  but  he  justified  them.  He  also  de- 
clared that  he  considered  it  a  matter  of  the  greatest  encourage- 
ment to  believe  that  Christ  was  no  more  than  a  man,  for  if  he 
were  anything  more,  it  would  destroy  the  effect  of  his  example  to 
him.  He  admitted  that  he  had  not,  till  of  latter  time,  held  up 
the  doctrine  that  Christ  was  liable  to  foil  like  other  men. 
When  I  quoted  the  testimony  of  John,  that  the  Word  was  made 
flesh,  (or  took  flesh,)  he   said  it  was  impossible.     I  offered  my 


74  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

sentiment,  that  if  he  persisted  in  preaching  these  doctrines,  so 
contrary  to  the  Scriptures,  and  the  testimony  of  our  ancient 
Friends,  it  would  produce  one  of  the  greatest  scliisms  that  had 
ever  happened.  He  allowed  it  would  produce  a  schism,  but 
that  it  would  soon  be  over,  for  he  believed  his  doctrine  must 
and  would  prevail.  Seeing  that  we  diflered  so  widely  in  senti- 
ment on  these  points,  I  j)i'oposed  to  him  to  have  a  few  solid 
Friends,  ministers  and  elders,  convened,  that  a  discussion  might 
be  had ;  but  he  would  not  consent  thereto ;  saying  that  he  was 
80  confirmed  in  his  sentiments,  that  he  should  persevere  there- 
in, let  the  consequences  be  what  they  might." 

Signed,  Joseph  Whitall. 

Philadelphia,  Twelfth  month  12th,  1822. 

On  fifth-day,  the  19th,  E.  Hicks  attended  Green  Street  Meet- 
ing ;  said  much  that  was  very  exceptionable,  as  it  evidently 
tended  to  lower  our  Saviour  to  an  equality  with  his  servants, 
and  also  to  lessen  the  authority  of  the  Holy  Scriptures. 

Twelfth  month  26th.  E.  Hicks  left  the  city  yesterday 
morning.  It  seemed  removing  a  weight  of  anxiety  from  our 
minds,  and  if  his  principles  would  vanish  as  easily,  the  relief 
would  be  still  more  complete. 

1823,  First  month  5th.  It  is  mournful  to  reflect  ujion  the 
jjresent  state  of  our  religious  Society,  in  many  places.  While 
there  is  preserved  a  large  body  of  substantial  Friends,  many 
others,  deeply  immersed  in  the  love  of  the  world,  the  desire  of 
ease  and  outward  greatness,  and  wanting  in  religious  depth,  are 
degenerated  from  that  purity  of  heart,  and  well-founded  zeal  for 
the  support  of  our  principles  and  Christian  testimonies,  which 
so  conspicuously  appeared  amongst  our  primitive  Friends. 
Their  principles  and  testimonies  were  dearer  to  them  than  all 
temporal  accommodations,  liberty,  or  life  itself.  Being  pre- 
served in  a  state  of  living  faith  and  devotion  to  Christ  Jesus, 
their  Lord  and  Master,  they  were  made  quick  in  discerning  the 
approach  of  the  enemy  in  his  most  insidious  forms;  and  they 
kept  their  eye  inward  to  the  Lord.  ThiT)ugh  his  baptizing 
power,  they  were  united  together  in  bearing  a  foithful  protest 
affainst  the  devices  of  Satan  and  his  agents,  and  were  thus  ren- 
dered  instrumental  in  warning  and  preserving  tlie  flock  from 
his  desolating  ravages,  l^ut  weakness  and  blindness  have  so 
overtaken  many  at  this  day,  that  they  seem  scarcely  to  know 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAiM    EVANS.  75 

their  own  religious  principles,  and  not  being  circumcised  in 
heart  and  ears,  ai"e  carried  away  with  the  sophistry  of  some, 
who  through  self-conceit  and  dependence  upon  their  powers  as 
men,  have  gone  about  disseminating  their  unsound  views ;  much 
to  the  grief  of  those  yet  preserved  as  a  righteous  seed,  and 
greatly  to  the  injury  of  the  inexperienced  in  the  work  of  regen- 
eration, and  of  the  general  welfare  of  the  body  at  large. 

When  we  hear  that  sentiments  degrading  to  the  divinity  of 
oui'  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  and  the  Divine  authority  of  the  Holy 
Scriptures,  are  not  only  openly  delivered  from  our  galleries,  and 
their  unsoundness  unnoticed,  but  contended  for  as  being  real 
gospel  ministry,  even  by  ministers  and  elders,  it  may  be  said 
the  signs  of  the  times  are  awfully  portentous.  What  the  effects 
of  these  things  may  be,  is  not  yet  manifest,  though,  I  believe, 
all  such  persons,  with  their  anti-christian  sentiments,  will  be 
laid  low.  It  may  be  permitted,  as  a  scourge,  to  go  through  the 
Society,  in  order  to  discover  the  foundations  we  are  severally 
building  upon,  and  who  those  are  that  prefer  Jerusalem  to  their 
chief  joy.  Certainly,  the  devastations  of  this  spirit,  and  its 
doctrines,  will  be  great,  and  the  sufferings  of  those  who  stand 
firm  against  it  will  be  proportionally  severe.  But  if  we  can  be 
favored  to  keep  our  habitations  in  the  immutable  Truth,  the 
storm  will  beat  against  us  in  vain,  to  destroy  the  faith  ;  and 
when  the  tribulation  of  those  days  is  overpast,  like  Noah,  re- 
leased from  his  confinement,  we  also,  in  a  feeling  of  the  abate- 
ment of  the  floods  of  trial  and  deep  suffering,  will  be  permitted 
to  offer  the  sacrifice  of  thanksgiving  and  praise,  from  hearts 
contrited  under  a  sense  of  the  Lord's  goodness  and  care  over 
us. 


76  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

CHAPTEE   lY. 

1823—1826. 

"  Paul  and  Amicus  " — Yearly  Meeting — Philadelphia  Quarterly  Meeting — 
William  Forster,  Jr. — Richard  Jordan — Visit  to  Washington  about  the 
Slave  trade — Attends  Baltimore  Yearly  Meeting — Fatherly  Advice — Want 
of  a  United  Travail  by  Ministers  and  Elders — Visit  to  Quarterly  Meet- 
ings—Yearly Meeting — Extraordinary  Case  Kelated — Letter  to  his  Brother 
Thomas — Attends  Rhode  Island  Yearly  Meeting  —  Canonicut  —  South 
Kingston — Testimony  of  his  Mother — Second  Marriage — Yearly  Meeting 
— Cohcern  Respecting  the  Spread  of  Unsound  Doctrines  by  Ministers — 
Yearly  Meeting — Attends  New  York  Yearly  Meeting. 

First  month  17th.  An  adjourned  Meeting  for  Sufferings  was 
held  to-day.  A  person  with  the  signature  of  Paul,  having,  in 
the  Christian  Eepository,  at  Wilmington,  Delaware,  addressed 
the  Society  of  Friends  on  some  doctrinal  points,  was  replied  to 
by  another,  "Amicus,"  declaring  himself  to  be  a  member  of  the 
Society.  After  the  controversy  had  been  continued  more  than 
a  year,  the  dispute  embraced  the  Trinity,  Divinity  of  Christ, 
and  the  Atonement;  and  sentiments  being  advanced  by  Amicus, 
which  some  Friends  believed  to  be  derogatory  to  our  faith,  the 
subject  was  introduced  to  a  late  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  para- 
graphs read,  and  a  committee  appointed  to  take  the  whole  sub- 
ject into  consideration,  and  to  report  what  they  might  judge 
proper  for  the  occasion.  Their  report  was  now  produced,  con- 
taining a  clause,  disavowing  any  knowledge  of  Amicus,  &c. ;  to 
be  printed  with  those  essaj^s,  which  we  were  informed  are  de- 
signed to  be  republished  in  pamphlet  form.  It  also  set  forth 
our  belief  respecting  the  Holy  Scriptures,  our  faith  in  God,  and 
in  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  his  advent,  sufferings,  death,  atone- 
ment and  resui'rection,  and  ascension,  chiefly  taken  from  the 
writings  of  ancient  Friends. 

They  were  agreed  to  ;  the  former  to  be  sent  to  the  Wilming- 
ton editor,  and  the  latter  to  be  printed  in  a  pamphlet,  and 
distributed  through  our  Yearly  Meeting.  The  excitement 
prevailing  in  our  city,  and  in  other  places,  occasioned  by  the 
visit  of  E.  Hicks,  produced  feai's  in  some,  of  circulating  anything 
of  the  kind  at  this  time,  and  the  Meeting  not  coming  to  any 
decision  at  its  first  sitting,  adjourned  till  the  afternoon.     On  sit- 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EYANS,  77 

ting  down  together  again,  the  influence  of  external  commotion 
seemed  to  have  subsided,  and  Friends  were  enabled,  under  a 
covering  of  unusual  solemnity,  to  unite  in  the  foregoing  con- 
clusions. 

Whatever  may  have  been  E.  Hick's  object  in  his  visit  to  this 
city,  the  effects  have  been,  discord  and  divisions  among  Friends. 
Old  friendships  have  been  dissolved,  and  new  ones  formed,  ac- 
cording as  persons  have  agreed  or  disagreed,  respecting  his 
pernicious  opinions.  Ministers  opposed  to  them,  are  suspected 
to  allude,  in  their  ministry,  to  particular  circumstances  or  in- 
dividuals, because  of  the  closeness  of  its  application,  and  their 
way  is  accordingly  much  shut  up. 

Third  month  16th.  Feeling  an  impression  upon  my  mind,  I 
have  attended  all  Friends'  meetings  for  worship  in  the  city,  and 
through  the  condescending  goodness  of  the  Shepherd  of  Israel 
have  in  all  of  them  been  enabled  to  deliver  what  was  opened  to 
me,  pretty  much  to  my  relief  and  satisfaction.  In  some  it  was 
trying,  owing  to  the  lowness  of  the  stream,  and  perhaps,  some 
opposition  from  the  party  spirit  that  prevails.  This  is  at  work 
to  subvert  the  order  and  principles  of  the  Society,  and  to  gain 
an  ascendency  over  those  who  desire  to  maintain  them  faith- 
fully, in  the  wisdom  and  authority  of  Truth.  The  sense  of  this, 
and  that  many,  who  in  years  past  were  preciously  visited,  with 
whom  we  had  fellowship,  have  now  become  leavened  with  this 
sj)irit,  and  are  giving  their  strength  to  it,  is  truly  affecting,  and 
occasions  much  mourning  for  them,  and  for  the  precious  cause' 
sake. 

Fourth  month  21st.  This  day  commenced  the  sittings  of  our 
Yearly  Meeting.  After  the  reading  of  the  minutes  of  the  Meet- 
ing for  Sufferings,  a  valuable,  judicious  Friend  rose  and  said  he 
felt  more  than  a  liberty  to  express  his  entire  unity  with  the 
proceedings  of  that  meeting,  and  he  wished  their  encourage- 
ment. Immediately  after  him,  a  member  said,  that  in  regard  to 
that  "creed,  or  confession  of  faith,"  contained  in  the  minutes,  he 
thought  it  right  to  say,  ''Who  hath  required  this  at  your 
hands  ?"  This  was  the  signal  for  opposition ;  and  those  extracts 
from  the  writings  of  George  Fox,  E.  Barclay,  W.  Penn,  E.  Cla- 
ridge,  and  W.  Sewell,  containing  the  most  solemn  and  impor- 
tant truths  of  the  Christian's  faith,  mostly  expressed  in  Scrij^ture 
terms,  were  denounced  by  some  wild,  inexperienced  persons,  as 
inconsistent  with  reason,  revelation,  and  the  Holy  Scriptures. 


78  JOURNAL    OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

It  broke  out  and  spread,  like  a  flame  among  light  rubbish. 
Many  unbecoming  expressions  were  used,  both  in  relation  to  the 
doctrine,  and  the  Meeting  for  Sufl:erings.  It  soon  appeared  that 
much  confusion  was  at  hand,  and  the  Meeting  adjourned  till  9 
o'clock  the  next  nioruing.  Nearly  three  hours  were  then  spent 
in  discussing  a  proposition  to  expunge  those  extracts  from  the 
Meeting  for  Suiterings'  minutes.  Another  person  proposed  that 
a  committee  be  appointed  to  examine  and  report  their  judgment 
of  thejiroceedingsof  that  meeting.  A  preacher  residing  in  this 
city,  joined  with  this,  and  further  recommended  they  should  be 
instructed  to  consider  the  constitution  of  that  body.  He  thought 
a  radical  change  was  wanting;  the  members  should  hold  the 
office  for  three  years,  and  five  be  chosen  out  of  each  Quarterly 
Meeting.  Another  thought  the  two  subjects  should  be  kept 
distinct,  and  urged  the  expunging  of  the  extracts,  and  postpon- 
ing the  other  to  a  future  sitting. 

During  this  scene  of  confusion,  and  unexampled  torrent  of 
abuse,  and  invidious  reflection  upon  the  Meeting  for  Sufterings, 
the  members  of  that  meeting  remained  unmoved,  and  patiently 
bore  the  unbecoming  conduct  of  man}',  without  making  a  single 
retort.  The  clerk  was  several  times  urged  to  make  a  minute 
directing  the  obnoxious  record  to  be  expunged,  and  one  pro- 
posed that  if  he  persisted  in  deferring  to  do  it,  that  another 
Friend  should  be  named  to  take  his  place. 

At  length  my  father  rose,  and  gave  a  concise  statement  of  the 
institution  of  that  Meeting,  and  its  oj^erations.  He  mentioned 
that  the  publication  of  our  religious  principles  had  been  re- 
peatedly made  by  it,  in  various  ways,  and  denied  the  truth  of 
those  insinuations  of  design,  on  its  part,  to  impose  anything 
upon  the  Society ;  that  the  extracts  were  drawn  from  Fox, 
Barclay,  Penn  and  other  books,  repeatedly  printed  and  owned 
by  our  Society,  &c.  His  remarks  appeared  to  have  an  efi'ect 
upon  the  meeting,  and  the  clerk  stated  that  he  was  the  servant 
of  the  meeting,  and  had  been  endeavoring  to  discover  what  was 
the  mind  of  the  meeting,  but  from  so  many  propositions  and 
opposite  opinions,  he  was  unable  to  decide,  and,  therefore, 
would  suggest  that  a  minute  be  made,  directing  the  Meeting  for 
Sufferings  not  to  publish  the  Extracts.  This  was  acceded  to  by 
some  of  the  leading  opponents;  but  others  more  violent  openly 
rejected  it,  and  seemed  detei-mincd  to  be  satisfied  with  nothing 
short   of  an  obliteration.     The  clerk's  proposal,  however,  at 


JOURNAL    OP    WILLIAM    EVANS.  79 

length  prevailed ;  but  some  remarked,  that  allowing  it  to  re- 
main upon  the  minutes,  was  acknowledging  the  doctrine  by  the 
Yeai'ly  Meeting. 

This  circumstance  w^as  altogether  a  new  kind  of  exercise  to 
some  of  us,  but  it  was  cause  of  gratitude,  to  be  favoi-ed  with 
calmness  and  entire  freedom  from  all  irritation.  Indeed,  it 
seemed  like  being  preserved  from  the  strife  of  tongues,  and  hid 
in  the  secret  of  the  tabernacle  of  the  Most  High.  The  remain- 
ing sittings  of  the  meeting  were  generally  more  satisfactory ; 
though  often-  attended  by  a  painful  feeling  of  the  presence  of 
false  brethren.  Our  dear  friend,  William  Forster,  Jr.,  from  Eng- 
land, in  the  closing  sitting,  was  engaged  in  fervent  supplica- 
tion for  the  extendiugs  of  Divine  regard  towards  the  Lord's 
tribulated  children ;  and  the  meeting  closed  soon  after,  under  a 
covering  of  most  solemn  and  impressive  silence,  which  pro- 
duced in  my  heart  the  involuntary  acknowledgment,  we  are 
unworthy  of  this. 

Fifth  month  3d,  Was  held  our  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Minis- 
ters and  Elders.  In  the  deliberations,  a  spirit  was  manifest, 
that  would  overturn  the  order  of  the  Society,  crying  out  over- 
bearance,  and  want  of  condescension,  in  those  who  felt  bound 
to  support  it.  The  feelings  produced  by  the  spread  of  this 
spirit  are  becoming  more  painful,  and  as  it  gains  strength,  the 
love  and  life  of  Truth  are  departing  from  such.  Many  are  robbed 
of  their  true  strength,  and  they  know  it  not ;  but  are  so  deluded  as 
to  believe  they  are  engaged  in  the  work  of  reformation ;  while 
alas!  blindness  and  insensibility  have  lamentably  overtaken  them. 

5th.  The  Quarterly  Meeting  for  Discipline  got  through  the 
little  business  which  came  before  it  with  general  harmony ;  our 
friend,  William  Forster,  Jr.,  having  much  accej)table  and  appro- 
priate service  amongst  us. 

7th.  Feeling  much  sympathy  with  our  beloved  friend,  Wil- 
liam Forster,  Jr.,  in  the  trying  path  in  which  he  is  led  amongst 
us,  and  his  waj''  being  increasingly  discouraging.  I  was  inclined  to 
meet  him  at  Crop  well,  and  spend  a  day  or  two  in  his  company; 
as  he  was  about  leaving  the  city,  with  the  prospect  of  being 
absent  many  months.  Accordingly,  in  company  with  our 
worthy  friend,  Eichard  Jordan,  I  attended  that  meeting;  in 
which  they  were  both  engaged  in  public  labor.  In  the  after- 
noon we  rode  to  Moorestown,  and  were  at  the  Monthly  Meeting 
there  next  day.     W  illiam  was  much  opened  into  the  state  of  the 


80  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

Meeting,  and  upon  several  important  doctrinal  points.  After 
he  had  taken  his  seat,  my  mind  having  been  introduced  into 
desire  for  the  preservation  of  the  few  still  left,  who  were  given 
to  suffer  for  the  name  of  their  dear  Lord  and  Master,  I  believed 
it  right  to  endeavor  to  encourage  them  to  stand  upon  the  watch, 
that  no  man  might  deprive  them  of  their  crown ;  and  that  in  his 
own  time  He  would  give  the  victory  over  our  enemies,  even  if 
it  be  through  suffering.  E.  Jordan  followed,  and  in  a  forcible 
manner  labored  to  show  the  condescension  of  the  Redeemer, 
and  the  danger  those  were  in,  who  were  crucifying  Him  afresh, 
counting  the  blood  of  the  covenant  an  unholy  thing,  and  doing 
despite  to  the  Spirit  of  Grrace.  I  believe  we  all  left  the  meet- 
ing with  heavy  hearts,  from  the  fear  that  many  had  been  be- 
guiled, and  were  in  jeopardy  of  becoming  bewildered  in  the 
mazes  of  uncertain  speculation,  by  following  their  own  un- 
n3.ortified  wills,  instead  of  living  under  the  daily  operation  of 
the  cross  of  Christ. 

In  the  afternoon  we  rode  to  Josiah  Eeeve's,  at  Upper  Eves- 
ham, where  we  passed  an  agreeable  evening.  W.  Forster,  Jr., 
set  out  next  morning  for  Bass  Eiver,  and  we  returned  home. 

18th.  This  morning  beitig  first-day,  I  went  over  to  Newtown 
Meeting,  accompanied  by  my  brother  Thomas.  Pretty  early 
in  the  meeting  Eichard  Jordan  rose,  and  after  some  introduc- 
tory matter,  opened  the  subject  of  man's  creation ;  the  purity 
in  which  he  stood;  the  law  given  for  his  preservation  and  his 
Maker's  glory;  the  penalty  attached  to  the  transgression  of 
that  law,  and  the  consequences  affecting  himself  and  his  pos- 
terity. By  sin  he  lost  the  Divine  life,  wherein  he  held  sweet 
«ommunion  wnth  his  Maker;  but  the  Son  of  God  offered  himself 
a  ransom  for  fallen  man,  to  be  manifested  in  due  time,  and  pro- 
cured for  him  the  oppoi'tunity,  and  the  means  to  enable  him  to 
work  out  his  salvation.  As  in  Adam  all  died,  so  in  and  by 
Christ,  shall  all  be  made  alive;  that  is,  all  who  arc  obedient  to 
the  requi rings  of  his  Holy  Spirit,  shall  be  renewed  up  into  the 
image  of  God,  and  made  alive  unto  Him.  The  Apostle  testified, 
"Ye  arc  not  your  own,  ye  arc  boiight  with  a  price;  therefore 
glorify  God  in  your  body  and  in  your  spirit,  which  are  God's." 
If  Adam's  natural  life  alone  had  been  spared,  ho  remarked,  he 
would  still  have  remained  in  a  state  of  separation  from  God;  as 
he  possessed  no  power  whereby  he  could  restore  himself  to  that 
Divine  spiritual  life  which  he  lost  by  transgression  ;  and,  there- 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  81 

fore,  the  means  through  which  his  restoration  to  the  Divine 
communion  was  to  be  eifected,  must  also  Rave  been  provided, 
agreeable  to  the  declaration,  "He  that  spared  not  his  own  Son, 
but  delivered  Him  up  for  us  all,  how  shall  He  not  with  him 
freely  give  us  all  things."  "And  because  ye  are  sons,  Grod  hath 
sent  forth  the  Spirit  of  his  Son  into  your  hearts,  crying,  Abba, 
Father." 

My  mind  was  brought  under  exercise,  in  feeling  the  life- 
lesness  and  barrenness  which  predominate  among  many  there ; 
produced  by  frequent  disobedience,  and  despising  the  many 
favors  which  a  long  suffering  Grod,  had  from  time  to  time,  extend- 
ed to  them,  immediately  and  instrumentally.  The  language  was 
brought  to  view,  "  You  only  have  I  known  of  all  the  families  of 
the  earth,  and  therefore  I  will  punish  you."  I  was  enabled  to 
discharge  myself  pretty  fully.  E.  Jordan  appeared  in  suppli- 
cation, and  I  hope  some  profitable  impression  was  made. 

23d.  Having  been  appointed,  with  several  other  members  of 
the  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  to  obtain  information  respecting  the 
foreign  trade  in  the  natives  of  Africa,  two  of  us  set  off  this  day 
at  noon  for  Washington,  and  ai'rived  there  in  about  twenty-four 
hours.  By  the  open,  frank  attentions  of  the  Secretary  of  the 
Navy,  and  several  of  his  clerks,  we  had  access  to  the  public 
documents  upon  the  subject,  and  made  such  transcripts  as  we 
thought  would  be  interesting  and  useful,  to  show  the  present 
state  of  that  horrible  traffic  ;  and  returned  home  in  about  a  week. 

Sixth  month  22d.  Feeling  a  draft  in  my  mind,  I  attended  the 
meetings  in  the  city,  and  the  Monthly  Meeting  of  Frankford. 
Some  humiliating  feelings  were  passed  through,  which  tended 
to  diminish  self-dependence  ;  but  through  all,  I  had  reason  to  be- 
lieve that  the  good  Hand  was  still  extended,  even  towards  a  re- 
bellious gainsaying  people,  to  gather  them  to  the  teachings  of 
Christ  in  themselves ;  that  thereby  they  might  have  spiritual 
food  in  their  own  houses,  and  water  in  their  own  cisterns. 

Tenth  month  15th.  Having  a  concern  to  attend  the  meetings 
in  this  city,  I  went  accordingly  to  them  all,  and  whatever  effect 
may  have  been  produced  upon  others,  I  derived  some  instruc- 
tion in  the  exercise  of  the  gift  of  Gospel  ■  ministry.  In  the 
first  meeting,  the  matter  opened  before  me,  as  I  thought,  too 
slowly  to  be  accompanied  with  the  evidence  that  it  was  of 
Divine  origin,  which  I  desired.  Sometimes  I  was  ready  to  fear 
I  should  stop  and  close  in  confusion.     But  as  I  endeavored  to 


82  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

be  composed  and  stead}^  in  my  mind,  the  openings  continued, 
until  I  believed  my  duty  was  discharged.  I  felt  calm  and  peace- 
ful. 

The  strait  into  which  I  had  been  brought,  remained  with  me 
several  days,  and  had  a  useful  effect ;  and  to  the  close  of  this 
service,  I  was  more  and  more  favored  with  the  Master's  help, 
and  no  doubt,  it  tended  to  enable  me  to  bear  these  favors,  with- 
out being  puffed  up  with  them,  as  poor,  weak  mortals  are  too 
apt  to  be.  It  also  increased  my  dependence  upon,  and  confidence 
in  the  Divine  openings  of  the  gift;  by  which  I  was  enabled  to 
speak  more  deliberately,  and  to  avoid  alarm  when  matter  did  not 
flow  as  fast  as  I  wished,  or  the  sense  of  power  was  not  as  strong 
as  I  desired. 

We  have  great  cause  to  put  our  trust  in  the  great  Shepherd 
of  the  sheep,  who  is  altogether  sufficient  for  his  own  work,  and 
will  take  care  of  it  and  of  us  too,  as  we  faithfully  follow  and  rely 
upon  Ilitn.  He  will  not  only  put  us  forth,  but  go  before,  quali- 
fying as  He  shall  see  meet,  for  the  work  whereunto  He  hath 
called  us,  gradually  enlarging  the  gift,  and  instructing  us  in  the 
right  use  and  improvement  of  it.  On  the  13th  I  attended  Had- 
donfield  Monthly  Meeting,  where  we  had  the  company  of  Micajah 
Collins.  It  was  to  some  of  us  a  serious  time,  and  we  hoped  an 
awakening  one  to  some  there. 

Eleventh  month  6th.  Having  attended  the  Yearly  Meeting 
of  Baltimore,  with  a  minute  of  unity  of  the  Monthly  Meeting, 
I  returned  home  some  days  since.  Being  the  first  religious  visit 
with  a  minute,  I  felt  more  than  usual  on  the  occasion  ;  desiring 
I  might  bo  preserved  from  everything,  either  in  meeting  or  out 
among  Friends,  that  would  injure  anyone,  or  the  cause  in  which 
I  professed  to  be  engaged.  A  reserved  deportment  is  an  unwel- 
come restraint  to  young  people,  whose  minds  are  not  under  the 
tendering  visitations  of  Heavenly  good:  and  it  is  a  trial  to  ap- 
prehend that  our  company  produces  this  kind  of  feeling  in  them. 
But  although  cheerfulness,  rightly  tempered,  is  at  times,  pro- 
perly the  innocent  clothing  of  the  devoted  mind,  yet  there  are 
seasons  when  we  are  called  to  mourning,  and  the  tongue  seems 
as  if  it  would  cleave  to  the  roof  of  the  mouth.  8ul)ject8  for 
conversation  vanish,  and  we  sit  as  objects  of  wonder  or  ridi- 
cule. This  is  mortifying  to  the  pride  of  our  nature;  but  it  is 
nevertheless  useful  to  ourselves,  and  may  be  also  to  some  whoso 
conditions  we  are  not  full}-  aware  of     It  is  not  a  pleasant  thing 


JOrRXAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  83 

to  be  a  savour  of  death  unto  any,  and  unless  our  sufficiency  for 
these  things  is  derived  from  above,  we  may  turn  aside  into  what 
is  not  convenient  for  ourselves  or  others.  To  maintain  a  steady 
exercise  of  spirit,  contributes  to  preserve  our  own  strength  ;  and 
maj^  minister  a  savor  of  life  to  some  whose  souls  are  secretly 
bowed,  when  their  exterior  would  not  indicate  such  a  state. 

I  think  the  Meeting  was  generally  favored  •  with  the  over- 
shadowings  of  Divine  good;  by  which  the  faithful  were  enabled 
in  good  measure  to  keep  down  wrong  things,  and  the  meeting 
preserved  in  a  solid  frame.  It  was  not  a  time  for  rejoicing,  as 
it  felt  as  if  the  poAver  of  Truth  rose  very  little  higher  than  to 
keep  unsettled  spirits  in  subjection;  while  some  were  clothed 
with  a  sense  that  a  disposition  secretly  prevailed  to  change 
laws,  and  customs,  and  principles  heretofore  owned  and  estab- 
lished l)y  the  great  Head  himself.  Indeed,  it  seemed  that  un- 
less He  who  rules  with  a  rod  of  iron,  and  dashes  in  pieces,  as  a 
potter's  vessel,  whenever  He  sees  fit,  should  manifest  himself 
in  a  remarkable  manner,  for  limiting  the  raging  Avaves  of  the 
sea  of  unbelief,  our  Society  will  be  overspread  in  this  country, 
from  north  to  south  and  from  east  to  west,  with  the  desolating 
ravages  of  that  spirit,  which  is  adulterated  from  the  innocent 
life,  and  seeks  to  draw  from  the  fiiith  and  simplicity  of  the 
gospel  of  Christ,  into  a  dependence  upon  and  conformity 
.with  the  fallen  wisdom  of  man.  Its  baits  and  snares  are  many, 
generally  concealed  under  the  guise  of  greater  spirituality,  and 
freedom  from  all  entanglement  by  doctrine  and  church  order 
and  government.  It  is  very  confident  of  its  own,  and  ever 
ready  to  condemn  or  lightly  esteem  the  service  of  others,  who 
see  into  its  devices  and  testify  against  them. 

When  about  leaving  home,  my  beloved  father  wrote  me  a 
note  on  something  he  wished  attended  to,  to  which  he  sub- 
joined the  following  useful  hints:  "Attending  a  Yearly  Meet- 
ing exposes  to  much  company  ;  and  watchfulness  against  a  great 
deal  of  conversation  seems  peculiarly  needful,  lest  Aveakness 
through  that  channel  be  introduced  into  the  mind  ;  and  in 
meetings  I  have  found  it  most  conduciA'C  to  a  right  getting  on, 
to  keep  my  mind  as  much  as  possible  to  an  inward  exercise.  In 
this  state,  thou  wilt  experience  a  qualification  to  discoA^er  the 
openings  or  shuttings  of  the  Divine  hand,  and  only  to  move 
when  He  puts  forth;  and  when  He  giA'cs  ability,  make  use  of 
it  in  simplicity  and  faithfulness,  not  regarding  or  forecasting 


84  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM   EVANS. 

what  this  or  that  one  may  say  or  think  ;  for  it  is  the  Lord's 
power  alone,  that  is  the  authority  of  all  our  meetings  for  wor- 
ship and  discipline." 

14th.  In  company  with  my  brother  Thomas,  I  attended  the 
(Quarterly  Meeting  at  Salem,  on  the  12th  and  13th.  A  deep 
united  travail  amongst  ministers  and  elders,  both  in  their  select 
meetings  and  those  for  worship  and  discipline,  that  we  might 
experience  the  baptism  of  the  One  Spirit,  by  wdiich  alone  we 
are  baptized  into  one  body,  and  enabled  to  drink  together  into 
the  same  Spirit,  is  much  needed  among  us.  Too  many  are  great 
strangers  to  it,  and  appear  scarcely  to  understand  what  it 
means.  Oh !  the  need  there  is  for  us  individually,  to  strive  to  keep 
near  to  the  Master  out  of  meetings,  that  we  may  become  ac- 
quainted with  his  voice,  and  witness  his  preserving  power,  to 
keep  us  clean  from  the  various  defilements  which  arise  frdm  an 
alliance  with  the  spirit  of  the  world;  then  we  should  be  better 
l^repared  to  come  together  in  a  lively  state  of  mind,  to  engage 
in  the  work  the  Lord  would  assign  to  us.  It  is  only  as  we 
apply  to  our  holy  Head  for  his  help  and  instruction,  that  we 
can  grow  in  grace  and  the  knowledge  of  the  Son  of  God.  All 
speculations  on  this  knowledge  are  totally  incompetent  to  fur- 
nish one  glimpse  of  his  transcendant  glory,  or  to  remove  doubts 
with  which  the  unregenerate  soul  is  surrounded.  These  truths 
were  held  up  to  view,  under  a  little  renewed  ability,  derived 
from  his  exhaustless  treasury,  though  accompanied  with  feel- 
ings that  there  were  impediments  to  the  free  arising  of  the 
power  of  Truth  into  dominion. 

1824,  Second  month  2d.  In  our  Quarterly  Meeting  we  had 
the  company  of  our  friends,  William  Forster,  Jr.,  and  John 
Justice  of  Bucks  County.  It  was  attended  with  painful  feel- 
ings, from  the  prevalency  of  a  disorganizing  spirit,  covertly  at 
work,  to  unsettle  the  unwary,  and  to  strengthen  those  who  are 
enemies  to  the  cross  of  Christ,  and  consequently  to  good  order 
and  sound  judgment  in  the  church.  Sensible  that  the  Divine 
life  and  power  of  Truth  were  oppressed,  the  honest-hearted  were 
bowed  in  spirit,  and  kept  in  a  state  of  silent  waiting  and  suf- 
fering. One  of  the  unsettlfd  membei'S  said,  the  knowledge  of 
the  Scriptures  putfed  up  ;  they  made  hireling  ministers,  and  had 
done  more  hurt  than  good  in  our  Society  ;  and  he  was  not  easy 
to  apply  the  word  holy  to  them :  this  was  a  plain  indication  of 
the  evil  spirit  of  unbelief  at  work  among  these  people. 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  ^  85 

The  power  of  Truth  appeared  to  gain  but  little  ascendency, 
yet  these  disturbers  were  so  kept  down,  that  the  meeting  passed 
over  without  any  material  difficulty,  except  the  painful  sensa- 
tions produced  by  those  remarks. 

15th.  On  the  7th,  I  left  home  for  Springfield,  attended 
that  iiieeting,  and  on  the  9th  proceeded  to  Concord,  and  was 
at  their  Select  Quarterly  Meeting.  The  unsoundness  of  some 
elders  was  plainly  alluded  to,  and  the  great  loss  arising  there- 
froTu  to  persons  in  the  station  of  ministers,  especially  the  young 
and  inexperienced.  How  is  it  possible  for  elders  to  judge  and 
to  decide  rightly  of  the  soundness  of  ministers,  when  they  them- 
selves have  departed  from  the  Christian  faith,  and  gone  into 
uncertain  speculation,  and  a  worldly  spirit  ? 

In  the  forepart  of  the  meeting  next  day,  I  had  something  to 
say,  by  way  of  ministry ;  but  being  under  some  fear  of  going 
beyond  the  commission,  I  was  afterwards  apprehensive  I  took 
my  seat  too  earl}''.  It  was  in  backwardness,  I  attempted  to 
speak  in  so  large  a  meeting ;  but  I  derived  some  instruction  on 
the  necessity  of  faithfully  doing  our  duty,  without  improperly 
giving  way  to  the  fear  of  man.  Yet  even  in  this,  I  believe 
there  may  be  a  snare  ;  as  some  who  say  they  are  not  to  fear  or 
regard  men  in  their  religious  duty,  run  out  into  great  activity, 
to  the  burthen  of  the  church,  and  thereby  dissipate  what  little 
tenderness  and  godly  fear  they  were  once  favored  with. 

I  stayed  the  meeting  for  worship  held  at  Concord,  the  follow- 
ing day,  the  11th,  in  which  William  Forster,  Jr.,  had  close, 
searching  service ;  fifth-day  was  with  him  at  Birmingham,  and 
went  thence  in  the  afternoon  to  my  brother's.  The  review,  upon 
the  whole,  afforded  peace. 

Third  month  10th.  Having  for  some  weeks  had  my  mind 
turned  towards  Haddonfield  Quarterly  Meeting,  I  gave  up  to 
go  this  morning,  after  thinking  I  was  released  from  it ;  having 
no  will  to  go  or  stay  distinct  from  doing  the  Divine  will.  Al- 
though nothing  remarkable  occurred  in  either  meeting,  I  was 
well  satisfied  on  my  return,  that  I  was  led  thither.  The  unme- 
rited mercy  of  the  Shepherd  of  Israel,  in  still  continuing  his 
goodness  and  favors  to  us,  however  undeserving,  was  felt  and  held 
forth ;  but  He  might  be  so  slighted  by  frequent  disobedience, 
as  to  withdraw  his  kindness,  and  the  gifts  which  He  had  be- 
stowed for  the  good  of  individuals,  and  of  the  Society  at  large, 
and  for  the  glory^  and  renown  of  his  great  Name.  There  was- 
7 


86  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

some  exercise  felt  in  the  meeting  for  discipline,  for  the  preser- 
vation of  that  which  was  ready  to  die,  and  for  restoring  the 
waste  places  in  the  walls  of  Zion.  But  the  want  of  a  more 
general  living  concern  ami  united  travail,  makes  it  laborious 
work,  and  the  little  apprehended  benetit  is  discouraging;  yet  I 
hope  those  who  prefer  Jerusalem  above  their  chief  joy,  will 
hold  fast  their  confidence  in  the  Lord's  power  and  goodness ;  be- 
lieving He  will  yet  make  the  courts  of  Zion  to  flourish,  and 
give  them  to  see  the  desire  of  their  souls,  and  be  satisfied. 

Fourth  month  17th.  The  Yearly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and 
Elders  commenced  this  day.  Some  Friends  had  acceptaljle  sei*- 
vice,  tending  to  enforce  the  practice  of  inward,  reverent  waiting 
in  our  religious  meetings ;  which  will  contribute  more  to  gather 
the  people  than  the  mere  expression  of  words.  The  replies  to 
the  Queries,  exhibited  a  low  state  of  the  inferior  Meetings  of 
Ministers  and  Elders,  as  regards  unity  and  blameless  conduct 
aniongst  men,  in  some  places. 

On  first-day  morning,  the  18th,  Isaac  Stevenson,  from  Eng- 
land, who  was  present  at  Pine  Street  Meeting,  bore  a  clear  and 
unequivocal  testimony  to  the  divinity  of  Chi'ist,  and  the  eflicacy 
of  his  propitiatory  sacrifice;  that  it  is  through  much  tribula- 
tion the  righteous  enter  the  kingdom  ;  but  there  are  seasons 
in  which  they  are  permitted  to  have  a  foretaste  of  the  joys 
which  shall  be  hereafter  revealed;  that  as  the  glory  of  the  lat- 
ter house  was  to  transcend  that  of  the  former,  the  humlile,  faith- 
ful traveller  at  times  experiences  the  glory  of  the  Lord  revealed 
in  his  soul,  to  his  unspeakable  consolation. 

On  second-day,  the  19th,  we  began  the  business  of  the  Yearly 
Meeting;  when  the  reading  of  the  usual  epistolary  correspond- 
ence brought  a  solemnity  over  the  meeting ;  renewing  the  evi- 
dence that  unity  still  subsists  between  the  various  parts  of  our 
widely  extended  Society.  The  sittings  on  Third-day  were  gene- 
rally occupied  in  hearing  the  reports  and  considering  the  state 
of  the  subordinate  meetings,  as  set  forth  in  the  replies  to  the 
Queries ;  during  which  much  was  said  to  edification.  Fourth- 
dav  morning,  the  Select  Meeting  concluded  its  sessions.  A  pro- 
position from  the  Southern  (Quarterly  Meeting,  which  is  located 
in  the  State  of  Delaware,  where  slavery  exists,  that  a  rule  of 
discipline  should  be  made  against  Friends  hiring  slaves  for  the 
profit  of  the  owners,  was  referred  to  acommitlee;  and  at  a 
future  sitting,  a  rule  was  adopted,  authorizing  Monthly  Meet- 


JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  87 

ings  to  diso^vn  those  members  who  could  not  be  persuaded  to 
desist  from  the  practice. 

A  woman  Friend*  who  came  into  our  meeting  in  the  afternoon 
was  extensively  engaged  in  sj)eaking  to  those  members  who  had 
partaken,  or  were  in  danger  of  eating,  of  the  fruit  of  the  tree  of 
unbelief.     She  related  the  case  of  a  young  man  of  very  sujjei-ior 
talents  and  advantages,  who  spent  much  time  to  ascertain  and 
decide  upon  the  religious  principles  he  should  adopt;  when  be- 
fore he  was  aware,  he  had  so  imbibed  the  spirit  of  unbelief,  that 
he  became  darkened  and  bewildered  to  that  degree,  his  mind 
could  settle  upon  no  fixed  principles.     He  adopted  the  infidel 
opinion  that  we  are  not  bound  to  believe  what  we  cannot  com- 
prehend ;  and  then  rejected  the  plain  testimony  of  the  Holy 
Scriptures,  to  the  sacred,  mysterous  truths  of  the  gospel  of  sal- 
vation, by  our  Lord  and  Saviour  Jesus  Christ.     It  pleased  the 
Lord  to  lay  him  upon  a  bed  of  languishing ;  he  lingered  long, 
and  finding  himself  destitute  of  all  foundation  for  the  hojie  of 
future  happiness  in  the  world  to  come,  his  state  of  mind  became 
awful.     Ardently  desirous   of  some   evidence   upon  which  he 
could  rest  his  hope  of  salvation,  and  yet  utterly  incapable  of 
believing  the  unutterable  truths  he  had  so  long  accustomed 
himself  to  doubt  or  call  in  question,  he  was  led  at  last  fervently 
to  pray,  that  the  Lord  would  be  pleased  to  grant  him  some  as- 
surance of  their  reality.     After  a  long  season  of  bitter  conflict, 
his  prayer  was  heard;  his  mind  was  furnished  with  a  degree  of 
the  true  fiiith,  which  is  of  the  operation  of  the  Spirit  of  God  in 
the  heart ;  which  had  once  been  tendered  by  it,  and  long  since  lost. 
Now  he  could  receive  the  doctrines  of  the  Scriptures,  which 
had  been  to  him  as  sealed  with  seven  seals;  and  at  his  desire, 
they  were  frequently  read  to  him,  with  some  other  religious 
books,  I  think  she  said,  sometimes  in  the  middle  of  the  night. 
He  became  like  a  weaned  child  ;  all  dependence  upon  reason,  or 
any  other  power  of  his  own,  was  utterly  renounced,  and  as  a 
new-born  babe,  he  now  received,  with  meekness,  the  engrafted 
Word,  which  is  able  to  save  the  soul ;  rejoicing  in  the  means 
which  a  gracious  Creator  has  provided,  as  helps  in  the  way  and 
work  of  salvation,  through  fiiith  in  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ. 

The  false  position  which  the  young  man  had  unwisely  adopt- 
ed, was  controverted  at  large  ;  and  Individuals  in  the  meeting 
were  feelingly  and  fervently  labored  with,  to  guard  them  against 
an  evil  heart  of  unbelief,  and  to  convince  them  of  the  dangerous 
*  Elizabeth  Eobson. 


88  JOURNAL   OF   AVILLIAM    EVANS. 

consequence  of  attempting  to  weaken  the  testimony  of  the  Holy 
Scriptures,  and  thus  destroy  the  faith  of  others,  in  the  doctrines 
of  life  and  salvation  by  Jesus  Christ. 

The  remaining  business  of  the  Yearly  Meeting  was  satisfac- 
torily disposed  of  in  three  sittings,  closing  on  sixth-day  even- 
ing. There  was  much  cause  for  humble  acknowledgment  to  the 
Grod  and  Father  of  all  our  sure  mercies,  for  the  signal  and  con- 
tinued extension  of  his  Divine  regard  to  us,  throughout  the  sit- 
tings of  this  meeting ;  clothing  the  minds  of  many  with  a  solid, 
steady  travail,  for  the  welfare  and  stability  of  the  church;  and 
granting  the  evidence  of  his  power  and  authority  presiding 
over  and  amongst  us.  It  seemed  to  confound  the  wisdom  of 
the  carnally  wise,  and  to  bring  to  naught  all  the  plans  which 
had  been  devised  against  the  peace,  order  and  government  which 
have  so  long  prevailed  in  our  religious  Society.  I  trust  it  will 
prove  as  food  that  shall  be  found  again  after  many  days;  and 
as  a  stay  to  some  who  have  been  too  easily  tossed  to  and  fro  by 
the  windy  doctrines  of  men. 

Fifth  month  .3d.  Our  Quarterly  Meeting  for  Ministers  and 
Elders  was  held.  In  the  meeting  for  business,  E.  Jordan  was 
acceptably  engaged,  bearing  a  full  and  clear  testimony  to  our 
blessed  Saviour,  both  as  to  his  Godhead  and  manhood. 

23d.  Within  the  last  two  weeks,  I  felt  a  concern  to  attend 
all  the  meetings  in  the  city,  and  though  considerable  discour- 
agement was  in  the  way,  I  gave  up  to  the  prospect,  and  was 
enabled  to  get  through  to  tolerable  satisfaction.  A  greater 
flow  of  strength  and  matter  was  afforded  at  some  times  than  at 
others,  and  when  the  stream  seemed  low,  it  tended  to  humble 
and  keep  me  low  with  it.  The  work  under  such  dispensations, 
is  more  mortifying,  though  not  the  less  salutary  to  the  preacher 
as  well  as  hearer,  provided  we  are  steadily  kept  under  Divine 
guidance.  I  hope  it  was  the  case  in  a  good  degree,  and  I  at 
least  derived  some  instruction  in  the  course  of  the  visit,  in  which 
there  seemed  to  be  some  enlargement  of  the  gift. 

My  brother  Thomas  being  absent,  in  comjjany  with  Isaac 
Stevenson,  on  his  religious  visit  to  this  country,  in  one  of 
the  letters  which  passed  between  us,  was  the  following  para- 
graph, which  I  wish  to  preserve;  as  it  contains  an  exercise  I 
have  sometimes  felt  for  the  preservation  of  my  brothers  and 
sisters,  and  our  right  improvement  of  the  talents  and  favors 
that  have  been  dispensed  to  us : 


JOURNAL   OF    "WILLIAM    EVANS.  89 

"  I  have  been  often  led  to  reflect  upon  the  many  favors  which 
have  been  conferred  upon  our  family  by  a  merciful  and  benefi- 
cent Creator.  Although  temporal  riches  have  not  fallen  to 
our  trust,  yet  a  plentiful  supply  of  the  necessaries  and  com- 
forts of  life  has  been  within  our  reach ;  and  while  these  have 
been  thus  bestowed  for  our  own  accommodation,  we  have  also 
possessed  the  means  to  fulfil  the  duties  of  social  life,  and  to 
contribute  to  meliorate  the  distressed  condition  of  others. 
But  above  all  these,  are  to  be  acknowledged  the  gifts  of  the 
Holy  Spirit.  Our  parents  being  visited  in  early  life  by  the  Day- 
Spring  from  on  high,  and  with  sincerity  of  heart  faithfully  yield- 
ing to  these  visitations,  were  entrusted  with  precious  gifts ;  not 
only  designed  for  their  blessing,  but  fitting  them  for  exemplary 
usefulness  in  the  church  of  Christ.  Through  their  faithfulness 
in  bearing  the  cross,  and  sufl'ering  with  the  despised  followers  of 
the  Lamb,  they  have  obtained  an  honorable  station  in  the 
church  ;  ruled  well  in  their  own  family,  and  by  their  example 
and  precepts,  have  placed  a  weight  of  religious  obligation  uj)on 
ns,  their  children.  Where  much  is  given  much  will  be  required. 
He  who  has  thus  signally  favored  us  with  such  valuable  parents, 
as  well  as  with  spiritual  gifts,  will  look  for  fruits  in  their  season  ; 
and  if  we  are  not  found  in  the  footsteps  of  Christ's  companions, 
no  natural  connections,  nor  descent  from  virtuous  parents,  will 
remedy  the  defect,  or  be  admitted  as  an  excuse.  It  will  be  use- 
less to  imagine  that  the  faithfulness  of  dedicated  parents,  will 
preserve  us  from  the  evils  that  abound  in  the  world,  or  shield 
us  for  neglect  of  the  means  put  into  our  hands,  from  the  just 
and  awful  inquisition  for  the  use  we  have  made  of  our  Lord's 
goods.  I  often  feel  desirous  we  may  lay  these  things  deeply 
to  heart ;  that  being  convinced  of  the  indispensable  necessity 
of  dedicating  ourselves  wholly  to  the  Lord's  service ;  and  under 
the  sense  of  our  continued  need  of  Divine  preservation,  we  may 
in  humility  and  reverence,  implore  Him  from  day  to  day,  for 
fresh  supplies  of  his  Holy  Spirit,  to  enable  us  to  follow  Him  in 
the  regeneration,  and  to  fill  with  propriety  whatever  station  He 
may  design  for  us  in  his  church.  Being  thoroughly  washed  and 
purged  from  every  defilement,  we  should  thus  become  living, 
experimental  witnesses  of  the  eflScacy  of  his  Grace ;  and  pre- 
pared in  truth  to  declare  to  others,  what  our  eyes  had  seen  and 
our  hands  had  handled  of  the  good  Word  of  life.  May  we  then, 
my  dear  brother,  not  seeking  to  adorn  ourselves  in  any  manner 


90  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS. 

with  what  has  been  dispensed  for  our  stewardship,  but  in  true 
humility  of  heart,  seek  the  Lord's  honor  above  everything  else ; 
and  then  He  will  continue  the  blessing  which  rested  upon  the 
head  of  Joseph,  unto  the  utmost  bound  of  the  everlasting 
hills." 

Sixth  month  19th.  At  our  last  Monthly  Meeting,  I  obtained 
a  minute  of  its  concurrence  to  attend  the  Yearly  Meeting  to  be 
held  in  Rhode  Island,  and  a  few  meetings  in  the  neighborhood 
of  ^Newport.  On  several  accounts,  the  Yearly  Meeting  was  a 
very  exercising  time.  In  that  for  worship,  held  on  first-day, 
some  disaffected  persons  interrupted  the  solemnity,  with  their 
unsavory  and  unauthorized  communications.  The  reports  indi- 
cated that  love  and  unity,  and  the  attendance  of  public  worship, 
were  at  a  low  ebb  in  some  places.  Considerable  counsel  was 
extended  by  our  friends  William  Forster,  Jr.,  and  Isaac  Steven- 
son, of  England,  and  others;  which  appeared  to  be  acceptable  to 
many  Friends,  and  in  which  I  had  some  little  share.  But  the 
want  of  feeling  and  clear  discernment  on  the  part  of  some  others, 
was  very  affecting ;  which  with  observations  made  by  some  per- 
sons, made  several  sittings,  seasons  of  painful  exercise  and 
mourning.  Friends  are  very  generally  opposed  to  the  wild  pre- 
tensions of  these  visionary,  ranting  spirits,  and  seem  resolved  to 
maintain  the  discipline  and  order  of  the  Society  over  their 
heads.  Many  have  suffered  deeply  by  them,  and  I  hope  with  a 
good  degree  of  patience.  Friends  were  encouraged  to  stand 
firm,  and  to  treat  with  offenders  in  the  restoring  spirit  of  meek- 
ness ;  waiting  upon  the  Ilead  of  the  Church,  to  feel  their  own 
incapacity  for  the  work  ;  that  in  the  spirit  of  prayer  and  suppli- 
cation, they  might  apply  to  Him  for  Divine  aid  to  labor  success- 
fully for  the  help  of  their  brethren  ;  and  thereby  raise  a  testimony 
in  the  hearts  of  the  rebellious,  that  their  restoration  to  the  foot- 
steps of  the  flock,  was  the  primary  object  of  their  concern. 

Tlie  business  was  finished  on  fifth-day  evening,  and  after  such 
occasions  of  suftcriug,  it  aftbrded  comfort  to  be  favored  with  a 
peaceful  satisfactory  close ;  our  dear  friend,  William  Forster, 
Jr.,  being  engaged  in  fervent  supplication  for  the  different 
classes  ;  that  we  might  be  concerned  to  fill  up  faithfully  the 
various  measures  of  assigned  duty;  experiencing  strength  and 
preservation  in  our  different  allotments,  however  distantly 
separated  from  each  other.  Friends  manifested  much  kindness, 
particularly  our  much  valued   and  attentive  hostess,  Abigail 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  91 

Eobiuson,  at  whose  house,  my  brother  Joseph  Ehoads  and  my- 
self, were  very  agreeably  accommodated. 

Having  a  meeting  aj^pointed  on  Canonicut  Island,  whei-e  a 
few  Friends  reside,  we  went  over  on  sixth-day  morning,  and  at- 
tended it.  Being  the  first  I  had  held  of  that  description,  it  was 
felt  to  be  a  serious  matter  for  me;  but  believing  the  only  ground 
on  which  we  can  safely  move,  is  that  of  simple  obedience,  I  was 
pi-eserved  in  calmness  and  dedication  to  the  Lord's  will ;  wherein 
I  was  enabled  to  discharge  myself  of  what  appeared  to  be 
opened  for  the  people;  and  as  I  was  a  child  in  the  work,  He  who 
knows  how  to  lead  forth  his  children,  dealt  with  me  according 
to  my  capacity;  neither  trusting  me  with  great  things,  nor  fail- 
ing to  afford  the  consolation  of  peaceful  tranquility  throughout 
the  day.     The  Friends  there  appeared  to  be  satisfied. 

We  attended  the  Western  Meeting  at  South  Kingston  on  first- 
day  ;  the  Monthly  3Ieeting  at  Tower  Hill  on  second-day,  and  on 
third  and  fourth-days,  had  appointed  meetings  at  Eichmond  and 
Hopkinton.  The  last  was  a  favored  time,  in  which  the  love  and 
life  of  the  Gospel  were  felt,  and  flowed  freely  towai'ds  the 
people;  it  was  quite  unexpected  to  me  to  be  thus  favored  in  the 
close,  but  it  seemed  to  be  granted  as  an  encouragement  to  future 
dedication  to  the  Master's  will.  The  people  were  much  ten- 
dered, and  an  elderly  man,  who  I  supposed,  was  not  a  member, 
said  it  was  the  doctrine  he  had  believed  for  forty  years. 

Ninth  month  5th.  My  dear  mother  having  been  much  con- 
fined Avith  sickness  during  the  last  seven  months,  so  far  re- 
covered, as  to  be  able  to  attend  our  meeting  a  few  times  in  the 
past  four  weeks.  This  morning  she  was  engaged  to  declare  that 
our  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  is  the  Way,  the  Truth,  and  the  Life,  by 
whom  alone  our  salvation  is  to  be  effected.  She  said  "She  was 
never  before  so  fully  prepared  to  bear  testimony  to  the  excellency, 
.the  wisdom,  and  the  blessedness  of  the  Gospel  plan :  that  Christ 
was  the  way,  she  was  bold  to  declare,  and  that  it  was  a  precious 
thing  to  have  faith  in  Him."  Speaking  of  the  hope  of  the  truo 
believer,  she  observed,  that  at  a  time  when  she  apprehended 
herself  on  the  confines  of  the  grave,  "  I  said,  what  a  blessed 
hope !  and  any  other  hope  of  salvation  than  by  and  through 
the  mediation  of  our  Lord  and  Saviour  Jesus  Christ,  will  prove 
like  the  hope  of  the  hypocrite,  that  shall  perish  When  brought 
to  such  a  crisis  as  this,  having  experienced  our  own  wills,  lusts 
and  affections,  reduced  by  the  opei^ationof  his  grace — that  grace 


92  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

which  came  by  Jesus  Christ — and  nailed  to  the  cross,  in  some 
little  degree  compai'able  to  his  bod^''  being  nailed  to  the  out- 
ward cross,  in  which  we  might  say,  if  this  cup.  may  not  pass 
from  me,  not  my  will  l)ut  thine  be  done,  then  are  we  prepared 
to  acknowledge  that  it  is  not  by  anything  we  have  done,  but 
all  of  the  mercy  of  Grod  ;  not  by  works  of  righteousness  which 
we  have  done,  but  according  to  his  mercy  He  saveth  us ;  by  the 
washing  of  regeneration,  and  the  renewing  of  the  Holy  Ghost." 
Such  a  testimony  to  the  Gospel  of  salvation  ;  and  the  entire 
uselessness  of  man's  righteousness,  which  he  performs  in  his 
own  time  and  strength,  delivered  by  one  who  seemed  to  be  raised 
from  the  dead,  I  thought  was  worth  preserving.  It  shows  the 
continued  goodness  of  the  Heavenly  .Parent,  in  authorizing 
his  servants  to  publish  the  glad  tidings  of  peace  through  his 
well  beloved  Son,  even  to  a  rebellious  and  gainsaying  people, 
whether  they  hear  or  forbear. 

After  the  decease  of  my  dear  wife,  I  continued  unmarried  be- 
tween nine  and  ten  yeai's;  during  which  I  passed  through  many 
dispensations,  designed,  I  trust,  to  promote  my  growth  in  the 
work  of  salvation,  and  prepare  me  for  the  service  to  which  the 
Lord  would  call  me  in  his  church.  At  one  time  when  my  mind 
was  under  deep  plunges,  and  with  little  sense  of  the  Lord's 
presence  and  supporting  power,  our  friend_,  Elizabeth  Eobson, 
came  to  our  meeting  at  Pine  street ;  and  as  I  sat  under  such 
feelings  stripped  of  all  good,  I  said  in  my  heart,  if  she  would 
rise  and  utter  the  expressions  of  our  blessed  Saviour  to  Peter, 
it  would  be  a  convincing  confirmation  that  I  was  not  entirely 
forsaken.  Soon  after  the  thought  had  passed  through  my  mind, 
she  rose  and  began  with  these  words,  "  Simon  behold,  Satan  hath 
desired  to  have  you  that  he  may  sift  _you  as  wheat,  but  I  have 
prayed  for  thee,  that  thy  faith  fail  not."  It  was  very  striking 
to  me,  and  tendered  my  spirit,  reviving  my  faith  and  dissipating 
those  fears  with  which  I  had  been  assailed.  It  seemed  an  evi- 
dence of  the  reality  of  the  communion  of  exercised  spirits,  still 
continued  in  the  church  of  Christ. 

My  thoughts  having  been  drawn  towards  my  beloved  friend 
Elizabeth  Barton,  a  minister,  daughter  of  John  and  Eebecca 
Barton,  with  a  vicAV  of  proposing  our  marriage,  the  prospect 
of  entering  again  into  the  marriage  covenant,  was  not  less 
serious  than  in  the  former  union  ;  and  brought  me  into  strong 
desire  to  do  nothing  but  what  was  according  to  the  Lord's 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  93 

will ;  often  looking  to  Him  for  evidence  of  the  propriety  of 
such  a  movement  j  which  I  believe  was  also  her  sincere  con- 
cern. 

My  dear  friend  having  a  religious  draft  to  attend  Baltimore 
Yearly  Meeting,  she  was  accompanied  to  it,  in  the  Tenth  month, 
by  our  valued  Friends,  Josiah  and  Elizabeth  Eeeve,  who  were 
like  parents  in  the  Truth  to  both  of  us.  The  Lord  equipped 
and  anointed  her  for  the  work  she  was  engaged  in,  much  to 
the  satisfaction  of  Friends  there,  and  to  her  beloved  companions. 
Our  marriage  was  accomplished  after  her  return  from  this  visit, 
at  jSTewlown,  IS".  J.,  on  the  twenty-third  day  of  the  Twelfth  month, 
1824 ;  at  which  time  we  were  favored  with  a  solid  satisfactory 
meeting,  under  a  sense  of  the  owning  presence  of  our  blessed 
Lord  and  Master. 

1825,  Fourth  month  18th.  Our  Yearly  Meeting  began  on 
this  day.  The  epistles  from  the  different  Yearly  Meetings  were 
read,  to  the  comfort  and  strength  of  the  meeting. 

A  proposal  that  "All  important  appointments  should  be 
made  for  a  limited  time,"  was  introduced  to  the  Yearly  Meeting 
by  the  report  of  one  of  the  Quarterly  Meetings.  It  was  a 
favorite  scheme  with  the  followers  of  Elias  Hicks.  The  oppo- 
sition made  to  his  principles  by  the  Elders  of  Philadelphia, 
having  been  the  beginning  of  ditficulty  to  him  in  spreading  his 
unsound  notions,  by  rousing  up  many  in  the  Society  to  examine 
and  to  reject  them,  as  subversive  of  the  fundamental  doctrines  of 
Christianity,  and  the  peace  and  discipline  of  our  Society,  he 
had  expressed  at  different  times,  his  repugnance  to  Meetings  of 
Ministers  and  Elders,  and  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings ;  saying 
they  were  blocks  in  his  way  and  must  be  removed.  Consider- 
able discussion  followed  the  opening  of  it  to  the  meeting.  The 
friends  of  Elias  Hicks  labored  hard  to  induce  the  meeting  to 
take  hold  of  the  proposition;  but  after  much  time  spent  on  it, 
a  minute  was  made,  that  way  did  not  open  to  take  any  such 
step. 

It  was  very  obvious  that  the  design  of  introducing  this  subject, 
was  to  pave  the  way  for  the  formation  of  such  a  Meeting  for 
Sufferings,  as  would  publish  and  spread  these  antichristian  sen- 
timents ;  and  to  remove  all  elders  who  had  or  should  discounten- 
ance E.  Hicks,  and  other  ministers  who  held  his  opinions. 
Ministers  who  preached  the  doctrines  of  the  New  Testament, 
would  be  subjected  to  the  same  treatment.     The  plea  that  such 


94  JOURNAL   OF    WII-LIAM    EVANS. 

had  "become  burdensome,"  iidvuiieed  b}-  one  of  them  during 
the  discussion,  and,  in  their  estimation,  had  lost  their  giits, 
would  be  sufficient  to  remove  them.  Unsound  principles  might 
thus  be  propagated  with  impunity,  and  Ubertinism  and  ranter- 
ism  would,  in  pl.aces,  overrun  the  Society.  Thus  the  beautiful 
and  excellent  order,  which  the  Head  of  the  church  has  insti- 
tuted in  our  Eeligious  Society,  and  the  hedge  erected  as  a  de- 
fence upon  the  glory,  might  be  destroj'ed ;  and  the  members 
become  a  prey  to  the  wild  schemes  and  imaginations  of  eveiy 
ambitious  pretender  to  superior  light. 

Much  concern  Avas  felt  by  many  Friends,  respecting  this 
Yearly  Meeting.  Although  we  were  not  favored  at  all  times, 
with  such  a  covering  of  solemnity  as  we  might  desire,  those 
restless  people,  notwithstandingtheir  exertions  to  support  their 
own  plans.  Avere  entirely  defeated;  they  did  not  gain  a  single 
point;  and  Friends  rejoiced  in  a  sense  of  the  preservation  still 
extended  to  us  in  this  large  annual  assembly,  by  our  hol}^  Head 
and  High  Priest. 

Fifth  month  25th.  At  our  Monthly  Meeting,  held  this  day, 
a  Friend  opened  a  concern  with  wdiich  his  mind  had  been  long 
impressed,  respecting  the  spreading  of  unsound  principles 
amongst  the  members,  by  various  means.  He  thought  it  his 
place  to  open  the  subject,  that  we  might  consider  Avhether  it  was 
the  dutj'  of  the  meeting  to  adopt  any  measures  to  guard  the 
members  against  their  pernicious  tendency.  Sevei'al  spoke  in 
favor  of  something  being  done  to  wai-n  the  members  of  the 
dangerous  opinions.  Nothing,  however,  was  agreed  to  be  done 
at  present;  yet  the  opening  and  spreading  of  the  subject  before 
the  meeting,  showed  that  Friends  were  alive  to  the  dangerous 
tendency  of  the  sentiments  of  E.  Hicks,  and  it  will  gradually 
prepare  for  decisive  measures  in  due  time. 

Eighth  month  1st.  Our  Quarterly  Meeting  was  a  time  of 
debate,  on  the  case  of  a  substantial  elder  whom  thcCJroen  Street 
Meeting  had  attempted  to  displace,  under  the  plea  that  he  was 
out  of  the  unity,  on  account  of  bis  joining  with  the  sound  elders 
among  us,  in  declaring  their  disunity  with  Elias  Hicks.  Some 
triefl  to  dismiss  the  case  from  the  notice  of  the  (Quarterly  Meet- 
ing, but  not  succeeding,  it  was  referred  to  the  next  meeting. 

Tenth  month  25th.  T  attended  the  Northern  District  Month- 
ly Meeting,  where  we  had  the  company  of  Elizabeth  llobson. 


JOLUXAL    UF    WILLIAM    KVAXS.  95 

from  England.     Jler  labors  iu  the  fir&t  moclin^L,',  an. I  in  ihu 
men's  Monthly  Meeting,  I  thought  were  well  adapk-.l. 

26th.  E.  liobson  was  with  us  at  our  Monthly  Meeting  verv 
satislactorily,  and  appeared  to  have  a  just  seu.so  ol'  the  ^tai.> 
of  man}-. 

1826,  First  month  25th.  Having  had  my  iniml  drawn  ui  Uii- 
ferent  times  to  visit  the  meetings  iu  the  counlry,  beluiiging  lo 
our  Quarterly  Meeting,  I  mentioned  it  to  the  Monthly  Meeting; 
informing  that  as  Radnor  Monthly  Meeting  was  within  a  eon- 
venient  distance,  I  had  attended  the  meetings  euniimsing  it, 
except  one ;  but  although  the  discipline  gave  me  liberty,  1  did 
not  feel  easy  to  visit  the  others,  without  the  consent  of  the 
Monthly  Meeting;  being  little  known  among  them  as  a  minis- 
ter. The  experienced  and  weighty  part  expressed  their  unity, 
and  approbation  of  granting  me  a  minute.  But  those  dissatis- 
fied members  objected  to  a  minute  being  given,  yet  some  were 
willing  I  should  go  without  one ;  and  persisting  in  their  oppo- 
sition, it  was  not  minuted,  and  I  informed  Friends  that  I  should 
not  be  easy  to  attend  to  the  concern  without  its  concurrence, 
expressed  in  writing  ;  the  prosecution  of  it  will,  of  course,  be  de- 
ferred. Suffering  for  well-doing  will  be  of  use  to  those  who 
rightly  endure  it,  in  a  true  Christian  spirit.  I  desire  to  be  fav- 
ored with  this,  and  to  manifest  the  fruits  of  it  towards  others, 
even  my  inconsiderate  opponents. 

Second  month  6th.  Being  convinced  that  the  principles  of 
infidelity  have  taken  root  in  some  members  of  our  religious 
Society,  and  that  it  is  much  to  be  attributed  to  an  unauthorized 
ministry,  as  the  subject  rested  with  weight  upon  my  mind,  I 
was  induced  to  open  it  in  our  Select  Quarterly  Meeting,  on  the 
4th,  I  expressed  my  fears  that  there  were  those  among  us, 
who,  with  or  without  design,  were  giving  encouragement  to  the 
growth  of  these  principles.  The  practice  of  dwelling  particu- 
iarly  on  passages  of  Holy  Scripture,  which  relate  to  the  man- 
hood of  the  Lord  Jesus,  and  in  clipping  others,  in  which  his 
Divinity  is  set  forth,  tended  to  inculcate  those  sentiments  of 
unbelief,  and  settle  the  young  people  in  a  disposition  to  slight 
some  of  the  fundamental  principles  of  Christianity.  They  were 
quick  in  discerning  those  departures,  which  have  an  injurious 
tendency.  I  had  been  told  by  one  person  that  he  did  not  see 
how  the  sufferings  and  death  of  Christ  could  affect  his  salvatiom 
This  wasone  evidence  of  the  effect  of  these  unsound  opinions;  and 


96  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

it  was  also  said,  "We  are  not  bound  to  believe  what  we  cannot 
understand."  While  some  were  holding  up  the  doctrine  of,  Christ 
in  us  the  hope  of  glory,  which  is  a  true,  sound,  gospel  doctrine, 
they  were  detracting  from  the  high  and  holy  character  of  the 
Lord  Jesus ;  in  striving  to  weaken  or  destroy  the  faith  of  the 
people  in  his  sufferings  in  the  prepared  body,  as  of  no  avail  in 
the  salvation  of  mankind.  Friends  were  warned  against  this 
desolating  spirit;  that  however  some  might  be  soaring  above 
others,  and  drawing  persons  to  them,  the  time  would  come  when 
all  would  be  brought  down,  as  into  the  valley  of  Jehosophat ; 
where  the  Lord  would  plead  with  all  flesh,  and  show  some  the 
awfiilness  of  endeavoring  to  lessen  and  detract  from  the  charac- 
ter and  offices  of  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ. 

Fourth  month  15th.  This  morning  the  Yearly  Meeting  of 
Ministers  and  Elders  commenced.  Eichard  Jordan  bore  testi- 
mony to  the  Divine  origin  and  excellency  of  the  Holy  Scrip- 
tures. He  expressed  his  thankfulness  that  Divine  Goodness  had 
influenced  his  prophets,  and  messengers  and  apostles  to  record 
the  creation  of  the  visible  world,  and  his  dealings  with  man 
from  the  beginning.  That  the  outward  creation  was  analo- 
gous to  the  spiritual ;  so  that  even  the  apostle  declared  that  it 
displayed  the  invisible  power  of  the  Creator;  and  the  experi- 
ences of  the  righteous  corroborated  each  other;  and  under  the 
Divine  influence,  they  owned  the  testimonies  of  the  Holy  Spirit 
which  had  gone  before.  He  repeated  the  first  verse  of  the 
Epistle  to  the  Hebrews,  and  particulai'ly  dwelt  on  the  value  of 
the  record,  that  God  had,  in  the  last  days,  spoken  unto  us  by 
his  Son,  whom  He  had  appointed  heir  of  all  things. 

Elizabeth  liobson  followed  him  in  testimony  to  the  promise 
of  the  Messiah,  at  the  fall  of  Adam ;  renewal  of  that  promise  to 
Abraham  ;  the  prophecy  of  it  by  Jacob  resj)ecting  Judah;  and 
the  more  minute  descrijition  of  the  character  of  the  Redeemer 
by  the  succeeding  prophets.  She  showed  the  fulfilment  of  those 
prophecies  in  Jesus  Christ;  his  rejection  and  contemptuous 
treatment  by  the  Jews,  and  their  final  assent  to  his  crucifixion. 
That  He  thus  bore  our  sins,  as  the  great  propitiatory  sacrifice, 
w^ithout  the  gates  of  Jerusalem;  and  that  it  was  the  gospel 
commission  to  the  apostles,  and  to  every  true  minister  of  Christ 
down  to  this  day,  that  repentance  and  remission  of  sins  should 
be  preached  in  the  name  of  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ.  She  closed 
her  communication  with  expressions  of  great  symjiathy  Avith  a 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  97 

tried  remnant  among  us,  and  the  firm  belief  that  these,  as  they 
kept  on  the  immutable  foundation,  would  be  jjreserved ;  that  a 
poor  despised  remnant  would  be  raised  up  in  our  Society,  who 
should  stand  for  the  honor  of  the  great  Name  ;  and  that  to  these 
the  Lord  would  be  for  a  crown  of  glory  and  a  diadem  of 
beauty. 

16th.  This  morning,  first-day,  we  had  the  company  of  our 
friend,  E.  Eobson,  at  our  meeting.  She  bore  a  plain  testimony 
to  the  Redeemer  and  Saviour  of  men  ;  and  expressed  her  sense  of 
those  present,  who  were  endeavoring  to  fence  themselves  in  a 
confidence  in  themselves,  and  were  resisting  the  knockings  of 
Christ,  to  gain  an  entrance  in  their  hearts;  and  she  pressed  the 
necessity  of  yielding  thereto,  as  time  was  fast  spending,  and  it 
was  a  gift  to  be  accounted  for.  John  Parker  followed  in  a  short, 
lively  testimony ;  and  she  concluded  the  meeting  with  solemn 
and  affecting  supplication,  both  for  those  who  were  thus  hard- 
ening themselves  against  the  reproofs  of  the  Spirit  of  Christ, 
and  for  those  who  counted  nothing  too  dear  to  part  with  for  his 
name's  sake. 

17th.  Soon  after  the  opening  of  the  Yearly  Meeting,  Eichard 
Jordan  spoke  on  the  different  sounds  there  are  in  the  world ;  and 
whether  of  pipe  or  harp,  it  was  necessary  we  should  have  our 
spiritual  senses  exercised  to  distinguish  between  them.  If  the 
trumpet  gave  an  uncertain  sound,  who  would  prepare  himself 
for  the  battle  ?  He  showed  the  difference  between  the  first  and 
second  Adam ;  the  first  was  of  the  earth,  earthy;  the  second  the 
Loi'd  from  heaven ;  the  first  was  made  a  living  soul,  the  second 
was  the  quickening  Spirit.  It  was  by  the  latter,  the  soul  was  made 
alive,  and  without  it,  it  would  be  in  a  state  of  spiritual  death.  He 
bore  testimony  to  the  blessedness  of  having  the  Holy  Scriptures ; 
and  mentioned  the  expressions  of  Peter,  respecting  Paul's  writings, 
which,  he  said,  the  ignorant  and  unlearned  wrested,  as  they  did 
the  other  Scriptures,  That  man,  by  all  his  powers,  was  unable 
to  comprehend  spiritual  things.  He  must  be  renewedly  quick- 
ened, taught  in  the  school  of  Christ;  or  in  his  ignorance  going 
about  to  unravel  the  mysteries  of  the  Gospel,  he  would  involve 
himself  in  perplexity.  This  was  the  sentiment  of  the  Society, 
in  the  beginning.  They  set  out  with  no  new  mystery,  but 
owned  the  doctrines  of  the  Gospel,  as  they  were  promulgated 
by  our  Lord  and  his  apostles,  &c. 

18th.     This  morning  the  attention  of  the  meeting  was  princi- 


98  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

pally  occupied  with  the  subject  of  the  slave  trade ;  and  besides 
a  minute  expressive  of  the  unity  of  the  meeting  with  the  pro- 
ceedings of  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  pi-epared  yesterday  and 
read  this  morning,  it  was  agreed  the  clerk  should  prepare  an- 
other, descriptive  of  the  concern  of  the  Yearly  Meeting,  as 
evinced  this  morning;  and  referring  to  the  particular  care  of 
the  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  the  subject  of  the  slave  trade,  foreign 
and  domestic. 

The  Queries  were  taken  up  in  the  afternoon,  and  proceeded 
in  as  far  as  the  fourth  and  fifth. 

Feeling  mj^  own  mind  brought  under  some  religious  concern, 
I  observed  that  I  believed  there  was  no  religious  Society,  that 
had  a  more  just  estimate  of  the  character  and  value  of  the 
Scriptures  than  the  vSociety  of  Friends.  That  although  we  did 
not  call  them  the  Word  of  God,  because  that  title  belonged  to 
our  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  yet  we  believed  that  holy  men  of  God 
wrote  and  spoke  them  as  they  were  moved  by  the  Holy  Ghost; 
and  the  more  we  were  under  the  influence  and  government  of 
that  Grace  and  Truth,  which  came  and  comes  by  Jesus  Christ, 
the  more  we  should  value  them.  I  stated,  as  an  evidence  of  the 
high  estimate  set  upon  them  by  our  Society,  that  we  had  a  rule 
of  discipline,  that  any  one  denying  the  Divine  authority  of 
the  Hol}^  Scriptures,  was  subject  to  disownment,  if  he  could  not 
be  brought  to  acknowledge  his  error.  By  the  Query  which  we 
had  just  heard,  this  meeting  indirectly  advises  its  members  to 
be  in  the  practice  of  frequently  reading  them.  This,  I  stated, 
was  conclusive  proof  that  Friends  set  a  high  value  upon  them; 
and  warned  some  against  calling  them  a  dead  letter,  having  no 
life  in  them.  The  more  we  were  under  the  influence  of  Divine 
life  in  ourselves,  the  more  comfort  and  strength  we  should  find 
in  reading  them.  To  these  the  experiences  of  the  holy  ancients 
were  peculiarly  valuable.  They  are  profitable  for  doctrine,  for 
reproof,  for  correction,  and  instruction  in  righteousness,  that 
the  fnan  of  God  may  be  perfect,  thoroughly  furnished  unto 
all  good  works;  being  able  to  make  wise  unto  salvation,  through 
faith  which  is  in  Chi-ist  Jesus.  In  proportion  to  the  various 
means  dispensed  in  inscrutable  wisdom  and  unmerited  mercy, 
for  our  aid  in  the  work  of  salvation  through  the  Holy  Spirit, 
would  be  our  responsibility;  and  at  some  period,  an  awful  ac- 
count must  be  rendered  for  the  use  of  them. 

The  meeting  was  very  rpiiet  tuid  attentive;  and  a  Friend  fol- 


JOURNAL    OF   AVILLIAM    EVANS.  99 

loAved  and  confirmed  what  I  had  said  as  correct;  and  added,  that 
the  Society  had  alwaj^s  held  them  as  a  test  of  their  doctrines,  and 
expected  Friends  to  be  in  the  practice  of  frequently  reading 
them  in  their  families. 

21st.  The  remaining  business  was  attended  to  on  the  19th, 
20th,  and  this  da}^.  Upon  the  whole,  the  meeting  was  pre- 
served in  much  quiet  throughout  its  sittings;  but  notwithstand- 
ing we  had  cause  to  believe  that  Divine  mercy  was  roundabout; 
still  keeping  us  from  anarchy  and  confusion ;  there  was  a  con- 
stant 25ainful  sense  of  a  dark  spirit,  secretly  at  work  in  many, 
that  was  waiting  and  watching  to  lay  waste  the  heritage.  This 
was  like  a  heavy  load  upon  the  upright,  sincerely  devoted  ser- 
vants of  Christ,  and  seemed  to  hinder  the  power  of  Divine 
life  from  rising  into  that  dominion  which  we  have  sometimes 
known  it  to  do. 

28th.  In  our  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders, 
held  this  morning,  much  pertinent  advice  and  encouragement 
were  communicated.  Elders  were  particularly  exhorted  to 
faithfulness  in  the  discharge  of  their  duties  towards  ministers ; 
and  sympathy  with  such  as  had  faithfully  kept  their  ground 
against  wrong  things,  and  had  heavy  burdens  to  bear,  was  freely 
expressed. 

Fifth  month  1st.  We  have  had  the  most  solid  Quarterly 
Meeting  this  day,  that  has  been  held  here  in  the  last  eighteen 
months.  Elizabeth  Robson  came  into  the  men's  meeting,  and 
had  very  weighty  and  pertinent  service.  She  mentioned  the 
instance  of  David  going  to  see  his  brethren,  that  he  might  know 
how  they  fared,  and  how  the  battle  went;  and  when  his  motive 
was  questioned,  he  asked,  "Is  there  not  a  cause?"  He  did  not 
go  forth  in  Saul's  armor,  but  chose  smooth  stones  out  of  the 
brook ;  and  with  a  simple  sling  smote  the  giant,  and  cut  off  his 
head  with  his  own  sword,  and  a  great  deliverance  w' as  wrought 
for  Israel,  through  the  faithfulness  of  a  single  individual.  Not- 
withstanding the  king's  decree,  Daniel  failed  not  to  offer  his 
prayers  three  times  a  day,  with  his  windows  open,  as  he  had 
been  wont  to  do ;  and  thus  bore  a  public  and  faithful  testimony  of 
his  allegiance  to  the  true  God.  She  said  it  was  time  for  some  who 
have  too  much  secluded  themselves,  to  show  on  whose  side  they 
are.  The  mouths  of  the  lions  were  stopped,  and  an  acknow- 
ledgment extorted  from  the  king,  by  whose  decree  he  had  been 
put  into  the  den,  that  Daniel's  God  was  the  living  God,  and 


100  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

able  to  deliver  those  who  trust  in  Ilim.  When  the  three  chil- 
dren were  cast  into  the  furnace,  which  was  heated  seven  times 
hotter  than  it  was  wont  to  be  heated,  they  walked  in  the  midst 
of  it  unhurt,  because  the  Son  of  God  was  with  them ;  and  not 
even  the  smell  of  fire  was  perceptible  on  their  garments.  But 
those  who  cast  them  in  were  slain  by  the  fire.  This  she  a^^plied, 
in  a  striking  manner,  to  those  who  were  endeavoring  to  destroy 
the  true  seed.  She  then  appeared  in  very  solemn  supplication, 
much  to  the  comfort  and  strength  of  many  Friends. 

Sixth  month  8th.  On  the  26th  of  last  month,  I  left  home  to 
attend  New  York  Yearly  Meeting,  with  a  minute  of  the 
Southern  District  Monthly  Meeting.  It  was  throughout  a  try'- 
ing  occasion;  a  spirit  of  opposition  in  many  to  sound  Friends, 
and  to  some  of  the  principles  of  the  Christian  religion,  as  held 
by  the  Society  from  its  rise,  was  a  constant  burden  upon  the 
rightly  exercised  members.  This  was  increased  from  time  to 
time,  by  opinions  of  a  disorganizing  tendency,  which  were 
avowed  by  some,  who  seemed  determined  to  destroy  all  regard 
to  doctrines  and  principles,  as  wholly  unimportant ;  and  to  dis- 
solve the  bands  of  Society,  by  denying  the  accountability  of  the 
members,  for  the  opinions  which  they  held  and  expressed.  Ah 
it  might  be  expected,  persons  of  little  or  no  religious  weight 
and  feeling,  manifested  no  restraint,  in  taking  an  undue  part  in 
the  discussions  of  the  meeting,  and  were  very  ready  and  impor- 
tunate to  have  their  views  adoj)ted.  A  solid  judgment,  conclu- 
ded under  the  solemnizing  presence  of  the  IIcHd  of  the  church, 
was  rarely  witnessed  throughout  the  meeting.  The  original 
ground  on  which  the  decisions  of  the  Society  heretofore  stood — 
a  prevailing  conviction  that  the  Truth  led  into  the  measure — ap- 
peared to  be  lost  sight  of  by  many ;  and  a  majority  of  voices 
regarded  as  the  governing  authority ;  without  any  discrimina- 
tion of  age,  experience,  soundness  of  judgment,  or  clearness  of 
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CHAPTER    Y. 

1826—1833. 

Progress  and  Effects  of  Unsound  Opinions — Death  of  R.  Jordan — Charge 
against  E.  Hicks  forwarded  by  Southern  District  Monthly  Meeting — Yearly 
Meeting  of  1827 — Separation  from  the  Society  of  Friends — Incidents  in 
some  of  the  Meetings — Abington  Quarter — Conference  held  at  Mount 
Pleasant — Ohio  Yearly  Meeting  of  1828 — Visit  to  North  Carolina — North 
Carolina  Yearly  Meeting — Visits  within  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting — 
Visit  within  New  England  Yearly  Meeting. 

1826,  Eighth  month  20th.  The  state  of  things  among  us  in 
rapidly  assuming  a  very  dark  and  gloomy  cast.  Unless  a  blast  is 
brought  upon  this  disorganizing  spirit,  it  would  seem  that 
great  devastation  will  be  made  in  the  Society.  Our  meetings 
for  Divine  worship  are,  at  times,  almost  destitute  of  the  sensible 
presence  of  our  holy  Head  and  High  Priest,  which  tenders  and 
humbles  the  minds  of  Friends,  and  qualities  for  the  performance 
of  that  solemn  duty.  The  streams  of  gospel  ministry  are  neai-ly 
stopped,  and  the  ministers  are  clothed  with  mourning,  at  the 
great  change.  But  we  are  not  "without  faith  and  hope,  that  the 
Lord  is  secretly  at  work,  to  make  w^ay  for  his  truth  and  powder, 
to  rise  again  into  dominion ;  when  He  will  confound  this  exalted 
Sf)irit,  and  bring  some  of  those  who  are  troubling  Israel,  down 
as  into  the  valley  of  Jehoshaphat,  where  He  will  plead  w4th  them 
in  a  very  awful  manner.  Great  will  be  their  confusion  at  that 
day ;  and  many,  I  believe,  will  look  back  with  astonishment  at 
the  delusion  with  which  they  and  others  have  been  overtaken. 

Ninth  month  16th.  On  the  13th,  in  company  wath  my  wife, 
I  attended  Haddonfield  Select  Quarterly  Meeting.  It  was 
a  low,  distressing  time.  The  benumbing  effects  of  the  love  of 
the  world  upon  very  many,  makes  our  assemblies  seasons  of 
laborious,  discouraging  exercise ;  in  which  apprehensions  corae 
over  the  mind,  that  we  are  in  danger  of  having  the  candlestick 
removed  out  of  its  place,  and  becoming  a  forsaken  people. 
These  sensations  w^ere  experienced  in  both  meetings. 

At  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  held  yesterday,  several  minutes 
of  new  appointments  by  different  Quarterly  Meetings  were  re- 
ceived. One  fi'om  the  Southern  Quarter  stated,  that  a  commit- 
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102  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

tee  had  been  appointed  to  consider  the  revision  of  tlicir 
representation  in  this  Meeting;  and  re])orted,  as  their  sense, 
that  it  wouhl  be  proper  to  release  all  their  representatives,  ex- 
cepting one.  As  the  case  was  new,  several  Friends  expressed 
doubts  of  the  propriety  of  such  a  measure  :  frequent  changes  in 
the  appointment  might  be  followed  by  injurious  consequences ; 
and  to  make  it,  involved  a  principle  which  the  Yearly  Meeting 
only  could  settle;  and  it  was  proposed  to  appoint  a  committee 
on  the  subject.  A  few  Friends  were  accordingly  verbally  ap- 
pointed to  attend  to  it. 

Eleventh  month.  On  the  14th  of  last  month,  our  belov- 
ed and  honored  friend,  Eichard  Jordan,  was  released  from 
the  trials  attendant  upon  this  earthly  scene,  after  a  sickness  of 
about  eight  weeks.  Without  much  apparent  suflTcring,  the 
worn-out  system  gave  way  to  the  force  of  disease,  and  the  spirit 
that  longed  to  depart  and  be  with  Christ,  his  Saviour  and  Re- 
deemer, was  permitted  to  take  its  flight  to  those  blissful  regions, 
''Where  the  wicked  cease  from  troubling  and  the  weary  are  at 
rest."  He  gave  ample  testimony,  in  his  illness,  of  the  firmness 
of  his  faith  in  Christ;  through  whose  grace  and  merits,  he  said, 
he  hoped  for  salvation.  This  was  the  faith  he  had  lived  in,  and 
the  faith  he  should  die  in. 

Great  quiet  and  solemnity  prevailed  at  the  time  of  his  burial ; 
and  after  the  interment.  Friends  convening  in  the  meeting- 
house, a  very  satisfactory  meeting  was  held ;  in  which  our  dear 
friend,  Ann  Jones  of  England,  bore  testimony  to  the  faithful- 
ness of  the  deceased,  in  discharging  his  duties  to  the  righteous 
and  the  unrighteous,  as  one  who  must  give  account  of  the  souls 
committed  to  his  care;  saying,  she  believed  he  had  received  the 
crown  of  an  apostle. 

lie  was  a  very  judicious,  nursing  father  to  inexperienced,  de- 
voted children  ;  equally  carefid  to  guard  them  against  ]n-ema- 
ture  fruit,  as  well  as  to  hand  suitable  encouragement  in  due 
season,  when  they  were  read}^  to  sink. 

On  the  4th  of  this  month,  was  held  our  Quarterly  JNfeeting 
of  Ministers  and  Elders,  which  was  in  the  main  a  comfortable 
meeting.  Our  friends,  G.  and  A.  Jones,  of  England,  and  E. 
Robson,  who  had  just  returned  from  Baltimore  Yearly  Meeting, 
were  with  us,  and  had  acceptable  service. 

On  the  6th,  the  Quarterly  Meeting  was  held;  it  was  unusually 
laro-e  many  young  men  being  present  who  showed  llui  r  interest 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  103 

in  the  preservation  of  order,  and  the  principles  of  the  Society, 
by  supporting  the  elder  Friends  in  such  measures  as  they  be- 
lieved it  right  to  adopt,  for  the  maintenance  of  the  discipline. 

The  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Bucks  was  held  at  Middletovvn,  on 
the  29th  and  30th  of  this  month,  which  I  attended,  and  was 
glad  to  have  the  opportunity  for  the  company  of  our  friends, 
George  and  Ann  Jones.  Several  other  Friends  were  there  from 
neighboring  meetings. 

On  sixth-day  morning  we  took  breakfast  at  Sarah  Comfort's, 
whose  valuable  husband  had  lately  deceased.  We  then  pro- 
ceeded to  Byberry,  and  attended  a  meeting  there,  appointed  by 
Gr.  and  A.  Jones.  The  latter  was  there  led  in  a  way  much  in  op- 
position to  those  who  cry  peace,  when  there  is  none.  Death  had 
come  up  into  their  houses;  and  those  who  had  been  teaching  the 
children  rebellion,  would,  she  believed,  experience  the  sad  con- 
sequences of  it  in  their  own  families.  Near  the  close  of  the 
meeting,  I  spoke  on  the  aAvful  and  resj)onsible  situation  of  those 
who  were  promoting  a  disbelief  in  Jesus  Christ  as  the  Saviour 
of  men ;  that  the  etfects  of  the  spirit  of  unbelief  were  to  be 
seen  and  felt.  All  restraint  would  be  much  removed;  and  it  was 
evidently  the  case  with  the  young  people  in  that  part  of  the 
country.  It  lay  as  a  burden  upon  me,  which  I  was  unwilling  to 
bring  aw^ay  with  me. 

Twelfth  month.  Being  one  of  the  Committee  having  charge 
of  the  Boarding  School  at  Westtown,  I  left  the  city  on  the  9th 
of  this  month,  on  an  appointment  to  visit  the  schools,  and  was 
absent  till  the  13th. 

At  the  adjournment  of  our  Monthly  Meeting  of  this  month, 
my  father  called  the  attention  of  Friends  to  the  disorder  at  a 
late  meeting,  attended  by  Elias  Hicks,  and  the  unsound  princi- 
ples advanced  in  it  by  him ;  and  after  some  opposition  to  it, 
made  b}^  seven  of  his  adherents,  the  meeting  made  a  minute, 
stating  that  the  disorder  which  occurred  in  this  house  on  the 
11th,  and  those  unsound  principles  and  sentiments  therein  ad- 
vanced by  E.  Hicks,  being  weightily  brought  into  view,  five  per- 
sons were  appointed  to  investigate  the  subject  and  report  thereon. 

1827,  First  month  24th.  The  above  committee  produced  to 
the  Monthly  Meeting  a  full  report;  in  which  they  exhibit  some 
of  the  prominent  features  of  the  disorder,  and  the  very  excep- 
tionable doctrines  delivered  by  E.  Hicks;  closing  with  the  ex- 
pression of  their  concern  on  account  of  the  propagation  of  such 


104  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

poisonous  sentiments ;  and  also  that  some  of  his  adherents  may 
be  snatched  as  brands  from  the  burning.  A  copy  of  this 
report  was  directed  to  be  forwarded  to  Jericho  Monthly  Meet- 
ing, of  which  E.  Hicks  is  a  member;  with  which  women 
Friends  concurred. 

Second  month  3d.  To-day  we  have  had  a  very  exercising 
Select  Quarterly  Meeting.  In  the  forepart,  a  comfortable  evi- 
dence was  felt,  that  condescending  mercy  and  goodness  were 
round  about  us  ;  strengthening  the  faith  of  the  Lord's  children 
in  his  Divine  power,  and  affording  the  consoling  conviction,  that 
He  will  defend  and  preserve  his  church,  as  its  confidence  is  main- 
tained in  Him  alone,  and  in  due  time  will  scatter  his  enemies, 
and  grant  a  peaceful  release  from  the  trials  with  which  it  is 
now  assailed. 

On  reading  the  answers  to  the  second  query,  my  father  hinted, 
at  the  difficulty  of  admitting  the  correctness  of  the  reply  to  it 
from  one  of  the  Prepai'ative  Meetings,  which  asserted  the  sound- 
ness of  its  ministry;  but  of  the  reverse  of  which  we  had  had 
sufficient  evidence.  In  his  remarks,  he  adverted  to  attempts  now 
made  to  spread  the  belief  that  Jesus  Christ  our  Saviour  was  no 
more  than  a  man,  or  one  of  us.  A  member  of  the  meeting  al- 
luded to  replied  to  him,  as  if  he  felt  the  allusion  applied  to  him- 
self; and  in  his  remarks,  stated  there  was  but  one  Saviour,  and 
that  was  God;  and  making  allusions  to  declarations  of  George  Fox 
and  William  Penn,  attempted  to  infer  that  those  who  preached 
"  Chi'ist  crucified,"  as  the  Saviour,  were  they  who  made  the 
Saviour  a  mere  man.  He  declared  that  Christ  was  sent  to  the 
Jews  only ;  that  He  was  an  external  Saviour.  He  was  no  Trini- 
tarian, nor  Satisfactionist;  by  which  it  was  understood  he  did  not 
receive  the  Scripture  doctrine  of  the  Three  that  bear  record  in 
heaven,  the  Father,  the  Word  and  the  Holy  Spii'it;  nor  believe 
in  the  propitiatory  offering  of  the  Lord  Jesus,  by  which  we 
have  remission  of  sins,  and  perfect  sanctification,  through  rc- 
])cntaiice  and  obedience  to  his  Holy  Spirit. 

5th.  Some  opposition  was  made  in  the  Quarterly  Meeting 
for  discipline,  to  the  summary  answers  to  the  third  Query;  which 
contained  expi-essions  of  belief,  that  pernicious  publications  sup- 
porting unsound  doctrine,  were  tolerated  amongst  some,  to  the 
grief  and  concern  of  many  Friends;  but  the  meeting  retained  it, 
to  go  up  to  the  Yearly  Meeting. 

The  Committee  appointed  to  visit  the  Monthly  Meetings  ro- 


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ported  attention  to  the  service,  and  that  they  had  evidence  the 
appointment  originated  in  best  wisdom.  Several  of  the  dis- 
attected  strove  to  get  the  committee  discliarged,  but  the  meet- 
ing continued  it. 

One  of  the  Green  Street  elders  proposed  that  a  committee 
should  be  aj)i:)ointed  to  consult  with  that  meeting,  so  that  they 
might  be  joined  to  Abington  Quarter.  This  was  one  of  the  pre- 
liminary steps  to  the  breaking  up  of  our  Quarterly  and  Monthly 
Meetings,  and  the  division  of  the  Yearly  Meeting.  No  notice 
was  taken  of  it. 

10th.  This  afternoon  I  drove  George  and  Ann  Jones,  with  C. 
"W.  Morris,  to  my  brother-in-law's,  Joseph  Rhoads.  Next  day, 
first-day,  we  attended  Springfield  Meeting,  and  being  met  there 
by  Charles  Allen,  he  accompanied  them  to  Abraham  Sharp- 
less'  in  the  afternoon. 

12th.  My  wife  and  myself  went  to  Concord,  and  attend- 
ed the  Select  Quarterly  Meeting  there ;  a  distressing  time ; 
in  which  it  was  evident  to  me,  that  some  were  desirous 
of  persuading  themselves,  that  not  as  much  disunity  and  un- 
soundness of  principle  had  crept  in,  as  some  others  im- 
agined. 

There  is  great  want  of  a  lively  zeal  in  some,  and  an  honest 
faithful  discharge  of  duty,  against  the  insidious  approaches  of 
the  spirit  of  unbelief;  which  is  watching  to  ensnare  the  unwary, 
and  will  commit  great  ravages  in  the  flock,  unless  the  watchmen 
who  are  placed  upon  the  walls,  are  awake  to  the  surrounding 
dangers,  and  timely  give  the  alarm. 

13th.  In  the  course  of  reading  the  queries  and  answers  in 
the  Meeting  for  Discipline,  I  believed  it  proper  to  call  the  atten- 
tion of  Friends  to  the  contrast  between  the  answers  to  the 
second  and  third  queries— the  former  very  full  and  the  latter 
much  the  reverse.  That  while  much  love  and  unity  were  pro- 
fessed, it  was  plain  great  deficiency  existed  in  the  education  of 
children.  I  adverted  to  the  advice  of  the  Yearly  Meeting  to 
jDarents,  to  practise  their  children  in  the  frequent  reading  of  the 
Holy  Scriptures,  and  to  instruct  them  in  the  doctrines  of  the 
Christian  religion,  which  they  inculcate:  viz.,  the  miraculous 
conception,  birth,  holy  life,  sufferings,  meritorious  death,  glori- 
ous resurrection,  ascension  and  mediation  of  our  Lord  and 
Saviour  Jesus  Christ;  as  well  as  in  the  belief  of  the  immediate 
influences  of  the  Holy  Spirit.      But  there  were  pamphlets  in 


106  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

circulation  amongst  us,  which  tended  to  lay  waste  a  belief  in 
many  of  these  Christian  doctrines;  one  of  which,  was  issued 
within  the  precincts  of  that  Quarter;  which  I  considered  one  of 
the  most  pernicious  books  in  circulation;  tending  to  destroy  all 
reverence  for  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  who  suffered  without  the 
gates  of  Jerusalem,  as  the  Saviour  of  men ;  to  destroy  the 
authenticity  and  authority  of  the  Iloly  Scriptures;  and  to 
spread  the  seeds  of  infidelity ;  and  I  believed  it  my  duty  to  bear 
a  testimony  against  it. 

Fourth  month  14th.  Our  Yearly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and 
Elders  convened  this  morning ;  in  which  we  had  the  very  ac- 
ceptable company  of  our  beloved  friends  George  and  Ann  Jones 
and  E.  Eobson.  On  reading  the  summary  reply  to  the  second 
query,  and  the  judgment  of  the  Quarterly  Meeting  by  which  it 
was  sent  up,  that  an  unsound  ministr}^  existed  within  its  bor- 
ders, some  of  the  disaffected  members,  earnestly  contended 
that  it  should  be  expunged ;  but  the  proposition  was  rejected, 
and  the  answer  retained.  William  Jackson  opened  his  views, 
and  queried  whether  there  was  nothing  further  for  the  meeting 
to  do  ;  expressing  his  belief  that  it  should  go  further,  either  by 
epistolary  advice,  or  by  appointing  a  committee  to  visit  the  con- 
stituent meetings,  to  afford  them  help.  After  a  time  of  deliber- 
ation, it  was  concluded  to  appoint  a  committee,  which  was 
done. 

IGth.  The  morning  meeting  for  business  was  passed  with 
little  interruption.  E.  Eobson  paid  us  a  very  acceptable  visit. 
The  representatives  convening  at  the  rise  of  the  meeting,  one 
of  them  proposed  that  John  Comly  should  be  reported  for  clerk; 
another  that  Samuel  Bettle  should  be  reported  to  be  continued. 
One  wished  a  Friend  might  come  to  the  table  and  draw  up  a 
minute  reporting  John  Comly,  which,  such  as  united  with  him, 
might  sign.  This  was  rejected.  He  then  proposed  that  such  as 
united  with  him  should  withdraw  to  another  part  of  the  house, 
and  prepare  a  report;  which  he  endeavored  to  effect  by  leaving 
his  seat  and  walking  towards  the  aisle;  a  few  rose  to  follow, 
but  others  protesting  against  it,  they  took  their  seats  again.' 
Finding  that  they  could  not  adopt  any  one  to  name  to  the  meeting, 
the  representatives  pi'etty  generally  agreed,  to  authorize  John 
Cox  to  inform  the  meeting  they  could  not  unite  to  report  any 
name.  We  were  detained  until  the  meeting  convened  in  the 
afternoon,  and  J.  Cox  made  that  report   accordingly.      Some 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  107 

asserted  that  they  had  not  conehidcd  on  any  report,  and  were 
to  meet  again  next  morning.  Others  had  heard  nothing  of  such 
adjournment ;  and  it  being  evident  we  could  not  unite,  it  was 
eventually  concluded  to  reappoint  the  old  clerks,  after  much 
opposition  by  the  followers  of  E.  Hicks.  J.  Comly  came  to  the 
table  as  assistant,  with  great  reluctance;  and  the  minutes  of  the 
Meeting  for  Sufferings  were  read,  with  very  little  remark  by 
way  of  objection,  to  their  proceedings ;  their  care  on  the  sub- 
ject of  slavery  was  ajDprobated. 

17th,  Early  after  the  meeting  opened,  John  Comly  rose  and 
remarked,  that  he  had  come  to  the  table  in  condescension  to 
the  request  of  a  few  Friends ;  that  this  Yearly  Meeting  was 
divided  into  two  distinct  parties,  which  were  irreconcilable,  and 
unity  was  destroyed.  We  had  a  query  whether  love  and  unity 
were  preserved -among  us.  He  thought  it  was  needful  to  have 
it  restored,  and  therefore  proposed  that  the  meeting  should  be 
adjourned.  The  query  is  also  asked.  When  differences  arise  are 
endeavors  used  to  end  them  ?  He  thought  if  there  were  men  of 
peace  amongst  us,  it  would  be  well  for  them,  in  the  meantime, 
to  exert  themselves  in  removing  those  differences.  He  could 
not  conscientiously  act  as  the  organ  of  such  a  body ;  and  there- 
fore, if  the  meeting  decided  not  to  adjourn,  he  wished  to  be  per- 
mitted to  withdraw  from  the  table.  This  opened  the  way  for 
his  party  to  express  themselves  upon  the  state  of  the  Society ; 
and  some  were  accordingly  prepared  to  dissolve  the  meeting. 
Sound  Friends  generally  kept  still,  with  the  exception  of  a  few, 
who  thought  the  proceedings  need  not  be  delayed  any  time  for 
want  of  J.  Comly's  services.  When  he  discovered  he  could 
not  effect  his  purpose  of  breaking  up  the  meeting,  he  wished 
Friends  to  mind  that  he  had  not  said  dissolve,  but  adjourn;  and 
as  he  had  apprehended  many  Friends  did  not  unite  with  his 
appointment,  if  it  was  now^  the  general  sense  that  he  should  re- 
main at  the  table,  he  would  accordingly  serve :  thus  he  waived 
his  conscientious  scruples,  though  no  increase  of  unity  had 
been  obtained. 

The  usual  concerns  of  the  Yearly  Meeting  were  transacted, 
and  towards  its  close,  information  was  sent  in  from  women 
Friends,  that  they  had  before  them  a  concern  to  appoint  a  com- 
mittee, if  united  with  by  men  Friends,  to  visit  the  Monthly  and 
Quarterly  Meetings.  Opposition  was  started  by  the  disaffect- 
ed, as  it  would,   in  some    measure,   interfere  with  them ;  but 


108  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Avheii  the  mcctini;  was  informed  of  their  conferences  and  plans 
to  create  a  separation,  it  stopped  them.  Friends  more  fully 
saw  the  need  of  sending  down  help  to  strengthen  the  hands  of 
sound  Friends,  and  aid  in  supporting  their  meetings.  A  com- 
mittee was  accordingly  appointed  of  l)oth  sexes.  The  Yearly 
Meeting  adjourned  to  meet  at  the  usual  time  next  year,  if  con- 
sistent with  the  Divine  will. 

Fifth  month  5th.  Our  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and 
Elders  Avas  held,  and  attended  by  the  Committee  appointed  by 
the  late  Yearly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders.  In  reading 
the  replies  to  the  Queries,  some  pretty  close  remarks  were  made 
upon  that  to  the  second,  from  one  of  the  Preparative  Meet- 
ings; and  Friends  there  were  encouraged  to  extend  faithful, 
private  labor.  After  finishing  the  Queries,  E.  Robson  adverted 
to  the  poverty  and  weakness  into  which  the  Lord's  children 
were  introduced,  and  this  was  preparator}^  to  being  employed 
in  his  service ;  that  out  of  wa^akness,  they  might  be  made 
strong,  and  that  his  strength  might  be  made  perfect  in  their 
weakness.  She  believed  some  would  have  to  partake  of  bitter 
cups;  and  might  bo  ready  to  conclude,  at  times,  there  was  no 
way  for  them  to  get  on  ;  but  as  they  held  fast  their  trust  in  the 
Lord,  and  were  courageous,  the  hills  would  flow  down  at  his 
jDresence. 

7th.  We  had  a  very  quiet,  satisfactory  Quarterly  Meeting. 
]S"o  report  from  Green  Street  being  produced,  one  of  their  mem- 
l)ers  appointed  to  inform  the  meeting  of  their  disjunction  from 
Philadelphia  Quarter,  laid  a  minute  on  the  clerk's  table.  The 
committee  appointed  to  visit  the  Monthly  Meetings,  made  a 
detailed  report  of  their  proceedings.  Some  members  of 
rxreen  Street,  addressed  the  Quarterly  Meeting,  stating  their 
disunity  with  the  acts  of  that  meeting,  and  received  the  sym- 
pathy and  encouragement  of  Friends,  to  abide  steadfast,  in  a 
faithful  adherence  to  the  leadings  of  the  Holy  Spirit;  that  they 
may  witness  preservation,  and  advance  in  religious  qualifica- 
tion to  support  the  principles  and  discipline  of  our  religious 
Society.  The  whole  of  the  business  was  conducted  with  much 
unanimity  and  quiet;  so  that  it  was  evident  the  abstraction 
of  the  Green  Street  members,  of  a  certain  description,  can-it'd 
with  them  the  noise  and  confusion  which  have  agitated  and 
distressed  our  (Quarterly  Mecliiig. 


JOURNAL    OK    WILLIAM    FA'ANS.  109 

20th.  On  second-day,  the  14th,  I  attended  Haddonfield 
Monthly  Meeting,  which  ended  comfortably. 

22d.  I  attended  the  Northern  District  Monthly  Meeting. 
The  minute  of  the  Quarterly  Meeting,  stating  it  had  concluded 
to  lay  down  Gfreen  Street  Monthly  Meeting,  and  attach  the 
members  to  this,  was  produced,  and  taken  on  record ;  and  a 
committee  appointed  to  deliberate  upon  the  steps  proper  to  bo 
pursued  in  relation  thereto. 

23d.  A  private  meeting  having  been  held  in  a  school-house, 
within  the  Southern  District,  made  up  of  some  of  its  members 
and  others,  to  devise  means  to  obtain  possession  of  part  of  the 
property  of  the  Monthly  Meeting,  they  prepared  a  paper  on  the 
subject ;  and  before  going  into  our  Monthly  Meeting  this  morn- 
ing, some  Friends  were  informed  that  it  would  be  presented, 
and  that  the  disaffected  members  had  decided,  that  if  it  was 
rejected,  to  divide  off  to  the  other  side  of  the  m-eeting-room,  and 
there  hold  a  Monthly  Meeting  themselves.  Many  of  our  mem- 
bers, who  had  not  been  seen  for  years  at  our  Monthly  Meeting, 
assembled;  and  some  from  the  country,  and  also  some  from 
other  Meetings  in  the  city;  doubtless  with  design  to  swell  their 
numbers  in  appearance,  in  case  of  the  proposed  division.  After 
a  passing  on  account  of  marriage,  and  reading  some  certificates, 
W.  W.  arose,  and  expressed  his  thankfulness  whenever  the 
meeting  was  covered  with  solemnity ;  and  his  unwillingness  to 
do  anything  that  would  disturb  it ;  but  he  believed,  that  in  the 
disposition  that  breathed  glory  to  God  and  good-will  to  men, 
we  might  discuss  subjects,  and  not  be  excited.  He  had  one  to 
propose,  and  though  it  was  rather  new,  he  hoped  it  would  not 
produce  such  effect.  He  then  mentioned,  that  some  of  them 
believed  it  proper  to  propose,  that'  a  division  of  the  property 
should  be  made  ;  so  as  to  enable  them  to  build  a  meeting-house; 
purchase  the  site,  and  provide  the  necessary  accommodations. 
A  paper  had  been  prepared,  w^hich,  he  said,  was  signed  by  forty- 
five  members,  and  approved  by  several  others,  who  were  not 
yet  prepared  to  sign  it;  he  would  hand  it  to  the  clerk. 

The  paper  was  referred  to  six  Friends,  to  examine  and  report 
to  a  future  meeting. 

After  this  Monthly  Meeting,  it  was  ascertained  that  fourteen 
of  our  members  had  applied  to  Byberry  Monthly  Meeting,  to 
be  received  as  its  members ;  which  was  acceded  to ;  and  that 
they  appointed  a  committee  of  men  and  women  to  attend  the 


110  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

opening  of  a  meeting  for  worsliip  in  this  city.  This  act  of  Bj- 
berry  Monthly  Meeting,  is  a  viohition  of  the  discipline,  and  of 
the  just  right  of  the  Southern  District  Monthly  Meeting  over 
its  members.  It  is  an  invasion  of  the  limits  and  jurisdiction  of 
Philadelphia  Quarterly  Meeting,  and  of  its  Monthly  Meetings, 
to  attempt  thus  to  institute  a  meeting  within  the  borders  of 
any  of  those  meetings. 

Sixth  month  4th.  This  separating  party  held  their  Meeting 
of  Conference,  appointed  in  the  Fourth  month  last.  They  is- 
sued an  address  to  the  Quarterly  and  Monthly  Meetings,  within 
the  compass  of  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting ;  the  design  of 
which  is  to  induce  a  separation  from  it,  and  to  prevail  with 
the  Quarterly  Meetings,  to  send  deputies  to  an  assemblage 
en  the  third  second-day  of  the  Tenth  month  next.  It  contains 
several  unfounded  accusations  against  the  late  Yearly  Meeting. 

2l8t.  At  our  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  held  at  this  time,  the 
present  state  of  our  religious  Society  w^as  brought  into  view  by 
one  of  its  members.  He  adverted  to  the  meeting  which  the 
Hicksites  had  held,  and  some  of  the  measures  adopted  to  pro- 
duce a  separation  from  the  Society,  and  draw  its  members  after 
them.  After  some  time  of  deliberation  on  the  affecting  subject, 
a  pretty  large  committee  was  appointed  upon  it,  and  the 
meeting  adjouinied  for  one  month;  very  few  of  the  Hicksites 
attended. 

Seventh  month.  At  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  held  in  this 
month,  an  epistle  was  adopted,  addressed  to  the  members  of  our 
Yearly  Meeting.  The  Committee  on  the  present  state  of  the 
Society  was  continued. 

Eio-hth  month.  A  part  of  the  members  of  Abington  Quar- 
ter, separating  from  Pliiladcl]ihia  Yearly  Meeting,  by  appoint- 
ing a  number  of  their  party  to  attend,  as  their  representatives, 
a  meeting  to  be  held  in  the  Tenth  month,  under  the  name  of 
Philadel))hia  Yearly  Meeting,  the  sound  members  decided  to 
remain  together,  in  order  to  hold  Abington  (^uai-ter  as  a  branch 
of  the  Yearly  Meeting  of  Friends;  and  a  number  of  men  and 
women  Friends,  as  I  undei'stood,  accordingly  stopped,  but  as  it 
was  late,  they  adjourned  to  the  succeeding  moi-ning.  AVhen 
Friends  met  at  the  house,  they  found  the  doors  secured, 
and  a  collection  of  persons  on  the  ground,  determined  tliey 
should  not  enter  the  house.  Some  of  the  elderly  and  infirm 
women  wore  furnished  with   cushions  to  sit  on    the   ground, 


JOURNAL    OP    WILLIAM    EVANS.  Ill 

while  the  rest  stood,  and  remained  about  an  hour.  Ann  Jones 
knelt  on  the  ground,  in  supplication,  supporting  herself  by  a 
tree.  Finding  there  was  no  probability  of  gaining  entrance  to 
the  house,  they  drew  up  a  statement  of  the  circumstance ;  to  be 
recorded  on  the  minutes,  and  adjourned,  to  meet  at  once,  in 
Charles  Shoemaker's  mill.  About  one  hundred  men  and  one  hun- 
dred and  seventy-five  women  Friends  convened  in  the  mill.  The}- 
appointed  clerks  for  the  day,  made  a  detailed  record  of  the  dis- 
orderly proceedings  of  the  Separatists,  at  Abington  Quarterly 
Meeting;  and  appointed  various  committees  to  carry  into  effect 
concerns  which  engaged  their  attention.  It  was  said  to  be  a 
very  affecting  and  tendering  opportunity,  much  to  the  comfort 
and  strength  of  Friends. 

In  the  Tenth  month,  the  Separatists  ^^eld  what  they  termed 
Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting,  at  the  Green  Street  house;  and 
concluded  to  hold  it  next  year,  on  the  second  second-day  in  the 
Fourth  month  ;  which  would  be  in  the  week  preceding  the 
Yearly  Meeting  of  Friends.  Before  our  Yearly  Meeting  com- 
menced, the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  believed  it  right  to  prepare 
a  statement  of  the  separation;  the  gradual  progress  of  the 
Separatists,  in  some  of  our  meetings,  to  obtain  the  ascendency; 
and  the  unsound  doctrines  preached  and  printed  by  some  of 
them;  which  latter  were  contrasted  with  the  doctrines  of 
Friends  on  these  points.  This  was  united  with,  to  be  laid  be- 
fore our  Yearly  Meeting  of  1828,  for  its  judgment;  and  if 
approved,  to  be  signed  by  the  clerk  on  its  behalf  When  read 
in  the  Yearly  Meeting,  our  aged  friend,  William  Jackson,  ex- 
pressed his  thankfulness  that  there  were  those  raised  up  and 
qualified  to  prepare  such  a  document ;  and  it  received  the  unity 
of  the  meeting,  and  was  afterwards  printed  and  largely  distri- 
\    buted  cimong  Friends. 

The  Yearly  Meeting  of  Ohio,  held  in  the  autumn  of  1827, 
having  made  a  proposition  to  the  other  Yearly  Meetings  in  this 
country,  to  appoint  delegates,  in  order  to  hold  a  Conference  on 
the  state  of  our  religious  Society,  our  Yearly  Meeting,  held  this 
spring,  appointed  a  number  of  Friends  to  represent  it  in  that 
body.  I  went  in  a  carriage  with  our  friends  Thomas  Stew- 
ardson  and  Samuel  Bettle,  and  my  father,  to  Mt.  Pleasant,  Ohio, 
to  attend  this  Conference ;  where  we  put  up  at  the  house  of  our 
beloved  friend,  Jonathan  Taylor.  Eepresentatives  from  all  the 
other  Yearly  Meetings,  except  New  York,  were  also  in  attend- 


112  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

ance ;  and  in  the  course  of  the  week,  a  Conference  was  held ; 
but  all  the  Yearly  Meetings  not  being  represented,  nothing  de- 
finite was  concluded  upon.  Opportunity  was,  however,  given 
for  an  interchange  of  sentiments,  and  to  judge  of  each  other's 
views  in  relation  to  such  a  convention,  and  what  might  be  its 
probable  influence  on  the  Society. 

The  first  sitting  of  the  Ohio  Yearly  Meeting  of  1828,  was  a 
very  disturbed  one.  Friends  adjourned  to  assemble  next 
morning,  at  the  usual  hour.  The  Separatists  met  earlier, 
and  took  possession  of  the  house,  keeping  Friends  in  the 
yard,  where  they  held  a  meeting,  standing.  After  a  suitable 
time,  they  adjourned  to  the  old  house  at  Short  Creek,  rather 
less  than  half  a  mile  distant.  The  weather  being  warm,  the 
Bash  were  taken  out  0/  some  of  the  windows,  and  temporary 
seats  were  placed  at  each  end,  to  accommodate  the  men  and 
women  Avho  could  not  get  into  the  house.  The  meeting  was 
prolonged  into  the  next  week ;  a  time  being  fixed  for  the  Con- 
ference to  meet  in  Philadelphia,  next  year.  As  soon  as  we  could 
leave,  our  company  took  carriage  and  returned  to  our  homes. 

In  1829,  representatives  of  all  the  Yearly  Meetings  of  Friends 
in  America,  convened  in  Philadelphia,  and  drew  up  a  document, 
on  the  doctrines  and  testimonies  of  Friends;  which  they  de- 
nominated, "  The  Testimony  of  Friends  in  America."  In  the 
year  1830,  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting  declined  repeating  the 
appointment  of  delegates.  Time  has  clearly  showed  that  this 
decision  was  a  right  one. 

In  the  year  1829,  and  in  the  First  month  of  1830,  I  obtained 
minutes  from  the  Monthly  Meeting,  and  paid  religious  visits  to 
the  meetings  of  Haddonfield,  Concord  and  the  "Western  Quarters ; 
which  I  accomplished  to  my  own  satisfaction. 

On  the  27(li  of  Tenth  month  1830,  I  obtained  a  certificate  to 
attend  North  C^arolina  Yearly  Meeting,  and  a  few  meetings  be- 
longing to  it,  having  Henry  Cope  as  comjianion.  We  proceeded 
to  Baltimore,  and  on  sixth-day  morning  took  steamboat  for  Nor- 
folk, where  we  arrived  early  on  seventh-day.  The  blacks  about 
the  town,  who,  we  were  told,  were  mostly  slaves,  appeared 
cheerful.  There  was,  however,  a  schooner  lying  in  the  stream, 
crowded  with  those  poor  creatures,  intended  for  the  New  Or- 
leans market,  to  which  they  arc  exported  from  Virginia  as  an 
article  of  trade.  It  was  an  affecting  spectacle,  which  would 
have  aroused  the  commiseralion  of-fobn  Woolinan  and  Anthony 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  113 

Benczet  to  a  great  degree.  Such  is  their  degra<icd  state  of 
mind,  having  been  brought  up  as  though  they  were  brutes,  and 
treated  as  if  they  had  no  souls,  that  at  the  distance  we  passed 
them,  the}'  appeared  indifferent  to  what  awaited  them. 

We  took  the  steamboat,  going  up  the  James  river,  and  after 
landing,  rode  to  Petersburg,  where  we  were  detained  until  next 
day,  much  to  our  disappointment.  We  then  had  difficulty  in 
procuring  our  passage  in  the  stage,  because  of  many  persons 
going  to  a  horse  race ;  whose  company  was  unpleasant,  espe- 
cially, during  the  time  we  rode  with  them  in  the  night.  We 
were  all  the  next  day  reaching  Greensburg,  and  next  morning 
o-ot  to  a  Friend's  house  at  New  Garden.  As  he  had  no  car- 
riage  to  convey  us  to  Deep  river,  he  sent  a  boy  to  pilot  us,  and 
we  walked  to  the  meeting-house,  about  seven  miles;  where  we 
attended  the  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders,  and  their  first- 
day  meeting,  which  was  large.  We  lodged  at  Abel  Coffin's,  who 
conveyed  us  on  second-day  to  New  Garden,  where  the  Yearly 
Meeting  was  held.  Our  lodging  was  about  a  mile  from  the 
meeting-house  ;  the  Friends  were  kind  and  hospitable,  and  we 
had  the  agreeable  company'-  of  Nathan  Hunt,  Jonathan  Taylor 
fi-om  Ohio,  and  sometimes  of  Asenath  Clark  and  her  husband ; 
Isaac  Hammer  was  also  a  short  time  with  us. 

The  young  people  in  attendance  at  this  Yearly  Meeting  were 
very  generally  plain,  and  becoming  in  their  deportment ;  and  as 
far  as  I  could  judge,  not  a  few  of  the  young  men  possessed  re- 
ligious attainments,  and  are  concerned  for  the  promotion  of  the 
good  cause,  and  the  proper  support  of  our  testimonies  and  dis- 
cipline. The  meeting  sat  daily  about  four  hours;  and  every 
morning,  except  second-day,  either  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings, 
or  that  of  Ministers  and  Elders,  convened  at  nine  o'clock;  which 
kept  us  pretty  steadily  in  the  meeting-house. 

Third-day  was  set  apart  for  investigating  the  state  of  the  sub- 
ordinate meetings.  They  had  read  all  the  reports,  including  the 
answers  to  the  Queries,  read  on  second-day ;  and  the  clerks  hav- 
ing prepared  a  summary,  the  partition  shutters,  between  the  men 
and  women,  were  opened;  so  that  both  might  hear  each  other's 
answers,  and  the  observations  made  by  men  and  women  Friends 
on  different  subjects ;  and  upon  the  whole  it  was  a  satisfactory 
time.  They  agreed  to  address  an  epistle  to  the  Quarterly  and 
Monthly  Meetings,  to  incite  the  members  to  more  faithfulness. 
The  state  of  education  within  their  limits  being  brought  to  view. 


114  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

we  took  the  liberty  of  proposing,  that  the  Quarterly  and 
Monthly  Meetings  should  be  instructed  to  send  up,  next  year, 
explicit  accounts  of  the  number  and  description  of  schools 
within  their  respective  districts ;  which  was  adopted  and  ap- 
pended to  the  epistle.  They  were  desired  to  state  whether  the 
teachers  are  members,  and  what  proportion  of  the  scholars  are 
the  childi-en  of  Friends.  We  also  endeavored  to  press  the 
importance  of  home  education  ;  the  necessity  of  parents  feeling 
and  manifesting  a  religious  interest  in  the  improvement  and 
preservation  of  their  children,  by  taking  frequent  opportunities 
with  them,  in  reading  the  Holy  Scriptures  and  other  religious 
works.  Some  notice  of  this  branch  of  the  concern  was  placed 
in  the  epistle ;  advising  retirement  and  silent  waiting  upon  the 
Lord  in  their  families.  They  were  also  urged  to  cultivate  their 
minds  by  reading  other  useful  books  of  a  historical,  descriptive, 
or  scientific  character. 

The  Yearly  Meeting  closed  on  fifth-day  after  a  long  sitting. 
Next  day  we  were  conveyed  to  J.  Stanley's,  and  attended  the 
Select  Western  Quarterly  Meeting,  there.  The  Quarterly  Meet- 
ing next  day,  was  a  larger  company  of  Friends  than  we  ex- 
pected to  see.  I  felt  peaceful  in  the  part  I  had  in  it ;  and  in  the 
second  meeting,  we  encouraged  the  young  men  and  others  to 
faithfulness  in  their  respective  duties,  so  that  they  might  be- 
come prepared  to  maintain  the  discipline  and  our  testimonies. 
Next  day  we  parted  from  our  beloved  friend  Jonathan  Taylor, 
with  whom  we  had  sojourned  several  days  very  agreeably ;  and 
on  first-day  were  at  Springfield  Meeting,  where  we  lodged  at  N. 
Hunt's.     Thence  to  Kennet,  Hopewell  and  New  Garden. 

After  finishing  what  rested  on  my  mind,  we  took  stage  at 
Greensburg,  through  the  upper  route  to  Fredericksburg,  Wash- 
ington, Baltimore,  &c.,  and  reached  our  homes  safely  and  with 
peace. 

[P'rom  this  time  until  Ninth  month  1835,  no  memoranda  ap- 
pear to  have  been  preserved.  In  Seventh  month  1831,  AV. 
Evans  obtained  a  minute  from  his  Monthly  Meeting,  to  visit  the 
meetings  belonging  to  Abington,  Bucks,  Burlington,  and  Shrcws- 
Inir}^  and  Ilahway  Quarterly  Meetings;  all  within  the  limits  of 
Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting. 

In  Seventh  month  1833,  certificates  were  granted  him  to  visit, 
as  way  might  open,  the  meetings  of  Friends  within  the  limits 


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of  New  England  Yearl}''  Meeting,  more  particularly  those  con- 
stituting the  Northern  and  Eastern  Quarters. 

In  this  journey  he  had  Joseph 'Snowdon  as  companion.  From 
letters  written  to  his  family  during  his  absence,  the  following 
extracts  have  been  made  :] 

Eighth  month  21st,  1833.  "Eeached  the  house  of  our  friend 
Estes  Ncwhall,  at  Lynn.  Attended  the  meeting  here.  Went 
to  Salem  next  morning;  the  meeting  small.  A  qualification 
was  furnished  to  open  a  little  the  spirituality  of  the  Gospel 
dispensation  ;  and  to  invite  to  an  investigation  how  far  we,  who 
are  making  a  high  profession  of  it,  are  living  under  it,  and  ex- 
periencing its  redeeming  and  sanctifying  efficacy.  The  oppor- 
tunity was  serious,  and  satisfactory  to  myself. 

28th.  "lAvrote  thee  from  Berwick,  just  before  we  w^ent  to 
their  meeting ;  which  we  attended  in  peaceful  silence.  At  Oak- 
wood,  in  the  afternoon,  a  company  assembled  in  a  private  house. 
To  me  it  was  the  most  suffering  time  I  almost  ever  passed 
through  ;  the  way  opened  to  express  a  little,  towards  the  time 
for  separating.  Next  morning  we  rode  to  Elliott,  a  very  small 
meeting.  Here  the  spring  of  the  Gospel  was  a  little  opened. 
On  parting  with  the  Friends  where  we  dined,  the  importance 
of  the  right  education  of  their  children,  and  the  necessity  of 
being  good  examples  ourselves,  was  attempted  to  be  impressed 
on  their  minds.  From  this  place  w^e  Avent  to  a  Friend's  near 
Bochester  meeting-house.  This  meeting  was  little  larger 
than  Elliott.  Some  qualification  was  felt  to  labor  with  them, 
in  order  to  draw  them  to  the  Spirit  of  Christ  in  their  own 
hearts ;  to  learn  of  Ilim,  and  to  take  his  yoke  upon  them ;  by 
which  they  might  realize  the  substance  of  the  religion  they 
professed. 

"It  is  not  every  one  who  is  to  be  helped  by  us ;  if  there  be 
one  here  and  another  there,  who  are  quickened  a  little  in  the 
journey  towards  the  good  land,  we  must  be  satisfied,  and  leave 
the  work  to  the  Master. 

30th.  "  Eeached  Wolfsborough,  and  found  the  letter  request- 
ing the  appointment  of  a  meeting  for  us  on  seventh-day  had  not 
been  received.  Some  exertion  was  made  to  spread  notice,  but 
the  company  was  small ;  the  number  of  families  composing  the 
meeting  being  few,  and  not  many  of  other  professions.  I  passed 
the  meeting  in  silence.  At  Sandwich  we  heard  of  our  silent 
meeting  at  Berwick ;  a  person  told  there  Avere  six  j)reachers  at 


116  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

it,  and  he  thought  it  was  the  stillest  meeting  he  had  attended 
for  some  time  ;  nothing  being  said  by  any  of  them.  I  felt  quite 
satisfied  with  the  part  I  had  in  the  meeting;  believing  there  is 
as  much  necessity  of  holding  up  the  testimony  of  Friends  to 
silent  waiting,  as  to  preach  the  Gospel  when  called  to  it. 

"  Wolfsborough  lies  at  the  south  side  of  a  lake,  which  is 
twenty-three  miles  long,  and  in  the  widest  part,  eight  miles 
broad.  The  scenery  in  various  parts  of  the  ride  to  Sandwich, 
and  i-ound  that  country,  is  beautiful.  The  prospect  from  many 
hills  taking  in  a  circuit  of  twenty-five  or  thirty  miles  distance 
from  the  eye. 

Ninth  month  6th.  "At  Eaymond,  a  small  meeting  about  six- 
teen miles  from  Windham;  notice  having  been  given  at  the 
Quarterly  Meeting  for  this  and  other  meetings. 

"  The  scenery  at  Eaymond  is  uncommonly  grand.  On  the  east 
side  of  the  road,  running  north  and  south,  rises  a  range  of  hills, 
from  the  top  of  which  we  have  a  very  extensive  prospect.  At 
our  feet,  on  the  west  side  of  the  road,  runs  a  great  valley ;  to 
the  southwest,  Lake  Sebago,  several  miles  long;  and  to  the 
south  and  east,  an  open,  hilly  country,  interspersed  with  large 
pools  of  water ;  and  beyond  the  valley,  we  see  ranges  of  lofty 
mountains  extending  from  southwest  nearly  round  to  the  north ; 
the  highest  of  which  are  the  White  Mountains  of  New  Hamp- 
shire in  the  northwest  from  where  we  stood;  Mount  Washing- 
ton, the  highest  peak,  was  distinctly  in  view. 

7th.  "Went  to  Falmouth,  where  we  were  favored  with  a 
solemn,  quiet  meeting,  in  which  I  thought  the  importance  of 
silent  waiting  was  never  more  clearly  and  forcibly  impressed 
on  me.  It  seemed  proper  to  encourage  Friends  to  faithful  per- 
severance in  their  silent  approaches  to  the  throne  of  Grace; 
patiently  waiting  for  the  presence  of  Him,  in  whom  was  their 
delight,  that  they  might  be  strengthened  to  hold  up  a  testimony 
to  spiritual  worship.  The  next  meeting  being  North  Windham, 
we  went  back  to  N.  P.'s,  and  on  first-day  morning  attended 
it;  the  house  below  stairs  being  pretty  much  filled,  princi- 
pally by  those  not  of  our  Society.  Such  meetings  are  often  a 
close  trial  upon  one's  courage.  We  often  sit  long  before  we  can 
feel  much  solemnity.  I  endeavored  to  deliver  what  arose  in  my 
mind,  but  the  stx-eam  had  not  such  free  course  as  is  desirable. 
In  the  afternoon  we  went  to  Gorham,  and  notice  having  been 
spread  for  several  days,  the  house,  containing  nearly  two  hun- 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  117 

dred  persons,  was  almost  filled,  with  the  exception  of  a  small 
number,  by  persons  of  other  professions.  My  niiud  was  jiretty 
calm,  though  not  without  some  fears  about  the  result.  The 
people  sat  with  the  most  becoming  quiet,  and  after  a  season  of 
inward,  reverent  waiting,  I  rose  with  the  expressions  of  the 
Apostle,  '  We  are  the  circumcision,  which  worship  God  in  the 
Spirit,  and  rejoice  in  Christ  Jesus,  and  have  no  confidence  in  the 
fiesh.'  The  necessity  of  experiencing  our  religious  perform- 
ances to  proceed  from  the  influences  of  the  Holy  Spirit ;  and  the 
blessing  which  flows  from  a  life  of  true  dedication  to  its  govern- 
ment, were  opened  ;  with  many  views  appertaining  to  the  Chris- 
tian warfare ;  encouraging  those  who  had  entered  the  straight 
gate,  to  maintain  close  watchfulness,  lest  by  the  stratagems  of 
an  unwearied  enemy,  they  might  be  again  drawn  aside.  I  have 
seldom  been  more  helped  on  any  occasion.  It  was  cause  of 
gratitude  to  our  holy  Helper  and  Caretaker,  who  knows  how  to 
deal  with  us,  to  be  thus  furnished  with  evidence,  in  the  time  of 
need,  that  He  has  not  forgotten  to  be  gracious ;  and  I  desire  to 
be  preserved  under  an  humble  sense  of  my  own  nothingness, 
and  that  all  good  must  be  derived  from  Him. 

Ninth  month  11th.  "Attended  Vassalborough  Quarterly 
Meeting.  The  Select  Meeting  was  much  larger  than  at  Wind- 
ham ;  the  men's  side  more  numerous  than  our  own  Quarterly 
Meeting.  It  was  an  agreeable  one  to  me;  the  language  of  conso- 
lation being  much  more  congenial  to  my  feelings,  than  that  of 
reproof,  though  indirectly  conveyed ;  and  which  was  offered  in 
the  endearing  expression  of  our  Lord :  'As  the  Father  hath  loved 
me,  so  have  I  loved  you ;  continue  ye  in  my  love ;'  which  can 
only  be  expected  by  faithfully  doing  or  suffering  his  will.  The 
meeting  for  discipline  was  rather  painful.  The  way  appeared 
to  open,  after  we  came  upon  the  Queries,  to  make  some  remarks 
upon  the  solemnity  of  the  purpose  for  which  our  religious  meet- 
ings were  held ;  that  they  could  only  be  profitable  as  the  power 
and  authority  of  Truth  presided  in  them ;  which  was  only  to 
be  expected,  as  every  one  kept  to  the  gift  of  Divine  grace  in 
his  own  heart,  waiting  on  that,  so  as  to  be  preserved  in  his 
proper  place  in  the  bod}^.  For  the  first  time,  I  was  impi-essed 
with  a  belief  it  was  right  to  propose  going  into  the  women's 
meeting ;  a  similar  concern  resting  on  my  mind  resj)ecting  them. 
After  enquiry  was  made  of  them,  and  men  Friends  uniting  with 
it,  J.  W.  was  named  to  accompany  me." 
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118  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

[W.  E.  and  companion  then  attended  meetings  at  St.  Albans, 
Albion  and  China.] 

Ninth  month  18th.  "  Attended  Vassalboroiigh  Monthly 
Meeting.  We  were  brought  into  tender  feehng  with  some,  to 
whom  the  bread  of  adversity  and  the  water  of  affliction  had 
been  dispensed;  and  tliey  were  reminded  of  the  reverses  which 
Job  experienced ;  reduced  as  he  was  from  the  highest  standing 
among  men,  though  a  perfect  and  upright  man,  to  sit  in  ashes; 
and  j-et,  in  all  this,  he  did  not  let  go  his  integrity ;  but  when 
advised  I)y  his  companion,  to  curse  God  and  die,  he  reproved 
lier,  as  speaking  foolishly,  and  said,  '  Shall  we  receive  good  at 
the  hand  of  God,  and  shall  we  not  receive  evil?'  That 
these  very  afflictions  would  contribute  to  prepare  us  for  vessels 
in  the  Lord's  house,  where  there  were  those  of  honor  and  dis- 
honor. I  thought  some  in  keeping  their  places,  might  not  be 
esteemed  by  the  uncircumcised  in  heart  and  ear,  as  honorable 
as  some  others  ;  yet  it  was  highly  important  they  should  keep 
their  places,  discharging  their  duty  faithfully  in  the  sight  of  the 
Lord. 

Ninth  month  30th.  "  We  are  progressing  daily  in  the  accom- 
plishment of  the  work  for  which  we  left  our  homes ;  and  have 
good  reason  to  believe,  that  the  Shepherd  of  the  sheep  has  been 
with  us,  uniting  us  more  closely  to  Him,  and  in  near  fellowship 
with  those  wdio  love  Him  in  sincerity.  Friends  are  very  kind 
and  affectionate  to  us,  willingly  conducting  us  from  meeting  to 
meeting,  and  manifesting  a  readiness  to  attend ;  also  people  of 
other  professions,  when  they  hear  of  them,  freely  come;  though 
our  invitations  are  simply  to  Friends,  and  such  as  usually  fre- 
quent their  meetings. 

Tenth  month  3d,  1833.  "  Thine  of  the  24th,  we  found  at  S. 
F.  H.'s,  on  our  arrival  yesterday,  giving  the  affecting  intelli- 
gence of  the  increasing  disease  and  suffering  of  our  daughter 
R*  Were  it  proper  for  me  to  return  homeward,  I  should  be 
•rlad  to  aid  in  making  her  as  comfortable  as  her  situation  would 
admit;  and  if  it  should  be  your  judgment,  that  it  would  be  best 
to  do  so,  w^e  would  give  up  the  remaining  parts  of  the  jiroposcd 
visit.  It  was  very  pleasant  to  find  by  thy  letter  that  the  Good 
Hand  is  round  about,  sustaining  thy  mind  in  the  accumulated 
cares  of  the  family,  and   the  trial  produced  by  the  very  affect- 

*  [A  child  of  cifi;lit  years,  who  w:ih  sii(U'rin;2:  with  disease  of  the  hip,  wliirh 
terminated  her  life,  in  tlie  Eleventli  month  of  183G.] 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM   EVANS.  119 

ing  situation  of  a  beloved  child  ;  and  I  trust  as  wc  all  endeavor 
to  keep  our  places,  that  support  will  not  be  withdrawn,  but  will 
be  experienced,  adequate  to  the  labors  of  the  day,  and  the 
anxiety  and  sympathy  which  must  attend  our  present  circum- 
stances." 

After  leaving  Yassalborough,  "  We  crossed  the  Kennebec 
river,  and  were  at  a  meeting  appointed  for  us  at  Sidney  ;  it  was 
rather  a  heavy,  laborious  time.  Then  rode  to  Belgrade,  piloted 
by  P.  P.  and  wife.  He  is  the  Nantucket  whaleman,  who 
caught  the  whale  which  his  men  had  struck  thirteen  years  be- 
fore, and  had  left  a  part  of  the  harpoon  remaining  ;  with  which 
it  then  escaped,  and  wdiich  they  found  on  cutting  it  up.  The 
harpoon  w^as  stamped  with  P.  P.'s  initials. 

"  Belgrade  Meeting  was  held  in  a  private  dwelling,  and 
though  not  large,  was  a  solemn  opportunity. 

"Attended  Winthrop  Meeting,  which  was  a  mournful  time  ; 
under  a  persuasion  that  the  standard-bearers  had  lost  ground, 
through  the  love  of  other  things  than  the  blessed  Truth.  In  the 
afternoon,  held  a  meeting  at  Litchfield,  which  was  large  ;  and 
a  favored  time  it  proved,  the  spring  of  the  ministry  being,  as 
I  believed,  freely  opened,  and  the  people  conducting  in  a  solid 
manner. 

"  Attended  Pownall  Meeting,  where,  as  on  one  or  two  other 
occasions,  we  had  to  deal  with  some  Universalists;  whose  pi-in- 
ciples  are  as  dangerous  as  any  other  infidel  doctrine,  and  which 
they  are  seeking  to  spread.  Rode  down  to  Portland  and  lodged. 
To-day  (Tenth  month  3d,)  attended  their  meeting  in  silence." 

[After  attending  meetings  at  Cape  Elizabeth  and  Berwick, 
W.  E.  and  companion  proceeded  to  Meadersborough,  where 
they  were  detained  a  few  days  by  the  indisposition  of  the  for- 
mer. Here,  he  writes  to  his  wife  :]  "  Home  came  up  frequently, 
with  the  sufterings  our  daughter  is  enduring,  and  the  labor  and 
care  which  devolve  upon  thee ;  but  it  did  not  seem  as  if  our 
work  was  finished,  however  unimportant  it  may  be  in  the  great 
scale  of  affairs." 

Tenth  month  11th.  "  An  appointed  meeting  at  North  Weare. 
In  the  afternoon,  rode  over  to  Henniker,  accomjjanied  by  T.  D., 
in  his  eighty-first  year.  We  found  his  residence  a  model  of 
simplicity ;  everything  very  plain,  but  very  nice  and  clean. 
Their  manner  of  living  is  of  corresponding  character.  They 
consume,  either  in  clothing  or  food,  but  little  they  do  not  make 


120  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

or  raise  ;  and,  sitting  at  their  table,  everything  seemed  to  par- 
take of  such  purity,  that  it  reminded  me  of  patriarchal  times. 
T.  D.  was  enlisted  for  three  years  in  the  revolutionary  war  ; 
was  at  Cambridge  during  the  battle  of  Banker's  Hill ;  but  was 
not  in  any  engagement,  though  he  was  anxious  to  kill  many  of 
his  opponents.  When  his  eyes  were  opened  to  see  the  anti- 
christianity  of  war,  he  found  he  had  been  under  a  delusion ;  and 
was  thankful  he  had  never  been  permitted  to  destroy  a  fellow- 
creature.     He  has  been  among  Friends  about  forty  years. 

"  We  attended  the  first-day  meeting  at  Unity;  the  morning 
wet  and  cloudy,  which  probably  occasioned  it  to  be  small ;  but 
we  had  cause  for  gratitude  to  our  Lord  and  Master,  for  the  ex- 
tension of  his  goodness  ;  affording  renewed  help  to  advocate  his 
cause,  after  a  time  of  long  watching  and  waiting  for  bis  Divine 
presence  and  quickening  power.  On  second-day  afternoon,  at- 
tended the  meeting  at  Henniker.  A  want  of  religious  exer- 
cise, too  often  evident  in  our  meetings,  produced  sorrowful 
feelings  ;  and  the  fear  that,  as  in  other  places,  there  was  a  defi- 
ciency in  the  right  qualification  to  maintain  our  testimony  to 
spiritual  worship.  The  way,  however,  opened  to  show  the 
effect  of  true  religion,  in  leading  into  a  deep  inward  travail  of 
spirit,  for  the  salvation  of  our  immortal  souls  ;  and  that  as  this 
was  oar  situation,  when  we  came  together  in  our  meetings,  a 
united,  harmonious  labor  would  be  experienced,  for  the  preva- 
lence of  the  Divine  life  amongst  us. 

"  I  hope  thy  next  will  give  the  desirable  intelligence,  that  the 
acute  sufi'erings  of  our  afflicted  child  are  mitigated ;  and  that 
your  anxious  labors  and  watchings  are  lessened ;  it  would  cheer 
me  much,  and  encourage  to  try  to  finish  what  little  work  I 
might  have  to  do.  But  we  cannot  change  things  when  we  may 
please ;  and  to  be  favored  with  fortitude  and  proper  resignation 
to  bear  our  lot,  will  promote  our  comfort  and  best  interests. 
How  many  are  enduring  afflictive  bereavements  or  painful  suf- 
fering;  and  while  v/e  are  in  the  body,  I  anticipate  little  else 
than  trial,  mortification  or  affliction  of  some  kind.  If  it  work 
for  us  a  far  more  excoediiig  and  eternal  weight  of  glory,  this 
will  outbalance  every  possible  tribulation  we  can  hero  endure. 
It  is,  however,  not  necessary  to  be  constantly  dwelling  on  the 
gloomy  pictures  of  life  ;  let  us  gird  up  our  loins  and  try  to  keep 
our  lamps  burning,  so  as  to  be  ready  to  open  to  our  Lord  at  his 
coming;  and  all  those  servants  whom  He  finds  thus  watching, 


JOURNAL  OF  WILLIAM  EVANS.  121 

He  will  command  to  sit  down  to  meat,  and  come  forth  and  serve 
them  himself.  And  thus  we  shall  as  we  pass  along,  realize  the 
blessedness  of  the  religion  we  profess,  to  sustain  in  the  hour  of 
trial,  comfort  and  cheer  with  Divine  consolation  from  time  to 
time,  and  furnish  in  the  end  with  a  blessed  hope  of  everlasting 
rest  and  peace ;  where  all  sorrow  ceases,  and  God  shall  wipe 
away  all  tears  from  every  eye. 

Tenth  month  16th.  "  Attended  their  Select  Meeting  at  South 
Weare.  Towards  the  close,  the  way  opened  to  call  the  atten- 
tion of  Friends  to  the  foundation  of  our  religious  meetings  ; 
that  being  weai"ied  with  the  lifeless  perfoi'mances  of  the  day, 
which  were  no  better  than  husks  to  them,  our  early  Friends  sal 
down  in  silence  to  wait  upon  the  Lord;  not  daring  to  engage 
in  vocal  communications,  without  the  putting  forth  of  the 
Shepherd  of  the  sheep ;  that  it  was  indispensable  we  should 
keep  to  the  same  ground,  if  the  ministry  is  preserved  a  living 
ministry,  proceeding  from  the  spring  of  Divine  life,  w^hich  would 
water  the  flock,  &c.  Next  day  attended  the  Quarterly  Meet- 
ing. We  have  hardly  sat  a  more  laborious  meeting  of  that 
kind.  I  said  nothing  before  the  shutters  were  closed.  After 
the  meeting  for  business  was  ready  for  closing,  it  seemed  pro- 
per to  make  some  allusion  to  the  difficulty  with  which  our 
chariot  wheels  had  dragged  that  day ;  and  to  urge  it  as  an  in- 
citement to  more  zealous,  individual  concern ;  to  apply  for  wis- 
dom and  strength  for  managing  the  affairs  of  the  church  ;  w^hich, 
no  more  than  Divine  worship,  could  be  rightly  performed,  but 
by  the  aid  of  the  Holy  Spirit;  the  influence  of  which  was  to  be 
lived  under  daily  ;  as  we  could  not  expect  it  when  we  came  to- 
gether, if  at  other  times  we  were  so  absorbed  with  the  world 
as  scarcely  to  remember  our  religious  duty,  until  such  occasions 
recalled  it.  Our  ^discipline  is  an  excellent  institution ;  but 
not  like  a  machine  that  could  be  set  in  operation  by  the  inge- 
nuity of  man ;  the  same  wisdom  that  instituted  it  was  to  be 
waited  and  sought  for,  in  the  various  duties  to  be  performed  by 
the  different  members.  I  felt  for  the  young  people,  lest  they 
might  be  discouraged  by  such  seasons ;  but  exhorted  them  to 
come  to  Christ  in  their  own  hearts,  that  they  might  be  taught 
and  prepared  by  Him  for  his  service  in  the  church ;  and  be  pre- 
served from  having  all  their  faculties  absorbed  by  the  world  ;  be 
enabled  to  keep  their  duties  in  their  proper  places;  having  their 
hearts  lifted  up  to  Him  in  the  heavens,  while  their  hands  were 


122  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

necessarily  engaged  in  their  lawful  occupations;  and  thus  He 
would  qualify  them  to  stand  in  those  stations  He  would  allot 
them  in  his  church.  •» 

"  Sixth-day  morning  set  out  for  Concord,  and  there  held  a 
meeting  Avith  the  few  who  assemble  in  that  place ;  several 
Friends,  on  their  way  home,  also  attending.  It  was  a  good 
meeting  ;  the  language  of  sympathy  and  encouragement  to- 
wards the  few  who  lived  there,  was  held  out;  to  keep  their  eye 
over  all  discouraging  jDrospects,  to  their  divine  Master,  who 
would  sustain  in  times  of  conflict ;  and  make  a  way  for  them  to 
escape  every  trial  and  temptation  with  which  they  were  beset, 
as  they  relied  on  Him.  The  spirit  of  infidelity  came  ver}^  un- 
expectedly into  view ;  and  a  warning  was  given  of  the  awful 
consequence  which  must  result  from  it,  unless  repentance  and 
forgiveness  were  timely  experienced.  The  meeting  closed  with 
supplication  for  our  preservation  'and  support  through  the  con- 
flicts we  may  have  to  endure. 

21st.  "Held  a  meeting  at  Gilmanton,  which,  in  the  fore- 
part, was  very  exercising,  from  the  belief,  that  the  desire  for 
words  was  too  prevalent  here,  as  in  some  other  places.  After 
long  sitting,  it  seemed  proper  to  say,  I  hoped  the  time  would 
not  come,  when  we  should  either  be  ashamed  or  incapable  of 
holding  our  religious  meetings  in  solemn  silence,  whenever  it 
was  the  will  of  the  great  Head  of  the  church  that  they  should 
be  so  held.  After  adverting  to  the  circumstance  of  our  first 
Friends  being  withdrawn  from  a  lifeless  ministry,  and  the  cere- 
monies of  that  time,  to  sit  down  under  the  teachings  of  Christ  j 
the  nature  of  Divine  worship,  as  set  forth  by  Him,  in  the  inter- 
view with  the  woman  at  Jacob's  well,  was  a  little  opened ;  and 
the  necessity  of  experiencing  the  efficacy  in  ourselves,  of  the 
religion  we  were  making  profession  of,  was  enforced  ;  which  I 
have  found  it  much  my  place  to  do,  wherever  we  have  been. 
We  are  getting  very  outward,  full  of  doctrinal  knowledge  ;  but 
where  are  the  fruits  of  our  principles? 

Tenth  month  23d  and  24th.  "Attended  the  Quarterly  Meet- 
ing at  Dover,  which  was  large.  Through  the  mercy  and  kind- 
ness of  the  .Shepherd  of  the  flock,  we  were  favoi'cd  with  a  solemn 
meeting;  the  way  opening  to  take  leave  of  them  and  the  ex- 
tensive tract  wo  have  travelled  over,  with  relieved  and  peaceful 
minds. 

"  Went  to  Scabrook  on  seventh-day  afternoon.     This  meeting 


JOURNAL    OP    WILLIAM    EVANS  123 

was  once  large;  and  many  of  the  members  eminent  among 
Friends,  Comfort  Collins,  who  lived  to  the  age  of  one  hundred 
and  five  years,  belonged  to  it.  We  attended  the  meeting,  now 
reduced  to  three  or  four  plain  men,  and  eight  or  ten  women. 

"  In  the  afternoon  rode  down  to  Amesburj^ ;  and,  to  our  sur- 
prise, found  we  were  to  hold  a  meeting  in  a  manufacturing  towji. 
We  had  been  told  it  was  a  very  small  meeting;  and,  supposing 
it  to  be  a  country  place,  consented  to  the  proposal  to  have  it  in 
the  afternoon.  When  we  went  to  the  house,  we  found  it  filling 
up  withalldescriptionsof  people,  nothing  like  Friends;  scarcely 
any  present  who  knew  much  about  the  proper  exercise  for  such 
occasions.  I  saw  no  other  way  than  to  cast  ourselves  upon 
Him  who  only  can  enable  us  to  meet  difficulties,  with  the  hope 
the  cause  might  not  be  permitted  to  sufi'er ;  there  was  some 
ability  furnished  to  preach  the  gospel  of  salvation  to  them.  The 
company  sat  very  still  and  attentive." 

[After  attending  several  meetings  in  the  eastern  and  south- 
eastern parts  of  Massachusetts,  and  on  Nantucket,  W.  B.  writes, 
under  date  of  Eleventh  month  14th:]  "This  afternoon  returned 
to  New  Bedford,  and  found  a  letter  from  brother  T.,  which 
gives  a  much  more  unfavorable  view  of  our  dear  daughter's 
case ;  and  I  think  I  shall  be  easy,  after  being  at  two  meetings, 
appointed  for  sixth  and  seventh-days,  and  at  New  Bedford  on 
first-da}^,  to  set  otf  for  Newport  on  second-day  morning ;  take 
the  steamboat  there  for  New  York,  [and  thence  to  Philadel- 
phia.] 

"  I  have  felt  incapable  of  taking  satisfiiction  in  anything,  since 
I  received  the  affecting  intelligence  of  our  beloved  child's  situa- 
tion ;  excepting  in  the  evidence,  I  think  I  have  had,  from  place 
to  place,  that  the  Master  was  with  us ;  this  has  made  me  hope 
that  our  child  would  at  least  be  continued  until  I  was  favored 
to  reach  our  residence  in  peace.  It  would  be  a  close  trial  to  me, 
indeed,  not  to  be  permitted  to  see  her  face  again  ;  but  I  cannot 
be  persuaded  yet,  to  think  I  shall  not  be  with  you  some  time 
before  the  final  event ;  if  it  be  not  consistent  with  the  Divine 
Will  to  restore  her.  No  one  knows  the  feelings  1  pass  through 
daily  at  being  detained  from  you ;  it  seems  as  if  I  could  not 
stay ;  and  yet  I  have  not  been  able  to  see  that  the  time  had 
come  to  take  my  departure,  until  this  afternoon.  In  looking 
back  at  the  original  prospect,  it  appears  to  be  pretty  much  ac- 
complished ;  excepting  four  meetings  in  this  Quarterly  Meet- 


124  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

ing,  and  f<nii*  or  five  in  Ehode  Island  Quarter,  which  I  had 
intended  to  visit." 

[W.  E.'s  minute,  with  endorsements,  was  returned  to  his 
Monthly  Meeting,  Eleventh  month  27th,  1833. 

1834,  Ninth  month  24th.  A  certificate  was  granted  him  to 
attend  the  next  Yearly  Meeting  of  Friends,  to  be  held  in  Balti- 
more. This  was  returned,  Eleventh  month  26th,  of  the  same 
year.] 


CHAPTEE   VI. 

1835. 


Religious  visit  to  Friends  in  the  Eastern  parts  of  New  York,  and  in 
Vermont. 

Having  obtained  a  certificate  from  the  Monthly  and  the  Quar- 
terly Meeting,  of  their  unity  with  a  concern  I  had  felt  for 
several  months,  to  visit  the  meetings  of  Friends  in  the  eastern 
side  of  New  York  Yearly  Meeting,  I  set  out  on  the  journey  on 
the  18th  of  the  Ninth  month,  1835;  having  for  companion  my 
beloved  friend  Joseph  Snowden,  who  had  a  minute  for  the  pur- 
pose. Leaving  a  beloved  wife  and  family  of  children,  naturally 
awakened  peculiar  feelings,  on  account  of  the  increased  weight 
of  the  charge  of  all  the  domestic  concerns  devolving  upon  one 
head,  and  the  reflection,  that  while  we  travel  abroad  to  ])romote 
the  welfare  of  others,  temptation  surrounds  our  own  children  ; 
by  which  they  may  be  led  into  things  unbecoming  our  profes- 
sion ;  and  thereby,  if  yielded  to,  bring  reproach  upon  the  blessed 
cause  which  we  esi^ouse.  But  after  receiving  the  unity  of 
Friends,  there  appeared  to  be  no  other  right  course  but  to  com- 
mit them  all  to  the  protection  and  care  of  the  Shepherd  of 
I.srael;  trusting  that  when  Ho  docs  lead  forth  into  service,  if  wo 
endeavor  to  discharge  our  duty  to  them  faithfully,  while  at 
home.  He  will  be  round  about,  and  guard  them  from  evil  and 
from  danger. 

We  reached  the  residence  of  that   worthy  mother  in  Israel, 


JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS.  125 

Ruth  Ely,  near  New  Hope,  that  evening,  where  we  were  very 
kindly  and  agreeably  entertained.  The  company  of  those  who 
feel  a  deep  interest  in  our  religious  Society,  and  are  capable  of 
estimating  its  usefulness,  and  its  weaknesses,  is  very  interest- 
ing, and  deservedly  valued.  On  the  following  day  we  rode  to 
N.  V.'s,  at  Plainfield,  and  attended  their  meeting  on  first-day; 
which  was  rather  dull  and  heavy,  too  few  being  willing  to  enter 
into  labor  for  themselves.  The  spirit  of  speculating  in  property 
having  prevailed  in  and  near  some  of  our  large  cities,  seemed 
to  have  had  its  influence  here ;  conversation  frequently  running 
upon  the  sale  and  increased  value  of  land.  Although  the  first- 
day  of  the  week  is  set  apart  for  religious  retirement  and  medi- 
tation, yet  making  money  would  come  up,  and  show  that  it  was 
a  prime  and  absorbing  subject.  Its  effect  is  sorrowful  upon  old 
and  young ;  leading  one  into  the  fashions  and  vanities  of  the 
woi-ld,  and  producing  spiritual  dryness  and  even  death  in  the 
other.  We  took  tea  at  J.  S.'s,  and  being  alone,  had  a  little  sit- 
ting wath  them ;  in  which  the  language  of  sympathy  and  en- 
couragement was  freely  offered;  his  wife  being  a  minister, 
and  appearing  to  need  strength  and  courage  to  occupy  her  gift 
faithfully'. 

N".  y.  kindly  piloted  us  to  ]^ewark,  where  we  fed  our  horses 
and  made  enquiries  after  the  best  route  to  Bloominggrove,  and 
proceeded  ;  putting  up  that  night  at  a  tavern,  being  forty-one 
miles  from  Plainfield.  Third-day  morning,  22d,  set  out  and 
rode  through  a  mountainous  country,  passing  several  iron  works 
and  factories  ;  the  road  was  very  good.  After  dining,  eighteen 
miles  on,  we  obtained  directions,  and  went  nine  miles  further  to 
D.  B.'s,  at  Bloominggrove.  He  is  an  elderly  Friend,  who,  with 
his  family,  joined  the  Society  ;  they  live  very  comfortably  in  a 
plain  manner,  and  entertain  their  friends  well,  and  with  a  good 
will. 

Notice  was  spread  for  a  meeting  with  Friends,  and  those  who 
usually  attend,  to  be  at  the  eleventh  hour,  fourth-day  morning. 
The  company  was  small,  considerable  part  of  the  members 
having  gone  off  with  E.  Hicks.  The  importance  of  silent, 
patient  waiting  for  the  arising  of  the  life  of  Truth,  to  qualify 
for  every  act  in  Divine  worship,  was  much  impressed  on  my 
mind ;  but  there  seemed  little  qualification  to  say  anything. 
Some  became  restless,  and  a  Friend,  who,  I  was  afraid,  caught 
that  feeling,  rose  and  urged  the  people  not  to  look  to  man,  whose 


126  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

breath  was  in  his  iiostrilf*,  but  to  Ilim  aloue,  who  could  give  the 
bread  of  life.  The  advice  was  good,  if  it  proceeded  from  right 
authority,  but  it  rather  distressed  me.  He  took  his  seat,  and 
after  sitting  a  few  minutes  rose  again,  and  enlarged  in  the  same 
strain.  I  then  thought  Ave  should  soon  close  the  meeting  with- 
out any  thing  further;  but  in  looking  towards  that,  I  Avas  fear- 
ful of  omitting  to  disclose  the  exercise  which  had  attended  my 
mind,  respecting  the  importance  of  practising  silent,  patient 
waiting  upon  Christ,  for  the  renewal  of  our  strength,  and  ability 
to  do  his  will,  whatever  it  might  be.  In  this  humble  engagement, 
we  should  find  that  without  Him  we  can  do  nothing;  and  how- 
ever active  man  may  l)e  in  things  very  proper  to  be  done,  when 
He  commands,  yet  without  this  renewed  unction,  all  will 
amount  to  nothing.  The  nature  of  true,  spiritual  religion;  tlio 
cleansing  operation  of  Him  who  now  sits  as  a  refiner's  fire,  and 
as  a  fuller  with  soap;  and  the  participation  of  the  supper  of  the 
Lord,  by  opening  our  hearts  to  Him,  was  a  little  dwelt  upon. 
Some  Methodists  were  there,  and  some  of  us,  may  have  needed 
such  views  to  be  held  up. 

In  the  afternoon  we  rode  to  Canterbury,  near  the  North  River, 
and  put  up  at  N.  A.'s.  He  and  his  brother,  sous  of  S.  A.,  are 
largely  in  the  brick-making  business.  TheyemjDloy  simj)le  but 
ingenious  machinery  in  working  up  and  mixing  the  clay  and 
sand,  and  a  small  proportion  of  fine  anthracite  coal  to  form  the 
brick ;  and  another  contrivance  by  which  the  prepared  compo- 
sition is  pressed  into  the  moulds;  turning  out  four  bricks  every 
compression.  Two  of  these  machines,  with  the  aid  of  six  men 
and  six  boys,  make  about  19,000  bricks  per  day,  after  the  clay 
is  prepared  by  others.  On  fifth-day  the  24th,  we  attended  the 
Monthly  Meeting  here,  called  Cornwall,  of  which  that  eflPectual 
minister  of  the  Gospel,  David  Sands,  was  formerly  a  member. 
We  passed  his  residence  in  going  to  the  meeting-house ;  it 
has  an  air  of  ancient  simplicity  and  comfort;  being  a  long  one- 
story  buikling,  with  a  high  roof,  admittitig  of  lodging  in  the 
attic  story.  His  ancient  widow,  about  ninety,  Avalked  to  the 
meeting,  over  quarter  oi"  a  mile.  It  was  a  small  coin])any  of 
Friends  for  a  Monthly  Meeting;  constituted  of  JJloominggrove, 
and  Cornwall  Preparative  Meetings.  The  need  of  steadfastly 
abiding  upon  the  watcli,  in  order  to  csca])i'  the  captivating 
snares  of  the  enemy,  was  held  up  to  view,  in  the  injunction  of 
our  Lord,   "  AVhat  I  say  unto  you,  I   say  unto  all,  Watch;" 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  127 

"Watch  and  pray,  lest  ye  enter  into  temptation;"  for  though 
the  sjiirit  may  often  be  ready,  the  flesh  is  weak.  It  ap- 
peared to  me  that  the  hxAvful  things  of  this  world  were  to  be 
watched  against :  though  all  things  might  be  lawful,  they  were 
not  all  expedient;  and  the  Apostle  declared  he  would  not 
be  brought  under  the  power  of  any.  Some  appeared  to  be  in 
danger  of  being  so  absorbed  in  worldly  pursuits,  as  to  live 
in  almost  total  forgetfulness  of  the  Giver  of  every  outward 
blessing  Ave  enjoy,  and  consequent  neglect  of  the  soul's  sal- 
vation. These  were  invited  to  return  to  the  watch-tower, 
and  take  heed  to  the  voice  of  the  true  Shepherd ;  that  they 
might  be  again  brought  out  of  bondage  into  the  libert}"  of 
the  children  of  Grod.  It  was  a  pretty  open  time.  The  widow 
Sands  expressed  her  belief  that  the  Lord  had  not  left  Himself 
without  witnesses  to  the  Truth,  and  desired  that  each  might 
take  that  which  applied  to  them.  Their  business  was  passed 
through  with  but  little  expression,  though  five  Queries  were  an- 
svvered.  I  thought  it  proper  to  urge  the  right  and  due  support 
of  the  discipline,  in  the  spirit  and  wisdom  by  which  it  was  in- 
stituted ;  as  the  health  of  the  Society  would  be  materially  in- 
fluenced by  it.  The  sentiments  were  accorded  with  by  two 
Friends. 

At  Newberry  Valley,  fourteen  miles  further,  we  had  an  ap- 
pointed meeting  on  the  following  afternoon,  at  two  o'clock. 
It  collected  very  irregularly,  which  kept  up  a  state  of  unsettle- 
ment  for  a  long  time.  Feelings  of  poverty  and  desertion,  and  a  fear 
whether  it  would  be  held  to  profit,  crowded  into  my  mind ;  but 
after  a  time  of  inward  waiting,  and  looking  to  the  Master  for 
his  direction,  it  seemed  right  to  stand  up  with  the  expression, 
"  None  of  them  can  by  any  nieaiis  redeem  his  brother,  nor  give 
to  Grod  a  ransom  for  him  ;"  neither  could  we  become  partakers 
oi'  that  redemption  which  comes  by  Jesus  Christ,  unless  we 
were  individually^  concerned  to  enter  into  labor  in  our  own 
hearts,  under  the  aid  and  direction  of  his  Holy  Spirit;  that  sanc- 
tification  may  be  effected  in  us.  It  was  a  solemn  opportunity ; 
in  which  the  necessity  of  working  out  the  salvation  of  the  soul 
with  fear  and  trembling,  and  the  certainty  that  everlasting 
separation  from  the  redeemed,  will  be  the  portion  of  the  rebel- 
lious who  die  unforgiven,  were  feelingly  expressed.  We  lodged 
at  the  house  of  a  Friend,  and  in  the  morning,  had  a  short  sitting 
with  the  family ;  in  which  the  heads  were  encouraged  to  occupy 


128  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

faithfully  the  gifts  bestowed  on  them,  whatever  they  might  be, 
not  trusting  in  their  own  strength.  It  seemed  to  me,  that  the 
wife  was  called  to  more  open  acknowledgment  of  the  side  she 
ought  to  take;  perhaps,  in  publicly  espousing  the  cause  of 
Truth. 

A  meeting  being  appointed  for  us  at  Marlborough,  we  rode  over 
to  it,  seven  miles.  The  company  was  small ;  and  though  in  the 
fore  part  of  the  time,  several  passages  of  Scripture  instructively 
presented,  and  seemed  as  if  they  were  very  suitable  for  commu- 
nication, the  feeling  gradually  subsided,  and  no  intimation  to 
offer  them  being  distinctly  felt,  we  closed  the  sitting  in  silence. 
The  subjects  were  the  necessity  of  the  fruit-bearing  branches 
being  purged ;  and,  also  that  of  stillness,  before  the  Searcher  of 
hearts,  that  we  may  know  Him,  and  his  manner  of  dealing 
with  us,  and  thereby  renew  our  strength.  I  think  I  was  willing 
to  speak  or  be  silent,  as  the  Master  should  order,  and  after- 
wards hoped  these  openings  might  tend  to  my  own  benefit. 
Eode  to  Jacob  Heaton's  in  the  afternoon,  and  attended  Platte- 
kill  Meeting  on  first-day.  Notice  having  been  spread  through 
the  neighborhood,  the  house  was  pretty  well  filled  by  Friends 
and  others.  The  distinction  between  John's  baptism  and  that 
of  Christ,  the  former  being  with  water,  and  the  latter  with  the 
Spirit,  each  designating  the  nature  of  the  dispensation  to  which 
it  appertained,  was  held  up  to  view.  One  decreasing  must  come 
to  an  end,  and  the  other  increasing  must  overspread  all ;  and 
as  the  Apostle  declares,  that  to  us  there  is  but  "one  Lord,  one 
faith  and  one  baptism ;  one  God  and  Father  of  all  who  is  above 
all,  through  all  and  in  you  all ;"  this  baptism  must  be  that  of 
Christ,  which  is  with  the  Holy  Ghost  and  fire :  it  is  therefore 
essential,  that  the  professors  of  his  name  should  deeply  and  fre- 
quently examine  whether  they  are  submitting  to  it,  and  thereby 
witnessing  the  chaff  and  every  defilement  purely  purged  away; 
so  as  to  make  fit  temples  for  the  Holy  One  to  dwell  in. 

The  work  of  regeneration,  and  the  effects  of  it  upon  our  lives, 
and  conduct,  and  conversation,  were  pretty  fully  treated  on.  The 
meeting  was  quiet,  and  ended  with  a  covering  of  solemnity. 

After  dinner,  a  few  Friends  coming  in,  we  had  a  precious 
parting  opportunity  ;  in  which  some,  who  I  believed,  had  been 
of  latter  time  brought  under  feelings  of  increased  seriousness, 
were  affectionately  called  upon  to  yield  to  those  precious  visita- 
tions   and   resort   to  nothing   to  divert   their  attention   from 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  129 

Ilim,  who  has  thus  been  drawing  near,  to  enlist  them  under  his 
government.  We  left  these  dear  Friends  with  feelings  of  ten- 
der affection,  and  desire  for  their  growth  in  the  Truth ;  and 
rode  to  W.  M.'s,  at  Paltz.  His  house  is  placed  on  the  side  of  a 
mountain,  and  amongst  a  description  of  people  not  very  suita- 
ble society  for  a  young  family.  The  meeting  Avas  small,  and  a 
very  trj'ing  one  to  my  feelings ;  so  little  heartfelt  concern  for 
their  own  spiritual  welfare  being  apparent.  I  endeavored  to 
discharge  my  duty,  in  exhorting  them  to  more  zeal  and  dili- 
gence ;  but  we  left  them  with  little  hope  that  Truth  would  soon 
prosjDcr  there.  AVhcn  we  see  the  young  children  of  the  princi- 
pal Friend,  fashionably  dressed,  we  cannot  expect  that  the  life 
of  religion  will  be  sought  after  and  cherished.  I  spoke  to  him 
upon  the  subject ;  which  he  appeared  to  take  kindly,  and  ac- 
knowledged he  had  yielded  to  it  contrary  to  his  j^idgment,  and 
thought  in  future  he  should  be  more  firm. 

Attended  an  appointed  meeting  at  three  o'clock,  at  the  Plains; 
which  was  also  a  low  time,  though  accompanied  by  rather 
more  lively  feelings  than  in  the  morning.  We  lodged  at  a 
Friend's  house ;  and  in  the  morning  had  an  opportunity  with 
him  and  his  daughters,  who  had  lost  their  mother  about  a  year 
since,  and  one  of  them  her  husband ;  in  which  sympathy  was 
felt  with  them  in  their  bereavements,  and  the  young  women 
affectionately  counselled  to  follow  their  mother,  as  she  had  fol- 
lowed Christ.  Then  set  out  for  Dutchess  County  ;  crossed  the 
North  Eiver  at  Poughkeepsie,  and  went  to  the  Creek,  to  the 
residence  of  our  kind  friends,  Smith  and  Sarah  Upton;  who  re- 
ceived and  entertained  us  with  much  cordiality. 

The  next  day,  being  the  last  of  the  Ninth  month,  we  attended 
their  usual  mid-w^eek  meeting.  It  was  much  reduced  by  the 
absence  of  several  members,  summoned  to  court  at  Poughkeep- 
sie. Some  of  the  little  company,  according  to  my  feelings,  were 
partaking  of  poverty  of  spirit,  and  under  suffering  of  a  close 
nature.  We  sat  long  in  silence,  when  it  seemed  proper  to  ad- 
dress them  with  the  language  of  Christ :  "  Blessed  be  ye  poor, 
for  yours  is  the  kingdom,  of  God."  I  hoped  that  the  Master 
was  present  with  us,  to  comfort  them  that  mourned  ;  and  that 
in  his  time.  He  would  give  to  such,  "beauty  for  ashes  ;  the  oil  of 
joy  for  mourning  ;  and  the  garment  of  praise  for  the  spirit  of 
heaviness."  We  passed  the  remainder  of  the  day  at  S.  Upton's, 
with  his  wife  ;  Smith  being  at  Poughkeepsie.     It  seemed  like 


130  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

being  with   people  who  understood  our  language ;  and  with 
whom  we  could  hold  converse  with  freedom. 

Tenth  month  1st.  Accompanied  by  our  beloved  friend,  we 
went  to  the  regular  meeting  at  Stanford,  to  which  that  worthy 
man,  and  dignified  minister  of  Christ,  Henry  Hull,  belonged, 
during  his  lifetime.  A  qualification  was  here  afforded,  to  preach 
the  gospel  of  life  and  salvation,  through  Jesus  Christ  our  Lord, 
to  some  who  had  wandered  from  the  footsteps  of  the  flock,  into  a 
far  country,  where  they  were  perishing  with  hunger ;  and  desti- 
tute of  all  hope  of  any  solid  comfort  or  peace.  They  were 
pressingly  invited  to  receive  the  everlasting  Shepherd,  in  his 
off'ers  of  help  to  restore  them  to  the  Father's  house  and  flock. 
It  w^as  a  season  of  favor ;  and  w^e  had  reason  to  believe  that  the 
states  of  some  were  closely  spoken  to.  Returned  in  the  even- 
ing to  S.  Upton's ;  and  on  sixth-day  morning,  he  piloted  us  to 
little  Nine  Partners;  a  very  small  company ;  but  it  was  ratlier  a 
comfoi'table  opportunity :  dined  at  the  house  of  an  aged  Friend, 
w^ho  is  a  great  landholder  and  very  extensive  farmer,  having 
large  flocks  of  sheep,  and  many  fat  cattle.  Before  we  left  his 
house,  I  was  most  easy  to  spend  a  little  time  in  silent  waiting 
with  him  and  his  daughter ;  and  the  necessity  of  preparing  for 
the  midnight  cry,  presenting  forcibly,  I  endeavored,  in  a  way 
becoming  my  youth  and  his  age,  to  impress  the  importance  of 
being  broken  ofli"  from  his  worldly  pursuits ;  and  experiencing 
his  aff'ections  set  on  things  which  are  above.  As  we  brought 
nothing  into  this  world,  certain  it  is,  we  can  carry  nothing  oiit ; 
and  neither  corn,  the  finest  wheat,  the  largest  flocks,  nor  the 
richest  land,  can  procure  for  us  the  oil  of  the  kingdom,  with 
which  our  lamps  should  be  replenished.  It  appeared  to  luive  a 
tendering  effect ;  and  the  old  man  parted  with  us  affectionately. 
We  then  rode  about  six  miles  to  North-east. 

Notice  having  been  spread,  we  had  a  meeting  with  Friends 
and  others  of  the  neighborhood,  on  seventh-day.  As  is  often 
the  case,  some  were  restless,  in  the  forepart  of  the  time ;  being 
accustomed  to  hear  preaching  at  their  own  places  of  worship; 
but  the  parable  of  the  sower,  and  the  different  soils  into  w^hich 
the  seed  was  cast,  presented  ;  and  after  waiting  for  the  putting 
forth  of  the  good  hand,  it  Avas  opened  to  them;  and  with  in- 
struction to  myself  also.  We  had  cause  for  renewed  thankful- 
ness to  our  blessed  Master  for  his  aid,  and  tlic  solemnizing 
influence  of  his  presence.     After  dining,  we  eat  with  the  family 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  131 

of  the  kind  Friend,  at  whose  house  we  staid,  and  the  tendering 
invitations  of  Divine  love  were  renewed  to  some  of  his  children — 
whose  appearance  was  not  sufficientl}^  conformed  to  the  simpli- 
city of  the  Truth — to  take  up  the  cross  and  openly  confess  their 
dear  Lord,  in  plainness  of  dress  and  address,  and  in  the  finiits 
of  a  meek  and  quiet  spirit.  It  seemed  to  me  that  Grace  had 
been  at  work,  in  bringing  some  of  them  under  more  serious 
thoughtful ness,  than  at  previous  periods.  We  then  returned 
with  S.  Upton  to  his  hospitable  mansion — twelve  miles.  On  first- 
day  we  attended  their  meeting;  where  we  had  also  the  company 
of  a  number  not  belonging  with  Friends.  Here  it  appeared  pro- 
per to  hold  forth  the  doctrine,  that  true  religion  is  an  inward, 
silent,  progressive  work ;  its  beginning  is  small,  being  com- 
pared to  a  grain  of  mustard-seed,  the  least  of  all  seeds ;  but 
as  it  is  suffered  to  take  root  in  the  heart,  will  eradicate  all 
other  plants  that  produce  fruit  contrary  to  the  Divine  na- 
ture, and  eventually  overspread  all.  The  incorruptible  seed 
and  Word  of  God  is  called  by  many  names:  as  the  Seed;  the 
Light;  the  manifestation  of  the  Spirit;  the  grace  of  God  that 
brings  salvation,  and  hath  appeared  unto  all  men ;  and  as  man 
is  passive,  under  its  operation,  it  will  bring  him  from  under  the 
dominion  of  his  evil  passions  and  propensities,  in  which  Satan 
holds  his  rule ;  and  set  up  and  establish  the  kingdom  of  heaven 
in  his  heart.  The  subject  opened  gradually,  and  the  meeting 
was  clothed  with  much  solemnity ;  furnishing  renewed  cause 
for  grateful,  humble  acknowledgment  to  the  Master  of  assem- 
blies, for  his  Divine  presence  and  assistance.  In  the  evening, 
we  took  tea  with  Isaac  and  Ruth  Ilalleek.  He  is  nearly  eighty- 
t\Yo  years  of  age ;  his  wife  a  few  years  younger,  and  in  the  sta- 
tion of  a  minister.  He  named  several  Friends  of  our  Yearly 
Meeting,  long  since  deceased,  and  among  them  my  grandfather, 
David  Bacon  ;  who,  in  company  with  some  others,  attended  a 
treaty  with  the  Indians  in  this  State.  Afterwards  an  old  Indian 
undertook  to  give  a  character  of  those  Friends,  to  a  Friend  who 
visited  them,  and  David  Bacon,  he  called  a  "cleared  field" — mean- 
ing that  he  saw  all  around  him.  Dropping  into  silence,  just 
before  we  left,  the  language  of  sympathy  and  comfort  was  ex- 
tended to  these  ancient  Friends;  who  have  passed  through 
much  domestic  affliction;  and  yet  to  old  age,  have  been  favored 
to  hold  on  their  way,  and  grow  stronger  in  faith  and  confidence, 
in  Him,  who  was  with  the  three  children  in  the  furnace,  and 


132  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

delivered  them,  so  that  the  smell  of  fire  was  not  found  upon 
their  garments ;  and  continues  to  be  with  his  childi'en  now  in 
their  deepest  afflictions. 

On  second-day  morning,  Tenth  month  5th,  accompanied  by 
Smith  Upton,  we  set  out  for  the  meetings  in  Nine  Partner's 
Quarterly  Meeting.  We  stopped  to  see  Anne  Thorne,  who  was 
about  to  embark  for  Europe,  on  a  religious  visit.  She  seemed 
quite  cheerful.  \Yhile  sitting  with  them,  I  adverted  to  the 
necessity  of  keeping  to  the  inward  guidance  of  the  Holy  Spirit, 
in  all  our  movements ;  it  was  that  which  could  alone  preserve 
us,  whatever  might  be  our  stations  in  the  church;  whether, 
fathers  or  mothers,  young  men  or  children ;  and  if  we  were 
permitted  at  any  time  to  ride,  as  upon  the  king's  horse,  we  must 
return  to  the  gate ;  in  a  lowly  dependence  upon  the  Lord.  We 
were  not  to  look  on  the  countenance,  or  the  height  of  the  sta- 
ture of  any,  but  our  eye  and  expectation  must  be  to  the  Lord 
alone,  for  his  guidance  and  direction.  This  was  the  ground  on 
which  our  early  Friends  came  forth,  and  a  doctrine  the  Society 
has  ever  held ;  and  it  is  only  as  we  keej)  in  humble  reliance  on 
the  inward  guidance  of  Christ's  spirit,  that  we  can  experience 
preservation.  She  remarked  that  our  coming  in  had  reminded  her 
of  the  meeting  of  the  Apostle  and  the  brethren,  at  the  Three 
Taverns ;  and  she  trusted  that  we  should  remember  each  other, 
when  far  separated.  We  rode  five  miles  to  New  Milford,  where 
the  meeting  is  held ;  much  of  the  way  through  heavy  rain, 
which  deterred  several  from  coming.  This  meeting,  we  were 
informed,  originated  among  a  number  of  students  at  a  college  in 
Connecticut ;  who  were,  in  measure,  convinced  of  the  principles 
of  Friends,  by  reading  Barclay's  Apology,  which  they  found  in 
the  library.  They  met  together  for  the  performance  of  public 
worship,  before  they  knew  where  there  were  any  Friends  j  and 
not  knowing  the  practice  of  Friends,  some  one  of  them  exer- 
cised the  office  of  preacher  among  them.  Hearing  of  a  Yearl}'- 
Meeting,  held  on  Long  Island,  some  went  to  it;  and  becoming 
more  perfectly  informed  of  the  church  government  establisheti 
in  the  Society,  they  became  members,  and  this  meeting  was  ac- 
knowledged liy  Friends. 

In  sitting  with  the  company  now  meeting  there,  the  impres- 
sion attended  me,  that  there  was  more  appearance  of  the  Friend 
than  an  experimental  acquaintance  with  the  work  of  regenera- 
tion.    The  language  of  the  Apostle,  that  "  All  are  not  Israel 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  133 

that  are  of  Israel,"  reviving,  I  endeavored,  in  a  plain  but  tender 
manner,  to  hold  up  the  necessity  of  examining  and  provino- our- 
selves, whether  we  be  in  the  faith  which  gives  the  victory  over  the 
world,  the  flesh  and  the  devil.  That  the  outward  profession, 
without  a  living  aequahitance  with  the  inward  woi-k  of  sanctifi- 
cation,  could  avail  little  ;  and  the  danger  of  deceiving  ourselves 
with  the  opinion,  that  we  are  better  than  Ave  really  are,  made  it 
needful  frequently  to  present  ourselves  as  in  the  presence  of  the 
Lord,  that  by  his  light  we  may  see  our  true  condition.  In  the 
afternoon,  we  rode  up  a  very  long,  steep  hill,  to  Oblong,  to  the 
house  of  Paul  Osborne.  His  father,  now  in  the  ninety-second 
year  of  his  age,  lives  with  him.  He  retains  his  faculties  and 
bodily  powers  in  rather  an  extraordinaiy  degree ;  has  no  pain 
or  disease ;  and  never  had  much  sickness  throughout  his  long 
life  ;  he  walks  regularly  to  meeting,  twice  a  week,  distance  half 
a  mile. 

We  attended  the  meeting  at  Oblong,  which  was  a  heavy,  dull 
time ;  and  being  able  to  come  at  little  feeling  of  life,  and  reli- 
gious exercise  among  them,  concluded  the  sitting  in  silence. 
Being  the  Preparative  Meeting,  and  the  time  for  answering  five 
of  their  Queries,  some  opportunity  was  furnished  for  calling  the 
attention  of  Friends  to  the  reply  to  the  Query,  respecting  the 
attendance  of  meetings,  and  the  manner  of  conducting  them- 
selves therein;  but  not  being  able  to  divest  myself  of  an  impres- 
sion to  have  an  opportunity  with  men  and  women  together,  the 
partitions  were  opened,  and,  through  the  help  of  the  Shepherd 
of  Israel,  we  had  a  tendering  opportunity.  The  danger  of  for- 
getting his  mercy,  who  delivered  us  in  the  dark  and  cloudy  day, 
as  out  of  the  paw  of  the  lion,  and  the  paw  of  the  bear,  was  im- 
pressed ;  and  Friends  were  called  on  to  show  forth  in  life  and 
conversation,  and  in  the  weightiness  of  their  spirits,  the  excel- 
lency of  those  principles  which  they  professed :  but  if  those 
among  whom  they  dwelt,  saw  that  they  were  engrossed  with 
the  things  of  the  world  ;  its  comforts  and  pleasures  ;  it  must 
tend  to  the  sentiment,  that  it  made  but  little  difference  what 
our  profession  is.  Several  very  goodly  young  men  and  women 
were  present ;  who  appeared  to  have,  in  measure,  yielded  to 
the  convictions  of  Truth  in  their  minds  ;  and  the  language  of 
affectionate  invitation  was  extended,  to  treasure  up  in  their  own 
hearts,  the  sayings  of  their  Lord  to  them  ;  to  retire  frequently, 
10 


134  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

and  enter  into  communion  with  Ilim ;  to  take  up  his  cross  and 
follow  Him  ;  and  they  would  witness  a  growth  in  grace,  and 
come  to  be  preachers  of  righteousness ;  by  which  others  would 
be  drawn  to  unite  with  them,  in  walking  in  the  same  blessed 
path.  The  necessity  of  a  lively  travail  of  spirit,  when  they  as- 
sembled for  Divine  worship,  every  one  for  himself,  was  brought 
i  nto  view ;  this  was  the  exijcrience  of  Friends  in  the  beginning ; 
who  sat  down  together  in  silence,  waiting  upon  the  Lord,  and 
not  on  one  another.  As  they  gathered  here,  He  who  declared 
Himself  to  be  in  tlie  midst  of  the  two  or  three  who  meet  in  his 
]iame,  broke  in  upon  them,  and  melted  and  contrited  their 
spirits,  and  enabled  them  to  offer  praise  and  thanksgiving  to 
his  ever  worthy  name. 

On  fifth-day  we  had  an  appointed  meeting  at  the  Branch,  now 
held  at  a  private  house.  It  was  a  mixed  company,  Friends,  a 
few  Separatists,  and  a  number  not  of  us.  The  labor  was  difti- 
cult ;  part  of  it  being  directed  against  an  active,  self-confident 
spirit,  ever  ready  to  be  doing ;  on  which  account  I  thought 
some  made  opposition.  Christ's  language  at  the  marriage  in 
Cana,  "What  have  I  to  do  with  thee?  Mine  hour  is  not  yet 
come,"  &c,,  and  his  direction  to  his  immediate  followers,  to 
tarry  at  Jerusalem,  until  they  were  endued  with  power  from 
on  high,  were  alluded  to.  If  they  could  do  nothing  without 
Him,  who  had  seen  his  miracles,  and  been  with  Him,  but  were 
to  wait  for  power,  it  surely  must  be  necessary  for  us.  All 
preaching  and  prayer,  without  a  renewed  qualification,  would 
avail  but  little ;  it  would  leave  the  mind  barren  and  empty. 
Several  expressed  their  satisfaction  with  the  meeting;  but  I  did 
not  feel  as  though  the  Divine  unction  as  much  attended  and 
softened  the  people,  as  at  some  other  times.  Before  we  left  our 
Friends,  with  whom  we  dined,  sympathy  with  them  in  the  re- 
sponsibility which  attaches  to  their  station;  at  the  head  of  a 
little  company  driven  out  of  their  meeting-house  by  the  spirit 
of  Hicksism,  was  expressed;  as  well  as  the  need  of  asking  wis- 
dom to  lead  the  flock  connected  with  them.  The  prophet  told 
Saul,  ho  had  done  foolishly  in  offering,  for  fear  the  people 
should  be  scattered;  and  now  it  is  needful  to  wait  patiently  for 
the  Master,  that  whatever  is  done,  may  be  under  his  direction. 

Sixth-day  the  9tb.  Attended  Beekman  Meeting;  the  house 
here  is  in  the  possession  of  Friends,  but  few  having  separated. 
It  is  a  Preparative  Meeting,  and  now  includes  Oswego.     The 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  135 

company  convened  to-day  nearly  filled  the  house;  and  the  ad- 
vice of  the  wise  man,  not  to  say  that  the  former  days  were 
better  than  the  present,  was  revived.  Notwithstanding  it  is  our 
duty  to  commemorate  the  virtues  of  holy  men,  and  women, 
yet  it  is  also  needful  to  remember  that  the  power  wiiich  made 
them  so,  is  unchangeable ;  and  as  it  is  yielded  to,  will  produce 
similar  effects  in  our  day.  It  was  by  giving  heed  to  the  little 
requisitions  of  Truth,  that  they  grew  in  Grace  from  stature  to 
stature ;  and  in  the  same  way  must  we,  if  we  come  to  an  estab- 
lishment on  the  same  foundation.  They  that  are  faithful  in  a 
little,  shall  be  made  rulers  over  more.  That  night  we  lodged  at 
the  house  of  the  widow  of  James  Congdon,  at  Oswego ;  it  was 
an  agreeable  resting  place. 

Seventh-day  10th.  Friends  being  deprived  of  their  meeting- 
house, nearly  all  the  members  having  joined  with  E.  Hicks,  the 
few  who  maintain  their  ground,  meet  at  the  house  of  the  widow. 
Several  of  those  who  met  to-day  were  not  members,  and  a  few  of 
them  had  been,  or  are  connected  with  the  Separatists.  A  want 
of  practical  acquaintance  with  silent,  patient  waiting  for  the 
springing  up  of  Divine  life,  sometimes  makes  it  hard  work  for  the 
few  who  endeavor  to  maintain  that  ground.  This  was  the  case 
here;  but  after  a  time,  the  way  opened  to  relieve  myself;  though 
it  required  a  patient,  steady  attention  to  the  opening  of  the  gift, 
so  as  to  communicate  what  was  designed  for  them.  Tenderness 
spread  over  us,  and  the  meeting  concluded  with  prayer  for  our 
individual  preservation,  and  strength  to  pursue  the  path  of 
allotted  duty  faithfully.  After  meeting  rode  to  Isaac  Thorn's, 
at  Nine  Partners.  Shortly  after  we  got  there,  he  arrived  from 
New  York,  having  accompanied  his  wife,  going  there  for  the 
purpose  of  embarking  for  England.  She  sailed  on  the  8th  ;  and 
H.  C.  Backhouse  also,  who  had  been  in  this  country  on  a  religious 
visit,  above  five  years. 

First-day  11th.  We  were  at  the  meeting  here,  which  was  a 
large  company  for  these  times;  the  children  of  the  school  being 
present.  The  service  to-day,  seemed  to  be  for  the  purpose  of 
encouraging  those  who  were  favored  with  a  knowledge  of  their 
Master's  will,  to  stand  faithfully  to  it,  notwithstanding  the  op- 
position they  may  have  to  meet.  "All  that  will  live  godly 
in  Christ  Jesus,  shall  suffer  persecution."  Even  the  adverse 
opinions  of  our  most  intimate  friends  are  sometimes  to  be  borne, 
though  they  inflict  great  trial  upon  us;  yet  it  is  our  duty  to 


136  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

keep  firm  to  what  is  right,  and  in  due  time,  our  opponents  may- 
be convinced  and  brought  to  unite  with  us.  The  Apostle  de- 
clared that,  "  If  I  yet  pleased  men  I  should  not  be  the  servant 
of  Christ;"  our  business  is  to  please  Him  that  hath  visited  and 
called  us  by  his  grace.  A  qualification  was  graciously  fur- 
nished to  show  the  dignified  standing  of  a  true,  self-denying 
follower  of  Christ,  let  what  may,  come  upon  him ;  and  that  as 
he  keeps  faithful,  he  will  be  built  up  and  established  on  that 
Rock,  which  is  Christ ;  against  which,  the  powers  of  darkness 
cannot  prevail.  Some  advice  was  also  communicated  to  parents, 
on  the  necessity  of  restraining  tlieir  children,  as  well  as  coun- 
selling them.  The  complaint  against  Eli  was,  that  he  had  not 
restrained  his  sons ;  and  they  both  died  in  one  day,  and  the  ark 
fell  into  the  hands  of  their  enemies.  Similar  danger  awaited 
us.  The  duty  of  obedience  to  all  the  lawful  commands  of 
parents,  was  also  enforced  ujjon  the  children. 

I  was  much  disappointed  in  finding  very  nearly  all  the  chil- 
dren in  the  school,  [under  the  care  of  the  Yearly  Meeting,] 
dressed  in  a  fashionable  manner,  and  that  more  than  one-half 
of  them  were  not  members  of  the  Society  of  Friends.  If  the 
Yearly  Meeting  admits  into  its  school  such  a  departure  from 
plainness,  the  children  who  are  placed  there,  receive  the  im- 
pression that  the  Society  regards  dress  as  of  little  consequence. 
Being  naturally  fond  of  finery,  they  will  expect  to  be  indulged 
in  it ;  and  if  a  proper  restraint  is  not  maintained,  the  example 
may  spread  a  disadvantageous  influence  to  other  children  in  the 
Society.  As  it  is  their  practice  to  read  in  the  afternoon,  we  sat 
with  them,  and  after  several  chapters  of  the  Bible  had  been 
read,  the  way  opened  to  hold  up  the  excellency  of  these  inesti- 
mable writings,  and  the  advantage  of  daily  reading  them. 
Every  one  has  the  gift  of  Grace,  or  the  manifestation  of  the 
Spirit ;  a  reprover,  and  teacher  which  accompanies  us  wherever 
we  go,  and  knows  the  most  secret  thought  and  intention  of  the 
heart.  They  were  tenderly  invited  to  mind  and  obey  its  con- 
victions, and  it  would  bring  them  to  love  their  Creator  in  the 
days  of  their  youth ;  and  give  them  that  peace  which  the  world 
could  not;  nor  could  it  deprive  them  of  it.  We  then  set  out  for 
Pleasant  Valley,  and  were  agreeably  received  and  lodged  at  the 
house  of  a  Friend,  who,  with  his  wife,  treated  us  very  affection- 
ately. 

Second-day  morning  12th.  A  meeting  having  been  appointed 


JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS.  137 

at  Ponghkeepsie,  we  sat  w4th  a  small  company  who  assembled 
there.  Much  the  larger  part  of  the  Society  here,  seceded; 
and  Friends  had  to  build  a  house  to  accommodate  themselves. 
It  proved  a  good  opportunity ;  one  of  the  young  men  was  much 
broken  into  tears.  If  any  good  is  done,  we  have  cause  to  be 
thankful  to  Him,  by  w^hom  alone  it  can  be  effected.  In  prose- 
cuting our  religious  duty  in  visiting  meetings,  we  are  often 
assailed  with  doubt  whether  any  good  is  produced  by  it ; 
and  sometimes  are  ready  to  think,  were  it  not  for  the  purpose 
of  doing  what  is  required,  we  might  as  well  be  at  home.  Such 
feelings  contribute  to  our  humiliation,  and  tend  to  keep  us  under 
religious  exercise,  that  our  Divine  Leader  may  continue  with 
us,  and  accompany  what  He  may  give  for  the  people,  with  his 
baptising  power,  and  thereby  carry  on  his  own  work.  In  the 
afternoon,  we  crossed  the  North  River  at  Poughkeepsie.  On 
the  following  afternoon,  we  rode  to  Canterbury,  and  attended 
Cornwall  Quarterly  Meeting,  held  on  fourth  and  fifth-days.  In 
the  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders,  the  situation  of  Israel 
abiding  in  their  tents  according  to  their  tribes,  impressed  my 
mind,  as  representing  the  members  of  the  church,  keeping  their 
habitation  in  the  Truth ;  and  every  one  filling  up  his  duty, 
allotted  by  the  Great  Head.  The  subject  was  a  little  opened, 
t©  show  the  happy  effects  it  has  on  them  individually;  dwelling 
in  a  state  of  lowlimindedness,  where  they  may  know  the  dew"  of 
heaven  to  rest  upon  them,  and  a  growth  to  be  experienced  in 
the  Truth.  In  this  situation  they  are  prepared  to  be  instru- 
mental in  exalting  the  kingdom  of  the  Messiah,  and  to  draw 
from  others,  the  acknowledgment  that  they  are  a  settled,  sub- 
stantial people ;  inwardly  gathered  to  the  teachings  of  the  Holy 
Spirit;  and  against  whom  no  divination  or  enchantment  can 
prevail.  Some  further  remarks  were  made  to  awaken  some  to 
the  great  importance  of  silent,  patient  waiting  in  our  religious 
meetings ;  that  they  might  not,  like  Saul,  attempt  to  offer  any 
thing  lest  the  people  should  be  scattered. 

In  the  meeting,  next  day,  it  did  not  appear  to  be  my  place  to 
say  anything.  When  the  Meeting  for  Discipline  was  about  to 
close,  I  thought  it  right  to  request  the  partitions  to  be  opened ; 
that  we  might  have  a  few  minutes  together.  The  weak  state 
of  the  Society  was  adverted  to,  and  the  means  by  which  it 
would  be  strengthened  ;  the  importance  of  every  one  keeping 
in  their  own  places,  with  a  single  eye  to  the  Master,  that  no 


138  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

one  miglit  put  forth  a  hand  to  steady  the  ark  unbidden  ;  that 
gifts  were  dispensed  ;  to  some  the  gift  of  discerning  spirits  ;  and 
when  any  one  misapprehends  his  or  her  service,  and  offered  that 
which  brought  death,  such  were  to  caution  them,  that  they  might 
be  preserved;  and  that  those  only  who  had  experienced,  in  mea- 
sure, the  work  of  sanctifieation,  were  suitable  to  take  an  active 
l^art  in  the  discipline  of  the  church. 

Some  Friends  who  attended  the  Quarterly  Meeting,  piloted 
us  to  Beekman,  in  the  evening  ;  and  early  the  following  morn- 
ing, we  rode  eighteen  miles  to  Smith  Upton's ;  and  that  day 
attended  the  Creek  Monthly  Meeting,  to  satisfaction.  Our 
friends  treated  us  with  marked  kindness,  being  anxious  to  do 
everything  they  could  to  promote  our  comfort. 

Tenth  month  17th,  seventh-day,  we  rode  to  Stanford,  to  the 
house  of  our  late  beloved  friend  Henry  Hull ;  his  widow,  who 
had  been  on  a  visit  south,  when  we  were  there  before,  having 
returned.  Attended  the  Monthly  Meeting ;  in  w^hich  the  need 
of  patient  submission  to  the  siftings  permitted  to  come  upon 
us,  was  feelingly  opened ;  and  the  states  of  some  who  need  it,  and 
of  some  who  were  partaking  of  such  dispensations,  were  spoken 
to.  Sarah  M.  Upton,  who  accompanied  us,  appeared  in  suppli- 
cation. On  answering  the  Queries,  it  was  evident  that  the 
maintenance  of  the  discipline  was  much  neglected ;  and  that 
cases  of  long  standing  had  been  suffered  to  remain  unattended 
to.  The  sound,  healthy  condition  of  a  meeting  is  much  pro- 
moted by  the  support  and  faithful  administration  of  the  disci- 
pline. They  admitted  their  weakness ;  and  I  suggested  the 
expediency  of  the  overseers  from  all  the  Preparative  Meetings 
uniting,  and  entering  into  a  thorough  investigation  of  the  state 
of  their  members ;  for  where  the  discipline  is  not  sustained,  a 
meeting  must  decline.  It  was  approved.  Set  off  in  the  after- 
noon for  Hudson,  and  got  to  the  meeting  on  first-day.  Here 
we  sat  under  a  painful  sense  of  the  life  of  religion  being  low 
amongst  them  ;  and  that  some  who  had  known  the  visitations 
of  Divine  love,  in  time  past,  had  turned  their  ba-ck  uj^on  the 
Truth,  and  were  pursuing  their  own  ways.  The  expressions  of 
our  Lord,  that  "Many  are  called,  but  few  arc  chosen;"  and 
that  "Many  that  are  first  shall  be  last,  and  the  last  shall  bo 
first;"  were  brought  into  view,  and  exemplified  by  the  para- 
ble of  the  marriage  of  the  king's  son.  They  were  warned  of  tho 
awful  consequence  of  doing  despite  to  the  Spirit  of  Grace:  "See- 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  139 

ing  they  crucify  to  themselves  the  Son  of  God  afresh,  and  put  hiiu 
to  open  shame ;"  though  should  the  period  arrive  when,  for  fear 
of  Him  who  sitteth  upon  the  throne,  and  the  wrath  of  the  Lamb, 
they  might  call  on  the  rocks  and  the  mountains  to  hide  them,  it 
would  be  in  vain.  Several  of  the  doctrines  of  the  Christian  re- 
ligion were  opened  and  enforced,  and  a  solemn  covering  came 
over  the  meeting. 

Notice  was  spi-ead  for  a  meeting  at  two  o'clock,  in  the  after- 
noon of  the  19th,  at  Chatham  ;  to  which  the  few  Friends, 
who  compose  the  meeting  here,  came.  Several  others,  not 
Friends,  also  attended.  The  nature  of  Divine  worship,  under 
the  gospel  dispensation,  was  opened,  from  the  expression  of 
the  apostle  Paul:  "We  are  the  circumcision  which  worship 
God  in  the  spirit;  and  rejoice  in  Christ  Jesus;  and  have  no 
confidence  in  the  flesh ;"  and  according  to  the  declaration  of 
our  Lord  :  "  God  is  a  Spirit,  and  they  that  worship  Him  must 
worship  Him  in  spirit  and  in  truth ;"  for  such  "  the  Father  seeketh 
to  w^orship  Him."  To  offer  acceptable  worship,  really  and  truly 
from  the  heart,  it  must  undergo  a  change  from  its  fallen,  cor- 
rupt state.  Everything  proceeding  from  man,  of  himself,  in 
this  latter  condition,  must  be  imj^ure,  and  cannot  find  accept- 
ance. No  fountain,  at  the  same  time,  sends  forth  sweet  water 
and  bitter.  Eegeneration,  under  the  powerful  operation  of  the 
Holy  Ghost  and  fire,  was  enforced  ;  that  the  heart  being  cleansed 
and  sanctified,  offerings,  prepared  by  the  High  Priest  of  our 
profession,  may  be  offered  to  Him  who  searcheth  the  heart,  and 
will  not  look  on  iniquity  or  transgression.  In  the  course  of  the 
communication,  I  had  occasion  to  show  the  advantages  of 
knowing  our  passions  subjugated,  and  brought  under  the  con- 
ti'iting  power  of  the  Spirit  of  the  Eedeemer ;  who  prayed  for 
the  forgiveness  of  his  enemies ;  that  those  who  were  not  thus 
regulated,  were  often  carried  away  with  gusts  of  passion  ;  com- 
mitting acts  of  violence,  which  afterwards  covered  them  svith 
blushes  and  confusion ;  but  the  true  followers  of  Christ,  when 
they  were  reviled,  reviled  not  again ;  and  when  persecuted, 
threatened  not.  I  was  told,  afterwards,  that  an  old  man,  who  M'as 
present,  was  noted  in  the  neighborhood  for  the  uncommon  vio- 
lence of  his  passion,  and  had  disgraced  himself  on  one  or  more 
occasions,  by  his  conduct,  when  under  the  terrible  influence  of 
it.  This  meeting  was  rather  a  trying  opportunity  to  me,  and 
when  closed,  I  desired  Friends  to  remain.     I  endeavored  to 


140  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS. 

awaken  in  them  a  just  sense  of  the  importance  of  their  situation ; 
and  of  self-examination;  whether  the  things  of  the  worhl  were 
too  much  engrossing  their  time  and  talents  ;  that  through  Holy 
help,  the}^  might  become  lights  in  their  neighborhood  ;  and  sit- 
ting down  together  in  humble  dependence  upon  the  Lord,  be  a 
means  of  drawing  others  to  join  with  them;  their  demeanor 
and  the  state  of  their  spirits,  holding  forth  the  invitation  : 
Come  "That  ye  also  may  have  fellowship  with  lis ;  and  truly  our 
fellowship  is  with  the  Father,  and  with  his  Son,  Jesus  Christ." 
The  situation  of  the  few  Friends  here,  is  very  unfavorable  for 
the  right  education  of  children.  What  society  they  have,  is 
mostly  with  those  by  whom  their  principles  ai-e  endangered ; 
and  their  parents  indulge  them  in  dressing  in  a  fashionable 
inanner;  so  that  there  is  little  prospect  of  a  meeting  being 
sustained  here  with  reputation. 

Tenth  month  20th.  We  rode  thirty  miles  to  a  house  near 
South  Adams  ;  passing  Lebanon  Springs,  and  in  sight  of  the 
Hancock  settlement  of  the  Shakers;  many  of  whom  we  met  on 
the  road.  Thence  through  Hancock  village,  Lanesborough, 
Cheshire  Corner,  and  South  Adams,  where  several  factories 
are  located,  on  a  stream  running  to  it.  Having  no  guide, 
though  we  found  the  route  I'eadily,  our  pilgrimage  felt  a  little 
lonely ;  especially  as  we  now  entered  a  section  of  countrj^,  where 
but  little  attention  appeared  to  be  paid,  rightly  to  cultivate  the 
mind,  and  raise  it  above  the  grovelling  pursuits  of  eai-thly 
things.  The  superior  advantages  of  the  membei'S  in  our  own 
beloved  city,  where  such  various  opportunities  are  aiforded  for 
improvement  in  every  respect;  and  w^here  many  are  found 
availing  themselves  of  these  peculiar  benefits,  came  into  view; 
and  while  it  warmed  up  feelings  of  strong  attachment  to  many 
there,  also  raised  desires  that  we  might  all  duly  prize  our  privi- 
leges, and  be  found  putting  shoulder  to  shoulder  in  the  work 
of  the  Lord.  I  believe,  if  the  younger  members  of  our  Society 
do  heartily  devote  themselves  to  his  cause,  that  a  noble  band 
will  be  raised  up,  from  generation  to  generation,  to  exalt  the 
testimonies  and  discipline  given  us  to  Ijcar;  and  that  the  Lord 
will  still  make  the  place  of  his  feet  glorious  amongst  us.  Ho 
will  glorify  the  hoilse  of  his  glory,  and  dignify  them  that  truly 
and  steadfastly  honor  Him. 

Foui-th-day  21st.  Attended  Hoosic  Preparative  Meeting  held 
here,  consisting  of  a  small  company  who  have  resisted  the  in- 


JOURNAL    OP    WILLIAM    EVANS.  141 

fliience  of  Hicksism.  The  men  are  all,  about  or  below  the 
meridian  of  life,  and  do  not  appear  to  have  had  much  experi- 
ence, though  well  disposed  to  maintain  our  principles.  The 
service  in  the  tirst  meeting  seemed  to  run  against  the  state  that 
considers  itself  whole  and  sound,  as  not  needing  a  physician ; 
which  can  argue,  and  defend  sound  principles,  and  appear  very 
knowing  in  spiritual  things,  while  ignorant  of  itself  Such  are 
very  liable  to  be  misled  by  the  subtle  deceiver,  in  his  transfor- 
mations as  an  angel  of  light,  and  become  instrumental  in  load- 
ing others  astray.  "  They  that  be  whole  need  not  a  physician, 
but  they  that  are  sick."  "I  am  not  come  to  call  the  righteous 
but  sinners  to  repentance."  It  is  only  as  we  are  willing  to  come 
to  the  light,  that  we  can  see  our  diseased  and  sinful  state,  and 
receive  a  disposition  to  apply  to  the  Great  Physician  to  be 
healed  and  cleansed  of  our  maladies.  This  was  pressed  upon 
the  audience,  several  of  whom  were  not  members ;  as  well  as 
the  dangers  of  the  transformations  of  Satan,  as  a  leader  in  re- 
ligious matters.  The  few  Friends  were  encouraged  to  yield  to 
the  sanctifying  power  of  Him,  who  is  compared  to  a  refiner  of 
silver;  that  the  dross  and  tin  maybe  purged  away,  and  they  be 
prepared  to  oifer  acceptable  sacrifices  to  the  Lord,  and  hold  up  a 
pure  testimony  to  the  blessed  Truth  in  that  place ;  leading  for- 
ward, as  shepherds  and  shepherdesses,  the  flock  in  their  charge. 
It  was  by  no  means  a  high  day;  but  kee2)ing  low  and  speaking 
deliberately,  I  was  sensible  of  being  led  in  a  path  which  the 
Master  cast  up,  and  which  I  believe  was  descriptive  of  the  states 
of  individuals  present ;  for  which  I  felt  peaceful  and  thankful. 
In  the  second  meeting,  I  made  some  remarks,  after  the  Queries, 
on  the  importance  of  rightly  and  faithfully  maintaining  the  dis- 
cipline, as  a  means  of  preserving  the  body  sound  and  healthy. 
We  left  a  few  books  and  tracts  with  several  Friends,  and  in  the 
afternoon  rode  fourteen  miles  to  Ware's  tavern,  where  we  lodged 
and  breakfasted.  From  this  place  we  proceeded  to  Hoosic 
Corners,  eleven  miles,  and  thence  to  the  house  of  an  elderly 
Friend  in  Pittstown,  nine  miles.  He  and  his  wife  received 
and  dined  us  kindly,  and  then  piloted  us  over  to  Schaghticoke 
Point.  In  Pittstown,  a  pretty  large  meeting  of  Friends  was 
held,  befoi-e  the  separation ;  but  M.  II.  and  his  family  are  now 
nearly  all  that  remain  united  to  the  Society.  They  have  thirty 
miles  to  ride  to  South  Adams,  to  attend  the  Monthly  Meet- 
ing there,  to  which  they  belong ;  and  eleven  miles  to  Schaghti- 


142  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

coke,  to  a  small  meeting  of  worship,  held  in  a  private  house, 
but  which  is  a  branch  of  another  Monthly  Meeting ;  no  meet- 
ing of  Friends  being  held  at  PittstoAvn,  It  is  truly  deplorable 
to  witness  the  ravages  of  unsound  principles  through  this  part 
of  Kew  York  Yearly  Meeting;  and  from  the  infonnation  re- 
ceived, as  we  pass  along,  many  Avho  did  not  at  first  approve  of 
those  principles,  now  advocate  them ;  and  those  Avho  did,  pro- 
gress still  deejjer  in  the  dark  mazes  of  infidelity. 

On  sixth-day  23d,  we  held  a  meeting  with  the  few  Friends  at 
Schaghticoke  Point,  in  a  private  dwelling  where  they  usually  meet. 
Nearly  all  of  them — about  ten — appeared  to  be  exem^Dlary,  and 
concei"ned  to  bring  up  their  children  in  a  consistent  manner  ; 
and,  I  thought,  were  under  exercise,  that  they  might  be  found 
in  the  discharge  of  their  religious  duties.  The  way  opened  to 
encourage  them  to  put  their  trust  in  the  Shepherd  of  Israel, 
and  endeavor  to  do  w^hat  their  hands  found  to  do  in  his  ser- 
vice ;  that  they  might  be  enabled  to  hold  up  a  testimony  to 
Truth  in  their  neighborhood ;  by  which  others  might  be  drawn 
to  join  them  in  the  same  good  work.  We  distributed  some  books 
among  the  young  people  ;  and  after  dining,  rode  to  Union  vil- 
lage, fourteen  miles,  and  put  up  at  a  tavern.  Seventh-day  rode 
twenty-six  miles,  to  J.  W.'s,  near  Bishop's  Corners,  in  Granville. 
This  Friend  and  wife  removed,  a  few  years  since,  from  Dart- 
mouth, near  New  Bedford,  Massachusetts ;  they  entertained  us 
very  pleasantly. 

On  first-day  25th,  attended  their  meeting,  composed  of  about 
thirteen  families,  held  in  an  upper  room  in  an  old  tavern  house, 
now  a  private  dwelling.  The  accommodation  is  better  than 
most  private  rooms,  but  the  members  contemplate  building  next 
year.  It  appears  to  me  very  desirable,  that  Friends  who  are 
turned  out  of  their  meeting-houses,  should  erect  others  as  early 
as  convenient.  Young  ])crsons  and  strangers  are  more  willing 
to  attend  a  meeting  held  in  a  house  appropriated  exclusively 
for  the  purpose  of  Divine  worship  ;  and  to  others,  it  feels  more 
like  assembling  for  that  object.  Tbe  meeting  here  was  rather 
trying  to  me,  from  an  apprehension  that  manj-  arc  much  im- 
mersed in  the  world. 

Dined  at  N.  P.'s,  where  wo  had  a  little  opjiortunity  to  en- 
courafe  him  and  his  wife,  who  are  at  the  head  of  the  meeting, 
to  labor  to  fulfil  their  duties  as  overseers  of  the  flock,  in  bring- 
in"-  forward  the  young  people,  by  their  examj^le,  under  the  gov- 


JOL'RNAL   OF    AVILLIAM    EVANS.  143 

eminent  and  yoke  of  Christ.  Our  friends  J.  W.  and  wife 
piloted  us,  in  the  afternoon,  over  to  Danby,  when  we  put  up 
at  the  house  of  a  Friend.  We  passed  the  evening  in  agreeable 
conversation.  It  afforded  an  opportunity  of  entering  upon 
some  of  those  points  which  clash  with  the  doctrines  of  Friends  ; 
particularly  in  relation  to  the  continuance  of  immediate  revela- 
tion in  the  church  of  Christ.  The  Friend  recited  several  in- 
stances of  those  who  professed  to  have  it  on  all  occasions,  but 
who  afterwards  made  shipwreck  of  faith.  I  told  him  that  I 
believed  those  who  were  most  favored  with  it,  would  say  the 
least  of  having  it  themselves ;  but  endeavoring  to  keep  to  its 
guidance,  left  it  to  their  friends  to  feel  and  decide  whether  their 
services  originated  in  that  source  ;  that  professors  carrying  any 
one  point  to  an  extreme,  or  making  shipwreck  of  faith  and  a 
good  profession,  was  no  argument  against  the  truth  ;  which 
la}^  out  of  all  extremes;  and  we  should  be  on  our  guard  against 
suffering  one  erroi*,  or  extreme,  to  drive  us  from  the  Truth,  into 
another.  I  disapproved  of  all  unauthorized  and  unsanctified 
pretensions;  but,  at  the  same  time,  the  immediate  influence 
and  guidance  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  were  the  root  and  foundation 
of  true  faith,  and  the  work  of  religion  in  the  soul.  It  was  to 
this  the  primitive  believers  were  gathered;,  the  manifestation 
of  the  Spirit  which  is  given  to  every  man  to  profit  withal ;  and 
by  which  alone  we  can  savingly  understand  the  Holy  Scriptures. 
Christ  opened  the  understandings  of  his  immediate  disciples  to 
comprehend  the  Scriptures  ;  and  He  does  the  same  thing  now, 
by  his  Spirit  in  the  hearts  of  his  believing  children,  as  He  sees 
fit  for  them  ;  and  if  any  man  hath  not  the  Spirit  of  Christ,  he  is 
none  of  his.  It  was  so  in  the  Apostolic  church,  and  it  remains 
to  be  the  case  still,  and  ever  will  so  remain.  He  united  with 
me,  though  at  first  he  seemed  disposed  to  bring  into  view  the 
defections  of  some  wild  pretenders.  I  told  him  that  the  Ana- 
baptists of  Munster,  pretending  to  the  authority  of  the  Spirit 
for  their  wild  actions,  were  sometimes  cited  by  the  opponents 
of  revelation,  to  disj^i-ove  its  continuation  in  the  church  ;  but 
that  Eobert  Barclay  remarked,  it  was  no  moi'e  a  valid  argument 
against  it,  than  that  the  reference  of  others  to  the  Holy  Scriptures, 
as  authoi'ity  for  the  many  wrong  deeds  they  have  committed, 
destroys  their  truth  and  authenticity.  On  second-day  morning, 
we  held  a  meeting  at  Danby  with  the  few  members  there,  and 
some  others  who  came  in.     The  stream  was  low,  which  made 


144  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

the  work  laborious ;  and  after  the  meeting  was  over,  it  seemed 
as  if  nothing  was  gained,  and  I  felt  discouraged.  Just  before 
setting  out,  the  family  came  into  the  parlor,  and  through  the 
gracious  goodness  of  our  Holy  Helper,  we  had  a  tendering  time 
with  them.  Soon  after  entering  the  house,  I  had  been  arrested 
with  the  impression  that  one  of  the  daughters  was  brought 
under  Divine  visitation,  and  referring  to  it  in  this  interview,  it 
affected  the  parents  and  herself  especially ;  so  that  we  had  cause 
to  thank  Him,  who  mercifully  regards  us  in  our  various  condi- 
tions, and  to  take  fresh  courage  to  press  forward.  Rode  sixteen 
miles  to  Clarendon,  put  up  at  a  tavern,  and  early  the  fol- 
lowing morning  set  out  again,  and  proceeded  forty-one  miles, 
and  again  lodged  at  a  public  house. 

On  fourth-day  morning,  28th  of  tenth  month,  we  reached  the 
house  of  an  elderly  man  at  Ferrisburg,  to  whom  we  had  been 
recommended.  They  kindly  prepared  us  breakfast,  and  we  at- 
tended the  Monthly  Meeting  held  at  Monkton.  Here  I  felt  the 
situation  of  sitting  in  a  company,  every  one  of  whom  was 
a  stranger  to  me.  Endeavoring  to  retire  in  my  mind,  the  lan- 
guage of  sympathy  and  encom'agement  arrested  me ;  and  after 
a  Friend  had  spoken,  I  rose  with  the  declaration,  "  I  will  bring 
the  blind  by  a  way  which  they  know  not,  and  lead  them  in  paths 
they  have  not  known ;  I  will  make  darkness  light  before  them, 
and  crooked  things  straight ;  this  will  I  do  unto  them,  and  not 
forsake  them,  saith  the  Lord."  The  stream  of  consolation 
flowed  gently  towards  some  present,  and  we  had  cause  of  thank- 
fulness to  the  Leader  of  Israel^  for  favoring  with  a  little  opening 
of  this  kind,  for  our  own  comfort  and  strength,  as  well  as  that 
of  others.  We  were  at  first,  as  completely  strangers  to  them,  as 
they  were  to  us.  Finding  that  a  Preparative  Meeting  of  Min- 
isters and  Elders  was  to  be  held  next  day  at  Starksborough,  and 
their  Monthly  Meetiug  on  sixth-day,  we  went  there. 

Attended  the  select  meeting;  in  which  after  the  business  was 
nearly  finished,  way  opened  to  show  that  every  gift  was  de- 
rived from  Him,  "who  ascended  up  on  high,  led  captivity  captive, 
and  gave  gifts  unto  men  :"  that  no  man  could  make  himself  a 
minister;  nor  could  ho  exercise  the  gift  after  receiving  it,  but 
under  the  direction  of  Him  who  gave  it;  and  for  this  ho  must 
be  exercised  in  patient  waiting ;  and  when  any  thing  is  given 
him  of  the  Lord,  he  is  not  to  be  hasty  in  offering  it ;  as  George 
Fox  remarked,  when  a  man  rcceiveth  any  thing  from  the  Loi-d, 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  145 

he  kecpcth  it  andwaiteth  to  feel  the  Lord's  power  go  forth  over 
the  assembly.  As  a  minister  thus  waits,  he  will  be  furnished, 
if  the  gi'eat  Master  calls  upon  him  to  minister  to  the  people, 
with  sufficient  clearness  to  rise,  and  a  word  will  be  put  into  his 
mouth  ;  and  when  he  does  speak,  he  should  keep  calm  and  de- 
liberate, out  of  all  excitement ;  communicating  that  which  is 
opened  to  his  mind  hy  Him,  who  alone  knoweth  what  is  neces- 
saiy  for  the  states  of  the  people. 

The  house  of  our  kind  and  intelligent  friend,  where  we  were 
entertained,  was  an  agreeable  lodging-place  to  us ;  the  influence 
of  education  and  suitable  reading,  in  expanding  the  mind, 
divesting  it  of  many  illiberal,  contracted  notions,  was  visible 
here.  But  in  too  many  cases,  we  find  Friends,  of  sufficient 
means,  who  have  neglected  the  education  of  their  children  very 
much;  or,  after  having  given  them  small  portions,  do  not  pro- 
vide them  with  suitable  books,  to  employ  their  leisure  hours, 
in  storing  their  minds  with  useful  and  instructive  ideas.  Labor 
for  our  subsistence,  is  unquestionably  necessary ;  but  we  may 
sKde  into  the  habit  of  pursuing  our  worldly  concerns  with  such 
avidity,  as  to  lose  all  relish  for  mental  improvement ;  and  for 
those  things  which  are  invisible  and  eternal.  When  old  age 
overtakes  this  description  of  persons,  they  have  few  objects  of 
thought  and  conversation,  but  the  little  round  of  worldly  con- 
cerns, which  have  engrossed  their  time  and  attention  for  many 
years ;  but  little  interest  in  anything  beyond  their  own  affairs; 
and  for  want  of  having  been  engaged  to  lay  up  treasure  in  hea- 
ven, are  often  destitute  of  any  ability  to  promote  the  welfare 
of  religious  society,  and  the  advancement  of  the  testimonies  of 
Truth.  Their  example  tends  to  lead  those  around  them  into 
the  same  worldly  pursuits;  and  thus,  instead  of  being  the  salt 
of  the  earth,  and  lights  in  the  world,  they  prove  stumbling- 
blocks  to  sincere  enquirers  after  Truth,  and  blind  guides  to  the 
youth  in  the  Society.  Such  persons  are  objects  of  commiser- 
ation and  regret.  These  are  subjects  that  ought  to  call  forth 
the  energies  of  the  Society;  not  only  in  a  fervent  concern  for  the 
religious  welfare  of  the  young  people,  but  in  adopting  pro- 
per measures  for  their  guarded  school  education ;  visiting  them 
in  their  families,  and  endeavoring  to  elevate  their  minds  by  fur- 
nishing suitable  libraries  in  the  Preparative  Meetings. 


146  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

CHAPTEK   VII. 

1835—1836. 

Continuation  of  visit  to  Friends  in  New  York  and  Vermont — Returns  Home 
— Ejigages  in  a  Periodical  Publication  of  the  Approved  Writings  of 
Friends — Attends  the  Yearly  Meeting  in  New  York — Religious  visit  to  Ohio 
Y''early  Meeting,  and  the  Meetings  belonging  to  it  in  the  Western  part  of 
Pennsylvania. 

On  sixth-day,  I  attended  the  Monthly  Meeting  of  Starks- 
borongh ;  composed  of  Montpelier,  Lincoln,  Ci'eek  and  Starks- 
borough  Particular  Meetings.  No  separation  has  taken  place 
in  this  Monthly  Meeting,  and  it  is  large.  A  feeling  of  solemn 
silence  spread  over  us  early  after  sitting  down ;  and  it  ap- 
peared to  be  my  place  to  address  the  younger  classes,  whose 
minds  were  measurably  seasoned  with  Divine  love;  to  show 
them  that  the  work  of  Grace  was  gradual  and  progressive. 
The  figure  of  the  preparation  of  the  clay,  by  pulverizing,  water- 
ing and  softening,  preparatory  to  forming  vessels;  and  the  pro- 
cess of  drying  and  burning,  before  they  are  fit  to  receive  what 
they  are  designed  to  contain,  w'as  opened  before  me  in  a  lively 
manner.  The  further  necessity  of  enduring  the  baptisms,  which 
shall  bo  administered  from  time  to  time,  to  keep  the  vessel 
clean,  was  also  aflfectionatcl}^  held  up  to  their  view.  He  that 
puts  forth,  graciously  furnished  with  matter  adapted  to  the 
occasion ;  and  another  Friend  followed  in  short  testimony,  con- 
firmatory of  what  had  been  offered.  We  then  proceeded  to  the 
business  of  the  Monthly  Meeting,  which  kept  us  a  long  time. 
That  evening  we  rode,  thi'ough  rain,  and  after  dark,  to  Monk- 
ton. 

Tenth  month  31sf,  seventh-day.  Held  a  meeting  hero  with 
the  few  Friends  which  compose  it.  It  was  a  cold,  unfeeling 
time ;  T  was  able  to  come  at  nothing  like  an  evidence,  that  it 
w^as  my  place  to  say  anything;  though  thei'e  were  some  pre- 
sentations which  died  away,  and  we  closed  in  silence.  It  may 
be  a  trial  to  call  Friends  together,  and  pass  the  wjiole  time 
without  having  anj-thing  to  communicate;  but  He  only  that 
seeth  in  secret  knows  what  is  l)eRt ;  and  it  is  our  place  to  stand 
submissive  to  his  will,     i^'i-icnd-j  may  become  so  hal>iluated  to 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS,  147 

hear  words,  that  they  may  depend  too  much  upon  them ;  and 
then  the  mouths  of  ministers  may  he  closed ;  to  show  the  neces- 
sity of  every  one  kiboring  for  himself,  and  maintaining  a  con- 
stant dependence  upon  the  Minister  of  the  Sanctuary.  I  felt 
low  through  the  afternoon,  thinking  that  the  fault  might  be  in 
myself,  and  that  I  may  not  have  kept  sufficiently  humble,  under 
the  favors  which  have  been  conferred  on  us  in  this  visit.  I 
looked  at  the  feelings  of  my  mind,  on  requesting  the  notice  of 
the  meeting  to  be  given,  and  remembered  that  they  were  then 
clear  and  settled ;  and  could  not  now  charge  myself  with  wil- 
fully omitting  to  speak  in  the  meeting.  Hoping  that  it  might 
be  in  the  Divine  ordering,  I  settled  down  under  the  desire  to 
bear  whatever  might  be  my  place,  and  to  endeavor  to  profit  by 
the  various  changes  which  our  Holy  Leader  may  see  proper. 
We  had  a  little  opportunity  with  the  family  where  we  dined ; 
in  which  the  children  were  much  tendered.  They  were  invited 
to  take  up  the  cross  and  follow  their  Lord  and  Master ;  who 
would  strengthen  them,  as  they  yielded  to  Him,  to  deny  them- 
selves of  whatever  He  called  them  to  give  up.  Attended  Fer- 
risburg  Meeting  on  first-day  morning.  Here  we  had  a  laborious 
time ;  under  a  sense  that  very  few  were  engaged  to  labor  for 
themselves,  depending  on  what  they  may  hear  from  others ;  yet 
there  are  a  number  who  appear  sincerely  desirous  to  know  the 
Truth,  and  to  live  under  its  direction. 

In  conversation  with  a  man  who  had  travelled  but  little,  and 
who  was  not  a  little  contracted  in  his  views  of  others,  I  w^as  led  to 
the  reflection,  that  where  people  are  delving  in  the  earth  all 
their  lives,  and  paying  scarcely  any  attention  to  the  improve- 
ment and  enlargement  of  their  minds,  they  possess  little  qualifi- 
cation to  judge  of  others.  They  try  everything  by  their  own 
standard,  which  is  formed  according  to  the  limited  sphere  they 
move  in ;  and  for  want  of  knowing,  either  by  intercourse  with 
others,  or  reading,  the  great  variety  of  habits  which  prevails 
among  people  equally  pious,  they  often  censure  what  differs 
from  their  customs;  and  conclude  that  those  who  so  differ  are 
influenced  by  pride.  This  is  especially  obvious,  where  the  heart 
has  not  been  softened  by  the  Spirit  of  the  Eedeemer,  and 
brought  to  see  its  own  deformity,  and  thence  clothed  with 
Divine  charity.  True  religion  effects  wonderful  changes  in  us  ; 
while  it  clothes  us  with  proper  love  and  allowance  for  others,  it 
erects  a  standard,  founded  uj)on  the  purity  and  simplicity  of  the 


148  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

gospel  of  Christ ;  and  neither  condemns  for  those  distinctions, 
which  arise  from  mere  difference  of  education ;  nor  admits  of 
those  varieties  which  spring  from  and  foster  jiride  in  the  human 
heart,  and  are  inconsistent  with  the  Truth. 

The  abolition  of  slavery  is  a  subject  which  engrosses  much 
thought  and  conversation  in  these  parts;  and  it  appeared  to  me, 
that  Friends  are  drawn  into  coalition  with  others  in  their  mea- 
sures to  effect  this  object,  more  than  is  best  for  them.  Ever  since 
we  cleared  our  hands  of  slavery.  Friends  have  advocated  the 
freedom  of  the  blacks  on  pinnciple;  but  if  we  enter  into  alliances 
with  others,  we  may  find  before  we  expect  it,  that  some  measures 
will  be  proposed,  which  will  violate  other  principles  that  we 
hold  equally  dear;  or  in  their  operation,  land  us  in  circumstances 
which  will  not  admit  of  our  union  with  others,  if  we  retain  the 
character  of  consistent  Friends.  I  believe  we  had  better  pursue 
our  own  course,  under  the  direction  of  Divine  Wisdom,  in  pro- 
moting the  spread  of  the  Eedeemer's  kingdom  ;  and  by  lives  of 
strict  conformity  to  his  benign  precepts,  we  should  be  lights  to 
others  ;  and  offer  the  most  effectual  stimulus  to  them,  to  go  and 
do  likewise.  Each  denomination  would  be  likely  to  act  accord- 
ing to  the  light  it  possesses,  and  they  would  mutually  stimulate 
one  another  to  zeal  and  diligence. 

On  the  following  morning,  we  attended  a  meeting  appointed 
for  us  at  the  Creek,  formerly  South  Starksborough.  The  sub- 
ject of  living  and  walking  in  the  Truth,  by  which  we  partake 
of  the  greatest  blessing  in  this  life,  was  opened;  and  the  means 
placed  within  the  reach  of  all,  explained,  as  laid  down  in  the 
Scripture  doctrine  ;  that  the  true  Light  enlighteneth  every  man 
that  Cometh  into  the  world.  And  "This  is  the  condemnation, 
that  light  is  come  into  the  world;  and  men  loved  darkness 
rather  than  light,  because  their  deeds  were  evil.  For  every 
(me  that  docth  evil,  hateth  the  light;  neither  cometh  to  the 
light,  lest  his  deeds  should  be  reproved.  But  he  that  doeth 
truth  cometh  to  the  light,  that  his  deeds  may  be  made  mani- 
fest that  tliey  are  wrought  in  God."  I  was  led  to  show  that 
this  Divine  light  convicted  us  of  sin,  and  brought  condemna- 
tion and  shame  upon  us  for  it;  that,  if  received  in  its  visitations, 
it  gives  strength  to  resist  temptation,  and  to  come  out  of  our 
evil  practices,  and  enlist  under  the  government  of  Christ.  But 
by  resisting  its  convictions,  and  the  offers  of  love  and  mercy, 
the  heart  becomes  more  and  more  hardened ;  and  at  last  might 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  149 

reach  that  condition  in  which  we  may  deny  that  these  convic- 
tions proceed  from  the  Holy  Spirit  striving  with  man,  and  come 
to  attribute  them  to  mere  imagination.  It  felt  to  me  that 
there  were  those  there,  who  were  unbelievers  in  Divine  revela- 
tion, and  the  truths  of  the  gospel  of  Christ ;  and  I  believed  it 
right  to  say,  that  if  any  persisted  in  denying  and  rc^'ecting  the 
strivings  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  throughout  the  day  of  visitation, 
they  would  be  left  in  darkness. 

After  dining,  we  rode  to  the  house  of  a  minister,  and  in 
conversation,  he  expressed  his  satisfaction  that  some  points  had 
been  opened,  as  they  were,  in  the  meeting.  He  said  a  young 
man  and  his  father  were  present,  who  were  known  to  deny  im- 
mediate revelation.  The  young  man  had  been  clerk  of  their  Pre- 
parative Meeting,  and  was  displaced,  and  a  minute  made  on  its 
records,  that  it  was  in  consequence  of  his  unsound  principles. 

On  Eleventh  month  4th,  fourth-day,  we  attended  the  Select 
Quarterly  Meeting  held  at  Lincoln,  which  was  a  dull  time.  At 
the  close,  I  mentioned  my  apprehension,  that  Friends  joining 
others  in  Anti-slavery  and  Temperance  Societies,  would  be  at- 
tended with  injury  to  them  and  the  young  people ;  their  spirit- 
ual strength  would  be  impaired ;  and  it  did  appear  to  me  not 
proper,  that  our  ministers  should  attend  such  places.  It  was  true, 
we  had  our  individual  rights,  and  the  Society  had  not  prohibited 
it ;  but  I  feared  it  would  affect  their  growth  in  the  life  of  Truth. 

We  went  to  the  Meeting  for  Discipline,  which  gathered  very 
irregularly  and  late ;  so  that  it  seemed  hardly  probable  we 
should  have  much  solemnity  very  soon.  After  a  Friend  had 
made  some  observations,  showing  the  necessity  of  feeling  our 
own  inability  to  do  any  good  woi*k ;  though  my  feelings  indi- 
cated little  like  communicating  anything,  the  testimony  of  the 
Apostle,  that  "The  weapons  of  our  warfare  are  not  carnal,  but 
mighty  through  God,  to  the  pulling  down  strongholds,"  &c.,  had 
presented;  and  recurring  with  some  weight,  I  rose  with  it, 
and  endeavored  to  show  that  the  weapons  of  the  Chi'istian's 
warfare  remained  the  same  at  this  day ;  and  any  that  man 
could  invent  or  use,  in  his  own  wisdom  and  strength,  would  not 
prove  mighty  through  God,  to  the  pulling  down  of  the  strong.- 
holds  of  sin,  either  in  himself  or  in  others ;  that  Christ  alone 
could  clothe  us  with^  the  "  armor  of  God,"  by  which  we  were  to 
make  war  in  righteousness  against  the  man  of  sin  and  son  of 
perdition.  These  weapons  were  to  cast  down  all  imaginations 
11 


150  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

of  sclf-importanco,  and  eveiy  high  thing,  however  specious,  that 
exalteth  itself  against  the  knowledge  of  God ;  bringing  into 
captivity  every  thought  to  the  obedience  of  Christ.  In  the  first 
place,  experiencing  this,  in  measure,  effected  in  ourselves,  we 
should  be  prepared  to  be  used  in  his  hand  to  promote  it  in 
others ;  and  whatever  might  have  been  our  attainments,  it  is 
necessary  to  be  frequently  stripped  and  searched,  that  we  may 
be  found  in  a  situation  to  be  renewedly  clothed  with  this  armor. 
Satan  could  transform  himself  into  the  appearance  of  an  angel 
of  light ;  and  unless  every  thought  of  our  own  importance  and 
ability  was  brought  into  obedience  to  Christ,  we  might  be  de- 
ceived and  led  into  things  which  would  not  advance  the  Eedeem- 
er's  kingdom.  Even  those  who  had  known  the  sword  of  the 
Spirit  unsheathed  against  the  trangressing  nature,  and  in  good 
degree  gained  the  victory  over  it,  may  be  deceived  if  they  do 
not  abide  in  lowly  watchfulness  before  the  Lord  ;  for  the  beast 
had  seven  heads  and  ten  crowns ;  and  after  being  wounded,  its 
deadly  wound  was  healed.  I  was  also  led  to  show  that  the 
church  of  Christ  was  compared  to  a  body  having  many  mem- 
bers ;  each  of  which  has  its  function  to  perform.  As  we  kept 
our  places  in  the  body,  every  one  eyeing  the  Head,  and  receiv- 
ing direction  from  Him,  we  should  be  preserved  from  interfer- 
ing with  each  other's  duties ;  Ephraim  would  not  envy  Judah, 
nor  w^ould  Judah  vex  Ephraim.  When  any  felt  the  Spirit  of 
the  Lord  stirring  in  them,  as  in  the  camp  of  Dan ;  or  as  fire 
shut  up  in  their  bones;  after  waiting  patiently  his  time,  they 
were  to  deliver  in  his  fear,  what  He  gave  them  to  communicate ; 
and  that  which  was  brought  forth  under  right  authority,  would 
raise  the  life  in  others,  who  were  keeping  their  places.  There 
were  those  whose  voices  were  not  frequently  heard,  but  who 
maintained  a  steadfast  travail  of  spii-it,  that  all  might  be  pre- 
served in  the  right  exercise  of  their  gifts,  and  a  harmonious 
action  together.  These  were  like  ballast  in  a  vessel.  Several 
views  were  taken  of  the  subject ;  and  the  young  people  encour- 
aged to  keep  under  exercise,  and  to  be  faithful  to  the  Lord's  rc- 
quirings.  A  solemn  covering  spread  over  the  meeting.  But 
little  Avas  said  to  the  Queries  and  Answers  by  anj'  one.  I  made 
a  few  remarks,  in  which  a  Friend  united,  on  the  disadvantage 
of  retaining  persons  in  membership,  merely  because  they  re- 
quested ;  after  they  had  transgressed  the  discipline.  We  often 
ibund  that  such  were  of  very  little  ubo  to  the  Society  ;  and  if  their 


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principles  were  unsound,  it  gave  them  greater  opportunity  to 
spread  the  infection  by  mingling  with  the  members. 

Next  day  attended  the  meeting  for  public  worship  there ; 
which  is  still  held  by  this  Quarter.  In  the  afternoon  returned 
to  Starksborough,  to  the  house  of  our  very  kind  friends,  J.  and 
L.  B.,  where  we  lodged. 

Eleventh  month  7th.  Set  off  this  morning  early,  in  company 
with  our  friend  C.  S.,  and  wife  and  daughter,  for  his  residence 
near  Montpelier ;  the  weather  being  wet,  and  part  of  the  road 
bad,  made  the  ride  uncomfortable.  Notice  having  been  spread,  a 
number  of  respectable-looking  people  assembled  with  Friends,  at 
their  first-day  meeting.  It  appeared  to  be  my  place  to  hold  up 
the  doctrine  of  the  immediate  influence  of  the  Holy  Spirit;  and 
that  those  who,  through  its  converting  power,  became  the 
adopted  children  of  our  Heavenly  Father,  are  drawn  to  pray 
for  its  assistance  and  preservation,  day  by  day;  that  according 
to  the  language  of  our  Saviour,  "If  ye  being  evil,  know  how  to 
give  good  gifts  to  your  children,  how  much  more  shall  jour 
Heavenly  Father  give  the  Holy  Spirit  to  them  that  ask  Him." 
The  subject  opened  in  various  ways;  both  in  relation  to  the  uni- 
versality of  the  gift  of  Gi'ace ;  its  various  operations  in  baptiz- 
ing the  soul,  as  fire  to  purge  away  its  defilements,  and  render  it 
fit  to  offer  acceptable  worship  to  Grod ;  and  also  as  to  the  medi- 
ation of  the  Lord  Jesus,  by  whom  it  is  communicated.  I 
thought,  however,  that  the  stream  did  not  rise  as  at  some  other 
times;  yet  the  people  were  very  still  and  attentive.  I  could 
not  see  that  I  had  made  any  mistake,  unless  it  was  in  rising 
too  early ;  but  of  this  I  could  feel  no  conviction  ;  and  yet  I  was 
brought  low,  so  that  I  took  little  satisfaction  in  the  company 
of  Friends. 

Second-day,  9th.  We  rode  forty-three  miles  to  Burlington, 
on  Lake  Charaplain  ;  put  up  at  an  inn,  and  the  following  morn- 
ing, placing  carriage  and  horses  on  a  steamboat,  we  landed 
them  at  Port  Kent,  on  the  opposite  shore ;  where  we  were 
joined  by  a  Friend,  and  then  proceeded  in  the  steamboat  to  Grand 
Isle,  where  a  meeting  had  been  appointed  for  us,  to  be  held  at 
half-past  eleven  o'clock.  Through  detention,  the  boat  did  not 
arrive  until  after  twelve.  We  took  a  wagon,  and  at  once  rode 
two  miles  to  the  meeting-house,  where  we  found  a  number  of 
women  convened,  and  some  men,  waiting  for  us.  We  sat  down 
with  them;  several  more  came  in,  and  after  some  time  of  wait- 


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ing  upon  the  Lord,  the  subject  of  love  to  God  and  to  our  bro- 
ther was  presented;  and  help  was  mercifully  near,  to  qualify  for 
the  service.  First-days'  experience  made  me  renewedly  sensi- 
ble, that  the  gospel  cannot  be  preached,  but  as  the  Master  con- 
descends to  open  and  furnish  matter,  and  accompany  it  with 
his  baptizing  power ;  and  I  felt  very  desirous  of  doing  nothing 
but  what  He  should  direct.  In  this  humble  state,  one  thing 
was  opened  after  another  ;  and  prayer  and  thanksgiving  arose, 
for  the  continuance  of  his  Divine  presence,  and  aid  in  the  work 
which  He  appoints.  When  the  boat  returned  from  St.  Albans, 
we  went  on  board,  landed  at  Port  Kent,  and  taking  horses  and 
carriage,  reached  Peru  after  dark. 

Fourth-day  11th.  Attended  the  usual  week-day  meeting  here, 
and  was  distressed  with  the  indifference  of  many.  It  seemed 
as  if  not  a  few  have  contracted  the  habit  of  looking  for  preach- 
ing, and  neglecting  their  own  business  of  seeking  for  sustenance 
for  themselves.  About  time  to  close  the  meeting  it  appeared 
proper  to  bring  into  view  the  object  for  which  we  assemble ; 
which  is  to  wait  upon  the  Lord,  and  to  feel  after  him,  if  ha2)pily 
we  may  find  Him ;  but  if  we  pass  the  time  in  thinking  our 
own  thoughts,  suffering  the  mind  to  range  abroad  among  the 
objects  of  our  worldly  pursuits,  we  may  come  and  go  without 
receiving  any  benefit.  I  endeavored  to  relieve  my  mind 
amongst  them.  We  have  now  got  through  the  meetings  of  Fer- 
risburg  Quarter,  with  the  exception  of  Farnham,  a  meeting  in 
Canada,  which  we  could  not  visit  in  time  to  reach  Saratoga  Quar- 
ter. There  are  many  goodly,  well-concerned  Friends  in  this  part 
of  the  Society,  wlio  are  desirous  of  maintaining  our  religious 
principles  and  discipline ;  but  it  appears  to  me,  that  there  is  too 
much  fondness  for  words ;  and  some,  without  authority,  under- 
take to  exercise  the  office  of  the  ministry.  Wherever  there  is 
a  fondness  for  s])eaking  and  hearing,  there  will  be  danger  that 
a  sound  judgment  will  not  be  exercised,  in  suppressing  forward, 
active  persons,  who  would  intrude  themselves  into  this  sacred 
office.  Hence  a  spurious  ministry  grows  up,  and  the  people  love 
to  have  it  so,  ratlier  than  endure  silence  in  our  religious  meet- 
ings. By  this  means,  instead  of  being  seasons  of  solemnity, 
imparting  spiritual  strength,  the  mind  is  vacant,  uneasy  and 
listless.  Many  neem  to  be  very  ignorant  of  the  nature  of  re- 
ligious exercise;  and  the  practice  of  thus  assembling,  is  in  dan- 
ger of  becoming  a  mere  form.     If  the  habit  of  public  speaking 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  153 

■without  life  is  promoted,  a  multitude  of  such  preachers  may  be 
spread  over  the  Society,  ministering  death;  and  leading  the 
members  away  from  the  place  of  true  waiting  and  feeding,  into 
a  restless  desire  after  words ;  which  will  never  build  any  on  the 
most  holy  faith,  nor  strengthen  them  against  one  sin.  Such 
find  that  speaking  smooth  things  pleases  their  hearers,  who 
will  cai'ess  them  for  their  fair  speeches,  and  extol  them  as  fine 
preachers ;  while  the  true  minister,  who  cannot  flinch  from 
speaking  the  truth,  will  feel  that  his  testimony  is  not  relished, 
and  a  secret  prejudice  is  indulged  against  him.  But  there  are 
in  almost  every  meeting,  some  painful  travellers,  who  under- 
stand the  language  of  the  Spirit,  and  rejoice  to  find  others 
speaking  the  same  thing,  and  walking  in  the  same  tribulated 
path.  These  will  salute  each  other  as  brethren  and  sisters,  and 
rejoice  in  the  fellowship  of  the  Gospel ;  and  a  secret  satisfac- 
tion is  felt  in  having  been  instrumental  in  visiting  the  seed. 

Before  leaving  our  lodgings,  I  had  a  little  opj^ortnnity  with 
the  family ;  in  which  I  aff'ectionately  pressed  the  necessity  of 
living  loose  to  the  world  and  its  gratifications,  and  following 
the  Lord  Jesus,  under  the  subjecting  power  of  the  cross.  The 
general  simplicity  of  their  children  was  a  pleasant  sight ;  and 
they  were  encoui-aged  to  join  with  their  parents,  in  faithfully 
giving  up  to  the  requisitions  of  Truth,  so  that  they  might  be- 
come lights  in  the  world,  and  living  members  of  the  body  of 
Christ ;  prepared  for  usefulness  in  his  church.  Left  there  be- 
tween nine  and  ten  o'clock,  and  rode  about  eighteen  miles  to  a 
tavern,  and  dined,  on  our  way  to  Queen sbury,  about  one  hundred 
miles  distant  from  Peru.  Our  course  lay  through  a  mountainous, 
rude  country,  many  parts  of  it  little  settled,  or  capable  of  much 
improvement ;  and  the  road,  in  some  places,  extremely  bad,  being 
very  rocky,  and  the  logged  parts  decayed,  which  made  it  very 
jolting.  That  night  and  the  next,  we  lodged  at  taverns ;  and 
on  seventh-day  afternoon,  got  safely  to  Queensbury,  where  we 
put  up  at  the  house  of  a  Friend. 

At  the  time  of  the  division,  Friends,  for  the  sake  of  holding 
their  meetings  peaceably,  assembled  in  the  afternoon  of  first- 
day,  though  their  members  were  about  equal  in  number  with 
the  Separatists.  We  attended  the  meeting,  and  from  our  feel- 
ings, thought  a  disadvantage  sustained  by  assembling  at  that 
hour.  It  seemed  ditfieult  to  come  at  much  lively  feeling,  or  a 
clearness  of  what  was  proper  to  be  done ;  not  feeling  easy  to 


154  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

leave  t  e  meeting  without  bringing  into  view,  the  blessing  of 
being  brought  under  a  right  exercise  of  mind  for  the  salvation 
of  our  own  souls;  and  the  still  greater  favor,  of  being  kejit 
tinder  it  from  day  to  day.  I  was  enabled  to  speak  to  the  states, 
as  I  apprehended,  of  some  present,  who  had  sutfered  their  minds 
to  be  drawn  aside  from  pursuing  those  things  which  they  had 
seen,  in  the  light  of  Truth,  belong  to  their  everlasting  peace. 
The  fire  was  to  be  kept  constantly  burning  on  the  altar,  under 
the  law ;  and  it  is  necessary,  under  the  Gosjjel,  to  have  the  firo 
of  Divine  love  daily  replenished  in  the  heart,  that  we  may  be 
qualified  to  offer  acceptable  sacrifices  to  God,  through  Jesus 
Christ  our  Lord,  the  Great  High  Priest  of  our  profession.  I 
felt  very  desirous,  in  using  plainness  of  speech  to  some  present, 
that  it  might  be  under  that  unction,  which  will  open  the  heart  to 
receive  and  acknowledge  the  truth  of  what  is  said ;  and  that 
this  description  of  service,  which  represents  the  defects  of 
professors,  may  be  evidently  a  work  of  necessity  and  not  of 
choice. 

On  third-day  attended  the  Select  Quarterly  Meeting,  in  which 
some  ability  was  granted  to  encourage  those  who  meet  in  the 
little  companies  which  constitute  the  meetings  of  this  Quarter, 
to  keep  faithfully  to  religious  exercise,  and  the  support  of  their 
meetings.  Friends  were  few  in  the  beginning;  but  by  faithful- 
ness and  steadfast  dependence  upon  the  Lord,  they  were  in- 
creased in  number  and  strength ;  and  so,  by  the  same  means,  in 
the  present  day,  the  few  who  keep  their  places,  may  be  like  the 
roots  of  a  new  growth  among  us. 

The  Quarterly  Meeting  was  now  again  composed  of  the  mem- 
bers of  Easton  and  Saratoga,  by  conclusion  of  the  Yearly  Meet- 
ing; the  latter  having  been  instituted  a  Quarterly  Meeting  out 
of  the  former.  This  was  the  first  time  they  again  met  in  con- 
nection. On  the  subject  of  education,  and  the  perusal  of  the 
Holy  Scriptures,  I  made  a  few  remarks,  tending  to  enforce  the 
duty  of  parents  to  watch  over  and  rightly  educate  their  off- 
spring; exampling  them  in  bearing  the  daily  cross,  and  instruct- 
ing them  to  yield  to  the  influences  of  the  Spirit  of  Christ  in  their 
own  hearts;  which  would  lead  them  into  self-denial,  and  to  lovo 
to  read  the  records  of  the  experiences  of  holy  men  of  old,  and 
the  doctrines  of  Christ  and  his  Apastles.  It  is  the  custom  hero 
to  hold  a  meeting  for  public  worship  ;  the  weather  being  very 
dark  and  foggy,  it  was  not  so  large  as  usual.     The  forepart  waa 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  155 

heavy,  and  I  think  I  have  scarcely  ever  been  kept  in  more 
suspense  respecting  my  duty,  as  for  a  long  time  in  this  meeting; 
but  believing  it  unsafe  to  attempt  to  move,  until  greater  clear- 
ness, though  several  presentations  were  made  to  my  mind,  I  kept 
still  and  inward.  After  a  Friend  had  delivered  a  short  testi- 
mony, the  way  appeared  to  open ;  and  through  the  Lord's  good- 
ness and  condescension,  matter  was  furnished,  and  the  sol- 
emnizing power  of  Truth  spread  over  the  meeting.  Strong 
desires  prevailed  in  my  mind,  that  all  present  might,  through 
submission  to  the  washings  of  regeneration,  and  by  the  precious 
blood  of  Christ,  be  found  amongst  the  multitude  that  surroun<l 
the  throne  of  the  Lord  God,  and  the  Lamb  ;  who  shall  ascribe 
blessing  and  honor,  thanksgiving  and  high  renown  to  Him  that 
hath  redeemed  them.  We  parted  from  many  of  our  friends  in 
near  affection. 

Eleventh  month  20th.  Attended  a  meeting  appointed  at 
G-reenfield ;  at  the  interment  of  a  minister.  It  was  composed 
of  a  gi-eat  mixture.  The  prophetic  description  of  the  Messiah  : 
"  Unto  us  a  child  is  born,  unto  us  a  Son  is  given,  and  the  gov- 
ernment shall  be  upon  his  shoulder;  and  his  name  shall  be  called 
Wonderful,  Counsellor,  The  mighty  God,  The  everlasting  Father, 
and  The  Prince  of  Peace ;"  and  the  testimony  of  Peter,  that 
there  was  no  other  name,  under  heaven,  given  amongst  men 
whereby  we  must  be  saved ;  also  that  of  Paul,  that  he  had 
fought  the  good  fight,  kept  the  faith,  &c.,  were  brought  into 
view,  and  salvation  by  faith  in  the  Son  and  Sent  of  God,  and 
obedience  to  Him,  preached  to  the  company.  It  came  before 
me  also,  to  warn  the  believers  in  Christ,  who  were  present,  of 
the  dangerous  influence  of  infidelity,  and  not  to  touch  it  in  any 
manner ;  and  in  describing  the  awful  consequences  of  it,  I  re- 
ferred to  the  testimony  of  Christ,  that  those  who  heard  his 
sayings  and  did  them  not,  were  building  on  a  foundation  that 
would  fail ;  and  that  the  hope  of  the  infidel  would  be  no  better 
than  that  of  the  hypocrite,  &c.  A  Friend  informed  us  afterwards, 
that  some  unbelievers  were  present.  That  evening  we  reached 
a  tavern,  lodged,  and  early  the  following  morning,  (seventh- 
day,)  proceed  to  Providence,  where  we  attended  an  appointed 
meeting.  The  doctrine  of  unconditional  predestination  was 
controverted  ;  its  effect  to  settle  in  fatal  security,  those  who 
imagined  themselves  of  the  elect,  but  were  living  in  sin  ;  and  the 
tendency  to  despair,  or  to  neglect  their  salvation,  in  those  who 


156  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

were  tempted  to  suppose  they  were  reprobated  from  all  eternity, 
were  exposed;  and  the  universal  love  of  God  to  all  mankind, 
in  providing  the  means  for  their  reconciliation,  by  sending  his 
beloved  Son  into  the  world,  to  offer  himself  a  sacrifice  for  their 
sins,  and  furnishing  them  with  the  gift  of  Divine  Grace,  to 
effect  their  regeneration,  was  advocated.  The  people  were  quiet 
and  very  attentive.  Several  Calvanistic  Baptists  were  present, 
as  we  were  afterwards  told  by  a  Friend. 

In  the  afternoon,  we  rode  to  Ballston,  eighteen  miles,  and 
put  up  at  a  tavern. 

22d,  First-day  morning.  Eose  eai'l}'  and  rode  to  W.  C.'s,  at 
Half  Moon,  to  breakfast.  lie  and  his  family  received  and  en- 
tertained us  very  kindly.  Their  first-day  meetings  commence 
at  two  P.  M.,  in  consequence  of  the  Separatists  keeping  the 
house  in  the  forenoon.  We  sat  long  in  silence  ;  until  I  supposed 
we  should  sepai'ate  as  we  came ;  but  the  expression,  "The  race 
is  not  to  the  swift,  nor  the  battle  to  the  strong;"  but  they  that 
hold  out  to  the  end  shall  be  saved ;  having  frequently  revived 
and  presented,  I  was  fearful  of  leaving  the  place  without  com- 
municating it ;  and  holding  up  to  view,  that  those  who  had  be- 
gun well,  but  again  turned  aside,  became  stumbling-blocks,  and 
brought  reproach  upon  the  religion  they  had  professed.  We 
passed  the  evening  in  agreeable  conversation,  and  closed  it  with 
reading  a  portion  of  the  Scriptures ;  and  endeavoring  to  enlist 
the  young  people  in  the  service  of  their  Lord,  that  they  might 
experience  preservation  from  the  snares  that  abound  in  the 
world,  and  be  pi'epared  to  fill  up  their  stations  in  the  church. 

Eleventh  month  23d,  second-day  morning.  Eode  through 
snow,  twenty  miles,  to  Albany ;  dined  there,  and  proceeded  on 
our  way,  seven  miles,  towards  Middlebury  Monthly  Meeting,  in 
I)uanesl)urg  Quarter,  and  then  stopped  at  an  inn.  The  road 
being  covered  eight  inches  with  snow,  made  travelling  heavy 
and  difficult. 

The  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Saratoga,  though  increased  by  the 
reunion  of  Easton,  is  not  large.  There  are  sound,  judieif)us 
members;  and  some  who,  though  not  possessing  much  experi- 
ence, appear  to  be  devoted  to  the  cause  and  testimonies  of 
Truth.  But,  like  other  parts  of  the  Society,  too  many  are  en- 
grossed in  their  worldly  concerns,  and  do  not  come  forward 
with  that  strength  and  clearness,  which  entire  dedication  to  the 
Master  Avould  effect. 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  157 

24th.  "We  rose  earlj',  and  riding  twelve  miles  through  the 
snow,  in  which  we  crossed  the  mountain  called  the  Ilaldeburg, 
we  stopped  at  an  inn,  breakfasted,  and  then  proceeded  to  Peter 
Stover's,  in  Berne.  The  snow  being  deep  and  frozen,  and  the 
road  not  fully  broken,  the  prospect  of  travelling,  in  this  moun- 
tainous country,  looked  very  discouraging.  Arriving  at  the 
house  of  a  Friend  was  very  pleasant,  after  being  at  taverns ; 
and  especially  so,  to  find  ho  was  willing  to  take  us  in  a  sleigh 
to  Middlebury  Monthly  Meeting ;  by  which  our  horses  could 
rest.  Enquiry  being  made  by  our  host,  whether  we  wished  to 
have  a  meeting  appointed,  and  proposing  a  small  meeting-house 
near,  I  told  him,  as  Friends  meet  in  his  house  to  hold  their 
little  meeting  on  first-day,  I  was  willing  to  sit  with  them,  and 
such  of  their  near  neighbors  as  they  were  disposed  to  invite,  in 
the  evening.  About  six  o'clock,  they  began  to  collect ;  and,  to 
our  surprise,  two  sitting-rooms  were  filled  by  strangers.  A 
preacher  of  another  profession,  who  had  appointed  a  meeting  in 
the  above-mentioned  house,  finding  but  few  coming  to  hear 
him,  proposed  to  them  to  go  to  Peter  Stover's ;  and  they  ac- 
cordingly came.  Our  religious  principles,  on  the  subject  of 
regeneration.  Divine  worship,  preaching  and  praying,  were 
opened  to  the  people ;  and  they  aifectionately  invited  to  come 
to  Christ,  and  take  his  yoke  upon  them,  and  learn  of  Him. 
They  were  also  cautioned  against  seeking  the  living  among  the 
dead  ;  either  in  the  lifeless  forms  which  man  has  invented,  or 
in  any  creaturely  exertions,  which  they  can  perform  in  their 
own  time  and  strength.  Public  vocal  prayer  always  appears  to 
me  a  very  solemn  act,  in  which  I  have  felt  a  reluctance  to  engage ; 
but  feeling  the  spirit  of  supplication,  I  yielded  to  it,  and  have 
rarely  known  sweeter  access  to  the  Throne  of  Grace  than  on 
this  occasion. 

Eleventh  month  25th.  Attended  Middlebuiy  Monthly  Meet- 
ing; which  was  quite  small.  The  view  of  such  a  remnant  con- 
vened in  that  capacity,  was  disheartening;  but  it  seemed  to  be 
my  place  to  endeavor  to  strengthen  Friends  in  the  faithful  dis- 
charge of  their  religious  duties  ;  that  they  might  hold  up  a  good 
light  to  others  ;  and  that  the  ark  of  the  testimony  may  not  fall 
to  the  ground  amongst  them. 

Though  it  appeared  improbable,  when  riding  through  the 
heavy  snow,  that  we  should  be  able  to  attend  Coeymans  Month- 
ly Meeting,  yet  we  rose  very  early  on  fifth-day  morning,  and 


158  JOURNAL    OF    ^yILLIAM    EVANS. 

Egbert  Stover  and  wife,  Smith  Uptou — who  had  joined  us  at 
the  Quarterly  Meeting — and  myself,  got  into  their  sleigh,  and 
Joseph  Snowden  drove  the  carriage  ;  and  we  reached  the  house 
of  a  Friend,  near  the  meeting-house,  about  an  hour  before  the 
time.  The  sensations  that  spread  over  my  mind  in  this  meet- 
ing, indicated  the  want  of  a  lively,  dail}^  exercise  in  some 
present,  to  experience  the  work  of  the  soul's  salvation  to  pro- 
gress, as  time  was  passing  away;  by  which  they  would  be 
qualified  to  engage  in  the  Lord's  cause,  and  rightly  to  manage 
the  concerns  of  the  church.  Instead  of  which,  a  disposition 
prevailed  to  procrastinate,  and  defer  this  all-important  work  to  a 
future  day,  when  their  worldly  business  would  admit  of  laying 
hold  of  it ;  trusting  that  then  it  could  be  entered  into,  and  ef- 
fected with  more  convenience,  and  with  dispatch.  The  warn- 
ing of  the  Apostle  was  revived:  "If  the  righteous  scared}^  be 
saved,  where  shall  the  ungodly  and  sinner  ajjpear?"  and  if 
judgment  begin  at  the  house  of  God,  ''What  shall  the  end  be 
of  them  that  obey  not  the  gospel  of  Grod?"  showing  that  the 
salvation  of  the  soul  was  not  so  light  a  thing,  and  so  easily  ac- 
complished, as  some  might  be  persuading  themselves.  Some 
appeared  to  be  affected.  When  we  entered  on  the  business  of 
the  Monthly  Meeting,  the  representatives  appointed  to  their 
late  Quarterly  Meeting  reported,  that  none  of  them  attended ; 
and  but  one  coiild  offer  an  excuse;  which  afforded  proof  of 
the  want  of  a  lively  zeal  for  the  cause  of  Truth,  and  the  sup- 
port of  the  discipline.  If  those  who  take  part  in  the  affairs  of 
the  discipline  at  home,  and  make  a  plain  appearance,  can  lightly 
disregard  their  duty,  when  it  may  require  a  little  sacrifice  of 
time  and  labor  to  perform  it,  the  younger  members  must  im])ibo 
the  idea,  that  the  concerns  of  religious  society  are  of  secondary 
importance  to  their  worldl}^  i")rofits  ;  and  thus  such  unfaithful 
members  may  stumble  others,  and  be  the  means  of  spreading 
spiritual  death  in  the  camp. 

Lodged  at  Thomas  Bedell's ;  and  on  Eleventh  month  27th, 
sixth-day  morning,  rode  about  thirty-eight  miles  to  little  Nino 
Partners;  having  crossed  the  North  Eiver  at  Hudson;  and  the 
following  morning,  reached  the  residence  of  our  very  kind  and 
affectionate  friends,  Smith  and  Sarah  M.  Upton.  In  being  ftivored 
to  return  thus  far  from  this  little  journey,  gratitude  and  thank- 
fulness to  our  Heavenly  Father,  covered  my  mind  ;  for  the 
preservation  of  health  and  our  safety  from  casualty,  and  for 


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the  unmerited  extension  of  the  aid  of  his  Holy  Spirit,  to  dis- 
charge what  appeared  to  he  required  duty ;  though  a  sense  of 
frailty  and  unprofitableness  as  a  servant,  was  felt  to  appertain 
to  the  poor,  unworthy  creature.  But  it  is  a  mercy  and  favor 
to  he  able  to  call  Him,  Father ;  and  to  look  up  unto  Him  with 
humble,  sincere  desire,  that  He  will  still  grant  wisdom  and 
strength  to  do  the  work  assigned ;  and  keep  us  in  the  way  He 
would  have  us  to  go.  And  I  believe,  He  will  keep,  by  his  own 
power,  for  the  sake  of  his  beloved  Son,  those  who  thus  rely  on 
Him  alone ;  and  desire  to  be  daily  humbled,  under  a  conviction 
of  their  own  helplessness  to  preserve  themselves. 

Eleventh  month  29th.  Being  first-day,  we  attended  the 
meeting  at  the  Creek :  and  in  the  afternoon  set  off  in  a  sleigh, 
our  kind  friend  Asa  Upton  accompanying  us,  for  Canaan ;  a 
small  remnant  of  Friends  residing  there,  who  hold  a  meeting 
once  or  twice  a  month,  with  the  aid  of  a  committee  of  Nine 
Partners  Monthly  Meeting.  Lodged  that  evening  at  E.  C.'s  ;  and 
early  on  second-day  morning,  set  out  again ;  and  between  twelve 
and  one  o'clock,  reached  the  residence  of  one  of  the  Friends. 
In  the  evening,  we  held  a  meeting  at  a  Friend's  house,  com- 
posed of  a  few  members,  and  several  Methodists  and  others. 
The  people  expressed  satisfaction  with  the  visit ;  but  to  me  it 
was  a  shallow  time ;  there  seemed  a  necessity  to  utter  many 
things  which  presented,  but  the  life-giving  virtue,  according  to 
my  feelings,  but  sparingly  attended.  Asa  Upton  observing  me 
to  appear  depressed,  enquired  the  cause ;  and  when  I  told  him 
it  was  a  low  time,  he  replied,  it  exceeded  hi-s  expectation  so 
much,  he  was  concluding  it  was  a  time  of  favor.  Lodged  there  ; 
rose  before  day  on  third-day  morning ;  returned  to  our  ancient 
Friend,  E.  C.'s,  where  we  dined ;  and  after  a  little  opportunity, 
in  Avhich  encouragement  was  offered  to  trust  in  the  never-fail- 
ing Helper  of  his  people  ;  Avho,  having  been  with  his  children 
in  six  troubles,  will  not  forsake  them  in  the  seventh ;  we  pro- 
ceeded towards  the  Creek.  On  our  way,  we  stopped  half  an 
hour  at  the  mansion  of  our  late  honored  friend  and  father  in 
the  Truth,  Henry  Hull,  to  take  leave  of  his  widow ;  to  whom 
the  language  of  sympathy  was  extended.  We  were  permitted 
to  unite  together  in  a  sense  of  the  continued  protection  of  our 
Heavenly  Father  surrounding  us,  his  unworthy,  but  dependent 
creatures.  Drank  tea  with  A.  Upton  and  wife ;  and  after  sj)end- 
ing  most  of  the  evening,  took  an  affectionate  leave;  and  re- 


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joined  our  friends  S.  and  S.  M.  Upton,  at  their  hospital^le 
mansion.  The  kindness  of  these  beloved  Friends,  in  various 
ways,  has  been  marked,  and  esteemed  by  me  as  an  evidence 
of  the  propriety  of  this  little  journey ;  inasmuch  as  the  unity 
of  the  brethren  and  sisterhood,  does  prove  that  the  Great  Head 
owns  a  concern,  by  leading  his  children  to  own  one  another. 

Twelfth  month  2d.  We  parted  from  our  beloved  Creek 
friends  with  much  affection ;  and  having  Paul  Upton,  as  guide, 
we  rode  twelve  miles ;  and  attended  the  little  meeting  at  Os- 
wego. Here  the  stream  of  sympathy  and  consolation,  was 
again  opened  towards  the  faithful  few,  who  are  endeavoring 
to  maintain  a  public  confession  of  their  allegiance  to  the  King 
of  kings;  who,  we  did  believe,  would  sustain  and  strengthen 
their  hands,  as  they  maintained  the  Christian  warfare;  and 
would  ffi'ant  a  crown  of  life  to  all  that  are  faithful  unto  death. 

3d.     Proceeded  on  our  way  to  Salem,  in  Purchase  Quarter. 

Twelfth  month  4th.  We  had  a  meeting  at  a  Friend's  house, 
in  the  morning ;  with  his  family,  his  son-in-law  and  daughter, 
and  a  few  of  the  neighbors ;  the  principal  part  of  Salem  Meeting 
having  joined  the  ranks  of  the  Separatists.  It  was  a  satisfac- 
tory opportunity  to  them  and  to  us.  In  the  afternoon,  went  to 
a  Friend's,  near  Croton  Valley  Meeting-house ;  and  in  the  even- 
ing, the  remaining  members  of  that  meeting  convened  at  this 
Friend's  house,  where  they  usually  hold  their  meeting  for  wor- 
ship. The  necessity  of  laboring  for  daily  spiritual  sustenance, 
and  becoming  willing  to  endure  the  hardships  and  privations 
attendant  on  this  militant  state,  in  order  that  we  may  grow  in 
the  Divine  life,  and  be  qualified  for  service  in  the  church,  were 
held  forth  to  their  view. 

5th.  Rode  over  to  Amawalk,  and  attended  a  meeting  ap- 
pointed there.  The  condescension  and  goodness  of  the  Blessed 
Head  of  the  church  were  manifest,  in  furnishing  renewed  quali- 
fication to  preach  his  everlasting  gospel  of  conversion  and  re- 
generation ;  the  object  whereof  is,  to  fit  us  for  that  kingdom 
into  which  nothing  impure  can  enter.  The  disposition  which 
has  ever  existed  in  man,  to  clothe  himself  with  his  own  right- 
eousness, was  brought  into  view.  The  prophet  Isaiah,  under  a 
sense  of  the  degeneracy  of  the  Jews,  while  they  were  pluming 
themselves  with  their  outward  observances,  declared,  "All  our 
righteousnesses  are  as  filthy  rags."  Our  Lord  told  his  hearers, 
that  "  Except  your  righteousness  shall  exceed  the  righteousness 


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of  the  Scribes  and  Pharisees,  ye  shall  in  no  case  enter  the  king- 
dom of  heaven,"  They  neglected  the  weightier  matters  of  the 
law;  judgment,  mercy  and  faith;  while  they  paid  tithe  of  mint, 
and  anise,  and  cummin ;  these  ought  they  to  have  done,  and  not 
to  leave  the  other  undone.  It  was  easy  to  practise  these  out- 
ward things,  without  any  cross  or  mortification ;  and  indeed  by 
them,  to  gain  popularity  amongst  men.  Paul  told  the  believers, 
that  it  was  "Not  by  w^orks  of  righteousness  which  we  have 
done,  but  according  to  his  mercy,  He  saved  us  ;  by  the  washing  of 
regeneration,  and  the  renewing  of  the  Holy  Grhost ;  which  He 
shed  on  us  abundantly  through  Jesus  Christ  our  Saviour."  The 
Holy  Spirit,  in  the  revelations  made  to  John,  reproved  the 
ohurch  of  Laodicea,  for  trusting  to  their  own  righteousness : 
"  Because  thou  sayest,  I  am  rich,  and  increased  with  goods,  and 
have  need  of  nothing,  and  knowest  not  that  thou  art  wretched, 
and  miserable,  and  j)oor,  and  blind,  and  naked ;  1  counsel  thee  to 
buy  of  me  gold,  tried  in  the  fire,  that  thou  mayest  be  rich  ;  and 
w^hite  raiment,  that  thou  mayest  be  clothed;  and  that  the  shame 
of  thy  nakedness  do  not  appear;  and  anoint  thine  eyes  with 
eye  salve  that  thou  mayest  see.  As  many  as  I  love,  I  rebuke 
and  chasten."  I  felt  very  low  in  going  into  the  meeting;  and, 
fearful  of  moving,  w^hon  these  things  opened  before  me ;  but  at 
last  thought  it  best  to  rise,  with  some  introductory  remarks  on 
the  high  value  of  the  Holy  Scriptures,  given  by  inspiration,  and 
providentially  preserved  to  us ;  and  while  we  were  justly  enter- 
taining such  an  esteem  for  them,  it  was  necessary  to  examine 
whether  our  lives  and  conduct  corresponded  with  the  precious 
precepts  and  doctrines  therein  inculcated.  It  was  a  solemn  op- 
portunity. 

The  6th,  being  first-day,  attended  the  meeting  at  Peekskill. 
Here  the  necessity  was  enforced  of  submitting  to  that  baptism 
and  cup  of  suffering,  which  our  blessed  Lord  partook  of,  accord, 
ing  to  our  respective  measures,  and  the  dispensations  of  hifj 
wisdom  ;  if  we  expect  to  particij^ate  in  the  glory,  and  honor, 
and  dignity,  which  appertain  to  Him  and  to  his  cause.  No- 
thing in  which  man  could  glory,  attended  the  little  service  that 
appeared  to  be  required.  Such  changes,  from  one  day  to  an- 
other, sometimes  try  our  faith  and  perseverance ;  but,  I  believe, 
they  are  essential,  to  empty  the  vessel  and  to  cut  ofi"  all  glory- 
ing before  God. 

7th.     Had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Croton,  with  the  few  re- 


162  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM   EVANS. 

raaining  members,  and  some  others.  The  encouraging  declara- 
tion of  our  Lord,  that  "■  If  two  of  you  shall  agree  on  earth,  as 
touching  anything  that  they  shall  ask,  it  shall  be  done  for  them 
of  my  Father  which  is  in  heaven.  For  where  two  or  three  are 
gathered  together  in  my  name,  there  am  I  in  the  midst  of 
them;"  presented  to  my  mind:  and  led  the  way  to  encourage 
the  little  remnant,  with  the  belief  that  their  Lord  would  regard 
them  in  their  faithful  endeavors  to  serve  Him,  and  to  uphold  a 
testimony  to  his  name  and  goodness ;  and  would  minister  to 
their  needs,  by  the  blessed  influences  of  his  Spirit.  An  invi- 
tation was  also  held  out  to  the  wanderers,  to  embrace  the  visi- 
tation of  Divine  love ;  which  seeks  to  save  that  which  is  lost  • 
as  exemplified  in  the  lost  sheep,  and  the  prodigal.  It  was  a 
comfortable  opportunity" ;  in  which  I  had  cause  for  thankful- 
ness to  Him,  who  ojiens  and  shuts,  when  He  pleases.  C.  U.  and 
wife  met  us  at  this  meeting,  and  piloted  us  that  evening  to  their 
house,  at  Chappaqua. 

8th.  At  Chappaqua  Meeting,  we  were  again  favored  with 
the  presence  of  our  Divine  Master ;  qualifying  to  open  the  need 
we  have  of  dispensations  of  humiliation  ;  b}"  which  the  earth 
and  the  heavens  are  shaken,  so  that  those  things  which  cannot 
be  shaken,  may  remain ;  that  we  may  be  preserved  from  sink- 
ing into  earthlimindedness,  and  through  the  purging  operations 
of  that  Word,  which  is  as  a  fire  and  a  hammer,  be  prepared  to 
produce  those  fruits  which  redound  to  the  glory  and  honor  of 
our  Heavenly  Father. 

9th.  We  attended  Mamaroneck  Monthly  Meeting.  Here  we 
were  led  into  sympathy  with  some  who  had  heavy  burdens,  at 
times,  to  bear;  and  yet  felt  often  as  if  but  little  good  would  re- 
sult from  it.  The  sufferings  and  reproaches  which  the  Caj^tain 
of  our  salvation  endured  for  us,  and  the  great  privations  and 
afflictions  our  carl}^  Friends  bore,  were  alluded  to  ;  showing 
that  it  is  through  suffering  the  truth  triumphs ;  and  if  He,  for 
our  sake,  submitted  to  such  treatment,  we  ought  to  be  willing 
to  partake  cheerfully  of  those  afflictions  which  appertain  to  the 
gospel,  both  for  our  own  sakes,  and  for  the  church.  On  the 
following  day,  we  rode  to  see  the  remnant  of  a  small  meeting, 
called  Middlesex ;  consisting  of  five  females,  who  meet  once  or 
twice  a  week,  for  Divine  worship,  at  the  residence  of  Catharine 
Seely ;  who  has  been  confined  mostly  to  the  bed,  eleven  years. 
We  had  sittings  with  them ;  and  they  were  glad  of  our  visit. 


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Lodged  at  Charles  Field's;  and  on  sixth-day,  11th,  had  an 
appointed  meeting  at  Purchase,  to  our  own  comfort  and  the 
satisfaction  of  Friends ;  and  on  seventh-day,  rode  to  New  York, 
where  we  put  up  with  Hannah  and  Lucy  Eddy. 

On  first-day,  13th,  attended  the  morning  and  afternoon  meet- 
ings ;  which  were  rather  relieving  opportunities ;  especially  the 
latter,  in  which  much  interest  in  the  welfare  of  the  younger 
members  was  felt ;  on  account  of  the  all-engrossing  spirit  of  the 
world,  to  which  they  are  exposed  in  this  city  of  great  business. 
They  were  affectionately  invited  to  take  the  yoke  of  Christ 
upon  them,  that  they  might  become  crucified  to  the  world,  and 
the  world  to  them  ;  and  know  those  things  to  be  kept  under  foot, 
and  used  as  servants  and  not  as  masters. 

14th.  Went  to  Flushing,  where  we  had  an  appointed  meet- 
ing the  next  day ;  in  which  the  necessity  of  living  and  walking 
bj'  faith,  was  treated  on  ;  as  the  path  which  the  righteous  of 
all  ages  have  walked  in,  and  found  safet}',  and  witnessed  an 
establishment  on  the  immutable  foundation  ;  which  will  sustain 
against  the  storms  and  trials  of  time. 

16th.  We  attended  the  Monthly  Meeting  of  Westbury;  in 
which  it  appeared  needful  to  stir  up  those  who  had  known  the 
Lord's  hand  to  be  extended  for  their  help  in  time  of  extremity ; 
and  yet  were  now  in  danger  of  falling  into  a  lethargic  state, 
taking  their  comfort  in  the  things  of  this  world. 

This  was  the  last  meeting  that  I  expected  to  be  at ;  and  when 
it  was  over,  my  mind  felt  at  liberty,  and  peaceful  in  the  pros- 
pect of  soon  rejoining  my  beloved  family  at  home.  Eeturned 
to  S.  P.'s,  and  lodged.  The  weather  was  very  cold  ;  the  ther- 
mometer falling  two  degrees  below  zero,  that  evening.  Be- 
fore ten  o'clock,  we  saw  a  large  column  of  flame  and  smoke 
rising  in  the  direction  of  New  York.  When  the  family  rose,  at 
six  the  following  morning,  it  was  still  burning,  in  the  same  de- 
gree ;  and  when  we  reached  the  city,  the  destructive  element 
was  unconquered ;  the  firemen  exhausted,  and  the  extreme 
eold  rendering  the  fire  engines  and  hose  almost  useless.  The 
fire  commenced  in  Wall  Street,  and  extended  south-east,  destroy- 
ing a  large  amount  of  property. 

On  fifth-day  night,  w^e  lodged  at  Nathan  Tail's.  Sixth  and 
seventh-da}^,  at  Ruth  Ely's ;  and  on  first-day,  Twelfth  month 
20th,  1835,  reached  home ;  having  travelled  about  seventeen 
hundred  miles.     We  were  blessed  with  health,  so  as  to  meet  no 


164  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM   EVANS. 

detention ;  which  is  a  great  favor ;  and  have  good  cause  to  ac- 
knowledge the  kindness  and  condescension  of  our  Heavenly 
Father,  in  sti^engthening  us  for  the  little  services,  that  lie  re- 
quired us  to  perform;  and  also  for  the  hospitality  of  our  friends 
throughout  the  journey. 

1836.  The  Meeting  for  Suiferings  of  this  Yearly  Meeting, 
having,  for  a  long  time,  been  desirous  that  some  mode  might 
be  adopted  for  spreading  the  approved  works  of  Friends,  more 
generally  amongst  the  members,  now  extensively  scattered  in 
this  country ;  it  was  suggested  to  my  brother  Thomas  and  my- 
self, whether  we  could  not  undertake  the  work.  After  deliber- 
ating upon  it,  and  no  other  Friends  appearing  to  be  willing  to 
engage  in  it,  we  drew^  up  a  proposal,  which  was  submitted  to 
that  meeting,  and  approved  ;  and  after  some  modification  and 
enlargement,  under  the  supervision  of  the  Book  Committee, 
the  prospectus  was  printed,  and  spread  throughout  the  meet- 
ings in  the  Yearly  Meeting.  It  was  not  without  serious  appre- 
hension of  many  difficulties  attending  the  prosecution  of  such  a 
labor,  that  we  took  the  step ;  but  the  consideration,  that  a  large 
number  of  members  were  growing  up  in  the  Society,  who  must 
be  unable  to  procure  the  approved  writings  of  Friends,  owing 
to  their  scarcity,  induced  us  to  make  the  attempt ;  in  the  hope 
that  we  might  thereby  contribute  to  their  benefit,  and  to  the 
advancement  of  the  cause  of  Christ  in  the  earth.  Copies  of  the 
prospectus  were  also  forwarded  to  all  the  Meetings  for  Suifer- 
ings on  this  continent;  and,  I  believe,  approved  by  them  all ; 
most  of  whom  issued  minutes  to  that  effect. 

In  the  Fifth  month,  I  attended  the  Yearly  Meeting  of  Now 
York,  where  several  ministers  from  this  and  other  similar  meet- 
ings, were  also  present.  The  Meeting  for  SuflPerings  there,  is- 
sued a  pretty  full  minute,  encouraging  its  members  to  take  the 
proposed  periodical;  containing  the  journals,  &c.,  of  Friends. 
Much  business  came  before  the  meeting,  which  was  resulted  in  har- 
mony ;  though  I  thought  the  desire,  on  the  part  of  some  from 
the  countiy,  to  avail  themselves  of  the  steamboats,  for  return- 
ing home,  induced  them  to  hurry,  more  than  the  dignity  of 
such  a  meeting,  and  the  nature  of  the  business  would  wai-rant. 
The  spirit  of  the  world  operating  upon  the  members  of  our  re- 
li'j-ious  Society,  to  draw  them  into  extensive  and  hazardous 
business,  produces  a  very  injurious  effect  upon  them.  If  it 
banishes  the  spirit  and  character  of  a  humble  follower  of  the 


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Truth,  a  sense  of  oppression  is  felt  among  them,  by  those  who 
desire  above  all  things,  to  do  the  will  of  their  Divine  Master;  the 
precious  fellowship  of  the  gospel  is  obstructed,  and  mourning 
over  their  degeneracy,  is  the  clothing  of  the  suflfei-ing  seed. 

Through  the  forepart  of  this  summer  I  was  much  at  home. 
An  afflicted  child  had  long  been  claiming  our  sympathies  and 
attention.  She  had  now  suffered  more  than  three  years ;  was 
often  confined  to  her  bed,  and  most  of  the  time,  unable  to  move 
about  without  help. 

Eighth  month.  Having  felt  my  mind  drawn  to  attend  the 
Yearly  Meeting  of  Ohio,  and  to  visit  the  meetings  composing 
Red  Stone  Quarter,  I  laid  the  concern  before  the  Monthly 
Meeting,  in  the  Eighth  month,  and  obtained  a  minute  of  its 
unity.  My  esteemed  friend  Henry  Cope,  having  agreed  to  bear 
me  company,  also  received  a  similar  minute.  Though  it  was  a 
trial  to  leave  my  beloved  wife  in  charge  of  the  family,  one  of 
the  children  having  been  long  confined  with  disease,  yet  1  was 
not  easy  to  omit  attending  to  the  service  which  I  believed  my 
Divine  Master  laid  upon  me.  We  set  out  on  the  27th,  in 
public  conveyance,  by  railroad  and  the  canal  through  Pennsyl- 
vania to  Pittsburg,  where  we  arrived  on  fourth-day  morning, 
31st ;  having  had  our  friends,  Elizabeth  Coggeshall  and  com- 
panions, fellow  passengers.  There  we  hired  a  stage  to  take  us 
to  Mount  Pleasant,  which  we  reached  next  evening;  lodged 
that  night  in  the  village.  Dr.  Isaac  Parker  called  on  us  in  the 
morning,  and  invited  us  to  take  lodgings  at  his  house,  we  were 
very  pleasantly  accommodated  there,  through  the  week.  On 
seventh-day  morning  I  attended  the  Meeting  of  Ministers  and 
Elders,  and  after  the  usual  business  was  transacted,  felt  engaged 
to  draw  the  attention  of  Friends  to  the  imj)ortance  of  holding 
a  Yearly  Meeting,  and  the  privileges  which,  as  members  of  thiij 
Societj",  we  enjoy.  That  in  order  to  preserve  these  privileges, 
it  is  necessary  properly  to  estimate  them,  and  to  endeavor  to 
keep  our  respective  places  in  the  church ;  dwelling  near  to  our 
Divine  Lord,  and  relying  wholly  upon  Him,  for  ability  to  per- 
form our  dut}^.  Thus  we  should  be  instrumental  in  strengthen- 
ing one  another,  and  spreading  the  kingdom  of  the  dear  Son  of 
God. 

The  Meeting  for  Sufferings  being  held  in  the  afternoon,  my 
companion  and  I  attended  it. 

On  first-day  w^e  attended  the  morning  and  afternoon  meetings 
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at  the  old  house.  In  the  former,  it  appeared  to  be  my  phice  to 
hold  up  the  indispensable  uecessit}'  of  dying  daily  to  our  own 
wills  and  inclinations;  that  so  we  may  know  Christ  to  live  in 
US,  by  his  Iloly  Spirit;  that  being  crucified  with  Him,  the  life 
which  we  now  live  in  the  flesh,  may  be  by  the  faith  of  tbc  Son 
of  Clod,  who  loved  us,  and  gave  Himself  for  us.  In  our  religi- 
ous assemblings,  it  is  needful  to  endure  patiently  the  stripping 
and  desertion  which  He  sees  proper,  that  we  may  be  prepared 
to  be  filled  by  Him,  with  his  goodness;  and  with  a  qualification 
to  make  the  oiferings  He  prepares  and  calls  for.  A  feeling  of 
solemnity  spread  over  us,  and  His  name  was  secretly  praised, 
who  puts  forth  and  goes  before. 

On  second-day  commenced  the  business  of  the  Yearly  Meet- 
ing. Its  sittings  were  attended  with  a  general  quiet,  and  much 
unanimity  in  its  decisions.  Ministers  from  North  Carolina,  In- 
diana, New  York,  New  England  and  Philadelphia,  were  present. 
Committees  were  appointed  by  both  meetings  to  visit  the  sub- 
(U'dinatc  branches,  both  the  select  and  those  for  discipline. 

The  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders  sat  twice  in  the  week. 
In  the  last  of  these  sittings,  I  adverted  to  the  attempts  to  lay 
waste  some  of  the  testimonies  of  our  Society,  made  in  former 
times,  by  unsettled,  discontented  members,  who  were  soaring 
above  their  places  ;  but  who  eventually  fell  away  and  came  to 
nothing.  We  had  recent  evidence  of  this,  in  those,  who  but  a 
few  years  ago,  assailed  the  peace  and  order  of  the  Society. 
And  I  believed  this  vvoxdd  be  the  end  of  all  who  persisted  in  such 
woi'k.  Though  they  might  soar  as  among  the  stars,  and  build 
their  nests  on  high,  the  Lord,  in  his  own  time,  would  bring  them 
doAvn  and  lay  them  as  in  the  dust.  He  would  not  permit  those 
testimonies,  which  He  entrusted  our  forefathers  with,  to  be  de- 
stroyed ;  nor  this  people,  if  they  are  faithful  to  Him,  to  be  laid 
waste,  Avhom  He  had  raised  up  to  hold  forth  the  standard  of 
pure  righteousness  to  the  world. 

On  sixth-day  morning  the  Select  Committee  was  appointed 
to  visit  the  meetings.  Much  was  said  respecting  the  spirit  in 
M'hich  this  visit  should  be  made ;  and  when  the  stream  that  way 
Bubsided,  I  felt  a  concern  for  those  Avho  were  to  be  visited  ;  that 
they  might  receive  it  in  a  proper  spirit,  and  guard  against  the 
insinuations  which  the  enemy  was  watching  to  infuse  into  the 
mind,  for  the  pui-pose  of  closing  it  up,  against  the  sincere  con- 
corn  of  their  Friends  for  their  help.     If  any  had  swerved  from 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVAXS.  167 

the  right  way,  it  would  be  well  for  them  to  draw  into  retire- 
ment, and  seek  the  presence  of  the  Searcher  of  hearts ;  that 
they  may  he  favored  with  a  clear  view  of  their  condition,  and 
ability  to  confess  their  sins  unto  Him,  and  witness  restoration  to 
the  unity  of  the  body;  so  that  its  circulation  may  be  witnessed 
without  obstruction. 

The  numerous  subjects  which  engaged  the  time  of  the  Yearly 
Meeting,  extended  the  sittings  until  seventh-day.  Near  the 
close,  the  language  of  encouragement  was  held  out  to  honest 
Friends,  to  put  their  trust  in  the  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  the  leader 
and  commander  of  his  people.  Trials  had  ever  attended  them. 
The  Apostle  admonished  one  of  the  churches,  that  even  from 
amongst  themselves,  men  would  arise,  speaking  perverse  things, 
to  draw  away  disciples  after  them.  Friends  here  would  have 
their  trials  and  difficulties ;  but  those  who  dwelt  under  a  sense 
of  their  inability  to  preserve  themselves,  and  were  endeavoring 
to  maintain  their  confidence  in  Him,  who  has  been  the  refuge  of 
his  people,  will  know  his  Name  to  be  a  strong  tower,  in  the  day 
of  trouble ;  to  which  they  may  run  and  find  safet}^.  He  who 
has  been  with  them  in  many  conflicts,  will  not  forsake  them  in 
others ;  but  will  mercifully  condescend  to  sustain  them  to  the 
end,  and  crown  them  with  joy  unspeakable  and  full  of  glory. 
Friends  parted  with  feelings  of  near  affection  for  each  other ; 
thankful  for  the  gracious  extension  of  Divine  help,  solemnizing 
them  together,  and  enabling  them  to  transact  the  concerns  of 
the  meeting  with  decision  and  harmony. 


168  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 


CHAPTEE   VIII. 

1836—1837. 

Finishes  the  visit  in  Western  Pennsylvania — Concern  respecting  the  wrongs 
of  the  Colored  Races  in  tlie  United  States — Yearly  Meeting  of  1837 — Re- 
flections on  a  Worldly  Spirit  and  the  State  of  the  Country — Second  Re- 
ligious Visit  in  New  England. 

Some  of  our  kind  friends  of  Westland  and  Eedstone,  having 
made  aiTangenients  for  conveying  us  into  that  Quarter,  we  left 
Mt.  Pleasant  on  first-day  morning ;  Mildred  Eatcliff  being  in 
company.  Attended  Concord  Meeting,  where  my  mind  was 
invested  with  a  concern  on  account  of  an  undue  attachment 
to  persons  or  things ;  w^hich  subjects  to  the  danger  of  los- 
ing that  sensibility  and  discernment  which  the  Truth  gives. 
"Let  not  the  wise  man  glory  in  his  wisdom,  neither  let  the 
mighty  man  glory  in  his  might ;  let  not  the  rich  man  glory  in 
his  riches  ;  but  let  him  that  glorieth  glory  in  this,  that  he  un- 
derstandeth  and  knoweth  Me,  that  I  am  the  Lord,  which  exerci- 
seth  loving  kindness,  judgment  and  righteousness  in  the  earth." 
If  we  ai'e  indulging  in  inordinate  attachment  to  persons  or 
their  gifts,  we  thereby  suffer  something  to  get  between  us  and 
Him,  who  only  has  the  right  to  the  possession  of  our  hearts, 
and  by  this  means  our  allegiance  to  the  King  of  kings  will  be 
affected.  Our  greatest  wisdom  is  to  know  the  Lord  executing 
his  righteous  judgments  in  us,  against  everything  that  stands  in 
comjDetition  with  his  Divine  government ;  and  thus  we  shall  ex- 
perience his  loving  kindness  to  preserve  us  from  the  snares  of 
our  cruel  enemy,  however  subtle  and  insidious  they  may  be.  The 
meeting  closed  with  supplication  for  continued  help  and  preser- 
vation. 

The  following  night  we  lodged  at  Washington,  thirty-two 
miles  from  Wheeling  ;  and  the  next  day  reached  John  Fisher's, 
at  AVcstland.  In  the  course  of  the  ride,  our  friend  Mildred 
Eatcliff  I'clated  several  instructive  incidents  in  her  life.  Ilcr 
parents  were  Baptists,  residing  in  one  of  the  Southern  States  ; 
and  she  was  educated  in  that  profession,  sprinkled  when  a  child, 
and  plunged  into  water  at  mature  age.  At  quite  an  early  period 
of  life,  her  mind  was  brought  under  very  serious  impressions; 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  1C9 

particularly  on  account  of  the  condition  of  the  blacks,  held  in 
slaveiy  by  her  father  and  others.  The  cruelties  to  which  they 
were  subjected,  especially  the  flogging  of  females,  affected  her 
deeply.  "When  quite  a  child,  her  tender  sympathies  were  drawn 
towards  the  infant  children  of  the  slaves  ;  and  though  not  al- 
lowed to  mingle  with  those  that  occupied  the  outhouses,  called 
the  negro  quarters,  she  would  privately  visit  them,  and  carry 
to  the  little  creatures  small  portions  of  food,  which  she  had 
clandestinely  procured,  to  feed  them.  At  first,  having  rarely 
seen  a  white  face,  they  would  shun  her  from  fear ;  but  after  a 
few  visits,  they  showed  a  fondness  for  her,  and  would  cry  after 
her  if  she  left  them  without  giving  them  some  eatables.  One 
day  after  being  at  a  meeting  of  her  own  profession,  where 
she  was  favored  with  some  fresh  convictions,  she  told  her 
father,  as  they  returned  home,  she  believed  the  blacks  ought  to 
have  their  freedom.  Her  mind  was  also  clearly  convinced  of 
the  obligation  which  Christians  were  under,  to  keep  to  simplic- 
ity in  their  dress  ;  and  though  her  sisters  conformed  to  the 
fashions  of  the  place,  she  had  her  clothing  made  in  a  very  simple 
manner,  particularly  at  the  time  of  her  marriage  ;  this  was  at 
the  age  of  sixteen.  Her  father  gave  her  a  number  of  slaves 
on  settling  her,  which  she  accepted  ;  having  got,  in  some  degree 
from  under  those  early  convictions.  She  was  not,  however,  left 
in  this  state, — they  were  renewed,  and  she  liberated  all  her  slaves. 
One,  however,  who  had  nursed  her  in  infancy,  refused  to  leave, 
saying  to  her,  you  cannot  do  without  me,  I  have  as  much 
liberty  as  I  want,  I  shall  never  leave  you  ;  and  accordingly  she 
remained  till  death. 

The  journal  of  John  Woolman  falling  in  her  way,  she  con- 
cluded one  day  to  look  into  it,  in  order  to  see  "  Whether  the 
Quaker  could  write  anything  that  had  any  sense  in  it."  She 
proceeded  but  little  way  before  she  discovered  that  the  senti- 
ments and  experience  of  that  self-denying  follower  of  Christ, 
corresponded  very  exactly  with  the  openings  of  Truth  in  her 
own  mind,  and  feeling  a  strong  desire  to  become  further  ac- 
quainted with  it,  she  read  it,  at  first  secretly,  and  then  oj)enly ;  as 
she  soon  became  convinced  it  contained  the  doctrines  of  Truth. 
This  work  not  only  sealed  on  her  mind  the  duty  of  manumit- 
ting her  slaves,  in  which  her  patrimony  mainly  consisted,  but 
prepared  the  way  for  uniting  herself  to  to  the  despised  Qua- 
kers ;  an  event,  of  which  at  the  time  of  marriage,  though  her 


170  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

husband  was  a  member,  she  had  neither  the  slightest  inchna- 
tion  or  expectation. 

At  her  request,  in  the  evening,  we  walked  to  her  house,  and, 
her  health  being  so  delicate  as  frequently  to  requii-e  her  to  be 
on  the  bed,  we  8j)ent  our  time  mostly  in  her  chamber.  Next 
day  being  the  regular  meeting  at  Westland,  to  which  she  be- 
longs, we  attended  it,  some  little  notice  having  been  spread 
in  the  neighborhood.  The  doctrine  of  regeneration,  by  obedi- 
ence to  the  Grace  of  God  in  the  heart,  was  preached  to  some 
who  had  long  slighted  its  convictions  ;  and  the  young  people 
were  tenderly  invited  to  yield  themselves  to  the  visitations  of 
their  blessed  Saviour;  who,  if  they  received  Him  in  the  way 
of  his  appearance  to  their  souls,  would  tabernacle  with  them, 
and  become  their  teacher  and  preserver  from  the  snares  of  their 
unwearied  enemy.  Mildred  Eatcliff  added  an  invitation,  to 
join  in  with  what  she  believed  to  be  a  renewed  offer  of  help 
from  our  Heavenly  Father. 

The  next  day  we  were  taken  by  our  kind  and  attentive  friend 
John  Fisher,  to  Pike  Run  Meeting,  held  since  the  sej^aration  in 
the  house  of  David  Graves,  now  in  his  84th  year.  A  qualification 
was  here  unexpected!}'  furnished,  to  set  forth  the  indispensa- 
ble necessity  of  watching  over,  and  frequently  examining  our- 
selves, that  we  may  not  be  deceived  by  the  devices  of  the  un- 
wearied and  insidious  enemy.  While  we  w^ere  professing  a  be- 
lief in  the  Divine  authority  of  the  Holy  Scriptures,  and  earnestly 
recommending  their  frequent  reading,  it  was  needful  to  put  in 
practice  their  precepts,  and  profit  by  the  experiences  therein 
recorded.  The  things  that  were  written  aforetime,  were  written 
for  our  learning ;  and  are  profitable  for  doctrine,  for  rejsroof,  for 
correction,^  for  instruction  in  righteousness ;  and  it  becomes  us  to 
try  ourselves  by  the  doctrines  we  recommend  to  others.  We 
have  there  recorded,  instances  of  great  men  swerving  from  the 
right  way,  through  unwatchfulness  and  disobedience  of  the  Di- 
vine command.  The  Apostle  Paul,  though  a  distinguished  min- 
ister of  the  Gospel,  said:  "I  keep  under  my  body,  and  bring  it 
into  subjection,  lest  that  by  any  means  when  I  have  preached 
to  others,  I  myself  should  be  a  castaway."  Here  he  holil'^  out 
the  possibility  of  becoming  a  castaway,  and  the  need  of  keeping 
a  steadfast  watch  over  ourselves,  and  exjioriencing  self  to  bo 
held  in  subjection.  The  necessity  of  submitting  to  the  purging, 
refining  oj)eration,  which  Christ  speaks  of,  when  ho  compares 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  171 

Himself  to  the  vine  and  his  disciples  to  the  branches,  was  also 
bi'ought  into  view,  as  one  of  the  means  which  He  uses  to  pre- 
serve his  children.  Even  those  who  have  had  large  experience 
of  his  mercy  and  of  his  faithfulness ;  in  clothing  them  with 
strength  to  fulfil  his  will,  must  be  stripped  and  prostrated  in 
abasement  of  soul.  All  the  armor  Avith  which  the}'  were  array- 
ed, in  his  cause,  seems  to  be  taivcn  off;  and  scarcely  anything 
left  but  a  humiliating  sense  of  their  own  weakness  and  vileness; 
and  sometimes  their  past  sins  and  follies  rise  up  against  them, 
and  make  them  loathe  themselves.  These  are  humbling  dispen- 
sations ;  but  are  nevertheless  salutary,  and  prepare  the  creature, 
if  it  keeps  the  word  of  the  Lord's  patience,  to  experience  a 
resurrection  into  newness  of  life,  from  this  baptism  into  death. 
"If  we  have  been  planted  together  in  the  likeness  of  his  death, 
we  shall  bo  also  in  the  likeness  of  his  resurrection."  "  That  like 
as  Christ  was  raised  from  the  dead  by  the  glory  of  the  Father, 
so  we  also  shall  walk  in  newness  of  life."  And  we  need  not  be 
afraid  of  being  forsaken  in  this  state.  He  is  ever  with  his  chil- 
dren ;  and  as  they  endeavor  to  hold  fust  their  love  and  alle- 
giance to  Him,  He  will  keep  them  in  the  hollow  of  his  hand; 
and  again  restore  to  them  beauty  for  ashes  ;  the  oil  of  joy  for 
mourning;  and  the  garment  of  praise  for  the  spirit  of  heaviness. 
These  views  were  held  out  to  some  present,  who  were  in  danger 
of  falling  into  a  superficial  state  ;  depending  upon  former  expe- 
rience, without  going  again  and  again  into  baptism  and  death. 
It  was  a  solid  opportunity,  in  which  Holy  Help  was  near,  to 
qualify  for  the  faithful  discharge  of  duty;  and  j-et,  under  a  re- 
collection that  we  are  poor  creatures,  all  needing  Divine  mercy 
and  forbearance. 

Ninth  month  16th.  We  had  an  appointed  meeting  with 
Friends,  and  some  others,  at  Brownsville.  I  was  burdened  with 
a  worldly  spirit ;  which,  it  appeared  to  me,  had  overpowered 
some,  even  in  advanced  years,  to  a  very  lamentable  degree. 
The  importance  of  experiencing  a  change,  and  entering  into  the 
vineyard  and  laboring,  though  at  the  eleventh  hour  of  the  day, 
was  seriously  pressed  upon  some ;  as  well  as  the  benefits  of 
such  change  and  its  fruits,  upon  the  rising  generation  round 
about  them.  But  little  relief  was  obtained,  and  I  left  them  with 
the  fear,  that  the  cause  of  Truth  was  in  a  suffering  state  in  that 
place.     Dined  at  D.  C.'s  ;  who  kindly  offered  to  take  us  to  seve- 


172  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

ral  of  the  remaining  meetings  ;  and  with  whom  we  went  that 
evening  to  Sandy  Hill,  seven  miles. 

Next  morning,  17th,  set  off  fur  Sandy  Creek  ;  a  small  meet- 
ing in  the  edge  of  Virginia,  about  twenty-six  miles  southeast  of 
Uniontown.  Notice  being  given,  we  attended  their  fii'st-day 
meeting;  a  few  Friends,  and  some  strangers;  and  rode  back  to 
a  tavern  on  the  United  States  turnpike.  Lodged  and  returned 
to  Sandy  Hill,  where  a  mixed  company  collected  by  appoint- 
ment, at  the  old  meeting-house  ;  the  meeting  there,  having  been 
laid  down  by  Red  Stone  Monthly  Meeting,  in  consequence  of  the 
great  negligence  of  the  membersin  attending  it.  Neither  of  these 
meetings  were  opportunities  of  much  refreshment  to  me  ;  but  la- 
borious ;  though  some  ability  was  atlbrded,  in  the  first,  to  open  the 
principles  of  Friends,  on  some  points.  In  the  latter,  death  seemed 
to  have  overspread  many,  who  had  long  neglected  their  religious 
duties.  To  some,  who  wei'e  secretly  enquiring.  Who  shall  show 
us  any  good?  the  invitation  was  held  out,  to  come  unto  Christ, 
and  take  his  yoke  upon  them ;  and  He  w^ould  help  them ; 
though  they  were  surrounded  by  those  who  had  slighted  their 
own  mercies,  and  were  become  stumbling-blocks  to  sincere  en- 
quirers. 

20th.  Had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Centre;  where  the  life 
of  religion  also  a})peared  to  be  at  a  low  el)b.  Some  seemed  little 
better  than  blind  watchmen;  putting  but  little  restraint  on  the 
young  people ;  and  some  present,  it  seemed  to  me,  had  fallen  into 
a  spirit  of  defiance  against  religion  itself;  and  were  endeavor- 
ing to  bring  others  into  the  same  state.  The  dangerous  condi- 
tion and  influence  of  such  persons  were  plainly  held  up  to  view; 
both,  of  those  Avho  had  the  form  of  godliness,  yet  denied  the 
power  thereof;  and  those  who  were  of  corrupt  minds,  reprobate 
concerning  the  faith  of  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ.  The  declaration 
made  to  the  prophet  Ezckiel,  that  if  the  sword  destroyed  any, 
and  the  watchman  failed  to  give  them  warning,  the  blood  of  such 
should  be  ref(uired  of  him,  was  brought  into  view ;  and,  as  applica- 
ble to  parents  who  would  not  restrain  their  children,  the  case  of 
Eli,  the  high  priest;  to  whom  Samuel  declared  the  determination 
of  the  Lord,  respecting  him  and  his  house,  because  he  restrained 
not  his  sons  in  their  vileness;  the  result  of  which,  was  the  loss 
of  their  lives  in  one  day,  and  the  ark  of  God  falling  into  the 
hands  of  the  Philistines.  Some  of  these  things  were  brought 
home  closely  to  individuals  present;  and  though  the  testimony 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  173 

of  Truth  was  sharp  to  some,  others  were  tendered,  and  encour- 
aged to  give  themselves  up  into  the  Lord's  hand;  that  He  might 
prepare  them  to  stand  in  that  place,  as  witnesses  of  his  power 
and  goodness;  and  to  be  instrumental  to  draw  others  from  the 
broad  way  into  the  way  of  holiness. 

In  some  of  these  meetings,  the  work  which  appeared  to  be 
assigned  me,  was  of  such  a  laborious  nature,  and  so  little  eflect 
evident,  that  I  was,  at  times,  discouraged;  sometimes  thought 
that  perhaps  I  had  mistaken  my  service ;  and  at  others,  that  I 
possessed  little  or  no  qualitieation  lor  it;  and  yet  I  could  not 
perceive  that  1  had  done  wrong;  and  therefoi"e  endeavored 
to  hold  on,  in  dedication  to  the  Lord's  will,  and  in  humble  reli- 
ance upon  Him,  for  help  to  fulfil  whatever  might  be  my  duty. 

24th  and  25th.  Had  appointed  meetings  at  Providence  and 
Sewickly;  in  which  Divine  kindness  was  manifested  towards 
me,  a  poor  creature;  and  for  the  comforting,  strengthening  and 
arousing  of  individuals,  in  the  meetings.  In  both  there  ap- 
peared to  be  a  remnant  of  concerned  Friends;  to  whom  the 
language  of  encouragement,  to  keep  close  to  their  Lord  and 
blaster,  was  extended ;  also  some,  who  were  in  danger  of  losing 
what  they  had  once  known,  and  being  caught  by  the  stratagems 
of  the  enemy, were  w^arned  of  their  danger;  as  well  as  those 
who  were  settling  down  at  ease.  "  Such  as  we  sow,  such  shall 
w^e  reap.  If  we  sow  to  the  flesh,  we  shall  of  the  flesh  reap  cor- 
ruption; but  if  we  sow  to  the  Spirit,  we  shall  of  the  Spirit  reap 
life  everlasting."  The  certainty  of  Divine  judgment,  according 
to  the  deeds  done  in  the  bod}^,  was  enforced.  We  were  after- 
Avards  told  that  a  person  who  sat  before  me,  at  Sewickly,  and 
who  rarely  attended  Friends'  meeting,  was  a  Universalist.  He 
appeai'ed  to  be  wrought  upon. 

Sewickly  meeting  finished  our  visit  in  this  journey;  and  under 
a  tendering  feeling  of  the  condescension  and  goodness  of  our 
Divine  Master,  thanksgiving  for  mercies  past,  and  prayer  for 
their  continuance,  in  the  various  conflicts  and  close  provings,  yet 
to  be  passed  through,  were  offered  to  Him ;  and  we  parted  from 
our  friends  with  sentiments  of  near  afi'ection,  and  with  fervent 
desire  for  our  mutual  preservation,  in  our  various  allotments  in 
the  world  and  in  the  church. 

There  are  within  the  limits  of  this  Quarterly  Meeting,  a  num- 
ber of  valuable,  well-qualified  Friends,  who  evince  a  proper 
concern  for  the  maintenance  of  our  principles  and  discipline ; 


174  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIA:\I    EVANS. 

but  the  proportion  who  liave  fallen  into  the  love  of  the  world, 
and  feel  little  or  no  interest  in  those  things,  is  so  great,  that, 
taken  together,  the  bod}-  of  Friends  here,  may  be  said  to  be  in 
a  weak  condition.  Cases  of  violation  of  the  discipline  are  left 
too  long  without  attention,  in  some  places.  The  number  of 
members  at  Sandj'  Hill  is  sufficient  to  make  a  reputable  meet- 
ing; but  after  long  labor,  they  were  deprived  of  their  meeting, 
in  consequence  of  almost  total  apathy  and  delinquency.  Such 
an  instance  I  was  never  before  acquainted  with ;  and  it  was  sor- 
row-ful,  in  riding  from  the  meeting-house,  to  have  pointed  out 
the  residences  of  many,  either  families,  or  parts  of  families, 
belonging  to  the  Societ}-,  within  its  former  limits;  and  who, 
young  and  old,  were  they  alive  in  the  Truth,  might  hold  up  a 
noble  testimony  in  that  neighborhood.  Surely  the  judgments 
of  the  Lord  will  overtake  such  as  thus  turn  their  back  upon  his 
mercies,  and  the  opportunities  placed  within  their  reach,  to 
grow  in  good  liking  before  Him.  I  felt  much  for  some,  on 
whom  the  principal  weight  of  the  affairs  of  the  Society  rests 
here;  and  much  desired  their  faithfulness.  Though  they  may 
feel  burdened  with  so  great  part  of  the  care  of  the  church,  and 
some  lukewarm  professors,  like  the  murmuring  Israelites,  may 
charge  them  with  taking  too  much  upon  themselves,  yet  I  be- 
lieved it  was  necessary  that  they  should  be  diligent  and  faith- 
ful; not  regarding  the  insinuations  of  the  scornful;  and  they 
would  receive  a  blessed  reward  of  precious  peace;  and  be  the 
means  of  guarding  the  young  people  from  the  inroads  of  loose- 
ness and  libertinism.  The  upright  example  of  a  few,  often  ex- 
erts a  very  valuable  preserving  influence  ;  it  is  like  the  salt  that 
prevents  corruption,  and  gives  a  good  savor. 

On  sixth-day,  23d,  we  rode  to  Pittsburg,  in  hopes  of  finding  a 
canal-boat  to  leave  the  city  in  the  morning,  but  were  disai>- 
pointed  ;  and  detained  at  an  inn  till  evening.  To  fill  up  the  day, 
we  walked  through  the  town  and  its  environs.  AVere  it  not 
for  the  black  appearance,  which  the  smoke  of  bituminous  coal 
burnt  here,  gives  the  city,  it  would  bo  a  very  pleasant  looking 
place.  The  trade  which  centres  hero,  from  the  Monongahela, 
Allegheny,  and  Ohio  IJivers,  and  the  canal  aiul  railroad  from 
Philadelphia,  makes  it  a  lively  business  town.  It  is  also  a  great 
manufacturing  town;  particularly  in  iron  and  glass;  and  a 
large  number  of  steamboats  ascend  the  Ohio,  to  load  and  unload 
at  its  wharves.     During  the  day,  the  retrospect  of  the  embassy, 


JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  175 

just  finished,  afiforded  a  flow,  at  times,  of  as  peaceful  feeling  as 
I  have  ever  Avitnessed  on  such  occasions.  About  9  o'clock  in 
the  evening,  2od  of  Xinth  month,  we  took  the  canal-boat,  and 
reached  our  beloved  homes  on  third-day,  the  27th,  in  good 
health.  I  found  my  family  in  their  usual  health,  excepting  our 
afflicted  daughter;  who  had  wasted  much  in  my  absence,  l)y 
accumulated  disease.  But  her  mind  was  preserved  in  much 
sweetness  and  calmness.  She  continued  to  decline,  until  her 
sufferings  were  terminated  by  death,  on  the  13th  of  Eleventh 
month,  aged  eleven  years.  We  all  felt  the  removal  of  her 
purified  spii"it  from  amongst  us,  her  solidity  and  example  pro- 
ducing a  useful  eifect  upon  the  family. 

1837.  By  appointment  of  the  Yearly  Meeting,  in  company"  Avith 
my  friend  Benjamin  Cooper,  I  went  to  Plainfield,  New  Jersey ;  and 
attended  their  Monthly  Meeting,  and  the  Quarterly  Meeting  of 
Shrewsbury  and  Rahway,  held  there.  These  meetings  have 
been  much  reduced  by  the  separation.  For  the  few  who  have 
been  left  to  maintain  our  discipline  and  testimonies,  we  felt  sin- 
cere desires  that  their  hands  may  be  strengthened ;  and  I  was 
enabled  to  labor  among  them,  to  dissuade  from  the  influence  of 
the  spirit  and  fVishions  of  the  world,  and  to  draw  them  into 
closer  fellowship  with  our  Holy  Leader;  that  they  might  hold 
up  a  clearer  light  among  the  people,  and  experience  a  growth  in 
the  blessed  Truth  amongst  themselves.  We  were  brought  near 
to  one  another,  and  parted  with  feelings  of  mutual  love  and  de- 
sire for  each  other's  welfare. 

Our  last  Yearly  Meeting  having  referred  the  slavery  of  the 
blacks  in  this  country,  to  the  consideration  of  the  Meeting  for 
Sufte rings,  that  if  way  opened  for  it,  it  might  addi*ess  the  citi- 
zens of  the  United  States  on  the  subject,  it  was  regularly 
brought  before  the  meeting,  at  its  various  sittings.  It  was  be- 
lieved that  such  an  address  might  be  prepared,  and  circulated 
with  benefit ;  that  the  attention  of  the  public  mind  was  much 
awakened  to  the  importance  of  the  subject ;  and  many  of  the 
members  of  our  Society,  feeling  a  deep  interest  in  the  abolition 
of  this  abominable  institution,  were  joining  with  others,  in  such 
measures,  as  they  judged  would  conduce  to  its  extirpation ; 
Avhile,  as  a  religious  body,  we  were  not,  at  the  present  time, 
taking  any  active  steps  in  it.  From  these  considerations,  and 
especially  on  account  of  the  responsibility  which  our  silence  in- 
creased upon  ourselves,  some  were  desirous  that  the  present 


176  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

time  might  not  be  suflfered  to  pass  unimproved;  believing  that 
Friends,  might  be  instrumental  in  strengthening  the  hands  of 
those  who  were  sincerely  laboring  to  remove  the  evil ;  awaken- 
ing others  who  had  taken  little,  or  no  hold  of  it;  and,  at  the 
same  time,  show  our  members  that  the  Society  was  alive  to  the 
subject,  and  still  maintained  the  testimony  it  has  long  held, 
against  the  oj^pression  of  that  people.  After  spending  some 
time  in  deliberating  npon  it,  in  which  a  large  number  of  the 
members  expressed  their  unity,  a  committee  was  separated  to 
prepare  an  address ;  embracing  the  wrongs  inflicted  on  the  In- 
dians, as  well  as  on  the  slave  population,  in  these  United  States. 
An  address  was  accordingly  prepared,  which,  with  some  altera- 
tions, was  adopted  by  the  meeting  in  Fourth  Month;  and  thence 
carried  up  to  the  Yearly  Meeting,  where  it  received  the  sanction 
of  that  body. 

Our  evening  meetings  closed  with  the  last  first-day  in  the 
Third  month.  They  were  generally  held  to  satisfaction,  re- 
markably quiet  and  orderly ;  a  good  degree  of  solemnity  over- 
spread the  assemblies,  and  it  appeared  that  the  desire  for  their 
continuance  in  the  winter  season  was  increasing.  If  the  minis- 
ters and  eldei'S,  and  active  members  are  preserved  in  the  unity 
of  the  Spirit,  they  will  be  seasons  of  harmonious  travail  for  the 
welfai'C  and  preservation,  one  of  another,  and  for  the  spreading 
of  the  dominion  of  Truth  within  our  borders.  There  is  a  large 
number  of  plain  young  Friends  in  this  city;  and  those  who  are 
placed  as  overseers  of  the  flock,  cannot  but  feel  a  warm  solicitude 
for  them  ;  that  they  may  give  up  all  to  follow  Christ,  and  become 
standard  bearers  and  advocates  in  his  glorious  cause. 

Our  Yearly  Meeting  held  in  the  Fourth  month  was  large. 
Much  interest  in  its  concerns  was  manifested  by  the  younger 
members,  whose  deportment  Avas  becoming  the  occasion.  We 
were  favored  with  a  good  degree  of  religious  weight  in  our  de- 
liberations throughout,  which  were  conducted  and  resulted  in 
love  and  harmony.  Our  fi'iend,  .lohn  Cox,  of  Burlington,  who 
is  in  the  eighty-third  year  of  his  age,  came  down  on  second-day, 
and  joined  us  on  third-day  morning.  He  was  very  lively  and 
pertinent  in  his  remarks,  in  application  to  several  subjects 
brought  into  view  by  the  (Queries  and  Answers.  The  number 
of  visitors  from  other  Yearly  Meetings  was  unusually  small. 
The  closing   sitting  was  considered  by  several   of   the   older 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  177 

Friends,  to  be  one  of  the  most  solemn  that  we  have  had  for 
several  years. 

Fifth  month  1st.  Our  friend,  Joseph  Gibbons,  who,  for  many 
years  has  been  a  member  and  minister  in  our  meeting,  died  this 
afternoon,  after  an  illness  of  several  weeks.  My  wife  and  my- 
self ealled  the  day  before  his  death,  to  make  inquiry  after  him, 
and  being  invited  into  his  room,  saw  that  a  great  change  had 
taken  place.  He  labored  for  breath,  and  could  say  but  a  few 
words  at  a  time.  She  remarked  that  the  work  was  finishing, 
and  that  she  believed  he  would  soon  be  released  from  his  suffer- 
ings. He  added,  he  believed  the  Lord  would  deliver  him  out  of 
all  his  troubles ;  that  the  wedding  garment  was  nearly  com- 
pleted, and  that  he  would  be  permitted  soon  to  rejoin  his  beloved 
companion,  who  had  recently  gone  before.  Soon  after,  he  said, 
"  '  Lord,  now  lettest  thou  thy  servant  depart  in  peace,  for  mine 
eyes  have  seen  thy  salvation.'  Oh,  blessed  and  glorious  conclusion 
to  come  to,  through  the  mercies  of  God  in  Christ  Jesus  our  Lord. 
I  am  a  poor,  unworthy  creature ;  it  is  all  through  mercy,  un- 
merited mercy,  unworthy  as  we  are."  He  expressed  much  love 
for  us,  and  took  an  affectionate  leave,  saying,  "  May  the  Lord 
bless  and  preserve  you  to  the  end  of  the  race ;  to  the  coming  of 
our  Lord  and  Saviour  Jesus  Christ."  On  taking  him  by  the 
hand,  I  said,  I  trusted  it  would  not  be  long  before  he  would 
be  released  from  all  his  sufferings ;  he  replied,  "  We  must  be  re- 
signed, and  wait  the  Lord's  time."  He  departed  the  next  after- 
noon, in  the  seventy-fifth  jear  of  his  age. 

To-day  our  Quarterly  Meeting  convened  in  the  western  end 
of  the  Arch  street  house ;  men  and  women  together.  It  was  a 
very  quiet,  solid  meeting  ;  and  from  the  sensations  which  clothed 
my  mind,  I  thought  the  change  from  a  separate  meeting  of  the 
sexes,  was  advantageous.  It  felt  more  like  a  religious  meeting  ; 
and  I  trust  will  prove  a  proper  step.  After  the  meeting  for 
worship,  the  women  withdrew  into  the  eastern  end,  to  transact 
their  business. 

In  the  Select  Meeting,  held  on  seventh-day  preceding,  the 
state  of  things  amongst  its  members,  was  a  little  gone  into,  and 
the  great  necessity  of  Divine  wisdom  to  guide  us,  that  we  might 
not  improperly  exalt  or  depress  any  above  or  below  what  the 
Master  appoints,  was  spoken  to. 

12th.  In  the  course  of  my  short  pilgrimage,  being  now  in 
the  fiftieth  year  of  my  age,  I  have  encountered  some  diificulties, 


178  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

and  passed  through  seasons  of  deep  discouragement  on  various 
accounts.  On  commencing  business  for  myself,  I  fully  believed 
that  my  life,  and  my  talents,  should  he  devoted  to  the  service  of 
my  Heavenly  Father.  Though  it  was  necessary  to  make  suita- 
ble provision  for  myself,  and  for  those  who  might  be  dependent 
on  me,  yet,  in  my  view,  this  was  secondary  to  the  main  object 
of  serving  Him  ;  and  through  the  aid  of  his  blessed  Spirit,  taking 
part  in  the  interests  and  concerns  of  his  church  and  people. 
Very  early  I  had  the  promise,  that  if  I  devoted  myself  to  his 
service,  I  should  never  want  food  or  raiment.  But  though  I 
fully  believed  the  certainty  of  the  promise,  and  have  never  since 
been  permitted  to  doubt  its  fulfilment ;  yet  when  things  in  the 
outward  have  worn  a  gloomy  aspect,  and  my  business  w^as  very 
small,  and  an  increasing  family  looking  to  me  for  their  daily 
supplies,  my  faith  at  times  has  been  closely  proved.  This  has 
had  a  very  humbling  effect ;  and  while  I  have  been  weaned 
from  the  desire  after  outward  things,  both  riches  and  temporal 
enjoyments,  it  has  tended  to  bring  me  many  times,  in  a  pros- 
trated state  of  mind,  to  his  footstool,  and  to  lay  all  before  Him, 
and  ask  for  the  continuance  of  his  countenance  and  mercy  to- 
wards me,  a  poor  unworthy  creature  before  Him.  Herein  I 
have  experienced  the  renewed  extendings  of  his  unmerited  re- 
gard ;  the  load  under  which  m}^  mind  had  been  laboring,  was 
for  the  present,  removed  ;  and  ability  was  received  to  feel  with 
and  for  the  afflicted,  and  to  hold  forth  to  them  the  language  of 
consolation,  in  their  secret  and  bitter  conflicts.  Under  the  dis- 
cipline of  the  Cross  of  Christ,  I  have  been  convinced  that  much 
too  great  a  part  of  the  time,  and  of  the  energies  of  body  and 
mind,  are  absorbed  in  the  pui'suit  of  woi'ldly  things.  A  great 
part  of  mankind  miss  of  the  true  enjoyment  of  the  provisions 
of  a  beneficent  Providence,  even  after  they  gain  them,  for  want 
of  living  to  Him,  and  not  to  themselves.  The}-  are  kept  either 
in  a  constant  hurried  frame  of  mind,  confused,  or  in  doubt  what 
to  lay  hold  of  to  obtain  happiness,  or  they  settle  down  in  the 
love  of  money;  hoarding  it,  and  husbanding  it,  out  of  a  sordid 
attachment  to  it.  They  are  in  bonds;  unal)le  to  enjoy,  or  to 
see  in  what  true  enjoyment  consists.  The  work  of  religion  is 
cither  overlooked,  rarely  attended  to,  or  postponed  to  a  future 
day,  when  they  think  it  Aviil  suit  their  inclination  and  conve- 
nience. I  am  convinced  that  it  is  in  our  power,  as  we  live  in 
obedience  to  the  Divine  will,  tolind  time  for  all  our  duties,  social 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  179 

and  religious.  Even  the  poor,  with  common  industry;  as  their 
desires  and  expenses  are  circumscribed  by  the  Divine  will,  may, 
through  his  blessing,  procure  sufficient  food  and  raiment ;  and 
when  it  is  projier  to  leave  their  outward  business,  in  order  to  per- 
form their  religious  duties,  they  may  confide  in  his  superintending 
providence  over  their  aifairs,  and  their  families,  so  that  they  shall 
not  suffer  from  their  faithfulness.  How  simple,  and  how  few  are 
the  wants  of  such !  They  do  not  envy  the  rich,  nor  covet  their  pos- 
sessions. "Their  delight  is  in  the  law  of  the  Lord,  and  therein 
the)'  meditate  day  and  night."  They  eat  their  bread  with  glad- 
ness and  singleness  of  heart.  Their  labors  and  their  rest  are  sweet ; 
and  as  they  seek  first  the  kingdom  of  God  and  the  righteousness 
thereof,  all  those  things  necessary  to  their  accommodation,  will 
be  added.  Here  the  devoted  follower  of  Christ  experiences  the 
right  use  of  his  time  and  talents;  and  the  true  enjoyment  of  the 
various  blessings  which  his  Heavenlj-  Father  provides,  and  be- 
stows upon  him.  As  time  and  the  energies  of  body  and  mind  arc 
wasting  away,  he  is  growing  in  grace,  and  in  the  knowledge  of 
those  things  which  pertain  to  life  and  salvation ;  he  is  laying  up 
treasure  in  heaven,  where  his  heart  centres ;  and  he  becomes 
more  and  more  established  upon  that  Eock,  against  which  death, 
hell,  and  the  grave,  cannot  prevail. 

Our  country  has  now  been  at  peace  with  other  nations  for 
several  years — the  channels  of  trade,  both  at  home  and  with 
foreign  nations,  have  been  open,  and  the  inhabitants  have  very 
extensively  engaged  in  it.  The  poor  colored  population,  held 
in  bonds  in  this  land,  have  been  bought  and  sold,  and  taken  to 
the  South  and  Southwest,  where  they  have  been  driven  and 
worked  very  hard.  The  profits  of  their  labor  have  whetted  the 
appetite  of  the  slave-holder  for  enlarging  his  02:)erations ;  and 
the  disposition  to  secure  himself  against  the  possibilit}^  of  losing 
his  bondmen  through  the  growing  opposition  to  the  system  in 
the  North,  has  strengthened,  and  his  excitability  increased. 
Pride  and  corruption  have  risen  to  a  great  height. 

Not  only  towards  the  poor  slaves  have  injustice  and  ci'uelty 
been  practised,  but  the  poor  Indians  in  the  Southern  States  have 
felt  their  dreadful  effects,  in  a  very  sorrowful  manner.  In  vio- 
lation of  treaties,  and  of  the  solemn  requisitions  of  the  precepts 
of  Christ,  they  have  been  abused ;  their  situation  on  their  own 
lands  rendered  uncertain  and  dangerous  ;  and  they  at  last  com- 
pelled to  migrate  into  uncultivated  regions ;  where,  it  is  said, 


180  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

not  a  few  liave  perished  from  want.  While  the  citizens  of  these 
United  States  have  been  living  in  abundance,  those  men,  the 
descendants  of  Africa,  and  the  natives,  once  the  owners  of 
the  country,  have  been  subjected  to  a  life  of  rigor  and  dis- 
tress, and  their  appeals  disregarded.  Can  it  be  a  matter  of 
wonder,  if  the  judgments  of  the  Almighty  should  overtake  a 
people,  guilty  of  such  oppression  and  injustice?  Last  year  the 
crops  of  grain,  particularly  of  wheat  and  rye,  fell  much  short 
of  the  usual  product,  and  at  the  present  juncture  the  trade 
of  the  country  has  been  suddenly  arrested ;  many  wealthy 
merchants  have  failed ;  and  distress  and  embarrassment  have 
overspread  the  community.  It  has  fallen  very  heavily  upon  the 
South.  Their  produce  has  declined  nearly  one  half  in  price,  and 
it  is  said  that  some  have  been  compelled  to  sell  part  of  their 
slaves,  to  procure  corn  to  subsist  the  rest.  The  Lord  is  slow  to 
anger,  and  of  great  compassion ;  but  He  cannot  be  partial ;  his 
judgments  will  not  always  sleep.  If  the  hand  of  violence  con- 
tinues to  rest  upon  the  helpless  and  unoffending,  we  shall  expe- 
rience them  to  be  again  and  again  j)Oured  out  upon  us. 

15th.  A  Convention  to  revise  and  prepare  a  constitution  for 
the  State  of  Pennsylvania,  being  now  in  session,  such  mem- 
bers of  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  as  could  be  conveniently  no- 
tified, met  this  afternoon  to  consider  whether  the  cause  of  Truth 
could  be  promoted,  by  an  application  to  that  body  to  alter  the 
article  on  the  militia,  so  as  to  exonerate  Friends,  and  all  other 
conscientious  persons,  from  training  or  serving  in  war,  or  pay- 
ing any  fine  for  declining  to  do  so.  Four  Friends  were  selected 
to  draft  a  memorial  to  that  body  on  the  occasion. 

19th.  Sixteen  members  of  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  met 
to-day  to  consider  the  essay  of  a  memorial,  prepared  to  be  laid 
before  the  Convention.  The  subject  was  renewedly  deliberated 
on  ;  and  after  some  time  spent  in  examining  the  document,  it  was 
ado])ted ;  and  three  Friends  were  appointed  to  take  it  to  Har- 
risljurg. 

25th.  To-day  I  laid  before  the  Monthly  Meeting  a  prospect, 
with  which  my  mind  has  been  impressed  for  some  time,  to  at- 
tend the  New  England  Yearly  Meeting,  and  visit  a  few  meet- 
ings in  the  neighborhood  of  Newport;  which  I  had  in  view 
when  in  that  country  a  few  years  ago.  The  concern  was  owned, 
and  a  minute  granted. 

31st.     After  a  silence  of  nearly  six  months,  in  our  own  meet- 


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ing,  it  appeared  to  bo  mj  place  this  morning,  to  warn  some  wlio 
were  growing  lukewarm,  and  gradually  swerving  from  the 
Htrait  and  narrow  way ;  of  the  loss  they  were  sustaining,  and 
the  danger  to  which  they  are  exposed.  Many  are  called,  but 
few  are  chosen.  Though  they  may  at  first  obey  the  call ;  yet 
through  unwatchfulness,  and  an  unwillingness  to  suffer  the  seed 
i^own  in  their  hearts  to  take  deep  root,  and  spread  there;  like 
those  comparable  to  stony  places ;  when  trial  overtakes  them, 
the  plant  of  renown  withers,  and  they  never  bring  forth  fruit  to 
the  praise  of  the  heavenly  Husbandman. 

Sixth  month  8th.  I  set  off,  accompanied  by  my  friend,  Jo- 
seph Snowdon,  to  attend  the  Yearly  Meeting  on  Ehode  Island, 
and  a  few  meetings  belonging  to  it.  We  got  into  New  York 
about  two  o'clock ;  left  it  at  five  o'clock ;  and  at  six  on  the  fol- 
lowing morning,  found  ourselves  entering  Newjjort  harbor.  On 
landing,  we  rode  out  to  David  Buffum's. 

Seventh-day  morning,  the  10th.  went  to  Portsmouth,  and  at- 
tended the  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders  ;  which,  through  the 
most  of  it,  was  a  heavy  time.  The  clerk  remarked,  just  before 
concluding  the  meeting,  that  things  had  not  passed  on  as  cur- 
rently as  was  usual ;  and  wished  every  one  to  search  for  the 
obstruction.  I  had  some  serious  feelings,  and  made  some  re- 
marks in  relation  to  the  importance  of  holding  a  Yearly  Meeting ; 
and  the  necessity  of  every  one  keeping  their  respective  places,  so 
as  to  act  under  Divine  direction.  It  was  no  uncommon  thing 
to  feel  bai-ren,  and  destitute  of  Divine  good,  at  the  commence- 
ment of  such  meetings ;  and  if  we  made  a  right  use  of  such 
dispensations,  their  proper  effect  would  be  to  drive  us  to  the 
Master's  feet;  there  to  wait  for  his  arising,  to  Cjualify  for  his 
work ;  and  when  He  puts  forth  his  sheep  He  will  go  before  them. 
We  must  be  emptied  before  wo  are  prepared  to  be  filled ;  and 
as  we  are  engaged  to  keep  our  habitations  in  the  Truth,  we 
shall,  in  his  time,  find  that  there  is  bread  enough  in  his  house, 
and  to  spare.  Several  Friends  spoke  a  little  afterward,  and  ww 
were  in  some  degree  quickened  together.  Many  of  the  mem- 
bers present,  whom  I  had  seen  in  the  course  of  my  journey  in 
the  Eastern  States,  a  few  years  ago,  expressed  their  satisfaction 
in  now  seeing  me  with  them,  and  the  feeling  was  reciprocal. 
In  the  afternoon  attended  the  Meetino-  for  Sufterino-s. 

11th.  We  staid  at  Portsmouth,  and  attended  the  morning 
meeting.  It  was  composed  of  many  persons  not  of  our  pro- 
13 


182  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

fession,  and  a  prett}^  large  collection  of  Friends.  Win.  Kenard, 
of  Ohio,  spoke  some  time  very  suitably ;  and  my  mind  being 
brought  under  exercise,  I  believed  it  right  to  hold  up  to  view 
the  coincidence  between  the  prophetic  testimonies  of  the  Psal- 
mist and  Isaiah,  and  that  of  our  blessed  Lord  himself;  as  also 
of  the  Apostle  Peter  respecting  Him ;  that  He  is  the  only  way 
by  which  we  can  come  to  the  Father,  and  be  made  partakers  of 
salvation.  I  was  concerned  to  show  how  we  were  to  become 
true  believers  in  Christ,  by  obedience  ;  by  receiving  Him  in  his 
coming  into  our  hearts ;  and  thus  being  true  witnesses  of  his 
power  and  goodness,  in  delivering  us  from  the  bondage  of  cor- 
ruption, and  bringing  us  into  the  enjoyment  of  the  liberty  of 
his  sons.  The  young  people  were  affectionately  invited  to  en- 
list under  his  banner ;  that  they  might  receive  the  blessings 
which  He  has  in  store  for  them.  The  awful  consequences  of  un- 
belief, and  a  wilful  denial  of  the  Lord  Jesus,  were  brought  into 
view;  also  the  wretched  condition  of  him  whose  only  hope  is 
in  unbelief,  and  in  destroying  the  authority  of  the  holy  Scrip- 
tui'es.  They  were  solemnly  cautioned  against  this  dark  spirit, 
and  invited  openly  to  confess  the  Lord  Jesus  Christ  before  men, 
in  their  lives  and  conduct. 

In  the  afternoon  we  came  to  ISTewport,  and  attended  a  very 
large  meeting  there.  Several  Friends  boi-e  testimony  to  the 
Truth ;  and  towards  the  close  it  was  imj)ressed  on  me,  to  show 
that  religion  is  not  a  speculative  thing,  but  a  real,  heartfelt 
work.  The  prophet  Malachi  compared  the  dispensation,  to  be 
afterwards  introduced,  to  the  burning  of  an  oven.  John,  the 
forerunner,  said,  that  the  axe  was  laid  to  the  root  of  the  trees, 
and  every  tree  that  brought  not  forth  good  fruit,  was  to  be  hewn 
down,  and  cast  into  the  fii*e.  He  that  sent  bim  to  baptize,  said, 
"Upon  whom  thou  shalt  see  the  Spirit  descending,  and  remain- 
ing on  him,  the  same  is  He  which  baptizeth  with  the  Holy  Ghost." 
"  Whose  fan  is  in  his  hand,  and  He  shall  thoroughly  purge  his 
floor,  and  Avill  gather  the  wheat  into  his  garner;  but  the  chaff 
He  will  burn  with  fire  unquenchable."  Here  the  opei"ation  of 
Christ's  religion  is,  in  three  places,  compared  to  fire.  Thence  I 
was  led  to  describe  some  of  its  effects,  in  rooting  out  and  destroy- 
ing every  evil  ])lant  and  fruit  in  us;  and  thereby  preparing  the 
soul  to  receive  Christ,  and  his  kingdom  and  government.  Where 
this  is  experienced,  love  prevails ;  first  to  our  heavenly  Father,  and 
then  towards  one  another,  and  all  mankind.     Here,  wars  and 


JOURNAL   OP  WILLIAM   EA^ANS.  183 

confusion  are  brought  to  an  end ;  and  all  such,  being  baptized 
by  one  Spirit  into  one  body,  become  united  together  in  spread- 
ing the  kingdom  of  the  Messiah  ;  whose  design  and  work  it  is, 
that  it  may  extend  from  sea  to  sea,  and  from  the  river  to  the 
ends  of  the  earth. 

12th,  13th  and  14th.  Attended  the  several  sittings  of  the 
Yearly  Meeting ;  in  which  way  opened  to  hold  forth  the  ground 
on  which  our  religious  Society  was  gathered ;  that  of  entire  de- 
pendence upon  the  Minister  of  the  Sanctuary,  in  all  its  reli- 
gious assemblies.  The  importance  of  rightly  maintaining  our 
discipline,  was  also  adverted  to;  as  a  means  of  preservation  to 
the  flock ;  and  a  source  of  instruction  and  of  useful  exercise  of  the 
gifts  and  faculties  bestowed  upon  us.  The  young  people  were 
called  upon  to  dedicate  themselves  to  his  service ;  and  as  they 
were  properly  concerned,  they  would  be  benefitted  by  the  exam- 
ple and  wisdom  of  their  elders ;  and  feel  their  hearts  knit  to 
one  another,  and  to  their  more  advanced  brethren,  as  that  of 
Jonathan  and  David  were,  in  the  work  of  the  Lord,  in  their 
day. 

The  practice,  which  has  obtained  in  a  few  places,  of  opening 
Friends'  meeting-houses,  for  other  purposes  than  those  of  the 
concerns  of  oiir  Society,  having  rested  much  with  me,  I  men- 
tioned it  at  the  close  of  the  afternoon  meeting,  on  third-day,  for 
the  consideration  of  Friends,  in  their  different  localities.  It  was 
taken  up  by  the  meeting;  and  the  practice  disapproved;  and 
the  clerk  directed  to  prepare  a  minute  on  the  occasion,  to  go  to 
the  subordinate  meetings ;  which  was  adopted  the  following  af- 
ternoon. 

The  Yearly  Meeting  concluded,  with  one  sitting,  on  sixth-day ; 
having  been  enabled,  through  Divine  kindness,  to  conduct  and 
result  its  business  in  much  harmony.  When  such  a  feeling  pre- 
vails, it  tends  to  unite  Friends  of  the  same  meeting  to  each  other, 
and  also  to  their  visitors,  in  stronger  fellowship ;  by  which  we 
may  be  qualified  more  availingly  to  advance  the  cause  in  which 
we  all  profess  to  be  engaged  ;  sectional  feeling  and  prejudices,  if 
they  exist,  come  to  be  softened  down ;  and  the  way  opened  to 
benefit,  and  be  benefitted  by,  one  another.  However  great  the 
attainments  of  any  may  be,  if  they  keep  in  a  proper  disposition, 
they  will  find  something  to  instruct  and  enlighten  them,  in 
almost  all  places ;  and  such  a  state  of  mind  is  peculiarly  need- 
ful, to  fit  us  to  impart  instruction  to  others.  A  due  regard  for  the 


184:  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS, 

peculiar  habits  and  views  of  those  we  visit;  but  without  giving 
away  the  truth  and  the  judgment  of  Truth;  will  often  render  it 
more  practicable,  to  convey  in  a  suitable  way,  our  own  senti- 
ments, and  availiiigl}'  impress  them  upon  others. 

On  the  afternoon  of  sixth-day,  we  went  by  steamboat  to  Pro- 
vidence; attended  their  meeting -for  worship  on  first-day  morn- 
ing; and  were  at  the  boarding-school  in  the  afternoon;  in 
both  w^hich,  Divine  help  was  granted  to  preach  the  gospel.  We 
sat  an  hour  and  a  half,  before  the  way  opened  for  me  to  say 
anything ;  but  afterwards  a  qualification  was  granted,  to  enforce 
the  importance  of  co-operating  with  the  means  which  Divine 
mere}'  has  provided,  to  enable  man  to  Avork  out  the  salvation 
of  the  soul.  This  is  very  simple  in  its  requisitions;  but  must, 
nevertheless,  be  accepted  and  obeyed ;  if  it  is  not,  we  shall  be 
rejected  and  left  to  ourselves.  The  expressions  were  brought 
into  view,  "They  have  Moses  and  the  prophets,  let  them  hear 
them  ;"  "  If  they  hear  not  Moses  and  the  prophets,  neither  will 
they  be  persuaded  though  one  rose  from  the  dead."  Naaman, 
the  Syrian,  was  oftendcd  at  the  simjilicity  of  the  means  pointed 
out  for  his  cure;  but  when  he  yielded,  it  effected  the  object,  and 
his  flesh  returned  as  that  of  a  little  child.  It  was  a  pretty 
open  time. 

In  the  afternoon,  the  protection  of  our  Heavenly  Father,  ex- 
tended to  Jacob  and  Joseph,  when  separated  from  parental  care, 
was  held  up  to  the  view  of  the  children,  at  the  boarding-school; 
and  their  caretakers  were  encouraged  to  apply  for  that  wisdom 
which  is  derived  from  above,  to  enable  them  to  go  in  and  out 
rightly  before  their  interesting  charge;  and  so  to  govern  them, 
as  to  bring  them  to  Christ;  that  they  might  be  prepared,  as 
good  ground,  to  receive  the  precious  seed  of  the  kingdom  in 
their  hearts. 

19th.  We  had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Cranston  in  the 
morning,  and  one  at  Greenwich  in  the  afternoon.  They  were 
both  seasons  of  Divine  favor.  In  the  latter,  the  caution  of  the 
Apostle,  to  "Beware  lest  any  man  spoil  you  through  philosophy 
and  vain  deceit,"  &c.,  was  impressed  on  the  audience;  and  the 
danger  of  a  captious,  cavilling  spirit  pointed  out;  and  the  visit- 
ed souls  of  little  experience,  cautioned  against  talking  away  re- 
ligious convictions  and  impressions,  by  which  they  would  suffer 
loss;  and  to  beware  of  sceptical   persons,  who  would  watch  to 


JOURNAL   OF   -SVILLIAM    EVANS.  185 

betray  them,   and   turn   them   aside   from   the   truths  of  the 
gospel. 

"We  went  home  with  our  friend  T.  H.,  where  ^ye  passed  the 
evening  and  following  morning,  very  agreeably,  the  weather 
proving  rainy.  Here  we  were  furnished  with  a  chaise,  and 
piloted  to  Ilopkinton ;  where  we  had  an  appointed  meeting 
in  the  morning  (21st ;)  and  one  in  the  afternoon  at  Pachmond  ; 
both  of  them  rather  trj'ing;  though  in  the  latter  part  of  the 
first,  Truth  rose  into  dominion,  after  a  drowsy,  lethargic  spirit 
was  exposed  and  reproved. 

On  the  22d,  attended  Towerhill  Meeting,  and  on  the  23d,  had 
an  appointed  meeting  on  Canonicut  Island.  The  first  was  a 
very  laborious  meeting;  the  spirit  of  the  world  having  gained 
such  ascendency  in  some,  that  they  appeared  to  be  almost  SAval- 
lowed  up  by  their  various  pursuits;  so  as  to  give  little  or  no 
time  to  the  great  work  of  salvation.  Such,  occasion  much  pain- 
ful feeling  to  those  who  visit  them  in  the  love  of  the  gospel ; 
and  block  up  the  way  for  the  stream  of  comfort  and  consola- 
tion, to  flow  to  the  weary,  yet  pursuing  pilgrim. 

After  dining  with  our  friends  J.  and  M.  E.,  who  reside  on 
Point  Judith,  we  walked  down  to  the  seaside  to  view  a  large 
stone  wharf,  which  a  company  were  building  for  a  steamboat 
landing.  It  was  pleasant  once  more  to  visit  the  house  of  these 
Priends,  who  accompanied  me  in  1823,  from  the  Yearly  Meet- 
ing at  Newport,  to  Canonicut;  where  I  held  my  first  appointed 
meeting. 

Theii-  son  kindly  conveyed  us,  after  taking  tea,  to  the  house  of 
a  Priend,  residing  about  a  mile  from  the  ferry ;  and  in  the  morning, 
we  had  a  pleasant  passage  back  to  the  Island;  the  meeting  was 
pretty  sjitisfactory.  We  dined  at  J.  G.'s;  his  sister  Anne,  a 
minister,  is  in  her  eighty-fifth  year.  She  seemed  to  be  in  a 
humble,  confiding  state  of  mind ;  expressing  thankfulness  that 
her  Heavenly  Father  had  granted  her  the  gift  of  his  Holy 
Spirit;  which  had  been  her  support  under  many  trials,  and  was 
her  comforter  in  the  decline  of  bodily  and  mental  strength. 

In  the  afternoon  we  took  steamboat  at  Newport  for  New 
York ;  and  on  the  following  morning,  landed  and  went  to  our 
friends  T.  and  H.  Eddy's.  On  first-day,  25th,  attended  the 
morning  and  afternoon  meetings.  In  the  first.  Truth  opened 
the  way  to  set  forth  the  necessity  of  faith  in  God ;  without 
which  it  is  impossible  to  please  Him;  that  faith  which  gives 


186  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

victory  over  our  corrupt  propensities,  and  through  which  we 
are  enabled  to  bring  forth  the  fruits  of  the  Holy  Spirit;  for  as 
the  body  without  the  spirit  is  dead,  so  faith  without  works,  is 
dead  also.  The  importance  of  coming  to  realize  the  blessings 
of  the  Gospel  of  Christ;  in  which  we  profess  to  be  true  be- 
lievers; not  contenting  ourselves  in  a  mere  belief  and  profession, 
were  enforced,  under  feelings  of  love,  and  sincere  desire  for 
those  present ;  that  thus  they  might  be  preachers  of  righteous- 
ness in  life  and  conversation ;  and  lights  to  others,  in  the  midst  of 
a  worldly  minded  and  dissipated  people.  It  was  a  time  of  re- 
newed favor ;  and  prayer  was  offered  up  for  the  feeble-minded 
and  fearful,  yet  sincere  disciples  of  the  Lord  Jesus ;  that  He 
would  lift  up  his  Holy  Spirit,  as  a  standard  against  Satan,  in 
his  assaults  upon  them ;  and  strengthen  them  to  acknowledge, 
in  all  their  ways,  the  right  of  the  dear  Son  of  G-od  to  set  up  his 
kingdom,  and  rule  in  the  hearts  of  all  mankind. 

Our  beloved  and  endeared  friend  Elizabeth  Coggeshall,  having 
received  a  severe  injury  from  a  fall,  a  few  days  before  we 
reached  the  city;  on  going  to  see  her,  she  expressed  much 
thankfulness  that  her  life  was  not  taken  in  that  manner;  and 
that  not  even  a  bone  was  broken.  Yet  in  a  retrospect  of  the 
many  trials  which,  in  the  course  of  her  life,  had  fallen  to  her 
lot,  she  was  much  affected.  I  endeavored  to  comfort  her  with 
the  fact,  that  in  the  midst  of  all  her  deep  afflictions,  she  had  en- 
deavored to  show  forth  the  efficacy  of  the  religion  of  the  Lord 
Jesus;  and  in  the  end,  as  she  persevered,  all  would  be  well  with 
her.  She  was  a  strength  to  her  friends  in  the  consistent  exam- 
ple which  she  set,  by  her  meekness  and  cheerfulness  under 
affliction.  She  expressed  her  fellowship  with  me  in  the  bonds 
of  the  gospel;  which  was  encouraging,  coming  from  one  who 
had  ministered  to  me  when  I  was  an  apprentice,  and  by  her 
very  affectionate  notice,  not  only  endeared  herself,  but  the  Truth 
she  preached,  and  invited  others  to. 

Friends  showed  us  much  kind  attention  in  this  city,  though 
our  stay  was  short.  We  left  them  on  second-day  morning,  and 
reached  home  that  afternoon,  with  peaceful  and  cheerful  minds; 
under  a  hope  that  the  cause  of  Christ  had  not  suflPered  by  us ; 
and  that  H(!  had  condescended  to  open  the  way,  and  go  l)efore, 
furnishing  with  matter  for  the  states  of  the  people,  according 
to  his  Divine  appointment. 


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CHAPTEEIX. 

1837—1838. 

Memorial  to  a  Convention — ^Visits  to  Neighboring  Meetings — Abington,  Sa- 
lem and  Burlington  Quarterly  Meetings — Concern  of  the  Meeting  for  Suf- 
ferings on  account  of  the  Introduction  of  Unsound  Doctrines — Concord 
Quarterly  Meeting — Religious  Visit  within  Haddonfield  and  Burlington 
Quarterly  Meetings. 

Seventh  month  1st.  Several  da.js  of  this  week,  I  was  engaged, 
with  the  other  members  of  the  Book  Committee  of  the  Meeting 
for  Sufferings,  in  reading  and  examining  the  Journal  of  William 
Savery,  as  compiled  by  my  beloved  and  aged  father,  now  in  his 
seventy-ninth  year.  He  had  been  employed,  at  different  times, 
within  the  last  three  years,  in  transcribing  and  arranging  the 
memoranda  of  that  excellent  minister  of  the  Gospel,  and 
having  accomplished  the  undertaking,  it  was  submitted  to  this 
committee. 

10th.  A  Committee  of  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  appointed 
to  present  to  the  State  Convention,  a  memorial  relative  to  the 
clause  requiring  military  service,  or  a  fine,  went  to  Ilarrisburg 
this  day  ;  had  conversation  with  a  few  members  in  the  evening, 
and  the  following  morning  it  was  presented  and  directed  to  be 
printed.  In  conversing  with  several  of  the  members,  we  found 
a  number  who  were  disposed  to  sustain  the  views  of  Friends, 
and  to  make  such  alteration  as,  they  hoped,  would  be  a  relief 
We  pressed  upon  them  the  propriety  of  securing  the  liberty  of 
conscience  unmolested,  and  free  from  the  imposition  of  any 
penalty.  Some  were  fearful  if  they  attempted  a  direct  exemp- 
tion of  such  conscientious  persons,  they  would  be  defeated ;  but 
by  striking  out  those  words  which  were  inserted  to  relieve  them, 
and  leave  the  subject  altogether  to  the  Legislature ;  with  the 
declaration  contained  in  the  Bill  of  Eights,  that  no  human 
power  shall  in  any  case  whatever,  interfere  with  the  right  of 
conscience.  Friends  might  be  effectually  relieved;  at  least  in 
time  of  peace.  The  delegates  appeared  much  worn  with  con- 
stant application  ;  and  having  decided  to  adjourn,  they  were  too 
unsettled  to  afford  so  favorable  an  opportunity  for  impressing 


188  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

our  views  upon  them,  as  at  an  earlier  period  of  the  session. 
We  were,  however,  better  satisfied  in  going,  and  doing  what  we 
could,  than  to  defer  it  longer.     Eeturned  home  on  the  12th. 

15th.  My  wife  and  myself  went  up  this  afternoon  to  the 
residence  of  our  beloved  friends  Josiah  and  Elizabeth  Reeve,  at 
Upper  Evesham,  with  Avhom  we  have  had  a  very  agreeable  ac- 
quaintance and  intercourse  for  several  years.  They  are  elders, 
who  are  worthy  of  double  honor,  for  their  integrity  and  love  to 
the  cause  of  Truth,  and  their  faithfulness  in  its  defence  at  the 
hour  of  close  trial,  when  many  deserted  it,  and  brought  all  the 
strength  they  could  to  bear  against  it.  Judicious  in  their  notice 
of  ministers,  they  neither  shrink  from  giving  counsel  and  ad- 
monition when  it  appears  needful,  nor  from  administering  en- 
couragement to  those  who  are  weary,  to  occupy  their  gifts  to 
the  honor  of  the  great  Giver,  and  to  their  own  and  the  church's 
comfort.  In  their  lives  and  conversation  they  are  examples  to 
the  flock.  Shunning  parsimoniousuess  or  ostentation,  they  use 
this  world  Avithout  abusing  it ;  and  at  their  hospitable  mansion 
the  poor  meet  with  cheerful  relief,  and  the  traveller  and  friendly 
visitor  an  agreeable  retreat.  The  enjoyments  in  the  social  circle 
of  their  intimate  friends,  are  heightened  by  the  ease  and  free- 
dom with  which  they  entertain  them,  and  the  consciousness  of 
their  wishes  to  render  their  house  and  society  a  source  of  plea- 
sure, as  they  are  the  means  of  instruction  and  real  comfort. 
They  have  had  their  shai'c  of  affliction  ;  but  endeavoring  to  wash 
and  annoint,  they  have  shown  the  power  and  excellency  of  true 
religion,  in  supporting  through  it ;  and  enabling  them  to  ani- 
mate and  strengthen  others  with  the  saving  strength  with 
which  they  were  mercifully  sustained.  May  they  go  dow^n  to 
the  grave  in  peace,  having  the  full  assurance  of  hope,  that  He 
whom  they  have  served,  will  accompany  in  the  valley  of  the 
shadow  of  death,  and  graciously  confess  them  as  his  own ;  giving 
them  an  inheritance  amongst  them  that  are  sanctified,  incor- 
ruptible^ undefiled,  and  that  cannot  fade  away. 

Wo  attended  the  meeting  to  wdiich  they  belong,  on  first-day, 
and  had  to  sound  the  ahu*m  to  those  that  arc  at  ease  in  Zion ; 
who  are  in  danger  of  contenting  themselves  with  their  out- 
ward comforts,  as  being  rich  and  full,  and  having  need  of 
nothing.  A  word  of  counsel  and  w^arning  was  also  communi- 
cated to  some,  who  had  made  some  straight  steps  and  entered 
into  covenant,  Ijut  were  in  (hiiiger  of  losing  their  zeal,  and  be- 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  189 

coming  luke-warm,  and  turning  back  to  their  former  delights. 
My  beloved  "wife  was  favored  to  intercede  for  such,  and  for 
those  who  had  few  outward  heljis  on  their  spiritual  journey ;  and 
that  all  of  us  may  be  favored  with  the  choicest  of  blessings,  j)re- 
eei'vation  to  the  end. 

Seventh  month  30th.  My  wife  and  I  attended  Abington 
Meeting.  She  had  a  little  to  communicate;  but  on  the  whole,  it 
was  an  exercising  meeting.  Dined  with  Margaret  Shoemaker, 
the  widow  of  our  late  beloved  friend  Charles  Shoemaker,  de- 
ceased a  few  weeks  since.  He  was  a  man  endowed  with  a  good 
understanding;  and  through  the  power  of  Divine  G-race,  he  had 
experienced  a  change  of  heart ;  so  that  though  he  was  possessed 
of  an  extensive  knowdedge  of  men  and  things,  he  was  clothed 
with  the  humility  and  gentleness  of  the  Christian.  His  conver- 
sation was  instructive  and  interesting ;  and  his  kind  and  affable 
manners  rendered  his  society  very  agreeable  to  his  friends. 
There  was  a  dignity  in  his  deportment,  and  a  shrewdness  and 
clearness  in  his  observations,  which  commanded  respect,  while 
they  attracted  the  affection  of  his  younger  friends. 

The  Monthly  Meeting  occurring  on  the  Slst,  we  attended  it ; 
and  the  way  opened  to  hold  forth  the  efficacy  of  true  faith  in  the 
gi'ace  of  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ ;  and  the  necessity  of  keeping  it 
steadfastly  unto  the  end  ;  that  so  we  might  fight  the  good  fight, 
and  finish  our  course  with  joy,  in  the  prospect  of  receiving  the 
crown  of  righteousness,  which  is  laid  up  for  all  that  love  Him 
with  sincerity.  The  visitations  of  heavenly  love  in  early  life, 
and  the  advantage  of  obeying  the  Divine  voice,  as  Samuel  did, 
were  pressed  upon  the  young  people.  It  was  a  tendering  time 
to  many  of  them;  and  ray  dear  wife  was  favored  to  petition  the 
Father  of  mercies,  on  behalf  of  the  youth,  the  strong  men,  and 
the  fathers  and  mothers,  who  had  held  forth  a  hand  of  help  and 
encouragement  to  others ;  but  who,  as  they  drew  near  the  close 
of  their  day,  were  assailed  with  the  buffetings  of  Satan ;  and 
sometimes  with  fears  lest  they  should  not,  at  last,  find  that  rest- 
ing place  and  blessed  reward  they  longed  for.  We  returned 
home  in  the  evening,  satisfied  that  we  had  made  the  visit. 

Eighth  month  7th.  Our  Quarterly  Meeting  was  held  this 
day ;  and,  on  the  whole,  was  a  comfortable  meeting.  I  think 
we  were  helped  and  strengthened. 

10th.  To-day  I  attended  the  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Abington, 
held  at  Germantown.     It  aj)peared  to  me,  that  more  willingness 


190  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

"was  needful  among  up,  to  partake  of  the  cup  and  baptism  which 
our  Lord  partooli  of;  that  we  might  dwell  with  the  seed,  which 
is  under  suffering  in  various  ways.  Were  we  daily  preserved 
here,  we  should  become  more  quick  of  understanding  in  his 
fear ;  and  receive  qualification  from  Him  for  his  service  in  the 
church.  There  is  danger  of  being  wise  in  the  letter,  and  re- 
maining on  the  surface ;  Avithout  a  deep,  inward  acquaintance 
with  the  teachings  of  the  Holy  Sj^irit  in  our  own  hearts. 

17th.  I  went  to  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting,  held  at  Wood- 
bur}'.  After  Hinchman  Haines  and  Rebecca  Hubbs  had  borne 
testimonies,  I  was  engaged  to  hold  forth  the  importance  of 
faithfulness  in  little  things.  As  our  growth  in  the  Truth  was 
by  slow  gradations,  so  he  that  despised  the  day  of  small  things, 
would  fall  by  little  and  little.  The  departure  of  such  fi-om  the 
straight  and  narrow  way,  as  well  as  from  the  entrance  into  it, 
was  from  a  small  beginning ;  and  if  we  left  it,  though-  we  might 
think  we  kept  much  in  the  same  course,  yet  every  step  took  us 
further  and  further  from  it.  Little  things  were  often  an  indi- 
CDition  tha-t  some  were  losing  that  sincere  love  to  the  Truth,  and 
fervent  desire  to  walk  in  it,  which  they  had  once  felt.  It  might 
be  in  some  small  departures  in  dress,  language  or  manners, 
from  the  simplicity  of  the  Cross,  which  their  friends  would  be 
painfully  affected  with  ;  though  they  might  not  at  once  disclose 
to  them,  the  sorrow  and  exercise  which  it  occasioned  them. 
The  eye  which  had  been  closed,  would  be  opened  to  look  upon 
temptation  ;  and  that  eye  which  the  Lord  had  anointed  and 
opened  to  see,  in  measure,  the  beauty  and  excellency  of  the 
Truth,  would  become  dim;  and  they  would  not  be  able  to  see 
things  in  the  true  light,  as  they  had  once  seen  them.  Their 
judgment  would  be  clouded ;  and  the  way  opened  for  the  temp- 
ter to  gain  further  advantages;  and  having  departed  from  the 
path  cast  up  ihr  the  Lord's  children  to  walk  in,  they  could  not 
foresee  where  they  might  be  permitted  to  wander,  or  into  what 
temptation  they  might  fall.  Warning  and  invitation  wore  ex- 
tended to  the  ycmth  ;  an<l  the  hinguage  of  encouragement  to  the 
honest-hearted  travellers,  who  might,  in  this  day  of  strip})ing, 
be  like  one  of  a  family  and  two  of  a  tribe ;  mourning  over  the 
desolations  of  Zion. 

28th.  My  wife  and  myself  went  to  Burlington,  to  attend 
the  Quarterly  Meeting.  Some  ability  was  furnished  to  labor 
amongst  them,  particularly  in  the  meeting  held  on  third-day. 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  191 

It  appeared  to  bo  my  place  to  hold  up  the  gloiy  of  the  Gospel 
dispensation;  which  consists  in  the  universal  outpouring  of  the 
Lord's  Spirit  on  all  flesh,  agi-eoably  to  the  prophecy  of  Joel,  and 
the  revelations  made  to  John  the  beloved  apostle;  when  he  saw 
the  pure  river  of  the  water  of  life,  clear  as  crystal,  proceeding 
out  of  the  throne  of  God  and  of  the  Lamb ;  and  the  universal 
invitation  to  partake  of  it,  in  this  language:  "The  Spirit  and 
the  bride  say,  come :  and  let  him  that  heareth  say,  come  :  and 
let  him  that  is  athirst  come;  and  whosoever  will,  let  him  take 
the  water  of  life  freely."  The  necessity  of  obedience  to  the 
early  manifestations  of  this  Divine  Spirit,  which,  as  it  is  re- 
ceived and  obeyed,  becomes  as  a  well  of  living  water  to  the  thirsty 
soul ;  the  gradations  by  which  the  babes  in  Christ  witness  a 
growth  to  the  state  of  young  men  and  strong  men  in  Him,  and 
through  mercy,  if  they  persevere,  become  established  as  pillars 
in  the  Lord's  house,  where  the  streams  of  that  river  "  make  glad 
the  city  of  God,  the  holy  places  of  the  tabernacle  of  the  Most 
High,"  were  opened  and  enforced,  under  the  feeling  and  autho- 
rity of  Divine  love.  Near  the  close,  the  condition  of  one  or 
more,  who  had  long  resisted  the  strivings  of  this  Spirit,  and 
might  be  in  danger  of  hearing  the  awful  sentence,  "Let  him 
that  is  filthy  be  filthy  still,"  was  closely  spoken  to,  and  encour- 
aged to  lay  hold  of  the  renewed  offers  of  Holy  Help.  My  be- 
loved wife  closed  the  meeting  with  reverent,  fervent  prayer; 
in  which  the  last  state  was  feelingly  included;  also  the  dear 
children,  the  lambs  of  the  fold;  the  young  and  strong;  and 
those  whose  earthly  tabernacles  were  tottering,  but  who  had 
endeavored  to  serve  the  Lord  in  their  generation.  It  was  a 
time  of  renewed  favor,  for  which  we  humbly  desired  to  ascribe 
praise,  and  thanksgiving,  and  gratitude  to  our  Heavenly  Father. 
We  returned  home  next  morning. 

Ninth  month  5th.  Went  to  Westtown  Boarding  School, 
where  the  committee  met  on  the  6th.  We  found  the  concerns 
of  the  institution  in  their  usual  condition.  The  difficulty  of  ob- 
tai  ning  teachers,  especially  men  of  proper  age,  forms  an  obsta- 
cle in  the  advancement  of  the  interests  of  that  seminary. 

14th.  We  attended  Haddonfield  Quarterly  Meeting,  in  which 
my  wife  had  good  service.  In  that  for  ministers  and  elders,  I 
felt  it  impressed  on  me  to  revive  the  importance  of  keeping  our 
places  in  the  Truth.  That  however  poor  and  stripped  we  may 
be;  whether  despised  and  rejected  of  men;  if  our  life  is  preserved; 


192  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

if  we  are  deriving  our  strength  from  the  true  Vine,  all  else  will 
be  unimportant.  It  is  only  as  we  keep  here,  that  we  shall  be 
made  quick  of  understanding,  to  detect  the  wiles  of  the  enemy; 
who  is  ever  watching  to  ensnare,  even  those  who  have  known 
the  voice  of  the  true  Shepherd. 

15th.  In  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  held  to-da}",  the  atten- 
tion of  Friends  was  called  to  the  changes  which  some  were  at- 
tempting to  introduce  in  the  doctrines  held  by  the  Society. 
These  innovations  are  principally  directed  against  the  spiritual 
views  which  Friends  have  always  taken  of  "the  Christian  reli- 
gion, and  the  universal  love  of  God  to  all  mankind ;  in  provid- 
ing the  means  for  their  salvation;  whether  possessed  of  the 
Holy  Scriptures  or  not.  Such  sentiments  spread  over  tlie 
Society  by  publications,  might  have  the  effect  to  alter  materially 
the  principles  of  the  members,  if  they  were  permitted  to  pass 
without  correction.  The  subject  made  a  serious  impression  on 
many  minds  ;  and  several  expressed  opinions  in  unison  with 
those  at  first  imparted.  One  or  two,  however,  seemed  to  be  ig- 
norant of  what  was  alluded  to ;  and  hoped  that  private  labor 
might  be  extended,  where  it  was  known  that  such  views  were 
held  and  propagated.  Our  only  hope  of  preservation  is  in  the 
goodness  and  infallible  guidance  of  the  Shepherd  of  the  sheep, 
wdio  can  open  a  way  for  his  dependent,  humble  followers,  where 
at  times  there  appears  to  be  none. 

Tenth  month.  My  wife  and  myself  having  long  had  a  pros- 
pect of  making  a  visit  among  our  friends  at  Salem  and  Green- 
wich, N.  J.,  we  attended  their  Monthly  Meetings  in  this  month; 
in  both  of  which  we  had  religious  service.  It  appeared  that  there 
are  a  few  of  the  younger  and  middle-aged  members,  who  are 
concei'ned  for  the  cause  of  Truth,  and  desirous  to  be  found  in 
their  I'ight  ])laces.  Encouragement  was  held  out  to  these,  to  bo 
faithful  in  thci  r  allotments ;  that  they  may  obtain  the  reward,  and 
become  instrumental  in  helping  others  in  the  straight  and  nar- 
row way.  We  returned  home  with  peaceful  feelings,  and  glad 
that  we  had  made  tlie  visit. 

28th.  Our  first-day  evening  meeting  for  worship  for  Friends 
of  all  the  Monthly  Meetings  in  the  city,  was  opened.  This  con- 
cern was  not  as  animating  to  some  of  us,  as  at  previous  seasons; 
though  we  could  not  feel  easy  to  discourage  tlie  holding  of  the 
meeting.     It  was  opened  in  an  orderly,  becoming  manner;  and 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  193 

my  beloved  compauion  appeared  in  solemn,  tendei'ing  supplica- 
tion. 

Eleventh  month  6th.  "Was  held  our  Quarterly  Meeting.  The 
importance  of  having  our  dependence  individually  placed  on  the 
Lord  Jesus  Christ,  and  not  on  one  another,  was  enforced.  Many 
were  concluding  that  but  little  was  doing  by  the  Society ;  and 
one  reason  is,  that  we  may  be  looking  to  man,  instead  of  wait- 
ing on  the  Lord,  to  know  Him  to  be  in  the  midst,  apportioning 
to  every  one  his  several  duty  and  work  in  the  church.  He  is 
represented  in  the  Scriptures  as  a  jealous  God ;  jealous  of  his 
honor  and  glory ;  which  He  will  not  give  to  another,  nor  hia 
praise  to  graven  images.  It  is,  therefore,  no  marvel  that  gifts 
are  not  dispensed  as  they  have  been,  while  we  are  looking  up 
toman  and  honoring  him,  instead  of  the  Lord  of  life  and  glory. 
"Were  we  all  gathered  to  the  place  of  true  waiting,  incense, 
kindled  b}^  tire  from  Him,  upon  the  altar  of  the  heart,  would 
ascend,  and  He  would  condescend  to  smell  a  pleasant  savor  in 
our  assemblies.  Gifts,  we  might  hope,  would  be  bestowed,  and 
babes  in  Christ  be  engaged  to  lisp  forth  his  praise ;  and  thus  an 
army  would  be  raised  to  display  the  banner  of  the  Prince  of 
Peace.     It  was  thought  to  be  a  solid,  comfortable  meeting. 

18th.  This  afternoon  my  wife  and  myself  took  the  steam- 
boat for  Wilmington  ;  and  attended  the  meeting  there,  on  first- 
day.  The  floor  was  pretty  well  covered,  both  morning  and 
afternoon.  There  seemed  to  be  those  who  were  relying  too 
much  on  external  performances  ;  without  coming  sufficiently  to 
the  inward  work  of  religion,  and  experiencing  the  regenerating 
power  of  the  Holy  Spirit.  Christ  was  preached  to  them,  as  the 
way,  the  truth  and  the  life.  The  Holy  Scriptures,  in  which  we 
are  true  believers,  abundantly  testify  of  Him  ;  but  while  many 
exalt  these  invaluable  records,  they  do  not,  as  He  declared  to 
the  Jews,  come  to  Him  that  they  might  have  life.  As  the  nat- 
ural life  is  of  more  importance  than  the  food  which  sustains  it, 
and  the  body  than  the  raiment  with  which  it  is  clothed,  so  the 
life  and  substance  of  religion  are  more  important  than  the  ex- 
ternal show  and  profession  of  it.  We  may  have  the  latter 
without  the  former ;  but  whenever  the  life  and  power  of  re- 
ligion prevail,  the}^  will  regulate  both  the  heart  and  the  outside, 
or  practical  performance  of  our  religious  and  social  duties.  All 
were  invited  to  press  after  this  inward  knowledge  of  Christ, 
and  his   cleansing   baptism ;   and  those   who  had  kept  their 


194  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

ground  in  time  of  trial,  were  encouraged  to  maintain  their  re- 
liance on  the  same  power  which  had  heretofore  sustained  them. 

20th.  Second-day  morning.  Edward  Tatnall  took  us  to 
Concord,  where  we  attended  the  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Minis- 
ters and  Elders  ;  and  endeavored  to  promote  watchfulness,  and 
the  faithful  occupancy  of  their  gifts. 

21st.  The  Meeting  for  Worship  and  Discipline,  in  the  fore- 
part, was  a  time  of  poverty,  and  inward  struggle  for  the  arising 
of  Divine  life ;  and  towards  the  period  for  entering  on  the  busi- 
ness, it  appeared  right  to  hold  forth  the  injunction  of  the  Apos- 
tle, "Let  this  mind  be  in  you  which  was  also  in  Christ  Jesus ; 
who,  being  in  the  form  of  God,  thought  it  not  robbery  to  be 
equal  with  God,  but  yet  made  himself  of  no  reputation,  and 
took  upon  him  the  form  of  a  servant,  &c."  Submission  to  his 
humbling  power,  and  a  willingness  to  become  of  no  reputation 
amongst  men,  that  we  might  be  prepared  for  his  use,  and  expe- 
rience preservation,  were  tenderly  enforced.  Those  who  were 
enduring  these  refining  processes,  were  encouraged  to  hold  fast 
the  faith  and  patience  of  the  saints  ;  and  in  due  time  they  would 
witness  Him  to  return  to  them,  with  healing  in  his  wings,  and 
receive  renewed  ability  to  engage  in  his  work.  He  wounds  to 
heal,  and  kills  but  to  make  alive  again.  The  dear  young  peoj)le 
were  affectionately  and  earnestly  invited  to  take  the  yoke  of 
Christ  upon  them  ;  and,  forsaking  those  things  which  prevented 
their  entrance  into  the  path  which  He  casts  up,  which  the  vul- 
ture's eye  hath  not  seen,  nor  the  lion's  whelp  ti'odden  in  ;  to  come 
and  join  themselves  to  those,  who,  above  all  things,  were  desir- 
ous of  loving  and  sciwing  Him.  My  beloved  wife  closed  the 
meeting,  with  fervent  prayer  for  the  various  states  which  had 
been  spoken  to.  In  the  second  meeting,  David  Cope  was  earn- 
estly engaged  to  stir  up  the  young  men  to  a  faithful,  diligent 
discharge  of  the  duty  of  public  worship,  and  the  attendance  of 
all  our  religious  meetings.  We  rode,  in  the  afternoon,  to  our 
brother  Jose])h  Ehoads'  at  Marple. 

23d.  We  attended  their  meeting  at  Si^ringfield  ;  in  which  I 
felt  constrained  to  speak  on  the  examj^le  of  our  blessed  Saviour, 
"  Who,  when  He  was  reviled,  reviled  not  again  ;  Avhen  He  suf- 
fered He  threatened  not,  but  committed  himself  to  Him  that 
judgeth  righteously:"  from  which,  the  virtue  of  Christian  for- 
bearance and  endurance  was  inculcated.     Several  points  opened 


JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM   EVANS.  195 

respecting  his  character  and  offices,  and  the  efficacy  of  his  blood, 
shed  for  the  forgiveness  of  sins. 

Twelfth  month.  Our  evening  meeting  on  first-day,  the  10th, 
was  quiet,  hut  rather  a  low  time.  A  w^ant  of  a  true  harmoni- 
ous labor  in  the  one  great  cause,  and  inditfereney  respecting  the 
object  of  church  felloAvship,  will  produce  weakness  ;  and  we 
shall  suffer  loss,  both  individually  and  as  a  society,  in  the  life 
and  virtue  of  religion.  I  am  more  and  more  convinced  that  all 
our  fresh  springs,  hoth  of  the  quickening  power,  and  the  quali- 
fication for  usefulness,  are  in  our  blessed  and  holj'  Head.  When 
lie  withdraws,  we  cannot  availingly  act  for  Him,  or  for  our- 
selves, and  the  people.  I  have  felt  much  more  of  my  own 
weakness,  for  some  time  past,  than  anything  like  ability  for  the 
Lord's  work.  If  it  has  but  the  effect,  to  fix  the  determination  to 
refrain  from  everything  which  He  disapproves,  and  to  redeem 
from  mere  earthly  enjoyments,  the  suffering  attending  it,  will 
be  well  endui-ed. 

16th.  Our  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  held  yesterday,  was  un- 
usually large.  The  subject  of  a  more  extensive  dissemination 
of  Friends'  approved  writings  was  brought  again  before  it,  by  a 
report  from  the  Book  Committee  ;  which  proposed  the  establish- 
ment of  an  office  for  their  sale  and  distribution ;  and  that  books 
written  for  the  use  of  schools,  and  for  the  instruction  of  chil- 
dren, should  be  prepared  j  some  to  be  historical,  some  biogra- 
phical, and  some  didactic ;  the  latter  taken  from  the  writings 
of  Friends,  and  illustrative  of  their  principles  and  testimonies. 

30th.  In  conversation  last  evening  with  my  beloved  father, 
he  said  that  in  the  course  of  his  experience,  he  had  remarked, 
that  those  Friends  who  manifested  a  disposition  to  palliate  the 
offences  of  those  who  had  broken  the  discii^line,  generally  lost 
ground  in  a  religious  sense  ;  and  those  w^hom  they  were  dis- 
posed to  screen,  rarely  came  to  anything  in  the  church ;  and 
when  such  fell  away,  they  were  more  severe  against  the  un- 
faithful ones,  than  against  those,  who,  in  the  uprightness  of 
their  hearts,  could  not  compromise  the  cause  of  Truth,  but 
stood  steadfast  in  its  support,  against  wrong  things.  He  was 
not  in  favor  of  a  rigid  administration  of  the  discipline;  but  he 
believed  that  where  it  was  kept  to,  in  a  disposition  to  restore, 
and  when  that  failed  to  produce  the  effect,  to  keep  to  the  judg- 
ment of  Truth  ;  it  would  always  be  found  in  the  end,  best  for 
the  meeting  and  for  the  offender. 


196  JOURNAL   OF   "WILLIAM    EVANS. 

1838,  First  month  3d.  Having  been  liberated  by  our  late 
Monthly  Meeting,  to  visit  the  Meetings  of  ITaddonfield  Quarter, 
and  some  in  Burlington,  and  my  friend,  Henry  Warrington, 
having  agreed  to  take  me  in  his  carriage,  we  met  at  the  ferry 
and  went  this  evening  to  his  house.  Attended  their  meeting  at 
Westfield,  in  silence ;  next  day,  the  Monthly  Meeting  of  Eves- 
ham ;  where  the  Master  qualitied  to  call  upon  Friends  to  come 
into,  and  maintain  inward,  daily  watchfulness  unto  praj'er,  that 
they  may  witness  preservation  from  undue  attachment  to  the 
things  of  this  world,  and  by  a  growth  in  the  Truth,  become 
more  and  more  prepared  to  advance  its  cause ;  and  finally  to  re- 
ceive the  end  of  our  faith,  even  the  salvation  of  the  soul.  It 
was  a  season  of  impressive  solemnity.  In  the  afternoon,  wo 
rode  over  to  the  hospitable  dwelling  of  our  beloved  and  honored 
friends,  Josiah  and  Elizabeth  Eeeve.  They  received  us  with  the 
wonted  kindness  which  they  have  shown  to  me  for  several 
years.  Wo  attended  the  Monthly  Meeting  of  Upper  Evesham; 
to  which  a  large  number  of  young  Friends  belong,  whose  ap- 
pearance Indicates  a  respect  for  our  profession  ;  and  I  trust, 
many  of  them,  are  at  times,  sincerely  desirous  for  their  own 
improvement.  May  they  be  preserved  from  the  snares  which 
Satan  prepares,  for  those  who  are  surrounded  with  the  posses- 
sions and  comforts  of  this  world. 

7th.  Attended  CropwcU  meeting ;  it  being  first-day,  and  the 
weather  mild  and  fine,  a  large  company  collected.  It  was 
a  great  trial  to  me  to  be  obliged  to  dwell  so  much  upon  the 
dangers  of  being  engrossed  with  earthly  pursuits ;  but  my  mind 
was  greatly  burthcned  with  a  sense  of  the  earnest  pursuit  of 
many  after  the  increase  of  their  worldly  interests.  To  be  dili- 
gent in  business,  that  we  may  provide  properly  for  those  who 
arc  dependent  upon  us,  is  a  duty;  but  it  should  always  be  pur- 
sued with  reference  to  the  blessing  of  our  Heavenly  Father;  in 
seeking  which,  all  worldly  acquirement  would  be  regarded  as  of 
minor  and  temporary  importance. 

After  a  season  of  painful  lal)or,  Truth  rose  into  some  dominion 
and  tendered  the  spirits  of  many;  and  the  meeting  closed  with 
thanksgiving  and  praj'cr  to  our  Heavenly  Father,  for  the  pre- 
sent favor,  and  for  the  extension  of  his  visitations  to  those  im- 
mersed in  the  cares  of  the  world  ;  and  to  tlie  young  j^ooplo; 
that  they  might  be  gathered  to  the  teaching  and  guidance  of  tho 
Shepherd  and  Bishop  of  Souls.     We  dined  and  lodged  at  Joseph 


JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  197 

Evans' ;  and  a  number  of  j^oung  Friends  being  there,  after  read- 
ing a  few  chaptei'S  in  the  Bible,  in  the  evening,  the  way  opened 
to  renew  the  call  to  them,  to  lives  of  dedication,  and  steadfast 
walking  in  the  Truth.  vSarah  Hillman,  who  was  there,  followed 
in  prayer,  that  the  word  spoken  that  day  might  be  blessed,  and 
have  due  place  in  the  hearts  of  those  to  whom  it  was  sent. 

On  second-day  morning,  the  8th,  we  attended  Haddonfield 
Monthly  Meeting ;  and  the  next  day,  Chester  Monthly  Meeting, 
at  Moorestown.  In  the  latter,  ability  was  afforded  to  show  the 
importance  of  renewed  baptisms,  to  keep  the  branches  alive  and 
vigorous  in  the  Truth ;  and  to  enable  them  to  bring  forth  fruit, 
to  the  praise  of  the  Great  Husbandman.  Through  ease  and 
negligence,  we  may  fall  into  a  formal  way  of  jJerforming  our 
religious  duties,  and  lose  that  heartfelt  concern  which  we  once 
experienced,  and  under  which  a  growth  was  known.  It  is  not 
because  we  are  once  in  grace,  that  we  shall  be  alwaj^s  so.  "  If 
ye  abide  in  me,"  said  Christ,  "and  my  words  abide  in  you,  ye 
shall  ask  what  ye  will,  and  it  shall  be  done  unto  you."  Again, 
"  He  that  abideth  in  me  and  I  in  him,  the  same  bringeth  forth 
much  fruit ;  for  without  me  ye  can  do  nothing."  The  tendering 
power  of  Truth  accompanied  ;  and  under  it  a  lively  interest  was 
felt  for  Friends,  that  they  might  really  witness  the  baptising 
power  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  to  purge  away  all  inordinate  attach- 
ment to  the  world ;  and  unite  them  together  in  increased  love 
to  God,  and  travail  of  soul,  for  the  spreading  of  the  kingdom 
of  his  dear  Son,  It  was  a  comforting,  strengthening  oppor- 
tunity. 

The  following  morning  we  set  off  for  Great  Egg  Harbor.  The 
road  lies  through  a  wilderness  of  pine  wood,  about  forty  miles 
in  width.  This  timber  is  cut  for  the  Philadelphia  and  New 
York  markets ;  large  quantities  of  it  are  consumed  by  steam- 
boats ;  and  it  is  also  converted  into  charcoal  for  the  Iron  Works, 
located  in  different  parts  of  the  forest.  We  reached  Samuel 
Leeds'  near  sunset,  and  next  day,  were  at  their  week-day 
meeting.  My  mind  was  introduced  into  sympathy  with  some 
who  have  partaken  of  the  cup  of  affliction  ;  and  the  language  of 
encouragement  was  held  forth,  to  labor  to  keep  the  faith  and 
patience  of  the  saints,  and  to  profit  by  it,  and  affliction  would 
prove  a  blessing  in  disguise.  Several  states  were  spoken  to, 
and  vocal  prayer  put  up,  for  the  health  and  strength  of  those 
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198  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

who  were  surrounded  with  difficulties;  and  for  the  prosperity  of 
the  Trutli  iimong  them. 

At  the  lower  end  of  the  shore,  near  Somers  Point,  we  were 
entertained  by  Daniel  Leeds.  We  walked  down  to  the  marsh 
to  view  the  great  beds  of  oyster  shells,  deposited  there  by  the 
tribes  of  Indians  that  formerly  resided  along  these  shores,  and 
were  the  original  proprietors  of  the  lands  in  this  State.  It  is  a 
mournful  subject  to  contemplate,  that  a  people,  who  were  the 
peaceful  occupants  of  this  and  other  eastern  parts  of  these 
United  States,  should  now  be  almost  exterminated.  Had  a  dis- 
position been  cultivated  to  cherish  them,  and  teach  them  the 
arts  of  civilized  life,  it  is  pi'obable  that  many  would  have  em- 
braced them  ;  and  by  having  their  lands  secured  and  divided  to 
them  in  suitable  farms,  we  might  suppose  they  could  have  been 
weaned  from  their  wild  habits,  and  embodied  amongst  the  citi- 
zens of  the  country. 

The  meeting  appointed  for  ns  was  a  close,  searching  oppor- 
tunity for  some  present;  and  encouraging  to  the  few,  sincere 
lovers  of  Christ,  located  here,  to  hold  on  faithfully  in  the  path 
of  allotted  duty  ;  showing  forth  by  an  example  of  uprightness, 
sobriety,  and  humble  walking  with  God,  the  excellency  of  the 
religion  they  profess :  by  which  they  might  be  instrumental  in 
drawing  others  to  have  fellowship  with  them,  and  with  the 
Father  and  his  Son  Jesus  Christ.  We  parted  from  them  wuth 
feeliocrs  of  true  affection,  and  sincere  desire  for  their  best  wel- 
fare. 

On  first-day  we  attended  their  meeting  at  Tuckerton;  and 
the  next  day  the  14th,  were  at  Barnegat;  where  we  held  a 
meeting,  in  a  school-house,  with  the  few  Friends  there,  and  a 
number  of  others.  They  sat  in  a  very  quiet,  becoming  manner, 
both  during  the  silence,  and  while  some  of  the  doctrines  of 
Christianity  were  held  forth  to  them.  The  meeting  ended  with 
fervent  prayer ;  it  was  mostly  a  laborious  time. 

The  situation  of  Friends  along  the  shore,  affords  very  little 
hope  of  much  succession  from  among  the  young  members;  many 
of  them  removing  to  Philadelphia,  or  other  parts  of  the  coun- 
try. 

16th.  We  rose  early;  and  with  diligent  travelling,  reached 
Rancocas  about  the  middle  of  the  afternoon  ;  and  on  the  fol- 
lowing day,  attended  their  usual  week-day  meeting.  It  ap- 
peared to  me,  that  sojue  present  had  been  brought  to  submit 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  199 

to  the  forming  Hand,  and  were  tliey  obedient  to  the  further 
openings  of  Truth,  would  become  prepared  for  usefuhiess  in  the 
church.  To  these  the  language  of  encouragement  was  affec- 
tionately addressed ;  and  those  were  warned  and  entreated,  who, 
notwithstanding  the  clear  convictions  of  Divine  light,  were  too 
ardently  pursuing  the  woi'ld,  and  putting  off  the  great  work  of 
salvation  to  some  more  convenient  season.  The  necessity  of 
worshij^ping  and  glorifying  our  Heavenly  Father,  whether  we 
eat  or  drink",  or  whatever  we  do,  was  inculcated  and  enforced, 
as  what  ought  to  be  the  daily  clothing  and  engagement  of  or.r 
spirits.  In  the  afternoon,  we  went  to  John  Bishop's ;  and  next 
day  attended  Mansfield  Meeting. 

19th.  Notice  having  been  spread  for  a  meeting  this  morning, 
at  Crosswicks,  Friends  and  others  assembled  and  filled  the 
house.  Such  meetings  are  not  held  without  producing  a  deep 
concern  that  the  cause  of  Truth  may  not  suffer;  and  I  went  to 
it  with  sensations  of  poverty  and  weakness ;  not  knowing  how 
it  might  end.  But  He,  whose  mercies  are  over  all  his  works, 
did  not  forsake  us  ;  and  after  a  time  of  silent  waiting,  I  rose 
with  some  fear,  having  had  the  subject  of  the  small  beginnings 
of  the  kingdom  of  heaven  in  the  heart,  brought  before  me.  The 
doctrine  that  "  The  kingdom  of  God  cometh  not  with  observa- 
tion ;  neither  shall  they  say,  Lo  here !  or  Lo  there !  for  behold 
the  kingdom  of  God  is  within  you,"  was  shown ;  to  set  forth  the 
commencement  and  experience  of  Christ's  religion  to  be  in  the 
heart.  It  was  also  compared  to  a  grain  of  mustard-seed,  that 
a  man  sowed  in  his  field;  which,  though  the  least  of  seeds,  when 
it  grew,  it  became  the  greatest  among  herbs.  Christ  gave  him- 
self for  our  sins,  the  just  for  the  unjust,  that  He  might  bring  us 
to  God  ;  but  it  is  only  as  we  receive  and  obey  Him  in  his  spirit- 
ual manifestations  to  the  soul ;  which,  though  clear  and  certain, 
are  often  very  small  and  gentle ;  that  we  can  fully  realize,  the 
benefits  of  his  coming,  suffering  and  death.  All  present  were 
solicited  to  give  themselves  into  his  hand ;  and  more  and  more 
devote  themselves  to  his  service ;  that,  through  the  washing  of 
regeneration,  and  the  renewings  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  they  might 
be  sanctified  ;  and,  partaking  of  the  efficacy  of  his  blood  in  the 
forgiveness  of  their  sins,  they  might  be  prepared,  at  the  awful 
period  when  soul  and  body  sever,  to  enter  those  mansions  of 
glory,  where  the  morning  stars  sing  together,  and  the  sons  of 
God  shout  for  joy.     The  meeting  ended  with  prayer  for  the 


200  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAAI    EVANS. 

strengthening  of  the  feeble,  yet  sincere  lovers  of  the  Lord  Jesus ; 
for  the  confirmation  of  those  whose  hearts  were  touched  that  day ; 
and  for  the  young  people;  that  they  might  be  preserved  from 
the  principles  of  unbelief,  and  brought  under  the  government  of 
Christ;  to  whom  with  the  Father,  thanksgiving  and  praise  were 
ascribed  through  the  Holy  Spirit.     Amen. 

I  was  much  overdone  by  the  exercise;  and  seemed  to  have 
little  inclination  to  converse  much  throughout  the  afternoon, 
to  any  one.     "We  returned  to  John  Bishop's,  and  lodged. 

20th.  The  weather  changed  from  a  wami,  damp  atmosphere, 
to  a  clear,  cold  one  ;  by  which  the  roads  were  frozen  and  made 
very  rough.  On  the  way  to  Mount  Holly,  we  called  upon  our 
ancient  friend  John  Cox,  being  nearly  eighty-four  years  of  age. 
He  had  been  kept  from  meeting,  about  two  months,  by  sick- 
ness and  feebleness ;  and,  though  not  recovered  altogether,  he 
reeeived  us  with  his  wonted  cheerful  and  courteous  manner. 
After  sitting  and  conversing  nearly  an  hour,  we  took  leave  of 
him,  with  feelings  of  respect  and  affection ;  and  proceeded  to 
Mount  Holly,  and  held  a  meeting  by  appointment  at  two  o'clock; 
which  was  satisfactory. 

On  first-day  morning,  the  2l8t,  we  attended  Burlington  Meet- 
ing. Many  experienced  and  gifted  members  have  been  re- 
moved by  death,  within  the  last  thirty  years,  and  few  have  risen 
in  their  places,  in  this  meeting.  The  importance  of  regard- 
ing this  and  other  events,  as  teachers,  to  quicken  their  attention 
to  the  inspeaking  word  of  faith,  was  pressed  upon  them ;  as  well 
as  the  benefits  of  faithfulness,  as  evidenced  by  those,  whoso 
lives  are  devoted  to  the  truth.  My  mind  was  relieved,  under  a 
clothing  of  affectionate  solicitude  for  the  cause  of  Christ,  and  for 
the  best  welfare  of  the  audience. 

22d.  On  second-day  morning,  we  held  a  meeting  at  Easton ; 
which  was  a  painful  season;  being  brought  under  the  appre- 
hension that  some,  who  had  begun  well,  were  in  danger  of 
coming  short  of  the  crown. 

Lodged  that  night  at  tlio  house  of  my  kind  and  very  attentive 
companicm  JI.  Warrington.  After  I  had  taken  an  affectionate 
leave  of  his  wife  and  daughter,  commending  them  to  the  Shep- 
herd of  Israel,  he  conveyed  me  down  to  the  ferry ;  and  I  soon 
reached  my  beloved  family  and  home;  where  I  found  all  in  good 
health,  and  glad  to  liave  me  returned  to  them  again.  My  mind  has 
been  favored  with  peacefulness,  though  made  sensible  that  I  am 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  201 

a  poor,  unprofitable  servant;  unable  to  do  or  say  any  good 
thing,  without  the  help  of  Him,  who  I  desire  may  bo  my  Lord 
and  Master. 


CHAPTEE    X. 

1838—1839. 


Visit  with  a  Committee  to  Muncy  and  Exeter  Monthly  Meetings — Accom- 
panies his  Wife  on  a  religious  visit  to  two  Quarterly  Meetings  in  New  York 
— Causes  of  Discouragement — Death  of  his  Father — His  Character — Visit 
to  Cain  and  Western  Quarterly  Meetings. 

Fifth  month  12th.  A  committee,  of  which  I  was  one,  having 
been  appointed  by  the  Quarterly  Meeting,  to  visit  Muncy  and 
Exeter  Monthly  Meetings,  and  their  branches,  we  set  off  this 
morning ;  and  reaching  Pottstown,  half  of  the  number  atten- 
ded the  meeting  there,  on  first-day,  and  the  rest  that  at  Exeter, 
ten  miles  further  on  our  way.  Here  I  was  enabled,  after  a  sea- 
son of.  silent  waiting,  in  which  poverty  and  emptiness  were  felt, 
to  enter  a  little  into  the  states  of  some  present,  and  to  minister 
to  them  under  renewed  help ;  and  my  dear  friend,  Sarah  Hil- 
man,  appeared  in  vocal  prayer.  Several  substantial  Friends, 
members  of  this — Exeter  Meeting — have  latterly  been  removed 
by  death ;  and  the  younger  Friends,  not  having  much  experi- 
ence, feel  their  reduced  condition.  Our  companions  joined  us 
in  the  afternoon  from  Pottstown ;  and  on  second-day  morning, 
we  set  out  for  Fishing  Creek,  which  we  reached  on  fourth-day  ; 
distance  about  ninety  miles.  Attended  their  Preparative  Meet- 
ing next  day ;  and  there  labored  to  impress  the  elders,  overseers, 
and  parents  of  children,  with  the  responsibility  of  their  respec- 
tive stations.  There  were  a  few  names,  even  in  Sardis,  who 
had  not  defiled  their  garments ;  and  those  here  who  had  been 
favored  to  resist  the  corrupt  principles  by  which  others  were 
swept  away,  were  not  to  sit  down  in  ease,  and  negligence  of  the 
flock  ;  but  to  watch  over  them,  and  warn  and  restrain  in  the  au- 
thority and  ability  which  the  Truth  gives.  Thus  they  would 
be  clear  of  the  blood  of  others,  and  might  be  instrumental  in 
preserving  them  from  the  snares  which  surround ;  and  oven  to 


202  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

gather  iiato  the  true  sheepfold.  Thomas  Kite  closed  the  meet- 
ing, with  some  suitable  exhortation  enforcing  the  previous 
exercise.  That  night  w^e  lodged  at  Andrew  Eves';  and  next 
morning  went  to  Muncy.  Here  we  procured  a  wagon  to  con- 
vey one  company  to  Elkland,  a  settlement  of  Friend's  in  the 
Allegheny  Mountains,  thirty  miles  further  northwest ;  for  which 
place  four  of  us  set  out  on  seventh-day  morning.  Parts  of 
the  road  are  rough  and  mountainous,  and  not  very  wide ;  so 
that  some  of  the  eminences  were  dangerous  to  drive  over.  Our 
horses  were  true  and  able,  which  are  very  necessary  qualities 
on  such  roads,  and  we  got  through  in  pretty  good  time ;  being 
a  little  before  sundown.  Lodged  at  Joel  and  Ellen  McCarty's ; 
the  latter  a  minister  with  a  good  gift.  The  meeting-house  is 
five  miles  further  on,  at  Hogeland's  settlement ;  a  piece  of  as 
bad  road  as  I  ever  passed  over.  We  attended  the  meeting, 
and  were  favored  with  the  presence  and  help  of  Him  who  knows 
all  our  wants,  and  qualifies  to  speak  to  the  conditions  of  the 
people.  It  Avas  shown  that  faithfulness  to  our  duty  was  to  be 
proved  by  the  fruits  of  righteousness;  that  it  was  possible  to 
make  much  profession,  and  to  be  active  in  outward  performan- 
ces; all  which  might  be  done  with  an  unchanged  heart ;  but  if 
so,  it  would  avail  us  no  good ;  it  was  necessary  to  have  the  in- 
side of  the  cup  and  platter  first  cleansed,  and  then  the  outside 
would  be  made  clean  also.  Some  were  closely  spoken  to,  and 
the  tendering  power  of  Truth  came  over  us.  Our  friend, 
Ellen  McCarty,  has  been  a  good  example  of  diligence  and  exer- 
tion in  getting  to  their  meeting,  often  through  much  difficulty. 
Hearing  of  a  militia  muster  about  three  miles  from  her  residence, 
she  felt  drawn  to  go  there,  and  by  her  faithful  dealing  with  some 
of  the  j^oung  men  there  assembled,  she  convinced  two  of  them 
of  the  unlawfulness  of  war ;  and  they  afterwards  joined  the 
Society  of  Friends ;  and  the  wife  of  one  of  them,  we  were  in- 
formed, had  appeared  in  the  ministry.  Our  feelings  were  much 
interested  in  this  place  and  people,  and  we  felt  hopes  that  truth 
would  spread  amongst  them,  and  their  condition  in  many  re- 
spects become  improved. 

21st.  On  second-day  morning  we  resumed  our  wagon  and 
retraced  our  rough  road  deliberately,  seldom  out  of  a  walk. 
The  streams  of  water,  which  are  very  numerous  in  Pennsyl- 
vania, are  remarkable  i'or  their  transparency.  Elk  Creek 
and  Loyal-Sock  are  beautiful.     The  former  falls  from  an  emi- 


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nence  of  forty  feet,  in  sight  from  the  road.  "We  walked  to 
it,  and  found  the  passage  to  it  w^as  a  large  cavity,  apparently 
cut  out  of  a  rocky  mountain,  ending  in  a  breastwork,  over  which 
the  creek  falls  ;  the  walls  rising  on  each  side  of  the  stream. 
The  rays  of  the  sun  being  shut  out,  the  spray  and  surrounding 
stone  work,  from  which  water  constantly  oozed,  kept  the  atmos- 
phere quite  cool  there ;  though  a  few  yards  out  of  it,  the  tem- 
peratm^e  was  opj^ressively  warm.  A  considerable  mass  of  ice, 
left  from  the  preceding  winter,  still  remained  under  the  pro- 
jecting walls  of  rocks.  We  got  to  the  house  of  our  friend, 
Mercy  Ellis,  before  dark ;  our  women  Friends  being  a  good  deal 
w^earied. 

On  third-daymorning,  22d,  we  called  upon  two  ancient  Friends, 
one  of  them,  Elizabeth  Kitely,  a  minister,  in  the  ninety-sixth 
year  of  her  age.  She  seemed  full  of  gratitude  to  her  Divine 
Master  for  the  comforts  which  she  enjoys;  and  though  her  mem- 
ory of  late  occurrences  fails  her,  she  expressed  much  gladness  at 
seeing  us.  She  said  her  candle  was  nearly  burnt  out ;  and  the  pre- 
ceding night  she  thought  would  have  been  her  last.  Mercy  Ellis 
informed  us  that  when  of  ability  to  travel,  she  had  often  stopped 
at  houses  of  strangers,  as  she  felt  her  mind  attracted,  and  would 
communicate  counsel  and  advice ;  particularly  to  persons  who 
appeared  to  be  in  low  circumstances,  and  not  in  the  way  of  re- 
ligious instruction.  It  was  truly  pleasant  and  cheering  to  see 
one  so  far  advanced,  recounting  her  blessings,  and  seeming  to 
feel  nothing  but  peace.  It  formed  a  happy  contrast  with  a  fret- 
ful, discontented  mind ;  so  undesirable  in  one  who  has  nearly 
done  with  this  world,  and  ought  to  be  clothed  with  a  heavenly 
frame,  waiting  in  faith  for  an  entrance  into  a  better. 

The  afternoon  proved  very  wet,  and  we  were  glad  to  get 
under  the  roof  of  our  kind  friends,  Andrew  Eves  and  wife,  at 
Fishing  Creek,  after  a  ride  of  twenty  miles.  The  next  day  at- 
tended Muncy  Monthly  Meeting,  held  at  Greenwood.  Still  very 
rainy,  which  we  apprehended  made  the  meeting  smaller  than  it 
would  otherwise  have  been.  The  way  opened  for  some  labor 
in  both  meetings,  and  Friends  appeared  glad  of  the  visit.  The 
members  of  this  Monthly  Meeting  are  scattered  over  a  great 
extent  of  country  ;  which  makes  it  difficult  for  the  overseers  to 
extend  that  care  w^hich  their  welfare  and  that  of  the  Society 
require.  On  fifth-day  morning,  24th,  we  left  the  comfortable 
residence   of  our   friend,  David   Masters,  and   rode   thirty-five 


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miles  to  Spohn's  tavern,  on  the  Broad  ^Mountain ;  lodged  there. 
Xext  morning  stopped  at  Pottsville  to  breakfast,  and  to  repair  a 
broken  stay  on  one  of  the  carriages ;  and  that  evening  reached 
Maiden  Creek ;  part  of  the  company  putting  up  at  Sybilla 
Starr's,  and  the  other  at  Enos  Lee's.  Our  kind  and  valuable 
friend  Jeremiah  Starr,  died  on  the  day  of  our  late  select  Quarterly 
Meeting.  He  will  be  much  missed  by  the  members  of  his  own 
meeting,  and  we  felt  the  blank  made  in  his  family.  We  visited 
the  families  of  Friends  there  on  seventh-day,  and  attended  their 
meeting  on  first-day ;  which  to  me  was  a  very  laborious  time  ; 
a  number  of  persons  being  pi-escnt  who,  according  to  my  feel- 
ings, were  very  little  acquainted  with  the  work  of  religion  in 
their  own  hearts.  It  appeared  to  be  my  place  to  hold  forth  the 
universal  operation  of  Divine  Grace  upon  the  heart,  as  the  con- 
victor  for  sin,  and  the  regenerator  of  the  heart,  where  it  is 
received  and  submitted  to.  Very  little  relief  was  obtained,  and 
I  felt  depressed  in  spirit  on  returning  to  our  lodgings. 

Third-day  the  29th,  was  employed  in  finishing  a  visit  to  the 
families  of  Friends  in  Exeter ;  in  which  a  degree  of  heavenly 
help  was  extended,  enabling  us  to  enter  into  the  states  of  the 
visited ;  though  we  felt  our  own  weakness.  On  the  following 
day  attended  the  Monthly  Meeting ;  in  which  some  of  the  com- 
mittee labored  for  their  help.  There  are  some  honest-hearted 
Friends  here,  who  sigh  over  the  low  condition  of  the  church,  and 
desire  its  enlargement  in  the  life  of  religion.  Took  an  affection- 
ate leave  of  our  very  kind  friends,  and  lodged  that  night  at 
Pottstown,  and  the  next  afternoon  joined  our  beloved  families 
at  our  respective  homes.  The  review  of  this  journey  affords 
peace  ;  for  I  believe  we  did  endeavor  to  fulfil  our  mission  accor- 
ding to  the  ability  granted,  and  to  avoid  giving  offence  on  any 
occasion. 

Sixth  month  11th.  The  streams  of  Divine  life  feel  much 
blocked  up,  by  some  secret  cause ;  so  that  mourning  and  heavi- 
ness have  been  my  portion  for  some  days  past.  In  addition  to 
this,  trade  is  much  depressed;  which  renders  the  means  of  sub- 
sistence more  uncertain.  But  my  faith  in  the  unfailing  good- 
ness and  providence  of  an  Ahnighty  Protector,  has  not  been 
permitted  to  fail.  AVe  have  many  more  comforts  than  we  have 
any  inght  to  expect;  and  have  so  far  been  enabled  to  perform 
all  those  little  services  called  for,  away  from  home,  without  im- 
properly neglecting  the  business,  or  the  oversight  of  our  fami- 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EYAXS.  205 

lies.  This  I  consider  a  very  incumbent  duty,  and  which  may 
be  neglected  more  than  we  are  aware  of,  if  un watchfulness  over- 
take us.  Many  of  the  sincerely  exercised  members  of  our  So- 
ciety have  been  wading  along  for  many  years  under  deep  dis- 
couragement, at  the  little  evidence  they  have  of  the  Truth 
gaining  ground  among  us,  in  this  Yearly  Meeting.  The  late 
separation  cut  off  many,  who  ought  now  to  be  fathers  and 
mothers,  brothers  and  sisters  in  the  church.  Some,  since  that 
period,  have  experienced  changes,  and  made  an  open  acknow- 
ledgment of  the  Truth;  but  do  not  come  forth  in  that  useful- 
ness which  Christ  would  qualify  for  and  lead  into,  had  they  kept 
their  covenants,  by  obedience  to  Him.  The  trials  of  those  who 
have  been  endeavoring  to  encourage  and  strengthen  their  bre- 
thren, hoping  against  hope,  have  been  latterly  augmented  by 
the  dissemination  of  other  unsound  sentiments  in  the  Society. 

18th.  Our  meetings  for  worship  yesterday,  both  morning 
and  afternoon,  were  depressing  and  lifeless  seasons ;  at  least  as 
regards  my  feelings.  There  seemed  but  little  capacity  even  to 
hunger  and  thirst  after  righteousness;  and  nothing  like  minis- 
tering to  others.  I  thought  of  the  appellation  by  which  our 
Almighty  Father  is  denominated  in  Scripture  :  "The  Lord  that 
hideth  his  face  from  the  house  of  Jacob."  Sometimes  sin  sepa- 
rates between  Him  and  us ;  and  sometimes  He  veils  his  presence, 
to  prove  the  love  and  allegiance  of  his  children,  and  to  humble 
them  under  a  feeling  of  their  nothingness,  and  want  of  all  things 
without  Him. 

Seventh  month  1st.  Notwithstanding  the  warmth  of  the 
weather,  and  the  number  of  members  absent  in  the  country,  our 
morning  meeting  was  large ;  and  my  wife  was  led  to  speak  to 
the  states  of  many  present,  in  a  feeling  and  affecting  manner. 
I  was  drawn  to  kneel  in  supplication  to  the  Father  of  mercies, 
that  He  would  administer  to  the  respective  states  of  those  assem- 
bled before  Him ;  cause  the  Angel  of  his  presence  to  encamp 
round  about  us ;  and  preserve,  in  an  especial  manner,  the  dear 
children,  from  the  temptations  to  which  they  are  exposed. 
Some  hearts  were  humbled ;  and  solemnity  spread  over  us. 

4th.  To-day  we  had  two  marriages  at  our  meeting ;  a  very 
large  concourse  attended.  They  were  addressed  on  the  import- 
ance of  living  conformably  with  the  doctrines  and  j^recepts  of 
our  blessed  Saviour ;  as  laid  down  in  the  Holy  Scriptiu-es.  A 
woman  minister  knelt  in  prayer;  and,  considering  the  occasion 


206  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

and  the  mixed  company,  Friends  thought  the  meeting  was  held 
with  religious  weight. 

Eighth  month  17th.  My  wife  having  a  concern  to  attend 
the  Quarterly  Meetings  of  Nine  Partners  and  Stanford,  in  the 
State  of  New  York,  and  a  few  meetings  belonging  to  them,  ob- 
tained a  minute  from  the  Monthly  Meeting;  and  as  the  journey 
was  not  likely  to  require  much  time,  and  feeling  drawn  to  ac- 
company her,  the  meeting  gave  me  a  minute  of  its  approbation. 
We  did  not  leave  home  without  feelings  of  reluctance  and  dis- 
couragement ;  not  knowing  what  might  be  our  lot.  But  having 
nothing  in  view,  except  the  discharge  of  our  duty,  we  set  out 
on  the  3d  of  this  month,  and  reached  Poughkeepsie,  on  the 
North  Eiver,  one  hundred  and  seventy-tive  miles,  about  half- 
past  nine  o'clock.  The  weather  was  fine,  and  the  whole  passage 
was  pleasant ;  the  evening  being  moonlit,  which  rendered  the 
river  and  the  highlands  beautifully  picturesque.  Our  boat 
moved  with  great  ease  and  celerity;  and  the  engine  worked 
with  uncommonly  little  jar. 

On  seventh-day  morning,  the  4th,  our  kind  and  beloved  friend 
Smith  Upton,  met  us  at  Poughkeepsie,  and  took  us  to  a  Friend's 
house  on  our  way  to  Beekman. 

First-day  attended  Beekman  Meeting,  in  which  we  both  had 
some  service  tending  to  show  the  importance  of  steadfast  de- 
votion to  our  religious  duties.  Next  morning,  the  Friend  at 
whose  house  we  lodged,  gave  us  a  passage  to  Oblong.  We  at- 
tended the  Quai-terly  Meeting,  and  a  meeting  for  public  wor- 
ship, on  fourth-day.  My  wife,  and  our  friend  J.  W.  of  New 
York,  had  the  principal  part  of  the  service.  There  are  a  num- 
ber of  young  Friends,  of  both  sexes,  whose  appearance  would 
lead  us  to  hope  they  are  concerned  for  themselves,  and  for  the 
maintenance  of  the  cause  of  Truth;  and  they  had  our  sincere 
desires  and  labors  for  their  preservation  and  growth  in  it. 

Next  morning  we  proceeded  to  the  residence  of  our  friend 
Sarah  Hull,  at  Stanford,  In  the  Select  (Quarterly  Meeting  held 
hei"e,  J.  W.  recited  the  communication  of  the  Master  to  his 
disciples,  "  Satan  hath  desired  to  have  you,  that  he  may  sift 
you  as  wheat;"  also,  that  of  the  Apostle  Paul,  "If  any  man 
preach  any  other  Gospel  unto  you  than  that  ye  have  received, 
let  him  be  accursed;"  and  held  forth  the  language  of  warning, 
and  counsel  to  watchfulness. 

I  found  it  my  place  to  encourage  those  who  had  received  gifts, 


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to  occupy  them  under  their  Lord's  guidance  and  direction ;  fol- 
lowing Him  in  faith. 

In  the  Quarterly  Meeting,  on  sixth-day,  I  stood  up  with  the 
injunction  to  one  of  the  ancient  churches,  and  which  is  applica- 
ble to  some  in  the  present  day  :  "  Be  watchful,  and  strengthen 
the  things  which  remain  that  are  ready  to  die ;  for  I  have  not 
found  thy  works  perfect  before  God."  To  be  qualified  to 
strengthen  others,  we  must  be  sensible  of  our  own  weakness 
and  imperfections ;  and  in  our  humiliation  before  the  Lord,  in 
his  own  time  He  will  arise,  and  clothe  with  al>ility  to  labor 
in  his  cause,  for  the  help  of  others.  It  appeared  to  me  there 
was  need  for  individual  examination:  that  the  thinfjs  which 
remain,  but  are  ready  to  die,  might  be  strengthened ;  and 
the  works  of  some  be  made  more  perfect  before  the  Lord,  than 
they  had  yet  ever  been.  The  reduced  state  of  this  meeting 
in  point  of  numbers,  is  affecting ;  and  but  very  few  young  mem- 
bers are  coming  up,  under  the  preparing  hand  of  the  Lord,  for 
service  in  the  church. 

Having  no  meeting  appointed  on  seventh-day,  we  staid  at  the 
pleasant  residence  of  our  kind  friend  Sarah  Hull,  widow  of  that 
excellent  minister  of  the  Gospel,  Henry  Hull. 

Pirst-day  12th.  Attended  Stanford  Meeting  in  the  morning, 
and  one  appointed  at  the  Creek  in  the  afternoon.  My  dear 
wife  had  the  chief  of  the  service  in  both.  I  trust  they  were 
held  to  profit,  to  individuals  who  were  present.  Next  day  we 
had  a  meeting  at  Nine  Partners,  in  which  she  found  it  her  place 
to  treat  on  the  subject  of  the  ministry.  I  felt  engaged  to  hold 
forth  a  warning  against  the  danger  of  forsaking  the  Truth,  and 
joining  with  that  which  will  deprive  us  of  the  crown,  that  is 
in  reserve  for  those  who  continue  to  the  end  with  our  Lord,  in 
the  temptations  or  trials  which  beset  his  church  and  cause. 
"  Blessed  is  the  man  that  endureth  temptation ;  for  when  he  is 
tried,  he  shall  receive  the  crown  of  life."  When  his  fidelity  and 
allegiance  are  fully  proved,  his  Lord  will  come  forth  and  reward 
him  with  his  presence  and  acceptance ;  and  as  such  hold  out  to  the 
end,  the  incorruptible  crown  of  glory  will  be  mercifully  granted 
to  them,  in  the  kingdom  of  their  Father.  We  returned  in  the 
evening  to  our  friend  Asa  Upton's  and  spent  the  next  day  there, 
and  at  the  houses  of  his  brothers,  Paul  and  Smith. 

On  fourth-day,  the  15th,  we  took  our  departure  homeward, 
where   we  arrived  in  safety,  the  next  afternoon ;  having  the 


208  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

clothing  of  peacefulness  in  the  fulfilment  of  this  little  portion  of 
duty. 

Ninth  month.  On  the  11th  I  went  with  my  brother  Joel  to 
Westtown  School.  We  had  a  very  tendering  time  in  the  meet- 
ing there,  in  the  forenoon.  The  danger  of  losing  our  first  love, 
and  relying  upon  what  we  have  known  in  time  past,  without 
experiencing  the  renewed  baptisms  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  was 
held  up  to  veiw.  In  this  condition  we  may  be  deceived  respect- 
ing ourselves,  and  suppose  that  we  are  in  a  better  state  than 
we  really  are.  Watchfulness  unto  prayer,  and  the  disposition 
to  desire  those  proving  dispensations,  wherein  we  experience 
a  being  baptised  into  the  likeness  of  Christ's  death  and  suffering, 
were  recommended ;  that  thus  we  might,  from  season  to  season, 
be  raised  up  into  newness  of  life ;  and  be  qualified  from  experi- 
ence, to  testify  to  the  Truth ;  and  not  merely  because  we  have 
read  or  heard  of  it,  through  others.  Sarah  Emlen  knelt,  re- 
turning thanks  for  the  present  favor,  and  praying  that  messen- 
gers might  be  sent  forth  to  roll  the  stone  from  the  well's  mouth, 
as  it  had  been  done  that  day;  that  so  the  flocks  might  be 
watered;  that  the  word  preached  might  sink  deep  into  the 
hearts  of  some  present,  who  were  ashamed  to  confess  their 
Lord  before  men;  and  that  their  eyes  might  be  anointed  to 
see,  and  to  discriminate  between  the  chaff  and  the  wheat ;  the 
alloy  and  the  precious  gold  and  silver.  It  was  a  season  of  re- 
newing our  strength  and  confidence  in  the  mercy  and  goodness 
of  the  unslumbering  Shepherd  of  Israel ;  for  which  we  desired, 
in  reverence  and  humility,  to  return  thanks  to  his  great  and 
worthy  name. 

I  staid  the  afternoon  meeting,  and  also  sat  with  the  boys  in 
the  collecting  room  ;  in  both  of  which,  counsel  was  extended  on 
other  subjects;  and  on  the  next  morning  returned  to  Springfield, 
and  so  home  ;  enjoying  the  calm  of  peaceful  poverty,  yet  well 
satisfied  that  I  went. 

25th.  Yesterday  my  wife  and  myself  attended  Frankford 
Monthly  Meeting,  held  at  Germantown.  It  was  a  day  of  Divine 
favor;  the  l)lesse<l  Head  of  the  Church  qualifying  us  both,  to 
preach  the  Gosj)el  to  the  weary  and  tried  amongst  them,  and  to 
the  younger  members;  inviting  them,  under  the  influence  of 
heavenly  love,  to  obey  the  discoveries  of  the  light  of  Christ, 
and  taking  his  yoke  upon  their  necks,  to  follow  Ilim  whither- 
eoever  lie  leads. 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  209 

From  the  state  of  many  meetings,  there  is  reason  to  fear  a 
declension  from  the  life  and  power  of  religion  amongst  us  is 
taking  place.  Death  is  removing  the  older  members,  and  com- 
paratively few  of  the  younger,  appear  to  be  coming  forth  in  dedi- 
cation to  the  work  of  the  Loi'd.  Unless  the  Head  of  the  church 
turns  his  hand  upon  sons  and  daughters,  and  raises  up  a  band  of 
faithful  laborers,  clothing  them  with  zeal  as  with  a  garment,  for 
his  cause  and  honor's  sake,  there  is  reason  to  fear,  that  in  some 
places,  the  Society  may  become  a  desolation.  Such  a  picture  is 
truly  mournful :  but  what  can  we  expect,  when  so  little  fruit 
has  been  produced,  after  so  many  gifts  and  favors  have  been 
conferred  upon  us. 

Eleventh  month  30th.  The  ministry  of  the  Gospel  is  a  mys- 
tery to  those  who  are  unacquainted  with  the  teachings  and 
movings  of  the  Spirit  of  Christ  in  the  heart.  I  have  many 
times  been  instructed  by  the  gradual  unfolding  of  matter,  de- 
signed to  be  communicated  in  a  religious  assembly.  If  we  are 
not  preserved  in  patience,  it  is  possible  to  miss  the  particular 
point  which  is  designed  to  be  held  up  to  view,  or  to  give  a  wrong 
construction  to  the  portion  of  Scripture  brought  before  the  mind 
He  who  has  the  work  in  his  own  hand,  and  sees  the  wants  of 
the  people,  can  alone  prepare  the  creature  for  his  serv^ice,  and 
that  which  He  intends  for  them  to  do.  There  is  at  the  present 
time  much  unsettlement  among  many  of  the  members  of  our 
Society.  They  az*e  attracted  by  wordy,  doctrinal  discourses, 
which  fill  the  head,  and  leave  the  heart  little  benefitted.  An 
aversion  is  produced  to  a  spiritual,  practical  ministry,  which 
lays  open  the  negligence  and  unfaithfulness  of  the  profes- 
sors, and  insists  on  the  indispensable  necessity  of  self-denial, 
and  a  steadfast  following  of  Christ  in  the  way  of  the  cross. 
Many  appear  to  want  a  religion  without  a  cross  ;  and  to  be 
ranked  among  the  followers  of  Christ,  without  yielding  to  the 
baptisms  and  humiliations  which  He  introduces  the  obedient 
soul  into.  But  this  desire  is  vain  ;  and  all  that  such  may  hear 
will  avail  nothing,  unless  they  are  brought  to  Christ ;  and,  in 
the  submissiveness  of  little  children,  take  his  yoke  upon  them, 
and  follow  the  leadings  and  discoveries  of  his  divine  and  saving 
light  in  the  secret  of  the  heart. 

Twelfth  month  1st.  My  wife  and  I  went  to  our  beloved 
friends  Josiah  and  Elizabeth  Eeeve's,  near  Medford,  New  Jer- 
sey, and  attended  the  meeting  there ;  in  which  we  both  had 


210  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

service.  Our  love  for  these  dear  Friends  increases  as  they  draw 
near  to  the  period  when  the  church  is  to  be  dej)rived  of  their 
counsel  and  consistent  example.  They  have  watched  faithfully 
over  the  flock  committed  to  their  trust  in  that  meeting,  and 
have  been  favored  with  the  spirit  of  wisdom  and  discernment 
in  the  discharge  of  their  religious  duties,  as  elders  and  overseers 
in  the  church. 

1839,  Second  month.  At  our  Monthly  Meeting  I  obtained 
liberty  to  visit  the  Western  and  Cain  Quarterly  Meetings,  and 
the  meetings  composing  them.  As  oiir  own  Quarterly  Meeting 
occurs  in  the  early  part  of  the  Second  month,  I  deferred  leaving 
home ;  intending  soon  after  to  set  out  on  the  proposed  visit. 
Our  friend  Daniel  Wheeler  arrived  in  this  city  on  the  1st  of  the 
Second  month,  and  attended  both  the  Select  and  General  Quar- 
terly Meetings.  His  services  were  very  acceptable  to  Friends ; 
his  doctrine  corresponding  with  the  ancient  principles  of  the 
Society,  and  tending  to  bring  the  minds  of  the  hearers  to  the 
work  of  religion,  and  to  the  teachings  of  Christ  in  their  own 
hearts. 

My  dear  and  honored  father  had  been  in  a  declining  state 
of  health  for  several  months,  and  on  fourth-day  the  30th  of 
last  month,  had  a  severe  chill.  Though  he  came  down  stairs 
on  the  following  morning,  he  found  himself  too  much  prostra- 
ted in  strength  to  remain,  and  accordingly  returned  to  his  bed ; 
which  he  left  but  little  until  removed  by  death.  It  being  pro- 
posed to  call  in  a  consulting  physician  he  declined,  saying,  that 
at  his  time  of  life  it  was  not  probable  he  could  continue  here 
long,  and  he  was  entirely  satisfied  with  what  his  son,  the  attend- 
ing physician,  might  do  for  him.  lie  daily  grew"  weaker,  until 
he  departed,  on  sixth-day  morning  the  8th,  a  little  after  eight 
o'clock.  He  w^as  nursed  by  his  children,  who  watched  him  with 
much  solicitude.  One  morning  when  asked  how  he  was,  here- 
plied,  "  very  quiet — very  quiet,  but  very  weak."  I  remarked, 
it  was  a  trial  to  have  those  removed,  at  this  time,  who  have 
long  stood  for  the  defence  of  the  Truth.  He  rejoined,  "  I  have 
felt  a  great  deal  on  that  account,  a  great  deal.  I  am  satisfied 
there  is  a  spirit  at  work  which  would  lay  waste  the  ancient  pro- 
fession and  doctrines  of  our  Society,  and  draw  Friends  away 
from  the  spii-ituiility  of  that  which  they  have  once  known  ;  and 
many  are  catched  with  it." 

During  the  first  three  days  of  his  confinement,  his  mind  ap- 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  211 

pearcd  to  be  under  exercise,  and  though,  as  was  usual  with  him, 
he  said  little  of  his  own  exercises,  I  believe  he  was  introduced 
into  a  very  humbling  view  of  himself,  and  made  deeply  sensi- 
ble of  the  frailties  which  pertain  to  man  ;  and  that  it  is  only 
through  Divine  mercy,  after  we  have  done  the  will  of  God,  that 
we  are  accepted  at  last.  He  became  settled  in  a  holy  confi- 
dence ;  being  gathered  and  centered  to  the  sure  foundation, 
Christ  Jesus,  the  hope  of  the  saints'  glory.  He  endured  with 
patience  the  infirmities  produced  by  advanced  age  and  disease  ; 
alluded  with  much  serenity  to  his  approaching  close ;  and  the 
peacefulness  and  heavenly  settlement  which  were  felt,  gave 
evidence  that  his  eye  was  firmly  fixed  on  the  eternal  recom- 
pense, laid  up  in  store  for  those  who  follow  the  Lamb  of  God, 
whithersoever  He  leadeth.  He  retained  the  use  of  his  faculties 
to  the  last,  and  expired  without  any  struggle,  or  the  change  of 
a  feature.  To  his  children  it  was  a  solemn  and  aftecting  event ; 
and  to  the  Society,  in  which  he  has  long  stood  as  a  faithful 
watchman,  his  removal  will  be  felt  as  leaving  a  blank  that  can- 
not soon  be  filled.  He  was  favored  with  a  clear,  sound  and 
discerning  mind ;  and  soon  detecting  the  specious  appearances 
of  the  enemy,  he  raised  his  voice  with  unwavering  firmness 
against  them  ;  and  though  he  often  incurred  the  censure  of  the 
superficial  professor,  and  of  those  who  sought  the  honor  of  men, 
yet  he  kept  his  ground,  and  very  generally  proved  that  his 
judgment  was  correct.  He  was  faithful  in  waiting  for  the  aris- 
ing of  the  poAver  of  Truth  in  our  religious  assemblies,  both 
for  worship  and  discipline.  It  was  his  delight  and  life  to  feel 
it,  both  in  himself  and  in  the  services  of  others  ;  and  when  he 
was  sensible  of  it,  it  was  his  authority  for  his  own  movements, 
and  satisfied  him  respecting  others,  however  simple  and  un- 
learned they  might  be.  The  interment  took  place  on  second- 
day  morning  the  11th,  and  the  solemnity  which  prevailed  in  the 
house  and  over  the  company,  there  and  at  the  ground,  was  very 
remarkable ;  it  was  in  character  with  his  love  of  silence  and  his 
deep  inward  waiting,  rather  than  the  expression  of  many  words. 
After  the  decease  of  my  dear  parent,  I  concluded  to  put  off 
the  proposed  visit  to  Cain  and  the  Western  Quarters,  until  the 
close  of  our  Yearly  Meeting ;  but  in  the  course  of  a  week  or 
two,  the  apprehension  came  over  me,  that  it  would  be  unsafe  to 
defer  it,  lest  it  might  lose  its  freshness;  and  that  the  Lord's 
work  is  not  to  be  done  in  man's  time.  Accordingly,  I  left  home, 


212  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

with  my  brother  Joseph  Evans,  and  on  the  23(1  of  the  Second 
month,  rode  to  Bradford. 

Attended  that  meeting  on  first-day ;  in  which  I  was  engaged 
to  revive  the  language  of  Elisha,  after  the  removal  of  Elijah  ; 
"Where  is  the  Lord  God  of  Elijah?"  and  thence  to  show  the 
necessity  of  the  enquiry  after  that  Almighty  power,  which 
raised  up  our  ancient  Friends,  and  made  them  a  substantial, 
spirituall}^- minded  people ;  and  to  endeavor  to  stir  up  Friends 
to  more  zeal  and  devotion ;  that  through  their  example,  the 
young  people  might  be  enlisted  under  the  government  of  the 
Prince  of  Peace. 

On  second-day  morning  we  rode  over  to  East  Cain ;  the  tra- 
velling being  very  heavy.  I  was  encouraged  to  hope,  that 
there  are  a  number  of  young  men  here  who  love  the  Truth ; 
and  that,  in  time,  they  Avill  be  prepared  to  be  useful  in  the 
church.  Third-day  morning  was  very  w^et,  and  yet  a  pretty 
large  company  collected  at  Downingtown.  The  emptiness  of 
all  worldly  possessions,  as  the  means  of  procuring  true  happi- 
ness ;  the  vanity  of  man  in  his  best  estate,  surrounded  by  all 
that  he  can  acquire;  and  the  certainty  of  death,  were  brought 
into  view ;  and  the  necessity  of  redemption  from  the  world,  and 
an  entire  dedication  to  the  will  and  service  of  Grod,  were  aifec- 
tionately  enforced.  It  was  a  season  of  favor,  in  whifh  the 
tendering  influences  of  Divine  love  spread  over  us;  and  thanks- 
giving and  prayer  were  offered  for  the  favor,  and  for  the 
strength  and  preservation  of  different  classes,  in  the  right  way. 
Fourth-day  at  Uwchlan.  The  people  were  nearly  all  strangers 
to  me,  and  I  had  hard  labor  with  the  spirit  of  infidelity;  but 
was  enabled  to  warn  those,  faithfully,  who  were  led  away  with 
it.  It  was  a  solemn  opportunity,  after  which  I  felt  clear  and 
peaceful.  Next  day  we  attended  an  appointed  meeting  at  Nant- 
meal,  where  very  few  Friends  remain.  The  peculiar  blessings 
of  the  New  Covenant,  in  which  the  Divine  law  is  written  in 
the  heart,  and  we  are  under  no  absolute  necessity  to  a])ply  to 
man  for  a  knowledge  of  it,  the  Lord  having  jilaced  his  Spirit 
in  the  hearts  of  all  men,  were  ojiened  to  the  people;  a  number 
not  professing  with  Friends  being  ])rescnt.  I  was  led  to  saj', 
that  where  lie  who  ascended  up  on  high,  had  given  gifts  for 
the  work  of  the  ministiy,  the  duty  of  such  was,  to  turn  the  at- 
tention to  Christ;  who  by  his  grace,  which  l)ring8  salvation, 
appears  in  the  heart;   that  their  hcarei'S  might  come  to  bo 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  213 

taught  and  led  by  Him,  and  know  Him  to  become  their  Re- 
deemer and  Saviour,  the  Shepherd  and  Bishop  of  their  souls, 
indeed. 

Attended  Robeson  Prei^arative  Meeting ;  and  the  following 
day,  we  got  to  the  comfortable  residence  of  our  beloved  friend 
and  mother  in  the  Truth,  Hannah  Gibbons,  at  Lampeter,  before 
dark.  Such  stopping-places  are  peculiarlj-  grateful  to  those 
who  have  left  all,  in  the  service  of  their  Lord  and  Mastei".  Under 
the  roofs  of  such,  they  often  find  fathers  and  mothers,  brothers 
and  sisters,  and  enjoy  houses  and  lands,  as  if  their  own ;  thus 
realizing  the  promises  of  Christ  to  his  poor,  yet  dedicated  dis- 
ciples. Attended  their  meeting  on  first-day  (3d  of  Third  month  : ) 
in  which  the  little  company  was  permitted  to  drink  together  of 
the  consolation  and  strength  wherewith  the  Master  rewards 
them  that  keep  the  watch,  faithfully,  for  his  coming ;  and  the 
young  were  aff^ectionately  invited  to  come  under  his  yoke,  that 
they  might  witness  preservation  from  the  allurements  of  the 
world. 

On  second-day  morning,  we  had  an  appointed  meeting  at 
West  Cain,  and  another  in  the  afternoon  at  East  Sadsbury. 
Both  of  them  were  seasons  wherein  Holy  help  was  extended, 
to  minister  to  the  states  of  the  people.  When  we  got  to  West 
Cain,  we  found  that  a  separatist  from  New  York  had  appointed 
a  meeting  at  the  same  time  and  place;  which  at  first  felt  try- 
ing to  us  ;  but  being  early  at  the  house,  we  took  our  seats,  en- 
deavoring to  retire  in  spirit  to  the  Master,  for  his  help  and 
direction.  Friends  gathered  pretty  promptly,  and  filled  the 
gallery  and  the  seats  under  it;  and  notice  having  been  spread, 
that  two  ministers  were  to  be  there,  the  house  was  early  filled 
by  Friends  and  others.  A  Friend  sitting  near  us,  told  us  after 
the  meeting  closed,  that  two  men,  one  of  whom  he  supposed  to 
be  the  separatist,  came  into  the  yard,  and  then  rode  away. 
Most  probably,  seeing  the  gallery  and  house  filled,  thej^  declin- 
ed attempting  to  force  themselves  on  the  meeting ;  of  which  we 
were  truly  glad  ;  and  thankful  to  the  great  Head  of  the  churcl  l 
for  his  goodness,  in  solemnizing  the  meeting,  and  qualifying  to 
preach  redemption  and  salvation  through  Him.  It  was  as  quiet 
and  orderly  a  meeting  as  I  have  almost  ever  sat  in ;  and  ended 
with  thanksgiving  for  His  continued  mercy,  and  prayer  for  the 
help  of  those  who  had  been  made  sensible  of  it. 

The  Monthly  Meeting  of  Sadsbury,  held  to-day,  the  5th,  was 
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214  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS 

large.  To  deliver  close  doctrine  amongst  our  Friends  is  a  trial; 
but  sometimes  the  danger  of  resting  in  an  outside  show  of  reli- 
gion, while  the  heart  is  unchanged,  makes  it  necessary  to  search 
Jerusalem  as  with  candles;  and  to  call  upon  the  men  of  Israel 
to  renew  the  examination  of  themselves,  as  they  may  be  fav- 
ored with  the  visitations  of  the  Searcher  of  Hearts  ;  who  is  of 
purer  eyes  than  to  look  on  iniquity  in  his  church  and  people. 
It  was  a  solemn  season ;  and  though  it  is  moi'e  pleasant  to  the 
creature  to  pour  in  the  oil  and  the  wine,  yet  I  believe  no  offence 
was  taken  at  the  doctrine  delivered. 

Fourth-day  had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Bart,  which  was 
satisfixctory ;  and  the  next  day  attended  the  Monthly  Meeting 
of  London  Grove,  held  at  Fallowfield.  Lodged  at  S.  Swain's, 
and  held  a  meeting  in  Friends'  House  at  London  Grove,  which 
was  a  favored  time.  The  importance  of  individual  faithfulness 
was  held  up  to  view;  and  the  doctrine  of  salvation  through  the. 
merits  and  mediation  of  Christ,  and  the  sanctitication  of  the 
Spirit,  was  preached;  and  the  certainty  of  the  Stone,  cut  out  of 
the  mountain  without  hands,  increasing  and  overpowering  all 
opposition,  in  the  Lord's  time,  was  declared  in  the  authorit}'  of 
Truth.  We  tarried  mitil  the  following  noon  with  our  kind 
friend  Isaac  Pusey  and  wife;  visited  his  relative  Edith  Edge 
and  her  daughter,  who  were  at  home.  It  was  refreshing  to  find 
thei'e  are  those,  in  many  places,  w^hose  minds  arc  in  good  mea- 
sure imbued  with  the  love  of  Christ,  and  their  conduct  and 
appearance  circumspect.  From  amongst  these  we  hope  to  see 
faithful  soldiers  raised  up,  who  will  not  flinch  from  suffering 
and  reproach;  but,  growing  in  grace  and  strength,  will  vali- 
antly maintain  the  testimonies  which  our  Holy  Head  communi- 
cated to  us  to  hold  forth  in  the  world,  and  for  which  our  devoted 
forefathers  suffered  many  privations,  and  not  a  few,  even  death. 

The  meeting  at  West  Grove  was  laborious,  under  a  sense  that 
many  are  engrossed  with  the  things  of  time  ;  and  not  coming 
forward  in  that  dedication  to  the  Lord's  will  which  He  iv- 
quires;  and  thus  the  testimonies  of  Truth  are  in  danger  of  fall- 
ing to  the  ground  among  them.  I  missed  the  help  of  the  spirits 
of  William  Jackson  and  his  wife;  two  ancient  and  substantial 
ministers,  who  were  removed  a  few  years  since  to  their  everlast- 
ing reward.  They  were  living  when  I  last  visited  this  meet- 
ing; and  not  only  treated  me  with  much  affection,  but  were  a 


JOURNAL   OF   "WILLIAM    EVANS.  215 

strength  and  comfort,  ft-om  thoir  staidness  of  mind,  and  deep 
indwelling  with  the  Seed  of  Divine  life  in  their  hearts. 

On  first-day  morning  attended  London-Britain  Meeting.  The 
day  was  fine,  and  without  notice,  the  members  generally,  with 
some  not  of  us,  convened.  The  impossibility  of  the  natural 
man  comprehending  Divine  things;  and  the  indispensable  need 
of  regeneration,  to  enable  us  to  see  the  kingdom  of  God,  were 
subjects  brought  before  me ;  and  in  the  ability  afforded,  I  la- 
bored with  some  there,  to  bring  them  to  see  that  all  their 
acquirements,  without  a  change  of  heart,  would  avail  them 
little ;  that  those  who  thought  they  knew  something  in  relation 
to  the  things  of  God,  which  they  had  collected  by  study  and  the 
exertions  of  their  own  faculties,  as  men,  knew  nothing  in  those 
things  as  they  ought  to  know.  There  seemed  to  be  a  self-suffi- 
ciency in  some,  which  rendered  it  hard  work  to  obtain  much 
relief.  A  Friend,  after  the  meeting,  expressed  that  he  did  not 
marvel  at  the  labor;  and  though  I  alluded  to  the  trial  it  is  to 
have  to  deal  with  such  spirits,  he  said  he  wished  me  to  be  faith- 
ful, and  to  be  encouraged. 

Second-day  morning  we  rode  to  New  Garden,  and  a  pretty 
large  company  of  Friends  and  their  neighbors  convened;  and 
though  I  felt  somewhat  depressed,  yet  the  good  Master  conde- 
scended to  afford  help.  Quiet  and  solemnity  spread  over  us, 
and  I  was  opened  on  the  importance  of  a  wakeful,  watchful 
state  in  our  respective  allotments  in  the  church ;  being  with- 
drawn from  all  improper  dependence  on  man,  and  having  our 
reliance  placed  on  Him,  without  whom  the  watchman  waketh 
in  vain,  and  they  labor  in  vain  who  build  the  house.  Some 
hearts  were  humbled  and  tendered. 

On  third  and  fourth-days  held  meetings  at  Hockessin  and 
Kennett.  These  two,  form  a  Monthly  Meeting,  in  which  there 
are  but  few  young  men  who  appear  like  Friends.  Most  of  them 
having  become  involved  in  the  spirit,  and  habits,  and  princii^les 
of  the  world,  they  have  lostthesimplieity  of  the  Truth,  and  the 
love  for  its  cause,  which  is  the  noblest  object  that  can  claim  the 
devotion  of  our  time  and  talents ;  and  which  will  truly  dignify 
and  render  man  useful.  The  sensations  of  my  mind  were 
mournful,  from  a  feeling  of  the  great  degeneracy  of  not  a  few 
of  the  children,  even  of  valuable  members  of  the  Society,  and  I 
left  them  with  heaviness.  After  dining,  we  rode  twenty  miles 
to  my  brother's  residence  at  Springfield,  and  found  his  family  in 


216  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

good  health.  Next  mornmg  I  got  to  my  own  home,  which  I 
think  I  rarely  ever  entered  with  more  poacefulness.  I  desire  to 
bless  and  to  thank  my  Lord  and  Master  with  humility  and  re- 
verence, for  the  sweet  i*ewai*d;  and  to  be  preserved  amid  the 
temptations  which  yet  await  my  earthly  pilgrimage. 


CHAPTEE   XI. 

1839—1841. 


Yearly  Meeting — Visits  various  Meetings  in  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting — 
Baltimore  Quarterly  Meeting — Visit  to  Westbury  and  Purchase  Quarterly 
Meetings — Attends  the  Yearly  Meeting  in  Virginia — Death  of  his  Son. 

Fourth  month  9th.  The  Yearly  Meeting  being  near  at  hand, 
brings  with  it  an  unusual  degi'ee  of  concern,  respecting  the 
manner  in  which  it  will  be  held.  It  is  greatly  to  be  feared,  that 
some  have  become  blinded  by  a  spirit  which  is  seeking  to  draw 
Friends  away  from  the  spirituality  of  our  holy  profession,  and 
to  bring  them  into  an  alliance  with  the  friendships  of  the 
world. 

Nothing  short  of  the  extension  of  Divine  help,  can  preserve 
our  poor  Society  from  destraction  and  division.  May  our  trust 
and  confidence  be  placed  in  the  protecting  arm  of  the  Shej)herd 
of  Israel,  who  has  ever  been  the  defence  of  his  dependent  chil- 
dren ;  and  though  He  may  permit  them  to  go  into  deep  baptism 
and  suffering,  as  they  endeavor  to  keep  their  faith  and  reliance 
in  Him,  He  will  bring  them  up  again,  rejoicing  in  his  mercy 
and  faithfulness. 

On  third-day  morning,  the  Yearly  Meeting  entered  on  the 
Queries  and  Answers,  and  Friends  were  favored  to  speak  suita- 
bly to  the  different  subjects  j  holding  up  the  importance  of 
public  Divine  worship,  and  the  preservation  of  the  unity  which 
stands  in  Christ ;  wherein  we  should  all  speak  the  same  lan- 
guage, and  harmonize  in  our  various  labors  to  promote  the  cause 
of  Truth  in  the  church  and  in  the  world.     Our  ancient  testi- 


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mony  to  the  Light  of  Christ,  as  the  primary  rule  of  faith  and 
practice,  and  the  subordination  of  the  Scriptures  to  it,  was  held 
forth,  and  a  general  concern  was  manifest  to  keep  Friends  to 
our  religious  pi'ofession.  Throughout  the  various  sittings,  the 
meeting  was  favored  with  much  solemnity. 

In  the  Fifth  month,  I  attended  Cain  and  the  Western  Quar- 
ters, and  was  enabled  to  labor  in  them  under  the  influence  of 
Gospel  love,  for  the  encoui-ageraent  of  sound-hearted  Friends, 
and  to  draw  others  away  from  the  inordinate  love  and  pursuit 
of  worldly  things.  The  last  meeting  was  one  of  renewed 
favor. 

Eighth  month  5th.  Jacob  Green  from  Ireland,  on  a  second 
visit  to  this  country,  attended  our  Quarterly  Meeting.  I  felt  a 
strong  desire  that  he  might  be  baptised  into  the  states  of  in- 
dividuals and  of  meetings  where  he  visited ;  and  through  the 
quickening  power  of  Him,  who  declared  Himself  to  be  "the 
resurrection  and  the  life,"  be  enabled  to  minister,  so  as  to  reach 
the  life  in  others,  who  desire  to  be  fed  with  that  food  only 
which  comes  fx*om  the  Divine  hand  ;  and  feeling  incited  thereto, 
I  ventured  to  express  it,  as  my  sincere  and  tender  desire  for 
him. 

My  dear  wife  brought  before  the  meeting  a  concern  to  attend 
the  Yearly  Meetings  of  Ohio  and  Indiana,  and  to  visit  some 
meetings  belonging  to  them,  &c.,  for  which  she  had  a  certificate 
of  concurrence  from  our  Monthly  Meeting. 

8th.  I  attended  Abington  Quarterly  Meeting,  and  was  en- 
abled to  hold  forth  the  doctrine  of  our  Lord,  when  He  thanked 
the  Father  that  he  had  hid  the  mysteries  of  his  kingdom  from 
the  wise  and  prudent,  and  revealed  them  unto  babes.  That  un- 
regenerate  man  with  all  his  wisdom  and  natural  powers,  was 
unable  to  discover  the  truth  as  it  is  in  Jesus.  His  pride  led 
him  to  overlook  it,  as  too  simple  and  too  little  for  him  to  be- 
lieve in.  It  was  only  as  he  was  brought  down  into  the  dust; 
into  a  humble,  childlike  state,  that  he  could  be  prepared  to 
have  these  things  revealed  to  him.  "  Except  ye  be  converted 
and  become  as  little  children,  ye  cannot  enter  the  kingdom  of 
heaven ;"  and  unless  we  enter  the  kingdom  of  the  dear  vSon  of 
God  and  come  under  his  government,  we  cannot  see  the  things 
that  pertain  thereto.  "When  we  are  brought  here,  He  will  re- 
veal the  knowledge  of  God,  and  those  things  which  belong  to 
our  everlasting  peace  ;  and  this  knowledge  of  God  and  of  his 


218  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

beloved  Son,  as  it  is  thus  revealed,  is  life  eternal  to  the  soul.  Much 
more  was  opened,  and  the  meeting  was  brought  under  a  solemn 
covering.  A  woman  Friend  closed  the  meeting  in  humble,  fer- 
vent prayer  that  the  solemn  truths  delivered  that  day,  might  be 
sealed  on  every  heart,  and  that  the  praise  might  be  ascribed  to 
the  Lord  alone  to  whom  it  belongs. 

27th.  Having  some  time  felt  a  draft  to  the  Quarterly  Meet- 
ing of  Bucks,  I  took  the  car  to  Trenton  and  thence  the  stage  to 
New  Hope.  I  was  very  kindly  received  by  my  highly  esteemed 
friend  and  mother  in  the  Truth,  Ruth  Ely.  On  fourth-day  at- 
tended the  Select  Meeting;  in  which  some  ability  was  afforded 
to  show,  that  while  we  are  in  no  degree  to  become  negligent  of 
our  duty,  all  over  anxiety  for  the  good  cause  will  add  nothing 
to  our  stature,  nor  promote  its  advancement.  But  He  who  makes 
the  lilies  to  grow,  and  arrays  them  in  a  manner  far  superior  to 
Solomon's  robes,  can  take  care  of  and  defend  his  cause,  and  pros- 
per it  and  us,  as  our  trust  is  placed  in  Him  alone.  Friends  con- 
vened on  fifth-day  morning  in  greater  number  than  was  usual,  at 
Buckingham.  The  power  of  religion  appeared  low ;  and  for  a 
time  it  felt  doubtful  whether  we  should  know  what  it  was  to 
rise  from  the  dead  into  newness  of  life.  I  endeavored  to  draw 
near  to  Him  who  alone  can  bring  out  of  the  pit,  and  open  our 
mouths  to  declai'e  his  will.  After  struggling  with  fear,  I  be- 
lieved it  right  to  rise  with  the  testimony  of  the  Apostle  :  "  There 
is  therefore  now  no  condemnation  to  them  that  are  in  Christ 
Jesus,  who  walk  not  after  the  flesh,  but  after  the  Spirit;  for 
the  law  of  the  Spirit  of  life  in  Christ  Jesus  hath  set  me  free 
from  the  law  of  sin  and  death ;"  and  to  declare  that  this  con- 
tinues to  be  the  case  to  the  obedient  soul  to  this  very  day.  I 
was  led  to  open  the  condition  of  those  who  had  obeyed  the 
dictates  of  the  Spirit  of  Christ  in  their  hearts ;  who  had  sub- 
mitted to  the  administration  of  condemnation  for  sin;  and  after 
abiding  under  it  the  appointed  time,  experienced  a  change  of  con- 
dition; having  the  love  of  God  shed  abroad  in  their  hearts,  and 
receiving  the  law  of  the  Spirit  of  life,  and  yielding  faithfully  to 
it,  came  to  be  freed  from  the  dominion  of  the  law  of  sin  and  death. 
These  were  prepared  to  advance  in  the  spiritual  journey;  and 
as  they  were  faithful  to  their  Divine  Leader,  would  grow  fro  in 
stature  to  stature,  and  witness  an  establishment  in  the  blessed 
Truth.  Those  who  persisted  in  disobedience,  would  grow 
harder  in  sin ;  shame  and  confusion  would  cover  them;  and  they 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  219 

could  have  no  other  prospect  than  separation  from  tlie  presence 
of  the  Lord,  and  the  glory  of  his  power,  "  When  He  shall  come  to 
be  glorified  in  his  saints,  and  to  be  admired  in  all  them  that  be- 
lieve, at  that  day."  Such  as  deny  the  possibility  of  keeping 
the  commandments  of  God,  and  contend  for  the  commission 
of  sin  through  life,  are  not  true  Chi-istians.  We  cannot  serve 
two  masters.  Either  we  shall  love  one  and  hate  the  other,  or 
cleave  to  one  and  despise  the  other.  VVe  cannot  serve  God  and 
mammon.  A  kingdom  divided  against  itself  cannot  stand.  We 
must  serve  Christ  or  antichrist ;  and  all  who  submit  to  Christ, 
will  be  brought  from  under  the  government  of  the  prince  of 
the  power  of  the  air,  into  the  freedom  of  the  children  of  God ; 
freed  from  sin,  as  well  as  the  guilt  of  sin.  There  was  present, 
I  was  afterwards  told,  one  of  those  preachers  who  inculcate  the 
idea  that  we  are  not  made  free  from  sin  in  this  life. 

Ninth  month  5th.  I  attended  the  Arch  Street  Meeting,  where 
I  sat  some  time  under  a  consideration  of  my  own  weaknesses 
and  imperfections.  Clothed  with  these  sensations,  we  fe-el  en- 
tirely unfit  for  the  Lord's  work,  and  are  disposed  to  retire  from 
it,  and  keep  silence  before  Him,  with  the  mouth  as  in  the  dust. 
After  a  time,  1  was  introduced  into  a  different  feeling,  and 
seemed  to  be  gradually  prepared  to  speak;  but  something  seem- 
ed to  give  me  a  gentle  check;  with  the  intimation  to  wait  and 
examine  the  presentation  a  little  further ;  and  on  recurring  to 
the  passage  of  Scripture  before  me :  "  To  obey  is  better  than 
sacrifice,  and  to  hearken  than  the  fat  of  rams,"  it  appeared  to 
be  applicable,  and  perhaps  designed  for  myself  I  kept  still ; 
and  was  glad  that  my  Divine  Master  was  so  kind  and  conde- 
scending, as  to  keep  me  and  instruct  me  in  this  way.  May  I 
become  more  and  more  conformed  to  his  Divine  will,  and  pi-e- 
pared  to  hear  and  obey  his  voice. 

10th.  I  went  to  Medford  to  attend  Haddonfield  Quarterly 
Meeting,  and  took  up  my  abode,  for  the  time,  with  my  dear,  aged 
friends  Josiah  and  Elizabeth  Reeve,  who  are  in  declining  health. 
Attended  the  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders. 

The  Quarterly  Meeting  for  business,  held  next  day,  was  a 
solid,  gathered  assembly ;  and  the  way  opened  to  jDreach  the 
gospel  of  Christ,  both  in  relation  to  the  efficacy  of  his  sufferings, 
and  the  immediate  manifestation  of  his  Spirit  in  the  heart ;  by 
which  He  is  revealed  to  the  soul  as  the  Redeemer  and  Sanctifier 
of  his  people. 


220  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVAN'S. 

1840,  Fourth  month.  The  past  winter  has  been  a  season  of 
close,  inward  conflict;  the  way  opening  for  but  little  service ; 
and  it  is  to  be  feared  that  the  unity  among  Friends  has  not  in- 
creased. I  have,  however,  attended  a  few  meetings  out  of  the 
city;  and  at  times  have  been  favored  with  best  help  in  the  dis- 
charge of  what  appeared  to  be  required. 

29th.  Our  Yearly  Meeting  was  held  last  week.  The  busi- 
ness was  conducted  with  great  harmony,  as  to  external  appear- 
ances ;  but  there  was  much  secret  suffering  endured.  The  duties 
of  clerk  were  more  trying  to  mo  than  at  any  pi-evious  period  ; 
so  that  I  felt  desirous  of  a  release.  Caleb  Pennock,  a  minister, 
in  his  eighty-eighth  year,  expressed  the  encouragement  he  felt 
at  seeing  so  many  young  men  there;  he  believed  that  better 
days  are  ahead,  and  that  the  faith  of  this  religious  Society 
would  rise  and  shine  with  greater  brightness.  He  rejoiced  at 
believing  this,  though  he  might  not  live  to  see  it.  A  memorial, 
prepared  by  the  Southern  District  Monthly  Meeting  of  Phila- 
delphia, concerning  my  beloved  father,  was  forwarded  b}'  the 
Meeting  for  SufTerings,  and  united  with  by  the  Yearly  Meeting. 

Fifth  month.  1  obtained  a  minute  from  the  Monthly  Meet- 
ing, to  attend  the  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Baltimore  ;  and  in  com- 
pany with  my  friend  Charles  Allen,  accomjilished  the  service. 
We  paid  several  visits  to  Friends  in  that  city;  in  some  of  which, 
the  way  opened  to  impart  counsel  and  encouragement  to  come 
under  the  government  and  teaching  of  the  Sjiirit  of  Christ;  that 
through  its  regenerating  operations,  individuals  might  be  pre- 
pared for  service  in  his  church  militant,  and  union  with  the 
church  triumphant,  when  done  with  the  trials  of  this  probation- 
ary scene.  The  Quarterly  Meeting  is  very  small  ;  also  the 
Select  Meeting ;  in  both  of  which  I  had  some  service. 

We  rode  out  to  Gunpowdei-,  and  had  an  appointed  meeting, 
on  sixth-day,  composed  of  a  few  members  and  others.  Here 
there  is  little  prospect  of  a  succession  among  Friends;  and  yet 
it  seemed  proper  to  warn  them  against  discouragement  in  as- 
sembling fur  Divine  worship.  Nearly  all  the  members  of  this 
meeting  joined  in  the  sejiaration  of  1828  ;  and  the  reduced  state 
of  the  remaining  members,  called  forth  sympathy  with  them. 

We  returned  to  Baltimore  on  seventh-day,  and  visited  an 
afflicted  Friend,  in  the  station  of  a  minister.  The  testimony  of 
the  Apostle  was  brought  into  view  :  "How  that  not  maiiy  wise 
men  after  the  flesh,  not  many  mighty,  not  many  noble  arc  called : 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  221 

but  God  hath  chosen  the  foolish  things  of  the  world,  to  confound 
the  wise ;  and  God  hath  chosen  the  weak  things  of  the  world 
to  confound  the  things  that  are  mighty ;  and  base  things  of  the 
world,  and  things  which  are  despised  hath  God  chosen ;  yea 
and  things  which  are  not,  to  bring  to  naught  things  that  are  ; 
that  no  flesh  should  glory  in  his  presence."  And  when  we  had 
been  arrayed  as  in  the  king's  apparel  and  placed  upon  the  king's 
horse,  like  Mordecai,  we  must  be  stripped  again,  and  return  to 
the  gate.  When  the  Lord  has  a  work  for  us  to  do,  He  often 
brings  us  down  low,  that  we  may  feel  our  own  nothingness ; 
that  when  He  again  equips  for  service,  we  may  be  sensible  the 
treasure  is  in  earthen  vessels,  and  the  excellency  of  the  power 
is  of  God  and  not  of  us. 

In  the  meeting  on  first-day  morning,  the  states  of  some  who 
were  often  convinced  of  what  the  Lord  required  at  their  hands, 
but  who  were  putting  off  the  work  of  religion,  were  spoken  to  ; 
and  in  the  afternoon,  those  who  stood  as  overseers,  were  exhort- 
ed to  faithfulness  in  feeding  the  flock.  I  also  felt  a  concern  for 
the  young,  visited  members,  that  they  might  not  be  allured 
from  the  fold  by  the  insidious  temptations  of  an  unwearied 
enemy,  and  the  want  of  proper  example  in  their  elder  Friends ; 
but  that  they  all  might  harmonize,  in  strengthening  each  other 
in  the  right  way  ;  whereby  a  succession  of  consistent  Friends 
might  be  raised  and  preserved  in  that  city.  We  returned  home 
on  second-day,  and  I  felt  well  satisfied  I  had  made  the  visit ; 
though  there  was  little  to  rejoice  in. 

Having  obtained  a  minute  of  the  unity  of  the  Monthly  Meet- 
ing, I  set  off  on  the  17th  of  the  Tenth  month,  1840,  in  company 
with  my  friend  Samuel  Hilles  of  Wilmington,  to  visit  the  Quar- 
terly Meetings  of  Westbury  and  Purchase,  in  the  State  of  New 
York ;  some  of  their  constituent  branches,  and  a  few  meetings 
on  the  way.  After  accomplishing  the  visit,  I  returned  home  on 
the  3d  of  Eleventh  month,  in  peace,  and  found  my  beloved 
family  in  usual  health,  which  was  cause  of  gratitude  to  our 
Heavenly  Father. 

Eleventh  month  11th.  This  morning  I  received  the  intelli- 
gence of  the  decease  of  my  much  beloved  and  honored  friend 
and  father  in  the  Truth,  Josiah  Eeeve  of  Upper  Evesham,  New 
Jersey.  Thus,  one  after  another,  the  fathers  and  pillars  are 
removed  from  among  us,  at  a  time  when  the  church  seems 
greatly  to  need  them.     May  the  blessed  Head  of  the  church,  in 


222  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

mercy  look  down  upon  our  poor  Socdcty,  and  ai'Ouse  many  to  a 
lively  sense  of  the  course  they  are  pursuing,  and  snatch  them 
as  brands  from  the  burning-;  that  during  the  day  of  grace,  they 
may  be  induced  to  enter  into  the  vineyard  and  labor.  But  oh! 
the  benumbing  effects  of  this  world;  how  it  is  slaying  thou- 
sands who  should  be  employed  in  the  ■  Lord's  work,  and  under 
his  direction,  spreading  the  kingdom  of  righteousness  and  truth 
in  the  earth. 

On  fifth-day,  the  12th,  I  went  to  the  late  residence  of  my 
beloved  friend,  and  felt  much  sympathy  with  his  widow,  who 
has  also  long  been  afflicted  with  bodily  indisposition.  She  is  a 
mother  in  Israel,  furnished  with  a  discerning  spirit  and  sound- 
ness of  judgment  that  qualifies  her  for  usefulness  in  the  church 
of  Christ. 

Twelfth  month  20th.  My  beloved  wife  having  been  engaged 
nearly  four  weeks  in  visiting  the  families  of  Friends  of  Chester 
and  Haddonfield  Monthly  Meetings,  N.  J.,  returned  home  this 
afternoon,  having  accomplished  the  work  to  her  own  relief  and 
peace. 

24th.  Since  my  return  from  New  York,  I  have  passed  through 
seasons  of  great  poverty  and  desertion.  But  though  closely 
proved  in  various  wa3"s,  I  have  endeavored  to  keep  patient,  and 
wait  for  the  return  of  the  Beloved  of  my  soul ;  having  underneath 
all,  a  secret  trust  and  belief  that  hght  would  again  break  forth, 
and  a  renewed  qualification  be  granted,  to  testify  of  his  mercy 
and  unfailing  compassion  towards  his  dependent  creature,  man. 
This  day  I  went  to  the  Arch  Street  Meeting,  where,  after  a  time 
of  inward  waiting,  the  testimony  of  an  eminent  Apostle  arose; 
"That  the  trial  of  your  faith  being  much  more  precious  than 
of  gold  that  perish eth,  though  it  be  tried  with  fire,  might  be 
found  unto  praise  and  honor  and  glory,  at  the  appearing  of 
Jesus  Christ ;"  and  in  the  fresh  openings  of  the  Spirit,  I  Avas  led 
to  speak  of  the  afflictions  and  provings  of  their  faith,  which  the 
Lord's  children  and  servants  had  to  pass  through.  lie  only  knew 
when,  and  how  far  to  try  their  faith  and  allegiance,  by  withdraw- 
ing his  sensible  presence ;  but  as  they  endeavored  to  possess 
their  souls  in  patience,  keeping  their  eye  to  Ilim  alone,  when 
He  saw  it  had  pi-oduced  the  effect  designed.  He  would  return 
with  healing  in  his  wings,  and  give  these  the  joys  of  his  salva- 
tion. These  could  then  sing  of  his  judgments  and  his  mercies; 
and  would  know  a  growth,  and  an  estabUshment  upon  the  Rock 


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of  ages,  and  the  Foundation  of  many  generations.  The  trial  of 
their  faith  worketh  patience,  patience  experience,  and  experi- 
ence hope ;  that  hope  which  maketh  not  ashamed  of  the  tribu- 
hxtious  that  pertain  to  the  Gospel  of  Christ.  I  was  also  led  to 
encourage  the  dear  young  people  to  keep  to  their  exercises,  and 
not  to  cast  away  their  confidence  in  their  Lord;  and  through 
obedience  and  submission  to  his  baptising  power,  they  would 
advance  until  they  should  be  prepared  to  endure  hardness,  as 
good  soldiers  of  Jesus  Christ. 

Being  their  Monthly  Meeting,  I  remained  with  them.  To- 
wards the  close  there  arose  the  language  of  encouragement  to 
the  members,  to  devote  themselves  to  the  Lord's  work,  the 
few  remaining  years  of  their  lives.  Our  religious  Society 
had  been  signally  blessed  in  this  city,  and  within  our  Yearly 
Meeting,  as  well  as  in  other  places  ;  but  we  had  not  brought 
forth  fruits  answerable  to  those  blessings.  Scattering  and  sep- 
aration had  taken  place;  but  I  believed  if  we  were  willing  to 
submit  to  the  necessary  baptisms,  and  give  ourselves  up  to  his 
service,  that  his  blessings  would  still  be  poured  forth  upon  us, 
ungrateful  as  we  had  been  ;  the  waste  places  would  be  built  up, 
and  the  doctrines  and  testimonies  given  to  this  Society,  would 
not  only  be  preached,  but  their  nature  and  effect  would  be 
shown  in  the  lives  and  conversation  of  our  members;  and  living 
witnesses  to  those  doctrines  would  be  raised  up,  from  age  to 
age,  and  they  should  spread  from  the  rivers  to  the  ends  of  the 
earth. 

1841.  Fourth  month  5th.  Attended  a  semi-annual  examination 
of  the  scholars  at  Westtown  School.  I  was  engaged,  in  the 
girls'  department,  to  remind  them,  it  was  not  once  entering 
into  the  narrow  way,  and  making  a  few  sacrifices,  that  would 
do ;  but  a  steady,  watchful  state  of  mind,  to  receive  further 
manifestations  of  duty  was  needful ;  that  we  may  experience 
the  humility  and  tenderness,  renewed  from  time  to  time,  which 
we  felt  in  the  day  of  our  first  visitation  ;  and  in  which  we 
were  made  willing  to  give  up  all  that  was  required  of  us. 
Herein  alone  we  should  experience  preservation,  and  a  growth 
in  the  Truth.  I  was  also  drawn  forth  in  affectionate  solicitude 
for  the  boys ;  that  they  might  be  favored  with  serious  impres- 
sions, and  engaged  to  enter  into  covenant  with  their  Heavenly 
Father,  that  if  He  would  give  them  bread  to  eat  and  raiment  to 
put  on.  He  should  be  their  Grod,  and  they  would  serve  Him. 


224  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

Thongli  wo  are  not  often  permitted  to  see  fruit  produced  by 
the  labor  bestowed,  yet  it '  is  our  duty  to  be  diligent  in  sowing 
the  seed  which  the  great  Seedsman  furnishes,  morning  or  even- 
ing, not  knowing  which  shall  prosper.  He  can  give  the  increase 
if  He  pleases,  and  if  there  be  none,  the  faithful  servants  will  be 
clear. 

2l8t.  Our  Yearly  Meeting  was  unusually  large  on  the  men's 
side  this  year,  and  the  business  conducted  with  religious  weight 
and  much  harmony.  The  state  of  the  Society  is  not,  however, 
settled,  and  all  the  members  thoroughly  united  as  branches  of 
the  true  Vine ;  deriving  strength  and  wisdom  from  the  same 
Divine  source.  A  painful  sense  is  often  attendant,  that  there 
are  some  who  would  exercise  an  influence  that  arises  from  a 
worldly  spirit,  that  loves  its  own,  and  is  at  enmity  with  the 
cross  of  Christ,  and  the  government  of  his  Spirit.  Such  as 
these  cry  out  for  liberty  and  liberality.  They  are  ready  to  con- 
federate with  men  of  the  world  in  plans  of  benevolence ;  and 
could  they  have  the  pi'edomi nance,  they  would  draw  the  Society 
away  from  the  sure  foundation,  and  from  an  humble  and  steady 
reliance  on  the  guidance  of  the  Great  Head ;  whose  right  alone  it 
is  to  direct  the  affairs  of  his  church.  But  there  is  also  a  body 
of  exercised  members,  who  desire  to  have  their  loins  girded,  and 
lights  burning,  waiting  for  the  coming  of  their  Lord,  and  who 
dare  not  be  active  in  their  own  will  and  wisdom.  These  are 
baptised  into  death;  having  the  sentence  of  death  in  themselves, 
not  to  ti'ust  in  themselves,  but  in  God  who  raiseth  the  dead,  and 
giveth  ability  to  stand  for  his  cause.  May  their  number  in- 
crease, and  the  arms  of  their  hands  be  made  strong  by  the  hands 
of  the  mighty  God  of  Jacob. 

Fifth  month  12th.  Accompanied  by  my  beloved  friend  Henry 
Cope,  I  set  out  to  attend  the  Yearly  Meeting  of  Virginia,  held 
at  Cedar  Creek,  having  minutes  of  the  unity  of  our  Monthly 
Meeting  therewith.  Travelling  by  railroads  and  steamboats  has 
now  become  so  rapid,  that  we  reached  Taylorsville,  about  thir- 
teen miles  distant  from  N".  Crenshaw's  at  Cedar  Creek,  by  three 
o'clock  the  next  day  after  leaving  home ;  where  we  were  met 
by  carriages  and  taken  to  his  hospitable  residence.  The  Quar- 
terly Meeting  held  on  the  14th,  was  small;  on  the  men's  side, 
reports  were  received  from  but  one  Monthly  Meeting;  the  re- 
maining two  being  nearly  extinct  through  the  removal  or 
decease  of  the  members. 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  225 

The  Yearly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders  consisted  of 
seven  men  and  three  women.  On  first-day  a  very  large  com- 
pany of  persons  came  together,  who,  from  their  deportment, 
manifested  that  they  had  very  little  acquaintance  with  silent 
meetings,  or  spiritual  worship ;  some  talking ;  and  many  going 
in  and  out  of  the  house.  After  two  or  three  Friends  had  spoken, 
and  there  had  been  a  time  of  silence,  it  appeared  right  for  me  to 
rise  with  the  expressions  of  Christ,  "Many  shall  come  from  the 
east  and  the  west,  and  shall  sit  down  with  Abraham,  Isaac  and 
Jacob,  in  the  kingdom  of  heaven,  but  the  children  of  the  king- 
dom shall  be  cast  out."  From  which  I  was  led  to  hold  forth 
the  doctrine,  that  those  who  were  favored  with  various  oppor- 
tunities of  spiritual  improvement,  and  neglected  them,  were  in 
danger  of  being  cast  off;  while  others,  whose  privileges  were 
few,  but  who  made  a  right  use  of  them,  would  be  gathered  to 
the  innumerable  company  that  surrounds  the  throne.  The 
necessity  of  witnessing  the  work  of  religion  in  the  heart,  by 
which  we  are  prepared  to  glorify  God  in  the  highest,  and  ex- 
perience peace  and  good  will  towards  all  men,  was  opened. 
That  where  this  is  known,  wars  and  fightings  come  to  an  end ; 
and  thus  the  kingdom  of  Christ  will  gradually  take  the  posses- 
sion of  the  gates  of  its  enemies ;  until  the  kingdoms  of  this 
world  become  the  kingdoms  of  our  Lord  and  his  Christ.  The 
universality  of  Divine  love,  with  many  other  points  of  Christian 
doctrine,  was  opened ;  a  degree  of  solemnity  spread  over  the 
company-,  and  I  believe  impressions  of  a  serious  nature  were 
made  on  some  minds. 

On  the  way  to  Flemming  Bates',  the  horses  pressed  so  much 
on  the  side  of  a  bank,  as  to  run  the  carriage  on  a  stump ;  by 
which  we  were  overturned.  I  was  much  alarmed  at  the  peril- 
ous situation  in  which  my  companion  was  placed;  he  being  be- 
tween the  front  of  the  carriage  and  the  corner  of  the  fence,  lest 
he  should  be  crushed;  but  the  horses  being  stopped  he  was 
rescued,  with  only  a  slight  injury.  I  was  very  thankful  for  the 
preservation  of  his  life.  It  felt  awful  to  me,  the  apprehension, 
that  I  might  have  to  return  without  him ;  which  brought  over 
me  the  seriousness  of  setting  out  from  home,  and  being  the 
means  of  taking  away  the  valuable  parent  and  head  of  a  family, 
who  might  never  return  to  them.  Many  times  did  I  feel  that  I 
had  great  cause  for  gratitude,  that  none  of  the  company  were 
seriously  injured;  and  I  thought  it  might  have  been  permitted 


226  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

to  show  us  what  poor,  frail  creatures  we  are ;  and  how  unable  to 
keep  ourselves  from  danger ;  and  that  it  was  needful  we  should 
keep  constantly  on  the  watch,  under  an  humble,  reverent  sense, 
towards  the  Lord,  of  our  insignificance,  and  unworthiness  of  all 
his  favors  ;  that  so  He  might  have  mercy  upon  us,  and  preserve 
us  by  his  power. 

The  Yearly  Meeting  was  very  small ;  and  though  there  are 
a  few  exei'cised  members,  who  desire  the  right  maintenance  of 
the  testimonies  of  Truth ;  yet  it  appeai'ed  to  me  doubtful 
whether  it  is  held  to  the  honor  of  the  great  Head,  and  the  real 
benefit  of  the  few  who  compose  it.  As  the  way  opened  for  it, 
we  endeavored  to  strengthen  the  hands  of  the  exercised  ones, 
and  to  counsel  and  warn  those,  who  appeared  to  be  under  little 
or  no  weight,  in  relation  to  the  right  holding  of  such  a  meeting; 
or  of  conducting  themselves  out  of  it  with  decorum,  and  a  seri- 
ousness becoming  the  occasion.  The  meeting  closed  on  fourth- 
day  afternoon.  In  the  evening,  at  our  lodgings,  we  had  a  large 
company  of  young  persons,  mostly  quite  gay,  invited  to  sit  with 
U3 ;  and  I  was  draAvn  forth  to  call  them  to  the  dut}^  of  watch- 
fulness and  sobriety ;  lest  their  adversary,  the  devil,  who  is  ever 
walking  about  as  a  roaring  lion,  seeking  whom  he  may  devour, 
should  lead  them  off,  by  his  temptations,  into  a  land  of  pits  and 
snares,  and  great  distress.  They  were  affectionately  invited  to 
come  to  Christ  Jesus,  and  take  his  yoke  upon  them ;  that  they 
might  know  Him  to  strip  them  of  their  vain  ornaments,  and 
by  the  baptising  and  sanctifying  power  of  his  grace,  prepare 
them  for  Him  to  tabernacle  in  their  hearts  and  fit  them  for  ser- 
vice in  his  church.  They  seemed  brought  under  serious  im- 
pressioHj  and  retired,  I  apprehended,  in  a  different  frame  of  mind 
from  what  they  would  have  done,  had  Ave  not  been  faithful  with 
them.  Next  day  we  rode  to  Taylorsvillc ;  lodged  at  a  tavern, 
and  next  morning  took  the  cars  for  Fredericksburg ;  thence  to 
the  Potomac,  where  we  went  on  board  the  steamboat  for  Wash- 
ington ;  which  city  w^e  reached  about  half  past  three  o'clock, 
and  at  half  past  five,  again  seated  ourselves  in  the  cars  for  Balti- 
more. On  seventh-day  aftei-noon  we  arrived  at  our  homes,  and 
I  found  my  beloved  family  well,  with  the  exception  of  my  oldest 
son.  who  for  some  time  has  appeared  to  be  in  a  decline,  and  had 
gone  to  one  of  my  brothers  at  Springfield,  to  try  the  benefit  of 
country  air. 

I  soon  made  him  a  visit,  and  found  him  more  unwell  than  I 


JOURNAL    OF   AVILLIAM    EVANS.  227 

expected.  After  reraaining  in  the  country  a  few  weeks,  and  ap- 
pearing to  derive  no  benefit  from  the  change,  but  continuing 
to  grow  weaker;  he  was  desirous  to  return  to  the  city,  and  was 
accordingly  brought  home. 

He  had  lived  an  unblemished  life ;  and  though  his  business 
subjected  him  to  the  company  of  people  of  the  world,  of  great 
variety  of  character,  he  was  unusually  circumspect  in  his  de- 
portment ;  and  has  drawn  from  many  of  them,  sentiments  of 
much  respect  for  his  example.  He  conducted  himself  with  in- 
variable respect  for  his  parents  and  their  judgment;  and  never 
departed  in  dress  from  the  usual  simplicity  observed  amongst 
us.  Although  he  had  thus  lived,  and  was  much  beloved  and 
approved  by  his  friends ;  when  he  saw  the  inevitable  result  of 
his  disease ;  his  mind  was  brought  under  great  exercise,  that 
he  might  be  prepared  for  the  awful  event.  Speaking  of  the  ex- 
ercises he  underwent,  at  Springfield,  he  said:  "The  conflict  I 
passed  through  for  two  days  and  nights,  is  indescribable.  It 
seemed  as  if  everything  wrong  that  I  had  done,  from  my  child- 
hood to  that  day,  was  brought  before  me;  and,  at  last,  in  mercy, 
I  received  an  evidence  that  they  were  all  forgiven  and  blotted 
out.  I  felt  calm  and  peaceful."  Is"otwithstanding  this  com- 
fortable assurance,  he  underwent  great  reduction,  and  was 
often  brought  into  close  searching  of  heart,  lest  he  should  be 
deceived.  Being  thus  left  to  struggle  with  the  evil  suggestions 
of  Satan,  and  to  feel  his  own  weakness,  he  many  times  appre- 
hended there  remained  a  veil  between  him  and  his  Heav- 
enly Father,  which  he  said  he  could  not  rend ;  and,  at  one 
time,  under  these  sensations,  he  said  :  "  I  feel  like  a  poor,  con- 
demned criminal."  He,  however,  experienced,  at  times,  this 
state  of  mind  to  be  changed;  and  was  enabled  to  acknowledge 
the  goodness  and  mercy  of  God ;  and  when  visited  by  some  of 
his  young  friends,  he  imparted  suitable  counsel ;  particularly 
to  those  in  business,  against  the  spirit  of  the  world ;  and  their 
being  drawn  away  after  the  acquisition  of  wealth.  In  such  a 
situation  as  this,  into  which  he  was  brought,  he  remarked, 
What  would  wealth  do  for  any  ?  It  would  then  be  found  that 
earthly  possessions  were  of  no  value  whatever,  to  a  soul  in  the 
prospect  of  eternity.  He  became  more  and  more  withdrawn 
from  his  outward  concerns,  and  seldom  said  much  about  them.  ' 
His  time  was  chiefly  spent  in  silent  meditation ;  and  he  mani- 
fested a  solidity  of  spirit,  and  deep  feeling  of  seriousness,  becom- 


228  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS. 

ing  the  situation  of  one  who  was  gradually  approaching  the 
termination  of  his  earthly  cai'eer.  He  appeared  to  have  acquir- 
ed much  command  over  himself;  so  that  he  endured  with 
patience  the  tediousness  of  a  lingering  consumption. 

At  one  time,  he  supplicated  thus,  in  a  very  solemn  and  hum- 
ble manner:  "Oh,  Lord  Jesus,  be  with  me  through  the  valley 
and  shadow  of  death  !  Oh,  righteous  Father,  wash  me  and 
make  me  clean  in  the  blood  of  the  holy  Jesus!"  After  this,  his 
mind  appeared  to  be  calm  and  settled ;  and  near  his  close,  when 
it  was  supposed  he  would  speak  no  more,  he  seemed  to  receive 
a  full  assurance,  that  every  obstruction  was  taken  out  of  the 
way,  and  distinctly  and  audibly  said  :  "  I  am  now  ready  to  go  ;" 
and  on  the  morning  of  the  5th  of  Seventh  month,  1841,  his  re- 
deemed spirit  was  released  from  the  conflicts  and  trials  of 
time. 


CHAPTEE    XII. 

1841. 

Religious  Visit  to  North  Carolina  Yearly  Meeting. 

1841,  Ninth  month  17th.  Having  for  some  time  believed  it 
would  be  my  duty  to  pay  a  religious  visit  to  the  meetings  of 
North  Carolina  and  Virginia  Yearly  Meetings,  I  spread  the 
subject  before  the  Monthly  and  Quarterly  Meetings,  and  obtain- 
ed their  certificates  of  unity  and  sympathy  with  me,  and  liber- 
ating me  for  the  service.  It  was  no  small  trial  to  engage  in 
such  a  visit ;  requiring  much  time  and  labor  to  reach  the  meet- 
ings in  prospect;  but  it  appeared  to  me,  that  my  own  peace  and 
growth  in  the  Truth,  were  concerned  in  giving  up  faithfully  to 
do  what  the  Great  Head  of  the  church  allotted  for  my  service. 
Many  experienced  Friends  expressed  their  gladness  that  I  was 
drawn  into  that  part  of  the  vineyard ;  and  desired  my  en- 
couragement and  strength ;  which  was  a  comfort.  Not  only 
the  unity  of  the  brethren,  l)ut  their  affectionate  desires  for  us, 
are  helpful.  They  show  they  are  alive  to  the  prosperity  of 
Truth ;  and  they  give  encouragement  to  the  stripped  and  tried 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  229 

seiTant,  who  has  the  labor  to  perform.  A  number  of  the  solid 
members  of  the  Meeting  for  Suiferings,  which  met  on  the  day 
we  set  off,  manifested  their  affectionate  feeling  for  me,  in  this 
way;  which  savored  of  the  precious  fellowship  of  the  Gospel, 
and  was  truly  cheering.  The  weather  was  wet  and  stormy ; 
but  my  companion  J.  Hacker,  and  myself,  rode  down  to  West- 
town;  and  the  next  day  reached  London-Brittain.  We  attended 
theii-  meeting  on  first-day,  where  I  felt  much  sympathy  with 
the  few  there,  who  are  endeavoring  to  hold  up  the  testimonies 
of  the  Gospel  in  the  sight  of  their  neighbors  ;  many  of  whom  have 
separated  from  the  Society.  Some  ability  was  furnished  to  en- 
courage them  to  hold  on  in  the  right  way,  that  the}-  may  draw 
the  children  into  a  love  of  the  Truth,  and  become  the  salt  of 
the  neighborhood,  and  lights  to  those  around  them.  The  neces- 
sity of  regeneration,  that  they  may  be  renewed  in  the  image 
which  Adam  lost  by  transgression,  was  also  presented  to  others ; 
who  were  invited  to  take  the  cross  of  Christ  upon  them,  and 
thereby  know  Him  to  be  their  Saviour  indeed.  In  the  after- 
noon, we  rode  over  the  Susquehanna  to  Deer  Creek ;  and  on 
second-day,  the  20th,  proceeded  to  Baltimore.  Several  Friends 
visited  us  in  the  evening,  which  we  passed  in  agreeable  conver- 
sation, on  divers  subjects  connected  with  the  cause  of  Truth  and 
righteousness ;  it  ended  peacefully,  and,  I  trust,  with  some  in- 
struction to  us  all. 

Having  obtained  from  our  friend  Hugh  Balderston,  a  draft  of 
the  route  to  Goose  Creek,  we  set  out  in  the  morning,  and  rode  to 
Eockville,  on  the  Georgetown  Turnpike,  and  put  up  at  a  public 
house.  The  thouo-ht  of  the  long  distance  we  must  ride  to  reach 
meetings  in  Tennessee,  is  sometimes  trying ;  but  under  all,  the 
sustaining  goodness  and  mercy  of  our  Heavenly  Father  is  felt 
to  be  near ;  speaking  peace,  when  the  mind  is  kept  chaste  unto 
Him,  and  a  fervent  desire  is  maintained,  that  the  thoughts  of 
the  heart  may  be  preserved  in  purity ;  seeking  to  stand  prepared 
to  do  his  will,  w^henever  He  may  call  for  any  service.  Above 
all  things,  it  is  desirable  to  be  kept  in  his  fear,  and  clothed  Avith 
a  fervent  travail  for  the  exaltation  of  Christ's  kingdom  of  holi- 
ness and  truth  amongst  mankind  universally.  Alas !  what 
wickedness  abounds  in  the  earth ;  and  in  these  Southern  States, 
the  crime  of  slavery.  The  appearance  of  the  man  and  the 
child  of  color,  fills  me  with  distress  and  mourning  for  his  degra? 
dation,  and  the  sins  of  his  unrighteous  master. 
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230  JOURNAL    OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Something  requiring  the  attention  of  a  smith  about  the  car- 
riage, after  he  [a  colored  man]  had  completed  it,  1  asked  him  if 
he  carried  on  the  business  for  himself?  lie  replied,  "  No ;  but  fur 
the  man  who  gave  some  directions  at  the  carriage ;  he  gave  eight 
hundred  dollars  for  me,  cash;  a  good  deal,"  he  said,  "when  my 
life  was  not  insured."  He  spoke  as  if  he  was  indifl'erent  to  his 
situation;  but  it  seemed  astonishing  to  me,  that  the  Lord's 
noble  creature,  man,  should  be  held  as  the  property  of  anothei-, 
and  forcibly  prevented  from  using  his  own  strength  and  ingen- 
uity for  his  own  benefit  and  profit.  I  felt  sad  in  leaving  him ; 
his  efforts  to  appear  cheerful,  seemed  a  cover  to  his  reflections. 
A  man  who,  by  his  trade,  could  make  several  dollars  a  daj",  and 
yet  not  a  cent  could  he  call  his  own,  or  appropriate  to  his  own 
use,  unless  given  to  him  by  his  master;  all  he  got,  he  said,  was 
food  and  clothing. 

22d.  Passed  through  several  smail  villages,  and  generally  a 
poor,  worn-out  country ;  much  of  it  appeared  to  be  deserted  ; 
some  of  the  houses  of  the  former  owners  were  in  ruins;  impress- 
ing the  mind  of  the  contemplative  spectator  with  sadness,  at 
the  proof  it  furnishes  of  the  blasting  effects  of  slaveholding.  We 
ferried  the  Potomac,  and  rode  through  Leesburg  in  Virginia,  to 
Goose  Creek,  and  attended  the  regular  meeting,  on  fifth-day. 
The  company  of  Friends  was  very  small,  but  steady  in  the  sup- 
port of  the  meeting.  We  sympathized  with  them  in  their  striji- 
ped  state ;  and  through  the  goodness  of  the  Lord,  were  led  to 
administer  a  word  of  encouragement;  which  tendered  our 
hearts  together,  and,  we  trusted,  had  a  comforting  and  strength- 
ening effect  upon  the  little  band. 

The  next  morning,  before  leaving  the  Friend's  house  where 
we  lodged,  I  felt  drawn  to  impart  counsel  to  the  members  of 
the  family,  on  the  necessity  of  keeping  close  to  the  Captain  of 
our  salvation  ;  that  they  may  live  and  act  under  his  Divine 
guidance ;  and  be  concerned  to  lead  their  children  in  the  path 
which  the  Lord  casts  up  for  the  ransomed  and  redeemed  ones 
to  walk  in. 

24th.  The  weather  wet ;  but  we  were  best  satisfied  to  set 
out  for  Hopewell;  wliich  we  reached  before  sundown.  On 
seventh-day  we  held  no  meeting,  as  the  Friends  lay  much  scat- 
tered, and  in  the  afternoon  visited  Lewis  Neal,  now  in  the 
ninety-fifth  year  of  his  age.  He  told  us,  that  three  of  the 
Friends  who  Avere  banished  from  Philadelphia,  in  the  time  of 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  231 

the  revolutionary  war,  were  billetted  at  his  house ;  spoke  of  the 
sickness  and  death  of  Jno.  Hunt  and  T.  Gilpin ;  and  also  of  the 
residence  of  Israel,  John  and  James  Pemberton,  while  in  exile. 
The  trials  of  that  day,  he  remarked,  no  one  could  have  a  full 
conception  of,  but  those  who  witnessed  them.  It  was  interest- 
ing to  hold  converse  with  so  aged  a  man,  who  had  been  an  eye- 
witness of  facts,  relating  to  the  trials  those  banished  Friends 
underwent. 

We  attended  Hopewell  Meeting,  where  we  sat  a  pretty  good 
length  of  time,  before  there  was  sufficient  clearness  to  say  any- 
thing; but  at  length,  through  Divine  kindness,  the  spring  was 
a  little  opened  ;  and  the  importance  of  waiting  upon  the  Father 
of  lights,  from  whom  every  good  and  perfect  gift  cometh,  was 
brought  into  view.  The  necessity  of  taking  up  the  cross,  deny- 
ing ourselves,  and  following  the  Lord  Jesus,  was  pressed  upon 
the  middle-aged  and  younger  members ;  by  which  alone  they 
can  know  their  hearts  cleansed  and  sanctified,  and  made  fit  tem- 
ples for  the  Lord,  by  his  Sj)irit,  to  dwell  in.  The  power  of 
Tmth  rose  into  dominion,  and  many  were  contrited  ;  and  I  hope 
it  terminated  to  the  refreshment  of  those  who  are  rightminded. 
I  was  humbled  under  this  renewed  evidence  of  Divine  conde- 
scension. We  rode,  after  the  meeting  to  Aaron  H.  Griffith's, 
about  two  miles  from  Winchester,  and  lodged. 

27th.  We  have  had  clear  weather  three  days,  and  having 
rested  two,  we  set  out  this  morning  up  the  Winchester  Yalley, 
on  our  route  to  Tennessee ;  and  in  the  afternoon,  put  up  at  a 
tavern,  on  the  bank  of  the  north  fork  of  the  Shenandoah,  thirty- 
eight  miles  from  Winchester.  At  the  supper,  I  asked  the  land- 
lady, if  the  farmers  carried  on  their  business  with  white  or  color- 
ed laborers?  She  said,  with  both;  they  were  numerous  here. 
I  expressed  the  opinion,  that  they  would  get  along  better  with 
free  laborers  ;  but  she  did  not  concur,  though  she  admitted 
there  was  a  less  number  of  slaves  in  this  part  of  Virginia  than  on 
the  more  eastern  side.  I  enquired  of  another  person,  whether  the 
slaves,  set  to  do  a  piece  of  work,  would  do  it  without  being  over- 
looked ?  He  answered  in  the  affirmative ;  and  said  there  were 
many  severe  masters  in  that  neighborhood,  who  would  have 
their  work  done,  and  the  slaves  knew  it  must  be  done.  The 
landlord  told  us  in  the  morning,  that  he  did  not  sell  ardent 
spirits ;  he  would  not  inebriate  a  man,  nor  suffer  one  who  was 
intoxicated,  to  remain  on  his  premises.     I  took  the  opportunity 


232  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

to  remark,  it  was  a  satisfaction  that  he  declined  selling  spints ; 
and  I  thought  it  would  add  to  their  comfort,  if  they  were  to  free 
themselves  fi'om  slavery.  "  Tell  us,"  said  he,  -'  how  we  shall 
get  clear  of  it,  and  we  will  do  so,"  I  replied  there  was  some- 
thing in  his  own  breast  which  would  tell  him  how  it  was  to  be 
done.  He  said,  he  thought  the  slaves  were  better  ofF,  under 
some  persons  to  take  care  of  them,  than  those  who  were  free. 
To  which  1  rejoined,  there  was  in  every  one  an  inherent  desire 
for  freedom,  let  their  circumstances  be  what  they  may.  The 
people  of  this  country  contended  with  Great  Britain  against  what 
they  considei'ed  an  imposition,  though  we  were  not  deprived  of 
our  liberty  ;  and  the  colored  people  have  the  same  feelings ;  and 
though  many  of  the  free  black  people  were  degraded,  as  were 
also  many  whites,  yet  some  of  the  former  possessed  property, 
and  were  very  respectable.  Though  he  kept  himself  cool,  and 
refrained  from  any  reflections;  yet  I  thought  the  observations 
on  the  subject  were  unpleasant  to  him. 

Tenth  month  1st.  We  have  had  fine  Aveather,  and  have  rid- 
den about  thirty-six  miles  a  day,  through  a  very  hilly  country ; 
some  parts  of  it  pretty  well  cultivated,  and  much  of  it  very 
poor ;  though,  in  general,  it  is  in  a  better  condition  than  the 
eastern  side  of  Virginia.  Several  of  the  taverns  at  which  we 
have  latterly  stopped,  are  poorly  furnished;  no  carpets  on  the 
floor;  and  in  other  respects,  do  not  indicate  the  progress  in  re- 
finement and  good  management,  which  may  be  seen  in  similar 
establishments  in  the  free  States.  Our  landlord,  last  evening, 
went  into  some  defence  of  the  Government,  in  removing  the 
Indians  to  the  west.  I  told  him  the  natives  had  as  good  right 
to  their  land  and  houses,  as  he  had  to  his ;  and  the  Government 
might  as  well  turn  him  off  his  property,  and  take  possession  of 
it,  as  to  treat  Indians  so.  He  thought  there  was  a  hand  of  Pro- 
vidence in  it,  as  they  were  heathens ;  and  while  they  remained, 
(Christianity  would  not  spread.  I  remarked,  they  were  believ- 
ers in,  and  worshipped  the  Almighty,  under  the  character  of 
"  the  Great  Spirit;"  and  some  of  them  read  the  Scriptures,  and 
had  joined  some  of  the  different  Christian  sects.  But  why  did 
they  not  send  away  the  colored  people  ?  the  slaves ;  many  of 
whom  were  no  bettor  than  heathen  ;  why  did  they  keep  them 
among  them?  To  this  he  made  no  answer.  I  told  him  they 
had  coveted  the  Indians'  lands ;  and  acted  on  the  same  princi- 
ple that  Ahab  and  Jezebel  did,  when  he  wanted  Naboth's  vino- 


JOURNAL   OF   "WILLIAM   EVANS.  233 

yard;  and  she  procured  men  to  destroy  Naboth;  and  then  told 
the  king  to  go  and  take  possession.  He  said  he  did  not  like 
the  principle.     I  hoped  he  did  not,  nor  the  practice  either. 

The  degi-aded  state  of  the  free  blacks  among  slaveholders,  so 
far  as  instances  of  it  can  be  found,  is  referred  to  by  them,  as  a 
palliative  for  the  iniquity  of  the  system ;  which,  I  believe,  re- 
quires a  degree  of  hardness  of  heart,  in  all  of  them,  to  enable 
them  to  justify  it ;  and  without  which,  they  cannot  suppress 
the  convictions  of  Truth  in  their  own  breasts.  These  convic- 
tions, I  have  no  doubt,  do  often  arise,  and  they  resort  to  various 
expedients  to  suj^press  them.  The  example  of  other  States,  and 
latterly  of  the  British,  in  liberating  the  slaves  within  their  juris- 
diction, must  add  force  to  these  convictions ;  and  whatever 
sophistry  they  resort  to,  in  order  to  justify  themselves,  the  tes- 
timony and  the  practice  of  others,  prove  that  there  is  a  way 
safely  to  liberate  the  slaves ;  and  public  opinion  is  constantly 
rising  in  greater  force  against  the  horrible  system. 

This  morning  we  stopped  to  view  the  astonishing,  stupendous 
Natural  Bridge  over  Cedar  Creek.  From  the  top  of  it  to  the 
water,  is  said  to  be  two'  hundred  and  ten  feet.  The  mass  of 
stone  forming  the  arch,  thirty  feet  through  ;  the  distance  from 
the  under  curve  of  the  arch  to  the  surface  of  the  water  below, 
one  hundred  and  eighty  feet ;  and  the  chord  of  the  arch  ninet}* 
feet.  We  are  struck  with  admiration  in  standing  under  the 
huge  superstructure,  and  contemplating  the  vast  pile  of  stone 
BO  compactly  placed ;  forming  walls  and  abutments ;  and,  thrown 
over  such  a  space,  an  arch,  of  the  enormous  weight  of  stone, 
that  rests  upon  them.  Nor  are  the  comparative  perfectness  of 
the  arch,  the  regularity  of  the  under  curve,  and  the  evenness  of 
the  surface  less  wonderful ;  when  we  reflect  that  it  has  not  been 
effected  by  any  force,  acting  according  to  the  ordinary  laws  of 
nature  ;  but  by  some  extraordinary  convulsion,  of  which  we  can 
have  no  adequate  idea ;  but  which  we  should  suppose,  would 
have  left  the  standing  masses  of  stone,  craggy  and  without  any 
such  appearance  of  harmony  and  regularity  as  that  in  which 
they  now  are.  The  length  of  time  before  we  hear  a  stone, 
thrown  from  the  top,  strike  the  water  below, — two  or  three 
seconds  perhaps, — gives  striking  proof  of  the  depth  of  the  abyss 
into  which  it  falls. 

The  tavern  keeper,  with  whom  we  last  put  up,  enquired  at 
the  breakfast  table,  whether  we  were  Quakers  ?   and  whether 


234  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS, 

they  always  had  preaching  in  their  meetings?  We  replied  that 
we  were  Quakers,  or  Friends ;  but  we  do  not  appoint  any  to 
preach.  We  believe  it  right  to  meet  together  in  silence  to  wait 
upon  our  Almighty  Creator,  to  receive  ability  to  worship  Him 
in  spirit  and  in  truth ;  and  that  the  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  who  is 
the  Head  of  his  church,  gives  the  gift  for  the  Gospel  ministry 
to  whom  He  pleases ;  and  such  whom  He  sets  apart  for  that 
service,  preach  as  they  are  moved  to  it  by  Him ;  but  we  often 
hold  our  meetings  in  silence.  I  also  told  him  that  we  took  no 
pay  for  pi^eaching;  that  we  followed  some  business  for  a  liveli- 
hood ;  maintained  ourselves,  and  when  travelling,  paid  our  own 
expenses.  When  a  minister  had  not  the  means  to  do  this,  the 
Society  took  care  that  he  should  not  want,  but  they  paid  him 
no  salary.  He  was  very  ignorant  of  Friends,  and  seemed  rather 
surprised  at  this.  We  gave  him  some  books  to  inform  him  of 
our  principles,  for  which  he  thanked  us.  He  also  enquired 
whether  we  approved  of  war  ?  I  told  him  that  we  do  not.  He 
supposed,  as  we  do  not  fight,  we  paid  the  fine.  I  said,  we  neither 
engage  in  war  ourselves,  nor  can  we  pay  for  a  substitute ;  but 
when  we  are  called  on  for  a  fine,  we  suffer  our  goods  to  be  taken  ; 
and  some  are  put  in  jail.  This  also  puzzled  him  ;  as  we  knew 
the  fine  must  be  paid,  he  saw  no  reason  why  M^e  should  not  do 
it.  I  observed  there  was  the  difference  between  voluntarily 
paying,  and  passively  suffering  the  penalty  prescribed  by  law. 

Tenth  month  2d.  We  have  now  been  six  days  on  the  road, 
from  Winchester  to  Christiansburg,  about  two  hundred  and 
nineteen  miles.  The  weather  mostly  dry,  until  this  afternoon, 
and  much  of  the  road  very  good.  Here  we  felt  ourselves  dis- 
appointed, in  being  thrown  into  the  company  of  a  number  of 
boarders,  who  seemed  hardly  able  to  keep  their  eyes  oft*  of  us; 
perhaps  having  never  before  seen  a  person  in  our  garb,  or  been 
in  their  society,  so  as  to  hold  conversation  with  them.  Wo 
have  found  the  people  of  this  valley,  generally  very  ignorant 
of  Friends  and  their  principles. 

5th.  In  the  last  three  days  we  have  travelled  but  ninety-four 
miles,  owing  to  the  stony  and  muddy  condition  of  the  road, 
which  made  travelling  very  fatiguing  to  us,  and  wearing  to  the 
horses.  During  this  period,  I  have  had  several  conversations 
with  persons  of  apparent  respectability,  on  the  enslaved  condi- 
tion of  the  blacks.  All  admit  that  it  is  a  dreadful  system,  and 
profess  a  willingness  to  liberate  them,  could  they  see  the  way 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  235 

to  do  it  with  safety ;  but  I  do  not  believe  there  is  much  sincerity 
in  these  professions.  As  long  as  they  can  keep  them  as  servants, 
to  labor  for  them,  so  that  the  master  and  his  children  may  live 
in  idleness  and  luxury,  and  pride,  very  few  will  look  for  any 
way  to  free  them.     They  love  ease  too  much. 

6th.  After  a  very  rough,  fatiguing  ride,  we  stopped  at  a  low 
log  building,  and  enquired  of  the  mistress  of  the  house,  if  we 
could  have  accommodation  for  the  night  ?  She  made  some  diffi- 
culty, but  eventually  consented  to  take  us  in.  Though  the 
appearance  of  things  Avas  not  promising,  they  were  clean,  and 
we  made  out  pretty  w^ell.  IS'ot  being  able  to  get  any  informa- 
tion respecting  Friends  at  Limestone,  we  hired  a  man  to  pilot 
us  over  to  Mark  Eeeve's,  near  Elizabethtown  ;  where  we  were 
received  and  entertained  with  hospitality,  and  one  of  his  sons 
went  with  us  the  following  morning  to  Henry  Marsh's ;  and  on 
the  9th  we  had  a  meeting  at  Limestone.  Proceeded  in  the  after- 
noon to  Eheatown  ;  lodged  at  John  Marshall's,  and  attended  the 
meeting,  called  New  Hope,  on  first-day.  Some  notice  being 
spread,  the  house  was  pretty  well  filled  by  Friends  and  others ; 
many  of  w^hom  appearing  to  be  strangers  to  silent  waiting  upon 
the  Lord,  in  order  to  pei-form  Divine  worship,  soon  became  rest- 
less, and  went  out.  I  found  it  necessary  to  keep  inward,  and 
not  give  way  to  the  spirit  of  restlessness,  which  was  craving 
words :  and  the  Lord  brought  my  mind  into  a  state  of  simple 
reliance  upon  Him.  After  a  time,  the  exhortation  of  Christ  to 
his  disciples,  when  trouble  came  upon  them,  was  brought  before 
me ;  '•  In  your  patience  possess  ye  your  souls,"  and  I  was  led  to 
show  the  importance  of  learning  to  stand  still ;  especially  when 
met  for  the  solemn  purpose  of  Divine  worship ;  that  we  may 
know  Clmst  to  manifest  Himself  to  be  in  the  midst ;  to  teach 
the  humble,  attentive  soul,  and  to  enable  it  to  worship  the 
Father  in  spirit  and  in  truth.  Some  of  the  fundamental  doc- 
trines of  the  Gospel  were  opened  ;  the  necessity  of  being  broken 
off  from  the  wild  olive  tree,  and  grafted  into  the  true  Vine, 
was  pressed  upon  the  people,  and  a  tender  invitation  held  out 
to  those  who  had  spent  their  substance  in  an  improper  way  of 
living,  to  yield  to  the  convictions  of  Divine  Grace,  that  they 
might  be  brought  to  the  Father's  house,  where  there  is  bread 
enough  and  to  spare.  The  meeting  ended  with  thanksgiving  and 
pi'aise  for  the  Lord's  goodness,  extended  to  us.  and  supplication 
for  his  continued  preservation. 


236  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

From  this  place  we  were  taken  by  Aaron  Hammer,  down  to 
Newberry,  in  Blount  County;  wliei-e  we  held  a  meeting  on  sixth- 
day,  the  15th,  which  Avas  a  ftivoi'cd  time;  the  states  of  individ- 
uals being  spoken  to,  and  the  necessity  of  obedience  to  the 
righteous  law  written  in  the  heart  enforced;  and  the  young 
were  encouraged  to  come  up  in  their  places,  in  the  Truth.  An 
elder,  after  meeting,  expressed  his  satisfaction,  and  that  he  con- 
sidered it  a  favored  time.  We  came  away  with  peace;  and  rode 
about  twelve  miles  to  a  house  of  private  entertainment,  where 
we  had  poor  accommodations;  neither  of  the  windows  in  our 
lodging-room  having  any  sash,  and  one  of  them  no  shutter. 
Next  day  we  passed  through  Knoxville  ;  breakfasted  there,  and 
reached  William  H.  Morgan's,  at  Lost  Creek,  in  the  afternoon. 

17th.  Attended  Lost  Creek  Meeting.  Being  first-day,  a  large 
concourse  of  people  assembled,  but  few  of  whom  seemed  ac- 
quainted with  having  their  minds  stayed  upon  the  Lord.  Accus- 
tomed to  associate  Divine  worship  with  preaching  and  vocal 
prayer,  the  time  of  silence  seemed  long  to  some,  and  yet  they 
behaved  with  propriety  generally.  The  way  at  last  appeared 
to  open,  to  speak  upon  the  effect  of  vital  religion  to  bring  the 
mind  of  man  off  from  dependence  upon  man,  who  cannot  save 
his  brother,  nor  give  a  ransom  for  him  ;  and  to  call  them  to 
Christ,  the  great  mediator  and  minister  of  the  New  Covenant ; 
that  they  might  learn  of  Him.  The  doctrine  of  the  universality 
of  his  appearance  in  the  heart ;  of  the  angel  which  John  saw 
flying  through  the  midst  of  heaven,  having  the  everlasting  gos- 
pel to  preach  to  them  that  dwell  on  the  earth,  of  every  nation, 
kindred,  tongue  and  people,  under  heaven;  of  Christ,  as  the 
administrator  of  the  baptism  of  the  Holy  Ghost  and  fire,  by 
which  He  burns  up  the  chaff;  He  who  sits  as  a  refiner  with  fire, 
and  a  fuller  with  soap,  to  purify  and  prepare  the  sons  of  Levi  to 
offer  offerings  in  righteousness;  our  propitiation  for  sin,  and 
Advocate  with  the  Father,  were  a  little  opened  ;  and  those  Avho 
loved  Him  with  sincerity,  were  encouraged  to  dedication.  The 
Truth  at  times,  seemed,  in  measure,  to  prevail  over  the  meeting, 
and  the  people  were  solemnized ;  but  after  it  was  over,  I  felt 
tried,  lest  the  humbling,  tendering  power  of  it,  had  not  reached 
the  heart,  as  much  as  is  desirable;  which  dejircssed  my  spirits, 
and  produced  fear  that  I  had  not  kept  as  close  to  my  guide  as  I 
ought ;  but  I  could  not  discover  where  I  had  missed  my  way. 
In  the  afternoon,  we  walked  from  William  Morgan,  Sr.'s,  to  his 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  237 

nephew's ;  and  had  a  religious  ojiportunity  with  his  family.  In 
the  evening,  we  had  also  a  tendering  time  at  the  house  of  the 
above  aged  Friend ;  several  young  persons  being  present;  which 
was  a  comfortable  close  of  this  day's  labor.  A  little  humilia- 
tion is  both  necessary  and  beneficial;  and  our  Divine  Master 
knows  when  and  how  to  administer  it.  May  all  his  servants 
kiss  the  rod,  and  cleave  to  Him  when  He  appoints  it.  I  believe 
He  sees  fit  to  withdraw  the  evidence  of  his  approbation,  and 
also  the  capacity  to  judge  of  our  labors,  at  times  when  we  have 
not  wilfully  done  wi'ong,  that  we  may  be  kept  in  the  nothing- 
ness of  self 

In  the  course  of  the  visit  in  Lost  Creek  Quarterly  Meeting, 
we  found  Friends  mostly  in  low  circumstances,  and  living  in  a 
plain,  rough  manner ;  some  of  their  houses  having  few  lights 
of  glass  in  them ;  their  children  partaking  of  little  oj^portunity 
for  education,  either  at  home  or  at  school.  In  many  instances, 
this  is  occasioned  by  the  want  of  means,  and  their  time  being 
mostly  occupied  at  their  work,  to  get  bread  and  clothing.  I  felt 
sympathy  with  them,  and  could  but  contrast  their  condition 
with  that  of  many  affluent  members  in  other  parts  of  the  Socie- 
ty, whose  childi-en  are  brought  up  in  delicacy  and  luxury,  and 
know  nothing  of  the  difficulties  and  privations  to  which  the 
children  of  Friends  in  these  parts  are  subjected.  If  a  large  part 
of  the  surplus  wealth  of  rich  Friends  was  applied  to  aid  t|ieir 
fellow  members,  in  educating  their  offspring,  and  in  spreading 
the  writings  of  Friends ;  much  good  would  be  done.  It  would 
tend  to  keep  the  hearts  of  the  rich  open  to  the  trials  of  their 
fellow  members,  and  to  the  great  cause  of  the  Eedeemer's  king- 
dom ;  which  would  be  a  blessing  to  themselves,  by  keeping  out 
a  covetous,  parsimonious  attachment  to  this  world's  treasures ; 
while  it  would  confer  an  important  benefit  upon  others. 

We  visited  a  school  which  was  taught  by  a  Friend,  a  few  of 
the  scholars  being  members.  It  was  in  an  open,  log  building, 
without  a  window;  what  light  they  had,  came  in  through  the 
openings  between  the  timbers,  and  at  the  door ;  there  was  no 
floor  but  the  earth ;  and  no  fire-place  or  stove.  A  little  fire  in 
the  middle  of  the  room,  was  the  only  means  of  warming  it;  the 
smoke  passing  out  of  any  avenue  it  found.  The  children,  though 
with  cheerful  countenances,  were  clothed  with  scanty  covering, 
nearly  all  without  shoes  or  stockings.  Their  situation  appeared 
unfavorable  for  acquiring  the  necessary  portion  of  useful  learn- 


238  JOURNAL    OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

ing,  not  only  from  these  circumstances,  but  from  the  incompe- 
tency of  the  teacher,  and  the  general  habits  and  sentiments  of 
their  parents  and  caretakers.  When  we  reflect  upon  the  im- 
portance of  a  right  education,  and  the  little  effort  made  by  many 
to  guard  their  children,  by  watching  over  and  restraining,  and 
instructing  them  in  the  great  duties  of  life;  cultivating  their 
minds,  and  leading  them  into  habits  of  cleanliness  and  industry, 
and  warning  them  of  the  dangers  of  improper  associations,  and 
of  every  description  of  immoral  taint;  above  all,  by  precept  and 
example,  inculcating  the  indispensable  obligations  of  living  in 
the  fear  of  Almighty  Grod,  and  working  out  their  salvation, 
through  the  aid  of  his  Spirit ;  we  cannot  but  feel  for  children 
who  partake  of  very  few  of  these  advantages;  and  desire  that 
their  parents  were  more  aroused  to  a  lively  sense  of  the  obliga- 
tion which  rests  on  them,  towards  their  tender  oflFsjoring.  Many 
have  difficulties  in  providing  for  their  families  ;  but  were  they 
more  devoted  to  the  love  and  service  of  their  Heavenly  Father, 
way  would  be  made,  either  by  his  blessing,  on  their  efforts,  or 
through  the  help  of  the  Society,  to  educate  them  in  schools  of 
suitable  character,  and  to  draw  them  into  a  love  of  our  religious 
principles  and  testimonies.  A  blessing,  I  believe,  has  rested 
upon  the  honest  concern  and  labor  of  Friends  in  many  parts  of 
our  Society,  in  watching  over  and  educating  the  youth ;  and  in 
many  instances,  I  trust,  it  will  prepare  the  ground  for  the  good 
seed  which  the  Son  of  Man  sows,  and  which  will  bring  forth 
abundant  fruit,  under  his  blessing ;  and  thus  be  instrumental  in 
preserving  many  amongst  us,  who  will  be  qualified  to  maintain 
the  doctrines  and  testimonies  of  the  Gospel,  to  the  Lord's  praise 
and  the  comfort  and  enlargement  of  the  Church. 

20th.  We  had  intended  going  on  from  Eheatown,  to  cross 
the  mountains  into  North  Carolina  ;  but  a  Friend  offering  to  go 
as  guide,  provided  we  waited  until  the  following  morning,  we 
accordingly  staj^ed  the  Preparative  Meeting  at  New  Hope ;  and 
being  impressed  with  a  belief  that  Friends  are  suftering  great 
loss  in  letting  the  discipline  fall,  by  passing  over,  in  a  very 
superficial  manner,  marriages  accomplished  in  violation  of  it, 
the  way  opened  to  set  forth  the  importance  of  the  church  gov- 
ernment, established  in  the  wisdom  and  authority  of  Christ, 
amongst  us.  It  is  only  as  the  members  individually  live  under 
the  subjecting  power  of  the  cross  of  Christ,  that  they  are  pre- 
pared to  support  the  ark  of  the  testimonies,  and  administer  the 


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discipline  as  it  ought  to  be  ;  in  the  same  power  and  wisdom  in 
which  it  was  instituted.  "  The  righteous  holdeth  on  his  way, 
and  he  that  hath  clean  hands  shall  be  stronger  and  stronger." 
These  are  not  drawn  aside  from  a  firm  and  straightforward 
support  of  the  cause  of  Truth,  by  a  false  tenderness  towards 
others,  whose  eyes  have  become  blinded;  and  in  the  faithful  dis- 
charge of  their  religious  duty,  they  grow  in  spiritual  strength, 
and  are  a  blessing  to  the  church.  Where  a  body  of  such  mem- 
bers is  preserved,  and  the  discipline  is  rightly  maintained  by 
them,  the  Society  is  kept  in  a  healthy  and  vigorous  state.  The 
young  members  growing  up  under  their  example,  will  receive 
right  views  of  church  government ;  the  motions  and  openings  of 
Divine  Grace  in  their  minds,  will  be  confirmed  and  enforced  by 
the  faithfulness  of  such  upright  men  and  women ;  and  thus  suc- 
cessors are  prepared  to  receive  gifts  from  the  great  Head  of  the 
church,  to  be  occupied  in  his  service,  in  their  day.  What  a 
comfort  and  strength  these  are  to  one  another,  and  to  their  elders 
in  the  Truth.  When  ministers  who  keep  to  their  gifts,  come 
among  them,  they  partake  of  the  help  of  their  spirits,  and  the 
"  spring  shut  up  "  is  often  opened,  to  the  mutual  refreshment 
of  the  visitors  and  the  visited.  How  different  from  those  meet- 
ings, where  a  worldly  spirit  has  overspread,  and  darkened  and 
benumbed  the  professors  of  the  christian  religion. 

But  where  the  rules  of  Discipline  are  let  fall,  or  administered 
by  those  who  have  lost  ground,  through  disobedience  to  the 
convictions  of  Divine  light,  and  whose  hands  are  thereby  weak- 
ened, desolation  spreads;  wrong  things  prevail;  and  though 
something  of  the  form  may  be  left,  the  power  of  Godliness  is 
lost  amongst  such  a  people.  The  young  members,  w^ho  are  at 
times  favored  with  the  visitations  of  the  love  of  God,  are  very 
likely  to  be  turned  aside  by  the  evil  example  of  older  ones,  who 
seem  to  be  the  leaders;  and  thus  such  meetings  continue  to 
dwindle,  until  they  can  no  longer  be  held  with  reputation.  The 
salt  has  lost  its  savor,  and  men  of  the  world  trample  it  under 
foot,  because  they  can  perceive  such  are  no  Quakers  in  reality. 
In  this  way  many  have  become  an  ill-savor,  and  caused  the  way 
of  Truth  to  be  evilly  spoken  of,  to  the  grief  of  the  sincere- 
hearted,  and  the  obstruction  of  the  spread  of  the  kingdom  of 
Christ,  through  us  as  a  people. 

Tenth  month  21st.  We  rode  to  M.  Eeeves,  near  Elizabeth- 
town  ;  and  the  next  morning,  with  one  of  his  sons  to  go  before 


240  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

US  through  some  difflciUt  fords  ;  we  set  off,  the  weather  cloudy, 
jind  rode  up  Doe  Eiver ;  crossing  it  six  times  in  about  that 
number  of  miles.  We  had  heard  much  of  the  difficulties  some 
Friends  had  encountered,  which  produced  gloomy  anticipations 
of  the  journey  through  these  mountains;  but  we  were  merci- 
fully preserved  from  any  appai'ent  dangers,  or  meeting  with  any 
accident.  It  snowed  or  hailed  the  greater  pai't  of  the  day  ;  the 
atmosphere  was  chilling,  and  we  were  quite  ready  to  stop  at 
the  house  of  a  farmer,  in  this  rough  country,  after  a  ride  of 
twenty-nine  miles,  where  we  were  hospitably  entertained.  Our 
course,  the  next  day,  lay  through  deep  ravines;  along  streams 
of  water  which  we  forded  many  times ;  and  over  the  Stone 
Mountain,  whose  lofty  peaks  were  whitened  with  snow.  When 
we  reached  the  summit,  the  snow  lay  about  half  an  inch  deep, 
and  the  air  was  quite  cold  ;  so  that  the  snow  did  not  disappear, 
though  the  sun  shone  quite  clearly  nearly  ail  the  day.  This  was 
laborious  travelling,  as  we  walked  up  most  of  the  ascents ;  and 
there  was  little  to  cheer  us,  but  the  belief  of  being  in  the  way 
of  our  religious  duty  ;  which  makes  hard  things  easy  and  bitter 
things  sweet. 

First-day  the  24th,  bi'ought  us  to  Wilkesboro',  about  eleven 
miles  from  the  Blue  Eidge,  the  last  or  most  eastern  of  these 
ranges  of  mountains,  and  said  to  be  the  highest  ground  in  the 
United  States.  When  we  reached  the  highest  point,  over  which 
this  road  passes,  we  stopped  to  take  a  survey  of  the  magnificent 
scene  spread  before  us.  Standing  on  the  edge  of  a  vast  j)reci- 
pice,  we  had  at  our  feet  mountains  piled  on  one  another,  and 
deep  ravines  intervening  ;  to  whose  bottoms  the  eye  could  not 
penetrate.  It  was  the  grandest  sight  of  the  kind  I  ever  saw. 
The  road  was  generally  good,  and  the  rise  as  well  as  descent 
being  gradual,  made  the  travelling  much  more  pleasant  than  the 
two  preceding  days.  Some  spots  ai'e  cultivated,  affording  good 
grass  and  corn  ;  but  here,  as  in  other  pai'ts,  we  see  decayed 
buildings  and  deserted  clearings,  and  where  the  inhabitants  still 
remain,  the  land  affords  but  a  scanty  subsistence  beyond  the 
supply  of  food;  it  being  impracticable  to  obtain  many  of  the 
comforts,  and  few  or  none  of  the  refinements  or  luxuries  of 
civilized  chiistian  life. 

2.5th.  We  got  to  Anderson  Johnson's  at  Hunting  Creek; 
whose  wife  is  a  daughter  of  David  Erooks,  a  minister,  v/ith 
whom  my  uncle,  Thomas  Scattergood,  was  travelling  as  com- 


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panion,  when  he  first  appeared  in  the  ministry.  To  find  our- 
selves once  more  amongst  those  of  the  same  religious  profession, 
imparted  pleasant  sensations.  This  Friend,  we  were  informed, 
was  prosecuted  for  aiding  a  slave  to  make  his  escape  ;  and 
though  the  charge  was  entirely  unfounded,  yet  from  false  evi- 
dence, he  was  amerced  to  the  value  of  the  runaway,  and  costs 
and  damages,  amounting  to  about  twelve  hundred  dollars.  This 
iniquitous  decision  seemed  likely  to  ruin  him;  he  was  compelled 
to  sell  his  horses  and  cattle,  and  part  of  his  house  furniture, 
and  with  much  difficulty  made  up  the  sum,  and  prevented  his 
prosecutors  from  selling  his  farm ;  and  thereby  throwing  him 
and  his  dependent  family  houseless  upon  the  world.  Now,  more 
than  seventy  years  old,  he  is  unable  to  labor  hard,  and  from  the 
great  loss  and  the  difficulty  in  selling  produce,  he  has  to  endure 
privations  which,  at  their  time  of  life,  he  and  his  afflicted  wife 
ought  not  to  be  subjected  to. 

On  the  26th,  had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Hunting  Creek, 
and  on  the  27th  and  28th  attended  those  of  Forbush  and  Deep 
Creek.  The  low  state  of  the  life  of  true  religion  among  many, 
was  cause  of  mournful  feelings  on  their  account.  To  see  the 
dwindling  condition  of  many,  and  the  effect  which  their  example 
has  upon  the  younger  members,  leading  them  into  an  associa- 
tion  with  light  and  frivolous  company,  produced  apprehensions, 
that  unless  there  is  a  turning  about,  and  giving  themselves  up 
to  the  restraining  power  of  the  cross,  the  Society  must  run  out 
in  these  parts.  Divine  goodness  was  mercifully  near,  qualifying 
to  labor  for  their  help,  especially  in  the  last  meeting.  I  never, 
perhaps,  felt  more  destitute  of  a  lively  feeling  of  the  presence  of 
the  Helper  of  Israel,  and  very  much  gave  up  expectation  of  say- 
ing anything;  but  after  sitting  long  under  the  burthen  of  a 
worldl}^  spirit,  there  seemed  a  little  pointing  to  express  my  fear- 
fulness,  of  the  danger  of  that  spirit  overspreading  the  professors 
under  our  name  among  them  ;  and  reciting  the  testimony  of  the 
Apostle  that,  "  To  be  carnally  minded  is  death,  but  to  be  spiritu- 
ally minded  is  life  and  peace ;"  the  truth  gradually  rose,  and  I 
have  rarely  known  more  strength  to  labor  with  such,  in  the 
spirit  and  fervor  of  the  Gospel,  to  turn  from  their  ways  and 
to  come  under  the  heart-changing  power  of  the  Grace  of  Christ 
Jesus,  than  in  this  meeting.  Some  were  softened,  and  prayer 
was  offered  that  He,  who  knows  our  condition,  would  baptize 
and  re-baptize,  until  the  heart  was  prepared  for  Him  to  dwell 


242  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

in  ;  yet  in  the  midst  of  judgment  He  was  interceded  with  to  re- 
member mercy,  lest  the  spirit  which  He  had  made  should  fail 
before  Him.  A  valuable  minister  said  at  the  close  of  the  meet- 
ing, it  was  deep  wading;  and  he  thought  if  he  had  been  faith- 
ful, he  should  have  said  something  to  open  the  way  for  me.  As 
it  had  ended  wellj  it  appeared  to  me  best  as  it  was ;  having 
nothing  to  depcMid  upon  but  the  Lord  alone.  I  came  away  hum- 
bly thankful  for  this  renewed  evidence  that  I  was  not  forsaken, 
and  went  w^th  Wm.  Dobbins,  a  sensible,  devoted  Friend,  to  his 
home. 

29th.  Accompanied  by  him,  we  rode  to  Chestnut  Creek,  on 
the  Blue  Eidge  ;  put  up  at  William  Davis',  and  held  an  appoint- 
ed meeting  there  next  afternoon.  Hci-e,  the  obligation  to  for- 
give those  who  trespass  against  us,  and  the  impossibility  that 
revenge  can  dwell  in  the  heart  of  a  true  disciple  and  follower  of 
Christ,  were  brought  before  me  ;  and  though  it  seeemed  singu- 
lar to  open  such  views  in  a  little  company  of  Friends  and  a  few 
others,  yet  I  could  not  see  anj^  other  way,  and  accordingly  gave 
up  to  it.  There  were  other  gospel  truths  declared  and  enforced ; 
and  after  the  opportunity,  I  found  a  man  who  attracted  my 
attention,  when  delivering  some  close  things,  was  a  Mormon 
preacher;  which  sect  of  visionary  people  are  rejiresented  as 
arming  themselves,  in  an  extensive  settlement  in  the  western 
country,  and  holding  out  the  idea  that  the  sword  is  to  be  used 
in  making  way  for  their  impostures. 

Slst.  Eode  down  this  steep,  high  mountain,  about  the  middle 
of  the  day ;  stopped  by  a  stream  of  water,  and  with  some  pro- 
visions which  we  had  brought  for  ourselves  and  horses,  refreshed 
ourselves,  and  then  pursued  our  way  back  to  the  house  of  our 
friend.  Here  we  had  an  opportunity  with  his  children,  and  the 
partners  of  the  married  ones  ;  in  which  the  way  opened  to  warn 
some  against  a  carnal,  worldly  spirit,  and  to  encourage  all  to 
yield  their  hearts  to  the  convicting  power  of  Divine  grace  ;  that 
they  might  become  useful  members  of  religious  society. 

Eleventh  month  1st.  Keached  Salem  in  the  evening,  a  set- 
tlement of  the  Moravians.  The  title  to  the  property,  compris- 
ing a  large  tract  of  many  hundred  acres,  is  vested,  we  were  in- 
formed, in  their  bishop.  The  land  is  leased  out,  so  that  it  cannot 
go  into  the  hands  of  others,  and  they  suffer  none  of  any  other 
profession  to  settle  amongst  them.     The  person  who  keeps  the 


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large  and  commodious  hotel  where  we  staid,  we  were  told,  ia 
the  only  exception. 

2nd.  Stopped  at  J.  S.'s,  and  dined,  and  made  arrangements  for 
meetings  at  Dover  and  Hopewell.  On  the  road  we  called  at  a 
smith's  shop  to  get  a  burr  screwed  up,  and  stepping  out,  I  trod  on  a 
round  stick,  turned  my  right  foot  under  me  so  as  to  wrench  it  out 
of  the  socket.  Though  soon  replaced,  it  gave  me  great  pain,  and 
prevented  me  from  walking  about,  unless  with  much  difficulty. 
We  came  on  after  bathing  it,  and  put  up  at  the  boarding-school, 
with  our  kind  and  much  valued  friends  Dougan  and  Asenath 
Clark.  Next  day  attended  New  Garden  Meeting,  where  I  felt 
engaged  to  encourage  the  young  people  to  receive  the  Truth  in 
its  visitations  to  their  souls ;  by  which  they  would  be  preserved 
from  the  temptations  that  abound  in  the  world,  and  lay  the 
foundation  for  usefulness  in  the  church.  Dougan  Clark  accom- 
panied us  to  Hopewell,  to  an  appointed  meeting ;  where  the 
way  opened  to  press  the  necessity  of  rightly  considering  the 
dispensation  of  sickness,  with  which  that  neighborhood  has 
been  visited ;  that  they  might  improve  by  it.  The  righteous 
were  removed  from  the  evil  to  come,  and  those  who  are  still 
spared,  are  loudly  called  on  to  consider  their  latter  end,  and  dil- 
igently improve  the  remnant  of  their  days ;  so  that  when  the 
summons  is  sounded  in  their  ears,  "  Steward,  give  an  account  of 
thy  stewardship,"  they  may  be  ready  to  render  it  with  joy.  It 
was  a  serious  and  impressive  opportunity,  and  closed  with  sup- 
plication to  the  Father  of  mercies,  that  those  afflictions  might 
be  sanctified  to  some.  Eeturned  to  the  school  with  feelings  of 
peace. 

4th.  Went  OTit  to  the  meeting  of  Hopewell  ;  in  which  I  was 
distressed  with  an  outside  show  of  religion,  where  the  power  of 
godliness  was  wanting  ;  and  though  it  was  hard  to  get  at  any- 
thing, and  a  trial  to  deliver  what  at  last  arose,  yet  I  saw  no 
f)ther  way  than  plainly  to  open  what  appeared  to  me  the  state 
of  some.  I  endeavored  to  keep  on  the  clothing  of  charity,  and 
to  speak  with  fear ;  and  Truth  gradually  arose,  so  that  at  last 
I  was  enabled  to  labor  with  fervenej^,  to  draw  si;ch  into  a  close 
examination  of  themselves ;  that  they  might  experience  the  life 
and  power  of  Christ  to  reign  in  them.  The  language  of  en- 
couragement flowed  to  the  states  of  others,  of  a  different  charac- 
ter, who  had  many  trials  to  contend  with  ;  but  who,  if  they  did 
as  the  prophet  directed  the  poor  widow,  to  bake  a  cake  for  him 


244  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS. 

first,  the  ineal  in  the  barrel  shoukl  not  waste,  nor  the  oil  in  the 
cruse  fail.  We  dined  at  C.  P.'s,  who  piloted  us  to  Deep  Eiver; 
where  we  attended  the  Meeting  for  Sutferings,  and  the  Meeting 
of  Ministers  and  Elders, 

My  strained  ankle  gave  me  much  uneasiness,  at  times,  pre- 
vented me  from  walking  to  the  meeting-house,  about  a  quarter 
of  a  mile  distant,  and  sometimes  raised  apprehensions,  whether 
I  should  ever  be  able  to  walk  as  I  had  done.  It  was  a  trial  to 
be  thus  disabled;  not  knowing  whether  it  might  not  pre- 
vent me  from  steadily  prosecuting  the  concern  I  was  engaged 
in  ;  yet  I  thought  it  might  have  been  permitted,  to  teach  me 
more  caution  and  deliberation  in  my  movements.  In  the  full 
possession  of  the  powers  of  body  and  mind,  when  we  are  also 
favored  with  the  openings  of  the  Spirit  of  Truth,  and  qualified 
to  minister  to  the  needs  of  the  peoi:)le,  self  may  get  up  a  little; 
and  the  creature,  unless  plunged  down  into  poverty  and  suffer- 
ing, may  feel  strong  in  the  cause  and  work  of  the  Lord.  He 
has  many  ways  to  humble  man,  and  purge  away  pride;  and 
pain  of  body,  frequently  reminding  him  of  his  crippled  and  dis- 
abled condition,  may  contribute  to  keep  him  lowly,  and  lead 
him  to  depend  more  steadily  on  Him,  who  can  heal  diseases  of 
body  and  mind. 

On  first-day,  a  large  concourse  of  Friends  and  others  assem- 
bled at  New  Garden,  and  after  a  time  of  silent  waiting,  a  Friend 
having  addressed  the  company,  I  apprehended  it  was  my  place 
to  advert  to  the  conversation,  which  our  Lord  gives,  as  having 
taken  place  between  the  rich  man  and  Abi-aham ;  when  he 
solicited  him  to  send  one  from  the  dead  to  his  five  brethren, 
that  they  might  not  come  into  the  place  of  torment ;  and  Abra- 
ham finally  replied  to  him,  "  If  they  hear  not  Moses  and  the 
prophets,  neither  will  they  be  pei-suaded,  though  one  rose  from 
the  dead."  From  which  it  is  evident,  if  man  will  not  embrace 
the  means  already  appointed  for  his  salvation,  no  other  will  be 
granted ;  and  that  while  he  refuses  to  comply  with  the  terms 
of  acceptance,  he  would  be  likely  to  reject  a  miraculous  visita- 
tion, sent  for  their  confirmation.  The  grace  of  God  appearing 
in  the  hearts  of  all  men,  was  held  up  as  the  immediate  means ; 
and  denying  self,  taking  up  the  cross  daily  and  following 
Christ,  the  terms  laid  down,  upon  which  alone  we  can  hope 
to  partake  of  that  salvation,  which  He  has  purchased  for  all 
those  who  obey  Him.     Christ's  incarnation,  sufferings,  death, 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  245 

resurrection,  ascension  and  glorification,  wherein  He  is  our  pro- 
pitiation for  sin,  and  our  intercessor  with  the  leather,  and  his 
inward  and  spiritual  appearance,  knocking  at  the  door  of  the 
heart  for  an  entrance;  his  office  as  the  great  Baptiser  of  his 
people;  sitting  as. a  refiner  with  fire  and  a  fuller  with  soap,  in 
which  lie  administers  the  one  saving  baptism  with  the  Holy 
Ghost  and  fire,  and  prepares  the  heart  as  a  temple  for  Him  hy 
his  Spirit  to  dwell  in,  thus  setting  up  his  kingdom  there,  and 
ruling  as  Lord,  Judge,  Lawgiver  and  King,  were  treated  on  and 
supported  by  Scripture  testimony.  The  Truth  rose  into  a  good 
degree  of  dominion,  and  our  ancient  friend  Nathan  Hunt,  ex- 
pressed his  satisfaction,  saying,  "  They  were  the  doctrines  he 
held  and  believed,  and  he  was  opposed  to  all  innovation  upon 
them." 

Second-day  the  8th,  commenced  the  Yearly  Meeting  for  Dis- 
cipline, which  continued  its  sittings  until  the  12th  inclusive. 
The  business  was  conducted  with  much  harmony  throughout, 
and  after  hearing  the  reports  from  the  respective  Quarterly 
Meetings,  an  epistle  of  counsel  was  directed  to  be  prepared  on 
the  different  points  of  defection,  referred  to  in  the  answers  to 
the  Queries.  The  subject  of  the  guarded  and  religious  educa- 
tion of  the  youth  was  brought  into  view,  by  reading  the  report 
of  the  Boarding  School  Committee ;  which  furnished  an  oppor- 
tunity to  press  upon  Friends,  a  more  deep  and  thorough  atten- 
tion to  the  right  education  of  their  children.  The  money  which 
some  parents  might  be  laying  up  for  them  in  the  latter  part  of 
their  lives,  would  never  be  of  as  much  value  to  them,  as  when 
expended  in  giving  them  proper  literary  instruction,  at  a 
period  of  life  when  they  were  most  capable  of  receiving  it.  H 
this  period  is  suffered  to  pass,  they  may  grow  up  in  ignorance, 
and  never  be  of  that  service  in  society  which  they  ought  to  be. 
A  hope  was  entei-tained  that  the  Boarding  School  would  con- 
tinue to  be  supported,  and  its  benefits  be  extended  amongst  the 
youth  of  this  Yearly  Meeting.  Making  our  home  at  the  school- 
house,  gave  us  an  opportunity  of  mingling  with  the  committees ; 
and  being  invited  to  sit  with  one  appointed  to  consider  the  ex- 
pediency of  continuing  the  liberty  to  childi'en  not  members  to 
enter  the  school,  all  the  strangers,  with  one  voice,  gave  their 
judgment  against  it ;  both  because  it  was  not  the  original  de- 
sign, and  would  tend  to  expose  our  youth  to  the  principles  of 
others,  but  in  our  opinion,  would  diminish  eventually  the  num- 
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ber  of  scholars,  and  consequently,  destroy  the  institution,  in- 
stead of  contributing  to  its  su]iport.  The  committee  adopted 
this  sentiment,  and  it  received  the  sanction  of  the  Yearly 
Meeting.  Many  solid,  young  and  middle-aged  men  attended  the 
Yearly  Meeting,  who  appeared  to  love  the  testimonies  of  Truth, 
and  were  devoted  to  the  services  of  the  Society. 

On  seventh-day  morning  I  parted,  in  much  affection,  with  my 
kirfd  and  esteemed  friends  D.  and  A.  Clark,  and  went  to  Deep 
River ;  where  we  held  a  meeting  with  the  members  and  others; 
which  proved  a  hard  and  laborious  opportunity.  After  dinner, 
we  rode  to  our  friend  John  Carter's  where  we  were  comfortably 
quartered. 

On  first-day,  14th,  we  were  at  Springfield,  where  a  considera- 
ble number  of  Friends  and  others  convened  ;  some  of  w^hom 
appear  to  be  a  seeking  people,  and  not  knowing  where  to  find 
Avhat  they  longed  for,  are  wandering  from  place  to  place,  and 
from  one  preacher  to  another.  These  were  recommended  to  the 
gift  of  Grace  in  their  own  hearts;  by  receiving  which  they 
would  come  to  have  their  eyes  opened  to  see  their  conditions, 
and  true  faith  be  given  them  to  believe  in  Christ  their  Saviour; 
who  would  feed  them  with  the  bread  of  life,  and  open  in  them 
the  spring  of  living  water ;  by  which  their  souls  would  be  re- 
freshed and  nourished  up  unto  everlasting  life.  Christ  was 
preacljed  as  the  Author  of  this  true  faith,  as  the  Eock  on  which 
the  church  is  built ;  as  the  Captain  of  salvation,  who  only  can 
arm  his  soldiers  for  the  spiritual  warfare ;  and  who  gives  them 
victory  over  their  soul's  enemies.  No  man  can  come  to  the 
Father,  l)ut  by  Him  ;  and  it  is  only  as  He  is  revealed  in  the 
heart,  by  the  same  spirit  which  revealed  Him  to  Peter,  that  any 
can  have  true  and  saving  faith  in  Him  ;  by  which  they  lay  hold 
of  the  offers  of  his  love  and  mercy,  and  through  the  obedience 
of  whi(^h,  they  obtain  victoiy  over  the  world,  the  flesh  and  the 
devil ;  and  persevering  to  the  end,  inherit  the  promises,  and  are 
made  partakers  of  that  salvation,  which  He  purchased  for  all 
those  who  receive  and  obey  Him.  It  was  a  season  of  Divine 
regard  ;  wherein  I  was  greatly  favored  with  utterance,  and  the 
presentation  of  many  passages  of  Scripture,  to  show  the  nature 
of  the  Gospel  dispensation,  and  to  confirm  the  principles  of 
Friends.  It  was  cause  of  humble  gratitude  to  our  Holy  Helper, 
that  He  was  pleased  to  open  the  treasury  of  things,  ncAv  and 


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old,  and  qualify  to  exalt  his  great  name,  and  call  upon  the  people 
to  come  and  enlist  nnder  the  banner  of  the  Prince  of  peace. 

On  second-day,  J.  P.  piloted  us  to  Piney  Woods,  about  eight 
miles ;  a  very  reduced  meeting.  A  fatal  disease  had  prevailed 
there  for  several  months,  removing  about  one  hundred  out  of 
five  hundred  persons,  to  their  everlasting  reward.  It  was 
thought  some  good  effect  had  been  produced  upon  a  rough  and 
rather  dissipated  people,  by  this  awful  visitation  ;  but  from  the 
feelings  which  came  over  me  in  the  meeting,  and  the  descrip- 
tion of  doctrine  I  had  to  preach,  it  seemed  to  me,  some  still  re- 
mained in  a  very  crude  state,  with  little  regard  for  the  restric- 
tions of  true  religion. 

We  dined  at  the  house  of  a  sick  Friend,  and  before  going 
away,  I  was  led  to  draw  him  into  a  consideration  of  the  uncer- 
tainty of  all  earthly  things,  and  the  importance  of  having  the 
day's  work  done  in  the  daytime.  For  when  the  pale  messenger 
is  sent  to  our  habitation,  there  can  be  no  refusal  of  the  sum- 
mons ;  go  we  must,  pit?pared  or  unprepared.  We  put  up  at  J. 
P.'s,  and  in  the  morning  had  a  religious  opportunity  with  his 
family,  encouraging  the  parents  and  children  more  faithfully  to 
yield  themselves  to  the  Lord,  and  to  the  support  of  his  cause. 
Our  friend  John  Carter  went  with  us  to  Kennet,  where  we  had 
another  trj'ing  meeting  with  a  few  members ;  and  yet  some 
ability  was  felt  to  labor  with  them,  and  to  intercede  that  their 
last  days,  through  greater  dedication  to  Christ,  might  become 
their  best  days.  A  Friend  of  this  meeting  offering  to  pilot  us, 
we  took  an  affectionate  farewell  of  our  beloved  friend  John 
Carter,  and  went  on  to  the  house  of  a  Friend,  whom  we  found 
sick  in  bed.  This  put  us  to  a  stand  whether  we  might  not  be 
in  danger  of  taking  this  fever,  by  lodging  where  it  prevailed  ; 
and  we  accordingly  told  his  wife,  that  as  we  wished  to  go 
through  the  Yearly  Meeting,  we  felt  cautious  of  exposing  our- 
selves to  the  liability  of  sickness;  so  far  as  we  could  guard 
against  it ;  and  perhaps  we  had  better  go  further.  She  said  we 
could  have  a  room,  separate  from  all  other  parts  of  the  house ; 
where  we  could  lodge  and  remain,  if  we  chose.  Her  offer  was 
made  with  such  hearty  good  will  and  desire  to  keep  us,  that  we 
made  no  further  hesitation.  A  fire  was  soon  kindled  on  the 
hearth  in  the  chamber,  and  myself  and  companion,  after  having 
spent  a  little  time  with  the  invalid,  retired  to  our  comfortable 
apartment,  where  we  ruminated  on  the  singular  transitions  tra- 


24:8  JOURNAL   OF   AVILLIAM    EVANS. 

vellers  like  ourselves  are  subjected  to,  and  the  unfeigned  kindness 
displayed  by  those  we  visit ;  and  often  by  none  more  heartil3^ 
than  those  whose  means  are  limited,  and  their  accommodations  of 
the  simpler  kind.  Before  setting  out  to  meeting  on  the  follow- 
ing morning,  I  did  not  feel  easy  without  taking  an  opportunity 
with  the  father  of  the  family,  in  the  presence  of  his  wife ;  in 
which  I  expressed  the  belief,  that  when  disease  assailed  us,  the 
Holy  Spirit  at  times,  made  use  of  it  as  a  means  to  show  us  our 
frailty,  and  the  great  uncertainty  of  all  earthly  possessions  and 
enjoyments ;  that  the  gracious  design  of  our  Heavenly  Father, 
in  thus  opening,  to  our  view,  our  state,  and  the  instability  of  all 
things  here  below,  was  to  draw  us  from  all  inordinate  pursuit 
and  attachment  to  them ;  to  redeem  us  from  them,  and  set  our 
affections  on  things  that  are  above.  When  the  message  was 
delivered  to  Hezekiab,  "Set  thine  house  in  order,  for  thou 
shalt  die  and  not  live,"  he  turned  his  face  to  the  wall  and 
prayed  ;  and  fifteen  years  were  added  to  his  days.  But  if  it 
should  be  the  Lord's  will  to  add  fifteen  days,  or  months,  or  years, 
it  was  of  great  moment  that  the  present  dispensation  should  be 
rightly  improved  ;  for  we  know  not  that  such  another  offer  of 
Divine  love  and  help  will  be  made. 

The  meeting  was  a  reduced  one,  and  after  a  season  of  silent 
waiting,  the  language  was  brought  before  me,  "  Be  watchful,  and 
strengthen  the  things  which  remain,  that  are  ready  to  die  ;  for 
I  have  not  found  thy  works  perfect  before  God."  I  felt  tenderly 
for  the  stripped  company,  believing  they  had  given  way  to  dis- 
couragement, on  account  of  the  few  who  remained  to  bear  the 
burthen  ;  and  for  want  of  steadily  looking  to  the  unfailing 
Source  of  all  strength,  they  had  lost  ground ;  the  enemj'  had 
prevailed  over  them ;  and  their  works  were  not  perfect  before 
God.  Though  it  is  our  duty  to  deliver  plainly  what  the  Master 
gives  for  the  people,  yet  I  felt  desirous  not  to  hurt  the  oil  or  the 
wine  ;  but,  as  ability  was  given,  to  lay  judgment  to  the  line 
where  it  belonged,  and  to  strengthen  the  things  that  remain, 
which  might  appear  to  be  ready  to  die;  and  to  encourage  some 
to  put  their  trust  in  the  Lord  Jehovah,  in  whom  there  remains 
everlasting  strength.  Strength  that  will  last  through  all  time, 
and  through  all  trials,  as  we  lean  upon  it,  and  lay  hold  of  it. 
Our  hostess,  who  sat  at  the  head  of  the  gallery,  looked  as  if  her 
heart  had  been  tenderly  touched,  and  took  leave  of  me  very 
affectionately.     A  Friend  afterwards  told  me,  she  was  glad  we 


JOURNAL   OF   AVILLIAM    EVANS.  249 

had  put  up  at  their  house,  for  she  had  been  in  quite  a  depressed 
and  discouraged  state  of  mind.  Thus  it  appeai-s  that  the  hand 
of  Divine  Providence,  at  times,  turns  his  cliildren  into  places 
for  the  lielp  of  others ;  for  had  our  guide  told  us  that  sickness 
was  there,  I  doubt  whether  we  should  have  gone. 

We  rode  from  the  meeting-house  to  our  friends  J.  and  A.  S.'s ; 
where  we  found  a  pleasant  resting-place.  Attended  their  meet- 
ing. Centre,  where  I  was  led  to  speak  of  the  value  and  effect  of 
inward,  united  exercise  of  spirit  before  the  Lord,  that  the  life 
and  power  of  Truth  might  be  experienced  to  arise,  and  circulate 
from  member  to  member.  The  church  was  compared  to  a  body 
having  members  ;  and  as  each  performed  its  function,  it  minis- 
tered to  the  benefit  of  others,  and  the  body  was  thereby  kept 
in  a  healthy  condition.  So  it  was  in  the  mystical  body  and 
church  of  Christ;  where  every  one  maintains  its  place  and  per- 
forms its  duty,  strength  would  be  preserved,  and  the  circula- 
tion of  Divine  life  would  prevail  from  one  to  another.  But  where 
many  were  indifferent  and  negligent,  this  circulation  was  im- 
peded, and  the  living  members  are  burthened.  Such  negligent 
ones  become  stumbling-blocks,  and  choke  up  the  wells  of  water; 
and  this  makes  hard  work  for  the  few.  Where  one  member 
suffers,  the  others  suffer  with  it;  and  where  one  is  honored,  the 
rest  rejoice  with  it.  The  necessity  of  making  clean  the  inside 
of  the  cup  and  platter;  for  the  Lord  looks  not  on  the  counten- 
ance, nor  the  height  of  the  stature,  but  at  the  heart,  was  en- 
forced. As  the  subject  opened,  the  possibility  and  the  obligation 
to  become  freed  from  sin,  in  this  life,  and  the  practice  of  some 
professed  ministers  of  Christ,  pleading  for  sin  during  life,  being 
an  evidence  they  are  not  his  ministers,  were  brought  into  view. 
As  Satan  transforms  himself  into  an  anp;el  of  lio-ht,  it  is  no 
marvel  if  his  ministers  should  transform  themselves  into  theap- 
pea'rance  of  Christ's  ministers  ;  but  no  fountain  can  at  the  same 
time  send  forth  sweet  water  and  bitter.  "A  good  man  out  of  the 
good  treasure  of  the  heart,  bringeth  forth  good  things ;  and  an 
evil  man  out  of  the  evil  treasure,  bringeth  forth  evil  things."  A 
tree  is  known  by  its  fruit ;  when  the  fruit  is  bad,  we  pronounce 
the  tree  bad.  Christ  came  to  destroy  the  works  of  the  devil. 
He  did  not  suffer,  that  man  might  sin  with  impunity  ;  but  gave 
Himself  for  us  that  He  might  redeem  us  from  all  iniquity,  and 
purify  unto  Himself  a  peculiar  people,  zealous  of  good  works — 
not  evil  works.     "If  any  man  will  come  after  me,  let  him  deny 


250  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

himself,  take  up  liis  cross,  and  follow  me."  We  cannot  follow 
Him  and  follow  Satan  at  the  same  time.  It  was  very  unex- 
pected to  me  to  be  thus  drawn  forth  upon  the  necessity  of  being 
cleansed  from  all  impurity;  that  we  may  partake  of  the  fullness 
of  the  blessing  of  the  gospel  of  Christ ;  but  it  is  probable  there 
was  a  cause. 

We  dined  with  an  afflicted  Friend  and  his  daughter,  with 
whom  we  had  a  little  opportunity  to  manifest  our  sympathy, 
and  desire  that  their  trials  may  be  blessed  to  them.  Eeturned 
to  J.  Stanlej^'s ;  and  next  morning,  after  acknowledging  the 
refreshment  it  had  afforded  us,  in  being  so  kindly  cared  for  under 
their  roof,  we  set  off  in  the  rain  for  Providence  Meeting.  Here 
we  had  a  small  company ;  nearly  all  plain  people ;  and  for  a 
long  time  I  felt  unable  to  discover  what  the}''  were.  The  lan- 
guage presented,  "Who  is  blind  but  my  servant;  or  deaf  as 
my  messenger  that  I  sent?"  but  this  did  not  appear  to  be  de- 
signed for  them.  Then  it  revived,  "  I  will  bring  the  blind  by  a 
w^ay  they  know  not ;  I  will  lead  them  in  paths  which  they  have 
not  known  ;  I  will  make  darkness  light  before  them,  and  crook- 
ed things  straight,"  &c.,  and  I  found  it  necessary  to  wait  pa- 
tiently to  see  what  the  Lord  would  do.  After  a  time,  the 
condition  of  the  Laodicean  church  came  before  me,  as  being  de- 
scriptive of  this  people ;  and  with  fear  and  caution,  I  believed 
it  right  to  stand  up  cind  bring  into  view  the  language  of  the 
Spirit  to  that  ancient  church.  Many  things  of  a  close  nature 
were  delivered,  under  feelings  of  sincere  desire  for  their  help  ; 
and  though  there  seemed  few  who  had  not  fallen  into  great 
lukewarmness,  yet  the  spirit  of  prayer  was  granted,  to  inter- 
cede for  their  revival. 

On  the  23d,  we  had  a  meeting  at  New  Salem,  in  which  the 
call  and  qualification  of  a  gospel  minister  were  treated  on.  It 
was  declared  that  no  man  could  take  this  honor  to  himself,  un- 
less he  is  called  of  God  ;  which  call  is  by  the  revelation  of  Christ 
in  the  soul ;  through  obedience  to  whom  a  preparation  is  expe- 
rienced for  the  reception  of  a  gift  in  the  ministry.  This  is 
fi'cely  given  by  the  Head  of  the  church  Himself,  and  is  to  be 
freely  exercised,  under  his  putting  forth,  without  price  or  bar- 
gaining. The  importance  of  professing  Christians  coming  to 
wait  upon  Him,  and  not  upon  man,  that  they  may  I'cccive  the 
blessings  and  privileges  provided  for  them  in  the  gospel,  was 


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held  up  and  enforced.  In  the  afternoon,  we  rode  to  Marl- 
borough. 

We  attended  the  meeting  at  Marlborough,  being  first-day;  in 
which  the  state  of  things  felt  to  be  low.  It  appeared  proper  to 
sound  an  alarm  amongst  them,  lest  they  become  swallowed  up 
by  the  world,  and  lost  in  a  state  of  indifference  to  the  work  of 
their  own  salvation,  and  the  support  of  the  cause  of  Christ. 
The  right  education  of  their  children  ;  which  is  often  neglected 
b}'-  parents  becoming  engrossed  with  schemes  of  business,  was 
plainly  spoken  to,  and  parents  solemnly  called  upon,  to  give 
more  close  and  serious  attention  to  the  cultivation  of  the  minds 
of  their  children,  the  proper  care  of  their  persons,  and  to  sub- 
jugating their  wills  and  passions,  at  an  early  period  of  life. 
They  were  urged  not  to  withhold  from  them  a  suitable  share 
of  school  instruction  ;  so  that  they  might  not  be  sunk  in  igno- 
rance, and  feel  themselves  lessened  by  it.  The  happiness  which 
resulted  to  parents  and  children,  where  they  were  joined  in 
walking  together  in  the  right  way  of  the  Lord  ;  promoting  each 
other's  best  welfare;  far  outweighs  any  pecuniary  advantages, 
arising  from  entire  devotion  to  the  pursuit  of  business.  The 
toil  and  watchful  care  of  such  pious  parents,  would  generally  be 
amply  repaid  in  old  age,  by  the  fruits  of  it  in  their  offspring. 
Then  would  these,  under  the  influence  of  the  power  of  religion, 
cherish  and  console  their  valued  and  declining  parents ;  whose 
joy  it  would  be,  to  see  their  sons  and  daughters  established  in 
the  Truth,  and  as  upright  pillars,  supporting  the  ark  of  its  testi- 
monies. 

In  the  afternoon  we  set  oft*  for  Back  Creek,  and  in  the  even- 
ing reached  the  residence  of  our  friend  Phineas  Nixon,  where 
we  were  kindly  and  comfortably  entertained.  The  weather 
being  wet  in  the  morning,  occasioned  the  meeting  to  be  smaller, 
particularly  on  the  women's  side ;  and  though  I  was  kept  a  con- 
sidei'able  time  empty,  and  shut  up  from  any  opening,  I  believed 
it  right  to  keep  still,  and  refrain  from  attempting  to  stir  up  or 
awake  Him,  who  has  the  key  of  David,  and  the  right  to  hide 
his  face  as  long  as  He  pleases.  This  state  of  mind  was  prepara- 
tory to  unfolding  the  necessity  of  abiding  in  Christ,  and  keep- 
ing the  word  of  his  patience;  that  nothing  man  could  do,  in  his 
time  and  strength,  would  be  any  better  than  filthy  rags  ;  but 
those  who  waited  for,  and  relied  upon  the  renewed  manifesta- 
tions of  Holy  Help,  whatever  their  gifts,  would  be  qualified  to 


252  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

bring  forth  fruit,  to  the  praise  of  the  Great  Husbandman,  and 
the  edification  of  his  church  and  people.  It  was  a  time  of 
strengthening  the  hands  of  the  faithful,  and  inviting  the  young 
members  to  accept  the  offers  of  Heavenly  love  and  mercy,  ex- 
tended to  their  souls  ;  and  to  enlist  under  the  banner  of  the 
Captain  of  their  salvation.  The  feelings  of  my  mind  were  se- 
rene and  peaceful ;  3'et  after  reaching  the  comfortable  residence 
of  Samuel  Hill,  I  felt  low  and  weary,  and  did  not  sleep  w^ell 
through  the  night.  There  seemed  little  from  without,  to  which 
I  could  resort  for  comfort ;  and  after  taking  a  solitary  walk,  I 
thought  it  was  designed  to  keep  me  in  a  humble,  dependent 
state  ;  and  that  such  dispensations  are  a  mercy,  and  indispensable 
for  us  to  pass  through.  Went  to  meeting  poor,  and  sat  there 
empty,  yet  looking  to  and  striving  to  wait  upon  the  Master. 
Two-thirds  of  the  company  were  not  of  our  Society ;  to  whom 
it  appeared  to  be  my  place,  to  open  a  little,  the  nature  of  the 
worship  instituted  by  Christ  under  the  gospel  ;  which  is  not 
limited  to  time  nor  place,  but  is  in  spirit  and  in  truth ;  as  de- 
clared by  Him  to  the  Samaritan  woman  at  Jacob's  well. 

We  rode  to  Ashborough,  and  put  u])  at  a  tavern  kept  by  a 
Methodist;  who  informed  us  that  their  discipline  does  not  admit 
of  buying  or  selling  slaves;  yet  does  not  prohibit  the  members 
from  holding  them.  I  gave  him  some  account  of  the  progress 
made  among  Friends  in  clearing  the  Society  of  slaveholding,  and 
expressed  my  wish  that  they  could  adopt  the  same  course,  and 
come  to  the  same  result.  He  remarked  it  would  suit  him  very 
well;  he  did  not  hold  any,  but  hired  them  as  he  wanted  help  ; 
which  amounts  nearly  to  the  same  thing. 

A  person,  not  of  us,  in  company  with  his  wife,  inclining  to  at- 
tend the  meeting,  piloted  us  to  Bethel,  where  we  found  a  com- 
})any,  mostly  of  other  professors,  sitting  around  the  house,  waiting 
our  arrival.  As  we  observed  in  many  places,  they  did  not  take 
their  seats  until  the  stranger,  or  the  chief  members,  went  into 
the  house.  The  principal  service  was  relating  to  the  nature  of 
the  gospel  dispensation ;  pai'ticularly  enforcing  as  a  fundamen- 
tal and  pi-actical  truth,  the  necessity  of  being  made  free  from 
sin  in  this  life,  that  wo  may  partake  of  that  salvation  which 
comes  by  Jesus  Christ.     The  people  were  quiet  and  serious. 


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CHAPTEE    XIII. 

Continuation  of  Visit  to  North  Carolina  Yearly  Meeting — Causes  of  Trial — • 
Visit  to  Muncy  Select  Preparative  Meeting. 

1841—1842. 

Eleventh  month  25th,  fifth-day,  attended  Holly  Spring  Meet- 
ing, composed  of  a  large  number  of  plain  Friends  ;  to  whom  the 
injunction  of  Christ,  "  Take  no  thought  saying,  what  shall  we 
eat  ?  what  shall  we  drink  ?  or  wherewithal  shall  we  be  clothed  ? 
for  after  all  these  things  do  the  Gentiles  seek ;  for  your  Heav- 
enly Father  knoweth  that  ye  have  need  of  all  these  things. 
But  seek  first  the  kingdom  of  God  and  his  righteousness,  and  all 
these  things  shall  be  added  unto  you,"  was  treated  on.  It  was 
shown  where  this  was  carefully  attended  to  in  early  life,  and 
faithfully  persevered  in,  the  follower  of  Christ  was  preserved 
from  the  entanglements  and  perplexities,  which  the  disobedient 
oft^n  become  involved  in.  While  these  run  into  the  inordinate 
pursuit  of  the  world,  after  they  had  been  visited  in  early  life, 
and  lose  the  life  and  greenness  which  they  once  had,  the  dedi- 
cated sons  and  daughters  of  God,  are  enabled  to  keep  their 
wo)  Idly  concerns  in  their  proper  place,  and  to  fulfil  their  social 
and  religious  duties,  in  the  right  time  and  manner.  The  young 
people  were  earnestly  pressed  to  mind  the  openings  of  Divine 
light  upon  their  understanding;  and  to  walk  in  obedience 
thereto;  that  so  they  may  grow  in  the  knowledge  of  the  Truth, 
and  become  established  in  it.  The  solemnizing  power  of  the 
Blessed  Head  was  felt  among  us,  and  I  hoped  some  of  the 
young  onps  would  be  aroused  to  increased  devotion  and  zeal. 

The  ignorance  which  prevails  among  some,  and  their  indiffer- 
ence to  the  work  of  religion  in  their  own  hearts,  and  to  the 
spreading  of  it  amongst  us,  is  truly  lamentable.  They  are  so 
engrossed  in  the  grovelling  pursuit  of  earthly  treasure,  that 
they  feel  little  or  no  interest  in  the  concerns  of  their  own  re- 
li«;iou8  society;  neglecting  their  religious  meetings,  particu- 
larly Quarterly  and  Yearly  Meetings;  as  if  they  could  not  spare 
any  time  from  the  world  to  attend  them.  These  often  imbibe 
prejudices   against   Friends,   and    the    decisions    of  meetings; 


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which,  did  they  faithfully  discharge  their  own  duties,  would 
never  gain  an  entrance  into  their  minds,  or  long  hold  possession 
of  tliem. 

We  held  an  appointed  meeting  at  Piney  Kidge  oii  the  26th, 
and  afterwards  rode  about  eighteen  miles,  much  of  the  w^ay 
through  the  woods,  to  onr  friend  Phineas  Nixon's.  Here  we 
met  our  friends,  Abner  Ileald  and  David  Fawcet,  of  Salem, 
Ohio.  It  is  pleasant  to  get  into  the  company  of  those  who  are 
abroad,  laboring  in  the  Master's  cause ;  the  number  of  such  be- 
ing small  in  this  day.  I  believe  we  were  mutually  comforted 
in  thus  being  thrown  together.  Next  day  attended  the  Quar- 
terly Meeting;  where  a  pretty  large  body  of  Friends,  and  a  large 
number  of  others  assembled.  The  great  want  of  practical  re- 
ligion amongst  the  professors  of  the  name  of  Christ ;  what  that 
religion  would  lead  to ;  and  the  blessed  fruits  which  would  be 
produced  bj"  it  in  the  world ;  were  largely  treated  on  ;  the  Mas- 
ter of  our  assemblies  furnishing  matter  and  strength  to  preach 
his  everlasting  gospel,  in  the  demonstration  of  his  spirit  and 
power.  Great  solemnity  and  quiet  prevailed  over  the  meeting. 
In  the  meeting  for  Discipline,  I  endeavored  to  press  upon  Friends 
the  advice  of  the  Yearly  Meeting,  contained  in  its  epistle;  to 
labor  affectionately  with  those  who  use  ardent  spirits  as  a  drink, 
or  give  it  to  their  workmen  ;  that,  if  possible,  they  may  be  re- 
claimed from  the  evil  habit;  and  that  those  who  persist  in  it, 
may  be  enumerated,  and  the  account  taken  up  to  the  next 
Yearly  Meeting. 

The  subject  of  education  being  brought  to  view  in  reading 
the  Boarding  School  report,  it  afforded  an  opportunity  to  plead 
with  Friends  on  behalf  of  the  dear  children ;  that  those  who 
had  the  means  should  devote  a  proper  portion  of  it  to  give  them 
suitable  school  learning,  at  an  age  when  they  will  best  acquire  it. 
Money  expended  for  this  object  will  yield  the  best  interest,  and 
will  be  far  more  valuable  to  them,  than  given  to  them  when  ar- 
riving at  manhood,  without  education.  On  the  guarded  religious 
instruction  and  care  of  the  youth,  very  much  depends  the  hope 
of  the  preservation  and  continuance  of  our  Society ;  and  in 
other  places  this  watchful  care  had  been  productive  of  much 
good.  I  came  away  from  the  meeting  altogether  rc^lieved  and 
peaceful;  got  our  horses,  and  we  set  off  immediately  and  rode 
sixteen  miles  to  our  iriend,  J.  A.'s,  having  his  son  for  guide. 
The  road  as  far  as  Ashborough,  was  mountainous  and  tedious, 


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and  we  did  not  arrive  until  about  twenty  minutes  after  seven 
o'clock ;  but  the  moonlight  aided  us  much  in  driving  safely. 
The  welcome  we  met  with  here,  as  in  other  places,  was  grateful, 
especially  after  the  fatigue  of  a  long  meeting,  and  the  ride  in  the 
evening.  On  the  following  morning  a  snow  storm  set  in,  which 
lasted  all  the  day,  beating  in  our  faces  much  of  the  waj^  to 
Rocky  Eiver,  about  twelve  miles.  Here  we  had  a  meeting  at 
three  o'clock  in  the  afternoon  ;  about  twenty  men  and  eight 
women.  The  way  opened  to  encourage  the  few  members  to 
diligence  and  faithfulness  in  their  religious  duties  ;  and  to  waVn 
some  transgressoi's  present,  to  forsake  their  evil  waj's,  and  turn 
unto  the  Lord  who  would  have  mercy,  if  they  repented  and  for- 
sook their  wrong  courses.  In  a  little  opportunity  with  the 
family  of  the  Friend  where  we  stopped,  I  endeavored  to  encour- 
age the  parents  and  children  ;  expressing  the  belief  that  the  Son 
of  Peace  had  been  at  work  in  the  hearts  of  some  of  them. 

29th.  Had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Cane  Creek,  where  we 
met  with  our  friends,  Dougan  and  Asenath  Clark.  It  was  to  me 
a  trying  time.  I  labored  some  among  them  under  discourage- 
ment, from  a  feeling  of  the  low  state  of  religion  there  ;  in  which 
it  felt,  that  except  the  Lord  build  the  house,  they  labor  in  vain 
who  build  it.  D.  Clark  spoke  of  it  as  another  oflPer  of  Divine 
visitation,  and  exhorted  them  to  close  in  with  it.  The  weather 
being  cold  and  the  ground  covered  with  snow,  we  concluded  to 
tarry  with  our  friends,  Joseph  Dixon  and  family;  whom  we 
found  under  some  concern  for  the  state  of  society  here.  I  had 
a  good  deal  of  conversation  with  him,  respecting  the  want  of 
liberality  in  education.  After  an  opportunity  with  the  family, 
in  the  morning,  he  piloted  us  to  South  Fork  meeting,  appointed  at 
ten  o'clock ;  thence  we  went  to  Chatham,  at  three  o'clock  in  the 
afternoon.  I  was  engaged  to  labor  for  the  encouragement  of 
the  sincere-hearted  in  both  meetings  ;  that  they  might,  through 
dedication  to  the  Lord,  be  strengthened  to  build  up  the  waste 
places,  and  suppoi't  their  religious  meetings,  and  the  testimo- 
nies given  us  to  bear.  In  the  latter  meeting  there  was  a  num- 
ber of  persons,  to  whom  it  was  my  place  to  show,  that  man  is 
not  judged  and  condemned  because  he  has  no  light  or  knowl- 
edge of  what  is  right  and  wrong,  but  because  he  is  not  obedient 
to  that  which  he  has.  Our  Saviour  lays  dov\-n  the  doctrine  very 
plainly  :  "  This  is  the  condemnation,  that  light  has  come  into 
the  world,  but  men  loved  darkness  rather  than  light,  because 


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their  deeds  were  evil.  For  every  one  that  doeth  evil  hateth 
the  light,  neither  cometh  to  the  light,  lest  his  deeds  ehould  be 
reproved  ;  but  he  that  doeth  truth,  cometh  to  the  light,  that  his 
deeds  may  be  made  manifest  that  they  are  wrought  in  God." 
They  were  appealed  to  for  the  verity  of  the  doctrine,  in  their 
own  experience,  and  called  upon  to  receive  and  obey  the  light 
of  Christ  in  its  manifestions  to  the  soul ;  that  they  might  re- 
ceive strength  from  Him  to  forsake  their  evil  practices,  and  ex- 
perience reconciliation  with  God  through  Him.  Some  of  them 
were  serious,  and  I  believe  were  convinced  of  the  truth  of  what 
was  delivered.  Our  friend  John  Newlin,  came  to  the  meeting ; 
with  whom  we  went  home,  and  the  next  day  were  at  the  Spring- 
Meeting,  being  the  1st  of  the  Twelfth  month. 

Twelfth  month  2nd.  Set  off  in  company  with  John  Newlin 
M^ho  was  going  to  Hillsborough,  and  when  we  came  to  the  road 
which  we  had  proposed  to  take  for  Ealeigh,  I  felt  some  doubts 
of  leaving  the  few  Friends  residing  at  Eno  ;  lest  I  should  carry 
away  a  burden  in  relation  to  them,  which  would  be  undesirable 
to  bear.  On  mentioning  my  fears  of  omitting  to  go  there  to 
John  ISTewlin,  and  asking  whether  the  few  Friends  could  be  got 
together  soon,  he  replied,  yes,  in  half  an  hour ;  and  encouraged 
me  to  go.  Although  a  trial  to  turn  out  of  our  course,  I  believed 
it  best.  We  reached  the  house  of  T.  T. ;  whose  wife  has  fre- 
quently sat  alone  in  the  meeting-house ;  I  think  as  often  as  five 
mid-week  meeting  days  successively;  and  a  messenger  was  soon 
dispatched  to  his  brother  to  invite  his  family  to  meet  there. 
After  dinner,  we  sat  down  together,  six  or  eight  children  of  each 
family ;  and  my  Divine  Master  soon  pi'epared  me  to  communi- 
cate to  them  ;  bringing  to  my  remembrance  the  circamstance  of 
the  woman  who  broke  the  alabaster  box  of  ointment,  of  great 
value,  and  poured  it  on  His  head  ;  for  which  some  found  fault, 
as  a  waste  of  that  which  might  have  been  sold  and  given  to  the 
poor.  It  appeared  applicable  to  this  devoted  woman ;  who, 
through  many  difficulties,  was  openly  acknowledging  her  fidelity 
to  her  Lord,  in  devoting  a  portion  of  her  time  and  labor  to  attend 
her  religious  meetings ;  while  others  were  neglecting  them,  and 
perhaps  thinking  it  a  waste  of  time  in  her  to  go  there.  The 
conditions  of  the  others  were  also  spoken  to;  calling  upon 
them  to  obey  the  invitation  often  extended  to  them — to  enter 
into  the  vineyard  of  their  own  hearts,  and  labor  by  the  aid  of 
the  Holy  Spirit,  to  have  everything  eradicated  that  obstructed 


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the  growth  of  the  Seed  of  the  kingdom.  To  the  heads  of  the 
families,  who  were  in  the  neglect  of  their  duty,  the  intimation 
was  given  that  the  eleventh  hour  was  at  hand,  and  they  were 
solemnly  warned  of  the  danger  of  putting  off  this  all-important 
work  ;  and  the  young  people  were  affectionately  pressed  to  open 
the  door  of  their  hearts,  and  let  the  King  of  Glory  come  in  and 
make  them  what  He  would  have  them  to  be ;  lights  in  the  world, 
and  as  a  city  set  upon  a  hill  that  could  not  be  hid ;  that  others 
might  see  their  good  works  and  glorify  their  Father  which  is 
in  heaven.  Some  of  them  were  brought  under  serious  feelings, 
and  I  left  them,  thankful  for  the  extension  of  holy  help  to  dis- 
charge my  duty  towards  them.  We  rode  to  Hillsborough  and 
put  up  at  a  tavern  ;  not  very  agreeable  to  my  feelings.  The 
unpleasantness  of  the  place,  the  dark  rainy  weather,  and  the 
trial  I  had  passed  through,  in  turning  aside  from  our  orig- 
inal route,  covered  me  with  sadness ;  which  none  can  rightly 
understand  who  have  never  had  such  a  mission  to  fulfil,  and  know 
not  what  it  is  to  have  their  faith  closely  proved,  when  they 
have  no  other  desire  than  to  be  found  faithful  to  their  Lord  in 
his  requirings.  But  I  went  to  bed  and  slept  pretty  well ;  rose 
early  the  next  morning,  and  about  seven  o'clock  left  the  place, 
and  thi'ough  some  rain  and  mud  rode  to  Raleigh.  The  weather 
cleared  off  in  the  evening,  and  we  succeeded  in  getting  our 
breakfast  at  the  hotel  the  following  morning,  in  time  to  leave 
the  town  at  eight  o'clock.  We  had  forty-three  miles  to  ride  in 
order  to  reach  J.  K.'s  ;  much  of  the  way  through  a  piney  coun- 
try ;  the  roads  pretty  level  and  sandy  ;  and  though  we  stopped 
nearly  an  hour  to  feed  our  horses,  we  arrived  at  our  friends 
about  sunset,  and  were  hospitably  received  and  entertained. 

On  first-day  moning,  Twelfth  month  5th,  we  went  to  Neuse 
Meeting,  about  seven  miles ;  crossing  that  river  in  a  flat  which 
we  did  not  deem  very  safe,  owing  to  its  small  size,  the  strength 
of  the  cuil-ent,  and  the  depth  of  the  water;  which  had  risen 
considerably  from  the  late  snow  and  rain.  Persons  of  other  per- 
suasions, as  well  as  Friends,  collected,  and  it  was  some  trial  to 
be  placed  before  such  a  company,  a  stranger,  to  whom  their  at- 
tention was  naturally  directed.  But  after  some  time,  there  was 
an  opening  on  the  preciousness  of  the  salvation  of  the  immor- 
tal soul,  and  that  nothing  in  this  world  was  worthy  of  being 
brought  into  competition  with  it.  The  people  sat  very  still 
and  attentive.     In   the  course  of  the  communication,  my  mind 


258  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

was  turned  to  the  state  of  an  infidel.  After  having  set  forth 
the  object  of  the  coming,  sutferings,  death,  resurrection,  &c.,  of 
our  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  I  Avas  led  to  dwell  upon  the  awfulness  of 
falling  into  a  state,  which  landed  individuals  in  a  feeling  like 
that  of  Cain,  a  vagabond  on  the  earth ;  and  having  fallen  into 
great  wretchedness,  such  seek  to  draw  others  into  the  like  con- 
dition with  themselves.  "  Their  vine  is  the  -sane  of  Sodom,  and 
of  the  fields  of  Gomorrah  ;  their  grapes  are  grapes  of  gall,  their 
clusters  are  bitter."  "The  poison  of  asj^s  is  under  their  lips." 
These  were  solemnly  warned  of  their  danger,  and  invited  to 
yield  to  the  grace  of  God,  which  at  times  was  bringing  them 
under  fearful  apprehensions  of  his  just  and  inevitable  judgments, 
if  they  die  in  this  condition.  To  those  who  love  the  Lord  Jesus, 
the  blessedness  of  the  heavenly  reward  at  the  end  of  the  race, 
if  thc}^  persevere,  when  God  will  wipe  away  all  tears  from  their 
eyes,  was  held  forth  ;  and  they  were  encouraged  to  increased 
faithfulness  and  dedication. 

It  was  a  solemn  opportunity,  and  when  the  meeting  closed, 
several  men,  not  of  oiir  Society,  shook  hands  in  a  manner 
which  indicated  their  unity  with  the  doctrine.  We  returned 
after  dinner  to  J.  K.'s,  and  in  the  evening  had  a  religious  oppor- 
tunity with  his  family. 

6th.  Rode  eight  miles  to  Nahunta  Meeting,  and  though  early 
when  we  reached  the  house,  found  a  number  collected,  who  seem- 
ed like  a  people  willing  to  hear  the  Gospel  preached.  We  sat  a 
long  time  in  silence ;  as  -it  seemed  to  me  to  show  that  we  were 
not  to  be  ready  to  speak  in  man's  time,  and  that  the  Lord  will 
not  gratify  that  disposition,  which  manj^  have,  to  wait  and  de- 
pend upon  man.  These  feelings  prepared  me,  in  some  degree, 
to  show  the  people  that  it  is  not  according  to  the  Gospel  dis- 
pensation to  look  to  man  for  a  knowledge  of  the  Divine  will, 
nor  for  spiritual  bread.  No  man  can  impart  spiritual  bread,  but 
as  it  is  given  him  by  Christ.  It  was  under  the  Jewfsh  dispen- 
sation, that  the  law  was  to  be  received  from  the  priests'  lips;- 
not  so  under  the  Gospel.  Every  one  is  to  come  to  and  wait 
upon  Christ.  The  Lord  will  not  give  his  glory  to  another.  The 
way  gradually  opened  to  invite  the  people  to  come  to  Christ, 
that  they  might  know  llim  to  be  their  teacher;  to  instruct 
them  in  the  things  which  pertain  to  their  soul's  salvation,  and 
to  give  them  the  bread  and  Avater  of  life,  to  nourish  them  up 
unto  everlasting  life.     They  were  also  shown,  that  as  they  thus 


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came  into  his  government  and  kingdom,  there  could  be  no  re- 
venge, nor  ill-will,  nor  use  of  improper  language  towards  each 
other.  Parents  being  united  in  this,  they  would  be  concerned 
for  their  children,  to  bring  them  also  to  Christ ;  and  such  fami- 
lies would  verify  the  description  given  by  the  Psalmist,  of  this 
lenity  being  like  the  ointment  poured  upon  the  head,  which  ran 
down  to  the  skirts  of  the  garment ;  and  like  the  dew  which  de- 
scends upon  the  mountains  of  Zion  ;  where  the  Lord  commanded 
the  blessing,  even  life  forevermore. 

The  meeting  closed  with  prayer,  for  some  who  have  nearly 
reached  the  eleventh  hour ;  that  thej'  might,  by  the  love  of  God, 
be  constrained  to  labor  in  the  vineyards  of  their  own  hearts,  and 
have  every  wrong  plant  removed ;  that  they  might  be  clothed 
with  gravity  and  wisdom,  to  set  a  pi'oper  example  to  their  chil- 
dren :  and  for  those  who  meet  in  this  place,  that,  through  in- 
ci'eased  dedication,  they  might  be  qualified  to  support  the  ark 
of  the  testimonies,  and  show  forth  the  praises  of  the  Lord  God 
and  the  Lamb.  The  meeting  ended  solemnly,  and  the  people 
were  serious,  and  some  of  them  tendered.  We  then  rode  home 
with  a.  member,  and  staid  with  him  and  his  famil}'^  that  night. 
Within  the  limits  of  this  meeting,  we  were  informed,  of  two 
Friends  and  their  w^ves,  who  do  not  know  their  letters.  They 
have  raised  a  large  number  of  children,  who,  of  course,  they 
could  not  instruct  themselves,  by  reading  to  them  in  the  Holy 
Scriptures. 

7th.  Had  a  meeting  at  Contentnea.  The  house  being  very 
open,  and  no  tire,  I  suffered  so  from  the  cold,  that  when  speak- 
ing I  could  hardly  prevent  mj''  teeth  from  striking  together. 
The  state  of  this  meeting  appeared  to  me  very  low,  and  my 
feelings  were  discouraging,  and  I  said  but  little  in  the  meeting. 
Went  to  the  house  of  a  Friend  living  on  the  way  towards  Rich 
Square,  and  several  being  there  in  the  evening,  I  felt  willing  to 
have  a  religious  opportunity  with  them  ;  in  which  I  endeavored 
to  press  upon  them  the  neeessity  of  more  thorough  devotion  to 
the  cause  of  Truth,  that  they  may  be  instrumental  in  support- 
ing the  testimonies  given  .to  us  to  bear,  and  in  reviving  the  zeal 
of  others. 

I  am  persuaded  that  the  open,  comfortless  condition  of  most 
of  their  meeting-houses, — ^nearly  all  without  any  means  of  warm- 
ing them,  or  drjnng  the  wet  clothes  of  those  who  ride  or  walk 
in  the  rain   or  snow, — has  the  effect  to  keep  their  meetings 


260  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

smaller  than  they  would  be,  were  proper  care  taken  to  make 
ihetn  fit  places  to  meet  for  the  worship  of  Him,  to  whom  we  owe 
ourselves,  and  all  that  we  possess.  Men  of  ability  will  provide 
for  themselves  suitable  habitations;  and  how  much  more  care- 
fid  should  they  be,  to  have  buildings  decent,  and  appropriate  for 
the  worship  of  the  Lord  of  Hosts,  where  they  assemble  pro- 
fessedly to  pay  the  homage  due  to  his  great  name.  The  dilapi- 
dated state  of  the  house,  may  strike  strangers  as  an  index  to 
the  kind  of  religion  which  the  professed  worshippers  possess, 
and  may  stumble  or  turn  aside  sincere  seekers.  I  mentioned 
the  subject  to  several  of  the  members,  at  the  close  of  the  meet- 
ing, and  they  admitted  the  force  of  the  observations;  remarking 
that  some  other  Friend  had  spoken  to  them  respecting  it  before. 
It  is  to  be  feared,  that  the  general  apathy  on  the  subject  of 
vital,  practical  religion,  has  an  influence,  in  many  places,  to 
deter  Friends  from  providing  all  the  accommodation  they  re- 
quire, and  the  sheds  to  defend  their  horses  from  the  inclemency 
of  the  weather. 

We  set  off  early  on  the  8th,  accompanied  by  two  guides,  and 
rode  to  Tarborough,  thirty-seven  miles,  and  lodged.  The  next 
morning,  proceeded  to  Eoanoke  Eiver ;  which  had  been  over  its 
banks  in  some  places, — caused  by  a  late  freshet, — and  lodged  tim- 
ber on  the  road,  so  as  to  obstruct  it :  but  we  succeeded  in  finding 
a  way  ai'ound,  which  we  could  not  have  passed  a  few  days  earlier. 
After  i-eaching  T.  P.'s,  we  had  notices  sent  out  for  a  meeting  en 
the  next  day,  at  Eich  Square ;  which  we  attended ;  being  a  pretty 
large  collection  of  Friends  and  others.  This  was  the  meeting 
to  which  that  deep  and  powerful  minister  of  the  Gospel  of 
Christ,  Eichard  Jordan,  belonged;  where  belabored  in  his  early 
life,  in  his  Divine  Master's  cause.  After  sitting  down  in  the 
meeting,  I  was  assailed  with  the  suggestion  that  I  had  done 
wrong  in  omitting  to  go  to  Core  Sound,  and  now  I  might  be  left 
to  myself  to  get  along  as  well  as  I  could ;  and  what  a  condition 
I  should  bring  myself  into,  if  I  could  now  get  no  further,  and 
be  obliged  to  inform  Friends  that  I  had  missed  my  way,  and 
must  turn  back  to  that  meeting,  about  two  hundred  miles  distant. 
I  was  willing  to  do  anything  for  peace  of  mind,  and  to  have  the 
favor  of  my  Divine  Master  restored  ;  if  I  had  forfeited  it  through 
disobedience,  or  undertaking  to  decide  for  mj-self  These  views 
humbled  me  greatly,  and  my  faith  and  hope  were  reduced  low. 
But  He,  whose  the  cause  is  which  1  desired  might   not  suffer, 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  261 

had  compassion  on  me;  and  in  the  midst  of  my  conflict  gave  me 
unexpectedly  an  intimation  to  stand  up  with  the  testimony: 
"There  is  none  other  name  under  heaven  given  amongst  men 
whereby  we  must  be  saved,"  but  the  name  of  Jesus  Christ  of 
Nazareth.  I  was,  at  first,  afraid  to  comply  lest  I  was  deceived  ; 
but  in  mercy  it  was  repeated  ;  and  I  arose,  not  knowing  what  I 
was  to  say  further,  and  leaving  it  all  to  the  Lord  to  supply  the 
matter.  The  way  was  opened  to  preach  Christ  Jesus  as  the 
only  way  to  the  Father,  and  his  spiritual  baptism  with  the  Holy 
Ghost  and  fire,  as  the  appointed  means  by  which  sin  and  cor- 
ruption are  to  be  purged  out  of  the  heart  of  man ;  and  he  pre- 
pared to  be  made  a  partaker  of  the  fulness  of  the  blessings  of 
the  gospel  of  Christ;  both  in  what  He  did  and  suffered  for  us, 
in  the  prepared  body,  and  the  glorious  reward  at  the  end  of  the 
race ;  laid  up  for  all  those  who  love  and  serve  Him  with  sin- 
cerity and  faithfulness.  The  current  then  turned  to  the  exercised 
remnant  in  this  meeting ;  who  were  encouraged  to  increased 
dedication  in  the  occupancy  of  their  gifts,  and  to  be  willing  to 
be  again  and  again  bajjtized  into  suff'ering  on  their  own  account, 
and  for  the  body's  sake,  the  church.  The  young  people  were 
also  invited  to  receive  Christ  in  his  visitations  to  their  souls ; 
to  take  his  yoke  upon  them  and  learn  of  Him,  that  they  maybe 
made  servants  in  his  house,  and  qualified  to  support  the  doc- 
trines and  testimonies  given  to  us  to  bear.  Some  of  the  sincere- 
hearted  were  tendered,  and  manifested  their  unity,  in  seeming 
unwillingness  to  part  from  us,  as  well  as  by  expressing  their 
satisfaction  with  our  company.  But  I  left  them  in  a  low  state 
of  mind,  not  knowing  how  I  should  get  through  with  the  re- 
maining meetings ;  and  whether  I  should  not  yet  find  my  way 
blocked  up,  by  disqualification  for  service,  brought  on  by  omit- 
ting to  go  to  that  distant  meeting. 

A  young  man  offering  to  pilot  us,  we  set  off  for  B.  C.'s,  seven- 
teen miles,  on  our  way  to  Piney  Woods,  eating  our  dinner  in 
the  carriage  ;  whose  house  we  reached  just  before  dusk.  This 
family,  residing  so  far  from  their  meeting,  as  seldom  to  get 
there,  I  had  a  religious  opportunity  with  them  ;  in  which  I  held 
up  to  view  the  great  object  of  life,  the  importance  of  bringing 
up  their  children  in  a  proper  manner ;  and  whether,  if  they 
rightly  felt  the  importance  of  regularly  attending  their  religious 
meetings,  the  way  would  not  be  made  to  remove  where  they 
would  be  able  to  be  at  them  more  frequently. 
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262  JOURNAL   OF  WILLIAM   EVANS. 

We  left  here  the  folloAving  mornmg,  11th,  and  rode  forty 
miles  to  J.  N.'s,  and  finding  that  our  friend  B.  C.  of  Indiana, 
had  notice  spread  of  his  intention  to  be  here  next  day,  we  went 
down  on  first-day  morning  to  Little  Eiver  Meeting  ;  where  we 
found  a  small  company ;  six  or  eight  Friends  and  a  number  of 
others.  In  the  afternoon  we  proceeded  to  Symond's  Creek  and 
Newbegan  Creek,  appointing  meetings  for  the  next  day.  We 
put  up  at  J.  P.'s. 

We  had  a  meeting  next  day  at  Newbegan  Creek;  in  which 
the  duty  of  silent  waiting,  and  introversion  of  mind  before  the 
Lord,  that  we  may  hear  and  understand  the  still  small  voice 
which  speaketh  as  never  man  spake,  and  by  obedience  thereto, 
be  brought  to  the  knowledge  of  God  and  Jesus  Christ,  whom 
He  hath  sent,  which  is  life  eternal ;  was  opened  and  enforced. 
It  was  shown  that,  however  valuable  the  knowledge  communi- 
cated by  the  Scriptures,  and  highly  to  be  prized  and  cherished, 
yet  this  of  itself  was  not  sufficient.  The  saving  knowledge  of 
the  Father  is  received  by  and  through  the  Son  ;  who  is  the  way, 
the  truth  and  the  life,  communicated  by  the  operations  of  his 
Spirit  in  the  heart.     It  was  a  time  of  renewed  favor. 

After  dining,  we  rode  to  Symond's  Creek,  where  we  had  the 
company  of  neai-ly  all  the  members  of  the  two  meetings  last 
visited.  It  was  satisfactory  to  have  them  together ;  giving  the 
opportunity  of  entering  into  feeling  with  them,  in  their  reduced 
condition ;  in  which  the  way  was  opened  to  encourage  the 
honest-hearted  to  keep  hold  of  the  shield  of  faith  ;  whereby  they 
might  quench  the  darts  of  the  enemy,  who  seeks  to  discourage 
and  turn  aside  from  the  path  of  duty.  The  necessity  of  watch- 
ing over,  and  restraining  the  children  from  the  corruptions 
which  abound  in  the  world,  and  of  Friends  coming  under  reli- 
gious exercise,  that  they  may  be  qualified  to  bring  them  up  in 
the  nurture  and  admonition  of  the  Lord,  were  pointed  out;  and 
the  danger  of  being  overwhelmed  by  the  pursuit  of  biisiness 
and  the  love  of  money,  impressed  upon  some.  The  Truth  rose 
into  dominion,  and  brought  some  into  tenderness,  and  they  took 
leave  of  us  in  near  affection  and  unity,  desiring  our  preserva- 
tion every  way. 

It  is  not  many  years  since  the  meetings  held  at  these  lower 
houses  were  quite  large;  but  the  climate  being  unhealthy  in 
these  counties,  and  Friends  surrounded  by  slaves  and  slave- 
holders, they  have  gradually  moved  into  the  Western  States; 


JOURNAL   OP  WILLIAM   EVANS.  263 

nntil  the  number  is  scarcely  sufficient  to  keep  up  their  meetings 
with  reputation.  The  Yearly  Meeting  of  North  Carolina  was 
first  held  altogether  at  Little  Eiver;  then  alternately  here  and 
at  New  Garden;  but  as  Friends  iucreased  in  the  middle  and 
western  side  of  the  State,  and  went  thence  into  Tennessee,  it  has 
been  held  altogether  at  New  Garden.  It  produces  mournful 
feelings  to  see  our  meetings  reducing  and  going  down,  and  the 
houses  deserted  and  sold.  Friends  have  the  right  to  leave  one 
country,  and  go  into  another,  where  they  are  satisfied  that  Divine 
wisdom  points  to  such  change.  It  is,  however,  very  needful  to 
know,  that  it  is  the  mind  of  our  Holy  Leader  we  should  make 
such  a  move ;  for  not  only  trials  are  brought  upon  those  who 
remain,  by  the  reduction  of  the  meeting,  and  by  Friends  selling 
their  property  to  slaveholders,  who  move  in  among  them  ;  but 
those  who  go,  it  is  to  be  feared,  in  some  instances,  have  not  im- 
proved their  condition,  either  temporally  or  spiritually.  But  had 
they  remained,  they  might  have  been  instrumental  in  gathering 
others  to  the  Truth  ;  and  by  keeping  up  the  meetings,  preserved 
the  children  of  Friends  in  the  Society ;  many  of  whom,  for  want 
of  proper  company  and  example,  have  gone  into  the  world,  and 
formed  connections  for  life,  which  have  led  them  out  of  the  So- 
ciety, and  proved  a  lasting  injury.  Some  have,  no  doubt,  removed 
from  honest  motives,  and  have  prospered;  yet  it  is  not  an  evi- 
dence of  redemption  from  the  love  of  the  world,  to  see  Friends, 
the  highest  professing  people  amongst  Christians,  so  ready  to  take 
wing,  and  hasten  after  the  valuable  lands,  recently  obtained 
from  the  conquered  natives;  who  are  driven  hither  and  thither, 
having  scarcely  any  certain  dwelling-place.  The  examjjle  of 
thirst  for  gain  does  not  become  a  professedly  self-denying  peo- 
ple, and  must  make  an  impression  on  others,  unfavorable  to  the 
reception  of  the  gospel  as  held  by  us.  It,  moreover,  brings 
dimness  of  vision  on  ourselves,  and  the  loss  of  that  lively  zeal 
and  spiritual-mindedness,  which  belong  to  the  true  Christian ; 
and  eminently  characterized  the  early  members  of  our  Society. 
We  had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Well's,  on  the  14th  ;  attend- 
ed Bush  Spring  on  the  15th  ;  both  of  which  were  exercising.  It 
is  painful  to  have  to  sit  where  the  negligent  and  slothful  sit,  and 
partake  of  the  food  proper  for  them.  I  endeavored  to  labor 
faithfully  among  them ;  but  sometimes  on  sitting  down,  I  would 
feel  as  if  all  sense  of  Divine  life  and  strength  had  left  me  ;  and 
then,  for  a  short  time,  would  fear  that  I  had  not  been  minister- 


264  JOURNAL    OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

ing  in  the  power  and  authority  of  Truth.  This  humbled  and 
kept  me  poor  in  spirit,  seeking  to  the  Lord  in  and  out  of  meet- 
ings; and  at  times  having  no  qualification  to  enter  into  much 
conversation.  But  I  felt  no  condemnation  ;  and  the  tendering, 
contriting  peace  of  God,  which  surpasses  the  understanding  of 
the  unregenerate  man,  would  flow  into  my  heart,  and  enable 
me  to  trust  in  Him,  and  lean  upon  Christ,  the  great  High 
Priest  of  our  profession,  who  is  touched  with  a  feeling  of  our 
infirmities. 

16th.  Much  rain  having  fallen  during  the  night,  and  continu- 
ing, the  travelling  was  disagreeable;  but,  notwithstanding  the 
unfavorable  state  of  the  weather,  notice  having  been  spread  of 
our  intention  to  be  at  Piney  "Woods,  at  the  usual  week-day  meet- 
ing, a  large  company  convened.  I  felt,  as  common  for  me,  ex- 
ceedingly empty,  and  my  faith  perhaps  never  lower  at  such  a 
time  ;  but  after  a  time  of  waiting,  the  testimony  of  the  holy 
apostle,  was  revived :  "Without  faith,  it  is  impossible  to  please 
God."  We  must  not  only  believe  that  He  is,  but  that  He  is  a 
rewarder  of  them  who  diligently  seek  Him.  Though  I  was  so 
stripped,  I  believed  it  was  my  duty  to  rise  with  this  testimony  ; 
and  as  I  kept  patient  and  steady,  one  thing  was  opened  after 
another,  until  the  stream  became  like  a  river  for  a  man  to  swim 
in  ;  the  people  were  solemnized,  and  the  name  of  the  Lord  ex- 
alted; and  I  went  to  D.  W.'s  with  a  peaceful  mind.  This  fin- 
ished the  visit  to  the  meetings  of  North  Carolina;  and  that 
night  I  slept  soundly  till  near  the  time  to  rise  for  an  early  de- 
parture into  Virginia. 

We  were  joined  by  our  friend  J.  N.,  at  whose  house  we  had 
staid  three  nights ;  and  through  a  storm  of  rain  and  snow,  we 
rode  thirty-eight  miles,  to  our  friend  J.  H.'s,  at  Somerton,  and 
had  notice  spread  for  a  meeting  there  next  day. 

We  had  a  meeting  at  Somerton,  with  Friends,  and  a  few  not 
professing  with  us,  to  some  satisfaction.  Next  morning,  being 
first-day,  we  i-ode  over  to  Western  Branch,  and  there  met  a 
little  company;  parts  of  two  or  three  families  of  Friends; 
amongst  whom  there  was  some  ability  received,  to  show  the 
unwillingness  of  man,  in  his  first  nature,  to  submit  to  the  re- 
straints of  the  power  of  religion  ;  and  the  consequence  which 
must  result  to  him  in  refusing  to  come  under  the  yoke  and  cross 
of  Christ.  Some  were  fervently  and  affectionately  pleaded  with, 
to  lay  these  things  to  heai't,  and  to  give  up  to  the  convictions 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  265 

of  the  Spirit  of  Christ,  while  the  day  of  mercy  was  extended  to 
them.  "VVe  dined  with  some  Friends,  and  had  a  further  oppor- 
tunity of  laying  before  them  the  duty  of  restraining  the  chil- 
dren ;  and  also  the  danger  of  being  carried  away  with  the  fas- 
cination of  vain  and  fashionable  society;  that  the  Lord  will 
bring  all  to  judgment ;  and  what  will  all  om*  creaturely  indul- 
gences do  for  us,  in  that  awful  day  ? 

Eode  back  to  N.  J.'s,  and  on  second-day,  the  20th,  had  a  meet- 
ing at  their  meeting-house ;  wherein  I  had  close  labor  with  the 
negligent  members,  who  are  often  absent  from  their  meetings, 
and  live  in  much  indifference  respecting  their  religious  duties. 
It  was  a  season  of  earnest  labor  with  members  and  others, 
to  draw  them  into  a  right  sense  of  the  obligations  they  are  un- 
der, and  the  great  importance  of  wox*king  out  their  soul's  salva- 
tion, while  the  Lord  is  striving  with  them,  by  the  convictions 
of  his  Holy  Spirit. 

A  Friend,  of  Black  Creek,  met  us  here,  and  conducted  us  to 
his  house.  His  father  came  into  the  Society,  and,  from  the  ac- 
count we  had,  was  a  diligent  attender  of  meetings,  and  careful 
to  take  his  children  with  him.  The  benefit  of  his  faithfulness, 
is  seen  in  his  children  ;  who  appear  to  be  exemplary  Friends  ; 
upon  whom  the  support  of  the  meeting  much  devolves.  It  was 
peculiarly  encouraging  to  find  some  who  had  joined  Friends, 
and  manifested  their  love  to  the  Society,  by  supporting  a  plain, 
consistent  appearance  ;  where  degeneracy  has  greatly  crept  in  ; 
and  many  who  profess  with  us  have  so  gone  into  the  world,  that 
the  meetings,  in  places,  are  dropped,  and  others  nearly  gone 
down. 

21st.  A  pretty  large  company,  besides  Friends,  assembled 
with  us  to-day  ;  many  of  whom  appeared  to  me  to  be  persons  of 
inquiring  minds.  The  Master  condescended  to  furnish  ability  to 
preach  the  gospel ;  showing  that  it  is  a  dispensation  of  tte 
spirit,  life  and  power ;  to  bi-ing  man  out  of  his  lost  and  sinful 
condition,  and  restore  him  into  that  in  which  Adam  stood  before 
he  fell.  Christ  said  of  his  sheep,  "I  am  come  that  they  might 
have  life,  and  that  they  might  have  it  more  abundantly."  He 
also  promised  the  gift  of  the  Comforter,  the  Spirit  of  Truth, 
who  was  with  them  and  should  be  in  them.  And  the  Apostle 
declared,  "  I  am  not  ashamed  of  the  gospel  of  Christ,  for  it  is  the 
power  of  God  unto  salvation,  to  every  one  that  believeth ;  to  the 
Jew  first,  and  also  to  the  Greek."     It  is  not  a  dispensation  of 


:26t6  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

outward  ceremonies,  as  the  Jewish,  which  may  be  performed  in 
the  will  and  wisdom  of  man.  Ye  are  not  come  unto  the  Mount 
that  might  be  touched,  &c.,  "But  ye  are  come  unto  Mount  Zion, 
and  unto  the  city  of  the  living  Grod,  the  heavenly  Jerusalem, 
and  to  an  innumerable  company  of  angels,  and  to  the  general 
assembly  and  church  of  the  first  born,  which  are  written  in  hea- 
ven; and  to  God  the  judge  of  all,  and  to  Jesus  the  Mediator  of 
the  New  Covenant,  and  to  the  blood  of  sprinkling  that  speaketh 
better  things  than  that  of  Abel."  The  blood  of  Abel  cried  from 
the  ground  for  vengeance  ;  but  Christ  said  of  his  enemies  : 
"Father,  forgive  them,  they  know  not  what  they  do."  Those 
who  are  truly  brought  under  the  gospel  dispensation,  are  brought 
up  into  the  image  of  Christ,  clothed  with  his  spirit ;  and  they 
die  to  the  spirit  of  revenge,  and  to  the  inordinate  indulgence  of 
all  their  carnal  appetites  and  propensities.  They  breathe,  in 
their  conduct  and  in  their  spirit,  "  Glory  to  God  in  the  highest, 
on  earth  peace  and  good  will  to  men."  Many  passages  of  the 
Holy  Scriptures  were  brought  to  my  remembrance,  setting  forth 
the  blessed,  heavenly  nature  of  the  religion  of  which  our  holy 
Eedeemer  is  the  Author  and  Finisher ;  and  confirming  the  doc- 
trines of  our  Society;  that  it  is  a  dispensation  of  the  Spirit,  the 
life  and  power  of  the  dear  Son  of  God,  for  the  perfect  restora- 
tion of  fallen  man  to  the  heavenly  image,  and  unto  favor  and 
acceptance  with  his  gracious  and  most  merciful  Creator.  I  be- 
lieve the  hearts  of  many  were  touched  by  the  solemnizing  power 
of  our  holy  Head  and  Helper,  and  responded  to  the  truth  of  the 
doctrine  delivered.  The  meeting  closed  with  acknowledgments 
of  our  nothingness  and  unworthiness  ;  and  humble  supplication 
that  the  truths  of  the  gospel  might  be  fastened  by  Him,  who 
only  can  give  the  increase,  as  a  nail  in  a  sure  place ;  and  that 
his  protecting  power  might  be  round  about  us,  to  preserve  us 
f*om  the  snares  and  temptations  of  our  unwearied  enemy.  The 
people  shook  hands  with  me  very  respectfully ;  among  them 
were  some  zealous  Baptists. 

In  the  afternoon  we  went  to  Black  Water.  The  distance  be- 
ing twenty  miles,  it  admitted  of  but  very  short  time  for  notice 
of  a  meeting  with  them  next  day.  But  this,  like  all  other  meet- 
ings in  Virginia,  has  become  much  reduced  ;  three  or  four  fam- 
ilies only,  being  left  of  what  was  once  a  pretty  largo  meeting. 
We  met  with  the  little  company  and  a  few  descendants  of 
Friends.     I  was  led  to  speak  to   some  respecting  the  feeling 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  267 

which  they  were  brought  under,  in  the  midst  of  their  efforts 
to  obtain  happiness  from  worldly  enjoyments.      That  there  is 
at  times  a  longing  desire  in  the  soul  after  substantial  food  which 
none  of  those  earthly  delights  can  satisfy.     However  they  may 
be  pursued  with  avidity,  they  all  fail ;  leaving  the  soul  empty 
and  destitute  ;  often  followed  by  the  convictions  of  Divine  Grace, 
that  the  work  of  salvation  is  neglected,  and  these  delights  are 
leading  their  votary  in  the  broad  way  which  must  terminate  in 
destruction.     Some  of  this  description  were  earnestly  labored 
with,  to  arouse  them  to  a  sense  of  their  danger,  and  the  neces- 
sity of  giving  heed  to  the  warning  voice  of  the  Lord's  Holy 
Spirit  while  the  day  of  mercy  lasts.     There  were  a  few  exem- 
plary young  Friends  present,  to  whom  the  language  of  encour- 
agement was  extended,  to  dedicate  themselves  to  the  cause  of 
Christ ;  and  taking  his  yoke  upon  them,  openly  confess  Him 
before   men.     It   was   a  comfort   to   meet   with   such,   where 
the  Society  has  become  almost  extinct.     We  got  into  our  car- 
riage, and  rode  on  our  way  twenty  miles  towards  G-ravelly  Eun, 
eating  our  dinner  as  we  rode.     Finding  no  tavern,  we  went  to 
a  store,  hoping  that  the  person  who  kept  it  gave  entertainment 
to  travellers  for  pay.     On  inquiry  of  him,  he  said,  that  he  did 
not  keep  a  house  of  entertainment ;  but  as  it  was  cold,  and  nearly 
night,  he  insisted  upon  our  alighting ;  and  said  he  would  take 
the  best  care  of  us  and  of  our  horses  that  he  could.      Though 
it  was  not  pleasant  to  cast  ourselves  on  the  hospitality  of  a 
stranger,  not  of  our  own  religious  profession,  yet  the  lateness 
of  the  evening  and  the  frankness  of  the  man,  induced  us  to  stop 
with  him.     After  supper,  we  fell  into  conversation  on  water 
baptism,  and  a  hireling  ministry ;  in  which  the   young   man 
united  very  much  with  our  views,  and  condemned  the  sentiment 
that  water  baptism  is  essential  to  salvation,  and  that  none  are 
saved  without  it.     He  mentioned  that  he  had  heard  a  Quaker 
lady,  as  he  called  her,  preach  at  Fredericksburg,  last  spring  ;  and 
said  it  was  the  best  sermon  he  ever  heard  preached.     From  his 
account,  we  judged  it  to  have  been  our  friend  Elizabeth  Eobson, 
who  had  a  meeting  there  about  that  time.     This  shows  there  are 
often  useful  impressions  made  by  a  sound  gospel  ministry,  of 
which  we  have  no  knowledge,  and  when  we  maj^  not  suspect  it. 
We  got  upon  the  subject  of  slavery ;  in  which  also  he  apjDeared 
to  agree  with  us  in  sentiment ;  though,  he  said,  there  was  no 
disposition  among  the  slaveholders  to  abandon  it.     He  informed 


268  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

US  of  a  very  respectable  neighbor,  Daniel  Grant,  sometimes 
called  Dr.  Grant,  from  bis  kiud  attentions  and  prescriptions  for 
the  sick,  who  never  owned  nor  hired  a  slave.  He  has  raised 
thirteen  children,  seven  sons  and  six  daughters,  all  of  whom  are 
married  but  one ;  and  provided  for  them  by  his  own  laboi*,  and 
their  aid,  as  they  became  old  enough  to  work.  Our  host  stated 
that  one  evening  at  his  store,  where  a  number  of  the  neighbors 
met  to  obtain  their  papers  by  the  mail,  the  character  of  a  can- 
didate for  President  of  the  United  States  was  discussed,  and 
some  alleged  that  he  was  an  abolitionist.  Dr.  Grant  in  reply 
remarked,  that  slavery  was  a  sin.  They  cried  out  that  he  was  an 
abolitionist.  The  doctor  appealed  to  several  of  them  whether 
they  had  not  heard  their  own  fathers  say  that  it  is  a  sin ; 
which  they  admitted  they  had.  Well,  added  the  doctor,  if  be- 
lieving slavery  to  be  a  sin,  makes  me  an  abolitionist,  I  must  be 
an  abolitionist.  Though  heretofore  held  in  universal  esteem  by 
his  neighbors  and  acquaintance,  this  honest  avowal  of  his  opin- 
ion alienated  a  number  of  them  ;  but  without  altering  his  opinion 
or  practice.  His  sons  follow  the  example  of  their  venerable 
father,  who  is  now  about  seventy-five  years  old,  neither  owning 
nor  hiring  slaves ;  and  on  one  occasion  drew  upon  them  the  re- 
sentment of  their  associates,  for  uttei^ing  their  sentiments  relat- 
ing to  the  horrid  system  of  slavery.  Such  upright  independence, 
in  the  midst  of  inveterate  slaveholders,  is  worthy  of  record,  and 
is  highly  creditable  to  the  man,  who  has  the  moral  coui-age  to 
differ  from  his"' neighbors  on  a  subject  of  such  exciting  charac- 
ter ;  and  is  an  example  well  worthy  of  being  followed  and  held 
up  to  public  estimation.  The  doctor  is  regarded  as  a  prac- 
tical christian,  and  his  religious  tenets  as  consistent  with  the 
spiritual  nature  of  the  gospel. 

Our  hospitable  Virginian  entertained  us  very  comfortably, 
and  we  hoped  our  tannance  might  prove  mutually  advantage- 
ous ;  on  parting  the  invitation  was  given  to  repeat  our  calls 
whenever  we  travelled  that  road. 

23d.  We  resumed  our  carriage,  and  after  travelling  twenty- 
five  miles  through  almost  continued  rain,  we  got  to  J.  B.'s,  at 
Gravelly  Eun.  The  dark  and  rainy  weather  made  the  shelter 
of  his  commodious  and  well-secured  house,  and  our  friendly  re- 
ception, doubly  welcome.  As  there  arc  but  one  member,  and 
part  of  another  family,  besides  his  own,  who  constitute  the 
meeting  here,  we  had  them  invited  to  his  house  that  evening ; 

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but  the  storm  preventing  them  from  coming,  we  sat  down 
with  his  househokl  and  a  neighbor,  and  held  a  satisfactory 
meeting;  which,  I  believe,  was  encouraging  and  strengthen- 
ing, at  least  to  a  part  of  the  little  company.  On  our  way  to 
Petersburg,  next  morning,  we  called  upon  the  family  above  al- 
luded to,  and  had  a  religious  opportunity  with  them  ;  and  then 
proceeded  through  Petersburg  to  Eichmond.  My  thoughts  on 
the  road  were  much  occupied  with  home ;  and  reflecting  on  the 
great  uncertainty  of  time,  I  was  engrossed  with  the  idea  that 
I  might  not  find  all  my  dear  family  living ;  which  depressed  me 
much  ;  in  connection  with  the  reduced  condition  of  our  Society 
in  these  parts.  Such  reflections  introduce  the  mind  into  a  low 
state ;  in  which  the  consciousness  of  the  short  and  uncertain 
duration  of  temporal  enjoyments,  brings  the  end  of  all  things 
so  near  at  hand,  that  there  appears  to  be  but  little  space  be- 
tween us  and  death;  and  scarcely  anything  worth  living  for,  but 
to  prepare  for  that  awful  event.  The  force  of  these  views  went 
off  in  part  before  we  reached  Eichmond ;  and  I  thought,  j)er- 
haps,  they  were  preparatory  to  the  finishing  of  this  little  em- 
bassy ;  that  I  should  retire  from  the  field  under  a  proper  sense 
of  my  own  weakness  and  nothingness,  and  entire  dependence 
upon  the  gracious  Giver  of  every  good  and  perfect  gift,  for  all 
that  was  entrusted  to  me,  both  spiritual  and  temporal. 

It  was  my  intention  to  have  gone  to  Wain  Oak,  in  Charles 
City  County ;  but  on  being  informed  of  the  very  reduced  num- 
ber of  members,  and  that  it  was  probable  if  I  went  there,  with- 
out notice  being  first  sent,  I  should  find  no  one  at  their  first-day 
meeting;  on  deliberately  feeling  after  the  matter,  I  was  easy  to 
omit  going  ;  and  concluded  to  request  a  meeting  next  day  with 
Friends,  and  such  as  usually  meet  with  them,  in  Eichmond. 

A  little  company  met  on  seventh-day,  the  25th,  and  to  my 
admiration,  I  was  renewedly  qualified,  and  furnished  with 
matter  to  minister  to  their  states.  Man  was  created  to  be  the 
servant  of  Clod ;  to  love  and  serve  his  Almighty  Creator ;  and 
under  whatever  circumstance  he  maybe  placed,  it  is  practicable 
to  answer  the  design  of  Him  who  made  him,  by  obeying  the 
dictates  of  his  Holy  Spirit.  "  Thou  shalt  love  the  Lord  thy 
God  with  all  thy  heart,  and  with  all  thy  soul,  and  with  all  thy 
mind,  and  with  all  thy  strength  ;"  and  "Thou  shalt  love  thy 
neighbor  as  thyself"  There  were  some  present,  who  I  appre- 
hended, had  widely  departed  from  the  Divine  law,  and  from 


270  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS. 

loving  and  serving  God  ;  and  ability  was  furnished  to  plead  with 
these  to  turn  at  his  reproofs,  that  they  may  be  raised  into  the 
dignity  and  nobility  which  man  was  designed  for;  being  created 
a  little  lower  than  the  angels,  and  crowned  with  glory  and  honor. 
Others,  Avho  had  in  measure  seen  the  beauty  of  the  Truth, 
were  called  upon  to  come  forth  and  confess  Christ,  in  the  midst 
of  a  crooked  and  perverse  generation. 

The  few  Friends  in  this  city  are  much  exposed  to  an  influence 
very  unfavorable  to  the  growth  of  vital  religion.  To  be  enabled 
to  labor  faithfully  for  their  help,  was  a  little  evidence  that  Di- 
vine goodness  was  still  watching  over  them,  and  I  left  the  city 
with  a  peaceful  and  thankful  heart.  Having  about  twenty -one 
miles  to  ride,  we  hastened  away,  taking  something  with  us  to 
eat  on  the  I'oad,  and  by  diligent  ti'avelling,  we  got  to  our  friend 
N.  C.'s  before  dark  :  who,  with  his  family,  received  and  enter- 
tained us  with  their  wonted  kindness  and  hospitality. 

On  first-day,  we  attended  Cedar  Creek  Meeting ;  a  consider- 
able part  of  the  company  not  appearing  to  be  members.  The 
subject  brought  before  me,  was  the  fruit  of  the  Christian  re- 
ligion, where  it  was  really  prevailing,  as  contained  in  the  com- 
mand of  the  Saviour.  "A  new  command  I  give  unto  you,  that 
ye  love  one  another;  as  I  have  loved  you,  that  ye  also  love  one 
another."  In  this  love,  Christ  left  the  bosom  of  the  Father; 
came,  not  to  be  ministered  unto,  but  to  minister,  and  to  give 
his  life  a  ransom  for  many.  He  came  not  as  a  great,  earthly 
prince,  but  in  the  form  of  a  servant ;  and  made  Himself  of  no 
reputation.  His  spirit  and  his  religion  divest  man  of  selfish- 
ness ;  lead  him  to  feel  for  the  sufterings  of  his  fellow  creatures; 
and  to  regard  every  man  as  his  brother ;  to  feed  the  hungry, 
clothe  the  naked,  visit  the  sick  and  those  in  prisons ;  agreeable 
to  Christ's  declaration  when  speaking  of  the  different  rewards 
of  those  who  do  so,  and  those  who  do  not.  The  states  of  some 
who  were  bringing  forth  the  fruits  of  darkness,  and  seeking 
their  selfish  gratifications,  whatever  may  be  the  sufferings  they 
Itring  upon  others,  were  closely  spoken  to,  and  they  labored 
with,  to  persuade  them  to  yield  to  the  heavenly  convictions  of 
the  grace  of  God  in  their  hearts. 

After  dinner  we  walked  over  to  L.  C.'s,  to  visit  his  aged  mother ; 
where  I  had  an  opportunity  with  several  of  the  members,  to 
urge  them  to  increased  zeal  and  faithfulness  in  keeping  up  their 


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religious  meetings.      But  the  state  of  this  meeting  looks  dis- 
couraging. 

A  considerable  freshet  in  the  streams,  made  it  necessary  to 
ride  several  miles  to  cross  a  bridge  over  the  South  Anna  Eiver, 
to  get  into  the  neighborhood  of  Caroline  Meeting ;  which  we 
reached  on  second-day  afternoon,  the  27th;  and  the  following 
morning  had  a  meeting  with  the  few  members  and  others  ;  in 
which  the  importance  of  rightly  occupying  the  time  and  talents 
committed  to  our  trust,  was  enforced  upon  some;  and  prayer 
was  offered  for  the  continued  aid  and  protection  of  our  Heavenly 
Father;  that  we  might  be  preseiwed  in  humility,  and  delivered 
from  the  snares  and  temptations  by  which  a  cruel  enemy  would 
seek  to  lay  waste  and  destroy,  even  those  who  had  made  a  good 
confession  before  men,  of  the  blessed  Truth.  We  returned  to 
our  lodgings,  and  in  the  evening  had  a  little  religious  commu- 
nication to  our  hostess,  her  son  and  her  sister  ;  referring  to  the 
love  and  kindness  which  our  Lord  showed  to  Martha  and  Mary, 
and  their  brother  Lazarus ;  and  which  I  believed  He  would  still 
manifest  to  others,  who  sought  unto  Him,  and  sincerely  loved 
Him  ;  encouraging  them  to  attend  their  meeting,  and  to  seek 
retirement  before  the  Lord  at  home,  that  their  spiritual  strength 
might  be  renewed. 

29th.  Took  an  affectionate  leave  of  our  friends,  and  rode  to 
Fredericksburg  ;  where  we  found  the  nephew  of  my  companion, 
waiting  to  take  charge  of  the  cai'riage  and  horses ;  which  we 
put  on  board  the  steamboat  the  following  morning,  and  reached 
"Washington  in  the  evening. 

3lst.  Rose  early,  and  taking  the  car  at  six  o'clock,  we  got  to 
Baltimore  a  few  minutes  after  eight ;  breakfasted,  and  again 
entered  the  cars  for  Philadelphia,  which  we  reached  about  four 
o'clock  ;  and  were  gladly  I'eceived  by  our  beloved  families  and 
friends ;  having  been  absent  exactly  fifteen  weeks,  and  travelled 
about  twenty-two  hundred  and  forty  miles.  Home  was  exceed- 
ingly grateful,  and  my  mind  being  favored  with  calm  and  peace- 
ful feelings,  it  seemed  as  if  the  time  since  I  left  it  had  been 
but  a  few  days.  For  all  the  mercies  of  our  gracious  Caretaker, 
in  preserving  us  fi-om  sickness  and  serious  casualty ;  and,  from 
season  to  season,  granting  renewed  ability  for  the  work  where- 
unto  He  had  appointed  us,  may  my  soul  be  kept  in  deep  pros- 
tration before  Him;  and  in  humility  and  fear ;  relying  on  his 
Holy  Spirit  to  put  forth  afresh,  when  He  shall  see  meet,  and 


272  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

■while  He  shuts,  not  daring  to  open ;  ascribing  unto  Him,  the 
Lord  God,  and  to  the  Lamb,  all  glory  and  honor,  salvation  and 
strength,  which  is  alone  due  to  liis  everlastingly  worthy,  holy 
name. 

1842.  After  returning  from  North  Carolina,  I  was  much  at 
home,  and  passed  through  dispensations  of  poverty  of  spirit ; 
in  which  my  faith  at  times  was  put  to  a  close  test.  There  were 
also  trials  arising  out  of  the  state  of  our  religious  Society,  and 
the  disposition  of  some  to  indulge  in  a  party  and  censoriouB 
spirit.  But  under  all  these  afflictions  there  is  a  secret  support, 
and  in  the  Lord's  time,  way  is  made  to  show  ourselves  on  his 
side;  and  that  He  can  grant  deliverance  from  bonds  and  im- 
prisonment, and  furnish  qualification  to  testify  of  his  mercy  and 
goodness. 

In  the  Second  month,  I  attended  Concord  Quarterly  Meeting, 
in  which  I  was  livingly  qualified  to  preach  the  gospel ;  and  my 
dear  wife  followed  in  reverent,  fervent  supplication.  The  way 
also  opened,  in  the  Meeting  for  Discipline,  for  further  service,  to 
the  encouragement  of  Pricnds  in  the  support  of  our  Christian 
testimonies. 

At  our  Meeting  for  Sufferings  in  the  Third  month,  a  commit- 
tee was  appointed  to  prepare  an  epistle  to  the  Meeting  for  Suf- 
ferings in  London ;  and  it  being  believed,  that  it  would  be 
proper  to  call  the  attention  of  the  latter  to  the  practice  of  allow- 
ing their  members  to  write,  print  and  publish  works  on  our 
religious  principles,  without  proper  examination  by  an  author- 
ized body,  the  matter  was  discussed  in  the  committee,  and  a  few 
Friends  appointed  to  draft  an  essay.  The  introduction  of  works 
into  this  country,  containing  sentiments  not  in  accordance  with 
the  doctrines  which  the  Society  has  held  and  promulgated  from 
the  beginning,  was  mentioned.  The  epistle  being  prepared,  was 
very  fully  approved,  both  in  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  and  in 
the  Yearly  Meeting.  rl 

Samuel  Bettle  and  myself  having  been  appointed  by  our  Quar- 
terly Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders,  to  attend  the  Select  Pi-e- 
parative  Meeting  of  Muucy,  we  took  the  railroad  cars  on 
second-day,  the  18th  of  the  Seventh  month,  and  that  evening 
reached  Danville,  one  hundred  and  twenty-six  miles  from  Phil- 
adelphia. The  weather  was  very  warm,  and  riding  in  a  crowded 
stage,  part  of  the  distance  from  Pottsville,  over  the  mountains, 
was  very  oppressive.     Hero  we  were  met  on  third-day  morn- 


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ing,  by  Andrew  Eves,  Jr.,  who  took  us  to  his  father's ;  and  in 
the  aftenioon  we  sat  with  the  Fi-iends;  and  next  day  attended 
their  Monthly  Meeting.  The  neglect  to  send  representatives, 
and  somelimes  to  forward  the  reports  in  time,  were  the  occasion 
of  our  appointment ;  on  which  points,  we  endeavored  to  stir  up 
and  encourage  Friends  to  greater  care  and  faithfulness.  Both 
of  us  were  engaged  on  fourth-day,  in  the  ministry,  and  also  in 
advising  Friends  on  86me  matters  which  were  brought  into 
view.  There  is  a  painful  state  of  indolence  in  some ;  but  we 
were  encouraged  by  the  hope,  that  among  the  young  Friends, 
there  is  an  increasing  attachment  to  the  Society  and  its  testi- 
monies ;  and  that  some  of  them  are  preparing  for  usefulness  in 
the  church.  We  had  a  religious  opportunity  at  the  house  of 
David  Masters,  with  part  of  his  family,  and  other  Friends  pre- 
sent ;  and  leaving  there  on  fifth-day,  lodged  at  Danville,  and. 
arrived  at  our  homes,  sixth-day  evening,  satisfied,  with  this  little 
act  of  dedication. 

Eighth  month  10th.  I  went  to  Woodbury,  and  attended 
Salem  Quarterly  Meeting  held  there.  After  the  Select  Meeting, 
dined  and  took  tea  at  Joseph  Whitall's,  who  was  in  a  frail,  dis- 
eased state.  Very  few  have  passed  through  more  trials  than 
he  has ;  in  which  he  has  been  an  excellent  example ;  as  well  as 
in  his  undeviating  faithfulness  to  the  doctrines  and  testimonies 
of  Friends.  When  it  shall  please  the  Head  of  the  church  to  re- 
move him  from  a  militant  to  a  triumphant  state,  the  Quarterly 
and  Monthly  Meeting,  of  which  he  is  a  valuable  member,  will 
■greatly  miss  him,  as  a  father  and  counseller  among  them. 

I  felt  very  poor  and  unfit  for  anything  in  the  meeting  on  fifth- 
day  ;  but  the  power  of  Truth  finally  seemed  to  prevail,  and  I 
hope  some  were  aroused  to  a  fresh  sense  of  the  necessity  of 
working  out  their  salvation,  with  fear  and  trembling ;  and  that 
the  desponding,  mournful  ones,  who  have  many  burdens  to  bear, 
were  a  little  encouraged  and  revived. 

Ninth  month  16th.  Was  held  our  Meeting  for  Sufferings  ;  in 
•which  the  subject  of  slavery,  and  the  disabilities  under  which  the 
colored  people  are  placed,  occupied  much  of  the  time  of  the 
meeting,  particularly  as  regards  the  State  of  Delaware. 


274  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 


CHAPTEE   XI  y. 

Second  Religious  Visit  within  the  Limits  of  Ohio  Yearly  Meeting, 
1842—1843. 

On  the  10th  of  Eleventh  month,  1842,  I  left  my  comfortable 
home^  and  tenderly  beloved  wife  and  children,  and  took  passage 
in  the  public  line  of  cars  and  stages  for  AVheeling  ;  for  the  pur- 
pose of  paying  a  religious  visit  to  the  meetings  composing  Ohio 
Yearly  Meeting;  for  which,  I  obtained  a  certificate  of  the  unity 
of  the  Monthly  Meeting,  and  an  indorsement  of  the  Quarterly 
Meeting.  The  general  expression  of  approbation  and  desire  for 
my  encouragement  was  strengthening,  and  raised  the  hope  that 
the  proposed  movement  was  right.  I  had  been  much  shut  up, 
for  several  weeks,  and  stripped  of  all  ability  to  engage  in  any 
good  word  or  work ;  under  which  dispensation,  I  endeavored 
to  abide  with  patience  ;  though  at  times  assailed  with  fears, 
whether  I  was  not  mistaken  in  my  prospect ;  yet  at  times  light 
would  shine  on  those  distant  meetings.  The  difficxtlty  of  leaving 
my  temporal  concerns,  on  which  my  living  chiefly  depended,  in 
the  hands  of  apprentice  boys;  and  the  solitary  situation  of  my 
family,  all,  at  times,  came  over  me  with  force;  inducing  the  en- 
quiry, whether  it  was  my  duty,  as  a  parent  and  provider,  to 
leave  them  in  this  way.  But  I  believed  it  right  to  commit  them 
to  the  tender  care  and  protection  of  our  Heavenly  Father,  and 
endeavor  in  fear  and  lowliness  of  mind,  to  do  his  will. 

We  reached  Baltimore  in  the  afternoon ;  lodged  there,  and 
took  the  cars  next  morning  for  Cumberland,  one  hundred  and 
seventy-eight  miles  by  railroad,  from  Baltimore  ;  and  at  about 
eight  o'clock  in  the  evening,  got  into  the  stage  for  Brownsville  ; 
rode  all  night  through  the  Allegheny  Mountains,  in  snow  and 
rain,  and  drove  into  Brownsville  about  twelve  o'clock  next  day. 

Wo  had  for  our  fellow  passengers  in  the  stage,  five  or  six  low, 
profane  slaveholders ;  whose  depraved  spirits,  and  vulgar  lan- 
guage, were  very  unpleasant  and  annoying.  But  taking  no  no- 
tice of  them,  they  discovered  wo  were  not  like  themselves,  and 
finally,  they  ceased  talking.  After  breakfast,  some  remarks 
were  made  on  the  subject  of  farming,  which  led  to  the  effects 


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of  slavery  upon  the  state  of  the  country  in  the  Southern  States  ; 
and  the  irrationality  of  a  man  keeping  forty  or  fifty  slaves, 
while  he  could  make  little  more  than  a  bare  living  with  them ; 
which,  with  proper  industry,  he  could  do,  without  them.  It 
fvas  taking  on  him  the  care  of  persons  who  could  take  cai'e  of 
themselves,  and  without  whom  he  could  make  out  to  live  as 
vvell.  "  Ah  but,"  said  one  of  the  company,  "there  are  the  young 
niggers  ;  he  can  sell  one  of  them  once  in  awhile  and  live  on 
that."  I  answered,  I  should  not  like  to  subsist  on  human  flesh. 
This  roused  them  up,  to  defend  their  dark  and  unrighteous  sys- 
tem ;  in  doing  which,  they  could  offer  little,  except  that  the 
free  blacks,  and  many  whites,  were  not  as  well  provided  for  as 
the  slaves ;  which  in  some  cases  might  be  true,  but  was  not  so 
to  any  great  extent.  Moreover,  the  latter  have  their  liberty, 
and  are  al>le  to  exercise  their  right  to  labor  where  they  please ; 
and  even  those  who  have  to  labor  hard,  very  often  live  upon  the 
best  food,  though  at  the  expense  of  frugality  and  economy. 

At  BrowTisville,  a  Friend  offered  to  take  us  out  to  Sewickly 
Meeting;  and  leaving  our  baggage,  we  rode  to  our  aged  friend's, 
Samuel  Cope,  at  Providence,  eight  miles,  and  were  heartily  re- 
ceived. The  road  being  wet  and  hilly,  we  rose  early  and  were 
about  five  hours  riding  to  Sewickly,  sixteen  miles ;  where  we 
attended  their  first-day  meeting.  Some  ability  was  granted  to 
labor  for  arousing  the  careless,  and  negligent,  and  the  trans- 
gressor; and  the  language  of  encouragement  was  offered  to  the 
sincere-hearted,  and  to  the  young  people,  to  come  under  the 
yoke  of  Christ.  We  dined  at  G.  Gr.'s,  who  appears  to  be  a  well- 
concerned  Friend ;  and  lodged  at  his  brother  B.Gr.'s.  In  the  morn- 
ing, I  had  a  tendering  communication  to  his  aged  and  weakly 
mother  and  her  sister;  in  which  they  were  recommended  to  the 
mercy  of  our  Heavenly  Father,  extended  to  poor,  sinful  man, 
through  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ ;  and  exhorted  to  labor  to  draw 
near  to  the  footstool  of  Divine  Grace,  that  they  may  be  pre- 
pared to  partake  of  his  pardoning  mercy,  and  in  the  awful  close 
experience  acceptance  through  Him.  We  were  all  affected 
together  to  tears,  under  a  renewed  feeling  of  the  Lord's  good- 
ness and  compassion. 

Set  off  in  a  shower  of  rain,  and  got  to  D.  C.'s  ;  dined,  and 
went  to  a  meeting  appointed  at  two  o'clock,  at  Providence ;  in 
which,  after  inwai'd,  solid  waiting,  the  power  of  Christ  spread 
over  us ;  and  the  humble-hearted,  visited  children,  were  encour- 


276  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

aged  to  increased  devotedness  to  the  Lord  and  his  cause  ;  and  I 
trust  the  burden-beai'crs  were  comforted.  Samuel  Cope  asked 
me,  in  the  evening,  whether  I  did  riglit  in  limiting  the  invita- 
tion to  Friends,  and  those  who  usually  attended  their  meetings  ; 
but  it  appeai-ed  to  me  that  my  concern  was  principally  to 
strengthen,  as  ability  may  be  granted,  our  own  flock,  and  to 
turn  transgressors  among  us,  to  the  saving  power  of  Divine 
Grace.  In  the  evening,  Samuel  Cope's  sons  and  their  wives 
being  present,  I  had  an  opportunity  with  them;  and  labored  to 
impress  them  with  the  responsibility  of  their  station  as  parents, 
and  the  importance  of  rightly  exampling  their  children,  and  re- 
straining them  from  wrong  things  ;  so  that,  as  far  as  in  our 
power,  we  may  be  instrumental  in  preparing  the  ground  of  the 
heart,  for  the  seed  of  the  kingdom  ;  when  the  good  Husbandman 
shall  see  proper  to  sow  it  there.  It  was  a  heart-tendering  time, 
and  the  aged  Friends  seemed  comforted. 

15th,  Third-day  morning.  Had  an  appointed  meeting  at 
Centre ;  in  which  the  Master  furnished  matter,  adapted  to  the 
different  states.  I  was  low  and  weak  ;  but  keeping  down  to  the 
Seed  of  life,  I  was  enabled  to  minister,  so  as  to  reach  the  wit- 
ness in  some,  and  experience  peace  in  my  own  bosom.  The 
state  of  one,  to  whom  I  was  a  stranger,  a  Friend  said  afterwards, 
was  particularly  described.  This  was  a  little  encouraging ; 
having  many  fears  lest  I  should  be  deserted  of  my  gracious 
Master.  We  dined  with  the  sister  of  D.  M.,  a  widow^,  and  rode 
home  with  him,  and  were  kindly  received  by  his  wife. 

16th.  Attended  their  usual  meeting  at  Brownsville,  which  was 
not  so  animating  and  comforting  as  some  others.  A  want  of 
faithfulness  seemed  to  have  brought  weakness  over  some ;  and 
when  plain  things  arose  to  deliver,  the  separatists  being  in 
meeting,  on  the  other  side  of  the  pai'tition,  made  it  embarrassing 
to  communicate ;  and  I  labored  along  rather  heavily.  But  the 
doctrines  of  the  gospel,  and  the  use  and  authority  of  the  Holy 
Scriptures,  were  plainly  held  up  and  enforced. 

In  going  from  house  to  house,  there  is  a  difference  in  our  feel- 
ings. In  some  a  sense  of  oppression  is  felt,  in  which  we  cannot 
breathe  as  in  a  pure  atmosphere.  This  is  a  source  of  exercise, 
and  we  have  need  to  keep  inwai'd  to  the  Master;  that  if  any- 
thing is  given  to  hand  to  them,  it  may  be  done  faithfully,  and 
yet  in  the  spirit  of  love,  and  sincere  desire  for  their  help.  In 
other  families;    particularly   those   of  young,   tender-spirited 


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Friends,  who  love  the  Truth,  and  desire  to  be  faithful  to  their 
Lord  and  Master,  the  spirits  of  the  true  travellers  for  the  pros- 
perity of  Zion,  are  more  at  liberty  ;  and  it  is  a  strength  to  be 
in  the  company  of  this  description. 

We  took  stage  in  the  afternoon  and  rode  to  Wheeling  ;  where 
we  arrived  about  three  o'clock  in  the  morning.  One  of  the  pas- 
sengers seemed  disposed  to  talk  on  political  subjects,  and  I  re- 
marked to  him  that  I  thought  the  Grovernment  better  employed 
in  making  such  roads  as  we  were  riding  over,  and  in  other  im- 
provements, for  the  benefit  of  the  county,  than  in  building  forts 
and  vessels  of  war.  He  then  argued  in  favor  of  self-defence ; 
said  he  would  defend  himself  and  family  if  assailed  by  a  person 
who  would  destroy  life,  if  he  was  not  killed.  I  told  him  I  could 
not  tell  what  I  would  do  in  such  an  emergency ;  but  I  believed 
.it  would  be  wrong  to  take  the  life  of  a  fellow  creature  under 
any  circumstance ;  that  it  would  be  best  to  put  our  trust  in 
Divine  Providence,  and  relying  on  Him,  suffer  death  rather  than 
destroy  the  life  of  a  human  being.  But  I  believed  his  care  was 
remarkably  extended  to  those  who  confided  in  Him.  That  this 
was  exemplified  in  the  civil  wars  in  Ireland;  where  Friends 
were  exposed  to  the  violence  of  the  banditti,  like  others ;  but  of 
whom  none  were  destroyed  except  two,  who  took  up  guns  to 
defend  themselves.  And  while  William  Penn  and  his  friends 
held  the  government  of  Pennsylvania,  there  was  no  war  with 
the  natives  ;  but  in  other  colonies,  there  Avas  much  destruction 
on  both  sides.  1  also  remarked,  that  when  the  children  of  Is- 
rael served  the  Lord,  they  were  preserved  in  peace ;  but  when 
they  worshipped  idols,  the  defence  was  withdrawn,  and  their 
enemies,  who  had  been  in  peace  with  them,  came  in  and  re- 
duced them  to  servitude.  More  of  this  confidence  in  providen- 
tial protection  was  needed  in  this  country ;  but  by  placing  our 
dependence  in  our  institutions,  and  the  right  of  suffrage,  we  may 
be  disappointed  ;  as  we  had  been  already.  He  united  in  part 
with  my  sentiments,  but  advocated  self-defence. 

We  retired,  being  fatigued,  and  found  ourselves  refreshed  by 
a  few  hours'  rest.  The  profanity  of  persons  in  and  about  the 
hotel,  made  it  feel  to  me  a  dark  and  wicked  place  to  be  in.  It 
seemed  as  if  many  were  utterly  reckless  of  religion,  morality 
and  character ;  and  were  given  up  to  their  depraved  passion  a 
and  propensities.  To  be  thrown  in  such  society  is  very  distress- 
19 


278  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

ing.  The  next  morning,  the  18th,  we  went  on  to  Mt.  Pleasant 
Boarding  School. 

18th.  I  attended  the  Select  Quarterly  Meeting ;  my  mind 
being  encompassed  with  fears  in  relation  to  myself,  and  the 
journey  before  me.  Towards  the  close  of  the  meeting,  under  an 
apprehension  that  the  defection  of  some  w^hich  had  occasioned 
the  acknowledgment  of  a  want  of  unity  in  one  branch,  required 
the  exercise  of  faith  and  patience,  and  a  willingness  to  endure 
suffering,  I  thought  it  right  to  revive  the  exhortation  of  our 
Lord  to  His  disciples,  "  In  your  patience  possess  ye  your  souls," 
and  to  express  the  belief  that  patience  was  a  necessary  lesson 
to  learn ;  that  it  was  not  only  a  means  of  our  preservation,  but 
through  suffering,  victory  and  dominion  over  wrong  spirits  was 
often  obtained.  Dear  William  Wood,  in  his  eighty-fifth  year, 
said  he  thought  he  had  never  been  more  tempted  to  take  flight 
in  the  winter  season,  than  he  had  been  for  some  months  past. 

19th.  Seventh-day.  AYent  to  Short  Creek  Quarterly  Meeting. 
Two  Friends  spoke  in  the  ministry ;  which  I  was  readj^  to  con- 
clude might  be  all  that  was  required  in  that  meeting  ;  but  when 
near  time  to  close  the  partitions,  I  was  afraid  to  leave  the  meet- 
ing without  reviving  the  expressions  of  our  Lord,  "  The  life  is 
;nore  than  meat,  and  the  body  than  raiment."  In  a  spiritual 
sense,  it  is  of  little  moment  what  food  the  Shepherd  and  Bishop 
of  souls  appoints  to  nourish  and  sustain  the  spiritual  life.  lie 
knows  what  is  best  for  us  ;  and  though  He  may  appoint  strip- 
ping and  poverty,  and  deep  suifering  for  his  children,  it  is  our 
duty  and  interest  to  submit  with  cheerfulness ;  and  in  this  con- 
dition, wait  upon  Him  until  he  sees  fit  to  change  the  dispensa- 
tion. The  fruit-bearing  branches  are  to  be  purged,  that  they 
may  bring  forth  more  fruit  to  the  praise  of  the  Great  Husband- 
man. Our  dependence  is  to  be  individually  on  the  Head  of  the 
Church ;  every  one  in  his  place  and  allotment  in  the  body  w\ait- 
ing  upon  Him  and  not  on  man,  and  faithfully  acting  as  He  puts 
forth.  This  will  not  destroy  the  honor  and  esteem  due  to  those 
of  greater  experience  ;  but  all  being  baptized  by  the  same  Spirit 
into  one  body,  they  being  banded  together  in  the  unity  and 
fellowship  of  the  gospel,  will  render  to  each  other  the  love  and 
respect  that  is  due;  and  thus  would  be  like  the  church  coming  out 
of  the  wilderness,  fair  as  the  moon,  clear  as  the  sun,  and  terrible 
as  an  army  with  banners. 

On  first-day  I  was  at  the  meeting  in  the  large  house;  a  small 


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company,  amongst  whom  I  was  engaged  to  labor  in  the  love 
of  the  gospel ;  especially  with  some  who  had  chosen  their  own 
way ;  in  order  to  show  them  that  it  is  not  in  man  that  walketh 
to  direct  his  own  steps ;  and  the  difficulties  and  perplexities  in 
which  such  involve  themselves,  often  not  being  permitted  to 
acquire  what  they  are  grasping  after ;  or  when  they  do,  they 
cannot  draw  that  comfort  and  happiness  which  they  have 
anticipated  from  their  worldly  schemes  and  pursuits.  But  a 
good  man's  steps  are  ordered  of  the  Lord,  and  he  has  not  only 
the  reward  of  true  peace,  but  has  the  true  enjoyment  of  the 
outward  gifts  of  a  beneticent  Providence.  The  dignity  of  the 
true  Christian  was  brought  into  view,  as  a  member  of  the 
mystical  body  of  Christ;  described  by  John,  the  beloved  dis- 
ciple, as  a  woman  clothed  with  the  sun ;  having  the  moon 
under  her  feet ;  all  terrestrial,  changeable  objects  in  subjection 
to  Christ,  the  Sun  >f  righteousness.  After  sitting  down,  the 
pointing  to  vocal  pra}' er  came  over  me  ;  and  in  fear  I  ventured 
to  bow  the  knee  before  the  Most  High ;  and  to  ask  of  Him, 
who  knows  our  infirmities,  to  grant  preservation  to  the  end 
of  our  days ;  and  in  his  mercy  to  toiich  with  the  finger  of  his 
love,  the  hearts  of  some  who  had  wandered  from  the  path  of 
rectitude.  A  Friend,  who  accompanied  me  to  the  meeting, 
remarked,  as  we  walked  away,  that  William  Penn  told  J.  Rich- 
ardson he  thought  he  might  now  be  cheerful ;  but  I  replied,  it 
is  best  to  keep  low  and  on  our  guard ;  for  I  was  afraid  of  any- 
thing like  getting  from  under  the  reduced  condition  I  was  in. 

A  Friend  kindly  offering  to  take  me  to  Smithfield,  we  set  off 
in  the  afternoon,  and  next  day  attended  the  Monthly  Meeting. 
Here  I  was  painfully  affected  with  the  feeling  that  some  who  had 
known  something  of  the  visitations  of  Grace,  had  not  kept  their 
first  love ;  to  whom  I  was  led  to  apply  the  text  given  by  our 
Lord,  "Every  one  that  doeth  evil  hateth  the  light,  neither 
Cometh  to  the  light,  lest  his  deeds  should  be  reproved ;  but  he 
that  doeth  truth  cometh  to  the  light,  that  his  deeds  may  be  made 
manifest  that  they  are  wrought  in  God."  I  believe  there  was 
ability  to  reach  the  states  of  some,  and  to  hold  up  to  others  the 
importance  of  standing  upright  in  maintaining  the  testimonies 
of  the  gospel :  that  a  plumb,  upright  pillar,  though  small,  would 
bear  much  weight ;  but  if  it  leaned  either  way,  it  was  likely  to 
fall  and  bring  down  what  rested  upon  it.  "We  dined  with  our 
aged  friend  Wm.  Wood,  who  was  kept  from  meeting  by  indis- 


880  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

position  ;  afterwards  called  on  a  few  Friends,  and  in  one  family, 
had  a  tendering  communication  on  the  necessity  of  being  re- 
deemed from  the  world,  and  showing  our  gratitude  for  the  out- 
ward blessings  conferred  upon  us,  by  dedication  to  our  Heav- 
enly Father ;  and  thus  become  qualified  to  example  and  train  the 
children  in  the  nurture  and  admonition  of  the  Lord.  Third-day 
morning  rode  back  to  Short  Creek,  and  was  at  their  Monthly 
Meeting ;  in  which  I  was  silent, 

My  friend  N.  H.,  having  agreed  to  take  mo  in  his  carriage 
to  some  meetings,  we  rode  to  11.  C.'s  and  lodged.  Next  morning 
attended  Plainfield  Monthly  Meeting;  a  small  company  of 
Friends ;  some  of  whom,  I  feared,  had  been  more  concerned  to 
lay  up  treasure  on  earth,  than  for  the  right  maintenance  of  the 
cause  of  Truth.  Many  who  settled  in  this  country  when  land 
was  low  in  price,  have  through  industry,  and  the  advance  in  the 
value  of  it,  become  comparatively  rich ;  and,  it  is  to  be  feared, 
have  not  increased  in  heavenlj"  treasure. 

24th.  Attending  Flushing  Monthly  Meeting,  a  pretty  large 
company  of  Friends,  I  was  exceedingly  stripped,  and  the  fear 
of  being  left  to  myself,  wnth  which  I  have  been  unusually  tried 
on  this  journey,  came  over  me j  but  I  determined  to  strive  to 
draw  near  to  the  Master,  and  t'do  nothing  without  his  bidding; 
and  after  a  time,  the  direction  of  the  prophet,  to  bring  empty 
vessels  not  a  few,  was  presented,  with  an  intimation  to  rise  with 
it.  By  keeping  low,  to  the  gentle  openings  of  Divine  life,  I  was 
enabled  to  preach  the  gospel ;  and  the  power  of  Truth  rose  and 
spread  over  the  meeting.  The  humble  traveller  was  encour- 
aged not  to  be  alarmed  with  seasons  of  poverty  and  emptiness, 
when  the  Master  withheld  the  manifestation  of  his  presence, 
and  there  seemed  not  the  least  capacity  to  attain  to  any  good  ; 
but  patiently  abiding  here.  He  will  reward  these  sooner  or  later, 
with  the  smiles  of  his  approbation,  and  renew^  their  spiritual 
strength.  I  was  humbly  thankful  for  the  evidence  which  He 
condescended  to  give,  that  He  had  not  forsaken  me ;  and  de- 
sired to  be  more  given  up  to  endure  whatever  He  sees  j)roper 
for  my  good.  I  know  that  I  cannot  bear  much  favor,  but  often 
need  8tripi)ing  ;  and  if  I  am  but  kept  in  the  life,  and  from  utter- 
ing words  without  the  power,  so  that  the  living  may  savor  it, 
and  the  negligent  be  quickened,  it  is  enough,  with  his  approba- 
bation. 

The  ground  was  now  covered  with  snow,  the  weather  cold, 


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and  having  nine  or  ten  miles  to  ride  after  the  meeting,  we  did 
not  get  off  till  near  four  o'clock,  nor  reach  Smyrna  until  some 
time  after  dark.  The  country  is  very  hilly,  and  we  had  some 
roads  to  pass  over  which  were  dangerous  in  the  dark ;  being  cut 
out  of  the  sides  of  steep  and  deep  precipices ;  where  a  little  de- 
viation from  the  track  might  plunge  us  into  great  ravines.  But 
by  slow,  careful  driving,  we  got  on  safely,  and  were  glad  to 
shelter  ourselves  under  a  Friend's  roof,  where  hospitality  was 
freely  bestowed. 

25th.  To-day  we  had  two  appointed  meetings ;  the  first  near 
Freeport ;  in  which  more  Scripture  passages  were  brought  to 
remembrance  than  is  common  in  my  ministry.  I  thought  it 
might  be  for  the  instruction  of  some,  and  for  the  reproof  of 
others,  who  were  active  in  outward,  religious  performances, 
while  their  hearts  and  their  conduct,  at  other  times,  were  incon- 
sistent with  the  Gospel.  To  some  of  these  the  doctrine  de- 
livered, was  close  and  pointed.  Before  leaving  the  house  where 
we  dined,  I  had  a  sympathetic  communication  to  the  Friend, 
who  appeared  to  me,  to  be  an  exercised  woman  and  under  trial. 

We  then  rode  to  Guernsey  Meeting,  appointed  at  two  o'clock, 
which  was  a  large  company ;  mainly  plain  people.  It  was  an 
exercising  time;  the  great  prevalence  of  a  worldly  spirit  ob- 
structing the  stream  of  consolation.  It  seemed  as  if  some  had 
made  gold  their  god;  which  makes  hard  work ;  such  being  much 
out  of  the  I'each  of  instrumental  labor.  We  rode  to  J.  B.'s  and 
lodged,  and  the  following  morning  rose  early,  and  at  daj'break, 
set  off  for  Stillwater.  At  this  meeting  some  ability  was  received 
to  labor  among  them  in  the  love  of  the  Gospel. 

27th.  First-day.  Had  a  little  opportunity  with  the  family 
where  we  staid ;  in  which  the  necessity  of  religious  care,  in 
exampling  the  children,  and  laboring  to  restrain  them  from 
wrong  things,  and  to  have  their  wills  subjected,  while  young, 
were  brought  into  view.  Eode  to  Captina  Meeting;  a  little  com- 
pany. The  exhortation  of  the  Apostle  to  one  of  the  professing 
churches,  "  Examine  yourselves  whether  ye  be  in  the  faith  ; 
prove  your  ownselves ;  know  ye  not  your  ownselves,  how  that 
Jesus  Christ  is  in  you,  except  ye  be  reprobates  ?"  came  before  me. 
I  reminded  the  company,  that  it  is  equally  necessary  for  us  at 
this  day  to  do  this,  as  it  was  for  them.  If  we  are  in  the  true 
faith,  Jesus  Christ  is  dwelling  and  reigning  in  our  hearts  by  his 
Spirit,  and  we  are  not  in  the  reprobate  state.     Two  kinds  of 


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faith  were  brought  to  view ;  one  of  which  He  is  the  author, 
in  which  we  have  dominion  and  victory  over  sin.  The  other  is 
of  our  OAvn  devising,  and  leaves  man  in  his  sins.  The  people 
were  admonished  not  to  rely  upon  a  mere  belief  in  the  doctrines 
of  religion  ;  without  coming  to  Christ,  and  receiving  faith  from 
Him,  that  would  enable  them  to  overcome  temptation  and  sin. 
The  meeting  was  closed  with  supplication.  In  the  afternoon, 
went  to  J.  Edgerton's,  who  was  absent  on  a  religious  visit,  and 
spent  a  short  time  with  his  wife  and  children,  with  whom  we 
had  a  religious  opportunity. 

29th.  Second-day.  Attended  Somerset  Monthly  Meeting.  The 
injunction  of  our  Lord,  "Labor  not  for  the  meat  which  perishes, 
but  for  that  meat  which  endureth  unto  everlasting  life,"  came 
before  me,  and  the  Master  gave  ability  to  search  into  the  states 
of  some  who  were  in  danger  of  being  too  much  engrossed  with  a 
worldly  spirit ;  and  to  strengthen  the  faithful  in  the  discharge  of 
their  various  duties;  particularly  some  young  and  middle-aged 
Friends ;  among  whom  there  appeared  to  be  some  talented  and 
lively-spirited  individuals.  These  were  encouraged,  notwith- 
standing there  might  not  be  that  dedication  in  others  which  they 
desire,  and  travail  for,  to  keep  themselves  steadfast,  immovable, 
always  abounding  in  the  work  of  the  Lord ;  and  I  believed  their 
labors  of  love  would  not  be  in  vain  in  the  Lord ;  but  would  be 
blessed  to  themselves,  and  at  least  to  some  of  their  children.  It 
was  a  good  meeting;  the  humbling,  solemnizing  power  of  Truth 
being  over  us.  While  my  certificate  was  before  the  Monthly 
Meeting,  an  elderly  Friend  remarked,  that  "  Though  the  Friend 
might  go  mourning  on  his  way,  bearing  precious  seed,  yet  he  be- 
lieved as  he  was  faithful,  he  would  return  with  joy,  bringing  his 
sheaves  with  him."  I  mention  these  things,  only  to  speak  well  of 
the  excellent  name  of  the  Lord,  and  to  encourage  others  to  put 
their  trust  in  Him ;  and  to  labor  to  keep  close  tctheir  Master  in 
their  lowest  seasons,  as  well  as  when  He  condescends  to  reign. 
"We  rode  to  Barnesville,  and  put  up  with  our  kind  friends  Wm. 
and  B.  Green.  After  breakfast,  a  portion  of  the  Holy  Scriptures 
was  read ;  a  practice  which  I  believe,  when  j^i'operly  observed, 
will  be  beneficial  to  parents  and  children.  Though  I  felt  a  guard 
against  getting  into  a  haldt  of  making  religious  comn:iunieation8 
on  such  occasions,  without  the  fresh  putting  forth  of  the  Master, 
I  believed  it  right  to  endeavor  to  encourage  the  children  to  yield 
to  the  counsel  and  restraints  which  their  beloved  parents  thought 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  283 

proper  to  extend  to  them.  They  would  find  it  their  true  interest ; 
and  as  they  were  favored  with  the  visitations  of  Heavenly  Love, 
and  submitted  thereto,  it  would  produce  true  peace  and  happi- 
ness. 

This  morning,  29th,  N.  H.  returned  home,  and  E.  S.  of  Still- 
water, agreeing  to  take  me  to  the  southern  meetings,  we  rode 
six  miles  to  Eichland,  and  attended  an  appointed  meeting  there. 
This  part  of  the  State,  and  some  of  the  remaining  original 
log  dwellings,  have  the  aj^pearance  of  a  newly  settled  country ; 
w^hile  the  new  and  improved  houses  show  the  advance  of  many 
of  the  inhabitants  in  the  comforts  and  means  of  living.  The 
meeting-house  was  pretty  well  filled,  and  I  was  engaged  to  call 
the  attention  of  those  present,  to  the  privations  and  hai'dships 
endui'ed  by  those  who  commenced  the  settlement  of  the  country ; 
the  apprehensions  they  may  often  have  had,  as  to  getting  suflfi' 
cient  food  for  themselves  and  their  little  ones ;  the  simplicity 
of  their  views  ;  the  gratitude  they  felt  for  the  blessing  of  Divine 
Providence  upon  their  labors ;  the  covenants  they  were  willing 
to  make  in  the  days  of  their  beginnings,  to  serve  Him,  and  the 
desii-e  they  then  felt  to  promote  the  cause  of  Truth  and  righte- 
ousness. They  were  enquired  of,  how  it  is  with  them  now? 
when  prosperity  has  attended  them,  and  the  means  of  living 
and  various  comforts  are  increasing.  Do  they  suffer  these  things 
to  absorb  their  thoughts  and  atfections,  and  alienate  them  from 
the  beneficient  Creator?  And  are  their  children,  who  have  not 
known  these  hardships,  taking  wings  and  fleeing  from  the  con- 
victions and  restraints  of  Divine  Grace  into  the  world  and 
self-gratification  ?  They  were  reminded  of  Jacob's  setting  out  in 
the  world ;  his  first  night's  lodging  on  the  earth  with  a  stone 
for  a  pillow  ;  the  vision  he  had  of  the  angels  of  Grod  ascending 
and  descending  upon  the  ladder;  so  that  be  said  in  the  morning, 
"  Surely  the  Lord  is  in  this  place,  and  I  knew  it  not:  how  dread- 
ful is  this  place ;  this  is  none  other  but  the  house  of  God,  and 
this  is  the  gate  of  heaven."  And  he  made  a  covenant  with  the 
Lord,  saying,  "  If  God  will  be  with  me,  and  keep  me  in  the  way 
that  I  go,  and  will  give  me  bread  to  eat  and  raiment  to  put  on,  so 
that  I  come  again  to  my  father's  house  in  peace,  then  shall  the 
Lord  be  my  God."  He  also  set  up  a  stone  as  a  testimony  of 
the  covenant  he  made.  When  he  returned,  having  become  two 
bands,  notwithstanding  the  hardships  he  passed  through,  he  went 
again  to  Bethel,  and  renewed  his  covenant ;  previously  calling 


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on  his  liouseliold,  to  bring  to  him  their  jewels  and  ornaments, 
which  he  hid  under  the  oak  in  Shechem.  The  people  were  solid, 
and  I  hoped  some  good  impressions  were  made.  We  rode  after 
dinner  about  nine  miles  to  Senecaville,  and  put  up.  In  the 
morning  we  found  the  ground  covered  with  snow,  and  the 
weather  inclement ;  so  that  the  prospect  of  getting  on  over  this 
hilly  country  to  a  Friend's  house  by  the  next  night,  was  dis- 
couraging ;  but  with  much  industry  we  got  to  J.  M.'s,  at  McCon- 
nellsville,  on  the  Muskingum  Eiver,  a  little  after  dark,  thirty- 
three  miles.  It  was  pleasant  to  get  under  the  roof  of  a  Friend. 
We  rested  comfortably,  and  the  next  morning,  fifth-day, 
Twelfth  month  1st,  crossed  the  river  in  a  horse  boat ;  and  over 
a  road  mountainous  and  quite  dangerous,  when  rendered  slippery 
by  snow  and  ice,  we  rode  to  Hopewell  Meeting ;  the  house  being- 
well  filled.  I  felt  myself  introduced  into  sympathy  with  some 
who,  I  apprehended,  had  secret  trials  to  endure,  in  this  newly 
settled  and  somewhat  wilderness  country ;  and  I  believed  it 
right  to  hold  up  to  view,  that  it  was  a  matter  of  little  moment, 
where  our  habitation  is,  if  we  are  in  our  right  places,  and  are 
sincerely  endeavoring  to  know  and  do  our  Lord's  will.  That 
though  some  may  be  taken  whither  they  would  not ;  yet,  resign- 
ing themselves  to  the  Lord,  and  seeking  strength  of  Him  to  endure 
their  trials,  his  love  and  compassion  will  be  extended  to  them  ; 
and  through  faithfulness,  they  will  be  made  a  blessing  to  their 
families,  and  prepared  for  itsefulness  to  others.  The  SY)ring 
opened  slowly,  but  in  the  end  the  power  of  Truth  tendered  the 
hearts  of  not  a  few ;  and  prayer  was  offered  for  the  sincere 
traveller,  and  those  of  a  sorrowful  spirit ;  and  that  the  visita- 
tions of  heavenly  love  might  be  extended  to  the  dear  young 
people.     Friends  manifested  affectionate  kindness. 

Twelfth  month  2d.  Sixth-day.  Attended  Stillwater  Quarterly 
Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders,  held  once  a  year  at  this  place. 
The  company  was  small,  seven  men  and  six  women.  Near  the 
close,  I  endeavored  to  hold  up  the  responsibility  of  the  stations 
we  stand  in,  and  of  our  example  to  the  flock;  and  the  need  of 
daily  exercise,  that  wo  may  be  kept  alive  in  the  Truth  ;  and 
season,  by  onr  spirits,  the  minds  of  the  dear  youth.  Eeturncd 
to  our  lodgings,  and  passed  the  afternoon  in  retirement  of 
spirit. 

3(1.  Attended  the  Quarterly  Meeting  for  Discipline ;  wherein, 
though  under  fear  and  emiitiness.  a  renewed  qualification  was 


JOURNAL    OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  285 

unexpectedly  furnished,  to  preach  the  gospel  of  life  and  sal- 
vation through  Jesus  Christ  our  Lord ;  showing  that  in  order 
to  be  made  partakers  of  that  salvation  which  He  purchased 
for  us,  we  must  be  in  the  daily  practice  of  waiting  upon  Him 
for  the  renewal  of  strength,  by  the  bread  of  life  and  the  water 
of  life,  which  He  gives ;  both  for  our  own  growth,  and  to  fit 
us  for  every  good  work  in  his  cause ;  and  to  perform  that  wor- 
ship to  Almighty  God  which  is  in  spirit  and  in  truth.  The 
rebellious  were  warned  and  j)leaded  with,  to  turn  their  backs 
upon  the  corruptions  of  the  world,  and  take  the  yoke  of  their 
Redeemer  upon  them.  The  blessedness  of  the  religion  of  Christ 
was  opened ;  being  inward  in  its  operation  ;  every  one  receiving 
Him  in  his  spiritual  appearance  in  the  heart,  may  become  pos- 
sessed of  it ;  and,  through  perseverance,  experience  the  old  man 
with  his  deeds  to  be  put  off,  and  the  new  man  put  on ;  and  thus 
be  brought  under  the  flaming  sword,  which  separates  between 
the  ijrecious  and  the  vile,  into  the  paradise  of  God,  and  into  the 
image  which  Adam  was  created  in.  It  was  a  solid  time,  and 
the  poAver  of  Truth  went  over  the  meeting. 

The  subject  of  education  engaging  my  mind  in  the  second 
meeting ;  I  endeavored  to  press  on  the  fathers  the  great  neces- 
sity for,  and  the  blessings  of  a  good  home  education  ;  wherein, 
with  love  and  firmness,  a  steady  restraint  is  kept  over  the  chil- 
dren, with  relation  to  dress,  company,  and  indulging  them  in 
other  things  not  suitable  for  them.  With  the  unity  of  the  men 
and  women,  I  went  into  the  apartment  of  the  latter,  and  affec- 
tionately enjoined  this  duty  ujjon  the  mothers  also,  who  are 
more  with  the  children,  and  have  opportunity  of  early  com- 
mencing the  regulation  of  their  will  and  temper;  and,  by  a 
religious  concern  and  firmness,  of  bringing  them  up  in  the  nur- 
ture and  admonition  of  the  Loi*d. 

4th.  Rode  out  to  Chesterfield,  about  seven  miles,  to  their 
first-day  meeting,  which  was  very  large  ;  some  Friends  stopping 
there  who  were  on  their  way  home  from  the  Quarterly  Meeting. 
I  was  here  led  to  speak  on  the  subject  that  we  are  not  our  own, 
but  are  bought  with  a  price ;  and  were  to  glorify  God  in  our 
bodies  and  spirits  which  are  his ;  and  that  we  have  no  right  to  say 
we  will  go  into  such  a  city  or  place,  and  buy,  and  sell,  and  get 
gain ;  but  should  say,  if  the  Lord  will,  we  will  do  thus  and  so. 
Many  have  lost  ground,  in  a  spiritual  sense,  by  becoming  unset- 
tled with  a  speculative  si^irit ;  and  without  taking  counsel  of 


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the  Divine  gift  in  their  own  breasts,  have  removed  into  distant 
parts,  with  a  vieAv  of  promoting  their  worhlly  interests.  Those 
who  go  from  their  former  habitation,  lilce  Abraham,  by  faith, 
under  Divine  guidance,  have  good  reason  to  believe  that  the  bless- 
ing of  the  Lord  will  go  with  them;  and  if  they  continue  to  love 
and  serve  Him  above  all,  keeping  the  world  under  foot,  they 
will  prosper  in  the  Truth,  and  with  proper  industry,  will  be 
blessed  in  their  outward  substance.  The  effects  of  a  worldly, 
specidative  spirit,  were  opened  ;  and  some  who  had  got  involved 
in  it,  by  which  they  had  lost  their  first  love,  were  affectionately 
and  pressingly  entreated  once  more  to  open  their  hearts  to  the 
Lord  of  life  and  glory,  who  had  long  knocked  for  an  entrance, 
and  let  Him  set  up  his  kingdom  there,  before  it  be  too  late.  All 
were  invited  to  greater  devotion  to  Him,  that  they  might  be 
established  in  righteousness,  and  be  made  more  useful  in  its 
blessed  cause. 

Owing  to  some  coming  from  a  distance,  the  meeting  was  kept 
an  unusual  time  in  an  unsettled  state ;  and  though  when  it  ap- 
peared proper  to  rise,  I  had  little  before  me,  the  Master  was 
pleased  gradually  to  open  one  thing  after  another  ;  and  towards 
the  close,  a  solemn  covering  was  spread  over  us ;  some  were 
tendered  and  the  Lord's  name  was  praised.  Rode  to  Plymouth 
in  the  afternoon  and  lodged. 

5th.  Here  we  had  an  appointed  meeting  at  ten  o'clock ;  the 
people  filled  the  house,  yet  it  was  long  in  settling,  and  did  not 
prove  as  satisfactory  as  some  others,  though  the  way  opened  to 
treat  on  various  subjects.  The  spirit  of  supplication  was  grant- 
ed, for  the  poor  and  lonely  of  the  flock,  and  for  the  preservation 
of  the  young  people  from  the  snares  of  a  cruel  devourer. 

6th.  Rode  back  to  near  Pennsville  and  lodged.  Yesterday's 
labor  left  me  under  fresh  feeling  of  my  own  inability  to  do 
anything.  Without  the  Master  furnishes  matter  and  power  for 
the  work,  all  our  anxiety  and  past  experience  cannot  open  the 
spring,  nor  baptize  the  people.  Holding  a  meeting  to-day  in 
this  place,  renewed  strong  desire  to  keep  near  the  Shepherd, 
and  to  wait  his  time  to  see  what  to  do.  A  large  company  col- 
lected, composed  of  various  descriptions  of  people,  and  the 
prospect  was  trying.  I  thought  for  some  time  it  would  be  pro- 
per to  sit  there,  an  exan^ple  of  silent  waiting.  But  after  much 
suffering,  from  the  outward  and  unsettled  state  of  many,  it 
seemed  necessary  to  rise  and  open  the  object  of  our  religious 


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meethig"^ :  not  to  utter  words  nor  to  hear  words,  but  to  worship 
God  in  spirit  and  in  tnith.  The  need  of  stillness  of  body,  as 
well  as  of  mind  ;  the  benefit  of  self-control ;  having  our  thoughts 
restrained,  and  maintaining  a  patient  waiting  upon  the  Lord, 
were  impressed.  Every  one  being  gathered  to  the  gift  of  God 
in  themselves,  there  would  be  a  united  travail  to  gain  ascen- 
dency over  the  roving  thoughts ;  and  to  experience  the  solemniz- 
ing presence  of  the  Head  of  the  church,  to  arise  into  dominion  in 
each  one,  and  over  all.  The  benefit  of  accustoming  children  to 
restraint  at  home,  and  to  sit  still  in  our  religious  meetings,  en- 
forced by  the  example  and  authority  of  parents  ;  the  importance 
of  parents  discharging  their  d  ties  to  the  children,  and  of  the 
children  submitting  to  their  parents,  were  affectionately  pressed 
upon  them.  The  prodigals  were  warned  of  the  fearful  conse- 
quences of  evil  company,  and  pleaded  with  to  come  out  of  it,  and 
return  to  the  path  of  rectitude,  that  they  might  escape  the  in- 
evitable results  of  disobedience  and  rebellion.  It  was  a  solemn 
time  in  the  end,  wherein  the  humbling  power  of  Truth  was  felt, 
and  I  felt  clear  of  the  place. 

Crossed  the  Muskingum  river,  and  rode  to  a  private  house  of 
entertainment.  On  fourth-day  the  7th,  rose  before  day,  and  as 
soon  as  we  could  see  to  drive  we  set  out,  making  slow  progress  ; 
the  road  being  stiff  clay  mud,  a  little  frozen  ;  not  travelling 
more  than  fifteen  miles  in  six  hours.  At  a  small  town  called 
Cumberland,  we  dined  as  speedily  as  we  could,  and  went  on  as 
soon  as  was  proper  for  the  horses  ;  though  it  proved  a  very  hard 
day's  toil  to  them  ;  and  about  eight  o'clock  in  the  evening  got  to 
T.  W.'s.  Some  parts  of  the  road,  at  all  times  a  little  unsafe, 
w^ere  rendered  quite  so,  for  want  of  light,  and  the  danger  of 
sliding  on  the  side  of  banks  that  were  slippery.  We  also  crossed 
two  bridges  in  the  dark,  which  our  host  told  us  he  thought  dan- 
gerous in  the  day  time ;  and  had  it  not  been  for  an  obscure 
moonlight  we  could  not  have  travelled  during  the  last  two  hours. 
It  was  relieving  to  have  a  good  house  to  lodge  in  ;  being  very 
weary  after  travelling  fourteen  hours  ;  nearly  all  that  tiine  sit- 
ting in  the  carriage. 

On  fifth-day  morning,  before  setting  out,  we  had  the  family 
collected,  with  whom  I  had  a  serious  opportunity.  Got  to 
Barnesville  about  noon,  and  my  kind  friend  Wm.  Green  offered 
to  take  me  to  Sunbury  and  Somerton. 

9th.     Sixth-day  had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Sunbury.     A 


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laborious  time,  without  getting  much  relief;  a  worldly  spirit 
being  in  the  way,  which  is  hard  to  contend  with.  Lodged  at 
D.  C.'s,  and  had  a  religious  ojii^ortuuity  with  his  famil3^ 

10th.  At  an  appointed  meeting  at  Somerton,  I  was  kept  long 
in  an  empty  state.  Some  presentations  passed  before  me,  but 
the  recollection  of  the  uurelieving  result  of  yesterday's  labor, 
induced  fear  of  moving,  and  giving  to  others  what  might  be  al- 
together designed  for  instruction  to  myself.  I  waited  to  see 
whether  the  Master  would  call  for  any  vocal  service ;  and  his 
language  to  his  immediate  followers,  "Without  me  ye  can  do 
nothing,"  revived  ;  with  an  intimation  to  stand  up,  ^<rhich  I  did, 
and  communicated  it  with  fear ;  adding,  if  they  could  do  nothing 
without  Him,  neither  could  we.  I  remembered  the  expression  of 
an  experienced  minister,  in  relation  to  the  early  ministers  in  our 
Society,  that,  "  As  it  was  once  a  cross  to  us  to  speak,  though  the 
Lord  required  it  at  our  hands,  let  it  never  be  a  cross  to  us  to  be 
silent  when  He  does  not."  If  we  are  baptized  into  the  likeness 
of  Christ's  death,  we  shall  be,  also,  in  the  likeness  of  his  resurrec- 
tion ;  and  those  who  are  baptized  into  Him,  are  baptized  into 
his  death.  As  we  abide  here,  his  time,  we  shall  know  Him  to 
be  unto  us  the  resurrection  and  the  life;  when  He  sees  fit  to 
arise,  we  shall  also  be  raised  into  newness  of  life.  Other  mat- 
ter to  different  states  opened,  and  was  delivered  under  the  hum- 
bling hand  of  the  Lord  upon  me,  and  reached  the  states  of  some. 
It  appeared  afterwards,  that  I  was  introduced  into  sympathy 
with  a  young  Friend  who  had  been  exercised  in  the  ministry. 
Dined  with  two  goodly  young  people  ;  to  whom  a  word  of  en- 
couragement was  offered  before  we  left,  and  then  rode  to  our 
friend  J.  Edgerton's  habitation,  where  we  found  that  his  daugh- 
ter, about  seventeen  years  of  age,  had  just  died ;  having  been 
sick  about  three  weeks. 

"VVe  sat  down  with  the  afflicted  mother  and  children ;  the 
father  being  on  a  religious  visit  in  New  York  Yearly  Meeting; 
and  mingled  oiu*  teai"S  wnth  theirs.  The  resignation  which  Job 
manifested,  was  recommended  to  them,  when  he  said,  "  The 
Lord  gave  and  the  Lord  hath  taken  away,  blessed  be  the  name 
of  the  Lord."  Eeturned  to  William  Green's,  and  lodged  ;  which 
was  a  pleasant  resting-])lace  to  me. 

11th.  First-day  morning,  rose  before  day,  and  was  then  taken 
by  W.  Green,  eighteen  miles,  to  St.  Clairsville;  and  attended 
their  meeting.     This  felt  to  me  to  be  a  dark  place  ;  and  after 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM   EVANS.  289 

alluding  to  the  sufferings  which  the  righteous  experience  from 
the  wicked,  I  was  engaged  to  point  out  the  darkness  and  pro- 
gress of  the  spirit  of  infidelity.  There  are  those,  who,  sinning 
against  the  convictions  of  the  Holy  Spirit ;  and  finding  the  de- 
nunciations of  the  Scriptures  are  against  them,  endeavor  to  in- 
validate their  truth,  and  then  deny  them  ;  but  they  cannot  deny 
the  fearful  judgments,  which  God,  by  his  light,  shining  at  times, 
into  their  dark  hearts,  brings  them  to  feel  will  be  their  portion, 
if  they  persist  in  their  evil  courses;  unless,  indeed,  they  become 
so  hardened  as  to  deny  the  existence  of  a  God  ;  to  which  dread- 
ful consummation,  some  appear  to  be  permitted  to  arrive.  It 
was  a  laborious,  distressing  time ;  and  without  affording  much 
relief.  1  was  afterwards  informed  that  infidelity  prevails  in  this 
town  to  a  great  extent.  I  remained  here  until  the  next  morn- 
ing, and  felt  like  a  prisoner  in  bonds. 

12th.  A  Friend  kindly  took  me  over  to  Concord ;  word  having 
been  sent  for  an  appointed  meeting  there,  and  at  two  other 
places.  The  weather  having  become  cold,  the  roads  which  were 
soft  the  preceding  evening,  were  now  hard  frozen  and  very 
rough ;  which  made  riding  very  unpleasant.  Here,  I  saw  the 
benefit  of  yesterday's  trial  of  faith;  and  being  low,  I  waited 
patiently  for  the  Master.  After  several  presentations  passed 
by,  lie  brought  before  me  the  states  of  some ;  to  w^hom  I  was 
led  to  minister  in  fear.  The  life  of  Truth  arose,  and  we  were 
watered  together. 

1.3th.  Third-day.  Some  snow  fell  last  night,  and  the  road 
being  very  rough,  a  Friend  took  me  in  his  sleigh  to  Harrisville ; 
where  we  held  a  meeting  by  appointment.  Here  the  promise 
to  the  poor  and  needy,  who  seek  water  and  find  none,  was  re- 
vived ;  and  the  Lord's  poor,  who  are  panting  after  the  living 
God,  were  encouraged  to  maintain  their  labor  and  travail  of 
spirit,  for  the  bread  and  water  of  life.  Some  who  were  in  a 
worldly  spirit  were  closely  spoken  to.  How  this  worldlimind- 
edness  brings  poverty  on  the  professors  of  Christianity,  and  dis- 
tress upon  the  living  members !  When  the  head  of  a  family 
devotes  himself,  almost  exclusively,  to  the  love  of  the  world,  it 
has  a  prejudicial  influence  upon  the  children.  If  his  companion 
loves  the  Truth,  it  discourages  her  from  being  faithful ;  and  thus 
may  derange  everything  pertaining  to  their  spiritual  journey. 

14th.  This  morning  I  rose  with  the  persuasion  it  would  be 
right  for  me  to  return  to  those  places  where  I  had  attended  the 


290  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Monthly  Meetings,  and  hold  meetings  with  the  members  of  the 
Particular  Meetings.  I  felt  it  when  I  was  about  leaving  Barnes- 
ville  ;  but  having  sent  notices  to  several  places,  I  was  obliged  to 
come  away.  In  the  meeting  at  St.  Clairsville,  it  came  over  me 
with  fear  that  I  had  been  too  hasty,  in  my  desire  to  waste  no 
time,  and  get  through  as  soon  as  practicable ;  and  I  was  brought 
to  offer  to  do  whatever  the  Lord  required  ;  but  again  hoped  it 
might  go  off.  It  was  a  trial  to  go  back,  lest  I  might  be  mis- 
taken ;  but  mentioning  it  to  some  Friends,  N.  H.  and  G.  P.,  they 
encouraged  me ;  and  N.  H.  very  promptly  offered  to  accompany 
me. 

Went  to  West  Grove,  where  their  little  meeting-house  was 
filled  with  Friends  and  others.  I  was  led  to  bring  to  view  the 
circumstance  of  the  original  members  of  our  religious  Society, 
being  gathered  from  the  various  professions,  to  sit  down  in 
silence,  and  wait  upon  the  Lord.  They  had  been  strict  in  the 
different  ceremonial  performances,  and  tried  the  most  eminent 
preachers ;  but  failed  to  find  what  their  longing  souls  wanted. 
After  they  were  brought  to  see  their  own  inability,  and  that  of 
others,  to  supply  what  they  ardently  sought,  they  were  drawn 
to  wait  upon  the  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  and  found  Him  in  their  own 
hearts.  Thus  they  were  gathered  to  a  teacher  that  could  not 
be  taken  from  them;  who  could  speak  to  their  condition,  and 
give  them  power  over  Satan  and  all  his  temptations.  They  re- 
ceived gifts,  and  were  prepared  to  occup}^  them  to  the  honor  of 
their  Lord  and  Master,  and  to  the  furtherance  of  others  in  the 
way  of  salvation.  So  I  was  led  to  preach  Christ  to  the  people, 
as  their  present  Saviour;  as  well  as  the  one  offering  for  sin, 
without  them ;  by  whom  the  Father  hath  forever  perfected  them 
that  are  sanctified,  by  the  spirit  of  judgment  and  of  burning. 
And  I  was  enabled  to  pray  fervently  to  God  that  Ho  would 
strengthen  the  weak  hands  and  confirm  the  feeble  knees;  visit 
the  rebellious  wnth  his  Day-spring  from  on  high ;  gather  the 
children  under  the  yoke  of  his  dear  Son,  and  increase  and  jore- 
serve  a  band  there,  to  stand  for  his  blessed  name  and  cause ; 
and  glory  and  honor  were  ascribed  unto  the  Lord  God  and  the 
Lamb  for  ever.     Amen. 

15th.  Fifth-day.  liode  to  Mt.  Pleasant.  Attended  Short  Creek 
Meeting;  in  which  I  was  led  to  show,  that,  according  to  the 
apostle's  doctrine,  there  is  a  measure  of  suffering  for  each  mem- 
ber to  fill  up  for  the  body's  sake ;  and  Avhich,  as  he  is  steadfast 


JOURxNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS,  291 

to  his  Lord  and  Master,  will  contribute  to  his  own  preservation 
and  advancement  in  the  way  of  holiness.  But  it  is  only  those 
who  continue  with  their  Lord  in  his  temptations,  who  will  wit- 
ness this  preservation  ;  and  for  them  He  will  spread  a  table  in 
the  wilderness,  and  direct  them  to  sit  down  to  eat;  and  He  will 
come  forth  and  serve  them.  Not  those  who  turn  aside  from  the 
narrow  way;  who  are  allured  by  a  false  light,  with  which  Satan, 
transformed  into  the  likeness  of  an  angel  of  light,  seeks  to  de- 
ceive and  betray  those  who  grow  imjmtient  under  suffering.  It 
was  a  season  of  renewed  favor,  and  ability  to  communicate,  in 
a  gentle  and  tender  manner,  some  cautions  to  those  who  had 
long  made  profession  of  the  Truth;  and  some  of  whom,  had 
been  caught  with  the  delusive  presentations  of  the  enemy. 

Eode  back  to  N.  H.'s;  and  after  dinner,  he  and  I  set  out  for 
Flushing,  and  were  heartily  received  by  Jacob  Bi-anson,  who 
did  not  seem  surprised  that  I  was  turned  back  to  that  place. 

16th.  Sixth-day.  Notice  being  sent  out  in  the  evening,  we 
had  a  large  meeting,  principally  of  Friends.  I  felt  empty  and 
destitute,  and  sat  there,  like  a  poor,  contemptible  creature,  un- 
able to  do  or  say  anything.  It  lasted  so  long,  that  1  concluded 
we  should  separate  in  silence ;  but  at  length  a  little  opening 
presenting,  I  embraced  it ;  and  though  I  endeavored  to  keep 
under  the  clothing  of  Divine  love,  some  close  things  were  deliver- 
ed in  relation  to  the  benumbing  and  deadening  influence  of  a 
worldly  spirit;  that  the  wedge  of  gold  destroyed  more  in  the 
christian  church,  than  perhaps  anything  else.  It  was  a  labori- 
ous and  exercising  meeting,  and  proved  a  trial  of  my  faith.  In 
the  afternoon  went  to  Plainfield. 

Seventh-day.  Had  an  appointed  meeting  here  ;  in  which  my 
dear  Lord  and  Master  renewedly  furnished  ability  to  dip  into 
the  states  of  some ;  and  to  show  that  as  He  declared  to  his  dis- 
ciples, "  Ye  have  not  chosen  me,  but  I  have  chosen  you,  and 
ordained  you  that  ye  should  go  and  bring  forth  fruit,  and  that 
your  fruit  should  remain  ;"  so  it  was  applicable  to  every  regen- 
erated child  in  his  family,  in  their  respective  measures  and 
places.  He  chooses  them,  as  they  submit  to  his  heart-changing 
power ;  ordains  them  for  the  place  He  allots  to  them  in  his  church, 
that  they  should  bring  forth  fruit  to  his  praise,  and  their  own 
everlasting  peace.  Many  things  were  opened  pertaining  to  the 
christian  warfare  ;  and  our  hearts  were  tendered  and  bowed  to- 


292  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

getlier  before  the  Lord,  to  whom  alone. belongs  the  praise  of  his 
works.     Eode  up  to  Still  Water  in  the  afternoon. 

Many  enter  uj^on  active  life  with  small  means,  and  are  necessa- 
rily obliged  to  make  their  wants  few.  When  a  guard  is  not  strictly 
kept,  this  frugal  habit  may  produce  a  contracted  mind,  watching 
at  every  point  to  save ;  and  in  this  way  persons  often  deprive 
themselves  of  those  means  of  comfort  and  mental  improvement, 
which  they  have  within  their  power ;  and  which  they  ought  to  use 
to  qualify  them  more  fully  for  usefulness  in  the  world,  and  to  pre- 
pare the  minds  of  their  children  to  receive  right  impressions  and 
views,  so  as  to  fulfil  their  duties  in  civil  and  religious  societ}^  For 
want  of  a  proper  cultivation  and  expansion  of  mind,  the  no- 
.'bility  of  man  and  the  glorious  design  of  the  Creator  in  making 
him  a  little  lower  than  the  angels,  may  be  lost  sight  of.  When 
parents  suifer  themselves  to  be  enslaved  by  this  kind  of  life,  the 
education  of  their  children  is  much  overlooked  ;  they  sometimes 
grow  up  like  wild  plants,  and  either  run  out  into  unsuitable 
company  and  practices ;  or  follow  the  example  of  the  parents  in 
grovelling  in  the  earth.  Thus  even  if  the  form  of  religion  is 
kept,  the  life  and  power  are  lost,  and  degeneracy  is  spread  in  our 
religious  community. 

18th.  First-day.  Attended  Still  Water  meeting ;  a  large, 
mixed  company  of  people ;  among  whom  I  had  close,  laborious 
service.  We  rode  to  J.  E.'s,  who  is  still  absent  on  religious  ser- 
vice. 

19th.  Second-day.  Had  an  appointed  meeting  at  the  Ridge. 
The  impression  was  early  made  on  my  mind,  that  much  labor 
haa  been  bestowed  on  this  part  of  the  vineyard,  and  that  the 
great  Lord  of  the  vineyard  was  looking  for  fruits  ;  Avhich  was 
communicated.  While  men  may  be  willing  to  hear  the  gospel 
preached,  they  ma}^  be  like  the  man  beholding  his  natural  face 
in  a  glass,  who  goeth  his  way  and  straightway  forgetteth  what 
manner  of  man  he  is.  Consolation  and  encouragement  were 
administered  to  the  afflicted  ;  whose  trials,  I  believed,  would  be 
sanctified  to  them,  as  they  were  faithful  to  their  Lord.  The 
Lord's  power  was  in  good  dominion,  and  many  were  much  ten- 
dered. Here  I  parted  with  some  dear  Friends  in  much  affection  ; 
for  whom  I  felt  strong  desire  that  they  might  grow  in  the  blessed 
Truth,  and  become  valiant  for  it  in  thqirday.  After  dinner  we  rode 
to  our  friend  Jacob  Branson's  at  Flushing.  Having  sixteen  miles 
to  ride,  we  rose  early  next  morning,  and  an  hour  before  day  set 


JOURNAL    OF    \YILLIAM    EVANS.  293 

off  for  X.  n.'s.  The  moon  shiuing  very  brightly,  wo  drove  with 
safety,  and  reached  his  house  between  eight  and  nine  o'clock, 
and  proceeded  to  the  Monthly  Meeting  at  Short  Creek. 

20th.  Third-day.  In  sitting  with  Friends  at  Short  Creek 
Monthly  Meeting,  I  felt  myself  in  a  destitute  condition  ;  as 
though  my  supplies  were  at  an  end ;  yet  after  a  time,  my  mind 
was  introduced  into  exercise,  on  account  of  a  spirit  that  was 
seeking  to  lay  waste  the  doctrine  of  the  necessity  of  being  freed 
from  sin  in  this  life ;  and  while  living  in  violation  of  the  Divints 
law,  professing  to  rely  upon  the  mercy  of  Clod  in  the  end.  I 
was  gradually  opened  on  the  doctrine  of  christian  redemption, 
and  enabled  to  show  that  Christ  gave  Himself  for  our  sins  ;  not 
to  allow  man  to  sin  with  impunity;  but  to  bring  him  out  of  it ; 
and  that  it  is  only  as  we  submit  to  the  sanctification  of  the 
Spirit,  that  we  can  have  ground  to  hope  that  our  past  transgres- 
sions will  be  washed  away  by  the  blood  of  the  Lamb.  Many 
passages  of  Holy  Scripture  were  brought  before  me,  showing 
the  necessity  of  being  made  free  from  the  practice  and  habits 
of  sin ;  and  it  seemed  to  me,  there  were  those  who  had  great 
need  to  know  the  powerful  operations  of  the  Divine  Word,  like 
fire,  to  purge  away  the  corruptions  of  their  hearts;  that  they 
might  be  brought  into  accejDtance  with  Him,  who  is  of  purer 
eyes  than  to  look  on  iniquity  and  transgression.  The  attempts 
of  some,  of  the  present  day,  to  destroy  our  faith  in  the  spiritual 
appearance  of  Christ  in  the  heart,  as  the  hope  of  glory  ;  which 
the  Apostle  denominates  the  mystery  hid  from  ages  and  gener- 
ations, but  is  now  made  manifest  to  the  saints,  were  exposed  ; 
and  this  christian  doctrine,  which  is  the  glory  of  the  gospel 
dispensation,  was  supported  by  Holy  Scripture.  The  efforts  of 
some  to  invalidate  other  doctrines  and  testimonies  of  the  gospel 
as  held  by  our  ancient  Friends,  and  to  tarnish  their  reputation, 
were  declared  against ;  and  I  believed  it  proper  to  state  that  his- 
tory furnished  no  evidence,  so  far  as  I  was  acquainted  with  it, 
that  those  of  ua,  who  had  once  been  in  measure  subjected  by  the 
power  of  Christ,  and  afterwards  turned  against  the  principles  of 
the  Society,  ever  came  to  anything  in  a  religious  sense,  while 
they  remained  in  that  opposition ;  but  I  believed  that  the  Lord,  in 
his  own  way  and  time,  would  bring  a  blast  upon  such ;  especially 
on  those  who  had  received  spiritual  gifts,  and  occupied  promi- 
nent stations  in  the  Society.  It  was  very  unexpected  to  be  thus 
20 


294  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

led  forth,  but  1  believe  it  was  the  Lord's  doings  ;  and  the  young 
people  were  solemnly  warned  to  beware  of  all  those  who  seek 
to  weaken  their  attachment  to  our  religious  Society  and  its 
christian  principles.  At  the  close  of  the  meeting,  a  good  old 
Friend,  seeing  it  was  a  day  of  favor,  gave  me  a  fatherly  hint, 
that  it  was  not  of  man  ;  and  that  it  is  needful  to  bear  in  mind 
that  we  are  nothincc.  lie  said  he  wanted  those  who  were  stand- 
ing  for  the  Truth,  to  stand.  I  accepted  it  as  an  evidence  of 
love,  and  desire  for  my  preservation,  and  wish  ever  to  be  kept 
under  those  humble,  lowly  feelings.  Went  to  the  Boarding 
School  in  the  afternoon,  where  I  found  agreeable  company.  The 
society  of  those  who  are  in  heart  devoted  to  the  Lord's  cause, 
and  desire  nothing  so  much  as  its  prosperity,  is  at  all  times 
strengthening  and  consoling;  but  especially  so,  when  we  are 
separated,  for  the  work's  sake,  from  our  beloved  nearest  connex- 
ions in  life.  It  is  also  heightened  by  the  circumstance  that  we 
have  so  often  to  mingle  with  those  who  are  in  the  spirit  of  the 
world,  or  do  not  feel  the  interest  they  ought  in  the  cause  of  re- 
ligion. 

21st.  Fourth-day.  I  had  a  meeting  with  the  scholars  in  the 
school-house;  they  were  affectionately  labored  with  to  draw 
them  from  everything  that  defiles ;  to  enlist  under  the  banner 
of  Christ,  that  they  might  witness  an  establishment  in  Him,  and 
be  prepared  for  his  service  in  the  church  and  in  the  world.  The 
tendering,  solemnizing  presence  of  the  Master  was  with  u-<. 
After  dinner  I  took  an  affectionate  leave  of  our  beloved  friends, 
and  rode  to  N.  H.'s,  where  I  was  j^leasantly  received  by  him 
and  his  wife. 

22d.  During  the  night  the  weather  became  vory  cold,  and  the 
soft  snow  froze  hard  on  the  roads;  which  made  travelling  diffi- 
cult, over  the  steep  hills  in  this  country;  yet  the  clear,  cold  at- 
mosphere, was  bracing  and  animating.  My  friend  N.  H.  having 
informed  the  Monthly  Meeting  of  his  prospect  to  accompany 
me  to  the  Northern  (Quarters,  and  received  its  unity,  we  set  out 
early  in  the  morning,  and  reached  Smithfield,  as  the  people  were 
gathering  to  a  meeting  appointed  for  us.  After  a  season  of  hum- 
ble waiting  in  poverty  of  S])irit,  the  object  of  our  assembly  was 
treated  on  ;  showing  that  those  who  are  gathered  to  the  gift  of 
G-od  in  themselves,  depending  upon  and  waiting  for  Christ,  the 
great  Minister  of  the  Sanctuary,  receive  from  Him  ability  to 
worship  the  Father  iu  spirit  and  in  truth,  though  no  vocal  min- 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  295 

istry  be  heard.  When  the  Lord  authorizes  any  to  preach  the 
gospel,  it  is  a  savor  of  life  to  these  living  worshippers,  who  re- 
ceive power  to  try  words,  as  the  mouth  tasteth  meat.  The  bles- 
sings conferred  through  the  Holy  Scrijitures,  when  they  are 
brought  to  remembrance  and  applied  by  the  same  Spirit  that 
dictated  them,  were  also  spoken  of;  showing  that,  though  an- 
cient, they  are  then  new.  My  words,  said  Christ,  are  spirit  and 
they  are  life;  and  when  He  opens  the scinptures to  his  children, 
they  convey  spirit  and  life  to  the  soul.  It  was  a  season  of  con- 
solation and  renewing  of  strength,  and  I  felt  love  flow  in  my 
heart ;  particularly  to  some  of  the  ancients  who  had  long  walked 
in  the  Truth. 

23d.  The  morning  was  very  cold,  and  we  had  some  fears  of 
being  unable  to  get  through  a  creek  we  had  to  pass,  owing  to 
the  ice.  Several  on  horseback  went  before,  and  following  the 
route  they  pointed  out,  we  got  on  safely.  The  meeting  was  very 
exercising  to  me. 

24th.  Seventh-day.  Having  heard  much  said  about  the  diffi- 
culty of  getting  to  Salineville,  we  set  out,  the  morning  being 
very  cold,  under  apprehensions  of  not  arriving  there  by  night. 
When  we  came  to  Yellow  Creek,  we  found  the  ice  was  not  of 
sufficient  strength  to  bear  the  horses ;  and  with  the  kind  as- 
sistance of  a  person  living  neai*,  a  passage  was  broken  for  them 
to  be  led  through  ;  and  we  run  the  carriage  quickly  over  on  ice 
strong  enough  to  support  it.  We  found  some  parts  in  the 
mountain  a  good  deal  blocked  with  drifted  snow;  but  after  get- 
ting on  a  mile  or  two,  the  road  was  more  broken  and  settled, 
and  to  our  surprise,  we  reached  Salineville  between  two  and 
three  o'clock.  We  were  received  and  entertained  very  hospita- 
bly by  Friends ;  notice  was  sj)read,  and  we  held  a  meeting  for 
the  few  families  of  Friends,  and  some  others  residing  here.  It 
ended  to  pretty  good  satisfaction. 

On  first  and  second-days  we  were  at  Sandy  Sjjring  and  Au- 
gusta, which  were  both  exercising  meetings  to  me.  There 
seemed  to  be  those  there  whom  I  could  not  feel  as  bone  of  my 
bone,  and  flesh  of  my  flesh ;  and  such  was  my  distress,  that  I  feared 
whether  I  was  keeping  so  close  to  my  Ciuide  as  I  ought  to  do, 
though  I  endeavored  to  do  the  best  I  could.  Towards  the  close 
of  the  latter  meeting,  however,  feeling  the  spirit  of  supplication, 
I  prostrated  myself  before  the  Lord,  and  prayed  that  He  would 
strengthen  his  children  to  follow  Him  in  the  way  of  his  leading ; 


296  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

the  aged,  the  young  men,  and  the  youth ;  and  I  was  comforted 
by  the  ability  thus  granted,  to  supplicate  the  Helper  of  Israel. 
The  Lord  knows  how  to  humble  man,  and  to  hide  pride  from 
him ;  and  it  was  the  sincere  desire  of  my  heart,  this  afternoon, 
as  I  rode  to  New  Garden,  to  be  brought  low  and  kept  low; 
having  a  constant  fear  of  getting  wrong.  I  desired  to  be  en- 
abled to  move  in  child-like  obedience  to  Him  ;  so  as  to  deliver  to 
the  people,  in  a  proper  spirit  and  manner,  whatever  He  may  re- 
quire  of  me.  Words  will  do  little  without  the  baptizing  power 
of  the  Holy  Spirit.  May  the  Lord  accompany  the  word  spoken, 
with  his  Spirit,  and  fasten  them  where  He  sees  fit,  as  nails  in  a 
sure  place ;  keep  the  poor,  unworthy  creature  in  the  dust,  and 
exalt  his  own  name  and  power.  After  a  ride  of  seven  or  eight 
miles,  we  got  to  J.  J.'s,  who  resides  near  New  Garden  meeting- 
house ;  and  were  agreeably  received  and  lodged  by  these  ancient 
Friends. 

27th.  Third-day.  A  large  company  collected ;  Friends,  sepa- 
ratists and  others;  so  that  the  house  was  crowded.  We  sat  a 
long  time  in  silence,  in  which  some  things  were  brought  before 
me,  which  I  thought  might  be  designed  for  the  people ;  but 
though  I  endeavored  to  keep  a  close  eye  to  the  Master,  I  could 
not  find  it  was  my  place  to  deliver  them.  The  impression  was 
repeated ;  we  are  nothing,  and  can  do  nothing,  without  Christ. 
After  a  time,  having  an  intimation  to  break  up  the  meeting,  I 
shook  hands  with  my  companion.  It  was  a  trial  to  be  made  as 
a  sign,  but  I  apprehended  it  was  right,  expectation  after  words 
being  high  ;  and  it  is  necessary,  when  the  Head  of  the  church 
leads  into  it,  to  show  by  example  that  we  cannot  preach  when 
man  pleases,  and  that  true  worship  may  be  performed  in  solemn 
silence. 

Before  leaving  our  lodgings,  it  appeared  right  to  hold  up  to 
the  aged  Friends  who  sat  at  the  head  of  the  meeting,  the  re- 
sponsibility of  those  who  are  looked  to  as  watchmen  on  the 
walls.  That  it  is  needful,  daily  to  apply,  in  humility,  for  Divine 
wisdom  and  strength,  to  go  in  and  out  before  the  people ;  and 
to  discriminate  between  thing  and  thing;  so  that  they  may 
give  a  right  judgment  for  the  Lord  in  his  church.  To  keep 
those  in  their  places,  who  are  forward,  and  if  they  are  not 
timely  checked,  would  grow  headstrong  and  high-minded,  re- 
quires the  help  of  his  Spirit. 

We  rode  to  a  Friend's  house  near  New  Garden  village,  who 


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had  lately  lost  her  husband  ;  and  were  there  joined  by  two  other 
Friends,  with  whom  we  spent  the  evening. 

28th.  Fourth-day.  Before  leaving  the  house  in  the  morning, 
I  had  a  word  of  consolation  for  the  widow  and  two  of  her  chil- 
di*en ;  in  which  Truth  tendered  us  together;  and  she  expressed 
her  thankfulness  that  I  had  been  there  to  comfort  them.  The 
saying  was  again  realized,  "  He  that  watereth  shall  be  watered 
also  himself"  We  then  rode  about  thirty -two  miles  to  a  Friend's 
house,  near  Kendal,  a  poor  little  town. 

Fifth-day.  Held  a  meeting  here,  in  which  some  were  brought 
into  tenderness ;  it  was  a  small  company.  After  dining,  we  rode 
twenty-one  miles,  through  rain  and  snow,  to  a  Friend's  house, 
near  Marlborough.  Part  of  the  road  led  through  land  that  I 
suppose  had  never  been  cleared;  the  timber  was  heavy  and 
stood  very  thick,  and  it  seemed  like  a  wilderness  country  ;  re- 
quiring hax'd  labor  to  remove  and  destroy  the  wood.  Our  host 
seemed  to  be  placed  in  the  woods;  and  though  kind  and  hospit- 
able, things  indicated  that  they  had  a  pretty  rough  life. 

30th.  Sixth-day.  Attended  an  appointed  meeting  here,  which 
was  laborious ;  fearing  that  the  spirit  of  infidelity  was  at  work 
in  those  remote  parts,  to  destroy  the  principles  of  the  young 
people.  I  was  engaged  to  revive  the  conversation  between  our 
Lord  and  his  disciples,  relating  to  the  opinions  among  men  con- 
cerning Him  ;  and  to  show"  that  although  the  unregenerate  could 
not  see  the  kingdom  of  God,  it  was  plain  Christ  was  revealed 
to  the  disciples,  by  the  Father,  as  the  Son  of  the  living  God ; 
and  there  is  no  other  way  by  which  we  can  come  to  the  saving 
knowledge  of  Him.  By  the  Holy  Spirit  that  proceedeth  from 
the  Father  and  the  Son,  Christ  reveals  Himself  in  the  heart, 
and  communicates  true  faith  in  Himself  and  in  the  testimony 
of  the  Holy  Scriptui'es.  I  labored  to  put  the  young  people  on 
their  guard  against  the  dark,  insidious  spirit  of  unbelief,  which 
w^as  lurking  about,  and  watching  to  betray  and  rob  them  of 
their  faith;  and  they  were  invited  to  come  to  Christ,  take  his 
yoke  upon  them,  and  learn  of  Him.  The  parents  and  the 
watchmen  were  reminded  of  their  duty  in  setting  a  proper  ex- 
ample, and  restraining  the  young  people  from  temptations  which 
surround  them.  I  hope  the  meeting  ended  well,  though  I  did 
not  feel  that  relief  I  desired.  After  it  was  over,  I  was  told  there 
were  some  present  of  those  who  deny  Christ  in  his  outward 


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coming  in  the  flesh,  and  others  who  deny  his  appearance,  by  his 
Spirit,  in  the  heart. 

Kode  to  the  house  of  a  Friend,  who  was  formerly  a  resident 
in  Philadelphia,  where  we  lodged,  and  were  kindly  entertained. 
On  seventh-day,  had  a  meeting  at  Lexington,  with  a  small  com- 
pany; in  which  we  experienced  the  tendering  power  of  Divine 
Grace  amongst  us.  Proceeded  after  dining,  with  some  young 
people,  to  Damascus. 

1843,  First  month  1st.  On  first-day  morning,  we  were  at 
Springfield  Meeting ;  held  in  a  large  brick  building  near  the  vil- 
lage of  Damascus ;  in  which  a  numerous  company  of  Friends 
convene,  many  of  them  young.  The  message  of  the  Apostle 
was  revived,  that  "  God  is  light,  and  in  Ilim  is  no  darkness  at 
all ;"  and,  "  If  we  walk  in  the  light  as  He  is  in  the  light,  we  have 
fellowship  one  with  another,  and  the  blood  of  Jesus  Christ  his 
Son,  cleansethus  from  all  sin."  I  felt  engaged  to  labor  to  bring 
Friends  to  an  individual  examination  in  this  light,  that  they 
might  see  their  true  state;  for  a  plain  exterior,  and  a  mere  pro- 
fession, will  avail  little.  I  feared  there  was  a  want  of  inward 
exercise,  that  the  life  and  power  of  Truth  might  be  more  wit- 
nessed among  them.  It  appeared  to  me,  that  through  negligence 
and  indifference,  there  was  a  danger  of  some  Friends  becoming 
an  ill-savor  amongst  others,  and  incurring  the  denunciation,  "  I 
will  spew  thee  out  of  my  mouth."  I  was  enabled  to  discharge 
my  duty  honestly  amongst  them,  and  felt  peace.  "Went  home 
with  a  Friend,  where  several  persons  coming  in,  two  of  whom 
were  not  members,  but  were  under  affliction  from  sickness  and 
the  loss  of  a  child,  we  fell  into  silence  a  little  before  it  was  time  to 
disperse  ;  and  a  word  of  consolation  arose  in  my  heart  towards 
those  afflicted  persons ;  with  which  they  were  affected  and  ten- 
dered. 

2d.  Eode  to  Goshen,  and  held  an  appointed  meeting.  The 
house  was  filled,  an  interment  of  a  young  woman  having  taken 
place,  and  drawn  Friends  together  from  other  meetings.  She 
had  died  after  four  days'  illness.  Such  a  sudden  transition,  from 
full  health  to  the  grave,  brought  with  it  great  seriousness.  The 
people  gathered  very  punctually,  and  soon  settled  into  solemn 
stillness.  I  was  led  to  show,  that  in  the  prosecution  of  every 
right  concern  in  the  church,  the  individual  to  whom  it  was  com- 
municated, passes  through  a  baptism  into  death  before  he  was 
prepared  for  use  in  the   Divine  hand  in  the  service,  or  for  the 


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gathering  of  others  into  the  church,  ^y  submission  to  those 
deaths  oft ;  in  which  openings  of  duty  are  removed  out  of  sight; 
man  sees  his  impotence  ;  that  without  Christ  he  can  do  nothing, 
and  that  all  wisdom  and  strength  come  from  Him  ;  and  the 
sincere,  fervent  desire  of  his  heart  then  is,  that  the  Lord's  wall 
may  be  done,  and  Christ  alone  be  honored  and  exalted.  The 
doctrine  of  redemption,  through  obedience  to  the  Spirit  of  Christ 
was  also  enforced ;  and  the  meeting  closed  with  solemn  suppli- 
cation to  the  Father  of  all  our  sure  mercies,  for  his  continued 
care  and  protection ;  and  that  those  who  were  brought  under 
affliction  by  his  dispensations,  might  kiss  the  rod  and  Him  who 
has  appointed  it ;  and  experience  their  bereavements  and  trials 
sanctified  and  blessed  to  them.  The  silence  and  solemnity  over 
the  meeting  were  such  that  it  seemed  difficult  to  conclude  to 
break  it.  Friends  parted  under  feelings  of  religious  weight, 
and  thankful  for  the  Lord's  goodness  to  us. 

4th.  Attended  Salem  Meeting.  After  a  time  of  silent  exer- 
cise and  waiting  upon  the  Lord,  I  was  strengthened  to  bear 
testimony  to  the  necessity  of  examining  in  the  light,  whether 
we  are  walking  in  the  straight  and  narrow  way.  There  are 
but  two  gates  and  two  ways  laid  down  in  the  Scriptures  ;  and 
in  the  end,  mankind  will  be  divided  into  sheep  and  goats ;  to 
one  of  whom  the  language  will  be,  "Come,  ye  blessed,"  and  to 
the  other,  '^Gro,  ye  cursed."  The  folly  of  being  swallowed  up 
with  the  world,  was  declared  against,  and  retrenchment  and 
self-denial  pressed  upon  some.  To  the  little  flock  who  had  bit- 
ter cups  to  partake  of,  and  many  baptisms  to  endure,  the  lan- 
guage of  encouragement  was  freely  held  forth. 

5th.  My  valued  friend  David  Fawcett,  with  whom  I  became 
acquainted  in_North  Carolina,  being  willing  to  take  me  to  the 
remaining  meetings,  as  far  as  Brownsville,  Pennsylvania,  N.  H. 
concluded  to  return ;  and  accordingly  set  out  this  morning  for 
home.  We  parted  in  good  fellowship,  having  travelled  in  much 
harmony ;  he  has  been  a  strength  to  me,  and  showed  true  bro- 
therly affection  and  kindness,  in  taking  me  from  place  to  place. 

Not  feeling  clear  of  ISTew  Garden,  I  attended  the  regular  meet- 
ing there,  to-day.  Here  I  was  engaged  to  hold  up  the  spiritual 
nature  of  Divine  worshij),  and  the  necessity  of  having  our  de- 
pendence withdrawn  from  man  and  placed  ujjon  the  Loi'd  Jesus 
Christ  alone,  who  ministers  to  the  conditions  of  his  people,  and 
leads  them  in  the  way  of  salvation.     Prayer  was  offered  for 


300  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

those  who  stood  as  watchmen  and  judges ;  that  the  spirit  of 
discerning  and  sound  judgment  might  be  granted  them;  and 
that  all  classes  may  be  favored  to  see  and  to  keep  in  their  right 
places  ;  so  that  the  enemy  may  get  no  advantage  over  them.  It 
was  something  of  a  trial  to  return  to  this  meeting,  but  in  the 
end  I  believed  it  was  well. 

A  meeting  having  been  appointed  at  Middletown,  at  ten 
o'clock,  and  another  at  Elk  Kun,  at  tw-o  o'clock,  we  rose  early, 
on  sixth-day  morning,  the  6th  ;  and  my  beloved  friend  D.  Faw- 
cett,  took  me  to  the  former,  eleven  miles ;  which  was  a  season 
of  ftivor  and  instruction  ;  particularly  on  the  need  of  keeping 
out  of  all  self-conhdence  ;  of  which,  the  defection  of  Peter,  who 
thought  that  though  all  men  forsook  their  Lord,  yet  would  not 
he,  was  an  impressive  example.  Baptisms,  oft  repeated,  are 
the  means  our  Master  uses  to  humble  us ;  and  unless  we  submit, 
and  are  thereby  incited  to  close  watchfulness,  we  cannot  hope 
for  preservation.  The  meeting  in  the  afternoon  was  attended 
by  a  considerable  number  of  persons  not  of  our  Society,  who  sat 
quietly  attentive  to  the  doctrine  delivered,  respecting  the  ap- 
pearance of  the  Grace  of  God  in  the  heart,  which  brings  salva- 
tion. The  spirit  of  prayer  was  granted,  to  intercede  for  the 
gathering  of  all  into  the  heavenly  harmony  ;  that  they  may  be 
saved  with  an  everlasting  salvation.  Eode  to  A.  H.'s,  a  minis- 
ter, where  we  had  the  company  of  several  Friends. 

We  rode  six  miles  to  Carmel,  the  7th,  and  had  a  meeting  at 
ten  o'clock;  in  which  I  was  introduced  into  sympathy  with  the 
afllicted,  to  w^hom  consolation  was  administered ;  and  then  my 
mind  w^as  turned  to  open  to  others,  the  spirituality  of  this  dis- 
pensation, and  of  that  baptism,  which  now  saves,  and  which 
was  set  over  all  the  outward  washings,  dippings  and  sprinklings 
that  man  can  apply.  Having  about  eighteen  miles  to  i*ide  to 
Brighton,  we  set  out,  and  rode  into  the  town  a  little  after 
dark. 

8th.  Attended  their  first-day  meeting,  which  w^as  small.  It 
appeared  to  be  my  place  to  hold  up  to  view  the  reduction  it  was 
necessary  to  experience,  that  we  may  enter  into  and  walk  in 
the  naiTOW  way  that  leads  to  everlasting  life.  The  need  there 
is  of  remembering  the  history  and  example  of  our  Saviour,  whose 
Inrth-place  was  a  stable,  and  his  lodging  a  manger;  who  ap- 
peared on  earth  as  a  servant,  and  not  in  the  pomp  and  splendor 
of  a  prince.     As  we  live  in  his  Spirit,  we  shall  not  covet  gran- 


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deur  and  wealth ;  but  having  food  and  raiment,  we  shall  be 
therewith  content.  The  sad  consequences  of  losing  a  good  con- 
dition, and  the  necessity  of  returning  to  the  j^lace  of  beginning 
in  the  days  of  our  espousals,  were  pressed  upon  some  ;  and  those 
among  them  who  were  striving  to  hold  fast  their  allegiance  to 
Christ,  were  exhorted  to  keej)  close  to  Him,  and  follow  on  in 
faithfulness.  Some,  I  hope,  were  comforted,  and  others  warned 
of  the  day  of  recompense. 

The  weather  having  been  wet,  and  the  travelling  being  made 
difiicult,  we  concluded  to  remain  until  moi'ning,  as  we  could  not 
reach  Westland  short  of  two  days'  riding.  In  the  morning  we 
took  leave  of  our  friends,  and  proceeded  on  our  journey. 

9th.  Second-day.  Eode  up  the  margin  of  the  Ohio  Eiver, 
which  was  very  high  and  covered  with  floating  ice.  Our  sen- 
sations in  passing  through  Eapp's  settlement  were  gloomy. 
The  people  settled  on  it,  appearing  more  like  vassals,  than  free 
persons  ;  being  under  his  control,  and  dependent  on  him  for 
everything  they  require.  To  me  it  seemed  dark  and  disti'cssingj 
not  calculated  to  promote  their  present  or  future  best  interests. 
In  the  afternoon,  crossed  the  Allegheny  Eiver,  into  Pittsburg, 
then  the  Monongahela,  and  ascended  a  mountainous  hill,  on 
which  we  met  a  stage.  This  started  our  horses  to  running  back, 
placing  us  in  a  fearful  position ;  but  the  stage  horses  being 
driven  very  fast,  passed  us  so  soon  that  we  got  ours  to  move  on 
up  the  hill,  and  thus  saved  us  from  being  overturned.  We  went 
on  about  six  miles  from  Pittsburg,  supped  and  lodged,  and  in 
the  morning  rode  about  twenty-three  miles,  to  a  Friend's  house, 
wliere  we  dined  in  the  afternoon.  The  roads  were  now  getting 
deep,  with  the  rain  falling,  and  the  frost  coming  out  of  the 
ground,  and  the  country  being  mountainous,  travelling  was 
laborious  and  disagreeable.  Pennsylvania  is  remarkable  for 
abundance  of  water,  and  the  great  number  of  small  and  large 
streams.  They  were  pouring  down  the  sides  of  the  great  hills, 
and  crossing  our  road  frequently,  and  the  rapidity  with  which 
they  rose,  from  the  gentle  rain,  was  quite  striking ;  the  frost 
not  being  altogether  out,  prevented  the  water  from  settling 
away.  We  proceeded  to  J.  F.'s,  leaving  word  where  we  had 
stopped,  of  our  intention  of  being  at  Pike  Eun  Meeting  on 
fifth-day. 

11th.  Fourth-day.  Attended  Westland  Meeting,  and  con- 
trary to  my  expectation,  I  was  raised  out  of  poverty  and  weak- 


302  JOURNAL    OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

ncss,  to  preach  the  Gospel  to  those  ussemblcd  ;  opening  the 
deceptive  workings  of  the  grand  enemy  to  alhire  man  into  the 
love  of  the  world,  and  trusting  to  the  form  of  godliness,  whilst 
in  life  and  conduct  he  was  denying  the  power  thereof.  I  think 
Divine  help  was  remarkably  extended,  enabling  me  to  enter  into 
the  states  of  some ;  the  dangers  to  which  they  were  exposed, 
and  to  labor  with  them  in  the  tendering  restoring  love  of  the 
G-ospel.  The  spirit  of  praj-er  was  also  granted,  under  which, 
supplication  was  offered  to  the  Father  of  mercies,  that  He 
would  renew  bis  visitations  to  some,  and  revive  tiie  work 
of  religion  in  their  hearts  in  the  midst  of  the  years.  That  He 
would  mercifully  regard  the  young  and  inexj)erienced,  de- 
fend them  from  temptation,  and  in  the  precious  blood  of  the 
Lamb,  wash  away  all  our  sins  and  transgressions  ;  that  so  we 
may  be  prepared  to  stand  with  acceptance  before  Him,  and  sing 
his  praise,  world  without  end,  Amen.  It  was  a  season  of  hu- 
miliation and  Divine  favor;  for  which  grateful  thanks  and 
acknowledgments  are  due  to  our  Heavenly  Father,  and  his  dear 
Son  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  through  the  Holy  Spirit. 

Went  to  our  beloved  afflicted  friend  Mildred  Eatcliff's;  dined 
and  lodged.  She  expressed  her  gladness  at  seeing  me,  and  fre- 
quently spoke  of  the  goodness  of  her  Lord  and  Master ;  with 
whom  she  said  she  had  precious  communion  when  left  alone ; 
though  at  other  times  deeply  mourning  over  the  state  of  the 
church.  She  said  she  loved  the  Truth  and  its  bk^ssed  cause,  and 
believed  that  the  Lord  would  preserve  a  faithful  remnant,  who 
would  be  enabled  to  maintain  its  doctrines  and  its  testimonies. 
These  would  not  bo  permitted  to  fall  to  the  ground ;  but  the 
Lord  would  continue  to  raise  up  those  whom  He  would  qualify 
to  support  them,  as  in  the  days  of  our  early  Friends,  and  to 
bear  a  plain  testimony  against  wrong  things.  She  was  particu- 
larly strong  in  her  disapprobation  of  Friends  sleeping  in  our 
meetings  for  Divine  worship ;  on  account  of  which,  she  said, 
some  thought  she  had  been  too  severe  ;  but  she  was  decided  that 
such  sleeping  (Quakers  were  stumbling  blocks  to  honest  in- 
quirers after  the  truth,  and  that  they  were  denying  the  faith 
that  would  give  the  victory  over  all  such  weakness. 

Some  Friends  came  in  the  evening,  which  we  passed  in  pleas- 
ant, and,  I  hope,  instructive  conversation ;  principally  on  the 
state  of  our  religious  Society;  ])oth  in  relation  to  our  besetting 
difficulties,  and  also   on  the  cheering   evidences  without  and 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  303 

within,  tliat  the  gracious  Head  of  the  church  has  not  forsal^en 
us  ;  but  is  visiting  our  dear  young  people,  and  giving  gifts  to 
sons  and  daughters,  for  his  glory,  and  theirs  and  the  church's 
benefit. 

On  the  following  morning  I  took  an  affectionate  leave  of  our 
dear  friend,  in  which  she  expressed  her  motherly  desire  for  my 
preservation,  and  that  the  Master  might  be  with  me;  which  she 
said  she  believed  would  be  the  case,  as  lie  is  faithfully  and 
humbly  sought  unto. 

Went  to  Pike  Eun  Meeting ;  in  which  I  was  engaged  to  labor 
with  some,  who  are  in  danger  of  settling  upon  their  lees ;  and 
having  lost  the  true  faith,  of  saying  the  Lord  w^ill  not  do  good, 
neither  will  He  do  evil.  And  to  warn  them  of  the  day  that 
will  overtake  all,  in  w^hich  He  will  search  Jerusalem  with  can- 
dles ;  and  every  man's  foundation  will  be  tried.  Others  were 
warned  against  denying  the  Lord  Jesus,  in  his  outward  aj^pear- 
ance  in  the  prepared  body,  or  in  his  8j)iritual  aj)pearance  in  the 
heart.  I  was  also  engaged  in  close  and  earnest  pleading  with 
some  to  receive  Him  into  their  hearts,  before  the  awful  period 
aiTives  when  the  door  of  mercy  will  be  shut.  After  the  meet- 
ing broke  up,  there  was  a  profligate  deist  pointed  out  to  me. 
Though  I  labored  faithfully  and  felt  peace,  yet  I  did  not  par- 
take of  such  relief  and  comfort  as  I  did  the  day  before.  J.  F. 
brought  me  to  a  Friend's  house  near  Bi-ownsville,  where  I 
lodged. 

13th.  Sixth-day.  Had  an  appointed  meeting  here,  in  which 
the  necessity  of  perseverance  was  held  forth ;  that  having 
known  the  arm  of  the  Lord  extended  for  their  help,  under  the 
storms  which  assailed  them  in  years  past,  they  might  be  pre- 
pared to  detect  the  enemy  in  his  future  stratagems ;  wherein  he 
was  seeking  to  draw  some  to  deny  the  spiritual  appearance  of 
Christ  in  the  heart ;  and  thus  strike  a  blow  at  vital  religion, 
which  is  found  only  there.  Ability  was  measurably  furnished 
to  caution  Friends  of  these  stratagems. 

vSet  off  this  afternoon  to  go  to  Sandy  Spring  Meeting,  in  the 
edge  of  Virginia.  We  lodged  about  six  miles  out  from  Browns- 
ville, and  rising  early  on  seventh-day  morning,  sot  out  to  cross 
the  mountains;  the  road  being  extremely  rough,  and  a  thin 
covering  of  snow  on  the  ground ;  which  continued  falling  at 
times,  through  most  of  the  day.  It  was  a  dreary,  cold  ride,  but 
we  were  received  with  great  kindness  by  the  Friends.     The 


304  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS. 

meeting-house  was  pretty  well  filled,  and  there  appeared  some 
opening  for  service;  but  many  who  came,  seemed  not  to  under- 
stand the  nature  and  importance  of  a  religious  life.  I  was 
fearful  that  all  that  was  said,  made  little  impression  upon  many. 
After  dinner  a  young  man  kindly  offered  to  take  me  to  the  turn- 
pike to  meet  the  stage  going  east,  which  was  effected  in  a  small 
one-horse  sleigh.  The  stage  coming  on  about  ten  o'clock,  1 
rode  all  night,  and  reached  Cumberland  about  sunrise.  There 
I  took  the  train  for  Baltimore,  which  we  reached  before  six 
o'clock.  Lodged  in  the  city,  and  the  next  morning  took  the 
line  for  Philadelphia;  and  on  third-day,  arrived  at  my  own 
home ;  rejoiced  to  be  restored  to  my  beloved  wife  and  children, 
in  peace  and  safety. 

17th.  I  arrived  at  my  comfortable  home,  and  was  through 
the  tender  mercy  and  loving  kindness  of  my  gracious  Lord  and 
Master,  permitted  to  find  my  beloved  wife  and  children  in  good 
health,  and  to  join  them  with  feelings  of  peace  and  tranquillity, 
after  an  absence  of  rather  more  than  two  months.  Oh,  how  many 
favors,  temporal  and  spiritual,  we  have  to  be  thankful  and  ac- 
countable for!  May  we  not  only  render  Him  the  return  of 
gratitude  and  praise,  but  of  inci-eased  dedication  to  his  will  and 
service  in  the  world  and  in  the  church. 

20th.  Was  held  a  special  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  in  which  a 
memorial  to  the  Legislature  of  Pennsylvania,  asking  for  the 
passage  of  a  law  to  defend  the  free  colored  population  of  the 
State  from  being  kidnapped,  was  adopted ;  and  four  Friends  ap- 
pointed to  attend  that  body  with  it.  When  the  business  was 
chiefly  finished,  our  friend  Thomas  Kite,  adverted  to  the  publi- 
cation of  a  book  written  by  a  Dr.  Ash  of  Bristol,  England,  pro- 
fessedly to  expose  and  refute  certain  alleged  errors  in  Eobert 
Barclay's  Apology.  The  circumstance  took  much  hold  of  the 
meeting,  and  brought  on  a  lively  discussion ;  in  which  Friends 
animadverted  freely  upon  the  work,  and  other  attempts  made  of 
latter  time,  to  turn  the  Society  away  from  the  faith  which  it 
has  always  maintained,  as  a  body,  from  its  rise.  There  are 
parts  of  the  Society  in  this  country,  where  young  persons  are 
much  exposed  to  imposition,  both  from  the  attempts  to  under- 
mine our  peculiar  testimonies ;  and  also  from  the  busy,  insidi- 
ous efforts  of  persons,  holding  the  principles  of  infidelity.  As 
these  things  were  opened.  Friends  became  invested  with  the 
conviction,  that  if  wo  expected  to  maintain  the  character  and 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  305 

ground  we  have  held  as  a  religious  Society,  it  would  be  neces- 
sary to  bear  an  unequivocal  testimony  against  all  such  attempts 
to  turn  away  the  members  from  our  Christian  faith ;  and  for  the 
information  and  encouragement  of  the  younger  Friends,  to  di-aw 
up  a  declaration  of  some  o$  the  doctrines  and  testimonies  need- 
ful to  be  revived  at  this  time.  A  committee  of  eight  or  nine 
Friends  was  accordingly  appointed,  wdth  great  unanimity,  for 
the  purpose.  When  the  committee  met,  the  same  unity  in  the 
concern  was  felt,  and  the  members  encouraged  one  another  in 
the  work;  four  Friends  were  separated,  to  prepare  such  a  testi- 
mony. 

At  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  in  the  Third  month,  a  brief 
history  of  the  rise  and  progress  of  the  abolition  of  slavery,  and 
the  buying  and  selling  slaves  within  the  limits  of  the  Society, 
was  read.  It  was  compiled  chiefly  of  selected  documents  and 
records  of  meetings;  connected  by  observations  and  statements 
of  facts,  drawn  from  other  sources,  and  was  satisfactory  to  the 
meeting. 

The  committee  appointed  for  the  service,  in  the  First  month, 
had  prepared,  and  now  produced,  a  document,  entitled,  "The 
Ancient  Testimony  of  the  Eeligious  Society  of  Friends,  com- 
monly called  Quakers,  respecting  some  of  their  Christian  doc- 
trines and  practices."  At  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  in  the 
Foui'th  month,  it  was  read,  deliberately  considered,  and  adoj^t- 
ed,  without  a  dissenting  voice.  After  the  many  trials  which 
had  been  passed  through,  in  bearing  our  testimony  against  the 
innovations  attempted  upon  the  doctrines  of  the  Society,  it  af- 
forded a  degree  of  comfort,  that  we  were  enabled  to  unite  so 
harmoniously  in  a  testimony  so  decidedly  against  these  errors, 
and  supporting  the  doctrines  of  the  gospel  as  held  by  Friends. 

Fourth  month  15th.  Was  held  our  Yearly  Meeting  of  Min- 
isters and  Elders  ;  in  which  we  felt  the  great  change  which  has 
been  annually  taking  place  within  it ;  so  large  a  number  of  sub- 
stantial ministers  and  elders  have  been  removed  by  death ; 
while  but  few,  especially  ministers,  are  coming  forward  to  fill 
their  places.  Friends  were  brought  under  a  lively  concern,  for 
a  more  harmonious  labor  among  us. 

17th.  Commenced  the  Yearly  Meeting  for  business,  through- 
out which  there  appeared  a  satisfactory  unity.  The  Address, 
prepared  by  the  Meeting  for  Suiferings,  on  our  doctrines,  was 
very  feelingly  approbated,  and  directed  to  be  printed.     It  was 


306  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

a  solid  and  comfortable  meeting.  It  was  the  Lord's  doings,  and 
doubtless  a  special  favor  from  Him  to  encourage  his  children 
to  faithfulness  in  his  cause,  and  to  show  to  others  that  He  has 
not  deserted  us,  however  unworthy  we  are  of  the  least  of  all  his 
mercies. 

Fifth  month  3d  and  4th.  My  wife  and  myself  attended  Abing- 
ton  Quarterly  Meeting;  in  which  the  Lord  furnished  fresh 
ability  to  preach  his  gospel,  and  to  put  up  prayer  to  Him  on 
behalf  of  some  whose  faith,  at  times,  was  read}^  to  fail.  It  was 
a  solid,  good  meeting ;  in  which  not  a  few  hearts  were  contrit- 
ed,  and  returned  thanks  to  Him. 

23d.  For  several  months  past,  I  have  been  led  through  a  wil- 
derness state,  in  which  but  little  clear  shining  of  the  light  of 
the  Sun  of  Eighteousness  has  been  disjiensed.  Fear  of  the  quali- 
fication to  labor  in  the  cause  of  Christ,  being  taken  away,  has 
been  my  portion ;  under  which  I  have  desired  to  keep  patient, 
and  to  know  the  refinement  necessary  for  a  follower  of  Him. 
The  low  state  of  our  Society,  in  many  respects  and  in  many 
parts,  has  been  much  upon  me ;  with  apprehensions  that  some 
who  have  been  visited,  are  not  coming  forward  in  the  strength 
and  devotedness  that  they  ought;  while  others  seem  more  dis- 
posed to  pi'omote  the  assimilating  of  the  members  of  our  Socie- 
ty with  others,  than  to  build  it  uj)  on  the  faith  wdiich  the  first 
members  were  built  upon.  These  things  are  discouraging ;  and 
yet  there  are  not  a  few  among  us  who  are  united  in  the  fellow- 
ship of  suffering ;  and  are  praying  and  watching  for  the  conso- 
lation of  Israel.  If  these  can  do  no  more,  they  may,  through 
faithfulness,  deliver  their  own  souls  ;  and  others,  seeing  their 
steadfastness,  may  be  drawn  to  follow  them  as  they  follow 
Christ.  To-day  I  attended  the  Northern  District  Monthly 
Meeting.  At  the  close  of  the  last  meeting  a  word  of  exhorta- 
tion sprung  in  my  heart,  to  encourage  Friends  to  daily,  inward 
travail  of  soul ;  that  they  may  be  kept  alive  in  the  Truth.  It 
was  this  that  made  us,  in  the  beginning,  a  living  people,  and  in 
which  the  members  were  made  helpful  to  one  another,  and  quick 
in  discerning  the  devices  of  the  enemy,  who  is  always  seeking 
our  destruction,  both  individually  and  as  a  body. 


JOURNAL    OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  307 


CHAPTEE    XY. 

1843—1844. 

Eeligious  visit  to  New  York  Yearly  Meeting — Origin  and  Intention  of  the 
Book  Store  in  Philadeli^hia — Visits  to  Various  Meetings  within  his  own 
Yearly  Meeting — Religious  visit  to  Indiana  Yearly  Meeting,  and  some  of 
its  Meetings — Visits  to  Friends'  Schools— Yearly  Meeting — The  Value  of  a 
Keligious  Life. 

1843,  Fifth  month.  I  obtained  a  minute  from  the  Monthly- 
Meeting,  and  attended  New  York  Yearly  Meeting,  throughout 
most  of  which  I  found  it  my  place  to  keep  under  a  silent  tra- 
vail of  spirit,  for  ray  own  preservation,  and  that  I  might  be 
ready  to  receive  the  intimations  of  religious  duty  whenever  it 
pleased  the  Lord  to  put  me  forth  in  his  service.  On  iirst-day 
morning,  in  the  large  meeting  room,  after  my  friend  Thomas 
Kite  had  been  engaged  in  the  ministry,  my  way  appeared  to 
open  to  rise  with  the  call  of  the  proj)het  Jeremiah,  "  Pass  over 
the  isles  of  Chittem,  and  see  ;  send  unto  Kedar,  and  consider 
diligently,  and  see  if  there  be  such  a  thing:  Ilath  a  nation 
changed  their  gods,  which  are  yet  no  gods  ?  but  my  people  have 
changed  their  glory  for  that  which  doth  not  profit.  Be  as- 
tonished, O  ye  heavens,  at  this,  and  be  horribly  afraid,  be  ye 
very  desolate,  saith  the  Lord.  For  my  people  have  committed 
two  evils  ;  they  have  forsaken  me,  the  Fountain  of  living  waters, 
and  hewed  them  out  cisterns,  broken  cisterns,  that  can  hold  no 
water."  I  was  led  to  shoAV  that,  like  the  children  of  Israel, 
many  among  us  have  forsaken  the  Truth ;  and  where  they  have 
done  this,  they  have  attempted  in  various  instances  to  invent 
substitutes  for  obedience  to  the  Divine  will,  inwardly  made 
known,  and  taking  up  the  cross  daily  and  following  Christ  in 
the  path  of  self-denial.  It  was  through  the  immediate  revela- 
tion of  the  Spirit  of  God,  that  his  disciples  could  know  and  de- 
clare Him  to  be  the  Christ,  the  Son  of  the  living  God  ;  and  it 
is  only  by  the  manifestation  of  the  same  Spirit,  that  any  now 
can  have  true  and  saving  faith  in  Him.  The  indispensable 
necessity  of  receiving  Christ  in  the  heart,  that  we  may  know 


308  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Him  for  oiu'selves  to  save  us  from  our  sins,  and  the  danger  of 
losing  that  precious  state,  after  we  have  known  it,  was  opened 
to  the  people ;  and  his  humbling,  solemnizing  power  was  felt 
among  us. 

We  dined  in  company  with  several  Friends,  with  whom  I  was 
drawn  into  conversation,  on  various  points  of  doctrine  and 
practice ;  and  had  fears  excited  that  there  is  danger  of  some 
losing  that  firm  attachment  to  our  ancient  testimonies,  which 
ought  to  characterize  members,  holding  important  stations  in 
our  Societ}^;  and  a  departure  from  which,  by  any,  is  proof  that 
the  sure  rock  and  foundation  is  slidden  from. 

In  the  course  of  the  deliberations  of  the  Yearly  Meeting,  it 
was  to  be  apprehended  that  there  is  danger  of  the  habit  of  too 
easily  speaking,  and  therefore  too  frequently,  in  these  meetings ; 
where  religious  weight  ought  always  to  attend  the  considera- 
tion of  subjects,  involving  the  interests  of  the  Society.  The 
indispensable  need  of  being  gathered  to  the  gift  of  Grod  in  the 
heart,  was  held  up  to  view ;  that  every  one  might  know  his 
place  and  duty,  and  receive  from  the  blessed  Head  of  the  Church, 
wisdom,  and  knowledge,  and  strength  to  perform  it  in  his  fear, 
and  to  his  honor  and  the  benefit  of  the  body.  Having  a  gentle 
intimation  that  it  might  be  right  for  me  to  visit  the  women's 
meeting,  and  my  friend  Thomas  Kite  opening  to  the  meeting  a 
concern  for  the  same  service,  we  were  set  at  libei-ty ;  after  I  had 
informed  Friends  that  my  mind  had  been  also  turned  that  way. 
In  walking  up  to  their  apartment  I  felt  exceedingly  stripped, 
and  thoughtful  whether  I  had  sufficient  commission  for  the  pro- 
posed visit ;  which  led  me  to  look  steadily  towards  the  Master, 
desiring  I  might  be  preserved  from  acting  in  any  way  unbidden. 
Thomas  Kite  pretty  soon  rose,  and  mentioned  various  instances 
recorded  in  the  Scriptures,  of  the  use  which  the  Lord  had  made  of 
women  in  his  cause  and  service ;  and  to  whom  He  revealed  Him- 
self, and  deputed  them  to  announce  the  glad  tidings  of  the  Gospel. 
After  he  had  been  sometime  engaged  and  had  taken  his  seat, 
there  seemed  in  me  the  stirrings  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  and  I  was 
led,  in  unison  with  his  concern,  to  encourage  those  upon  whom 
the  weight  of  the  ark,  at  times,  rested  heavily,  to  keep  to  their 
religious  exercises,  even  where  their  number  was  few  in  a  place; 
relying  upon  and  being  faithful  to  their  Lord;  and  He  would 
bless  them  and  their  steadfastness,  to  the  help  of  others.  The 
younger  part  were  also  invited  to  enlist  under  the  banner  of 


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Christ  Jesus,  the  Captain  of  salvation,  that  they  might  he  pre- 
pared for  service  and  usefulness  here,  and  for  an  inheritance 
hereafter,  amongst  the  saints  in  light.  I  came  away  thankful 
for  the  renewed  evidence  that  the  Lord  was  gracious ;  still 
qualifying  us,  unworthy  as  we  are,  for  his  work,  and  going 
before,  preparing  the  hearts  of  some,  like  Lydia  of  old,  to  re- 
ceive the  word  preached. 

We  had  several  religious  opportunities  in  families,  where  pretty 
large  companies  of  young  and  old  w^ere  collected;  and,  I  be- 
lieve, to  the  continting  of  their  spirits,  and  strengthening  their 
desires  and  resolutions,  to  follow  on  to  know  the  Lord  with 
greater  dedication.  It  was  a  week  of  close  exercise  to  me,  in 
which  I  felt  myself  in  bonds,  and  in  fear  of  doing  anything  that 
would  hurt  any  one,  or  the  precious  cause ;  and  preservation,  I 
believe,  was  mercifully  granted.  I  returned  in  peace,  well  satis- 
fied that  I  had  given  up  to  the  service. 

Seventh  montli  22d.  During  the  past  week,  the  Book  Com- 
mittee of  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  has  been  engaged  in  getting 
printed  the  doctrinal  address  issued  by  our  late  Yearly  Meeting. 
Many  of  the  more  elderly  Friends  in  this  city,  upon  whom  the 
care  of  such  matters  formerly  rested,  having  been  removed  by 
death,  the  putting  forth  such  a  document  brought  feelings  of 
unusual  responsibility  over  us ;  lest  anything  might  escape  our 
notice  that  the  opponents  of  our  doctrines  could  cavil  at.  There 
is  a  spirit  working  in  different  parts,  and  under  various  pretexts, 
which  is  at  enmity  with  the  cross  of  Christ,  and  the  simple  self- 
denying  religion  into  which  the  Lord  led  Friends,  in  the  begin- 
ning, and  which  is  the  strait  and  narrow  way,  laid  down  in  the 
New  Testament,  as  that  which  leads  to  everlasting  life. 

29th,  To-day  in  conversation  with  my  friend  Samuel  Bettle, 
Sr.,  upon  some  of  the  concerns,  and  the  present  state  of  our  religi- 
ous Society,  he  informed  me,  that  at  their  late  Monthly  Meeting, 
he  had  mentioned  the  subject  of  erecting  a  suitable  building  on 
the  northeast  corner  of  the  Arch  Street  meeting-house  ground, 
for  the  purpose  of  depositing  Friend's  books  for  sale,  and  for 
gratuitous  distribution;  as  a  depository  of  religious  tracts, 
setting  forth  Friend's  principles ;  as  an  office  for  the  Treasurer 
of  Westtown  Boarding  School ;  and  an  office  for  a  Eecord- 
ing  Clerk  of  the  Minutes  and  Epistles  of  the  Yearly  Meeting, 
and  Meeting  for  Sufferings.  Such  a  building  has  been  long 
wanted,  and  if  properly  used,  and  the  various  concerns  coq- 
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310  JOUUNA.L    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

ducted  with  a  single  eye  to  the  cause  of  Christ,  and  the  spread 
and  support  of  our  religious  principles,  and  the  real  welfare  of 
the  rising  generation,  it  may  prove  a  blessing  to  our  religious 
Society.  May  those  who  come  after  us,  if  the  depository  is 
instituted,  be  preserved  in  lowliness  and  humility  of  mind  ; 
seeking  for  Divine  counsel,  that  they  may  be  kept  f]-om  intro- 
ducing any  works  tending  to  impair  a  sure  and  full  belief  of  all 
the  doctrines  and  testimonies  of  the  gospel,  as  laid  down  by 
(xeorge  Fox,  Eobei"t  Barclay,  William  Penn,  Isaac  Peningtou, 
George  Whitehead,  and  others  of  our  primitive  Friends.  The 
design  is  to  spread  our  own  principles  as  they  have  always  been 
held  and  published  by  this  Yearly  Meeting  ;  and  not  to  give 
publicity  or  circulation  to  any  other. 

Eighth  month  19th.  Last  third-day,  the  15th,  I  felt  my  mind 
turned  to  the  North  Meeting,  where  1  accordingly  went.  A 
testimony  was  delivered  to  some,  who,  when  they  saw  their 
state,  felt  they  had  need  to  confess  their  sins  and  implore  for- 
giveness, if  they  expected  to  partake  of  the  benefits  of  the 
mediation  and  atonement  of  Ilim,  who  is  the  propitiation  for 
the  sins  of  the  whole  world,  and  our  holy  Advocate  with  the 
Father.  They  were  encouraged,  not  to  cast  away  their  hope  in 
the  mercy  and  long  forbearance  of  a  gi'acious  Creator ;  for  under 
these  visitations,  there  was  ground  to  believe  that  lie  would 
forgive  their  transgressions,  and  blot  them  out,  and  enable  them 
to  forsake  their  wrong  ways,  and  serve  Him  faithfully.  In  the 
afternoon  of  the  16th,  I  rode  out  to  my  brother  Joseph's,  at 
Springfield,  where  my  wife  and  familj^  had  gone  a  few  days' 
before.  To  their  meeting,  on  fifth-day,  I  went  in  emptiness. 
My  mind  was,  however,  led  to  look  at  the  state  of  some  dear 
children,  who  were  loving  and  serving  their  Lord  and  Mas- 
ter, aiul  whom  He  bad  made  witnesses  for  Him  in  their  pri- 
vate daily  walks,  as  salt  in  the  earth,  and  reprovers  of  the  wrong 
courses  of  others.  These  I  was  led  to  salute  in  the  renewed 
springing  of  the  love  of  the  Gospel ;  also  to  open  to  the  disobe- 
dient, their  ways,  which  are  accompanied  with  convictions  of 
being  wrong,  and  entirely  fail  to  satisfy  the  secret  longings  of 
the  immortal  soul ;  and  to  plead  with  them  to  tui*n  to  the  Lord, 
when  He  again  visits  by  his  good  Spirit,  and  shows  them  the 
consequences  of  their  unfaithfulness,  and  rebellion.  My  dear 
wife  closed  the  meeting  in  fervent  prayer  for  them,  and  for 
some  others  more  advanced  in  years ;  and  we  had  cause  to  thank 


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our  compassionate  Heavenly  Father,  for  his  goodness  and  con- 
descension to  his  poor  unworthy  creatures,  and  to  acknowledge 
that  it  all  came  from  his  bountiful  hand.  The  difference  be- 
tween a  dry  and  barren  state  when  there  is  no  opening,  and 
being  favored  with  the  gentle  presentations  of  the  Holy  Spirit, 
raised  a  hope  that  the  Lord  had  not  forsaken,  and  that  it  was 
his  work,  in  which  He  was  engaging  me,  for  the  help  of  others, 
and  to  fill  up  my  own  measure  of  suffering  and  service. 

Eode  with  others  to  Concord,  and  attended  the  Quarterly 
Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders.  Here,  deep  seemed  to  call 
unto  deep,  at  the  noise  of  the  waterspouts.  To  hear  Friends 
from  different  parts  utter  the  same  language,  respecting  the 
poverty  and  trial  they  passed  through,  was  encouraging,  and 
confirming  that  the  path  which  the  Lord's  children  walk  in,  is 
much  the  same  everywhere  ;  and  the  language  they  use  in  de- 
scribing their  pilgrimage,  very  similar.  Through  Divine  good- 
ness, we  were  enabled  to  comfort  one  another  in  true  love  and 
fellowship,  and  I  believe  our  unity  in  the  blessed  Truth  was 
strengthened. 

Notwithstanding  the  dullness  of  the  weather,  the  next  day, 
many  collected ;  and  ability  was  granted  to  hand  a  word  of  en- 
couragement to  them,  to  hold  on  their  way,  in  their  respective 
allotments,  with  a  single  eye  to  their  Divine  Master  ;  who  will 
help  and  cause  them  to  grow,  in  his  strength,  from  stature  to 
stature ;  though  but  few  may  be  near  to  take  them  by  the  hand, 
and  to  cheer  them  on  their  heavenly  journey.  "  The  righteous 
holdeth  on  his  way,  and  he  that  hath  clean  hands  shall  be 
stronger  and  stronger."  The  dear  children  were  tenderly  coun- 
selled, and  invited  to  take  the  yoke  of  the  Lord  upon  them,  and 
come  up  in  the  footsteps  of  his  flock,  and  they  would  be  fitted 
for  service  in  his  church ;  and  to  hold  up  to  the  nations  of  the 
earth,  the  standard  of  peace  and  righteousness.  It  was  a  good 
day. 

So  much  rain  fell,  that  we  apprehended  there  would  be  some 
ditficulty  in  fording  Chester  Creek ;  the  bridges  having  been 
nearly  all  carried  away,  by  a  great  flood  which  occurred  about 
thi-ee  weeks  before ;  destroying,  it  is  said,  more  than  fifty 
bridges;  and  several  mills,  houses  and  dams  in  Delaware  Coun- 
ty.    But  we  got  safely  to  Springfield. 

23d.  My  wife  and  I  rode  into  Philadelphia,  and  attended  our 
Monthly  Meeting ;  by  which  I  was  liberated  to  go  to  Indiana 


312  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Yeai'ly  Meeting  ;  haviug  had  the  prospect  several  months  rest- 
ing upon  my  mind.     Eeturncd  to  Springfield  in  the  evening. 

24th.  Went  with  my  brother  Joel  to  Samuel  Swain's  at  Lon- 
don Grrove,  where  we  lodged ;  and  the  next  day  attended  the 
Western  Quarterly  Meeting.  It  was  larger  than  I  had  seen  it, 
since  the  sei^aration ;  and  I  trust  was  owned,  in  some  good  de- 
gree, by  the  ever-merciful  Shepherd  of  Israel ;  though  the  num- 
ber of  faithful  laborers  is  much  reduced  here,  as  it  is  in  most 
other  places.  Still  there  is  ground  to  hope,  that  a  succession  of 
young  men  and  women  will  come  forward,  so  that  the  doctrines 
and  testimonies  held  by  Friends  will  not  be  lost,  in  this  place. 
The  principles  of  unbelief  have  taken  deep  hold  of  many,  who 
were  once  in  membership  with  us  in  our  Society,  in  this  part  of 
the  country ;  and  it  is  no  marvel,  if  our  religious  Society  should 
have  a  long  struggle,  before  it  rises  above  the  effects  of  this 
mournful  defection. 

We  reached  Westtown  School,  about  eight  o'clock  that  even- 
ing ;  and  the  following  morning  rode  to  Springfield. 

Ninth  month  13th.  I  have  seldom,  in  my  own  meeting,  been 
clothed  with  more  fei'vent  and  affectionate  solicitude  for  my 
fellow  professors,  than  on  this  occasion ;  and  the  gathering,  re- 
storing spirit  of  our  Holy  High  Priest,  seemed  to  be  present,  to 
heal  and  revive  some  who  have  long  neglected  the  work  of  their 
own  salvation.  In  the  prospect  of  soon  leaving  home,  1  was 
glad  to  part  with  my  beloved  friends,  with  such  a  covering  of 
heavenly  good.  The  praise  and  the  glory  belong  to  the  Lord 
our  God,  to  whom  with  his  dear  Son,  the  Lamb  immaculate,  be 
ascribed  all  praise,  and  honor  and  thanksgiving,  world  without 
end.     Amen. 

15th.  In  the  afternoon  I  took  an  affectionate  leave  of  my  dear 
wife  and  children,  and  with  Henry  Cope  for  my  companion,  and 
Thomas  Kite,  went  on  board  the  steamboat  for  Baltimore ;  where 
we  arrived  about  one  o'clock  in  the  morning.  We  staid  on 
board  until  about  five  o'clock,  A.  M.,  sleeping  on  the  seats  as  well 
as  we  could.  Breakfasted,  and  took  the  cars  for  Cumberland, 
at  the  foot  of  the  Allegheny  Mountains.  A  ride  of  one  hundred 
and  seventy-eight  miles,  though  on  a  railroad,  occasions  some 
fatigue;  but  this  mode  of  travelling  is  so  expeditious  and  com- 
fortable, that  it  may  be  ranked  among  the  great  discoveries  and 
improvements  of  this  day  of  novelty  and  invention.  We  had 
a  fine,  extended  view  of  mountain  and  water  scenery,  the  road 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANf?.  313 

being  mostly  located  on  the  banks  of  the  Patapsco  and  Potomac 
Rivers ;  and  were  it  not  for  the  blighting  influence  of  the  un- 
righteous system  of  slavery,  many  parts  of  the  CHjuntry  would 
exhibit  proofs  of  high  culture,  and  have  better  buildings  than 
are  seen  in  some  places. 

At  Cumberland,  where  we  an-ived  between  five  and  six  o'clock, 
we  were  put  into  one  of  the  mail  coaches,  heavily  laden  ;  and 
luiving  nine  passengers  inside,  and  the  weather  warm,  riding 
was  irksome ;  but  travelling  day  and  night,  we  got  safely  into 
Wheeling  on  first-day  evening.  It  is  undesirable  to  be  on  the 
road  during  the  first  day  of  the  week,  but  owing  to  uncertainty 
of  meeting  a  steamboat  at  this  place,  it  appeared  unsafe  to  tarry 
at  Baltimore  ;  as  we  wished  to  be  at  the  week-day  meeting  in 
Cincinnati.  A  night's  rest  at  Wheeling  refreshed  us  much  ; 
and  engaging  our  passage  in  a  steamboat,  early  in  the  morning, 
we  left  about  eleven  o'clock.  The  company  behaved  respect- 
fully ;  and  some  manifesting  a  disposition  to  converse,  it  af- 
forded an  opportunity  to  explain  the  views  of  Friends,  on  slav- 
ery and  other  subjects.  The  passage  was  prolonged  one  day, 
by  the  dense  fogs  on  the  river ;  which  made  it  necessary  to 
come  to,  and  fasten  to  the  trees,  near  the  water  edge,  every 
night.  I  often  felt  little  capacity  for  conversation,  and  was  shut 
up  in  silence,  at  times;  being  burdened  with  the  light,  and 
frothy  and  worldly  spirits  of  most  of  the  company.  But  I  be- 
lieved inward,  mental  suffering,  in  steady  watchfulness  over 
our  words  and  actions,  is  not  only  profitable  to  our  own  preser- 
vation and  growth,  but  it  has  a  restraining  influence  over  others, 
and  may  lead  some  to  examine  their  own  hearts,  and  strengthen 
the  right-minded,  to  hold  on  in  the  right  way. 

After  a  tedious  passage  of  three  days,  we  landed  on  fifth-day 
morning,  the  21st,  at  Cincinnati,  and  attended  the  regular  meet- 
ing ;  which  was  owned  by  the  Great  Master,  qualifying  to  labor 
amongst  them  in  the  love  of  the  gospel ;  to  show  some  that  they 
had  left  their  first  love,  and  were  gone  into  the  earth  ;  and 
some  were  getting  into  the  air.  I  thought  I  perceived  the  ad- 
vantage it  was,  to  have  been  preserved,  on  the  passage,  under 
suffering  with  the  oppressed  seed  in  the  hearts  of  the  earthly, 
and  aiiy  people  on  board  ;  and  I  was  led  affectionately  to  per- 
suade Friends,  to  examine  themselves  where  they  were,  and  to 
turn  again  to  the  Lord  ;  and  those  who  sincerely  loved  the 
Truth,  were  encouraged  to  greater  dedication.     The  meeting 


314  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

ended  under  feelings  of  solemnity  ;  Thomas  Kite  closing  it  with 
prayer. 

Sixth-day.  Called  upon  our  aged  and  valued  friend  Ann 
Shipley,  with  whom  we  spent  some  time  in  pleasant  conversa- 
tion; and  just  before  parting,  we  fell  into  silence;  in  which  my 
mind  was  tenderly  and  a-ffectionatel}^  drawn  to  our  dear  friend, 
as  to  a  mother  in  the  Truth ;  and  the  language  of  comfort,  and 
promise  of  the  blessed  reward  at  the  end  of  the  race,  was  im- 
parted ;  to  our  mutual  refreshing.  In  the  afternoon,  visited  a 
woman  Friend,  in  the  prime  of  life,  lately  acknowledged  a  min- 
ister, to  whom  counsel  was  handed,  in  relation  to  the  occupancy 
of  so  important  a  gift. 

23d.  We  rose  between  two  and  three  o'clock ;  and  about 
four  o'clock  left  the  city  in  a  stage,  on  our  way  to  Eichmond ; 
distance  sixty-five  miles ;  which  we  reached  at  dusk,  and  were 
kindly  received  by  our  friend  E.  C.  and  wife,  where  we  were 
hospitably  entertained  during  the  sittings  of  the  Yeai'ly  Meet- 
ing, and  had  the  company  of  many  interesting  Friends. 

24th.  First-day  morning.  Felt  my  mind  drawn  to  Mil- 
ford  Meeting  ;  where  we  had  hard  labor  for  a  season,  to  come 
to  any  sense  of  Divine  life,  stirring  among  them;  but  the  Good 
Shepherd  opened  the  spring  a  little,  and  qualified  to  minister  to 
them  ;  with  which  my  companions  afterwards  expressed  their 
satisfaction.     After  dining,  we  returned  to  Richmond. 

Second-day,  attended  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings.  Third-day, 
the  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders ;  and  on  fourth-day,  a 
meeting  for  public  worship  ;  in  which  I  was  engaged  in  preach- 
ing the  gospel  of  Christ,  to  a  very  large  congregation  ;  showing 
the  need  of  perseverance  to  the  end,  in  order  to  gain  the  crown. 
The  young  people  were  invited  to  come  to  Christ  and  learn  of 
Him.  In  the  afternoon,  at  the  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders, 
it  appeared  right  to  open  the  nature  of  gospel  ministry ;  show- 
ing that  they  who  minister,  are  to  speak  as  those,  through 
whom  the  Lord  condescends  to  speak  to  the  people  ;  also  allud- 
ing to  the  necessity  of  not  meeting  the  desire  of  the  people  to 
hear,  nor  our  own,  to  utter,  words.  It  was  the  concern  of  our 
early  Friends,  that  as  it  was  a  great  cross  to  them  in  the  begin- 
ning of  their  ministry  to  speak,  it  might  not  become  one  to  be 
silent,  when  they  had  nothing  in  command  to  say. 

The  Meeting  for  Sufferings  having  before  it  an  essay,  designed 
as  an  address  to  other  christian  professors,  on  slavery,  and  not 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  315 

feeling  quite  satisfied  with  it,  referred  it  back  to  the  committee 
for  revision ;  and  requested  the  strangers  to  sit  with  them  ; 
which  we  did,  and  aided  them  in  remodelling  it ;  and  the  meet- 
ing adopted  it  as  altered. 

Sat  fifth,  sixth  and  seventh  days  of  the  Yearly  Meeting  much 
in  silence. 

First-day,  a  lai'ge  concourse  of  peoj^le  came  together.  The 
young  people  were  unsettled  ;  coming  into  the  meeting  at  a  late 
hour,  and  many  going  out  very  soon.  This  is  an  evidence  of 
defective  education ;  for  were  they  properly  instructed,  they 
could  not  easily  disturb  a  religious  meeting;  nor  would  they 
feel  the  same  inclination  to  be  going  out,  were  their  minds  im- 
pressed, as  they  ought  to  be,  with  the  solemnity  of  Divine  wor- 
ship. In  the  forenoon  I  was  silent,  other  Friends  being  engaged 
in  the  ministry ;  but  in  the  afternoon  I  was  led  to  call  the  at- 
tention of  Friends  to  the  afflictions,  permitted  to  overtake  the 
Society  ;  and  to  consider  how  far  our  unfaithfulness  had  brought 
them  upon  us.  To  examine  how  far  the  world  and  its  attrac- 
tions had  absorbed  the  mind  ;  so  that  some  may  have  forgotten 
the  duties  they  owe  to  their  Almighty  Creator;  their  spiritual 
eye  had  become  dim,  and  they  unable  to  sound  an  alarm  at  the 
approach  of  the  enemy,  because  they  had  lost  their  discernment. 
The  young  people  were  also  spoken  to,  on  their  conduct ;  and 
all  classes  invited  to  draw  near  to  the  Lord  Almighty;  that 
they  might  he  clothed  with  the  spirit  of  prayer,  to  cry  unto 
Ilim  for  help  in  this  day  of  trial ;  and  come  up  faithfully,  in 
their  generation,  in  showing  forth  the  excellency  of  the  religion 
we  profess,  and  laboring  in  its  blessed  cause.  I  hope  the  Spirit 
of  Him  w^ho  sceketh  to  save  that  which  is  lost,  and  to  preserve 
those  who  are  in  danger,  was  the  clothing  of  my  mind  ;  and  that 
his  power  was  exalted  over  disoi'derly  walkers ;  and  the  rightly- 
exercised  comforted. 

Tenth  month  2d.  Second  day.  Much  business  was  done. 
The  address  prepared  by  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  of  this 
Yearly  Meeting,  on  the  subject  of  slavery,  was  read  and  ap- 
proved ;  also  an  interesting  memorial  concerning  Joseph  Hunt, 
formerly  of  Evesham,  'New  Jersey  ;  who  deceased  in  the  thirty- 
second  year  of  his  age.  The  latter  gives  a  very  instructive  view 
of  his  religious  growth,  and  his  excellent  example,  and  perti- 
nent counsel  to  his  family  :  a  large  number  pf  these  papers  were 
directed  to  be  printed. 


316  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Third-day.  After  the  business  was  finished,  it  seemed  incum- 
bent upon  me,  to  endeavor  to  open  a  little  of  the  concern  I  felt, 
particularly  for  the  young  men,  in  these  times  of  commotion 
and  division;  when  many  spirits  are  abroad  in  the  world,  seek- 
ing to  unsettle  their  minds,  and  draw  them  from  that  inward 
abiding  with  Christ,  the  Captain  of  salvation  ;  wherein  only  we 
can  be  preserved,  receive  a  knowledge  of  our  place  and  service 
in  the  church  ;  and  wisdom  to  do  what  He  requires  of  us.  The 
danger  of  listening  to  those,  who  would  spoil  them,  through 
philosophy  and  vain  deceit ;  and  of  being  led  astray  from  Christ, 
the  Sun  of  Eighteousness  ;  so  as  to  become  like  wandering 
stars,  was  plainly  held  out  to  them.  The  faithful  laborer.s, 
striving  to  stem  the  current  of  disaffection,  were  encouraged  to 
maintain  their  ground,  with  christian  firmness  ;  and  the  young 
men  invited  to  deep  indwelling  at  the  feet  of  Jesus  ;  that  they 
may  be  prepared  to  bear  their  share  of  the  weight  of  the  ark, 
and  stand  nobly  in  their  day  for  the  cause  of  Christ. 

Many  Friends,  after  the  meeting  was  over,  expressed  their 
unity  with  our  labors,  and  the  hope  that  they  would  prove  use- 
ful. We  passed  the  remainder  of  the  day  at  E.  C.'s,  where  a 
lar<re  number  called  to  take  an  affectionate  leave  of  us. 

Fourth-day.  Our  kind  friend  E.  C.  sent  H.  Cope  and  myself 
to  Newport,  ten  miles  north  of  Eichmond,  where  a  Friend  took 
us  to  Cheny  Cxrove  Meeting,  about  seven  miles  further.  It  was 
a  heavy  time,  the  spring  of  the  ministry  not  rising  freely. 

Fifth-day  morning,  attended  Ils'ew  Garden  Meeting.  In  the 
afternoon,  an  appointed  meeting  held  at  Newport;  which  was 
a  mixed  company  of  Friends  and  the  town  people.  At  parting 
with  our  beloved  friend  William  ITobbs,  he  expressed,  in  a  father- 
ly, discreet  manner,  his  satisfaction  with  my  visit,  and  labors 
among  them,  which  was  a  strength  to  me. 

Attended  an  appointed  meeting  at  Dover,  about  six  miles 
from  New  Garden,  and  then  rode  to  Eichmond. 

Tenth  month  7th.  Eose  early  to  be  ready  for  the  stage,  but 
did  not  get  off'  until  some  time  after  daylight;  the  weather  was 
wet  and  heavy,  which  made  travelling  unj)leasant.  We  passed 
through  Easton  ;  thence  to  Hamilton,  a  beautifully  situated 
village;  the  ^Eiami  running  through  it,  and  on  one  side  a  canal, 
coming  from  Cincinnati,  through  a  body  of  rich  productive  land  ; 
where  we  hear  that  large  crops  of  corn  are  raised.  We  reached 
Cincinnati  about  eight  o'clock. 


JOURNAL    OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  317 

8th.  First-day.  Attended  their  morning  meeting  ;  in  which 
I  was  enahled  to  set  forth  the  nature  of  the  christian  religion  ; 
which  changes  the  heart,  and  constrains  us,  as  one  of  the  first 
duties,  to  do  justly  in  the  sight  of  our  great  Creator ;  not  as 
men  pleasers,  or  eye  servants,  but  in  the  Lord's  fear,  who 
searches  the  heart.  This  vital,  practical  religion,  regulates  the 
natural  passions  and  propensities ;  brings  them  into  subjection, 
and  qualifies  man  in  every  station  in  life,  to  glorify  God  in 
his  body  and  in  his  spirit,  which  are  his.  In  its  nature  and 
operation,  it  is  plain  and  simple  ;  consisting  in  obedience  to  the 
Divine  will,  as  made  known  in  the  heart.  As  man,  through 
the  power  of  Divine  Grace,  glorifies  his  Maker,  he  works  out 
his  own  salvation,  with  fear  and  trembling,  before  Him;  and 
at  the  same  time,  is  fitted  for  the  Lord's  service  in  the  world 
and  in  the  church.  Thomas  Kite  ended  the  meeting-  with 
prayer. 

Feeling  a  concern  to  see  the  members  alone,  I  proposed  they 
should  convene  in  the  afternoon  ;  which  Avas  agreed  to.  The 
number  now  composing  this  meeting,  we  were  informed,  is 
about  one  hundred  males  and  one  hundred  and  fifty  females.  A 
pretty  large  company  collected,  princij)ally  young  persons ;  and 
I  had  an  opportunity  to  show,  that  separated  as  they  are  from 
the  body  of  Friends,  some  of  them  coming  from  places  where 
they  had  had  many  advantages,  they  have  increasing  need  to 
watch  and  pray,  lest  they  enter  into  the  temptations  around 
them.  Habits  or  principles,  not  congenial  with  the  purity  and 
self-denial  of  the  gospel,  getting  among  them,  may  easily  spread; 
unless  those  who  know  the  voice  of  the  true  Shepherd,  keep  a 
firm  ground,  in  steadily  opposing  wrong  things.  Faithfulness 
is  not  only  of  gi-eat  moment  to  themselves,  but  may  also  be  so, 
to  the  rising  city  where  they  dwell.  They  were  affectionately 
entreated  to  yield  to  the  tendering  convictions  of  the  Spirit  of 
Christ,  which  some  of  them  had  known  to  operate  powerfully 
on  the  heart ;  and  lay  aside  those  things  which  He  required 
them  to  give  up ;  that  He  may  fashion  them  for  his  use ;  and 
they  would  receive  the  consolations  of  his  peace,  to  reward 
them  for  obedience.  Parents  were  impressively  exhorted  to 
watch  over  the  children  committed  to  their  charge;  command- 
ing them  in  love,  and  restraining  them  from  unsuitable  things ; 
tha.t,  as  delegated  shepherds,  they  might  guard  them  from  the 
corruptions  of  the  world,  and  prepare  their  hearts  for  the  seed 


318  JOURNAL    OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

of  the  kingdom.  And  no  greater  joy  will  they  have  in  ad- 
vanced life,  next  to  Divine  approbation,  than  to  see  their  sons 
as  olive  plants  around  their  table,  and  their  daughters  as  corner- 
stones, polished  by  the  Truth,  after  the  similitude  of  a  palace 
I  felt  peaceful ;  Divine  help  having  bc-en  extended,  to  qualify 
for  the  discharge  of  duty. 

9th.  Second-day.  Our  friends  in  this  city  have  shown  us 
much  kind  and  afiectionale  attention;  and  I  believe  have  been 
united  to  us  in  the  visit.  We  parted  from  them  with  feelings 
of  sincere  regard,  desiring  their  growth  in  the  Triith;  and  took 
passage  in  the  steamboat  for  Pittsburg  or  Wheeling,  as  it  might 
suit  us  best.  This  mode  of  travelling  is  less  fatiguing  than  most 
othei's ;  yet  the  confinement  with  strangers,  and  the  monotony, 
add  to  its  wearisomeness.  One  morning  the  passengers  and 
men  were  startled  at  seeing  a  large  steamboat  meeting  us,  and 
so  near,  as  to  appear  improbable  the  boats  could  avoid  striking. 
The  engine  was  working  slowly,  on  account  of  taking  in  wood, 
and  the  helmsman  immediately  giving  the  signal  to  the  engi- 
neer, to  turn  the  wheel  back,  the  other  boat  just  passed  our 
bow,  without  injury.  Our  danger  was  occasioned  by  fog,  which 
prevented  those  on  the  two  boats  from  seeing  each  other  in 
time  ;  we  accordingly  came  to,  along  side  the  shore,  and  waited 
until  the  fog  had  dispersed.  The  captuin  said  he  had  known 
boats  to  run  over  others  and  sink  them  ;  so  that  Ave  had  cause 
to  be  thankful  to  our  Great  Preserver,  that  no  harm  was  permits 
ted  to  befal  us.  How  near  we  .sometimes  come  to  the  gates  of 
death,  without  being  destroyed,  we  cannot  tell ;  but  we  have  a 
merciful  Shepherd,  who  sleepeth  not  by  day  or  night,  and  con- 
stantly careth  for  us ;  even  when  we  are  not  remembering  Him  ; 
and  kindly  protects  and  delivers  us  from  many  dangers.  May 
the  sons  and  daughters  of  men  reverence,'  fear  and  praise  his 
great  and  worthy  name  ;  and  seiwe  Him  with  the  whole  heart. 

We  landed  at  Wheeling  on  fourth-day,  the  11th  ;  took  stage 
for  Cumberland,  and  thence,  by  railroad  and  steamboat,  reached 
the  wharf  at  Philadelphia,  about  three  o'clock  on  seventh-day 
morning.  It  being  moonlight,  encouraged  us  to  leave  the  boat 
at  once,  and  I  soon  gained  entrance  into  my  own  dwelling,  and 
was  heartily  received  by  my  beloved  family  ;  finding  them  all 
in  health,  no  evil  having  befallen  any  of  them  in  my  absence; 
for  which,  and  the  help  and  preseiwation  granted  me  in  the 
prosecution  of  this  little  requisition  of  duty,  and  the  peaceful 


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mind  now  enjoyed,  I  desire  to  be  humbly  tliankful  to  my  gra- 
cious Leader. 

On  the  30th,  feeling  a  gentle  pointing  to  Chester  Monthly 
Meeting,  held  in  this  month  at  Springfield,  1  went  to  it ;  and 
in  unison  with  my  beloved  friend  Sarah  Emlen,  who  addressed 
the  young  people,  I  was  drawn  forth  in  love  towards  them,  to 
show  them  the  blessed  results  of  obedience  to  the  Divine  com- 
mands. The  man  who  was  born  blind,  received  sight,  after  his 
eyes  had  been  anointed  with  clay,  by  following  the  direction  of 
the  Lord  Jesus,  to  go  to  the  pool  of  Siloam  and  wash.  And  when 
the  ten  lepers  were  going  to  show"  themselves  to  the  priest,  in 
conformity  with  Christ's  bidding,  as  they  went,  they  were  heal- 
ed. Our  dear  friend  S.  Emlen,  having  then  a  prospect  of  again 
spreading  before  her  friends  a  concern  which  she  had  long  felt, 
and  once  laid  before  her  meetings,  to  pay  a  religious  visit  to 
England,  L^eland,  &c.,  the  current  of  the  stream  of  the  ministry 
seemed  to  embrace  her  situation  also  ;  encompassed  with  fears ; 
and  proved  a  strength  to  her;  though  I  did  not  know  it  was 
her  intention  to  bring  it  before  that  meeting.  We  ought  not  to 
magnify  our  little  impressions  to  duty,  beyond  their  deserts; 
yet  going  there  in  faith,  without  any  other  object  than  a  com- 
pliance with  apprehended  duty,  and  being  introduced  into  fel- 
low feeling  with  a  suffering  sister,  and  enabled  in  any  degree 
to  cheer  and  animate  to  faithfulness,  was  a  comfort  to  me,  and 
a  little  evidence  that  the  Lord's  hand  was  in  it.  He  that 
watereth  shall  be  watered  himself. 

Twelfth  month  2.3d.  Feeling  my  mind  drawn  to  go  down  to 
Westtown  school,  I  set  off  this  morning.  Two  deaths  having 
occurred  among  the  scholars,  sympathy,  and  the  impression  of 
duty,  induced  me  to  make  them  a  visit.  Attended  their  meeting 
the  next  day.  I  was  exercised  among  them  in  the  authority  of 
Truth  ;  being  in  the  first  place,«led  to  deal  plainly  with  some  of 
the  children ;  who,  it  felt  to  me,  were  under  very  little  relig- 
ious restraint  in  their  own  minds ;  but  were  doing  what,  at 
times,  they  knew  was  wrong,  and  inciting  one  another  to  the 
same  improper  conduct.  Then  I  was  turned  to  the  care-takers ; 
to  encourage  them  to  a  more  fervent  travail  of  soul  for  them- 
selves, and  for  the  children  entrusted  to  their  charge.  The 
power  of  Truth  spread  over  the  meeting,  and  brought  the  spirits 
of  some  down  ;  tendered  others,  and  I  hope  impressions  were 
made  that  will  be  lastingly  useful.    In  the  afternoon  I  felt  bound 


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to  open  to  them  the  ground  of  our  testimony  to  the  use  of  the 
plain  language;  thou  and  thee  to  one,  and  you  to  more  than 
one.  It  was  the  scripture  language  from  Genesis  to  Revela- 
tions ;  and  it  was  our  duty  to  avoid  the  corruptions  brought  in 
through  pride  :  also,  of  our  testimony  against  the  vain  titles 
given  to  men,  and  against  the  heathen  names  of  the  days  and 
months.  I  returned  home  on  the  25th  in  peace ;  but  as  is  very 
common  with  me,  in  poverty  of  spirit. 

1844.  First  month  1st.  Attended  at  the  Girls'  Select  School 
by  appointment.  At  the  close  of  the  school,  after  religious 
reading,  was  gone  through,  Thomas  Kite  had  a  short  communi- 
cation, on  the  importance  of  making  a  new  beginning  to  improve 
with  the  new  year.  I  was  impressed  with  the  beautiful  orna- 
ment of  modesty  and  diffidence,  in  the  female  character;  espe- 
cially when  it  proceeds  from  the  heavenly  influences  of  the 
spirit  of  our  blessed  Eedeemer,  who  was  meek  and  lowly  of 
heart.  As  1  gave  up,  unworthy  as  I  felt  myself,  to  the  gentle 
impressions  of  duty,  the  blessedness  and  substantial  happiness 
experienced  by  the  devoted  soul,  in  w^hich  the  Lord  condescends 
to  take  up  his  abode,  was  brought  to  view ;  and  the  dear  chil- 
dren persuaded  to  yield  to  the  visitations  of  Divine  love.  He 
would  clothe  them  with  the  modesty,  and  the  graces  imparted 
by  his  Spirit ;  which  would  be  as  a  barrier  between  them  and 
those  who  would  allure  them  from  the  path  of  holiness. 

7th.  After  a  long  silence  in  our  Particular  Meeting,  and  pass- 
ing through  much  discouragement  on  my  own  account,  and  the 
opposition  w^hich  prevails  in  worldly-minded  men,  to  the  plain 
doctrines  of  the  gospel,  I  was  brought  under  exercise  on  account 
of  a  state,  which  had  tried  many  things,  and  sought  after  enjoy- 
ment in  the  comforts  of  life,  and  was  disapjjointed,  and  now  had 
little  or  nothing  to  rest  on.  The  language  of  David  presented  : 
"  I  have  seen  an  end  of  all  perfection  ;  but  thy  commandment  is 
exceeding  broad."  Earthly  comforts  and  delights,  in  their  most 
perfect  and  complete  state,  would  end ;  but  godliness,  which  is 
keeping  God's  commandments,  is  exceeding  broad;  having  the 
promise  of  the  life  that  now  is  and  of  that  which  is  to  come.  I 
felt  tenderly  for  those  who  seemed  to  have  wasted  time  and 
strength,  and  were  brought  to  a  sense  of  destitution ;  believing 
that  it  was  in  mercy  the  Lord  thus  deals  with  poor,  negligent  and 
unfaithful  man  ;  that  He  ma,y  raise  in  him  a  longing  desire  after 
durable  riches ;  the  bread  and  water  of  life.     These  were  fer- 


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vently  and  affectionatelj  labored  with,  to  persuade  them  to  en- 
dure his  dispensations,  and  apply  to  Him  for  help  and  strength, 
to  redeem  the  lost  time,  hy  faithfully  following  him  in  the  work 
of  regeneration. 

At  our  large  evening  meeting,  we  had  a  long  season  of  close, 
inward  conflict;  during  which,  I  expected  we  should  close  the 
sitting,  as  we  did  last  first-da}^,  without  anything  being  said ; 
which,  if  it  was  the  will  of  the  Head  of  the  church,  I  believe 
we  were  desirous  of  submitting  to,  as  being  in  wisdom,  and  for 
the  good  of  the  people.  At  the  same  time,  there  was  a  yearn- 
ing of  heart,  towards  some  who  were  hungering  and  thirsting 
after  the  bread  and  water  of  life ;  and  were  adopting  the  lan- 
guage, "Tell  me,  O  Thou  whom  my  soul  loveth,  where  thou  feed- 
est ;  where  thou  makest  thy  flock  to  rest  at  noon ;  for  why 
should  I  be  as  one  that  turneth  aside  by  the  flocks  of  thy  com- 
panions ?"  and  when  it  seemed  near  time  to  separate,  I  was  in- 
duced, under  fear  of  omitting  my  duty,  to  revive  the  declaration 
of  our  Lord,  "Where  two  or  three  are  gathered  together  in  my 
name,  there  am  1  in  the  midst  of  them ;"  and  to  say  that  He  is 
in  the  midst  of  such,  whether  they  are  sensible  of  it  or  not ; 
Avatching  over  them  and  beholding  their  respective  conditions. 
He  may  try  their  faith,  but  He  will  teach  these  to  keep  the 
word  of  his  patience ;  and  if  they  wait  upon  Him,  will  sustain 
them,  until  he  sees  fit  to  manifest  himself  to  them.  Encourage- 
ment was  handed  to  these  seeking  souls;  that  although,  they 
may  have  but  few  outward  helps,  yet  if  they  continue  dedicat- 
ed to  their  Lord,  He  will  cause  them  to  grow  in  the  Truth,  so 
as  to  be  helpers  to  others.  Our  beloved  friend,  Elizabeth  Pit- 
field,  knelt  in  solemn  supplication,  and  the  meeting  ended  to 
satisfaction. 

10th.  To-day  I  attended  the  Western  District  Meeting  after 
a  long  absence  ;  and  was  favored  through  the  unmerited  conde- 
scension of  the  Lord  our  God,  to  preach  the  way  of  life  and  sal- 
vation ;  being  through  the  cross,  and  baptisms,  and  deaths  oft. 

Second  month  5th.  We  had  a  good  Quarterly  Meeting ;  our 
frieijd  Isabel  Cassin,  from  England,  being  exercised  among  us, 
and  enabled  to  bring  up  stones  of  memorial.  She  said  the  strug- 
gle was  between  the  seed  of  the  bondmaid  and  that  of  the  free 
woman  ;  and  to  the  latter,  Christ  would  give  the  victory.  She 
was  glad  to  feel  Friends  in  this  city,  as  bone  of  her  bone,  and  flesh 
of  her  flesh,  and  there  were  those  who  are  travailing  in  birth ; 


322  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

and  some  who  are  shut  up  as  in  prison-houses,  to  whom  the  lan- 
guage would  be  uttered,  "  Go  forth  ye  prisoners  of  hope."  She 
appeared  to  have  the  prospect,  that  faithful  ones  would  be  raised 
up  to  maintain  the  testimonies  of  Truth  ;  and  preach  the  glad  tid- 
ings of  salvation  through  a  meek,  and  crucified,  and  glorified  Lord. 
My  dear  wife  bent  the  knee  in  solemn,  fervent  supplication ;  by 
which,  and  the  foregoing  testimony,  many  hearts  were  tendered. 

29th.  For  many  weeks  I  have  been  moving  along  under  se- 
cret bitterness  of  spirit.  My  desires  are  at  times  strong  for  en- 
tire victory  over  every  habit  or  propensity  that  stands  in  the 
way  of  communion  with  the  Father  of  mercies.  May  the  Lord  in 
his  infinite  and  unmerited  mercy,  condescend  to  show  me  those 
things  that  arc  contrary  to  his  blessed  and  holy  will,  and  lead 
me  clean  out  of  them;  that  I  may  be  more  fitted  for  his  use; 
and  enabled  to  hold  forth  an  example  of  purity,  and  gravity,  and 
self-denial,  that  may  tend  to  draw  others  to  the  blessed  Truth, 
and  settle  them  on  Christ,  the  Eock  and  Foundation  of  his 
church,  and  of  every  living  member  of  it. 

Our  friend  Eachel  Priestman,  from  England,  having  a  desire 
to  hold  a  meeting  with  the  laboring  part  of  the  inhabitants  in 
the  southern  suburbs  of  the  city,  particularly  with  those  who 
go  to  places  of  worship  but  little,  arrangements  were  made  with 
the  trustees  of  the  Methodist  Meeting-house,  on  Wharton  Street, 
for  its  use  ;  which  being  granted,  notice  was  spread  ;  both  at  the 
first-day  meeting  there,  and  by  hand-bills  through  the  district. 
Last  evening  a  very  large  concourse  met  there  ;  many  more  than 
could  get  in  the  house.  It  was  computed  that  sixteen  hundred 
were  seated  ;  who  conducted  with  much  pi-o^jriety,  and  to  whom 
our  friend  preached,  at  considerable  length.  After  she  had  spo- 
ken, my  mind  was  impressed  with  the  belief,  thatit  would  be  right 
to  open  a  Itttle  the  inward  and  spiritual  nature  of  the  gospel 
dispensation  ;  reviving  the  answer  of  our  blessed  Lord  to  the 
question,  "when  the  kingdom  of  God  should  come  :"  "  The  king- 
dom of  God,"  said  He,  "cometh  not  with  observation;  neither 
shall  they  say,  lo  here,  or  lo  there!  for  behold  the  kingdom  of 
God  is  within  you."  The  great  liability  to  look  abroad  for  that 
which  is  to  be  found  within  ourselves;  and  the  necessity  of 
expei'iencing  Christ,  by  his  Spirit,  to  bind  the  strong  man,  to 
spoil  his  goods,  and  cast  him  out,  was  set  before  the  attentive 
company;  that  so  every  one  may  know  the  heart  cleansed  and 
sanctified,  and  made  a  temple  for  the  Lord  of  life  and  glory  to 


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dwell  in.  Divine  help  was  near;  enabling  both  of  us  to  preach 
the  gospel  of  salvation,  through  the  Son  and  Sent  of  God.  Our 
friend  closed  the  meeting  with  prayer.  I  understood  after- 
vvards,  there  was  general  satisfaction  with  the  meeting. 

Third  month  13th.  Our  annual  assembl}^  this  year  was  large 
and  solemn.  Many  manifested  a  lively  interest  in  its  proceed- 
ings; and  faithful,  exercised  Friends,  w^ere  engaged  to  labor  for 
the  promotion  of  greater  diligence  and  devotion  in  all  our  re- 
ligious duties.  I  believe  that  the  blessed  Head  of  the  church 
was  graciously  near,  uniting  us  together,  and  quaUfying  us  to 
do  his  will,  and  to  show  forth  the  excellent  order,  and  solid 
weightiness  of  spirit,  that  are  to  be  found  among  his  people, 
where  He  presides,  and  every  one,  in  humility,  is  desiring  to 
keep  his  place  in  the  body.  We  have  cause  to  be  reverently 
thankful  for  his  great  condescension,  and  to  ascribe  all  the 
praise  to  his  great  and  holy  Name. 

Information  being  received  during  its  session,  that  a  treaty 
had  been  negotiated  by  the  President,  with  the  Texan  govern- 
ment, for  the  junction  of  its  territories  to  the  dominions  of  the 
United  States,  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  convened  at  the  close 
of  the  Yearly  Meeting,  to  consider  whether  it  would  be  right,  for 
Friends  to  remonstrate  against  the  contemplated  measure ;  by 
which  slavery  and  the  slave  trade  would  be  extended  in  this  land. 
Such  a  document  was  concluded  to  be  drawn  up  ;  a  committee 
was  appointed,  and  on  seventh-day  morning,  the  20th  of  Fourth 
month,  it  was  produced,  united  wdth,  and  several  Friends  named 
to  take  it  to  Washington,  tor  presentation  to  Congress.  They 
accordingly  went  to  the  seat  of  government ;  had  it  offered  to 
the  Senate,  and  had  an  interview  with  the  President,  and  with 
the  representatives  of  our  city  ;  and  returned  on  the  25th. 

Fifth  month  11th.  Our  city  has  been  thrown  into  great  com- 
motion, and  some  parts  into  great  terror,  by  the  circumstance 
of  some  persons,  said  to  be  foreigners,  tiring  into  a  meeting  of 
Native  Americans,  convened  for  political  purposes  in  Northern 
Liberties. 

A  religious  life  is  at  all  times  blessed,  but  its  value  is  most 
especially  felt  in  times  of  danger,  and  at  the  approach  of 
death.  Those  who  love  and  serve  God  in  the  time  of  prosper- 
ity, will  not  be  forgotten  nor  deserted  by  him  in  the  day  of 
adversity.  His  name  will  be  to  them  a  strong  tower,  to  which 
they  will  flee  and  find  safety ;  even  when  terror  and  amazement 


324  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

overtake  the  worldly  and  the  negligent  ones.  "VYhat  solid  ad- 
vantage is  derived  from  giving  up  to  the  eai'ly  visitations  of 
Divine  Grace,  progressing,  through  obedience  to  the  cross,  from 
stature  to  stature,  and  thereby  attaining  an  establishment  in 
the  Truth.  These  have  the  pearl  of  great  price,  the  white  stone, 
and  in  it  a  new  name  written,  which  no  man  knoweth,  saving 
him  that  hath  it;  an  inestimable  treasure;  Christ  living  and 
abiding  in  them,  the  hope  of  their  glory,  and  the  foundation 
upon  which  they  are  built  and  settled.  They  want  no  other; 
they  thirst  for  no  other  water,  than  what  springs  in  their  souls, 
from  Him,  the  Fountain  of  living  waters;  and  their  prayer 
and  travail  is,  that  they  be  made  and  kept  as  pillars  in  his  house, 
that  shall  go  no  more  out.  These  are  as  salt  in  the  earth, 
and  lights  in  the  world;  soldiers  in  the  Lamb's  army,  who 
bear  the  ensign  of  the  Prince  of  Peace;  and  who  will,  under 
his  command,  finally  obtain  the  victory  over  death,  hell  and 
the  grave,  in  their  own  experience ;  and  over  the  kingdom  of 
antichinst  the  world  over;  even  so,  Amen. 

16th.  Eeceiving  a  gentle  intimation  the  day  before,  to  go  to 
the  Western  District  Meeting,  I  attended  it  yesterday.  A 
Friend  from  another  Quarter,  communicated  a  few  words,  on 
the  necessity  of  praying  without  ceasing,  and  in  all  things 
giving  thanks.  Another,  not  belonging  there,  knelt  soon  after, 
in  petition  to  the  Almighty,  for  preservation,  and  that  as  the 
harvest  was  great,  more  laborers  might  be  sent  into  the  harvest 
field.  My  duty  appeared  to  be  to  hold  up  the  plainness  and  the 
holiness  of  the  path,  which  Christ  casts  up  for  his  children  to 
walk  in ;  that  when  He  comes  into  a  soul,  to  begin  the  work  of 
regeneration,  He  often  causes  his  light  to  shine  as  in  a  dark 
])lace ;  discovering  to  it  its  real  condition  ;  what  it  must  part 
with  before  it  can  be  fit  for  Him,  by  his  Spirit,  to  take  up  his 
abode  in,  and  before  it  is  prepared  to  be  made  use  of  by  Him, 
in  his  work  and  service.  To  such  a  soul  this  is  peculiarly  one 
of  the  days  of  the  Son  of  man;  in  which  if  it  submits  and  does 
not  resist,  his  love  will  be  shed  abroad;  He  will  raise  in  it  fer- 
vent cries  for  strength  to  forsake  all  and  to  follow  Him  ;  these 
cries  will  be  heard  and  answered.  He  begets  the  will,  and 
works  the  deed  in  us,  and  as  He  is  faithfully  followed,  the  soul 
is  gradually  led  out  of  everything  that  defiles,  and  is  contrary 
to  the  Divine  will ;  and  thus  an  entrance  being  obtained  at  the 
strait  gate,  a  growth  and  gradual   establishment  in  the  blessed 


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Truth  is  known.  I  began  low,  and  the  Lord  furnished  me  with 
matter,  one  thing  opening  after  another,  until  the  stream  rose 
and  overflowed  the  hearts  of  some  present;  softening  them 
down,  and  renewing  desires  for  a  participation  in  the  precious 
things  of  God,  the  blessing  of  the  everlasting  hills.  Christ 
Jesus,  and  Ilim  crucified,  was  preached;  and  some  who  had  of 
latter  time  been  awakened,  as  I  believe,  there  were  such  pre- 
sent, were  pressingly  called  to  believe  on  Him,  and  yield  to  his 
heavenly  visitations  and  convictions.  Another  Friend  closed 
the  meeting  with  prayer,  particularly  that  those  to  w4iom  the 
word  of  reconciliation  was  committed,  might  be  preserved  to 
the  end,  and  finish  their  course  with  joy,  and  to  testify  the  gos- 
pel of  God's  universal  grace.  We  have  great  cause  to  thank 
Him  for  his  goodness  and  great  condescension  to  our  low  and 
unworthy  state;  and  to  put  our  mouths  in  the  dust;  humbly 
craving  that  He  will  suffer  neither  heights  nor  depths,  princi- 
palities nor  powers,  nor  any  other  creature,  to  separate  us  from 
his  love  which  is  in  Christ  Jesus,  our  crucified  yet  victorious 
Lord  and  Saviour, 


CHAP  TEE   XVI. 

1844. 

Changes  taking  place  in  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting — Lydia  Dean — Phila- 
delphia Quarterly  Meeting — Concord  and  Western  Quarterly  Meetings — 
Haddonfield  Quarterly  Meeting — Keligious  visit  to  the  Meetings  in  the 
Northwestern  part  of  New  York  Yearly  Meeting. 

1844,  Fifth  month  25th.  Sarah  Emlen  being  about  to  em- 
bark for  England  on  a  religious  visit,  I  called  at  her  lodgings 
last  evening,  where  I  found  several  Friends.  After  conversing 
pleasantly  for  a  time,  we  fell  into  silence,  and  several  communi- 
cations were  made,  encouraging  and  counselling  our  dear  friend 
to  put  her  trust  in  Him  who  has  covered  her  head  in  the  day  of 
other  battles ;  who  is  the  only  foundation  upon  which  we  can 
rest  with  safety,  and  the  only  leader  and  commander  who  can 
guide  in  the  way  and  work,  so  that  it  will  yield  peace  in  the 
conclusion,  when  a  retreat  is  sounded  in  the  mental  ear  from  the 
22 


326  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

field  of  service.  And  how  important,  tit  the  ckise  of  the  labor, 
to  have  the  evidence  that  we  have  fought  in  his  ranks,  and  ad- 
vocated his  cause,  and  not  that  of  any  other.  To  these  He  will 
grant  the  reward  of  sweet  peace,  which  is  of  incomparably 
higher  value  than  all  the  applause  which  vain  man  can  bestow. 
No  party  adulation  or  applause  can  give  peace,  but  will  rob  us 
of  it,  if  we  suffer  ourselves  to  be  drawn  aside  from  faitlifully 
following  the  Master. 

On  the  23d,  I  was  to  the  Arch  Street  Meeting  in  much  weak- 
ness and  fear,  yet  did  not  feel  easy  to  refrain  from  opening  the 
necessity  of  knowing  Christ  to  be  our  baptizer,  and  sanctifier. 
These  only  are  his  servants,  whom  the  Father  will  honor.  By 
the  humiliating,  refining  operations  of  his  fiery  baptisms,  the 
creature  is  brought  into  the  state  of  a  little  child ;  looking  up 
to,  and  leaning  upon  Him.  Hereby  preservation  is  experienced ; 
the  spiritual  eye  is  anointed  to  see,  and  to  discriminate  be- 
tween that  which  serves  God,  and  that  which  serves  him  not. 
And  as  they  keep  faithful,  these  are  made  living  witnesses  of 
the  powder  of  his  resurrection,  and  the  majesty  and  the  mercy 
which  Pie  displays  in  delivering,  leading  on,  and  clothing  the 
soul,  with  the  garments  of  his  righteousness  and  praise. 

Changes  are  gradually  taking  place  among  us  in  this  cit3^ 
There  are  now  very  few  left,  to  whom  some  of  us  can  look  as 
fathers  and  mothers,  counsellors  and  supporters,  in  the  trials  and 
exercises  of  the  day.  Of  the  many  who  wear  the  garb  of 
Friends,  too  small  a  proportion  are  daily  dwelling  under  a  heart- 
felt concern  for  their  own  soul's  salvation,  and  that  they  may 
come  up  as  fellow  helpers  in  the  cause  of  Christ.  There  are, 
however,  some  of  this  description,  who  are  a  comfort  and 
strength  to  their  elder  brethren  and  sisters.  But  how  have  the 
love  of  the  world,  its  fashions  and  its  maxims,  together  with  its 
ease  and  its  deceitful  spirit,  captivated  not  a  few  who  had  made 
a  good  beginning;  stopped  their  growth,  and  eaten  out  the  life 
and  power  of  religion.  When  we  have  looked  around  to  sec 
who  would  be  found  prepared  for  the  important  station  of 
elders,  we  can  discover  but  few  who  have  not  fallen  back  or  are 
making  but  little  progress;  so  that  instead  of  being  ready  for 
watchmen  and  watchwonien,  and  instructors  of  ministers,  they 
have  need  to  be  reminded  of  their  slackness,  and  of  the  mourn- 
ful feelings  which  their  unfaithfulness  brings  over  those  who 
have  been  watching  for  their  growth  in   the  blessed  Truth. 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  327 

This  state  of  society  is  at  times  very  discouraging;  but,  never- 
theless, we  are  not  to  be  hindered  by  sucli  slothful  ones,  from 
doing  the  work  which  our  Master  points  out,  and  requires  us  to 
pei'form;  whether  others  hear  or  refuse  to  profit  by  it.  To 
know  our  own  souls  delivered  from  the  wrath  to  come,  is  of  the 
highest  imj^ortance  to  us ;  and  as  we  are  engaged  for  ourselves, 
the  Lord  may  secretly  bless  the  honest  discharge  of  duty  to 
others  also. 

Sixth  month  17th.  My  beloved  wife  having  been  engaged  in 
visiting  the  families  of  Woodbury  Meeting,  and  being  nearly 
ready  to  return  home,  I  went  there  this  morning.  In  the  after- 
noon, G.  M.  and  wife  accompanied  us  to  Sculltown  ;  she  having 
a  concern  to  make  a  visit  to  a  few  in  that  neighborhood  ;  which 
she  accomplished ;  being  favored  to  minister,  in  much  clearness, 
to  the  states  of  several  with  whom  we  had  religious  opportuni- 
ties. We  returned  to  Woodbury  next  afternoon,  and  to  our 
own  quiet,  peaceful  home  in  Philadelphia. 

21st.  Our  Meeting  for  Sufferings  was  held  this  day ;  in  which 
a  committee  was  appointed  to  draw  up  a  brief  address  to  our 
members  in  this  State,  cautioning  them  against  complying  with 
the  requisitions  of  a  militia  law,  recently  enacted  by  the  Legis- 
lature. The  meeting  adjourned  to  nine  o'clock  this  morning, 
(22d,)  when  the  essay  was  read,  carefully  examined,  and  direct- 
ed to  be  printed  and  circulated  among  the  members.  The  unity 
and  fellowship  with  which  the  subject  was  handled  and  result- 
ed, was  truly  encouraging  and  comforting. 

30th.  The  state  of  our  religious  Society,  and  the  secret  work- 
ings of  a  spirit  which  seeks  ease  and  despises  the  cross,  and 
would,  if  it  could,  lay  waste  the  testimonies  the  Holy  Spirit 
leads  into,  often  brings  sorrowful  and  depressing  sensations  over 
those  who  desire  to  see  those  testimonies  maintained.  Under 
these  feelings,  it  w^as  a  comfort  to  witness  the  Truth  rise  into 
dominion,  through  the  ministry  of  my  dear  wife,  this  morning 
in  our  meeting;  who  was  qualified  to  preach  the  necessity  of  in- 
dividually exYjei'iencing  Christ  to  be  the  resurrection  and  the 
life  in  us ;  raising  the  soul  out  of  a  state  of  spiritual  death,  and 
placing  the  affections  upon  things  that  are  invisible.  It  was  un- 
expected to  me,  but  I  felt  constrained  to  follow  her  in  suppli- 
cation to  the  Lord  our  God,  that  He  w^ould  baptize  and 
rebaptize  us  with  his  Holy  Spirit,  not  only  to  remove  the  chaff, 
but  to  keep  alive  a  flame  of  love  and  greater  devotion  to  Him, 


328  JOURNAL    OF   "WILLIAM    EVANS. 

on  the  altar  of  the  heart ;  to  unite  those  who  assemble  in  that 
place;  that  they  may  put  shoulder  to  shoulder;  and  with  one 
heart,  oifer  to  Him,  the  Lord  God  and  the  Lamb,  through  the 
powerful  influence  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  thanksgiving  and  praise, 
might,  majesty,  dominion  and  power,  to  whom  alone  it  belongs  ; 
but  to  us  blushing  and  confusion  of  face. 

Seventh  month  9th.  This  afternoon  was  interred,  in  the 
Western  Burying  Ground,  the  remains  of  our  much  beloved 
friend  LydiaDean,  late  of  New  York;  a  sound  and  lively  min- 
ister of  the  gospel  of  Christ.  She  believed  it  to  be  her  duty  to 
remove  to  this  city,  and  accordingly  came  last  autumn.  Her 
frame  was  remarkably  delicate;  and  having  been  long  afflicted 
with  bronchial  disease,  it  terminated  in  consumption  of  the 
lungs  ;  which  was  the  means  of  cutting  short  her  valuable  life. 
She  was  favored,  near  the  close,  with  a  precious  glimpse  of  her 
Saviour ;  and  said,  "  My  Saviour  has  come  at  last ;  how  glori- 
ous!" Her  resignation  and  preparation  for  death  were  a  sweet 
consolation  to  her  friends;  softening  the  trial  of  losing  so  excel- 
lent a  minister,  and  deep  travailler  for  Zion's  welfare.  She  held 
fast  to  the  end,  her  integrity  to  the  Truth,  as  declared  and  be- 
lieved by  Friends  from  the  rise  of  the  Society;  bearing  a  decid- 
ed testimony  against  all  attempts  at  modifying  its  doctrines,  or 
admitting  any  innovation  upon  them. 

30th.  Poverty  and  emptiness  have  been  my  portion  for  days 
past;  the  thought  sometimes  arising,  whether  I  shall  again  be 
enabled  to  engage  in  the  Lord's  work  with  acceptance.  Yet 
strong  desires  have  been  felt  to  experience  preservation,  greater 
degrees  of  purification,  and  a  deeper  establishment  in  the  Truth. 
One  after  another  is  being  removed  from  works  to  rewards  ;  and 
how  soon  the  awful  summons  may  be  sounded  in  the  ear  of  those 
left  behind,  no  one  of  us  knows.  But  it  has  felt  to  me  increas- 
ingly needful,  to  watch  against  temptation,  and  to  resist  it 
steadily,  that  the  work  of  redemption  and  sanctification  may 
continue  to  go  on  with  the  day. 

Eighth  month  5th.  We  held  our  Quarterly  Meeting  this 
day.  Those  meetings  are  often  trying  seasons;  producing 
mournful  feelings,  on  account  of  the  want  of  fervent,  united, 
spiritual  labor,  for  the  prevalence  of  Divine  life,  and  the  lively 
support  of  our  discipline  and  testimonies;  so  that  we  might  see 
the  Truth  prevail,  and  the  members  prospering  in  it.  And  yet, 
I  trust,  there  is  a  body  preserved,  though  it  may  not  be  numer- 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  329 

ous,  "who  are  united  in  the  fellowship  of  suffering,  for  the  same 
blessed  cause;  mourning  and  travailing  together  before  the 
Lord,  on  account  of  the  effects  of  a  worldly  spirit,  which  cannot 
bear  the  cross ;  even  amongst  some  who  would  wish  our  reli- 
gious Society  to  be  more  like  the  other  professors  of  Christianity, 
in  language,  dress  and  manners.  Ah!  these  have  inflicted  a  se- 
vere blow  upon  us,  which  we  were  in  nowise  prepared  to  expect. 
But  the  Lord  on  high,  who  is  mightier  than  the  noise  of  many 
waters,  can  sustain  his  children  in  their  deep  probations,  and 
mightily  defend  his  blessed  cause;  even  though  the  truly  devo- 
ted in  heart  may  be  few ;  and  their  strength,  at  times,  seem 
ready  to  fail.  The  turning  aside  of  some,  like  a  deceitful  boAV 
in  the  day  of  battle,  giving  their  strength  in  secret  to  wrong 
things,  is  a  cause  of  great  discouragement  to  the  single-hearted 
soldiers  of  Christ.  It  not  only  creates  doubts  and  faltering 
among  some  others,  but  it  will  certainly  bring  weakness  and 
blindness  on  themselves. 

Feeling  drawings  to  attend  Concord  and  the  Western  Quar- 
terly Meetings,  I  went  to  Springfield,  and  attended  their  first- 
day  meeting,  on  the  18th  ;  in  which  it  appeared  to  me,  that  the 
example  of  faithful  and  upright  members  in  the  church,  would 
tend  to  lead  others  into  the  narrow  way  of  self-denial,  and  to 
keep  up  a  defence  against  the  inroad  of  error.  The  obligation 
parents  are  under,  to  rule  their  children  in  the  authority  and 
wisdom  of  Truth,  and  to  apply  the  same  kind  of  restraint  to 
them  which  they  are  bound  to  live  under  themselves,  was  also 
brought  to  view.  Where  they  permit  wrong  things  in  them, 
they  weaken  themselves,  and  do  an  injury  to  their  offspring. 

19th.  Accompanied  my  brother  and  sister  Ehoads  to  Con- 
cord. The  Select  Meeting  was  not  a  very  animating  time,  yet 
our  dear  friend  and  mother  in  Israel,  Hannah  Gibbons,  had  good 
service. 

20th.  Was  held  the  Quarterly  Meeting  for  discipline.  After 
some  time,  I  felt  it  right  to  revive  the  apostolic  injunction, 
"Believe  not  every  spirit,  but  to  try  the  spirits,  whether  they 
are  of  God ;"  and  to  hold  forth  a  caution,  to  beware  of  the 
many  spirits  and  voices  that  are  abroad  in  Christendom ;  by 
which  the  grand  enemy  is  seeking  to  allure  from  a  steadfast  sub- 
jection to  the  Lord  Jesus,  in  his  spiritual  appearance  in  the 
heart.  It  matters  nothing  to  Satan,  by  what  means  he  can  ef- 
fect this  object;  even  if  it  be  by  engaging  the  children  of  our 


330  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

Heaveuly  Father,  in  various  plans  for  bettering  the  condition 
of  mankind,  but  in  which  it  may  not  be  his  will  they  should 
engage.  If  we  take  the  government  of  ourselves  into  our  own 
hands,  instead  of  bearing  the  cross,  in  doing  his  will,  and  his 
appointed  work,  we  lose  his  Divine  guidance  ;  our  spiritual  eye 
will  become  blind;  and  we  shall  grope  in  the  dark,  not  know- 
ing whither  we  are  going.  Thus  we  shall  lose  the  place  in  the 
body,  which  He  allots,  and  must  be  cast  forth  as  dead  branches. 
Some  who  have  begun  well,  and  walked  in  the  Truth  for  a  time  ; 
by  unwatchfulness,  and  gradually  again  giving  way  to  their 
own  wills,  have  at  last  fallen  into  such  darkness,  that  they  have 
done  despite  to  the  Holy  Spirit,  and  landed  in  a  state  of  entire 
unbelief  Friends  were  solemnly  called  upon  to  keep  to  Christ, 
and  his  inward  guidance,  that  a  growth  in  grace,  and  an  estab- 
lishment on  Him,  the  Eock  of  ages,  may  be  witnessed.  The 
meeting  closed  with  solemn  prayer,  by  Thomas  Kite. 

21st.  I  staid  at  Concord  to  attend  the  Particular  Meeting; 
which  was  small,  being  generall}^  so  at  this  time.  Some  service 
presented;  which  was  followed  by  peace  ;  and  in  the  afternoon, 
I  went  to  the  Western  Quarter.  The  Select  Meeting  was  made 
up  of  a  small  number.  They  were  exhorted  to  increased  travail 
of  spirit  for  themselves,  and  for  the  flock.  The  apostle  Peter 
adduces  the  answer  to  the  prayer  of  Elijah  for  rain,  after  a 
drought  of  three  years  and  six  months,  as  proof  that  the  fervent, 
effectual  prayer  of  a  righteous  man  availeth  much.  And  if  the 
members  of  the  church  dwell  under  the  clothing  of  the  spirit 
of  prayer,  and  travail  for  the  prosperity  of  the  cause  of  Christ, 
and  the  transformation  of  those  not  yet  brought  into  the  Truth, 
we  have  ground  to  believe  that  it  will  be  answered ;  and  the 
fruits  of  their  exercise  will  gradually  appear. 

23d.  A  pretty  large  company  collected  at  the  Quarterly  Meet- 
ino-.  Two  ministers  were  led  to  speak  to  those  w^ho  were  not 
occupying  the  gifts :  bestowed  on  them  as  they  ought;  and 
who  thus  occasioned  mourning  to  the  baptized  members  of  the 
church.  From  the  exercise  and  travail  which  prevailed,  and 
the  condescension  of  the  Blessed  Helper  of  Israel,  I  hoped  that 
some  good  impressions  were  made  ;  but  it  is  the  Lord  alone  who 
can  give  the  increase.     The  next  morning  I  returned  home. 

29th.  This  evening  a  fire  occurred  in  the  store  adjoining  that 
occupied  by  me  as  a  warehouse,  and  where  my  bi-other  and  I 
had  stored  the  unsold  volumes  of  the  "Friends'  Library."    The 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  331 

pi'ompt  exertions  of  the  firemen  prevented  much  injury  to  the 
building ;  but  part  of  the  roof  being  burned,  a  large  quantitv 
of  water  was  thrown  in,  which  ruined  many  hundred  copies  of 
the  Library,  and  some  goods.  Several  Friends,  and  other  fellow 
citizens,  labored  perseveringly  to  save  them  ;  to  whose  efforts,  is 
to  be  attributed  the  preservation  of  so  many,  as  escaped  damage. 
I  esteemed  it  a  favor  that  the  whole  contents  of  the  store  were 
not  permitted  to  be  burned.  Had  the  fire  occurred  later  in  the 
night,  most  of  the  books  and  goods  must  have  been  destroyed. 
On  returning  home  from  the  fire,  to  change  my  clothing,  being 
wet  through  by  the  water  pouring  down  on  us  while  passing 
the  books  to  the  lower  story,  the  language  passed  through  my 
mind,  •'  Shall  we  receive  good  at  the  hand  of  the  Lord,  and  shall 
we  not  receive  evil;"  and  resignation  was  and  has  been  the 
clothing  of  my  spirit. 

Ninth  month  1st.  Went  to  Newtown  Meeting  ;  where  I  was 
engaged  in  warning  some  of  the  danger  of  spending  time  with- 
out being  employed  in  the  great  work  of  salvation  ;  and  to  pray 
for  them,  and  the  poor  of  the  flock,  that  we  might  be  helped,  and 
kept  through  all,  to  the  end.  Returned  with  sensations  of  pov- 
erty and  weakness  ;  yet  without  seeing  that  1  had  done  wrong 
in  anything. 

2d.  To-day  calm  and  peaceful,  and  without  condemnation  ; 
and  remembered  as  I  walked  the  street,  what  Paul  says,  "There 
is,  therefore,  now  no  condemnation  to  them  that  are  in  Christ 
Jesus  ;  who  walk  not  after  the  flesh,  but  after  the  Spii'it;"  and 
I  have  tried  to  look  to  Him,  and  to  pray  to  Him  for  preservation 
herein. 

10th.  My  wife  and  mj'self  went  to  our  friend  S.  and  B.  N.'s, 
at  Haddonfield,  and  lodged  ;  and  the  following  morning  we  ac- 
companied them  to  Medford,  where  was  held,  at  this  time,  Had- 
donfield Quarterly  Meeting.  The  Select  Meeting,  which  is  much 
reduced,  was  a  season  of  inward  poverty ;  and  yet,  towards 
the  close,  there  seemed  a  spring  of  encouragement  opened ;  in 
which  it  appeared  to  be  the  Master's  will  that  we  should  en- 
deavor to  draw  nearer  to  one  another  in  spirit,  and  strengthen 
each  other's  hands  for  the  Lord's  work.  He  can  cause  one  to 
chase  a  thousand,  and  two  to  put  ten  thousand  to  flight,  if  they 
are  girded  with  his  strength ;  and  their  eye  and  confidence  are 
directed  to  the  Lord  alone.  We  dined  at  A.  H.'s,  where  we  had 
the  company  of  Hinchman  Haines,  an  honest  laborer  and  bur- 


332  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

den-bearer  in  the  Lord's  cause  ;  also  of  several  others  ;  and  their 
conversation  and  solid  deportment  were  cheering  and  strength- 
ening. 

12th.  In  the  morning  a  large  company  convened  at  the  meet- 
ing. I  feared  the  want  of  individual  labor  for  the  bread  of  life, 
and  looking  for  it  through  instrumental  channels,  shut  up  the 
spring  of  the  ministry.  H.  Haines  said  a  few  words,  and  my 
dear  wife  knelt  in  fervent  supplication  on  account  of  the  want 
of  spiritual  exercise,  in  many  convened.  The  number  of  true 
travaillers  for  the  arising  of  Divine  life,  was  felt  to  be  small ; 
and  the  weight  resting  on  a  few,  very  great ;  for  whose  help 
and  steadfastness,  she  also  petitioned  the  Father  of  Mercies.  It 
was  some  relief;  and  the  meeting  soon  afterwards  proceeded  to 
its  business.  When  the  business  was  gone  through,  our  friend 
H.  II.  made  some  remarks  on  the  members  joining  the  political 
processions  and  exhibitions  of  the  present  day ;  which  he  con- 
sidered to  be  below  the  dignity  of  men,  and  much  more  of  Chris- 
tians. My  mind  had  been  under  exercise  on  account  of  Friends 
mingling  with  those  political  parties  and  associations,  and  I  re- 
vived the  ancient  testimony;  "Lo!  the  people  shall  dwell  alone, 
and  shall  not  be  reckoned  among  the  nations."  Whenever  they 
did  mix  with  them,  they  were  caught  in  their  idolatrous  prac- 
tices, lost  their  strength,  and  were  often  overrun  and  overpow- 
ered by  them ;  because  they  forsook  the  Lord  and  his  worship. 
And  so  it  is  with  us.  Those  who  join  the  political  assemblies, 
lose  their  spiritual  strength;  become  impregnated  with  their 
spirit ;  and,  if  they  continue,  become  like  fruitless  branches,  cut 
off  from  the  vine ;  they  are  dead,  as  to  the  Divine  life,  and  the 
men  of  this  world  gather  them  into  their  fellowships,  and  they 
are  burned  or  destroyed,  as  to  any  life  or  virtue.  Friends  were 
called  upon  to  observe  whether  any  one,  let  his  station  be  what 
it  may,  is  not  crippled  bj^thus  associating  in  these  worldly  com- 
binations. Such  are  not  alive  in  the  Truth ;  and  it  is  obvious 
to  their  brethren  that  they  have  lost  ground  ;  and  their  example 
must  have  a  prejudicial  influence  upon  the  younger  and  inexpe- 
rienced members.  Several  Friends  united  full}''  with  what  was 
said,  and  it  appeared  to  reach  some.  We  remained  until  seventh- 
day  morning,  and  then  returned  home. 

Tenth  month  3d.  Last  week  I  was  attacked  with  fever ;  which, 
with  the  remedies  used,  reduced  me  not  a  little.  Being  unac- 
customed to  sickness,  it  brought  me  low  in  body  and  mind ;  in 


JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  333 

which  1  was  engaged  to  take  a  retrospect  of  my  life ;  which 
seemed  much  of  a  blank.  How  little  appears  to  have  been 
done,  compared  with  the  time,  and  the  offers  of  best  Help.  Oh 
for  more  deep,  inward  abiding  with  the  Seed  of  Divine  life  ;  that 
a  larger  growth  in  the  Truth,  and  more  solid  religious  exercise 
and  weightiness  of  sjiirit  may  be  attained.  That  I  may  be  ena- 
bled to  go  in  and  out  before  the  flock,  in  such  manner,  as  to  turn 
them  to  Christ,  and  induce  them  to  take  His  yoke  upon  them 
and  follow  Him. 

Eleventh  month.  Having  had  a  prospect  for  many  months  of 
visiting  at  some  period,  the  meetings  of  Friends  in  the  northwest- 
ern parts  of  New  York  Yearly  Meeting,  and  the  present  appear- 
ing to  be  the  proper  season  for  undertaking  it,  I  laid  the  concern 
before  the  JMonthly  and  Quarterly  Meetings,  and  obtained  the 
unity  and  certificates  of  those  meetings  with  it.  Parting  with  my 
beloved  wife  and  children  ;  leaving  my  business  in  the  hands  of 
persons  of  little  experience,  and  travelling  in  a  cold,  snowy 
country  in  the  winter,  made  the  undertaking  more  trying  than 
on  some  other  occasions ;  but  believing  it  was  in  the  ordering 
of  best  Wisdom,  I  made  preparation,  and  with  my  kind  and  be- 
loved friend,  Joseph  Elkinton,  an  elder  of  the  same  meeting, 
set  out  from  home  on  the  25th  of  the  Eleventh  month,  in  our 
own  conveyance,  and  got  to  New  York  on  the  27th.  We  made 
an  attempt  to  put  our  carriage  and  horses  on  board  of  a  steamboat 
for  Hudson,  but  the  tide  was  so  low  it  was  impracticable  to  ac- 
complish it,  as  the  horses  could  not  descend  the  bridge  to  the 
deck.  The  great  hurry  in  landing  and  loading  goods  and  produce, 
owing  to  the  cold  weather,  and  the  fear  of  the  navigation  soon 
closing,  ma^e  it  difficult  to  get  the  carriage  and  horses  on  board 
the  steamer ;  and  in  the  attempt  to  accomplish  it,  agreeable  to 
the  direction  of  the  captain,  who  had  agreed  to  take  them,  the 
tongue  of  the  wagon  was  broken,  and  we  defeated.  The  de- 
tention of  a  day,  under  all  the  circumstances  of  the  lateness 
of  the  season,  was  very  trying  to  us ;  especially  as  it  was  un- 
certain that  we  could  get  them  up  the  river  by  the  next  boat. 
The  28th  was  a  wet  and  dark,  cloudy  day,  not  very  cheering  to 
the  spirit ;  but  through  the  perseverance  of  my  companion,  we 
got  all  on  board  the  boat.  Here  we  were  detained  three  hours 
after  the  usual  time,  waiting  for  a  loaded  sloop,  which  he  was  to 
tow  up  ;  and  owing  to  this,  the  heavy  deck  load,  and  the  storm 
which  had  prevailed  through  the  night,  the  boat  rocked  so  much, 


334  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

they  were  often  compelled  to  stop  the  engine,  for  fear  of  break- 
ing the  shaft,  when  a  wheel  would  be  deeply  immersed  ;  all 
which  retarded  our  progress,  so  that  we  did  not  reach  Catskill 
until  about  one  o'clock,  instead  of  six  in  the  morning.  In  the 
course  of  the  evening,  when  the  boat  careened  greatly,  I  sup- 
pose one  of  our  horses  slipped,  and  struck  his  foot  against  one 
of  the  sash  of  the  forward  cabin,  knocking  it  completely  in.  The 
crash  of  the  glass,  and  the  noise  he  made  on  the  deck,  in  recovering 
himself,  gave  the  passengers  in  the  cabin  the  idea  that  he  was 
entirely  loose,  and  might  soon  be  down  the  stairway  among 
them.  The  affair  was  rather  ludicrous,  and  soon  passed  over, 
when  properly  understood.  But  ail  these  occurrences  had  their 
effect  upon  our  spirits.  In  the  night,  awaking  in  my  berth,  they 
seemed  to  be  against  me;  but  I  was  reminded  of  the  situation 
of  the  Apostle  Paul ;  that  he  was  a  night  and  a  day  in  the  deep 
and  this  was  no  proof  tliat  his  mission  was  not  valid;  sol  en- 
deavored to  keep  in  the  faith,  and  press  on.  They  had  some  diffi- 
culty in  bringing  the  steamboat  to  the  wharf  at  Catskill;  which 
put  some  of  the  sailors  in  a  bad  humor ;  and  everything  being 
nearly  covered  with  ice,  and  the  ropes  frozen,  it  was  with  great 
effort  they  got  the  carriage  and  horses  landed.  When  on  shore, 
we  harnessed  up,  and  drove  out  that  afternoon  to  Grant's  tav- 
ern, sixteen  miles,  and  put  up.  The  next  day  we  rode  to  R.  B.'s, 
about  twenty-eight  miles;  she,  and  several  of  her  children  settled 
near  her,  being  members.  Here  we  had  a  meeting  at  the  house  of 
one  of  her  sons,  on  first-day,  being  the  first  of  the  Twelfth  month. 
It  rained  during  the  night,  after  our  arrival,  and  about  eight, 
o'clock  in  the  morning,  the  wind  changing,  the  rain  turned  to 
snow;  which  made  everything,  out  of  the  house,  look  dreary, 
and  doubtful  as  to  the  meeting.  But  more  collected  than  we  had 
reason  to  expect ;  and  I  trust,  the  gospel  of  salvation,  through 
our  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  both  in  his  coming  in  the  prepared  body 
to  do  his  Father's  will,  and  by  his  Spirit  in  the  heart,  was 
preached  among  them  ;  showing  the.necessity  to  co-operate  with 
the  latter,  in  order  to  reap  the  full  benefit  of  the  foi'mer.  Some 
were  tendei'cd. 

After  dinner  we  set  out  on  our  journey;  but  the  horses' slioes 
being  very  smooth,  and  the  I'oad,  in  places,  icy  and  covered  with 
partly  melted  snow,  they  slipped  so  much  we  made  but  little 
progress,  and  stopped  at  a  tavern  for  the  night,  where  there  was 
a  probability  of  gc'tting  the  shoes  sharjiened.     In  these  joui'ney- 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS.  335 

ings,  little  difficulties  are  often  magnified  bj-  the  imagination; 
producing  fears  as  to  how  we  shall  get  through  ;  and  whether 
we  shall  accomplish  the  work  to  the  honor  of  our  Holy  Re- 
deemer, and  be  favored  to  return  to  our  dear  home  friends  in 
safety  and  peace.  These  are  trials  of  faith,  which  such  poor 
unworthy  pilgrims  have  to  endure  ;  and  doubtless  the  trial  of 
our  faith,  which  is  more  precious  than  gold  that  perishcth,  is 
essentially  needful  to  keep  us  humble,  and  to  quicken  our  desires 
unto  Him,  and  to  the  remembrance  of  his  name. 

Twelfth  month  2d.  This  morning  the  weather  was  cold,  but 
when  our  horses  were  ready  we  set  out;  finding  ourselves  much 
relieved  by  their  being  able  to  take  a  firm  hold  of  the  ice ;  and 
in  the  afternoon  we  got  to  our  friend  H.  B.'s,  at  Oneonta.  No- 
tice was  spread  of  our  w4sh  to  have  a  m.eeting  at  Laurens.  It 
was  truly  grateful  to  get  under  the  Toof  of  kind  friends,  in  a 
land  strange  to  us;  several  others  came  during  the  evening, 
with  Avhom  we  conversed  on  subjects  connected  with  the  prin- 
ciples and  order  of  our  religious  Society.  Third-day  went  to 
the  meeting  in  weakness,  and  under  desire  that  the  Master  might 
be  with  us ;  which  I  hope  was  in  good  degree  experienced,  to 
the  tendering  of  some  hearts.  Fourth-day.  The  snow  continu- 
ing upon  the  ground,  we  were  furnished  with  a  sleigh  to  carry 
us  to  Butternuts;  it  being  the  time  of  their  Monthly  Meeting. 
Here  I  felt  the  importance  of  moving  under  right  direction : 
that  no  advantage  in  any  way  might  be  taken  of  what  was  said, 
should  I  find  it  my  place  to  communicate  anything  among  them. 
The  indispensable  necessity  of  dail}^  waiting  upon  the  Lord,  for 
the  renewal  of  our  spiritual  strength,  and  to  be  preserved  quick 
of  discernment  in  his  fear,  to  keep  us  from  the  temptations  that 
surround  us,  was  brought  before  me,  and  with  feelings  of  cau- 
tion, and  dependence  upon  the  Head  of  the  church,  I  rose,  and 
as  things  gradually  opened,  delivered  them,  under  a  clothing  of 
sincere  desire  for  the  present  'and  everlasting  welfare  of  the 
people.  The  solemnizing  presence  of  Him,  who  is  in  the  midst 
of  them  who  gather  in  his  name,  was  felt,  and  I  believe  carried 
home  to  some,  the  truth  of  the  doctrines  preached.  The  need 
of  submitting  to  the  renewed  bajitisms  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  was 
enforced,  that  as  fruit-bearing  branches,  we  may  be  prepared  to 
continue  to  the  end,  in  bringing  forth  fruit  to  the  praise  of  the 
Great  Husbandman.  Some  who  had  known  this  in  their  begin- 
ning, growing  unwilling  to  come  again  and  again  under  its  redu- 


336  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS 

cing  power,  jind  thinking  themselves  able  to  decide  and  act  from 
their  attainments,  have  fallen  awaj.  And  the  necessity  of  being 
fervently  engaged  to  crave  strength  to  yield  to  and  bear  those 
purging  operations,  that  we  may  be  kept  as  little  children,  re- 
lying upon  the  Lord  day  by  day,  was  affectionately  pressed  upon 
Friends. 

5th.  We  had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Otego,  held  in  the 
house  of  a  Friend.  The  company  was  nearly  all  composed  of 
persons  not  of  our  Society,  who  conducted  in  a  very  sober  man- 
ner, and  to  whom  the  gospel  of  salvation  was  preached.  C.  B. 
who  piloted  us  there,  exhorted  the  people  to  receive  the  word 
preached,  and  afterwards  told  tis  they  were  a  tender-hearted 
people.  Here  we  were  met  by  J.  T.,  who  conducted  us  to  his 
house,  near  Oneonta;  where  we  lodged,  and  next  morning  had 
a  religious  opportunity  with  his  family.  Our  object  in  coming 
back  to  this  neighborhood,  was,  to  take  a  sleigh  to  perform  the 
remainder  of  the  journey,  should  the  snow  continue,  leaving  our 
carriage  at  H.  B.'s ;  but  this  day  and  the  succeeding  night,  the 
weather  growing  warmer,  the  snow  nearly  disappeared,  and  we 
decided  to  keep  to  our  comfortable  carriage. 

7th.  Accompanied  by  H.  B.  and  C.  B.,  who  set  out  to  be  at 
Le  Eay  Quarterly  Meeting.  We  left  the  house  of  the  former, 
where  we  had  been  kindly  cared  for,  and  rode  to  New  Berlin, 
dined  and  fed  our  horses.  It  rained  most  of  the  way,  which 
made  the  ground  muddy,  and  the  travelling  laborious,  over  the 
mountainous  country  to  Smyrna,  about  thirty-four  miles.  After 
a  tedious  ride  it  was  grateful,  as  night  was  coming  on,  to  be 
made  welcome  at  the  house  of  two  women  Friends,  who  re- 
ceived and  entertained  us  in  a  frank  and  comfortable  manner. 
The  weather  changed  ;  the  wind  rose  and  blew  with  much  vio- 
lence, and  the  roads  froze  hard  that  night ;  making  them  very 
rough ;  and  our  meeting,  in  consequence  of  the  cold  and  snow, 
was  small.  I  was  engaged  to  encourage  some  to  faithfulness, 
and  to  warn  others  against  the  snare  of  lawful  things;  by 
which  the  mind  is  often  so  absorbed,  as  to  close  it  up  against 
the  Truth  and  its  requirings.  Some,  who  seemed  like  withered 
branches,  were  also  warned  of  their  danger,  and  invited  to  turn 
to  Him  whom  they  had  forsaken. 

After  dining,  we  set  off  to  De  Euytcr,  piloted  by  H.  K.  and 
his  wife.  Hard,  rough  roads,  ol)liged  us  to  travel  slowly,  and 
we  did  not  reach  the  habitation  of  a  Friend  until  about  an  hour 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  337 

after  dark,  by  ^Yhic•h  exposure  we  were  much  chilled.  But  the 
hospitable  Friends  came  out  to  us  as  soon  as  they  found  we 
were  strangers,  and  invited  us  in  with  a  promptness  and  earn- 
estness, which  bespoke  a  sincere  readiness  to  entertain  us ; 
which  is  peculiarly  agreeable  to  such  pilgrims  as  we  are.  A 
young  man  w^as  desi^atched  to  the  house  of  a  Friend,  two  miles 
distant,  to  spread  notice  of  a  meeting  to  be  held  the  next  morning; 
which  was  done,  so  as  to  convene  all  their  members,  and  some 
others.  We  had  some  religious  communication  in  the  evening, 
and  hoped  our  visit  here  was  in  right  ordering. 

9th.  We  went  to  the  meeting,  and  through  holy  help,  I  was 
enabled  to  open  the  doctrine  of  christian  perfection,  and  the 
necessity  of  being  made  and  kept  free  from  sin;  that  we  might 
become  partakersof  that  full  redemption,  which  comes  by  Jesus 
Christ;  and  in  the  end  be  acknowledged  by  Him  in  the  presence 
of  the  Father  and  his  holy  angels.  We  went  to  the  house  of 
a  newly  received  member,  whose  wife  remarked  that  doctrine 
was  the  same  which  persons  in  that  neighborhood  desjiised,  and 
some  despised  them  for  holding  it.  That  evening  we  rode  about 
ten  miles,  mostly  over  a  bad  road,  and  lodged. 

10th.  Set  out  early,  and  rode  about  twenty-five  miles,  to  a 
Friend's  house,  near  Skaneateles.  Here  we  met  a  hospitable 
reception,  and  our  guide,  after  taking  some  refreshment,  went 
on  foot  about  four  miles  to  a  Friend's  house,  to  give  information 
of  a  meeting,  to  be  held  the  next  day,  at  Skaneateles.  There  he 
got  a  horse  and  went  about  five  miles  further,  by  which  the  no- 
tice was  spread  generally.  Before  leaving  our  quarters,  I  had  a 
tendering  opportunity  with  the  wife  of  our  host,  on  the  respon- 
sibility of  her  station  as  mother  of  several  children,  whom  she 
was  bound  to  watch  over,  and  guard  from  the  temptations  that 
surround,  as  far  as  was  in  her  power.  If  she  was  faithful  to  the 
will  of  God,  and  rightly  concerned  for  her  own  salvation,  I  be- 
lieved she  would  feel  a  deep  interest  in  that  of  her  children, 
and  would  be  led  to  pour  forth  her  prayers  and  her  tears  before 
the  Lord,  that  He  would  lay  his  Divine  hand  upon  them,  and 
bless  and  preserve  them.  We  then  went  to  meeting  where  we 
met  a  little  company ;  towards  whom  my  mind  was  drawn  in 
affectionate  desire  for  their  best  welfare.  The  testimony  that, 
"  Grodliness  is  profitable  unto  all  things,  having  promise  of  the 
life  that  now  is,  and  of  that  which  is  to  come,"  was  brought 
before  me;  and  I  was  led  to  show  that  the  promise  of  this  life, 


338  JOURNAL   OF   AVILLIAM    EVANS. 

and  of  that  which  is  to  come,  is  to  no  other  state  or  condition. 
That  wealth  cannot  purchase  it,  but  is  often  possessed  where 
there  is  neither  happiness  ^here,  nor  good  ground  to  hope  for  it 
hereafter.  The  uncertainty  of  riches  was  also  pointed  out; 
even  where  they  were  puUiog  down  and  building  greater  ac- 
commodations for  their  goods,  but  that  the  awful  language 
might  be  sounded  in  the  ear,  "  Thou  fool,  this  night  thy  soul 
shall  be  required  of  thee,  then  whose  shall  all  those  things  be 
which  thou  hast  provided."  The  Master  helped  me  to  preach 
the  gospel  with  convincing  force,  and  some  M^orldly-minded  ones 
were  brought  to  tears.  I  felt  humbly  thankful  for  his  conde- 
scension and  goodness  to  them  and  to  myself.  We  dined  in  the 
village,  and  went  about  fourteen  miles,  on  our  way  to  North 
Street  Scipio  Meeting,  and  next  day,  which  was  their  Prepara- 
tive Meeting,  we  went  to  it.  Here  I  was  led  to  treat  on  the 
great  importance  of  having  our  hearts  imbued  with  love  to 
God,  and  love  to  one  another,  especially  as  we  were  approach- 
ing old  age,  and  according  to  the  natural  course,  must  soon 
leave  everything  here  below.  In  heaven  there  is  nothing  in- 
consistent with  holy  harmony  and  love,  and  hence  the  necessity 
of  knowing  this  to  prevail  and  predominate  in  our  hearts  over 
everything  else.  Though  it  will  not  lead  us  to  unite  with 
wrong  things,  yet  it  will  lead  us  to  desire  that  those  who  have 
got  wrong,  may  be  convinced  of  their  erroi*,  and  reclaimed. 
The  want  of  spiritual  discernment  among  us,  was  alluded  to, 
which  attends  and  arises  from  the  inordinate  love  and  pursuit 
of  the  things  of  this  world.  But  I  believed  the  Lord  would  lay 
his  hand  upon  this  people,  and  restore  it,  and  make  a  division 
in  their  view  between  the  precious  and  the  vile ;  and  a  body 
would  again  be  raised  up,  who  should  stand  for  the  doctrines  and 
testimonies  of  the  gospel,  which  He  called  our  forefathers  to 
bear.  Christ  Jesus  is  the  Head  of  the  true  church,  and  can 
alone  fit  us  for  membership  in  it.  It  is  his  prerogative  to  ap- 
point the  place  for  the  members  in  his  mystical  body  ;  and  if 
any  one  refuses  to  submit  to  his  preparing  hand,  they  cannot 
be  initiated ;  and  if  after  being  made  members,  they  resume  the 
government  of  themselves,  leave  the  function  which  He  allotted 
them,  and  underttike  to  do  something  else,  they  will  lose  that 
Divine  life  which  flows  from  Him  into  every  member;  however 
plausible  the  object  they  may  engage  in.  "  Abide  in  me,  and  I  in 
you.     As  the  branch  cannot  bear  fruit  of  itself,  except  it  abide 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  339 

in  the  vine,  no  more  can  ye  except  ye  abide  in  me.  lie  that 
abideth  in  me,  and  I  in  him,  the  same  bringeth  forth  much  fruit. 
If  a  man  abide  not  in  me,  he  is  cast  forth  as  a  branch,  and  is 
withered  ;  and  men  gather  tliem  and  cast  them  into  tlie  lire,  and 
they  are  burned."  I  thought  the  doctrine  was  not  acceptable 
to  some  ;  but  felt  peaceful  in  leaving  it  with  them.  We  dined 
at  H.  H.'s,  w^ho  kindl}-  offered  to  keep  our  horses,  and  take  us 
in  his  carriage  to  Scipio,  the  next  day.  Lodged  at  our  friends 
Joseph  and  Sarah  Talcott's  and  passed  the  evening  in  agreeable 
conversation,  respecting  many  things  connected  with  the  cause 
of  righteousness  ;  particularly  the  declining  state  of  our  reli- 
gious Societ}'. 

13th.  In  the  morning  we  had  a  tendering  opportunit}'  with 
the  old  Friends,  two  of  their  children,  and  a  grandson.  Towards 
the  younger  Friends,  my  mind  was  affectionately  drawn,  that 
they  might  be  brought  to  yield  to  the  will  of  their  Heavenly 
Father,  take  up  the  cross,  and  openly  confess  Christ  before  men. 
Eode  four  miles  to  Scipio,  which  was  a  large  meeting,  being 
held  by  appointment.  I  felt  low  and  empty,  but  after  a  time, 
I  believed  it  right  to  rise  with  the  expression,  that  true  reli- 
gion was  not  an  outside  thing,  which  Ave  could  take  upon  our- 
selves when  we  pleased  ;  nor  was  it  to  be  put  off',  according  to 
the  company  or  the  circumstances  in  which  we  might  be  placed. 
Our  Lord  commanded  his  disciples,  to  let  their  yea  be  yea,  and 
their  nay,  na}".  They  were  not  to  say  yea,  w^hen  they  meant 
nay.  And  when  He  sent  them  forth,  He  commanded  them,  not 
take  two  coats  apiece.  They  were  not  to  wear  one  coat  or  ap- 
pearance in  one  company,  and  another  in  different  company. 
Many  things  were  opened  b}'  the  good  Eemembrancer,  without 
whom  we  can  do  nothing  ;  especiall}"  the  doctrine  of  the  uni- 
versality of  Divine  grace,  and  the  impossibility  without  it,  of 
truly  seeing  and  feeling  our  lost  condition,  sunk  in  the  pit  of 
sin  and  corruption.  Christ  alone  by  his  Divine  and  saving 
light,  which  lighteth  every  man  that  cometh  into  the  world, 
can  give  us  a  true  sight  and  sense  of  this  state,  and  raise  in  us 
the  cry,  "  A  Saviour  or  I  die ;  a  Redeemer  or  I  perish  forever." 
At  seasons  He  visits  the  soul  for  this  purpose,  and  if  it  resists 
not,  He  will  lift  it  out  of  its  lost  state,  and  restore  man  into  the 
Divine  image.  I  was  humbly  bowed  for  the  present  favor ;  and 
thanksgiving,  and  prayer  for  continued  preservation,  wei'c  vocall}^ 
offered  to  the  Father  of  all  our  sure  mercies,     lleturned  to  II. 


340  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

H.'s,  and  after  dining,  his  son  took  us  in  their  carriage  to  Union 
Springs,  about  eight  miles  norths  where  we  had  an  appointed 
meeting  with  the  few  Friends  residing  there;  held  at  the  house 
of  an  aged  Friend,  where  they  generally  convene  on  first  and 
fifth-day,  for  the  purpose  of  Divine  worship,  I  endeavored  to 
discharge  myself  under  affectionate  desires  for  the  present  and 
everlasting  welfare  of  those  who  w^ere  assembled ;  and  though 
some  tears  were  shed,  yet  I  feared  the  impression  might  be  of 
but  short  duration. 

14:th.  Snow  fell  this  morning  very  fast,  but  getting  an  early 
breakfast,  we  rode  down  Cayuga  Lake  to  Aurora,  where  we 
were  met  by  our  carriage  and  horses,  which  we  resumed  and 
proceeded  on  our  way  to  Hector.  By  the  time  w^e  reached 
the  ferry,  we  found  little  snow  remaining,  and  after  waiting 
three-fourths  of  an  hour,  for  the  ferryman,  who  was  on  the  op- 
posite shore  when  we  arrived,  we  got  under  way;  but  a  directly 
head  wind,  a  horse  boat  with  little  power,  and  an  expanse  of 
water  three  miles  in  width,  kept  us  nearly  two  hours  getting 
to  the  opposite  shore.  The  road  being  pretty  good,  we  drove 
to  A.  K.  O.'s  in  about  three  hours,  and  were  kindly  received  and 
entertained. 

15th.  Attended  their  first-day  meeting,  which  gathered  very 
irregularly,  and  was  a  very  trying  time  to  me.  The  spirit 
of  unbelief,  arising  from  a  departure  from  the  true  and  living 
God,  and  becoming  involved  in  sin  and  wickedness,  appeared  to 
me  to  have  taken  possession  of  some  ;  with  which  I  had  a  fight 
of  affliction,  without  seeming  to  gain  much  ascendency.  I  was 
led  to  speak  of  the  progress  of  iniquity,  how  one  violation  of 
the  Divine  law  makes  way  for  another;  that  hardness  of  heart 
ensues,  and  finally  some  lose  their  reputation  among  men.  Very 
little  relief  was  obtained,  and  I  left  them,  covered  with  sadness, 
and  wondering  Avhether  I  was  mistaken  in  what  I  had  said. 
In  the  afternoon,  having  our  friend  A.  K.  O.  as  guide,  we  rode 
to  Ovid,  nineteen  miles,  and  put  up  at  an  inn,  snow  falling  pretty 
fast  most  of  the  way.  In  the  course  of  conversation  through 
the  evening,  A.  K.  ().  informed  us  of  some  circximstances,  of  a 
very  dark  and  shocking  character,  which  seemed  to  explain  the 
cause  of  my  difficulty  and  distress  in  their  meeting.  This  gave 
me  relief;  and  hope  sprung  up  that,  according  to  the  condition 
of  the  people,  the  Master  would  baptize  us;  and  thereby  pre- 
vent us  from  crying  peace  when  there  is  none;  and  if  this  is 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  341 

mercifully  the  case,  though  suftering  is  my  lot,  there  is  no  just 
cause  for  doubting  that  the  present  engagement  is  in  his  or- 
dering. 

16th.  We  rose  early,  and  rode  down  the  eastern  bank  of 
Seneca  Lake  to  Geneva,  a  flourishing  town,  near  the  outlet  of 
this  body  of  water.  The  wind  blew  strong  and  cold  across  the 
lake,  and  snow  almost  constantly  falling,  made  the  ride  dreary 
and  wintry  in  its  influence  ui^on  us.  At  another  season  of  the 
year,  and  under  diff'erent  circumstances  from  ours,  the  country 
and  the  scenery  must  bo  delightful.  Judging  from  the  flne  and 
expensive  buildings,  which  many  farmers  erect  in  this  part  of 
Kew  York,  the  country  must  be  very  fertile,  and  the  people 
prosperous.  But  some  go  beyond  their  own  means,  and  em- 
barrass themselves  and  others,  in  their  pecuniary- transactions. 
The  great  press  after  wealth,  and  the  inordinate  pursuit  of  trade 
to  acquire  it,  absorb  their  time  and  all  their  energies ;  so  that  a 
life  of  self-denial  and  devotedness  to  the  will  of  God,  revealed 
in  the  heart,  is  too  little  known  by  the  great  mass  of  professing 
Christians.  Where  a  worldly  spirit  predominates,  religion  is 
but  little  thought  of,  and  the  way  is  open  to  pride,  and  spend- 
ing time,  when  not  engaged  in  commerce,  in  a  way  dissipating 
to  the  mind,  and  displeasing  to  our  Almighty  Creator.  Many 
in  our  religious  Society  are  caught  with  the  love  of  money,  and 
become  covered  wnth  the  lust  of  the  world,  as  with  thick  clay. 
Thus  our  religious  meetings  are  often  places  of  much  suffering, 
to  the  self-denying  Christian,  instead  of  comfort,  strength  and 
rejoicing.  This  discourages  the  sincere-hearted,  and  turns  the 
young  people  out  of  the  right  way.  When  will  the  Lord  arise 
in  his  power,  and  not  only  shake  the  heavens,  but  the  earth 
also,  in  order  that  those  things  which  are  shaken  may  be  re- 
moved out  of  the  way,  and  those  which  cannot  be  shaken  may 
remain. 

After  a  ride  of  forty-one  miles,  we  reached  J.  E.'s,  and  lodg- 
ed. We  proposed  holding  a  meeting  next  day  at  Palmyra, 
which  we  found  some  difficulty  in  bringing  about ;  and  some  of 
the  members,  we  had  reason  to  think,  did  not  hear  of  it. 

The  meeting  held  on  the  17th,  was  small  and  distressing ;  but 
I  endeavored  to  discharge  my  duty  towards  some  who  were 
swallowed  up  in  the  world,  and  had  brought  difficulties  on  them- 
selves and  others ;  and  the  spirit  of  supplication  being  poured 
out,  I  was  enabled  to  pray  for  the  poor  of  the  flock,  who  desired 
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342  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

to  be  found  in  the  right  way;  and  that  the  Lord  Avould  not 
take  his  Spirit  from  us,  hut  go  with  and  preserve  us  in  the  worl< 
to  which  He  hath  appointed  us.  This  atforded  me  some  relief. 
After  dining,  we  rode  about  four  miles  to  11.  P.'s;  snow  falling 
and  accumulating  ;  which  gives  everything  a  dreary  aspect,  and 
produces  apprehensions  of  our  being  unable  to  get  through 
with  the  carriage.  But  I  endeavor  to  cast  my  care  upon  the 
Lord.  We  passed  the  time  pleasantly  under  the  roof  of  this 
kind  Friend  and  his  wife,  with,  I  hope,  some  profit  and  strengih 
to  them,  as  well  as  comfox't  to  ourselves. 

18th.  Attended  Mardon  Preparative  Meeting  ;  which  was  a 
more  relieving  time  than  some  others  ;  and  in  the  afternoon  we 
pax'ted  from  our  kind  friends,  and  rode  to  J.  L.'s,  within  Farm- 
ington  Preparative  Meeting.  This  Friend,  who  came  into  the 
country  at  an  early  age,  and  has  seen  the  direful  eftects  of  ar- 
dent spirits  upon  many  around  him,  gave  us  some  account  of 
the  change  that  has  taken  place  in  that  respect  since  his  arrival. 
He  seemed  much  interested  in  promoting  the  cause  of  temper- 
ance ;  which,  as  far  as  we  can  do  by  precept  and  example,  with- 
out mingling,  in  an  improper  manner,  with  persons  not  of  our 
religious  profession,  it  is  very  important  we  should  promote.  I 
gave  him  an  account  of  the  difference  of  practice  which  now 
prevailed  within  our  Yearly  Meeting,  in  the  use  of  fermented 
drinks,  which  were  nearly  discarded,  and  water  used  as  the 
common  beverage. 

19th.  Was  at  the  meeting  of  Farmington,  composed  chiefly 
of  Friends,  who  are  warm  and  active  advocates  for  the  freedom 
of  the  colored  people,  and  of  the  total  disuse  of  ardent  spirits. 
They  spend  much  time  in  discussing  these  topics ;  lectui-ing 
upon  them,  and  attending  meetings  held  for  the  jnirjjose.  There 
is  reason  to  fear,  that  dwelling  almost  exclusively  upon  these 
subjects,  there  is  a  danger  of  getting  from  under  the  govern- 
ment of  Truth  ;  and  that  daily  exercise  of  mind,  which  is  neces- 
sary for  our  s])iritual  growth  ;  in  which  the  voice  of  the  true 
Shepherd  is  heard,  and  we  are  led  along  by  Him  in  the  way 
and  work  which  He  allots  to  the  various  members  of  his  church. 
After  a  time  of  silent  waiting  upon  the  Lord,  who  only  knows 
the  states  of  the  people,  and  what  is  proper  for  them,  I  was  led 
to  open  the  necessity  of  being  really  brought  into  the  dispensa- 
tion of  the  gospel ;  in  which  we  come  to  know  Christ  to  l)o  the 
Captain  of  our  salvation;  clothing  us  with  his  invincible  ar- 


JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  343 

TQor,  and  making  us  victorious  over  the  man  of  sin  and  son  of 
perdition,  in  ourselves.  He  is  given  for  God's  salvation  to  the 
ends  of  the  earth,  and  He  will  not  give  his  glory  to  another, 
nor  his  praise  to  any  graven  image,  or  substitute  of  man's  devi- 
sing. He  alone  can  give  lost  man  a  true  sense  of  his  condition  ; 
in  which  state  he  is  sjiiritually  dead,  and  can  no  more  bring 
himself  to  a  correct  feeling  of  his  condition,  until  ho  is  quick- 
ened by  Him  who  is  the  resurrection  and  the  life,  than  a  dead 
body  can  feel  or  perceive  its  state.  The  Truth  was  exalted 
over  all  the  specious  devices  of  man  ;  and  I  had  comfort  in  the 
evidence  that  the  blessed  Helper  of  his  people,  enabled  me  to 
discharge  myself  of  what  He  required. 

20th.  Had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Eochester,  which  was 
pretty  well  attended ;  and  some  plain  truths  were  delivered 
among  them ;  under  a  sincere  desire  that  those  who  had  got 
wrong  might  be  brought  to  see  their  condition,  and  through 
the  pardoning  mercy  of  Him  who  came  to  seek  and  to  save  that 
which  is  lost,  be  reclaimed  and  restored  to  their  right  mind ; 
and  that  humble  state  be  experienced,  in  which  they  could  wash 
the  Master's  feet  with  their  tears,  and  wipe  them,  as  the  poor 
woman  formerly,  with  the  hairs  of  their  head. 

Left  Rochester  after  our  horses  had  been  fed,  and  reached  our 
friend  B.  B.'s,  a  little  before  night. 

22d.  We  were  at  their  first-day  meeting,  which  collected 
very  irregularly ;  perhaps  owing  to  persons  of  other  persuasions 
coming  in.  It  was  a  long  time  before  we  could  come  at  any 
thing  like  quiet  settlement.  But  the  way  opened  at  last  to 
treat  on  the  nature  of  inwai'd,  spiritual  worship;  which  is  not 
performed  through  a  dependence  upon  man,  but  upon  Christ 
Jesus,  the  Minister  of  the  sanctuary ;  who  appears  in  the  midst 
of  those  that  are  gathered  in  his  name,  and  ministers  to  their 
states,  enabling  them  to  offer  acceptable  sacrifices  to  God,  by 
and  through  Him.  The  doctrine  of  the  gospel,  that  we  must  be 
made  free  from  sin ;  and  the  dangerous  consequence  of  supposing 
that  we  may  continue  in  sin  with  impunity,  because  Christ  suf- 
fered for  our  sins,  the  just  for  the  unjust,  that  He  might  bring 
us  to  God,  was  brought  to  view.  It  seemed  to  me,  there  were 
those  present,  who  regarded  the  doctrine  with  some  surprise, 
and  doubted  its  practicability.  The  meeting  afforded  but  little 
relief.  How  many  nominal,  outside  professors  and  worshippers 
there  are,  wdao  are  blind  to  the  real  nature  of  the  gospel  dispen- 


344  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS. 

sation,  and  the  holiness  which  it  requires.  If  thc}^  go  to  meet- 
ing once  or  twice  a  week,  and  profess  faith  in  Christ,  as  their 
surety  against  the  wrath  to  come,  a  great  proportion  live  in  the 
gratification  of  their  carnal  appetites,  without  thinking  of  the 
necessity  of  denying  themselves,  taking  up  their  cross  daily,  and 
following  Christ  in  the  way  in  which  He  would  lead.  Alas ! 
what  will  such  a  dead,  formal  religion  avail,  which  leaves  the 
heart  unchanged,  and  can  furnish  no  substantial  ground  ujjon 
which  to  rest  a  hope  of  everlasting  life. 

In  the  morning,  I  had  a  religious  opportunity  in  the  fjimil}^ ; 
in  which  we  were  much  broken  together,  under  a  precious  sense 
of  the  Lord's  goodness  in  providing  for  us  in  our  pilgrimage 
through  this  country;  separated  from  our  nearest  connections, 
at  home;  and  in  which,  the  kindness  of  Friends  in  conducting  us 
from  place  to  place,  and  the  unity  of  those  who  sincerely  love  the 
Truth,  were  felt  and  acknowledged.  The  language  of  encourage- 
ment flowed  to  some  present,  to  maintain  their  ground  in  faith- 
fully adhering  to  the  Truth  ;  and  to  the  children,  to  take  coun- 
sel of  their  parents,  both  in  relation  to  their  dress,  and  the 
company  they  should  keep.  In  the  evening,  some  Friends 
called  to  see  us  ;  and  after  spending  part  of  it  in  social  converse, 
we  fell  into  silence,  and  I  was  engaged  to  draw  their  attention 
to  the  degeneracy  that  has  overtaken  our  religious  Society,  and 
to  the  necessity  of  individual  faithfulness ;  both  in  a  daily  tra- 
vail of  spirit  for  their  own  advancement  in  the  Divine  life,  and 
in  the  discharge  of  their  duties  in  the  support  of  the  discipline, 
and  the  various  testimonies  Friends  are  called  to  bear. 

23d.  It  commenced  raining  early,  and  continued  most  of  the 
morning.  We  set  out  for  Elba,  having  our  friend  B.  B.  to  pilot 
us.  The  travelling  was  slavish  to  the  horses,  and  very  uncom- 
fortable to  us ;  the  wind  being  chilling,  and  the  snow  driving 
in  upon  us.  We  stopped  in  Batavia,  dined  with  E.  E.,  and 
leaving  word  of  our  intention  to  hold  a  meeting  the  next  day  at 
Elba,  rode  there  in  the  afternoon. 

24th.  Attended  the  meeting ;  in  which  I  believe  the  JVTaater 
introduced  me  into  a  sense  of  the  states  of  some,  and  qualified 
to  labor  with  some  who  were  living  in  creaturel}'  indulgences  ; 
and  others,  who  I  feared,  were  despising  the  Truth  ;  while  their 
conduct  and  conversation  were  far  from  that  purity  which  per- 
tains to  the  gospel  dis])ensation,  and  without  which  no  man  can 
see  the  Lord.     Faithful,  fervent  labor  was  extended  j  and  hum- 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  345 

ble  supplication  offered  to  the  Father  of  mercies,  for  some,  that 
they  might  be  brought  into  the  vineyard  to  labor ;  oven  if  it 
might  be  at  the  eleventh  hour  of  the  day.  Also  for  a  remnant 
who  mourn  over  the  degeneracy  among  them  ;  and  for  the 
young  people,  that  the  Lord  would  lay  his  hand  again  and  again 
upon  them,  and  bring  them  into  his  fold,  that  they  may  stand 
for  his  cause  in  that  place.  Scarcely  a  single  one  among  them 
looked  like  a  Friend's  child,  and  I  was  afraid  some  of  the  older 
ones  cared  little  about  it.  In  the  afternoon  we  rode  to  Shelby, 
seventeen  miles.  Part  of  the  road  was  hard  dragging  through 
the  snow,  which  was  a  little  frozen.  This  renewed  our  fears 
of  difficulty  in  getting  on,  if  we  should  find  the  snow  deep  ;  but 
we  try  to  keep  hold  of  faith,  that  way  will  be  made  for  us ; 
having  great  cause  of  thankfulness  that  the  Lord  has  helped  us 
hitherto.  May  we  be  humbled  before  Him ;  wait  upon  Him 
daily,  for  the  renewal  of  our  strength ;  and  may  He  keep  us  in- 
ward in  spirit,  watching  our  thoughts,  words  and  actions,  that 
the  Truth  may  not  be  evilly  spoken  of  on  our  account. 

We  were  kindly  received  at  Shelby,  and  comfortably  accom- 
modated. The  female  head  of  the  family  appeal's  to  be  a  reli- 
giously exercised  Friend;  and  concerned  about  the  course 
pursued  by  some,  in  lecturing  to  mixed  companies  uj^on  slavery, 
and  encouraging  their  children  to  go  to  such  meetings ;  some- 
times leaving  their  own  meetings  for  worship  to  attend  them. 
What  unsettlement  has  been  pi-oduced  in  some  neighborboods, 
among  Friends,  by  the  leaders  of  the  people  joining  with  others, 
in  their  political,  abolition,  or  other  meetings. 

25th.  The  meeting  at  Shelby  was  small.  After  a  time  of 
waiting  in  silence,  I  believed  it  right  to  say,  there  was  such  a 
thing  as  Christ  being  pressed  down  in  the  hearts  of  men,  as  a 
cart  is  pressed  under  sheaves ;  and  those  who  are  his  faithful 
followers,  must  be  willing  to  suffer  with  Him.  The  Apostle 
said  that  he  partook  of  the  sufferings  of  Christ,  that  remained 
to  be  filled  up  for  the  bodies'  sake,  which  is  the  church.  And 
Christ  said,  it  is  enough  for  the  disciple  to  be  as  his  master,  and 
the  servant  as  his  lord ;  if  they  have  called  the  master  of  the  house 
Beelzebub,  how  much  more  will  they  call  them  of  his  household. 
But  if  we  are  planted  together  in  the  likeness  of  his  death,  we 
shall  be  also  in  the  likeness  of  his  resurrection  ;  and  be  raised 
up  to  walk  in  newness  of  life.  This  doctrine  may  be  called 
mysticism  by  the  carnally  minded,  who  rely  on  their  own  wis- 


846  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

dom  and  strength,  and  are  unwilling  to  submit  to  be  baptized 
with  Christ  in  his  suiferings,  and  therefore  they  reject  it.  I  was 
enabled  to  show  that  there  is  no  other  way  to  be  inade  members 
of  his  church,  nor  to  be  preserved  alive  in  the  Truth,  but  by 
thus  submitting  to  his  dispensations.  At  the  close  of  the  meet- 
ing, I  felt  clear  of  those  who  were  present,  and  peaceful  in  my 
own  mind. 

After  dining,  we  went  to  Hartland,  twelve  miles,  and  put  up 
with  kind  Friends.  Information  was  spread  of  our  intention  to 
be  at  their  meeting  next  day,  and  a  messenger  was  sent  to  Som- 
erset, to  have  notice  spread  of  a  meeting  there,  in  the  afternoon, 
at  three  o'clock;  both  of  which  we  attended  on  the  26th. 
Some  qualification  was  given  in  them  to  labor  to  strengthen  the 
things  that  remain,  that  are  ready  to  die;  and  to  encourage 
those  in  whose  hearts  the  Lord  is  at  work,  to  be  faithful  to  Him, 
and  patiently  endure  his  dispensations ;  by  which  his  servants 
are  prepared  for  his  use.  And  even  where  a  single  individual 
is  thus  fitted,  like  Deborah,  who  arose  a  mother  in  Israel,  they 
often  have  an  important  influence  in  leading  others  in  the  right 
way  of  the  Lord,  and  in  the  government  of  the  chilrch.  We 
rode  back  to  Hartland,  part  of  the  way  through  a  wet,  logged 
road,  wdiich  was  cut  in  many  places  into  deep  holes  ;  not  reach- 
ing our  quarters  until  darkness  made  some  part  of  the  ride 
hazardous  ;  but  we  were  favored  to  get  through  without  acci- 
dent. 

27th.  After  a  religious  opportunity  with  the  Friends,  we  set 
out  for  Lockport,  to  attend  a  meeting  appointed  there  for  us. 
The  company  was  one  of  the  smallest  w^e  had  yet  sat  with.  I 
felt  empty  of  everything  like  a  qualification  in  myself  to  minis- 
ter to  any  one  ;  but  after  a  time,  the  parable  of  the  sower  who 
went  out  to  sow,  presented ;  showing  various  obstructions  to 
the  growth  of  the  seed ;  and  under  the  humbling,  tendering 
power  of  Truth,  I  was  enabled  to  hold  forth  a  warning  to  those 
who  had  known  the  good  seed  to  spring  up,  and  bear  some 
fruit,  lest  other  things  entering  into  their  hearts,  it  should  be- 
come choked,  and  bring  no  more  fruit  to  perfection. 

28th.  We  got  an  early  start  for  Hambui-gh,  about  forty-two 
miles.  In  some  places  the  ground  was  frozen  very  rough  ; 
having  been  much  tramped  up ;  which  made  travelling  tedious. 
Our  course  lay  along  the  canal ;  Tonawanda  Creek,  which  wo 
crossed;  and  thence  by  the  side  of  the  railroad  to  Buffalo.  Hci-o 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS,  347 

I  had  the  first  view  of  the  Niagara  Eiver ;  in  which  are  the 
grand  falls;  of  the  shore  belonging  to  a  foreign  nation,  and  the 
outlet  of  one  of  the  great  lakes,  for  which  North  America  is  cele- 
brated. It  inspired  peculiar  feelings,  arising  from  the  grandeur 
of  the  scenery,  and  the  wonderful  efforts  which  man  is  making 
to  turn  the  produce  and  trade  of  distant  States  into  these  inland 
seas,  and  thence  through  the  enterprising  State  of  JSTev/  York,  to 
its  metropolis.  The  great  destruction  of  human  life  at  Buffalo, 
some  time  since,  occasioned  by  a  high  wind  blowing  over  the 
lake,  and  driving  the  water  up  Buffalo  Creek  to  such  a  height  as 
to  drown  a  large  number  of  peojile  in  their  houses,  and  to  cause 
the  destruction  of  much  property,  cast  a  shade  for  a  time  over 
the  prosperity  of  the  place ;  and  proved  how  suddenly.  He  who 
holds  the  power  in  his  hands,  can  arrest  man  in  his  career,  and 
bring  a  blast  over  his  proud  attempts  to  aggrandize  himself. 
We  stopped  here  with  S.  C,  and  after  taking  some  refreshment, 
proceeded  to  Hamburg,  which  we  reached  about  dusk,  and  put 
up  with  a  Friend. 

29th.  We  attended  the  first-day  meeting.  My  mind  was 
saluted  with  the  language  of  our  Saviour  to  the  Samaritan  wo- 
man, "Ye  worship  ye  know  not  what;"  accompanied  with  the 
sense,  that  there  was  a  want  in  some,  of  that  knowledge  of  the 
Father  and  the  Son,  which  is  life  eternal.  Also  Paul's  address 
to  the  Athenians,  presented,  that  as  he  passed  by  and  beheld 
their  devotions,  he  found  an  altar,  with  the  inscription,  "To 
the  unknown  Clod."  The  life  of  religion  being  almost  extinct  in 
many,  and  perhaps  altogether  so  in  some,  I  was  kept  low  with 
it;  and  administered  in  plainness  what  opened  upon  my  mind. 
Having  twenty  miles  to  ride  to  the  next  meeting,  we  got  im- 
mediately into  our  carriage,  and  rode  to  Collins,  and  put  up 
with  a  Friend.  He  soon  despatched  a  young  man  with  notice 
for  a  meeting  in  the  morning,  and  we  passed  the  evening  in  his 
humble  cottage,  in  cheerful  conversation,  and  peaceful  feelings. 
From  what  I  afterwards  heard,  there  was  great  cause  for  our 
distressing  feelings  at  Hamburg. 

30th.  The  morning  was  stormy,  but  a  pretty  large  number 
convened  ;  among  whom  were  more  exercised  Friends  than  we 
meet  w^ith  in  some  places.  This  was  encouraging ;  yet  it  felt 
to  me  there  was  need  in  others,  to  experience  the  cleansing 
power  of  Divine  grace  in  their  hearts ;  that  they  might  show 
forth  its  efficacy  in  their  lives  and  conduct,  and  thereby  invite 


348  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

others  into  the  path  of  piiritj- ;  instead  of  being  stiimhling- 
bloclvs  to  sincere  inquirers,  and  leading  the  young  people  from 
the  flock  of  Christ's  companions.  He  is  not  a  Jew,  who  is  one 
outwardly,  but  he  is  a  Jew  who  is  one  inwardl}* ;  and  circumci- 
sion is  that  of  the  heart,  in  the  Spirit,  and  not  in  the  letter,  whose 
praise  is  not  of  men  but  of  God.  For  want  of  being  really,  what 
some  desired  to  be  thought  by  others,  the  way  of  Truth  had 
been  evilly  spoken  of,  through  their  corrupt  practices  ;  and  thus 
the  cause  had  suffered.  I  was  distressed,  when  the  meeting 
was  over,  from  having  such  things  to  communicate,  fearing  lest 
I  might  be  mistaken ;  it  is  so  much  more  agreeable  to  be  em- 
ployed in  drawing  the  children  to  Christ,  and  in  comforting  the 
affiicted  and  mourning  ones,  because  of  the  desolations  of  Zion. 
Afterwards  an  exercised  Friend  said,  that  now  it  was  over, 
she  would  say,  that  their  condition  had  been  truly  described ; 
and  she  wished  that  it  might  have  the  proper  effect.  It  was 
pleasant  to  have  the  company  of  a  few  honest-hearted  Friends 
at  our  lodgings ;  who  were  also  cheered  with  having  an 
opportunity  of  mingling  with  Friends  from  other  parts,  who 
speak  a  language  which  they  understand,  and  which  goes  to 
strengthen  them  ;  and  shows  that  they  are  not  mistaken  in  their 
exercises ;  and  that  the  children  of  our  Heavenly  Father  have 
similar  baptisms  to  pass  through  in  their  various  allotments. 

31st.  Went  to  Clear  Creek,  and  attended  the  meeting  appoint- 
ed for  me  ;  which  was  slow  in  gathering,  and  thereby  disturbed 
and  unsettled  by  persons  coming  in  late.  It  was  another  labor- 
ious opportunity;  many  manifesting  indifference.  I  fult  pecu- 
liar interest  in  a  state  present,  which  I  believed  was  hungering 
and  thirsting  for  something  to  satisfy  the  longings  of  an  immor- 
tal soul ;  and  to  whom  the  invitation  was  extended,  to  come 
unto  Christ,  who  was  secretly  begetting  these  desires,  and 
bringing  in  his  or  her  view  a  cloud  over  the  things  of  this  world. 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  349 

CHAPTEE    XVII. 

Continuation  of  Visit  in  Xew  York  State. 
1845. 

1845,  First  montli  1st.    This  morning  we  rose  early,  and  set  out 
to  visit  a  small  meeting  at  EUery,  about  forty-five  miles  south- 
west ;  but  after  riding  five  miles  through  a  woody  country,  we 
found  the  road  so  covered  with  ice — the  snow  having  melted 
and  then  frozen,  that  we  we  were  unable  to  proceed  with  safe- 
ty.    The  great  descents  and  ascents  on  the  hills,  made  it  dan- 
gerous to  attempt  to  pass  over  them  in  our  carriage ;  which 
would  slide  from  side  to  side  on  these  narrow,  rounding  roads, 
and  render  us  liable  to  overturn,  or  be  thrown  ofi"  them ;  and 
which  would  be  likely  to  increase  as  we  got  to  a  more  mountainous 
country  :  feeling  easy  to  omit  the  meeting,  we  returned  to  the 
house  where  we  had  left  our  baggage.     Thence  we  proceeded  to 
Buffalo,  where  we  reached  about  dusk ;  and  after  supper,  had  a 
meeting  at  the  house  of  our  friend  S.  C,  with  about  twenty  per- 
sons; who  were  mostly  members,  but  whose  appearance  gave 
little  indication  of  it.     The  Lord  granted  ability  to  minister  to 
their  states,  and  the  spirit  of  supplication  to  intercede  for  those 
who  were  endeavoring  to  walk  in  the  right  way  ;  that  his  power 
might  be  manifested  to  sustain  them,  and  renew  their  faith 
when    reduced    and   proven ;    and    that    the    young    persons 
might  become  enamored  with  the  Truth,  and  drawn  from  the 
delusive  gratifications  of  this  vain  and  transitory  world.     This 
opportunity  was  relieving ;  and  induced  the  hope,  from  the  feel- 
ings of  peace,  that  I  was  not  forsaken  ;  for  after  passing  through 
what  I  had  for  several  days,  and  the  necessity  to  turn  back  from 
Ellery ;  I  began  to  fear  lest  I  was  mistaken  in  proceeding,  and 
home  and  my  beloved  family  being  brought  very  near,  in  affec- 
tionate recollection  ;  the  thought  presented,  whether  I  had  not 
better  turn  homeward.     But  the  next  morning,  it  seemed  pro- 
per to  pursue  my  original  prospect  of  going  into  Canada  ;  and 
after  getting  a  clearance  from  the  customs  officer,  which  detain- 
ed us  some  time,  we  crossed  the  ISTiagara  Eiver;  and  the  officer 
there  making  no  difficulty,  we  rode  nineteen  miles  on  our  way 


350  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

to  Pclham,  and  put  up  our  horses  to  feed  near  the  great  falls. 
Here  we  had  a  fine  view  of  this  stupendous  cataract.  Tlie  whole 
body  of  a  great  river,  the  outlet  to  these  inland  seas,  wliicli  lie 
to  the  west  and  north-west,  pouring  over  a  breastwork  nearly 
two  hundred  feet  high,  of  massive  stone,  and  in  width  about  one 
mile.  The  rushing  and  roar  of  this  mighty  torrent,  the  foam 
and  spray,  created  by  its  dashing  on  the  rocks  below;  the  for- 
mation of  a  perfect  rainbow  by  the  rays  of  light  decomposed  in 
the  vapor,  constantly  rising  and  falling  again  like  a  thick  shower 
of  fine  rain ;  and  also  the  foam  and  vapor  and  rainbow  colors 
mingled  together,  in  the  various  parts  of  the  cascade,  pre- 
sented one  of  the  grandest  scenes  that  I  bad  ever  beheld.  It 
far  exceeded  my  imagination  of  it ;  and  to  me,  it  was  surpris- 
ing, that  any  one  could  turn  from  it  Avith  disappointment;  but 
a,s  magnificent  and  overpowering  as  are  these  extraordinary  falls 
of  water,  they  are  an  atom  in  the  great  works  of  the  Almighty 
Creator. 

We  were  late  getting  to  a  Friend's  house  at  Pelham ;  having 
ridden  fourteen  miles  after  four  o'clock  ;  part  of  the  way  along 
the  Welland  Canal,  which  connects  Lakes  Erie  and  Ontario  ; 
and  night  coming  on,  made  the  road  in  some  places  difiicult  and 
dangerous.  It  w^as  a  great  relief  to  us  to  be  overtaken  by  a 
kind  Friend,  who  supposing  from  our  carriage  that  we  were 
Friends,  rode  up  to  our  guide,  and  ascertaining  who  we  were, 
piloted  us  to  his  house. 

3d.  Had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Pelham  ;  in  which  the 
call  and  qualification  for  the  ministry,  and  the  preparation  re- 
quisite for  the  reception  of  this  and  all  the  diversified  gifts 
which  the  great  Head  of  the  church  dispenses  to  those  who 
yield  to  his  sanctifying  power,  came  before  me ;  and  wdiich, 
after  a  time  of  silent  waiting,  I  believed  it  right  to  open.  After 
our  Saviour  commissioned  his  disciples  to  teach  all  nations, 
He  directed  them  to  tarry  at  Jerusalem  until  they  were  endued 
with  power  from  on  high.  Paul,  speaking  of  his  ministry,  says 
"  He  neither  received  it  of  man,  neither  was  he  taught  it  but 
by  the  revelation  of  Jesus  Christ ;"  and  there  remains  to  be  no 
other  source  for  the  work  of  the  ministr}-,  down  to  the  present 
day.  This  was  the  experience  of  Friends  fl'om  the  beginning, 
who  were  brought  oif  from  all  dependence  on  themselves,  or 
on  any  man,  to  wait  u])on  the  Ijord  ;  from  whom  they  received 
gifts  for  the  ministry,  and  for  judging  in  Israel,  to  discern  and 


JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM   EVANS.  351 

try  words  and  spirits.  It  was  not  a  time  of  abounding.  The 
meeting  appeared  to  be  in  rather  a  languishing  state ;  the  mem- 
bers, I  feared,  depending  too  much  on  vocal  ministr^^  They  were 
exhorted  to  gather  to  the  Divine  gift  in  themselves,  that  they 
might  receive  ability  to  worship  the  Father  in  spirit  and  in  truth, 
and  to  partake  of  that  food  which  the  Son  of  Man  will  give. 

Being  detained  that  afternoon  by  the  stormy  weather,  I  had 
some  serious  conversation  with  the  Friend  at  whose  house  we 
stopped.  He  expressed  much  concern  at  the  state  of  the  Society 
among  them;  particularly  on  account  of  ministers  encouraging 
a  coalition  with  other  professors  ;  speaking  lightly  of  some  of 
the  testimonies  held  by  us;  and  of  our  early  Friends,  as  having 
been  contracted  and  illiberal.  I  encouraged  him  to  keep  to  the 
ancient  ground ;  for  I  believed  that  all  such  defective  members 
would  finally  show  more  clearly,  that  they  w^ere  destitute  of  the 
life  and  substance  of  religion.  This  is  one  means  by  which  the 
growth  of  our  Society  is  greatly  obstructed ;  the  j'oung  people, 
who  are  in  the  air,  being  delighted  with  such  sentiments;  which 
make  way  for  them  to  indulge  in  the  corrupt  fashions  and  lan- 
guage of  the  world;  ajid  to  mingle  with  others,  until  they  lose 
all  relish  for  serious  things,  and  for  their  own  religious  Society; 
whose  principles  they  judge  to  be  too  strict  for  them. 

4th.  We  rode  to  Stony  Creek,  and  lodged  at  a  tavern.  JSText 
morning  rose  earlj',  and  went  seven  miles  to  Hamilton,  at  the 
head  of  Lake  Ontario,  to  breakfast ;  and  about  two  o'clock  got 
to  O.  W.'s,  at  the  Jersey  settlement.  He  and  his  wife,  and  one 
son  remain  members,  the  rest  having  left  the  Society.  They 
are  thirty-two  miles  from  Norwich,  to  which  meeting  they  be- 
long; which  shows  the  disadvantage  of  members  settling  them- 
selves, so  as  to  be  out  of  reach  of  meetings  and  the  company  of 
their  friends.  We  found  it  had  been  a  stopping  place  for  many 
of  our  English  Friends,  passing  through,  and  for  others  travel- 
ling in  the  work  of  the  ministry;  but,  it  is  affecting  to  tind 
members  located  where  they,  with  a  rising  family,  are  deprived 
of  the  advantages  of  religious  society. 

Notice  being  spread,  a  pretty  large  number  of  the  neighbors 
collected,  in  the  evening,  with  whom  we  held  a  religious  meet- 
ing. For  a  time  I  labored  along  with  difficulty,  but  at  length 
Truth  arose,  and  qualified  to  set  before  them  the  importance  of 
being  true  believers  in  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  and  the  danger  of 
resting  in  a  mere  historical  belief,  without  knowing  Him  to  save 


352  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

ns  from  our  sins.  Those  who  had  known  the  shedding  abroad 
of  Divine  love,  tendering  their  hearts,  convicting  them  of  sin, 
and  bringing  them  under  the  baptism  of  repentance,  were  warned 
of  the  danger  of  resting  in  the  conclusion  that  they  had  now 
obtainecl  religion  ;  and  when  the  Messenger  of  the  covenant  ap- 
pears as  a  refiner's  fire,  and  as  a  fuller  with  soap,  further  to 
purify  them,  turn  away,  apprehending  they  are  already  re- 
generated ;  and  thus  fall  short  of  that  perfect  redemption,  and 
growth  from  stature  to  stature  in  Christ,  which  makes  the  true 
Christian.  The  opportunity  was  closed  with  prayer  to  the 
Father  of  Mercies,  for  his  continued  goodness  in  visiting  the 
souls  which  He  has  made ;  reviving  the  work  in  the  midst  of 
the  years  of  some,  and  granting  preservation  and  strength  to 
perform  our  duty  to  Him  and  to  one  another.  I  thought  some 
of  the  company  were  brought  under  serious  feelings,  from  the 
manner  in  which  they  spoke  with  us  ;  which  I  found  afterwards 
to  b6-the  case. 

6th.  This  morning  we  set  out  for  Norwich,  but  had  not  pro- 
ceeded far,  before  one  of  the  iron  axletrees  broke  in  the  middle, 
and  the  carriage  being  on  a  long,  stee})  hill,  up  which  I  was 
walking,  I  could  not  make  my  companion  hear  until  the  wheel 
was  completely  sepai-ated  from  the  under  works;  tearing  away 
part  of  the  frame,  and  the  wood  work  on  the  axletree.  We  took  off 
the  body,  and  put  a  drag  under  the  end  of  the  broken  axle  ;  se- 
cured our  baggage  upon  it  to  return  to  O.  W.'s,  but  as  my  com- 
panion was  driving  the  horses  down  this  steep,  icy  hill,  finding 
their  shoes  too  smooth  to  hold  back,  they  ran  down  so  fast  as 
to  throw  him  down,  and  being  obliged  to  let  go  the  lines  to  save 
himself  from  being  thrown  over  the  precipitous  side  of  the  hill, 
they  went  off  with  full  speed  through  the  woods,  and  striking 
a  stump  or  two,  broke  one  of  the  fore  wheels  to  pieces,  and  so 
shattered  the  remainder,  that  at  first  sight,  we  doubted  whether 
it  would  be  worth  attempting  to  have  it  repaired.  The  horses 
were  stopped  after  running,  perhaps,  an  eighth  of  a  mile,  by  a 
man  working  near  the  road,  or  they  would  probably  have  ruined 
themselves  among  the  trees  and  high  stumps.  Our  situation,  as 
we  walked  up  the  corresponding  hill,  out  of  the  valley,  to  see 
what  had  become  of  them,  felt  discouraging ;  yet  in  the  midst 
of  our  troubles,  it  was  cause  of  thankfulness  that  we  were  pre- 
served from  serious  injury.  After  viewing  the  ruins,  we  became 
more  composed ;  procured  a  man  with  his  wagon  to  carry  the 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM   EVANS.  363 

wreck  back  to  O.  W.'s,  and  thence  sent  to  a  carriage-maker; 
who  said  it  could  be  repaii*ed  in  a  few  days,  while  we  were  gone 
to  Norwich  ;  and  our  friends  were  very  kind,  doing  everything 
for  us  they  could. 

7th.  Two  persons  agreeing  to  drive  us  to  Norwich,  in  a 
lumber  wagon,  our  runaway  horses  were  put  to  it,  and  we 
reached  Wm.  B.'s,  near  the  meeting-house  before  dark ;  having 
ridden  thirty-two  miles,  about  half  of  it  in  a  driving  snow, 
which,  in  an  open  conveyance,  was  an  unusual  exposure  to  us ; 
but  we  did  not  suffer  much  inconvenience.  The  company  of 
consistent  Friends  who  are  interested  in  the  welfare  of  our  So- 
ciety, had  a  cheering  effect,  after  our  disaster,  and  we  passed 
the  evening  in  suitable  conversation.  But  the  wormwood  and 
the  gall  would  come  up  in  remembrance,  and  in  the  night  sea- 
son I  tried  to  cry  to  the  Lord  for  an  evidence  that  I  was  in  my 
right  place ;  but  his  face  seemed  to  be  hid  from  me ;  and  I 
hoped  it  was  a  dispensation  for  my  renewed  humiliation,  which 
in  time  would  be  followed  with  good.  It  seemed  like  the  chas- 
tising rod :  perhaps  I  had  grown  a  little  too  easy,  after  some  of 
the  helping  seasons  I  had,  been  favored  with. 

8th.  Went  to  meeting,  which  is  perhaps  the  largest  country 
meeting  in  this  Yearly  Meeting.  I  felt  poor,  and  fearful  of  be- 
ing wrong  or  doing  wrong ;  but  strove  to  look  up  to  the  Master, 
and  to  w^ait  upon  Him  for  direction.  Two  states  were  brought 
before  me ;  one  a  low,  suffering  seed,  not  numerous,  but  who 
were  endeavoring  to  fill  up  their  measure  of  duty,  and  whom 
the  Lord  qualified  to  behold  the  gradual  lapse  of  some  from  the 
Truth,  and  what  they  had  once  known  of  it,  and  who  mourned 
over  such.  The  other,  one  that  is  sunk  in  the  earth,  exerting 
every  faculty  and  energy  to  acquire  propei'ty ;  by  which  their 
time  and  thoughts  are  absorbed  ;  so  that  the  work  of  salvation, 
the  necessary  daily,  spiritual  food  for  the  immortal  soul,  and  a 
deep  and  living  concern  for  the  education  of  their  children  in 
the  fear  of  the  Lord  are  overlooked ;  and  the  lambs  entrusted  to 
their  care  are  suffered  to  run  at  large,  entering  into  various  kinds 
of  society,  and  into  the  corrupt  practices  of  the  world.  After 
a  time  it  appeared  proper  to  open  these  views,  which  I  did  in 
weakness  and  fear ;  the  enemy  doubtless  striving  to  hinder  the 
work  by  his  suggestions  that  I  was  deserted,  and  all  I  could  say 
would  do  no  good.  But  I  kept  patient  and  low,  and  spoke  as 
things  gradually  arose ;  and  after  a  time,  the  Lord  in  mercy 


354  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

touched  our  hearts  with  the  finger  of  his  love  and  tendering  power, 
and  brought  us  to  tears ;  giving  me  a  renewed  sense  of  my 
nothingness  and  inabihty  to  do  anything  without  Him  ;  and  his 
compassionate  goodness  was  felt  so  as  to  affect  many  of  us,  and 
to  carry  conviction  home  to  others.  My  soul  humbly  bowed  in 
reverence  and  thankfulness  before  Him.  The  business  of  the 
Monthly  Meeting  was  transacted,  I  had  no  doubt,  on  the  part 
of  not  a  few,  under  a  sincere  concern  that  it  should  be  rightly 
managed.  I  feared,  however,  they  were  too  easy  in  receiving 
persons  into  membership,  and  I  mentioned,  it  was  easier  to  in- 
crease a  nation,  than  to  increase  its  joy  and  strength.  My 
companion  was  afterwards  told,  that  the  condition  of  the  meet- 
ing was  remarkably  described.  So  that  we  have  cause  to  trust 
in  the  Lord  at  all  times,  keeping  a  single  eye  to,  and  closely  fol- 
lowing his  leadings,  though  in  fear  and  weakness.  After  dining, 
we  set  out  on  our  way  back  to  a  Friend's  house,  five  miles  ;  called 
on  M.  P.,  a  minister  and  a  widow  with  eight  children  ;  with 
whom  we  had  a  religious  opportunity,  encouraging  them  to  be 
faithful  to  the  Truth,  and  the  Lord  would  be  a  father  to  them 
and  preserve  them  ;  which  brought  them  to  tenderness  and  tears. 

9th.  We  returned  to  O.  W.'s  and  found  our  carriage  repaired. 
The  next  morning,  after  a  sitting  with  the  famil}^,  from  whom 
we  had  received  much  kindness  and  attention,  we  set  out  on  our 
journey  towards  the  north  side  of  Lake  Ontario  ;  and  after  dark 
reached  the  house  of  an  English  family,  part  of  which  belongs 
to  our  religious  Society.  Here  we  lodged,  and  were  brought 
into  sympathy  with  them  on  account  of  some  keen  afflictions 
which  they  had  been  passing  through. 

11th.  This  morning,  after  they  had  read  a  chapter,  at  the 
breakfast  table,  of  which  I  was  glad  to  find  them  in  thepractice, 
I  believed  it  right  to  say  that  all  the  dispensations  of  Divine 
Providence  are  in  inscrutable  wisdom,  and  tend  to  hide  pride 
from  man.  Some  trials  we  bring  on  ourselves,  and  some  are 
brought  upon  us  by  others ;  and  I  exhorted  them,  under  their 
afflictions,  to  humble  themselves  before  their  Heavenly  Father ; 
inquiring  of  Him  what  is  his  will  concerning  them  in  these 
things,  and  applying  to  Him  for  the  help  of  his  Spirit,  to  profit 
by  them.  The  ride  along  the  lake  was  rather  dreary,  through 
fields  of  stumps,  dead  trees,  and  forests  of  growing  timber; 
which  made  the  sight  of  a  busy  town,  as  we  approached  Toronto, 
quite  cheering.     It  seemed  like  coming  into  the  civilized  and 


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habitable  parts  of  the  earth  once  more;  and  after  turnino-  into 
Yonge  Street,  we  were  surprised  at  the  cultivated  land,  and  the 
great  number  of  good  buildings,  thickly  strewed  along  this  fine 
road.  AVe  put  up  for  the  night,  at  a  tavern,  nine  miles  from  the 
city,  where  we  had  excellent  provision  for  ourselves  and  horses. 
Requesting  an  early  breakfast,  we  rose  between  five  and  six 
o'clock,  and  a  little  before  seven  were  in  our  carriages ;  having 
twenty  miles  to  ride  to  Yonge  Street  Meeting;  which  Ave  ac- 
complished with  ease,  the  road  being  smooth  and  frozen  hard. 

12th.  First-day  took  some  refreshment  at  a  Friend's,  near 
the  meeting-house,  and  then  went  to  the  meeting ;  which  was 
not  large.  The  Master  gave  the  word,  and  the  states  of  some 
w^ere  ministered  to ;  in  Avhich  I  had  peace.  Speaking  of  the 
effect  which  submission  to  the  Spirit  of  Christ  would  produce, 
in  separating  man  from  the  love  of  his  worldl}^  possessions,  I 
mentioned  h»w  much  quarrelling  about  property  would  be 
avoided  ;  every  one  being  willing  to  suff'er,  rather  than  do  wrong- 
to  another ;  looking  upon  themselves,  like  the  early  Christians, 
as  stewards  of  their  earthly  substance ;  willing  to  appropriate 
it  to  relieve  the  necessities  of  others,  after  providing  for  them- 
selves and  their  families.  The  Friend  with  whom  we  staid  said 
one  man  at  meeting  would  understand,  at  least,  a  part  of  the 
communication  ;  being  of  a  family  much  given  to  contention 
about  their  inheritance.  Being  altogether  strangers  to  ever}-- 
body  here,  it  was  confirming  that  the  Lord  still  condescended  to 
help  us,  his  poor  dependent  servants,  from  his  sanctuary.  "VYe 
lodged  with  the  Friend  at  whose  house  we  called. 

■13th  and  14th.  AVe  had  appointed  meetings  at  AVhitchurch 
and  Tecumseh  ;  in  which  I  endeavored  to  do  what  apj^eared  to 
be  required.  They  were  both  small  meetings,  yet  the  houses 
were  nearly  filled  ;  and  though  considerable  part  of  the  assem- 
bly were  not  Friends,  they  sat  with  becoming  seriousness  and 
quiet.  In  the  latter  meeting,  I  was  particularly  engaged  to 
speak  on  the  many  trials  and  afflictions  which  overtake  us  in 
this  life  ;  and  it  being  rather  unusual  for  me  to  dwell  so  decid- 
edly upon  that  subject,  I  mentioned  that  I  did  not  know  there 
were  any  present  under  peculiar  trial,  but  if  there  were,  I 
wished  such  to  profit  by  them,  and  be  instructed  in  the  great 
instability  of  earthly  possessions.  In  supplication  to  the  Fa- 
ther of  mercies,  I  was  led  to  petition  that  the  everlasting  arms 
might  be  underneath,  to  sustain  those  who  are  in   affliction, 


356  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

and  that  their  faith  might  be  renewed  in  Him.  The  Friend 
who  took  us  to  the  meeting,  told  us,  as  we  were  riding  back  to 
his  house,  that  two  or  three  days  before,  a  person  intoxicated, 
attempted  to  commit  personal  injury  upon  an  industrious,  or- 
derly young  man ;  and  also  had  threatened  to  burn  down  the 
outbuildings  on  his  farm,  which  he  had  made  some  effort  to  ac- 
complish; and  that  this  young  man  and  his  brother  were  at 
the  meeting.  How  necessary;  in  the  little  services  we  may 
have  to  perform,  to  keep  close  to  our  guide,  and  not  attempt  to 
choose  for  ourselves,  or  refuse  to  communicate  that  which  the 
omniscient  One  gives.  I  mention  this,  as  I  hesitated,  in  my  own 
mind,  to  speak  on  afflictions ;  because  it  is  a  subject  easily  and 
often  commented  on  ;  but  nothing  else  appeared  to  come  before 
me  to  say.  We  had  a  cold  ride  in  a  sleigh,  of  fifteen  miles,  out 
and  back  to  the  house  of  the  Friend,  who,  with  his  valuable 
wife,  took  very  kind  care  of  us. 

15th.  Attended  the  Select  Preparative  Meeting,  and  on  the 
16th,  the  Monthly  Meeting  of  Yonge  Street.  The  latter  was  a 
large  collection  of  Friends ;  amongst  whom  I  had  a  close  testi- 
mony on  the  degeneracy  of  many,  who,  like  Ephraim,  have 
joined  themselves  to  idols ;  and  whose  strength  strangers  have 
devoured,  and  they  know  it  not.  The  eager  pursuit  of  wealth, 
has  so  absorbed  the  time  and  energies  of  many,  that  they  are 
a  dead  weight  upon  the  Society ;  deriving  little  or  no  benefit 
from,  and  conferring  none  upon  it.  These  neglect  the  impera- 
tive duty  of  Divine  worship,  keep  their  children  from  the  way 
of  Truth,  and  their  religious  meetings.  The  meeting  minuted 
its  unity  with  the  labor. 

This  morning  we  found  snow  had  fallen  through  the  night, 
and  pretty  soon  it  commenced  again,  and  fell  constantly  through 
the  day.  We  try  to  hope  that  the  good  Hand  will  keej)  and 
provide  for  us,  so  that  we  shall  be  able  to  accomjjlish  the  ser- 
vice required,  and  join  our  beloved  families  in  peace.  The  dis- 
tance between  us  and  our  homes,  seems  greater,  owing  to  the 
inclement  season,  and  the  dangers  of  the  way  ;  but  the  Lord  can 
strengthen  us  to  surmount  them  all. 

17th.  Lodged  the  second  night  at  E.  D.'s,  near  the  meeting- 
house ;  who  api)eared  to  understand  the  state  of  our  religious 
Society,  and  with  whom  we  had  some  conversation  about  it. 
The  Monthly  Meeting  holding  late  yesterday,  wo  did  not  set 
out  for  Uxbridge  until  this  morning.    We  were  kindly  conveyed 


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to  it  in  a  sleigh,  by  one  of  the  Friend's  sons ;  the  distance  being 
eighteen  miles.  The  carriages  were  driven  to  Pickering  by  two 
young  men,  who  came  up  to  the  Monthly  Meeting ;  to  which 
Friends  of  that  place  belong.  The  weather  was  stormy;  hail, 
rain  or  snow  falling  most  of  the  time  ;  yet  we  suffered  but  little 
from  the  cold,  and  got  in  earlier  than  we  had  looked  for. 
Twelve  miles  of  the  road  were  through  a  wilderness,  in  which 
we  saw  but  one  house ;  and  bears,  deer  and  wolves  are  found 
there  in  considerable  numbers.  We  quartered  at  the  house  of  a 
Friend,  who  went  from  Pennsylvania ;  but  his  mode  of  living 
is  not  quite  like  that  in  the  thickly  settled  counties  of  that 
State.  Yet  he  appeared  to  be  in  a  thriving  condition.  A  Friend 
having  gone  on  before,  to  spread  notice  for  a  meeting,  a  com- 
pany of  Canadian-looking  men,  with  woollen  caps,  and  a  corres- 
ponding number  of  women,  nearly  all  of  whom  had  children  with 
them,  assembled  in  their  small  meeting-house,  surrounded  by 
snow  fifteen  or  eighteen  inches  deep.  Though  I  felt  empty  and 
somewhat  depressed,  yet  Divine  help  was  extended  to  8j)eak  to 
their  conditions,  and  to  hold  forth  the  indispensable  necessity 
of  working  wdiile  it  is  day,  in  the  vineyard  of  their  own  hearts  ; 
before  the  night  cometh,  in  M'hich  no  man  can  work.  The 
sight  of  so  many  women  who  had  turned  out  with  their  infants, 
in  snow  and  cold,  impressed  me  with  the  belief  that  they  wanted 
to  meet  with  good,  and  I  hoped  thoy  w^ere  not  disappointed. 
It  came  before  me,  to  allude  to  the  hardships  that  mothers  have 
sometimes  to  endure  ;  the  continual  care  of  the  children,  and 
the  necessary  pi'ovision  for  them  and  their  families  ;  which  much 
confined  them  at  home;  and  to  plead  a  little,  with  their  hardy 
husbands,  to  divide  the  toil,  and  to  soften,  as  far  as  in  their 
power,  the  diflSculties  their  wives  have  to  endure.  I  think  the 
tendering  power  of  Truth  was  felt,  and  they  shook  hands  very 
cordially  with  me  when  the  meeting  closed. 

18th.  This  morning  the  weather  was  cold,  and  the  wind 
from  the  northwest;  but  our  road  lying  much  through  the 
w^oods,  we  were  a  good  deal  defended  from  its  force.  Before 
we  started,  I  was  drawn  to  sit  down  with  the  family,  and  to  re- 
mind them  of  the  uncertainty  of  their  earthly  possessions,  and 
that  riches  can  do  nothing  for  us  when  the  end  comes ;  and  of 
the  infinite  importance  of  making  ready  for  that  awful  period 
before  it  arrives.  I  thought  the  man,  who  has  labored  hard  tO' 
get  comfortable  accommodations  for  himself  and  his  cattle,  but 
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358  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

is  SO  much  occupied  by  it,  that  he  does  not  find  time  to  attend 
his  Monthly  Meeting,  and  perhaps  others,  felt  what  was  said: 
he  parted  with  us  in  an  affectionate  and  serious  manner.  In  the 
afternoon,  we  got  to  a  Friend's,  at  Pickering,  where  we  were 
kindly  received  and  entertained. 

19th.  We  attended  their  first-day  meeting,  in  which  the  life 
and  power  of  religion  felt  to  me  to  be  low.  The  Lord  enabled 
me  to  search  into  the  condition  of  things  among  them;  to  show 
the  stumbling  effect  which  those  have,  who  are  not  producing 
the  fruits  of  religion  in  their  lives,  and  how  they  are  looked  on 
by  honest  people,  who  do  not  make  such  high  2)rofession.  Also 
the  danger  of  forsaking  silent  waiting  on  the  Lord,  and  run- 
ning into  the  expression  of  words,  to  gratify  a  restless  disposi- 
tion, was  spoken  to,  as, being  comparable  to  Saul,  who  without 
Divine  authorit}^,  made  an  offering  in  the  absence  of  the  pro- 
])het  Samuel,  lest  the  people  should  be  scattered;  but  whom  the 
prophet  told  he  had  done  foolishly.  The  true  preparation  and 
qualification  for  the  ministry  were  alluded  to;  and  the  suffering 
remnant  among  them  were  encouraged  to  abide  at  the  Lord's 
feet,  and  to  endure  the  baptisms  which  lie  administers ;  that  so 
they  may  grow  in  grace,  and  in  the  saving  knowledge  of  their 
Loi^d  and  Saviour  Jesus  Christ.  I  felt  constrained  to  bow  in 
supplication  for  the  few  who  are  striving  to  keep  the  faith,  and 
to  bear,  though  in  fear  and  in  meekness,  a  faithful  testimony  for 
the  Truth,  and  that  those  who  are  holding  back,  might  be 
stirred  up  to  more  zeal  and  devotion,  and  be  brought  forward 
in  their  ranks  and  service  in  the  church.  Though  I  was  favored 
with  holy  help,  yet  I  came  away  in  poverty,  and  some  discour- 
agement, on  account  of  the  state  of  the  members.  We  were 
afterwards  told  of  some  things  which  confirmed  my  feelings. 

Dined  with  a  Friend,  at  whose  house  we  had  the  company  of 
several  others.  In  the  morning,  a  Friend  kindly  offered  to  convey 
us  in  his  sleigh  to  Haldemond,  fifty  miles.  The  thermometer 
stood  at  seventeen  degrees  above  zero.  We  covered  up  in  buf- 
falo robes,  and  though  the  weather  was  cloudy,  and  the  wind 
rather  in  our  faces,  we  travelled  comfortably  in  an  open  sleigh, 
and  reached  J.  S.'s  before  night,  who  took  us  in  ver^^  heartily. 
A  cheerful  reception  after  travelling  an  obscure  road,  through  a 
strange  country,  is  grateful  to  weary  travellers,  and  should  be 
thankfully  accepted. 

21st.     The  Friend  who  brought  us  here  returned  to  Picker- 


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ing,  and  J.  S.  took  us  over  to  the  house  of  a  Friend,  near  Hal- 
demond  meeting-house,  eight  miles ;  and  also  agreed  to  convey 
us  to  Cold  Creek,  where,  he  said,  we  would  find  Friends  to  take 
us  to  Ameliasburg. 

Our  far  separation  from  home  at  this  wintry  season,  the  almost 
constant  cloudy  weather,  with  the  falls  of  snow,  have  a  depres- 
sing effect ;  and  the  great  distance  between  the  meetings,  makes 
our  getting  on  tedious.  It  is  especially  trying,  when  we  ai'e 
placed  in  the  care  of  those  of  little  religious  experience,  or  who 
are  not  under  the  sanctifying  power  of  Grace,  and  cannot  sym- 
pathize with  and  help  us,  in  bearing  the  burdens  that  attend 
these  visits  to  the  churches.  May  the  Lord,  in  tender  compas- 
sion, regard  and  visit  his  people,  arouse  some  from  their  supine- 
ness;  renew  the  confidence  of  the  upright  hearted  in  Him,  and 
show  unto  us,  by  raising  up  servants  and  handmaidens,  that  He 
will  not  cast  us  off,  and  take  his  name  from  our  religious  Society. 
I  felt  myself  in  a  low  state,  and  did  not  know  how  the  meeting, 
which  had  been  appointed  here,  would  be  got  through.  But 
after  sitting  down,  the  language  passed  through  my  mind,  "The 
same  Lord  over  all,  is  rich  unto  all  that  call  upon  Him."  Again, 
"  Call  upon  me  in  the  day  of  trouble,  and  I  will  deliver  thee, 
and  thou  shalt  glorify  me ;"  and  faith  sprang  a  little  in  my  heart 
that  He  would  not  forsake,  but  in  his  time,  change  the  dispen- 
sation. The  company  was  small,  and  I  was  enabled  to  min- 
ister to  them,  so  as  to  bring  some  under  serious  feelings.  Thej 
were  affectionate  in  taking  leave  of  us  at  the  close. 

22d.  J.  S.  came  to  us  quite  early  in  the  morning,  and  Ave 
xode  twelve  miles  to  a  Friend's  house,  and  refreshed  ourselves 
and  horses.  Cleanliness  and  godliness  are  very  properly  asso- 
ciated, and  have  a  happy  influence  on  the  feelings.  They  give 
zest  to  simple  fare,  and  open  the  springs  of  friendship  and 
union  between  those  who  before  have  had  no  acquaintance. 
These  Friends  are  much  secluded  from  our  religious  Society; 
but  they  came  to  the  meeting  at  Cold  Creek.  On  getting  to 
"W.  V.'s,  arrangements  were  made  to  spread  notice  of  a  meeting 
next  morning.  He  and  his  family  were  from  Ireland  ;  and  ap- 
peared to  have  mingled  with  cultivated  society ;  being  intelli- 
gent and  well-informed  of  the  principles  and  order  of  Friends. 
"We  do  not  rely  on  learning,  as  an  essential  qiialifieation  for  re- 
ligious service,  but  association  with  those  of  cultivated,  religi- 
ous minds,  is  very  pleasant  and  profitable. 


360  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

23d.  "Went  to  the  meeting ;  in  which  were  many  persons  of 
consistent  appearance,  and,  I  have  no  doubt,  honest  in  their 
love  to  the  cause  of  Christ.  The  blessedness  of  living  and 
walking  in  the  Truth,  and  being  faithful  to  its  requirings,  com- 
ing before  me,  I  was  strengthened  to  encourage  the  sincere- 
hearted,  and  to  plead  with  the  earthly-minded,  to  yield  to  the 
convictions  of  Divine  grace,  that  thereby  they  may  be  brought 
into  the  love  and  service  of  their  Heavenly  Father.  After  a 
short,  tendering  opportunity  with  our  kind  friends,  we  set  out 
in  his  sleigh,  between  three  and  four  o'clock,  and  rode  through 
a  rough,  hilly  country,  to  the  head  of  the  bay  of  Quinti,  and 
down  along  the  lake  shore,  through  a  flat  plain ;  over  which 
the  wind  swept  with  chilling  force ;  and  after  a  ride  of  twenty- 
five  miles,  got  to  a  Friend's  house  about  eight  o'clock. 

24th.  The  weather  this  morning  proved  to  be  rainy,  and 
looked  cheerless;  but  notice  having  been  spread,  the  members 
of  Ameliasburg,  generally  assembled ;  and  through  the  good- 
ness of  the  blessed  Head  of  the  church,  we  had  a  favored  meet- 
ing. His  solemnizing  presence  spread  over  us,  and  the  gospel 
was  preached,  and  the  states  of  some  reached.  It  was  a  reliev- 
ing time,  and  encouraged  me  to  hold  on,  in  endeavoring  to  com- 
plete the  service  of  this  visit.  We  went  to  J.  C.'s  to  lodge, 
which  we  found  a  comfortable  resting  place. 

Marrying  contrary  to  the  discipline  is  so  common  in  Canada, 
even  with  some  from  whom  a  different  example  should  be  ex- 
pected, that  the  testimony  against  the  practice,  cannot  be  said 
to  be  maintained.  Some  Friends  are  so  weak,  that  they  seem 
to  approve,  rather  than  disapprove,  of  this  violation  of  our 
wholesome  discipline;  on  the  ground,  as  they  say,  that  instead 
of  losing  a  member,  the  Society  mostly  gains  one.  But  in  the 
first  place,  it  lays  waste  the  qualification  of  the  offender  to  sup- 
port the  discipline,  in  other  cases,  if  he  is  retained  in  member- 
ship, by  "offering  a  paper,"  as  it  is  termed.  And  when  the 
discipline  is  loosely  administered,  weakness  overspreads,  in  re- 
lation to  an  upright  and  impartial  course  in  other  respects. 
Secondly,  if  the  party  who  had  never  been  a  member  is  re- 
ceived, for  the  sake  of  accommodation,  or  without  real  convince- 
ment  of  our  principles  and  testimonies,  weakness  and  blindDess 
may  bo,  in  like  manner,  introduced  through  this  channel ;  and 
thus  meetings  for  discipline,  become  formal,  lifeless  appendages 
to  the  Society. 


JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  361 

25th.  In  the  afternoon  we  rode  to  J.  B.'s,  where  we  lodged  ; 
and  in  the  following  morning,  being  first-day,  (26th,)  were 
called  for  by  J.  C,  who  took  us  to  West  Lake  Meeting ;  which 
was  large,  and  the  forepart  of  it  disturbed  by  persons  coming 
late,  and  moving  about  in  the  house.  My  companion  requested 
the  boys  in  the  gallery  to  keep  still  in  one  place,  and  not  be 
walking  about,  disturbing  the  meeting ;  which  had  a  good  ef- 
fect above  and  below  stairs.  I  felt  desirous  of  keeping  my 
place,  as  the  Master  should  aj^point,  and  the  way  not  opening 
to  communicate  anything,  the  meeting  closed,  to  the  surprise  of 
many. 

We  rode  five  miles  to  Pictou,  and  dined  with  a  well-educated 
family.  The  plain  appearance  and  correct  deportment  of  their 
children  were  cheering;  and  before  we  left  the  table,  I  felt  a 
word  of  encouragement  to  arise,  for  them  and  their  parents. 
Notice  having  been  sent  to  Adolphustown,  for  a  meeting  on 
second-day,  we  crossed  the  bay  of  Quinti,  on  the  ice,  and  lodged 
at  W.  C.'s,  whose  dwelling  is  situated  a  short  distance  from  the 
water;  a  beautiful  site.  These  aged  Friends  came  from  the 
United  States,  into  Canada,  about  fifty-eight  years  ago.  They 
used  a  boat  on  the  different  streams  in  the  route,  which  they 
had  conveyed  in  wagons,  from  stream  to  stream ;  and  when 
they  reached  Oswego  Elver,  they  descended  it  into  Lake  Onta- 
rio ;  and  went  round  to  the  outlet  of  the  lake,  into  the  bay  of 
Quinti.  They  trrivelled  as  the  weather  permitted ;  landing  on 
some  part  of  the  shore  suitable  for  passing  the  night ;  until  they 
reached  their  stopping-place  in  Canada.  Their  account  of  the 
difficulties  they  met  with,  and  their  progress  in  making  a  set- 
tlement, was  interesting.  Both  of  them,  being  now  over  four- 
score years  of  age,  still  retain  a  good  share  of  mental  strength ; 
though  the  husband  is  not  able  to  pronounce  his  words  perfect- 
ly, owing  to  a  paralytic  affection.  They  were  among  the  first 
Friends  who  held  a  meeting  in  Canada;  and  Adolphus  was  the 
first  established  meeting ;  its  decisions  as  a  Monthly  Meeting, 
being,  as  they  informed  us,  subject  to  revision  and  confirmation 
by  a  Monthly  Meeting  at  Stanford. 

27th.  Attended  the  meeting  at  Adolphustown  ;  and  labored 
to  strengthen  the  faith  of  those  who  were  often  tried ;  and  to 
set  forth  the  importance  of  a  change  of  heart  in  the  unregene- 
rate.  The  Master  mercifully  condescended  to  help  us.  Ee- 
turned  to  West  Lake  in  the  evening. 


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28tli.  At  the  Half-years  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders— 
a  low  time  to  me  ;  yet  I  did  not  feel  easy,  without  endeavoring 
to  hold  up  the  great  responsibility  of  the  stations  they  occupied ; 
the  indispensable  necessity  of  enfoi^cing  the  doctrines  of  Christ, 
by  example,  in  all  our  intercourse  among  men  ;  that  the  source 
of  all  true  gospel  ministry  is  the  Great  Head  of  the  church  ;  who 
by  his  Spirit,  opens  to  the  minds  of  his  servants,  what  He  or- 
dains them  to  communicate  to  the  people ;  and  that  the  same 
Spirit  also  gives  a  true  discerning  to  elders ;  by  which  they  may 
rightly  distinguish  between  that  which  comes  from  the  true 
Spring,  and  the  deceptive  workings  of  the  natural  reason  and 
the  imagination.  The  necessity  of  the  faithful  discharge  of 
their  duties,  in  laying  a  hand  upon  spurious  offerings,  was 
pressed  upon  them.  The  practice  which  generally  pi-evails,  of 
sending  for  ministers  to  attend  burials,  as  if  the  dead  could  not 
be  interred  in  a  christian  manner,  without  preaching,  was 
brought  into  view,  and  Friends  were  cautioned  against  encour- 
aging it,  by  going  to  places  out  of  their  own  neighborhood,  for 
such  purpose,  unless  under  a  sense  of  religious  duty. 

On  the  29th,  the  Meeting  for  Discipline  was  held ;  in  the  fore- 
part of  which,  manj^  spoke.  I  felt  not  a  little  grieved  with  a 
sense  of  the  want  of  sound  and  faithful  elders,  and  a  right  feeling 
of  the  order  which  belongs  to  the  church  of  Christ ;  in  which 
the  servants  and  ministers  know  how  to  keep  their  places,  un- 
der the  direction  of  the  great  Lawgiver.  After  a  time,  I  be- 
lieved it  right  to  bear  testimony  to  the  necessity  of  enduring 
suffering,  in  order  that  we  may  reign  with  Christ ;  that  being 
baptized  into  death,  we  may  know  what  it  is  to  be  raised  up, 
by  Him,  who  is  the  resurrection  and  the  life  ;  and  to  encourage 
a  remnant  who  were  in  suffering,  to  be  faithful  to  their  Lord 
and  Master.  One  of  the  ancient  martyrs  said,  though  she  could 
not  sa}^  much  for  Christ,  she  could  suffer  for  Him.  It  is  through 
baptism,  Ave  are  prepared  to  receive  gifts,  and  to  be  put  into  the 
stations  which  the  Great  Head  designs  us  for,  in  his  church; 
and  without  this  experience,  none  can  take  part  or  lot  in  the 
work  of  the  Lord.  If  they  attempt  to  be  active,  in  their  own 
will  and  wisdom,  they  minister  death  instead  of  life ;  wound 
themselves,  bring  distress  over  the  living  members,  and  con- 
fusion into  the  church.  The  true  servants  of  Christ,  who 
know  how  to  keep  their  ranks  in  righteousness,  have  the  sen- 
tence of  death  in  themselves,  not  to  trust  in  themselves,  but  in 


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God,  who  raiscth  the  dead.  These  in  their  services,  are  a  savor 
of  life  unto  life,  and  of  death  unto  them  that  are  dead.  The 
Master  helped  me  to  discharge  myself  honestly,  and  Truth  came 
over  some  restless  spirits.  The  young  people  were  invited  to 
come  under  the  refining  hand  of  the  Baptizer  of  his  people,  that 
l)y  his  cleansing  power,  they  may  be  prepared  for  usefulness  in 
his  church.  A  Friend  returned  thanks  for  the  continued  <:>-ood- 
ness  and  condescension  of  the  Lord,  in  manifesting  Himself 
for  our  help,  and  the  meeting  proceeded  to  the  business. 

Some  things  which  were  cause  of  uneasiness,  were  brought 
before  Friends ;  particularly  the  neglect  of  frequently  reading 
the  Holy  Scriptures ;  both  apart  from  their  families,  and  also  to 
them,  at  proper  seasons.  Many  going  out  of  the  Society  in  mar- 
riage, and  Monthly  Meetings  conniving  at  it ;  such  disorderly 
persons  being  kept  from  attending  their  meetings  for  business, 
but  a  short  time,  and  then  undertaking  to  sit  in  judgment  on 
other  violations  of  the  discipline.  These  in  their  turn,  are  pre- 
pared to  connive  at  the  wrong  doings  of  others,  and  thus  con- 
tribute to  lay  waste  the  order,  the  discipline  and  the  authority' 
which  were  conferred  b}^  the  Head  of  the  church  for  its  health 
and  growth.  Friends  were  also  cautioned  against  the  practice 
of  attending  meetings  held  by  the  separatists,  by  which  the 
principles  of  young  and  old,  ma}^  be  subverted,  and  the  advan- 
tages lost,  which  we  ought  to  derive  from  being  a  people,  devo- 
ted to  the  Lord  and  his  truth. 

On  fifth-day  was  held  their  usual  public  meeting  for  Divine 
worship.     I  felt  no  ability  for  any  public  service. 

In  the  afternoon  we  rode  fifteen  miles  to  A.  E.'s,  widow  of 
the  late  T.  E.  ;  whom  we  heard  spoken  of  as  a  sound  minister, 
belonging  to  Adolphustown  Meeting.  We  found  her  house  an 
agreeable  lodging  and  resting-place,  where  travellers  are  kindly 
entertained.  Next  day,  the  31st  of  First  month,  went  to  Cam- 
den, thirty-two  miles,  situated  in  a  newly-settled  country.  The 
weather  was  verj-  cold  ;  and  when  about  half  way  on  our  jour- 
ney, we  called  at  the  house  of  a  kind  person,  warmed  ourselves, 
and  got  some  dinner;  and  towards  evening,  reached  our  lodg- 
ing-place ;  which  was  warmed  with  a  large  stove  in  the  room 
where  we  slept,  and  one  in  the  adjoining  apartment,  as  well  as 
a  fire  in  the  chimney ;  all  which  were  necessary  to  make  us 
comfortable. 

Second  month  1st.     This  morning  we  found  the  thermometer 


364  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

at  twenty  degrees  below  zero  ;  the  atmosphere  clear  and  calm. 
In  new  settlements,  w^here  the  benefits  of  religious  education  and 
habits  are  not  always  discoverable,  there  is  reason  to  fear  that 
that  circumspection,  which  true  religion  requires,  is  not  attain- 
ed, as  it  ought  to  be,  among  some.  Population  being  thin,  it  is 
natural  for  persons  to  seek  such  society'  as  is  within  their  reach  ; 
and  where  there  is  a  want  of  christian  watchfulness,  imj^roper 
associations  may  be  indulged,  obstructing  the  elevation  of  the 
standard  of  truth  and  righteousness.  In  the  meeting  which  we 
held  here  w^ith  the  Friends  and  their  neighbors,  I  was  exercised 
on  the  danger  of  mingling  with  persons  of  uncertain  principles 
and  evil  habits,  who  have  little  or  no  reverence  for  religion ; 
and  I  warned  them  against  allowing  their  children  to  associate 
with  such  ;  lest  they  should  be  j^oisoned  in  principle,  and  spoil- 
ed in  their  manners  and  conduct.  Other  subjects,  as  they  were 
brought  before  me,  were  spoken  to.  Afterwards,  a  Friend  said, 
if  they  had  told  me  beforehand  their  situation,  it  could  not  have 
been  more  fully  described  ;  which  is  another  proof  that  the 
spring  of  all  true  gospel  ministry,  is  in  Him  who  hath  the  key 
of  David :  to  whom  all  the  honor  and  praise  belong. 

"We  rode  back  in  the  evening  to  A,  R.'s,  for  the  purpose  of 
being  at  West  Lake  on  first-day,  not  feeling  clear  of  that  place. 
The  ride  was  cold,  and  the  latter  part  dangerous,  on  account  of 
the  slippery,  iced  surface  of  the  Bay  road ;  where  we  had  fears 
of  gliding  off,  in  the  dark,  and  were  glad  to  get  into  our  warm 
lodgings. 

First-day  morning,  the  2d,  the  thermometer  was  ten  degrees 
below  zero ;  and  having  fifteen  miles  to  ride,  we  rose  and  start- 
ed early ;  the  air  was  pinching  cold.  Had  a  laborious  time  at 
meeting,  with  some  whose  spiritual  faculties  seemed  blunted,  so 
that  they  have  little  qualification  to  engage  in  inward,  spiritual 
worship,  and  little  energy  to  maintain  our  religious  testimonies. 
Called  and  dined  at  the  boarding  school,  and  had  a  word  of  ex- 
hortation to  the  teachers  and  the  scholars.  Eode  back  to  A. 
R.'s,  rather  weary,  and  after  supper,  had  a  religious  oi^portuni- 
ty  with  the  family. 

3d.  Rode  twenty-six  miles  to  .1.  F.'s,  liear  Kingston,  and  had 
a  meeting  at  their  meeting-house,  about  five  miles  distant,  with 
Friends  and  others.  For  a  time,  I  felt  afraid  that  the  Lord  had 
deserted  me,  which  lu-ought  me  low  ;  but  before  the  close,  I 
hope  He  opened  some  things  for  the  instruction  of  the  j)eople. 


JOURNAL    OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  365 

I  returned  to  our  lodgings  in  a  humbled  state  of  mind;  proba- 
bly in  part  to  prepare  me  for  the  trials  which  succeeded. 

4th.  As  we  came  from  meeting  it  snowed,  and  so  continued 
through  the  night ;  and  this  morning  the  weather  was  stormy ; 
presenting  a  very  dreary,  discouraging  aspect;  but  notwith- 
standing, we  set  out  and  rode  forty-six  miles,  through  a  severe 
snow  storm,  to  a  Friend's  house,  five  miles  short  of  the  meeting- 
house at  Leeds ;  and  glad  we  were  to  get  under  a  warm  shelter 
out  of  such  inclement  weather.  Here  we  found  a  large  family 
of  children,  and  the  Friends  in  slender  circumstances ;  which 
caused  us  to  feel  much  for  them,  and  for  their  children.  Such 
have  many  hardships  to  encounter ;  and  their  time  being  almost 
wholly  occupied  in  providing  necessary  food  and  clothing, 
leaves  but  little  opportunity  to  give  direct  attention  to  the 
habits  and  mental  improvement  of  their  offspring.  Yet  such  is 
the  great  importance  of  right  principles  being  impressed  on 
their  tender  minds,  and  adopted,  they  should  do  what  they  can, 
to  bring  up  the  children  not  only  in  industry  and  cleanliness, 
but  instructing  them  in  useful  bi'anches  of  learning ;  in  fre- 
quently reading  the  Holy  Scriptures ;  and,  above  all,  to  tiirn 
their  hearts  to  the  teachings  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  that  they  may 
be  bi'ought  to  live  in  the  fear  of  their  great  Creator.  By  this 
godly  care,  enforced  by  example,  the  minds  of  the  children 
would  be  stored  w^ith  knowledge,  that  would  raise  them  above 
the  practice  of  low  jesting,  and  trifling  conversation  on  subjects 
or  occurrences  of  a  frivolous  character;  and  which  tend  to  de- 
grade the  mind.  How  responsible  is  the  standing  of  those  who 
are  engaged  in  instructing  others  in  the  work  of  religion.  AYhile 
advocating  the  power  of  Divine  Grace,  how  ought  they  to  show 
its  efficacy  in  themselves,  and  in  a  proper  concern  and  care  for 
their  offspring.  Where  practice  does  not  enforce  precept,  there 
may  be  reason  to  fear  that  persons  have  mistaken  their  sphere 
in  the  church,  and  are  carried  away,  by  creaturely  activity, 
abroad,  as  a  substitute  for  the  faithful  discharge  of  domestic 
duties.  The  profession  of  Divine  guidance  is  brought  into  dis- 
repute, by  the  neglect  of  our  own  families,  manifested  by  un- 
cultivated minds  and  irreligious  manners  ;  however  zealous  we 
may  appear  for  the  welfare  of  others  and  their  children.  Such 
may  find  it  much  easier  to  counsel  others  how  they  ought  to  live, 
than  to  restrain  and  rightly  tutor  the  lambs  committed  to  their 
care.     There  are  persons  in  low  circumstances,  who,  by  their 


366  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

industry  and  prudent  management,  bring  up  thpir  children  in 
habits  of  sobriety  and  proper  laboi-,  and  also  get  for  them  suit- 
able school  learning  ;  but  it  is  generally  those  who  stay  much  at 
home,  minding  these  important  duties  ;  and  thus  are  a  blessing 
to  their  families;  and  their  children,  as  they  grow  up,  are  oftea 
a  blessing  to  such  parents. 

5th.  Though  the  storm  continued,  and  much  snow  fell  through 
the  night,  we  believed  it  right  to  endeavor  to  get  to  the  meet- 
ing ;  but  little  did  we  know  of  the  difficulties  in  our  way.  We 
soon  found  ourselves  in  a  depth  of  snow,  through  which  the 
horses  could  not  draw  the  sleigh  more  than  a  rod  or  two,  without 
stopping  to  get  breath.  After  proceeding  about  a  mile,  with 
much  difficulty,  we  desired  our  guide,  who  was  on  horseback,  to 
go  to  a  Friend's  house,  and  get  him  to  come  out  with  a  yoke  of 
oxen,  to  break  the  road  before  us.  The  Friend  followed  his 
oxen,  often  above  his  knees  in  the  snow,  in  their  track,  continu- 
ally urging  them  forward.  We  dragged  after  them  at  a  slow, 
laborious  pace,  about  a  mile,  when  he  thought  it  impracticable 
to  CO  further,  and  advised  us  to  return  to  the  house  we  left  in 
the  morning.  To  this  we  were  decidedly  opposed,  as  the  house 
we  wished  to  reach  was  but  one  and  a  half  mile  distant.  We 
stopped  at  a  house  near  the  roadside,  and  though  discouraged, 
we  prevailed  on  the  man  to  get  out  his  oxen  to  aid  us ;  but  one 
of  them  proved  so  weak,  he  was  unable  to  push  through  the 
snow,  even  without  anything  to  draw  after  them.  He  had 
neither  accommodations  for  us,  nor  stabling  for  horses ;  and,  of 
course,  it  was  necessary  to  make  attempts  to  get  on.  The  man, 
without  his  oxen,  accompanied  us,  assisting  the  Friend  to  drive 
his  oxen  ;  whom  we  occasionally  relieved  by  taking  him  on  our 
sleigh.  Several  kind  persons,  seeing  our  situation,  turned  out, 
and  assisted  breaking  the  road,  by  trampling  down  the  snow, 
sometimes  up  to  the  waist,  until  we  reached  another  farm-house. 
Here  tliey  kindly  ^^oked  up  two  pair  of  oxen,  and  attached  them 
to  a  sled;  and  another  person  turned  out  on  horseback,  so  that 
we  soon  had  the  road  so  open,  that  we  got  to  Ilarvey  Derby- 
shire's; four  miles  from  our  starting  place  in  the  morning.  It 
was  now  after  twelve  o'clock;  we  having  been  about  four  and  a 
half  hours  coming  four  miles  ;  and  truly  glad  we  were  to  find 
ourselves  within  reach  of  so  comfortable  a  shelter  for  ourselves 
and  horses.  I  had  never  experienced  such  feelings,  fi-om  the 
apprehension  of  the  consequences,  should  we  be  left  in  fields  of 


JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  367 

snow,  by  our  horses  getting  down  and  giving  out ;  the  harness 
breaking,  and  no  houses  within  reach.  But  we  had  cause  for 
thankfidness,  that  we  were  released  from  such  dangers  and  sen- 
sations, and  hospitably  provided  for.  The  storm  continued,  and 
I  felt  much  concerned  about  the  Friend  who  had  between  two 
and  three  miles  to  travel  back  to  his  home ;  lest  he  should  be 
overpowered  by  the  depth  of  the  snow  :  he,  however,  got  back 
safely.  The  snow  was  so  banked  up  about  the  house,  that  they 
were  fearful  the  cattle  would  get  almost  buried  in  it;  and  the 
Friend  and  his  boy  were  up  in  the  night,  to  ascertain  their  con- 
dition. Next  day  I  had  a  chill,  and  was  obliged  to  go  to  bed ; 
as  it  subsided,  fever  came  on,  which  went  off  towards  night, 
with  profuse  perspiration  ;  and  I  hoped  it  would  terminate  the 
disease. 

7th.  The  road  being  pretty  well  broken,  we  went  to  P.  W.'s, 
near  the  meeting-house;  and  the  next  day  I  had  a  return  of 
chill  and  fever.  The  disease  constantly  prostrating  me,  the 
severity  of  the  climate,  and  the  great  distance  from  home,  made 
my  situation  feel  serious  ;  which  was  increased  by  the  state  of 
the  roads  ;  and  I  have  seldom  passed  through  a  greater  trial  of 
faith.  A  Friend  rode  eight  miles  to  the  residence  of  a  physi- 
cian, but  he  had  gone  to  Brockville.  Of  course,  he  did  not  find 
him ;  but  P.  AV.  going  out  about  a  mile  in  the  opposite  direc- 
tion, to  attend  to  some  business,  met  him  and  brought  him  to 
see  me.  Having  quinine  with  him,  he  prepared  me  a  mixture, 
and  giving  me  directions  how  to  take  it,  expressed  the  belief 
that  the  disease  would  not  continue  long ;  which  was  encourag- 
ing. The  fever  went  off  iis  before,  and  I  took  the  medicine 
faithfully. 

9th.  This  morning  the  thermometer  was  twenty-two  degrees 
below  zero,  at  eight  a.  m.  Though  the  doctor  had  advised  me  not 
to  go  to  meeting,  yet  as  it  was  first-day,  and  I  was  desirous  to 
do  the  work  that  might  be  required,  so  as  to  be  prepared,  when 
able,  to  take  my  departure,  I  wrapped  up  well  and  went.  A 
large  company  collected,  towards  whom  I  had  sojne  service,  but 
being  weak,  and  the  house  rather  warm,  I  was  not  able  to  stand 
long.  When  the  time  to  close  came,  I  requested  Friends  to  re- 
main together,  while  others  withdrew;  and  after  a  pause,  the 
way  opened  to  address  them  on  the  preparation,  call  and  quali- 
fication for  the  ministry  of  the  gospel,  and  the  duties  of  elders ; 
also  on  the  danger  of  mistaking  our  calling ;  and  hence  the 


368  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

necessity  of  lowly  watchfulness  before  the  Lord,  and  the  spirit 
of  discernment  in  those,  whose  place  it  is  to  judge;  that  they 
may  be  qualitied  to  counsel  those  who  may  speak  merely  to  an- 
swer the  cravings  of  the  people  for  words,  for  fear  they  will  be 
scattered.  The  danger  of  setting  up  a  man-made  ministiy,  out 
of  which  the  Society  was  originally  gathered,  was  opened  ;  that 
thereby  the  testimony  would  be  laid  waste,  which  the  Lord 
gave  us  to  bear,  to  tlie  spiritual  character  of  Divine  worship, 
in  silent,  reverent  waiting  upon  Him.  "When  persons  mistake 
their  calling,  and  elders  do  not  discharge  their  duty  faithfully, 
in  silencing  such  intruders,  they  bring  distress  upon  the  living 
members,  and  often  make  a  party  to  support  them ;  which  in- 
troduces difficulty  into  a  meeting.  In  transacting  the  aftairs  of 
the  church,  they  were  exhorted  to  retire  to  the  gift  of  God  in 
themselves,  as  in  their  silent  approaches  in  Divine  worship  ;  that 
they  may  be  made  acquainted  with  their  respective  duties  and 
services,  and  enabled  to  perform  them ;  and  when  they  have 
delivered  what  was  impressed  on  their  minds  to  say,  to  leave 
it  before  their  brethren  and  sisters,  without  urging  it,  and  ruling 
over  them.  Christ  is  given  to  be  Head  over  all  things,  to  his 
body  the  church.  These  things  were  laid  before  them  in  love, 
Avith  a  sincere  desire  they  might  be  found  laboring  together  for 
the  faith  of  the  gospel. 

I  felt  very  feeble  on  returning  to  my  lodgings,  and  being  able 
to  take  but  little  nourishment,  I  was  depressed  with  the  apprehen- 
sion, that  for  want  of  suitable  aliment,  I  should  sink  so  low  as  not 
soon  to  be  able  to  travel.  Home,  and  my  dear  connections  were 
far  distant,  and  such  a  great  body  of  snow  lying  on  the  ground, 
and  it  being  probable  still  more  would  fall  ere  long,  my  faith 
seemed  almost  ready  to  fail ;  but  looking  up  to  my  Heavenly 
Father,  I  was  enabled  to  pray  to  Him,  that  He  would  not  per- 
mit anything  to  fall  upon  me,  that  I  could  not  bear,  lest  the 
spirit  which  He  had  made,  should  fail  before  Him.  I  was  op- 
pressed in  body  and  mind,  and  at  the  usual  hour,  retired  to  rest, 
and  after  some  conflict  with  the  reported  difficulties  of  crossing 
the  St.  Lawrence,  finally  got  asleep ;  and  in  the  morning, 
rose  somewhat  refreshed.  As  I  sat  alone. in  my  lodging-room, 
an  intimation  was  given  me,  that  my  sulferings  in  that  place, 
were  at  an  end;  and  then  I  knew  that  I  should  not  be  much 
longer  kept  there.  The  weatlier  proved  more  moderate,  and 
though  it  wab  the  usual  day  for  the  chill,  it  did  not  return,  and 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  369 

we  concluded,  contrary  to  the  physician's  advice,  to  set  out  for 
Le  Eay  Quarter  at  noon.  By  that  time  the  road  was  well 
broken  to  Brockville,  on  the  river,  and  there  was  a  plain  track 
over  it,  so  tluit  our  fears,  on  this  account,  soon  vanished.  "We 
passed  over  safely,  and  put  up  for  the  night  at  a  tavern,  about 
a  mile  from  the  landing ;  with  thankful  hearts  that  we  were 
once  more  in  our  own  country,  and  progressing  to  the  remain- 
ing work,  which  w^ould  bring  us,  comparatively,  in  the  neighbor- 
hood of  home.  Lodged  comfortably,  and  found  my  appetite 
improved  by  fresh  air  and  change  of  diet,  and  my  strength  in- 
creased. No  one  who  has  not  passed  through  similar  feelings, 
can  realize  the  agreeable  change  1  experienced. 

11  til.  Third-day.  We  rode  seventeen  miles,  principally 
through  a  romantic  countrv,  called  the  Rossie  Hills  ;  dined,  and 
in  the  afternoon  went  eighteen  miles  further  to  the  residence 
of  R.  T.,  near  New  Philadelphia,  where  we  were  kindly  received 
and  entertained. 

12th.  Snow  again  falling  very  fast,  after  rain,  rendered  it 
doubtful  that  many  would  attend  the  usual  meeting,  held  to-day ; 
though  some  notice  of  our  wish  to  see  Friends  had  been  spread. 
I  went  to  it  in  weakness  and  fear,  after  such  reduction  in  body 
and  mind;  not  knowing  whether  I  should  be  owned  and  helped 
by  Him,  without  whom  we  can  do  nothing.  After  a  time  of 
silent,  inward  waiting,  I  was  strengthened  to  stand  up,  and 
found  ability  to  search  out  some,  who  were  concealing  them- 
selves under  a  plain  outside,  but  greatly  needed  the  inside  to  be 
made  clean.  I  was  thankful  for  Divine  help  in  discharging  my 
duty  to  them,  and  in  strengthening  the  honest  hearted  present. 
In  the  afternoon,  we  rode  to  J.  and  L.  C.'s,  not  far  from  Le  Eay- 
ville,  where  we  found  a  true  resting  place.  The  concerns  and 
interests  of  our  religious  Society,  were  uppermost  with  these 
Friends,  and  after  part  of  the  evening  had  been  spent  in  in- 
structive converse,  we  fell  into  silence,  and  a  word  of  con- 
solation and  encouragement  was  furnished  for  them  and  their 
daughters. 

13th,  Attended  their  regular  meeting,  in  which  I  was  en- 
gaged to  labor,  I  hope,  in  the  authority  of  Truth.  Parting 
with  these  dear  Friends  seemed  hard  on  both  sides,  feeling  one 
another  in  the  best  fellowship.  So  few  Friends  visiting  them 
from  a  distance,  they  expressed  their  reluctance  at  our  staying 
so  short  a  time ;  but  in  order  to  get  to  Lowvillc,  and  hold  a 


370  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

meeting  next  morning,  it  was  necessary  to  ride  fifteen  miles 
this  evening;  which  we  did,  and  lodged  at  a  tavern.  The 
weather  was  cold  ;  the  mercury  being  several  degrees  below 
zero.  I  thought  I  never  before  saw  the  moisture  from  the 
horses,  freeze  on  their  bodies,  as  it  did  almost  immediately  after 
setting  out,  while  the  sun  shone  on  them. 

14th.  Word  having  been  taken  over  night,  by  a  Friend,  for  a 
meeting,  we  rose  early,  and  without  waiting  for  breakfast, 
which  was  quite  indiscreet,  considering  the  severity  of  the 
weather,  we  rode  about  ten  miles  to  J.  S.'s.  A  fine  hail  com- 
menced falling  before  meeting  time.  The  company  was  small, 
and  in  sitting  with  them,  it  appeared  to  me,  weakness  had 
spread  over  the  heads  of  the  tribes;  and  the  injunction,  "Be 
watchful  and  strengthen  the  things  which  remain,  that  are 
ready  to  die  ;  for  I  have  not  found  thy  works  perfect  before 
God,"  was  revived  and  applied.  The  spirit  of  prayer  was 
granted,  to  petition  for  help  from  the  sanctuary ;  that  those 
who  were  negligent  and  indiflPerent,  and  had  lost  ground,  might 
be  forgiven  and  brought  to  renew  their  covenant,  and  come  up 
in  greater  faithfulness ;  also,  for  the  young  people,  who  have 
so  few  to  lead  them  in  the  right  way  ;  that  the  Lord  would 
touch  their  hearts  with  the  finger  of  his  love,  enamour  them 
with  the  beauty  of  holiness,  and  the  excellency  of  his  blessed 
Truth.  The  hearts  of  some  were  affected.  We  went  to  T.  T.'s 
and  lodged. 

15th.  In  coming  out  this  morning  to  the  main  road,  we 
found  the  track  so  filled  with  drifted  hail,  that,  in  some  places, 
the  horses  sunk  in  it  nearly  to  their  bodies,  and  the  sleigh  was 
with  difficulty  prevented  from  overtui^ning.  We  drove  south 
about  fifteen  miles,  dined  and  fed  our  horses  at  an  inn,  and  to- 
wards evening,  reached  J.  P.'s  at  Lee.  Those  who  have  never 
travelled  in  a  country,  where  the  snow  is  above  the  tops  of  the 
fences,  and  there  is  but  one  track,  are  not  aware  of  the  difficulty, 
and  sometimes  dangei*,  in  turning  out  of  it,  to  pass  vehicles 
we  meet.  Tlic  oft'horsc  plunges  deep  into  the  snow,  from  which 
it  requires  a  great  effort  to  recover  the  road,  oidangcring  the 
harness  or  getting  entangled  with  the  passing  sleigh. 

16th.  First-day  morning.  Snow  lulling  fast,  presenting  a 
discouraging  prospect,  both  on  account  of  the  size  of  the  meet- 
ing and  the  difficulties  of  travelling.  The  number  who  came 
was  greater  than  I  expected ;  but,  though  I  endeavored  to  do 


JOURNAL    OF    AVILLTAM    EVANS.  871 

■u-hat  appeared  to  be  required,  it  was  not  a  very  animating 
time ;  yet  I  hoped  that  serious  impressions  were  made  on  some. 
After  dinner,  we  parted  with  our  companion,  B.  Bowerman,  who 
had  been  with  us  through  Canada,  and  rode  to  Z.  H.'s  ;  being  ob- 
liged to  ride  eleven  miles  round,  instead  of  six  miles  across  the 
hills,  owing  to  the  fall  of  snow  this  morning.  We  passed  an 
agreeable  evening  in  conversation  with  this  Friend,  who  appear- 
ed to  be  firm  in  the  doctrine  of  the  gospel  as  held  by  our  Society. 
The  very  general  de^mrture  of  the  young  people  from  plainness 
of  dress,  throughout  this  Quarterly  Meeting,  gives  ground  to 
apprehend  that  the  Society  in  many  places,  will  decline,  if  not 
run  out.  To  the  indulgence  of  parents  and  others,  it  is  to  be 
mach  attributed  ;  who,  instead  of  restraining  the  children,  grat- 
ify their  fondness  for  dress.  What  abundant  cause  is  there  for 
mourning;  as  it  is  evidence  of  the  degeneracy  overspreading 
many  parts  of  this,  as  well  as  other  Yearly  Meetings. 

17th.  We  had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Werkenville,  com- 
posed of  members  and  other  professors.  It  was  a  good  meet- 
ing, in  which  was  set  forth  the  peculiar  glory  and  excellenc}'" 
of  the  gospel  dispensation ;  which  brings  a  knowledge  of  the 
Divine  will  home  to  every  man,  with  strength  to  do  it ;  and  en- 
ables him  to  worship  God  in  spirit  and  in  truth,  without  human 
aid,  or  the  intervention  of  words.  A  solemnity  was  over  us. 
Friends  were  refreshed,  and  I  felt  thankful  for  the  Lord's  good- 
ness in  qualifying  for  his  work  ;  without  which  we  can  do 
nothing.  We  rode  six  miles  to  an  elderly  Friend's  house ; 
dined,  and  after  a  religious  opportunity  with  a  member,  who 
was  absent  when  we  were  at  the  meeting  to  which  she  belongs,- 
we  rode  nearly  eight  miles  to  C.  P.'s,  in  Westmoreland.  Here 
we  met  with  some  hopeful  young  people,  and  found  it  a  j)leasant 
lodging  place  for  weary  pilgrims. 

18th.  Held  a  meeting  here;  in  which  was  emphatically 
opened  and  pressed,  the  danger  of  being  swallowed  up  in  busi- 
ness ;  by  which  the  work  of  salvation  would  be  almost  or  en- 
tirely, neglected.  I  expressed  the  hope  which  I  felt,  that  young 
persons  present  were  designed  by  the  Lord,  to  be  prepared  and 
made  use  of,  in  building  up  the  waste  places,  and  restoring  the 
former  desolations  among  us.  These  were  pleaded  with  to  yield 
to  the  convictions  and  drawings  of  his  Spirit,  that  they  might  be 
redeemed  from  the  love  of  the  world,  and  know  Him  to  fit  them 
for  his  service  in  the  church.   It  Avas  a  tendering  time  with  some, 


372  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

which  was  renewed  at  our  lodgings,  in  a  religious  opportunity 
with  a  number  of  3'oung  persons,  before  we  set  out  for  New 
Hartford ;  some  of  whom,  I  believed,  if  they  are  faithful,  will 
be  qualified  to  support  the  ark  of  the  testimonies.  It  was  plea- 
sant to  see  marks  of  care  and  religious  concern  in  some  hero, 
to  keep  to  simplicity,  and  to  bring  up  their  children  rightly. 
Oh  how  are  the  reins  of  government  thrown  upon  the  necks 
of  children,  and  they  encouraged  to  copy  the  corrupting 
fashions,  and  manners  of  the  people  around  them,  with  whom 
they  too  freely  mingle ;  much  to  their  hurt. 

Eode  in  the  afternoon  to  a  Friend's  house,  near  New  Hartford 
meeting-house ;  but  found  him  so  unwell  that  we  could  not  be 
accommodated.  AVe  went  to  the  residence  of  another,  and  were 
told  that  he  also  was  indisposed,  but  no  other  being  convenient 
they  consented  to  take  us  in. 

We  went  to  the  meeting-house,  whei-e  we  found  a  few  Friends 
kindling  a  fire.  A  little  company  gradually  collected,  with 
whom  we  had  a  tender  opportunity,  to  the  comfoi-t  of  the  sin- 
cere ones,  who  are  striving  to  keep  up  their  little  meeting  at 
this  place.  Several  expressed  their  satisfaction.  Plainness  of 
speech  was  used  towards  a  different  class ;  who  are  deficient  in 
the  life  of  religion.  After  dinner  rode  to  Madison,  about 
twenty-four  miles,  and  put  up  with  a  Friend,  in  the  village  of 
Hamilton. 

20th.  Attended  their  regular  meeting,  which  was  small,  and 
in  which  I  labored  according  to  the  ability  afforded.  In  the 
afternoon  went  to  Brookfield;  our  guide  gave  notice  to  the 
families,  as  we  rode  along,  of  the  appointment  of  a  meeting,  to 
be  held  the  next  day ;  which  to  me,  was  a  trying  time;  the  evi- 
dence of  declension  from  primitive  zeal,  and  the  neglect  of  the 
great  work  of  salvation,  were  affecting  to  me. 

In  the  afternoon  we  had  a  tedious  ride  of  twenty  miles,  some 
part  of  it  difficult  from  snow  banks,  which  began  to  give  way 
under  the  horses,  so  as  to  make  them  plunge  a  good  deal  in 
passing  over  the  drifts.  We  found  H.  B.'s,  which  we  reached 
al)out  seven  o'clock,  an  agreeable  resting  place,  after  such  a 
ride. 

22d.  We  had  a  meeting  at  Burlington ;  which  was  much 
larger  than  we  expected,  from  the  short  notice,  and  it  being 
seventh-day.  I  was  glad  to  see  so  many ;  it  seemed  an  indica- 
tion of  life,  and  a  desire  to  obtain  good.     They  wore  encour- 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  373 

aged  to  individual  faithfulness,  from  the  example  of  Nehemiah, 
who,  notwithstanding,  his  besetments,  effected  much  by  perse- 
verance ;  through  the  Divine  blessing.  I  hoped  it  was  a  good 
meeting;  there  being,  as  I  thought,  sincerely  concerned  ones, 
who  would  rejoice  in  the  prosperity  of  Zion.  Under  a  sense  of 
the  protecting  power  and  goodness  of  our  Heavenly  Father, 
extended  to  us  in  this  journey,  I  was  led  to  bow  before  Ilim, 
and  acknowledge  his  mercy  in  visiting  us  in  the  morning  of  life, 
and  keeping  us  to  this  hour;  and  implored  his  continued  pre- 
servation, through  the  remaining  snares  and  temptations  with 
which  a  cruel  enemy  might  assail  us  ;  in  order  to  destroy  that 
which  He  had  done  in  us  and  for  us. 

In  a  view  of  the  trials  awaiting  us,  from  the  unsettled  state 
of  our  religious  Society,  there  is  great  need  of  watchfulness  and 
fervent  prayer  to  our  Heavenly  Father,  for  his  delivering  arm, 
that  it  may  be  round  about  his  afflicted  children  and  servants. 

After  dinner  we  proceeded  to  H.  B.'s,  at  Oneonta,  eighteen 
miles ;  which  was  laborious  travelling,  the  road  being  bare  of 
snow  nearly  one-half  the  distance,  from  the  present  mildness  of 
the  weather.  Here  we  felt  like  coming  to  the  close  of  our  visit, 
this  being  the  starting  point  where  we  set  out,  for  the  meetings 
in  this  part  of  New  York  Yearly  Meeting.  We  were  very  cor- 
dially received  by  his  wife,  Henry  being  from  home  ;  and  ac- 
knowledgments of  the  Lord's  mercy,  secretly  rose  in  my  heart, 
He  having  thus  brought  us  safely  through  this  trying  and  labo- 
rious journey. 

23d.  Attended  the  first-day  meeting  at  Butternuts;  in  which 
1  felt  a  strong  interest  in  some  of  the  3"0ung  men  ;  to  whom  the 
language  of  persuasion  was  offered,  to  yield  to  the  convictions 
of  the  Holy  Spirit,  which  would  change  their  hearts  and  their 
actions,  and  give  them  true  peace  ;  in  place  of  a  restless,  unhap- 
py condition,  which  often  attends  disobedience  of  the  Divine 
law.     We  must  leave  our  labors  with  the  Lord. 

We  were  detained,  waiting  for  the  stage,  iintil  third-day  af- 
ternoon ;  and  in  the  meantime,  sold  our  carriage  and  horses  ; 
wdiich  was  a  great  relief,  for  we  should  probably  have  found  it 
difficult,  to  drive  through  the  mountains,  on  account  of  snow. 
We  were  taken  to  Oneonta  ;  whence  the  stage  started  at  twelve 
o'clock  in  the  night ;  we  got  some  sleep,  but  setting  out  in  an 
open  wagon,  was  rather  chilling;  but  there  was  no  alternative. 
We  passed  over  a  rough  road,  but  reached  Catskill,  on  the  North 
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374  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

River,  about  eight  o'clock  in  the  evening,  somewhat  fixtigned  ; 
the  distance  being  seventy-three  miles.  Here  we  were  detained 
waiting  for  a  steamboat,  until  after  dark,  next  evening.  When 
on  board,  we  were  w^ell  pleased  to  find  ourselves  in  such  an  ex- 
peditious mode  of  conveyance  homew^ard.  The  crowd  in  the 
boat,  the  darkness  of  the  night,  and  the  driving  of  the  vessel 
on  large  cakes  of  floating  ice,  which  made  her  tremble  from 
stem  to  stern,  together  with  some  noisy  passengers,  made  the 
voyage  unpleasant.  We  landed  in  New  York  a  little  after  five 
in  the  morning,  and  walked  to  our  friend  John  Wood's  ;  whom 
we  found  in  a  poor  state  of  health,  though  at  that  time  better 
than  he  had  been.  He  was  a  man  of  a  christian  spirit ;  and 
from  the  opportunity  I  had  of  observing  him,  appeared  to  be 
ready  to  forgive  his  enemies,  bearing  their  reproaches,  in  a 
pleasant,  cheerful  spirit.  This  was  the  last  opportunity  I  had 
of  seeing  him,  and  he  was  then  in  this  disposition,  while  he 
conversed  on  some  of  his  trials.  He  died  in  a  few  weeks  after, 
firm  in  the  faith  that  he  had  borne  a  righteous  testimony  to  the 
Truth ;  and  having  a  well-gi'ounded  hope  of  entering  into  ever- 
lasting rest  and  peace  with  God,  through  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ; 
whose  servant  he  was,  and  was  not  ashamed  to  confess  his  Di- 
vine Master  openly  before  men.  He  was  a  lover  of  the  Truth, 
and  of  the  friends  of  Truth,  and  an  able  minister  of  the  gospel 
of  life  and  salvation. 

We  crossed  the  North  Eiver  to  Jersey  City,  and  took  the  car 
for  Philadelphia,  at  nine  o'clock;  and  in  about  six  hours  were 
restored,  in  safety  and  peace,  to  our  beloved  families  and  friends. 
My  heart  was  clothed  with  gratitude  and  thanksgiving  to  our 
gracious  Caretaker,  for  his  unmerited  mercy  and  goodness  in 
preserving  us ;  furnishing  renewed  strength,  from  time  to  time, 
to  do  his  will,  and  bringing  me  back  with  the  reward  of  sweet 
peace  ;  and  to  find  the  like  peace  and  preservation  had  been 
dispensed  to  my  dear  wife  and  children  during  my  absence. 

I  endeavored  throughout  the  visit  to  maintain  a  state  of 
watchfulness,  that  nothing  might  occur  to  mar  the  work  ;  and 
after  my  return,  I  was  favored  with  much  peace  and  serenity ; 
and  in  looking  over  the  journey,  nothing  appeared  that  created 
uneasiness,  or  caused  feelings  of  regret ;  which  I  esteemed  a 
mercy. 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVAXS.  375 

CHAPTEE    XYIII. 

1845—1846. 

Want  of  the  Life  of  Religion  in  the  Society — Visit  to  Exeter  and  Maiden 
Creek  Meetings — Visits  to  different  Meetings  within  Philadelphia  Yearly- 
Meeting — Ann  Jones  of  Stockport,  England — Visit  to  Stanford  Quarterly 
Meeting,  New  York,  and  its  Branches. 

1845,  Tenth  month  8th.  After  a  season  of  long  silence,  my 
mind  was  invested,  at  our  own  meeting,  with  the  sense  that 
what  is  wanting,  is  the  life  of  religion  ;  accompanied  with  a  re- 
newed evidence,  that  He  who  is  the  resurrection  and  the  life,  is 
graciously  near  to  manifest  Himself  in  that  character.  The 
duties  which  are  of  an  outward  nature  are  to  be  performed;  but 
they  may  be  fulfilled,  and  the  power  of  godliness  denied.  Many 
appeared  to  me  in  that  situation  ;  j)lain  in  the  exterior,  regular 
in  coming  to  meeting,  and  desirous  of  hearing  ministry ;  but  are 
destitute  of  that  travail  of  soul  and  fervency  in  seeking  after 
Christ,  which  He  would  reward  with  the  cheering  beams  of  his 
countenance,  and  the  bread  which  nourishes  up  the  soul  to  ever- 
lasting life,  and  renews  our  love  and  courage  to  follow  Him, 
and  to  wait  for  Him.  Seldom  have  I  felt  my  love  to  the  Lord 
Jesus  stronger  than  I  did  this  day.  My  spirit  humbly  bowed 
before  Him,  and  returned  thanks,  that  were  not  uttered,  for  his 
mercy  in  raising  me  up  as  from  the  dead,  to  testify  of  his  truth 
and  his  goodness,  and  to  incite  others  to  come  and  submit  them- 
selves to  Him. 

9th.  Went  to  Westtown  to  attend  the  semi-annual  meeting 
of  the  committee  there.  We  found  the  school  in  rather  a  pros- 
perous condition  as  regards  the  progress  of  the  pupils  in  their 
studies.  I  rarely  visit  this  institution  without  feelings  of  peace- 
ful delight  arising  from  the  persuasion,  that  the  unslumbering 
Shepherd  of  the  sheep  watches  over  the  little  flock  there,  and 
■will  reward  the  sincere  and  faithful  efforts  of  the  caretakers  and 
teachers  to  guard  and  instruct  the  dear  children.  Meeting  with 
several  beloved  Friends  on  the  appointment  was  animating ; 
and  I  hope  productive  of  good. 

28th.     For  days  past  poverty  of  spirit,  and  being  brought 


376  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

low,  have  been  my  portion.  My  only  hope  has  been  in  the 
compassion  and  loving  kindness  of  the  Lord,  my  helper  and 
keeper,  and  the  belief  that  He  would  not  forsake  me.  To-day 
I  went  to  Frankford  Monthly  Meeting;  and  after  struggling 
with  feelings  of  great  discouragement,  I  yielded  to  apprehended 
duty  ;  and  the  Lord,  in  mercy,  opened  the  spring  of  the  minis- 
try, and  gave  me  tongue  and  utterance,  to  my  own  consolation, 
and  the  comfort  of  his  people.  I  was  thankful  for  this  token 
of  his  goodness,  and  proof  that  He  had  not  forsaken  me. 

29th.  Our  Monthly  Meeting,  held  to-day,  was  a  solid  oppor- 
tunity ;  both  that  for  worship  and  for  the  administration  of  the 
discipline.  There  was  an  unusual  solemnity  over  the  latter,  in 
which,  I  believe,  not  a  few  were  under  a  sincere  travail  of  spirit, 
that  we  might  be  favored  with  the  Master's  presence,  and  quali- 
fied to  act  in  his  authority.  It  is  this  alone  that  strengthens  to 
advance  the  cause  of  Truth,  and  to  edify  the  body  on  the  true 
foundation.  Samuel  Bettle,  Sr.,  was  with  us,  and  expressed  his 
satisfaction  in  being  united  with  his  bi'ethren  in  religious  exer- 
cise. We  agreed  to  the  proposition  of  the  Philadelphia  Month- 
ly Meeting,  to  open  meetings  for  worship  on  first-day  evening, 
through  the  winter. 

Eleventh  month  2d.  Our  evening  meeting  was  opened,  which, 
considering  the  wetness  of  the  weather,  was  large.  It  was  thought 
to  be  a  good  beginning. 

5th.  The  longer  I  live  the  more  I  am  convinced,  that  the  gos- 
pel cannot  be  preached  but  as  He  who  hath  the  key  of  David 
reanoints  for  the  woi*k,  and  furnishes  that  which  quickens  the 
soul,  and  raises  into  dominion  the  precious  life  in  an  assembly. 

10th.  My  beloved  wife  having  had  for  some  time  a  concern 
to  visit  the  Friends  of  Exeter  and  Maiden  Creek  Meetings,  we 
took  the  Pottsville  car,  and  being  met  at  Douglassville,  by  a 
Friend,  were  taken  by  him  to  J.  B.'s.  The  weather  was  very 
fine,  the  travelling  pleasant,  and  being  cordially  received  by  our 
dear  friends,  we  passed  the  afternoon  and  evening  to  our  mutual 
satisfaction.  On  the  following  morning,  J.  and  his  wife  set  out 
with  us  for  Maiden  Creek. 

12th.  Called  to  see  our  aged  friend  Mary  E.  Lee,  who  was 
confined  with  an  injury  received  by  a  fall.  We  had  a  religious 
opportunity  in  her  chamber,  and  then  went  to  the  meeting.  My 
wife  was  engaged  to  strengthen  the  hands  of  the  exercised  few 
there,  and  to  invite  the  young  people  to  give  themselves  up  to 


JOURNAL   or   WILLIAM   EVANS.  377 

the  Lord  and  his  service.  Afterwards  it  was  my  place  to  speak 
to  the  states  of  those  who  were  often  brought  to  see  they  were 
not  what  the  Lord  required  them  to  be,  and  in  whom  He  raised 
at  times  desires  that  they  might  die  the  death  of  the  righteous, 
and  their  latter  end  be  like  his.  The  character  and  example  of 
the  righteous  were  often  brought  before  their  view,  and  they 
saw  their  own  shortcomings;  yet  refusing  to  yield  to  Divine 
conviction,  they  remained  unchanged  in  heart,  and  the  day  of 
mercy  was  ^Jassing  away.  These  were  fervently  pleaded  with,  to 
yield  to  the  drawings  of  Divine  love,  and  they  would  know  the 
nature  of  the  lion  to  be  put  off,  and  that  of  the  lamb  to  take  its 
place ;  old  things  would  be  done  away,  and  all  things  be  made 
new,  and  all  things  of  God.  The  opportunity  was  closed  with 
prayer  and  thanksgiving.  In  the  afternoon,  we  rode  to  E.  L.'s, 
whei'e  we  parted  with  our  friends  J.  and  M.  B. 

13th.  Attended  Exeter  Meeting,  which  was  rather  larger  than 
nsual ;  in  which  we  were  both  engaged  to  labor  for  the  encour- 
agement and  growth  of  the  members  in  the  rignt  way.  I  hoped 
some  Divine  quickening  was  felt  in  both  these  meetings.  Went 
to  the  residence  of  our  aged  friend  John  Lee  and  wife.  He  is 
in  an  afflicted  state  of  body.  It  afforded  us  much  satisfaction 
to  find  our  aged  friends  so  alive  to  the  blessed  cause,  committed 
in  trust  to  our  religious  Society  ;  and  they  seemed  to  be  refresh- 
ed as  well  as  ourselves  by  the  visit. 

14th.  We  w^ere  brought  to  the  railroad,  and  reached  our 
home  early  in  the  afternoon. 

19th.  The  Monthly  Meeting  of  the  Western  District,  was 
held  to-day,  which  I  was  drawn  to  visit.  The  company  was 
unusually  large  ;  and  after  a  time  of  silent  waiting,  the  stirring 
of  the  Lord's  power  was  felt,  under  which  I  was  gradually  en- 
abled to  preach  the  gospel  of  salvation,  through  our  Lord  Jesus 
Christ ;  showing  that  the  work  of  regeneration  had  its  begin- 
ning in  the  heart,  through  obedience  to  the  manifestations  of 
his  Spirit,  in  little  things.  Our  Saviour  thanked  the  Father 
that  He  had  hid  the  things  of  his  kingdom  from  the  wise  and 
prudent,  and  revealed  them  unto  babes.  To  be  brought  into 
this  blessed  experience,  we  must  become  babes  in  Christ;  and 
the  only  way  to  experience  the  new  birth  and  change  of  heart 
unto  righteousness,  is  by  faithfulness  to  the  requisitions  of  the 
Divine  will,  made  known  in  us.  Many  things  were  brought 
forth  out  of  the  treasifiy,  by  Him  who  alone  has  the  key  and 


378  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

command  of  it;  and  through  Divine  mercy  and  condescension* 
the  baptizing  and  solemnizing  power  of  Christ,  went  forth  over 
the  assembly;  to  the  comfort  and  strength  of  the  hungry,  weary 
and  exercised  ones.  Oh  !  that  I  may  be  enabled  in  humility 
and  abasedness  of  soul  to  offer  the  tribute  of  thanksgiving  and 
praise  to  Him  who  hath  all  power  in  his  hand  ;  and  to  w^alk  be- 
fore Him  with  increasing  fear  and  reverence,  for  all  his  great 
condescension  and  unmerited  compassion  towards  me,  a  poor 
creature,  and  towards  his  church  and  people. 

26th.  This  afternoon,  my  wife  and  myself  went  to  visit  a 
Friend  in  the  country.  There  is  a  union  of  spirit  between 
those  who  see  eye  to  eye,  and  their  countenances  and  company 
are  cheering.  Where  the  Son  of  Peace  abides,  a  harmonious 
converse  can  be  maintained  between  fellow  travellers  on  the 
heavenly  journey.  Their  experiences  and  their  Divine  open- 
ings, with  which  their  mutual  Lord  and  Leader  has  instructed 
them,  are  brought  forth  from  the  treasury  as  things  which  are 
new  and  yet  old.  Such  converse  is  both  entertaining,  and,  at 
times,  very  strengthening,  and  according  with  the  practice  of 
the  earliest  disciples.  Two  of  them  walked  from  Jerusalem  to 
Emmaus,  talking  as  they  went,  of  the  things  which  had  just 
transpired.  Jesus  joined  himself  to  them,  and  asked,  "  What 
manner  of  communications  are  these  that  ye  have  one  to  an- 
other, as  ye  walk,  and  are  sad?"  At  a  time  of  singular  trial  and 
disappointment,  it  was  natural  for  them  to  speak  upon  that 
which  lay  the  nearest  to  their  hearts.  And  so  it  is  now.  Dis- 
ciples of  the  same  Master  will  commune  upon  their  trials,  and 
the  straits  and  beset nients  of  the  church,  as  well  as  upon  its 
hopes  and  encouraging  prospects.  Paul  talked  with  his  con- 
temporary believers,  on  one  occasion,  until  break  of  day.  In 
old  time,  when  the  proud  were  called  happy,  and  they  that 
worked  wickedness  were  set  up,  and  they  that  tempted  God 
were  delivered  ;  "  Then  they  that  feared  the  Lord  spake  often 
one  to  another ;  and  the  Lord  hearkened  and  heard  it ;  and  a 
book  of  remembrance  was  written  before  Him,  for  them  that 
feared  the  Lord,  and  that  thought  upon  his  name.  And  they  shall 
be  mine,  saith  the  Lord  of  hosts,  in  that  day  when  I  make  up 
my  jewels;  and  I  will  spare  them  as  a  man  spareth  his  OMni 
son  that  serveth  him."  This  has  been  the  case  with  the  devo- 
ted children  of  God  in  various  ages  since  that  period  ;  and 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  379 

thereby  they  have  consoled  one  another;  and  ho  that  watered, 
was  watered  himself. 

Twelfth  month  4th.  Both  inwardly  and  outwardly,  clouds  and 
darkness  have  prevailed  much.  Faith  has  been  put  to  the  test ; 
but  I  have  endeavored  to  keep  patient,  and  hope  for  brighter 
days.  Went  to  the  Arch  Street  Meeting,  and  there  was  a  little 
qualified  to  unfold  the  roll  written  with  mourning ;  and  to  set 
forth,  that  in  these  dispensations,  the  Lord  teaches  man  his  own 
impotence,  and  that  all  good  comes  from  Him.  The  stream  of 
the  ministry  rose  a  little,  to  the  helj)  of  the  preacher,  and  we 
may  hope  some  others.  Came  away  wdth  a  thankful  heart  that 
mercy  and  goodness  were  not  yet  clean  passed  away  from  such 
a  poor  creature. 

7th.  At  our  meeting  yesterday,  the  administration  of  con- 
demnation to  those  who  have  been  living  in  sin,  was  presented, 
as  among  the  mercies  of  Him,  who  willeth  not  the  spiritual 
death  and  everlasting  separation  from  the  heavenly  host,  of  a 
single  soul  which  He  hath  created.  "  No  chastening  for  the 
present  seemeth  to  be  joyous,  but  grievous ;  nevertheless,  after- 
wards, it  yieldeth  the  peaceable  fruit  of  righteousness  to  them 
that  are  exercised  thereby."  And  "  Whom  the  Lord  loveth  He 
chasteneth,  and  scourgeth  ever}^  son  that  He  receiveth."  If  we 
are  without  chastisement,  we  are  not  the  true-born  sons  and 
daughters  of  G-od.  I  endeavored  to  persuade  some  to  endure 
these  dispensations,  that  they  might  receive  the  gift  of  repent- 
ance ;  and  be  restored  into  Divine  fa%^or.  I  felt  encouraged  be- 
fore going  to  meeting,  with  a  gentle  intimation,  which  I  hoped 
■was  from  the  Divine  Fountain  ;  that  all  our  trials  will  be  light 
in  comparison  with  the  reward  at  the  end  of  the  journey ;  and 
if  they  contributed  to  prepare  us  for  that  happy  consummation, 
they  should  be  esteemed  as  the  greatest  blessmgs. 

14th.  First-day  of  ^he  week,  one  of  the  most  inclement  we 
have  had  this  winter;  snow  and  ice  and  rain  to  Avalk  through 
to  meeting  ;  the  clouds  dark,  and  the  air  thick  and  smoky.  Our 
meeting  was  larger  than  we  anticipated  :  silent  in  the  morning ; 
in  the  afternoon,  a  little  was  expressed,  on  the  necessity  of 
meeting  and  waiting,  not  only  in  a  belief  of  the  doctrine,  that 
Christ  is  in  the  midst  of  those  who  gather  in  his  name,  but  in 
feeling  after  Him,  that  we  may  be  sensible  of  the  quickening 
power  of  his  presence ;  qualifying  us  to  ask  the  Father,  in  his 
name,  for  what  we  have  need  of     The  evening  assembly  was 


380  JOURNAL    or    WILLIAM    EVANS, 

very  small ;  and  before  the  hour  was  fully  come,  the  gaslights 
nearly  all  suddenly  disappeared,  owing  to  the  meter  becoming 
covered  with  water  from  rain  and  melting  snow.  The  little 
company,  exco|)t  a  few  wdio  went  for  lamps  and  candles,  kept 
steady  to  their  places  ;  the  house  was  again  sufficiently  lighted, 
and  it  was  thought  by  many  to  be  a  good  meeting.  I  hope 
that  the  Lord  was  our  helper,  and  that  some  strength  and  com- 
fort were  imparted  to  weary  souls,  longing  for  deliverance  from 
sin. 

21st.  We  had  a  comfortable  and  solemn  meeting  this  morn- 
ing; in  which  the  paramount  importance  of  keeping  an  eye  to 
the  eternal  recompense  of  reward  ;  and,  like  Moses,  choosing  to 
suifer  affliction  with  the  people  of  Grod,  rather  than  enjo}^  the 
pleasures  of  sin  for  a  season  ;  esteeming  the  reproaches  of  Christ 
greater  riches  than  all  the  treasures  of  Egypt,  was  held  forth  to 
the  meeting.  In  the  evening,  we  had  a  peculiarly  solemn  time; 
my  dear  wife  being  clearly  opened  on  the  importance  of  the  min- 
istry, and  the  indispensable  need  of  abasedness  of  the  creature, 
in  those  engaged  in  the  solemn  work  ;  and  was  afterwards  en- 
gaged in  supplication.  We  have  rarely  sat  under  more  solid 
weight  and  deep  silence,  than  that  in  which  the  meeting  was 
closed. 

1846,  Third  month  14th.  We  have  had  i-ather  a  trying  win- 
ter, fi'om  cold  and  snow,  and  the  great  variableness  of  the  wea- 
ther. It  has  been  so  to  me  in  a  sjDiritual  respect.  Clouds  of 
discouragement,  and  fear  of  being  or  getting  wrong  have  hung 
over  me,  from  day  to  day ;  in  part  occasioned  by  the  peculiar 
state  of  our  religious  Society,  and  doubtless  also  designed  to 
humble  the  creature,  and  to  produce  a  more  weighty  and  watch- 
ful state  of  mind.  If  I  can  but  be  favored  with  the  protection 
and  guidance  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  so  as  to  walk  with  acceptance 
before  the  Lord,  and  to  show  forth  the  excellency  of  the  religion 
of  Christ,  all  these  afflictions  will  be  of  little  moment,  except  so 
far  as  they  have  contributed  to  this  all-impoi*tant  end. 

In  the  Second  month,  I  attended  Abington  Quarterly  Meeting- 
in  which  I  felt  much  for  the  trembling  and  diffident  ones,  who 
love  the  blessed  Truth,  and  desire  to  do  the  Divine  will,  and 
yet  have  many  fears.  To  these  there  appeared  to  be  a  word  of 
comfort,  and  tender  invitation  to  hold  fast  that  which  they  luul 
received,  and  to  foIb)w  the  Master;  putting  their  trust  con- 
stantly in  Him ;  and  a  way  would  be  made  for  them. 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  381 

Having  a  desire  to  be  at  Bucks  Quai'terly  Meeting,  my  wife 
and  I  took  stage  for  New  Hope,  on  the  25th  ult.,  and  got  that 
afternoon  to  our  worthy  and  honorable  friend's,  Kuth  Ely,  whose 
hospitable  residence  is  a  pleasant  lodging-place  for  those  who 
love  and  serve  the  Lord  Jesus.  She  gave  us  a  very  cordial  re- 
ception, as  a  mother  in  Israel  towards  her  children.  As  the 
stage  did  not  leave  the  city  on  third-day,  we  were  not  at  their 
Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders.  The  meeting  for  business 
was  a  favored  opportunity,  during  the  part  allotted  for  Divine 
worship  ;  the  mourners  being  cheered  and  refreshed  by  the  visit 
and  labors  of  their  friends.  Eeturned  to  our  resting-place, 
where  we  had  the  company  of  Christopher  Healy,  a  devoted 
minister  of  Christ,  and  one  who  feels  a  deep  interest  in  the  doc- 
trines and  testimonies  of  the  gospel  held  by  Friends,  having 
adopted  them  from  convincement  of  their  truth;  and"  long  faith- 
fully advocated  them  before  small  and  great.  We  spent  the 
evening  to  our  mutual  comfort.  Next  day  we  made  two  visits 
to  some  Friends  of  Solebury ;  and  on  seventh-day,  got  back  to 
the  city ;  the  weather  cold,  and  snow  falling  through  the  day 
and  that  night.  The  retrospect  of  the  little  excursion  was 
peaceful ;  it  being  a  duty  we  owe  to  aged,  experienced  Friends, 
to  visit,  and,  as  we  are  enabled,  encourage  and  animate  them  in 
the  closing  days  of  their  earthly  pilgrimage. 

•  Haddonfield  Quarterly  Meeting  being  held  this  week,  E.  Pit- 
field,  my  wife  and  myself  went  over  to  it.  That  for  Ministers 
and  Elders,  was  to  us  a  low,  and  rather  trying  meeting.  The 
cruel  enemy  is  at  work  in  every  way  he  can  devise,  to  lay  waste 
the  unity,  and  all  capacity  for  usefulness  in  the  church,  and  in 
the  world.  We  endeavored,  according  to  what  we  apprehend- 
ed was  required,  to  warn  some,  and  to  strengthen  the  watchful 
travailer. 

The  meeting  on  fifth-day  was  pretty  large,  many  young  and 
middle-aged  Friends  being  there.  My  wife  and  E.  Pitfield  had 
acceptable  service,  while  I  sat  in  poverty,  exj)ecting  to  have 
little  to  do;  but,  very  unlooked  for,  the  declaration  of  the  pro- 
phet Jeremiah,  in  relation  to  the  Jews  forsaking  the  Fountain 
of  living  water,  and  hewing  out  cisterns  that  could  hold  no 
water,  was  brought  before  me.  There  was  a  quickening  virtue 
accompanied,  and  after  some  waiting,  it  appeared  proper  to  rise 
with  it,  and  to  declare  that  it  described  the  cause  of  all  our  dif- 
ficulties.    I  was  led  to  show  the  process  of  the  work  of  regene- 


382  JOURNAL    or    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

ration,  commenced  by  the  inshining  of  the  light  of  Christ  in 
man's  dark  heart ;  its  convictions  for  sin  ;  and,  as  yielded  to,  its 
making  an  entire  change  in  him.  Nothing  could  begin  and 
carry  on  this  work,  but  the  Author  and  Finisher  of  the  saints' 
faith ;  and  the  Lord  would  not  give  his  glory  to  any  of  man's 
devices.  Nothing  is  fit  to  receive  the  water  of  life,  but  regene- 
rated souls,  sanctified  vessels  in  the  Lord's  house;  and  if  we 
changed  our  glory  for  that  which  profiteth  not ;  hewing  out 
cisterns  that  can  hold  no  water,  desolation  would  overspread 
the  Society.  The  language  of  affectionate  entreaty  was  held 
out  to  the  young  people,  to  enlist  under  Christ's  banner,  and  to 
follow  Him  in  the  way  of  the  cross.  The  work  is  the  Lord's, 
and  He  alone  can  carry  it  on ;  before  whom  we  are  bound  to 
bow  in  reverent  thankfulness  for  the  least  of  his  mercies,  and 
with  prayer  and  supplication,  as  the  Spirit  gives  ability,  to  ask 
Him  for  the  continuance  of  his  preserving  power,  and  for  wis- 
dom and  strength  to  serve  Him,  in  the  gospel  of  his  dear  Son. 
I  returned  to  the  city,  leaving  my  wife  to  make  some  visits  she 
has  had  on  her  mind  a  long  time. 

Fifth  month  7th.  This  morning  I  received  intelligence  of  the 
death  of  that  deep  and  extraordinarily  gifted  minister  and  ser- 
vant of  Christ,  Ann  Jones,  of  Stockjjort,  England.  She  visited 
this  couutiy  about  the  period  of  the  separation,  in  1827-8,  and 
w^as  a  sharp  threshing  instrument  in  the  hand  of  the  Lord, 
against  thespiritof  infidelity,  then  making  fearful  inroads  upon 
many,  under  the  name  of  Friends,  who  knew  very  little  of  their 
principles,  or  of  the  sanctifying  power  of  Divine  Grace,  ruling 
in  their  hearts.  Her  controversy  was  with  the  leaders  and 
principals,  who  were  working  in  the  dark,  to  draw  away  ig- 
norant and  unwary  members,  into  the  mazes  of  unbelief,  and 
into  contempt  for  the  unyielding  advocates  of  Christ's  gospel, 
and  his  authority  in  the  church.  She  was  one  of  the  most  fear- 
less soldiers  in  the  Lamb's  arm}',  and  b}'  his  wisdom  and  strength, 
was  often  instrumental  in  discomfiting  the  enemies  of  Christ; 
while  she  infused  courage  and  firmness  into  the  hearts  of  the 
little  flock  in  different  places,  on  whose  shoulders  rested  with 
weight,  the  support  of  the  principles  and  discipline  of  the  So- 
ciety. When  she  informed  the  Yearly  Meeting  of  Ministers 
and  Elders,  that  she  felt  liberated  to  return  home,  AVm.  Jack- 
son, of  West  Grove,  cxin-essed  his  unity  with  her,  and  said,  she 
had  come  amongst  us  in  the  same  power  and  spirit  with  which 


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Samuel  Fothcrgill  visited  this  countiy,  whom  he  liad  heard  in 
the  ministiy. 

Thus  one  after  another  of  the  Lord's  anointed  servants  are 
gathered  to  their  everhisting  rest  in  Christ ;  which  is  felt  to  he 
a  great  trial  in  this  day  of  scattering,  and  of  rebellion  against 
the  law  and  the  testimony  ;  the  number  of  valiant  and  unflinch- 
ing soldiers  seeming  to  be  few  in  every  place.  But  the  Lord  is 
strong  and  mighty,  and  in  his  time  will  give  the  victory  to  his 
tribulated  people,  who  hold  fast  their  integrity  to  Him ;  trust- 
ing in  his  mercy  and  power,  and  not  in  their  own  understand- 
ing. 

10th.  I  attended  Germantown  Meeting.  Being  first-day,  I 
was  pleased  to  see  the  number  who  came;  many  of  them  in  the 
prime  of  life,  and  younger.  I  was  enabled  to  plead  with  some, 
for  greater  devotion  to  the  Lord's  will ;  and  to  show  to  others  that 
however  humble  their  lot,  or  of  little  importance  they  might  feel 
themselves  to  be  in  the  world,  there  were  duties  for  them  to 
fulfil ;  and  if  they  were  faithful,  they  would  be  regarded  by 
Him  who  watches  over  his  people ;  they  would  grow  from  sta- 
ture to  stature,  and  their  example  would  tend  to  draw  others 
to  the  blessed  Truth  :  they  would  be  preachers  of  righteous- 
ness, and  qualified  to  stand  as  witnesses  to  the  doctrines  and 
testimonies  which  Friends  are  called  to  support.  Their  afflic- 
tions would  be  sanctified  to  them,  and  through  their  faithful- 
ness, there  would  be  ground  to  hoj)e,  that  a  seed  would  be  pre- 
served in  that  place.  The  compassion  of  our  blessed  Saviour, 
as  portrayed  by  the  parable  of  the  householder,  who  went  out 
at  different  hours  of  the  day  and  hired  men  to  labor  in  his  vine- 
yard, even  to  the  eleventh  hour,  was  held  up  to  the  view  of 
some,  who  had  been  wasting  their  precious  time  until  the  day 
is  far  spent.  When  he  settled  with  the  laborers,  he  began  at 
the  last  and  went  on  to  the  first,  giving  each  the  same  reward. 
Showing  that  w^hile  we  ought  not  to  presume  upon  Divine 
mercy,  so  we  ought  not  to  attempt  to  limit,  or  to  desjiair  of  it, 
when  He  condescends  to  place  before  us,  as  the  handwriting  on 
the  wall,  our  true  condition  ;  and  to  invite  us  to  leave  all  and 
enter  with  Him  into  the  vineyard  of  the  heart  and  labor.  I 
thought  Divine  mercy  was  near,  and  that  some  hearts  were  con- 
trited,  under  a  fresh  and  living  sense  of  it.  I  returned  home 
with  feelings  of  peacefulness. 

14th.     Was   at  the   Arch   Street  week-day   meeting.      The 


384  JOURNAL    OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

meekness  and  gentleness  of  Christ,  and  the  j)atient  and  unresist- 
ing endurance  of  suffering,  of  which  He  set  us  an  example, 
were  much  upon  my  mind.  The  prophet  declared  that  He  will 
not  break  the  bruised  reed.  He  shall  not  strive  nor  cry,  neither 
shall  any  man  hear  his  voice  in  the  streets ;  yet  He  will  finally 
bring  forth  judgment  unto  Truth.  He  was  led  as  a  lamb  to  the 
slaughter,  and  as  a  sheep  before  her  shearers  is  dumb,  so  He 
opened  not  his  mouth.  He  suffered  for  our  sins,  the  just  for  the 
unjust.  It  pleased  the  Father,  in  bringing  many  sons  to  glory, 
to  make  the  Captain  of  their  salvation  perfect  through  suffer- 
ings. And  the  more  we  are  brought  to  be  like  Him,  the  better 
it  will  be  for  us.  Whatever  is  going  on  around  us,  it  is  needful 
to  remember  that  there  is  a  work  for  every  one  to  be  engaged 
in  within  himself  It  is  here  we  are  to  know  Christ  Jesus  to  be 
our  Saviour,  and  to  give  us  strength  to  carry  on  that  work. 
This  is  Avhat  is  greatly  wanting  within  our  own  religious  So- 
ciety. Many  who  take  part  in  its  concerns,  ai-e  greatly  involved 
in  the  world  and  its  pursuits.  "  The  love  of  money  is  the  root 
of  all  evil ;  which,  while  some  covet  after,  they  have  erred  from 
the  faith,  and  pierced  themselves  through  with  many  sorrows;" 
erred  from  that  faith  which  is  the  saints'  victory,  and  of  which 
Christ  is  the  author. 

16th.  My  dear  w^Ifc  feeling  drawn  to  attend  the  meeting  at 
AVest  Chester,  we  left  home  this  morning  and  reached  the  vil- 
lage about  eleven  o'clock.  The  weather  was  fine  on  first-day ; 
and  a  pretty  large  company  collected  at  the  meeting-house. 
She  had  acceptable  service  among  them.  We*  were  taken  to 
Westtown  School  towards  evening.  Vegetation  is  now  in  its 
most  luxuriant  state ;  the  grass,  shrubbery  and  trees,  in  the 
boys'  and  girls'  walks,  present  a  freshness  and  foliage,  which 
make  the  premises  a  delightful  scene,  and  contribute  to  health- 
fulness  and  exhilaration  of  spirits;  of  no  small  advantage  in  the 
hours  of  relaxation  from  study. 

18th.  From  here  we  went  to  Concord,  where  we  attended 
the  Quarterly  Meeting,  and  had  some  service. 

Sixth  month  16th.  Feeling  a  gentle  pointing  to  the  North 
Meeting,  I  went  there  this  morning.  My  mind  was  opened  on 
the  preciousness  and  necessity  of  unity ;  that  unity  of  the  S])irit 
which  our  Lord  spoke  of  in  his  prayer  to  the  Almighty  Father, 
for  his  disciples;  "That  they  all  may  bo  one;  as  thou.  Father, 
art  in.  me  and  I  in  thee;  that  they  also  may  be  one  in  us."   This 


JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  385 

unity  subsists  among  those  who  are  born  of  the  Spirit,  the  in- 
corruptible Seed  and  Woi*d  of  God,  which  liveth  and  abideth 
forever.  I  felt  ver}^  desirous  that  Friends  might  keep  on  the 
watch,  against  everything  that  tends  to  alienate  from  one  an- 
other ;  not  being  ready  to  take  up  unfavorable  apprehensions 
about  each  other ;  but  to  stand  still  in  the  Light,  that  they  may 
have  those  things  which  may  grow  into  a  barrier  between  them, 
removed ;  and  their  hearts  more  and  more  sweetened  by  Di- 
Aune  love.  Samuel  Bettle,  Sr.,  closed  the  meeting  with  suppli- 
cation. 

21st.  Being  first-da}'.  At  our  meeting,  I  was  led  to  extend  a 
renewed  call  to  those  who  were  taking  their  ease  and  enjoyment 
in  the  comforts  of  life,  and  in  great  danger  of  forgetting  their 
Heavenly  Father,  the  bountiful  Giver  of  all  we  have.  Some 
who  had  set  out,  with  very  humble  views  and  desii'es,  in  rela- 
tion to  earthly  possessions,  may  let  go  their  exercise  when 
things,  thi'ough  industry,  grow  lighter,  and  they  are  released 
from  the  anxiety  they  once  felt  about  the  means  of  subsistence. 
When  this  takes  place,  the  eye  which  once  saw,  may  be  again 
blinded,  and  the  lively  sense  they  once  had  of  the  imjjortance 
of  the  cause  of  Christ,  above  everything  else,  may  be  gradually 
blunted  ;  and  then  when  we  meet  for  the  solemn  act  of  Divine 
worship,  the  things  of  the  world  bring  a  stuj^or  over  the  meeting, 
and  the  great  object  of  coming  together  is  almost  altogether 
frustrated  in  some.  I  hoped  that  through  the  tender  mercy  of 
the  Shepherd  of  Israel,  there  was  a  little  of  his  quickening 
power  felt.  The  warning,  and  yet  confiding  language  of  'the 
apostle  was  brought  into  view,  "Oh  death,  where  is  thy  sting? 
Oh  grave,  where  is  thy  victory  ?  The  sting  of  death  is  sin,  and 
the  strength  of  sin  is  the  law.  But  thanks  be  to  God  who 
giveth  us  the  victory  through  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ."  The 
awful  period  will  ari'ive  to  every  one,  when,  above  everything 
else,  it  will  be  of  the  utmost  consequence  to  be  able  in  truth, 
and  in  our  own  experience,  to  adojjt  that  language.  But  only 
through  obedience  to  the  Lord  Jesus,  can  we  know  this  victory, 
and  be  enabled  to  thank  God  for  it. 

29th.  Our  beloved  friend  Hannah  L.  Smith,  a  minister,  who, 
previous  to  her  marriage,  was  a  member  of  the  Southern  Dis- 
trict Monthly  Meeting,  died  last  week  and  was  buried  to-day. 
Attending  the  burial,  I  felt  impelled  to  preach  Christ  crucified 
and  glorified,  and  also  appearing  by  his  Spirit  in  the  heart.     I 


386  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

reminded  the  company,  that  the  period  would  arrive  to  them, 
when,  if  they  had  a  right  understanding,  it  would  be  the  most 
desirable  thing  to  realize  the  testimony  of  the  beloved  disciple, 
that  those  who  had  come  out  of  gi-eat  tribulation,  and  washed 
their  robes,  and  made  them  white  in  the  blood  of  the  Lamb, 
should  hunger  no  more,  neither  thirst  any  more,  neither  shall 
the  sun  light  on  them,  nor  any  heat.  "  For  the  Lamb  which  is  in 
the  midst  of  the  throne,  shall  feed  them,  and  shall  lead  them  unto 
living  fountains  of  waters,  and  God  shall  wipe  away  all  tears  from 
their  eyes."  This  would  be  of  the  greatest  importance  to  us  at 
the  day  of  account,  whether  rich  or  poor  ;  and  we  must  all  stand 
before  the  judgment-seat  of  Christ,  to  give  an  account  of  the 
deeds  done  in  the  body.  Then,  all  the  riches  and  gratification, 
the  honor  and  pomp  of  this  world,  would  be  lighter  than  a  fea- 
ther, in  comparison  with  that  exceeding  and  eternal  weight  of 
glory,  which  would  be  revealed  to  the  saints  in  light.  I  declar- 
ed that  Christ  took  upon  Him  the  body  prepared  of  the  Father, 
to  do  his  will  in,  and  offered  Himself  a  most  holy  and  satisfac- 
tory sacrifice  for  the  sins  of  the  world;  that  He  suffered  for  our 
sins,  the  just  for  the  unjust,  that  lie  might  bring  us  to  God. 
But  it  was  only  as  we  opened  the  door  of  our  hearts  and  let 
Him  come  in  ;  and  witnessed  Him  to  sit  as  a  refiner's  fire,  and 
as  a  fuller  with  soap,  removing  all  impurity,  washing  us  in  the 
laver  of  regeneration,  and  renewing  us  by  his  Holy  Spirit,  that 
we  could  know  our  garments  made  white  in  his  precious  blood, 
and  experience  our  past  sins  to  be  blotted  out;  having  on  the 
wedding  garment,  and  being  accepted  in  Him,  the  Beloved.  I 
spake  from  the  necessity  laid  upon  me ;  my  mouth  being  oj^en- 
ed  almost  before  I  was  aware. 

Seventh  month  5th.  I  felt  drawn  to  attend  the  Western 
Meeting,  which  considering  the  season,  was  a  pretty  large  meet- 
ing. Through  Divine  condescension,  my  mind  was  eai'ly 
brought  into  a  waiting  state;  and  the  expression  of  our  dear 
Lord  was  presented  before  me :  "  Where  I  am,  there  shall  my 
servant  be  also."  This  appeai'ed  to  me  applicable  to  all  who 
serve  Him,  whatever  place  they  occupy  in  the  church  of  Christ. 
"  If  an}^  man  serve  me,  him  will  my  Father  honor."  It  is  a  great 
favor  to  be  with  Christ,  whether  in  suffering  or  rejoicing;  but 
to  experience  this,  we  must  serve  Him  daily,  by  obeying  his 
will  manifested  unto  us  by  his  Spirit.     I  was  favored  to  accom- 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  387 

plish  the  service  that  appeared  to  be  required,  with  comfort  to 
myself,  and  I  trust  to  some  who  Avere  present. 

11th.  The  Monthly  Meeting  of  Upper  Evesham  occurring  on 
the  11th,  my  wife  and  mj'self  went  to  Medford  in  the  stage. 
We  found  the  spirits  of  many  of  the  rightly  exercised  members 
depressed  with  the  distressing  condition  of  our  Society,  and  with 
the  fathers  and  mothers  among  them  being  few,  to  watch  over 
and  to  strengthen  those  who  love  the  Truth.  We  Avere  intro- 
duced into  sympathy  with  them,  both  the  older  and  the  middle 
rank;  and  through  holy  help,  were  enabled  to  minister  to  them, 
in  the  openings  of  Divine  life.  We  were  refreshed,  and  rejoiced 
at  the  present  favor ;  they  that  watered  being  watered  them- 
selves. 

The  12th,  being  first-day,  we  attended  the  meeting  again ; 
some  not  belonging  to  Friends  coming  in.  My  wife  first  min- 
istered to  them ;  and  after  waiting  some  time  in  silence,  I  was 
led  to  hold  up  the  necessity  of  iuAvard,  heart-changing  religion, 
and  to  caution  some  against  supposing  that  this  work  was  fin- 
ished, by  yielding  to  the  first  visitation  ;  and  against  the  disad- 
vantage of  talking  away  the  heavenly  impressions.  After  being 
gi'afted  in  the  Vine,  and  become  fruit-bearing  branches,  we  re- 
quire frequent  purging,  to  prepare  for  bringing  forth  more  fruit. 
We  returned  home  on  the  14th,  well  satisfied  with  the  visit. 

Eighth  month  3d.  To-day  was  held  our  Quarterly  Meeting. 
A  religious  weight  and  solemnity  were  spread  over  us,  and  sev- 
eral Friends  were  engaged  in  the  ministry. 

13th.  My  wife  having  gone  to  Woodbury  to  attend  the  Quar- 
terly Meeting  there,  I  went  down  this  morning  and  joined  her. 
It  is  a  small  company,  but  there  are  some  honest,  well-concern- 
ed Friends,  who  feel  the  depressed  condition  of  the  church,  and 
mourn  over  the  want  of  a  greater  number  of  lively  laborers  in 
the  good  cause.  My  wife  and  Eachel  Thornton  appeared  in 
testimony,  and  I  followed  them;  bringing  to  view  some  of  the 
exhortations  of  Christ  to  enter  into  labor  for  the  bread  and  the 
water  of  life,  individually.  Many  are  willing  to  be  fed  who  are 
not  willing  to  work  ;  they  are  fond  of  the  honej^,  but,  like  the 
drones  in  the  hive,  do  not  endeavor  to  gather  it.  This  easy, 
lethargic  disposition,  is  robbing  the  Society  of  strength,  and 
landing  those  who  are  overtaken  with  it,  in  spiritual  death,  and 
alienation  from  the  Lord  of  life  and  glory.  My  wife  closed  the 
meeting  with  solemn  supplication,  that  our  Heavenly  Father 


388  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

would  grant  some  token  of  his  love  and  remembrance  of  his 
suflFering  children  ;  and  renew  and  strengthen  their  faith,  which 
seems  at  times  to  be  greatly  reduced.  In  the  afternoon,  we 
visited  our  friend  Joseph  Whitall,  who  is  in  such  a  reduced  state 
of  health  as  not  to  be  able  to  go  to  meeting.  We  returned  to 
our  peaceful  home  next  morning. 

18th.  Was  at  the  North  Meeting;  in  which  great  weakness 
was  the  clothing  of  my  mind,  for  some  time  after  sitting  down 
with  them.  But  the  Lord  condescended  to  my  low  estate  ;  and 
out  of  weakness  I  was  enabled,  by  his  strength,  to  declare  his 
goodness  and  mercy  to  them  that  love  and  serve  Him.  The 
testimony  of  David  was  revived,  "The  Lord  is  my  Shepherd,  I 
shall  not  want.  He  maketh  me  to  lie  down  in  green  pastures  ; 
He  leadeth  me  beside  the  still  waters.  He  restoreth  my  soul ; 
He  leadeth  me  in  the  paths  of  righteousness  for  his  name  sake. 
Yea,  though  I  walk  through  the  valley  of  the  shadow  of  death, 
I  will  fear  no  evil,  for  thou  art  with  me  ;  thy  rod  and  thy  staff 
they  comfort  me."     It  was  a  good  day. 

19th.  Having  a  gentle  draft  to  the  Western  Quarterly  Meet- 
ing, my  friend  J.  S.  took  me  to  London  Grove.  On  our  way  we 
called  at  Westtown  School,  took  tea,  and  rode  to  B.  S.'s,  where 
we  were  kindly  received. 

20th.  Fifth-day  morning.  The  Select  Meeting  was  a  small 
body,  having  but  one  man  and  one  woman  acknowledged  as 
ministers.  There  was  a  word  of  encouragement  for  the  upright 
but  tried  few,  among  them.  Being  quite  unwell,  the  humbling 
hand  of  the  Lord  seemed  to  be  upon  me,  yet  patience  and 
strength  were  granted  to  bear  up.  In  the  meeting,  next  day, 
David  Cope  delivered  a  testimony  to  the  unchangeable  charac- 
ter of  the  conditions  of  salvation.  That  through  Grace,  man 
may  comply  with  them,  and  partake  of  the  blessings  of  the  gos- 
pel. If  he  refuses,  the  truth  will  remain  the  same,  and  he  must 
take  the  consequences  of  his  disobedience.  The  great  spread 
and  influence  of  the  spirit  and  principles  of  infidelity,  and  the 
danger  of  living  in  its  atmosphere,  came  before  me.  Great  sub- 
tlety and  sophistry  are  used  by  some  of  talents,  to  lay  waste  the 
Holy  Scriptures,  and  into  a  fearful  pit  of  death  and  darkness 
they  sometimes  plunge  themselves.  But  they  cannot  destroy 
or  change  the  truth  of  God;  the  consequences  of  their  wilful 
unbelief  will  fall  on  themselves.  Living  among  such  people  is 
dangerous  ;  their  example  and  their  dark  spirits  tend  to  produce 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  389 

indifference  to  religion  ;  and  some  who  turn  their  buck  upon  the 
Truth,  go  into  the  politics  and  policies  of  the  world;  others  int»_ 
the  love  and  pursuit  of  money ;  others  into  the  pleasures  and 
gratifications  of  time  and  sense.  In  this  way  we  are  surround- 
ed by  dangers  of  various  kinds,  out  of  which  nothing  can  pre- 
serve us,  but  obedience  to  the  secret  illuminations  of  the  Spirit 
of  Christ ;  showing  us  what  we  are,  and  what  we  are  to  for- 
sake, that  we  may  be  made  by  Him  what  He  would  have  us  to 
be.  As  Ave  follow  Him,  our  example  will  be  a  constant  j^rotest 
against  the  unbelief  and  the  lethargy  surrounding  us;  and  thus 
we  shall  be  more  likely  to  put  a  stop  to  its  progress,  than  by 
any  arguments  we  can  advance  against  the  principles  of  the  in- 
fidel, or  the  mere  man  of  the  world.  1  thought  some  renewed 
ability  was  given  to  speak  to  the  states  of  the  people,  and  solem- 
nity spread  over  the  meeting. 

Ninth  month  8th.  I  have  passed  most  of  our  meetings  for 
months  in  silence  ;  and  not  unfrequently  without  much  evidence 
of  the  stirrings  of  Divine  life,  and  the  mantle  of  sorrow  and 
mourning  has  been  the  covering  of  my  spirit.  Last  fourth-day 
it  seemed  to  be  my  duty  to  say  some  close  things  to  those  who 
were  laying  up  treasures  for  themselves,  and  making  use  of  the 
outward  blessings  of  a  beneficent  Providence,  to  gratify  and 
exalt  themselves  ;  that  they  might  appear  grand  and  be  highly 
thought  of  bj^  others  ;  instead  of  looking  upon  themselves  as 
stewards,  and  accountable  for  the  right  appropriation  of  their 
earthly  substance.  Such  were  advised  to  put  away  their  jewels 
and  their  ornaments  out  of  sight,  and  repair  to  Bethel,  to  renew 
their  covenants  with  the  Lord.  Little  relief,  however,  seemed 
to  follow,  but  if  it  is  of  the  Lord,  He  will  reward  for  faithful- 
ness. 

13th.  A  day  of  inward  conflict  and  of  mourning,  on  account 
of  the  absence  of  the  Beloved  of  souls.  In  the  afternoon,  there 
was  some  ability  to  look  towards  the  Lord's  holy  temple,  with 
hope  that  his  sustaining  power  was  not  withdrawn. 

14th.  I  had  thought  of  Haddonfield  Monthly  Meeting  yes- 
terday, but  with  no  expectation  of  going  to  it ;  yet  this  morn- 
ing, on  rising,  it  came  before  me  with  some  quickening  effect; 
and  after  breakfasting,  feeling  afraid  to  put  from  me  what 
seemed  to  be  a  pointing  to  that  meeting,  I  crossed  the  river,  and 
took  stage  for  the  place,  and  got  there  while  Friends  were  con- 
vening. After  a  season  of  inward  waiting  upon  the  Lord,  I 
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390  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

was  drawn  forth  to  speak  of  the  trial  of  faith,  which  is  more 
precious  than  gold,  that  perisheth,  though  it  be  tried  in  the  fire  ; 
that  we  may  experience  everything  opposed  to  heavenly  purity 
removed ;  and  after  the  refinement  for  the  time  is  passed 
through,  Avitness  the  lifting  up  of  the  light  of  the  Glorious 
Countenance  upon  us.  Encouragement  was  communicated  to 
exercised  members  among  them,  to  put  their  trust  in  nim,  in 
whom  there  is  everlasting  strength,  and  follow  Ilim  faithfully. 
Others  were  warned  against  engaging  in  any  cause  under  a  re- 
ligious profession  which  is  not  the  Lord's  cause ;  and  those  who, 
at  times,  are  brought  under  conviction  by  the  internal  discove- 
ries of  the  Light  of  Christ,  were  affectionately  and  fervently 
solicited  to  give  up  to  the  heavenly  vision,  which  is  not  at  their 
command.  These  days  of  the  Son  of  Man,  in  which  by  his 
grace.  He  brings  salvation  to  us,  and  calls  on  us  to  deny  ungod- 
liness and  the  world's  lusts,  and  to  live  soberly,  and  righteously, 
and  godly  in  the  world,  the  Father  hath  reserved  in  his  own 
hand.  I  felt  constrained  to  bow  the  knee,  and  to  commemorate 
the  Lord's  goodness,  in  visiting  and  bringing  us  out  of  darkness 
into  his  light,  and  to  implore  the  continued  extension  of  his 
protecting  power  to  the  end  of  our  earthly  pilgrimage  ;  that 
through  the  blood  of  Christ,  and  the  sanctification  of  the  Sjiirit, 
we  might,  in  the  end,  be  permitted  to  enter  the  glorious  king- 
dom of  everlasting  rest.  Some  hearts  were  touched  and  com- 
forted ;  and  though  I  felt  empty,  I  hoped  it  was  in  the  way  of 
duty.     Returned  home  in  the  evening. 

Tenth  month  Ist.  My  wife,  my  sister  H.  Rhoads,  and  my- 
self, attended  Goshen  Monthly  Meeting ;  it  was  a  solid  meeting, 
in  which  the  spring  of  gospel  ministry  was  opened  in  several, 
to  our  mutual  comfort  and  strength. 

19th.  The  Friends  appointed  by  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings, 
to  examine  certain  doctrinal  works,  which  have  given  the  So- 
ciety much  uneasiness  and  disturbance,  convened  at  three  o'clock 
this  afternoon.  They  were  favored  witii  a  covering  of  religious 
weight  and  solemnity;  and  after  a  time  of  silent  waiting,  the 
minute  of  their  appointment  was  read.  Friends  deliberately 
expressed  their  views,  of  the  course  proper  to  be  taken,  in  the 
investigation,  in  which  there  appeared  and  was  felt  much  har- 
mony ;  after  which,  some  Friends  were  named  to  enter  upon 
the  work,  and  draw  up  such  a  document  as  would  show  the  dis- 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  391 

agreement  of  many  parts  of  those  works,  with  the  doctrines 
ever  held  by  the  Society. 

29th.  Went  to  Newtown  Meeting,  where  I  found  a  small 
company  assembled, , for  the  purpose  of  Divine  worship;  and 
having  been  for  many  days  in  a  low  state,  I  was  prepared  by 
the  good  hand  of  the  Lord,  to  enter  into  sympathy  with  them. 
They  appeared  to  need  encouragement,  and  also  to  be  stirred  up 
to  a  more  fervent  travail  of  spirit,  that  they  might  know  the 
work  of  regeneration  to  be  progressing  in  themselves.  Through 
the  humbling,  quickening  power  of  Him,  who  is  the  resurrec- 
tion and  the  life,  I  was  enabled  to  visit  the  precious  seed,  kept 
down  in  some  hearts,  and  not  enough  cherished  in  others ;  and 
I  believe  it  was  in  some  of  them,  raised  into  dominion  in  good 
degree.  We  were  humbled  and  tendered  together,  and  thanks- 
giving was  secretly  offered  for  the  favor  vouchsafed. 

Eleventh  month  1st.  Was  opened  our  evening  meeting  for 
the  winter.  I  was  engaged  towards  the  close,  to  warn  our 
young  people,  in  the  love  of  the  gospel,  of  the  many  snares 
which  the  enemy  is  spreading  to  entangle  them ;  and  to  persuade 
them  to  yield  to  the  convictions  of  the  grace  of  their  Eedeemer; 
that  they  might  escape  the  remorse  which  the  disobedient  and 
impenitent  bring  upon  themselves. 

2d.  The  Quarterly  Meeting  for  Discipline  was  a  season  of 
much  inward  conflict. 

3d.  Feeling  an  impression  of  religious  duty  to  attend  Stan- 
ford Quarterly  Meeting  in  New  York,  I  mentioned  the  subject 
to  the  Monthly  Meeting,  which  gave  me  a  minute  of  its  unity, 
to  visit  that  and  the  meetings  composing  it.  My  dear  friend 
Joseph  Snowden,  agreeing  to  accompany  me,  we  took  passage 
to  New  York  ;  but  owing  to  the  fog  on  the  Delaware,  we  were 
detained  nearly  two  and  a  half  hours,  and  did  not  get  into  the 
city  much  before  one  o'clock  in  the  morning.  Lodged  at  a  public 
hotel,  and  took  the  seven  o'clock  boat  on  the  North  Eiver.  We 
landed  at  Poughkeepsie,  a  little  before  one  o'clock ;  dined,  and 
towards  evening  left  for  S.  Upton's. 

On  the  5th  we  went  to  the  Select  Meeting,  which  in  some  re- 
spects, was  rather  a  trying  time. 

6th.  Attended  the  Meeting  for  Discipline.  After  several 
communications  and  a  time  of  silence,  I  believed  it  my  place  to 
call  the  attention  of  some  to  the  inw^ard  work  of  religion,  inviting 
the  young  and  the  middle-aged  to  come  under  the  yoke  of  Christ; 


392  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

and  encouraging  the  tribulated  ones  who  had  experienced  the 
work  in  good  measure,  to  look  to  the  Lord  alone,  who  would 
preserve  all  such  in  their  deepest  trials,  and  in  his  time  make  a 
way  for  them,  and  for  his  church  to  surmount  them  all.  It  was 
laborious  at  first,  but  the  life  rose  finally  into  some  good  do- 
minion. In  the  second  meeting,  towards  the  close,  I  felt  en- 
gaged to  exhort  the  upright  heai-ted  to  support  the  discipline, 
and  our  testimonies  and  doctrines,  in  the  wisdom  and  strength 
which  Christ  alone  gives.  Eeturned  to  S.  Upton's,  and  next 
day  visited  two  Friend's  families ;  having  religious  opportuni- 
ties in  both. 

8th.  First-day  morning  we  went  to  the  Creek  Meeting, 
where  a  pretty  large  company  assembled.  For  some  time  I  sat 
under  fear,  that  some  were  more  disposed  to  hear  words,  than 
to  get  the  mind  withdrawn  from  things  without,  and  centred 
upon  the  Lord  alone.  I  was  led  to  remind  them  that  the  great 
object  of  our  thus  assembling,  was  to  feel  after  Him,  as  the  apos- 
tle expresses,  if  haply  we  may  find  Him,  who  is  not  far  from 
every  one  of  us,  for  in  Him  we  live,  and  move,  and  have  our 
being.  Many  subjects  were  gradually  opened  before  me;  among 
which  was  the  conscientious  strictness  which  the  Lord  requires, 
even  from  the  earliest  visitations  of  his  love  and  power,  to  per- 
form our  moral  duties  justly,  and  uprightly,  as  in  his  presence. 
This  I  could  testify  from  experience,  after  I  was  brought  to  sub- 
mit to  his  grace.  The  humbling  power  of  the  Lord  came  over 
us,  so  that  some  were  tendered  by  its  heavenly  influence.  Dined 
at  Paul  Upton's,  and  a  meeting  being  apjiointed  at  three  o'clock, 
at  Stanford,  we  rode  over,  but  were  a  little  belated.  There 
were  a  number  of  persons  not  professing  with  us,  besides 
Friends,  who  were  assembled.  The  importance  of  a  careful  edu- 
cation of  their  children,  imbuing  their  minds  with  a  love  for 
the  truths  of  Holy  Scripture,  enforced  by  example,  and  a  solid 
concern  for  their  everlasting  welfare,  presented  to  my  mind, 
with  the  instance  of  Timothj^.  The  apostle  mentioned  to  him 
the  unfeigned  faith  which  dwelt  in  his  grandmother  Lois,  and 
his  mother  Eunice,  and  he  was  persuaded  at  that  time,  in  him 
also.  They  had  been,  no  doubt,  watchful  over  him  from  early 
life.  From  a  child,  says  the  apostle,  thou  hast  known  the 
Holy  Scriptures,  which  are  able  to  make  thee  wise  unto  salva- 
tion through  faitli,  which  is  in  Christ  Jesus.  This  shows  the 
benefit  which  godly  parents,  who  are  in  the   true  faith  them- 


JOURNAL   OF    \A'ILLIAM    EVANS.  393 

selves,  may  be  to  their  offspring,  in  bringing  them  up  in  the 
I'ight  way  of  the  Lord,  and  be  instrumental  in  guarding  them 
from  many  evils.  One  very  serious  danger  arises  from  the  so- 
ciety of  those  who  undervalue,  and  endeavor  to  destroy  the 
authority  of  the  Holy  Scriptures,  and  to  poison  the  young 
people  with  their  sophistry.  I  felt  bound  to  warn  parents  and 
guardians  solemnly  against  permitting  the  children  entrusted 
to  them  to  mingle  with  such  society  ;  from  which  they  might 
suffer  irreparable  injury.  It  is  not  often  I  have  felt  more  sensi- 
bly, the  necessity  of  closely  watching  against  the  insidious  ap- 
proaches of  the  spirit  of  infidelity;  which  is  like  the  poison  of 
asps  under  the  tongues  of  some  hai'dened,  darkened  people ;  and 
that  the  elderly  part  of  society  may  be  instrumental  in  leading 
the  young  people  to  Christ;  that  they  maybe  pi'eserved,  and 
through  the  operation  of  his  Divine  power  on  their  minds, 
may  grow  up  in  good  liking  before  Him,  and  in  their  day,  be  fitted 
for  and  engaged  to  advocate  his  precious  cause  on  the  earth. 
We  lodged  at  our  ancient  friend  J.  F.  Hull's  hospitable  residence, 
where  we  had  the  company  of  some  Friends,  and  a  religious  op- 
portunity before  retiring  to  rest. 

9th.  Second-day.  Our  beloved  friend  Paul  Upton,  took  us 
to  North  East,  where  we  had  an  appointed  meeting,  which  my 
companion  thought  was  a  good  time ;  the  meeting  ending  in 
supplication  for  the  little  flock,  and  our  mutual  preservation  to 
the  close  of  our  earthly  pilgrimage. 

10th.  Attended  a  meeting  appointed  at  the  Creek,  by  a 
Friend  from  Vermont,  in  which  I  was  silent.  In  the  afternoon, 
Smith  Upton  took  us  to  visit  several  Friends,  with  two  of  whom 
we  had  religious  opportunities. 

11th.  Went  to  S.  M.'s,  near  Hudson,  where  we  lodged,  and 
were  very  kindly  and  comfortably  accommodated.  Next  day, 
were  at  their  usual  week-day  meeting.  After  a  Friend  travelling 
with  a  minute,  had  relieved  his  mind,  I  felt  drawn  to  encourage 
the  few  mourning,  and  often  desolate  ones  there,  to  individual 
faithfulness,  in  the  work  of  their  soul's  salvation  ;  by  which 
they  would  be  prepared  to  lead  others  in  the  right  way;  and  to 
uphold  the  doctrines  and  testimonies  held  by  Friends,  by  consist- 
ent lives  and  conversation.  Some  who  were  deeply  immersed 
in  the  spirit  and  pursuit  of  the  woi'ld,  its  riches  or  its  applause, 
were  pleaded  with  to  come  out  of  those  things.  They  were  re- 
minded of  the  uncertainty  of  all  earthly  gratifications,  by  the 


394  JOURNAL   OF   AVILLIAM   EVANS. 

instance  which  our  blessed  Saviour  gives,  of  the  man  who,  after 
building  storehouses  and  barns,  to  contain  his  goods,  said, 
"  Soul,  thou  hast  much  goods  laid  up  in  store  for  many  years; 
take  thine  ease,  eat,  drink,  and  be  merry.  But  Clod  said  unto 
him,  thou  fool,  this  night  thy  soul  shall  be  required  of  thee,  then 
■whose  shall  those  things  be  which  thou  hast  provided."  It  ap- 
peared to  me  there  were  those  present  who  had  great  need  to 
lay  these  things  to  heart,  and  to  seek  the  Lord  while  the  day 
of  mercy  lasts,  lest  the  night  overtake  them,  in  which  no  man 
can  work.  J.  W.  knelt  and  supplicated,  that  the  word 
preached  might  not  return  void  of  the  purpose  whereunto  it 
was  sent. 

13th.  This  morning,  S.  M.  took  us  to  Hudson,  and  crossing 
the  river  at  Athens,  we  found  our  friend  L.  B.,  waiting  for  us; 
with  whom  w^e  rode  to  his  house  at  Coemans.  His  residence 
is  on  elevated  ground,  from  which  we  have  a  very  extensive 
prospect ;  the  Catskill  Mountains  in  the  south,  farms  and  vil- 
lages on  the  North  Eiver  for  several  miles,  and  a  part  of  Massa- 
chusetts, and  I  believe,  of  Connecticut,  in  the  east.  We  had  an 
interesting  visit  there,  and  on  the  following  morning  a  religious 
opportunity  with  the  family ;  and  then  rode  over  to  his  father's. 
On  our  way  thither  we  made  a  visit  to  two  aged  Friends ;  the 
man  is  in  his  eighty-seventh  year,  and  his  wife,  in  her  eight}-- 
eighth ;  but  her  faculties  appeared  clear ;  they  have  been  married 
sixty-five  years.  She  is  a  minister,  lively  in  spirit,  and  expressed 
that  she  was  glad  to  see  us,  and  considered  it  an  evidence  she 
was  not  forgotten  of  her  Heavenly  Father.  After  dinner,  and 
before  we  came  away,  I  mentioned  the  satisfaction  it  afforded, 
to  meet  with  one  who  kept  her  integrity,  and  her  interest  in 
the  great  cause,  to  so  late  a  period  of  life.  It  was  clear  to  me, 
that  the  covenant  of  life,  and  of  peace,  with  such  dedicated  and 
innocent  spirited  ones,  would  not  be  broken;  but  the  tender 
regard,  of  their  Heavenly  Father,  would  be  extended  to  them 
to  the  end.  I  attended  their  meeting,  and  being  first-day,  it 
was  large.  I  was,  after  a  time,  enabled  to  stand  up,  and  to  show 
there  was  much  profession  of  religion,  and  much  talk  about  it, 
without  knowing  the  power  of  it  ruling  in  the  heart.  Many 
things  relating  to  this  internal  work,  the  offers  of  Divine  mercy, 
through  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ ;  the  possibility  of  out-living  the 
day  of  grace,  and  the  awful  consequences  of  d^-ing  in  sin,  were 
opened  to  the  people,  and  the  meeting  ended  satisfactorily.  Thence 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  395 

we  were  taken  to  Coxsaekie,  where  we  went  on  board  one  of  the 
Albany  steamboats,  and  got  to  New  York  in  the  night.  It 
rained  hard,  but  we  went  to  the  Philadelphia  steamer,  between 
five  and  six  o'clock,  and  reached  our  own  homes  about  twelve 
o'clock ;  thankful  for  preservation,  and  the  peace  I  was  favored 
with  ;  finding  my  beloved  family  in  health  and  comfort  of 
mind. 


CHAPTEE   XIX, 

1846—1847. 


Trial  of  Faith — Attendance  at  Various  Meetings — Yearly  Meeting  of  1847 — 
Work  about  Home — Second  Religious  Visit  to  North  Carolina. 

1846,  Twelfth  month  21st.  I  have  been  let  down  into  a  low 
state,  so  that  faith  seemed  ready  to  fail.  These  dispensations 
of  the  withdrawing  of  all  sense  of  Divine  good,  have  a  very 
reducing  effect  upon  self-importance ;  and  teach  us  true  charity 
and  tenderness  towards  those  who  are  in  aftliction,  and  those 
who  may  be  wrong.  I  was  brought  to- cry  for  mercy,  and  then 
to  examine  whether  1  had  desired  that  mercy  might  be  showed 
to  others,  as  I  desired  it  shown  to  myself.  I  believe  I  have  craved 
it  even  for  many,  who  I  apprehended,  had  neither  been  nor  done 
what  they  ought.  But  this  state  of  seemingly  entire  desertion 
by  our  Heavenly  Father,  is  a  bitter  cup  to  drink.  May  I  be 
more  humble,  more  steadily  fearful  of  getting  off  the  watch 
unto  praj^er,  and  more  constant  in  resisting  a  light  spirit,  which 
would  take  its  ease  and  indulgence  on  the  sabbath  day.  We 
cannot  pray  when  we  please,  but  it  is  our  duty  to  watch,  and 
to  wait  for  the  pouring  forth  of  the  spirit  of  supplication,  which 
produces  a  broken  heart,  and  a  contrite  spirit ;  and  enables  us  to 
cry  availingly  to  God  for  mercy,  and  for  help  to  keep  us  from 
falling,  through  his  dear  Son,  our  Lord  and  Saviour  Jesus 
Christ. 

1847,  First  month.  Some  things  have  arisen,  increasing  the 
difficulties  of  the  present  time,  and  the  weight  which  the  bur- 


396  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

den-bearers  have  to  support.  Some  are  actuated  by  party  feel- 
ings, and  seem  little  to  regard  what  affliction  they  add  to  those 
who  stand  for  the  cause  and  the  testimonies  of  Christ.  The 
number  who  heartily  devote  themselves  to  service  and  to  suffer- 
ings, in  these  perilous  times,  is  comparatively  few.  Many  are 
afraid  of  their  name  among  men,  and  of  being  identified  with 
the  despised  suffering  seed.  All  qualification  for  the  ministry 
has  been  much  withdrawn,  and  when  I  had  some  secret,  yet  al- 
most obscure  intimation  of  the  kind,  I  felt  afraid  of  standing 
forth,  lest  I  should  fail ;  and  w^hen  I  did  give  up,  in  fear,  I  was 
as  one  who  had  attempted  to  walk,  and  was  in  danger  of  falling, 
but  I  had  some  reason  to  believe,  that  in  this  season  of  weak- 
ness and  timidity,  the  sense  which  some  others  had  of  it,  tended 
to  contrite  and  humble  them.  Strength  and  confidence  in  that 
everlasting  Arm,  which  is  the  unfailing  support  of  the  Lord's 
baptized  and  devoted  servants,  were  gradually  restored ;  and 
the  spring  of  the  ministry  was  again  opened,  and  things  new 
and  old,  given  me  to  declare  to  others,  in  the  fresh  authority 
and  power  of  the  unchanging  Truth. 

10th.  In  our  evening  meeting,  the  essential  imj^ortance  of 
knowing  the  Lord  Jesus  revealed  in  our  own  hearts,  and  not  only 
believing  in  the  record  of  the  Holy  Scripture,  in  relation  to  his 
coming  and  suffering  in  the  flesh,  but  also  receiving  Him  in 
his  spiritual,  inward  appearance,  to  break  every  yoke,  and  pre- 
pare the  soul  for  the  Lord  God,  by  his  spirit,  to  dwell  in,  was 
opened  and  enforced.  Many  can  sa}^  much  respecting  Him,  and 
what  He  has  done  for  us,  without  us,  who  yet  seem  determined 
to  keep  Him  without  them ;  while  they  judge  and  condemn 
those  who  plead  for  the  inward  and  spiritual  knowledge  of  God 
and  Christ,  as  well  as  for  a  full  belief  of  all  that  He  has  done 
for  us,  in  the  prepared  body  ;  and  as  our  Mediator  and  Inter- 
cessor M'ith  the  Father. 

15th.  Was  held  our  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  in  which  a  me- 
morial addressed  to  both  Houses  of  Congress,  against  war,  was 
adopted,  and  the  committee  nominated  to  prepare  it,  was  direct- 
ed to  have  it  presented ;  which  w^as  accordingly  done. 

26th.  This  morning  in  the  silence,  after  reading  to  my  fami- 
ly in  the  New  Testament,  the  Master,  in  tender  mercy,  drew 
near,  and  renewed  my  faith  in  Him,  and  in  his  unfailing  good- 
ness; so  that  I  was  enabled  to  adopt  in  secret  the  language  of 
his  disciples,  "Now  we  believe  and  are  sure  that  thou  art  that 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  337 

Christ,  the  Son  of  the  living  God."  Hereby  we  know  that  He 
is  the  author  of  all  true  and  saving  faith;  when  He  mauifesta 
Himself  to  us,  after  seasons  of  great  desertion,  and  clothes  us 
afresh  with  it ;  so  that  we  are  made  sure  that  it  is  He  and  not 
another;  the  immutable  Eock  which  will  sustain  all  who  are 
built  up  by  Him  on  it.  Oh  that  I  may  be  favored  so  to  live  aa 
to  continue  to  be  a  partaker  of  such  marks  of  Divine  mercy  and 
kindness. 

Second  month  1st.  Our  Quarterly  Meeting  was  a  season  of 
inward  suffering;  the  spring  of  Divine  life  not  being  felt  to  flow 
amongst  us,  to  the  solacing  and  cheering  of  the  hearts  of  the 
burden-bearers. 

3d  and  4th.  My  wife  and  myself  attended  Abington  Quar- 
terly Meeting,  held  at  Germantown,  Avhich  is  a  small  company, 
particularly  the  select  meeting.  To  the  members  who  compose 
this  small  body,  the  language  of  encouragement  was  extended  ; 
and  in  the  meeting  for  discipline  of  the  general  meeting,  I  was 
enabled  to  invite  the  young  men  to  be  faithful  to  the  manifesta- 
tions of  the  Light  of  Christ,  and  they  would  feel  themselves 
bound  to  maintain  the  doctrines  and  testimonies  of  the  gospel 
held  by  Friends,  wherever  they  went,  both  great  and  small. 
Hereby  they  would  be  prepared  for  service  in  the  church,  and 
be  constrained  in  our  meetings  for  discipline,  to  speak  a  word 
in  the  authority  of  Truth,  at  the  Master's  bidding,  to  the  busi- 
ness before  their  meetings.  They  would  feel  it  a  religious  duty 
to  suj)port  the  discipline,  and  to  stand  for  the  blessed  cause,  en- 
trusted to  our  Society  to  ujjhold  in  the  world. 

Third  month.  On  the  28th,  being  first-day,  I  went  to  the 
^Northern  District  Meeting,  feeling  a  particular  draft  there  ;  and 
was  led  to  treat  upon  the  beginning  and  growth  of  true  religion 
in  the  heart ;  which  is  through  obedience  to  the  requisitions  of 
the  blessed  Saviour,  made  known  thei'e.  Also  to  show  the  be- 
numbing. stuj)ef3"ing  effects  of  a  constant  pursuit  of  riches ;  in 
which  the  extraordinary  talents  bestowed  upon  man,  by  an  all- 
wise  and  beneficent  Creator,  are  prostituted  to  inferior  objects ; 
80  that  he  finally  loves  and  serves  the  creature,  himself  and  his 
temporal  acquisitions,  instead  of  the  Creator.  Thus  the  great 
and  noble  purpose  for  which  he  was  made,  to  glorify  God,  is 
lost  sight  of,  and  altogether  neglected.  There  was  also  a  cup 
of  consolation  and  encouragement  to  the  sincere  in  heart,  to  keep 
their  trust  in  the  Lord  alone  ;  who  never  was  foiled  in  battle ; 


398  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

but  whose  omnipotent  firm  is  round  tibout  to  preserve,  and  will 
carry  through  and  over  all  opposition,  those  who  look  to  and 
confide  in,  and  follow  Ilim  faithful!}"  to  the  end. 

31st.  I  attended  the  Western  District  Meeting ;  and  after 
some  time  of  silent  waiting,  it  opened  to  me,  to  show  the  way 
by  which  we  come  to  obtain  peace  with  God,  through  our  Lord 
Jesus  Christ;  to  wit,  by  denying  ourselves,  taking  up  the 
cross,  and  obeying  his  commands,  as  He  makes  them  known  to 
us  by  hia  Spirit.  No  device  of  ours  will  be  taken  as  a  substi- 
tute. God  will  not  give  his  glory  to  any  other,  but  to  his  well- 
beloved  Son,  whom  He  hath  given  for  salvation  to  the  end  of 
the  earth  ;  and  if  we  are  saved,  it  will  be  by  Him,  and  that  by 
doing  his  will.  To  these  He  gives  the  reward  of  true  peace,  for 
every  sacrifice  and  service,  which  is  performed  by  his  direction. 
The  Lord  helped  me,  by  his  saving  strength,  to  preach  the  gos- 
pel of  life  and  salvation,  through  Christ  Jesus,  both  in  the  flesh  as 
He  walked  among  men,  and  in  the  Spirit,  as  He  appears  in  our 
hearts  by  his  light  and  grace,  to  the  tendering  of  some  present, 
and  to  my  own  peace  and  comfort.  Blessed  forever  be  his  great 
and  glorious  name  and  power!  He  still  condescends  to  the  low 
estate  of  his  poor  unworthy  creatures;  lifts  them  up  at  times 
out  of  their  depressed  conditions ;  gives  them  the  oil  of  joy  for 
mourning,  and  shows  to  them,  that  He  has  not  forgotten  to  be 
gracious  ;   unworthy  as  they  are  of  the  least  of  his  mercies. 

Fourth  month  12th.  Yesterday  morning  my  wife  and  myself 
went  to  Wilmington,  to  attend  the  funeral  of  our  late  beloved 
friend  John  Bullock,  who  died  suddenly  with  apoplexy.  He 
had  of  latter  years  become  increasingly  valuable  to  his  friends, 
and  to  religious  society ;  his  removal  is  a  great  afiliction  to  his 
relatives,  and  trial  to  the  meeting  there.  We  felt  deeply  for 
them,  and  in  much  sympathy,  believed  it  right  to  be  at  their 
meeting,  on  first-day,  as  well  as  to  pay  the  last  respect  to  the 
memory  of  our  worthy  friend.  Both  morning  and  afternoon 
meetings  were  favored  opportunities  ;  many  hearts  being  hum- 
bled and  contrited,  under  a  renewed  sense  of  the  Lord's  mercy 
and  tender  compassion,  even  towards  the  rebellious.  The 
honest,  exercised  remnant  there,  on  whom  much  weight  rests, 
for  the  sake  of  the  cause  and  testimony  of  their  God,  were  com- 
forted, and  a  little  strengthened  in  the  hope  that  He  will  not 
cast  them  off,  or  forsake  his  people,  though  He  permits  them  to 
be  closely  proven  in  the  removal  of  dear  fellow  helpers.     We 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM   EVANS.  399 

had  cause  to  bless  bis  boly  name,  for  tbe  evidence  wbicb  lie 
gave,  that  He  grants  the  immediate  help  and  strength  of  his 
Spirit,  and  puts  words  into  the  mouths  of  his  servants,  to  speak 
to  the  people,  in  his  authority,  and  to  their  refreshment;  at- 
tended with  the  conviction  that  they  are  handed  from  tbe  Lord's 
treasury. 

26th.  Our  Yearly  Meeting  was  held  last  week.  I  believe 
tbe  Lord  wrought  for  his  faithful,  dedicated  children,  and 
brought  them  through,  to  his  honor,  and  to  their  comfort  and 
humiliation. 

Tbe  reading  of  tbe  document  containing  an  exposition  of  er- 
roneous passages  from  the  works  of  two  writers  in  England, 
with  the  other  minutes  of  the  Meeting  for  Suiferings,  occupied 
all  third-day  and  part  of  fourth-day  morning.     Soon  after  fin- 
ishing, the  manifestation  of  unity  commenced,  and  a  large  num- 
ber expressed  their  satisfaction  with  tbe  document.    Opposition 
to  it  was,  however,  made  by  some  ;  to  which  little  reply  was 
oflFered,  except  so  far  as  to  explain  some  facts,  which  were  mis- 
stated, in  order  to  make  clear  tbe  right  of  tbe  Meeting  for  Suf- 
ferings, to  prepare  tbe  exposition  ;  and  that  it  was  called  for,  in 
defence  of  our  religious  principles,  and  in  defence  of  our  own 
Yearly  Meeting ;  inasmuch  as  we  had  been  frequently  calling 
tbe  attention  of  Friends  in  England  to  those  writings,  as  con- 
taining  sentiments   inimical  to  tbe   faith   of  Friends.     Much 
patience  and  deliberation  were  manifested  by  those  who  united 
with  the  document.     Many,  as  they  had  opportunit}',  seriously 
gave  their  voices  in  favor  of  it,  after  listening  to  the  objections 
which  Avere  made.     Friends  in  favor  of  the  meeting  sanctioning 
it,  spoke  in  a  decided  and  serious  manner;  and  evidence  was 
given,  that  it  was  the  prevailing,  solid  sense  of  tbe  meeting,  it 
should  be  adopted  ;  and  a  minute  to  that  effect  was  made;  to 
which,  at  the  last,  little  opposition  was  offered ;  and  the  meet- 
ing, in  a  short  time,  settled  down  in  a  quiet  and  peaceful  feel- 
ing; which  satisfied  many  that  it  was  owned  by  tbe  Head  of 
the  church.     To  tbose  who  have  been  long  burtbened  with  the 
unsound  opinions  in  these  books,  it  was  a  great  relief  that  tbe 
meeting  was  enabled  to  come  to  this  decision  ;  and  they  be- 
lieved it  was  to  be  attributed  to  the  superintendence  and  control- 
ling power  of  tbe  Blessed  Head  of  tbe  church;  and  humble 
gratitude  clothed  their  spirits.     The  remaining  business  of  the 


400  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

meeting  was  conducted  with  solidity,  and  brought  to  a  close, 
under  feelings  of  solemnity. 

Fifth  month  13th.  I  attended  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting, 
and  felt  my  mind  clothed  with  very  affectionate  desires,  that 
all  might  be  kept  under  a  fervent  travail  of  spirit,  and  thereby 
become  fruit-bearing  branches  of  the  true  Vine,  to  the  praise  of 
the  Great  Husbandman.  The  language  of  sympathy  and  en- 
couragement flowed  to  the  true  burden  bearers,  whose  faith  is 
proved,  and  great  poverty  of  spirit  their  jjortion.  And  the 
young  peoj^le  were  addressed  in  the  language  of  jDersuasion,  to 
obey  the  requiriugs  of  the  Shepherd  of  the  sheep,  and  turn  their 
backs  to  the  temptations  of  Satan,  take  up  the  cross  and  follow 
Christ ;  who  would  prepare  them  to  shine  as  lights,  and  to  exalt 
and  honor  his  name  and  glorious  cause  in  the  earth.  It  was  a 
time  of  favor  from  the  Lord,  whose  mercies  are  new  every 
morning  ;  though  we  are  often  withheld  from  perceiving  them. 
I  returned  home  on  sixth-dajMnorning,  the  14th,  with  a  peaceful 
mind,  replenished  with  a  fresh  sense  of  the  benefits  of  mingling 
with  our  distant  friends  at  the  Lord's  bidding;  in  which  the 
invisible  fellowship  is  strengthened  and  revived. 
•  Since  this  visit,  I  have  been  wading  along  under  discourag- 
ing prospects  of  the  condition  of  the  Society,  and  with  but  little 
ability  administered,  to  draw  near  to  the  inexhaustible  Foun- 
tain, either  in  or  out  of  meeting.  This  has  excited  desires  for 
increasing  watchfulness,  and  solid  demeanor  before  all. 

Sixth  month  1st.  My  wife  and  myself  went  early  this  morn- 
ing to  Woodbur}-,  and  attended  their  Monthly  Meeting  ;  in 
which  both  of  us  had  some  service. 

8th.  After  calling  at  the  recent  residence  of  our  cousin  Ann 
Scattergood,  who  died  the  preceding  evening ;  I  went  to  the 
]S"orthcrn  District  Meeting,  and  sitting  under  much  poverty  of 
spirit,  even  while  a  dear  Friend  was  engaged  in  the  ministry  ; 
there  seemed  finally  to  be  a  little  quickening  virtue  felt,  under 
which  I  was  engaged  to  bear  testimony  to  the  sufficiency  of  the 
everlasting  Shepherd  and  Captain  of  salvation,  to  carry  on  the 
work,  in  and  throngh  his  faithful  children,  to  the  end  of  their 
heavenly  journey.  "  Oh  that  [my  people]  were  wise,  that  they 
understood  this,  that  they  would  consider  their  latter  end  !  How 
should  one  chase  a  thousand,  and  two  put  ten  thousand  to  flight, 
except  their  Eock  had  sold  them  and  the  Lord  had  shut  them 
up."     The  daily  consideration  of  our  L.tter  end,  tends  to  give 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  401 

US  a  proper  estimatoof  things  under  the  sun;  even  the  coinforts 
and  accommodations  with  which  we  are  surrounded  ;  and  at  the 
same  time,  to  centre  our  thoughts  and  affections  upon  that  eter- 
nal weight  of  glory,  which  is  to  be  hereafter  revealed  to  the 
steadfast  followers  of  the  Lamb.  I  thought  the  Lord  mercifully 
granted  a  little  fresh  ability  to  advocate  his  cause  ;  which  is 
dignified  with  immortality,  and  crowned  with  eternal  life,  and 
to  hand  a  morsel  of  bread  to  comfort  some  weary  travellers. 

29th.  This  morning  my  dear  wife  and  myself  left  for  Green- 
wich, iSTew  Jersey.  The  w^eather  was  warm,  but  being  in  a  fast- 
moving  boat,  we  had  a  pleasant  breeze ;  and  from  the  upper 
deck,  the  view  of  the  islands,  and  the  scenery  along  the  shores 
of  Delaware  and  New  Jersey,  with  the  great  expanse  of  water 
below  Eeedy  Island,  made  the  trip  very  pleasant  and  refresh- 
ing. Our  beloved  cousins,  George  and  Naomi  Bacon,  with 
other  Friends,  received  us  with  much  cordiality.  We  attended 
their  Monthly  Meeting  on  fifth-day.  In  the  meeting  we  had 
some  service  to  the  exaltation  of  the  name,  and  goodness  of 
our  God ;  who  watches  over,  preserves  and  provides  for  those 
who  give  themselves  up  to  his  requirings ;  both  in  temporals 
and  spirituals.  The  hearts  of  some  were  contrited  and  comfort- 
ed,  in  a  reverent  sense  of  the  Lord's  mercy  and  kindness,  still 
extended  to  us,  an  unworthy  people  ;  though  there  are,  perhaps, 
in  every  meeting,  those  preserved  alive  in  the  Truth,  and,  I 
hope,  growing  in  it. 

On  first-da}',  we  attended  the  meeting  at  Salem  ;  in  which  my 
dear  wife  was  di'awn  forth,  in  fellow  feeling  with  some  who  were 
partaking  of  bitter  trials,  so  as,  at  times,  to  feel  life  almost  a 
burthen,  and  to  desire  a  release ;  but  she  said  she  believed  if 
their  sufferings  were  rightly  borne,  they  would,  under  the  Di- 
vine blessing,  prove  a  means  for  the  sanctification  of  the  soul. 
The  language  of  sympathy  and  encouragement,  through  her, 
had  a  tendering  effect ;  and  I  have  no  doubt,  met  with  an  an- 
swer of,  so  be  it,  in  some  hearts.  I  was  engaged  to  call  the  at- 
tention of  some  to  the  importance  of  showing  their  love  to  Christ 
Jesus,  in  whom  we  profess  to  believe,  by  keeping  his  word,  and 
the  commands  He  gives  us  to  obe}".  It  seems  to  be  an  easy 
matter,  in  this  day  of  great  biblical  knowledge,  to  make  a  high 
profession  of  belief  in  Christ;  and  for  people  to  think  themselves 
justified  by  this  belief;  but  it  will  avail  little  to  those  who  do 
not  keep  his  word  in  their  hearts,  and  bring  forth  the  fruits 


400  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

meeting  was  conducted  with  solidity,  and  brought  to  a  close, 
under  feelings  of  solemnity. 

Fifth  month  13th.  I  attended  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting, 
and  felt  my  mind  clothed  with  very  affectionate  desires,  that 
all  might  be  kej^t  under  a  fervent  travail  of  sjiirit,  and  thereby 
become  fruit-bearing  branches  of  the  true  Vine,  to  the  praise  of 
the  Gi'eat  Husbandman.  The  language  of  sympathy  and  en- 
couragement flowed  to  the  true  burden  bearers,  whose  faith  is 
proved,  and  great  poverty  of  spirit  their  portion.  And  the 
young  people  were  addressed  in  the  language  of  persuasion,  to 
obey  the  requirings  of  the  Shepherd  of  the  sheep,  and  turn  their 
backs  to  the  temptations  of  Satan,  take  up  the  cross  and  follow 
Christ ;  who  would  prepare  them  to  shine  as  lights,  and  to  exalt 
and  honor  his  name  and  glorious  cause  in  the  earth.  It  was  a 
time  of  favor  from  the  Lord,  whose  mercies  are  new  every 
morning  ;  though  we  are  often  withheld  from  perceiving  them. 
I  returned  home  on  sixth-da}"  morning,  the  14th,  with  a  peaceful 
mind,  replenished  with  a  fi-esh  sense  of  the  benefits  of  mingling 
with  our  distant  friends  at  the  Lord's  bidding;  in  which  the 
invisible  fellowshi])  is  strengthened  and  revived. 
■  Since  this  visit,  I  have  been  wading  along  vinder  discourag- 
ing prospects  of  the  condition  of  the  Society,  and  with  but  little 
ability  administered,  to  draw  near  to  the  inexhaustible  Foun- 
tain, either  in  or  out  of  meeting.  This  has  excited  desires  for 
increasing  watchfulness,  and  solid  demeanor  before  all. 

Sixth  month  1st.  My  wife  and  myself  went  early  this  morn- 
ing to  Woodburj^,  and  attended  their  Monthly  Meeting ;  in 
which  both  of  us  had  some  service. 

8th.  After  calling  at  the  recent  residence  of  our  cousin  Ann 
Scattergood,  who  died  the  preceding  evening ;  I  went  to  the 
Northern  District  Meeting,  and  sitting  under  much  poverty  of 
spirit,  even  while  a  dear  Friend  was  engaged  in  the  ministry ; 
there  seemed  finally  to  be  a  little  quickening  virtue  felt,  under 
which  I  was  engaged  to  bear  testimony  to  the  sufficiency  of  the 
everlasting  Shepherd  and  Captain  of  salvation,  to  carry  on  the 
work,  in  and  through  his  faithful  children,  to  the  end  of  their 
heavenly  journey.  "Oh  that  [my  people]  were  wise,  that  they 
understood  this,  that  they  would  consider  their  latter  end  !  How 
should  one  chase  a  thousand,  and  two  put  ten  thousand  to  fiight, 
except  their  Eock  had  sold  them  and  the  Lord  had  shut  them 
up."     The  daily  consideration  of  our  h.ttcr  end,  tends  to  give 


JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  401 

US  a  proper  estiniateof  things  under  the  sun;  even  the  comforts 
and  accommodations  with  which  we  are  surrounded  ;  and  at  the 
same  time,  to  centre  our  thoughts  and  affections  upon  that  eter- 
nal weight  of  gloiy,  which  is  to  be  hereafter  revealed  to  the 
steadfast  followers  of  the  Lamb.  I  thought  the  Lord  mercifully- 
granted  a  little  fresh  ability  to  advocate  his  cause  ;  w^hich  is 
dignified  with  immortality,  and  crowned  with  eternal  life,  and 
to  baud  a  morsel  of  bread  to  comfoi't  some  weary  travellers. 

29th.  This  morning  my  dear  wife  and  myself  left  for  Green- 
wich, New  Jersey.  The  weather  was  warm,  but  being  in  a  fast- 
moving  boat,  we  had  a  pleasant  breeze ;  and  from  the  uj)per 
deck,  the  view  of  the  islands,  and  the  scenery  along  the  shores 
of  Delaware  and  New  Jersey,  with  the  great  expanse  of  water 
below  Reedy  Island,  made  the  trip  veiy  pleasant  and  refresh- 
ing. Our  beloved  coiisins,  George  and  Naomi  Bacon,  with 
other  Friends,  received  us  with  much  cordiality.  "We  attended 
their  Monthly  Meeting  on  fifth-day.  In  the  meeting  we  had 
some  service  to  the  exaltation  of  the  name,  and  goodness  of 
our  God ;  who  w^atches  over,  preserves  and  provides  for  those 
who  give  themselves  uj)  to  his  requirings ;  both  in  temporals 
and  spirituals.  The  hearts  of  some  were  contrited  and  comfort- 
ed, in  a  reverent  sense  of  the  Lord's  mercy  and  kindness,  still 
extended  to  us,  an  unworthy  people  ;  though  there  are,  perhaps, 
in  every  meeting,  those  preserved  alive  in  the  Truth,  and,  I 
hope,  growling  in  it. 

On  first-da}^,  we  attended  the  meeting  at  Salem  ;  in  which  my 
dear  wife  was  drawn  forth,  in  felloM^  feeling  with  some  who  were 
partaking  of  bitter  trials,  so  as,  at  times,  to  feel  life  almost  a 
burthen,  and  to  desire  a  release;  but  she  said  she  believed  if 
their  sufferings  were  rightly  borne,  they  would,  under  the  Di- 
vine blessing,  prove  a  means  for  the  sanctification  of  the  soul. 
The  language  of  sympathy  and  encouragement,  through  her, 
had  a  tendering  effect ;  and  I  have  no  doubt,  met  with  an  an- 
swer of,  so  be  it,  in  some  hearts.  I  was  engaged  to  call  the  at- 
tention of  some  to  the  importance  of  showing  their  love  to  Christ 
Jesus,  in  whom  we  profess  to  believe,  by  keeping  his  word,  and 
the  commands  He  gives  us  to  obey.  It  seems  to  be  an  easy 
matter,  in  this  day  of  great  biblical  knowledge,  to  make  a  high 
profession  of  belief  in  Christ;  and  forjieople  to  think  themselves 
justified  by  this  belief;  but  it  will  avail  little  to  those  who  do 
not  keep  his  word  in  their  hearts,  and  bring  forth  the  fruits 


402  JOURXAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

thereof,  to  the  praise  of  our  Heavenly  Father.  "  If  a  man  love 
me,"  said  our  blessed  Lord,  "he  will  keep  my  words;  and  my 
Father  will  love  him,  and  we  will  come  unto  him,  and  make  our 
abode  with  him."  It  is  thus  only  that  we  can  witness  the 
love  of  God  shed  abroad  in  our  hearts  ;  and  through  the  Holy 
Spirit,  hold  communion  with  the  Father,  and  with  his  dear  Son, 
our  Lord  Jesus  Christ.  My  beloved  wife  concluded  the  meeting 
with  solemn  supplication.  In  the  afternoon  we  visited  two  aged 
Friends,  to  one  of  whom  she  spoke  encouragingly. 

Seventh  month  5th.  We  took  the  steamboat  for  home,  feel- 
ing satisfied  with  the  little  visit,  and  hoping  that  although  what 
was  done  was  in  weakness  and  fear,  it  would  tend  to  the  strength- 
ening of  the  good  in  some. 

13th.  Was  at  the  North  Meeting;  in  which  Ezekiel's  vision 
of  the  dry  bones  in  the  valley,  which  were  very  dry,  w^as  brought 
before  me.  It  seemed  not  only  to  represent  the  state  of  many 
of  the  house  of  Israel,  who  were  very  destitute  of  the  love  and 
life  of  God  in  their  hearts ,  but  also  the  condition  of  those  who 
were  baptized  for  the  dead,  and  who,  at  times,  such  was  their 
sti'ipped  and  destitute  condition,  as  to  the  sensible  feeling  of  the 
life-giving  presence  of  the  Lord,  were  ready  to  doubt  whether 
they  would  ever  again  experience  it,  and  be  enabled  to  stand  be- 
fore Ilim  with  acceptance.  Yet  He,  who  is  the  resurrection  and 
the  life,  can  and  does  breathe  on  bones  whose  energ}*  is  depart- 
ed, clothe  them  as  with  sinews  and  flesh,  and  breathe  into 
them  the  breath  of  life,  and  raise  them  up  as  an  army  for  his 
service.  I  hope  a  little  of  his  quickening  virtue  was  felt  among 
us  this  day. 

16th.  Our  Meeting  for  Sufferings  having  adjourned  to  this 
time,  forty-seven  members  convened ;  and  the  committee  to 
whom  had  been  referred,  by  the  Yearly  Meeting,  the  document 
upon  the  unsound  doctrines,  now  reported  a  few  alterations, 
which  were  read  to  the  meeting,  and  adopted.  None  of  them 
abated  the  force,  or  varied  the  character  of  this  testimony  for 
the  truth  of  our  ancient  doctrines.  There  was  a  very  united 
and  solemn  feeling  over  the  meeting ;  but  two  members  dissent- 
ing from  the  publication  of  it.  Christopher  Ilealy  and  Ezra 
Comfort  bore  lively  testimonies  to  the  sweetness  of  the  covering 
spread  over  us  ;  and  though  one  of  them  seemed  to  foresee  fur- 
ther close  trials  awaiting  the  church,  they  both  believed  as 
Friends  kept  steadfast  to  the  Truth,  victory  would  finally  be 


JOLRNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  403 

obtained  over  that  spirit  -which  is  seeking  to  lay  waste  our 
precious  faith.  I  hope  that  the  Appeal  put  forth  for  the  An- 
cient Doctrines  will  be  blessed,  to  the  comfort  and  settlement  of 
many  in  the  right  way  of  the  Lord. 

Eighth  month  18th.  Of  latter  time  being  under  much  exer- 
cise, and  at  seasons  clothed  with  many  fears,  I  have  had  little 
call  ojjenly  to  speak  in  the  assemblies  of  the  Lord's  people  ;  and 
when  I  have  believed  mj'self  constrained  to  stand  forth  on  be- 
half of  my  gracious  Lord  and  Master  and  his  cause,  it  has  been 
in  but  few  words,  yet  attended  with  the  evidence  of  being 
rightly  authorized,  by  his  peace  shed  abroad  in  my  mind. 
To-day  1  felt  called  on  to  bear  testimony,  that  He,  who  gave  his 
disciples  power  over  all  the  power  of  the  enemy,  so  that  nothing 
should  b}'  any  means  offend  or  harm  them,  was  still  with  his 
faithful,  devoted  children  ;  and  according  to  their  respective 
conditions,  growths  and  services  in  the  church,  would  give  them 
power  over  all  the  power  of  the  enemy,  in  the  various  assaults 
and  temptations  with  which  he  may  be  permitted  to  buifet 
them;  if  on  their  part,  they  keep  iaithful  to  Ilim.  Christ  only 
knows  the  depth  of  baptism  needful  for  the  humiliation  and  re- 
finement of  his  disciples  ;  and  if  they  hold  fast  the  grain  of  faith, 
which  will  never  be  entirely  taken  from  them,  in  his  time,  He 
will  appear  to  them,  as  the  resurrection  and  the  life  ;  renew  their 
faith,  and  grant  an  evidence,  that  their  feet  are  upon  the  Eock 
of  ages,  the  sure  foundation,  against  which  the  gates  of  hell 
cannot  prevail. 

19th.  I  went  to  Haddonfield,  and  attended  that  meeting;  in 
which  I  was  drawn  forth  to  say  close  things  to  some,  who  were 
doing  despite  to  the  offers  of  Divine  love  and  mercy  to  them : 
who  had  become  like  the  heath  in  the  desert,  in  a  dry  and 
barren  soil ;  not  partaking  of  the  water  of  life,  by  which  alone 
the  soul  can  be  kept  alive  unto  God ;  and  such  is  their  insensi- 
bility, that  they  know  not  when  good  cometh.  These  were 
pleaded  with,  to  lay  these  things  solemnly  to  heart ;  for  the 
time  was  fast  approaching,  when  the  awful  message  would  be 
sounded  in  their  ear,  "Steward,  give  an  account  of  thy  steward- 
ship, for  thou  mayest  be  no  longer  steward."  Also  the  fearful, 
trembling  followers  of  Christ,  were  encouraged  to  keep  the 
faith ;  for  in  his  time  He  would  shed  abroad  his  peace  in  their 
hearts,  and  grant  an    evidence  of  his  acceptance  and  appro- 


404  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

bation.  Called  upon  a  few  Friends,  and  returned  home  in 
peace. 

26th.  My  wife  and  myself  attended  Plymouth  Meeting ;  in 
which  the  Master  employed  us  in  his  Avork,  both  for  the  warn- 
ing of  those  who  are  in  danger  of  being  swallowed  up  with  the 
spirit  of  the  world,  and  in  comforting  and  strengthening  the 
feeble  and  weary,  who  love  the  Truth,  and  desire  its  prosjjerity 
more  than  anything  beside. 

Ninth  month  17th.  The  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  which  met 
to-daj^,  was  large.  The  exposed  condition  of  the  free  colored 
population  of  our  State,  was  considered,  and  referred  to  a  com- 
mittee on  slavery.  The  meeting  agreed  to  stereotype  Eobert 
Barclay's  Apology  for  the  true  Christian  Divinity,  as  believed 
by  Friends. 

26th.  First-day.  I  went  to  meeting  this  moi-ning,  humbled 
under  a  sense  of  the  many  snares  and  dangers  which  surround 
all,  especially  young  people ;  and  my  soul  was  poured  forth  in 
mental,  fervent  supplication  to  the  Lord,  that  He  would  be 
pleased  to  preserve  my  dear  children  in  purity,  and  in  a  state 
of  acceptance  with  Him.  I  renounced  all  desire  for  riches  or 
worldly  greatness,  and  craved  that  He  would  make  them  his  by 
adoption,  and  prepare  them  for  his  kingdom. 

Tenth  month  2d.  In  consequence  of  using  an  expresssion  un- 
dignified, and  betraying  a  want  of  watchfulness,  mortification 
and  abasedness  were  my  clothing.  There  is  nothing  pertaining 
to  us  to  glory  in — nothing  we  can  glory  in — save  in  the  cross 
of  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  by  which  we  are  crucified  to  the  world, 
and  the  world  unto  us;  and  when  every  wrong  thing  in  us,  is 
crucified  and  made  subject  to  the  dominion  of  Christ,  then  we 
have  good  cause  to  give  glory  to  the  power  and  goodness  by 
which  we  are  subjected  to  Him. 

10th.  Friends  and  others  are  returning  from  their  country 
residences,  by  which  our  meeting  is  enlarged.  That  love, 
which  leads  to  desire  the  everlasting  welfare  of  souls,  covered 
the  hearts  of  some,  and  a  renewed  qualification  was  granted  to 
invite  all  to  faithfulness,  in  obeying  the  clear  requisitions  of  our 
Heavenly  Father,  made  known  by  his  spirit  in  the  heart.  It 
is  this  which  will  dignify  and  make  men  truly  honorable:  a 
blessing  to  their  fellow  cj'eatures  ;  and  prepare  them  for  the 
society  of  saints  and  angels,  and  the  church  of  the  first-born, 
whose  names  are  written  in  heaven. 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  405 

24th.  First-day  moi*ning,  at  our  meeting,  I  was  engaged  to 
call  upon  some  to  embrace  the  oflfcrcd  gift  of  repentance,  that 
they  may  receive  strength  to  "  work  while  it  is  called  to-day  ; 
for  behold  the  night  cometh  w^herein  no  man  can  work."  No 
man  can  command  these  offers  of  mercy  and  help.  It  is  then  his 
highest  wisdom  and  interest,  to  lay  hold  of  them  when  he  is 
favored  with  them,  lest  the  awful  period  come  when  he  may  be 
called  to  appear  in  the  presence  of  his  Almighty  Judge,  and  ho 
be  unprepared  for  the  solemn  event.  Next  day,  a  well-concerned 
Friend  told  me  that  what  was  said  was  his  exercise  reduced  into 
words.  It  is  pleasant,  when  the  day  laborers  arc  favored  to  see 
eye  to  eye,  and  to  bring  forth  good  fruit. 

26th.  Through  much  doubt  and  discouragement,  I  went  to 
the  North  Meeting.  Dear  Eachel  Thornton  was  there,  and  had 
a  consoling  testimony  to  those,  deeply  proved.  My  mind  was 
turned  to  the  dear  3'oung  people,  who  were  exposed  to  the  evil 
insinuations  of  the  wicked  one  ;  both  by  the  fluctuations  in  the 
Society,  and  his  attempts  to  captivate  them  with  the  fashions 
of  a  corrupt  world.  The  Lord's  presence  was  with  us,  and 
solemnized  and  tendered  some  hearts.  It  showed  me  the  need 
of  walking  hy  faith,  when  there  is  little  sight ;  and  when  the 
grand  deceiver  would  prevent  us  from  doing  our  duty;  thereby 
robbing  the  church,  and  losing  the  reward  of  Divine  approba- 
tion and  peace. 

Eleventh  month  1st.  Having  obtained  a  minute  of  the  unity 
of  the  Monthly  Meeting  to  attend  North  Carolina  Yearly  Meet- 
ing, and  to  visit  some  meetings  belonging  to  it,  I  left  home  this 
morning  under  feelings  of  desire  for  preservation.  My  beloved 
friend  Henry  Cope,  who  also  obtained  a  minute,  accompanied 
me.  I  had  for  many  months  felt  affectionately  drawn  towards 
some  meetings  there;  and  light  seemed  to  shine  on  some  places 
particularly.  Love  warmed  and  softened  my  heart  towards 
dear  Friends  in  that  country  ;  and  the  pointing  was  so  strong, 
that  it  appeared  to  be  unsafe  to  disregard  it ;  and  I  had  accord- 
ingly opened  it  to  the  Monthly  Meeting,  and  a  free  expression 
of  unity  followed.  We  left  by  railroad  about  eight  o'clock ;  and 
in  passing  through  Baltimore,  called  on  a  few  Friends;  and 
reached  Washington  after  dark,  where  we  lodged. 

2d.  Took  the  steamer  on  the  Potomac;  landed  at  Aquia 
Creek,  and  thence  proceeded  in  the  cars  to  Eichmond  and  Peters- 
burg. On  the  way  I  had  conversation  with  two  slaveholders; 
27 


^OG  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

one  of  whom  I  found  aftei'Avards  was  Govornor  of  Virginia.  He 
argued  that  our  Saviour  never  foj'liad  slaveholding  ;  but  I  replied 
that  the  S])iril  and  ])rineiples  of  his  religion  wei-e  against  it ; 
and  that  the  precept,  "All  things  Avhatsoeverye  would  that  men 
should  do  unto  you.  do  jo  also  unto  them/'  would  put  an  end 
to  it.  But  they  were  hardened  against  everything  that  would 
oppose  their  favorite  s3-steni ;  and  to  me  they  appeared  to  hold 
in  light  estimation  the  authority  of  the  ehiistian  religion.  On 
the  subject  of  war,  they  were  equally  in  the  dark.  One  of  them 
strove  to  cast  a  slur  on  Friends;  saying,  that  they  would  fight 
in  eases  of  great  emergency.  But  I  referred  him  to  the  seventy 
years  govei-nment  of  Friends  in  Pennsylvania,  during  which  no 
war  took  place  there  ;  and  also  the  firm  constancy  of  Friends  in 
Ireland,  during  the  civil  war  there,  in  which  but  two  of  the 
Society  lost  their  lives,  and  they  because  they  took  np  arms. 
This  man  finally  admitted  the  man}-  corru})tions  inseparable 
i'rom  slavery,  and  its  disadvantageous  influence  Avherever  it  exists. 
I  believe  there  are  seasons  in  which  such  are  brought  under 
conviction,  that  the  holding  of  slaves  is  wrong,  and  that  it  is  a 
curse  upon  the  countrj'. 

Supped  at  Petersburg,  betAveen  eight  and  nine  o'clock;  and 
after  arranging  our  baggage  in  the  burden  car,  for  Ealeigh,  set 
out  and  travelled  all  night;  changing  cars  twice,  in  which  avc 
found  poor  accommodations  for  sleeping.  Got  to  Ealeigh  near 
noon  on  the  3d.  Took  the  mail  stage,  and  had  a  wearisome 
ride  through  the  night;  the  stage  bei)ig  crowded,  and  hea- 
vily laden.  We  reached  Greensborough  between  one  and  two 
o'clock,  dined,  and  in  the  afternoon,  went  in  the  Salem  stage 
to  the  Boarding  School  at  Ncav  Garden.  Here  we  met  our 
friend  Dougan  Clark,  who  invited  lis  to  put  up  witli  him, 
and  we  accordingly  walked  to  his  house,  being  about  one  and  a 
quarter  miles,  and  felt  ourselves  agreeably  accommodated  with 
himself  and  valuable  wife. 

5th.  We  were  taken  to  Deep  Eiver,  to  attend  the  ]\reeting 
for  Sufferings.  The  business  consisted  principally  in  endeavor- 
ing, through  committees,  to  secure  the  freedom  of  colored  peo- 
ple, placed  by  slaveholders  under  the  charge  of  Friends ;  to  have 
them  transferred  to  other  parts  of  the  Union,  where  they  can 
enjoy  their  freedom,  unmolested  by  the  cruel  and  unjust  laws, 
Mhich  the  State  lias  passed,  to  bind  the  shackles  on   the  poor 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  407 

down-trodden  slave,  and  to  discourage  and  prevent  the  holders 
from  giving  them  their  libert}'. 

6th.  Attended  the  3Ieeting  for  Ministers  and  Elders,  in  which 
I  was  engaged  to  hold  up  the  importance  of  maintaining  our 
testimony  to  the  spiritual  nature  of  Divine  worship  under  the 
gospel  dispensation.  It  requires  dcvotedness  to  the  Truth,  and 
a  willingness  to  endure  mortification  before  the  people,  at  times, 
in  a  steadfast  waiting  for  the  Master's  life-giving  presence ;  not 
daring  to  put  forth  a  hand  to  any  work,  until  He  appears  and 
gives  strength  and  authority  for  it.  If  this  precious  testimony, 
by  which  we  are  much  distinguished  from  other  denominations, 
is  not  preserved,  the  Society  must  go  down.  After  meeting,  we 
rode  hack  to  New  Garden. 

7th.  The  meeting  for  worship  this  morning  was  crowded, 
and  for  a  long  time  much  distui'bed.  I  felt  impressed  with  the 
necessity  of  advocating  the  doctrine  of  the  universality  of  the 
Light  of  Christ,  as  it  shines  at  times  in  the  hearts  of  all  men. 
It  gives  man  a  sight  of  his  fallen  condition,  alienated  from  God 
by  sin ;  and  by  obedience  to  it,  he  is  gradually  led  out  of  dark- 
ness into  the  marvellous  light  of  the  Lord,  and  thus  witnesses, 
as  he  perseveres  faithfully,  a  growth  and  an  establishment  in 
the  Truth.  Christ  Jesus  is  the  author  and  finisher  of  the  saints' 
faith.  True  faith  is  not  a  faculty  of  the  human  mind ;  but  a  firm 
belief  and  confidence,  produced  by  the  operation  of  his  Spirit  on 
the  heart,  that  what  He  requires  of  man  to  forsake  or  to  per- 
form, is  the  revealed  will  of  our  Heavenly  Father;  and  leads  us 
to  put  our  trust  in  Christ,  the  Captain  of  salvation.  He  came  to 
save  us  from  our  sins,  not  in  them ;  and  we  must  be  separated 
from  sin,  before  we  can  experience  complete  justification  and 
redemption. 

8th.  Second-day  morning,  the  meeting  for  business  com- 
menced. Towards  the  close,  the  importance  of  rightly  holding 
a  Yearly  Meeting,  coming  before  me,  and  of  Friends  conducting, 
during  the  recess,  at  their  respective  lodging  places,  in  a  man- 
ner consistent  with  the  object  of  their  coming  together,  I  felt 
drawn  affectionately  to  call  their  attention,  particularly  that  of 
the  young  people,  to  it;  and  to  mention  a  remark  made  to  me  in 
my  early  going  out  on  religious  visits,  by  an  elder  in  the  church 
of  Christ ;  that  he  always  found  it  best  to  keep  under  religious 
exercise.  This  is  a  state  of  inward  watchfulness  ;  keeping  the 
fear  of  the  Lord  before  our  eyes,  lest  we  should  do  anything  that 


408  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

would  be  inconsistent  with  the  object  of  onr  leaving  home.  For 
want  of  this,  how  will  Satan  rob  us  and  wound  us,  and  deprive 
us  of  the  benefit  intended  by  these  opportunities.  The  young 
people  were  invited  to  guard  against  eveiything  of  a  light  and 
frivolous  nature,  by  which  they  would  suffer  loss.  Friends  ex- 
pressed their  unity  with  it,  and  wished  it  might  have  proper 
place  with  them. 

9th.  The  Queries  and  Answers  were  read;  which  exhibited 
many  deficiencies,  in  various  branches  of  our  christian  testimo- 
nies. Individual  responsibility,  and  the  proper  home  education 
of  children,  claimed  my  attention  ;  and  I  was  led  to  open  the 
importance  of  examining  our  own  conduct,  the  influence  of 
which,  either  for  evil  or  for  good,  may  be  greater  than  we  im- 
agine. George  Fox  mentions,  that  if  but  one  man  or  woman 
lived  in  the  Spirit,  which  the  prophets  and  apostles  lived  in, 
who  gave  forth  the  Scriptures,  he  or  she  would  shake  the  country 
for  ten  miles  round.  Their  influence  would  extend  in  many 
cases  further  than  that.  The  Holy  Sj)irit  can  bring  to  re- 
membrance the  example  of  righteous  men  and  women,  and 
thereby  convict  the  evil-doer ;  and  incite  him  to  forsake  wrong 
things,  and  come  into  the  w^ay  of  holiness,  and  steadfastly  per- 
severe in  it.  Heads  of  families  were  earnestly  exhorted  to  watch 
over  their  own  conduct,  that  they  might  not  say  or  do  anything 
which  they  could  not  approve  in  their  children.  Committed  to 
our  care,  in  the  wilderness  of  this  world,  we  are  bound  to  do  all 
that  is  in  our  power  to  bring  them  to  Christ;  and  to  do  nothing 
that  would  lead  them  into  the  spirit  and  customs  of  the  world. 
In  the  awful  day  of  account,  it  will  be  of  unspeakable  import- 
ance, that  the  blood  of  others  is  not  found  upon  our  garments. 
The  practice  of  frequently  reading  the  Holy  Sci'iptures  in  their 
families,  was  also  pressed  upon  Friends ;  and  that  it  be  done  in 
a  serious  manner,  with  hearts  turned  to  the  Lord;  in  which,  at 
times,  the  spirit  of  supplication  is  poured  out  ujion  such,  and 
they  enabled  to  pray  in  spirit  for  themselves,  and  their  beloved 
offspring. 

10th.  Fourth-day.  Attended  the  Meeting  of  Ministers  and 
Elders;  in  which  was  pointed  out  the  necessity  of  elders  coming 
under  a  measure  of  the  same  Divine  anointing  imparted  for  the 
ministry,  to  qualify  them  to  discern  and  judge  between  thing 
and  thing.  Eetwecn  that  ministrj'^  which  comes  from  the  true 
gospel  spring,  and  that  which  originates  in  the  activity  and  im- 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  409 

agination  of  the  natural  mind ;  that  while  they  properly  eneour- 
age  and  cherish  the  timid  and  fearful,  in  the  exercise  of  the  gift 
committed  to  them,  they  may  discourage  forward  spirits  that 
run  into  words  without  life  and  authority. 

Dined  at  the  school-house  ;  attended  the  adjourned  sitting  of 
the  Meeting  for  Sufferings;  and  returned  to  our  lodgings. 

11th.  Frfth-day.  The  business  of  the  Yearly  Meeting  was 
concluded. 


CHAPTEK    XX. 


CJontinuation  of  Visit  in  North  Carolina — Trials  at  Home,  and  Services  in  its 
Neighborhood — Extract  from  a  Letter — Views  on  Separations. 

1847—1848. 

1847,  Eleventh  month  12th.  We  remained  until  near  even- 
ing, with  our  dear  friends  D.  and  A.  Clark,  and  then  were  taken 
by  their  eon  to  a  Friend's  house,  where  we  lodged.  Nextmorn- 
ing,  he  took  us  to  Centre,  where  we  attended  the  Western 
Quarterly  Meeting.  Here  the  Lord  gave  me  renewed  ability  to 
preach  the  gospel  of  Christ  Jesus  ;  showing  that  every  member 
of  his  body  is  prepai*ed  for  his  place  therein,  by  knowing  the 
w^orking  of  the  Lord's  mighty  power,  in  his  own  regeneration 
and  sanctification,  in  the  first  place.  When  his  service  is  as- 
signed, he  must  rely  for  wisdom  and  strength  to  do  it,  upon  Him 
who  taught  him  obedience  to  his  will,  in  resisting  and  overcom- 
ing the  assaults  of  the  enemy;  and,  from  time  to  time,  delivered 
him  as  out  of  the  paw  of  the  lion  and  of  the  bear.  The  exam- 
ples of  Moses  and  David,  in  the  wilderness,  when,  in  the  care  of 
their  father's  sheep,  they  were  divinely  instructed  in  solitude, 
and  prepared  through  obedience  to  the  Divine  voice,  and  in  that 
saving  faith  with  which  the  Lord  inspired  them,  for  more  pub- 
He  and  extensive  usefulness  among  his  people,  were  opened  to 
the  meeting.  The  young  people  were  earnestly  entreated  to 
come  under  the  government  of  Christ,  that  they  might  occupy 
the  stations  designed  for  them,  and  reap  the  reward  of  his  sweet 
peace. 

14th.     First-day.     Rode  several  miles  to  Springfield,  where 


410  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

many,  not  professing  with  us,  attended  the  meeting.  The  state 
of  those,  who  like  the  Jews,  were  pleasing  themselves  with 
being  Abraham's  children,  but  whose  works  do  not  prove  them 
to  be  in  the  faith  of  Abraham,  came  before  me.  Outward  ad- 
vantages increase  our  responsibility,  but  unimproved,  will  not 
recommend  us  to  the  Divine  rcgai'd  ;  nor  will  the  disadvantages 
under  which  many  are  placed,  deprive  them  of  the  Lord's  favor, 
if  they  do  not  bring  them  upon  themselves  by  wrong  doing. 
"  Of  a  truth,"  saith  the  apostle,  "  I  perceive  that  God  is  no  re- 
specter of  persons ;  but  in  every  nation,  he  that  feareth  Him  and 
worketh  righteousness,  is  accepted  with  Him."  All  outward  dis- 
tinction will  avail  nothing,  unless  we  are  walking  in  the  foot- 
steps of  Christ's  companions,  working  righteousness  in  the  fear 
of  God.  The  awfulnoss  of  being  found  without  oil  in  our  ves- 
sels, with  our  lamps,  when  the  midnight  cry  is  heard,  was 
solemnly  held  up  to  view.  Some  were  warned  of  losing  the 
spirit  of  discernment,  with  which  they  had  been  favored,  and 
by  keeping  to  which  alone,  they  can  distinguish  the  voice  of  the 
true  Shepherd,  from  that  of  the  stranger.  The  sheep  of  Christ 
know  his  voice,  and  they  follow  Him. 

The  meeting  ended  with  supplication  for  the  continued  mercy, 
and  preserving  power  of  our  Heavenly  Father,  extended  to  his 
church  and  his  people  ;  that  He  would  regard  our  infirmities,  for- 
give our  sins,  and  enable  us  to  ascribe  unto  Him,  to  whom  alone 
it  belongs,  with  the  Lamb  who  sitteth  on  the  throne,  all  glory 
and  honor,  salvation  and  strength,  through  the  eternal  Spirit, 
now  and  forevermore.     Amen. 

On  the  16th,  we  went  to  New  Salem,  where  we  had  a  meeting 
with  the  few  Friends  residing  near,  and  in  the  village ;  also 
some  other  persons  who  had  been  invited.  The  nature  of  Di- 
vine worship,  the  necessity  of  being  brought  off  from  all  de- 
pendence upon  man,  and  coming  to  an  inward  acquaintance 
with  the  Lord  Jesus,  relying  upon  Him  as  our  teacher  and 
minister,  were  set  before  them.  All  the  efforts  of  man,  in  his 
will  and  time,  to  comprehend  the  truths  of  the  gospel,  or  to 
teach  others  the  way  of  religion,  will  be  fruitless.  Man,  in  his 
natural  condition,  may  set  himself  to  work,  and  conclude  ho 
knows  much  ;  yet  proceeding  from  his  own  spirit  it  will  not 
work  the  righteousness  of  God,  or  promote  the  Redcomer'st 
kingdom.  1  felt  much  for  the  3'oung  people,  and  warned  them 
of  the  machinations  of  wicked  men  and  women,  who  were  try- 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  411 

ing  to  draw  unsuspecting  young  people  into  tlieir  evil  pi-jictices. 
For  those  Avho  were  striving  to  do  right,  I  was  prostrated  in 
vocal  prayer,  that  they  might  be  strengthened,  and  that  the 
visitations  of  the  Lord's  love  and  mercy,  might  be  extended  to 
the  young  people  ;  bringing  them  to  submit  to  bear  the  yoke  and 
cross  of  Christ,  and  preparing  them  to  uphold  the  standard  of 
pure  righteousness  where  they  dwell. 

We  put  up  with  a  son  of  Dougan  Clark's,  where  we  were 
very  comfortably  and  agreeably  entertained. 

17th.  This  morning,  he  took  us  over  to  Marlborough,  about 
five  miles,  where  we  attended  their  regular  meeting ;  which  was 
a  pretty  large  gathering,  notice  of  our  intention  of  being  there, 
having  been  spread.  Here  I  was  enabled  to  relieve  myself  in 
the  love  of  the  gospel,  towards  Friends,  of  w^iich  the  meeting 
chiefly  consisted. 

18th.  We  had  a  rough,  tedious  ride  to  Holly  Spring,  the 
route  being  over  roads  not  much  used,  and  in  bad  repair.  The 
land  was  very  poor,  and  thinly  populated.  I  thought  I  should 
soon  wish  to  be  released  from  this  world's  concerns,  if  I  was 
fixed  in  some  places  through  which  we  rode.  It  was  the  time 
of  their  Preparative  Meeting,  and  the  company  was  nearly  all 
Friends ;  to  whom  I  was  led  to  sj^teak  of  the  importance  of 
being  under  a  daily  travail  and  w^atchfulness,  that  we  may  be 
favored  with  a  discerning  spirit,  so  as  to  detect  the  insinuations 
of  Satan,  in  his  various  attempts  to  deceive ;  whether  in  our  in- 
dividual capacity,  or  in  the  church.  By  faithfulness  to  the 
Divine  Word,  w^ho  is  a  disccrner  of  the  thoughts,  and  intents 
of  the  heart,  a  qualification  is  received  to  judge  righteous  judg- 
ment in  the  church.     » 

We  dined  at  Enoch  Barker's,  who,  with  his  children,  appear 
to  be  acquainted  with  the  cross.  The  company  of  such  Friends 
is  animating. 

Eode  about  two  miles,  and  lodged.  In  the  nigJit  it  com- 
menced raining,  and  continued  most  of  the  morning,  which 
made  travelling,  over  bad  roads,  but  little  frequented,  quite  dis- 
agreeable and  tedious.  In  one  place,  we  were  obliged  to  get 
out  of  the  carriage,  and  keep  it  from  overturning.  We  reached 
our  friend  John  Newlin's,  near  the  Spring  meeting-house,  to- 
wards evening,  and  were  received  and  entertained  by  him  and 
his  family,  in  a  kind  and  hospitable  raannei-.  At  New  Garden, 
he  told  us,  '-If  you  come  to  my  house,  you  will  get  to  Ealeigh,' 


412  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

■which  we  found  to  be  about  fortj^-seven  miles  distant.  Accord- 
ingly preparation  was  made,  and  the  following  morning,  the  20th, 
Ave  got  off,  and  rode  about  thirtj^-seven  miles;  parts  of  the  road 
being  very  hilly ;  and  put  up  for  the  night  at  a  private  house 
of  entertainment. 

Before  leaving  John  Newlin's,  I  felt  drawn  to  acknowledge 
the  kindness  of  Friends  in  providing  for  us,  and  to  express  my 
desire,  that  as  some  of  us  were  descending  the  hill  of  time, 
while  it  is  a  duty  to  attend  to  our  necessary  worldly  avocations, 
we  may  keep  in  view  the  importance  of  preparing  for  that  city 
which  hath  foundations,  whose  builder  and  maker  the  Lord  of 
Hosts  is.  We  parted  with  feelings  of  respect  and  affection 
for  the  parents  and  children,  not  knowing  but  that  it  might  be 
the  last  time  we  should  visit  their  habitation. 

21st.  After  taking  breakfast,  we  rode  into  Ealeigh  ;  directing 
our  eoui'se,.  when  reaching  the  suburbs,  to  the  house  of  a  free 
colored  man,  who  keejis  a  livery  stable,  and  carriages  to  hire, 
with  whom  we  contracted  to  be  taken  to  Rich  Square.  Being 
desirous  of  reaching  the  meeting  held  there  on  fourth-day,  we 
set  off,  after  taking  dinner  at  the  colored  man's  table,  and  rode 
twent}^  miles,  to  Foster's,  a  private  house,  where  we  supped  and 
lodged. 

22d.  Eose  early,  and  rode  twelve  miles  to  Crenshaw's,  to 
breakfast.  Rode  about  thirty-five  miles,  between  breakfost  and 
night,  and  put  up  at  another  private  house,  in  which  we  had 
little  comfort,  the  views  and  habits  of  the  inmates  being  very 
different  from  congeniality  with  our  own.  Here  we  fell  into 
conversation  with  a  young  man  upon  the  poverty  of  their  farms, 
and  the  very  reduced  value  of  the  lantl ;  which  he  told  us, 
would  not  bring  much  more  than  two  dollars  an  acre,  with  all 
the  buildings  and  fencing.  We  suggested  that  the  cause  was 
keeping  slaves,  which  he  could  not  deny;  and  when  we  inform- 
ed him  of  the  worth  of  land  in  Pennsylvania,  and  the  steady  ad- 
vance in  quality,  improvements,  and  price,  he  seemed  surprised, 
and  thought  be  should  like  to  travel  through  those  parts  where 
such  cultivation  anij.  its  fruits  ai^e  to  be  found. 

We  retired  earl}^,  but  were  disturbed  by  their  music  and 
dancing ;  rose  before  any  of  the  family  were  moving,  having 
paid  our  fare  over  night,  and  rode  eight  miles  to  breakfast,  at 
Enfield.  Here  we  obtained  directions  respecting  the  road  to 
Pollock's  Ferry,  on  the  Roanoke,  and  set  out. 


JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  413 

On  the  Roanoke,  where  we  crossed,  are  fine  farms,  owned  by 
a  person  of  the  name  of  Devei-eux,  a  large  slaveholder.  The 
soil  is  rich,  and  his  crops  are  said  to  be  very  great  and  profitable; 
but  the  fact  that  they  are  produced  and  gathered  by  the  toil  and 
sweat  of  men  and  women,  who  have  no  more  interest  in  them, 
than  the  cattle  by  which  the  land  is  worked,  detracts  altogether 
from  the  satisfaction  we  should  otherwise  have  in  viewing  such 
flourishing  farms.  Getting  directions  respecting  the  road,  we 
found  our  way  to  T.  and  R.  P.'s,  through  miles  of  timbered 
land.  They  received  us  with  much  cordiality;  which  was  truly 
pleasant,  as  we  had  looked  towards  this  place  with  apprehen- 
sions of  difficulty  in  timely  reaching  it,  and  fearing,  if  we  did 
accomplish  the  journe}^,  we  might  not  find  any  conveyance  to 
Piney  A7oods,  where  the  Quarterly  Meeting  is  held  at  this  time  ; 
about  seventy  miles  ride.  But  on  enquiry,  we  found  provision 
had  been  made  for  us  in  that  respect  also ;  which  was  cause  of 
thankfulness  to  our  Heavenly  Father,  as  well  as  gratitude  to 
our  friends  ;  strengthening  us  in  the  belief  that  we  were  under 
his  guidance  and  protection.  We  spent  the  evening  in  interest- 
ing conversation  with  our  friends. 

24th.  It  was  a  favorable  circumstance  that  we  had  dry 
weather,  on  our  journey  from  Raleigh  here,  as  our  carriage  was 
small  and  exposing.  Last  night  it  rained,  and  this  morning  had 
a  very  unfavorable  appearance ;  but  being  provided  for,  we  went  • 
to  Rich  Square,  the  meeting  to  which  Richard  Jordan  belonged, 
when  he  resided  in  North  Carolina.  The  company  was  small, 
some  having  gone  to  Piney  Woods.  I  felt  low  and  weak,  and 
fearful  of  making  any  mistake ;  but  being  impressed  with  the 
great  importance  of  purity  of  heart,  that  man  may  be  prepared 
to  hold  communion  with  his  Heavenly  Father,  and  beholding 
with  an  eye  of  faith,  the  secret  travail  of  spirit  which  the 
visited  obedient  soul  is  brought  under  to  attain  to  this  purity, 
I  believed  it  right  to  rise  with  these  impressions,  and  to  deliver 
in  a  simple  way,  what  might  be  given  me.  As  I  went  on,  in 
singleness  of  heart  to  the  Lord,  the  gospel  stream  rose  a  little, 
to  the  tendering  of  some,  and  I  hope  to  the  instruction  of 
others. 

After  meeting,  taking  leave  of  our  friends  with  feelings  of 
sincere  affection,  we  went  with  J.  C.  to  his  house,  and  lodged.  The 
afternoon  being  rainy,  we  deferred  setting  off  for  Piney  Woods 
until  morning.    In  the  evening,  two  or  three  young  Friends  being 


414  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

also  there,  we  collected  around  the  fire,  and  fell  into  silence  ;  and 
unexpectedly  to  myself,  I  felt  drawn  towards  the  heads  of  the 
family,  with  affectionate  solicitude  that  they  might  keep  the 
world  and  its  necessary  concerns,  in" their  proper  places;  so  that 
all  their  duties  to  their  Heavenly  Father,  and  to  each  other, 
might  be  rightly  performed  ;  that  the  cumbers  and  cares  of 
this  life  might  not  interfere  with  that  devotion  of  spirit,  which 
is  essential  to  a  growth  in  the  Truth,  and  the  performance  of 
the  services  which  the  Head  of  the  church  calls  for;  which  I 
was  engaged  to  communicate  to  them. 

25th.  We  set  off"  pretty  early,  crossed  the  Chowan  Eiver  in 
a  flat,  and  on  its  bank  refreshed  ourselves  with  some  food  brought 
in  the  carriage.  Then  proceeded  on  our  way,  riding  often 
through  w\ater,  sometimes  a  fourth  of  a  mile  at  a  time,  which 
flowed  over  the  road  from  surrounding  swamps,  making  travel- 
ling often  laborious  for  the  horses.  We  called  at  two  private 
houses,  before  we  obtained  accommodations  for  the  night,  there 
being  no  taverns  on  the  road,  and  were  grateful  to  find  one  wil- 
ling to  take  us  in  ;  night  coming  on  and  we  pi-etty  well  fatigued. 
We  paid  the  landlord  freely,  though  he  seemed  unwilling  to 
take  the  full  price.  In  the  Southern  States,  the  people  are 
noted  for  their  hospitality,  without  making  charge  for  food  and 
lodgings ;  and,  therefore,  willingly  receive  the  same  kindness 
.  gratuitously,  which  they  have  bestowed  on  others.  But  being 
strangers,  I  did  not  feel  satisfied  to  receive  entertainment  with- 
out pay,  from  those  on  whom  we  had  no  claim,  and  to  whom  we 
could  make  no  similar  return,  and  therefore  insisted  on  the 
landlord  receiving  more  than  he  proposed;  which  was  not  ade- 
quate to  the  comforts  of  which  w^e  partook. 

2Cth.  One  of  the  swamps  being  much  filled  with  water,  and 
the  road  being  under  repair,  by  the  erection  of  a  bridge,  we  had 
to  drive  five  miles  further,  to  get  to  David  White's ;  whose  resi- 
dence we  reached  by  half-past  ten  o'clock.  We  went  to  the 
Select  Quarterly  Meeting;  in  which  the  stream  of  Divine  life 
seemed  low,  and  little  was  felt  for  communication.  Eeturned 
to  David  White's,  and  remained  there  till  the  following  morning. 
27th.  The  Quarterly  Meeting  was  attended,  during  the  first 
sitting,  by  many  persons  not  of  our  profession.  The  necessit}^ 
of  hein<>-  born  again;  of  being  converted  and  becoming  as  little 
children,  as  inculcated  by  our  blessed  Lord,  was  brought  before 
me  •  and  He  who  opens  and  hands  out  of  his  treasury  to  his 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  415 

disciples,  things  new  and  old,  was  pleased,  in  his  goodness  and 
condescension,  to  enable  me  to  preach  his  gospel,  in  the  de- 
monstration of  the  Spirit  and  power.  I  hoped  his  great  name 
was  exalted. 

28th.  I  was  at  the  tirst-day  meeting,  which  was  a  large  col- 
lection of  people  of  various  characters  and  j)rofessions.  I  en- 
deavored to  do  what  appeared  to  be  my  duty,  but  felt  little 
comfort,  though  I  believe  some  Divine  aid  was  extended,  and 
some  hearts  contrited.  I  strove  to  leave  it  all  to  the  Lord,  and 
bear  my  own  burthen.  Such  dispensations  of  the  sense  of  un- 
profitableness, are  in  wisdom ;  and  when  properly  borne,  tend 
to  humble,  and  lead  us  to  acknowledge  that  we  are  unprofitable 
servants;  and  that  if  at  any  time  we  have  done  any  good,  it 
has  been  the  Lord's  work,  to  whom  all  praise  and  dominion 
belong. 

We  rode  twelve  miles  in  the  afternoon,  to  William  Wilson's, 
where  we  lodged.  Eose  early,  and  after  taking  some  breakfast, 
W.  Wilson  kindly  conveyed  tis  in  his  carriage  to  Elizabeth  City, 
to  meet  the  stage  for  Norfolk.  We  barely  secured  our  passage, 
so  many  were  going. 

We  rode  about  forty-five  miles  to  Portsmouth,  which  we 
reached  some  little  time  before  the  Baltimore  steamer  crossed 
from  Norfolk,  on  board  of  which  we  took  our  passage.  It  was 
rendered  unpleasant  by  the  improper  conduct  and  language  of 
an  intoxicated  young  man  ;  but  I  felt  thankful  we  were  j^ermit- 
ted  to  land  safely,  in  the  morning;  the  passage  up  the  Chesa- 
peake Bay  being  long,  and  the  wind  pretty  strong  ahead,  and 
the  water  sufficiently  rough  to  cause  sickness  in  some.  Break- 
fasted at  the  hotel,  took  seats  in  the  Philadelphia  car,  and  ai*- 
rived  at  our  beloved  homes  in  the  afternoon  ;  thankful  to  be 
again  united'to  our  dear  companions  and  children. 

It  is  cause  of  gratitude  to  the  God  and  Father  of  all  our  sure 
mercies,  to  be  preserved  from  danger  and  serious  accident ;  and 
to  believe  that  lie  provided  for  us,  and  was  our  guide,  so  as  to 
perform  the  v/ork  He  assigned  us  to  do.  May  I  be  favored 
with  his  continual  providence  in  my  outward  and  spiritual  con- 
cerns;  so  as  to  be  kept  obedient  to  his  will,  and  sanctified  and 
fit  for  his  use,  through  the  cleansing,  quickening  efficacy  of  his 
Divine  Word  in  the  heart,  unworthy  as  I  am  of  the  least  of  all 
his  mercies  ;  to  whom,  with  his  dear  Son,  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ, 


418  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

monies  of  our  religious  Society.  Attended  the  Select  Quarterly 
Meeting,  in  which  we  hud  some  service. 

17th.  We  were  at  the  meeting  for  business.  In  the  first 
sitting,  my  wife  and  myself  were  called  forth  in  the  ministry  of 
the  gospel.  I  have  seldom  felt  moi-e  divinely  helped  than  on 
this  occasion.  There  was  a  Baptist  preacher,  and  a  Methodist 
preacher  at  the  meeting.  The  universality  of  Divine  grace,  and 
the  indispensable  need  of  regeneration,  in  order  to  be  made  full 
partakers  of  the  mercy  and  forgiveness  of  God,  through  Jesus 
Christ  our  Lord,  so  as  to  be  thereby  saved  with  an  everlasting 
salvation,  were  preached.  Friends  expressed  in  the  second  meet- 
ing, their  satisfaction  with  our  company  and  services ;  and,  I  be- 
lieve, some  were  brought  into  feelings  of  renewed  tenderness. 
It  was  an  evidence  of  the  Lord's  merciful  regard  to  us,  poor, 
unworthy  creatures,  in  thus  granting  a  little  fresh  ability  to 
labor  in  his  heritage.  - 

22d.  This  evening  a  person  called  at  my  store  for  a  portion 
of  medicine,  which  I  put  up  for  her,  charging  her  a  small  price 
for  it ;  she  expressed  some  acknowledgment ;  and  then  asked  if  I 
remembered  a  little  girl  getting  a  prescription  put  up  some  time 
before,  which  I  gave  her  without  charge.  I  told  her  I  did. 
She  then  added,  the  money  the  child  brought  to  pay  with  was 
the  last  half  dollar  that  her  mother  possessed ;  and  when  she 
found  that  you  had  not  charged  for  the  medicine,  she  prayed  for 
you  all  night,  that  the  Lord  would  bless  you.  From  my  first 
entering  into  business,  I  have  made  it  a  practice  to  furnish  poor 
jDcople  with  medicine,  when  satisfied  they  needed  it ;  and  though 
this  was  of  little  moment,  as  regards  the  value  bestowed,  and  in 
itself  nothing  new,  yet  it  was  pleasant  to  think  that  I  had  the 
prayers  of  a  poor,  distressed  fellow  creature.  "  Blessed  is  the 
man  that  considereth  the  poor;  the  Lord  shall  deliver  him  in 
time  of  trouble."  It  is  but  little  we  can  do  ;  but  it  becomes  the 
followers  of  a  sufl:ering,  yet  victorious  Saviour,  to  live  under 
the  influence  of  his  Spirit,  who  did  so  much  for  us  ;  and  then  He 
will  teach  us  and  lead  us  to  feel  for  the  suffering,  depressed 
condition  of  our  fellow  creatures,  and  to  minister  to  their  neces- 
sities, as  it  is  proper  for  us. 

Last  first-day  and  yesterday,  the  latter  being  our  Monthly 
Meeting,  I  was  much  shut  up  ;  feeling  deeply  exercised,  at  times, 
on  account  of  the  jtrcsent  state  of  our  religious  Society.  Many 
are  unwilling  to  keep  under  sulfering,  and  with  their  loins  gird- 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  419 

ed,  to  watch  for  the  coming  of  the  Master  of  the  house;  whoso 
house  are  we  if  we  hold  fast  the  beginning  of  onr  confidence 
firm  unto  the  end  ;  waiting  to  see  what  He  will  order  to  be  done, 
and  then  to  act  under  his  direction.  There  is  gi^eat  danger  in 
putting  forth  a  hand  unbidden,  to  attempt  to  steady  or  to  sup- 
port the  ark ;  both  from  doing  an  injury  to  the  cause,  and  bring- 
ing death  upon  ourselves  ;  with  the  query,  "Who  halh  required 
this  at  thy  hand?" 

24th.  To  a  letter  which  I  wrote  to  a  Friend  about  this  time, 
I  appended  the  following :  "  In  the  present  unsettled  state  of 
our  religious  Society,  I  am  persuaded  that  the  place  of  safety  is 
individual  watchfulness  unto  prayer;  that  we  may  do  nothing 
to  create  excitement,  by  which  any  may  be  stirred  up  to  do 
what  will  not  make  for  peace,  and  receive  the  Divine  approba- 
tion. John  Woolmau,  I  think,  says,  if  the  church  gathers  to  the 
place  of  true  prayer,  her  habitation  is  safe.  In  that  condition 
alone,  can  she  be  prepared  to  wait  for  and  to  receive  the  direc- 
tion of  her  all-wise  and  omnipotent  Head.  And  if  we  stand  still, 
waiting  for  the  salvation  of  God,  we  shall  have  good  ground  to 
hope  that  He  will  take  his  cause  into  his  own  hand,  and  carry 
the  church  through  all  its  difficulties,  to  its  further  refinement, 
and  the  praise  and  glory  of  his  great  name.  It  is  a  great  mis- 
take to  grow  impatient  under  sufl^cring;  and  in  order  to  procure 
relief,  as  we  imagine,  rush  into  any  measure,  incompatible  with 
the  order  of  the  discipline.  If  others  do  wrong,  bear  a  righte- 
ous testimony  against  it ;  and  if  it  seem  to  avail  nothing,  then 
leave  it  and  them  to  the  Lord,  to  do  wdiat  seemeth  to  Him 
good." 

27th.  Our  evening  meetings  closed  for  the  season.  They 
have  been  mostly  solid  opportunities,  in  which  we  have  had 
cause  to  believe  that  the  Master  of  all  rightly  gathered  assem- 
blies has  been  present  with  us.  The  gospel  has  been  at  times 
preached,  tendering  and  solemnizing  the  hearts  of  many.  The 
young  people  have  been  especially  desirous  to  have  these  meet- 
ings held,  and  their  deportment  has  been  becoming  the  occa- 
sion. May  the  blessing  of  the  Shepherd  of  the  sheep  rest  upon 
them ;  bring  them  forward  in  their  various  allotments,  to  his 
praise,  the  comfort  of  the  church,  and  their  everlasting  salva- 
tion, is  my  sincere  desire  for  them. 

Third  month  1st.  At  our  mid-week  meeting,  we  had  several 
ministers  from  other  parts,  who  all  kept  silence.     My  mind  was 


420  JOURNAL    OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

favored  with  some  lively  feelings  and  openings  on  the  precious- 
ness  of  keeping  the  faith  and  patience  of  the  saints,  even  when 
surrounded  by  darkness,  and  there  seems  little  to  lead  the  truly 
baptized  disciple  to  believe,  that  Truth  will  gain  the  victory.  I 
kept  from  speaking,  not  knowing  but  it  might  go  off,  and  some 
others  might  be  put  forth;  but  when  it  was  near  time  to  close 
the  meeting,  I  was  afraid  to  suppress  what  appeared  to  be  the 
putting  forth  of  the  Shepherd  of  the  sheep,  and  accordingly  de- 
livered upon  the  subject,  what  the  Master  gave  me,  as  I  believed, 
to  communicate ;  showing  that  it  was  Christ  alone  who  can 
clothe  the  soul  with  this  faith  and  patience,  and  through  which 
He  will  make  every  faithful  one  victorious.  The  same  faith  by 
which  the  holy  ancients  quenched  the  violence  of  fire,  stopped 
the  mouths  of  lions,  and  out  of  weakness  were  made  strong. 
Through  this  faith,  we  shall  be  kept  relying  upon  Christ  in  our 
lowest  state  of  weakness,  and  in  his  time  witness  Him  to  be  to 
us  the  resurrection  and  the  life.  So  that  from  season  to  season, 
we  shall  be  enabled  to  adopt  the  language  of  the  apostle, 
"  Thanks  be  to  God  who  giveth  us  the  victory  through  our  Lord 
Jesus  Christ."  There  was  a  covering  of  solemn  silence  spread 
over  the  meeting ;  in  which  the  tribulated  seed  rejoiced  a  little 
together,  in  spirit,  and  I  believe  took  a  little  fresh  courage  to 
hold  on  the  way. 

11th.  This  afternoon  I  went  with  my  wife  to  Springfield; 
and  next  morning  attended  their  meeting,  being  first-day,  where 
we  had  the  company  of  a  large  number  of  young  men  and  young 
women,  most  of  whom  are  sober,  exemplary  Friends. 

^Ye  attended  their  meeting  on  fifth-day  ;  in  which  it  ap- 
peared right  for  me  to  labor  in  the  love  of  the  gospel,  to  stir 
up  the  easy,  lukewarm  ones,  to  a  lively  zeal  on  account  of  the 
work  of  their  own  salvation,  the  present  and  eternal  interests 
of  their  children,  where  they  were  entrusted  with  them,  and  as 
they  were  prepared  for  it,  to  come  under  the  weight  of  the  ark 
of  the  testimonies. 

Fifth  month  24th.  I  thought  there  was  a  religious  weight 
over  our  Monthly  Meeting  this  morning,  under  which,  desires 
wei-e  raised  that  we  might  be  seasoned  with  salt ;  experiencing 
every  root  of  bitterness  eradicated,  and  put  shoulder  to  shoulder 
in  the  Lord's  work  ;  so  that  we  might  become  a  body  more  com- 
pacted together,  and  be  made  to  realize  the  blessings,  designed 
by  being  associated  as  a  religious  society. 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  421 

28th.  First-daj.  This  has  been  a  season  of  poverty,  and 
destitution  of  any  lively,  quickening  sense  of  the  Master's 
presence.  Doubts  and  fears  have  spread  over  me,  whether  the 
same  degrees  of  Divine  energy  and  power,  will  be  again  vouch- 
safed to  us ;  whether  so  many  favors,  slighted  and  neglected  by 
many,  will  not  occasion  the  Lord  to  withhold  his  visitations 
very  much  from  us. 

Sixth  month  1st.  My  wife  and  myself  went,  this  morning, 
to  Plymouth  Monthly  Meeting.  It  seemed  to  be  our  place  to 
encourage  the  devoted  ones,  and  the  visited  young  people,  to 
hold  on,  in  the  good  old  way,  in  which  our  fathers  in  the  Truth 
Avalked.  The  enemy  is  busy  at  work  to  draw  us  away  from 
close  watchfLilness  over  our  hearts,  and  to  persuade  us  that  there 
is  little  or  nothing  in  our  testimony  to  simplicity  and  self-denial, 
and  that  continual  exercise  of  spirit,  in  which  the  outgoings  of 
the  mind  after  ease,  is  detected.  And  when  he  has  persuaded 
us  that  the  gentle  convictions  of  Divine  Grace  are  imaginary, 
or  that  it  is  not  necessary  to  be  so  strict  as  our  fathers  were ; 
then  the  way  will  be  opened  to  inculcate  doctrines  that  our  So- 
ciety never  believed  ;  as,  that  immediate  revelation  has  ceased; 
and  thus  the  indispensable  duty  of  waiting  upon  the  Lord,  that 
we  may  hear  and  know  his  voice,  and  be  instructed  immediatel}'-, 
as  the  sheep  of  Christ,  and  led  along  safely  by  Him,  would  be 
foi"saken.  It  is  those  who  are  giving  heed  to  the  manifestations 
of  his  Spirit  in  their  hearts,  that  will  be  prepared  to  make  a 
right  use  of  the  Holy  Scriptures.  These  are  not  afraid  to  be- 
lieve and  to  receive  the  testimony  of  the  Holy  Scriptures ;  for  they 
are  redeemed  from  the  penalties  which  they  denounce  against 
sin ;  and  they  will  be  made  partakers  of  the  precious  promises 
contained  in  them.  "There  is  now  no  condemnation  to  them 
that  are  in  Christ  Jesus,  who  walk  not  after  the  flesh,  but  after 
the  spirit ;  for  the  law  of  the  spirit  of  life  in  Christ  Jesus  hath 
made  them  free  from  the  law  of  sin  and  death." 

We  dined  at  the  residence  of  our  late  friend  Hannah  Williams. 
The  calmness  and  sweetness  of  spirit  we  felt  there,  was  like  the 
state  of  her  mind  in  life,  and  which,  we  were  informed,  was  re- 
markably shown  at  the  hour  of  death  ;  having  nothing  to  do  but 
to  wait  the  coming  of  her  Lord  to  take  her  to  Himself;  whom  she 
had  sei-ved  faithfully,  with  her  loins  girded  and  light  burning;  be- 
ing an  example  to  the  believers  in  watchfulness  of  spirit,  and 
purity,  and  circumspection  in  word  and  deportment.  She  was  a 
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422  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

woman  of  excellent  judgment ;  being  taught  in  the  school  of  expe- 
rience under  the  discipline  and  instruction  of  her  Divine  Master. 
As  she  was  devoted  to  Him,  and  his  blessed  cause,  He  endued  her 
with  a  measure  of  his  wisdom  and  strength,  by  which  she  was 
enabled  to  discern  between  thing  and  thing;  spirit  and  spirit; 
and  to  stand  firmly  on  Christ,  the  Rock,  upon  which  fivithful 
Friends  have  ever  stood. 

15th.  My  wife  feeling  her  mind  drawn  to  attend  Haddon- 
field  Quartei'ly  Meeting,  held  this  time  at  Evesham,  we  were 
taken  there  by  a  friend.  A  pretty  large  company  assembled. 
Ann  Bishop  spoke  early.  My  mind  w^as  arrested  with  the  im- 
portance of  keeping  under  suffering  for  the. sake  of  the  blessed 
Master  and  his  cause,  and  for  our  own  benefit  and  preservation. 
The  expression  of  the  apostle  was  brought  before  me,  "  For 
unto  you  it  is  given,  in  the  behalf  of  Chirst,  not  only  to  believe 
in  Him,  but  also  to  suffer  for  his  sake." .  It  seemed  to  me,  that 
inward  suffering,  in  a  state  of  close  Avatch fulness,  was  greatly 
needed;  and  that  much  loss  would  be  sustained,  if  we  were  to 
become  a  self-active,  talking  people;  and  not  experience  those 
humblinir,  preparing  baptisms  into  our  own  conditions,  needed 
to  fit  us  for  usefulness,  and  to  bring  us  in  sympathy  with  Chi'ist ; 
who  as  the  Seed,  is  pressed  down  in  the  hearts  of  the  people,  by 
their  worldly  thoughts,  and  desires  after  things  of  a  perishing 
nature. 

21st.  Having  concluded  to  spend  a  few  weeks  with  our 
brother  and  sister  Rhoads,  we  shut  up  our  house,  and  rode  to 
their  pleasant  dwelling  this  afternoon,  about  twelve  miles  from 
Philadelphia. 

28th.  In  calling  upon  a  Friend  to-day,  I  was  much  distressed 
in  hearing  him  express  the  opinion,  that  in  the  present  divided 
feeling  in  our  Society,  a  separation  must  take  place;  because  I 
believe  the  Head  of  the  Church  does  not  design  it  should  be 
sjjlit  and  scattered.  It  appears  to  me  to  be  a  device  of  the 
enemy;  and  cannot  take  place,  unless  Friends  get  off  the  right 
ground.  If  we  are  willing  to  suffer  for  the  Truth,  and  to  wait 
the  Lord's  time,  we  shall  not  only  be  benefited  and  deepened 
by  the  trials  of  our  day,  but  He  will  make  a  way  for  the  Society 
to  rise  above  the  workings  of  the  ci'uel  enemy,  and  to  exalt  the 
precious  testimonies  He  has  called  us  to  bear  before  the  nations 
of  the  earth  ;  in  the  purity  and  dignity  of  the  gospel  of  Christ. 
•Oh  the  need  there  is  for  patient,  faithful  suffering!   being  wil- 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS.  423 

lm<r  to  ffo  down  to  the  bottom  of  Jordan,  and  abide  under  the 
weight  of  deep  concern  for  the  ark,  and  for  the  preservation  of 
the  people;  that  they  may  not  be  scattered  fi'om  under  the  wing 
of  the  Shepherd  and  Bishop  of  souls. 

Seventh  month  6th.  At  meeting  (Springfield)  to-day,  we 
were  favored  with  the  Master's  presence,  baptizing  a  number 
together  by  his  Spirit ;  in  which  a  qualification  was  received  to 
show  the  necessity  of  keeping  upon  the  w^atch,  with  our  loina 
girded  and  lights  burning,  waiting  for  the  coming  of  the  Master, 
so  as  to  open  to  Him  immediately.  Such  will  know  Him  to  gird 
himself,  cause  them  to  sit  down  to  meat,  and  serve  them.  It 
was  a  tendering,  uniting  season  with  some ;  for  which  we  were 
thankful.  Dined  and  took  tea  with  our  brother,  Joseph  Evans 
and  his  wife ;  where  we  felt  our  spirits  at  ease,  in  sweet  fellow- 
ship with  them  ;  they  being  of  those  who  are  living  in  and  under 
the  government  and  preserving  power  of  Christ. 

12th.  Attended  our  own  meeting,  which  is  much  reduced  by 
great  numbers  leaving  the  city  during  the  warm  season ;  it  was 
rather  a  barren  time.     Eeturned  to  Springfield  in  the  afternoon. 

22d.  Went  with  my  wife,  and  brother  J.  Ehoads  and  wife  to 
Birmingham. 

23d.  In  the  meeting  at  Birmingham,  I  felt  impelled  to  open 
the  feelings  which  had  come  over  me,  of  the  famished  condition 
that  some  were  in  ;  yet  acknowledging  that  in  times  of  famine, 
little  benefit  might  arise  from  finding  fault  with  one  another. 
Nevertheless,  it  was  at  times  needful  to  remind  some,  that  if  but 
a  small  proportion  of  the  labor  bestowed,  in  laying  up  the  meat 
that  perisheth,  w^as  exerted  to  procure  that  which  endiireth  unto 
everlasting  life,  which  the  Son  of  man  will  give,  for  Him  hath 
God  the  Father  sealed,  professing  christians  would  be  in  a  differ- 
ent condition  from  what  they  now  are.  Our  Saviour  declared, 
that  "Except  ye  eat  the  flesh  of  the  Son  of  man,  and  drink  his 
blood,  ye  have  no  life  in  you  ;"  and  if  there  is  no  life  in  us,  we 
must  be  dead  ;  in  which  state,  a  profession  of  religion  will  avail 
nothing.  It  is  those  who  are  grafted  into  Christ,  and  abide  in 
Him,  that  partake  of  the  Divine  life  and  virtue  which  is  in  Him  ; 
these  eat  of  his  flesh  and  drink  his  blood.  But  if  those  who  have 
once  been  partakers  of  the  good  w^ord  of  life,  and  of  the  powers 
of  the  world  to  come,  through  the  blessed  operations  of  Divine 
grace  in  their  hearts,  by  unwatchfulness  and  the  influence  of 
the  things  that  perish,  have  become  like  dead  branches,  they 


424  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

cannot  bring  forth  fruit,  to  the  praise  of  the  Great  Husbandman. 
It  is  our  duty  to  provide  for  these  tabernacles  of  clay,  as  well  as 
to  labor  for  the  bread  and  the  water  of  life ;  and  the  great  mat- 
ter is  to  keep  those  duties  performed  in  their  proper  place.  The 
heavens  are  to  be  kept  above  the  earth ;  and  this  true  religion 
will  enable  us  to  do.  Many  are  very  industrious  in  ploughing 
their  fields,  sowing,  harrowing,  or  in  gathering  in  the  crops 
with  which  a  bounteous  Creator  has  blessed  them ;  but  how  is  it 
with  the  field  or  the  vineyard  of  the  heart  ?  Is  the  fallow  ground 
there  broken  up,  and  the  plant  of  renown  flourishing  and  binng- 
ing  forth  fruit  ?  Does  that  lively  concern  which  they  felt  in  the 
beginning  of  their  christian  pilgrimage,  to  know^  the  Divine  will 
to  prevail  over  all  in  them,  day  by  day,  still  warm  and  invigor- 
ate their  souls  to  press  on  in  the  great  work  of  salvation?  It  is 
not  once  in  grace,  always  in  grace ;  for  some  are  spoken  of,  who 
had  made  shipwreck  of  faith,  and  of  a  good  conscience;  which 
they  must  once  have  had  ;  and  others,  who  turned  the  grace  of 
God  into  lasciviousness,  must  have  felt  its  power,  or  they  could 
not  be  said  thus  to  have  fallen  away  from  the  grace  received. 
There  were  other  things  opened,  under  a  feeling  of  my  own 
weakness,  and  frequent  sense  of  destitution  ;  and  with  much 
brotherly  tenderness  towards  those  who  may  have  suifered 
worldly  things  to  dim  their  vision.  My  dear  wife  was  enabled, 
under  the  spirit  of  supplication,  to  plead  with  the  Father  of 
mercies,  to  renew  the  extendings  of  his  love  and  mercy,  to  those 
who,  in  days  past,  knew  his  fire  to  descend  and  consume  the 
sacrifice  upon  the  altar  of  their  hearts,  but  which  has  become 
nearly  smothered ;  that  lie  would  be  pleased  to  fan  the  spark 
yet  left  into  a  flame ;  that  so  there  may  be  a  remnant  preserved, 
and  a  band  raised  up  in  this  place,  to  stand  for  the  cause  of 
Christ,  and  the  spreading  of  his  kingdom. 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  425 

CHAPTEE    XXL 

1848—1849. 

Religious  Exercises  at  Home,  and  in  different  Meetings  within  Philadelphia 
Yearly  Meeting. 

1848,  Seventh  month  Slst.  Went  to  Middletown  this  morn- 
ing, and  was  at  the  Monthly  Meeting  held  there.  My  dear  wife 
spoke  to  some  convicted  ones,  before  whom  the  Lord  had  set  an 
open  door,  and  invited  them  to  come  out  of  their  thraldom  to 
Bin,  and  enter  with  the  Bridegroom  into  his  rest,  from  their  evil 
ways  and  bondage ;  warning  them  as  they  could  not  open  that 
door,  if  they  rejected  the  invitation,  at  a  future  period  when  He 
had  risen  up  and  closed  it,  the  answer  to  their  knocks,  may  be, 
"I  never  knew  you.  Depart  from  me,  ye  that  work  iniquity." 
It  appeared  right  for  me  to  follow  her,  with  the  language  of  en- 
couragement, to  those  who  had  taken  up  the  cross,  and  entered 
through  the  strait  gate  into  the  narrow  way,  to  yield  themselves 
to  further  baptisms  and  requisitions  ;  that  they  ma}^  be  prepar- 
ed for  their  showing  to  Israel,  more  openly  in  the  Lord's  work. 
I  believed  there  were  those  whom  He  would  dignify  and  make 
vessels  of  honor  in  his  house,  if  they  were  not  marred  on  the 
wheel,  through  their  unfaithfulness.  My  wife  appeared  in  solenm 
supplication. 

Eighth  month  1st.  It  is  a  precious  thing  to  be  brought  en- 
tirely out  of  the  spirit  of  revenge  ;  returning  good  for  evil,  and 
seeking  the  present  and  everlasting  welfare  of  all.  "  Vengeance 
is  mine,  I  will  repay,  saith  the  Lord."  Endeavor  to  convince 
people  of  their  error  in  the  spirit  of  restoinng  love,  and  if  they 
are  not  converted  from  the  evil  of  their  way,  leave  them  to  the 
Lord. 

4th.  Eeturned  to  our  own  habitation,  and  on  the  5th,  attended 
our  Select  Quarterly  Meeting. 

7th.  To-day  was  held  the  Quarterly  Meeting  for  discipline. 
Two  women  Friends  were  acceptably  engaged;  one  in  the  min- 
istry, and  the  other  in  prayer. 

9th.  Feeling  my  mind  drawn  into  sympathy  with  the  small 
company  of  Friends  composing  Abington  Select  Quarterly  Meet- 


426  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

ing,  my  wife  and  myself  went  to  Germantown,  and  attended  it. 
Tenderneps  of  spirit  spread  over  us,  and  we  were  engaged  to 
encourage  them  to  keep  the  faith,  and  in  the  leadings  of  the 
love  of  God,  through  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  to  visit  each  other 
in  their  respective  meetings  ;  which  we  believed  would  have  a 
strengthening  effect  upon  visitors  and  the  visited ;  and  in  the 
ordering  of  Divine  wisdom,  may  be  a  means  of  bringing  for- 
ward in  the  right  way,  some  who  have  few  to  look  up  to,  like 
fathers  and  mothers  in  the  Truth. 

13th,  The  morning  meeting  was  silent ;  but  in  the  afternoon 
a  number  of  strangers,  of  both  sexes,  coming  in,  after  a  time,  I 
felt  engaged  to  revive  the  statement,  that  in  certain  places, 
Jesus  did  not  many  mighty  works,  because  of  their  unbelief  j 
and  to  declare  that  to  be  the  cause  why  there  is  so  little  vital 
religion  among  many  professors  of  Christianity  in  this  day. 
They  do  not  believe  in  the  manifestations  of  the  Lord  Jesus,  by 
his  Spirit  in  their  hearts.  They  profess  to  own  Him  as  their 
Lord  and  Saviour,  but  deny  Ilim,  in  refusing  to  do  his  will ; 
and  while  they  continue  in  sin,  they  cannot,  in  truth,  call  Him 
their  Saviour;  seeing  no  man  can  call  Him  Lord  but  by  the 
Holy  Spirit ;  and  those  who  are  turning  their  back  upon  the 
convictions  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  cannot  experience  it  to  give  them 
faith  in  the  Son  of  God.  Very  unlooked  for,  the  spring  of  the 
ministry  was  opened  for  the  benefit  of  some  present. 

17th.  I  went  to  Woodbury,  and  was  at  Salem  Quarterly 
Meeting  held  there.  Hinchman  Haines  was  present,  and 
preached.  After  him,  I  felt  drawn  to  open  the  importance  of 
the  young  and  inexperienced  keeping  near  to  Truth,  and  the 
friends  of  Truth ;  reviving  the  expressions  in  Solomon's  songs  : 
"Tell  me,  oh  Thou  whom  my  soul  loveth,  where  thoa  feedest; 
where  thou  makest  thy  flock  to  rest  at  noon ;  for  why  should  I 
be  as  one  that  turneth  aside  by  the  flocks  of  thy  companions  ? 
If  thou  knowest  not,  go  thy  way  forth  by  the  footste])s  of  the 
flock,  and  feed  thy  kids  beside  the  shepherd's  tents."  My  mind 
was  unusually  clothed  with  fervent  desire  for  young  and  old. 
That  the  latter  might  keep  under  right  exercise  of  sj)irit,  to 
draw  the  young  ones  to  Christ,  and  that  these  may  keep  near  to 
their  older  Friends ;  that  thus  they  may  be  mutually  beneficial  to 
each  other;  follow  Christ  in  bearing  his  yoke,  and  experience 
the  Lord's  quickening  power,  to  revive  his  work  amongst  us. 
It  appeared  to  me  there  were  those  present  who  had  greatly 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  427 

lost  the  dew  of  theii*  youth,  and  were  not  now  sensible  of  the 
hunibUng  power  of  Divine  love,  upon  their  hearts,  as  they  oneo 
were  ;  and  I  was  engaged  to  pray  for  those,  that  the  visitation 
might  be  renewed  to  them ;  and  that  He  who  saw  the  harvest 
was  great,  and  the  laborers  few,  would,  if  consistent  with  his 
will,  send  forth  laborers  into  his  harvest  field.  In  the  second 
meeting,  I  was  also  concerned  to  incite  Friends  to  increased 
diligence  in  attending  their  meetings  for  worship  and  discipline, 
and  to  be  faithful  to  the  gift  of  God  in  their  hearts  therein. 

Returned  home  in  the  afternoon,  wrapt  up  in  inward  silence 
and  meditation,  and  though  poor  and  unworthy,  felt  peaceful. 

22d.  Much  poverty  of  spirit  has  been  my  portion  for  da3^s 
past.  Sometimes  my  mind  has  been  under  serious  apprehen- 
sion, respecting  a  visit  to  most  of  the  meetings  of  our  Yearly 
Meeting;  and  just  before  our  Monthly  Meeting,  I  thought  it 
would  be  proper  to  open  it  to  that  meeting;  but  it  went  oflP,  and 
I  kept  it  to  .myself.  Like  the  corn  of  wheat,  it  must  die  out  of 
sight,  if  it  be  brought  forth  into  ripe  fruit.  Those  who  run 
without  being  sent,  cannot  possibly  profit  the  people.  The 
work  is  the  Lord's.  He  only  has  the  right  to  appoint  to  his  ser- 
vants, their  several  positions ;  and  He  only  can  enable  them  to 
work,  and  prosper  it  in  their  hands. 

29th.  Burlington  Quarterly  Meeting  coming  before  me,  it 
appeared  to  be  my  place  to  attend  it.  I  believe  the  Lord  en- 
abled me  to  declare  the  way  of  life  and  salvation,  as  it  is  set 
forth  in  the  Xew  Testament,  and  as  it  is  Vitnessed  by  all  who 
follow  Christ  in  the  regeneration.  May  we  be  preserved  in  a 
lowly,  humble  frame  of  mind  ;  taking  the  cup  of  suffering  cheer- 
fully, and  experiencing  the  Lord,  in  his  tender  mercy,  to  keep 
us  alive  in  Him  ;  and  to  make  use  of  us  to  arouse  ti-ansgressors, 
and  bring  them  to  Christ ;  that  we  may  turn  many  to  righte- 
ousness, and  in  the  end  be  favored  to  hear  the  welcome  language, 
"  Well  done,  good  and  faithful  servant ;  thou  hast  been  faithful 
in  a  few  things,  I  will  make  thee  ruler  over  many  things  :  enter 
thou  into  the  joy  of  thy  Lord."  I  came  home  in  a  peaceful, 
comfortable  state  of  mind. 

Ninth  month  15th.  Our  Meeting  for  Sufferings  was  preserv- 
ed in  much  harmony  in  the  transaction  of  its  business.  An  epis- 
tle to  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  in  London,  was  read  and 
adopted.  Close  watchfulness  against  the  insidious  workings  of 
a  suspicious  spirit,  which  would  alienate  Friends  from  each  other, 


428  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

and  thereby  destroy  our  strength,  is  very  needful.  Daily  ap- 
proaches to  the  throne  of  Grace,  with  desires  that  we  may  be 
kept  humble,  and  quick  of  discerning  our  own  liabil-ty  to  get 
wrong,  is  a  very  profitable  and  safe  condition. 

21st.  Feeling  a  gentle  intimation  to  attend  Frankford  Meet- 
ing, I  went  there  this  morning.  The  company  was  small,  and 
the  Lord  enabled  me  to  hold  forth  a  warning,  to  some  who  had 
known  the  work  of  religion,  that  they  be  not  entangled  with  the 
cares  and  love  of  the  world,  lest  they  lose  their  first  love,  and 
be  found  not  as  willing  to  forsake  all  and  follow  the  Lamb 
whithersoever  He  leads,  as  they  were  in  their  first  convincement. 
To  others  who  were  often  tried  with  poverty  of  spirit,  and  led 
to  mourn  over  it,  the  language  of  encouragement  flowed,  to  keep 
inward;  with  their  spiritual  eye  directed  to  Him  whom  the 
heaven  of  heavens  cannot  contain,  waiting  for  his  salvation. 
And  Avhen  Ho  sees  their  faith  has  been  sufficiently  proved,  He 
will  preach  deliverance  to  the  captive,  the  opening  of  the  prison 
to  them  that  are  bound.  He  wmII  give  beauty  for  ashes,  the  oil 
of  joy  for  mourning,  and  the  garment  of  praise  for  the  spirit  of 
heaviness.  Several  said  they  were  glad  of  the  visit;  and  I 
thought  it  was  a  season  of  Divine  regard  and  condescension. 

28th.  I  attended  the  Philadelphia  Monthly  Meeting.  In  that 
for  worship,  the  designs  of  the  Almighty,  respecting  individuals, 
and  the  secret  workings  of  his  power  to  prepare  them  to  an- 
swer these  designs,  came  before  me;  under  which  I  believed  it 
right  to  hold  forth  the  language  of  encouragement  to  such,  to 
give  up  faithfully  to  his  manifested  will,  and  they  would  be  led 
about,  and  instructed,  and  kept  as  the  apple  of  his  eye.  Souls 
are  as  precious  now,  as  in  the  days  of  our  forefathers ;  and  as 
Ho  visited  them  with  the  Day-Spring  from  on  high,  and  made 
many  as  pillars  in  his  church,  so,  if  jielded  to,  He  would  make 
manj'^  now  fit  for  his  service,  and  to  become  pillars  in  his  church 
ID  their  day. 

Of  latter  time  the  spring  of  the  ministry,  in  our  meeting,  as 
regai'ds  myself  at  least,  has  been  much  shut  up;  so  that  I  have 
mourned  over  myself,  and  had  fears  whether  a  worldly  spirit, 
or  a  stupefying  lethargy,  was  not  spreading  over  us.  It  seems, 
at  times,  almost  im])ossil)le  to  get  under  a  proper  travail  of 
spirit,  in  which  Divine  life  is  felt  to  arise  and  quicken  the  soul; 
qualifying  it  to  bow  in  reverence  before  the  Father  of  mercies, 
and  to  put  up  prayer  to  Him,  in  the  Spirit  that  helpcth  the  in- 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  429 

firmities  of  those  who  devotedly  wait  upon  Him.  May  we  be 
enabled  to  keep  hold  of  the  shield  of  faith,  and  to  press  onward 
through  the  difficulties  that  are  to  be  contended  with ;  looking 
for  the  renewed  manifestations  of  the  light  of  the  Lord,  and 
keeping  the  faith,  that  He  will  again  visit  his  people,  and  lift 
up  their  heads  above  the  afflictions  of  this  day  of  secret  and  sore 
conflict. 

Tenth  month  8th,  This  morning  I  had  an  intimation  to  go 
to  Newton  Meeting,  which  I  have  had  no  concern  to  visit  for  a 
long  time.  It  appeared  to  me  w^hile  sitting  with  them,  that  all 
the  inventions  of  man,  out  of  the  Truth,  w^ould  fiiil  to  produce 
Bolid  hapjiiness,  and  a  holy  serenity  to  the  soul.  Nothing  could 
give  this  state  of  mind  to  any,  but  obedience  to  the  will  of  God, 
made  known  by  the  clear  inshining  of  the  Light  of  Christ.  I 
felt  a  strong  and  affectionate  solicitude  for  all,  that  they  might 
entirely  yield  to  its  convictions,  and  be  thereby  brought  out  of 
darkness  and  cruel  bondage,  into  the  liberty  of  the  children  of 
God.  A  fresh  qualification  was  administered  to  set  before  them, 
many  of  the  truths  of  salvation,  and  to  labor  fervently  with 
them,  in  the  language  of  persuasion,  to  give  up  to  the  Lord's 
manifested  will.     I  came  home  peaceful,  poor  and  empty. 

14th.  What  a  sweet  feeling  spreads  over  the  mind,  when 
through  the  ever-watchful  Shepherd,  we  are  enabled  to  main- 
tain a  steadfast  guard  over  our  spirit  under  provocation,  and  to 
stifle  the  rising  disposition  to  anger  and  resentment;  to  sup- 
press even  an  unkind  remark ;  and  to  bear,  in  the  meek  spirit 
which  the  Lord  alone  can  give,  whatever  is  calculated  to  irri- 
tate, even  in  the  small  incidents  of  life.  "He  that  ruleth  his 
own  spii'it,  is  better  than  he  that  taketh  a  city."  It  is  only 
through  humble  watchfulness,  and  secret  breathing  for  preserva- 
tion, from  day  to  day,  that  we  gain  the  victory. 

16th.  I  received  a  letter  from  a  Friend  in  Great  Britain, 
giving  a  view  of  the  state  of  the  ministry  among  Friends 
there,  and  the  great  defection  from  the  life  and  power  of  reli- 
gion among  manj-.  It  is  mournful  to  reflect  upon  the  state  of 
things  in  this  country  and  in  England,  among  the  members  of 
our  religious  Society.  How  the  will  and  contrivance  of  man, 
are  at  work,  to  manage  its  concerns,  and  to  govern,  instead  of 
the  Head  of  the  church.  Those  who  cannot  act  without  the  re- 
newed putting  forth  of  the  Divine  hand,  are  borne  down  in  some 
places,  and  obliged  to  submit  to  silent,  secret  suffering,  because 


430  JOURNAL    OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

they  see  no  way  to  obtiiin  relief.  But  surely  as  they  keep  a 
single  eye  to  the  Lord,  in  the  faith  and  patience  of  the  saints, 
He  will  hear  their  cry,  sustain  them  under  deep  affliction,  for 
his  name'  and  cause'  sake,  and  in  his  time,  grant  deliverance ; 
when  the  horse  and  his  rider  will  be  thrown  into  the  sea.  And 
it  will  be  found,  sooner  or  later,  a  fearful  thing  to  have  been 
withstanding  the  Lord's  suftering  children,  turning  judgment 
backward,  and  exalting  that  which  lie  has  not  ordained  to  be 
set  up. 

22d.  In  some  of  our  meetings  for  worship,  of  latter  time, 
the  world  seemed  to  absorb  the  minds  of  very  many,  so  that  wo 
are  in  danger  of  being  left  by  the  Head  of  the  church ;  and 
without  his  life-giving  presence,  what  will  all  our  assemblings 
together  avail  us  ?  A  few  years  ago,  we  had  many  exercised, 
experienced  Friends,  who  were  thoroughly  acquainted  with  the 
nature  of  true,  spiritual  worship,  and  the  labor  that  is  indispen- 
sable in  our  meetings,  that  the  spirit  and  things  of  the  world 
may  be  kept  out,  and  the  bubb'lings  up  of  the  well  of  Divine 
life  may  be  known  in  every  heart.  Figuratively  speaking,  they 
dug  as  with  their  staves  in  their  hands,  while  the  secret  breath- 
ing of  their  souls  was,  "Spring  up,  oh  well,  sing  ye  unto  it." 
We,  who  were  then  much  their  juniors,  did  not  so  much  feel  the 
weight  of  the  exercise,  while  wo  were  favored  by  the  Lord,  and 
partook  of  the  help  and  travail  of  their  spirits.  I  have  felt 
engaged  to  invite  the  attention  of  the  people  to  the  nature  of 
the  worship  which  our  Lord  oj)cned  to  the  woman  of  Samaria, 
which  is  to  be  performed  in  spirit  and  in  truth;  and  which 
must  consequently  be  between  God,  who  is  a  Spirit,  and  the  soul 
of  man.  And  if  we  are  a  worshipping  assembly,  every  one 
must  be  engaged  for  himself  in  this  worship.  It  does  not  con- 
sist in  meeting  together,  and  sitting  in  silence,  though  these  are 
necessary  preparatives  to  public,  spiritual  worship ;  but  every  one 
must  wait  upon  the  Lord,  to  experience  Him  to  come  into  the 
heart,  and  give  ability  to  ask  aright  for  living  bread,  and  for  those 
things  we  need,  in  the  way  of  Divine  instruction  and  help ;  and 
thereby  be  prepared  to  return  thanksgiving  and  praise,  for  his 
condescension  and  goodness.  A  word  of  warning  was  also  given 
to  the  young  people,  to  keep  the  watch  wherever  they  go,  that 
they  may  not  lose  the  little  strength  they  have  gained  by  faith- 
fulness ;  for  Satan  is  constantly  seeking  to  destro}'  the  good 
work.     It  is  a  source  of  grief  to  the  laborers,  to  behold  plants 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  431 

dwindling,  and  not  bearing  fruit,  over  whom  they  had  watched ; 
and  whom  they  had  scci-etly  desired,  might  become  fellow-help- 
ers in  the  Lord. 

24tli.  Attended  the  Northern  District  Monthly  Meeting. 
Some  have  need  to  be  more  emptied  of  themselves,  and  of  their 
own  imaginary  wisdom,  and  understanding  in  spiritual  things; 
so  that  they  might  be  prepared  to  be  filled  with  the  Lord's 
riches  and  strength  out  of  the  true  treasury.  In  emptiness 
there  is  fulness,  and  in  nothingness  the  possession  of  all  things. 
*'  As  poor,"  said  an  eminent  apostle,  "yet  making  many  rich  ;  as 
having  nothing,  and  yet  possessing  all  things."  And  to  his  imme- 
diate disciples,  our  Lord  said,  "  Blessed  be  ye  poor;  for  yours  is 
the  kingdom  of  God."  May  we  all  be  more  and  more  willing 
to  abide  under  the  Lord's  hand,  in  these  stripping,  emptying 
dispensations,  which  He  knows  are  necessary  for  us ;  that  we 
may  be  made  and  preserved  vessels,  sanctified  and  meet  for  the 
Master's  nse. 

25th.  We  had  hope,  in  answering  the  Queries  in  our  Monthly 
Meeting,  that  unity  is  not  upou  the  decline  amongst  us,  and 
that  the  evil  practice  of  carrying  tales  from  house  to  house,  in 
a  detracting  way,  does  not  subsist  amongst  ns  to  any  great  de- 
gree :  yet  were  we  individually  kept  nnder  a  right  exercise  of 
mind,  there  Avould  be  more  true  fellowship  experienced.  It  was 
thought  to  be  an  interesting  meeting.  The  sentiments  of 
several  were  called  forth  I'cspecting  the  caution,  that  ought  to  be 
maintained,  on  entering  into  business,  not  to  put  at  hazard  the 
property  of  others.  The  Truth  led  our  fathers  to  labor  with 
their  own  hands,  in  some  instances,  to  procure  the  means  to 
purchase  even  the  tools  they  needed  in  their  business,  and  to 
move  on  slowly,  that  they  might  not  enter  into  contracts  which 
they  could  not  comply  with;  and  thereby  bring  reproach  on 
their  religious  profession.  If  people  are  honest  and  industrious, 
they  can  obtain,  without  improper  risks,  what  is  necessary  for 
their  comfortable  subsistence  ;  and  they  will  prove,  that  "  Godli- 
ness is  profitable  unto  all  things,  having  promise  of  the  life  that 
now  is,  and  of  that  which  is  to  come." 

29th.  A  silent  meeting  this  morning.  In  the  afternoon  some 
of  James  Naj^lor's  expressions,  near  the  close  of  his  life,  were 
revived  ;  respecting  the  spirit  that  outlives  all  wrath  and  con- 
tention  ;  that  takes  its  kingdom  by  entreaty,  and  keeps  it  by 
lowliness  of  mind.     This  is  the  spirit  of  the  Lamb,  who  takes 


432  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

away  the  sin  of  the  world,  and  gives  strength  to  keep  the  faith 
and  patience  of  the  saints.  He  that  ruleth  his  own  spirit,  is 
better  than  he  that  takcth  a  city ;  he  will  have  peace  in  him- 
self, and  spread  it  among  those  who  are  about  him. 

30th.  The  committees  appointed  by  the  several  Monthly 
Meetings  in  this  city,  on  the  subject  of  reopening  meetings,  to 
be  held  during  the  approaching  winter,  on  the  evening  of  first- 
days,  met  this  morning,  and  experienced  a  measure  of  the  ce- 
menting fellowship  of  the  Spirit  of  the  blessed  Head  of  the 
church  ;  bringing  us  under  a  travail  for  the  promotion  of  the 
cause  of  Truth.  Although  we  are  clothed  with  weakness,  a 
sincere  desire  was  felt,  that  the  little  sti'ength  we  have>  may  be 
used  in  the  Lord's  fear  and  under  his  direction,  that  we  may  ex- 
perience an  increase  thereof;  and  the  feet  of  inquirers  after  good, 
may  be  turned  into  the  way  to  Zion.  With  much  unanimity, 
we  agreed  to  propose  the  holding  of  such  meetings,  and  Fi-iends 
rejoiced  that  they  were  so  united;  considering  it  as  an  evi- 
dence that  Divine  regard  and  kindness  were  still  round  about 
us. 

Eleventh  month  14th.  Last  fifth-day,  the  9th,  my  wife  and 
myself,  went  to  Westfield,  New  Jersey,  and  attended  their 
usual  mid-week  meeting;  in  which,  after  a  season  of  silent 
waiting,  we  had  some  service.  On  sixth-day  morning,  we  rode 
over  to  Evesham  Monthly  Meeting ;  in  which  my  wife  labored 
to  draw  some  of  those  present,  off  from  the  inordinate  pursuit  of 
the  Avorld,  into  a  love  of  the  kingdom  of  God,  and  the  righteous- 
ness thereof  Attended  the  Monthly  Meeting  of  Upper  Evesham, 
on  7th  day.  In  this,  and  in  that  of  Evesham,  there  was  no 
business  to  claim  the  attention  of  Friends,  although  the  meet- 
ings are  both  pretty  large.  We  were  at  their  first-day  meet- 
ing. Tn  all  these,  the  Seed  seemed  under  oppression,  and 
there  is  not  that  growth  in  the  Truth,  which  ought  to  be 
evident,  where  so  many  temporal  and  spiritual  blessings  have 
been  bestowed.  Oh,  the  benumbing  effects  of  the  world,  and 
the  seemingly  necessary  engagements  in  lawful  business!  Un- 
less some  calamity  is  brought  over  us,  or  the  Lord  conde- 
scends to  awaken  powerfully  the  stupefied  and  worldly-inind- 
ed  members  of  our  Society,  it  looks  probable,  that  many  will 
be  sunk  into  total  unconcern  about  their  soul's  everlasting 
welfare,  until  the  last  trump  of  God  shall  awaken  them  to  ap- 
pear before  the  judgment  scat  of  Christ.     Woful  must  then  be 


JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM   EVANS.  433- 

the  state  of  such  pretenders  to  belief  in  the  doctrines  of  Chris- 
tianity ;  whose  lives  show  that  they  are  worshipping  and  ser- 
ving the  creatm-es,  instead  of  the  Creator ;  who  only  is  blessed 
and  worthy  of  all  adoration  and  praise  forevermore.  We  came 
to  Haddonfield  in  the  afternoon,  and  next-day  attended  their 
Monthly  Meeting. 

26th.  Our  first-day  meeting  has  been  a  season  of  inward  ex- 
ercise in  silence.  There  was  little  caught  with  all  our  toil ;  but 
we  i-emembered  Him,  who  directed  his  disciples  to  give  the  mul- 
titude food,  because  He  would  not  send  them  away  fasting,  lest 
they  should  fiiint  by  the  way;  and  we  trusted  that  He  was  not 
unmindful  of  our  needs. 

29th.  I  went  this  morning  to  the  Western  Meeting.  The 
work  of  the  ministry  does  not  feel  to  me  to  be  any  less  fearful 
to  engage  in,  than  it  did  in  the  beginning.  It  is  a  mercy,  when 
we  are  favored,  to  get  through  with  the  work  to  which  we  are 
called  in  any  meeting,  without  saying  what  we  should  not.  The 
only  safe  ground  to  stand  and  act  upon,  is  humble  dedication  to 
the  Lord  ;  not  seeking  to  be  put  forth  in  words,  but  waiting  in 
the  quiet  habitation,  until  the  time  comes  to  feel  the  quickening 
power,  and  the  authority  or  direction  to  stand  up.  The  crea- 
ture and  the  openings  made,  are  often  baptized  into  death.  But 
if  the  Lord  has  a  service  for  his  devoted  children,  He  will  pre- 
pare, make  the  way  cleai',  and  give  utterance,  often  to  their  ad- 
miration, and  sometimes,  humiliation. 

He  helped  me  this  day  to  bear  testimony  to  the  indispensable 
need  of  the  inward  work  of  religion,  which  is  begun  and  car- 
ried on  in  the  heart  by  the  Spirit  of  Christ;  and  that  this  is  a 
daily  work,  from  the  beginning  of  it  in  early  life,  to  the  close  of 
our  earthly  pilgrimage.  Buy  the  truth,  by  parting  with  all  it 
calls  for,  and  sell  it  not.  If  any  man  barter  it  away,  for  the 
friendships  of  the  world,  the  last  state  of  that  man  is  w^orse 
than  the  first.     A  solemnity  spread  over  the  meeting. 

Twelfth  month  9th.  Our  meeting  this  morning  was  large ;  in 
which  the  doctrine  of  immediate  Divine  revelation,  as  the  source 
of  a  knowledge  of  the  will  of  God  concerning  us  ;  of  the  strength 
to  do  it,  and  of  the  true  understanding  of  the  Holy  Scrii:>ture8, 
so  that  we  may  be  really  benefitted  by  them,  was  held  forth  ;  un- 
der the  fresh  openings  and  authority  of  Him  who  giveth  gifts 
to  men,  and  the  qualification  to  occupy  them  to  his  honor.  A 
Friend,  of  religious  feeling,  expressed  his  unity ;  there  being,  he 


434  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Baid,  some  things  to  which  the  doctrine  particularly  applied, 
of  which  I  did  not  know. 

25th.  Last  evening  our  first-day  meeting  was  not  as  large  as 
those  heretofore  held,  probably  owing  to  the  dampness  of  the 
weather.  Although  we  had  ministers  who  were  strangers,  it 
was  held  in  silence ;  under,  I  hope,  some  travail  of  spirit, 
that  the  Lord  would  teach  and  feed  his  people  Himself  When 
He  anoints  and  puts  forth  in  the  work  of  the  ministry,  no  man 
or  woman  has  the  right  to  hold  back,  or  to  hinder  the  work  ; 
but  if,  for  fear  of  the  people  being  scattered,  or  discouraged,  any 
undertake  to  prepare  and  offer  in  their  own  will  and  wisdom, 
the  lifeisburthened  in  the  true  worshippers,  and  the  disposition 
to  hear  words  is  fed  and  strengthened  in  those  who  have  itch- 
ing ears,  and  whose  dwelling  is  in  the  outer  court.  May  those 
upon  whom  the  cause  heavily  rests,  be  kept  in  the  Lord's  hand, 
watching  against  every  device  of  the  enemy;  who  is  constantly 
seeking  to  frustrate  the  good  intended  for  them,  and  to  divide 
and  destroy  the  flock.  How  fearful  is  our  situation  ;  and  how 
needful  is  constant  application  to  the  throne  of  Grace  and  Mercy, 
for  Divine  strength  and  preservation. 

1849,  First  month  11th.  It  has  seemed  to  me  that  our  pre- 
servation will  consist  in  being  individually  obedient  in  all  things, 
both  to  do  and  to  suffer,  according  to  the  will  of  God  concern- 
ing ourselves ;  and  as  He  manifests  it  to  us  by  his  Spirit  in  the 
heart.  To  look  to  and  rely  upon  the  ever-blessed  and  all-power- 
ful Head  of  the  church,  to  guide  and  keep  us  as  a  people,  and 
to  support  his  own  cause  Himself  He  alone  can  do  it;  and  we 
have  need  to  be  upon  our  guard  that  we  do  not  attempt  to  take 
the  work  into  our  hands ;  thinking  that  we  see  exactly  how 
the  Society  should  be  delivered  out  of  its  difficulties,  and  the 
cause  of  Christ  be  carried  over  all  opposition. 

I  believe  it  is  also  very  necessary  to  cherish  feelings  of  ten- 
derness and  much  forbearance,  for  those  who  do  not  see  eye  to 
eye  with  ourselves;  that  as  we  look  for  mercy  at  the  hand  of 
our  Heavenly  father,  we  may  be  careful  not  to  indulge  in  a 
spirit  of  enmity  towards  them ;  but  endeavor  to  bear  each  other's 
burdens,  that  we  may  fulfil  the  law  of  Christ ;  which  is  a  law 
of  compassion  and  love.  As  we  endeavor  daily  to  dwell  in  this 
spirit,  there  will  be  seasons  wherein  we  shall  be  enabled  to  draw 
very  near  to  the  throne  of  Grace,  and  pour  forth  supplications 
for  ourselves,  and  for  the  church,  that  He  will  spare  his  people, 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  435 

and  not  give  his  heritage  to  reproach,  that  unbelievers  in  his 
goodness  and  immediate  power,  may  not  rule  over  them. 

23d.  I  have  passed  through  a  state  of  great  strippedness  for 
several  weeks  past.  Such  dispensations  are  truly  humiliating; 
and  thoujrh  a  ffreat  trial  to  endure,  bring  those  who  dare  not 
look  for  relief  from  any  source  than  the  Lord  alone,  to  bow  very 
low,  and  endeavor  to  draw  near  to  Him,  with  their  hearts  pant- 
ing after  the  living  God,  as  the  hart  panteth  after  the  water- 
brook.  IIow  evident  to  them  is  it  at  such  seasons,  that  they 
are  nothing ;  that  there  is  no  good  but  what  comes  from  Christ; 
no  power  to  do  good  but  what  He  inspires  the  soul  with,  and 
that  it  is  not  at  our  will  to  command  the  seasons  when  they 
shall  be  dispensed.  This  must  be  waited  for  in  abasement  and 
abhorrence  of  self;  by  which  we  are  taught  that  Christ  alone 
can  carry  on  the  work  in  us  and  for  us,  and  qualify  us  when 
He  pleases,  to  hand  the  bread  that  He  gives,  to  others. 

On  first-day  morning,  the  21st,  at  our  own  meeting,  for  about 
one  hour,  it  seemed  almost  impossible  to  exclude  thoughts  on 
subjects,  which  had  nothing  to  do  with  Divine  worship.  When 
the}^  were  cast  out,  they  seemed  almost  at  once  to  return,  though 
there  was  a  struggle  to  overcome.  But  after  a  time,  when  the 
Master  drew  near,  deliverance  was  experienced,  and  a  little 
ability  was  granted,  to  testify  experimentall}',  that  there  is  no 
spiritual  life  by  which  the  soul  is  quickened  and  made  alive  unto 
God,  but  that  which  comes  from  Christ ;  who  is  the  way,  the 
truth  and  the  life. 

At  the  evening  meeting,  my  mind  was  introduced  into  much 
feeling  with  the  young  people,  on  account  of  the  many  and  va- 
rious temptations  to  which  they  are  exposed ;  and  the  sad 
consequences  of  quenching  the  Spirit  and  its  convictions  in 
their  hearts.  I  was  led  to  remind  them  that  there  was  no  stop- 
ping-point in  the  two  ways  ;  in  one  or  other  of  which  they  must 
be  walking ;  the  broad  road  that  leads  to  destruction,  or  the 
narrow  way  that  leads  to  everlasting  life.  If  we  keep  in  the 
latter,  it  will,  as  the  just  man's  path,  shine  more  and  more  unto 
the  perfect  day  ;  but  in  the  former,  we  shall  wander  further  and 
further  from  the  Heavenly  Father's  house,  and  grow  darker  and 
more  hardened  in  transgression  and  sin.  They  were  warned  of 
the  inevitable  danger,  in  this  way,  of  finally  slighting  and  de- 
spising religion  and  serious  persons,  and  of  falling  into  prac- 
tices which  they  had  never  intended  to  adopt.     They  could  not 


436  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

decide  beforehand  how  far  they  would  go;  but  might  become 
familiarized  w-ith  things,  which  at  one  time  they  would  have 
abhorred.  After  having  come  under  Satan's  influence,  they  have 
uo  power  to  release  themselves  from  his  grasp  :  nothing  but  the 
almighty  arm  of  the  Saviour  can  deliver  them  ;  and  should  they 
continue  to  deny  and  reject  Him,  they  would  have  uo  ground  to 
hope  for  his  help.  Parents  were  also  reminded  that  the  devia- 
tions of  the  children  were,  at  times,  in  part  to  be  attributed  to 
their  want  of  firmness  and  faithfulness.  That,  like  Eli,  they 
might  warn,  but  they  had  not  sufficiently  restrained  them.  The 
young  people  w^ere  tenderly  expostulated  with,  and  affectionately 
entreated,  that  when  favored  with  the  visitations  of  Divine  light, 
showing  them  where  they  are,  and  to  what  they  are  hasten- 
ing, to  make  a  stand,  turn  their  back  on  the  tempter,  and  follow 
Christ;  who  would  take  them  out  of  the  broad  road,  and  intro- 
duce them  through  the  strait  gate  into  the  narrow  way  ;  where 
they  would  enjoy  peace  and  substantial  happiness ;  grow  in  grace ; 
and  in  their  language  and  conduct,  invite  others  to  follow  them 
as  they  followed  Christ. 

We  had  good  reason  to  bless  his  holy  name,  for  regarding  our 
low  estate,  and  lifting  up  once  more  the  light  of  his  countenance 
upon  us.  I  hope  there  were  impressions  received,  which  will 
not  be  soon  effaced. 

24th.  The  wing  of  ancient  goodness  was  mei-cifull}^  spread 
over  us  to-day  in  our  Monthly  Meeting,  both  in  that  for  wor- 
ship and  for  discipline.  It  felt  to  me  that  the  Lord  in  mercy 
drew  near  to  his  suffering,  and  often  disconsolate  children,  and 
gave  renewed  evidence,  that,  as  they  were  faithful,  He  would 
not  forsake  them;  but  would  turn  their  captivity  as  the  streams 
of  the  south  ;  and  by  the  might  of  his  power,  raise  them  up  above 
their  enemies.  They  were  encouraged  to  keep  to  their  exer- 
cises, and  they  would  be  strengthened  and  bound  together; 
every  one  having  his  station  allotted  him  by  the  Captain  of 
salvation.  It  was  the  time  for  answering  all  the  Queries,  and 
the  meeting  was  preserved  under  a  very  solid  and  gathered 
feeling;  and,  I  trust,  some  experienced  it  to  be  good  for  them 
to  be  there.  Robert  Scotton  was  with  us,  and  had  a  Avord  of 
encouragement  for  us  in  the  first  meeting;  also  our  beloved 
friend  Margaret  Hutchinson,  who  feelingly  exhorted  us  to  be 
faithful  unto  death,  and  the  Lord  would  give  us  a  crown  of 
Ufe. 


JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS.  437 

29th.  To  two  young  Friends  who  called  at  our  house,  I  felt 
drawn,  in  tender  aifcL-tion,  to  hold  up  the  great  importance  of 
being  brought  into  and  walking  in  that  path,  which  the  vul- 
ture's eye  hath  not  seen,  nor  the  lion's  whelp  trodden  therein  ; 
neither  shall  any  ravenous  beast  go  up  thereon  ;  it  shall  be  call- 
ed a  way — a  way  of  holiness,  and  the  ransomed  and  redeemed 
shall  walk  therein ;  and  as  they  are  faithful  to  Him,  who  casts 
up  and  leads  into  this  way,  they  shall  come  to  Zion,  with  songs, 
and  everlasting  joy  shall  be  upon  their  heads.  They  were  in- 
vited to  be  obedient  to  Him  who  anoints  the  spiritual  ej-e  to  see 
this  path,  that  they  might  experience  Him  to  take  up  his  abode 
with  them,  and  to  join  Himself  to  them  in  a  perpetual  covenant 
that  would  never  be  broken  on  his  part,  while  they  kept  faith- 
ful to  their  Lord  and  Master.  May  they  be  brought  into  this 
covenant,  and  be  made  preachers  of  righteousness,  in  the  midst 
of  a  crooked  and  perverse  generation. 

Second  month  3d.  Our  Select  Quarterly  Meeting  was  a  time 
of  inward  affliction.  Oh!  that  self  may  be  made  of  no  reputa- 
tion ;  and  that  a  fervent  travail  of  soul  may  be  maintained  before 
the  Lord,  that  everything  that  would  wound  the  hidden  life, 
and  mar  the  unity  which  should  prevail,  may  be  kept  out  of 
our  hearts.  There  are  seasons  in  which  we  feel  peculiarly 
left  to  ourselves,  no  doubt  for  the  trial  of  our  faith,  and  to 
make  us  sensible  of  our  nothingness ;  and  if  we  rightly  endure 
these  dispensations,  they  will  prepai'e  us,  like  vessels  emptied 
and  cleansed,  to  be  again  tilled  with  riches  from  the  Loi'd's  store- 
house. 

5th.  Our  Quarterly  Meeting  for  business  was  rather  a  favor- 
ed time ;  I  think  there  was  an  exercise  in  the  second  meeting 
for  the  welfare  of  the  members,  and  that  the  authority  of  Christ 
was  measurably  maintained. 

11th.  This  has  been  a  day  of  deep,  inward  conflict,  without 
being  able  to  attain  much,  to  comfort  the  tossed  mind.  If  in 
our  religious  meetings  we  are  not  unitedly  engaged  to  labor  for 
the  meat  that  endureth  unto  everlasting  life,  the  spirit  of  anti- 
christ will  have  the  ascendency  in  many,  who  will  be  far  from 
performing  that  worship  which  is  in  spirit  and  in  ti'uth.  Indi- 
vidual travail  of  soul  is  indispensable  to  the  life  of  a  meeting, 
and  to  the  preservation  of  the  members  as  branches  of  the  true 
Yine.  Although  man,  by  his  own  efforts  merely,  cannot  keep 
himself  under  this  exercise,  yet  he  is  bound  to  seek  for  Divine 
29 


438  JOURNAL    OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

help,  to  enable  him  to  wait  upon  the  Lord  for  the  appearance 
of  his  life-giving  presence,  and  to  believe  that  it  is  indispeneablo 
to  his  life  and  growth  in  the  Truth.  When  we  are  permitted 
to  toil  all  night,  and  to  feel,  at  last,  as  if  we  had  taken  nothing, 
and  fears  assail  us,  whether  we  shall  not  be  altogether  left  by 
the  Master,  it  is  a  favor  to  remember  that  there  is  a  ])ortion  of 
suffering  to  be  tilled  up  for  the  body's  sake  ;  and  if  in  this  way, 
we  are  participating  in  it,  to  a  small  degree,  it  is  enough;  that 
in  this  travail  of  spirit,  we  may  be  made  ministers  of  life  to 
other  seeking  ones. 

28th.  The  great  contrast  between  the  legal  and  gospel  dis- 
pensations, was  a  little  opened.  One  says,  "  An  eye  for  an  eye, 
and  a  tooth  for  a  tooth."  The  other,  "Love  your  enemies; 
bless  them  that  curse  yoa  ;  do  good  to  them  that  hate  you,  and 
pray  for  them  that  despitefully  use  you  and  persecute  you."  If 
in  tim.e  of  peace,  we  are  seeking  to  lay  waste  our  friends,  how 
are  we  to  love  enemies  in  time  of  war?  The  whisperer,  who  is 
going  about  like  an  insidious  serpent,  will  separate  very  friends. 
"Whei-e  any  are  thus  seeking,  without  any  foundation,  to  whis- 
per something  against  a  friend,  to  destro}^  his  standing  and 
usefulness,  how  can  they  love  enemies,  and  bless  them  that 
curse  them,  or  do  good  to  them  that  hate  them  ?  Where  the 
ffospel  and  its  nature  are  brought  into  the  heart,  our  Lord 
will  enable  his  children  to  follow  his  example,  in  doing  good, 
and  when  any  are  seeking  to  injure  us,  to  sa}'-  in  sincerity, 
"  Father,  forgive  them  ;  they  know  not  what  they  do."  It  is 
only  as  this  spirit  is  lived  in,  that  we  can  experience  the  love 
of  Crod  to  flow  in  our  souls;  and  as  it  prevails  and  sweetens 
our  hearts,  the  true  love  for  the  brethren  and  the  precious  fel- 
lowship which  has  often  subsisted  in  our  religious  Society,  will 
be  restored  ;  the  bones  that  have  been  broken  will  rejoice. 

Third  month  28th.  B.  H.  and  J.  S.  of  Ohio,  were  at  our 
Monthly  Meeting  to-day.  Friends  were  comforted  by 'their 
company,  and  B.  H.'s  services.  We  have  had  silent  meetings  for 
several  weeks.  This  morning  the  spi'ing  of  the  ministiy  was 
a  little  opened  in  some  others  also,  and  warning  was  sounded 
in  the  ears  of  those  who  are  putting  their  trust  in  outward 
things,  and  turning  the  back  upon  the  clear  manifestations  of 
the  Holy  Spii'it  in  their  own  souls. 

Fourth  month  1st.  Pretty  soon  after  rising  tliis  morning,  I 
felt  a  pointing  to  go  to  the  Arch  Street  Meeting,  being  first-day; 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  439 

where  I  think  I  have  not  been,  on  that  day  of  the  ■week,  for 
several  years.  Before  I  left  my  chamber,  the  declaration  re- 
corded in  the  Psalms  was  brought  very  livingly  to  mj^  remem- 
brance :  "Ask  of  me  and  I  shall  give  thee  the  heathen  for  thine 
inheritance,  and  the  uttermost  parts  of  the  earth  for  thy  pos- 
session. Thou  shalt  break  them  with  a  rod  of  iron  ;  thou  shalt 
dash  them  in  pieces  like  a  potter's  vessel."  It  appeared  clear  to 
me,  that  the  Almighty  Father  would,  in  his  time,  give  to  his 
beloved  Son,  the  kingdoms  of  this  world,  and  Satan  would  be 
put  under  foot ;  and  a  cloud  of  discouragement  was  in  some  de- 
gree dispersed.  At  the  meeting,  I  was  led  to  speak  of  the  doc- 
trine and  duty  of  inward,  reverent,  silent  waiting  befure  the 
Lord,  as  of  essential  importance  to  the  growth  of  the  true  be- 
liever. That  no  man  can  be  a  true  follower  of  Christ  without 
it;  for  if  he  be  one  of  his  disciples,  he  will  feel  bound,  day  by 
day,  and  oftener,  to  wait  upon  the  Lord  for  the  renewal  of  his 
strength.  It  was  practised  by  the  holy  ancients;  who  sat  upon 
their  watch-tower,  and  waited  to  see  what  the  Lord  would  say 
unto  them,  and  what  they  should  answer  when  they  were  re- 
proved. In  this  humble,  reverent  frame,  He  often  condescends 
to  show  us  our  weakness,  or  something  wherein  we  are  not 
coming  up  to  the  pattern  of  perfection,  which  our  Lord  set  be- 
fore us.  Friends  were  invited  into  this  state ;  wherein  they 
would  be  raised  above  the  wrath  of  their  enemies,  and  be  en< 
abled  to  condemn  every  tongue  that  riseth  up  in  judgment  with 
them. 


CHAPTEE   XXII. 

1849. 

Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting — Causes  of  Discouragement— Visit  at  the  Sea- 
shore, and  Reflections  on  the  Dangers  attending  Visits  at  such  places — Visits 
to  difl'erent  Meetings — Death  of  Sarah  Emlen— State  of  our  Religious  So- 
ciety— Margaret  Hutchinson — Visit  to  Muncy. 

1849,  Fourth  month  14th.     Our  Yearly  Meeting  of  Ministers 
and  Elders  was  held  this  morning.     Several  strangers  attended, 


440  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

but  said  little.  After  the  answers  to  the  Queries  on  the  minis- 
try were  read,  it  came  weightily  and  very  unexpectedly  upon 
me,  that  the  ministr}-  of  the  gosj^el  of  Jesus  Christ  was  one  of 
the  most  important  services  we  could  be  engaged  in :  that  one 
of  his  ancient  apostles  speaking  of  his  ministry',  said,  "  I  neither 
received  it  of  man,  neither  was  I  taught  it,  but  by  the  revelation 
of  Jesus  Christ;"  and  that  this  remained  to  be  the  only  source 
and  authority  of  all  true  gospel  ministry,  down  to  this  day. 
However  unlooked  for  the  motion  was,  I  felt  constrained  to 
rise,  and  as  I  might  be  enabled,  to  speak  upon  this  weighty 
subject.  It  came  before  me,  also,  that  nothing  in  the  form  of 
a  religious  duty,  could  be  of  much  more  prejudice  to  the  church, 
than  a  ministry  of  mere  words,  without  the  putting  forth  of  the 
Head  of  the  church.  That  persons  who  had  once  received  the 
gift  from  Him  who  ascended  up  on  high ;  and  in  the  beginning, 
had  exercised  it  in  the  life  and  power  of  Christ,  might  gradual- 
ly fall  into  a  habit  of  uttering  words,  that  were  not  a  savor  of 
life  to  the  living;  and  some  who  never  had  been  entrusted  with 
a  gift,  might  undertake  to  officiate  in  this  way.  Such  a  minis- 
tiy  seems  as  if  it  would  strike  dow^n  to  the  ground  the  living 
members,  and  clothe  them  with  mourning ;  instead  of  comfort- 
ing and  strengthening  them.  Some  of  us  had  lived  long  enough, 
to  remember  man}"  living  and  deeply  baptized  ministers,  who 
knew  what  it  was  to  go  down  into  suffering  with  their  Lord, 
and  to  remain  there  his  appointed  time;  until  they  knew  Him, 
who  is  the  resurrection  and  the  life,  to  quicken  and  enable  them 
to  bring  up  stones  of  memorial.  These  were  a  comfort  to  the 
church,  and  the  living  gathered  as  round  about  them  in  spirit, 
supporting  their  hands  in  the  work  ;  and  thus  all  were  strength- 
ened together.  But  what  a  change  has  taken  place  amongst 
this  people.  The  importance  of  having  discerning  elders,  who 
can  distinguish  between  the  true  and  the  false;  and  under  the 
influence  and  authority  of  the  spirit  of  sound  judgment,  are  led 
to  give  the  living  child  to  the  right  mother,  was  also  spoken  to. 
"Where  such  go  to  a  brother,  in  the  meekness  of  wisdom,  and  the 
gentleness  of  Christ,  and  under  a  right  exercise  for  his  preser- 
vation, unburthen  their  minds,  when  they  feel  that  a  minister 
is  losing  in  life  and  power,  it  is  a  great  favor  to  such  ;  for  which, 
if  they  are  in  a  proper  spirit,  they  will  feel  thankful.  It  is  also 
important  that  true  elders  be  faithful  in  opening  to  those  who, 
having  received  no  gift  in  the  ministry,  mistake  their  services 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  44X 

in  the  church,  and  burthen  Friends  with  their  communications; 
not  only  that  such  may  be  prevented  from  bringing  the  minis- 
try into  disrepute,  but  that  they  may  be  turned  into  the  channel 
of  service  which  the  Lord  designs  them  for.  Our  friend  Samuel 
Bettle,  Sr.,  said,  that  the  care  of  elders  and  the  proper  hearing 
of  them  by  ministers,  was  a  practice  that  the  Society  had  always 
observed;  and  that  it  was  in  this  way  the  different  members 
of  the  church  edified  one  another.  Several  other  Friends  ex- 
pressed their  unity  with  what  was  delivered,  and  the  authority 
of  Truth  prevailed  in  good  measure  over  the  meeting. 

On  the  16th,  the  Yearly  Meeting  for  the  general  affiiirs  of  the 
church  began,  and  continued  until  the  close  of  the  20th.  The 
business  was  conducted  with  harmony,  excepting  the  discussion 
which  arose  on  a  report  prepared  by  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings, 
on  the  division  that  had  taken  place  in  New  England  Yearly 
Meeting,  which  was  objected  to  by  some  of  the  members.  But 
the  more  solid  and  experienced  part  of  the  meeting,  united  with 
it ;  and  it  was  finally  concluded  to  adopt  it,  and  to  furnish  each 
body,  in  that  Yearly  Meeting,  with  a  copy.  Many  Friends 
thought  that  the  meeting  was  much  favored  with  the  oversha- 
dowing of  the  good  presence  of  the  Head  of  the  church.  When 
a  proposition  from  New  York  Yearly  Meeting,  to  hold  a  con- 
ference of  '•'  representatives  of  the  Society,"  came  up  for  consid- 
eration, the  meeting  decided  with  great  quietness,  that  the  way 
did  not  open  to  join  in  with  the  measure. 

Nothing  authorizes  a  man  to  speak  to  the  weighty  matters 
of  the  church,  but  the  putting  forth  of  the  blessed  Head  of  the 
church.  There  must  be  a  proper  exercise  to  prepare  to  speak 
in  the  humble  spirit  and  authority  of  Truth.  If  this  ground  is 
not  kept,  our  religious  meetings  will  become  mere  debating  as- 
sociations;  and  learning,  wit  and  worldly  influence  will  finally 
govern  and  decide ;  and  thus  the  character  of  a  church  of  Christ 
will  be  lost.  We  shall  not  be  of  his  sheep,  who  know  his  voice, 
and  follow  Him,  and  who  refuse  to  follow  the  voice  of  a  stran- 
ger, because  they  know  not  the  voice  of  strangers. 

Fifth  month  6th.  ^lay  the  Lord  never  foi-sake  us  as  a  people, 
but  if  needful,  by  the  revelation  of  his  righteous  judgments, 
bring  us  down,  make  us  and  keep  us  his  humble,  devoted  fol- 
lowers ;  that  we  may  be  under  his  government,  and  made  use 
of  by  Him,  to  spread  his  blessed  and  glorious  kingdom  in  the 
earth. 


442  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

20th.  Our  meetings  for  worship  have  often  been  laborious ; 
in  silent  waiting  and  struggling  to  keep  the  mind  from  wander- 
ing. Yet  at  seasons,  a  little  hope  and  consolation,  as  from  the 
nether  springs,  have  been  secretly  furnished ;  and  sometimes 
through  the  ministry.  In  the  morning,  being  tirst-day,  I  was 
constrained  to  testify,  that  where  the  eye  was  kept  single  to 
Christ,  the  whole  body  would,  at  times,  be  full  of  light.  This 
could  only  be  known  as  we  are  obedient  to  whatever  He  re- 
quires. Light,  and  love  to  God,  are  increased  by  faithfully  fol- 
lowing Christ ;  until  it  becomes  easy  to  do  his  will ;  which  is 
then  our  meat  and  drink.  Satan  stands  at  our  right  hand,  to 
tempt  and  to  destroy ;  but  these  humble  followers  of  the  Lamb, 
are  immediately  warned  against  his  temptations  ;  and  if  their  eye 
is  single  to  Christ,  and  they  resist  the  devil,  he  flees  from  them; 
and  thus  they  obtain  the  victory. 

Sixth  month  10th.  This  has  been  a  day  of  discouragement; 
little  being  obtained  that  gave  direct  evidence  of  Divine  appro- 
bation and  regard ;  and  there  are  now  very  few  who  can  speak 
a  word  of  comfort  to  those  that  are  weary.  Such  dispensations 
administer  the  sentence  of  death,  not  to  trust  in  ourselves,  or  in 
others  ;  but  teach  us  to  look  to  and  wait  for  his  appearance,  who 
raiseth  the  dead.  I  read  several  letters  contained  in  a  collec- 
tion of  Sarah  Lynes  Grubb's,  lately  published  in  England. 
They  show  the  workings  of  a  spirit  that  is  drawing  Friends 
from  the  inward,  spiritual  experience  of  the  religion  of  the  Lord 
Jesus,  and  transferring  the  thoughts  to  that  which  He  did  for 
us,  without  us,  and  to  a  literal  study  and  knowledge  of  the 
Holy  Scriptures.  We  have  always  believed  in  the  truth  and 
Divine  authority  of  the  Scriptures,  and  that  no  doctrine  or 
practice,  which  is  incompatible  with  them,  is  to  be  received: 
that  it  is  through  the  sacrifice  of  Christ  on  Calvary,  pardon  and 
reconciliation  are  obtained,  and  the  gift  of  the  Holy  Spirit  pro- 
cured ;  yet  all  will  avail  comparatively  little,  unless  we  co-oper- 
ate with  his  Spirit  in  our  hearts;  experiencing  Him  to  prepare 
them  by  his  ba])tlsm  of  the  Holy  Ghost  and  fire,  to  be  taber- 
nacles, sanctified  for  Him  to  dwell  in.  Thus  only  can  we  know 
Him  to  be  in  us,  "  The  hope  of  glory,"  the  Author  and  finisher 
of  our  faith,  and  of  every  good  thought,  word  and  woi-k,  tluit  is 
brought  forth  in  us. 

15th.  AVe  had  a  large  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  in  which  the 
business  that  claimed  our  attention,  was  conducted  with  much 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  443 

satisfaction.  The  consideration  of  slavery,  and  the  African 
slave  trade,  afresh  impressed  the  minds  of  Friends,  with  a  sense 
of  the  cruelties,  and  great  violation  of  the  spirit  of  Christianity, 
and  of  the  unquestionable  rights  of  men,  attending  this  horrible 
and  most  iniquitous  system ;  and  the  committee  having  these 
subjects  in  charge,  were  encouraged  to  renew  the  consideration 
whether  there  is  any  step  that  could  be  now  advantageously 
taken,  to  support  and  spread  our  testimony  against  these  great 
evils. 

Seventh  month  4th.  The  Asiatic  cholera  has  been  in  our 
city  about  two  weeks.  Some  appear  to  feel  alarm,  and  fear  it 
may  spread ;  but  it  has  visited  so  many  places,  in  the  villages 
particularly  along  oi*  near  water  courses,  that  but  few  compara- 
tively are  leaving  the  city  on  account  of  it.  The  instances  of 
persons  dying  with  but  few  hours  illness,  and  of  course  with 
little  warning,  are  indeed  fearful,  and,  at  times,  bring  sensations 
of  aw^fulness  over  the  mind. 

I  have  found  it  my  place,  very  much,  of  latter  times,  to  keep 
silence  in  our  meetings  ;  but  this  morning,  the  impulse  was  felt 
to  invite  the  members  to  closer  watchfulness,  that  thej^  might 
escape  the  temptations  of  the  enemy;  and  not  only  on  that 
account,  but  also  because  the  pestilence  that  walketh  in  dark- 
ness, was  abroad  in  the  world,  and  none  knew  what  a  day  or 
an  hour  might  bring  forth.  If  all  were  engaged  to  prepare  a 
habitation  for  the  mighty  God  of  Jacob  to  dwell  in,  we  should 
be  prepared  to  meet  whatever  trials  might  be  permitted  to  over- 
take us. 

8th.  The  want  of  that  unity,  by  which  the  exercised  mem- 
bers are  made  a  strength,  and  an  encouragement  to  one  another, 
has  been  much  felt.  The  Societ}'  is  now  suffering  great  loss 
from  this  cause ;  and  until  the  unity  of  the  Spirit,  which  it  has 
known  in  time  past,  is  restored,  Aveakness  will  be  our  lot.  The 
various  members  of  the  body  are  designed  to  be  helpful  to  each 
other;  but  if  they  are  disjointed,  there  will  be  much  suffering, 
and  the  work  which  the  church  is  called  to  perform,  wuU  be  im- 
peded. What  inconceivable  injury  is  inflicted,  by  influential 
persons  getting  out  of  their  places,  and  undertaking  to  do  what 
the  Head  never  directed  them  to  do.  We  cannot  restore  the  pre- 
cious harmony  as  soon  as  we  may  see  the  need  of  it.  The  Lord 
alone  can  do  it,  and  we  must  wait  upon  Him,  and  bear  the  suf- 


444  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

fering  which  is  our  lot,  until  in  mercy,  lie  a^-ain  arises,  and 
commands  deliverance  for  Jacob,  his  suttcring,  travailing  seed. 

10th.  My  brother  Thomas  having  gone  to  Cape  Island,  on 
account  of  his  infirm  health,  and  it  being  necessary  that  one 
of  his  brothers  should  be  with  him,  I  came  down  this  morning. 

12th.  Living  with  a  class  of  people,  Avhose  habits  and  opin- 
ions are  very  different  from  those  of  Friends,  is  trying.  There 
being  nothing  like  seriousness  among  s  me  of  them,  we  seem 
to  be  in  each  other's  way.  Unless  Friends  keep  steadil}^  upon 
their  watch  in  such  places,  they  are  in  danger  of  being  leavened 
with  the  spirit  such  persons  live  in,  and  gradually  falling  into 
their  manners,  and  imitating  their  changeable  fashions  in  dress. 
The  amusements  which  are  jirepared  for  the  light  spirits  here, 
are  a  strong  temptation  to  young  people;  especially,  when  they 
are  not  watched  over  by  consistent  parents,  under  a  proper  re- 
ligious concern  themselves,  and  w^ho  w^ould  restrain  them  from 
resortino-to  such  entertainments.  It  seems  as  if  some  felt  them- 
selves  freed  from  proper  restraint,  and  at  liberty  to  indulge  in 
frivolity.  In  this  w\ay  they  crucify  to  themselves  the  Son  of 
God  afresh,  and  put  Him  to  an  open  shame.  Such  ai^e  evil  ex- 
amples to  others. 

The  kingdom  of  Satan  is  gaining  ground  in  this  land,  and  if 
those  who  consider  themselves  lovers  of  religion,  slacken  their 
watchfulness,  and  their  resistance  to  wrong  things,  the  tide  of 
corruption  must  gain  a  powerful  ascendency  over  the  morals  of 
the  people  at  large. 

I  consider  it  dangerous  for  religious  people,  to  be  long  mingled 
with  irreligious,  or  light  persons,  on  terms  of  courtesy  and  famili- 
arity. They  are  in  danger  of  being  leavened  with  their  spirit, 
of  losing  their  strength,  and  then  falling  in  with  something  that 
will  grieve  the  Holy  Spirit,  and  Avound  their  own  souls;  and 
when  once  wounded,  they  may  never  recover,  but  go  halting  all 
their  days.  Very  many  are  ashamed  of  the  simplicity  of  the 
cross.  Some  who  may  be  pretty  staid  among  their  friends  at 
home,  and  yet  not  very  firm  against  the  current  of  fashion, 
and  libertinism,  may  be  thus  drawn  into  it;  and  at  such  places, 
lay  aside  the  Quaker  character  and  manners,  almost  alto- 
gether; thereby  bringing  reproach  upon  the  name  and  cause  of 
Christ. 

Those  who  are  enemies  to  religion,  and  ready  to  disseminate 
their  poisonous  opinions,  are  often  found  in  these  places  of  public 


JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  445 

resort ;  where  they  put  on  great  politeness,  and  blandness  of 
manner,  to  insinuate  themselves  more  effectually  into  the  es- 
teem of  strangers.  They  often  carry  an  exterior  of  great  kind- 
ness, and  interest  in  the  accommodation  of  others ;  by  which, 
unwary  young  people  may  be  attracted  to  them,  and  led  to 
think,  that  where  such  apparently  disinterested  good-will  exists, 
the  principles  cannot  be  dangerous.  To  send  young  people 
where  they  will  mingle  Avith  such,  exposes  them  to  receive  a 
hurtful  bias,  which  it  may  be  extremely  difficult  to  eradicate, 
and  which  may  be  used  by  Satan  to  destroy  their  faith  in  the 
christian  religion,  or  hinder  them  from  giving  up  to  walk  in  the 
path  of  self-denial.  We  cannot  expect,  while  in  this  world,  to 
avoid  all  intercourse  with  men  who  have  little  or  no  religious 
scruples ;  but  the  less  of  it,  the  better. 

Many  parents  who  have  permitted  their  children  to  associate 
with  the  gay  and  the  frivolous,  have  finally  found  their  sons  and 
daughters  had  a  total  disrelish  for  plain  and  unfashionable  com- 
pany. The  gay  world,  which  lies  in  wickedness,  has  stolen 
away  their  hearts  from  their  Saviour;  they  become  dissatisfied 
with  that  which  is  serious,  and  restrictive,  and  are  soon  pre- 
pared to  leave  the  Society,  of  which  they  were  birthright  mem- 
bers, to  become  votaries  of  the  world. 

17th.  I  have  passed  some  of  the  time  here  in  reading  the 
letters  of  that  extraordinary  woman,  the  late  Sarah  Lynes 
Gi'ubb.  She  was  an  instrument  peculiarly  prepared  by  the 
Lord  Almighty,  to  uphold  and  to  spread  the  doctrines  and  testi- 
monies of  the  christian  religion,  as  promulgated  by  George 
Fox,  E.  Barclay,  and  other  Friends,  in  the  rise  of  our  religious 
Societj'.  The  reliance  of  some,  among  Friends,  upon  human 
talents,  without  waiting  upon  the  Lord,  to  receive  from  Him 
ability  and  authority  for  every  good  word  and  work,  occasioned 
her  much  suffering  and  anxiety ;  especially,  in  relation  to  its 
effect  on  the  true  welfare  of  the  Society,  and  the  blessed  cause 
given  it  to  uphold.  In  this  exercise,  she  appears  to  have  labored 
much  alone  for  several  years  ;  but  when  called  upon  to  advocate 
the  cause  of  her  Divine  Master,  she  was  plain  and  thorough  in 
her  testimony  ;  especially,  against  all  the  efforts  used  by  some 
to  change  the  faith  of  Friends ;  often  expressing  the  belief,  that 
such  would,  in  time,  be  scattered;  and  that  a  righteous  seed 
would  be  preserved,  that  shall  again  flourish. 


446  JOURNAL    OF    WILIJAM    EVANS. 

18Lh.  Another  brother  eoming  down  to  sta}'  with  Thomas, 
I  returned  home. 

22d.  The  cholera  has  been  in  our  city  several  weeks,  twelve 
to  thirty  dying  daily  with  the  fearful  disease. 

26th.  In  the  night  season,  I  lay  sometime  awake,  under 
mournful  feelings ;  death  being  abroad,  summoning  many  to 
their  everlasting  home.  But  as  I  looked  towards  the  Lord  Al- 
mighty, in  his  holy  temple,  endeavoring  to  rely  upon  Ilim,  the 
language  was  sw^eetly  revived  :  They  that  trust  in  the  Lord, 
shall  not  be  confounded,  but  tliey  shall  be  as  Mount  Zion,  that 
cannot  be  removed  ;  and  ability  was  mercifully  granted  to  put 
my  trust  in  my  blessed  Heavenly  Father,  and  safely  to  repose 
upon  his  goodness,  and  unfailing  compassionate  regard  towards 
me,  a  poor  unworthy  creature. 

31st.  I  received  information  of  the  decease  of  Sarah  Emlen. 
This  dear  Friend  was  an  acceptable  minister,  and  had  been 
much  dedicated  to  the  Lord's  service.  She,  and  her  ministerial 
labors,  will  doubtless  be  much  missed  in  the  church.  The  re- 
moval of  faithful  laborers  at  this  day  of  close  conflict  and  prov- 
ing, adds  to  the  mournful  feelings  with  which  many  are  now 
clothed  ;  but  it  is  no  time  to  cast  away  our  confidence  in  Bound- 
less Mercy  and  compassion.  The  Lord's  arm  is  not  shortened, 
nor  his  ear  grown  heavy  ;  but  I  believe  w^e  may  safely  conclude, 
that  after  purging  and  humbling  his  people.  He  will  arise  in  his 
might,  dissipate  the  clouds,  and  again  give  precious  gifts  to  sons 
and  daughters. 

Eighth  month  6th.  Mary  Carpenter,  a  member  of  Philadel- 
phia Monthly  Meeting,  having  deceased,  I  felt  my  mind  drawn 
in  sympathy  to  go  to  the  house,  and  sit  with  the  connections 
and  friends.  The  expression,  "Precious  in  the  sight  of  the 
Lord  is  the  death  of  his  saints,"  came  before  me  ;  and  under  the 
eonsti-aining  influence  of  Heavenly  Love,  I  was  led  to  testify, 
that  it  was  a  blessed  gathering  of  the  sanctified  in  Christ  Jesus,  to 
their  everlasting  mansion  among  the  saints  in  light;  and  to  de- 
clare my  belief,  that  if  those  who  are  left  in  this  state  of  proba- 
tion, foHow  them  as  they  followed  Christ,  walking  by  the  same 
rule  and  minding  the  same  thing,  they  wall  be  also  prepared  by 
the  Holy  Spirit,  to  receive  precious  gifts;  and  the  doctrines  and 
testimonies  of  the  gospel  given  Friends  to  support,  will  not  be 
permitted  to  fall  to  the  ground  in  this  city.  It  was  a  tendering, 
comforting  opportunity,  that  ended  in  peace. 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  447 

Our  Quarterly  Meeting,  which  met  this  day,  was  held  in  sol- 
emn silence  ;  which  led  me  to  think,  that  while  we  can  hold  our 
religious  meetings  under  such  solemnity,  we  are  not  deserted  by 
tlie  Gracious  Head  of  the  Church.  May  we  be  preserved  in 
reverent,  humble  waiting  before  Him,  and  with  loins  girded  and 
lights  burning,  do  his  blessed  Avill  on  all  occasions.  A  concern 
for  the  welfare  of  members  of  the  meeting  on  the  other  side  of 
the  mountains,  spread  over  us,  and  a  few  Friends  were  separa- 
ted to  make  them  a  visit,  in  the  love  of  the  gospel,  for  their 
strength  and  encouragement. 

15th.  Went  with  my  dear  wife  to  Salem  Select  Quarterly 
Meeting,  held  at  Woodbury ;  which  is  in  a  very  reduced  state. 
Several  of  the  members  were  absent  to-day,  occasioned  by  the 
death  of  Mary  Sheppard,  of  Greenwich,  who  had  been  but  a  few 
years  acknowledged  as  a  minister,  and  was  well  esteemed  by 
those  who  were  acquainted  with  her,  in  the  exercise  of  her  gift. 
Our  condition  as  a  religious  body  calls  for  deep  indwelling  with 
the  Master,  and  serious  enquiry  what  He  would  have  every  one 
to  do ;  that  each  may  know  the  woi-k  of  salvation  to  be  going 
on  with  the  day,  and  receive  ability  to  build  up  the  waste  places. 

16th.  In  the  forepart  of  the  Quarterly  Meeting,  our  beloved 
friend  Sarah  Hillman,  was  engaged  in  acceptable  testimony  to 
the  unfailing  goodness  of  our  Heavenly  Father  towards  his  chil- 
dren, even  when  their  faith  may  seem  ready  to  fail.  He  changes 
not.  It  was  reviving  and  strengthening  to  the  tribulated  fol- 
lowers of  Christ. 

Although  I  felt  low.  yet  after  a  time  of  waiting,  I  was  con- 
strained to  arise  with  the  query,  "When  the  Son  of  man  cometh, 
shall  he  tind  faith  on  the  earth  ?"  When  He  cometh  into  the 
hearts  of  many  who  profess  his  holy  religion,  will  He  find  that 
living  faith,  which  is  the  saints'  victory  over  the  world,  the  flesh 
and  the  devil  ?  A  mere  belief  in  the  doctrines  of  the  ISTew  Tes- 
tament, without  obedience  to  the  inwardly  revealed  will  of  God, 
will  avail  but  little.  There  is  a  faith  that  overcomes  the  world, 
and  there  is  a  faith  that  is  overcome  by  the  world.  Many  who 
have  a  plain  outside,  are  seeking  to  become  rich,  and  straining 
all  their  powers  to  accumulate  wealth,  that  they  may  be  great 
in  the  world,  and  receive  honor  from  men  ;  but  these  are  stumb- 
ling blocks  in  the  way  of  serious  enquirers  after  the  Truth  ;  and 
they  are  burthens  to  the  living  members  of  the  Chui-ch  of  Christ. 
Even  worldly  people  can  often  discover  Avhere  the  substance  and 


448  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

life  are  wanting ;  and  such  brino-  our  religious  profession  into  dis- 
repute. They  were  solemnly  called  upon  to  renounce  the  world, 
and  make  ready  for  the  period  when  the  cry  will  be  sounded  in 
their  ear,  "Behold  the  Bridegroom  cometh,  go  ye  out  to  me«t 
him,"  The  gospel  was  preached  to  the  poor,  and  the  dear  young 
people  called  upon  to  yield  to  the  visitati  ns  of  Divine  love,  and 
give  up  their  hearts  wholly  to  the  government  of  their  Saviour. 
Ninth  month  30th.  This  has  been  a  day  of  serious  thought- 
fulness  upon  the  state  of  our  Society  ;  so  great  change  has  taken 
place  in  the  number  of  aged,  experienced  members,  through  re- 
moval by  death.  The  unsettlement  produced  by  the  promulga- 
tion of  unsound  principles,  has  prevented  growth  in  the  Truth 
in  many,  and  it  seems  as  if  the  labor  wdiich  has  been  bestowed, 
has  done  little  more  than  contribute  to  keep  some  j'oung  plants 
from  entirely  dwindling  and  falling  Siway.  Comparatively  few 
show  themselves  on  the  Lord's  side,  by  taking  an  active  part  in 
the  atfairs  of  the  church,  under  his  constraining  power  ;  and  this 
makes  heavy  work  for  those  who  are  bound  to  the  law  of  their 
God,  and  his  testimon}^  to  the  life  and  spirituality  of  the  gospel 
dispensation.  The  unity  and  true  fellowshij^  which  pertain 
to  membership  in  the  body  of  Christ  do  not  subsist  amongst 
Friends  as  they  once  did.  It  seems  as  if  nothing  but  dying  daily, 
and  waiting  in  resignation  of  soul  before  the  Lord,  for  him  to 
arise,  and  w^ork  by  his  mighty  power,  can  do  away  the  divided 
feelino-s.  We  cannot  remove  them  ourselves  :  and  some  must  be 
given  up  to  reproach,  who  may  be  employed  as  between  the 
living  and  the  dead,'  for  staying  the  plague.  If  the  love  of 
Christ  did  really  abound  in  us ;  that  love  in  which  He  laid  down 
his  precious  life  for  the  salvation  of  souls,  we  should  be  willing 
to  enter  into  suffering  and  sympathy  one  with  another;  and 
there  would  be  no  disposition  to  listen  to,  nor  to  spread  reports, 
unfavorable  to  those  who  are  standing  for  the  faith  of  the  gos- 
pel. That  true  heavenly  love  would  lead  us  to  pray  for  each 
other;  to  keep  close  in  spirit  to  the  servants  of  the  same  Lord; 
holding  up  their  luinds,  and  encouraging  them  in  the  work  where- 
unto  He  has  appointed  them.  Hereby  Satan  would  be  disappoint- 
ed in  his  efforts  to  destroy  the  flock  ;  and  Friends  being  l»an<led 
together  in  a  united  aiid  living  ti-avail  for  the  prosperity  of 
Zion,  every  mcmbor  ke(>ping  liis  and  her  ])lace  in  the  body,  tho 
Lord  would  not  only  bless  the  ])rovision  of  Zion,  and  satisf}'  her 
poor  with  bread,  but  his  work  would  prosper  in  our  hands,  and 


JOURNAL   OF   WTLT-IAM    EVANS.  449 

sons  and  daughters  would  be  bi-ought  from  the  cast  and  the  west 
to  sit  down  in  the  kingdom  of  the  dear  Son  of  God ;  and  there- 
by the  enhxrgement  of  our  borders  would  take  place  ;  by  which 
the  burden-beai'crs  and  standard-bearers  woidd  be  increased. 

The  removal  of  our  aged  and  beloved  friend,  Margaret  Hutch- 
inson, who  has  long  stood  as  a  lively,  acceptable  minister  in  our 
meeting,  has  left  a  blank  at  the  head  of  it,  Avhich  is  sensibly 
felt.  Her  communications  were  mostly  short,  uttered  with  fear 
and  trembling  ;  but  raising  the  life  among  us.  Her  appearances 
in  supplication  were  much  of  the  same  character;  solemn  and 
impressive;  proceeding  from  the  constraining  power  of  Christ, 
and  under  reverence  and  awfulness  in  approaching  the  Divine 
Majesty  of  heaven  and  earth.  How  fathers  and  mothers  in  the 
unchangeable  Truth  have  been  taken  from  us  in  the  last  forty 
years!  How  soon  the  same  merciful  and  long-suffering  Head 
may  see  fit  to  supply  their  places,  we  cannot  foresee.  None  can 
do  it  but  Himself,  by  his  wonder-working  power.  But  it  is  oi|r 
duty  to  wait  upon  Him  in  faith,  and  when  qualified  therefor, 
put  up  our  prayers  that  He  will  restore  judges  as  at  the  first, 
and  counsellors  as  at  the  beginning. 

Tenth  month  1st.  This  afternoon  I  attended  the  burial  of 
Wm.  Cooper,  from  his  late  residence,  near  Camden,  N.  J. 

After  some  time  of  silence,  I  felt  engaged  to  preach  the  doc- 
trine of  life  and  salvation  through  our  Loi'd  Jesus  Christ ;  both 
as  he  is  a  Mediator,  glorified  at  the  right  hand  of  the  Father, 
with  the  glory  which  he  had  with  him  before  the  woi'ld  was, 
and  as  he  is  appearing  by  his  Spirit  in  the  hearts  of  all  man- 
kind ;  to  give  every  one  a  sense  of  his  fallen  state,  while  living 
according  to  the  lusts  and  appetites  of  the  carnal  mind  ;  and 
inciting  them  to  repentance  and  the  forsaking  of  sin.  To  those 
Avho  receive  Him,  he  will  give  power  to  become  the  sons  of  God ; 
their  sins  being  forgiven  and  washed  away,  for  the  sake  of  that 
most  satisfactory  sacrifice,  which  he  offered  of  Himself,  without 
the  gates  Jerusalem.  As  they  follow  him  faithfully,  bearing  the 
daily  cross,  and  despising  the  shame,  they  will  be  made  parta- 
kers of  the  Divine  nature ;  putting  on  the  Lord  Jesus  Christ, 
and  no  longer  making  provision  for  the  lusts  of  the  flesh ;  and 
having  confessed  Him  before  men,  they  will  be  accepted  in  Him 
the  Beloved,  and  acknowledged  by  Him  in  the  presence  of  his 
Father  and  the  holy  angels. 

12th.     Our  Quarterly  Meeting  having  appointed  a  committee 


4^0  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

to  visit  Muncj  Monthly  Meeting,  and  its  branches,  four  of  them 
left  Philadelphia  in  the  ears  for  Pottsville,  near  the  head  of  the 
Sehujdkill  Eiver,  about  ninety-one  miles  from  the  city,  which 
we  reached  about  one  o'clock ;  dined  there,  and  took  stage  for 
Danville,  on  the  north  branch  of  the  Susquehanna,  about  thirty- 
six  miles  from  this  place.  The  road  crosses  several  mountainous 
ridges,  very  much  through  a  coal  and  woody  country,  from  the 
mines  in  which,  thousand  of  tons  of  the  former,  are  sent  an- 
nually to  Philadelphia.  We  got  into  Danville  about  twelve 
o'clock  at  night,  and  being  fatigued,  w^e  soon  retired  to  bed. 

13th.  Eose  refreshed,  and  after  breakfasting  and  walking  in 
the  town,  we  set  out,  with  carriage  and  horses,  procured  here 
for  our  accommodation,  and  rode  to  Grreenwood,  where  we  put 
up  at  our  friend  D.  M.'s.  The  weather  was  fine,  and  the  road 
good,  and  we  were  kindly  received  and  entertained. 

14th.  First-day.  Some  notice  having  been  spread,  a  pretty 
large  company,  composed  of  the  few  Friends  belonging  to  the 
meeting,  and  their  neighbors,  assembled;  and  although  it  did 
not  feel  to  me  to  be  a  very  quickening  time,  yet  through  Divine 
kindness,  ability  was  received  to  preach  Chi-ist  crucified  without 
the  gates  of  Jerusalem,  as  the  way  to  the  Father;  the  only 
name  under  heaven,  given  among  men,  whereby  we  must  be 
saved,  now  glorified  with  the  Father,  and  appearing  by  his  light, 
grace  or  good  spirit,  in  the  heart,  to  destroy  the  works  of  Satan 
in  man,  and  to  bring  in  everlasting  righteousness  in  jjlace  there- 
of. The  meeting  was  solid,  and  I  hope  good  impressions  wore 
made. 

In  the  afternoon  we  had  a  pleasant  ride  over  the  Muncy  hills, 
the  road  being  ver}'  good ;  and  near  dusk  got  to  the  residence 
of  J.  Haines,  where  we  met  with  a  hospitable  reception.  1 
had  occasional  conversation  w^ith  Jesse  Haines,  his  father,  a 
minister,  now  in  his  ninety-fourth  year;  whose  fiiculties  ap- 
pear to  be  strong,  and  his  religious  sensibility  quick  and  clear. 

16th.  In  the  morning,  while  sitting  by  Jesse  Haines,  he  re- 
marked that  he  expected  we  had  been  sent  hei"e  by  a  higher 
power  than  the  Quarterly  Meeting,  and  my  desire  is,  he  said, 
that  the  people  may  receive  the  engrafted  word.  I  replied,  our 
desire  was  that  the  quickening  power  might  be  renewedly  felt, 
and  something  known  of  being  raised  into  newness  of  life.  We 
set  out  pretty  early  fur  Elkhmds  ;  some  part  of  the  mountain 
road  was  rough  and  fatiguing,  but  we  reached  the  settlement 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVAXS.  451 

before  it  was  quite  dnsk,  and  were  made  welcome  at  J.  McCar- 
ty's,  by  several  of  his  children,  who  reside  with  him. 

17th.  Eode  five  miles  to  their  Preparative  Meeting.  The 
weather  was  wet ;  and  the  stirrings  of  Divine  life  were  low. 
Feeling  the  spirit  of  supplication,  petitions  were  vocally  put  up 
to  the  Lord  our  God,  that  in  mercy  and  compassion.  He  would 
regard  the  conditions  of  all  present.  There  appeared  to  be  some 
concerned  Friends  among  them,  and  we  had  hope,  the}'  would 
be  more  fully  awakened  to  a  sense  of  the  necessity  of  being  with- 
drawn from  the  improper  pursuit  of  the  things  of  time,  and 
cherish  a  more  fervent  concern  for  the  prosperity  of  truth,  than 
it  is  to  be  feared  most  are  now  sensible  of. 

18th.  Before  leaving  the  next  morning,  we  had  a  religious 
opportunity  with  the  Friends  where  we  stayed. 

In  the  evening,  being  at  the  house  of  Jesse  McCarty,  we  had 
a  meeting  with  some  Friends,  in  which  the  advantage  and  duty 
of  waiting  upon  the  Lord,  were  in  some  measure  set  forth  ;  and 
those  present  were  warned  against  being  swallowed  up  with  the 
pursuit  of  lawful  things  ;  and  encouraged  to  devote  themselves 
to  the  Lord's  service,  out  of  meetings  as  well  as  in  them.  Were 
this  their  labor  and  experience,  there  are  some  among  them  who 
would  become  lights  in  that  place,  and  helpers  in  the  church  of 
Christ.  The  importance  of  rightly  maintaining  the  discipline, 
under  the  guidance  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  was  also  laid  before 
them. 

19th.  We  rode  back  to  Muncy,  and  Avere  thankful  to  be  again 
landed  among  our  friends  there,   in  safety. 

Visited  several  families  of  Friends,  in  two  of  which,  we  had 
religious  opportunities,  laboring  to  arouse  them  from  their 
lukewarmness,  and  pressing  upon  them  the  necessity  of  know- 
ing the  work  of  salvation  to  be  accomplished,  while  the  day  of 
mercy  lasts. 

21st.  Attended  the  first-day  meeting.  I  felt  drawn  to  hold 
forth  a  word  of  encouragement,  to  those  who  were  honestlj'  en- 
deavoring to  stand  for  the  Truth.  Also  to  show  to  others,  that 
if  any  man  be  in  Christ,  he  is  a  new  creature;  old  things  are 
passed  away,  and  all  things  become  new,  and  all  things  of  God. 
That  however  valuable  a  belief  of  the  truths  of  the  gospel  un- 
doubtedly is,  it  will  not  be  sufficient,  where  it  is  only  literal  or 
educational.  We  must  know  the  new  creation  ;  the  heart  sanc- 
tified, so  as  to  be  prepared  as  a  temple  for  the  Lord  to  dwell  in. 


452  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

He  will  not  dwell  in  a  defiled  hcai't.  I  felt  his  humbling  power, 
Boftening  my  heart  towards  the  people,  especially  the  younger 
part  of  the  company;  and  under  its  heavenly  influence,  the 
spring  of  the  gospel  was  opened,  and  the  Lord  gave  the  word 
for  the  different  states ;  some  of  which,  I  believed,  w^ere  ten- 
derly reached  ;  and  we  had  cause  to  return  thanks  to  Him  for 
his  renewed  aid,  and  Divine  presence.  In  the  afternoon,  we 
rode  to  Greenwood,  the  weather  being  wet ;  it  became  dark  be- 
fore we  reached  the  house  of  our  friends  D.  M.  and  wife,  by 
whom  we  were  kindly  received. 

22d.  In  the  Preparative  Meeting,  adjourned  to  this  day  at 
our  request,  a  qualification  was  again  furnished  to  preach  the 
gospel ;  holding  forth  the  doctrine  of  Christ,  to  place  the  king- 
dom of  heaven,  and  the  righteousness  thereof,  above  all  other 
pursuits  in  this  world.  After  dining,  we  called  upon  several 
families,  in  most  of  which  we  were  engaged  to  labor  for  their 
encouragement,  and  faithfulness  to  their  religious  duties.  True 
zeal  is  greatly  wanting,  and  the  number  of  Friends  is  now  small. 

23d.  Eeturned  to  Muncy  this  morning.  Their  Select  Pre- 
parative Meeting  being  held  this  afternoon,  we  attended  it. 

24th.  We  were  at  Muncy  Monthly  Meeting  this  morning. 
We  sat  a  lono;  time  in  silence.  Though  clothed  with  fear  of 
speaking  without  it  was  required,  I  also  felt  afraid  to  omit  what 
was  ni}"  duty  to  do.  In  this  state,  the  language  of  our  blessed 
Redeemer,  "  Whosoever  will  be  great  among  you,  let  him  be 
your  minister;  and  whosoever  will  be  chief  among  you,  let  him 
be  your  servant,"  was  brought  before  me ;  accompanied  with  the 
belief,  that  some  had  need  of  being  humbled  and  reduced,  to 
prepare  them  for  his  government  and  kingdom,  and  to  be  made 
use  of  by  Him  in  his  household.  •'  And  Jesus  called  a  little  child 
unto  him,  and  set  him  in  the  midst  of  them,  and  said,  Verily  I  say 
unto  you,  except  ye  be  converted,  and  become  as  little  children, 
ye  shall  not  enter  into  the  kingdom  of  heaven."  The  indisi^en- 
sable  need  of  self-reduction,  and  laying  aside  all  reliance  on  our 
own  wisdom  and  strength,  that  wo  ma}^  be  fitted  for  member- 
ship in  the  church  of  Christ,  was  held  forth  among  them.  "If  any 
man  among  you  soemeth  to  be  wise  in  this  world,  let  him  be- 
come a  fool  that  he  may  bo  wise."  We  cannot  enter  the  sheep- 
fold  but  by  Christ,  the  door;  nor  into  the  narrow  way,  but 
through  the  strait  gate ;  and  those  who  thus  cntei',  Avill  bo  pre- 
pared, as  they  keep  obedient  to  Him,  to  receive  gifts,  and  to 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  453 

know  their  services  appointed  to  them,  hy  the  Great  Head  of 
the  church.  I.  believe  lie  was  with  us  and  carried  home  to  some, 
the  important  truths  declared  among  them. 

In  the  Monthly  Meeting-,  the  minute  of  the  Quarterly  Meet- 
ing, appointing  the  committee,  was  recoi-ded;  and  it  was  a  satis- 
faction to  the  committee,  to  feel  that  their  efforts  amoncr  them, 
were  well  received  ;  and  we  hoped  the  bond  of  christian  love 
and  fellowship,  was  a  little  strengthened. 

After  dining,  wc  set  out  for  Danville,  w^iich  we  reached  about 
eight  o'clock ;  the  road,  though  part  of  it  mountainous,  Avas 
generally  good,  and  the  evening  was  clear  and  moonlight. 
Lodged  there,  and  early  the  following  morning,  took  stage  for 
Pottsvillo ;  arrived  there  before  two,  and  before  seven  o'clock 
in  the  evening,  were  landed  at  our  beloved  homes,  a  distance  of 
one  hundred  and  fifty  miles  from  Muncy. 

Poverty  of  spirit,  and  the  absence  of  all  ability  to  do  anything 
in  the  Lord's  work,  has  been  my  clothing  for  days,  since  our 
return ;  all  in  mercy  and  great  condescensions  from  Him  who 
alone  can  strip,  and  humble  man  into  the  dust  j  that  no  flesh 
may  attempt  to  glory  in  his  presence. 

30th.  I  accompanied  my  beloved  wife  to  Frankford  Monthly 
Meeting,  before  which  she  laid  a  concern  to  visit  their  families, 
and  received  the  cordial  unity  of  the  meeting  with  her  prospect. 
Li  the  first  meeting  we  were  both  strengthened  to  declare  the 
gospel.  That  there  is  no  new  doctrine  to  pi'cach ;  no  new  way 
found  out  to  the  everlasting  kingdom  of  rest  and  peace ;  but  that 
Christ  is  the  way,  the  truth,  and  the  life,  and  it  is  through  obe- 
dience to  Him,  under  the  daily  cross,  that  He  brings  any  to  the 
Father.  The  dear  young  people  were  affectionately  warned 
against  disobedience,  and  pleaded  with  to  yield  to  the  visita- 
tions of  Divine  love.  Fi-iends  were  kind  and  loving,  and  we 
returned  home  in  peace. 

Eleventh  m.onth  3d.  AYas  our  Select  Quarterly  Meeting,  from 
which  sevei'al  members  were  absent. 

5th.  We  had  a  very  large  Quarterly  Meeting  for  worship. 
It  was  quiet  and  held  under  a  degree  of  solemnity.  This  was 
the  case  with  the  Meeting  for  Discipline  also.  When  the 
Queries  were  gone  through,  I  felt  constrained  to  encourage 
Friends  to  keep  to  all  our  religious  meetings  ;  also  to  warn  some 
against  supporting  an}'  cause  that  is  advei'se  to  the  cause  of 
Christ,  and  which  He  raised  Friends  up  to  support;  or  to  attempt 
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454  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

to  support  his  cause  in  an  unchristian  spirit;  either  of  which, 
will  create  disunity.  The  time  is  coming  when  all  will  be 
judged,  and  no  party  combination  can  come  between  euch,  and 
Him  who  searcheth  the  heart,  and  showeth  unto  man  what  his 
thoughts  are ;  and  will  reward  every  man  according  to  his 
deeds. 

11th.  Some  temporal  concerns  have  pressed  upon  me  pretty 
heavily  for  several  days;  in  which  the  heavens  also  seemed 
wrapped  in  darkness,  and  faith,  to  enable  me  to  look  to  and 
trust  in  the  Preserver  of  men,  reduced  low.  In  the  forepart  of 
our  meeting,  this  morning,  it  was  difficult  to  withdraw  the  mind 
from  those  distracting,  worldly  things,  which  brought  me  under 
distress.  Our  friend  Eobert  Scotton  was  opened,  in  a  lively 
manner,  upon  the  states  of  outside  professors,  who  were  striving 
to  satisfy  themselves  with  their  own  doings,  while  the  precious 
seed  of  the  kingdom  was  oppressed,  and  choked  by  the  love  and 
pursuit  of  worldly  gratifications;  and  in  the  midst  of  which 
they  were  ignorant  of  the  resurrection  of  the  life  and  power 
of  godliness  into  dominion.  He  also  ministered  to  those  who 
were  suffering  with  this  oppressed  seed,  and  encouraged  them 
to  faithful  endurance,  though  the  Lord  might  try  them  long 
with  hiding  his  face  from  them;  but  as  they  kept  patient  under 
his  dispensation,  He  would  cause  the  clouds  to  disperse,  and 
again  appear  for  their  comfort.  The  Lord's  humbling  hand 
was  laid  upon  me,  constraining  me  to  bow  before  Him,  and 
publicly  petition  that  in  his  unutterable  and  unmerited  mercy, 
He  would  continue  to  be  round  about  his  children,  older  and 
younger,  and  defend  them  from  the  jaws  of  the  devouror.  Thou 
knowest  all  the  trials  of  those,  who  are  travailing  for  the  arising 
of  the  seed  of  life ;  be  with  them,  we  humbly  pray  thee,  and 
string  their  bow  in  the  day  of  battle  ;  and  with  thy  ministers ; 
Oh!  be  unto  them,  mouth  and  wisdom,  tongue  and  utterance. 
Watch  over,  we  beseech  thee,  the  dear  childi^en,  when  out  from 
under  the  eye  of  their  parents  and  friends,  and  keep  thorn  from 
doing  anything  that  will  grieve  thy  Holy  Spirit,  or  bring  dis- 
honor upon  themselves  and  thy  precious  cause.  In  this  manner 
my  spirit  was  poured  out,  in  brokenness  and  contrition,  before 
the  Lord  and  his  people;  which  brought  solemnity  over  the 
meeting ;  and  praise,  might,  majesty  and  dominion,  were  ascribed 
unto  the  Lord  God,  and  to  his  dear  Son,  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ, 
who  only  are  worthy.    Many  were  tenderly  bowed  under  the 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  455 

merciful  extension  of  Divine  regard  to  us,  poor  unworthy  crea- 
tures. The  load  upon  mo  was  lightened,  and  I  went  on  my  way 
rejoicing. 


CHAPTEE   XXIII. 

1849—1850. 

Religious  Engagements  in  Philadelphia — Attendance  at  neighboring  Meetings 
— Religious  Visit  to  the  Meetings  in  New  Jersey — Services  at  and  near 
Home — Reflections  respecting  the  Mexican  War. 

1849,  Eleventh  mouth  13th.  This  day  I  attended  the  North 
Meeting,  and  found  a  very  large  collection  of  Friends  and  others 
convened  on  account  of  a  marriage.  After  some  time  of  silence, 
in  which  I  believe  some  were  brought  under  exercise  that  the 
meeting  might  be  held  with  solemnity,  I  felt  drawn  to  mention 
that  marriage  is  a  Divine  ordinance ;  and  where  entered  into,  in 
the  fear  of  the  Lord,  and  the  parties  are  concerned  to  do  His 
will  to  the  end  of  their  days,  it  conveys  many  blessings ;  not 
only  in  things  of  an  earthly  nature,  in  w-hich  they  are  helpmeets 
to  one  another ;  but,  each  following  their  Lord  and  Master  in 
the  work  of  regeneration,  they  are  made  a  strength  and  en- 
couragement to  each  other  in  the  holy  way  to  everlasting  bless- 
edness. Many  things  were  opened  to  the  people ;  a  considera- 
ble part  of  w^hom  did  not  appear  to  be  Friends,  and  great  still- 
ness, and  I  hope  solemnity,  prevailed. 

15th.  Went  to  the  Arch  Street  meeting  under  an  apprehen- 
sion of  religious  duty.  I  felt  constrained  to  speak  of  the  con- 
tinued preservation  from  the  power  of  the  tempter  to  lead  into 
sin,  which  is  extended,  in  great  mercy,  to  those  who  mind  the 
Light  of  Christ,  in  its  convictions  and  leadings  in  the  heart. 
Those  who  are  the  Lord's  workmanship,  created  anew  in  Christ 
Jesus,  He  will  not  desert  nor  overlook,  but  they  will  be  kept  by 
Him  from  youth  to  old  age ;  and  being  faithful,  will  become 
pillars  in  his  house  that  shall  go  no  more  out.  To  those  who 
are  slighting  the  pleadings  of  his  Spirit,  and  joining  the  friend- 
ships and  maxims  of  the  world,  a  pressing  invitation  was  given 
to  examine  their  condition  in  that  light  which  cannot  deceive. 


456  JOURNAL   OP  WILLIAM   EVANS. 

For  what  will  all  the  gold  they  can  accumulate,  avail  in  that  day 
when  they  arc  summoned  to  appear  before  the  judgment  seat  of 
Christ  ?  It  cannot  procure  Divine  approbation,  or  an  entrance 
into  heaven.  While  such  are  disregarding  the  repeated  calls  to 
holiness,  and  seeking  their  satisfaction  elsewhere,  they  will  be- 
come darkened,  and  be  deceived  with  false  pretensions  to  peace. 

22d.  My  dear  wife  having  been  engaged  about  ten  days  in  visit- 
ing the  families  of  Frankford  Monthly  Meeting,  I  went  to  meet  her 
at  Germantown  Meeting  this  morning.  We  were  favored  with 
the  breaking  of  heavenly  bread,  throixgh  the  great  condescension 
of  the  Lord  ;  the  alone  Succorer  and  Helper  of  his  people. 

25th.  During  the  forepart  of  the  meeting  this  morning,  the 
power  of  dai'kness,  through  various  insinuations  of  the  enemy,  so 
strove  in  me,  that  there  seemed  little  hope  of  gaining  the  ascen- 
dency over  it;  but  after  a  season  of  conflict,  the  Master  conde- 
scended to  appear,  when  Satan  fled,  and  a  great  change  was 
experienced ;  and  ability  was  afforded  to  testify  to  the  blessedness 
of  waiting  for,  and  looking  to  Christ,  who  is  over  all  the  power 
of  the  enemy.  He  it  is,  who  will  give  to  the  thirsty,  panting  soul, 
the  living  w^ater,  of  which  those  who  drink,  will  desire  no  other. 

Twelfth  month  10th.  Several  late  occurrences  of  a  distress- 
ing nature,  in  which  I  w^as  not  concerned,  have  tended  to  pro- 
duce depression  ;  which  was  increased  by  a  remark  that  I  made 
on  a  certain  occasion  under  the  influence  of  a  little  excitement, 
which  although  the  motive  was  good,  gave  me  no  little  uneasi- 
ness. This  morning  the  language  of  the  Saviour  passed  through 
my  mind,  "  Why  are  ye  so  fearful,  O  ye  of  little  faith  ?"  I  was 
afraid  to  attempt  to  banish  fear,  lest  the  affliction  should  not 
have  all  the  effect  which  it  should  produce ;  but  the  language 
of  the  compassionate  High  Priest  gave  mo  comfort  and  hope, 
that  no  evil  resulted  from  my  remark,  and  through  the  day  my 
mind  has  been  calm  and  peaceful.  Oh  what  poor,  weak  crea- 
tures we  are ;  and  the  Lord  has  his  means  to  make  us  sensible 
of  it.  These  dispensations  humble  us,  and  increase  our  charity 
for  others. 

■•  11th.  This  morning  I  felt  an  unexpected  intimation  to  go  to 
the  North  Meeting.  The  striking  and  encouraging  character 
"•iven  of  the  Saviour  by  the  proj)hct,  was  feelingly  brought  be- 
fore my  mind,  representing  his  gentleness  and  tendei-ness.  "Ho 
shall  not  strive  nor  cry ;  neither  shall  any  man  hear  His  voice 
in  the  streets.     A  bruised  reed  shall  He  not  break,  and  smokin<j 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  457 

flax  shall  He  not  quench,  till  He  send  forth  judgment  unto  vic- 
toiy ;  and  in  his  name  shall  the  gentiles  trust  ?"  Dear  E.  Pit- 
field  knelt,  early  in  the  meeting,  in  humble,  tender  supplication ; 
•which  brought  a  good  savor  over  the  meeting.  After  some  time, 
it  seemed  proper  for  me  to  revive  the  above  passage,  and  to  set 
forth  a  little  the  great  compassion  of  Him,  who  knows  our  in- 
firmities better  than  we  know  them  ourselves.  The  bruised 
heart,  which  feels  like  a  reed  for  strength,  He  will  not  break  ; 
but  in  his  time  will  bind  it  up;  and  though  there  may  seem  to 
be  little  of  Divine  life  in  the  soul,  comparable  to  fire,  no  more 
than  sufilcient  to  create  a  smoke,  yet  He  will  not  quench  it, 
where  there  is  a  secret  prayer  and  desire,  to  be  made  what  He 
would  have  us  to  be.  He  will  regard  the  cries  of  histribulated 
seed ;  and  where  any  have  transgressed  his  Divine  law,  and  are 
brought  to  feel  their  condition,  if  they  abide  under  his  judg- 
ments. He  will  open  the  prison  to  them  that  are  bound,  and  grant 
deliverance  to  the  afflicted  soul.  Friends  were  exhorted  not  to 
cast  away  their  shield,  asthough  they  had  never  quenched  with 
it,  the  fiery  darts  of  the  "wicked ;  for  one  of  the  devices  of  the 
enemy,  is  to  tempt  us  to  despair  of  the  Lord's  mercy,  and  of 
preservation  to  the  end. 

23d.  Our  Meeting  for  Suff'erings  was  held  on  the  21st ;  in 
which  there  was  a  comfortable  feeling  of  fellowship)  amongst 
those  ^Yho  are  travailing  together  for  the  faith  of  the  gospel. 
The  business  was  transacted  in  much  harmony,  and  I  hoped  the 
unity  of  the  Spirit  was  felt.  May  it  increase  and  bind  us  to- 
gether, that  we  may  be  of  one  heart  and  of  one  mind.  This 
afternoon  in  our  meeting  there  was  a  comfortable  hope,  that  the 
Lord  would  not  desert  us ;  but  if  we  kept  steadfastly  upon  the 
watch,  the  Spirit  of  prayer  would  be  granted,  and  in  his  time 
He  would  cause  his  light  and  life  to  break  forth  amongst  us ; 
and  seeking  ones,  beholding  our  stability  in  Christ,  would  be- 
come united  to  us,  as  the  soul  of  Jonathan  was  knit  to  David's. 
I  had  a  short  testimony  to  the  Lord's  power,  and  to  the  neces- 
sity of  those  W'ho  are  seeking  a  people  who  live  in  the  Truth, 
to  look  within  and  not  without  them;  that  they  may  have  the 
spiritual  eye  anointed,  and  be  made  instrumental  themselves  in 
exalting  the  kingdom  of  the  Saviour. 

26th.  My  wife  and  myself  went  out  to  Springfield  on  a  social 
visit  to  our  brothers  and  sisters.  Attended  their  week-day 
meeting.     I  was  reminded  of  the  language,  "  The  ways  of  Zion 


458  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

mourn,  so  few  come  to  her  solemn  feasts,"  and  mentioned  it  in 
the  men's  Preparative  Meeting ;  expressing  the  hope,  that  the 
overseers  and  other  Friends  would  look  into  the  state  of  the 
members,  whether  the  neglect  of  their  religious  meetings  was 
not  growing  upon  some,  and  endeavor  to  stir  them  up  to  greater 
diligence  in  performing  this  solemn  and  profitable  duty. 

30th.  This  morning,  before  setting  out  to  their  first-day 
meeting,  as  we  did  not  expect  to  return,  my  dear  sister  Hannah 
Ehoads  informed  us  that,  for  several  years,  she  had  been  im- 
pressed with  the  belief  it  would,  at  some  period,  be  required  of 
her,  to  pay  a  religious  visit  to  Friends  in  some  parts  of  Great 
Britain  and  Ireland ;  and  that  for  the  last  eight  months,  it  had 
rested  upon  her  with  such  w^eight,  day  and  night,  she  believed 
it  would  be  right  to  lay  it  before  their  Monthly  Meeting  for  its 
judgment.  We  encouraged  her  to  do  so,  not  doubting  it  was  a 
right  concern ;  and  that,  if  set  at  liberty  to  prosecute  it,  He  w^ho 
jjut  her  forth,  would  strengthen  and  qualify  for  the  work  He 
engaged  her  in. 

31st.  Was  held  Chester  Monthly  Meeting,  which  passed 
a  memorial  of  o\ir  late  beloved  friend  Sarah  Emlen.  The  con- 
cern of  my  sister  H.  Ehoads,  brought  a  weight  over  the  meet- 
ing, and  was  seriously  and  feelingly  considered  and  spoken  to ; 
and  the  calm  and  serene  feelings  which  overspread  the  minds 
of  Friends,  appeared  to  me  to  be  evidence  that  the  Master 
owned  it  by  the  church.  After  the  expression  of  unity,  a  com- 
mittee was  separated  to  prepare  a  certificate  to  be  ready  for 
next  month. 

1850,  First  month  23d.  Yesterday  I  attended  the  Northern  Dis- 
trict Monthly  Meeting.  Several  Friends  spoke  in  the  first  meet- 
ing. In  the  second,  I  felt  drawn  to  encourage  Friends  to  stand 
firm  in  the  support  of  our  christian  testimonies,  and  to  come  into 
the  practical  experience  of  what  is  contained  in  the  evangelical 
prediction  :  "  In  that  day  shall  the  Lord  of  hosts  be  for  a  crown 
of  glory  and  for  a  diadem  of  beauty,  unto  the  residue  of  his  peo- 
ple ;  and  for  a  spirit  of  judgment  to  Him  that  sitteth  in  judg- 
ment, and  for  strength  to  them  that  turn  the  battle  to  the  gate." 
In  Christ,  who  is  the  Head  of  the.  church,  are  hid  all  the  trea- 
sures of  wisdom  and  knowledge ;  He  knoweth  every  child  in  his 
family,  and  as  we  humbly  wait  upon  Him,  Ho  will,  by  the 
touches  of  his  finger,  quicken  us  for  service,  and  give  strength 
and  wisdom  to  perform  it. 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  459 

We  had  the  company  of  several  Friends  at  our  Monthly- 
Meeting  to-day,  whose  services  were  acceptable,  I  thought 
we  had  good  evidence  that  the  meeting  was  gathered  and  held 
under  the  authority  of  Truth,  and  the  business  transacted  in  the 
fear  of  the»Lord.  The  tendering  power  of  the  Holy  Spirit  was 
felt,  renewing  our  faith  a  little,  and  leading  us  to  trust  that  it 
might  be  regarded  as  a  token  of  Divine  kindness,  and  that  the 
blessed  Head  had  not  forsaken  us. 

Second  month.  Our  Quarterly  Meeting,  held  on  the  4th,  was 
one  of  the  largest  I  have  seen  in  that  house,  or  anywhere  else, 
and  was  covered  with  much  solemnity ;  a  qualification  being  re- 
ceived to  search  into  some  of  the  departures  from  our  testimo- 
nies, and  to  stand  firmly  for  their  importance  and  right  support. 

15th.  Went  down  to  Woodbur}-,  on  the  13th,  and  attended 
the  Select  Quarterly  Meeting.  Our  aged,  exemplary  and  ex- 
perienced friend  Hinchman  Haines,  was  also  there,  and  was 
engaged  in  testimony,  to  the  tendering  and  comfort  of  my 
spirit.  He  recited  part  of  the  conversation  between  our  Lord 
and  Philip,  when  the  latter  said,  "Show  us  the  Father  and 
it  suffitieth  us."  Christ  replied,  ''Have  I  been  so  long  time 
with  you,  and  hast  thou  not  known  me,  Philip  ?"  H.  H.  went 
on  to  speak  of  his  own  infirmities,  and  the  concern  he  often  felt, 
to  enquire  whether  he  was  in  the  right  path,  under  which  faith 
was  proved  when  light  was  withheld ;  but  he  believed  that 
though  the  Lord  hid  his  face  from  us,  and  He  might  not  see  fit 
to  appear  as  soon  as  we  desired,  yet  as  we  maintained  the 
watch  and  the  struggle,  He  would  manifest  Himself,  to  our  con- 
solation. This,  he  said,  was  his  belief;  and  his  frequent  desire 
was  to  know  whether  he  was  in  the  right  path,  though  he  was 
a  poor  creature. 

It  was  a  comfort  to  hear  doctrine  so  applicable  to  my  condi- 
tion, and  the  frequent  exercise  of  my  mind,  from  an  old  disciple, 
now  more  that  four  score  years  of  age.  I  hoped  it  was  an  evi- 
dence the  Lord  had  turned  my  feet  to  this  place,  to  be  thus  min- 
istered unto.  I  was  broken  down  into  tears  under  it,  in  such 
manner,  as  is  not  very  common  for  me,  and  I  desired  to  return 
thanks  to  the  Lord  for  his  mercy. 

Next  day  we  were  at  the  meeting  for  business.  Though  un- 
worthy, it  appeared  to  be  my  duty  to  bend  the  knee  in  vocal 
supplication  to  the  Father  of  mercies,  that  He  who  knew  all 
our  weaknesses  and  infirmities,  would  look  down  upon  us  in 


460  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

tender  compassion,  and  renew  that  blessed  faith  which  He  gave 
us  in  the  beginning  of  our  heavenly  journey  ;  and  by  his  Spirit 
and  power,  strengthen  us  to  keep  the  watch  and  maintain  the 
holy  warfare ;  so  that  nothing  might  be  permitted  to  cause  us 
to  slide  from  the  true  foundation,  and  thereby  bring  any  rejn-oach 
upon  the  pi-ofession  we  have  made  before  many  witnesses.  Also 
that  He  would  lay  his  hand  upon  the  children,  and  draw  them 
to  take  the  yoke  of  his  well-beloved  Son  upon  them,  and  follow 
Him  in  the  way  of  his  leading.  That  thus  a  multitude  might 
be  brought  to  support  the  doctrines  and  testimonies  which  He 
gave  our  forefathers  to  bear  before  the  world;  be  made  instru- 
mental in  spreading  his  kingdom  ;  and  ascribe  thanksgiving 
and  praise,  might,  majesty  and  dominion,  to  Him,  the  Lord  God 
and  the  Lamb ;  to  whom  alone  it  belongs,  now  and  forever- 
more.  This  afforded  me  some  relief,  and  a  little  hope,  that 
Divine  regard  and  mercy  were  continued. 

20th.  Having  for  some  time  felt  a  concern  to  pay  a  religious 
visit  to  the  meetings  of  Friends  in  New  Jersey,  I  spread  the 
subject  before  the  Monthly  Meeting  which  was  held  this  day; 
a  minute  was  granted  me  expressive  of  its  unity,  and  encourag- 
ing me  to  pursue  the  prospect  as  Truth  may  direct. 

On  first-day,  the  24th,  I  came  over  to  my  friend  S.  N.'s,  who 
had  agreed  to  take  me  to  some  of  the  meetings,  and  attended  that 
at  Haddonfield.  After  a  season  of  silent  waiting,  the  expres- 
sions of  the  apostle  came  before  me,  "As  it  is  appointed  unto 
men  once  to  die,  but  after  this  the  judgment :  so  Christ  was 
once  offered  to  bear  the  sins  of  many ;  and  unto  them  that  look 
for  Him  shall  He  appear  the  second  time  without  sin  unto  sal- 
vation." The  way  opened  to  preach  Christ  crucified,  without 
the  gates  of  Jerusalem,  as  the  propitiatory  sacrifice  for  the  sins 
of  all  mankind  ;  as  our  glorified  Mediator  and  Intei'cessor,  at  the 
right  hand  of  the  Father;  and  in  his  spiritual  appearance  in  the 
heai't,  as  the  refiner's  fii*e,  and  as  a  fuller  with  soap,  to  purify 
the  soul  and  prepare  it  for  Him,  the  Lord  of  life  and  glor}'-,  to 
dwell  in,  by  his  Spirit;  and  having  destroyed  the  works  of  the 
devil  there.  He  puts  an  end  to  sin  in  the  sanctified  believer,  and 
in  the  room  thereof,  brings  in  everlasting  righteousness. 

2.5th.  We  left  pretty  early  for  Burlington,  and  put  up  with 
our  l<i)jd  friend  Margaret  Smith.  I  left  home  under  feelings  of 
depression,  not  knowing  how  I  should  get  along  Avith  my  pro- 
posed visit;   but  I  kept  it  quietly  to  myself,  looking  to  and 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  461 

relying  upon  the  Lord  alone  for  help  and  preservation.  Tho 
Select  Quarterly  Meeting  was  passed  by  me  in  silence.  I  went 
to  the  meeting  next  morning  in  a  low  frame  of  mind.  After  a 
season  of  inward  retirement  before  the  Lord,  my  mind  became 
impressed  with  tho  importance  of  keeping  to  the  original  ground 
of  our  profession,  and  of  all  vital  religion  ;  a  reliance  on  the 
immediate  teaching  of  Christ  Jesus  in  the  heart,  by  his  Spirit. 
A  living  gospel  ministry  has  often  been  a  great  blessing;  but 
the  design  of  it  is  to  bring  people  to  Him,  who  alone  can  open 
to  them  their  conditions,  and  give  dominion  over  sin,  and  pre- 
pare for  the  reception  of  those  gifts  which  are  to  be  occupied  in 
his  church.  Many  eminent  men  and  women  [of  this  place,]  have 
been  gathered  to  their  everlasting  reward,  and  the  gifts  which 
they  occupied  here,  have  been  withdrawn  from  the  militant 
church.  Only  as  we  are  prepared  by  the  cleansing  power  of  Di- 
vine grace,  which  made  them  what  thej^  were,  will  the  present 
members  of  the  Society  be  brought  into  a  situation  to  be  intrusted 
with  spiritual  gifts.  Under  a  view  of  the  great  falling  away  from 
the  travail  of  soul,  and  the  lively  zeal  which  have  heretofore 
characterized  faithful  servants,  and  qualified  them  to  stand  for 
the  good  cause,  the  Lord  enabled  me  to  lay  open  the  state  of  the 
church,  and  to  labor  with  those  present,  for  a  restoration  of 
primitive  zeal  for  the  supports  of  the  great  cause,  that  He  raised 
up  our  Society  to  uphold,  and  to  spread  in  the  earth.  I  was 
humbly  thankful  for  the  Divine  aid  and  authority  vouchsafed  ; 
and  that  peace  and  satisfaction  clothed  my  spirit  in  the  work. 
The  glory  belongs  to  the  Lord  alone,  who  condescended  to  our 
low,  unworthy  states.  In  the  afternoon,  after  enjoying  the  com- 
pany of  several  dear  friends,  we  left  Burlington,  with  a  Friend, 
who  offered  to  pilot  us  to  Barnegat,  and  rode  six  or  seven  miles 
to  our  lodging-place. 

27th.  Our  journey  to  this  village  was  through  a  piney  wil- 
derness ;  some  of  it  mere  barrens,  and  few  dwellings  on  the 
road ;  the  distance  about  forty  miles.  We  got  to  J.  C.'s,  in  the 
afternoon  ;  and  notice  was  spread  that  evening  and  next  morn- 
ing, of  a  meeting  to  be  held  there.  In  meeting  with  this  fami- 
ly, I  felt  a  nearness  and  desire  for  their  best  welfare  ;  situated 
as  they  are,  with  little  opportunity  for  intercourse  with  Friends, 
but  few  of  whom  visit  them  from  a  religious  concern. 

28th.  Went  to  a  small  school-house,  where  the  Friends  hold 
their  meetings  for  worship ;  but  few  people  came  until  we  had 


462  JOURNAL  OF  WILLIAM   EVANS. 

been  there  half  an  hour ;  when  the  house  was  filled  by  the  in- 
habitants, who  were  returning  from  the  burial  of  a  young  man 
who  had  died  after  a  short  illness.  It  was  some  time  before  the 
company  became  settled,  and  then  they  sat  in  a  proper  manner. 
The  word  of  life  was  preached  to  them,  and  some  things  open- 
ed, concerning  the  temptations  to  which  man  is  exposed,  and 
the  means  of  salvation,  through  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ ;  and  the 
opportunity  closed  with  supplication  for  the  people  and  the  lit- 
tle remnant  of  Friends  in  this  place. 

We  had  a  short,  tendering  opportunity  with  J.  C.'s  family ; 
endeavoring  to  strengthen  them  to  greater  dedication ;  and 
parting  affectionately,  rode  to  Tuckerton,  twelve  miles. 

Third  month  1st,  During  the  night,  it  rained  hard,  and  the 
wind  was  ver}^  high  in  the  morning,  but  cleax'ing  off,  a  pretty 
large  collection  of  persons,  and  some  Friends,  came  together. 
It  seemed  as  if  nearly  all  were  carried  away  by  a  strong  cur- 
rent, into  the  spirit  and  fashions  of  the  world ;  so  that  there  ap- 
peared little  hope  that  a  succession  will  come  up  among  Friends. 
The  sensation  was  affecting,  in  beholding  plain  men  and  wo- 
men fallen  into  such  indifference  to  the  cause  of  Truth,  and  the 
preservation  of  their  children  in  plainness,  conformably  with 
our  religious  testimony ;  and  some  marrying  with  those  who 
are  not  of  us.  I  endeavored  to  discharge  myself  faithfully  on 
the  pernicious  effects  of  the  love  and  pursuit  of  wealth;  absorb- 
ing the  time  and  talents  bestowed  on  us  for  nobler  purposes,  and 
giving  indulgence  to  the  carnal  propensities  of  old  and  young. 
The  Friends  here  appeared  to  suffer  loss,  from  the  want  of  the 
beneficial  influences  of  religious  society,  fi'om  which  they  are 
much  separated;  and  probably  from  the  absence  of  faithful 
laborers  and  watchmen,  who  lived  formerly  in  these  parts,  or 
travelled  among  them  in  the  love  and  service  of  the  gospel. 
This  class  is  greatly  diminished,  and  the  love  of  ease  and  tlie 
comforts  of  home,  may  be  insidiously  binding  to  their  temporal 
enjoyments,  the  small  number  left ;  and  hindering  them  fi-ora 
that  devotion  and  zeal  in  the  Lord's  cause,  which  our  predeces- 
sors felt,  and  manifested  by  their  fervent,  painful  labors.  We 
dined  with  an  elder,  few  of  whose  children  looked  like  Friends, 
and  lodged  at  the  house  of  another  member,  whose  children  had 
no  appearance  of  Friends. 

2d.  We  rode  round  Little  Egg  Harbor  River,  to  a  tavern, 
nineteen  miles ;  fed  our  horses,  and  took  some  dinner.     Then 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVAXS.  463 

obtaining  directions  respecting  the  road,  S.  IST.  and  I  set  off, 
and  got  to  J.  L.'s  at  Leed's  Point,  between  three  and  four 
o'clock,  where  we  were  kindly  received  and  entertained.  The 
number  of  members  being  few,  and  the  meeting-house  small, 
and  not  in  very  good  repair,  often  they  are  much  discouraged 
from  attempting  to  hold  a  meeting  for  worship ;  but  latterly, 
through  the  visits  of  a  committee  of  the  Quarterly  Meeting, 
the  number  assembling  is  larger  than  it  was  a  few^  years  ago. 

3d.  The  morning  was  rainy  and  discouraging;  but  notice 
having  been  spread  of  our  coming,  the  men's  side  of  the  meet- 
ing-house was  pretty  well  filled ;  the  number  of  women  about 
twelve.  The  Lord  furnished  ability  to  preach  the  gospel  among 
them;  and  humble  pirayer  and  thanksgiving  were  offered  to 
Him,  for  his  goodness  and  mercy  to  us.  In  the  afternoon,  it 
snowed  and  rained,  with  a  high  wind,  the  storm  coming  from 
the  north-east ;  but  in  the  night  it  cleared  up  cold,  and  froze 
pretty  hard  before  morning.  We  passed  the  remainder  of  the 
day  with  our  friends,  and  had  a  little  religious  oj)portunity 
with  them  before  retiring  to  our  chamber. 

4th.  Eose  pretty  early,  and  after  breakfasting,  we  set  out 
westward,  and  rode  over  a  rough  road,  frozen  hard  in  some 
places,  about  eighteen  miles,  to  a  tavern  near  Pleasant  Mills. 
Here  we  obtained  directions  respecting  the  way,  which  lies 
much  through  a  piney  country,  not  thickly  settled,  along  the 
east  side  of  the  west  branch  of  Egg  Harbor  River,  to  Atsion 
Furnace,  and  thence  through  Medford  to  J.  E.  E.'s ;  the  whole 
distance  from  the  Point  being  about  forty-three  miles.  The 
latter  part  of  the  road  being  much  cut  up  with  heavy  w^agons, 
made  rough  travelling,  so  that  when  I  alighted  1  could  hardly 
stand.  Our  Friend  sent  over  to  B.  E.'s,  at  Easton,  requesting 
him  to  spread  notice  for  a  meeting  among  them  next  day.  I 
felt  satisfied  and  comfortable,  after  the  accomplishment  of  the 
visit  to  the  shore  meetings,  and  hoped  to  be  preserved  watch- 
ful and  inward  to  the  Master,  through  the  remainder  of  the 
work. 

5th.  A  pretty  full  meeting,  but  a  laborious  time  amongst 
them,  on  the  subject  of  the  love  of  the  world.  It  is  much  more 
desirable  to  be  commissioned  to  speak  peace  to  the  faithful, 
tribulated  disciples,  than  to  have  to  warn  the  worldly-minded 
of  their  inordinate  attachment  to  the  things  of  time,  and  the 
pernicious  influence  it  has,  in  destroying  the  love  for  heavenly 


464  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

things,  and,  consequent!}^,  the  -work  of  the  soul's  salvation. 
Dined  with  B.  E.,  and  in  the  afternoon,  visited  a  sick  Friend. 
Went  to  D.  W.'s,  at  Eancocas,  and  put  up  with  them. 

6th.  Attended  their  %veek-day  meeting,  which  was  pretty 
larcre,  althouji-h  the  weather  was  wet.  Soon  after  sittinf*;  down 
with  them,  some  expressions  of  the  evangelical  prophet,  which 
prefigure  the  great  change  wrought  in  the  temper,  and  appetites 
of  the  natural  man,  as  he  comes  under  the  renovating  power  of 
Divine  Grace,  came  before  me,  together  with  some  of  the  expres- 
sions of  James  Naj^lor,  when  near  the  close  of  his  life.  "  There 
is  a  spirit  that  I  feel,  which  delights  to  do  no  evil,  nor  to  re- 
venge any  wrong ;  but  delights  to  endui-e  all  things,  in  hope  to 
enjoy  its  own  in  the  end.  In  G-od  alone  it  can  rejoice,  though 
none  else  regard  it.  It  never  rejoiceth  but  through  suffering, 
for  with  the  world's  joys  it  is  murdered.  It  takes  its  kingdom 
by  entreaty,  and  not  with  contention,  and  keeps  it  by  lowliness 
of  mind."  The  prophet  says,  "  The  wolf  shall  dwell  with  the 
lamb,  and  the  leopard  shall  lie  down  with  the  kid,  and  the  calf, 
and  the  young  lion,  and  the  fatling  together;  and  a  little  child 
shall  lead  them."  Again,  "  Every  valley  shall  be  exalted,  and 
every  mountain  and  hill  shall  be  made  low;  and  the  crooked  shall 
be  made  straight,  and  the  rough  places  plain."  I  felt  raised  up  in 
the  Lord's  power,  to  show  that  the  humbling  operation  of  his 
Spirit,  as  submitted  to,  brings  down  the  lofty  spirit  and  the 
strong  passions,  and  softens  the  rough  nature  of  man,  so  that  he 
is  brought  into  the  Lamb-hke  nature;  and  a  little  child,  regen- 
erated by  the  same  grace,  shall  lead  him.  Here  there  is  a  har- 
monious walking  together  in  the  heavenly  fellowship  of  the 
gospel;  and  the  happiness  of  families,  and  of  religious  societj^,  is 
truly  promoted,  where  this  blessed  change  is  witnessed.  Help 
was  mercifully  granted  through  the  fresh  openings  of  the  Holy 
Spirit,  to  preach  the  gospel  in  its  authority ;  to  my  own  relief, 
and  I  hope,  to  the  comfort,  and  the  conviction  of  some,  of  the 
truth  of  what  was  delivered. 

Dined  at  A.  W.'s,  and  made  a  short  visit  to  Granville  Wool- 
man,  a  minister,  and  nephew  of  that  humble,  tribulatcd  follower 
of  Christ,  John  Woolman.  Took  tea  with  II.  W.  Before  leav- 
ing their  house,  I  felt  constrained  to  hold  up  to  them  the  re- 
sponsibility of  bi"inging  up  children  ;  the  necessity  of  laying  a 
restraining  hand  upon  them,  and  of  setting  them  such  an  ex- 
ample, that  nothing  may  appear  in  their  own  conduct  unsuitable 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  465 

for  the  children  to  copy  after.  Eeturued  to  D.  W.'s  after  dark, 
the  weather  still  wet. 

7th.  In  the  morning,  Avhen  about  time  to  set  oif  for  Mount 
Holly,  we  sat  down  Avith  our  friends,  and  I  had  a  word  of  con- 
solation and  peace  to  the  dear  aged  grandfather,  and  of  caution 
and  entreaty  to  the  parents  and  daughter,  to  come  more  and 
more  out  of  the  spirit  and  pursuit  of  the  world,  and  to  devote 
themselves  to  the  love  and  service  of  their  Ileavenl}'  Father.  It 
was  like  a  gentle  shower,  softening  our  hearts  before  the  Lord, 
and  causing  tears  to  drop  from  all  eyes.  My  companion  and  I 
left  them,  with  feelings  of  reciprocal  regard  and  affection.  The 
company  convened  at  the  meeting-house  was  small,  being  chiefl}'- 
members ;  but  the  preaching  of  the  gospel,  adapted  to  their 
states,  w^as  no  less  important,  than  in  great  congregations,  and 
I  hope  heavenly  help  was  granted  to  divide  the  word ;  so  that 
I  was  favored  to  relieve  myself  in  love,  amongst  them,  without 
daubing  with  untempered  mortar,  and  came  aw^ay  in  peace  ; 
thankful  to  the  Master  for  his  condescending  goodness.  B.  E. 
and  his  wife,  kindly  met  us  at  Mount  Holly,  w^ith  whom  we  re- 
turned to  their  house  and  dined.  Set  out  for  the  residence  of 
our  beloved,  aged  friend  Hinchman  Haines,  at  Evesham ;  with 
whom  I  wished  to  spend  some  time,  as  it  might  not  be  long  that 
such  an  opportunity  Avould  be  afforded.  He  was  free  and  open 
in  conversation,  chiefly  upon  the  welfare  of  the  Society,  which 
occupies  much  of  his  thought  and  concern. 

8th.  Went  to  Evesham  Monthly  Meeting ;  in  which  I  was 
again  favored,  through  the  unmerited  condescension  of  the 
Shepherd  of  Israel,  to  such  a  poor,  weak  creature,  to  hold 
forth  the  spiritual  nature,  and  inward  eflicacy  of  the  gospel. 
'•'  The  king's  daughter  is  all  glorious  within  ;  her  clothing  is  of 
wrought  gold."  This  is  figurative  of  the  robes  of  righteousness, 
with  which  the  members  of  the  body  and  church  of  Christ  are 
clothed  by  Him,  as  He  is  known  to  cleanse  the  heart,  and  divest 
us  of  the  filthj^  garments  of  sin.  There  was  a  word  of  encour- 
agement to  those  who  had  long  known  this  work,  and  who, 
through  the  Lord's  mercy,  were  built  upon  the  Rock,  and  Avere 
as  pillars;  or  if  they  persevered  in  well-doing,  would  be  made 
pillars,  that  should  go  no  more  out  of  his  house.  I  had  cause, 
gratefully  to  return  thanks  for  the  free  supply  of  things,  new 
and  old,  which  the  Master  granted  me  this  day.     The  business 


466  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

of  the  Monthly  Meeting  was  conducted  in  a  pretty  satisfactory 
manner. 

9th.  Was  held  the  Monthly  Meeting  at  Medford,  which  was 
large,  being  mostly  composed  of  exemplary  Friends ;  among 
whom  I  labored  in  gospel  love  to  awaken  some,  who  have  lost 
ground,  through  unfaithfulness,  and  suffering  their  minds  to  be 
absorbed  by  the  pursuit  of  worldly  things  ;  endeavoring  to  per- 
suade them  to  turn  away  from  that  which  hinders  a  growth  in 
the  Truth,  and  to  yield  to  the  fresh  visitations  of  Divine  Grace, 
that  they  may  be  restored  to  that  tenderness  of  spirit,  and  fer- 
vent desire  after  holiness,  which  they  once  knew.  Encourage- 
ment was  also  held  out  to  the  humble  followers  of  Christ,  to 
keep  to  Him,  and  under  a  daily  travail  for  themselves,  and  tho 
flock  around  them.  The  sitting  closed  with  supplication  for 
those  classes,  and  for  the  visited  children.  We  went  to  a  Friend's 
house  to  dine,  where  we  met  with  our  dear  friend  Lydia  Stokes, 
a  pillar,  and  an  exercised  member  in  the  church. 

In  the  evening  we  rode  to  Joseph  Evans',  of  Cropwell,  where 
we  lodged.  They  entertained  us  very  pleasantly,  being  lovers 
of  the  truth,  and  the  friends  of  truth. 

10th.  The  morning  was  fine,  and  it  being  first-day,  a  pretty 
large  company  convened  at  Cropwell ;  to  whom  the  doctrine  of 
the  law  written  in  the  heart,  according  to  the  new  covenant, 
promised  through  Jeremiah,  was  opened.  When  Christ  came, 
He  said,  "  My  sheep  hear  my  voice."  After  his  ascension,  one 
of  his  apostles  declared,  "  Ye  have  an  unction  from  the  Holy 
One,  and  ye  know  all  things:"  and,  "Ye  need  not  that  any  man 
teach  you ;  but  as  the  same  anointing  teacheth  you  of  all  things, 
and  is  truth  and  is  no  lie,  and  even  as  it  hath  taught  you,  ye 
shall  abide  in  Him."  These  show  the  nature  of  the  gospel  re- 
ligion ;  and  it  is  only  by  yielding  to  the  law  made  known  in 
the  inward  parts,  by  this  Divine  Teacher,  that  we  can  become 
the  sheep  of  Christ,  and  members  of  his  church.  There  seemed 
to  be  those  present,  who  had  need  to  be  taught  the  first  pi-inci- 
ples  of  the  gospel,  and  to  be  brought  to  the  beginning  point  of 
all  saving  knowledge.  It  was  not  a  very  animating  season  to 
me. 

We  dined  at  J.  H.'s,  where  we  had  the  company  of  several 
Friends ;  drawn  together,  in  part,  from  sympathy  with  him  and 
his  wife,  who  had  lately  lost  their  only  daughter,  whose  end  was 
precious.     Before  leaving  them,  we  had  a  religious  opportunity, 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVAXb.  4G7 

in  which  resignation  to  the  will  of  rrovidenee,  and  an  earnest 
engagement  to  come  np  in  our  respective  allotments,  to  tho 
Lord's  honor,  Avas  alTeotiouaLcly  pressed  upon  all  present.  Eodo 
to  the  home  of  my  eompanioi),  and  was  kindly  received  by  his 
dear  wife. 

11th.  Attended  Iladdonfield  Monthly  Meeting  in  silence, 
during  the  first  sitting.  There  is  need  of  more  religions  depth 
and  feeling  in  many,  to  qualify  them  for  service  in  the  church. 
There  appear  to  be  few,  comparatively',  who  live  in  that  daily 
exercise,  and  walk  in  the  Spirit,  which  would  fit  them  to  judge 
a  right  judgment.  The  present  state  of  the  Society,  calls  for  a 
more  fervent  travail,  on  the  part  of  those  who  are  sensible  of  it, 
and  a  more  united  application  to  the  Great  Head  of  the  church, 
for  wisdom  and  strength  to  labor  for  a  reformation  among  us. 
But  the  benumbing  effect  of  the  love  of  this  world  on  some, 
seems  to  render  such  reformation,  in  their  cases,  almost  hopeless. 
I  was  very  low  in  spirit  throughout  the  day  ;  no  doubt  needful 
to  renew  a  fresh  sense  of  the  nothingness  of  man,  however  ho 
may  have  been  divinely  favored.  In  the  afternoon,  sat  with  the 
few  select  members  in  their  Preparative  Meeting,  which  was 
held  at  the  home  of  Elizabeth  Eedman,  in  consequence  of  her 
inability  to  leave  the  house.  It  was  rather  a  comforting  oppor- 
tunity, and  grateful  to  her,  as  she  had  been  but  little  at  meeting, 
since  the  last  Quarter. 

12th.  Went  to  Moorestown,  and  attended  Chester  Monthly 
Meeting  there.  The  humbling  feelings  I  had  passed  through, 
prepared  me  for  the  reception  of  some  openings  into  the  states 
of  those  present ;  and  the  Lord  gave  matter,  and  understanding, 
and  authority,  to  hand  it  to  them,  in  meekness  and  true  charity; 
dividing  the  word  to  different  conditions.  It  was  his  own  work, 
and  I  was  thankful  for  his  condescending  goodness  and  mercy 
to  me,  a  poor  creature ;  and  to  others  also,  who  were  present. 
Several  expressed  their  unity  and  satisfaction  when  my  minute 
was  read. 

13th.  Was  the  Select  Quarterly  Meeting,  which  was  less  in 
number  than  usual. 

14th.  In  the  first  meeting  to  day,  it  opened  before  me,  that 
to  be  a  watchman  on  the  walls  of  Zion,  had  a  double  meaning. 
First,  to  have  our  loins  girded  and  light  burning,  watching  over 
ourselves ;  waiting  for  the  coming  of  our  Lord  to  show  us  his 
will,  and  to  give  strength  to  perform  it.     Secondly,  being  thus 


468  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

disciplined  in  the  school  of  Christ,  so  as  to  distinguish  his  voice 
from  that  of  the  stranger,  we  are  prepared  to  watch  over  others, 
and  to  receive  the  command  to  warn  the  flock  of  surrounding 
dangers.  Many  things,  in  reference  to  a  growth  in  Divine  Grace, 
were  handed  to  the  people  ;  and  backsliders  were  persuaded  to 
forsake  their  evil  ways,  and  turn  to  the  Lord;  and  old  and 
young  were  encouraged  to  keep  to  the  guidance  of  the  Captain 
of  salvation.  If  obedience  is  yielded  to  his  blessed  will,  by  the 
younger  members  of  our  Society,  we  may  safely  hope  that  gifts 
will  be  dispensed  to  them ;  that  the  waste  places  will  be  restor- 
ed, and  the  revival  of  that  Divine  life  and  power,  experienced 
amongst  us,  which  has  been  the  strength,  the  dignity  and  au- 
thority of  the  living  members,  and  which  rendered  the  Society 
a  bright  examj)le  of  the  christian  virtues  to  other  professors. 

There  appeared  to  be  a  warm  feeling  of  unity  and  kindness 
amongst  Friends.  After  dining  at  S.  N.'s,  I  returned  to  my  own 
habitation,  being  satisfied  with  the  visit  so  far  as  accomplished. 

15th.  My  object  in  coming  to  the  city  at  this  time,  was  to 
attend  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  which  convened  this  day. 
An  attempt  having  been  made,  in  the  Pennsylvania  Legislature, 
to  rej^eal  several  important  sections  of  the  law  of  1847,  enacted 
to  prevent  kidnapping,  &c.,  the  subject  was  taken  under  deliber- 
ation by  the  meeting,  and  referred  to  a  committee,  to  ascertain 
what  was  likely  to  be  done  by  the  legislature ;  and  if  they  be- 
lieved it  necessary,  to  prepare  a  remonsti'ance  against  the  pro- 
posed repeal. 

Memorials  for  our  dear  friends,  Margaret  Hutchinson  and 
Sarah  Emlen,  were  received,  and  placed  under  the  inspection  of 
a  committee.  The  reading  of  them  brought  comfortable  feelings 
over  the  meeting,  and  it  was  a  satisfactory  sitting. 

17th.  At  our  own  meeting  on  first-day,  I  felt  bound  to  testify 
to  the  continued  presence  of  the  Saviour  with  his  disciples,  down 
to  this  day,  as  they  kept  their  faith  in  Ilim  ;  even  when  their 
eyes  might  be  withholden  from  discovering  his  presence ;  as 
those  of  his  disciples  formerly  were,  at  times,  when  He  was  with 
them  in  the  prepared  bod3^  After  He  has  proved  us,  He  will 
show  Himself  to  the  longing  soul,  and  satisfy  it  with  his  good- 
ness, and  clothe  with  fresh  strength  to  do  his  will  in  all  things. 

22d.  The  Meeting  for  Sufferings  was  again  convened,  to  con- 
sider a  draft  of  a  memorial  to  the  State  Legislature  against  the 
proposal  to  rescind  Yyixvia  of  the  law  to  prevent  kidna])ping.    It 


JOURNAL    OF   AVILLIAM    EVANS.  469 

vras  twice  read,  and  after  a  few  alterations  was  adopted,  and  the 
cotnuiittee  directed  to  present  it  to  both  branches;  also  to  fur- 
ni^<h  every  member  of  the  Legislature  with  a  pi-inted  copy. 

24th.  Being  first-day,  I  went  to  Newtown  meeting,  notice 
having  been  spread  of  my  intention  of  being  there.  It  was  an 
exercising  meeting  to  me  ;  the  life  of  religion  being  but  little  in 
dominion  in  the  hearts  of  many  Avho  were  there.  But  after  a 
time  of  silent  waiting,  I  endeavored  to  discharge  myself,  in 
warning  them  of  the  fearful  consequences  of  continued  rebellion 
against  the  visitations  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  which,  if  persisted  in 
to  the  end,  must  separate  the  soul  from  the  Divine  harmony,  to 
mingle  with  the  lost  and  fallen  spirits,  in  a  state  of  endless 
misery.  The  joys  of  an  inheritance  among  the  saints  in  light, 
were  also  pointed  to,  as  the  blessed  reward  of  the  righteous;  as 
well  as  the  sweet,  sustaining  peace,  from  obedience  to  Christ,  in 
our  passage  through  life. 

25th.  Went  to  my  beloved  friend's  G.  and  M.  Mickle,  and 
next  day  attended  Woodbury  Monthly  Meeting,  which  was  small. 
Eenewed  ability  was  furnished  to  labor,  in  the  love  and  author- 
ity of  the  gospel,  to  draw  Friends  to  greater  faithfulness  to 
Christ.  In  the  afternoon  rode  down  to  Salem  with  Geo.  Mickle, 
where  we  were  kindly  received  by  our  worthy  friend  Martha 
Wistar,  and  next  day  were  at  the  Monthly  Meeting  ;  which  is 
also  a  small  company.  After  dinner,  the  weather  being  wintry, 
George  and  I  rode  to  Greenwich,  and  put  up  with  my  cousins, 
George  and  Naomi  Bacon. 

28th.  Went  to  their  Monthly  Meeting ;  which  was  rather 
exercising  to  me,  yet  not  without  comfort.  There  are  rightly 
concerned  Friends  belonging  to  it,  who  desire  the  prosperity  of 
truth.  Called  afterward  at  our  aged  and  afiiicted  friend's  John 
Sheppard,  now  confined  by  a  complication  of  diseases.  Sit- 
ting in  his  chamber,  the  way  opened  to  hold  forth  the  doctrine, 
of  becoming  as  a  little  child,  preparatory  to  experiencing  the 
kingdom  of  heaven  to  be  set  up  in  the  heart,  and  an  entrance 
into  it  administered  in  the  world  to  come.  When  we  are  hum- 
bled into  a  sense  of  our  nothingness,  and  receive  the  gift  of 
repentance,  though  our  past  transgressions  may,  at  times,  seem 
to  come  before  us  as  a  cloud,  or  even  as  a  thick  cloud,  yet  having 
loved  the  Lord  and  his  cause,  we  have  ground  to  hope  that  he 
will  regard  us  in  our  low,  humble  condition,  and  forgive  them, 
for  his  name  and  his  dear  Son's  sake.  It  was  a  contriting  op- 
31 


470  JOURNAL    OF    "WILLIAM    EVAN'S. 

portunitr  to  nearly  all  present.  The  snow  made  travelling 
slavish  for  the  horse,  so  that  we  were  about  three  hours  goini^ 
twelve  miles,  to  Alloways  Town,  where  we  put  up  with  a  Friend 
for  the  night. 

29th.  Accompanied  by  our  friends,  we  rode  to  Woodstown, 
and  attended  a  meeting  appointed  to  be  held  in  a  Friend's  house. 
The  company  was  small,  the  former  members  having  very  gen- 
erally gone  with  the  separatists.  I  had  much  to  communicate, 
on  the  fruits  of  obedience  to  Divine  grace,  and  on  some  of  the 
doctrines  of  the  gospel ;  wai'ning  them  against  the  spirit  of  in- 
fidelity, that  is  stalking  abroad  in  the  country.  The  meeting 
closed  with  prayer  for  our  preservation  from  the  temptations  that 
surround  us.  Dined  with  S.  L.  and  several  other  Friends,  and 
before  we  left,  I  endeavored  to  encourage  them  to  keep  to  their 
religous  meetings,  though  small,  both  for  their  own  benefit,  and 
that  of  the  young  people.  Set  ofi"  for  Woodbury,  and  called  to 
see  our  aged  friend  Eebecca  Hubbs ;  confined  from  the  effects 
of  paralysis.  She  is  an  extraordinary  instance  of  the  j^ower  of 
Divine  grace,  in  preparing  one  of  little  knowledge,  who  has  been 
faithful  to  its  teachings,  for  usefulness  in  the  church  ;  and  having 
received  a  o-ift  in  the  ministrv,  enablint;  her  at  times  to  exercise 
it  in  an  extraordinary  manner.  Though  her  voice  was  affected 
by  disease,  she  spoke  of  the  many  favors  that  had  been  con- 
ferred upon  her;  for  which  she  said  she  was  afraid  she  had  not 
been  sufficiently  thankful.  I  had  a  li  ttle  encouragement  for  her  ; 
expressing  the  belief  that  the  covenant  of  life,  and  of  peace,  would 
be  Avith  the  Lord's  faithful  children,  wiiich  He  would  give  them, 
for  the  fear  wherewith  they  feared  Him,  and  were  afraid  before 
his  name.  And  though  she  might  pass  through  much  weakness 
and  stripping,  I  trusted  that  lie,  who  had  been  with  and  sup- 
ported her  in  days  past,  would  mercifully  grant  the  evidence, 
before  the  end  came,  that  a  mansion  was  prepared  for  her.  She 
was  comforted  by  our  visit.  We  went  on  our  way  pleasantly, 
the  road  from  Swedesborough  being  good,  and  got  to  G.  Mickle's 
towards  evening,  which  is  an  agreeable  tarr^-ing  place.  Next 
morning  I  went  in  the  stage  to  Red  Bank,  and  taking  the  steam- 
boat, reached  home  well  and  peaceful. 

Fourth  month.  As  our  Yearly  Meeting  draws  on,  my  mind 
has  been  clothed  with  sadness;  leading  me  to  anticipate  suftering 
and  danger,  unless  the  Master,  by  his  invisible  power,  interpose! 
to  defeat  the  insidious  workings  of  the  unwearied  enemy,  who 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  471 

is  watching  to  destroy  our  Society.  Our  refuge  is  in  the  mercy 
and  goodness  of  the  Lord  Almighty  ;  who  only  can  preserve  his 
church,  and  exalt  his  own  Name  and  power,  enabling  his  people 
to  praise  Him  for  his  wonderful  works  to  the  children  of  men. 
;  12th.  Was  held  our  JVIeeting  for  Sufferings,  which  was  sat- 
isfactory, largely  attended  by  the  members,  and  some  Friends 
from  other  Yearly  Meetings. 

13th.  The  Yearly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders  was  small, 
showing  the  gradual  diminution  of  this  class  among  us.  My 
sister,  Hannah  Ehoads,  was  liberated  for  the  pui-pose  of  visiting 
Friends,  in  some  parts  of  Great  Britain  and  Ireland,  with  which 
a  good  deal  of  unity  was  expressed.  I  was  low,  mourning  over 
the  desolated  state  of  the  Society,  and  the  thinness  of  our  ranks ; 
as  well  as  the  want  of  that  degi-ee  of  life  and  spiritual  strength, 
which  have  characterized  faithful,  experienced  Friends  in  for- 
mer days. 

15th.  Our  Yearly  Meeting  was  opened  to  day,  and  was  very 
large. 

Fifth  month  23d.  Crossed  the  river  and  went  to  Haddon field, 
and  attended  their  week-day  meeting,  which  was  small.  It 
came  before  me  pretty  soon,  that  there  were  many  up  and  down, 
who,  though  they  made  little  noise  in  the  religious  world,  are 
sincere  seekers  of  the  truth  ;  sitting  often  at  the  feet  of  Jesus, 
and  craving  for  themselves  heavenly  bread  and  preservation, 
from  Him.  I  believed  that  His  gracious  eye  regarded  these  in 
their  solitary  dwellings,  and  He  answered  their  sincere  petitions  ; 
and  that  of  this  description,  there  were  those  present,  whose 
encouragement  and  strength  in  the  way  of  their  duty,  I  desired. 
Although  the  support  of  their  religious  meetings  may  often  be 
felt  to  be  laborious,  and  they  are  sometimes  disappointed  in  receiv- 
ing the  spiritual  comfort  they  desire,  yet  as  they  keep  faithful, 
the  Lord  would  send  them  help  from  his  sanctuary.  I  believe 
the  poor  in  spirit  were  a  little  cheered  by  the  unexpected  call  of 
a  visitor,  and  they  were  hearty  in  their  salutations  at  the  close. 
Dined  with  S.  N.,  and  made  agreement  with  him  to  accompany 
me  to  the  remaining  meetings  in  New  Jersey. 

27th.  Went  to  S.  N.'s,  and  next  morning  we  rode  to  Bur- 
lington, and  attended  the  Quarterly  Meeting,  which  I  sat  through 
in  silence.  There  being  but  little  business  in  the  second  meet- 
ing, it  closed  with  a  short  sitting.  In  the  afternoon  we  rode  to 
John  Bishoj)'s  and  lodged. 


472  JOURNAL   or   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

29th.  l^otice  having  been  given  at  the  Quarterly  Meeting, 
we  had  a  meeting  at  Mansfield  ;  in  which  ability  was  given  to 
preach  the  gospel,  and  to  invite  the  people  to  believe  in  the 
Lord  Jesus  Christ,  not  only  as  He  is  our  glorified  Redeemer 
and  Intercessor,  at  the  right  hand  of  the  Father,  but  also  as  He 
appears  in  the  heart,  by  his  Sj)irit;  to  purge  away  sin  by  the  ad- 
ministration of  judgment,  and  his  x"efining  fire,  so  as  to  prepai'o 
man  to  hold  communion  with  his  Maker,  and  to  follow  Him  in 
all  his  requirings.  The  meekness  and  lowliness  of  Christ,  and  the 
gentleness  with  which  He  deals  with  those  who  are  brought  to 
obey  Him,  and  our  duty  to  follow  his  example,  were  a  little  set 
forth.  After  dining,  we  rode  to  Crosswicks,  and  put  up  with  J. 
M.  and  wife. 

30th.  Attended  their  usual  mid-week  meeting;  at  which 
some  not  members  were  present.  I  was  led  to  open  the  spiritual, 
practical  nature  of  the  religion  of  the  Lord  Jesus;  which  is  not 
designed  to  amuse  the  head,  but  to  change  the  heart ;  and  that 
some  had  need  of  experiencing  this  eftect  upon  them,  rather 
than  indulge  in  speculation  in  relation  to  religion,  while  they 
keep  aloof  from  its  heart-changing  power.  There  were  serious 
persons  j^resent,  to  whom  I  hoped  the  opportunity  would  be 
strengthening,  as  well  as  to  those,  upon  whom  chiefly  rested  the 
weight  of  keeping  up  a  meeting  there.  On  our  way  to  Trenton, 
we  called  on  a  Friend  who  had  recently  lost  his  wife.  The  cir- 
cumstance reminded  me  of  the  similar  trial  through  which  I 
passed,  and  which  preceded,  a  short  time,  my  first  appearance  in 
the  ministry.  We  had  a  tendering  oj^portunity  just  before  leav- 
ing; in  which  the  great  importance  of  making  a  right  use  of 
the  talents  the  Great  Creator  has  endowed  us  with,  for  his  glory, 
the  good  of  our  own  souls  and  of  his  people,  was,  in  love  and 
sympathy,  spread  before  them  ;  particularly  directed  to  the  be- 
reaved husband.  They  appeared  satisfied  with  the  little  oppor- 
tunity, and  we  parted  in  mutual  aff'ection.  We  went  on  our 
way  peacefully,  and  got  to  our  friend  Ann  Kaighn's  at  Trenton 
before  dusk,  and  were  kindly  received. 

31st.  Had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Trenton  this  morning, 
with  the  members  and  a  few  others ;  in  which,  under  feelings 
of  tenderness  and  sympathy  towards  the  little  company,  who 
are  endeavoring  to  maintain  the  standard  of  truth  and  righteous- 
ness in  this  city,  I  was  led  to  hold  up  the  necessity  of  keeping 
the  watch  against  the  snares  of  an  insidious  enemy;  and  to 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  473 

warn  them  of  the  liability  of  losing  a  good  condition,  without 
it.  I  was  also  bowed  in  supplication  for  them,  that  through  all 
the  trials  of  this  uncertain  life,  they  might  know  the  Divine 
arm  to  be  underneath,  and  their  faith  renewed  from  season  to 
season,  and  in  the  end,  through  the  Lord's  preserving  power 
and  goodness,  we  might  be  gathered  into  a  mansion  of  rest, 
where  we  may  unite  with  the  sanctified  of  all  generations,  in 
ascribing  thanksgiving  and  praise  to  the  Lord  God  and  the 
Lamb,  world  without  end;  who  are  forever  worthy.  It  was  a 
solemn  op]>ortunit3^,  and  I  hope  profitable. 

After  dining,  we  went  in  company  with  some  Friends  to  Stony 
brook,  and  had  a  meeting  at  four  o'clock,  with  Friends  and  others 
who  usually  meet  there.  The  number  of  the  former  was  very 
small,  few  bearing  the  appearance  of  Friends.  The  condition  of 
some,  who  had  once  known  the  Day-Spring  from  on  high,  and 
been  brought  into  the  love  of  Christ,  but  were  now  in  a  different 
state,  was  spoken  to.  The  impossibility  of  anything  that  man 
could  invent  and  substitute,  giving  life  to  the  soul,  and  bringing 
it  to  the  saving  knowledge  of  God  and  of  his  son  Jesus  Christ, 
not  even  the  Scriptures,  but  Christ  himself,  by  the  immediate 
operation  and  revelation  of  his  own  Spirit,  were  clearly  declared 
unto  them.  The  doctrine  of  the  Saviour,  that  to  enter  the  king- 
dom of  heaven,  we  must  become  as  a  little  child;  in  which  state 
we  are  prepared  to  be  taught  of  Him,  and  in  which  true  greatness 
consists,  was  enforced.  It  was  not  a  season  of  much  rejoicing, 
though  I  trust  some  were  brought  under  religious  feeling ;  and 
I  left  them  with  a  quiet  mind.  The  next  morning  we  set  out 
for  Eahway,  which  we  reached  early  in  the  afternoon,  and  took 
up  our  lodgings  at  Joseph  D.  Shotwell's. 

Sixth  month  2d.  Attended  their  first-day  meeting  ;  in  which 
there  was  a  qualification  vouchsafed,  to  search  Jerusalem  as  with 
candles,  and  to  warn  some  of  the  danger  they  were  exposed  to, 
through  an  eager  pursuit  of  the  world,  and  being  drawn  into  an 
alliance  with  its  fashions  and  customs ;  as  well  as  from  the  in- 
fluence of  other  spirits,  who  are  at  enmity  with  the  cross  of 
Christ,  while  professing  a  respect  for  religion.  Thej'  were  re- 
minded, that  while  we  might  be  courteous,  as  a  Christian  is 
bound  to  be,  that  love  without  obedience  is  of  little  more  worth 
than  faith  without  works.  Our  Lord  declared,  "  If  a  man  love 
me,  he  will  keep  my  words,  and  my  Father  will  love  him,  and 
we  will  come  unto  him,  and  make  our  abode  with  him."     It  is 


474  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

only  by  obedience  to  the  grace  of  Christ  Jesus,  that  the  heart 
can  be  changed  and  sanctified,  and  thus  prepared  for  the  Lord, 
to  dwell  in,  by  his  Spirit.  The  matter  being  furnished,  flowed 
freely,  and  many  truths  of  the  evei-lasting  gospel  were  clearly 
opened.  The  spirit  of  supplication  being  felt,  prayer  was  put 
up.  The  minds  of  some  were  tenderly  wrought  upon ;  but  a  few 
of  the  worldly  young  men,  though  respectful,  appeared  to  cast 
off  or  lightly  esteem  the  obligations  of  religion,  and  the  simpli- 
city of  its  character  and  requirings. 

We  returned  to  J.  D.  Shotwell's,  and  before  leaving,  several 
Friends  being  there,  a  little  opportunity  presented,  to  remind 
some,  of  the  responsibility  of  the  stations  they  occupied.  To 
them  the  young  people  looked  for  examples,  and  the  need  there 
is,  to  draw  them  to  Christ,  by  their  conduct  and  spirits,  that 
they  too  may  learn  of  Him. 

3d.  Word  having  been  sent  for  a  meeting  at  Plainfield,  on 
second-day  afternoon,  H.  W.  piloted  us  there.  We  dined  at  our 
very  kind  and  hospitable  friend's,  N.  Vail.  The  meeting,  com- 
posed chiefly  of  persons  not  Friends,  was  not  a  very  lively  one 
to  me;  yet  I  endeavored  to  discharge  what  appeared  to  be  my 
duty. 

4th.  The  weather,  after  being  cool  for  the  time  of  year,  was 
fine  to-day;  and  though  warm,  we  got  to  Trenton  about  one 
o'clock,  and  crossed  the  Delaware.  Next  morning,  riding  to 
Bristol,  we  crossed  in  a  steamboat  to  Burlington,  and  proceeded 
to  our  friend  Henry  Warrington's,  at  Westfield.  Here  we  were 
received  with  his  usual  kindness;  there  being  few  who  are 
more  thoroughly  sincere  in  their  attentions  to  their  friends,  than 
he  is.  He  is  a  true  lover  of  the  truth,  and  of  the  friends  of 
truth,  and  heartily  devoted  to  serve  them  and  the  blessed  cause 
of  the  Bcdoemer.  I  regard  him  as  a  pattern  of  Christian  polite- 
ness and  humility,  without  ostentatious  display.  In  the  after- 
noon, he  took  us  to  see  our  friend  Samuel  Leeds,  with  whom 
we  had  cheerful  I'cligious  converse. 

6th.  Attended  the  usual  mid-week  meeting.  The  language 
passed  through  my  mind  pretty  early  after  sitting  down,  Is 
there  any  growth  in  the  Truth  among  you?  I  hoped  that 
among  so  many  goodly  looking  Friends,  it  might  be  answered 
in  the  affirmative,  yet  felt  a  fear  it  was  not  so  fully  the  case  a;* 
ought  to  be.  The  Master,  I  trust,  qualified  to  enter  a  little  into 
the  state  of  the  meeting,  and  to  show  that  those  who  are  faith- 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  475 

fill  in  a  little,  will  be  made  rulers  over  more ;  and  will  be  fav- 
ored to  see  the  beauty,  order  and  strength  of  the  church  of 
Christ,  the  Lamb's  wife ;  and  as  they  persevere,  receive  gifts  to 
be  occupied  in  their  respective  places,  to  bis  honor,  and  the 
benefit  one  of  another.  The  exei'cise  of  parents  for  the  ever- 
lasting welfare  of  their  children,  on  whose  account,  as  they 
rightly  value  the  salvation  of  their  own  souls,  their  prayers  and 
tears  will  often  be  poured  forth,  was  spread  before  them,  and 
the  tendering  power  of  the  Holy  Spirit  appeared  to  be  over 
some.  Samuel  Leeds  closed  the  opportunity  with  supplication 
for  Divine  preservation  for  us  all,  and  with  thanksgiving  to  our 
Heavenly  Father,  for  the  renewed  visitation  of  his  goodness  at 
this  time.  I  w^as  clothed  with  weakness,  and  a  sense  of  unwor- 
thiness,  yet  hoped  the  pure  mind  was  stirred  up  in  not  a  few. 

We  returned  to  our  friend  H.  Warrington's  ;  and  after  dinner, 
my  kind  and  attentive  companion  S.  N.  took  me  down  to  Cam- 
den, where  we  parted,  with  increased  affection  for  each  other. 
I  then  crossed  the  Delaware  to  my  own  home,  where  I  found  my 
beloved  wife  and  fiimily  in  good  health,  and  glad  to  receive  me. 
The  feeling  of  sweet  peace  clothed  my  mind,  with  gratitude  to 
the  Lord  for  his  preserving  power,  and  the  ability  which  He 
furnished  for  the  work  whereunto  I  believed  He  had  called  me. 

9Lh.  First-day  morning  we  had  our  friend  Samuel  Bettle, 
Sr.,  to  minister  to  us.  Parts  of  his  communication  were  parti- 
cularly instructive,  and  of  a  practical  nature.  My  dear  wife 
followed  him  in  fervent  supplication,  and  I  hoped  the  Truth  did 
not  lose  ground  among  us. 

12th.  Emptiness  and  poverty  have  been  my  portion,  accom- 
panied with  mournful  reflections  upon  the  state  of  our  religious 
Society.  Will  not  the  Lord  have  compassion  upon  us,  and  turn 
our  hearts  more  to  one  another,  with  unfeigned  love,  and  prayer 
for  defence  from  the  stratagems  of  the  enemy ;  whereby  he  i--? 
constantly  Ij'ing  in  wait,  to  beguile  from  the  innocency  of  the 
Truth,  that  he  ma}*  lay  us  waste  individually  and  as  a  peojile ! 

Ai"ise,  O  Lord,  thou  and  the  ark  of  thy  strength.  Let  thy 
priests  be  clothed  with  righteousness  ;  and  cause  thy  saints  once 
more  to  shout  for  joy,  because  thou  hast  taken  the  government 
into  thy  hands,  and  rebuked  the  enemy,  and  brought  us  to  see 
eye  to  eye  in  thy  light. 

23d.  Went  to  our  son-in-law's.  Bear  Grermantown,  and  lodg- 
ed ;  and  next  morning  my  wife  and  myself  went  with  them  to  G. 


476  JOURNAL   OF   WILLTAM    EVANS. 

S.'s,  and  attended  Abing-tou  Monthly  Meeting.  Tlie}'  are  a  small 
compan}^  but  mostly  sincerel}-  attached  to  our  testimonies,  and 
in  their  lives  show  their  desire  to  support  them.  Ihe  s])ring 
of  the  ministry  was  opened  for  their  comfort  and  admonition  ; 
that  the}^  might  not  be  deterred  from  faithfully  pursuing  their 
dut}',  eitlier  through  discouragement,  or  the  attractions  of 
worldly  things.  They  were  reminded  of  Friends  being  a  small 
company  at  their  commencement ;  but  waiting  patiently  uj)on 
the  Lord,  they  grew  in  the  Truth,  and  received  gifts  to  edify 
one  another,  and  gather  many  to  the  fold  of  Christ.  The  visit 
appeared  to  be  acceptable,  and  we  rode  back  to  Grermantowu. 

26th.  Our  Monthly  Meeting  was  held  to-day  ;  at  which  T 
returned  the  minute  furnished  for  visiting  the  meetings  of  New 
Jerse}',  and  informed  Friends  the  service  had  been  accomplished, 
to  the  jjeace  and  satisfaction  of  my  own  mind;  having  been  at 
all  the  meetings  but  one. 

In  the  evening  we  again  went  to  Germantown,  and  next 
morning  were  taken  to  Gwynedd,  where  we  attended  the  Month- 
ly Meeting.  A  committee  of  the  Quarterly  Meeting  was  there, 
appointed,  in  conseqnence  of  their  reduced  state,  to  aid  them  in 
the  management  of  the  business.  Tlie  women's  meeting  is  much 
larger  than  the  men's,  and  they  were  without  such  aid.  I 
thought  a  fresh  qnalification  was  granted  for  preaching  thegos- 
])el  to  them.  The  business  Avas  conducted  suitably,  though  but 
few  to  speak  to  it.  We  dined  with  J.  S.'s  widow,  and  two  sis- 
ters, who  received  and  entertained  us  with  much  cordiality. 

28lh.  My  dear  sister  H.  Khoads  came  to  town,  in  order  to  pro- 
ceed to  New  York,  to  embark  for  Liverpool,  on  her  religious  visit 
to  Friends.  In  the  evening  after  taking  tea  with  her  and  others, 
at  my  brother  Charles',  several  Friends  came  in  ;  which  furnish- 
ed an  opportunity  for  feelings  of  sympathy  with  her,  and  of 
imparting  to  one  another  the  word  of  comfort  and  caution,  in 
which  Samuel  Bettle,  Sr.,  and  several  others  participated.  We 
hoped  the  retrospect  woidd  be  satisfactory  to  her  in  a  distant 
land,  as  it  was  grateful  to  us,  to  part  under  such  feelings. 

29th.  H.  Ehoads,  and  Elizabeth  Peirson,  her  companion, 
with  several  of  their  relatives  and  friends,  went  in  the  early 
morning  line  to  New  York,  where  the  shi})  lay  in  Avhich  they 
were  to  sail  for  England.  We  were  disappointed  in  finding  she 
had  fallen  below  the  cit}",  so  that  Ave  could  not  see  them  on  boai'd, 
without  going  down  the  bay,  and  not  return  until  after  night. 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  477 

J.  Ehoads  and  T.  Evans  accompanied  them,  takin^,^  the  risk  of 
being  detained  in  the  night.  They  got  back  to  Xew  York  in 
the  evening,  leaving  our  friends  pretty  cheerful ;  and  the  rest 
of  the  company  reached  Philadelphia  about  nine  o'clock  the  same 
evening.     The  ship  got  under  weigh,  we  suppose,  next  morning. 

Seventh  month  4th.  This  morning,  before  rising,  there  seem- 
ed to  be  a  gentle  pointing  to  the  Arch  Street  Meeting,  where  I 
had  not  been  since  the  Quarterly  Meeting.  When  there  the  life 
was  low,  and  I  felt  borne  down  with  discouraging  thoughts ; 
but  finally  the  necessity  of  daily  and  hourly  living  in  the  fear 
of  the  Lord,  and  maintaining  the  watch,  that  we  might  be  de- 
livered from  the  various  snares  and  temptations  with  which  we 
are  surrounded,  came  before  me,  with  the  intimation  to  rise 
with  it.  The  importance  of  young  people  beginning  early  in 
life  to  cherish  this  fear,  and  the  daily  practice  of  v.^atching 
against  and  resisting  temptation,  by  the  aid  of  the  Lord's  Holy 
Spirit,  was  spread  before  them.  The  apostle  exhorted  the  be- 
lievers to  resist  the  devil  and  he  would  flee  from  them ;  which 
was  found  to  be  true  by  the  Lord's  children  and  servants,  down 
to  the  present  day.  The  declaration  concerning  Levi  was, 
"  My  covenant  of  life  and  peace  was  with  him,  which  I  gave 
unto  him  for  the  fear  with  which  he  feai'ed  me,  and  was  afraid 
before  my  name."  As  this  holy  fear  is  kept,  the  Captain  of  sal- 
vation will  keep  us,  and  establish  us  upon  the  immovable  foun- 
dation ;  give  us  the  testimony  that  we  are  his,  and  when  the 
end  comes,  receive  us  into  the  arms  of  everlasting  mercy,  which 
will  be  of  more  value  than  all  the  world  can  give,  could  we  pos- 
sess it. 

9th.  From  an  apprehension  of  duty,  I  went  to  the  Northern 
District  Meeting;  and  in  the  course  of  our  silent  waiting,  the 
peace  and  safety  of  being  brought  to  feel  ourselves  as  the  least 
of  the  Lord's  children,  came  before  me,  with  the  testimony  of 
the  apostle  Paul,  that  he  was  less  than  the  least  of  all  saints. 
It  felt  to  me  there  was  great  sweetness  of  spirit  enjoyed  at  times 
in  this  humble  state.  We  were  enabled  in  it,  to  bear  being 
trampled  on,  if  it  was  the  Lord's  will  to  permit  it;  while  others 
may  seem  to  reign  as  kings  without  us.  Here  we  experience 
Divine  support ;  and  when  we  are  let  down  into  baptism  and 
suffering  for  our  own  sakes,  and  the  body's,  our  Lord  will  be 
with  us  ;  and  when  our  faith  has  been  tried,  He  will  show  Him- 
self to  be  the  resurrection  and  the  life ;  giving  renewed  qualifi- 


478  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

cation  to  sj^eak  to  tlic  praise  of  his  excellent  name.  The  lan- 
guage of  encouragement  was  held  out  to  some  who  had  their 
peculiar  trials  to  bear,  that  they  might  humble  themselves  as  a 
little  child,  and  thereby,  according  to  our  Lord's  doctrine,  be 
great  in  the  kingdom  of  heaven.  For  if  there  is  anything  per- 
taining to  us,  that  will  bear  the  uame  of  greatness,  it  is  in  being 
constantly  clothed  with  the  garment  of  humility 

This  afternoon  a  fire  commenced  in  a  store  on  the  wharf,  a 
little  below  Yine  Street,  partly  occupied  with  bales  of  hay;  and 
either  in  that  or  the  adjoining  building,  it  is  said,  a  quantity  of 
saltpetre  was  stored.  After  the  fire  had  progressed  some  time, 
one  or  two  explosions  took  place,  which  did  not  create  much 
alarm  ;  but  the  fire  spreading  and  the  heat  increasing,  a  tre- 
mendous burst  followed,  thi'owing  down  the  walls,  and  carrying 
high  up  into  the  air,  a  large  quantity  of  ignited  matter,  which  was 
carried  by  the  wind  on  to  the  neighboring  houses.  It  proved  to  be 
the  most  extensive  and  destructive  conflagration  our  city  has  ever 
suffered  from.  How  suddenly  and  unlooked  for,  have  a  large 
number  of  families  been  turned  into  the  streets,  dependent  upon 
their  friends,  and  the  public,  to  provide  them  with  temporary 
accommodations.  Instruction  ought  to  be  sealed  upon  our 
minds,  of  the  uncertainty  of  everything  we  now  possess ;  and  of 
our  duty  to  look  to  our  Heavenly  Father  for  protection,  with 
reliance  upon  Him  for  all  we  have  and  need.  We  should  thus, 
at  least,  be  in  the  best  condition  of  mind,  to  meet  such  a  calami- 
ty, were  it  i:)crmitted  to  overtake  us;  not  having  to  charge  our- 
selves with  self-confidence,  or  with  forgetfulness  of  w4iat  we  owe 
to  our  great  and  gracious  Benefactor. 

28th.  This  morning,  as  we  sat  at  the  breakfast  table,  being 
first-day,  our  beloved,  absent  sister  H.  Ehoads,  was  brought 
into  view.  Our  sympathies  were  drawn  forth  towards  her;  ac- 
companied with  sincere  desires  that  she  may  be  favored  of  the 
Lord,  to  see  the  path  of  duty  which  He  assigns,  and  with  wis- 
dom  and  authority,  to  pursue  it  to  his  praise  and  the  good  of 
the  people. 

This  morning  I  went  to  Germantown,  in  order  to  be  at  the 
meeting  there ;  having  a  secret  drawing  to  be  with  them.  I 
got  in  a  little  after  the  b'riends  had  generally  convened.  The 
testimony  was  raised,  tliat  the  Lord's  tender  mercies  arc  still 
over  all  his  works;  extoided  even  to  the  rebellious,  and  to 
those  who  love  and  serve  Him.     I  was  enabled  to  declare  of  the 


JOUIINAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  479 

new  and  liviiin-  way,  that  was  opened  by  the  blood  of  Jesus,  and 
of  the  gift  of  grace  purchased  by  Him  ;  by  obedience  to  which, 
iill  may  come  to  have  access  to  God  by  this  new  way,  and  to 
worship  Him  in  spirit,  and  pour  forth  their  prayers  to  Him. 
To  the  rebellious,  the  danger  of  neglecting  the  proffered  salva- 
tion, by  suffering  the  da}''  of  visitation  to  pass  away  unimpro- 
ved, was  held  out.  Those  who  have  given  up  and  made  sacri- 
fices, but  from  whom  the  Beloved  of  souls  had  hid  his  face, 
were  encouraged  to  keep  fast  hold  of  their  faith,  however  much 
reduced,  and  He  would,  when  the  dispensation  had  accomi^lish- 
ed  its  purpose,  again  cause  his  face  to  shine  upon  them,  show 
them  with  clearness  their  duties  in  his  church,  and  give  wis- 
dom and  strength  to  fulfil  them.  The  aged  who  held  fast 
their  integrity  to  the  Lord,  when  the  pow- ers  of  body  and  mind 
were  weakening,  would  know  Him  who  took  them  in  his  arms 
in  the  day  of  their  espousals,  to  renew  their  strength  as  the 
eagle ;  enabling  them  to  rise  above  the  tribulations  of  time,  and 
animate  them  with  holy  hope  and  confidence,  that  in  the  end 
an  admittance  would  be  granted  into  the  everlasting  kingdom 
of  our  Lord  and  Saviour  Jesus  Christ.  I  hoj)ed  there  were  some 
serious  and  cheering  feelings  brought  over  the  different  classes. 
30th.  Our  city  has  been  in  a  state  of  tumult  to-day,  by  a 
great  procession,  in  honor  of  the  late  deceased  President.  Such 
parades  are  opposed  to  the  spirit  of  Christianity,  both  in  the  un- 
warrantable expense  of  money  for  mere  display;  drawing  off 
many  people  from  their  business,  whose  means  do  not  admit  of 
it,  and  paying  such  adulation  to  a  poor  fallible  being,  cut  off 
suddenly  in  the  midst  of  the  honors  which  were  being  heaped 
on  him.  It  seemed  to  me  that  such  mockery  of  mourning  w^as 
more  likely  to  call  doAvn  upon  us  Divine  judgment,  in  some 
form,  than  the  approbation  of  Him,  who  is  a  God  judging  in  the 
earth.  The  Mexican  war,  in  which  Z.  Taylor  was  one  of  the 
chief  actors,  was  a  war  of  great  atrocity,  undertaken  to  enlarge 
the  Slave  States,  and  their  influence  in  our  government.  The 
territor}^  wrested  from  Mexico  has  proved  a  source  of  great  and 
bitter  contention,  between  the  Free  and  Slave  States,  threaten- 
ing the  dissolution  of  our  Union,  and  failing  to  secure  the  object 
for  which  it  was  undertaken.  The  number  of  disasters  and 
calamities,  involving  the  destruction  of  the  lives  of  many  of  our 
owni  citizens,  and  the  loss  of  much  property,  by  fires  and  other- 
wise, has  been  very  striking,  and  leads  the  watchful,  reflecting 


480  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

mind,  to  the  apprehension,  that  inasmuch  as  the  United  States, 
by  their  armies,  have  wantonly  destroyed  the  lives  of  hundreds 
of  unoffending  people.  Divine  Providence  has,  in  part,  withdrawn 
his  protecting  power,  and  suffered  these  things  to  overtake  us, 
as  retribution  for  our  great  sins  against  the  Mexicans,  and 
against  the  poor  negro  ;  for  whom,  the  slaveholder  was  p)repar- 
ing  a  market,  that  he  might  enrich  himself  by  the  sale  of  his 
fellow  man.  The  confusion  in  which  our  Congress  has  been 
placed,  for  the  eight  months  of  this  session,  is  a  further  evi- 
dence, that  the  Lord  has  deprived  them  of  the  wisdom,  ability 
and  harmony  which  enabled  them  to  despatch  their  business  in 
sessions  back;  and  it  may  be  still  more  withdrawn,  to  show  us 
that  our  government  is  not  so  permanent  as  we  have  imagined. 
"  Pride  goeth  before  destruction,  and  a  haughty  spirit  before  a 
fall." 


CHAPTEE    XXIY. 

1850—1851. 

Various  Eeligious  Engagements  within  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting — Lib- 
erated to  pay  a  Religious  Visit  within  Indiana  Yearly  Meeting. 

1850,  Eighth  month  14th.  We  shut  up  our  house  and  went 
to  stay  a  few  days  with  our  beloved  brothers,  and  families,  at 
Spi'ingfield. 

15th.  Attended  their  meetings ;  in  which  we  both  had  some 
service,  I  hope  to  the  encouragement  of  the  right-minded. 

19th.  We  went  to  Concord  and  attended  the  Select  Quarterly 
Meeting ;  in  which  the  way  opened  to  encourage  all,  to  keep  on 
the  watch  tower,  waiting  for  the  coming  of  their  Lord,  even  if 
they  must  remain  in  their  ward  whole  nights.  The  dispensa- 
tions of  the  withdrawing  of  the  Heavenly  countenance  are  for 
our  good,  and  if  properly  endured,  prepare  us  to  receive  the 
Lord  at  his  coming,  and  a  qualification  to  testify  of  his  power 
and  goodness;  and  to  labor  to  gather  others  into  the  love  of 
Christ. 

20th.  Attended  the  Quarterly  Meeting  for  Discipline  under 
great  weakness ;  thci-c  seeming  to  be  little  ability  to  advocate 


JOURNAL    OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  481 

the  good  cause.  In  the  second  meeting  there  was  a  concern 
felt,  to  call  Friends  to  greater  degrees  of  true  fellowship,  in  that 
love  which  the  apostle  alludes  to,  when  he  said,  "  It  is  in  our 
hearts  to  live  and  to  die  with  you."  As  we  are  clothed  with  this 
love,  we  shall  keep  a  guard  over  our  tongues,  and  take  care  not 
to  speak  of  others,  in  connection  with  anything  that  will  lay 
waste  their  religious  standing.  Our  brother,  Joseph  Rhoads, 
concluding  to  accompany  us  to  the  Western  Quarterly  Meeting, 
we  set  out  after  dinner. 

23d.  Eode  to  London  Grove,  and  when  the  Meeting  con- 
vened, we  found  it  much  larger  than  we  expected,  many  Friends 
from  Concord,  and  some  from  Cain  Quarter  being  there.  My 
dear  wife  was  engaged  in  vocal  supplication,  that  He  who 
breathed  ujion  the  dry  bones  in  the  valley,  would  condescend  to 
work  by  his  mighty  power  upon  many,  and  prepare  them  to 
stand  as  an  army  for  his  cause;  and  also  for  the  dear  children. 
P.  E.  followed  her  in  testimony.  Afterwards  I  was  constrained 
to  bear  testimony  to  the  Messiah,  the  Prince  of  Peace,  the  Shiloh 
of  Grod,  to  whom  the  gathering  of  the  people  is  to  be.  Who, 
when  He  came  in  the  flesh,  declared,  that  as  Moses  lifted  up  the 
serpent  in  the  wilderness,  so  shall  the  Son  of  Man  be  lifted  up  ; 
and,  that  when  He  was  lifted  up,  he  would  draw  all  men  unto 
Him.  The  people  were  invited  to  come  to  Christ  in  his  spirit- 
ual appearance  in  the  heart,  and  to  obey  his  Divine  requisitions 
as  made  known  there ;  that  they  may  be  brought  out  of  their 
earthly  conditions,  and  qualified  to  promote  the  spreading  of 
his  kingdom,  by  turning  others  to  righteousness.  The  business 
of  the  meeting  was  transacted  in  a  becoming  spirit;  the  impor- 
tance of  waiting  upon  the  Lord  for  wisdom  and  right  direction 
in  the  Meetings  for  Discipline,  was  affectionately  spread  before 
them.  In  the  afternoon  we  accompanied  our  dear  friends,  J. 
and  S.  W.  to  their  habitation.  Parts  of  the  road  being  through 
a  luxuriant  country,  beautifully  diversified  with  hills  and  val- 
leys, woods  and  grass  fields,  we  enjoyed  the  ride.  In  the  follow- 
ing morning,  we  had  a  religious  opportunity  with  our  friends  and 
some  young  people. 

26  th.  Was  held  Chester  Monthly  Meeting  at  Springfield,  and 
a  pretty  large  company  gathered.  I  was  fervently  engaged  to 
warn  Friends  of  the  danger  of  making  idols  of  the  temporal 
blessings  with  w^hich  we  are  so  abundantly  surrounded;  forget- 
ting and  neglecting  the  duties  and  the  ffratitude  which  we  owe 


482  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

to  the  Great  Giver.  For  all  those  things,  we  must  give  account 
in  the  day  of  judgment.  If  we  are  delighting  and  aggrandizing 
ourselves  with  them,  and  growing  in  self-importaiice,  the  lan- 
guage from  one  of  the  holy  watchers  may  go  forth,  "  Hew  down 
the  tree,  and  cut  off  the  branches ;"  and  awfal  will  be  the  con- 
dition of  such.  Such  were  called  upon  to  come  again  to  Bethel, 
and  through  holy  help,  renew  their  covenants  with  the  Lord ; 
that  so  the}^  may  again  experience  that  humility  and  tenderness, 
which  they  were  once  favored  with.  It  was  a  solemn  opportu- 
nity, in  which  I  hoped  the  Truth  had  the  dominion  ;  and  Friends 
parted  with  feelings  of  near  affection.  We  rode  back  into  the 
city.  It  was  pleasant  to  get  again  under  our  own  roof,  where 
the  feelings  of  joeace  and  comfort  are  so  often  enjoyed. 

Ninth  month  10th.  Went  to  the  North  Meeting ;  which,  for 
the  middle  of  the  week,  was  quite  large.  I  sat,  perhaps,  nearly 
an  hour,  during  which  many  presentations  passed  before  me. 
Finally  the  happy  condition  of  those  w^ho  were  brought  as  chil- 
dren into  the  Lord's  fomily,  and  wei^e  preserved  in  it  to  the  end, 
even  to  old  age,  came  livingly  before  me ;  and  through  the 
blessed  openings  of  the  Key  of  David,  I  was  enabled  to  enlarge 
upon  the  jirogress,  baptisms,  preservations  and  deliverances  of 
these,  to  the  comfort  and  strength,  I  hope,  of  some  present.  To 
those  who  had  been  often  called,  yet  turned  the  back  upon  the 
heavenly  visitant,  a  voice  of  solemn  w^arning  went  forth ;  and 
the  mourners  were  encouraged  to  hold  fast  their  confidence  firm 
to  the  end.     I  came  away  w^ith  a  peaceful,  cheered  mind. 

18th.  Went  to  Germantown,  and  the  next  morning  being  the 
meeting  day  there,  I  attended  it.  The  danger  of  sw^erving  from 
the  path  of  holiness,  after  being  brought  into  it,  and  the  indis- 
pensable necessity  of  giving  up  all  that  is  called  for,  that  a 
growth  and  an  establishment  in  the  Truth  may  be  attained, 
were  held  forth  among  them.  Some  unstable  ones,  who  at  one 
time  are  made  sensible  of  Divine  convictions,  and  then  are  turn- 
ing away,  and  forgetting  what  manner  of  persons  tlioy  have 
seen  themselves  to  be,  and  taking  delight  in  things  not  accord- 
ing to  the  requirements  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  were  tenderly  en- 
treated to  renew  their  covei»ant8  M'ith  the  Lord  in  the  day 
of  visitation,  and  seek  for  strength  to  keep  them  faithfully 
unto  the  end.  1  believe  that  holy  help  was  jjrosent,  qualifying 
to  search  into  the  states  of  some. 

Tenth  month  5th.     1  am   sixty-three   years   old   this    day. 


JOURNAL    OP    WILT.TAM    EVANS.  483 

Thoughts  of  the  race  being  nearly  run  ;  and  the  possibility  of 
its  being  brought  to  a  close  earlier  than  I  may  anticipate,  pro- 
duce feelings  of  a  serious  kind,  and  desires  to  bo  making  ready 
for  the  solemn  moment  of  death. 

6th.  First-day  moiming.  Our  meeting  still  reduced.  After 
sitting  an  hour,  and  feeling  much  poverty,  I  was  constrained  to 
testify,  that  a  manifestation  of  the  Holy  Spirit  was  given  to 
every  man,  to  enable  him  to  work  out  his  salvation.  That  it 
reveals  sin  in  the  heart,  and  affords  the  strength  which  alone 
can  deliver  from  it.  This  grace  and  truth  come  by  Jesus  Christ ; 
who  not  only  was  offered  upon  the  cross,  a  proj^itiatory  sacrifice 
for  the  sins  of  all  mankind,  but  also  purchased  for  all,  this  Di- 
vine Grace,  which  teacheth  us  to  deny  all  ungodliness,  and  the 
world's  lusts,  and  to  live  soberly,  righteously,  and  godly  in  this 
present  world.  As  it  is  obeyed,  it  regenerates  the  dark  heart, ' 
and  gives  true  faith  in  the  Son  of  God,  and  prepares  us  to  receive 
a  Divine  understanding  of  the  Scriptures ;  which  were  written 
by  holy  men  under  the  guidance  of  the  Sj^irit  of  Christ.  It 
alone  can  give  a  true  sense  and  belief  of  them.  It  felt  to  me 
that  there  were  some  present  who  had  fallen  into  a  state  of  un- 
belief, through  the  despite  which  they  had  committed  against 
this  grace ;  and  by  trampling  under  foot  the  blood  of  the  cove- 
nant, by  which  alone  they  can  be  sanctified,  they  were  nigh  to 
denying  the  Lord  that  bought  them.  The  great  change  that 
had  been  wrought  in  many  unbelievers,  who  were  brought  to 
receive  Christ  into  their  hearts  and  to  obey  Him,  so  that  they 
experienced,  like  the  man  out  of  whom  the  devils  were  cast, 
what  it  is  to  be  clothed  and  in  their  right  mind ;  nnd  who  then 
desired  and  loved  nothing  so  much  as  to  sit  at  Jesus'  feet,  was 
laid  before  them.  He  who  appeared  in  the  midst  of  his  disci- 
ples, the  doors  being  shut,  and  called  on  Thomas  to  put  his 
fingers  into  the  print  of  the  nails,  and  thrust  his  band  into  the 
hole  in  his  side,  made  by  the  soldier's  spear,  and  be  not  faithless, 
but  believing,  and  when  Thomas  had  done  so,  and  said,  my  Lord 
and  my  God;  is  an  omnipresent,  as  well  as  omnipotent  Saviour. 
Not  only  all  the  treasures  of  wisdom  and  knowledge  are  hid  in 
Him  ;  but  all  power  in  heaven  and  in  earth  is  given  unto  Him  ; 
and  He  alone  can  give  true  faith,  and  enable  us  to  believe  in 
Him,  and  give  power  to  become  the  sons  of  God.  Many  things 
connected  with  the  work  of  salvation,  until  we  come  to  be  es- 


484  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

tablished  upon  Him,  the  Eock  and  Foundation,  against  which 
the  gates  of  hell  cannot  prevail,  Avere  opened. 

12th.  My  dear  wife,  in  company  with  S.  C,  and  my  brother 
Joseph  Evans,  left  home  to  visit  the  meetings  of  Exeter,  Maiden 
Creek,  Greenwood,  Muncy  and  Elldands.  The  weather  was  very 
fine,  and  if  no  accident  befall  them,  everything  seemed  to  bid 
fair  for  a  prosperous  journey,  if  the  Lord  be  their  guide  and 
blessed  helper;  which  it  is  my  hope  for  them  will  be  the  case. 

13th.  At  our  first-day  meeting,  the  company  was  a  little  in- 
creased. A  warning  was  sounded  among  them  against  a  light, 
scoffing  spirit,  on  the  subject  of  religion,  and  respecting  the  consci- 
entious scruples  of  men  and  women  who  fear  God,  and  endeavor 
to  walk  according  to  his  will.  Eriends  were  called  to  the  work 
of  religion  in  themselves ;  that  every  thing  of  a  light  and  chaffy 
nature  might  be  destroyed,  and  a  solid  and  weighty  frame  of  mind 
might  take  the  place  of  it,  so  that  they  may  be  examples  of 
purity  and  self-denial,  and  a  standing  protest  against  the  wick- 
edness and  abominations  that  run  like  a  torrent  through  our 
land.  They  were  warned  against  countenancing  the  vain  ex- 
hibitions and  amusements  that  evil  men  and  women,  strolling  up 
and  down,  were  inviting  the  people  to.  Many  peojjle  who  make 
a  profession  of  religion,  make  no  scruple  in  frequenting  such 
places,  and  by  their  example  encourage  others  to  do  the  same. 
How  can  such  be  clear  of  the  blood  of  their  fellow  men,  while 
leading  them  into  the  paths  of  wickedness,  and  away  from  the 
footsteps  of  Christ's  companions?  But  those  who  turn  their 
back  on  all  the  temptations  of  Satan,  and  follow  the  great  Cap- 
tain of  salvation,  will  know  Him  to  give  power  over  all  the 
powers  of  the  enemy ;  and  that  he  can  deliver  those  who  sin- 
cerely desire  to  come  unto  God  by  him.  I  left  the  meeting  un- 
der a  sense  of  Divine  sweetness  and  peace,  in  having  given  up 
to  do  what  I  believed  the  Lord  called  for,  though  I  had  shrunk 
from  it,  lest  I  might  act  without  my  guide. 

17th.  My  brother-in-law,  J.  Ehoads,  having  been  indisposed, 
I  was  drawn,  in  sympathizing  with  him  in  his  lonely  feelings, 
on  account  of  the  absence  of  his  valuable  wife,  to  make  him  a 
visit,  and  to  attend  their  meeting.  The  meeting  was  small.  Un- 
expectedly, the  subject  of  the  growth  of  tree^  presented  to  me. 
Planted,  when  like  small  switches,  yet  if  properly  cared  for, 
and  defended  fi*om  injury,  gradually  growing,  and  finally  becom- 
ing valuable  for  fruit,  or  for  shade  and  beauty.     So  it  appeared 


JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  485 

tc  me  to  be  with  ti-ecs  of  the  Lord's  planting.  As  they  are 
cherished  and  preserved  from  the  enemies  they  arc  exposed  to, 
they  experience  a  growth  in  grace  ;  their  root  strikes  downward 
in  the  heavenly  soil,  and  they  bring  forth  fruit  to  the  praise  of 
the  Great  Husbandmen,  and  finally  they  are  established  in  the 
house  of  the  Lord,  and  flourish  in  the  courts  of  our  (Jod.  He 
beautifies  and  dignifies  such  in  his  church,  and  enables  them 
to  glorif}'  Him  in  their  generation.  They  become  pillars  in  the 
house  of  our  God,  that  shall  go  no  more  out ;  and  He  writes  upon 
them  the  name  of  our  God,  and  the  name  of  the  city  of  our  God, 
whicli  is  New  Jerusalem  ;  and  He  will  write  upon  them  his  new 
JS^ame.  It  was  a  day  of  favor  ;  in  which  the  hearts  of  some  of 
the  mourners  were  made  glad,  and  the  dear  young  people  cheered 
to  hold  on  their  way. 

28th.  The  unsettled  state  of  almost  all  the  governments  in  Chris- 
tendom, and  the  excitement  among  Protestants,  in  consequence 
of  the  attempt  of  the  pope  to  resuscitate  the  Eoman  Catholic 
hierarchy  in  England,  showing  the  unextinguished  craving  in 
that  corrupt  and  antichristian  church,  for  universal  dominion, 
have  a  depressing  effect  on  those,  w^ho  travail  in  spirit  for  the 
more  glorious  breaking  forth  and  spreading  of  Christ's  kingdom 
in  the  earth.  The  bold  effort  made  there,  may  have  been  per- 
mitted, to  rouse  up  Protestants  to  examine  how  near  they  ap- 
proach that  degenerate  body,  in  their  reverence  of  the  beggarly 
elements  and  superstitious  ceremonies,  that  have  no  relation  to 
the  spiritual,  regenerating  religion  of  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ. 
A  further  consequence  may  be  the  more  open  exposure  of  the 
abominations  committed  by  the  Eomish  church,  and  thereb}' 
pave  the  way  for  its  downfall,  and  the  arising  of  the  light  of 
the  glorious  gospel  of  Christ ;  before  which  all  ceremonial  rites 
and  practices  will  fade  away. 

I  have  a  secret  hope  that  the  Lord  is  at  work  to  bring  about 
a  more  settled  state  of  our  religious  Society;  to  bring  forth 
some  whom  He  has  been  preparing  to  stand  more  openly  and 
boldly  for  its  christian  doctrines,  testimonies  and  discipline ;  and 
to  rebuke  the  spirit  that  has  been  at  work,  to  divide  and  scatter, 
by  upholding  those  who  have  attempted  to  bring  in  unsound 
opinions,  and  giving  liberty  to  go  into  things  which  the  Truth 
is  against. 

After  enduring  much  secret  suffering,  in  which  there  seemed 
few  to  sympathize  and  to  strengthen ;  as  I  sat  in  my  parlor, 
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486  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

■waiting  upon  the  Lord,  there  was  a  secret,  undeniable  sense 
granted,  that  the  Lord  beheld  me  in  my  trials  and  fears,  on 
account  of  our  poor  Society  ;  and  my  heart  was  comforted,  and 
my  faith  renewed,  that  his  gracious  eye  is  constantly  beholding 
his  tribulated  children.  May  we  not  hope,  that  the  clouds  with 
which  we  have  been  so  long  surrounded,  are  preparing  to  break 
away. 

This  morning,  I  felt  an  intimation  to  go  to  the  Arch  Street 
Monthly  Meeting,  where  I  had  not  been  for  many  months.  The 
advantage  and  safety  in  being  brought  into  a  humble,  lowly 
condition  of  mind,  in  which  the  strength  of  man  is  turned  as 
into  weakness  and  nothingness,  was  opened  before  me;  and 
after  a  Friend  had  spoken,  I  believed  it  required  of  me,  to  stand 
up  with  this  matter.  Though  our  faith  may  be  reduced  very 
much,  yet  as  we  do  not  wrest  ourselves  from  under  this  dispen- 
sation, to  seek  relief  from  some  outward  source,  the  Lord  in  his 
time  Avould  appear,  and  by  the  testimony  of  his  Spirit,  enable 
us  to  say,  "Thou,  God,  seest  me."  The  precious  stream  of  the 
ministry  rose  a  little,  and  flowed  forth,  to  the  refreshing  of  not 
a  few.  The  dear  school  children  were  also  called  upon,  to  obey  the 
tender  convictions  of  their  Saviour's  spirit.  The  business  of  the 
meeting  was  transacted  with  weight,  and  a  proper  feeling  of  its 
importance;  and  I  hope  we  w^ere  a  little  cheered  with  the  pre- 
sent evidence  of  Divine  good  in  the  midst;  and  with  the  re- 
newal of  faith,  that  the  light  which  first  visited  the  members, 
and  gathered  our  religious  Society,  would  yet  break  foi'th  in 
thousands;  and  the  precious  cause  be  spread  by  us  in  the  earth. 
I  came  away  with  the  feeling  of  heavenly  peace,  and  lowliness 
of  mind  before  the  Lord ;  and  therein  desire  to  be  preserved, 
and  to  give  unto  Him  at  all  times,  the  glory  and  honor  which 
are  his  due  alone. 

Twelfth  month  2d.  It  will  be  a  great  favor  if  Divine  Power 
rises  into  dominion  among  us,  so  as  to  animate  and  strengthen 
-right-minded  Friends,  to  come  out  boldly  on  the  Lord's  side,  and 
on  behalf  of  our  testimonies  ;  that  so  the  self-denial,  the  humil- 
ity, the  simplicity,  and  the  inwardness  of  spirit,  which  charac- 
terized our  first  Friends,  may  be  revived,  and  shine  forth  con- 
spicuously. There  is  an  enmit}'  against  the  lowliness,  which 
Christ  leads  his  humble  followers  into;  and  a  desire,  in  some, 
to  make  a  show  in  the  world  ;  that  we  may  be  like  others,  and 
thereby  the  reproach  of  the  cross  caused  to  cease.     As  that 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  487 

takes  place,  our  locks  will  bo  sliorn ;  we  shall  become  weak 
like  other  men ;  spiritual  vision  will  be  lost,  and  worldly 
professors  will  vaunt  over  us.  But  may  the  Lord  in  mercy, 
kindle  up  fresh  zeal  among  us ;  bring  us  near  to  one  another  in 
the  covenant  of  life,  and  enable  us  to  put  shoulder  to  shoulder 
in  the  support  of  his  cause ;  and  send  forth  fresh  laborers  into 
his  harvest  field. 

18th.  Poverty  of  spirit,  and  the  reduction  of  faith  have  been 
my  portion  many  days  j^ast.  If  it  is  of  the  Lord's  dispensing,  to 
lay  low  the  creature,  it  is  enough.  He  will  not  cast  off  those 
whom  He  condescends  to  purge,  and  prostrate,  if  they  give 
themselves,  and  all  they  have,  into  his  hand.  There  can  be  no 
higher  favor,  than  being  objects  of  his  mercy  and  preserving 
power ;  and  this  is  as  truly  shown  to  be  the  case,  in  his  empty- 
ing and  stripping  dispensations,  which  bring  man  to  feel  his 
own  nothingness,  as  when  His  candle  shines  upon  his  head,  and 
he  is  filled  with  a  heavenly  sense  of  the  Divine  fulness. 

1851,  First  month  8th.  I  have  been  renewedly  confirmed  in 
the  opinion,  that  the  pointing  of  the  Divine  finger  is  needful  to 
lead  us  safely  in  visits  to  other  meetings.  Friends  in  every 
meeting,  have  their  rights  in  the  disj)Osal  of  the  business  of  that 
meeting,  and  any  interference,  in  man's  will  and  wisdom,  not 
only  may  give  an  improper  direction  of  subjects  under  deliber- 
ation, but  wound  the  feelings  of  the  members.  It  is  evident 
that  nothing  but  the  wonder-working  power  of  Divine  love  and 
kindness,  can  heal  the  breaches,  and  restore  to  us  the  paths  of 
peace  and  heavenly  unity  to  dwell  in.  This  we  must  suffer  and 
travail  for  in  the  patience  of  the  saints,  and  the  Lord  will 
bring  it  about  to  his  own  honor  and  the  great  comfort  of  his 
people. 

20th.  A  dear  friend  and  his  wife,  called  in  this  evening,  with 
■whom  we  had  sweet  converse  upon  the  things  concerning  the 
spreading  and  power  of  truth,  which  lie  nearer  to  our  hearts 
than  anything  else.  He  was  under  a  concern  that  Friends 
might  more  frequently  visit  the  members,  who  have  little  oppor- 
tunity of  mingling  with  rightly  concerned  Friends;  and  en- 
courage them  to  faithfulness.  He  thought  the  Society  was  still 
blessed  with  a  living  ministry ;  that  many  acknowledged  it  in 
their  hearts,  and  he  could  not  think  it  would  be  lost,  but  in 
time  fruits  would  appear.  He  expressed  a  fervent  and  sincere 
desire,  that  Friends  who  felt  the  weight  of  service,  and  of  our 


488  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

responsibilities,  might  be  encouraged.  I  united  with  his  views 
in  relation  to  the  advantage  of  Friends  more  generally  visiting 
one  another  in  a  right  spirit ;  and  we  may  hope  that  the  time 
is  drawing  on  for  it. 

22d.  Having  felt  my  mind  turned  to  the  Western  Meeting 
for  a  few  days,  I  went  there  and  attended  the  Monthly  Meeting. 
I  was  brought  low,  and  the  matter  which  opened  before  me, 
seemed  of  such  close  nature,  I  felt  afraid  almost  to  look  at  it. 
After  a  time  it  was  taken  away :  when  the  great  importance  of 
watchfulness  and  daily  prayer,  that  we  may  be  preserved  from 
losing  ground  and  falling  short  in  the  end,  came  livingly  over 
my  mind,  and  had  a  humbling  effect.  Under  a  degree  of  ten- 
derness, I  believed  it  right  to  rise  with  this  subject,  and  to  express 
what  might  be  presented  for  others,  as  well  as  myself,  on  the 
unspeakable  blessing  of  Divine  preservation  in  a  blessed  growth 
in  the  Truth,  and  an  establishment  in  it  unto  the  end.  He  who 
loved  us  before  we  loved  Him,  and  of  his  mercy  and  power 
brought  us  out  of  darkness,  sin,  and  corruption,  will  notfoi-sake 
us,  if  we  do  not  turn  our  back  upon  Him  ;  but  in  the  same  loving 
kindness  and  tender  mercy,  will  warn  of  danger.  He  will,  as  we 
submit  and  bear  his  dispensations,  strip  us  from  time  to  time, 
of  all  we  have  known,  plunge  us  into  a  sense  of  our  nothing- 
ness, and  in  this  way  keep  us  lowly  and  dependent,  and  enlarge 
our  hearts,  and  knowledge  of  Divine  things.  The  language  of 
the  beloved  and  aged  apostle,  "Little  children,  keep  yourselves 
from  idols,"  revived,  with  the  liability  man  might  be  exposed  to, 
if  he  left  a  lowly  watchful  state,  to  idolize  his  natural  talents, 
acquirements,  spiritual  gifts,  and  religious  experience ;  and 
getting  lost  as  in  a  mist,  Satan,  who  can  transform  himself  into 
the  appearance  of  an  angel  of  light,  may  set  him  to  work  in 
things  which  the  Lord  never  called  him  to  do;  and  finally  the 
wrong  spirit  get  into  dominion  in  him,  which  had  in  good  mea- 
sure been  cast  out.  I  was  opened  and  led,  I  believe,  by  the  good 
hand  into  these  things,  for  my  own  benefit,  and  also  as  a  re- 
newed warning  to  some,  who  had  quite  enough  of  the  creature  at 
work  in  them,  under  the  garb  of  religion,  and  promoting  the 
kingdom  of  Christ.  It  was  of  the  Lord's  goodness  that  the 
clothing  of  Divine  charity  was  felt;  earnestly  desiring  the 
present  and  everlasting  welfare  of  every  one  in  the  meeting. 

28th.  For  several  days  my  mind  has  been  under  fear,  and 
some  discouragement,  on  account  of  the  Society.     Some  over- 


JOURNAL   OP   %\^LLIAM   EVANS.  489 

zealous  ones,  who  are  more  willing  to  talk  than  to  snifer,  ap- 
pear to  have  too  little  regard  for  the  excellent  church  govern- 
ment which  the  Lord  instituted  among  us.  They  do  not  rightly 
value  the  preservation  of  the  Society,  a  united  body;  but  throw 
out  opinions,  that  indicate  too  little  sensibility,  respecting  sepa- 
ration :  as  thouffh  it  would  be  attended  with  little  inconvenience, 
and  no  disadvantageous  consequence.  To  me  it  is  a  source  of 
deep  sorrow,  when  I  perceive  men  and  women,  in  stations  in  the 
Society,  feel  and  talk  in  this  manner.  Surely  they  know  not 
what  they  do.  But  at.  times,  I  have  a  secret  hope  that  the 
Lord  Almighty,  who  raised  us  up  a  people  for  his  honor,  will 
mercifully  hear  and  answer  the  prayers,  which  He  begets  in  the 
hearts,  I  trust,  of  many  exercised  servants ;  and  put  a  bit  in  the 
mouth  of  the  enemy,  who  would  destroy  his  heritage,  and  turn 
him  backward.  And  when  He  sees  our  sufferings  are,  at  this 
time,  enoufjh,  irrant  deliverance 'from  the  snare,  and  renew  our 
strength  and  courage  to  lift  up  the  voice,  for  the  precious  testi- 
monies and  doctrines,  He  raised  Friends  to  support.  That  so 
the  dear  young  people  may  be  comforted,  and  strengthened  to 
give  up  their  names  fully  to  serve  the  Lord;  and  "  Instead  of 
the  thorn  shall  come  up  the  fir  tree,  and  instead  of  the  briar, 
shall  come  up  the  myrtle  tree ;  and  it  shall  be  to  the  Lord  for  a 
name,  for  an  everlasting  sign,  that  shall  not  be  cut  off." 

29th.  In  answering  the  Queries  at  our  Monthly  Meeting,  held 
this  day,  there  prevailed  a  uniting  spirit,  under  which  more 
than  a  usual  travail  for  one  another's  welfare,  was  felt ;  and 
Friends  were  lively  in  speaking  to  the  different  subjects  that 
came  before  us.  If  the  Lord  would  bring  down  all  wrong 
things,  and  clothe  us  more  entirely  with  his  love,  so  that  with- 
out any  "dissimulation,  we  were  one  another's  helpers,  it  would 
be  like  balm  to  the  wounded  spirit,  and  the  bones  which  seem 
to  have  been  broken,  would  rejoice. 

Second  month  3d.  Having  passed  some  days  with  little 
sensible  evidence  of  Divine  good,  I  went  to  the  Quarterly  Meet- 
ing for  business  much  discouraged,  and  with  little  hope  that  the 
quickening  power  of  Christ  would  be  felt  by  me.  Over  the 
men's  meeting,  a  feeling  of  renewed  exercise  was  spread  ;  and  I 
thought  Samuel  Settle,  Sr.,  was  strengthened  to  call  Friends 
back  from  the  violations  of  our  testimonies,  which  not  a  few  had 
fallen  into,  by  their  conformity  to  the  changeable  fashions  of 
the  world.     They  were  calling  plainness  in  dress  and  language, 


490  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

the  reading  of  fictitious  books,  and  others  calculated  to  poison 
the  mind  with  unsound  principles,  and  to  spoil  it  through  j)hilo- 
sophy  and  vain  deceit,  little  things ;  he  believed  the  testimonies 
maintained  by  Friends  respecting  them,  were  the  fruits  of  pri- 
mitive Christianity.  Departures  from  them  created  false  taste; 
excited  and  unsettled  the  feelings  ;  and  these  led  to  the  dislike 
of  our  silent  meetings ;  and  a  desire  to  go  where  preaching, 
and  vocal  or  instrumental  music,  could  be  heard;  which  men 
wei'e  induced  to  think  they  could  use  as  the  worship  of  Almighty 
God.  But  it  could  have  no  effect,  except  on  the  animal  feelings, 
to  arouse  and  excite  them.  He  opened  several  of  our  testimo- 
nies, and  pleaded  with  the  young  people  to  pi'ize  the  privileges 
which  they  had  offered  them,  in  such  a  Society  as  ours,  that 
watched  over  them  for  good.  My  brother  Thomas  also  spoke 
to  several  j3oints,  as  well  as  some  other  Friends,  with  which 
others  united.  I  thought  it  my  place  to  say,  I  hoped  we  should 
profit  by  the  exercise  spread  over  the  meeting;  it  was  an  evi- 
dence that  He  who  raised  us  up  had  not  forsaken  us.  How 
fearful  were  we  in  the  beginning  of  our  heavenly  journey,  of 
doing  anything  against  the  Truth ;  and  how  desirous  to  know 
the  Divine  will,  and  to  receive  strength  to  do  it.  Was  there 
not  now  a  danger,  after  experiencing  a  little  prosperity,  of  jjut- 
ting  forth  the  hand,  and  appropriating  the  blessings  of  a  kind 
Providence,  to  purposes,  of  which  we  should  have  been  afraid 
in  those  days;  especially  in  the  fui-niture  of  our  houses,  and  in 
our  mode  of  living?  Entering  into  our  own  condition,  and 
being  favored  to  search  Jerusalem  with  candles,  after  having 
been  so  long  contending  against  error  without,  and  among 
others,  made  this  meeting  additionally  satisfactory,  and  raised 
the  hope  that  the  Lord  was  beginning  to  work  for  and  among  us. 
9th.  First-day.  A  low  time,  nearly  throughout  morning  and 
afternoon.  Towards  the  latter  part  of  the  day,  there  was  a 
little  sensation  of  Divine  notice  and  regard,  by  the  merciful 
Shepherd  of  liis  afflicted  people.  At  the  evening  meeting,  I  was 
led  to  refer  to  the  suggestion  of  some,  that  the  Society  would 
go  down  ;  which  I  believed  would  not  be  permitted,  but  through 
unfaithfulness  and  disregard  of  the  many  offers  of  Divine  help. 
"There  is  a  river  the  streams  whereof  shall  make  glad  the  city 
of  God,  the  holy  places  of  the  tabernacles  of  the  Most  High;" 
the  sanctified  hearts  that  have  become  temples  of  the  Holy 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  491 

Ghost.  ''  God  is  in  the  midst  of  her,  she  shall  not  be  moved ; 
God  shall  help  her,  and  that  right  early." 

12th.  At  our  meeting  to-day,  there  was  a  larger  attendance 
of  children  from  two  schools,  colored  and  white,  than  is  com- 
mon. I  felt  the  revival  of  concern  for  them,  and  was  led  to 
warn  them  of  the  dangers  and  temptations  that  await  them  ; 
encouraging  them  to  mind  the  convictions  of  the  Holy  Spirit  in 
their  own  hearts ;  to  shun  evil  company,  and  to  keep  clear  of 
profanity,  and  of  taking  the  Lord's  name  in  their  mouths  im- 
properly. 

Went  down  to  Woodbury  in  the  afternoon,  and  stopped  at 
William  and  Mary  Mickle's.  We  had  the  agreeable  company 
of  a  few  Friends  there  ;  and  to-day,  the  13th,  attended  their  Quar- 
terly Meeting.  I  was  engaged  among  them,  to  warn  some  of 
the  deadening  effects  of  the  love  of  the  world ;  and  to  invite 
others  to  be  obedient  to  the  clear  discoveries  of  the  Divine  will, 
to  some  of  whom,  the  language  may  be  applicable,  "Arise, 
shine ;  for  thy  light  is  come,  and  the  glory  of  the  Lord  has 
risen  upon  thee."  Were  those  who  are  thus  visited  by  the  illu- 
minations of  the  Spirit  of  Christ,  faithful  to  its  requisitions, 
there  would  be  raised  among  us,  judges  as  at  the  first,  and  coun- 
sellors as  at  the  beginning ;  and  ministers  to  declare  to  others  of 
the  mercy  and  power  of  the  Lord  extended  to  them.  What  loss 
individuals  and  the  church  sustain,  in  consequence  of  disobedi- 
ence and  neglect  of  duty ! 

21st.  On  the  15th,  in  company  with  our  beloved  friends  S. 
and  B.  IST.,  my  wife  and  myself  went  to  Westtown  School.  We 
attended  their  first-day  meetings.  In  the  morning,  I  was  led  to 
open  the  doctrine  of  Divine  preservation  ;  and  to  refer  to  the  case 
of  Joseph,  whom  his  brethren,  at  one  time,  appeared  to  be  deter- 
mined to  destroy,  but  finally  sold  him  to  a  company  of  Ishmael- 
ites,  who  sold  him  to  the  captain  of  Phai'oah's  guard.  Here  he 
was  thrown  into  prison  without  just  cause  ;  and  maintaining  his 
integrity,  he  was  there  kept  by  the  Lord,  and  qualified  to  inter- 
pret the  dreams  of  Pharoah's  butler  and  baker ;  and  eventually 
to  experience  the  fulfilment  of  the  dreams  he  had  in  his  youth- 
ful days  ;  b}^  being  made  ruler  in  Egypt  under  Pharoah.  Some 
present  were  tenderly  entreated  to  keep  the  faith  and  confidence 
in  the  Lord's  presei'ving  power,  they  had  been  favored  with, 
w^hich  would  be  their  support  and  defence,  to  the  end,  as  their 
eye  was  singly  directed  to  Him.     The  dear  children  were  also 


492  JOURNAL    OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

att'ectionately  persuaded,  to  mind  the  warning  voice  of  their 
dear  Saviour ;  by  yielding  to  which,  they  would  he  preserved 
from  the  insidious  snares  and  allurements  of  a  cruel  enemy; 
grow  up  in  good  liking  before  Him,  and  in  his  time  be  prepared 
for  service  in  his  church. 

On  second-day  morning,  the  17th,  we  rode  over  to  Concord, 
and   attended  the  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders. - 
Third-day  were  at  the    Quarterly  Meeting  for  discipline ;  in 
which  we  both  had  some  service,  to  our  own  relief,  and,  I  hope, 
the  comfort  and  strength  of  others. 

In  the  afternoon,  the  mail  brought  me  a  letter  from  my  dear 
sister  H.  Ehoads,  dated  the  6th  and  7th  of  this  month,  at  Croy- 
don, near  London  ;  conveying  satisfactory  accounts  of  her  move- 
ments. It  was  pleasant  to  find,  that  amidst  the  trials  attendant 
on  the  work  in  which  she  is  engaged,  there  are  seasons  of  Di- 
vine consolation,  and  evidences  of  the  merciful  regard  of  her 
Heavenly  Father,  strengthening  her  therein. 

23d.  Throughout  most  of  this  day,  I  have  felt  little  to  cheer 
in  the  heavenly  journey ;  though  in  the  morning  meeting,  I  did 
not  see  I  should  do  right,  without  reviving  the  expressions  of 
our  Lord,  "  Except  ye  eat  the  flesh  of  the  Son  of  man,  and  drink 
his  blood,  ye  have  no  life  in  you;"  "He  that  eateth  my  flesh, 
and  drinketh  my  blood,  dwelleth  in  me  and  I  in  him  ;"  endeav- 
oring to  set  forth  how  little  outside  profession  and  appearance 
will  do,  without  the  internal  communion  and  jjarticipation  of 
the  life  and  substance. 

Third  month  2d.  First-day  morning  I  was  drawn  to  hold 
up  to  view,  that  we  are  placed  here  in  a  state  of  probation ;  to 
prove  the  Lord's  love  and  mercy  to  us,  and  to  be  proved  whether 
we  will  obey  his  discoveries  and  requisitions,  and  thereby  glori- 
fy Him  that  created  us,  so  as  to  be  ready,  having  on  the  wed- 
ding garment,  to  enter  the  everlasting  abodes  of  blessedness; 
in  which  I  Avas  somewhat  encouraged. 

10th.  It  is  a  period  that  calls  for  close  watchfulness,  and 
sincere  prayer  to  the  Lord,  that  the  spirit  of  division  may  not 
be  permitted  to  lay  the  Society  waste.  Those  who  advocate  or 
enter  into  separation,  know  not  what  they  do.  I  believe  it  is  a 
delusion ;  and  were  self  baptized  into  death,  we  Avould  prefer 
suffei'ing  anything,  but  a  sacrifice  of  our  faith,  rather  than  break 
up  the  excellent  order  of  church  government,  which  the  Lord 
blessed  the  Society  with,  in  the  beginning;    and   which  He 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  493 

placed  around  us,  as  a  hedge,  and  a  defence  of  our  testimonies 
against  the  inroads  of  the  enemy,  and  the  allurements  of  the 
world. 

21st.  Our  Meeting  for  SuflFerings  was  held  this  day ;  in  which 
selections  from  authentic  documents  on  the  African  slave  trade, 
made  by  a  committee  on  the  subject,  were  read;  and  directiorm 
given  to  print  in  a  pamphlet,  and  dissemina*-?  it  among  the 
officers  c.^  the  General  an  i  State  Governments,  vud  the  mem- 
bers of  the  different  legislatures,  as  well  as  to  others.  An 
epistle  to  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  in  London,  was  adopted, 
and  directed  to  be  forwarded  to  that  bod}^. 

23d.  First-day  afternoon^  I  felt  much  for  the  poor  in  spirit ; 
the  young  visited  ones  who  had  but  few  to  look  up  to  like 
fathers  and  mothers  in  Christ,  and  yet  have  to  encounter  the 
temjitations  of  a  watchful  destroyer.  Also  for  those  of  fur- 
ther experience,  who  are  surrounded  with  discouraging  views 
of  the  state  of  the  Society,  and  at  times  may  be  ready  to  give 
out  and  cast  away  their  shield.  A  little  matter  arose  in  my 
mind;  as  I  thought  for  these  different  ones ;  and  in  weakness, 
and  fear  of  doing  without  right  authority,  or  of  leaving  undone 
that  which  was  a  duty,  I  arose,  and  matter  was  furnished  which, 
though  very  small  at  first,  expanded,  and  I  hope,  contributed 
to  the  strength  of  some,  as  well  as  to  my  own  encouragement. 

30th.  This  has  been  a  day  of  clouds.  What  can  poor,  feeble 
man  do  for  the  visible  church,  when  conflicting  spirits  and  views 
are  arrayed  against  it?  He  can  do  little  more  than  pour  out 
his  feelings,  in  sighs  and  groans  that  cannot  be  uttered  in  words ; 
and  strive  to  hope  against  hope,  and  to  keep  hold  of  the  least 
shred  of  faith  that  may  be  left,  that  Divine  mercy  will  not  be 
withdrawn  ;  but  that  in  the  hour  of  extremity,  He  who  is  called 
the  Everlasting  Father  and  Prince  of  Peace,  will  rend  and  dis- 
perse the  clouds,  and  give  rest  to  the  weary  spirit ;  often  tossed 
as  with  a  tempest,  and  not  comforted ;  and  bring  us  into  a 
state  of  firmer  ixnity,  and  purer  love  towards  each  other. 

I  had  some  satisfactory  conversation  with  a  Friend,  respect- 
ing our  Yearly  Meeting,  and  the  spirit  of  division  abroad  in 
other  parts  of  the  Society.  We  were  united  in  the  belief,  that 
our  place  is  to  stand  still,  and  maintain  the  ground  which  we 
have  taken,  against  unsound  opinions  and  practices. 

Fourth  month  1st.  Our  beloved  aged  friend  Sarah  Churchman, 
being  very  unwell,  and  doubts  felt  of  her  recovery,  I  went  to 


494'  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Germantown,  to  see  her  daughters.  After  sitthig  awhile  at  her 
house,  I  called  to  see  Abraham  Keyser,  now  near  ninety  years 
old.  He  spoke  of  his  first  attendance  of  Friends'  meetings  on 
first-day,  which  w^ere  then  mostly  held  in  silence.  After  he  was 
convinced  that  it  was  his  duty  to  join  the  Society,  he  was  satis- 
fied it  was  right  to  go  to  the  meeting  in  the  middle  of  the  week; 
and  he  had  not  suftered  his  business  to  keep  him  from  meeting, 
at  an}^  time  since.  This  is  a  good  testimony,  and  what  every 
true  Friend,  who  lives  and  walks  in  the  Truth,  will  feel  bound 
to  keep  fliithfully  to.  He  also  mentioned  that  while  he  was 
laboring  under  much  mental  exercise,  Thomas  Scattergood 
came  out  to  the  meeting,  and  spoke  as  plainly  to  his  state,  as  if 
he  had  it  all  written  down  before  him.  This  settled  him  in  the 
conviction  of  what  it  was  right  for  him  to  do,  and  he  gave  up 
to  do  it. 

2d.  To-day  was  our  fourth-day  meeting.  After  a  long 
silence,  in  which  I  had  many  fears  of  speaking,  I  felt  afraid 
to  depart  without  reviving  the  expostulation  of  the  Lord  of 
the  vinej-ard,  "  Why  stand  ye  here  all  the  day  idle?  Go  ye 
also  into  the  vineyard,  and  whatsoever  is  right,  that  shall  ye 
receive."  That  there  is  a  work  for  every  one  to  do  in  the 
vineyard  of  his  own  heart,  which  no  man  or  woman  can  do  for 
us,  was  held  forth.  It  is  they  who  labor  that  receive  wages, 
and  gather  fruit  unto  life  eternal.  The  weeds  in  the  garden  of 
our  own  heart  are  to  be  first  eradicated,  that  the  ground  may 
be  prepared  for  the  Seed  of  the  kingdom  to  grow  in  it.  To  be 
employed  in  finding  fault  Avith  others,  while  our  own  hearts  are 
unattended  to,  and  the  work  of  sanctifieation  and  redemption 
not  going  on  in  us,  will  be  of  no  benefit  to  ourselves.  But  what- 
ever may  be  our  trials  and  discouragements,  if  we  are  faithful 
to  the  clear  discoveries  of  the  Divine  will,  we  shall  lay  up  trea- 
sure in  heaven  ;  and  keeping  our  lights  burning  and  loins  girded, 
watching  for  the  coming  of  the  Master,  He  will  in  his  time 
appear,  spread  a  table  fpr  us,  and  come  forth  and  serve  us. 

6th.  On  first-day  afternoon,  the  essential  benefit  of  silent 
waiting  upon  the  Lord,  in  meeting  and  out  of  it,  that  our  spirit- 
ual strength  may  be  renewed,  and  we  kept  alive  in  the  Spirit, 
was  opened,  under  a  feeling  of  the  quickening  power;  and  the 
humble,  honest  travaillers  for  the  cii'culation  of  Divine  life,  were 
encouraged  to  hold  on,  keeping  the  faith,  and  they  would  grow 
and  deepen  in  the  root. 


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JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS.  495 

8th.  Went  out  to  Germantown  to  attend  the  burial  of  our 
worthy  friend  and  helper  in  the  Lord,  Sarah  Churchman. 
"Blessed  are  the  dead  that  die  in  the  Lord,  from  henceforth; 
yea,  saith  the  Spirit,  they  rest  from  their  labors,  and  their 
works  follow  them." 

18th.  Our  Meeting  for  Sufferings  convened  this  morning; 
and  among  other  subjects  which  received  its  attention,  was  an 
interesting  report  from  the  Book  Committee,  showing  the  salo 
and  distribution  of  Friends'  books  in  the  past  year.  The  de- 
mand appears  to  increase  yearly ;  and  we  may  hope  that  the 
circulation  of  the  sound  gospel  views  which  these  books  con- 
tain, will  be  beneficial,  especially  to  seeking  minds.  More  zeal 
and  diligence  in  this  good  work  are  greatly  needed.  We  know 
not  where  conviction  may  be  carried  home  by  these  writings  ; 
and  we  ought  therefore  to  spread  them  far  and  wide,  among  all 
classes.  A  few  pamphlets  written  by  George  Fox,  brought 
from  the  north  of  England  into  London,  had  a  powerful  influ- 
ence upon  many,  and  no  doubt  opened  the  way  for  the  ministers 
of  the  gospel  who  came  to  that  city,  with  a  message  of  salva- 
tion, and  who  were  favored  to  gather  multitudes,  to  the  truth 
as  it  is  in  Jesus. 

19th.  The  Yearly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders  was  held 
this  morning,  where  we  had  the  company  of  an  unusual  number 
of  strangers  from  other  Yearly  Meetings. 

21st=  The  genei^al  Yearly  Meeting  convened,  and  was  a  large 
collection  of  Friends.  Epistles  from  all  the  Yearly  Meetings, 
except  New  England,  w^ere  read,  and  a  committee  appointed  to 
prepare  replies.  The  Yearly  Meeting  closed  on  sixth -day  noon. 
It  was  held  in  much  solemnity  and  order,  and  to  the  great  com- 
fort of  Friends.  We  had  cause  to  return  thanks  to  our  Heav- 
enly Father,  for  his  mercy  and  goodness  in  preserving  us  a 
united  body  ;  laboring  in  harmony  and  the  spirit  of  condescen- 
sion ;  which  had  not  been  so  fully  experienced  for  several  years. 
May  it  increase  and  rule  among  us  in  our  future  comings  to- 
gether. 

My  anticipations  of  this  Yearly  Meeting  had  been  of  a  painful 
character;  and  whether  such  feelings  are  jiermitted  to  humble, 
and  remove  all  confidence  in  everything  but  in  the  extension  of 
.Divine  mercy  and  power,  for  our  deliverance,  or  not,  it  was  a 
great  favor  that  those  apprehensions  were  not  realized ;  but 


496  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

that  the  controlling  power  of  the  invisible  Shepherd  andEishop 
of  souls,  kept  us  in  steadfast  reliance  upon  Him. 

30th.  Our  Monthly  Meeting  was  held  to-day,  by  appoint- 
ment ;  and  having  had  revived  on  my  mind,  at  different  times, 
in  the  last  two  years,  a  concern  to  visit  some  of  the  meetings 
of  Indiana  Yearly  Meeting,  particularly  on  the  western  side  of 
it,  although  feelings  of  discouragement  on  account  of  the  state 
of  the  Society  attended,  I  believed  it  best  to  lay  it  before 
Friends  for  their  consideration  and  judgment.  They  spoke  pretty 
freely  to  it,  and  a  certificate  addressed  to  Friends,  expressive 
of  the  unity  of  the  Monthly  Meeting  with  me  as  a  minister, 
and  with  the  concern,  was  j)repared  and  directed  to  bo  signed 
by  the  clerk. 

Fifth  month  5th.  This  morning  our  dear  friend  Eobert 
Smith  departed  this  life.  He  was  a  man  of  a  chastened  and 
pure  spirit,  and  of  dignified  manner  and  dej^ortment.  As  he 
was  a  man  of  peace,  very  much  subdued  in  his  temper,  so  he 
went  down  to  the  grave  in  peace ;  speaking  of  himself  a  little 
before  the  close,  with  great  modesty,  yet  giving  proof,  so  far  as 
he  could  be  understood,  that  his  hope  in  the  Lord's  mercy  and 
forgiveness,  was  as  an  anchor  to  his  soul.  With  a  short  sick- 
ness, and  but  little  suffering,  he  passed  away,  nearly  eighty-one 
years  old,  to  an  inheritance,  Ave  humbly  trust,  that  is  incor- 
ruptible, undefiled,  and  fadeth  not  away,  eternal  in  the  heavens. 

The  weather  this  morning  was  wet  and  chilling,  and  the 
Quarterly  Meeting,  on  the  women's  side  of  the  house,  was  less 
than  usual ;  but  I  thought  the  men's  a  large  meeting.  After 
the  extracts  from  the  Yearly  Meeting  minutes  were  read,  and 
recommended  to  the  subordinate  meetings,  I  mentioned  the  con- 
cern I  was  under,  to  visit  meetings  in  I]idiana  Yearly  Meeting, 
from  which,  at  times,  I  was  ready  to  shrink;  but  believed  it 
right  to  submit  it  to  the  consideration  and  judgment  of  the 
meeting.  The  weight  and  unity  which  appeared,  I  thought 
was  more  than  usual ;  it  was  unlooked  for,  and  was  received  by 
me  with  gratitude.  A  suitable  minute  was  made,  and  directed 
to  be  endorsed  on  the  certificate  of  the  Monthly  Meeting.  There 
was  a  covering  of  solemnity  over  us  throughout. 

Sirth  month  2d.  Yesterday  and  first-day  week  were  sea- 
sons of  Divine  favor ;  in  which  my  Lord  and  Master  eiuibled 
me  to  preach  his  gospel  with  that  authorit}'  which  gave  evi- 
dence it  was  not  of  man;  and  I  trust  it  found  its  way  into  the 


JOL'RNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  497 

hearts  of  some  goodly  seeking  ones,  and  was  a  renewed  call  to 
some  others. 

On  fourth-day  last  was  our  Monthly  Meeting ;  in  which  my 
friend  Joseph  Elkinton  informed,  that  he  felt  di-awn  to  accom- 
pany me  in  the  proposed  visit  in  Indiana  Yearly  Meeting  ; 
which  was  united  with,  and  I  hope  will  prove  a  relief  and  com- 
fort to  me. 

5th.  Was  at  the  Arch  Street  Meeting;  in  which  I  felt  my 
own  weakness  and  unfitness  to  approach  Ilim,  who  is  immacu- 
late purity.  As  the  time  drew  near  for  closing  the  meeting,  I 
remembered  the  prophet  regarded  himself  as  a  man  of  unclean 
lips ;  and  that  he  was  commissioned  to  hand  forth  the  language 
of  encouragement  to  some  among  the  degenerate  children  of 
Israel ;  and  his  language,  on  one  occasion,  was  brought  before 
me,  "  Comfort  ye,  comfort  ye,  my  people,  saith  your  God. 
Speak  ye  comfortably  to  Jerusalem,  and  cry  unto  her  that  her 
warfare  is  accomplished;  that  her  iniquity  is  j)ardoned  ;  for 
she  hath  received  of  the  Loi'd's  hand  double  for  all  her  sins." 
This  was  applied  to  those  who  submit  to  the  Lord's  fire  in  Zion, 
and  his  furnace  which  is  in  Jerusalem.  When  they  have  passed 
through  the  administration  of  his  judgments,  the  baptism  of 
the  Holy  Ghost  and  fire,  so  as  to  have  the  filth  purged  away, 
and  to  be  no  longer  as  reprobate  silver ;  they  know  all  their  in- 
iquities pardoned  through  the  blood  of  the  everlasting  covenant. 
They  are  prepared  to  partake  of  the  cup  of  suffering  for  the 
body's  sake,  the  church  ;  which  at  times  they  seem  to  drink  as 
to  the  di-egs ;  so  that  they  may  feel  as  if  they  received  double 
for  all  their  sins.  But  it  is  all  for  a  moment ;  and  when  the 
blessed  reward  at  the  end  of  the  race  is  granted,  it  is  no  doubt 
felt  as  light  affliction,  in  comparison  with  the  eternal  weight 
of  glory  which  the  saints  in  light  partake  of  The  least  and 
lowest  place  in  his  kingdom  will  be  enough  for  the  tribulated 
spirit.  I  thought  holy  help  was  mercifully  near,  qualifying  for 
a  little  service,  which  would  be  the  last  before  setting  out  on 
the  proposed  journey. 


498  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

CHAPTEE   XXV. 

1851. 

Religious  visit  to  Meetings  in  Iowa,  and  other  Meetings  within  Indiana 
Yearly  Meeting. 

1851,  Sixth  montli  10th.  Left  home  this  morning,  accom- 
panied by  ray  friend  Joseph  Elkinton,  under  feelings  of  much 
nearness  of  aifection  and  solicitude  for  my  dear  wife  and  chil- 
dren, and  a  deep  seriousness  at  the  extent  of  the  prospect  before 
me.  A  visit  to  Iowa,  and  intermediate  meetings,  is  an  under- 
taking of  importance,  and  produces,  at  times,  sensations  of  sad- 
ness at  the  thought  of  the  separation  from  my  beloved  family, 
and  the  liability  to  sickness  or  accident,  to  which  we  may  be 
exposed;  yet  accompanied  with  the  hope,  that  the  Lord's  pre- 
serving power  and  goodness  will  go  with  us,  helping  me  through 
without  hurting  the  cause  of  Christ ;  and  it  may  be  to  the  com- 
fort of  some  weary  ones.  We  rode  to  George  Malin's,  twenty- 
three  miles,  and  dined  with  them,  where  we  were  cordially  re- 
ceived and  sympathized  with  for  the  work  before  us.  Eode  to 
Aaron  Cooper's,  in  Sadsbury,  before  sunset,  where  we  were 
kindly  entertained  and  lodged. 

11th.  The  weather  fine,  w^e  left  our  friends  about  seven 
o'clock ;  dined  at  a  tavern  two  miles  beyond  Lancaster,  rested 
two  hours,  and  by  evening  got  to  a  tavern  near  York ;  having 
passed  thi'ough  Columbia,  and  crossed  the  Susquehanna  on  a 
bridge,  about  one  and  a  quarter  miles  long ;  the  distance  forty 
miles.  Wrote  home  to  inform  our  friends  how  we  got  along; 
and  being  much  fatigued  went  to  bed  early,  and  sleeping  well, 
was  much  refreshed. 

12th.  We  had  a  rough  ride,  after  leaving  York  about  three 
miles,  through  several  small  towns,  and  in  the  afternoon,  crossed 
the  South  Mountain  to  the  cold  springs ;  where  we  found  toler- 
able entertainment.  The  temperature  of  the  water,  as  it  issues 
from  the  spring,  we  were  told,  is  forty-eight  degrees,  and  when 
it  gets  to  the  baths,  about  fifty-one  degrees.  They  are  resorted 
to  by  invalids  from  various  places ;  and  the  use  of  the  water, 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS,  499 

and  the  exorcise  taken  in  the  mountain  atmosphere,  are  often 
very  invigorating. 

13th.  Rose  early  in  the  morning,  and  rode  eleven  miles  to 
breakfast,  at  Chambershurg ;  thence  over  the  Cove  Mountain, 
to  McConnelsburg,  twenty-two  miles.  It  took  about  two  and  a 
half  hours  to  ci'oss  the  mountain,  from  Loudon  to  the  latter 
place ;  they  are  eight  miles  apart.  Eode  to  Reamer's,  at  the 
bottom  of  Sideling  Hill.  This  mountainous  country  presents 
scenery  that  is  grand  and  impressive  to  those  who  are  not 
familiar  with  it.  The  people  in  general,  so  far  as  we  discover, 
live  in  a  rough  manner.  Some  haVe  good  dwellings  and  farms, 
but  many  appear  to  obtain  barely  the  means  of  subsistence. 
This  was  not  an  agreeable  stopping  place  to  us ;  but  we  have 
been  favored  to  travel  with  much  satisfaction,  the  weather  being 
cool  and  dry. 

14th.  Rode  over  Sideling  Hill  to  Snell's,  six  miles,  and  break- 
fasted ;  thence  up  the  Juniata  River,  eighteen  miles,  to  Bedford. 
The  road  along  the  river  was  good,  the  water  on  one  hand, 
and  the  hills  on  the  othei',  of  bold  ascents ;  some  of  them  pre- 
senting rocky  fronts,  imparted  a  romantic  character  to  the 
scenery,  softenedbytheflowingof  the  beautiful  stream  at  our  feet. 
We  were  glad  to  find  ourselves  at  Bedford  about  one  o'clock. 
We  rode  to  Dunning's  Creek,  the  road  rough  and  hilly.  In  one 
place,  where  it  had  been  dug  on  the  side  of  a  precipitous  hill,  it 
was  so  narrow,  that  we  thought  it  safest  to  lead  the  horses,  as 
a  little  valuation  from  the  track,  might  have  precipitated  us  over 
a  steep  bank.  Our  friends  received  and  accommodated  us 
kindly. 

15th.  Being  first-day,  and  notice  having  been  spread  of  our 
intending  to  be  at  the  meeting,  a  larger  number  of  persons  as- 
sembled than  is  customary.  There  seemed  for  some  time  but 
little  of  that  religious  exercise  and  feeling,  which  ought  to  be 
found  among  true  worshippers,  in  this  gospel  day;  and  yet  I 
believe  the  Shepherd  of  the  sheep  was  not  unmindful  of  lis. 
After  sitting  some  time  under  a  state  of  barrenness,  the  import- 
ance of  every  one  being  daily  engaged  in  the  work  of  their  own 
salvation,  came  before  me,  with  the  intimation  to  stand  on  my 
feet ;  and  the  way  gradually  opened  to  lay  before  them  the  na- 
ture and  need  of  this  work  ;  which  is  of  more  consequence  than 
anything  else  in  this  world.  A  degree  of  solemnity  spread  over 
us,  and  some  were  brought  into  tenderness  on  the  occasion. 


500  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM   EVANS. 

Went  to  the  house  of  a  young  Friend  to  dine,  and  in  the 
afternoon,  had  a  religious  opportunity  with  the  children,  and 
several  others ;  in  which  they  were  invited  to  increased  dedica- 
tion to  the  Lord,  and  his  cause,  both  for  their  own  soul's  sake, 
and  for  the  sake  of  those  around  them.  Lodged  at  a  Friend's, 
to  whom,  and  his  parents,  our  visit  appeared  to  be  acceptable, 
and  I  trust  comforting  and  cheering. 

16th.  He  piloted  us  to  Shellburgh,  and  put  us  in  the  way  to 
get  on,  what  they  term,  the  mud  pike ;  which  we  supposed  was 
made  by  throwing  up  the  earth  from  each  side,  to  make  a  good 
clay  road.  But  our  disappointment  was  great,  at  finding  our- 
selves upon  one  of  the  stoniest  and  roughest  roads,  in  this  part 
of  the  country.     Eode  about  thirty-seven  miles  to-day. 

17th.  Eode  to  Lexington,  thence  crossing  Laurel  Hill,  we 
continued  on  over  Chestnut  Eidge,  a  high  and  tedious  range, 
and  withal  so  stony  and  rough,  that  we  feared  our  carriage 
would  be  broken.  It  was  indispensable,  for  the  relief  of  the 
horses,  that  we  should  walk  over  many  of  the  hills ;  which 
made  the  journey  laborious.  Within  the  last  thirty  years, 
much  clearing  of  the  forest  has  been  done,  in  some  of  these 
mountainous  districts,  and  in  fifty  more,  it  is  probable,  this  will 
i)e  made  a  beautiful  and  productive  country,  as  the  means  of  the 
inhabitants  increase,  and  the  mode  of  farming  is  improved. 
Large  droves  of  cattle  and  flocks  of  sheep,  are  driven  on  these 
roads,  to  the  eastern  markets,  and  the  pasturage  in  summer,  and 
the  feed  on  grain  in  the  fall,  afford  a  market  for  the  farmers  on 
the  road.  After  dining,  we  rode  to  Connelsville  on  the  Youghi- 
ogheny  Eiver,  and  thence  to  a  place  of  private  entertainment, 
which  afforded  tolerable  accommodation. 

18th.  Eose  early,  and  made  our  way  to  Brownsville,  part  of 
the  way  on  the  National  turnpike,  which  was  in  good  order,  and 
during  the  day  travelled  forty  miles. 

19th.     Travelled  the  same  distance,  to  St.  Clairsville,  in  Ohio.  • 

20th.  Got  to  our  friends  B.  and  M.  Hoyle,  near  Barncsville. 
Here  we  were  visited  by  several  Friends,  whose  society  and  con- 
versation were  cheering. 

21st.  Got  some  repairing  done  to  the  carriage,  and  made 
some  calls. 

22d.  We  attended  the  first-day  meeting  at  Stillwater,  which 
was  a  pretty  large  company.  We  seemed  to  sit  in  a  dry  place, 
for  a  long  time,  under  the  feeling  of  which,  I  feared  the  people 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   fiVANS.  501 

were  not  sufficiently  engaged  in  travail  of  soul  for  themselves, 
but  were  looking  to  be  fed  or  satisfied  through  others.  Such  a 
state  was  spoken  to,  and  the  indispensable  need  of  this  labor 
for  their  own  salvation,  pressed  upon  them.  The  honest  travel- 
k-rs  were  encouraged  to  keep  to  their  Lord,  and  to  be  faithful 
to  their  gifts,  and  they  would  finally  receive  a  ci'own  of  life. 
What  avails  the  mere  practice  of  coming  to  meeting,  and  hold- 
ing the  principles  of  Christianity,  if  we  are  swallowed  up  with 
worldly  thoughts  and  pursuits,  and  have  forgotten  the  dew  of 
our  youth ;  going  after  the  perishing  things  of  time ;  which  I  was 
afi'aid  was  the  ease  with  some. 

In  the  afternoon,  B.  H.  and  wife,  and  J.  B.,  accompanied  us 
to  a  Friend's  house,  near  Smyrna,  intending  to  jnlot  us  to  Owl 
Creek.  Here  we  were  told  that  R.  S.  H.,  who  had  frequently 
appeared  in  the  ministry,  spoke  that  morning  for  some  time  in 
their  meeting,  acceptably  to  Friends.  Soon  after  sitting  down, 
he  was  taken  with  apoplexy,  and  about  five  o'clock  died.  This 
solemn  event  affected  me,  leading  to  serious  reflections  on  the 
uncertainty  of  life ;  but  as  I  had  left  all  that  is  dear  to  me,  under 
the  belief  of  religious  duty,  I  was  kept  from  desponding  of  the 
mercy  and  protection  of  the  Lord  Almighty,  and  endeavored  to 
keep  an  eye  to  Him,  and  to  the  work  before  me. 

23d.  Took  leave  of  our  dear  friends,  and  rode  to  Coshocton; 
parts  of  the  road  over  mountainous  hills,  which  made  travelling 
tedious  and  wearisome. 

24th.  Having  rested  well,  we  drove  on  to  Millwood ;  most 
of  the  way  on  the  banks  of  Whitewoman  River  and  OwlCi'eek; 
the  road  good.  That  night  we  got  to  a  Friend's  house  in  the 
settlement,  near  the  meeting-house. 

25  th.  Attended  Alum  Creek  Preparative  Meeting  of  Minis- 
ters and  Eldei's  held  at  this  place;  in  which  I  was  led  to  make 
some  observations  on  a  case  before  it,  touching  the  care  to  be 
observed  towards  persons  appearing  as  ministers;  both  as  to 
hastening  their  reception  into  these  meetings,  or  in  too  long  de- 
laying it,  when  Friends  are  satisfied  that  a  gift  in  the  ministry 
has  been  bestowed.  The  discernment  and  sense  which  the  Holy 
Spirit  gives  to  those  who  humbly  wait  for  its  guidance,  is  the 
ground  of  right  decision;  and  that  is  to  be  looked  for  by  those, 
whose  duty  it  is  to  judge  in  these  cases.  It  appeared  to  me, 
that  the  desire  to  fill  the  ranks  of  ministers  and  elders,  at  this 
day,  arising  in  part  from  the  idea,  that  the  cause  of  Christ  de- 
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502  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

pends  mainly  for  its  support  on  much  activity ;  and  also,  it  is  to 
be  feared,  from  a  change  of  opinion,  in  not  a  few,  respecting  in- 
ward spiritual  religion  and  worship,  is  involving  the  Society  in 
great  danger. 

26th.  After  the  Scriptures  had  been  read  this  morning,  by 
one  of  the  jiarents,  I  felt  drawn  to  speak  on  the  importance  of 
rightly  discharging  their  duty.  The  need  there  is  of  watchful- 
ness and  prayer,  that  they  may  be  endued  with  wnsdom  to 
govern  the  children,  and  to  example  them,  so  as  to  do  nothing 
we  would  deem  improper  in  them.  Like  Abraham,  to  command 
our  house,  and  our  children  after  us,  to  keep  the  Divine  law. 
The  children  were  reminded  of  the  serious  responsibility  which 
attaches  to  them,  for  the  right  occupancy  of  the  measure  of 
grace,  purchased  for  them  by  the  Saviour;  and  for  the  advantages 
of  membership  in  the  Society  of  Friends ;  and  they  were  aflec- 
tionately  invited  to  faithfulness  to  that  precious  gift,  and  the 
improvement  of  the  privileges  they  had. 

Attended  the  Monthly  Meeting ;  in  the  first  meeting,  I  was  let 
down  under  a  view  of  my  own  weakness,  and  unworthiness,  and  I 
believe  all  ability  for  vocal  service  was  withheld  in  Divine  wis- 
dom, for  my  own  sake,  as  well,  it  may  be,  as  for  others.  In  that 
for  discipline,  a,fter  some  Queries  were  answered,  I  was  led  to 
advert  to  the  nature  of  our  testimonj^  to  silent  worslii^),  and  the 
spirituality  of  the  gospel  dispensation ;  and  endeavored  to  en- 
courage Friends  to  maintain  right  exercise  in  their  religious 
meetings  ;  and  though  the  number  may  be  small,  who  ai'e  thus 
faithfully  engaged,  yet  the  declaration  of  the  Saviour  would  be 
realized,  "  Where  two  or  three  are  met  together  in  m}'  name, 
there  am  I  in  the  midst  of  them."  In  the  afternoon,  we  rode 
to  W.  H.'s,  Jr.,  but  the  young  man  who  undertook  to  pilot  us, 
having  missed  the  way,  part  of  which  was  through  woods,  we 
did  not  arrive  there  until  after  dark.  The  family  received  lis 
very  kindly,  which  was  the  more  grateful,  as  we  had  been  under 
some  uncertainty  whether  they  M^ere  the  Friends  we  were  in- 
quiring for,  and  whether  we  should  succeed  in  finding  their 
residence. 

27th.  Notice  was  sent  over  this  morning  to  Weston,  appoint- 
ing a  meeting  at  three  p.  M. ;  which  was  held  to  some  satisfac- 
tion, though  the  number  of  exercised  members  .appeared  to  be 
small.  It  seemed  to  mc,  that  Friends  were  in  danger  of  substi- 
tuting a  verbal  profession,  and  activity  in  some  benevolent  ob- 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  503 

jects,  in  place  of  that  daily,  inwai'd  travail  of  soul  for  the  bread 
and  water  of  life,  which  can  alone  keep  it  alive  unto  God,  and 
qualify  to  fill  up  the  measure  of  service  the  Lord  designed  us 
for  in  the  Avorld,  and  in  the  church.  I  was  impi-essed  with  the 
belief,  that  the  Lord  would  send  forth  messengers,  as  in  the  rise 
of  the  Society,  to  gather  the  members  back  to  practical  obedi- 
ence to  the  Liffht  of  Christ  in  the  heart.  We  took  tea  with  A. 
S.,  and  lodged  at  J.  M.'s,  near  neighbors,  who  appeared  to  be 
sincere-hearted  Friends,  and  glad  of  our  company. 

28th.  Piloted  by  W.  IL,  we  rode  to  Gilead  ;  and  in  the  after- 
noon, attended  the  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders. 
I  sat  among  them  in  emptiness ;  but  towards  the  close,  felt  en- 
gaged to  hold  up  to  their  view  the  great  importance  of  the 
stations  which  they  occupied,  both  to  themselves  and  to  the 
flock.  There  are  dispensations  meted  out  by  the  Head  of  the 
church,  for  our  renewed  humiliation,  to  strip  us  of  what  we 
have  been  entrusted  with,  to  let  us  see  and  feel  our  own  nothing- 
ness, and  to  prepare  for  further  service  when  He  sees  meet.  In 
this  condition,  we  are  to  abide  the  Lord's  time,  not  daring  to 
stir  up  or  awake  our  Beloved  until  He  pleases.  When  we  have 
waited  his  time,  we  come  to  know  Him,  by  his  quickening 
power,  to  be  unto  us  the  resurrection  and  the  life.  It  is  a  great 
favor  to  be  kept,  from  the  beginning  to  the  end  of  our  heavenly 
pilgrimage,  in  this  lowly,  travailing  state,  and  to  see  greenness 
in  old  age.  It  was  to  be  feared,  that  for  want  of  being  willing 
to  endure  the  baptisms  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  some  have  trusted  in 
themselves  and  their  early  experiences,  and  have  lost  ground, 
and  not  attained  that  establishment  in  the  Truth  which  they 
would  have  been  favored  with,  had  they  continued  as  when  in 
the  child's  state.  There  are  right  hand  as  well  as  left  hand 
errors,  and  it  is  needful  to  guard  against  the  insinuations  of 
Satan,  who  sometimes  seeks  to  destroy  the  good  work,  by  per- 
suading that  we  are  unfit  for  it ;  even  when  the  pointing  of 
the  Divine  finger  is  felt,  to  engage  in  it.  But  we  are  to  lay 
hold  of  the  degree  of  faith  furnished;  and  moving  at  the  Lord's 
biddins:,  we  shall  know  Him  to  be  mouth  and  wisdom  unto  us. 
I  thought  the  little  service  made  its  way  into  the  hearts  of 
some  and  opened  them  towards  us. 

After  meeting,  we  accompanied  our  elderly  friends,  W.  G.  and 
his  wife,  to  their  humble  dwelling,  where  we  were  kindly  enter- 
tained. 


504  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

29th.  First-day.  At  Alum  Creek  Meeting  ;  in  which  the  doc- 
trine of  humility  was  held  up  to  view,  as  inculcated  by  our  Sa- 
viour, when  the  disciples  had  come  to  Him  saying,  "  Who  is  the 
greatest  in  the  kingdom  of  heaven;"  and  "He  called  a  little 
child  unto  Him,  and  set  him  in  the  midst  of  them,  and  said, 
verily,  I  say  unto  you,  except  ye  be  converted,  and  become  as 
little  children,  ye  shall  not  enter  into  the  kingdom  of  heaven." 
And  when  the  mother  of  Zebedee's  children  desired  that  her  sons 
might  sit,  one  on  his  right  hand  and  the  other  on  his  left,  in  his 
kingdom  ;  He  replied.  Ye  know  not  what  ye  ask  ;  and  let  them 
know  that  it  was  only  to  be  given  to  them  for  whom  it  was  pre- 
pared of  the  Father.  The  desire  for  eminence  and  notoriety, 
either  in  the  world,  or  in  the  church,  cannot  be  indulged  by  the 
truly  devoted  follower  of  Christ.  His  concern  is,  to  be  made 
and  kept  what  the  Lord  would  have  him  to  be;  and  if  he  per- 
severes steadily,  he  will  be  brought  to  see  more  and  more  clear- 
ly, that  his  safety  dejiends  upon  constant  resignation  and 
obedience  to  the  Divine  will.  I  was  Yevy  unusually  and  un- 
looked  for,  led  to  treat  on  this  momentous  subject ;  and  the 
meeting  closed  with  prayer  for  the  diffident,  honest-hearted  ones 
among  them,  that  they  might  be  strengthened  with  might  in 
the  inner  man,  to  hold  on  their  way  faithfully-  and  for  the 
young  peojjle,  that  they  might  open  their  hearts  to  the  King  of 
glory.     Dined,  and  in  the  afternoon  returned  to  Gilead. 

30th.  Was  held  Alum  Creek  Quarterly  Meeting.  In  the 
meeting  for  business,  many  spoke  to  the  subjects  brought  before 
it.  After  they  were  pretty  much  through  the  business,  I  felt 
drawn  to  revive  the  prediction,  "  In  that  day  the  Lord  of  hosts 
shall  be  for  a  crown  of  glory,  and  a  diadem  of  beauty,  unto  the 
residue  of  his  people;  and  for  a  spirit  of  judgment  to  him  that 
sitteth  in  judgment,  and  strength  to  them  that  turn  the  battle 
to  the  gate."  I  observed,  that  if  this  prophecy  is  fulfilled  at  the 
present  time,  it  ought  to  be  in  our  religious  Society.  Our  early 
Fi'iends  were  brought  off  from  all  human  dependence,  to  wait 
on  the  Lord  for  ability  to  act  in  his  cause  and  his  church; 
and  they  knew  Him  to  preside  among  them,  and  allot  to  his 
servants  their  respective  portions  of  the  labor.  One  of  them 
said,  "In  Babylon  there  is  the  likeness  of  everything  that  is  in 
Zion."  They  saw  the  deception,  and  rejecting  the  mere  image, 
they  sought  for  the  substance.  I  felt  afraid  that  some,  even  in 
the  appearance  of  love  and  unity,  were  in  danger  of  mistaking 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  505 

the  show  of  it  for  the  reality,  which  is  only  known  hy  the  truly 
baptized  members  of  the  church  of  Christ.  The  young  men, 
many  of  whom  were  possessed  of  good  talents,  were  invited  to 
wait  for  Divine  direction,  to  enable  them  to  take  their  proper 
places  in  the  church;  some  to  be  mouth,  and  others  as  ballast, 
to  keep  all  steady ;  every  one  minding  the  Pilot,  that  the  bark 
may  be  guided  safely. 

Proposing  to  go  into  the  women's  meeting,  a  Friend  was 
named  to  accompany  me,  and  the  Master  qualified  me  to  preach 
the  gospel  of  salvation  by  Christ,  to  the  young  people ;  who  were 
pleaded  with  to  yield  to  the  calls  of  his  grace,  and  come  to  Him. 
Faithfulness  in  the  discharge  of  their  duties,  was  pressed  upon 
the  mothers,  that  as  far  as  in  their  power,  they  may  prepare  the 
children  to  receive  the  Seed  of  the  kingdom ;  and  that  when 
the  end  came,  whether  the  children  regarded  the  entreaties  and 
exercise  of  their  parents  or  not,  they  may  be  clear;  having  the 
testimony  of  the  Lord's  spirit,  that  they  had  done  what  they 
could.  It  was  a  tendering  time  with  some.  In  the  afternoon, 
rode  eleven  miles,  and  lodged. 

Seventh  month  1st.  Rode  forty  miles  to  Lewisburg;  and  on 
the  2d,  had  an  appointed  meeting  there  ;  which  was  a  season 
of  favor,  some  disconsolate  ones  being  encouraged  to  resignation, 
and  to  believe  that  He,  who  can  bind  up  the  broken-hearted, 
will  remember  them,  sanctify  their  afflictions  to  their  benefit, 
and  as  they  give  up  to  Him,  will  in  his  time,  lift  up  their  heads 
in  hope.  An  elderly  woman  Friend  rose,  and  said  with  some 
fervor,  that  she  could  set  her  seal  to  the  truth  of  the  testimony 
just  borne.  Dined  with  H.  W.,  and  in  the  afternoon  rode 
eleven  miles  to  Goshen. 

3d.  We  had  a  pretty  large  meeting,  composed  of  persons 
who  appeared  to  be  much  strangers-  to  the  inward  life  of  reli- 
gion ;  which  makes  hard  work  for  the  poor  servant,  without 
obtaining  much  relief.  In  the  afternoon,  we  had  another  at 
Westland,  about  three  miles  distant.  The  doctrine  of  salvation, 
through  the  coming  of  Christ  in  the  flesh,  and  by  his  Spirit  in 
the  heart,  was  enforced  ;  and  a  dependence  on  a  mere  profession, 
without  this  inward  work  of  sanctification,  was  warned  against. 
The  people  were  affectionately  invited  to  come  into  the  living 
experience  of  this  heart-changing  work  ;  that  being  partakers 
of  that  saving  faith,  of  which  Christ  is  the  author,  they  maybe 
made  witnesses  of  his  power  and  goodness,  in  setting  them  free 


506  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

from  sin,  and  bringing  them  into  that  state  of  perfection,  which 
the  gospel  inculcates.  Divine  help  was  extended,  enabling  me 
to  relieve  my  mind  and  to  depart  in  peace. 

4th.  Eode  to  Carmel.  The  meeting  was  small.  After  wait- 
ing some  time,  the  language  presented,  "  Blessed  are  they  that 
hunger  and  thirst  after  righteousness,  for  they  shall  be  filled." 
I  was  enabled  to  speak  to  such  a  state,  recurring  to  the  poor 
widow  in  the  time  of  the  famine,  who  was  gathering  some 
sticks  to  bake  for  herself  and  her  son,  the  last  pittance  of  meal, 
expecting  to  die  after  it  was  partaken  of;  but  obe3'ing  the  'lirec- 
tion  of  the  prophet,  to  prepare  a  cake  for  him  first,  she  expeii- 
enced  the  supply  to  be  continued,  until  the  Lord  sent  rain  on 
the  earth ;  and  so  it  would  be  in  a  spiritual  sense.  The  obedient 
soul  would  not  bo  suffered  to  perish;  but  keeping  the  faith  ia 
those  low  seasons,  renewed  supplies  of  heavenly  bread  would  bo 
furnished,  as  it  is  patiently  waited  and  labored  for.  My  mind 
was  then  turned  to  those  who  were  full  of  business,  in  provid- 
ing for  the  body,  neglecting  the  work  of  their  salvation,  living 
as  without  God  in  the  world,  and  striving  to  collect  much  about 
them.  But  all  their  earthly  possessions  could  not  procure  for 
them  one  crumb  of  heavenly  bread,  or  a  drop  of  living  water. 
And  what  will  they  do  when  the  pale  messenger  is  sent  to  their 
habitation?  Prepared  or  unprepared,  they  must  go  to  their 
everlasting  reward. 

Although  it  was  distressing  to  enter  into  the  condition  of 
such  worldlings,  yet  it  seemed  right  to  warn  them  of  their  dan- 
ger ;  and  such  were  called  upon,  if  it  was  even  the  eleventh 
hour,  to  enter  into  the  vineyard  of  their  own  hearts,  and  labor 
to  have  everything  removed  that  was  choking  the  good  seed, 
and  obstructing  its  taking  root  and  growing  there. 

5th.  Set  out  pretty  early  this  morning,  and  rode  forty-seven 
miles  to  West  Branch,  in  Miami  county.  We  dined,  and  fed  our 
horses  at  a  farm-house  on  the  road,  but  did  not  reach  the 
Friend's  house  to  which  our  guide  took  us,  until  sundown. 

6th.  Attended  West  Branch  Meeting,  being  first-day.  The 
weather  being  wet,  and  no  notice  spread  of  our  intention  of 
being  there,  the  company  was  small.  The  necessity  of  living 
in  the  fear  of  the  Lord,  in  order  to  experience  ])reservation,  was 
inculcated.  It  is  not  beginning  and  running  well  for  a  time, 
that  will  do  for  the  true  christian,  but  by  dwelling  in  humility, 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  507 

asking  preservation  of  the  Lord,  and  minding  his  warning  voice 
wdien  temptation  is  presented,  that  safety  can  be  known. 

Notice  having  been  spread  for  a  meeting  at  Mill  Creek,  at 
four  o'clock,  distant  about  four  miles,  we  went  thei-o.  Found 
a  comjiany  collected,  few  of  whom  were  Friends,  but  they  sat 
in  a  becomino:  manner.  It  is  a  trial  to  be  the  means  of  conven- 
ing  those  who  are  expecting  words,  little  acquainted  with  silent 
waiting  on  the  Lord,  to  receive  ability  to  offer  spiritual  wor- 
ship ;  but  keeping  still,  with  a  single  eye  to  Him,  lie  qualified 
me  to  preach  the  gospel  of  life  and  salvation  through  Christ,  in 
his  outward  appearance  in  the  prepared  body,  and  his  spiritual 
manifestation  in  the  heart,  as  the  great  Baptizer  of  his  children  ; 
bringing  to  remembrance  many  passages  of  scripture  in  support 
of 'the  practical  efficacy  of  that  religion,  of  which  He  is  the  au- 
thor, and  will  be  the  finisher,  in  the  obedient  soul.  It  was  to 
my  admiration  and  the  solemnizing  of  the  peoj)le.  Thanksgiv- 
ing for  his  mercy  and  condescension  to  us,  poor  unworthy  crea- 
tures, and  prayer  for  continued  preservation,  were  ofi'ered  up  to 
the  Lord  Almighty ;  and  I  humbly  hope,  under  the  puttings 
forth  of  his  Spirit. 

We  went  home  with  W.  D.  J.,  who  received  and  took  care  of 
us,  in  a  kind  and  affectionate  manner ;  which  is  very  grateful 
to  travellers,  far  from  their  connections  and  home  friends. 

7th.  Staid  with  this  aged  Friend  to  get  our  horses'  shoes  at- 
tended to  ;  the  top  of  the  carriage  painted ;  the  dry,  hot  weather 
having  cracked  the  paint,  so  that  it  leaked  ;  also  to  refit  our- 
selves a  little.  This  Friend  told  us  he  was  once  a  member  of 
Bush  River,  in  South  Carolina;  and  within  a  few  years  had 
travelled  there  in  a  wagon,  to  bring  away  some  colored  people 
who  had  been  freed  from  slavery  ;  and  in  going,  they  slept 
out  in  the  woods  most  of  the  time.  He  brought  away  three, 
with  their  certificates  of  manumission.  In  a  town  of  Kentucky, 
they  were  surrounded,  he  said,  by  thirty  men,  who,  probably, 
supposed  the  negroes  w^ere  runaway  slaves ;  but  the  proof  of 
their  legal  freedom  was  such,  as  to  deter  the  men  from  stopping 
them.  I  thought  it  was  a  striking  instance  of  devotion  to  the 
cause  of  the  injured  African.  After  his  parents  came  into  Ohio, 
then  a  wilderness  country,  he  was  employed  in  wagoning  pro- 
duce to  Cincinnati,  on  the  Ohio  River,  and  bringing  away  store 
goods.  There  being  few  or  no  bridges  across  the  rivers,  they 
had  to  ford  them,  or  to  swim  their  horses  and  wagon  through. 


508  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

In  the  latter  case,  there  being  several  teams  in  companj,  he 
said,  they  tied  down  the  body  to  the  axle-trees,  to  prevent  it 
from  floating  off;  and  attaching  six  or  eight  horses  to  a  wagon, 
with  a  rider  to  each  span  of  horses,  they  Avoiild  swim  tlie  wiiole 
thi'ough  the  river,  and  in  this  way  cross  those  streams.  It  was 
their  practice  to  lie  out  at  night,  carrying  their  food,  cooking 
utensils  and  bedding  with  them.  He  stated  that  at  one  time, 
he  was  out,  when  the  snow  was  from  one  and  a  half  to  two  feet 
deep  ;  in  which  with  their  loaded  wagons,  they  could  make  but 
from  four  and  a  half  to  eight  miles  a  day.  When  evening  came, 
they  selected  a  suitable  f)lace  to  encamp;  and  after  unharness- 
ing and  feeding  the  horses,  leaving  them  to  lie  down  in  the 
snow,  they  cleared  a  place  for  themselves,  kindled  a  fire  of 
bushes  and  small  timber,  took  their  suppers  around  the  fire,  and 
then  spreading  out  their  bedding,  they  lay  with  their  feet  to 
the  fire,  the  heavens  and  the  earth  being  their  covering  and 
their  bed.  He  thought  it  was  a  very  healthy  way  of  sleeping. 
When  the  weather  was  rainy  and  the  ground  wet,  they  cut 
branches  and  bushes,  to  raise  them  from  the  water  on  the 
ground,  and  placed  their  bedding  on  them.  The  Friend  ajDpeai'- 
ed  to  be  a  healthy,  hardy  old  man. 

8th.  Had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Concord ;  which  was 
small ;  chiefly  made  up  of  the  few  Friends  residing  there.  I  en- 
deavored to  do  what  appeared  to  be  required,  but  it  was  rather 
a  laborious  time.  Several  Friends  dined  where  we  did,  and  the 
man  being  a  large  farmer,  we  had  conversation  on  the  influence 
which  much  business  has  in  drawing  the  mind  away  from  the 
great  object  of  our  creation  ;  preventing  us  from  performing  the 
duties  which  the  Lord  requires  of  us,  and  filling  the  sphere  He 
designs  us  to  occupy,  so  that  we  may  become  the  salt  of  the 
earth  and  lights  in  the  world.  The  education  of  children  in  a 
guarded  manner,  attending  to  the  proper  cultivation  of  their 
jninds,  so  as  to  prepare  them  for  usefulness  in  the  world,  was 
enforced  ;  as  well  as  the  great  importance  of  parents  setting 
them  a  right  example  by  religious  lives  and  conversation  ;  in- 
stances of  the  eff'ect  of  which  were  mentioned.  One  Friend  pre- 
sent told  my  companion  he  thought  it  was  not  lost  time  that 
had  been  spent  there.  Went  to  J.  C.'s,  about  six  and  a  half 
miles;  not  far  from  Union  town. 

9th.  Attended  Union  Meeting,  being  the  Preparative  Meet- 
ing, which  was  large.     The  state  of  some,  whose  faith  was 


JOURNAL   OP   "WILLIAM   EVANS.  509 

closely  proved,  was  impressed  on  me ;  and  after  waiting  for  a  time, 
under  the  fear  of  over-acting,  or  suffering  the  meeting  to  pass 
without  doing  what  I  ought,  I  rose  with  the  expressions, 
"  Many  are  the  afflictions  of  the  righteous,  but  the  Lord  de- 
livereth  him  out  of  them  all,"  and  dwelt  on  the  benefits  derived 
from  our  trials.  "Whom  the  Lord  loveth  He  chasteneth,  and 
scourgeth  every  son  that  He  receiveth."  After  entering  into 
the  necessity  of  these  dispensations,  for  man's  refinement  and 
preservation,  1  was  led  to  those  who  knew  nothing  of  these 
chastenings ;  who  were  without  their  changes,  and  were  living 
in  ease  and  indifference ;  and  those  who  are  without  chastise- 
ment, are  not  the  sons  and  daughters  of  the  Lord.  Many  of 
these  go  into  the  earth,  and  are  covered  as  with  thick  clay ;  so 
that  they  are  in  danger  of  entirely  losing  the  tenderness  and 
sensibility  which  they  knew  in  the  days  of  their  youth.  It  ap- 
peared to  me,  that  the  inordinate  pursuit  of  the  things  of  the 
world,  had  brought  a  cloud  over  our  religious  Society,  as  well  as 
over  other  parts  of  Christendom  generally.  We  were  planted 
a  noble  vine,  wholly  a  right  seed,  in  the  beginning;  but  were 
now  in  danger  of  becoming  the  degenerate  plant  of  a  strange 
viiie.  Some  were  soleranl}'  warned  of  the  consequences  of  wor- 
shipping Mammon,  and  reminded  of  the  testimony  of  Christ, 
that  we  cannot  serve  God  and  Mammon ;  and  of  all  that  we  can 
collect  of  this  world's  goods,  we  can  carry  nothing  out  with  us. 
I  was  enabled  to  declare  the  truth  in  the  authority  thereof, 
expostulating  with  the  worldly  professors,  and  in  entreating 
the  young  people  to  serve  the  Lord.  Two  Friends  confirmed 
what  had  been  said. 

After  the  meeting  we  went  to  the  house  of  a  Friend,  where 
we  remained  until  the  following  morning,  and  found  his  home 
an  agreeable  stopping  place ;  there  appearing  to  be  more  mental 
culture  in  his  family  than  in  some  others,  judging  from  their 
reading  and  deportment.  Where  we  meet  with  those  who- are 
religiously  exercised,  however  simple  their  habits  may  be,  our 
hearts  are  united  to  such,  and  their  humility,  and  the  innocency 
of  their  spirits,  render  their  society  agreeable. 

10th.  Was  at  Lick  Branch,  which  was  small,  owing  in  part 
to  its  being  harvest  time,  and  the  weather  frequently  wet,  so  as 
to  make  getting  their  grain  housed,  very  precarious.  It  was  a 
good  meeting  to  me,  and  to  some  others.  One  elderly  Friend 
said  he  was  glad  I  was  there.     Lodged  at  J.  H.'s,  who,  with  his 


510  JOURNAL   or   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

wife,  appear  to  be  eoucorned  Friends.  They  expressed  their 
gladness  of  our  visit. 

11th.  We  tool?  an  affectionate  leave  of  our  friends,  and  rode 
five  miles  to  South  Fork,  where  we  held  an  appointed  meeting; 
chiefly  made  up  of  persons  not  members,  and  a  few  Friends  ; 
part  of  them  from  other  places.  It  was  not  a  very  animating 
time  to  me,  though  some  manifested  their  satisfaction,  for  whose 
strength  and  preservation  intercession  had  been  made  to  the 
Father  of  mercies.  This  evening  a  Friend  came  from  Lick 
Branch,  to  pilot  us  to  New  Garden. 

12th.  Set  out  pretty  early  for  New  Garden,  in  Indiana.  Some 
parts  of  the  way  being  fiat,  and  the  ground  peculiai'l}^  hable  to 
be  cut  in  very  deeply  by  travelling  on  it  in  wet  weather,  the  in- 
habitants have  been  in  the  practice  of  covering  them  in  some 
places,  with  logs,  not  hewed,  which  makes  extremely  rough 
riding.  We  reached  F.  T.'s  a  little  before  sundown,  and  w^ere 
frankly  received ;  I  having  been  there  about  eight  years  before. 
We  found  him  an  intelligent  Friend,  concerned  for  the  main- 
tenance of  our  religious  principles  ;  and  he  appeared  to  be  alive 
in  the  Truth.  I  felt  much  distressed  on  entering  Indiana,  not 
knowing  how  we  should  get  along,  yet  desiring  to  be  Divinely 
guided  in  the  way  the  Lord  would  have  me  to  go. 

13th.  Attended  New  Garden  Meeting  in  the  morning ; 
to  which  I  walked  in  the  feeling  of  great  poverty,  yet  in 
hope  we  should  meet  with  a  body  of  lively,  spiritual  worship- 
pers, with  whom  we  could  take  comfort.  In  sitting  with  them, 
the  life  of  religion  was  felt  to  be  low ;  but  after  a  time  of  strug- 
gling after  good,  it  appeared  right  to  address  the  language  of 
encouragement  to  those  who  were  sensible  of  their  condition, 
and  oppressed  with  the  indifference  around  them.  Then  the  state 
of  these  worldly  ones,  coming  before  me,  warning  and  entreafy 
were  extended  to  them.  I  left  the  meeting  under  feelings  of 
depression,  thinking  that  little  good  had  been  done ;  but  I  en- 
deavored to  keep  patient  and  resigned.  In  the  afternoon,  we 
had  a  meeting  at  Newport,  about  a  mile  distant;  where  we 
found  a  number  of  Friends,  who  appeared  to  be  tender-spirited, 
and  with  whom  I  had  a  relieving  opportunity,  and  parted  from 
some  of  them  with  feelings  of  interest  and  affectionate  regard. 
Wo  rode  that  evening  to  W.  B.'s,  at  Lynn,  accompanied  by  two 
agreeable,  kind  Friends. 

14th.    Had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Lynn,  which  was  largely 


.TOURXAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  511 

attended ;  I  thought  by  some  who  were  seeking  after  good  ;  to 
whom  I  was  enabled  to  minister  in  the  openings  of  the  Holy  Spi- 
rit ;  and  to  hold  up  to  some,  who  had  entered  into  covenant  in  their 
early  setting  out,  that  if  the  Lord  would  give  them  bread  to  eat 
and  raiment  to  put  on,  He  should  be  their  God,  and  they  would 
serve  Him,  that  now  having  increased  in  their  estates,  they  were 
in  danger  of  beins;  caui^ht  with  the  snare  of  the  fowler,  and  to 
love  their  possessions,  instead  of  the  great  Giver.  But  He  was 
watching  over  them,  and  secretly  warning  them ;  and  they  were 
exhoi'ted  to  go  to  Bethel,  like  Jacob,  and  renew  their  covenants, 
that  they  may  be  delivered  from  the  snare,  and  be  preserved 
from  losing  r.heir  standing  in  the  Truth.  I  was  thankful  for 
the  supply  of  matter,  and  the  ability  to  communicate  it  in  the 
gentleness  of  Christ.  There  appeared  to  be  a  tender  feeling 
produced  in  some,  who  I  hope,  were  comforted. 

Returned  to  W.  B.'s,  dined,  and  remained  here  to  attend  the 
burial  of  a  woman  Friend.  The  company  went  into  the  meet- 
ing-house ;  and  I  felt  drawn  to  labor  to  impress  on  them,  the 
solemnit}^  of  such  events,  and  the  necessity  of  laying  them  to 
heart,  that  each  one  may  be  prepared  for  the  close  of  life  when 
it  comes  to  them.  But  how  easily  do  such  impressions  pass 
away!  The  indifference  shown  by  many,  to  the  subjects  of 
religion,  and  the  importance  of  preparing  for  death,  is  very  dis- 
tressing ;  and  ahiiost  induces  the  thought,  that  little  benefit  re- 
sults from  all  the  labor  we  pass  thi'ough. 

15th.  Rode  over  this  morning  to  Cherry  Grove,  where  we 
had  an  appointed  meeting ;  in  which  I  was  enabled  to  set  forth 
the  nature  of  spiritual  worship,  which  stands  in  communion 
with  the  Father  and  Son  ;  not  only  when  assembled  to  perform 
the  dut}"  publicly,  but  also  in  daily  waiting  upon  the  Lord  for 
the  renewal  of  our  strength.  The  inward  work  of  religion  is 
greatly  lost  sight  of  by  many  among  us;  and  the  testimony  of 
our  early  Friends,  that  the  professors  of  their  day,  acknow- 
ledged some  of  the  truths  of  the  gospel,  while  they  lived  as  they 
listed ;  and  how  Friends  were  brought  to  forsake  all,  and  wait 
upon  the  Lord,  by  which  they  were  enabled  to  hold  up  the 
ancient  gospel  in  life  and  precept,  were  opened  in  this  meeting. 
Friends  were  called  upon  to  examine,  whether  there  was  not  a 
danger  of  going  back  into  the  condition  of  those  formal  profes- 
sors, instead  of  advancing  in  the  spiritual  and  Divine  life. 
They  were  pleaded  with,  in  the  love  and  gentleness  of  Christ, 


512  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

to  search  into  their  condition,  and  come  back  into  the  inward, 
daily  waiting  upon,  and  communion  with  God,  for  the  renewal 
of  their  strength,  by  the  bread  and  water  of  life,  wliich  come 
from  Him.  It  was  a  day  of  favor,  and  the  truths  delivered 
could  not  be  gainsayed.     A  Friend  piloted  us  to  Economy. 

16tb.  Attended  Springfield  Preparative  Meeting,  held  at 
Economy.  Notice  of  our  being  in  the  neighborhood  having 
been  spread,  some  strangers  came  in,  and  I  had  rather  a  labori- 
ous time,  in  opening  the  doctrine  of  obedience  to  the  Divine 
will,  revealed  in  the  heart,  as  the  ground  of  preparation  for  ac- 
ceptance with  God ;  and  the  way  by  which  the  work  of  sancti- 
fication  is  carried  forward,  and  we  become  acknowledged  by 
Christ,  as  He  owned  his  discij^les ;  "  "Whosoever  shall  do  the  will 
of  my  Father,  which  is  in  heaven,  the  same  is  my  brother,  and 
sister,  and  mother."  Afterwards  I  was  brought  to  bend  the 
knee  in  prayer  for  the  poor  in  spirit ;  for  the  rebellious,  whose 
souls  are  also  precious,  and  for  the  dear  young  people.  I  hoped 
the  truth  gained  some  entrance ;  but  oh,  the  lifelessness  of  very 
many  who  go  under  our  name ! 

We  dined  in  the  village,  with  a  doctor  and  his  wife,  w4io  were 
very  kind,  and  in  the  afternoon,  piloted  us  twelve  miles  to  Flat 
Eock.  At  the  first  house  where  we  stopped,  and  had  expected 
to  put  up,  we  found  they  had  scarlet  fever;  and  thinking  it  not 
proper  to  add  to  their  cares,  or  to  expose  ourselves  to  the  liabil- 
ity of  taking  the  disease,  we  went  to  a  neighbor's  who  took 
us  in. 

17th.  Attended  Flat  Eock  Preparative  Meeting;  in  which 
for  a  time,  it  seemed  to  me  there  was  so  little  life  among  them, 
that  I  thought  I  had  scarcely  experienced  such  feelings  of  dis- 
couragement. But  finally  it  appeared  necessary  to  sound  an 
alarm  among  them,  and  leave  them  to  the  Loi^d.  This  after- 
noon it  rained  and  blew  hard,  with  lightning  and  thunder,  very 
heavy ;  but  being  desirous  of  getting  on  our  journey,  we  set  off, 
and  got  to  the  house  of  a  Friend,  near  Spiceland,  about  dusk ; 
whei'e  we  were  refreshed  by  the  kind  entertainment  of  his 
family. 

18th.  This  morning  we  were  piloted  to  the  National  road, 
and  then  set  out,  without  a  guide,  westward.  The  road  was 
softened  by  the  rain,  which  made  the  travelling  heavy,  until  we 
reached  the  plank  road,  east  of  Greenfield.  We  were  disap- 
pointed in  the  appearance  of  the  country,  which  was  but  little 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  513 

improved,  in  many  parts,  and  to  us,  presented  rather  a  dreary 
aspect.  Dined,  and  fed  our  horses  at  this  viHage ;  and  after 
suitable  rest,  set  out  on  the  plank  road ;  over  which  we  moved 
faster  than  we  were  aware,  so  that  we  got  to  Indianapolis  before 
six  o'clock.  Here  we  received  letters  from  home  which  were 
cheering,  giving  good  accounts  of  the  health  of  my  family.  It 
appearing  too  early  to  put  up  for  the  night,  we  went  on  and 
stopped  near  Bridgeport,  and  lodged. 

19th.  Eode  to  Plainfield,  and  dined,  then  went  to  E.  W.  H.'s, 
who  had  been  at  my  house  a  few  years  since,  with  J.  II.,  then 
on  a  religious  visit  in  our  city.  It  was  pleasant  to  see  him  in 
his  own  habitation,  where  we  were  comfortably  accommodated; 
he  and  his  wife  being  Friends  of  religious  experience. 

20th.  Attended  Spring  Meeting,  to  which  they  belong ;  which 
was  a  pretty  large  collection,  but  noisy  and  unsettled,  by  fret- 
ful children,  and  persons  running  out  and  in.  It  was  a  labori- 
ous time,  but  little  entrance  seeming  to  be  made  into  the  hearts 
of  the  people.  We  went  home  with  A.  H.,  and  staid  with  him, 
and  his  kind  attentive  daughters,  until  the  next  morning.  It 
was  a  house,  where  I  thought  the  Son  of  Peace  was  to  be  found. 
In  the  aflernoon,  our  friends  R.  AY.  and  C.  H.,  came  over  to  see 
us,  with  w^honi  we  passed  the  time  in  agreeable  converse.  The 
country  here  has  been  heavily  timbered  ;  so  that  some  farms 
surrounded  by  the  forest,  seemed  to  be  inclosed  with  wooden 
walls ;  obstructing  any  distant  prosjDect,  especially  where  the 
surface  is  pretty  flat ;  and,  consequently,  creating  in  a  stranger, 
the  feeling  of  loneliness ;  there  being  little  or  no  improvement 
within  view,  beyond  the  farm  we  may  be  on. 

21st.  A  religious  young  man  having  offered  to  accompany 
us  to  Eockville,  in  Park  county,  we  set  out,  and  rode  to  a  suit- 
able place  for  dining,  and  feeding  the  horses.  The  weather 
being  cool,  it  made  travelling  pleasant ;  the  road  pretty  good, 
except  where  they  had  covered  it  with  logs  over  wet,  flat  land. 
Our  stopping-place  was  a  house  of  private  entertainment,  the 
residence  of  a  farmer,  where  they  had  plenty  of  wholesome 
provision,  and  he  served  us  with  politeness  and  respect.  We 
reached  S.  A.'s,  near  sunset,  having  travelled  about  forty-one 
miles.  He  and  his  wife  received  us  very  frankly.  We  had  con- 
versation with  him,  respecting  the  travelling  through  Illinois, 
and  found  that  at  this  season  of  the  year,  he  aj^prehended  there 
would  be  no  difficulty  ;  and  he  offered  to  accompany  us  the  next 


514  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

afternoon  to  the  Vermillion  settlement,  on  the  west  side  of  the 
Wabash  Eiver ;  which  we  gladly  accepted.  We  were  now  get- 
ting very  many  miles  from  our  beloved  families  and  homes,  and 
the  prospect  of  soon  entering  upon  the  prairies,  brought  over 
me  sensations  of  loneliness,  as  I  w^alked  out  into  the  woods,  and 
there  recurred  to  the  countenances  of  those  I  held  most  dear  to 
me  in  this  world;  and  to  the  risk  of  accident  and  disease,  to  which 
we  might  be  exposed.  But  there  was  a  secret  support,  and  a 
trust  raised  in  the  merciful  and  compassionate  Shepherd,  who 
sees  us  wherever  we  are;  and  as  we  have  nothing  in  view  but 
to  do  his  will,  lie  will  renew  our  faith,  and  defend  and  carry 
through  all,  to  his  honor  and  praise,  and  our  sweet  peace. 

22d.  This  afternoon  we  crossed  the  Wabash  River  in  a  scow, 
where  we  saw  evidence  of  a  recent  freshet,  which  had  spread, 
over  the  flats  ;  and,  we  understood,  had  made  crossing  very  dif- 
ficult. A  few  miles  from  the  river  we  came  to  an  arm  of  one  of 
the  great  prairies.  Viewing  the  expanse  appeared  like  looking 
out  to  sea ;  there  being  no  object  in  the  distance  to  rest  the  eye 
on,  for  miles,  but  grass.  The  thought  of  being  out  on  such  an 
extensive  plain,  which  seemed  to  have  no  limit,  and  the  possi- 
bility of  missing  our  way,  was  rather  dreary.  Towards  even- 
ing,  we  got  to  W.  H.'s,  within  the  limits  of  Hopewell  Meeting. 

23d.  Attended  their  Preparative  Meeting  ;  in  which  I  was 
brought  into  sjmipath}^  with  some  tried  ones,  who  had  difficul- 
ties to  contend  with  ;  and  was  favored  to  speak,  in  the  humbling 
openings  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  as  I  believed,  to  the  states  of  such. 
I  was  also  led  to  call  on  some  others,  to  examine  whether  they 
had  the  same  tender  feelings  and  desires,  to  walk  in  obedience 
to  the  manifested  will  of  God,  which  they  felt  in  the  days  of 
their  early  beginnings  ;  or  whether  the  enemy  was  not  working 
as  behind  a  screen,  to  immerse  them  in  the  pursuit  of  the  world, 
and  thereby  destroj'^  their  growth  in  the  life  of  righteousness. 
I  was  thankful  for  the  Lord's  condescending  regard  to  me,  a 
poor  creature.  I  thought  their  answers  to  the  Queries  were 
prepared  in  a  suitable  manner,  on  those  subjects,  and  was  com- 
forted with  the  meeting. 

24th.  Attended  Vermillion  Meeting.  Notice  having  been 
spread,  a  pretty  large  company  collected.  It  appeared  right  to 
hold  up  to  them  the  distinction  between  works  of  benevolence 
and  kindness,  which  unregenerate  man  can  perform,  and  a  sub- 
mission to  the  baptism  of  the  Iloly  Ghost  and  fire,  by  which 


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man  is  made  free,  and  kept  free  from  the  spots  of  the  world. 
Divine  help  was  present,  qualifying  to  enforce  the  necessity  of 
this  spiritual,  inward  work,  as  the  only  way  by  which  we  shall 
come  to  the  knowledge  of  God  and  of  his  Son  Jesus  Christ, 
which  is  life  eternal. 

Dined  at  I.  S.'s,  and  found  it  a  pleasant  stopping-place  ;  his 
wife  appearing  to  be  a  mother  in  Israel.  In  the  afternoon,  we 
rode  through  the  prairies  four  and  a  half  miles,  to  Pilot  Gi'ove; 
so  called  fi-om  its  being  seen  across  the  flat  country,  several 
miles,  from  certain  points,  and  serving  as  a  beacon  to  travellers 
to  steer  their  course  by.  Here  we  had  a  pretty  large  meeting 
of  Friends  and  others ;  to  whom  was  set  forth  the  fruits  of  the 
religiop  of  Christ ;  in  subduing  and  regulating  the  passions 
and  evil  propensities  of  fallen  man  ;  and  the  blessed  results  of 
kindness  and  tenderness  for  one  anothei',  and  the  purity  and 
righteousness,  which  are  produced  by  religion,  were  shown  to 
them.  The  people  generally  seemed  to  be  such  as  needed  to  be 
taught  the  first  principles  of  the  gospel  of  Christ.  The  weather 
was  extremely  warm  and  oppressive,  which  exhausted  me  much ; 
but  it  was  a  comfort  to  have  the  day's  work  peacefully  accom- 
plished. We  stopped  a  short  time  near  a  Friend's  house,  who, 
with  his  wife,  proposing  to  accompany  us,  had  to  call  at  home 
before  setting  out;  we  then  rode  seven  miles  to  Ellwood, 
where  we  lodged. 

25th.  We  had  an  appointed  meeting  here  ;  which  was  quite 
large  on  the  men's  side.  After  a  season  of  patient  waiting,  the 
Lord  gave  ability  to  open  the  doctrine  of  Friends,  on  the  sub- 
ject of  Divine  worship  ;  the  necessity  for  all  to  be  gathered, 
when  thus  assembled,  into  a  humble,  inward  waiting  for  Christ; 
to  know  Him  to  prepare  our  offerings  ;  which,  if  only  a  broken 
heart,  and  a  contrite  spirit,  will  be  regarded  by  our  Heavenly 
Father.  These  humble,  struggling  ones,  will  be  at  times  bap- 
tized by  one  Spirit  into  one  body,  and  made  to  drink  into  one 
Spirit;  and  if  two  of  them  shall  agree  touching  anything  they 
shall  ask,  in  the  name  of  Christ,  it  shall  be  done  for  them,  said 
our  Lord,  by  my  Father ;  for  "  where  two  or  three  are  met  to- 
gether in  my  name,  there  am  I  in  the  midst  of  them."  The  dis- 
couraged and  mournful  ones  were  exhorted  to  keep  the  faith, 
and  to  struggle  on,  and  they  will  be  helped,  and  see  of  the  tra- 
vail of  their  soul.  I  thought  the  hearts  of  some  were  comfort- 
ed ;  and  the  meeting  was  closed  with  prayer  for  Divine  support 


516  JOURNAL    OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

and  preservation  ;  and  for  the  renewal  of  the  faith,  of  the  lowly 
ones ;  and  for  the  dear  j^oung  people,  that  the  Lord  would  visit 
them  by  his  blessed  Spirit,  and  defend  them  from  the  power  of 
temptation  ;  that  there  may  be  a  band  raised  up  to  .support  our 
principles  and  testimonies. 

We  dined  with  two  Friends  who  had  removed  from  Ohio  and 
now  lived  near  this  meeting ;  and  in  the  afternoon  were  con- 
ducted to  L.  D.'s,  near  Georgetown. 

26th.  This  morning  we  set  out  on  our  lonely  journey  across 
the  State  of  Illinois,  and  were  shown  over  some  prairie  land  to 
the  western  road,  at  Butler's  Point,  by  L.  D. ;  where  we  parted 
from  him,  and  pursued  the  most  open  track.  Through  the 
morning,  we  got  along  pleasantly ;  the  road  being  generally 
plain  and  good ;  dined  at  a  poor  tavern,  in  a  village  called  Ho- 
mer. After  giving  the  horses  projoer  rest,  rode  through  a  strip 
of  woods ;  crossed  the  Big  Vermillion  Ci'eek  twice,  once  on  a 
bridge  and  once  we  forded  it ;  and  in  the  prairie,  which  we  then 
entered,  we  had  several  sloughs  to  go  through,  where  the  draft 
is  hard  for  the  horses.  When  coming  to  those  soft,  muddy 
places,  it  is  usual  to  turn  towards  the  head  of  the  marsh,  and 
drive  on  the  high  grass,  which  keeps  the  carriage  and  horses 
from  miring ;  and  thus  they  get  round  the  deepest  and  most 
swampy  part.  This  seemed  very  uncertain  work  to  us,  being 
entire  strangers  to  such  travelling  ;  in  a  boggy  country,  where 
we  cannot  discover  to  what  depth  we  may  sink;  and  where,  at 
times,  the  horses  had  to  put  forth  great  effort  to  draw  us 
through.  After  crossing  that  piece  of  prairie,  we  stopped  at 
the  first  house;  and  while  there,  a  man  came  up  with  a  cart 
and  pair  of  oxen,  and  soon  inquired  how  we  had  got  through 
the  sloughs;  saying,  he  supposed  that  he  had  drawn  with  his 
oxen,  fifty  vehicles  out  of  them,  this  spring.  We  were  not 
aware  of  our  danger  of  being  set  fast,  this  being  our  first  day's 
travel  alone  there.  Going  on  our  way,  we  felt  our  lonely  situ- 
ation, exposed  to  difficulties,  Avhen  no  house  might  be  within 
several  miles ;  but  endeavored  to  do  the  best  we  could,  and  put 
our  trust  in  our  Heavenly  Father ;  in  the  belief  we  were  in  the 
way  of  our  duty,  and  He  would  enable  us  to  go  through.  Eeach- 
ed  Arbana  by  sundown,  having  ridden  about  thirty-seven  miles; 
and  put  up  at  a  good  tavern  ;  kept  by  an  Ohio  man,  who  treated 
us  respectfully,  and  provided  well  for  us. 

27  th.     We  left  soon  after  breakfast ;  at  once  entering  a  prai- 


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rie,  in  which  the  road  was  good ;  forded  the  Sangamon  Creek, 
at  a  piece  of  woods ;  a  clear  beautiful  stream.  On  coming  out 
of  the  timber,  we  entered  a  prairie,  said  to  be  fourteen  miles 
over ;  which,  in  some  directions  was  like  looking  over  an  ocean 
of  grass;  nothing  to  be  seen  in  the  horizon,  "We  made  slow 
progress  ;  some  of  the  surface  being  rolling,  and  others  marshy, 
which  Ave  crossed,  with  considerable  effort  on  the  part  of  the 
horses;  and  a  little  after  twelve  o'clock,  reached  an  inn  on  the 
western  edge  of  the  prairie ;  a  good  deal  overcome  with  the 
heat.  By  driving  slowly  the  horses  bore  it  very  well ;  but  the 
sun  shining  with  gi'cat  fervor,  and  it  being  first-day,  we  were 
best  satisfied  to  remain  at  the  tavern,  until  the  next  day,  which 
would  afford  us  rest. 

It  was  distressing  to  find  the  low  condition  of  many,  in  rela- 
tion to  their  religious  and  moral  obligations.  Foolish  jesting 
and  idle  conversation  fill  up  much  of  their  time.  They  are  idle 
in  their  habits  and  disregard  the  duty  of  public  worship.  To  be 
compelled  to  mingle  with  persons  of  little  education,  and  rather 
low  standing  in  other  respects,  is  a  trial  we  have  to  submit  to, 
in  some  of  these  places  of  public  entertainment ;  and  it  requires 
care  to  avoid  joining  in  with  their  frothy  conversation,  or  in  any 
way  strengthening  them,  in  their  irreligious  feelings  and  habits. 
Our  sobriety,  at  least,  should  bear  a  testimony  to  the  excellency 
of  our  holy,  undefiled  religion,  and  against  their  loose  spirits 
and  jDractices. 

28th.  Rose  pretty  early,  and  got  our  landlord  to  take  his 
horse  and  lead  us  round  through  the  grass,  where  there  was  no 
road,  to  avoid  getting  swamped  in  some  bad  sloughs,  which,  he 
told  us,  lay  between  his  house  and  the  next  village.  It  was 
quite  a  relief,  and  we  got  to  breakfast  at  Le  Roi,  thirteen  miles ; 
dined  at  Bloomington,  and  supped  and  lodged  at  Concord,  forty- 
one  miles  altogether;  a  poor  place  for  entertainment.  Here  we 
made  inquiry  of  two  men,  at  which  ferry  on  the  Illinois  River 
we  had  better  cross ;  but  they  differed  in  opinion ;  both,  how- " 
ever,  giving  very  discouraging  accounts  of  the  state  of  the  roads 
near  the  river,  so  that  we  were  much  at  a  loss  to  decide. 

29th.  Rain  fell  in  the  night,  and  the  road  was  muddy,  and 
the  morning  very  dull.  Rode  to  Lilly's,  six  miles,  and  roused 
them  up,  to  get  us  breakfast.  Dined  at  Groveland,  where  Ave 
met  with  a  young  man  who  had  crossed  the  Illinois  River  this 
morning,  and  Avho  gave  us  an  accurate  description  of  the  course 

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518  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

we  must  take,  when  coming  in  sight  of  the  river.  After  dining, 
we  tnvvclled  about  eight  miles  to  a  bridge,  which  had  been 
partly  swept  away  by  a  great  flood  this  sjjring ;  and  had  we  not 
been  furnished  with  explicit  directions,  it  did  not  appear  pro- 
bable, we  should  have  driven  safely  through  the  terrible  sloughs, 
or  avoided  the  impassable  places  ;  in  which  we  were  told  travel- 
lers had  become  swamped,  and  broken  their  caiTiages ;  from 
whom,  exorbitant  sums  had  been  extorted,  by  men  concealed 
there,  to  be  called  on  in  such  emergencies.  When  we  arrived 
there,  we  saw  horses  saddled,  and  wagons  standing,  but  no  one 
in  view  except  a  boy,  looking  out  of  the  bushes,  as  though  he 
had  been  placed  there  to  watch  if  any  one  should  get  into  diffi- 
culty. It  seemed  like  w^reckers  looking  out  for  plunder;  and  I 
considered  it  providential,  w^e  had  met  with  a  person  who  could 
direct  us  how  to  act,  so  that  we  were  enabled  to  folloAv  a  track, 
which  took  us  safely  through,  though  in  miry  and  deep  holes, 
and  led  to  the  water  edge  ;  and  that  we  reached  the  boat  safely, 
after  driving  into  the  river  perhaps  sixty  or  one  hundred  feet. 
Wo  landed  at  Peoria ;  rode  through  the  town,  and  obtaining 
directions,  got  to  a  brick  tavern,  six  miles  farther  on,  where  wo 
were  pretty  comfortably  entertained. 

30th.'  Set  out  about  half-past  four  in  the  morning,  and  break- 
fasted at  Travoli,  twelve  miles ;  dined  at  Fairview,  sixteen 
miles ;  the  road  w^et,  and  in  some  places  cut  into  deep  holes. 
Rode  eight  miles  to  Spoon  Eiver;  crossed  it  in  a  flat,  which 
was  short  for  the  wagon  and  horses ;  but  we  got  over  safely. 
The  ferrymen  on  these  rivera  are  mostly  rude  and  profane.  It 
was  affecting  to  hear  their  bad  language;  giving  the  impres- 
sion, that  they  are  regardless  of  religion,  and  the  necessity  of 
the  work  of  salvation.  Rode  to  a  place  called  Yirgil,  about  five 
miles ;  where  we  were  pretty  comfortably  accommodated. 

31st.  Set  out  early  this  morning  with  the  assurance  that  the 
road  was  good ;  but  we  found  it  far  otherwise.  The  small  bridges 
were  in  bad  condition,  and  many  of  the  marshy  ]ilaces  were 
difficult  for  the  horses  to  draw  through.  On  a  prairie  ten  miles 
over,  there  w^as  a  space  two  miles  wide,  wo  were  told,  very 
much  covered  with  water,  and  no  road  visible  in  many  places, 
BO  that  we  could  not  be  certain  we  were  in  the  right  track;  but, 
by  the  compass,  we  kept  a  west  course,  and  finally  got  through 
the  swampy  groimd,  into  a  plain  road,  much  to  our  relief  Wo 
procured  tea  and  bread  and  meat,  atone  of  the  log  cabins  on  the 


JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS.  519 

prairie,  but  were  so  long  detained,  that  we  did  not  reaeh  La 
Harpe,  until  near  supper  time.  ^Ye  met  two  carriages,  just  as 
we  entered  the  swamp,  and  asking  the  men  what  kind  of  road 
ahead,  they  replied,  As  bad  as  it  can  be.  Our  horses  had  a 
hard  draft,  through  the  mud  and  high  grass;  and  if  any  acci- 
dent had  ha])pened  us,  we  shouki  have  been  in  great  difliculty, 
as  there  was  no  house  within  several  miles.  It  was  cause  of 
gratitude,  that  we  w^ere  favored  to  escape  in  safety,  from  such  a 
dreary  place;  where  we  could  not  see  what  we  were  driving 
into,  Avliethcr  holes  or  inextricable  sloughs.  Lodged  at  La 
Ilarpc. 

lughth  month  1st.  Eose  early  and  got  to  Pontousac,  four- 
teen miles ;  on  the  river  Mississippi ;  where  wo  were  furnished 
with  a  good  breakfast,  and  then  rode  six  miles  to  the  ferry  op- 
posite Fort  Madison,  in  Iowa.  The  ferrymen  detained  us  seve- 
ral houi'S,  on  the  bank,  waiting  their  time  to  cross  the  great 
stream.  We  regretted  the  loss  of  time,  as  we  wanted  to  reach 
a  settlement  of  Friends  this  afternoon,  but  could  not ;  and,  get- 
ting directions  in  Madison,  we  went  five  miles  to  a  farmer's,  and 
found  some  difficulty  in  prevailing  on  the  people  to  take  us  in  ; 
we  supposed  from  what  passed,  on  account  of  the  cholera,  of 
which,  we  were  informed,  there  had  been  several  deaths  in 
Madison  ;  but finall}^ they  consented;  and  except  the  lodging,  avc 
were  made  pretty  comfortable. 

2d.  After  breakfast  we  travelled  about  eighteen  miles  to  J.  D. 
II.'s,  at  East  Grove,  and  put  up  with  him  and  his  wife,  who  were 
truly  kind  to  us. 

3d.  Being  first-day  w^e  attended  New  Garden  meeting,  four 
miles  distant,  in  the  morning ;  where  we  met  with  some  Canada 
Friends  at  ^vhose  house  we  had  staid  when  in  that  country. 
They  were  truly  glad  to  see  us  in  this  western  land.  O.  S.,  an 
elderl}'  man,  also  from  Canada,  but  now  belonging  to  Salem,  was 
here,  and  said  a  little  after  me ;  enforcing  the  doctrines  delivered. 
In  the  afternoon  had  an  appointed  meeting  at  East  Grove.  In 
both  these  holy  help  was  extended,  enabling  me  to  preach  the 
Word  to  the  people;  several  of  whom  showed  their  unity,  by 
the  cordial  manner  of  greeting  us  after  the  opportunities. 

4th.  Rode  to  Salem;  where  our  horses  were  left,  in  order  to 
rest  and  recruit ;  one  having  been  lamed.  Others  were  attached 
to  our  carriage,  and  J.  P.  drove  us  out  to  Chestnut  Hill,  where 
we  had  an  apj)ointed  meeting ;  to  which  was  bi'ought  the  largest 


520  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

number  of  infants  that  I  think  I  ever  saw  in  a  meeting  of  tho 
same  size.     Returned  to  Salem  and  lodged  at  J.  H.'s. 

5th.  We  were  taken  out  to  Cedar  Meeting,  which  was  a  large 
company,  who  sat  in  a  sober  manner ;  but  I  felt  foi  a  long  time 
as  if  we  might  hold  the  meeting  in  silence ;  remembering  the 
advice  of  the  apostle,  "  That  they  should  seek  the  Lord,  if  haply 
they  might  feel  after  Him,  and  find  Him,  though  He  be  not 
far  from  every  one  of  us  ;  for  in  Him  we  live,  and  move,  and  have 
our  being."  The  way  was  finally  opened,  for  showing  that 
this  was  the  object  of  our  thus  assembling  together ;  not  to  de- 
liver lectures,  nor  to  hear  them  delivered ;  for  no  man  can  do 
anything  to  promote  his  own  salvation,  or  that  of  others,  inde- 
pendent of  Divine  aid.  Our  business  is  to  gather  to  Christ,  that 
we  may  know  Him  to  minister  to  our  condition.  Afterwards  the 
necessity  of  the  new  birth  was  opened,  and  of  being  clothed  with 
the  righteousness  of  Christ ;  which  He  brings  forth  in  us  by  the 
effectual  workings  of  his  S^^irit ;  and  of  our  final,  complete  jus- 
tification by  the  washing  away  and  j)ardoning  of  our  sins  by  his 
blood.  The  effect  of  the  doctrines  preached,  must  be  left  to 
the  Lord ;  but  I  believe  there  were  those  present  who  drank 
in  and  united  with  them.  Dined  at  S.  H.'s,  near  the  meeting- 
house, and  after  a  religious  opportunity  with  his  family  and 
some  others,  we  rode  to  J.  P.'s,  who  resides  about  half  a  mile 
out  of  Salem. 

Gth.  This  morning  a  Friend  attached  his  horses  to  our  car- 
riage, and  set  out  with  us  for  Richland ;  which  is  about  thirty- 
five  miles  northwesterly  from  Salem.  When  about  eight  miles 
short  of  the  town,  he  drove  into  a  deep  prairie  slough,  of  tough, 
black  mud,  nearly  up  to  the  hubs  of  the  front  Avheels,  and  in 
endeavoring  to  draw  it  out,  the  force  of  the  horses  broke  one  of 
the  swingletrees,  without  removing  the  carriage  from  the  slough. 
We  then  fastened  a  rope  and  straps  to  the  axletree,  and  hitched 
the  traces  to  them,  and  had  the  horses  been  true  to  the  draft, 
they  would,  we  thought,  have  drawn  it  out ;  but  they  threw 
themselves  into  another  hole,  and  finally  broke  the  tongue.  It 
was  mortifying,  after  having  travelled  so  many  hundred  miles, 
without  any  material  difficulty,  to  have  our  carriage  thus  bro- 
ken )  and  to  be  placed  where  we  would  not  extricate  ourselves ; 
about  three  miles  from  any  house,  and  evening  coming  upon 
us.  Had  not  a  man  and  his  wife,  the  latter  a  Friend,  whom 
we   had   seen   at   Cedar,  come   in   sight,  we   must   have  been 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  521 

obliged  to  leave  our  carriage,  and  walk  a  considerable  distance, 
before  getting  under  any  roof.  Their  coming  seemed  quite  provi- 
dential, as  they  had  intended  to  remain  two  or  three  days  on  a 
visit  to  their  friends ;  but  the  wife  mentioning  to  her  husband  a 
desire  to  be  at  their  Monthly  Meeting,  he  assented  to  it,  and 
they  set  out  the  same  day  with  ourselves.  He  secui*ed  our  car- 
riage to  the  hind  axletree  of  his  wagon,  and  having  good  horses, 
w^hen  W' e  had  pried  up  the  wheels,  to  loosen  them  from  the  mud^ 
they  drew  the  carriage  out  with  ease.  The  Friend  with  us 
mounted  one  of  his  horses,  Joseph  got  into  the  wagon,  and  I 
was  seated  in  our  carriage,  and  between  nine  and  ten  o'clock  we 
reached  J.  H.'s.  It  was  cause  of  gratitude  to  our  Heavenly 
Father  that  we  were  thus  brought  safely  to  the  house  of  kind 
friends.  We  expressed  our  gratitude  to  the  man,  and  our  de- 
sire to  compensate  him,  but  he  was  glad  to  be  the  means  of  ren- 
dering us  such  acceptable  service. 

7th.  Attended  Eichland  Monthly  Meeting,  which  had  been 
lately  established  as  a  Monthly  Meeting,  and  was  a  j)retty  large 
companj^  I  felt  low  and  discouraged ;  far  from  home,  and  am  ong 
strangers  of  various  character ;  but  after  a  woman  Friend  had 
spoken,  the  language  was  brought  before  me,  "  The  foundation 
of  God  standeth  sure,  having  this  seal,  the  Lord  knoweth  them 
that  are  his  ;"  and  waiting  in  fear  before  Him,  I  believed  it  right 
to  revive  it,  and  to  show  that  whatever  may  be  the  trials  of  the 
faithful,  those  w^ho  are  built  on  this  foundation,  are  known  of 
the  Lord,  and  will  experience  his  sustaining  power  to  be  under- 
neath. I  had  to  treat  on  the  importance  of  keeping  with  Christ 
in  his  temptations  ;  being  willing  to  suffer  with  Him,  as  the 
Seed  in  the  hearts  of  the  children  of  men,  both  for  our  own 
humiliation,  and  for  the  sake  of  others.  I  believe  the  humbling 
power  of  Christ  was  over  the  meeting,  and  touched  the  hcart.s 
of  some.  Friends  conducted  their  business  in  a  solid  manner, 
which  was  a  comfort  to  me,  as  the}^  had  held  but  few  meetings 
before ;  having  been  set  off  from  Pleasant  Plain.  We  staid 
another  night  at  J.  H.'s. 

8th.  Notice  having  been  given  for  a  meeting  at  Eocky  Eun, 
four  miles  distant,  to  be  held  at  nine  o'clock ;  and  our  carriage 
being  repaired,  we  set  off  and  had  a  satisfactory  time  with 
Friends  and  others,  who  met  there ;  chiefly  in  the  way  of  en- 
couraging the  sincere  ones,  to  be  faithfal  to  their  Lord ;  by  which 
they  would  prove   that  godliness  is  profitable  to   all   things, 


522  [journal  of  william  evans. 

having  promise  of  the  life  that  now  is,  and  of  that  which  is  to 
come  ;  keeping  the  duties  of  religion  uppermost,  and  the  things 
of  the  world  in  their  proper  place.  Here  substantial  happiness 
is  enjoyed,  by  waliiing  with  God  in  this  life,  and  when  the  end 
comes,  the  full  fruition  of  it  in  the  world  to  come.  Went  to  a 
Friend's  house  near  b}^,  where  we  were  comforted  with  the  ap- 
pearance of  the  children,  and  a  feeling  of  peacefulness.  After 
leaving  we  rode  to  Pleasant  Plain,  over  a  rough  road,  washed 
in  many  places,  and  attended  a  Select  Preparative  Meeting. 
Went  to  J.  A.'s ;  a  pleasant  stoj^ping  place. 

9th.  Attended  Pleasant  Plain  Monthly  Meeting,  throughout 
which  I  Avas  silent,  until  just  at  the  close  of  that  for  business. 
The  Friends  w^here  we  lodged  treated  us  very  kindly,  and  we 
felt  it  a  comfort  to  be  thus  cared  for,  when  far  from  home. 

10th.  "We  went  to  meeting  this  morning.  I  endeavored  to 
keep  inward,  with  my  eye  to  the  Lord  alone,  and  after  some  si- 
lence, the  expressions  of  our  Lord  in  his  address  to  the  Father 
were  presented  to  my  mind :  "And  this  is  life  eternal,  that 
they  might  know  thee,  the  only  true  God,  and  Jesus  Christ  whom 
thou  hast  sent,"  attended  by  the  impression  to  rise  with  them; 
and  I  was  enabled  to  preach  the  gospel  in  Divine  authority ; 
that  this  saving  knowledge  of  God  and  of  his  dear  Son,  is  only 
received  through  the  revelation  and  operation  of  his  Sj)irit,  in 
the  heart  of  man.  Our  Lord  declared  that,  "Except  a  man  be 
born  again,  he  cannot  see  the  kingdom  of  God."  No  one  can 
give  himself  a  true  sense  and  sight  of  his  condition,  as  he  stands 
in  the  fall.  It  is  the  Lord  from  heaven,  the  quickening  Spirit, 
who  is  the  resurrection  and  the  life,  that  alone  can  quicken  man, 
and  make  him  rightly  feel  his  lost  and  sinful  state.  As  man 
submits  to  Him,  He  opens  the  blind  eye,  enabling  him  to  see 
himself  in  the  true  light ;  gives  him  the  power  to  turn  from  sin ; 
to  repent  of  his  past  evil  deeds ;  destroys  the  kingdom  of  Satan 
in  him,  and  sets  up  his  own  everlasting  kingdom  in  place  of  it. 
It  is  thus  man  is  brought  to  see  the  kingdom  of  God,  being  made  a 
new  creature ;  old  things  are  done  away,  and  all  things  are  made 
new.  The  new  heavens  and  the  new  earth,  wherein  dwclleth 
righteousness,  are  brought  forth  in  him.  In  this  heart-changing 
work,  he  livingly  knows  God  and  Christ,  by  the  powerfully  re- 
deeming and  sanctifying  operations  of  the  Holy  Spirit.  This  is 
the  knowledge  that  is  life  eternal  to  the  soul.  Some  of  the  ex- 
ercises which  the  redeemed  soul  passes  through,  in  its  heavenly 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  523 

pilgrimage  were  further  opened;  and  the  meeting  closed  with 
humble,  reverent  prayer  to  the  Lord,  for  his  continued  mercy 
and  preservation,  in  the  trials  to  which  we  are  subjected,  and 
wherein  Satan  seeks  to  destroy  the  blessed  work  which  the  Lord 
had  begun  in  us.  It  was  a  solid  time ;  and  we  returned  to  our 
lodgings,  humbled  and  thankful  that  the  Lord  hud  owned  his 
cause. 

11th.  Before  leaving  our  comfortable  sojourning  place,  we 
had  a  little  ojiportunity  with  the  parents  and  children  ;  in  which 
they  were  reminded,  that  here  we  have  no  continuing  city,  and 
of  the  importance  of  seeking  one  that  is  to  come;  laying  up 
treasure  in  heaven.  The  children  were  entreated  to  mind  the 
convictions  of  the  Spirit  of  Christ,  that  they  may  be  preserved 
from  temptation,  and  become  what  the  Lord  would  have  them 
to  be ;  and  in  conclusion,  with  tender  feelings,  I  was  led  to  ex- 
press the  desire,  that  the  blessing  which  makes  truly  rich,  may 
rest  on  the  heads  of  the  parents,  and  upon  their  beloved  off- 
spring ;  which  had  a  melting  effect  on  all  of  us.  After  taking 
an  affectionate  leave,  we  set  off  for  Salem  ;  where  we  arrived  in 
the  latter  pai't  of  the  afternoon,  some  parts  of  the  road  being 
very  bad.  It  was  pleasant  to  take  up  our  residence  again  at 
our  friend  J.  P.'s. 


CHAPTEE    XXYI. 

1851. 

Continuation  of  Visit  in  Iowa,  &c. 

1851,  Eighth  month  12th.  Was  held  a  Select  Preparative 
Meeting  at  this  place  ;  in  which  I  was  drawn  to  speak  of  the 
authority  and  qualification  for  true  gospel  ministry.  That  eveiy 
one  who  had  received  the  gift,  was  to  speak  as  the  oracles  of 
God,  and  to  minister  the  same  in  the  ability  that  God  giveth  ;  and 
no  man  taketh  this  honor  unto  himself,  cxcejit  he  be  called  of 
God,  as  was  Aaron. 

13th.  Attended  the  Monthly  Meeting  here,  in  which  I  was 
silent,  exce^jt  a  few  remarks  in  that  for  discipline. 


524  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

14th.  Went  to  East  Grove  Monthly  Meeting ;  the  forepart  of 
which  was  silent.  In  the  latter,  I  said  a  little  on  home  educa- 
tion— the  necessity  of  restraining  the  children  fi'om  wrong  things. 
When  the  meeting  had  gone  through  the  business,  I  was  led  to 
hold  forth  the  language  of  encouragement  to  some  exercised 
ones ;  and  to  persuade  those  who  had  not  submitted  to  the  re- 
straints of  the  cross,  to  yield  to  Ilim  who  is  represented  as 
a  refiner's  fire  and  as  a  fuller  with  soap,  that  they  may  partake 
of  the  blessed  result,  as  described  in  the  prophetic  address: 
"Comfort  ye,  comfort  ye,  my  people,  saith  your  God.  Speak 
ye  comfortably  to  Jerusalem,  and  cry  unto  her  that  her  warfare 
is  accomplished,  that  her  iniquity  is  pardoned ;  for  she  hath  re- 
ceived of  the  Lord's  hand,  double  for  all  her  sins." 

Dined  at  J.  D.  H.'s,  with  a  considerable  number  of  Friends, 
and  in  the  afternoon  rode  to  J.  T.'s,  at  New  Garden,  who  had 
accompanied  us  to  Eichland  and  Pleasant  Plain. 

15th.  Eeturned  to  Salem,  and  attended  the  Quarterly  Meet- 
ing of  Ministers  and  Elders,  in  which  I  was  silent. 

16th.  Went  into  the  town,  and  was  at  the  Quarterly  Meet- 
ing, which  was  large.  After  a  season  of  silent  waiting,  and 
several  had  spoken,  the  simplicity  of  the  means  which  the  Lord 
makes  use  of,  to  carry  on  his  purposes,  was  presented  to  my 
mind,  and  though  clothed  with  weakness,  and  my  faith  low,  I 
believed  it  right  to  stand  up,  and  say  what  the  Lord  furnished 
me  with.  The  simple  means  by  which  the  leprosy  of  Naaman 
Avas  cleansed,  and  the  clay  by  which  the  blind  man's  sight  was 
restored,  were  brought  to  view ;  and  that  without  obedience  to 
the  command  given  in  those  cases,  neither  the  leprosy  nor  the 
blindness  would  have  been  removed.  So  in  the  work  of  grace 
in  the  heart,  obedience  to  the  little  requirings  of  the  Holy 
Spirit  must  be  yielded,  or  we  cannot  be  cleansed  from  the 
lepros}'-  of  sin,  or  receive  spiritual  sight  to  discern  our  fallen 
condition,  and  the  way  out  of  it.  Submission  to  the  washing 
of  regeneration  is  indispensable  to  the  salvation  of  the  soul, 
and  without  it  we  cannot  bo  prepared  for  usefulness  in  the 
church  of  Christ.  AVe  must  be  changed  men  ourselves,  before 
we  are  prepai*ed  to  aid  in  changing  others.  Divine  kindness 
was  e.xtcnded,  enabling  me  to  open  some  things,  relating  to  the 
efficacy  and  spirituality  of  the  gospel,  and  the  way  by  which 
alone  we  can  be  partakers  of  it.     The  meeting  sat  about  six 


JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS.  525 

hours,  which  was  rather  wearing;  wc  returned  to  our  lodgings 
and  rested. 

17th.  Being  first-day,  many,  not  members,  came  to  the  meet- 
ing, which  was  large.  Several  spoke  pretty  early.  A  feeling 
of  sympathy  with  the  honest-hearted,  exercised  ones,  and  with 
those  who  have  outward  trials,  was  brought  over  me ;  and  I 
was  led  to  remind  Friends,  that  our  Saviour  did  not  promise  his 
disciples  freedom  from  suffering  in  this  state  of  being;  but  He 
said  to  them,  "  In  the  world  ye  shall  have  tribulation  ;  but  be 
of  good  cheer,  I  have  overcome  the  world."  It  may  be  safely 
inferred,  that  He  designed  to  encourage  them  to  believe,  that  as 
they  persevered  in  following  Him,  they  also  should  be  made 
overcomcrs,  through  his  Spirit  and  power.  It  "was  a  season  of 
mercy,  in  which  heljD  was  renewed,  to  open  many  things  per- 
taining to  the  faith  and  patience  of  the  christian ;  for  which  I 
was  humbly  thankful,  and  the  meeting  closed  under  a  solemn 
feeling ;  many  Friends  showing  their  unity  in  taking  leave  of  us. 

In  the  afternoon,  we  attended  a  meeting  here,  appointed  for 
the  young  people,  by  a  stranger.  Eeturned  to  our  quarters, 
took  an  affectionate  larewell  of  our  kind  friends  J.  P.  and  wife, 
and  rode  to  S.  H.'s,  on  our  way  to  Cedar  County. 

18th.  Rode  forty-two  miles,  and  put  up  at  a  house  of  private 
entertainment. 

19th.  Wo  were  up  pretty  early,  and  drove  to  a  poor  tavern 
to  breakfast.  The  landlady  offered  as  an  excuse  for  her  provi- 
sion, that  a  large  number  of  Indians  passed  that  way,  a  short 
time  before,  and  consumed  nearly  all  they  had  in  the  house. 
On  setting  out,  two  carriages  in  company  with  us,  we  were  told 
the  road  to  Iowa  City  was  good ;  but  to  us  it  was  veiy  disagree- 
able. We  drove  through  ponds  of  water,  out  of  one  of  which 
it  was  with  great  effort  our  horses  drew  us  and  the  carriage, 
slipping  and  falling,  as  they  attempted  to  rise  up  on  the  banks, 
which  was  alarming.  The  sloughs  were  wet  and  numerous; 
but  we  got  safely  through.  Dined  at  a  Friend's  house  at  Iowa 
City;  which  has  a  few  brick  houses,  but  is  located  where  it  is 
difficult  to  foresee  how  it  will  ever  rise  to  much  magnitude.  It 
is,  however,  remarkable,  that  so  much  progi-ess  has  been  made  in 
some  towuis  in  this  now  State,  as  we  have  found.  To-day  we  rode 
about  forty  miles,  and  put  up  near  where  Friends  hold  their  meet- 
ing. The  residences  of  the  settlers  in  this  place,  scattered  over 
prairie  land,  are  chiefly  log  buildings;  the  settlement  being 


526  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

several  miles  in  extent.  In  the  summer  season,  while  the  grass 
is  gi'een,  the  country,  with  the  cabins  and  little  surrounding  im- 
provements dotted  over  it,  has  a  picturesque  appearance ;  yet 
to  a  stranger,  it  gives  a  sensation  of  lonesomeness. 

Whether  it  has  been  the  design  of  Divine  Providence,  that 
Friends  should  be  pioneers  in  the  settlement  of  new  States  is, 
on  some  accounts,  doubtful  to  me ;  persons,  who  generally  take 
the  lead,  being  often  of  the  description  which  need  the  care  of 
religious  society,  instead  of  being  really  qualified  to  set  up  and 
hold  meetings,  to  the  honor  of  Truth.  Yet  there  have  been  in- 
stances, of  meetings  being  gradually  collected  and  settled  by 
Friends  of  religious  experience,  which  have  prospered.  In 
some  places,  it  is  to  be  feared,  that  the  spirit  of  discernment  has 
been  wanting,  and  persons  have  been  acknowledged  as  ministers, 
who  have  not  had  the  gift  bestowed  upon  them.  These  have 
fed  the  people  with  words,  that  have  not  been  with  the  Spirit, 
and  with  the  understanding  also ;  and  thereby,  that  which  ought 
to  be  slain,  has  been  fed  and  kept  alive ;  and  the  people  loving 
to  have  it  so,  they  have  exalted  and  idolized  such  preachers,  to 
their  great  hurt,  and  the  injury  of  the  flock.  What  a  deplor- 
able effect  has  this  had  upon  the  Meetings,  and  how  different  from 
the  heart-searching  and  baptizing  ministry  that  has  been  known 
in  parts  of  our  Society. 

20th.  Attended  Red  Cedar  Meeting,  composed  of  middle- 
aged  and  young  people,  settled  here  within  a  few  years.  I  did 
not  feel  that  exercise  among  them,  so  generally,  as  might  have 
been  expected  from  those,  Avbose  living  and  habits  are  simple. 
There  were  some,  who,  I  believe,  are  under  a  religious  concern 
for  themselves,  and  the  cause  we  profess  to  be  called  to  uphold; 
but  they  want  fiithers  and  mothers  to  take  them  by  the  hand; 
and  unless  great  watchfulness  is  maintained,  will  be  in  danger 
from  the  snares  which  may  be  placed  in  their  way.  I  had  some 
service,  but  it  did  not  yield  the  relief  experienced  in  some  places, 
yet  hoped  it  was  from  the  right  source.  We  went  to  S.  S.'s, 
and  dined,  with  whom  we  had  comfortable  feelings,  from  the 
persuasion  they  were  honest-hearted  Friends.  In  the  afternoon, 
he  and  M.  O.,  set  out  with  us  as  pilots,  and  to  aid  us  on  our  way 
to  and  beyond  the  Mississippi.  AVe  rode  twelve  miles,  and  put 
up  at  a  tavern,  near  Cedar  River. 

21st.  Crossed  the  river  in  a  flat;  the  owner  of  the  ferry  was 
not  willing  to  take  any  fare  from  us;  we  w^ent  to  J.  C.'s,  to 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS'.^'  527 

breakfast,  about  eight  miles.  Just  before  leaving  tbem,  we  had 
a  little  opportunity  with  him  and  his  wife,  to  press  on  them  the 
necessity  of  attending  to  the  great  business  of  life,  the  salvation 
of  their  own  souls ;  and  to  bring  up  their  children  in  the  nurture 
and  admonition  of  the  Loi'd.  Eode  to  Muscatine,  a  town  on  the 
bank  of  the  Mississippi,  where  we  crossed  the  river.  We  found 
the  road  and  bridges,  along  the  flat  bottoms  on  the  east  side  of 
the  river,  had  been  torn  up  by  recent  freshets;  and  though  some- 
what repaired,  it  was  disagreeable  travelling  on  them,  and  we 
were  disappointed  in  finding  the  road  so  obscure  as  it  was  in 
some  places.  We  got  dinner  at  a  private  house  in  the  praii'ies, 
and  as  soon  as  it  was  suitable,  went  on  for  Millersburg,  which 
l^rovcd  to  be  about  six  miles  further  than  stated  to  be  on  some 
of  the  sign-boards.  Towards  evening  we  came  to  a  creek,  where 
the  bridge  had  been  swept  away,  by  a  fall  of  rain  ten  days  be- 
fore, causing  a  terrible  freshet;  and  turning  back,  we  got  a  boy 
to  show  us  where  they  forded  the  stream.  We  succeeded  in 
driving  through,  and  up  on  the  bluff,  where  a  temporary  road 
turned  so  abruptly  among  the  timber,  that  it  was  difficult  to 
drive,  and  we  did  not  reach  Millersburg  until  dusk;  where  we 
had  to  put  up  at  a  mean  tavern,  with  poor  accommodations;  the 
fare  for  the  horses,  and  supper  and  lodgings  for  ourselves,  being 
hardly  bearable. 

22(1.  Eose  pretty  early,  but  were  detained  in  getting  shoes 
on  one  of  the  horses;  breakfasted  at  a  farmer's,  five  miles  on 
the  way.  Set  out  under  some  discouragement,  from  the  ac- 
counts we  had  of  the  streams,  and  rode  five  miles  round,  to  cross 
on  a  bridge  over  Edwards  Creek.  Forded  Pope  Creek,  where 
it  was  difficult  for  the  horses  to  rise  up  the  bank  out  of  it,  and 
about  noon  reached  a  dining  place ;  where  we  got  further  in- 
structions respecting  the  road.  We  had  many  sloughs  to  pass, 
and  after  riding  about  two  miles,  were  detained  nearly  an  hour, 
while  one  of  the  company  went  in  search  of  a  private  bridge, 
over  which  to  cross  a  stream,  in  our  course.  Towards  sunset, 
■we  reached  a  brick  farm  house,  in  the  edge  of  a  wide  prairie, 
and  put  up  for  the  night ;  being  weary  with  riding,  and  the 
anxiety  produced  b}'  the  many  disagreeable,  miry  jilaces ;  from 
which  the  horses,  when  they  find  themselves  sinking,  spring  for- 
ward, as  if  they  would  bi-eak  the  carriage  or  harness.  The 
people  here  were  kind,  and  made  us  welcome  and  comfortable; 


528  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

and  the  head  of  the  family  appeared  to  be  better  informed  than 
most  "vve  meet  with  in  this  new  country. 

23d.  When  breakfast  was  prepared,  our  host  told  us  it  was 
their  practice  to  have  family  devotion  or  prayers,  but  perhaps 
it  would  delay  us  too  long.  We  made  no  reply,  not  wishing  to 
interfere.  He  got  the  bible,  and  read  a  chapter  in  the  Eevela- 
tions,  in  which  it  is  said,  they  that  keep  his  commandments, 
shall  enter  in  through  the  gates  into  the  city.  When  he  stopped, 
I  felt  engaged  to  express  my  approbation  of  the  practice  of 
reading  the  Holy  Scriptures,  but  that  it  was  also  necessary  to  put 
in  practice  the  commands  contained  in  them.  That  although 
we  had  not  as  great  measure  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  as  the  prophets 
and  apostles,  who  wrote  them,  yet  the  same  spirit  that  inspired, 
them  to  Avrite,  was  given  to  us,  to  teach  us  to  deny  ungodliness, 
and  the  world's  lusts,  and  to  live  soberly,  righteously  and  godly, 
in  this  present  world.  I  desired  the  parents  might  remember, 
that  here  we  have  no  continuing  city,  and  the  importance  of 
walking  in  the  fear  of  Almighty  God ;  setting  their  children  an 
example  of  holiness ;  and  that  they  might  come  under  the  gov- 
ernment of  their  Saviour.  That  they  should  keep  his  commands, 
as  made  known  in  their  hearts;  and  when  the  end  of  all  things 
hero  arrived  to  them,  the  fear  of  death  would  be  taken  away, 
and  through  the  mercy  of  God  in  Christ  Jesus,  the  gates  into 
that  gloi-ious  cit}^,  and  the  arms  of  everlasting  Love,  would  be 
open  to  them.  When  I  closed,  the  old  man  said,  "Will  you 
join  us  in  prayer?"  I  answered,  we  believe  it  is  our  duty  to 
pray  continuall}',  by  the  help  of  the  Holy  Spirit ;  but  we  also 
believe  it  requires  a  special  intimation  of  the  Spirit,  to  place 
ourselves  on  our  knees  in  vocal  prayer.  He  made  no  reply, 
went  on  his  knees,  and  the  family  with  him ;  but  we  kept  our 
seats. 

In  the  course  of  his  prayei',  he  p<?titioned  that  the  lecture,  as  he 
termed  it,  might  be  blessed ;  asked  the  aid  of  the  Holy  Spirit  to 
enable  them  to  resist  temptation  ;  prayed  for  our  preservation; 
and  that  if  they  and  the  strangei'S  should  not  me-et  again  in  this 
world,  we  might  meet  in  heaven  to  part  no  more.  He  appeared 
to  be  a  man  of  some  religious  understanding.  We  sat  down  to 
breakfast,  and  he  made  some  enquiry  respecting  the  faith  of 
Friends,  particularly  on  the  divinity  of  our  Saviour ;  to  which 
I  gave  him  answers;  and  we  regretted  that  we  had  left  all  our 


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tracts  in  Iowa,  and  so  were  not  able  to  give  him  a  printed  ac- 
count of  our  princijiles.     "We  parted  with  friendly  feelings. 

Our  faithful  friends  continuing  with  us,  much  to  our  comfort, 
we  rode  through  Henderson  to  Knoxville,  dined,  and  fed  our 
horses.  There  the  road  being  good  and  jilain,  so  that  there  ap- 
peared no  difficulty  in  getting  on  alone,  we  took  an  affectionate 
leave  of  them,  and  rode  to  Tucker's,  a  private  house  for  enter- 
tainment of  travellers;  where  we  obtained  good  lodgings, 

24th.  After  breakfasting,  and  receiving  directions  respect- 
ing the  road,  we  travelled  twenty-four  miles,  to  another  farm 
house,  where  they  give  entertainment.  These  people  were 
from  Pennsylvania.  Thence  we  rode  to  Peoria,  and  crossed 
the  Illinois  Eivcr,  on  the  bridge  that  bad  been  repaired;  but 
the  road  through  the  bottom  on  the  east  side  of  the  river, 
was  still  in  a  bad  condition,  so  that  it  was  difficult  and  unpleas- 
ant driving  through  it.  Glad  we  were  to  be  leaving  it  behind, 
and  that  the  space  between  us  and  our  beloved  families  was 
gradually  narrowing.  Eight  miles  from  the  river  we  put  up  for 
the  night  at  Groveland. 

25th.  Hearing  that  Mackinaw  River  was  raised,  and  could  not 
be  forded  where  we  had  passed  it  on  our  W'ay  out,  we  rode  down 
the  stream  three  miles  round,  to  a  miserable  bridge,  that  looked 
ready  to  tumble  down,  and  by  twelve  o'clock  got  to  Concord, 
a  cluster  of  half  dozen  houses,  and  dined.  In  the  afternoon 
passed  Bloomington,  and  reached  Bishop's,  a  private  house ; 
where  we  found  good  accommodations  for  ourselves  and  horses. 

26th.  Pose  early  and  went  to  Le  Roy,  nine  miles,  to  break- 
fast. The  wind  came  out  of  the  north,  in  the  night,  and  it  was 
cold  riding  this  morning,  BetAveen  breakfast  and  dinner,  we 
crossed  two  wide  prairies ;  one  fourteen  miles,  and  the  other 
eight  or  nine  miles ;  in  which  we  had  some  large  sloughs  to 
pass;  which  made  travelling,  in  some  places,  disagreeable;  the 
water  and  mud  under  the  wnld  grass  being  deej)  and  laborious 
to  the  horses.  Dined  at  a  decent  house  near  the  Sangamon 
Eiver,  and  having  eleven  and  a  half  miles  to  ride  to  Urbana, 
set  off  and  got  to  our  quarters  before  sundown.  It  was  cheering 
to  be  brought  safely  back  to  the  inn,  where  we  lodged,  the  first 
night  after  beginning  our  prairie  journey  without  pilot  or  com- 
pany. We  were  well  received  by  the  inn-keeper,  who  seemed 
anxious  to  please  his  customers. 

27tb.     We  had  forty  miles  to  ride,  in  order  to  reach  I.  S.'s, 


630  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

and  finding  the  sloughs  a  good  deal  dried,  we  pushed  on,  and 
got  to  his  house  by  sundown.  His  valuable  w^ife  came  out  to  us 
as  we  drove  up  before  the  door,  saying,  "  I  am  glad  to  sec  you  ;" 
I  replied,  "I  am  glad  to  hear  thee  say  so — we  are  thankful  for 
the  kind  reception  of  Friends,  and  that  the  Lord  has  brought 
us  back  safely  thus  far." 

28th.  Being  their  week-day  meeting,  and  fatigued  with  steady 
travelling,  we  concluded  to  rest  with  them  until  to-morrow 
morning.  The  meeting  was  not  so  large  as  when  we  were  wath 
them  before;  but  unexpectedly,  it  was  a  time  of  comfort  and 
encoui'agement  to  the  sincere  travailers. 

We  dined  at  J.  II. 's;  and  in  the  afternoon  went  with  I.  S. 
and  wife  to  their  widowed  daughter's,  Avho  resides  with  two 
little  children  on  the  prairie,  about  two  miles  from  her  pa- 
rents. Passed  the  afternoon  peacefully,  though  under  feelings 
of  sadness,  at  the  lonely  situation  of  this  young  woman,  who 
appeared  to  be  an  exemplary  Friend.  After  taking  tea,  as  we 
sat  together,  a  word  of  sympathy  and  encouragement  arose, 
and  was  handed  to  her.  When  we  returned,  we  pleaded  with 
the  parents,  to  remember  her  lonely  condition,  and  if  way  opened 
for  it,  to  get  her  nearer  to  them  before  winter.  But  while  we  were 
at  Eichmond,  attending  the  Yearly  Meeting,  we  were  informed 
she  had  been  attacked  with  disease,  prevailing  in  that  part  of 
the  country,  and  was  removed,  I  trust,  to  a  better  world.  It 
seems  mournful,  that  such  good  examples,  of  whom  we  stand  in 
great  need,  are  taken  from  us  by  death,  as  they  are  apparently 
preparing  for  service  in  the  church.  Yet  we  are  pooi-,  short- 
sighted creatures,  and  know  not  what  she  and  her  friends  may 
be  spared,  by  her  being  gathered  beyond  the  reach  of  temj^ta- 
tion  and  danger. 

29th.  Before  leaving  these  kind  and  hosjiitable  Friends,  this 
morning,  for  the  east  side  of  the  Wabash  Eiver,  the  family  sat 
down  with  us,  and  the  Lord  furnished  me  wuth  matter  for  their 
different  states ;  so  that  we  had  a  tendering  time  together,  and 
j:»arted  under  feelings  of  mutual,  affectionate  regard.  Ilodo 
over  to  W.  II. 's  and  dined,  and  on  leaving,  had  to  deliver  some 
counsel  to  the  parents  and  children.  Then  set  out  with  him,  as 
pilot,  to  S.  A.'s,  which  we  reached  a  little  before  evening,  and 
remained  there  during  next  day ;  needing  a  little  rest  and  some 
re-fitting. 

31st.     Attended  their  first-day  meeting  ;  in  which  it  seemed  to 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  531 

mc  the  life  of  religion  was  low,  among  many  who  made  a  show, 
and  were  active  in  some  things  of  an  outward  nature.  The 
necessity  of  partaking  of  spiritual  food,  and  spiritual  drink,  and 
laboi'ing  for  it  individually,  was  brought  before  them,  as  that 
alone  whicdi  can  sustain  and  nourish  up  the  soul  unto  everlast- 
ing life.  There  is  great  danger  of  relinquishing  this  labor  for 
the  bread  which  cometh  down  from  heaven  ;  which  the  Son  of 
Man  only  can  give,  and  trusting  in  a  mere  acknowledgment  of 
the  truths  of  the  gospel ;  leading  a  life  of  morality  ;  reading  a 
chapter  in  the  Scriptures  daily,  and  attending  religious  meet- 
ings. I  felt  distressed  among  them,  and  came  away  without 
feeling  that  there  were  many  true  travailers  in  the  meeting. 
Dined  at  T.  M.'s,  who  took  us  to  D.  N.'s,  at  Poplar  Grove,  where 
we  had  notice  spread  for  a  meeting  on  second-da3^  The  Friends 
were  kind,  and  entertained  us  heartily  in  their  simple,  comfort- 
able Avay. 

Ninth  month  1st.  The  weather  clear  and  ver}^  Avarm ;  went 
to  the  meeting  under  feelings  of  depression.  The  company  was 
about  double  the  size  of  their  usual  meeting,  and  they  sat  very 
quietly.  I  felt  drawn  to  stand  up  Avith  the  prayer  of  one  for- 
merly: "Lord,  make  me  to  know  my  end,  and  the  measure  of 
my  days  what  it  is,  that  I  may  knoAv  how  frail  I  am,"  and  I 
labored  among  them  according  to  the  ability  received,  endeav- 
oring to  strengthen  the  sincere-hearted  in  faithfulness ;  warning 
the  young  people  of  the  dangers  of  evil  company,  and  inviting 
them  to  receive  the  visitations  of  their  Saviour,  and  to  follow 
Him  in  the  way  of  the  cross.  Eeturned  to  D.  N.'s  and  dined; 
and  in  the  afternoon  he  and  his  wife  accompanied  us  to  D.  H.'s,  at 
.Ttush  Creek,  Avhich  is  a  AA^oody  country,  some  parts  of  the  road 
passing  through  the  Avilderness ;  in  Avhich  we  should  not  have 
supposed  there  were 'many  persons  settled.  We  forded  Sugar 
liiver,  a  little  above  the  place  Avhere  a  Friend,  a  physician,  Avas 
droAvned  a  fcAv  Aveeks  before,  during  a  high  freshet ;  the  river 
running  with  great  force.  We  were  kindly  received  by  the  Friend 
and  his  wife,  and  felt  comfortable  in  spirit  under  their  roof. 

2d.  We  had  a  meeting  at  Eush  Creek,  Avhich  was  large.  It 
seemed  difficult  to  conceive  where  all  the  people  came  from,  so 
much  of  the  land  being  yet  covered  with  timber.  The  warm 
weather  relaxed  me  much,  and  feeling  exceedingly  empty,  and 
my  faith  low,  I  was  discouraged  from  attempting  to  engage  in 
the  work  of  the  ministry ;  but  I  was  constrained  to  stand  up ; 


532  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

many  things  -svere  brought  before  me,  and  utterance  given  of 
matter  I  had  not  thought  of;  even  to  my  admiration,  and  to  the 
solemnizing  and  tendering  of  some  present.  So  that  I  had 
reason  to  rejoice  a  little,  in  the  midst  of  poverty,  and  the  appre- 
hension that  few  have  ears  to  licar,  and  hearts  to  understand ; 
but  the  testimony  of  Truth  is  to  be  borne  under  Divine  au- 
thority, and  left  with  them.  We  dined  near  the  meeting-house, 
and  then  rode  back  over  Sugar  Kiver  to  JS".  N.'s,  at  Bloomfield, 
and  put  up.  He  told  us  he  was  in  his  eighty-fourth  year,  and 
when  the  notice  of  our  intended  meeting  at  Eush  Creek  came 
to  him,  he  mounted  his  horse  and  rode  seven  miles  to  D.  II.'s, 
and  delivering  it,  returned  home  without  taking  dinner.  On  a 
previous  occasion  he  delivered  the  notice  for  a  meeting  to  an- 
other person  to  forward,  and  it  miscarrying,  he  was  determined 
to  take  this  himself  to  the  right  place. 

3d.  Attended  the  regular  meeting  at  Bloomfield ;  in  which  I 
was  much  borne  down  with  a  lifeless,  formal  spirit,  trusting  in 
creaturely  performances,  and  greatly  neglecting  the  inward, 
spiritual  work  of  religion.  It  appeared  to  me  there  was  a  dis- 
position in  some,  to  despise  the  sanctification  of  the  soul,  by  the 
cleansing,  baptizing  power  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  and  to  adopt,  in 
its  place,  a  mere  literal  belief  of  the  truths  of  Christianity,  as 
explained  by  their  own  wisdom  and  learning ;  and  to  lead  people 
away  from  the  hope  of  deriving  the  true  and  saving  knowledge 
of  Christ,  by  the  operative  power  of  his  Spirit  in  the  heart. 
That  dark  and  subtle  spirit  was  felt  to  be  at  work  in  this  place, 
with  great  deccivableness ;  and  after  speaking  of  the  favor  it 
is  to  have  humble,  lowly  travailers  preserved  among  ns,  who 
are  brought  to  mourn  over  themselves  and  the  degeneracy  among 
us  as  a  people,  I  was  led  and  enabled  to  bring  to  view  the  de- 
ceivable  workings  of  this  spirit,  and  to  contrast,  with  its  erro- 
neous  imaginations,  the  purity  and  powerful  efficacy  of  the  in- 
ward, regenerating  religion  of  Christ,  where  He  is  received  as 
the  teacher,  and  feeder,  and  captain  of  liis  people.  It  is  only 
in  His  school  that  we  are  livingly  taught  the  truths  of  the  gos- 
pel ;  know  them  to  be  applied  to  our  state  by  Him  ;  and  receive 
from  Him  that  faith  which  gives  the  victory,  and  by  which  wo 
truly  believe  the  testimony  of  the  Holy  Scriptures,  and  experi- 
ence Him  to  become  our  Saviour  and  Ecdeemer.  It  felt  lo 
mo  there  arc  those  of  our  Society,  who  dislike  this  spiritual 
doctrine,  and  hold  it  in  contempt.     Such  will  turn  away  others 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  533 

from  the  truth,  and  if  they  persist,  will  full  themselves  into  in- 
creasing darkness.  But  the  time  will  come,  when  the  worm 
that  dieth  not,  and  the  fire  that  is  not  quenched,  will  hring  them 
into  deep  distress,  unless  they  are  favored  to  repent,  and  turn 
their  back  on  all  their  delusions. 

Our  carriage  requiring  some  repair,  we  lodged  the  second 
night  at  N.  N.'s,  and  had  some  conversation  with  the  old  Friend ; 
in  which  lie  took  occasion  to  exiDress  his  fears,  that  changes  were 
taking  place,  unfavorable  to  the  support  of  the  ancient  views 
and  practices,  that  prevailed  among  Friends  in  forjner  times. 

4th.  Set  out  early  this  morning  to  meet  our  kind  friend,  D. 
N.,  Avho  had  consented  to  2:»ilot  us  over  to  Mill  Creek.  He  Avas 
detained,  and  the  weather  being  warm,  and  the  road  rough  and 
hilly,  we  got  on  slowly,  so  as  to  be  in  the  evening  before  we 
reached  our  lodgings.  Just  before  dusk,  one  of  our  horses  got 
a  hind  foot  fast  between  two  logs,  on  a  rough  bridge ;  which, 
threw  him  down,  and  though  he  made  two  or  tlu'ee  violent  ef- 
forts to  extricate  it,  which  we  feared  would  have  broken  his 
leg,  we  were  obliged  to  hold  him  down,  while  one  pried  the  logs 
apart,  before  it  was  loosed  ;  and  glad  we  were  to  find  that  he 
walked  without  limping.  We  were  alarmed  at  the  prospect  of 
losing  our  valuable  creature,  and  considered  it  a  favor  that  he 
was  not  ruined.  It  occurred  about  half  a  mile  from  our  friend 
A.  II.'s,  to  whose  house  we  led  our  horses,  and  ho  and  D.  N. 
went  back  with  his  horses,  and  brought  the  carriage.  It  was  a 
fatiguing  day's  journey  of  forty  miles ;  but  being  received  with 
coi-diality  by  our  kind  friend  and  his  attentive  daughters,  Ave 
Avere  refreshed  and  compensated  for  our  Avearisome  travel.  I 
mentioned  my  desire  to  hold  a  meeting  at  Mill  Creek  to-morrow, 
and  our  friend  offered  to  go  over  at  once  to  one  or  tAvo  members, 
and  enlist  them  in  spreading  notice  in  the  morning;  Avhich 
shoAved  his  good  Avill,  as  it  had  then  become  late  in  the  eveninir. 

5th.  We  Avent  to  meeting.  The  query  put  to  the  children 
of  Israel,  Avas  brought  before  me^  "Your  fathers,  where  are 
they ;  and  the  prophets,  do  they  live  forever  ?"  I  thought  there 
Avas  among  them  too  little  concern,  that  inward,  spiritual  AA-or- 
ship  should  be  performed  and  maintained,  I  endeaA'ored  to  do 
my  duty;  but  the  feeling  that  rested  upon  me,  respecting  the 
low  state  of  the  meeting,  was  dei^ressing.  As  Ave  rode  from  it, 
I  asked  A.  II.  Avhether  they  had  any  minister  or  elder  belonging 
to  the  meeting?  He  said  none,  except  an  old  Avoman  in  the 
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534  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

station  of  older,  who  lived  part  of  her  time  here,  and  part  within 
the  limits  of  a  distant  meeting;  so  that  it  might  well  be  said, 
Your  fathers  and  mothers,  where  are  they?  What  a  condition 
for  a  largo  meeting  to  be  in?  What  have  the  young  people 
around  them,  to  animate  them  to  make  choice  of  true  religion, 
and  to  come  up  in  the  footsteps  of  the  flock  of  Christ's  compan- 
ions? We  dined  at  a  Friend's  house,  about  a  mile  towards  our 
stopping  place ;  where  we  had  the  company  of  E.  W.  Ilodson 
and  wife,  who  belong  to  Spring  Meeting.  In  the  afternoon  re- 
turned to  A.  H.'s,  and  lodged. 

Gth.  At  Springtown,  we  were  met  by  E.  W.  II.,  and  went 
w'ith  him  to  their  home;  dined,  and  in  the  afternoon,  one  of  his 
sons  piloted  us  over  to  West  Union,  about  twelve  miles,  where 
we  lodged. 

7th.  Attended  their  meeting,  which  was  large,  being  first- 
day.  The  subject  of  spiritual  worship  came  before  me,  and 
rested  on  my  mind  some  time,  but  I  could  not  sec  my  way  clear 
to  attempt  any  public  communication.  The  meeting  was  con- 
tinued about  the  usual  length  of  time,  in  silence,  and  I  felt  very 
peaceful  in  leaving  it;  with  a  heart  clothed  with  love  to  the 
people  ;  trusting  there  was  a  reason  for  it,  and  that  it  would  bo 
a  benefit  in  showing  our  testimony  to  spiritual,  silent  worship. 

Dined  at  a  Friend's  house,  and  went  to  Highland  Meeting  at 
three  o'clock.  Here  I  passed  through  some  fear  of  speaking, 
or  of  keeping  silence,  from  the  suggestions  of  Satan,  that  there 
was  not  sutficicnt  motion  to  speak;  which  brought  me  into 
some  conflict  of  spirit ;  but  finally  I  believed  it  right,  to  stand 
up,  with  the  blessings  pronounced  by  the  Saviour,  upon  the 
poor  in  spirit ;  upon  the  mourners,  and  those  who  hunger  and 
thirst  after  righteousness ;  and  to  show  that  they  apply  to  the 
Lord's  poor,  those  whom  He  strips  and  empties  ;  who  mourn 
over  their  condition  ;  and  as  they  abiilo  under  his  humbling, 
baptizing  hand,  will  hunger  and  thirst  after  the  bread  and  water 
of  life.  These  are  very  difterent  from  the  rich  and  the  full ; 
full  of  their  attainments  and  ability  to  judge  and  act  for  them- 
selves. The  life  rose  into  some  dominion,  and  gospel  truths 
were  a  little  opened,  I  hope,  to  the  benefit  of  some.  AVe  went 
to  a  Friend's,  and  lodged. 

8th.  Had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Eothel,  a  nowl}'  estab- 
lished meeting.  The  testimony  that  a  man's  life  consisteth  TiOt 
in  the  abundance  of  that  which  he  possesseth,  was  revived; 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS.  535 

neither  doth  the  strength  of  a  people,  or  a  sociot}-,  depend  upon 
their  numbers.  There  is  no  substantial  peace  or  happiness,  but 
in  living  and  walking  in  the  Truth;  neither  is  there  any  other 
ground  of  strength  in  a  religious  body,  but  in  living  under  the 
government  of  the  blessed  Head  of  the  church.  Here  only  ai'C 
■we  pi-eserved  amidst  the  trials  and  temptations  of  time;  ena- 
bled to  keep  the  outward  blessings  in  their  proper  place,  and  to 
"witness  a  growth  and  an  establishment  in  Christ,  the  Shepherd, 
Eock  and  Foundation  of  his  people,  individually,  and  as  his 
church.  The  dangers  of  being  swallowed  u])  in  a  worldly  spirit, 
were  plainly  spoken  to  ;  and  the  importance  of  being  solid, 
grave,  exemplary  christians ;  not  light  and  frivolous,  talking 
about  trifling  things,  so  as  to  turn  the  young  people  away  from 
Christ,  instead  of  drawing  them  to  Him,  w^hen  they  are  brought 
under  his  convicting  power.  Some  appeared  to  be  brought 
under  religious  feeling,  and  Avere  tendei'ed. 

9th.  Had  a  meeting  at  White  Lick,  which  was  an  uncxpeet- 
edl}^  large  company.  The  house  is  a  brick  building,  put  up  to 
accommodate  the  Quarterly  Meeting,  and  has  a  neat  appear- 
ance, very  creditable  to  the  members. 

After  a  season  of  waiting  upon  the  Lord,  the  temptations  and 
dangers  to  which  even  the  believer,  who  has  attained  to  some 
steadfastness  and  experience  in  Christ,  is  exposed, — like  stand- 
ing upon  a  sea  of  glass,  mingled  with  fire, — were  a  little  opened 
to  their  vie^v.  Though  the  Lord's  tender  mercies  are  over  all 
his  works,  we  cannot  expect  preservation  without  watchfulness 
and  prayer,  walking  in  lowliness  of  mind  before  Him.  All  self- 
suffieiencj",  and  relying  on  past  attainments,  must  be  relinquish- 
ed, and  a  willingness  lived  in  to  be  emptied  and  stripped,  by 
Him  who  knows  our  infirmities,  and  what  baptisms  and  reduc- 
tions are  needful  for  our  refinement  and  growth  in  Divine 
G-race.  Some  things  relating  to  the  work  of  regeneration  and 
fianctification,  were  brought  before  them ;  and  the  meeting  w^as 
concluded  with  vocal  prayer  for  Divine  regard,  and  for  the  Lord's 
sustaining  power  in  our  trials. 

Went  back  to  our  lodgings  and  dined.  Just  before  w^e  left, 
two  Friends  coming  in,  we  fell  into  silence,  and  the  departure 
of  a  large  proportion  of  our  members  from  that  inv/ard  exercise 
for  themselves  and  for  the  right  support  of  the  cause  of  Christ, 
which  every  one  ought  to  experience,  was  alluded  to ;  and  the 
desire  expressed  that  those  present  might  keep  to  it.     Where 


536  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

are  those  travailing  ones,  the  mourners  in  Zion,  the  burden- 
bearers  among  us  ?  Many  seem  not  to  understand  the  doctrine 
of  regeneration,  and  daily  suffering ;  such  a  state  of  ease  has 
come  over  us.  A  Friend,  being  provided  for  guide,  M'e  rode  to 
A.  B.'s,  near  Easton,  and  lodged. 

10th.  Attended  their  usual  meeting  here  ;  in  which  I  thought 
there  were  some  who  are  sensible  of  poverty  of  spirit,  and  were 
longing  for  the  appearance  of  their  Lord,  that  they  might  par- 
take of  the  comfort  of  his  presence,  and  see  the  prosperity  of 
Truth  spring  forth  among  them.  To  these  a  word  of  encour- 
agement was  held  out.  Returned  to  A.  B.'s  and  dined.  In  the 
afternoon  went  to  Fairfield,  and  held  an  appointed  meeting,  at 
half-past  three  o'clock. 

The  company  that  came  into  the  house  was  a  mixed  one,  and 
unexpectedly  large.  The  expressions  of  the  prophet,  "  He  hath 
shown  thee,  O  man,  what  is  good,  and  what  doth  the  Lord  re- 
quire of  thee,  but  to  do  justly,  to  love  mercy,  and  to  walk  hum- 
bly with  thy  God,"  came  before  me,  and  after  endeavoring  to 
try  the  fleece,  I  stood  up  with  the  passage.  The  opening  of 
divers  subjects  to  this  mixed  assembly  was  unexpected;  and,  I 
hope,  that  useful  impressions  were  made  on  some  minds.  After 
the  meeting,  A.  B.  and  wife  took  us  to  M.  S.'s,  at  Sugar  Grove ; 
whom  we  found  an  open,  pleasant  Friend,  glad  to  have  us  at  his 
house.  The  cordiality  which  this  Friend  manifested,  was  grate- 
ful to  our  feelings. 

11th.  We  were  at  Sugar  Grove  Preparative  Meeting;  in 
which  the  indispensable  work  of  inward  sanctification,  and 
daily  waiting  upon  the  Lord,  for  strength  and  preservation, 
were  enforced  ;  and  the  danger  of  relying  upon  a  literal,  or 
educational  assent  to  the  truths  of  the  christian  religion,  with- 
out the  inward  work,  was  declared  among  them.  I  w^as  fearful 
that  some  were  too  self-confident,  and  not  acquainted  with  daily 
walking  in  the  path  of  humility  before  the  Lord.  Eeturned  to 
M.  Stanley's,  and  dined.  Before  leaving,  we  had  a  religious 
opportunity  with  the  parents  and  some  of  their  children  ;  in 
which  the  sense  of  true  fellowship  was  felt,  I  believe,  on  both 
sides. 

12th.  Had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Lick  Branch,  which 
filled  the  house.  I  labored  amonjr  them  in  the  love  of  the  gos- 
pel,  that  they  might  experience  an  entire  redemption  from  the 
world,  its  deligbts  and  treasure ;  and  was  enabled  to  pray  for 


JOURNAL    OP    WILLIAM    EVANS.  537 

old  and  young;  that  the  Lord  would  renew  his  work  m  some  of 
the  former ;  that  they  might  be  brought  in,  even  at  the  eleventh 
hour  of  the  day,  and  at  last  be  favored  with  a  true  hope  of  ad- 
mission into  his  glorious  kingdom  in  the  end;  and  that  the 
young  people  might  be  gathered  from  the  many  snares  which 
surround  them. 

We  went  home  with  D.  W.,  an  aged  member,  and  dined.  A 
son-in-law  died  in  the  house  a  few  weeks  before  ;  and  on  leaving 
them,  I  thought  it  my  duty,  to  remind  them  that  such  a  dispen- 
sation not  only  called  the  one  from  time  to  eternity,  but  should 
warn  survivors  of  the  business  of  life;  which  is,  to  glorify  their 
Ci'eator,  and  to  prepare  for  their  solemn  end.  As  we  were  to 
have  no  meeting  to-morrow,  and  were  expecting  to  find  letters 
from  home  at  Indianapolis,  we  concluded  to  ride  there  this  af- 
ternoon, being  about  nine  miles,  and  on  a  good  road,  and  put 
lip  for  the  night  at  a  suitable  hotel ;  a  member  of  Eichland 
having  agreed  to  meet  us  there  next  day,  on  his  way  home,  and 
pilot  us  to  the  house  of  Z.  C,  residing  at  Eichland.  To  my  great 
relief,  I  received  letters,  which  gave  information  of  the  health 
of  mj"  dear  wife  and  children,  and  strengthened  me  to  try  to 
hold  on  to  the  end  of  the  service,  as  it  might  be  required  of  me. 

13th.  The  Friend  calling  for  us  as  he  had  engaged  to  do,  wo 
set  out  for  Eichland  ;  the  road  being  very  dusty  and  the  wea- 
ther warm.  About  noon,  we  stopped  on  the  bank  of  White 
Eiver,  fed  our  horses,  and  took  some  food,  which  the  Friend  and 
his  wife  had  brought  with  them.  We  got  to  Z.  C.'s,  about  the 
middle  of  the  afternoon,  being  sixteen  miles  north  of  Indianap- 
olis ;  and  found  him  and  his  wife  to  be  very  kind  and  pleasant 
Friends.  Two  of  the  sons  and  their  wives  being  there  on  a 
visit,  and  the  house  not  large,  we  were  afraid  of  incommoding 
them  ;  but  where  there  is  a  willing  heart,  apparent  difficulties 
can  often  be  accommodated,  and  true  enjoyment  felt  on  all 
sides,  which  we  proved  to  be  the  case  here. 

14th.  During  the  night  the  weather  changed  ;  being  cloudy 
and  blustering,  with  lightning  and  distant  thunder,  so  that  the 
mercury-  in  the  thermometer  fell  many  degrees.  We  concluded  to 
have  notice  spread  at  Eichland  this  morning,  being  first-day,  of 
our  intention  to  hold  a  meeting  there,  in  the  afternoon  ;  including 
Friends  composing  a  small  meeting  recently  set  off  from  this,  a 
few  miles  distant ;  and  at  a  suitable  time,  we  left  for  Westfield, 
about  five  miles  further  north.     ISTo  notice  being  sent  of  our 


538  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

coming  to  this  meeting,  and  the  -sveather  being  chilling,  it  was 
less  than  usual,  as  we  were  informed.  Endeavoring  to  cast  my- 
self upon  Him,  who  careth  for  us,  lie  was,  after  a  time  of  wait- 
ing, pleased  to  furnish  with  ability  to  preach  the  everlasting 
gospel ;  showing  the  necessity  and  importance  of  being  baptized 
into  Christ,  and  witnessing  the  fellowship  of  his  sufferings;  pre- 
paratory to  rising  with  Him,  into  newness  of  life.  Also  plead- 
ing with  the  young  people  to  take  his  yoke  upon  them,  and 
learn  of  Him,  who  is  meek  and  lowly  of  heart. 

We  dined,  on  the  way  back,  with  two  Friends;  and  E.  E.,  a 
Friend  from  New  Jersey,  with  whom  I  had  been  acquainted, 
belonging  to  this  meeting,  came  with  us.  Then  rode  to  Eich- 
land,  and  attended  the  appointment  there.  The  notice  had 
drawn  a  large  company,  like  a  Quarterly  Meeting.  Unexpect- 
edly to  myself,  my  gracious  Master  furnished  fresh  openings  of 
divers  subjects,  relating  to  the  change  which  He  works  by  his 
2)0  wer  in  the  hearts  of  those  Avho  submit  to  Him ;  and  also  the 
jiurity  He  requires,  and  clothes  the  soul  with.  Christ  Jesus  being 
the  author  and  the  finisher  of  the  saints'  faith,  those  who  have 
this  faith  and  keep  it,  must  be  sanctified,  and  therefore  holy 
men,  freed  from  sin  and  the  commission  of  sin.  I  was  also  fav- 
ored with  the  spirit  of  supplication  for  the  sincere  travailing 
ones  and  others.  It  was  a  good  meeting ;  in  which  holy  help 
was  vouchsafed,  and  the  spirits  of  many  bowed  and  united  to- 
gether. 

We  were  again  pleasantly  received  at  Z.  C.'s ;  and  the  follow- 
ing morning,  at  parting,  a  few  words  arose  for  the  young,  re- 
cently married  couple,  and  for  the  parents,  which  tendered 
their  spirits,  and  we  took  leave  of  each  other  in  nearness  of 
affection. 

A.  H.  having  offered  to  accomjiany  us,  we  rode  to  Indianapo- 
lis ;  and  about  six  miles  further  east,  on  the  National  road,  we 
stopped  at  an  inn,  dined,  and  fed  our  horses.  Towards  evening 
we  discovered  that  one  of  them  was  sick,  and  we  Avere  obliged  to 
stop  and  take  some  measures  for  his  relief.  A  little  before  dark, 
we  got  to  a  Friend's,  at  Wcstland,  where  we  lodged.  They 
made  us  comfortable,  and  appeared  glad  to  have  us  with  them. 

16th.  Had  an  ajipoiutcd  meeting  at  this  place.  The  com- 
pany'' was  small,  j'ct  there  seemed  to  me  to  be  humble-minded 
ones  among  them,  who  were  acquainted  with  the  path  that  no 
fowl  knoweth,  which  the  vulture's  eye  hath   not  seen,  but  in 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  539 

which  the  wayfaring  man,  thoiigli  a  fool  as  to  worldly  wisdom, 
shall  not  err,  as  the  ej-e  is  kept  single  to  the  8he])herd  and 
Bishop  of  souls.  A7e  were  piloted  to  S.  P.'s,  near  Eaysville,  ten 
miles ;  where  wo  felt  ourselves  heartily  received  ;  he  and  his 
wife  being  open  and  free. 

17th.  Attended  Eaysville  Preparative  Meeting.  In  the  first 
sitting,  the  great  importanccof  inward,  vital  religion  impressed 
mj^mind  ;  and  the  tcstimon}^  of  the  apostle,  that  "He  is  not  a 
Jew  who  is  one  outwardly ;  neither  is  that  circumcision  which 
is  outward  in  the  flesh  ;  but  he  is  a  Jew  who  is  one  inwardly, 
and  circumcision  is  that  of  the  heart,  in  the  Spirit,  and  not  in 
the  letter,  whose  praise  is  not  of  men  but  of  God,"  was  revived  ; 
and  the  hatred  which  Satan  has  to  genuine  Quakerism,  as  strik- 
ing at  the  root  and  fabric  of  his  kingdom,  was  adverted  to.  He 
cares  not  by  what  means  he  can  destroy  us,  and  our  religious 
profession.  If  he  cannot  induce  those  who  hold  it,  to  deny  the 
principles  with  the  tongue,  but  succeeds  in  drawing  them  into 
the  friendshij)S  of  the  world,  and  the  love  of  its  profits  and 
delights ;  and  thereby  they  lose  the  inward  life  and  power  of 
godliness,  it  answers  his  purjDOse.  Of  this,  thei-e  appeared  to 
me,  to  be  gi-eat  danger ;  the  love  of  ease,  and  the  flatteries  of 
worldly  men,  lying  so  near  the  natural  inclination ;  which  shrinks 
from  the  baptism  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  and  those  disj)ensations 
which  purge  the  branches,  and  keep  them  alive  in  the  Vine.  It 
was  a  season  of  rather  close  exercise ;  and  yet  Divine  love  and 
fervent  desire  for  my  brethren  and  sisters  covered  my  heart ; 
that  we  might  all  become  more  what  the  Lord  would  make  us, 
were  we  entirely  given  up  to  Him.  We  dined  at  S.  P.'s  ;  after 
which  we  were  conducted  to  Carthage,  where  we  put  up  for  the 
night. 

18th.  Attended  the  Preparative  Meeting,  held  in  a  good 
house,  at  the  south  end  of  the  village.  It  was  not  a  large  meet- 
ing; but  I  hoped  there  was  a  remnant  of  the  suffering  seed,  who 
are  acquainted  Avith  the  hidden  life  ;  keeping  at  the  feet  of 
Jesus,  where  they  are  instructed  in  the  faith  andiDatience  of  the 
saints.  These  are  the  salt  among  us;  and  though  the  unregen- 
erate  man,  whose  eyes  are  not  anointed  with  the  eye  salve  of 
the  kingdom,  cannot  discern  their  safe  abiding,  yet  it  is  in 
Christ;  and  even  the  worldlings  are  compelled  to  confess  to 
tlieir  firm  and  upright  standing.  The  dear  young  people  w^ere 
affectionately  pleaded  with,  to  bow  to  the  yoke  of  Christ,  and 


540  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

in  the  obedience  of  faith,  serve  Ilim  ;  that  they  may  know  Him 
to  become  the  chief  of  ten  thousands,  and  altogether  lovely  to 
their  souls  ;  and  He  would  qualify  them  for  service  in  his  church. 
I  hoped  it  was  a  time  of  renewed  visitation  and  encouragement 
to  some. 

In  the  afternoon  went  to  a  Friend's  near  Pleasant  View  Meet- 
ing-house, and  had  a  meeting  appointed  to  be  held  there  to- 
morrow. This  day  it  has  felt  as  if  my  exercise  in  this  Yearly 
Meeting  was  abating,  and  the  work  drawing  to  a  close.  We 
were  very  kindly  received  by  the  Friends  where  we  lodged  ;  who 
appeared  to  wish  to  make  us  feel  comfortable  with  them. 

19th.  We  had  a  pretty  good  sized  meeting,  made  up  of  a 
class  which  loves  ease,  in  relation  to  the  performance  of  religious 
duty,  some  unfaithful  ones,  and  some  who  hold  back  through 
fear  and  diffidence.  I  was  enabled  to  enter  into  their  condition  ; 
bringing  to  their  notice  the  parable  of  the  Avedding  feast  of  the 
king's  son  ;  to  which,  though  provided  without  expense  or  trouble 
to  those  who  were  invited,  they  refused  to  come ;  pleading  vari- 
ous excuses.  So  in  this  day,  many  neglect  the  offers  of  Divine 
regard,  excusing  themselves  from  obeying  his  requirings  ;  and 
thus  they  fail  to  be  brought  to  the  feast  of  fat  things,  and  of 
wine  Avell  refined  on  the  lees.  Some  on  the  groimd  of  their  un- 
fitness, desiring  to  put  upon  others  what  the  Lord  calls  on  them 
to  do,  and  from  this  cause  never  come  to  the  growth  in  Christ, 
and  that  standing  in  his  church,  they  would  be  brought  to,  were 
they  faithful  in  the  day  of  small  things.  Here  is  one  of  the 
causes  of  weakness,  and  why  our  Society  does  not  shine  with 
that  brightness  it  should  appear  in.  There  was  a  renewed  call 
extended  to  some,  old  and  young,  to  obey  the  drawings  of  the 
Saviour,  that  they  may  become  servants  and  pillars  in  the  Lord's 
house.  The  meeting  closed  with  solemn  supplication  for  their 
help  and  strength.  It  was  a  favored,  good  meeting;  in  which 
holy  help  was  extended  to  me,  a  poor  creature,  and  for  which  I 
was  humbly  thankful.  In  the  afternoon  went  to  J.  P.'s,  at 
Walnut  Eidge,  who  with  his  wife  received  us  kindly. 

20th.  We  attended  Walnut  Ridge  Monthly  Meeting,  held  in 
a  large  building,  near  the  Friend's  dwelling.  The  company  was 
very  large  for  a  Monthly  Meeting ;  and  I  was  enabled  to  preach 
the  gospel  among  them  with  good  authority  and  weight ;  and 
to  encourage  the  tribulated  traveller,  to  bear  all  the  refin- 
ing dispensations  of  Him  who  knows  what  we  need,  and  how 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  541 

to  administer  his  baptisms  for  our  purification  ;  by  which  we 
shall  bo  fitted  to  bear  fruit  to  the  praise  of  tlie  great  Hus- 
bandman. Man}'-  Friends  saluted  us  at  the  close  of  the  meeting 
affectionatel}'-,  who  I  believe  were  glad  of  our  company.  After 
dining,  we  rode  to  Kaysville  ;  where  we  stopped  to  see  an  afflicted 
woman.  She  was  directed  to  look  to  the  Saviour,  who  could 
show  her  her  transgressions  and  shortcomings ;  give  her  the 
gift  of  repentance,  and  blot  out  all  her  sins,  as  she  gave  herself 
into  his  hands.  We  then  rode  to  S.  P.'s,  where  we  were  kindly 
received  by  his  wife  and  children. 

21st.  Accompanied  by  these  kind  Friends,  we  set  out  and 
rode  to  a  Friend's  near  the  village  of  Spiceland,  where  my  com- 
panion and  I  had  lodged  on  our  way  out  westward ;  who  ap- 
peared pleased  with  our  safe  return  to  their  habitation.  ^Ve 
walked  over  to  the  meeting-house,  standing  at  the  west  end  of 
the  town  ;  where  we  found  some  Friends  and  others  collecting, 
it  being  first-day.  When  we  were  all  seated,  the  company  was 
quite  large.  I  felt  much  emptied,  and  thought  it  might  be  my 
place  to  set  an  example  of  silence  ;  but  after  waiting  a  long 
time,  the  passage  was  revived,  with  an  intimation  to  stand  up 
with  it :  "  The  light  of  the  body  is  the  eye ;  if,  therefore,  thine 
eye  be  single,  thy  whole  body  shall  be  full  of  light;  but  if 
thine  eye  be  evil,  thy  wiiole  body  shall  be  full  of  darkness.  If, 
therefore,  the  light  that  is  in  thee  be  darkness,  how  great  is  that 
darkness?"  The  subject  was  gradually  oi:)ened,  and  the  Lord 
enabled  me  to  warn  some,  of  the  danger  of  relying  upon  their 
own  wisdom  and  understanding,  substituting  them  for  the  guid- 
ance of  the  light  of  Christ  in  the  heart ;  by  obedience  to  which 
alone,  the  work  of  regeneration  and  sanctification  can  be  expe- 
rienced. Without  this,  all  educational  faith  and  knowledge; 
all  that  man  may  do  in  his  own  strength,  will  avail  nothing  in 
the  work  of  salvation.  He  ma}^  think  to  do  good,  by  talking  of 
the  truths  of  the  gospel,  and  making  much  display  of  them  be- 
fore men;  but  without  the  inward,  heart-changing  work  of  Di- 
vine grace,  all  this  will  be  no  better  than  fig-leaf  coverings  ;  our 
own  righteousnesses,  w^hich  are  as  filthy  rags.  All  classes  were 
encouraged  to  come  under  the  operation  of  the  Spirit  of  Christ 
in  the  heart,  that  they  may  know  the  work  of  salvation  to  be 
going  on  with  the  day.  To  the  fathers  and  mothers  in  the 
Truth,  the  language  of  sympathy  and  consolation  was  addressed, 
with  the  expression  of  faith,  that  as  they  persevered  in  watch- 


542  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

fulness,  the  Lord's  covenant  with  them  would  not  be  broken  j 
but  they  would  know  preservation  to  the  end.  They  would  be 
made  a  blessing  to  the  dear  young  peoj^le ;  who  were  also  ten- 
derly invited  to  take  the  yoke  of  Christ  upon  them,  for  which 
they  would  receive  the  reward  of  sweet  peace,  and  never  have 
cause  to  regret  serving  so  gracious  a  Master.  I  thought  it  was 
a  day  of  Divine  condescension,  and  of  unmerited  favor  to  us, 
poor  unworthy  creatures.  Returned  to  E.  E.'s  and  dined,  and 
in  the  afternoon  he  walked  with  us  to  the  residence  of  our  dear 
aged  friends  Wm.  and  Anne  Ilobbs,  at  the  east  end  of  the  vil- 
lage ;  with  whom  we  took  tea,  and  had  a  pleasant  conversation. 
He  appears  to  be  an  innocent-s])iiited  Friend;  honestly  con- 
cerned for  the  support  of  the  good  cause,  and  for  the  welfare  of 
his  bx'ethren.  As  we  came  out  of  his  dcor,  the  good  old  Friend 
said,  "  I  am  willing  to  say  this  much,  I  am  glad  thou  hast  been 
•with  us  to-day."  Though  not  very  pointed,  it  was  a  comfort  to 
have  this  testimony  of  approbation. 

22d.  Notice  having  been  sent  to  Eich  Square,  for  a  meeting 
to  be  held  at  three  o'clock,  in  the  afternoon,  we  rode  there  and 
dined ;  and  then  went  to  the  school-house,  w^here  they  hold  their 
meetings.  We  were  told  their  meeting-house  and  school-house 
were  burned  down  in  the  same  night.  Both  buildings,  now  nearly 
finished,  are  very  suitable  for  the  respective  purposes.  I  had 
some  painful  labor  in  the  meeting,  in  endeavoring  to  awaken 
them  to  the  danger  of  being  swallowed  up  in  worldly  things, 
and  in  persuading  them  to  turn  to  the  Lord  and  to  his  service. 
The  meeting  was  closed  wuth  supplication  on  their  behalf  and 
for  ourselves. 

23d.  Had  an  appointed  meeting  at  Hopewell.  I  was  im- 
pressed in  this  meeting  with  the  great  importance  of  an  early, 
faithful  dedication  to  the  Lord;  such  being  often  made  insti-u- 
mental  in  quickening  others  to  a  serious  consideration  of  their 
day's  work,  and  by  their  solid  example  inciting  them  to  engage 
in  it.  On  the  contrary,  the  neglect  to  mind  the  Divine  requir- 
ings,  clearly  manifested  to  the  soul,  places  a  stumbling  block  be- 
fore others,  and  may  turn  aside  visited  ones  from  following  their 
Lord.  I  feared  much,  there  were  those  of  this  description  pre- 
sent, whose  prejudicial  influence  was  closely  sj)oken  to  ;  and  the 
great  benefit  pointed  out,  that  dedicated  servants  and  handmaids 
of  the  Lord  are  to  their  fellow  members.  The  labor  among 
them  brought  solemnity  over  the  meeting,  which  1  hoped  might 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  543 

be  useful.  But  we  liavo  to  hope  against  our  feelings,  and  leave 
it  all  to  the  Lord,  after  having  endeavored  to  do  the  best  we 
could.  After  dining,  Ave  were  accompanied  about  eight  miles  to 
a  Friend's  house,  on  our  way  towards  Fairfield  Meeting.  It 
was  an  agreeable  lodging  place;  where  we  passed  the  evening 
in  conversation,  on  the  testimonies  and  discipline  of  the  Society, 
and  other  appropriate  subjects.  Two  Friends  were  visiting 
there,  who  were  young  in  the  ministry;  intelligent  and  solid, 
and  inward  in  spirit,  which  made  the  company  interesting  and 
cheering. 

24th.  "Went  to  Fairfield  meeting.  Being  their  usual  Aveek- 
day  meeting,  and  no  notice  of  our  coming  having  been  sent,  the 
company  consisted  of  eight  or  nine  men  and  six  or  seven  women, 
and  it  was  rather  a  laborious  time. 

25th.  We  were  directed  on  our  way  to  "West  Grove  Meet- 
ing. The  companj'-  that  assembled  there  was  small,  no  no- 
tice having  been  sent  them,  of  our  intention  to  be  present.  A 
plain  and  unequivocal  testimony  against  the  habit  of  sleeping 
in  meeting,  Avas  delivered  among  them  ;  in  which  they  Avere  re- 
minded of  the  fervor  of  blind  Bartimeus  to  have  his  eyes  opened, 
Avhen  he  cried  out  to  the  Master,  "  Jesus,  thou  Son  of  David,  ha\"e 
mercy  on  me."  ^Yere  we  livingly  engaged  in  our  religious 
meetings  to  wait  upon,  and  cry  unto  Him,  our  eyes  Avould  bo 
opened  to  see  wondrous  things  in  His  laAv,  and  Ave  should  be 
raised  above  this  droAvsy  spirit. 

27th.  Being  seventh-day,  we  attended  the  Monthly  Meeting 
at  Milton.  I  Avas  enabled  to  labor  with  the  young  people,  to 
induce  them  to  give  up  in  early  life  to  the  Avill  of  their  Heav- 
enly Father,  inwardly  revealed  in  their  hearts;  by  Avhich  alone 
they  can  be  fitted  for  usefulness  in  the  church,  and  experience 
a  growth  from  stature  to  stature  in  the  blessed  Truth. 

28th.  This  morning,  being  first  day,  Ave  attended  Bethel 
Meeting.  We  sat  Avith  the  company  quite  a  long  time  before 
anything  Avas  said,  Avhen  a  Avoman  Friend  had  a  short  commu- 
nication. I  was  engaged  to  draw  Friends  into  an  indiA'idual 
examination,  whether  the  life  and  poAver  of  Christ  reigned  in 
them,  that  the}'  might  be  made  and  kept  branches  of  the  living 
Vine,  and  by  their  spirits  and  example,  show  forth  the  efiicacy 
of  the  religion  of  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ.  I  felt  afraid  the 
strong  man  had  not  come  doAvn  into  the  state  of  a  little  child ; 
but  that  some  were  judging  and  acting  too  much  in  their  own 


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JOURXAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 


wisdom  and  understanding,  by  which  the  Seed  of  the  kingdom 
was  borne  down,  and  did  not  rise  into  dominion. 

29th.  Eodo  down  to  Eichmond,  about  sixteen  miles,  and  put 
tijD  with  Elijah  Coffin. 

Tenth  month  7th.  Attended  the  Yearly  Meeting  held  at  this 
place,  which  I  thought  was  not  as  large  a  company  as  when  I 
was  here  before.  Much  time  was  consumed  in  discussing  sub- 
jects in  wiiich  the  expenditure  of  money  was  concerned  ;  which 
has  the  eflFect  to  keep  the  attention  occupied  with  outward 
things,  instead  of  a  travail  of  spirit  for  the  welfare  of  the 
members,  and  the  advancement  of  the  cause  of  Christ,  by  a  life 
of  religious  exercise,  and  showing  forth  the  fruits  of  the  Holy 
Spirit.  So  many  concerns  of  an  outward  nature,  all  of  which 
are  reported  upon,  and  long  discussions  entered  into,  it  ap- 
peared to  me,  kept  the  mind  so  afloat,  that  the  meeting  did 
not  experience  that  inward  feeling  after  the  solemnizing  pre- 
sence of  the  Head  of  the  church,  and  the  pointing  of  the  Divine 
finger,  which  w^ould  give  sound  judgment,  and  tend  to  the  edifi- 
cation of  the  body,  in  the  life  and  power  of  the  Holy  Ghost.  To 
get  the  great  number  of  these  subjects,  with  others  of  a  different 
nature,  disposed  of,  the  business  was  crowded  on  the  meeting.  I 
wish  not  to  judge  unchaintably,  but  I  did  fear  that  the  great  object 
for  which  the  church  is  brought  together  annually,  is  not,  under 
these  circumstances,  as  full^'  answered  as  it  should  be.  There 
is  some  danger  of  such  a  Yearly  Meeting  becoming  like  a  great 
philanthropic  or  benevolent  association;  and  the  minds  of  the 
members  being  much  absorbed  b}^  these  objects,  as  if  they  con- 
stituted the  work  of  religion  ;  and  by  which  the  activity  of  the 
natural  man  may  be  substituted  for  the  leadings  and  direction 
of  the  Head  of  the  church. 

8th.  Having  sold  our  carriage,  we  left  Richmond  this  morn- 
ing, in  a  stage  for  Ilallowell,  forty-two  miles;  and  then  took 
the  cars  for  Cincinnati,  Ohio,  which  we  reached  a  little  after 
eight  o'clock. 

9th.  Arose  about  three  o'clock,  took  a  little  breakfast,  and 
were  taken  to  the  car  office  for  Cleveland ;  and  about  five  o'clock 
got  on  our  way,  reached  that  town  on  Lake  Erie,  near  that 
hour  in  the  afternoon,  and  went  on  board  the  steamboat  Ala- 
bama for  Dunkirk.  The  evening  and  the  lake  were  placid,  the 
moon  shining  brightlj-,  which  aiforded  the  prospect  of  a  plea- 
sant passage ;  and  after  taking  supper,  we  soon  retired  to  our 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  545 

berths,  ■\vherc  I  slept  pretty  well  until  daylight,  and  ahout  five 
in  the  morning  we  found  ourselves  at  Dunkirk. 

10th.  Left  this  town  at  six  o'clock,  in  the  cars  for  Jersey 
City,  on  the  North  Eiver ;  which  we  reached  hcfore  twelve 
o'clock  that  night,  being  less  than  eighteen  hours,  travelling  four 
hundred  and  sixty-nine  miles  on  this  road  ;  in  which  time  they 
allowed  ten  minutes  each  for  breakfast  and  supper,  and  twenty 
minutes  for  dinner;  making  over  twenty-five  miles  an  hour 
throughout  the  whole  route.  It  seemed  a  fiwor  to  get  through 
"without  accident.  Retired  to  bed  at  the  hotel,  and  rose  next 
morning  about  five  o'clock. 

11th.  Took  the  Philadelphia  cars,  at  six  o'clock,  and  found 
ourselves  at  Camden,  a  little  after  eleven;  whence  we  crossed, 
the  Delaware,  and  I  was  soon  embraced  by  my  dear  wife  and 
children,  with  several  other  of  our  near  connections,  who  were 
at  my  house;  all  of  whom  showed  their  jo}'  to  have  me  restored 
to  them  again,  after  a  journey  involving  so  many  liabilities  to 
accident  and  disease. 

Under  a  sense  of  the  goodness  and  protection  of  the  Lord, 
our  holy  Helper,  in  preserving  us  from  dangers,  furnishing 
ability  from  time  to  time,  to  do  his  will,  and  bringing  us  safely 
home  to  our  dear  families,  gratitude  many  times  warmed  my 
heart ;  with  the  desire  to  ascribe  unto  Him,  thanksgivings  and 
praise,  and  to  bless  his  ever-adorable  name.  Many  Friends 
greeted  me  very  warmly  on  being  restored  to  them. 

At  our  Monthly  Meeting,  held  in  this  month,  and  the  Quar- 
terly Meeting,  early  in  the  Eleventh  month,  I  returned  the  cer- 
tificates with  which  I  had  beca  furnished,  for  the  western 
journey  ;  with  the  minutes  of  several  Monthly  and  Quarterly 
Meetings  of  Indiana  Yearly  Meeting,  exj^ressing  their  satisfac- 
tion with  the  visit  and  services. 

Since  getting  home,  I  have  passed  through  seasons  of  great 
stripping  and  desex-tion,  which  have  been  followed  by  the  re- 
newal of  Divine  good,  and  some  ability  to  testify  to  others,  of 
the  faithfulness  of  the  Lord  to  his  poor  creature,  in  raising  him 
np,  and  renewing  his  faith  in  his  unchangeable  power  and  good- 
ness. In  our  evening  meetings,  this  winter,  we  have  had  much 
solemnity  and  deep  ingathering  of  spirit ;  and  the  gospel  has 
been  preached  to  the  softening  of  the  hearts  of  many,  to  whom 
I  have  no  doubt,  these  opportunities  have  been  beneficial,  and 
it  may  be  a  permanent  blessing  to  some. 


546  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

CHAPTEE    XXVII. 

1852. 

Sources  of  Trial — Eenewal  of  Eeligious  Labors  in  different  Meetings  about 
Home — Yearly  Meeting — Value  of  a  right  of  Membership  among  Friends. 

1852,  Second  month.  The  i^resent  state  of  our  religious 
Society  has  a  strong  opposing  influence  to  the  effectual  work- 
ing of  the  measure  of  grace  in  every  part  of  the  hody,  to  edify 
itself  in  love,  and  promote  the  real  welfare  of  one  another.  Yet 
there  is  preserved  a  body  of  exercised  members,  who  travail  for 
the  support  of  the  cause  of  Truth,  and  for  the  gathering  of  the 
children  to  Christ  Jesus,  their  Saviour  and  Shejiherd.  Our 
Quarterly  Meeting  for  discipline,  held  this  month,  was  very  large, 
and  comparatively  but  little  was  said  in  it. 

4th.  Went  to  the  Quarterl}"  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders, 
held  at  Germantown  ;  in  which  my  wife  and  myself  had  some 
service.  Next  day  we  were  at  that  for  discipline,  and  were 
both  engaged  in  the  ministry,  to  encourage  the  sincere  ones,  and 
to  w^arn  those  who  had  been  divinely  visited,  but  had  grown  in- 
different and  neglectful  of  the  all-important  work  of  their  day; 
the  salvation  of  the  soul,  and  their  duties  to  the  church  and  to 
one  another. 

25th.  The  proper  holding  of  our  approaching  Yearly  Meet- 
ing, is  a  subject  of  great  weight;  and,  at  times,  it  seemed  as  if 
I  should  be  willing  to  be  released,  and  gathered  away  from  it. 
But  the  exercise  must  be  borne  by  some,  if  the  cause  of  Christ 
is  upheld  by  our  religious  Society.  When  we  consider  the  aw- 
fulness  of  eternity,  and  that  we  have  individually  a  work  to 
perform,  we  have  need  to  resign  ourselves  unto  the  Divine  hand, 
and  ask  of  the  Lord  strength  to  endure  our  trials,  and  to  follow 
him  faithfully,  so  that  the  work  and  the  wedding  garment  may 
be  finished  by  the  time  the  end  comes. 

In  looking  at  the  divided  state  of  Friends,  I  have  had  many 
thoughts  on  the  subject  of  separation,  talked  of  by  some  restless 
members.  I  have  been  fully  convinced  that  Friends  cannot  go 
into  separation,  but  they  should  patiently  bear  the  difficidtieb 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  547 

which  wc  have  to  encounter,  and  their  testimon}-  against  the 
cause  of  division,  as  the  Lord  qualities  them.  We  have  no  right 
to  brealc  down  the  hedge  which  lie  has  placed  around  us ;  and 
if  wc  stand  firm,  lie  will  make  his  own  cause  victorious.  Op- 
l^osing  spirits  will  be  removed,  and  a  generation  raised  up, 
that  will  be  enabled  to  exalt  the  glorious  standard  of  gospel 
truth,  and  the  christian  testimonies  we  were  and  are  called  to 
spread  in  the  earth.  It  appears  to  mo  to  be  a  snare  of  the 
cnemj',  to  divide  and  scatter,  under  the  plausible  plea  of  termi- 
nating our  afflictions,  but  which  would  destroy  our  strength, 
and  plunge  us  into  inextricable  difficulty.  When  another  trial 
came,  the  same  pretext  would  present,  to  divide  again ;  and 
thus  our  destruction  as  a  religious  body  would  be  inevitable. 
The  church  is  never  more  alive  to  the  cause  of  its  adorable 
Head,  than  when  under  suffering;  and  the  present  afflictions 
will  be  sanctified  and  made  a  blessing  to  us  if  we  rightly  profit 
by  them. 

Third  month  17th.  Feeling  my  mind  drawn  to  sit  with 
Friends,  I  went  to  the  North  Meeting;  where  we  had  the  com- 
pany of  Hinchman  Haines,  who  was  a  little  engaged  in  the 
ministry,  to  comfort  the  discouraged  ones.  After  him,  I  felt 
moved  to  utter  the  language  of  the  prophet,  "  0  thou  afflicted, 
tossed  with  tempest,  and  not  comforted,  behold,  I  will  lay  thy 
stones  with  fair  colors,  and  lay  thy  foundations  with  sapphires. 
And  I  will  make  thy  windows  of  agates,  and  thy  gates  of  car- 
buncles, and  all  thy  borders  of  pleasant  stones."  "In  a  little 
wrath  I  hid  my  face  from  thee  for  a  moment ;  but  with  everlast- 
ing kindness  will  I  have  mercy  on  thee,  saith  the  Lord  thy  Ee- 
deemer ;"  and  to  say,  that  under  the  clothing  of  peace,  which 
had  spread  over  my  mind,  from  the  early  part  of  the  meeting, 
I  was  prepai'ed  to  bear  testimony  that  our  God  is  a  God  nigh  at 
hand  and  not  afar  oft";  and  that  He  who  joined  himself  to  his 
sorrowing  disciples,  after  they  had  seen  their  Lord  crucified, 
dead  and  buried,  would  also  join  himself  to  us,  as  we  walked  by 
the  way,  and  would  satisfy  us,  that  it  was  He,  and  would  sus- 
tain us  py  his  power. 

2yth.  Eode  with  J.  and  H.  Ehoads  to  Middletown,  where  we 
attended  their  Monthly  Meeting.  Encouragement  was  offered 
to  trust  in  the  Lord  Jehovah,  in  whom  there  is  everlasting 
strength.  If  every  one  w^as  engaged  to  do  his  own  work, 
witnessing  the  hewing  and  squaring  by  the  Lord's  hand,  the 


548  JOURNAL   OF   -WILLIAM   EVANS. 

unity  and  baptism  of  the  Spirit  into  one  bod}",  would  be  known 
more  fully,  and  spiritual  sacrifices,  acceptable  to  God,  Avould  be 
offered  through  Jesus  Christ  our  Lord.  And  the  true  love  and 
fellowship  would  prevail ;  cheering  and  comforting  one  another 
in  the  work  to  which  all  are  called.  My  dear  wife  was  also 
engaged  to  call  upon  all  to  search  whether  the  spirit  of  Christ 
dwells  in  them;  for  if  anj^  man  have  not  the  spirit  of  Christ  he 
is  none  of  his.  AYe  may  be  contending  for  sound  christian  doc- 
trine, which  is  proper  under  Divine  authority;  but  the  main 
thing — the  one  thing  needful,  is  to  know  Christ  to  dwell  in  our 
heai'ts,  ruling  and  reigning  there ;  putting  off  the  old  man  with 
all  his  corrupt  deeds,  and  clothing  us  with  his  heavenly  nature. 

Fourth  month  4th.  My  wife  was  enabled  to  hold  forth  a  Avord 
of  encouragement,  this  morning,  to  the  tribulated  members; 
and  afterwards  it  seemed  to  be  my  duty,  to  bend  the  knee,  and 
vocally  implore  the  compassionate  Shepherd,  to  remember 
mercy  in  the  midst  of  judgment;  to  renew  the  faith  of  the 
fearful,  disconsolate  ones,  and  to  defend  his  heritage  from  the 
attempts  of  the  cruel  enemy  to  destroy  it.  I  hope  we  had  a 
little  renewed  evidence  that  the  Lord  was  with  us,  the  meeting 
closing  with  much  solemnit}'. 

6th.  My  exercises  returned,  on  account  of  the  apiiroaching 
Yearly  Meeting ;  but  as  the  meeting  drew  on,  they  abated,  and 
hope,  at  times,  sprang  up,  that  Divine  mercy  would  be  extend- 
ed for  our  health  and  preservation. 

16th.  Our  Meeting  for  Sufferings  convened  and  was  held  to 
our  satisfaction. 

17th.  The  Yearly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders  was  held 
this  morning;  the  number  of  strangers  was  not  large. 

18th.  Our  meetings  for  worship,  held  at  the  Orange  street 
house,  were  satisfactory,  particularly  that  in  the  afternoon.  It 
appeared  to  me  to  be  a  time  of  renewed  visitation.  The  min- 
istry was  sound  and  l)aptizing,  which  confirmed  the  hope  that 
the  Lord  had  not,  and  would  not  forsake  us,  if  we  kejit  fiiitliful 
to  Him. 

19th.  Our  Yearly  fleeting  was  opened,  I  hope,  under  feelings 
of  abasedness  before  the  Lord;  and  the  morning  sitting  was 
conducted  with  religious  weight  and  dignity,  giving  reason  to 
believe  that  we  should  be  helped  to  get  through  safely. 

The  replies  to  the  (Queries,  brought  Friends  under  much  con- 
cern, particularly  in  regard  to  the  neglect  of  our  meetings  for 


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worship  ;  respecting  which,  a  minute  was  made  to  go  down  to 
the  Monthly  Meetings.  The  reading  of  a  circular  epistle,  ad- 
dressed by  London  Yearly  Meeting  to  the  Yearly  Meetings  in 
America,  advising  us  to  support  the  order  and  discipline  of  the 
Societj',  and  to  guard  against  separations,  called  out  some  re- 
marks.    A  minute  was  made  of  the  reception  of  such  an  epistle. 

Deputations  from  North  Carolina  and  Baltimore,  selected  from 
their  conference  committees,  attended,  with  the  Conference  Ad- 
dress, and  produced  minutes  of  their  authox'ity  to  present  it  to 
our  Yearly  Meeting;  which  minutes  were  read,  being  direct  from 
those  [two]  Yearly  Meetings ;  but  the  meeting  declined  reading 
a  document  prepared  bj^  committees  of  other  Yearly  Meetings,  in 
which  this  meeting  had  decided  not  to  participate.  No  other  sub- 
ject created  any  discussion,  attended  with  contrary  sentiments ; 
and  the  meeting  closed  on  sixth-day  morning,  under  the  most 
imjDressive  silence  and  solemn  feeling,  that  we  have  known  for 
a  long  time.  I  believe  that  many  hearts  were  bowed  with  grati- 
tude, and  thankfulness  to  the  Father  of  mercies,  that  his  pre- 
serving power  had  been  secretly  extended,  enabling  us  to  trans- 
act the  business  in  his  fear,  and  with  much  harmony. 

Fifth  month  16th.  For  the  last  two  weeks  1  have  been  much 
shut  up,  as  in  a  prison  house.  These  are  humiliating  dispen- 
sations ;  under  which  we  are  often  unable  to  believe  they  are 
designed  to  purge  the  soul,  and  to  prepare  the  creature  to  know 
the  life  preserved  in  the  root ;  that  when  the  Lord's  month  comes 
again,  the  tree  that  is  of  his  planting,  may  bring  forth  fresh 
fruit  to  his  praise. 

26th.  Was  held  our  Monthly  Meeting,  which  had  but  little 
business.  In  the  preceding  sitting,  I  felt  constrained  to  hold  up 
the  nature,  source  and  object  of  true  and  saving  faith.  Christ 
being  the  author  and  the  finisher  of  it,  its  nature,  efficacy  and 
object  are  the  same  in  all  ages,  as  set  forth  by  the  apostle  in  his 
epistle  to  the  Hebrews;  where  he  recites  many  acts  and  deliver- 
ances, experienced  by  prophets  and  holy  men  in  ancient  time. 

Sixth  month  9th.  The  meeting  of  the  general  committee 
having  the  oversight  of  Westtown  School,  was  very  satisfactory ; 
a  concern  being  revived,  that  this  Seminary  may  continue  to 
be  conducted  on  the  original  ground,  the  religious,  guarded 
education  and  control  of  the  children.  It  appears  to  be  in  a 
satisfactory  state ;  and  Friends  were  much  united  in  th©  same 
religious  exercise ;  which  comforted  many  present,  who  have 
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550  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

long  had  its  welfare  at  heart;  desiring  that  the  simplicity  and 
propriety  which  become  our  profession,  may  be  steadily  main- 
tained. I  hoped  it  was  a  little  token  for  good.  The  young 
members  of  the  committee,  lately  introduced,  were  particularly 
interested  and  encouraged,  by  the  solid  covernig  with  which  we 
were  favored,  and  the  remarks  of  several  Friends.  We  return- 
ed to  the  cit}^  in  the  afternoon. 

10th.  Went  to  the  Arch  Street  Meeting,  at  which  a  marriage 
was  accomplished.  I  felt  weak  and  low,  and  doubting  whether 
I  had  better  go.  After  sitting  some  time,  I  was  forcibly  im- 
pressed with  the  conviction  that  the  right  path  for  every  one  to 
walk  in,  is  that  which  the  Lord  casts  up  for  the  ransomed  and 
redeemed  ones ;  both  as  regards  our  movements  among  men, 
our  worldly  pursuits,  and  the  religious  duties  we  have  to  per- 
form in  the  Society.  We  may,  at  times,  be  enveloped  as  in 
clouds,  but  if  we  keep  a  single  eye  to  the  Lord,  with  sincere 
desire  to  be  preserved  from  missing  our  way,  light  will,  in  his 
time,  break  forth  out  of  obscurity,  and  our  darkness  become  as 
the  noon-day.  I  was  also  somewhat  enlarged  on  the  subject  of 
steadfiist  faithfulness  to  the  openings  and  leadings  of  the  Holy 
Spirit;  by  which  our  faithful  forefathers  glorified  God  in  their 
day,  and  knew  Him  to  be  their  hope  and  confidence  in  the  end  ; 
and  are  now  equal  with  the  angels,  praising  the  mercy  and  great 
name  of  their  Saviour.  My  sister  H.  Khoads,  followed  in  a  strain 
of  encouragement  to  the  married  couple,  and  to  the  young  people 
generally.  She  believed  the  Son  of  Peace  was  with  us,  who  ap- 
peai'ed  to  the  disciples,  the  doors  being  shut,  and  breathed  peace 
upon  them.  My  dear  wife  knelt  in  fervent  supplication,  especi- 
ally for  those  whose  faith  was  often  closely  proved ;  and  the 
meeting  was  held  and  closed  under  a  solemn  covering,  and  the 
name  of  the  Lord  was  secretly  praised  for  the  manifestation  of 
his  goodness,  to  his  poor  unworthy  creatui*es. 

As  I  walked  towards  the  door,  a  young  man,  a  stranger,  met 
me,  and  said  to  me,  "  The  Lord  spoke  through  you  to-day."  I 
making  no  reply,  he  asked  if  I  was  not  the  person  who  spoke? 
which  I  answered  in  the  affirmative.  He  then  added,  he  did 
not  feel  satisfied  to  leave  the  meeting,  without  bearing  testi- 
mony to  the  Lord  being  with  us ;  we  had  the  Holy  Spirit  with 
us  this  morning.  I  replied,  that  was  the  source  of  all  true  gos- 
pel ministry.  It  was  encouraging  to  find  that  the  heart  of  one, 
not  professing  with  us,  had  been  touched.     If  but  one  soul  is 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  551 

helped  and  oncounii^cd  on  its  heavenly  journey,  we  ought  to  bo 
thankful,  and  humbled  that  we  are  made  use  of  in  the  Divine 
hand  in  any  way,  whatever  proving  we  may  have  to  pass 
through. 

30th  This  morning  a  concern  came  over  me,  to  go  to  the 
Western  Meeting.  I  felt  calm  and  peaceful  in  sitting  down 
among  them.  The  sweetness  and  preciousness  of  the  Truth 
came  over  me,  to  speak  of,  and  to  testify  that  the  only  way  to 
grow  in  grace,  and  in  the  saving  knowledge  of  our  Lord  and  Sa- 
viour Jesus  Christ,  was  by  obedience  to  the  manifestations  of  his 
Spirit  in  the  heart.  The  subject  of  the  inward  work,  the  danger 
of  tui-ning  back  after  being  enlightened,  and  having  made  some 
sacrifices,  and  the  certainty  of  being  made  victorious,  through 
steadfastly  following  Christ,  and  the  precious  reward  and  Divine 
support  and  consolation  which  the  obedient  ones  are  blessed 
with,  were  opened. 

Seventh  month  1st.  S.  B.  M.,  being  under  appointment  to 
attend  Gwynedd  Monthly  Meeting,  I  felt  inclined  to  accompany 
him ;  and  the  Lord  gave  a  word  of  encouragement  to  the  little 
company  who  are  striving  to  keep  up  that  meeting.  They  were 
glad  of  our  attendance,  and  were  refreshed  with  the  dew  which 
the  Lord  ditl'used  over  us. 

27th.  Attended  the  Monthly  Meeting  of  Frankford  ;  in  which 
I  was  drawn  to  hold  forth  the  language  of  encouragement;  in 
the  belief  that  there  are  young  Friends,  who  are  giving  them- 
selves up  to  the  Lord ;  and  who,  if  faithful,  will  be  made  shin- 
ing examples,  and  become  as  pillars  in  the  Lord's  house. 

Eighth  month  11th.  Our  meeting,  being  fourth-day,  was 
small,  as  they  have  been  this  summer,  owing  to  many  members 
having  taken  their  residence  in  the  country.  The  warmth  of 
the  weather  seemed  to  produce  a  stupefying  effect  on  some,  so 
that  towards  the  close  I  felt  constrained  to  testify  that  however 
we  may  be  tried  with  drowsiness,  it  is  our  duty  to  strive  against 
it,  through  that  Divine  help,  which  will  finally  enable  us  to  gain 
the  ascendency,  and  will  be  extended,  if  we  seek  for  it;  and  then 
a  qualification  will  be  granted  to  praise  the  Lord  for  his  regard 
to  us  in  our  weakness,  and  that  He  had  quickened  us  by  his 
immediate  power. 

15th.  Many  who  attendour  first-day  morning  meetings,  seem 
to  think  it  is  a  sufficient  part  of  their  time  to  devote  to  the  wor- 
ship of  their  Almighty  Creator,  and  our  afternoon  as  well  as 


552  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

mid-week  meetiDgs,  are  consequently  small ;  but  there  are  tliose 
in  every  jDlace  who  feel  bound  to  keep  them  up,  both  for  their 
own  good,  and  the  support  of  our  testimony  to  the  duty  of  public 
worship. 

17th.  I  went  to  the  North  Meeting,  which  was  small.  I  was 
engaged  to  bear  testimony  to  the  continued  goodness  of  our 
Heavenly  Father,  in  regarding  his  children,  and  defending  them 
from  the  power  of  the  enemy,  under  all  the  trials  which  He  per- 
mits to  assail  them,  as  their  eye  and  trust  are  directed  to  Him. 
Although  some  of  the  cups  of  suffering  they  partake  of,  are  like 
the  wormwood  and  the  gall,  and  their  souls  recoil  from  them, 
when  their  faith  seems  ready  to  fail,  yet  in  his  tender  mercy.  He 
sees  and  secretly  sustains  them.  When  Elisha  prayed  the  Lord 
to  open  the  eyes  of  his  servant,  at  the  time  the  city  was  be- 
seiged,  he  saw  the  mountains  full  of  chariots  and  horsemen, 
round  about  Elisha,  so  that  those  with  the  prophet,  were  dis- 
covered to  be  more  than  their  enemies.  The  same  invisible  de- 
fence is  still  present  with  the  Lord's  church  and  people,  though 
they  may  not  always  be  able  to  behold  it. 

19th.  Attended  the  fifth-day  meeting  at  Haddonfield,  held 
in  a  new  meeting-house ;  one  of  the  most  neat,  plain  buildings 
for  that  purpose,  that  we  have  within  our  Yearly  Meeting. 
The  company  was  larger  than  I  expected  to  see,  and  afforded 
encouragement  to  believe  there  was  a  power  secretly  at  work, 
drawing  the  people  to  assemble  for  the  solemn  purpose  of  Divine 
worship.  I  was  raised  up  in  a  close  appeal  to  some,  who  were 
wasting  time  and  talents  in  earthly  pursuits,  in  which  they 
could  not  find  substantial  settlement  and  peace  of  mind.  Nothing- 
can  procure  these  but  giving  to  the  fire,  those  things  that  are 
for  the  fire,  to  the  sword  that  which  is  for  the  sword,  and  to  the 
hammer  those  things  which  are  to  be  broken  to  pieces  and  re- 
moved, that  a  way  may  be  made  for  the  kingdom  of  the  Son  of 
God  to  be  introduced  and  set  up.  Some  might  put  on  a  fair 
outside,  while  they  kept  back  that  which  is  to  be  given  up  ;  but, 
however  they  might  deceive  man,  they  could  not  conceal  their 
condition  from  the  Searcher  of  hearts.  All  the  possessions  and 
comforts,  with  which  they  surrounded  themselves,  would  not 
yield  the  solid  peace  which  Christ  gives  to  his  children.  The 
young  man  who  came  to  Christ,  and  enquired  what  he  should 
do  to  inherit  eternal  life,  went  away  sorrowful,  when  he  was 
told  to  sell  all  that  he  had,  and  give  to  the  poor,  and  come  fol- 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  553 

low  Him.  He  had  great  posseBsions,  and  loved  them  more  than 
his  Saviour,  or  his  own  salvation  ;  and  we  have  no  account  that 
any  other  offer  was  made  to  him. 

But  however  some  had  turned  their  back  upon  the  convict- 
ing power  of  Divine  grace,  and  had  no  foundation  to  stand  upon, 
the  Lord,  at  seasons,  brings  them  to  feel  their  destitute  condi- 
tion, and  to  look  back  at  their  waste  of  time,  and  their  resist- 
ance of  the  Divine  calls ;  and  now  they  were  unable  to  command 
those  feelings  of  tenderness  which  they  once  had,  but  hardness 
was  coming  over  them,  and  the  work  of  the  soul's  salvation  not 
begun.  They  cannot  repent  of  their  transgressions  when  they 
please  ;  repentance  and  the  power  to  amend  our  lives  are  both 
in  the  Divine  hand.  But  I  believed  mercy  was  following  them, 
and  if  they  gave  iip  to  the  Lord's  call,  though  at  the  ninth  or 
the  eleventh  hour,  and  went  into  the  vineyard  of  their  own 
hearts  and  labored  faithfully,  they  would  receive  the  penny  at 
last,  with  others  who  had  borne  the  burden  and  heat  of  the 
day ;  and  before  the  close,  might  be  made  examples  and  stand- 
ard-bearers to  draw  others  to  Christ.  It  was  a  good  day.  It 
was  the  Lord's  work,  my  mind  having  been  particularly  drawn 
to  attend  that  meeting. 

25th,  Was  held  our  Monthly  Meeting  ;  by  which  my  wife 
was  furnished  with  a  minute  to  attend  Ohio  Yearly  Meeting. 

30th.  My  sister  Hannah  Ehoads,  having  her  mind  drawn  to 
attend  Ohio  Yearly  Meeting,  was,  with  her  husband,  liberated 
by  their  Monthly  Meeting,  for  the  visit.  They  and  S.  and  B. 
Nicholson  came  to  the  city  this  afternoon,  and  early  the  follow- 
ing morning,  they,  with  my  wife,  met  at  the  depot,  and  I  saw 
them  comfortably  seated  in  the  car,  and  started  for  Pittsburg ; 
the  weather  being  very  fine  for  travelling. 

Ninth  month  1st.  Our  meeting  to-day  was  refreshing  to  me, 
under  the  belief  that  the  Lord's  tender  mercies  are  round  about 
us ;  and  that  He  is  secretly  sustaining  his  children  by  his  omni- 
potent arm.  Many  parts  of  the  meeting  were  contriting  to  my 
spirit,  and  I  thought  it  required  of  me  to  encourage  Friends  to 
faithfulness,  and  to  keep  their  trust  in  the  Lord's  unfliiling 
goodness,  and  also  to  keep  near  to' one  another  in  spirit. 

2d.  Though  I  had  a  humbling  view  of  myself,  and  fears  of 
being  mistaken  in  what  I  apprehended  to  be  my  duty,  yet  this 
morning,  I  went  to  the  Arch  Street  Meeting,  and  sometime 
after  Samuel  Bettle,  Sr.,  had  delivered  a  short  testimony,  I  felt 


554  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

engaged  to  speak  to  the  states  of  those  who  had  been  often  fa- 
vored with  the  visitations  of  Divine  love,  showing  them  their 
condition,  and  what  the  Lord  required  them  to  do  or  to  leave 
undone  ;  but  who,  from  negligence  and  disobedience,  were  sen- 
sible at  times  that  they  were  not  what  they  ought  to  be,  and 
that  the  work  of  salvation  was  not  going  on  in  them.  They 
were  warned  that  the  day  of  account  was  drawing  on,  and  urged 
to  examine  what  ground  they  have  for  hoping  for  acceptance, 
should  they  be  called  to  appear  before  the  judgment-seat  of 
Christ  in  this  condition.  They  profess  to  believe  in  Him,  and 
hope  for  the  forgiveness,  and  pardon  of  their  sins,  through  his 
precious  blood ;  but  it  is  those  who  live  and  walk  in  the  light,  as 
He  is  in  the  light,  that  experience  his  blood  to  cleanse  them 
from  all  sin.  Men  may  live  what  the  world  esteems  moral 
lives,  and  yet  be  gratifying  their  own  will  and  carnal  propen- 
sities ;  having  their  household  idols,  and  their  heart's  beloveds, 
which  they  worship ;  but  it  is  as  their  will  is  nailed  to  the 
cross,  and  the  life  they  have  in  things  which  the  Lord's  contro- 
versy is  with,  is  slain,  and  they  baj)tized  into  death,  that  they 
can  know  Him,  who  is  the  resurrection  and  the  life,  to  quicken 
their  souls,  and  make  them  alive  unto  God.  Those  who  were  nei- 
ther cold  nor  hot,  were  warned  of  their  danger;  for  He  declared 
to  a  church  formerly,  that  He  would  spew  such  out  of  his  mouth. 
It  is  by  the  washing  of  regeneration  and  the  renewing  of  the 
Holy  Ghost,  that  we  can  be  prepared  for  communion  with  the 
Father  of  lights  and  spirits ;  and  to  those  who  give  up  all,  and 
seek  Him  daily,  He  condescends  to  manifest  Himself;  humbling 
their  hearts  before  Him,  and  enabling  them,  as  with  their 
mouths  in  the  dust,  to  put  up  their  petitions  to  Him  ;  which  He 
will  hear  and  answer  from  heaven,  his  high  and  holy  dwelling 
place.  The  doctrine  of  christian  purity  and  perfection,  as  de- 
livered to  Abraham,  and  enjoined  by  our  Lord  upon  his  disci- 
ples, was  held  up.  It  seemed  as  if  the  Lord  gave  fresh  access 
to  his  treasury,  opened  by  Him,  and  qualified  to  warn  and  to 
persuade  all,  to  mind  the  day  of  their  visitation;  that  they  may 
be  prepared  in  the  end,  for  an  admission  into  the  everlasting 
kingdom  of  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  among  saints  and  angels,  and 
the  spirits  of  just  men  made  perfect;  whose  employment  it  is, 
to  ascribe  unto  Him  that  sitteth  upon  the  throne,  and  to  the 
Lamb,  glory  and  honor,  thanksgiving,  might,  majesty,  dominion, 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  555 

and  praise,  to  whom  alone  it  belongs.  I  returned  to  my  dwell- 
ing with  feelings  of  quiet  peacefulness. 

The  absence  of  my  dear  wife,  laboring  in  a  country,  where 
di.sease  prevails  in  many  places  ;  and  a  concern  for  the  pre- 
servation of  Friends,  who  have  taken  the  ground  of  defence 
of  our  religious  principles,  against  the  attempted  innovations 
of  some  in  the  present  day,  have  caused  me  to  walk  in  secret 
mourning;  yet  not  without  the  belief,  that  the  Lord  beholds 
our  afflictions,  and  will  support  and  make  way  for  our  final  de- 
liverance, in  his  time.  Faith  is  at  seasons  renewed  in  his  un- 
failing mercy,  and  evidences  are  granted,  that  He  has  not 
forsaken  his  afflicted  church. 

8th.  While  sitting  in  our  meeting  to-day,  the  injunction 
of  our  Lord  was  brought  over  me,  "Take  no  thought  for  the 
morrow,  for  the  morrow  shall  take  thought  for  the  things  of 
itself.  Sufficient  unto  the  day  is  the  evil  thereof"  We  are 
not  to  become  indifferent  in  relation  to  the  future ;  because  we 
are  exhorted  to  lay  up  a  good  foundation  against  the  time  to 
come.  But  the  more  faithful  we  are  to  the  Lord,  in  performing 
our  daily  duties,  the  more  we  shall  be  relieved  from  all  unavail- 
ing anxiety  about  the  future;  and  enabled  to  cast  our  care  upon 
llim,  who  will  care  for  and  sustain  us  through  all  our  troubles. 
I  thought  Divine  help  was  present  to  comfort  some  anxious  ones 
in  our  little  meeting. 

)*"  I  rode  out  to  Germantown  in  the  afternoon,  and  next  day,  the 
9th,  attended  the  meeting  there ;  in  which  I  was  unexpectedly 
drawn,  to  show  the  distinction  between  the  religion  of  mere  edu- 
cation, and  the  religion  of  regeneration.  The  first  is  that  of  opi- 
nion and  habit ;  the  other  of  conviction  and  submission  to  the 
heart-renovating  power  of  Divine  grace.  We  may  lose  the  lat- 
ter through  unwatchfulness ;  as  being  once  in  grace,  is  no  surety 
for  being  always  in  grace.  However  valuable  a  sound  edu- 
cation, by  the  example  and  precepts  of  religious  parents  and 
friends,  may  be,  and  for  which  we  are  responsible,  yet  if  the 
woi-k  of  regeneration  is  not  experienced,  we  shall  be  mere 
formalists ;  and  it  will  be  evident  that  the  life  of  religion  is 
wanting.  Thei-e  seemed  to  be  a  warning  for  some,  who  may  be 
correct  in  the  eye  of  their  fellows,  and  yet  are  in  an  indolent 
state;  regardless  of  that  exercise  of  mind  and  daily  prayer  for 
heavenly  food,  by  which  the  immortal  soul  is  nourished,  and 
enabled  to  do  the  Divine  will,  and  to  bear  fruit  to  the  praise  of 


556  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EV^^NS. 

the  great  Husbandman,  and  to  the  benefit  of  the  church,  I 
thought  there  was  evidence  tliat  the  Lord's  power  was  present, 
to  arouse  and  quicken  some  to  greater  diligence  in  their  day's 
work. 

15th.  This  morning  my  dear  wife  got  home  from  Ohio; 
having  attended  the  Yearly  Meeting  at  Mount  Pleasant,  which, 
in  some  respects,  was  closely  proving ;  yet  throughout.  Friends 
believed  that  Divine  protection  was  round  about  them. 

25th.  By  appointment  of  the  School  Corporation,  I  visited 
several  applicants  for  the  admission  of  children  of  those  not 
Friends,  gratuitously,  into  the  schools  under  its  care.  The 
destitute  condition  of  some,  their  exposure  to  the  evil  company 
of  other  children,  who  live  much  in  the  streets,  and  the  incompe- 
tency of  their  parents  or  caretakers,  to  train  and  example  them 
in  a  religious  and  moral  life,  were  truly  affecting  to  me.  Were 
it  not  for  the  watchful  care  of  the  unslumbering  Shepherd,  over 
the  souls  He  has  made,  it  seems  as  if  destruction  must  inev- 
itably overtake  such.  We  cannot  be  too  sensible  of  the  blessings 
w^e  partake  of,  as  members  of  a  religious  Society,  professing  the 
principles  of  the  gospel  of  Christ ;  and  which  feels  bound  to 
extend  a  restraining  influence  over  old  and  young,  to  guard 
them  against  the  seductive  power  of  temptation-,  as  it  is  pre- 
sented in  the  world  at  large,  and  in  the  private  associations  of 
men  and  women,  who  reject  all  religious  control.  How  grateful 
and  consistent  in  our  conduct,  ought  we  to  be,  for  the  salutary 
provisions  and  influences  we  have  around  us ;  associated  as  we 
are,  or  may  be,  with  solid  christian  friends,  whose  sentiments 
and  deportment  are  like  salt,  to  preserve,  or  as  the  dew  upon 
the  tender  grass,  to  nourish  and  feed  the  good  in  us.  In  rela- 
tion to  forming  connections  for  life,  it  is  of  great  impoi'tance  to 
have  part  in  such  a  Society,  where  purity  of  principle  and  prac- 
tice is  inculcated.  There  is  great  safety  in  dwelling,  like  the 
Shunamite  woman,  among  our  own  people ;  and  if  it  be  our  lot 
to  enter  into  a  married  life,  to  make  choice  of  one,  whose  train- 
ing has  been  within  our  own  pale,  or  who  has  been  brought  in 
by  conviction,  under  the  regenerating  power  of  Divine  grace. 
In  such  training,  the  minds  of  the  members  receive  a  similar 
bias  and  stamp.  Thus  they  need  not  brealc  up  nor  forego  the 
sentiments  of  their  education  on  religious  points,  in  order  to 
conform  to  each  other.  A  union  in  this  respect  has  alread}^ 
existed ;  and  when  bound  together  in  the  most  tender  and  en- 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EA^ANS.  557 

dearing  tics  of  human  life,  the  way  will  bo  open  to  be  constant 
helpmeets  in  their  heavenly  pilg-rimag-e,  as  well  as  to  aid  and 
cheer  one  another,  in  the  difficulties  that  pertain  to  their  tem- 
poral duties. 

What  a  sad  loss  is  sustained  by  those  young  people,  who  de- 
spise their  birthright,  and  part  with  it,  as  Esau,  for  a  mess  of 
pottage.  If  they  are  not  favored  with  repentance  in  time,  so 
effectual  as  to  return,  they  will  wander  from  the  path  of  safe- 
ty, and  confusion  and  embarrassment  in  some  way  will  follow. 
I  believe  that  forsaking  a  Society,  where  there  are  many  means 
for  spiritual  help  and  preservation,  and  where  the  true  nature 
of  vital  religion  has  been  cleai'ly  unfolded,  will  be  attended  by 
serious  disadvantages;  and  that  very  generally  such  are  swal- 
lowed up  by  the  world  and  its  corrupting  spirit. 

28th.  Attended  the  North  Meeting,  which  I  sat  in  peaceful 
silence.  What  a  blessing  it  would  be,  were  every  obstacle  to 
the  prevalence  of  sincere  christian  fellowship,  removed  from 
amongst  us,  and  Ave  loved  one  another  unfeignedly.  It  would 
greatly  conti'ibute  to  our  strength  and  the  disposition  to  aid 
and  encoui"age  one  another  in  the  performance  of  all  our  reli- 
gious duties.  We  should  mourn  with  those  that  mourned,  and 
rejoice  when  one  was  exalted,  in  the  occupancy  of  his  or  her 
gift. 

Tenth  month  14th.  Felt  an  inclination  to  go  to  the  Arch 
Street  Meeting,  where  Samuel  Leeds  ministered  in  an  accept- 
able manner  to  me.  After  him,  it  appeared  to  be  my  place,  to 
address  the  scholars  and  the  caretakers  of  the  Select  Schools ; 
encouraging  the  dear  children  to  love  and  mind  the  Saviour, 
who  took  the  little  ones  in  his  arms,  laid  his  hands  upon  them, 
and  blessed  them.  He  still  regards  these,  though  He  is  exalted 
above  all  principalities  and  powers ;  and  by  his  Holy  Spirit,  He 
draws  them  from  sin ;  and  when  they  obey  Him,  leads  them  in 
the  paths  of  righteousness,  and  rewards  them  with  his  peace. 
In  all  the  trials  which  their  caretakers  endure,  if  they  look  to 
Him,  they  would  know  the  everlasting  ai-m  of  the  same  blessed 
Saviour  to  be  underneath,  supporting  and  strengthening  them 
for  the  work  of  their  day ;  and  as  they  discharge  faithfully  their 
religious  duties  to  their  interesting  chai'ge,  many  of  them,  I  be- 
lieved, in  after  life  Avould  call  them  blessed.  As  the  children 
gave  np  to  the  visitations  of  their  Saviour,  He  would  show  them 
the  bride,  the  Lamb's  wife,  adorned  in  garments  of  purity  and 


558  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

brightness,  the  righteousness  of  saints;  which  represents  the 
holiness  and  christian  perfection,  to  whch  all  the  members  of  the 
mystical  body  are  called  and  attain,  through  the  power  of  Christ's 
spirit. 

23d.  The  mind  is  often  influenced  by  the  state  of  the  body. 
But  whatever  cause  may  act,  I  believe  the  Lord  does  lead  us  at 
times  into  low  places,  and  veils  his  countenance  from  us,  to  re- 
duce and  humble  the  creature,  and  to  draw  us  to  seek  to  Ilim 
in  our  humiliation  ;  that  He  would  in  mercy  preserve  us  from 
falling  away,  and  help  us  to  maintain  the  watch  and  the  war- 
fare against  the  cruel  devices  of  the  enemy.  I  feel  the  need  of 
such  dispensations,  that  I  may  be  quickened  to  watch  against 
every  improper  thought,  and  set  a  closer  guard  at  the  door  of 
my  lips. 

27th.  Was  our  Monthly  Meeting,  in  which  some  of  the 
Queries  were  answered,  and  we  were  in  some  degree  introduced, 
into  the  state  of  the  members.  Oh  for  a  more  united  and  heart- 
felt ti"avail  for  one  another's  growth  in  the  Truth,  and  more 
willingness  to  hold  up  and  strengthen  the  hands  of  the  laborers 
in  the  Lord's  vinej-ard.  There  is  great  strength  in  true  unity, 
and  a  sincere  desire  for  each  other's  religious  welfare. 

30th.  To-day  was  held  our  Select  Quarterly  Meeting,  which 
was  satisfactory. 

Eleventh  month  1st.  In  the  meeting  for  worship,  which  was 
attended  with  solemnity,  E.  Pitttield  and  E.  Evans  ministered 
in  a  weighty,  feeling  manner.  The  evidences  of  the  condescen- 
sion and  forbearance  of  the  Shepherd  of  Israel  to  his  creatures, 
many  of  whom  are  forgetful  of  their  greatest  interests,  are  en- 
couraging, and  raised  desires  that  we  might  be  more  devoted  to 
Him  and  his  cause.  When  the  gospel  is  preached  in  the  love 
and  authority  of  Christ,  we  have  reason  to  believe  that  the  good 
Shepherd  is  caring  for  the  lambs  and  the  sheep  of  his  pasture,  and 
seeking  to  draw  others  into  his  fold  ;  and  we  ought  to  receive 
with  gratitude  these  evidences  of  his  merciful  regard,  and  be 
incited  to  more  fervent  and  full  dedication  of  our  time  and  talents 
to  his  service. 

3d.  Having  for  some  time,  had  our  minds  drawn  to  make  a 
visit  to  our  beloved,  aged  friend  and  mother  in  Israel,  Hannah 
Gibbons,  my  wife  and  myself,  went  there  this  afternoon.  The 
faculties  of  our  aged  friend  are  remarkably  preserved;  the  staid- 
ness  and  solidity  of  her  spirit  are  peculiar,  and  the  constant 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  559 

exercise  of  her  mind,  trained  in  the  scliool  of  Christ,  and  orna- 
mented with  the  garment  of  hiimility,  malces  her  a  striking  ex- 
ample to  the  believers ;  showing  the  etiicacy  of  Divine  grace, 
and  the  fruits  of  long  dedication  to  her  Loi-d,  in  the  path  of  self- 
denial  and  daily  watchfulness  unto  prayer.  AVe  felt  nearly 
united  to  her,  and  esteemed  it  a  favor  to  have  such  a  pillar  and 
watchwoman  continued  in  the  militant  church,  to  so  late  a  period 
of  life. 

4th.  Attended  their  meeting,  which  was  unusually  large, 
many  of  the  inhabitants  coming  in  to  see  a  marriage,  in  Friends' 
mode.  It  was  conducted  in  a  solemn  and  appropriate  manner, 
which  I  thought  commended  our  practice  in  making  this  solemn 
covenant,  before  all  others. 

7th.  This  has  been  a  day  of  little  spiritual  enjoyment;  but 
if  these  seasons  tend  to  abase  the  creature,  and  drive  to  the 
Fountain  of  all  good  to  ask  for  preservation,  they  will  prove 
blessings  in  disguise.  This  evening  commenced  the  united 
meetings  for  all  the  members  in  the  city  w^ho  can  attend.  The 
company  was  large  and  very  quiet,  to  whom  my  wife  ministered 
in  a  short  testimony,  addressed  chiefly  to  the  young  people. 
All  our  ministers  in  the  city  were  present  except  one. 

l-Ath.  Though  the  weather  was  cold  and  blustering,  and 
threatening  rain,  our  evening  meeting  was  quite  large,  and  a 
solemn  covering  spread  over  us.  A  Friend  had  a  short  commu- 
nication ;  after  which,  we  sat  some  time  in  silence,  during  which, 
the  dealings  of  the  Lord  with  his  children  in  hidino;  his  face 
from  them,  and  permitting  Satan  to  butfet  them,  so  that  they 
are  afraid  of  becoming  cast  away,  were  brought  before  me ;  and 
I  believed  it  was  my  duty  to  stand  up,  with  a  testimony  to 
the  great  importance  in  such  seasons,  to  keep  the  faith  and 
patience  of  the  saints.  Our  Lord  said  to  his  disciples,  "  Te 
ai'e  they  which  have  continued  with  me  in  my  temptations ;  and 
I  appoint  unto  you  a  kingdom,  as  my  Father  hath  appointed 
unto  me."  It  is  of  the  utmost  importance  to  keep  near  to  Him 
in  all  trials  and  temptations,  that  we  may  know  his  kingdom 
established  in  us,  where  He  rules  and  reigns  over  all.  They 
tend  to  humble  us  into  the  state  of  a  little  child,  in  which  only, 
we  can  enter  that  kingdom.  The  Christian's  progress,  and  his 
establishment  on  the  sui'e  foundation,  through  the  grace  that 
comes  by  Jesus  Christ,   were  declared;  showing  how  we  are 


560  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

made  preachers  of  righteousness  iu  life  and  conversation,  and  a 
living  protest  against  sin  and  iniquity. 


CHAPTEE   XXYIII. 

1852—1853. 

Dangers  attending  the  Possession  of  Kiches — Family  Visit  by  Appointment — 
Hinchman  Haines — Religious  Visit  to  Meetings  in  Chester  and  Delaware 
Counties,  Pennsylvania.  Yearly  Meeting — Friends  and  Public  Holidays — 
Services  at  and  near  Home. 

1852,  Twelfth  month.  I  have  mourned  over  the  weaknesses 
observable  in  many,  who  seem  to  be  almost  insensibly  drawn 
aside  by  the  influence  of  rich  men,  the  love  of  grandeixr,  and 
the  pride  and  self-consequence  which  wealth  gives.  There  is  a 
powerful  temptation  to  fall  in  with  the  stream  of  fashionable 
life,  and  to  coincide  with  the  opinions  of  rich,  nominal  Quakers; 
to  mingle  with  them,  and  to  give  children  an  education  conform- 
able to  the  standard  which  they  erect ;  however  different  from 
the  course  that  true,  consistent  Friends,  believe  the  Holy  Spirit 
leads  into.  This  makes  an  unfavorable  distinction  between  the 
children  of  those  who  despise  the  cross,  and  the  children  of  con- 
scientious members,  who  feel  bound  to  regard  its  restrictions. 
But  I  have  seen  and  felt,  that  it  is  far  better  to  keep  to  the  re- 
quisitions of  Grace  in  all  things ;  bearing  the  cross  faithfully,  and 
disreirarding  the  shame  which  the  world  attaches  to  a  life  of 
self-denial,  both  for  our  own  everlasting  good,  and  for  the  sake  of 
our  children. 

The  influx  of  wealth  into  our  country  is  producing  its  natural 
effects  upon  those  who  have  the  power  of  accumulating  it. 
"Where  some  are  suddenly  made  rich,  others  are  tempted  to  put 
forth  their  hands  to  got  gain,  that  they  also  may  be  made  rich 
and  honorable  among  men,  like  their  cotemporaries.  As  wealth 
is  acquired,  large  showy  houses  are  sometimes  provided,  to  suit 
the  standing  of  the  rich  man,  with  sumptuous,  fashionable  fur- 
niture to  correspond.     Families,  even  with  comparatively  plain 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  '  561 

garb,  finding  thcmsolvc:^  thus  surronnded  with  grandeur,  and 
the  means  to  indulge  their  inclinations,  may  become  inflated 
with  the  idea  that  they  are  superior  to  those  of  the  middle  or 
poorer  rank;  and  a  disposition  to  look  upon  them  with  a  super- 
cilious air,  may  arise  in  the  mind;  and  the  daily  application  to 
the  Lord  for  his  preserving  power,  be  much  forgotten.  The  chil- 
dren of  such  persons  become  exalted  above  the  simplicity  of  the 
cross,  and  are  in  danger  of  looking  with  a  degree  of  contempt, 
on  their  young  friends,  whose  parents  have  not  the  means,  or 
are  not  easy,  to  go  into  a  fashionable,  luxurious  mode  of  living. 
They  are  in  danger  of  growing  up  with,  or  imbibing  an  enmity 
to  the  testimonies  and  discipline  of  our  Society,  and  of  becom- 
ing  lost  to  it.  Our  strength  is  thereby  wasted,  and  we  fail  to 
exert  that  influence  in  the  world,  for  which  we  were  designed. 
Instead  of  carrying  on  the  work  of  reformation,  by  lives  of 
purity  and  self-denial,  many  are  in  great  danger  of  going  back 
into  the  customs  of  the  world,  out  of  which  Friends  were  origin- 
ally gathered.  AYhere  those  who  take  an  active  part  in  the 
affairs  of  the  Society  have  grown  rich,  and  are  living  in  a  sj^irit 
of  self-importance,  and  manage  its  concerns  in  their  own  wis- 
dom, it  has  a  leavening  effect  upon  others ;  the  life  and  gathering 
power  of  religion  will  be  excluded,  and  the  right  authority  of 
meetings  will  be  lost. 

5th.  Our  evening  meeting  was  large.  I  felt  drawn  to 
advert  to  the  lowl}^  humble  manner  in  which  our  Saviour 
came  into  the  world ;  his  birthplace  a  stable,  and  being  laid  in  a 
manger,  though  He  was  the  Son  of  the  Highest,  and  had  all 
power  in  heaven  and  in  earth.  It  was  declared  by  the  angel  of 
the  Lord,  when  he  informed  the  shepherds  that  a  Saviour  was 
born  unto  them  in  the  city  of  David  ;  "  And  this  shall  be  a  sign 
unto  you,  ye  shall  find  the  babe  wrapped  in  swaddling  clothes, 
lying  in  a  manger."  It  appeared  to  be  my  place  to  warn  those 
who  were  living  in  grandeur  and  pride,  of  their  danger  in  giving 
way  to,  this  exalted  spirit,  and  of  the  prejudicial  effects  it  must 
have  upon  themselves,  and  their  children,  by  shutting  out  of 
the  heart  the  precious  influence  of  the  Spirit  of  the  Eedeemer. 
There  was  a  deep,  solemn  stillness  over  the  meeting,  and 
we  came  away,  thankful  for  the  extension  of  Divine  help  and 
favor. 

26th.  As  we  walked  to  meeting  this  afternoon,  observing  the 
plain  dresses  of  Friends,  who  mingled  with  others,  I  recollected 


562"  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

that  more  than  two  hundi-ed  years  have  elapsed  since  George 
Fox  commenced  his  ministry ;  opening  to  the  people  the  spirit- 
ual nature  of  the  gospel  dispensation;  what' it  requires,  and 
■what  a  change  it  effects  in  those  who  j^ield  to  the  renovat- 
ing power  of  the  Holy  Spirit;  cleansing  the  heart  and  regulat- 
ing their  whole  deportment.  Here  is  still  a  people,  distinguished 
by  their  doctrines,  their  simple  garb,  their  scriptural  language, 
and  their  unfashionable  manners  ;  all  which  is  an  evidence  of 
the  continued  care,  power  and  goodness  of  the  Lord  towards  us ; 
and  which  ought  to  unite  us  in  gratitude,  increasing  fervor,  and 
faithfulness  to  our  God.  In  proportion  to  the  greatness  of  the 
testimonies  committed  to  us,  and  the  clear  discovery  of  the 
doctrines  and  precepts  of  the  gospel,  is  our  responsibility ;  and 
did  we  keep  steadfastly  to  our  Divine  Guide,  in  living  up  to  his 
heavenly  nature  and  dictates,  we  should  be  like  an  army  with 
banners ;  that  would  be  enabled  to  shake  the  kingdom  of  anti- 
christ, and  turn  the  people  effectually  to  Christ,  in  his  spiritual 
appearance  in  their  hearts ;  that  they  might  know  Him  to  bo 
their  hope  of  glory.  We  had  a  very  precious  meeting  this 
morning.  In  the  evening,  we  had  also  a  solid  meeting;  in 
which  the  gospel  was  preached  in  the  opening  and  authority  of 
the  Holy  Spirit. 

29th.  The  visiting  of  the  families  belonging  thereto,  having 
received  the  consideration  of  our  last  Monthly  Meeting,  and  a 
committee  then  appointed  by  men  Friends,  it  was  now  intro- 
duced to  women  Friends,  who  united  with  it,  and  appointed  a 
committee  to  join  us  in  the  service. 

1853,  First  month  5th.  The  committee  divided  into  two 
parts,  allotting  a  portion  of  the  members  to  each,  which  have 
been  engaged  in  the  work.  Divine  help  was  graciously  extend- 
ed, in  opening  the  different  states,  and  giving  the  word,  to  my 
admiration,  for  the  various  conditions.  Poverty  and  emptiness 
were  my  portion  at  times,  but  I  hope  some  will  be  stirred  up  to 
more  faithfulness,  and  others  induced  to  put  away  the  household 
idols  with  which  they  are  surrounded. 

17th.  After  having  had  quite  mild  weather  most  of  the  win- 
ter, the  mercury  fell,  through  yesterday,  to  fourteen  degrees, 
making  a  very  sensible  contrast  with  the  temperature  we  have 
had.  It  will  cause  suffering  to  many  of  the  improvident  ones, 
who  observe  no  economy  with  what  they  get,  nor  exert  them- 
selves as  they  ought,  when  employment  is  to  be  had.     Their 


JOURNAL   OF   ^^^^LIAM    EVANS.  5G3 

wants  call  into  action  the  sympathies  of  many,  whose  hearts 
might  otherwise  be  engrossed  with  the  love  of  their  possessions ; 
and  for  want  of  objects  of  charity,  or  calls  for  aid,  might  scarce- 
ly ever  experience  these  tender  feelings,  and  the  disposition  to 
hand  relief  to  a  sutfering  fellow  being.  "Blessed  is  he  that 
considereth  the  poor,  the  Lord  will  deliver  him  in  time  of  trou- 
ble." 

Feelings  of  destitution  of  Divine  good  have  been  my  portion  ; 
and  fears  have  attended  of  not  being  sutRciently  concerned  to 
draw  near  to  the  Lord,  in  prayer  for  heavenly  bread,  and  his 
sustaining  power. 

Yesterday  I  was  constrained  to  warn  my  brethren  and  sisters, 
of  the  danger  of  having  the  mind  too  much  engrossed  even  with 
lawful  things,  so  as  to  deter  us  from  waiting  upon  the  Lord 
daily  for  the  renewal  of  spiritual  strength  ;  and  producing  ne- 
glect of  our  duty  to  watch  and  pray  continually. 

29th.  Last  fourth-day  was  held  our  Monthly  Meeting  ;  in 
which  all  the  Queries  were  answered,  and  report  made  of  the 
completion  of  the  family  visit  to  our  members.  I  thought  a 
religious  weight  covered  us  ;  and  some  lively  remarks  were 
made,  to  guard  the  members  against  submitting  to  temptation 
to  depart  from  our  testimonies  ;  particularly  relating  to  the 
plural  language  to  a  single  person,  and  against  a  sumptuous  and 
fashionable  mode  of  living,  which  leads  to  an  improper  educa- 
tion of  children  ;  by  which  they  are  taken  out  of  the  Society. 

Having  felt  my  mind  drawn  in  tender  sj'mpathy  to  some  of 
the  small  meetings  in  Chester  and  Delaware  Counties,  Penn- 
sylvania, I  laid  the  concern  before  the  Monthly  Meeting,  and 
was  liberated,  by  a  general  expression  of  unity,  to  visit  the  meet- 
ings of  Cain,  the  "Western,  and  Concord  Quarterly  Meetings,  aa 
way  may  open  for  it.  Our  only  hope  and  trust  are  in  the  tender 
compassion  of  an  omniscient  Shepherd,  who  sees  the  hearts  of 
all,  and  can  administer  comfort,  wisdom  and  strength  to  support, 
and  safely  guide  his  poor  dependent  children  under  all  their 
trials,  to  the  accomplishment  of  his  will. 

In  the  afternoon,  I  crossed  the  river,  in  order  to  visit  our  an- 
cient friend  Hinchman  Haines,  if  he  was  in  a  situation  to  be  seen  ; 
he  having  been  ill  for  about  ten  days  ;  and  also  to  attend  the 
meeting  at  Evesham,  where  he  belonged.  When  I  got  to  his  son's 
house,  next  morning,  I  found  he  had  dejiarted  the  preceding  even- 
ing.    He  was  a  pillar  in  the  church  of  Christ ;  a  living,  baptizing 


564  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

minister;  and  a  firm  and  consistent  supporter  of  the  doctrines  and 
testimonies  of  tlie  gospel  held  by  our  religious  Society;  and  in 
the  sjoreading  of  which,  he  travelled  much  in  the  ministry.  Being 
possessed  of  a  good  judgment,  and  a  cheerful  disposition,  and 
having,  from  an  early  period  of  his  life,  been  disciplined  in  the 
school  of  Christ,  his  conversation  was  interesting  and  instruc- 
tive to  the  sincere  lovers  and  seekers  of  the  Truth.  Though  he 
was  firm  in  his  attachment  to  the  truth,  and  in  maintaining 
what  he  believed  was  right,  yet  when  his  friends  did  not  see 
eye  to  eye  with  him,  in  things  not  decided  on  by  the  body,  he 
treated  them  in  a  sweet,  christian  spirit,  and  did  not  allow  him- 
self to  say  anything  to  lessen  their  reputation,  or  standing  in 
the  church.  He  was  in  the  eighty-sixth  year  of  his  age,  and  his 
removal  will  be  much  felt  by  many  who  have  partaken  of  his 
ministry,  and  among  whom  he  was  a  father  in  Christ,  and  an 
example  of  christian  gravity,  simplicity  and  self-denial. 

30th.  I  attended  the  meeting  for  worship,  of  which  H.  Haines 
had  long  been  a  member,  and  a  sorrowful  feeling  spread  over  us. 
I  felt  unfit  to  be  employed  in  any  service ;  yet  I  thought  under 
the  impressions  that  covered  my  mind,  it  M'ould  be  unsafe  to  re- 
fi'ain  from  testifying  to  the  power  and  goodness  of  the  Lord,  in 
breaking  us  off  from  the  wild  olive  tree ;  and,  through  the  bap- 
tisms of  the  Holy  Ghost  and  fire,  preparing  us  for  membership 
in  the  church  of  Christ,  and  to  receive  gifts  to  be  occupied  in  the 
station  which  He  allots  for  every  obedient  one.  It  was  this  made 
our  fathers  living  members  of  Christ,  and  qualified  them  to  ad- 
vocate and  uphold  his  cause.  And  the  same  blessed  power,  I 
believed,  would  continue  to  raise  up  living  witnesses  to  the 
truth  ;  and  also  those  who  would  publish  the  glad  tidings  of 
salvation,  and  what  the  Lord  had  done  for  their  souls. 

Second  month  8th.  This  morning  my  wife  and  myself  rode 
to  our  brother-in-law's,  J.  Ehoads,  whom  we  found  preparing  to 
set  out  with  me  on  the  visit  in  Chester  County.  The  fellow- 
ship subsisting  between  us  is  very  grateful  and  strengthening. 
In  the  afternoon,  he  and  I  rode  to  E.  M.'s,  where  we  found  a 
comfortable  stopping-place,  and  in  the  evening,  several  Friends 
came  in,  whose  company  was  cheering. 

9th.  Attended  their  usual  mid-week  meeting  at  Whiteland  ; 
at  which  we  had  the  company  of  a  dear  young  minister,  visit- 
ing Friends'  families  of  this  place.  I  felt  drawn  in  spirit  to  some 
exercised  ones,  to  whom  the  language  of  the  Most  High  was 


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addressed,  "Fear  thou  not,  for  I  am  witli  tlice  ;  he  not  dis- 
mayed, I  am  tliy  God;"  "I  will  never  leave  thee  nor  forsake 
thee;"  also  that  of  our  Saviour  to  his  diseiplos,  "  Lo,  I  am  with 
you  alway,  even  to  tlje  end  of  the  world;"  and  the  way  was 
opened  to  comfort  and  strengthen  the  lowly,  ti'ibulated  ones, 
whose  faith  was  deeply  proven.  Afterwards  to  show  forth  to 
a  dirterent  class,  the  great  importance  of  obeying  the  discove- 
ries of  the  Holy  Spirit,  by  which  the  work  of  salvation  is  be- 
gun and  perfected  in  man,  as  he  yields  to  and  follows  it.  Our 
beloved  friend  knelt  in  thanksgiving,  for  the  help  extended  to 
the  poor  in  spirit,  and  for  the  renewed  call  and  offer  of  mercy  to 
the  rebellious  ;  also  praying  that  the  dear  children  might  bo 
gathered.  It  proved  the  truth  of  the  saying,  "  He  that  watereth 
shall  be  watered  also  himself;"  affording  me  comfort  from  a 
young,  devoted  child  of  the  Lord,  particularly  as  I  was  now  just 
setting  out  on  a  journey. 

We  dined  with  our  friends  J.  M.  and  sisters,  who  were  truly 
kind  in  entertaining  us  ;  and  in  the  afternoon,  rode  to  M.  E.'e, 
who  received  us  with  much  affection.  The  evening  was  occu- 
pied in  cheerful  conversation,  mostly  touching  subjects  of  a  se- 
rious nature. 

10th.  We  were  at  Uwchlan  Monthly  Meeting ;  in  which  the 
dear  Master  furnished  fresh  authority  and  ability  to  labor  in 
his  cause  ;  manj"  appearing  to  be  immersed  in  the  love  and  pur- 
suit of  the  things  of  the  world,  whereby  their  strength  is  much 
laid  waste,  and  the  life  and  power  of  religion  at  a  low  ebb. 
That  love  which  seeks  the  evei'lasting  welfare  of  all,  clothed  my 
mind  ;  in  which  I  was  enabled  to  bring  some  things  home  to 
their  feelings  with  much  plainness,  and  which  appeared  to  be 
well  received.  But  oh,  how  are  the  minds  of  many  going  into 
the  earth,  and  losing  the  little  zeal  they  may  once  have  felt ; 
and  their  children  taking  wings  into  the  air,  soaring  above  the 
witness  for  God,  and  setting  at  nought  the  testimonies  Avhich 
our  faithful  predecessors  nobly  bore. 

We  dined  near  the  meeting-house;  and  a  young  man  having 
agreed  to  accompany  us,  we  set  out  for  Eobeson,  the  road  lying 
over  a  hilly  countrj^,  and  rough  at  this  season  of  the  year.  The 
Monthly  Meeting  held  so  late,  we  could  not  go  through  before 
night,  and  were  obliged  to  put  up  at  a  tavern,  in  the  beautiful 
Conestoga  valley,  which  is  esteemed  as  good  land,  and  well-cul- 
tivated, as  most  in  that  part  of  the  country. 
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566  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

11th.  We  set  off  pretty  early,  and  getting  directions,  found 
our  way  to  J.  S.'s,  who  received  us  kindly.  As  they  knew 
nothing  of  our  coming,  though  they  said  they  had  looked  for 
some  Friends  the  preceding  evening,  and  the  time  was  so  short, 
but  little  notice  could  be  spread  of  our  intention  to  be  at  the 
meeting ;  yet  from  what  was  said,  I  supposed  it  would  have 
been  still  less,  than  the  little  company  we  met  there.  They 
seemed  to  be  in  a  low  state,  as  regards  the  knowledge  of  a 
right  exercise  of  mind,  in  the  performance  of  spiritual  worship  j 
having  fallen  into  great  indiffei-ence  respecting  the  attendance 
of  their  meetings.  The  feeling  was  very  affecting ;  but  after 
sitting  in  much  povci'ty,  I  was  moved  to  bring  to  view,  the 
deadening  influence  of  a  worldly  spirit,  and  to  labor  to  stir  them 
up  to  consider  seriously  their  situation,  and  to  come  under  the 
refining  power  of  Christ,  that  they  might  be  qualified  to  support 
his  cause.  We  dined  with  a  member,  who  looked  nothing  like 
a  Friend  ;  and  had  an  opportunity  with  him  and  his  family  ;  in 
which  were  plainly  laid  before  them  the  responsibility  of  parents, 
and  the  influence  of  their  example. 

12th.  Took  our  departure,  this  morning,  over  the  hills  for 
Downingtown.  On  approaching  the  Conestoga  valley,  it  lay 
before  us  as  a  beautiful  expanse  of  well-fenced  and  cultivated 
fields,  with  substantial  farm-houses  ;  where  the  hand  of  industry 
has  done  much  to  please  and  to  accommodate  man.  All  this  is 
proper  in  its  place,  but  falls  short  of  securing  true  happiness  to 
the  owners,  without  a  life  of  godliness,  and  devotion  to  the  will 
and  the  glory  of  the  great  Creator.  About  two  o'clock,  we 
reached  our  stopping-place,  where  we  remained  until  next  af- 
ternoon. 

15th.  Being  first  day,  a  pretty  large  company  of  men  con- 
vened at  the  meeting,  the  women  not  so  many.  To  me  it  was 
rather  a  laborious  time,  among  a  class  who  seemed  much  in  a 
M'^orldly  spirit ;  but  Divine  help  was  extended,  and  the  import- 
ance of  regeneration,  and  a  life  of  godliness,  was  enforced.  To- 
wards the  close,  I  was  enabled  to  prostrate  myst^lf,  in  humble 
supplication,  for  the  negligent  and  unfaithful  ;  for  the  young 
people  and  the  few  burden-bearers;  that  the  Lord  would  work 
in  us  all  by  his  love  and  mighty  power,  to  the  reduction  of 
everything  into  obedience  to  Himself,  and  preserve  us  every 
moment  from  the  power  of  temptation  ;  that  we  may  fill  up  the 
measure  of  allotted  suffering  and  duty,  to  the  glory  of  his  Name, 


JOURNAL  OF  WILLIAM  EVANS.  567 

and  our  salvation  in  the  end.     It  was  a  tendering  close  to  some, 
and  I  came  away  cleared  and  peaceful. 

Eeturned  to  our  lodgings,  dined,  and  soon  after  left  for  West- 
town  ;  which  we  reached  after  a  muddy  ride,  the  roads  being 
much  softened  by  the  melted  snow. 

14th.  Attended  the  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  El- 
ders, at  Concord;  in"  which  a  little  ability  was  granted,  to  en- 
courage those  present,  to  engage  with  renewed  zeal  and  diligence, 
in  the  Lord's  cause  and  work.  At  our  friend  N.  Sharpless',  we 
had  the  company  of  dear  friends,  with  whom  I  passed  the  even- 
ing with  satisfaction. 

15th.  Rose  with  desires  for  preservation  in  lowliness  of 
mind,  that  I  might  abide  with  the  suffering  Seed,  and  be  kept 
under  Divine  guidance ;  so  as  to  do  nothing  but  what  was  of 
the  Holy  Spirit's  begetting  and  putting  forth.  Early  in  the 
meeting,  a  woman  Friend,  E.  S.,  appeared  in  prayer;  and  some- 
time after,  I  was  led  to  declare  as  my  belief,  there  is  still  pre- 
served among  u«,  those  who  are  standing  for  the  Truth,  and 
who  ai'e  clothed  with  fear  on  their  own  account ;  to  whom  the 
language  of  the  Saviour  is  applicable,  "  Pear  not,  little  flock,  it 
is  your  Father's  good  pleasure  to  give  you  the  kingdom."  To- 
wards these,  with  whom  I  was  united  in  the  love  and  fellowship 
of  the  gospel,  the  stream  of  encouragement  and  consolation 
flowed  freely.  Then  in  the  tender  love  of  God,  I  was  drawn  to 
address  the  dear  young  people,  and  to  invite  them  to  come  to 
the  Saviour  and  follow  Him,  and  He  would  prepare  them  for 
his  work  in  the  church.  The  power  of  the  adorable  Head  rose 
into  dominion,  and  it  was  a  humbling,  contriting  season  ;  I 
thought  more  so  than  I  have  often  known  ;  for  which  I  was 
humbled  and  thankful  to  the  Lord's  great  Name. 

In  the  afternoon,  we  rode  to  Birmingham,  and  put  up  with  a 
Fi'iend,  near  the  old  meeting-house ;  near  which  many  of  the 
slain  at  the  battle  of  Brandywine,  during  the  revolutionary  war, 
were  interred.  A  christian  must  feel  horror  at  the  thought  of 
immortal  beings  being  rushed  into  the  presence  of  Almighty  God, 
in  the  fury  of  battle,  and  with  every  nerve  strained  to  murder 
and  beat  down  their  fellow  candidates  for  immortality  and  eter- 
nal blessedness.  How  can  it  be,  that  any  one  who  believes  in 
the  coming  and  sufferings  of  the  Son  of  God,  to  save  lost  man ; 
who  died  that  we  might  live  to  Him,  can  contend  that  war  and 
bloodshed  are  lawful,  and  still  less  engage  in  them.     To  love 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

our  enemies,  which  is  his  command,  is  totally  incompatible 
with  using  evoiy  eftbrt  to  destroy  them.  "A  new  command- 
ment I  give  unto  you,  that  ye  love  one  another;  as  I  have  loved 
you,  that  ye  also  love  one  another." 

16th.  A  storm  blew  up  in  the  night,  with  heavy  rain,  which 
gave  the  morning  a  dreary  appearance,  and  led  us  to  expect  our 
appointed  meeting  would  be  small ;  but  a  greater  number  came 
than  I  had  looked  for.  Salvation  by  the  coming  of  Christ,  in 
the  flesh  and  by  his  Holy  Spirit,  transforming  man,  was  preach- 
ed, and  the  fearful  consequences  of  denying  his  divinity  and 
propitiatory  offering  for  our  sins,  were  held  up  to  view.  The 
burden-bearers,  and  the  dear  young  people,  were  encouraged  to 
come  to  the  compassionate  Shepherd  of  the  sheep,  and  apply  to 
Him  for  wisdom  and  strength  to  do  his  will. 

In  the  afternoon,  we  went  to  our  aged  friend  Moses  Bailey's, 
and  lodged.  He  was  from  home,  but  his  family  treated  us  with 
much  kindness,  and  in  the  morning,  his  son  piloted  us  over  to 
Cain  meeting-house.  Attended  the  Select  Quarterly  Meeting, 
composed  of  seven  men  and  two  women  Friends.  It  appeared 
to  be  in  a  low  condition,  and  I  was  drawn  to  hold  up  the  im- 
portance of  foithfui  dedication  to  the  cause  of  Christ,  as  ex- 
amples of  the  flock  ;  to  warn  them  as  watchmen  on  the  walls, 
which  the  great  Head  has  placed  around  us,  of  the  snares  with 
which  the  enemy  seeks  to  lay  us  waste.  Also  of  the  import- 
ance of  deep,  inward  abiding  with  Christ,  that  wherever  we  go, 
the  savor  of  Divine  life  may  go  with  us,  and  have  an  influence 
upon  others.  They  were  also  reminded  of  the  tendency  of  our 
young  people  to  go  into  the  fashions  of  a  corrupt  world,  and  to 
become  rulers  over  their  parents,  instead  of  their  parents  gov- 
erning and  restraining  them  in  these  things.  These  remarks 
flowed  like  a  gentle  stream,  accompanied  with  an  aff'ectionate 
desire  for  their  strength  and  encouragement. 

Dined  at  J.  E.'s,  where  we  had  a  little  opportunity  to  hold  up 
to  some  present,  that  the  harvest  was  plenteous,  and  the  labor- 
ers few,  and  to  invite  them  to  increased  dedication.  Went  to 
C.  D.'s  and  lodged,  where  we  received  very  kind  attention. 

18th,  The  weather  was  now  fine,  and  the  roads  on  the  hills 
pretty  good,  which  is  desirable  at  the  convening  of  this  Quar- 
terly Meeting.  Nearly  all  the  old  members  and  standard-bear- 
ers of  this  meeting  have  been  removed  by  death.  There  are 
young  and  middle-aged  persons,  who  appear  to  be  consistent 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  569 

Friends,  and  under  a  right  exercise,  yet  there  was  a  feeling  of 
weakness,  and  of  degeneracy  among  many.  I  was  engaged  to 
show  the  necessity  of  being  brought  to  feel  our  own  nothing- 
ness, and  to  submit  to  those  dispensations,  by  which  we  are 
brought  into  the  state  of  a  little  child ;  so  as  to  know  Christ's 
kingdom  and  reign  to  be  set  up  in  the  heart,  and  to  receive  from 
Him  gifts  to  occupy  to  his  praise.  When  we  are  brought  into 
the  household  of  faith,  and  into  a  humbling  view  of  ourselves, 
it  is  needful  to  guard  against  the  temptation  to  cast  away  our 
sliield,  and  be  thereby  disabled  from  performing  our  duties  in 
the  church.  By  looking  improperly  at  the  many  discourage- 
ments of  this  day  of  great  trial,  we  may  suffer  ourselves  to  be 
cast  down,  as  if  there  was  no  hope.  I  believed  the  Lord  was  at 
work  in  the  hearts  of  the  young  people  ;  and  it  is  our  place  to 
keep  the  faith  that  He  will  arise  for  our  help  and  deliverance ; 
and  under  his  direction,  that  we  be  found  inviting  and  drawing 
them  to  Christ,  and  encouraging  them  to  be  faithful  to  all  his 
requirings.  Rode  to  W.  N.  S.'s  about  two  miles,  and  lodged; 
having  Moses  Bailey  for  our  guide. 

19th.  The  ride  this  morning  was  over  a  rough  road  to  West 
Cain,  and  the  weather  cold,  with  a  northeast  wind.  The  ap- 
pointed meeting  here  was  larger  than  was  anticipated,  some 
Presbyterians,  separatists  and  others,  with  a  few  Friends;  to 
whom  the  gospel  was  preached,  of  the  universal  love  of  God  to 
man,  in  sending  his  well-beloved  Son  to  save  the  world,  by  the 
atonement  made  by  Him,  and  by  giving  to  all  a  measure  of 
grace;  showing  that  all  may  be  saved  if  they  obey  its  teach- 
ings. This  was  declared  in  the  fresh  openings  and  authority  of 
the  Holy  Spirit.  I  was  also  bowed  in  humble  prayer  for  the 
extending  of  heavenly  good  to  all,  that  living  witnesses  might 
be  raised  up  in  that  place,  to  the  power  and  excellency  of  the  re- 
ligion of  the  Lord  Jesus.  It  appeared  to  me  to  be  a  day  of  favor 
and  Divine  condescension  to  us  poor  unworthy  creatures ;  for 
surely  it  was  the  Lord's  work  to  open  matter  for  the  conditions 
of  the  people. 

We  dined  about  half  a  mile  from  the  meeting-house ;  and  be- 
fore leaving,  Moses  Bailey  and  I,  went  to  see  an  aged  Friend, 
She  appeared  to  be  an  afflicted  woman,  and  yet  showed  the  dig- 
nity and  composure,  with  which  the  Lord  clothes  those  who 
have  loved  and  served  Him  to  old  age,  in  a  life  of  devotion  to 
his  cause  and  the  welfare  of  the  church.     There  was  a  word  of 


570  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

consolation  sprang  in  my  heart  for  lier,  and  we  parted  under 
feelings  of  respect  and  s}' mpathy  for  an  aged  servant  of  Christ, 
now  in  her  eighty-seventh  year. 

We  had  a  very  rough  ride  over  the  hills  to  Moses  Baily's,  the 
roads  continuing  to  be  hard  frozen ;  but  it  was  pleasant  to  re- 
turn to  the  peaceful  residence  of  this  honest-hearted  eldei-,  and 
his  kind  wife. 

20th.  First-day.  Attended  Bradford  Meeting,  which  was 
large,  composed  of  Friends  and  others.  It  was  not  so  comfort- 
ing a  time  as  at  some  places  ;  yet  there  was  ability  afforded  to 
open  many  things  pertaining  to  the  condition  of  man  in  trans- 
gression, the  means  to  bring  him  out  of  it,  and  the  necessity  of 
continued  watchfulness  after  we  are  brought  out;  for  Satan  is 
at  work,  even  to  draw  down  those,  who  may  be  as  stars  in  the 
firmament  of  God's  power.  The  necessity  of  rightly  governing 
the  children,  restraining  them  from  wrong  things,  and  setting 
them  a  proper  example,  was  laid  before  them.  As  we  come 
under  this  religious  exercise,  we  shall  be  favored,  at  seasons,  to 
hold  communion  with  our  heavenly  Father,  and  thus  know  our 
strength  renewed.  He  said,  respecting  his  servant,  "  Shall  I 
hide  from  Abraham  that  thing  that  I  do  ?  For  I  know  him,  that 
he  will  command  his  household  and  his  children  after  him  ;" 
hereby  confirming  the  imj^ortance  of  rightly  governing  our  be- 
loved children  ;  which  can  be  done  only  as  we  are  living  under 
the  Divine  government  ourselves,  feeling  the  great  importance 
of  this  subjection  to,  and  communion  with  the  Lord,  and  re- 
ceiving wisdom  and  ability  from  Him  to  order  our  own  house- 
holds. 

Eeturned  to  Moses  Baily's,  and  dined  with  a  company  of 
Friends  who  stopped  there.  In  the  afternoon,  we  rode  ten  or 
eleven  miles  to  East  Sadsbury,  and  lodged.  On  the  22d,  wo  at- 
tended an  appointed  meeting  here;  and  that  afternoon,  after 
dining  with  a  woman  Friend,  and  having  a  religious  opportunity 
with  her  and  children,  we  rode  up  to  Bart.  JSText  day  had  an 
appointed  meeting  there,  with  a  company  of  tender-spirited 
Friends,  to  our  and  their  satisfaction.  Then  rode  to  the  house  of 
a  Friend  belonging  to  Sadsbury  Meeting,  where  we  lodged;  and 
on  the  23d,  attended  their  regular  meeting,  which  was  small  and 
laborious. 

There  was  a  measure  of  holy  help  vouchsafed  to  perform 
what  appeared  to  be  required  in  those  meetings.     I  thought 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  571 

there  were  sincerely  concerned  Friends  in  all  of  them,  and  some 
of  the  3'ounger  and  middle-aged,  appear  to  be  under  religious 
exei'cise;  among  whom  I  hoped  there  would  be  some  raised  up, 
whom  the  Lord  would  (iuulify  to  support  the  doctrines  and  tes- 
timonies of  the  gosjiel,  under  the  guidance  of  his  Spirit.  Surely 
were  we  faithful,  abounding  in  the  Avork  of  the  Lord,  the  same 
good  Hand  that  gathered  our  forefathers,  from  the  "  lo  heres, 
and  lo  theres,"  would  still  be  with  us,  and  exalt  his  name  and 
his  goodness  in  the  midst  of  us. 

24th.  "Were  at  the  Western  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Ministers 
and  Elders,  which  is  very  small.  Here  we  met  my  brother 
Joseph  Evans  and  wife,  and  sister  Hannah  Ehoads,  which  w^aa 
cheering.  All  of  us  went  to  J.  P.'s,  a  pleasant  resting  place, 
and  remained  until  the  next  day;  which  afforded  an  opportunity 
to  enquire  after  our  home  connections  and  friends,  and  to  partake 
in  the  satisfaction  of  free  and  pleasant  converse  with  our  kind 
entertainers. 

25th.  Attended  the  Quarterly  Meeting  for  business.  I  Avas 
brought  low  in  sitting  down  in  the  meeting,  feeling  unworthy 
to  be  emplo^^ed  in  the  Lord's  work ;  but  after  a  time  of  inward 
reduction,  and  looking  to  the  alone  Helper  of  his  people,  the 
quickening  power  of  his  Spirit  sprung  up  a  little  in  my  mind, 
and  under  its  guidance,  I  was  led  to  open  the  simplicity  and 
certainty  of  the  gospel  dispensation  ;  adapted  to  all  capacities, 
and  brought  home  to  every  heart ;  that  man  with  all  his  Avis- 
dom  and  research,  cannot  find  out  any  other  Avay,  by  Avhich  the 
soul  can  be  saved;  nor  is  he  able  by  any  poAver  that  he  ])0b- 
sesses  as  a  creature,  even  to  give  himself  a  sight  of  his  lost  con- 
dition. He  only,  who  is  the  Avay,  the  truth  and  the  life,  can 
Bhow  him  Avhere  and  what  he  is,  and  Avhat  He  requires  him  to 
become ;  giving  him  power  to  forsake  sin ;  and  He  alone  can 
set  up  his  kingdom  in  his  heart.  When  the  rich  man,  in  a  state 
of  torment,  besought  Abraham  to  send  one  to  warn  his  brethren, 
lest  they  should  come  into  that  place,  Abraham  answered,  they 
have  Moses  and  the  prophets,  let  them  hear  them;  but  still 
urging  his  request,  he  Avas  told,  "If  they  hear  not  Moses  and 
the  prophets,  neither  will  they  be  persuaded,  though  one  rose 
from  the  dead."  When  Christ  came,  He  said,  "  I  am  the  door. 
He  that  entereth  not  by  the  door  into  the  sheepfold,  but  climb- 
eth  up  some  other  Avay,  the  same  is  a  thief  and  a  robber."  And 
the  apostle  said,  "  Though  avc,  or  ain  angel  from  heaA^en,  preach 


572  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

any  other  gospel  unto  you,  than  that  which  we  have  preached 
unto  you,  let  him  be  accursed."  All  these  show  there  is  no  way 
of  salvation  but  that  which  is  appointed  by  our  great  and  gra- 
cious Creator;  and  unless  man  complies  with  the  terms,  tliere 
is  no  ground  on  which  to  rest  any  hope  of  being  saved  in  the 
end.  I  thought  the  humbling  power  of  Christ  spread  over  the 
meeting,  and  brought  with  it  a  feeling  of  solemnity  and  contri- 
tion of  spirit.  M}'  sister  Hannah  Ehoads,  knelt  in  supplication 
and  thanksgiving,  which  humbled  the  hearts  of  man3^ 

After  the  meeting  we  dined,  went  to  Fallowfield  and  lodged. 

26th.  We  had  a  meeting  at  this  place,  the  number  of  Friends 
being  small ;  and  some  of  them  giving  little  evidence  in  their 
appearance,  of  feeling  regard  for  the  simplicity  and  self-denial 
of  the  cross  and  gospel  of  Christ;  being  gone  out  into  the  spirit 
and  fashions  of  the  world ;  with  whom  I  was  engaged  to  labor, 
in  order  to  draw  them  to  yield  to  the  Holy  Spirit  in  their  own 
hearts.  I  was  also  led  to  supplicate  our  merciful  Heavenly 
Father,  on  behalf  of  his  afflicted  children,  and  for  the  gathering 
of  those  who  have  wandered  from  the  right  way,  and  that  He 
would  extend  preservation  to  all. 

27th.  Went  to  West  Grove  Meeting,  where  formerly  be- 
longed our  ancient  and  honorable  friends  William  and  Hannah 
Jackson  ;  whose  memory  is  precious,  and  their  solid  christian 
example  worthy  to  be  followed  more  faithfully  than  it  has  been, 
by  many  in  that  meeting.  Notice  having  been  given  two  days 
before,  and  being  first-day,  the  company  was  large,  many  not 
being  members.  The  service  was  laborious,  but  I  felt  clear  and 
peaceful  at  the  close.    Dined,  and  then  rode  to  Joshua  Sharpless', 

at  London  Britain. 

» 

28th.  Had  an  appointed  meeting  at  London  Britain,  com- 
posed of  Friends  and  others  ;  in  which  I  was  drawn  forth  for 
the  encouragement  of  the  devoted  few  in  this  place,  that  they 
might  increase  in  faithfulness  to  the  Lord  and  his  cause.  To- 
wai'ds  the  close  of  what  I  had  to  deliver,  I  was  led  to  warn 
against  the  spirit  that  was  rejecting  the  gospel  of  Christ,  and 
turning  the  back  upon  the  Holy  Scriptures;  that  the  end  of 
those  who  submitted  to  it  would  be  awful,  did  they  persist  until 
the  day  of  mercy  was  overpast.  I  was  a  stranger  to  such,  if 
there  were  any  in  the  nieeting ;  but  afterwards  was  told  there 
was  one  at  least  of  that  character  present. 

Third  month  Ist.     The  weather  was  cloudy  and  foggy  most 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  573 

of  yesterday ;  this  morning  it  rained,  and  appeared  very  dreary 
to  turn  out  in,  but  we  rode  about  four  miles  to  Hockesson.  But 
few  Friends  beIon<;-  here;  some  of  them  were  absent  from  indis- 
position and  other  causes,  yet  tlie  company  was  larger  than  w'e 
had  reason  to  expect.  It  was  an  exercising  time  to  me,  so  few 
seeming  to  be  acquainted  with  spiritual  worship,  and  that  travail 
of  soul  which  is  necessary  for  our  life  in  the  Truth.  The  work- 
ings of  an  evil  disposition  to  draw  persons  away  from  the  reli- 
gion of  the  gospel,  prevails  in  some,  which  brings  darkness  into 
meetings. 

2d.  Attended  their  usual  week-day  meeting,  at  New  Garden ; 
in  which  the  gospel  of  Christ  was  declared,  and  Friends  en 
couraged  to  increased  faithfulness  in  the  support  of  our  testi- 
monies. 

3d.  "Went  to  Kennet  Meeting;  in  which  the  necessity  of 
placing  our  confidence  and  trust  in  the  Shepherd  of  Israel,  and 
not  depending  upon  man,  was  held  forth  among  them ;  in  ac- 
cordance with  the  apostle's  testimony,  that  his  speech  and  his 
preaching  were  ''  Not  with  enticing  words  of  man's  wisdom,  but 
in  the  demonstration  of  the  Spirit  and  of  power;  that  their 
faith  should  not  stand  in  the  wisdom  of  men,  but  in  the  power 
of  God." 

The  visit  to  most  of  the  meetings  of  this  Quarter  has  been 
attended  with  the  apprehension,  that  the  spirit  of  infidelity  in 
some  form,  is  striving  to  lay  waste  the  doctrines  of  the  christian 
religion,  and  to  draw  some  of  our  members  into  its  dreadful 
vortex.  Unless  Friends  keep  watchful  over  themselves  and 
their  children,  prohibiting  the  use  of  those  pernicious  publica- 
tions that  set  forth  and  contend  for  these  delusions;  and  also 
abstaining  from  associating  with  unbelievers,  the  minds  of  their 
3'oung  people  may  be  poisoned,  and  the  Society  in  these  parts 
be  scattered. 

4th.  After  dining,  we  rode  to  Willistown,  where  we  had 
notice  spread  for  a  meeting  to  be  held  on  the  4th  ;  which  we 
attended,  to  some  comfort ;  and  the  next  day,  the  5th,  had  a 
meeting  at  Goshen ;  both  of  which  were  satisfactory.  The  spirits 
of  the  humble,  exercised  travailers  for  Zion's  prosperity,  were  a 
little  revived,  and  encouraged  to  trust  in  the  Lord,  and  to  labor 
for  the  welfare  of  the  flock,  over  whom  they  are  overseers.  We 
lodged  the  preceding  night,  with  our  friends  Pennock  and  Sarah 


574  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Passmore,  with  whom  and  others  here,  the  cementing  influence 
of  gospel  fellowship  was  felt  to  unite  us  together. 

After  dining  with  J.  and  P.  K.,  we  rode  to  West  Chester,  and 
put  up  at  the  residence  of  our  beloved  mother  in  the  Truth, 
Hannah  Gibbons;  who  received  us  with  much  kindness,  and 
under  whose  roof  and  maternal  care  we  felt  it  a  favor  to  be 
lodged. 

6th.  Being  first-day,  we  had  a  pretty  full  meeting  of  Friends 
and  others ;  and  the  Lord  condescended  to  furnish  ability  to 
call  upon  all  who  had  not  submitted  to  his  convicting  power, 
and  to  show  to  them  that  He  had  not  dealt  with  us  according 
to  our  deserts ;  but  in  merciful  and  unmerited  long  suffering 
and  forbearance,  was  still  following  after  the  rebellious,  and 
striving  to  draw  them  into  the  obedience  of  the  cross  of  Christ. 
These  were  pleaded  with,  in  the  love  of  the  gospel,  to  receive 
the  Lord  Jesus  in  the  way  of  his  coming,  whether  in  tendering 
their  hearts,  with  a  humbling  sense  of  his  goodness,  or  when  He 
reveals  his  righteous  judgments,  and  shows  them  the  inevitable 
consequences  of  walking  in  sin  and  transgi'ession.  Those  pre- 
sent, who  had  entered  into  covenant  with  their  Lord  and  Mas- 
ter, were  encouraged  to  persevere  faithfully  to  the  end  ;  that 
they  may  he  lights  in  the  world,  preachers  of  righteousness  to 
others,  and  thereby  be  made  instrumental  in  drawing  souls  to 
Christ.  That  in  the  end,  the  language  may  be  addressed  to 
them,  "Well  done,  good  and  faithful  servant;  thou  hast  been 
faithful  in  a  few  things,  I  will  make  thee  ruler  over  more.  En- 
ter thou  into  the  joy  of  th}^  Lord." 

After  dining,  we  took  an  affectionate  farewell  of  our  dear 
aged  friend  H.  Gibbons,  and  rode  to  Westtown.  In  their  after- 
noon meeting,  I  was  brought  into  much  sj^mpathy  with  the 
superintendents  and  caretakers,  on  account  of  the  arduousness 
of  their  charge ;  and  was  led  to  address  them  with  the  language, 
"  Let  us  not  be  weary  in  well  doing,  for  in  due  season,  we  shall 
reap  if  we  faint  not ;"  and  to  show  that  humiliating  dispensa- 
tions are  necessary  to  reduce  man,  so  that  he  may  not  say,  by 
mine  own  wisdom  and  strength  have  I  done  this ;  but  find  that 
all  saving,  preserving  help  comes  from  the  Lord,  that  He  may 
be  sought  unto  and  have  the  praise.  I  believe  some  were 
comforted  by  the  little  that  was  said;  they  seemed  unwilling 
to  let  us  depart ;  but  I  felt  best  satisfied  to  go  to  a  Friend's 
house  near  Middletown,  and  stay  that  night. 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS,  575 

7th.  Had  a  meeting  at  Middletown,  which  was  rather  a  la- 
borious time.  Dined  with  George  Smedley,  and  in  the  after- 
noon, rode  to  the  residence  of  my  brother-in-law  J.  Ehoads, 
where  I  staid  until  next  afternoon,  and  then  went  to  our  friend's, 
Enos  Shurpless,  near  Chester.  My  mind  was  plunged  into  a 
low,  emptied  condition,  so  that  I  was  tempted  to  fear  I  should 
not  finish  the  journey  to  the  honor  of  Truth,  and  the  benefit  of 
those  I  visited.  Our  friends  were  very  kind  and  sympathizing, 
though  they  knew  not  my  feelings  or  fears. 

9th.  Was  their  regular  meeting  here ;  and  in  the  midst  of 
my  poverty,  the  Lord  condescended  to  furnish  a  word,  and  to 
give  faith  to  arise  and  deliver  it ;  and  there  seemed  to  be  some 
quickening  power  attending,  which  went  over  the  hearts  of  the 
people.  Eeturned  to  E.  Sharpless'  and  dined  ;  from  whence  we 
were  taken  to  Chester  village ;  where,  in  order  to  escape  the 
muddy  roads,  we  took  the  cars  for  Wilmington,  leaving  our 
horses  and  carriage  behind. 

10th.  Attended  Wilmington  Monthly  Meeting,  and  labored 
among  them  in  the  love  of  the  gospel,  to  strengthen  the  hands 
of  the  faithful,  and  to  persuade  the  worldly-minded  and  the  ne- 
gligent to  turn  to  the  Lord,  with  full  purpose  of  heart,  and 
serve  Him,  that  they  may  become  partakers  of  the  peace  which 
He  gives,  which  passeth  all  understanding  of  the  natural  man  ; 
and  being  joined  to  the  Lamb's  army,  may  support  his  blessed 
cause  in  the  earth.  Satisfaction  was  expressed  with  our  com- 
pany, and  the  labor.  In  the  afternoon,  took  the  cars  for  Ches- 
ter ;  where  we  were  met  by  our  friend  Jesse  J.  Maris,  and  went 
to  his  house. 

11th.  The  weather  was  stormy,  with  snow,  hail  and  rain; 
not  very  pleasant  to  turn  out  into ;  but  we  rode  about  six  miles 
to  Chichester,  to  be  at  an  appointed  meeting;  which,  though 
small,  was  larger  than  we  had  expected.  In  condescension  to 
his  poor  creature,  man,  the  Lord  tendered  us  together,  to  the 
help  and  comfort  of  a  little  flock ;  for  whose  help,  supplication 
was  made  to  the  Father  of  mercies. 

After  dinner,  falling  into  silence,  I  had  a  little  to  communi- 
cate to  the  younger  members  of  the  family  ;  in  which  they  were 
reminded  of  the  all  important  work  of  their  salvation.  We  had 
about  eleven  miles  to  ride,  this  afternoon,  to  reach  my  brother- 
in-law  J.  Ehoads',  and  it  was  very  pleasant  to  be  again  in  com- 
pany with  his  beloved  family. 


576;  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Next  day  I  spent  mostly  at  my  brother  Joseph  Evans' ;  and 
was  humbled,  under  a  sense  of  much  unworthiness,  and  great 
inability  to  do  anything  in  the  good  cause,  unless  the  Loi-d 
continued  to  take  the  work  into  his  own  hand,  and  wrought 
for  us. 

13th.  Went  to  Springfield  Meeting  in  much  weakness,  and 
was  rather  surprised  at  the  number  of  people  who  came.  Al- 
though I  was  let  down  under  a  deep  feeling  of  my  unfitness  for 
any  good  word  or  work,  yet  after  a  time  of  waiting  before  the 
Lord,  a  measure  of  holy  help  was  extended,  and  I  believe  the 
gospel  was  preached  in  the  authority  of  Christ.  I  was  also 
bowed  in  deep  prostration  of  soul,  and  enabled,  vocally,  to  re- 
turn thanks  to  our  gracious  and  merciful  Helper,  that  He  had 
not  cast  us  off;  and  to  ask  for  the  continuance  of  his  preserving 
power;  and  that  He  would,  in  tender  compassion,  gather  the 
dear  children,  to  submit  to  and  follow  their  Saviour.  The  heart- 
tendering  power  of  Truth  went  over  the  meeting,  and  contrited 
many ;  for  which  thanksgiving  and  praise  were  rendered  to  Him 
who  alone  is  worthy. 

After  dining  at  my  brother  Joel's,  rode  to  my  home,  and  I 
was  glad  to  be  again  united  to  my  dear  wife  and  children,  under 
our  peaceful  roof;  and  for  the  preservation  of  my  health  and 
safe  return,  I  was  thankful  to  my  Heavenly  Father. 

18th.  We  had  a  comfortable  Meeting  for  Sufferings ; ,  a  pretty 
large  committee  was  appointed  to  prepare,  if  way  opened,  an 
epistle  of  counsel  and  advice  to  the  membei-s  of  our  own  Yearly 
Meeting. 

20th.  Darby  Meeting  not  having  been  visited,  I  was  taken 
there  this  morning.  We  found  it  a  small  company.  It  seemed 
to  be  my  place,  to  labor  to  strengthen  the  things  that  remain, 
that  are  ready  to  die  ;  and  to  pray  for  their  help,  and  the  wel- 
fare of  their  young  people,  that  testimony-bearers  to  the  Truth 
may  yet  be  raised  up  among  them. 

23d.  Gave  back  my  minute  to  the  Monthly  Meeting,  with 
the  acknowledgment,  that  though  the  service  was  a  trial  of 
faith,  Divine  mercy  accompanied  us  from  place  to  place,  and 
enabled  me  to  discharge  the  duty  required,  to  the  satisfaction  of 
my  own  mind. 

30th.  I  was  brought  low  in  the  prospect  of  our  approaching 
Yearly  Meeting ;  yet  at  times  there  is  gi'anted  a  grain  of  faith, 
producing  the  hope  and  confidence  that  the  Lord  will  not  forsake 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  577 

US.  But  it  is  not  in  the  power  of  man  to  keep  us.  Unless  He 
interferes  and  says  to  the  sea,  "  Peace,  be  still,"  we  cannot  expe- 
rience a  calm  ;  and  I  believe  lie  will  do  it,  if  we  are  united  in 
prayer  to  Him,  to  regard  us  in  mercy,  and  sustain  us  in  the 
hollow  of  his  hand. 

Fourth  month  15th.  This  day  we  had  a  satisfactory  Meet- 
ing for  Sufferings ;  there  being  much  unity  with  several  docu- 
ments which  had  been  prepared ;  particularly  with  an  epistle 
of  caution  and  counsel,  addressed  to  the  members  of  our  own 
Yearly  Meeting;  which  had  been  prepared  by  a  committee  ap- 
pointed therefor.  I  believe  the  advice  contained  in  it,  is  not 
onl}'  pertinent  and  needful,  on  account  of  the  degeneracy  which 
has  been  spread  among  us,  but  at  the  same  time,  will  tend  to 
draw  the  members  to  their  own  condition.  We  have  need  to  be 
called  home  to  work  in  our  own  vineyards. 

18th.  The  Yearly  Meeting  convened  to-day,  and  epistles 
were  received  from  all  the  Yearly  Meetings  we  correspond  with. 

The  proceedings  of  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  Avere  well  ap- 
proved ;  and  when  the  state  of  the  subordinate  branches  of  the 
Yearly  Meeting  was  considered,  there  was  a  solid  covering 
over  the  meeting,  which  was  encouraging.  The  epistle  of  cau- 
tion and  counsel  to  our  members,  prepared  by  the  Meeting  for 
Sufferings,  was  adopted,  and  directed  to  be  signed  by  the  clerk, 
on  behalf  of  the  Yeai'ly  Meeting  ;  much  unity  being  expressed 
with  it.  The  business  of  the  meeting  was  conducted  with  much 
harmony,  through  the  different  sittings.  Several  Friends  mani- 
fested greater  interest,  and  spoke  to  the  business  with  moi-e 
freedom,  than  for  several  years;  which  had  a  good  effect  in 
promoting  feelings  of  unity.  The  committee  on  the  epistles 
to  other  meetings  harmonized  well  in  the  essays  which  they 
prepared,  and  the  same  was  apparent  in  the  meeting,  at  their 
reading.  As  we  drew  to  a  close,  a  solemn  covering  spread  over 
us  ;  and  on  reading  the  parting  minute,  a  profound  silence  pre- 
vailed, under  which  the  meeting  concluded ;  Friends  being  thank- 
ful for  the  goodness  of  the  blessed  Head  of  the  church,  in  binding 
us  together  in  so  much  harmony,  and  affording  us  the  strength 
and  comfort,  mercifully  granted ;  which  I  believe  drew  us 
nearer  to  one  another,  in  the  hope  that  the  Lord  would  in- 
crease the  unity,  and  again  make  us  feel  as  one  people. 

Fifth  month  9th.  I  went  by  stage  to  Haddoniield  Monthly 
Meeting,  and  was  exercised  in  the  ministry  in  the  first  sitting. 


578  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Since  returning  from  Delaware  and  Chester  Counties,  in  the 
Third  month,  I  have  been  almost  entirely  shut  up  in  silence. 
Friends  expressed  their  gladness  of  the  visit  to-day  ;  yet  I  felt 
low,  though  free  of  any  sense  of  condemnation.  The  country, 
after  frequent  showers,  has  a  beautiful  verdure,  and  appears 
likely  to  be  covered  with  rich  crops  of  grain  and  grass,  for  the 
Bubsistence  of  rebellious  man.  What  multitudes  of  blessings  we 
have  to  be  thankful  for.  So  great  iniquity  abounding  in  the 
land,  these  bounties  are  an  evidence  of  the  compassion  and  long- 
forbearance  of  a  merciful  God,  who  continues  to  cause  the  rain 
to  descend,  and  the  sun  to  shine,  on  the  just  and  on  the  unjust, 
and  the  earth  regularly  to  yield  such  abundant  food  for  man 
and  beast. 

31st.  In  a  visit  which  my  wife  and  I  made  at  this  time,  to 
Burlington  Quarterly  Meeting,  we  dined  with  a  Friend  who  re- 
sides in  an  old  house  on  the  main  street,  which  had  been  occu- 
pied by  his  father-in-law,  a  minister;  where  Kichard  Jordan  and 
others  resorted  to  at  times,  and  enjoyed  a  mutual  interchange 
of  thought  and  experience  in  the  things  of  God,  with  much  com- 
fort and  interest  to  one  another.  We  were  also  told  that  our 
beloved  uncle  T.  Scattergood,  went  to  school  in  his  boyhood,  in 
the  room  they  occupy  as  a  parlor.  The  association  of  ideas 
with  these  circumstances,  though  of  little  serious  importance, 
called  up  pleasant  recollections  of  these  worthies,  who  were  men 
of  God,  and  loved  and  served  Him  in  the  gospel  of  his  dear  Son, 
and  in  gathering  souls  to  Christ. 

Sixth  month  10th.  Was  at  the  Arch  Street  Meeting ;  in 
which  the  language  of  the  Saviour  was  revived,  that  "Men 
ought  always  to  pray  and  not  to  faint."  God  would  hear  his 
own  elect,  that  cry  day  and  night  unto  Him,  and  that  speedily. 
The  elect  are  not  to  take  revenge  upon  those  who  oppress  them ; 
but  the  day  will  come,  in  which  all  will  be  brought  to  judg- 
ment; and  those  who  have  been  bringing  suffering  upon  the 
living  members  of  the  church,  and  in  whom  the  precious  seed 
is  borne  down,  as  a  cart  with  sheaves,  will  have  to  bear  their 
own  burdens  of  Divine  judgment  and  condemnation.  It  felt  to 
me  to  be  very  important  for  such  to  be  willing  to  have  their 
hearts  searched,  and  to  forsake  those  things  which  the  Divine 
controversy  is  with,  before  it  be  too  late.  The  exercised  ones 
were  encouraged  to  hold  on  their  wa}^,  being  willing  to  be  hum- 
bled again  and  again,  to  the  state  of  a  child,  that  they  may  be 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS.  579 

preserved  fi'om  sliding  from  the  sure  foundation.  It  was  a  sea- 
son of  renewed  favor ;  in  which  the  gospel  was  preached  in  its 
own  authorit}-,  and  the  seed  visited.  The  pi-ido  and  loftiness 
of  man,  in  his  earthly  possessions  and  strength,  were  declared 
against,  and  the  liability  of  some  to  think  too  lightly  of  death, 
as  if  it  were  an  easy  thing,  without  sufficiently  regarding  its 
awfulness,  Avas  alluded  to;  "If  the  righteous  scarcely  are  saved, 
where  shall  the  ungodly  and  sinner  appear?" 

14th.  Not  having  been  at  the  Northern  District  Meeting  for 
some  time,  and  feeling  my  mind  drawn  to  go  there  this  morn- 
ing. I  went  and  sat  a  long  time  in  a  low  state  ;  but  before  closing 
the  meeting,  I  gave  up,  in  a  humbled  condition,  to  exhort  them 
to  watchfulness  and  prayer,  and  to  warn  some  who  were  soar- 
ing above  the  witness  for  God,  to  come  down,  that  they  may 
know  the  work  of  humiliation  and  bowedness  of  soul  for  them- 
selves ;  for  no  man  or  woman  can  do  the  work  for  them.  The 
humble,  sincere  travailers  were  encouraged  to  keep  the  faith 
and  the  patience  of  the  saints;  which,  I  believe,  contrited  the 
hearts  of  some,  who  had  been  wading  as  in  deep  waters. 

15th.  In  our  own  meeting,  I  was  not  eas}''  when  near  time 
to  close,  without  mentioning  the  pai'able,  in  which  our  Lord 
compared  the  kingdom  of  heaven  to  "  A  net  that  was  cast  into 
the  sea  and  gathered  of  every  kind;  which  when  it  was  full, 
they  drew  to  shore,  and  sat  down  and  gathered  the  good  into 
vessels,  but  cast  the  bad  away."  And  it  is  said,  "  So  shall  it  be 
at  the  end  of  the  world  ;  the  angels  shall  come  forth  and  sever 
the  wicked  from  the  just."  It  appeared  to  me  that  many  had 
the  offers  of  salvation  by  the  grace  of  God  in  their  hearts,  and 
had  in  days  past  given  up  to  it  in  degree,  but  through  negli- 
gence and  disobedience,  were  in  danger  of  suffering  the  time  to 
pass  away  unimproved ;  and  awful  will  be  their  condition,  if 
the  end  of  all  things  here,  comes  to  them  in  this  state. 

16th.  This  morning  my  brother  took  me  to  Evesham,  to  at- 
tend Haddonfield  Quarterly  Meeting,  which  was  large.  The 
removal  of  such  an  experienced  father  and  pillar  fi-om  among 
them,  as  our  late  beloved  friend  Hinchman  Haines,  left  a  pecu- 
liarly stripped  sensation,  in  sitting  down  in  the  meeting.  I  sat 
for  a  considerable  time  under  a  sense  of  a  contrary  spirit,  and 
though  some  -openings  presented,  they  gradually  disappeared, 
and  seemed  to  die,  and  I  felt  willing  to  pass  the  meeting  in 
silence,  if  it  was  the  Master's  will;  which  I  thought  it  was  pro- 


580  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

bable  would  be  the  case.  After  abiding  in  this  state  of  death, 
some  seci-ct  stirrings  and  quickonings  gradually  arose,  and 
light  shone  upon  the  necessity  of  eveiy  one  knowing  and  keep- 
ing his  place  in  the  body,  and  acting  only  as  the  Master  ap- 
points ;  by  which  the  beautiful  order  and  harmony  are  pre- 
served. His  servants  are  not  to  go  out  with  haste,  nor  to  go 
by  flight,  but  the  Loi'd  shall  go  before  them,  and  the  God  of 
Israel  shall  be  their  rereward.  The  true  Shepherd  puttcth  forth 
his  own  sheep,  and  goeth  before  them ;  and  the  sheep  follow 
Him  ;  and  He  is  also  their  rearguard  and  defence. 

Every  member  of  the  Society  has  his  rights,  that  others  are 
to  respect,  which  if  they  do,  will  make  them  fellow  helpers. 
They  will  be  tender  of  one  another,  and  because  of  a  difference 
of  opinion,  where  religious  principles  ai'e  not  involved,  will  not 
cultivate  the  spirit  that  would  call  down  fire  upon  the  head  of  a 
brother  or  a  sister,  but  will  keep  in  the  suffering  Spirit  of  the 
Eedeemer;  who  when  He  was  nailed  to  the  cross,  said  of  his 
ci'ucifiers,  "Father,  forgive  them,  they  know  not  what  they 
do."  It  is  in  this  heavenly  spirit,  that  we  learn,  and  are  en- 
abled to  endure  hardness,  as  good  soldiers  of  Jesus  Christ.  But 
those  who  give  way  to  a  resentful  spirit,  towards  others,  who 
do  not  see  eye  to  eye  with  them  on  some  things  non-essential, 
not  having  a  tender  feeling  for  the  rights  and  the  sufferings  of 
their  brethren,  will  be  far  from  enjoying  true  peace  and  happi- 
ness ;  but  are  like  the  troubled  sea,  casting  up  mire  and  dirt. 
The  young  people  were  encouraged  to  devote  themselves  to  the 
Lord  and  his  cause ;  and  the  afflicted  and  sorrowful  to  look  to, 
and  rely  upon  Him  who  can  give  beauty  for  ashes,  the  oil  of 
joy  for  mourning,  and  the  garment  of  praise  for  the  spirit  of 
heaviness. 

Many  Friends  showed  their  unity  with  the  visit. 

Seventh  month  2d.  Early  this  morning  my  mother-in-law, 
Rebecca  Barton,  closed  a  long  life,  we  may  safely  believe,  in 
peace,  in  the  ninetj^-first  year  of  her  age.  She  was  an  exem- 
plary Friend,  and  anxious  mother,  manifested  in  her  godl}'- care 
over  her  children  when  young,  that  they  might  be  preserved 
from  evil ;  also  in  the  guard  which  she  kept  over  her  own 
speech ;  particularly  in  avoiding  everything  prejudicial  to  the 
reputation  of  others.  She  loved  and  cherished  peace  towards 
all  men. 

4th.     To-day  we  have  had  much  noise  in  the  city;  and  the 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  581 

many  cuscs  of  intemperance  in  young  men  have  been  mournful. 
The  peojile  seem  hardly  to  think  that  the  Almighty  takes  any 
cognizance  of  evil  deeds,  committed  under  the  pretext  of  cele- 
brating the  Declaration  of  the  Indejjcndcnce  of  this  country,  of 
Great  Britain.  I  believe  it  best  and  most  consistent  with  our 
religious  pi'ofession,  to  keep  aloof  from  all  exhiliitions  of  such 
character;  designed  to  celebrate  events,  attended  with  the  effu- 
sion of  human  blood.  Public  parades  on  various  accounts,  are 
increasing  in  our  city ;  by  which  life  is  sometimes  put  at  stake, 
and  destroyed,  and  evil  habits  of  idleness  and  drunkenness,  and 
looseness  of  principles  and  manners  arc  thereby  contracted  by 
the  working  classes,  who  are  most  drawn  away  with  such  exhi- 
bitions. Friends  may  be  esteemed  narrow-minded,  in  standing 
opposed  to  such  vanity  and  wickedness ;  but  there  have  always 
been  witnesses  for  the  tmith,  who  have  withstood  the  popular 
current,  and  been  as  the  salt  to  preserve  society  from  becoming 
entirely  corrupt.  "Great  peace  have  all  they  that  love  thy 
law,"  and  keep  steadily  in  the  observance  of  it.  When  the  bus- 
tle and  confusion  are  past,  they  have  nothing  to  look  back  upon 
with  condemnation.  Peace  of  mind  and  health  of  body  have 
not  been  impaired,  by  a  departure  from  their  conscientious  con- 
victions, and  their  example  has  tended  to  discourage  vice,  not 
to  lead  others  into  it. 

I  have  seldom  known  more  desertion  of  the  sense  of  Divine 
good,  than  in  the  last  two  weeks.  I  have  tried  to  draw  near  to 
the  Father  of  mercies,  to  feel  after  Him,  that  I  might  be  en- 
abled to  pour  forth  living  aspirations  for  mere}',  and  grace  to 
help  in  this  time  of  need;  but  often  it  seemed  almost  impossi- 
ble to  keep  out  the  suggestions  of  the  evil  one,  and  utterly  be- 
yond my  power  to  attain  to  any  evidence  of  the  extension  of 
Divine  regard;  though  I  believe  there  has  been  secret  help  be- 
stowed to  keep  watch  against  all  evil  thoughts,  words  and 
deeds.  Sometimes  it  feels  desirable  to  be  released  from  the  con- 
flicts of  time  ;  but  then  the  importance  of  knowing  the  day's 
work  accomplished,  and  the  soul  thoroughly  washed,  and  pre- 
pared for  that  glorious  kingdom,  presents  Avith  great  weight. 
I  believe  there  is  no  other  way  to  get  along  rightly,  but  to  bear 
patiently  the  dispensations  of  unerring  Wisdom,  and  to  trust 
and  hope  in  his  unchangeable  goodness  and  comjiassion,  to- 
wards the  souls  he  has  made  to  glorify  Ilim. 

10th.  Our  meeting  is  much  reduced  by  Friends  going  to  the 
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582  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

country  for  health  and  needful  relaxation.  Silence  reigned  in 
the  morning  sitting ;  in  the  afternoon  I  felt  constrained  to  re- 
vive the  testimony  of  the  apostle,  "  That  the  trial  of  your  faith 
being  much  more  precious  than  gold  that  perisheth,  though  it 
be  tried  in  the  fire,  might  be  found  unto  praise  and  power  and 
glory  at  the  appearing  of  Jesus  Christ."  True  and  living  faith 
and  the  necessary  dispensations  for  its  trial,  are  of  more  value 
to  the  real  christian,  than  all  the  gold  he  can  possess.  Were 
not  our  faith  reduced  at  times  to  a  low  state,  and  the  mind  led 
through  conflicts  and  fears  of  a  very  proving  nature,  we  should 
not  so  fully  know  the  efficacy  and  the  value  of  saving  faith.  I 
was  led  to  speak  of  the  reduction  and  sense  of  destitution  which 
the  Lord's  children  are  at  times  brought  into,  so  as  to  fear,  that 
one  day  they  may  fall  by  the  hand  of  their  enemy.  But  He 
knows  our  frame  and  our  weakness  ;  and  if  in  these  humbling 
baptisms,  we  lift  up  our  eye  to  Him,  imploring  his  jirotecting 
power,  He  will  not  desert  us ;  but  the  everlasting  arm,  though 
invisible  to  us,  will  be  underneath  to  support,  and  to  defend  us 
from  our  cruel  enem-y.  And  when  He  sees  we  have  been  suffi- 
ciently prostrated,  He  will  lift  us  up  again,  and  the  Sun  of 
Eighteousness  will  arise  upon  us,  with  healing  and  renovating 
power  and  virtue,  strengthen  us  to  gird  up  our  loins,  put  our 
trust  anew  in  Him,  and  run  the  race  of  his  appointing  and  lead- 
ing. Some  souls  were  comforted,  and  tears  of  thankfulness 
flowed  to  the  Lord  most  High;  and  a  dear  Friend  returned 
thanks,  and  ofl'ered  prayer  for  the  continued  mercy  and  preser- 
ving power  of  the  blessed  Shepherd  of  the  sheep. 

12th.  My  wife  and  myself  went  out  to  our  brother's,  at  Sj^ring- 
field,  to  spend  two  or  three  weeks  with  them.  It  is  a  quiet, 
peaceful  retreat,  where  the  physical  and  mental  powers  may  bo 
invigorated. 

17th.  Was  at  their  first-day  meeting;  in  which  it  appeared 
to  be  my  place  to  endeavor  to  stir  up  the  people  to  engage  more 
fervently  in  the  great  work  of  their  own  salvation,  while  time 
and  the  day  of  mercy  are  lengthened  to  them.  Wo  have  to 
hope  against  hope,  there  appears  so  little  fruit  from  all  the  la- 
bor bestowed ;  and  yet  how  much  wider  many  would  stray 
from  the  fold,  we  know  not,  were  no  warning  voice  raised,  or 
any  evidence  given,  that  wo  are  deeply  interested  in  their  ever- 
lasting welfare. 

On  second-day  morning,  the  25th,  camo  into  the  city  to  our 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  583 

select  Prcpai'ativo  erecting;  also  altomled  our  Monthly  3reot- 
ing  on  the  27th,  whieh  was  satist'aotoiy. 

31st.  I  was  engaged  in  our  first-day  morning  meeting,  in  de- 
claring our  faith  in  the  Divine  authority  and  the  value  of  the 
Holy  Scriptures  ;  also  in  the  universality  of  the  gift  of  Divine 
grace,  through  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ ;  by  which  the  work  of 
regeneration  and  sanctification  is  effected  in  the  heart  of  man, 
and  he  is  brought  up  into  the  image  of  God,  in  which  Adam  was 
created,  and  from  which  he  fell  by  transgression.  Holy  help 
was  mercifully  extended,  opening  these  Divine,  essential  truths 
with  clearness,  and  clothing  with  authority  to  communicate 
them;  so  that,  I  trust,  they  reached  the'witness  in  some  hearts 
present. 

Eighth  month  1st.  Our  Quarterly  Meeting  was  a  solid  time  ; 
in  which  my  dear  wife  was  drawn  forth  in  sympathy  with  the 
suffering  seed,  and  led  to  encourage  these  to  keep  the  faith 
and  patience  of  the  saints;  believing  the  Lord  would  hear  and 
arise  for  the  groans  of  his  children,  and  deliver  them  in  his  way 
and  tim.e.  E.  Pitfield  concluded  in  praj^er  for  the  tribulated 
ones,  and  that  we  may  keep  the  everlasting  patience.  There 
was  but  little  business ;  the  meeting  was  preserved  under  a  pro- 
per vreight. 

4th.  Went  to  Middletown  Meeting,  where  we  found  a  com- 
pany of  Friends,  who  seemed  to  mo  to  be  holding  back  too  much 
from  religious  service.  Some  partly  from  being  taken  up  with 
their  worldlj"  business,  and  partly  from  diffidence  of  their  ability 
fur  service.  It  appeared  to  be  my  duty  to  w^arn  them  of  the 
engrossing  things  of  this  life,  which  are  proper  in  their  right 
place;  and  also  of  dwelling  too  much  ixpon  discouraging  appre- 
hensions of  their  own  weakness  and  inability  for  any  good  work 
in  the  church ;  but  to  remember  that  the  enemy  is  at  hand  to 
urge  such  thoughts,  for  the  purpose  of  deterring  us  from  seek- 
ing the  Lord  for  strength,  and  from  laying  hold  of  it,  when 
offered,  with  the  pointings  of  duty.  Even  a  few  faithful,  devo- 
ted ones,  may  be  instinimental  in  stirring  up  others  to  3'ield  to 
the  Lord's  requirings,  and  to  show  themselves  openly  on  his 
side.  It  was  a  low  time  in  Israel,  when  Jonathan  and  his  ar- 
mor-bearer showed  themselves  to  the  Philistines,  who  unwit- 
tingl}^  confirmed  the  sign  of  victory ;  and  by  faith  in  the  Lord's 
power,  they  attacked  their  enemies,  and  led  the  way  for  their 
being  j)ut  to  rout;  the  Lord  in  a  marvellous  manner  striking 


584  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

terror  through  the  host,  and  setting  their  swords  against  one 
another.  I  thought  Divine  goodness,  and  the  quickening  virtue 
of  the  Holy  Spirit,  was  a  little  felt  among  us. 

11th.  I  felt  drawn  in  love  to  Friends  of  Salem  Quarterly 
Meeting,  and  went  to  Woodbury  through  some  discouragements; 
where  I  was  kindly  received  by  many  Friends.  The  removal 
by  death  of  several  substantial  and  elderly  members  out  of  this 
meeting,  is  keenly  felt  by  the  rightly-concerned  among  them. 
But  it  seems  to  me,  though  we  may  not  always  be  able  to  see  it, 
that  the  Lord  is  leading  some  of  the  young  ones  in  secret,  to 
look  at  the  condition  of  Zion,  and  to  long  for  her  strength  and 
enlargement.  Whatever  may  be  the  discouragements  which 
this  class,  and  those  of  deeper  experience  may  endure,  if  they 
look  to  Him,  He  will  sustain  through  all,  bring  them  np  out  of 
low  places,  and  cause  them,  if  faithful  to  his  pointings,  to  go  on 
their  way  rejoicing.  "The  Lord's  portion  is  his  people;  Jacob 
is  the  lot  of  his  inheritance;  He  found  him  in  a  desert  land,  and 
in  the  waste,  howling  wilderness ;  He  led  him  about,  He  in- 
structed him,  He  kept  him  as  the  apple  of  his  eye."  It  is  often 
He  thus  instructs  his  children,  and  prepares  them  for  service  in 
his  church ;  and  as  they  are  entirely  devoted  to  Him,  He  gives 
them  gifts  to  be  occupied  for  the  edification  of  others,  and  their 
own  salvation. 

In  his  renewed  mercy.  He  raised  me  up  to  declare  of  his  good- 
ness and  compassion,  and  my  belief  that  a  succession  of  testi- 
mony and  standard-bearers,  would  be  again  and  again  raised  up 
among  us,  to  maintain  the  principles  and  testimonies  which  He 
called  our  forefathers  to  promulgate.  It  was  a  season  of  re- 
newed favor  and  comfort  to  us,  and  I  hope  some  were  cheered 
and  strengthened,  and  the  praise  ascribed  to  Him  to  whom 
alone  it  belongs.     In  the  afternoon  returned  home  peaceful. 

14th.  First-day.  The  weather  is  extremely  warm,  and  has 
been  so  most  of  the  time  since  the  Sixth  month.  Many  have 
been  overcome  with  the  heat,  according  to  the  accounts  publish- 
ed in  the  papers,  and  some  have  died  suddenly.  Our  religious 
meetings  are  greatly  reduced  ;  but  I  hope  many  of  those  who 
continue  in  the  city,  arc  praying  in  spirit,  that  the  Lord  will 
regard  us  in  our  low  estate. 

I  was  enfjafjed  to  refer  to  the  vision  of  the  stone  cut  out  of 
the  mountain  without  hands,  which  smote  and  broke  to  pieces 
the  image,  and  ground  it  to  powder,  so  that  it  was  carried  away 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  585 

like  the  chaff  of  the  summer  threshing-floor.  It  grew  until  it 
filled  the  whole  earth.  Showing  the  power  and  final  prevalence 
of  the  kingdom  of  Christ,  and  the  weakness  of  every  obstacle 
placed  in  his  way.  This  is  also  to  be  experienced  in  ourselves; 
that  cver}^  idol  man  is  worshijiping,  instead  of  the  living  God, 
may  be  destroyed ;  every  high  thing  iaid  low,  and  the  Lord 
alone  exalted  in  the  heart.  Herein  we  shall  be  brought  to  the 
enjoj-ment  of  true  peace  and  happiness,  and  a  solid  ground  to 
hope  for  a  place  among  the  saints  in  light,  when  the  end  comes. 

15th.  Went  to  Germantown,  and  attended  the  funeral  of  our 
late  friend  Ann  Mifflin,  who  died  in  her  seventy-fifth  year; 
having  been  a  member,  I  am  told,  of  our  Monthly  Meeting,  from 
her  birth.  She  was  attached  to  our  principles  and  testimonies, 
and  was  placed  in  the  station  of  elder  several  years  ago.  One 
after  another  of  the  older  members  are  removing,  who  occupied 
stations  in  the  church,  and  it  ought  to  be  the  prayer  of  surviv- 
ors, that  the  Lord  in  mercy  would  lay  his  hand  upon  sons  and 
daughters,  and  bring  them  under  a  living  concern  for  them- 
selves, and  for  his  blessed  cause ;  that  a  succession  of  standard- 
bearers  may  be  continued,  to  attract  others  to  the  blessed  cause 
of  the  Eedeemer. 

Ninth  month  2d.  To-morrow  commences  Ohio  Yearly  Meet- 
ing; which  brings  with  it  the  feeling  of  deep  interest  and  sym- 
pathy with  our  dear  friends  there,  who  bear  the  burden  and 
heat  of  the  da3^  It  is  desirable  they  may  be  enabled  to  look  to 
their  own  condition,  and  labor  to  repair  and  build  up  the 
breaches,  and  to  derive  a  little  comfort  from  the  fresh  extend- 
ings  of  heavenly  good ;  showing  that  the  Lord  has  not  deserted 
them  nor  the  cause  they  espouse. 

8th.  In  conversation  on  the  peculiar  state  of  our  Society, 
and  in  reference  to  the  wishes  of  some  for  separation,  I  took  the 
opportunity  to  say  that  I  did  not  unite  with  Friends  running 
out  of  a  back  door,  to  get  away  from  trouble.  Our  place  is  to 
stand  firm,  and  face  it  openly,  contending  for  the  truth,  and  op- 
posing wrong  things  as  the}^  appear.  Separation  deprives  those 
who  leave,  of  the  oppoi'tunity  of  opposing  error  in  the  members 
from  whom  they  have  separated ;  and  none  know  how  soon 
something  may  again  arise  among  themselves,  to  create  conten- 
tion, and  lead  to  another  separation.  If  we  keep  our  places, 
and  bear  a  faithful  testimony  for  the  truth,  and  against  all  de- 
partures from  it,  though  at  the  time  we  do  not  see  the  effect, 


586^  JOURNAL    OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

yet  we  may  believe  that  the  Lord  will  carry  that  testimony 
home  to  the  hearts  of  some,  so  that  it  will  arise  from  time  to 
time  with  convincing  power,  and  finally  prevail.  Jerusalem  is 
a  burdensome  stone,  to  those  who  would  pervert  and  turn  judg- 
ment backward,  and  the  Lord  can  save  by  few  or  by  man}^. 

AYhero  unsanctified  persons  obtain  the  rule,  and  seek  to  carry 
out  measures  opposed  to  the  principles  or  testimonies  of  the  gos- 
pel, the  rightly  concerned  and  faithful  members,  should  labor  in 
the  ability  the  Lord  gives,  to  ^^revent  their  adoption.  Should 
their  efforts  be  disregarded,  they  will  be  clear,  if  they  have  done 
Avhat  they  could ;  the  Lord  will  plead  his  own  cause,  and  we  hope 
will  in  his  time,  make  way  for  the  truth  to  rise  into  dominion. 
Seducers  and  evil-workers  will  Avax  worse  and  worse  ;  they  will 
be  removed  by  death  as  well  as  others;  and  through  patient 
suffering,  a  right  seed  keeping  their  places,  will  be  prepared  to 
take  the  government,  under  the  Blessed  Head,  and  to  restore 
the  good  old  way,  in  which  our  primitive  Friends  walked,  and 
to  put  down  what  is  inconsistent  therewith. 

11th.  Our  first-day  meeting  was  evidently  larger  than  it  had 
been  for  weeks ;  the  ^s^eather  being  cool  and  fine.  From  some 
cause  the  meetings  are  at  times  laborious  seasons,  it  is  so  diffi- 
cult to  attain  that  seclusion  from  worldly  things,  indispensa- 
ble to  the  performance  of  spiritual  worship.  I  felt  for  some 
strangers  who  came  in,  and  towards  the  latter  part  of  the  meet- 
ing, was  moved  to  hold  forth  the  doctrine,  that  man  is  not  left 
to  his  own  exertions  to  find  out  the  will  of  God  concerning  him, 
but  it  is  immediately  made  known  to  him  by  the  Holy  Spirit, 
which  enlightens  the  dark  heart ;  and  as  those  manifestations 
are  obeyed,  it  gives  the  power  to  forsake  sin,  and  to  do  those 
things  which  it  requires ;  in  doing  which,  the  work  of  regenera- 
tion is  carried  on,  and  a  total  change  of  heart  is  effected.  I  be- 
lieve the  testimony  reached  some  present  with  conviction,  though 
Lhey  do  not  obey  the  Truth  as  they  should  do. 

18th.  A  day  of  remarkable  absence  of  all  sense  of  Divine 
good,  attended  with  difficulty  in  withdrawing  the  mind  from 
worldly  cogitations,  and  centering  it  upon  spiritual  things.  It 
Avas  a  decided  proof  of  the  weakness  and  nothingness  of  man, 
unable  without  the  help  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  to  think  a  good 
thought,  or  to  command  the  least  evidence  of  heavenly  notice 
or  regard.  Surely  there  must  be  a  design  in  being  thus  stripped. 
May  it  more  and  more  humble  me  into  the  dust,  preserve  froni 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  587 

relyinc;  on  past  cxporionco,  and  prepare  for  the  manifestation  of 
fresh  mercy,  and  the  abihty  to  decharc  of  the  Lord's  power  and 
goodness,  and  faithfulness  to  his  poor  creature,  man,  in  the  re- 
newed extension  of  it  to  my  soul  in  the  hour  of  need,  and  Avhen 
He  sees  meet. 

19th.  This  morning  I  awoke  with  desires  to  lay  aside  all  un- 
necessary anxiety,  and  to  put  my  trust  in  the  Lord;  assured 
that  He  would  preserve  those  who  looked  to  Him,  and  would  sus- 
tain his  own  cause.  The  language  passed  through  my  mind, 
"  The}'  that  trust  in  the  Lord,  shall  not  be  confounded  ;  they 
shall  be  as  Mount  Zion,  that  cannot  be  removed."  The  holy 
presence  seemed  to  be  near. 


CHAPTEE    XXIX. 

1853—1854. 

Eeligious  Services  at  and  about  Home. 

1853,  Ninth  month  25th.  We  have  had  a  good  meeting 
this  morning  at  Orange  Street.  My  dear  wife  addressed  those 
who  were  brought  under  conviction  for  their  empty,  fruitless 
manner  of  life,  and  were  now  favored  to  see  the  need  of  a 
change.  Near  the  close,  I  underwent  the  humiliating  service 
of  vocal  supplication,  in  much  brokenness,  for  the , deliverance 
of  such  souls  out  of  bondage  and  Egyptian  darkness;  and  that 
during  the  Divine  administration  of  judgment,  they  might  know 
the  Spirit  of  the  Lord  lifted  up,  as  a  standard  against  the  enemy, 
who  would  seek  to  frustrate  his  work  in  them.  Also,  for  the 
Lord's  children  ;  that  as  He  knew  the  trials,  fears  and  butretings 
they  passed  through,  He  would  not  forsake  them ;  but  renew 
their  faith,  and  keep  them  in  the  hollow  of  his  Omnipotent 
hand,  that  so  thej^  may  show  forth  the  efficacy  of  the  religion 
of  the  Son  of  God,  for  the  sake  of  those  among  whom  thej' 
dwell,  and  for  generations  yet  to  come  :  that  from  the  rising  of 
the  sun,  to  the  going  down  of  the  same,  his  great  Name,  and 


588  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

the  Bamo  of  his  dear  Son,  may  be  glorified  and  magnified,  and 
through  mercy,  salvation  may  be  granted  to  us  in  the  end.  The 
difficulty  of  utterance  was  very  abasing ;  but  I  thought  it  was 
good  to  be  made  a  fool,  if  it  were  for  Christ's  sake,  and  the  good 
of  others  as  well  as  myself 

Tenth  month  9th.  I  felt  impelled  to  bring  to  view  the  great 
diiference  there  is  between  those,  who,  according  to  the  apos- 
tolic injunction,  pray  without  ceasing,  and  in  everything  give 
thanks,  and  those  who  rarely  pray,  and  who  feel  thankful  for 
none  of  the  blessings  they  partake  of^  which  is  truly  a  fearful 
condition.  It  appeared  to  me,  if  we  live  in  the  element  of 
pra3'er  and  thanksgiving,  there  will  be  Divine  life,  and  a  fervent 
concern  for  the  support  and  promotion  of  the  cause  and  king- 
dom of  Christ.  But  when  he  that  rideth  on  the  pale  horse,  w^hoso 
name  is  death,  is  sent  to  our  habitation,  what  hope  can  those 
have  who  neglect  true  praj'cr,  but  have  been  wrapped  up  in 
their  own  selfishness  and  the  things  of  time,  without  gratitude 
for  favors ;  and  have  turned  the  back  on  the  convicting  power 
of  Divine  Grace  ?  They  may  cry,  if  they  have  the  time  granted 
to  do  it,  Lord,  have  mercy  upon  me !  but  how  can  they  expect 
mercy,  seeing  they  have  rejected  the  calls  of  the  Lord,  when 
He  visited  and  extended  to  them  the  offei-s  of  his  mercy,  and 
they  refused  to  receive  and  obey  Him.  Another  class  was  also 
present,  who  are  concerned  to  dwell  in  the  spirit  of  prayer  for 
strength  and  preservation;  and  to  give  thanks  in  the  fire  and 
in  the  waters,  which  are  not  permitted  to  kindle  upon  or  to 
overwhelm  them.  I  thought  Divine  help  was  extended,  and 
that  the  power  of  Christ  was  felt  among  us, 

19th.  This  morning,  under  a  humbling  sense  of  the  many 
mercies  Avhich  have  been  extended  to  me,  1  was  contrited  to 
tears  before  my  gracious  Heavenly  Father,  and  enabled  to 
breathe  to  Him  fervent  prayer,  that  He  would  be  pleased  in  his 
mercy,  to  preserve  me  from  doing  anything  that  Avould  grieve 
his  Holy  Spirit,  wound  mj-  own  soul,  or  the  precious  cause 
which  He  has  called  us  to  support  before  the  world.  Secret 
desires  were  also  raised  for  our  religious  Society,  that  Ho  would 
defend  it,  and  the  tribulated  sufferers  in  it,  from  the  enemy  that 
is  seeking  to  divide  and  scatter  us,  and  prevent  us  from  exalting 
the  doctrines  and  testimonies  of  the  gospel,  as  they  have  been 
opened  unto  us  by  the  power  of  the  Holy  Spirit. 

23d.     At  our  meeting,  after  a  time  of  struggling  against  the 


JOUUXAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  589 

inroads  of  things  foreign  to  the  great  object  for  which  wo  as- 
sembled, the  subject  of  being  met  in  the  name  of  Christ,  and 
the  eflScacy  of  united  prayer  to  the  Father  of  mercies,  carno 
w4th  weight  before  mo ;  which  I  believed  it  required  of  me  to 
open  to  the  meeting.  The  worship  that  is  accepted  by  Ilim, 
which  is  in  spirit  and  in  truth,  must  be  performed  individually; 
through  the  quickening  2)ower  of  the  great  Minister  of  tho 
sanctuary  and  true  tabernacle,  which  God  hath  pitched  and  not 
man.  But  if  the  prayers  of  two  or  three,  offered  in  the  name  of 
Christ,  shall  be  answered,  how  much  greater  cloud  of  incense  will 
arise,  if  the  whole  congregation  is  brought  to  unite  in  fervent 
aspirations  to  the  throne  of  Grace,  for  the  bread  of  life,  to  nour- 
ish the  immortal  soul.  He  knows  how  long  to  try  our  faith  be- 
fore He  appears  in  the  heai't;  but  when  He  comes,  to  those  who 
open  tho  door,  He  will  enter  and  sup  with  them,  and  they  wdth 
Him.  This  is  the  Lord's  supper ;  which  is  inward  and  spiritual ; 
in  which  the  bread  that  comes  from  Him,  and  the  wine  of  the 
kingdom,  are  partaken  of,  to  the  refreshment  and  strength  of 
the  patient,  waiting  soul.  For  this  we  ai-e  not  dependent  upon 
any  man,  however  great  his  gifts,  or  his  experience;  he  has  no 
more  command  over  this  heavenly  food,  than  any  other;  but  all 
must  wait  upon  the  Lord  for  it,  in  sincerity  and  truth ;  and  all 
may  partake  of  it  at  his  table,  if  they  are  prepared  by  Him  to 
be  made  recipients  of  it. 

My  wife  closed  the  meeting  with  supplication,  in  a  solemn, 
impressive  manner.  I  thought  Divine  goodness  was  extended 
to  us,  and  that  his  power  spread  over  the  assembly.  There 
were  present  a  number  of  strangers. 

Eleventh  month  7tb.  For  many  days  I  have  been  shut  up, 
and  all  ability  to  preach  the  gospel  has  been  withdrawn,  as 
though  I  should  never  more  be  called  into  the  work.  I  have 
been  almost  destitute  of  any  sense  of  the  quickening  power; 
and  I  saw  that  no  former  openings  or  favors  would  give  the 
least  ability  or  authority  to  put  forth  a  hand  in  this  solemn  and 
weighty  work.  I  have  endeavored  to  keep  inward,  and  looking 
to  the  Lord,  though  I  could  not  see  or  feel  Him  present ;  yet  I 
believed  it  was  the  only  place  of  safety,  and  the  right  way  to  be 
profited  by  these  stripping  dispensations.  Kone  know  the  feel- 
ings of  destitution,  produced  by  the  absence  of  tho  Beloved  of 
Bouls,  but  those  who  have  been  bound  to  Him  in  tho  everlasting 
covenant,  and  can  be  satisfied  with  nothing  but  the  balm  which 


590  JOURXAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

He  gives,  and  the  fresh  arisings  of  the  Sun  of  Righteousness, 
witli  healing  in  his  wings.  Here  is  exercised  and  known  the 
faith  and  the  patience  of  the  saints.  As  these  are  steadily  kept, 
these  dispensations  purge  man  from  all  confidence  in  his  own 
wisdom  and  strength,  and  bring  him  to  see  that  he  is  nothing; 
and  that  nothing  but  the  renewed  visitation  and  putting  forth 
of  the  blessed  and  compassionate  Saviour,  can  ever  qualify  for 
the  work  of  the  ministry ;  or  any  other  religious  service  in  the 
church. 

10th.  This  morning,  my  wife  and  myself,  went  to  Evesham 
Monthly  Meeting,  New  Jersey.  My  wife  spoke  to  those  pre- 
sent, in  a  sympathizing  and  encouraging  manner,  and  inviting 
them  to  increasing  dedication  and  faithfulness.  The  expressions 
of  our  Lord  to  his  disciples,  saluted  my  mind  with  quickening 
virtue,  "One  is  your  Master,  even  Christ,  and  all  ye  are  breth- 
ren;" and  after  a  time,  I  felt  a  motion  to  revive  them,  with 
those  He  addressed  to  them  at  another  time,  "Ye  call  me  Lord 
and  Master,  and  ye  say  well,  for  so  I  am.  If  I  then,  your  Lord 
and  Master,  have  washed  your  feet,  ye  ought  also  to  wash  one 
another's  feet."  I  was  led  to  treat  on  the  importance  of  being 
baptized  and  washed  by  Him,  and  then  to  be  employed  in  pro- 
moting the  work  of  sanctification  in  others.  As  we  come  into 
this  blessed  experience,  being  born  alike  of  the  Spirit,  we  shall 
be  brethren,  knowing  the  unity  and  fellowship  of  the  gospel 
to  prevail  among  us. 

12th.  Attended  Upper  Evesham  Monthly  Meeting,  held  at 
this  place,  in  which  we  were  both  engaged  in  the  ministry  of 
the  gosjiel;  I  believe  to  the  solemnizing  of  some  present,  whose 
hearts  were  open  to  receive  it. 

13th.  Went  to  Cropwell  Meeting,  being  first-da}^,  which,  it 
was  said,  was  large  for  it.  After  sitting  some  time,  and  feeling 
the  indifference  which  prevails  in  many  on  the  subject  of  reli- 
gion, I  was  led  to  advert  to  the  circumstance,  that  persons  en- 
gaging in  any  business  to  obtain  a  livelihood,  must  be  aware  that 
it  could  not  be  advantageously  conducted  without  steady  atten- 
tion and  diligence.  Valuable  crops  could  not  be  expected  from 
their  farms,  if  they  w^ork  industriously  for  a  short  time,  and 
then  leave  it;  proper  system  and  diligence  are  necessary  to  in- 
sure good  returns;  everything  being  done  in  its  season,  and  care- 
fully looked  after.  So  in  the  great  work  of  salvation,  which  is 
of  far  greater  moment  than  the  provision  for  these  tabernacles 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  591 

of  cla}'.  No  advancemeut  can  be  expected  by  those,  who  for  a 
Bhort  time,  give  up  to  the  convictions  of  duty,  and  then  conclude 
they  may  forbear,  and  let  the  work  drop  for  awhile;  perhaps 
they  think  until  they  have  more  leisure,  or  have  accomplished 
some  worldly  project.  They  may  suppose  religion  can  be  taken 
up  when  they  please;  but  it  is  out  of  our  power  to  command  one 
of  the  days  of  the  Son  of  Man,  by  whom  alone  the  work  is  be- 
gun and  perfected.  None  know  whether  He  will  ever  again 
renew  those  heavenly  visitations.  There  is  a  day  granted  in 
which  man  may  work ;  but  he  may  out-sin  that  day.  It  will 
then  be  impossible  for  him  to  Avork,  and  the  things  that  belong 
to  his  peace  will  be  hid  from  his  eyes,  as  it  was  declared  respect- 
ing the  people  of  Jerusalem,  They  were  eai"nestly  labored  with, 
to  persuade  every  one  deeply  to  consider  these  things,  and  to 
lay  hold  of  the  offers  of  Divine  Grace;  that  they  may  glorify 
God  in  their  day,  and  be  made  partakers  of  the  hope  of  the  gos- 
pel, even  the  salvation  of  the  soul. 

The  retrospect  of  this  little  turn-out,  afforded  a  j)eaceful  feel- 
ing, in  the  belief  that  the  Lord  was  mercifully  with  us,  pre- 
served us  on  the  watch,  so  that  nothing  was  said  or  done  to 
cause  uneasiness ;  and  in  his  goodness  renewedly  qualified,  by 
his  quickening  power,  to  visit  the  lowly  seed,  to  sound  an  alarm 
to  some,  and  to  comfort  them  that  moui'n. 

17th.  To-day  we  went  to  Germantown,  and  were  present  at 
a  marriage.  A  large  number  of  strangers,  not  of  our  Society, 
were  there  ;  to  whom  the  work  of  sanctification,  and  the  faith- 
fulness of  Him,  who  begins  and  carries  it  on  to  the  end,  as  we 
keep  near  to  Him,  was  preached,  I  trust,  in  the  authority  of 
the  Divine  anointing. 

20th.  The  meeting  this  morning  at  Orange  Street,  was  a 
solemn  time  of  ingathering  before  the  Lord,  producing  contri- 
tion, and  raising  in  the  soul  feelings  of  humble  thanksgiving, 
prayer  and  praise,  as  in  the  presence  of  the  Searcher  of  hearts, 
and  the  compassionate  Shepherd  of  the  sheep. 

23d.  Our  Monthly  Meeting  was  held  to-day.  The  subject  of 
purchasing  a  piece  of  ground  out  of  the  city  for  a  gravej'ard, 
was  before  us,  and  the  proposition  to  do  so  adopted.  I  felt 
drawn  to  exj^ress  the  desire,  that  if  it  should  be  accomplished, 
we  might  keep  to  our  plain  way  of  interring  the  dead,  without 
any  kind  of  ornament,  or  monument  about  the  graves.  If  a 
proper  place  is  procured,  safely  and  substantially  inclosed,  and 


592.  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

put  in  charge  of  a  suitable,  trusty  caretaker,  arid  the  bodies 
decently  interred,  it  is  all  we  need.  The  dust  shall  return  to 
the  earth  as  it  was,  and  the  spirit  unto  God  who  gave  it.  But 
if  we  depart,  by  little  and  little,  from  our  religious  testimonies 
to  the  purity  and  simplicity  of  the  gospel  of  Christ,  in  our  hum- 
ble manner  of  living,  or  our  plain  way  of  laying  out  and  bury- 
ing the  dead,  we  shall  fall  by  little  and  little,  and  gradually  lose  ^ 
the  character  we  have  once  had  as  a  body  of  humble,  spiritually- 
minded  Christians.  Several  Friends  expressed  their  full  unity 
with  the  remarks  I  made  on  the  occasion. 

Having  felt  a  religious  concern  to  attend  Buck's  Quarterly 
Meeting,  I  got  m}'-  son-in-law  to  take  me;  and  we  set  out  in  time 
to  reach  Fallsington  before  dusk,  a  distance  of  about  twenty- 
seven  miles,  the  roads  being  good  and  the  weather  mild. 

24th.  During  the  night  the  wind  changed  into  the  northwest, 
and  the  morning  being  clear  and  cool,  I  walked  out  for  exercise, 
and  passing  around  the  old  meeting-house,  its  venerable  and 
plain  appearance,  reminded  mo  of  former  days,  w^hen  Friends 
were  a  united  body  of  people;  among  whom  there  were  many  sub- 
stantial ministers  and  elders,  loving  one  another,  and  the  precious 
cause  of  Truth,  and  zealously  concerned  to  uphold  and  promote 
it  in  the  earth.  Now  there  are  two  meeting-houses,  and  two 
distinct  societies,  calling  themselves  Friends,  who  assemble  on 
this  ground,  but  holding,  in  several  essential  points,  different 
doctrinal  views.  What  a  stumbling  effect,  it  seemed  to  me,  this 
must  have  upon  tender-spirited  persons,  whose  minds  may  be 
drawn  to  look  towards  Friends ;  who,  from  their  rise  have  made 
profession  of  the  inward,  heart-changing  religion  of  our  Lord 
Jesus  Christ.  I  felt  sorrowful  as  I  walked  over  the  grounds, 
and  reflected  on  the  devastation  which  the  world,  and  the  enemy 
of  all  righteousness,  has  effected  among  us. 

The  meeting  convened  at  eleven  o'clock.  The  impression 
came  over  me,  that  in  every  age  of  the  church,  the  Lord  has 
had  his  witnesses,  who  maintained  their  love  and  allegiance 
unto  Him.  Noah  and  his  family  bore  testimony  against  the 
wickedness  of  the  people,  Avhen  it  was  said  that  all  flesh  had 
corrupted  its  way  upon  the  earth.  Lot  was  preserved  in  Sodom, 
when  their  evil  deeds  vexed  his  righteous  soul ;  and  so  I  be- 
lieved there  were  those  preserved  at  this  da}^,  who  mourn  over 
the  degeneracy  that  has  spread  through  our  ])orders,  and  are 
looking  for  better  daj'S.     But  it  appeared  to  me,  that  it  would  not 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVAXS.  593 

do  to  bo  looking  without,  for  this  restoration,  AYhcn  the  Phari- 
sees asked  our  Lord  when  the  kingdom  of  (rod  should  appear, 
lie  told  them,  *'  The  kingdom  of  God  cometh  not  with  observa- 
tion ;  neither  shall  they  say,  Lo  here  I  or  Lo  there !  for  behold 
the  kingdom  of  God  is  within  you."  It  is  in  the  heart  we  must 
witness  it  to  come.  We  have  been  long  contending,  and  in  the 
authority  of  Christ,  for  the  doctrines  of  the  gospel,  and  necessa- 
rily testifying  against  error;  but  it  is  needful  to  guard  against 
transferring  our  religion  from  the  heart  to  the  head,  and  acting 
in  our  own  zeal. 

It  is  the  inside  of  the  cup  and  the  platter  that  is  first  to  be 
cleansed,  and  then  the  outside  will  be  clean  also.  Wo  may  re- 
ceive our  principles  by  education  ;  but  some  were  asked  what 
they  knew  of  Christ  sitting  in  their  hearts  as  a  refiner's  fire, 
and  as  a  fuller  with  soap,  to  purify  them  by  his  baptism  of  the 
Holy  Ghost  and  fire,  and  to  prepare  them  as  temples  for  the 
Lord  God  by  his  Spirit,  to  dwell  in.  At  the  rise  of  Friends, 
many  believed  in  the  fundamental  doctrines  of  the  christian  re- 
ligion, but  were  little  acquainted  with  the  work  of  regenera- 
tion ;  and  Friends  were  sent  forth  to  gather  them  to  the  Light 
and  Grace  with  which  Christ  enlightens  every  man  that  cometh 
into  the  world  ;  that  they  might  experience  this  change  of  heart, 
wrought  by  it  in  them.  This  is  what  we  need  to  be  brought 
back  unto.  One  of  the  principal  men  told  George  Fox,  that  if 
he  had  not  been  sent  to  preach  this  Light  and  Grace,  the  coun- 
try w^ould  have  run  into  ranterism.  I  was  led  to  show  Friends 
the  danger  of  being  drawn  away  by  anything,  from  this  Divine 
guide  and  preseiwing  power,  as  manifested  in  the  heart ;  but  by 
keeping  faithful  to  it,  the  snares  of  the  enemy,  whatever  they 
were,  would  be  detected,  and  power  given  us  over  them  all. 

Then  the  word  of  comfort  for  the  secret  travailing  ones 
sprang  in  my  heart,  whom  I  was  led  to  address  in  the  language 
of  sympathy,  and  assurance  that  the  Lord  would  not  suffer  the 
principles  and  testimonies  given  Friends  to  bear,  to  fall  to  the 
ground ;  but  they  would  3'et  spread  from  sea  to  sea,  and  from 
the  rivers  to  the  ends  of  the  earth,  until  the  kingdoms  of  this 
world  become  the  kingdom  of  our  Lord  and  his  Christ;  and 
from  the  rising  of  the  sun  to  the  going  down  of  the  same,  praises 
as  incense,  would  ascend  from  prepared,  humbled  hearts,  before 
the  throne  of  the  Lord  God  and  of  the  Lamb,  for  his  mercy,  and 
goodness  to  the  children  of  men. 


594:  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Twelfth  month  4th,  "Was  held  our  first  evening  meeting  this 
w^inter  ;  a  part  of  which  was  laborious ;  but  before  the  close,  a 
more  inward,  solemnizing  covering  was  experienced. 

6th.  Went  to  Westtown,  and  attended  the  Quarterly  Meet- 
ing of  the  committee  held  there. 

In  the  meeting  of  the  committee  on  fourth-day,  after  getting 
through  with  the  business,  Samuel  Battle,  Sr.,  remarked,  there 
■was  something  of  importance  which  money  could  not  purchase. 
It  was,  that  Friends  should  be  pi-eserved  under  a  right  exercise, 
that  the  institution  may  be  conducted  in  such  manner,  as  to 
support  the  primitive  doctrines  and  testimonies  of  Friends,  and 
educate  the  children  in  them.  This  was  the  original  concern, 
and  it  had  been  blessed;  and  he  believed,  as  Friends  kept  to 
this  ground,  a  blessing  would  continue  to  rest  upon  the  school. 
He  spoke  in  a  feeling  manner;  and  being  now  in  his  eightieth 
year,  it  seemed  like  a  legacy  left  to  the  younger  members,  who 
might  survive  him,  to  bear  in  mind  in  the  future  management 
of  the  seminary.  It  was  responded  to,  and  had  a  good  effect 
U]ion  the  feelings  of  many.     Eoturned  home  in  the  evening. 

7th.  Was  at  the  Arch  Street  Meeting,  which  was  held  in  as 
deep  silence  as  I  have  almost  ever  known  ;  though  there  was  a 
large  number  of  children  present.  I  was  contemplating  my 
own  imperfections,  and  felt  unworthy  to  be  emj^loyed  in  the 
Lord's  w^ork ;  yet  was  a  little  comforted  in  the  belief,  that  the 
condescending  mercy  and  goodness  of  the  everlasting  Shepherd 
were  round  about,  and  hovering  over  us.  It  is  as  necessary  to 
keep  silence  when  it  is  the  Lord's  will,  as  to  speak  under  hia 
authority.  There  were  children  present,  who  should  be  taught 
by  solemn  silence,  the  nature  of  spiritual  worship,  as  well  as  by 
vocal  testimony. 

21st.  Having  my  mind  drawn  to  the  Western  Meeting, 
which  I  had  not  attended  for  a  long  time,  I  believed  it  right  to 
give  up  to  go  there.  A  solemn  silence  spread  over  the  meeting, 
under  which  wo  sat  a  considerable  time,  and  the  blessedness  of 
having  begotten  in  us  a  true  hunger  and  thirst  after  the  bread 
and  water  of  life,  came  before  me,  attended  wnth  the  conviction, 
that  however  strong  our  desires  may  bo,  Divine  nourishment 
must  be  waited  for.  It  is  out  of  our  power  to  command  it. 
The  Lord  knows  how  long  to  keep  us  in  this  waiting  state,  and 
He  alone  can  and  will  supply  it  in  his  time.  No  imaginary  en- 
joyment, produced  by  creaturely  excitement  or  activity,  is  to 


JOURNAL   OF   -WILLIAM    EVANS.  595 

be  compared  Avith  the  love  of  God  shed  abroad  in  the  heart  by 
the  Holy  Spirit.  This  dependent  state  has  been  the  ground  on 
Avhieh  the  true  disciple  of  Christ  has  stood  ;  and  whatever  may- 
be our  gifts,  experience  or  growth  in  the  Truth,  it  will  always 
remain  to  be  the  ground  on  which  we  must  stand,  to  receive 
ability  to  worship  God  in  spirit,  partake  of  the  supper  of  the 
Lord,  and  rightly  to  engage  in  promoting  the  kingdom  of  the 
Eedeemer. 

Under  the  clothing  of  true  charit}^,  and  the  desire  that  we 
might  be  brought  to  a  living  experience  of  the  substance,  I  was 
enabled  to  invite  all  to  gather  to  Christ,  in  his  inward  appear- 
ance in  the  soul,  not  depending  on  any  other;  for  the  Lord  will 
not  give  his  glory  to  another,  nor  his  praise  to  any  graven  image. 
Also  warning  against  expecting  salvation  without  obeying  Ilim, 
forsaking  their  sins,  and  confessing  Him  before  men. 

27th.  Calamities  of  different  kinds  are  assailing  men.  The 
Turks  and  Eussians  are  now  at  war ;  and  to-day  we  hear  of  a 
naval  engagement  in  which  many  war  ships  were  destroj^ed, 
and  no  doubt  hundreds  of  immortal  souls  launched  into  an  awful 
eternity.  A  great  fire  in  New  York,  this  morning,  burnt  several 
large  shijis ;  one  of  them  said  to  be  the  largest  merchant  vessel 
in  the  world,  entirely  new,  and  loaded  with  a  valuable  cargo. 
These  commotions,  and  the  destruction  of  property,  represent 
the  affairs  of  the  world,  as  affording  little  evidence  of  the  sta- 
bility of  property,  or  the  enjoyment  which  is  expected  to  be  de- 
rived from  it. 

1854,  First  month  8th,  The  weather  cold.  Our  evening 
meeting  Avas  large,  and  the  silence  that  spread  over  us  was  such 
as  might  be  felt,  giving  reason  to  believe  that  the  good  Master 
was  with  us.  There  were,  however,  fears  of  a  disposition  in 
some,  to  look  for  words,  instead  of  gathering  to  the  Master  in 
themselves,  and  laboring  to  wait  for  his  arising,  to  administer 
to  their  states.  Looking  out  to  others,  creates  apprehensions 
that  the  design  of  these  meetings  is  not  answered  ;  and  perhaps 
some  of  us  in  the  station  of  ministers,  may  be  more  anxious  than 
is  proper,  that  the  people  may  not  be  dissatisfied,  so  as  to  for- 
sake them. 

18th.  After  sitting  in  our  week-daj'  meeting,  until  near  time 
to  go  to  the  business  of  the  Preparative  Meeting,  I  felt  afraid  to 
depart  without  reviving  the  circumstance  of  our  Divine  Master, 
the  Son  of  the  Highest,  washing  his  disciples'  feet,  and  wiping 


596  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

them  with  the  towel  with  which  lie  was  girded.  Herein  He 
Bet  us  a  striking  example  of  humility.  He  told  them,  "Ye 
ought  also  to  wash  one  anothei-'s  feet ;"  indicating  that  we 
should  labor  for  one  another's  purification  and  welfare.  It  is 
in  this  spirit  that  we  shall  feel  the  unity  and  fellowship  of  the 
gospel  to  extend  to  one  another,  as  we  have  been  washed  our 
selves,  and  are  kept  clean  by  the  Word  which  He  speaks  to  us. 

22d.  The  evening  meeting  to-day  was  smaller  than  they 
were  at  the  first,  but  it  was  quiet  and  solid.  It  felt  to  me,  that 
Divine  mercy  and  compassion  were  round  about  the  afflicted 
seed  ;  and  that  the  Lord  would  help  and  deliver  these,  though 
the  dragon  may  cast  floods  out  of  his  mouth,  to  sweep  them, 
if  he  could,  from  the  foundation.  But  the  Lord  will  lift  up  his 
Holy  Spirit  as  a  standard  against  him.  The  meeting  closed 
under  a  feeling  of  solemnity. 

Second  month  3d.  My  brother  Thomas  and  myself  having 
undertaken  to  print  a  new  edition  of  Piety  Promoted,  compris- 
ing all  the  volumes  up  to  the  year  1828,  I  have  been  much  en- 
gaged for  a  few  days  in  reading  proofs.  I  have  been  struck 
with  the  great  proportion  of  those  faithful  men  and  women, — 
some  of  whom  attained  great  experience  in  the  Truth, — who 
died  at  a  much  earlier  age  than  mine.  Though  I  have  endeav- 
ored to  perform  what  the  Lord  has  called  me  to  do,  it  seems  but 
little,  and  my  growth  small,  compared  with  many  of  them ;  but 
if  "we  have  the  testimony  of  Divine  acceptance  in  the  end,  it 
will  be  enough. 

An  attempt  is  now  making  to  pass  a  law  in  Congress,  allow- 
ing the  Nebraska  Territor}^,  which  is  a  larger  country  than  all 
the  Free  States  together,  except  California,  to  be  settled  by 
slaveholders  with  their  negroes.  It  lies  north  of  thirty-six  de- 
grees thirty  minutes,  north  latitude,  and  is  part  of  what  was 
ceded  by  the  French  government  to  the  United  States,  then 
called  Louisiana.  At  the  time  Missouri  was  taken  into  the 
Union  as  a  State,  there  was  an  agreement  entered  into  between 
the  Northern  and  Southern  members  of  Congress,  that  slavery 
should  be  forever  excluded  from  all  the  United  States,  north  of 
that  latitude ;  which  agreement  was  called  the  Missouri  Com- 
promise, and  was  acceded  to  as  one  of  the  terms,  of  admitting 
slavery  to  be  introduced  into  the  State  of  Missouri.  At  the  pros- 
pect of  such  a  gross  violation  of  the  faith  of  the  nation,  then 
solemnly  pledged  ;  and  the  spi-eading  of  the  horrible  system  of 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  597 

unconditional  bontlage  over  many  hundred  thousands  of  square 
miles  of  new  country,  the  Committee  of  the  Meeting  for  SutTer- 
ings,  appointed  to  watch  the  movements  of  legislative  bodies,  pre- 
pared an  essay  of  a  memorial  to  Congress,  remonstrating  against 
the  iniquitous  measure,  and  also  reviving  our  testimony  against 
the  slavery  of  the  colored  people. 

At  a  special  meeting  held  to-day,  the  subject  was  duly  con- 
sidered, and  the  essay  united  with ;  a  committee  being  appointed 
to  present  it  to  the  President,  and  both  Houses  of  Congress,  and 
to  have  printed  a  sufficient  number  to  supply  every  member  of 
both  Houses  with  a  copy ;  also  the  Governors  of  the  respective 
States;  and  for  such  further  circulation  as  may  be  judged  need- 
ful. It  is  mournful  to  reflect  upon  the  want  of  principle  mani- 
fested my  many,  who  have  no  scruple  against  enlarging  the 
area  of  the  abominable  crime  of  slaveholding,  if  their  popularity 
can  be  promoted,  so  as  to  gain  offices  in  the  government,  and 
partake  of  the  public  funds,  by  the  aid  of  the  Southern  people ; 
whose  interest,  in  this  case,  they  would  be  thought  to  serve. 
What  will  become  of  our  country,  if  we  are  to  be  ruled  by  men, 
who  disregard  the  principles  of  justice  and  truth,  and  sacrifice 
the  best  interests  and  the  rights  of  the  people,  to  their  own 
aggrandizement.  Friends  have  been  industriously  engaged  in 
obtaining  signatures  to  another  short  remonstrance,  opposing 
the  violation  of  the  Compromise,  and  forwarding  them  to  Wash- 
ington. 

5th.  We  had  a  large  meeting  this  evening  at  the  Arch  Street 
house.  A  solemn  silence,  for  nearly  one  hour,  was  over  the 
assembly ;  and  feeling  my  mind  moved  towards  the  young  peo- 
ple, who  had  been  drawn  into  covenant  with  the  Lord,  I  was 
led  to  address  them  in  the  language  of  the  Psalmist,  "  The  Lord 
God  is  a  sun  and  a  shield  to  all  them  who  walk  uprightly,"  and 
the  declaration  to  Abraham,  "  I  am  thy  shield,  and  thy  exceed- 
ing great  reward." 

6th.  Was  held  our  Quarterl}^  Meeting,  which  was  very  large. 
The  testimonies  of  the  Society  were  advocated,  during  the  time 
of  answering  the  Queries,  and  some  thought  it  was  a  lively 
and  strengthening  opportunity.  At  the  close  of  the  meeting,  I 
was  informed  of  the  decease  of  our  friend  Wm.  Forster,  of  Eng- 
land,  in  Tennessee,  at  a  house  of  entertainment,  about  twelve 
miles  from  Knoxville.  He  had  been  sick  from  four  to  five  weeks, 
and  his  life  terminated  on  the  27th  of  last  month.  The  death 
39 


598  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIA:M    EVANS. 

of  Ruch  a  Friend,  so  fixrfrom  his  native  home,  among  people  not 
Friends,  and  where  probably  manj^  things  necessarj^  to  make 
him  comfortable,  could  not  be  procured ;  after  having  been  en- 
gaged more  than  fifty  years  in  the  service  of  the  cause  of  reli- 
gion, has  very  much  affected  me.  But  if  we  are  prepared  to  be 
carried  by  angels,  into  the  realms  of  ineffable  bliss,  it  matters 
little  what  becomes  of  the  tabernacle  of  clay.  Yet  such  are  the 
tender  feelings  of  near  connections  and  friends,  they  would  de- 
sire to  have  every  comfort  extended  to  body  and  mind  in  the 
last  conflict,  that  it  would  be  in  their  power  to  bestow;  and  that 
the  sufferer  might  be  spared  the  peculiar  trial  and  anxiety,  he 
would  be  likely  to  feel  under  those  circumstances,  of  far  separa- 
tion from  his  near  and  dear  relations.  But  the  Lord  can  sup- 
port, and  make  up  every  deficiency.  He  was  buried,  we  have 
been  informed,  in  the  graveyard  at  Newbeny,  belonging  to 
Friends. 

9th.  The  remonstrance  of  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  has 
been  presented  to  both  Houses,  and  published  in  several  news- 
papers. Some  writers  express  the  opinion  that  the  bill  will  be 
passed  into  a  law;  but  the  Lord  can  defeat  all  their  evil  designs, 
if  He  sees  meet. 

14th.  I  went  to  Quarterly  Meeting  for  business,  at  Concord, 
without  purse  or  scrip,  expecting  to  occupy  a  low  seat  before 
the  Master.  After  several  others  had  spoken,  I  was  led  to  ad- 
dress some,  who  had  departed  from  the  law  written  in  the  heart, 
and  yet  at  times  were  met  with,  as  in  a  narrow  place,  under  the 
convicting  power  of  Truth  ;  by  which  they  were  condemned, 
and  brought  to  see  that  their  ways  do  not  please  God,  and  that 
they  needed  a  change  of  their  course.  These  were  pleaded  with 
in  the  love  of  Christ,  to  yield  to  the  heavenly  vision;  or  the  day 
may  come,  when  in  the  prospect  of  eternity,  they  would  mourn 
over  their  misspent  time,  and  their  slighted  mercies,  when  it 
would  be  too  late  ;  and  wish  they  could  go  back  and  recall  those 
merciful  visitations,  for  wiiich  thej^  then  would  be  willing  to 
part  with  all  they  possessed  ;  but  it  would  bo  out  of  their  power. 
Now,  instead  of  selling  all  to  purchase  the  pearl  of  great  price, 
they  were  selling  their  time,  the  Lord's  gifts,  and  his  calls, 
to  purchase  the  world  and  the  riches  and  honors  of  it.  The 
power  of  the  Lord  appeared  to  be  present,  to  heal  some,  and  to 
gather  them,  from  the  improper  jnirsuit  of  the  Avoi'ld,  unto  him- 
self; and  a  deep  solemnity  spread  over  the  meeting,  tendering 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  599 

the  hearts  of  not  a  few.  It  was  the  Lord's  doings,  and  I  trust 
that  thanksgivings  were  secretly  offered  to  Him  for  his  mercy 
and  condescending  goodness  to  us,  poor  unworthy  creatures. 

When  the  Queries  and  Answers  respecting  pernicious  books 
were  rejtd,  I  felt  an  intimation  to  mention  the  great  danger  of 
reading  novels,  or  any  work  designed  to  invalidate  the  christian 
faith.  I  had  been  enabled  to  hold  such  works  in  detestation; 
but  at  one  time,  a  package  of  goods  sent  to  the  store,  where  I  was 
an  apprentice,  was  wrapped  in  a  printed  sheet,  containing  poison- 
ous sentiments,  and  having  read  a  few  lines,  Satan  beset  me 
many  times  afterwartls,  with  them,  so  that  I  had  much  difficulty 
to  entirely  discard  their  impression.  I  mentioned  it  as  a  warning 
to  the  young  men,  not  to  tamper  with  such  books ;  for  they 
knew  not  the  dangerous  consequences  that  may  result  from, 
them ;  advising  them  to  keep  to  the  Holy  Scriptures,  the  writ- 
ings of  Friends,  and  works  conveying  useful  information. 

On  the  20th,  it  commenced  snowing,  and  continued  about 
twenty-four  hours,  with  a  strong  east  wind.  So  great  were  the 
drifts,  particularly  in  some  of  the  east  and  west  streets  of  our 
city,  that  in  some  business  parts  of  the  tow^n,  the  merchants 
hired  persons  to  cart  the  snow  to  the  river.  We  have  not  had 
so  great  a  fall  of  snow  for  several  years. 

Third  month  5th.  This  has  been  a  peaceful  day  to  me.  At 
supper  this  evening,  during  the  precious  silence,  I  felt  my  heart 
clothed  with  reverence  and  thankfulness,  to  our  gracious  heaven- 
ly Benefactor,  for  his  many  blessings,  temporal  and  spiritual. 
Several  of  our  father's  grand-children,  and  my  sister  H.  Ehoads, 
sitting  around  the  table,  we  adverted  to  the  days  of  our  youth, 
and  felt  as  if  we  had  the  near  unity  and  approbation  of  our  dear 
parents — long  since  entered  the  enjoyment  of  an  everlasting, 
glorious  reward. 

28th.  My  wife  and  I  attended  the  first-day  meeting  at  Spring- 
field, and  next  day  their  Monthly  Meeting  at  Middletown.  To 
me  it  was  pleasant  to  see  so  many  Friends  convene  to  transact 
the  business  of  the  Monthly  Meeting.  It  gave  the  impression, 
that  there  was  an  honest  concern  amongst  them,  to  support  our 
religious  testimonies;  and  I  felt  imited  to  some  who  offer  wil- 
lingly, and  desired  they  might  increase  in  fervent  devotion  to 
the  good  cause  we  are  called  to  advocate  in  the  earth.  So  many 
have  grown  cold  in  their  love  to  the  blessed  Truth,  that  a  con- 
cern was  felt  that  a  remnant  may  be  kept,  through  faith  and 


600  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

obedience,  who  shall  act  iiohl}-  in  the  Lord's  service ;  and  that 
many  more  may  be  drawn  to  join  themselves  to  Him  and  to  his 
cause.  Thus,  from  generation  to  generation,  a  constant  succes- 
sion of  living  witnesses  to  his  power,  in  themselves  and  in  the 
church,  may  be  raised  up,  who  shall  be  clothed  with  a  lively 
zeal  for  the  Lord's  honor,  and  to  lift  up  the  banner  of  Truth 
and  righteousness,  in  the  clearness  and  authority  with  w^hich 
our  first  Friends  displayed  it  before  the  people. 

Fourth  month  15th.  Our  Yearly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and 
Elders  convened  to-day,  and  was  smaller  than  I  ever  witnessed 
it,  since  I  have  been  a  member ;  but  it  was  a  season  of  ingather- 
ing to  the  Master,  and  I  hope  strengthening  to  the  faith  of  some. 
Some  considered  it  one  of  the  most  favored  opportunities  they 
had  experienced  for  years,  resembling  seasons  of  instruction 
before  the  troublous  times  we  have,  in  latter  years,  endured. 

24th.  Our  Yearly  Meeting  for  business  commenced  on  the 
17th,  and  was  smaller  than  usual  on  that  day,  owing  to  the 
snow,  which  had  obstructed  the  roads  in  some  places,  so  as  to 
detain  some  Friends  from  getting  into  the  cit}' ;  and  probably 
delicate  persons  may  have  been  discouraged  from  turning  out 
by  the  inclement  weather. 

While  reading  the  Queries  and  Answers  on  third-day  morn- 
ing and  jifternoon,  there  was  shown  strong  religious  interest  in 
the  support  of  our  christian  testimonies.  Several  Friends  spoke 
pertinently  to  various  departures  from  them,  manifested  by  the 
answers;  and  a  covering  of  solemnity  and  religious  weight 
spread  over  us ;  in  which  I  believe  the  value  of  those  distin- 
guishing testimonies  was  felt  by  many;  and  we  may  hope, 
through  the  illuminating  power  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  their  excel- 
lency may  have  been  felt,  in  an  increased  degree,  and  the  true 
zeal  stirred  for  living  up  to  them  more  faithfully.  The  younger 
part  of  the  meeting  had  the  opportunity  of  hearing  the  instruc- 
tive and  persuasive  remarks  of  some  of  their  elder  brethren, 
whose  services,  no  doubt,  made  deep  and  salutary  impression  on 
their  minds. 

A  few  Friends  were  verbally  appointed  to  draft  a  minute  on 
the  modern  expensiveness  and  show  in  laying  out  the  dead, 
burying  in  grounds  not  under  the  care  of  Friends,  and  against 
monuments  of  wood  or  stone.  In  the  afternoon,  the  same 
Friends  Avere  directed  to  prepare  a  minute  against  a  hireling 
or  man-made  ministry ;  and  admonishing  Friends  to  abstain 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  GOl 

from  going  to  plticen  where  such  a  ministry  is  exercised;  thus 
acting  contrary  to  the  repeated  advice  given  by  the  Yearly 
Meeting. 

Throughout  the  week,  the  business  was  conducted  with  reli- 
gious weight  and  much  harmony ;  every  one,  with  little  ex- 
ception, acting  Avith  much  propriety  and  decorum,  and  show- 
ing a  serious  feeling  of  the  importance  of  holding  such  a 
meeting,  and  that  all  should  conduct  themselves  as  becomes 
the  church  of  God.  The  meeting  closed  on  the  21st,  in 
deep  and  solemn  silence;  under  which,  many  Friends  parted 
in  the  tendering  conviction,  that  we  had  great  cause  reve- 
rently to  bow  before  the  Lord,  and  to  return  thanks  to  his 
great  Name,  for  his  mercy  and  kindness  to  us  poor  unwor- 
thy creatures,  in  uniting  and  solemnizing  us  together,  as  we  had 
been. 

Fifth  month.  I  thought  we  had  a  solid  Quarterly  Meeting; 
the  extracts  brought  over  it  a  solemnity  that  was  felt. 

20th.  I  have  been  several  days  closely  employed  at  my  store, 
assisting  in  the  business,  and  also  in  sending  to  distant  sub- 
scribers, copies  of  Piety  Promoted,  which  my  brother  Thomas 
and  myself,  have  recently  printed.  While  engaged  in  the 
labor,  the  reflection  that  the  valuable  matter  contained  in  this 
work,  will  be  thereby  placed  in  the  hands  of  many  young  peo- 
ple, and  through  the  Divine  blessing,  may  be  the  means  of 
awakening  sons  and  daughters  to  the  work  of  their  soul's  sal- 
vation, compensates  for  all  the  trouble,  and  raises  the  hope,  it 
may  be  instrumental  in  drawing  them  to  the  love  of  the  Truth ; 
that  by  it  they  may  be  prepared  for  service  in  the  church  of 
Christ.  The  hope  of  being  made  use  of  by  the  Lord,  in  turning 
many  to  righteousness,  sweetens  the  labor,  and  gives  the  feeling 
of  not  living  merely  for  pecuniary  gain,  but  at  the  same  time, 
contributing  to  the  spread  of  the  Eedeemer's  kingdom. 

25th.  I  attended  the  Arch  Street  Monthly  Meeting,  which 
was  very  small,  especially  on  the  women's  side,  the  weather  being 
wet.  In  the  first  sitting,  my  mind  was  drawn  into  sympathy  with 
some,  who  feel  discouraged,  by  the  many  evils  which  stand  in 
the  way  of  maintaining  the  cause  of  Truth,  and  are  ready  to 
conclude,  at  times,  they  would  lay  us  waste.  They  were  re- 
ferred to  our  individual  experience  of  the  absence  of  the  Be- 
loved of  souls,  and  to  his  return,  as  we  keep  inward  in  faith 
and  patience ;  by  which  we  are  confirmed  in  his  faithfulness  to 


602  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

US.  We  may  then  safely  hope  and  trust  that  He  will  continue 
to  visit  us  as  a  people,  and  to  raise  up  standard  and  testimony- 
bearers;  and  that  the  principles  of  the  gospel  given  us  to  sup- 
port, will  not  be  permitted  to  fall  to  the  ground.  I  believed 
there  were  those  living,  who  would  see  the  day,  though  I  was 
neither  prophet  nor  prophet's  son,  when  gifts  will  be  given,  to 
be  occupied  in  the  church ;  by  which  the  Lord's  name  will  be 
glorified  amongst  us.  Those  members  who  trample  on  our  tes- 
timonies, and  despise  those  who  keep  to  them,  will  find  it  a  heavy 
burthen,  when  laid  on  a  death  bed,  to  have  turned  any  aside 
from  the  faithful  acknowdedguient  of  them. 

28th.  First-day  morning,  we  had  a  large  meeting  at  our 
house  in  Orange  Street. 

The  language  of  the  apostle,  "  It  is  a  faithful  saying  and  wor- 
thy of  all  acceptation,  that  Jesus  Christ  came  into  the  world 
to  save  sinners,  of  whom  I  am  chief,"  had  been  on  mj'  mind 
from  the  early  part  of  the  meeting.  The  impression  continu- 
ing, I  ventured  to  hold  forth  the  preciousness  of  this  doctrine, 
when  brought  home  with  living  faith,  to  a  soul  borne  down  with 
the  weight  of  sin  and  transgression.  Such  should  remember, 
that  a  mere  belief  of  these  truths,  as  recorded  in  the  New  Tes- 
tament, would  avail  nothing,  unless  they  were  brought  to  realize 
them  in  themselves,  by  receiving  Christ  into  their  hearts.  It 
was  testified,  before  He  came  in  the  prepared  body,  "  Thou  shalt 
call  his  name  Jesus,  for  He  shall  save  his  people  from  their  sins." 
If  He  is  received  in  the  heart,  He  will  pull  down  the  kingdom 
of  Satan,  bind  him  and  cast  him  out,  spoil  all  his  goods,  and 
make  the  heart  a  fit  temple  for  Himself,  by  his  Holy  Sj)irit, 
to  dwell  in.  He  will  not  dwell  in  a  defiled  heart,  though  He 
causes  his  light  to  shine  there  at  times,  to  show  man  his  lost  con- 
dition ;  but  this  is  not  by  way  of  union  with  him  or  taking  up 
his  habitation  there;  that  is  experienced  only  as  man  is  changed, 
and  becomes  a  partaker  of  the  Divine  nature.  The  doctrine  of 
christian  perfection,  or  freedom  from  sin,  was  also  held  forth. 
It  was  a  good  meeting,  and  I  hope  tended  to  the  strength  of  the 
right-minded,  and  to  the  awakening  of  some. 

Sixth  month  4th.  Feeling  my  mind  very  unexpectedly  turn- 
ed to  tlie  North  Meeting,  I  went  there  this  morning.  The  com- 
pany was  large,  especially  on  the  women's  side.  I  was  favored 
to  keep  inward  in  a  waiting  state,  when  the  very  important 
testimony  to  spiritual  worship  was  brought  before  me  ;  also  the 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  G03 

great  loss  which  is  sustained  by  living  to  the  world.  None  cau 
grow  in  the  Truth,  without  experiencing  the  worship  of  God, 
w^hich  is  in  spirit  and  in  truth.  It  is  the  christian's  life,  wherein 
ho  keeps  the  Avatcli,  maintains  the  warfare,  and  receives  ability 
to  pray  for  daily  food,  and  for  preservation,  and  to  return  thanks 
and  adoration  before  the  Father  of  mercies  for  all  his  numerous 
benefits.  The  indispensable  necessity  of  experiencing  it,  and  of 
attending  our  religious  meetings,  when  health  permits,  was  im- 
pressed, and  the  young  men  were  invited  to  faithfulness  in  this 
respect. 

27th.  Having  for  some  time  felt  a  draft  of  affection  towards 
the  little  company  composing  Galloway  Meeting,  at  Leeds' 
Point,  in  New  Jersey,  my  wife  and  myself  met  our  friends  S. 
and  B.  N.,  at  Haddonfield,  on  seventh-day  morning,  the  24th, 
and  proceeded  in  the  cars  about  half  the  distance,  when  we 
took  a  stage,  and  reached  J.  L.'s  before  dusk.  He  and  his 
kind  wife  gave  us  a  pleasant  reception.  On  first-day  morning 
the  weather  was  fine,  which  made  walking  to  the  meeting-house 
easy.  We  understood  the  company  was  harger  than  usual,  and 
appeared  to  be  a  sober  people ;  many  were  w^atermen,  who  trade 
from  that  neighborhood.  They  maintained  stillness  during  the 
silence  of  the  meeting.  "We  were  both  engaged  in  the  ministry, 
setting  forth  the  work  of  sanctification  in  the  heart,  and  encour- 
aging the  sincere  christian,  to  hokl  on  his  way,  in  following  his 
Lord  and  Master.  My  wife  closed  with  solemn  supplication  for 
those  who  had  wandered  from  the  flock,  into  the  wilderness, 
and  for  the  afllicted  and  depressed  travellers,  who  are  longing 
for  their  own,  and  the  salvation  of  others. 

jS'ext  morning,  we  rode  to  Absecom,  about  six  miles,  to  take 
the  cars,  and  reached  our  own  homes  before  nine  o'clock. 

Many  calculations  of  profit  are  made  by  the  projectors  of  this 
railroad,  running  across  'New  Jersey.  The  enterprise  of  men  fur- 
nishes many  accommodations  and  facilities,  to  promote  the  pur- 
poses of  all  classes  ;  which  are  highly  useful  to  the  great  human 
family.  But  it  is  to  be  lamented  that,  in  the  midst  of  much  use- 
fulness to  others,  in  a  temj)oral  point  of  view,  so  many  appear 
to  neglect  the  "one  thing  needful,"  a  daily  preparation  of  the 
soul  for  a  blissful  eternity,  through  waiting  upon  and  serving 
God  according  to  his  blessed  and  holy  will,  revealed  in  the 
heart.  This  dedication  to  Him,  would  not  interfere  with  right 
things,  in  the  way  of  our  lawful  vocations,  but  it  would  enable 


604  JOURNAL   OF   AVILLIAM    EVANS. 

men,  under  the  poAver  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  to  keep  the  world 
under  foot;  holding  everything  pertaining  to  it,  in  a  secondary 
place ;  and  above  all,  laboring  to  exalt  the  name  of  our  God, 
and  the  kingdom  of  his  dear  Son,  the  Lord  Jesus  Christ.  lu 
this  state,  there  would  be  a  hamnonious  walking  with  Him, 

^and  the  true  welfare  of  each  other  would  be  sought  and  pro- 

V  moted. 


CHAPTER    XXX. 

1854—1855. 


Eeligioiis  Visit  to  the  Yearly  Meeting  of  Ohio,  and  some  Meetings  belonging 
to  it — Resumption  of  Labors  at  Home. 

1854,  Seventh  month  26th.  Having  had  a  j^rospect  of  visit- 
ing some  meetings  in  Ohio,  and  attending  the  Yearly  Meeting, 
if  the  way  should  open  for  it,  I  mentioned  the  concern  to  the 
Monthly  Meeting,  which  made  a  minute  of  its  unity,  setting 
me  at  liberty  to  attend  to  the  prospect,  as  Truth  should  direct. 

Eighth  month  6th.  First-day  morning.  I  was  strengthened 
to  lay  before  the  young  people  the  blessedness  of  an  early  sur- 
render to  the  visitations  of  the  Shepherd  and  Bishop  of  souls. 
He  has  gracious  designs  concerning  all  of  us,  and  if  submitted 
to,  will  prepare  for  a  place  in  his  church.  Samuel  was  called 
in  childhood,  and  shown  the  degeneracy  of  the  house  of  Eli,  and 
was  finally  made  a  jirophct,  and  he  judged  Israel  many  years. 
Christ  compared  the  kingdom  of  heaven  to  an  householder,  who 
went  out  early  in  the  morning  to  hire  laborei'S  to  work  in  his 
vineyard.  Young  people  who  are  devoted  to  the  Truth,  have 
their  trials,  but  He  who  began  the  work  of  their  regeneration, 
will  carry  it  on,  sustain  and  defend  them,  and  when  He  sees 
proper,  cheer  them  with  glimpses  of  the  beauty  of  the  bride, 
the  Lamb's  wife,  the  redeemed  and  sanctified  church,  and  raise 
fervent  desires  to  be  purified,  and  made  members  of  it. 

7th.     My  beloved  brother  Charles  came  down  this  morning, 


JOURNAL   OP  WILLIAM   EVANS.  605 

and  offered  to  accompany  mc  through  the  visit  to  Ohio,  which 
was  truly  acceptable  and  encouraging. 

12th.  This  morning,  on  going  to  my  store,  I  found  a  letter 
from  ni}'  beloved  and  honorable  friend  Hannah  Gibbons.  I 
thought  it  I'emarkablo  that  she  should  feel  so  much  for  me, 
without  knowing  the  exercise  I  was  passing  through.  It  was 
reviving  and  tendering  to  my  spirit,  and  I  still  hoped  the  Lord 
would  east  up  a  safe  path  for  me  to  walk  in.     It  is  as  follows  : 

West  Chester,  Eighth  month  11th,  1854. 
My  Dear  Friend  and  Brother  in  the  Truth,  William 
Evans  : — My  mind  has  been  so  much  in  sympathy  with  thee, 
since  hearing  of  thy  present  prospect  of  religious  service,  that, 
though  feeble  in  body,  1  do  not  feel  quite  satisfied  without  tell- 
ing thee  of  it ;  with  desires  for  thy  encouragement  in  the  line 
of  religious  duty ;  well  knowing  that  it  is  not  the  path  we  would 
choose  for  ourselves,  but  that  which  leads  to  peace,  far  surpass- 
ing all  mundane  enjoyments.  There  is  an  ojopressed  seed  with- 
in the  compass  of  Ohio  Yearly  Meeting  ,*  who,  I  have  no  doubt, 
often  go  mourning  on  their  way,  when  the  secret  language  of 
their  hearts  may  be,  "  Spare  thy  people,  O  Lord,  and  give  not 
thine  heritage  to  reproach."  These,  I  believe,  will  be  glad  of 
thy  company,  the  aid  of  thy  sj^irit,  and,  I  trust,  gospel  labors. 
The  silent  query  has  more  than  once  arisen  in  my  mind,  of  lat- 
ter time.  Will  not  William  Evans  feel  drawn  to  attend  the  ap- 
pi-oaehing  Yearly  Meeting  of  Ohio  ?  And  when  I  heard  thou 
felt  an  engagement  that  way,  I  may  say  a  feeble  tribute  of 
thanksgiving  arose,  in  believing  that  the  Lord  of  the  harvest  is 
still  mindful  of  his  children ;  those  who  are  desirous  of  serving 
Him  in  sincerity  and  faith ;  and  is  furnishing  fellow-helpers,  in 
the  arduous  field  of  labor.  Truly  there  is  strength  in  unity  ; 
and  where  there  is  a  want  of  it,  how  does  weakness  prevail ! 
Yet  I  do  believe  the  great  I  Am  will  be  with  those  whom  He 
hath  anointed  and  sent  foi'th,  strengthening  them  for  his  work, 
and  feeding  them  with  food  convenient  for  them.  And  though 
thou  may  meet  with  opposing  spirits,  dear  friend,  yet  as  the 
clothing  of  thy  mind  continues  to  be  that  of  humility,  I  trust 
thou  wilt  be  enabled,  from  time  to  time,  to  put  the  armies  of  the 
aliens  to  flight;  and  the  language  of  thy  heart,  at  seasons,  will 
be,  "  Thanks  be  to  God  who  giveth  us  the  victory,  through  our 
Lord  Jesus  Christ."     The  encouraging  language,  recorded  in 


606  JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Holy  Writ,  now  urises,  "  Fear  not,  for  I  am  with  thee;  be  not 
dismayed,  for  I  am  thy  God.     I  will  strengthen  thee,  yea,  I 
"will  help  thee,  yea,  I  will  uphold  thee  w4th  the  right  hand  of 
lay  righteousness." 
*  *  *  *  *  * 

My  dear  friend,  thy  precious  wife  has  a  full  share  of  my  sym- 
pathy ;  not  doubting  that  she  will  be  supported  during  thy  ab- 
sence, by  Him  whom  she  desires  above  every  other  desire  to 
serve;  and  I  believe  has  cause  to  say,  "Hitherto  the  Lord  hath 
helped  me."  The  foregoing  may  serve  to  let  you  know  that  you 
have  the  sympalh}^  and  unity  of  a  feeble,  almost  worn-out  sis- 
ter;  and  in  feelings  of  tenderness  and  aftection, 
I  remain  your  friend, 

Hannah  Gibbons. 

21st.  Second-day  morning.  My  brother  Charles,  who  had 
kindly  offered  to  be  my  companion  through  Ohio,  met  me  at  the 
depot,  and  we  left  for  Pittsburg.  The  road  through  Pennsyl- 
vania, along  the  Susquehanna  and  Juniata  Rivers,  is  exceedingly 
j)icturesque  and  interesting;  running  through  a  mountainous 
countr}^,  and  many  towns  and  villages,  some  of  them  flourishing 
and  fast  increasing.  Passing  up  the  railroad,  over  the  Alle^ha- 
nies,  by  steam-power,  is  a  new  feature  in  travelling;  and  when 
near  the  edge  of  vast  precipices,  the  idea  of  the  connecting  links 
of  the  cars  breaking,  or  other  causes,  overturning  us  into  the 
deep  ravines,  creates  a  sensation  of  fear  and  shrinking  from  the 
terrible  consequences  that  would  follow;  but  this  is  an  interest- 
ing and  expeditious  mode  of  travelling,  as  well  as  comfortable, 
when  preserved  to  get  safely  to  the  end  of  the  journey.  We 
reached  Pittsburg,  between  twelve  and  one  o'clock,  p.  m.  After 
breakfast,  the  next  morning,  we  went  over  to  Alleghany  City, 
and  took  the  Cleveland  cars  for  Salem.  We  reached  the  station- 
house  there,  about  eleven  o'clock ;  where  we  found  our  kind 
friend  Jehu  Fawcett,  waiting  to  accompany  us  to  his  house. 
The  hearty  manner  in  which  he  met  us,  was  cheering.  Sitting 
in  his  house,  I  felt  peaceful. 

23d.  Salem  Monthly  Meeting  was  held  here,  which  we  at- 
tended ;  the  company  was  quite  large.  After  some  time  of  en- 
during poverty  and  emptiness,  I  was  led  to  hold  up  the  import- 
ance of  keeping  with  the  seed  under  suffering,  that  we  may  fill  up 
our  measure  of  it;  and  in  the  bumbling,  stripping  dispensations 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  607 

•we  have  to  pass  through,  we  may  experience  a  growth  in  the 
blessed  Truth.  After  relieving  mj  mind  of  the  subjects  that 
were  brought  before  me,  I  felt  the  spirit  of  supplication,  on  be- 
half of  those  who  were  bearing  heavy  burdens,  and  was  con- 
strained to  bow  the  knee,  and  implore  the  merciful  and  tender 
regard  of  the  Lord,  our  Holy  Helper,  on  their  behalf. 

We  went  out  about  a  mile  to  our  beloved  friend  David  Faw- 
cett's;  dined  with  him  and  his  children,  and  had  a  little  oppor- 
tunity with  them  ;  in  which  the  tendering  power  of  the  Holy 
Spirit  was  felt. 

24th.  Fifth-day.  Our  friend  David  Fawcett,  inclining  to 
accompany  us  to  the  remaining  meetings  in  this  neighboidiood, 
called  upon  us  this  morning,  and  took  us  over  to  New  Garden, 
It  was  a  pretty  large  collection  ;  among  whom  I  had  some  ser- 
vice ;  and  after  the  Monthly  Meeting,  we  went  to  a  Friend's  and 
dined.  A  number  of  Friends  came  in,  to  whom  I  felt  di-awn  to 
speak  on  the  importance  of  bringing  up  children  in  the  nurture 
and  admonition  of  the  Lord ;  restraining  them  from  evil  com- 
pan}^  and  practices.  Were  they  rightly  concerned  to  fulfil  their 
duties  to  their  beloved  oftspring,  they  and  the  dear  children 
would  reap  the  benefit  of  it.  As  they  come  under  the  3-oke  of 
Christ,  they  would  be  united  together  in  the  fellowship  of  the 
gospel,  and  be  as  marrow  to  the  bones  of  their  religiously  exer- 
cised parents.  Took  an  aff'ectionate  leave  of  these  dear  Friends, 
and  rode  about  seven  miles  to  E.  M.'s,  near  Hanoverton. 

25th.  Attended  Sandy  Spring  Monthly  Meeting;  in  which 
the  work  among  them  was  laborious,  but  I  endeavored  to  do 
what  the  Master  required. 

26th.  We  went  to  Springfield  Monthly  Meeting,  at  Damas- 
coville.  Here  I  was  opened  on  the  declaration  of  our  Saviour, 
"By  this  shall  all  men  know  that  ye  are  my  disciples,  if  ye  love 
one  another,"  and  on  the  impoi"tance  of  knowing  the  love  of 
God  shed  abroad  in  our  hearts.  The  nearer  we  approach  a  bet- 
ter world,  the  more  earnest  we  ought  to  feel,  to  be  imbued 
therewith  ;  that  we  may  be  prepared  for  the  society  of  saints 
and  angels,  and  the  spirits  of  just  men  made  perfect.  In  this 
world,  this  Divine  clothing  would  put  an  end  to  all  animosities, 
wars  and  fightings,  and  whether  present  or  absent,  we  should 
be  as  epistles  written  in  one  another's  hearts  ;  not  with  ink  and 
pen,  but  by  the  Spirit  of  the  living  God.  It  woidd  draw  the 
children  to  the  parents,  and  the  parents  to  the  children,  and 


608  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

they  would  unite  in  going  up  to  the  mountain  of  the  Lord,  the 
house  of  the  God  of  Jacob,  who  would  teach  them  his  w^ays,  and 
strengthen  them  to  walk  in  his  paths. 

27th.  First-day  morning.  Our  kind  friend  Jehu  Fawcett, 
took  us  to  Middletown,  about  twelve  miles  ;  where  we  attended 
the  meeting,  and  had  to  feel  with  some  who  seemed  to  have 
greatly  let  fall  the  daily  religious  exercise,  which  every  living 
member  ought  to  experience.  Some  things  were  set  closely 
home,  in  that  love  and  concern  which  seeks  the  everlasting 
welfare  of  every  class ;  which  I  believe  had  something  of  an 
arousing  effect.  We  believed  there  were  honest-hearted  ones 
preserved  amongst  them,  who  are  sincerely  concerned  for  the 
right  support  of  the  cause  and  testimonies  of  Christ,  and  feel 
for  the  low  estate  of  others,  and  on  account  of  their  unfaithful- 
ness. I  had  some  service  there  to  my  own  satisfaction  and 
peace.  We  dined  with  our  ancient  friend  William  Heald,  and 
the  widow  of  his  son  Abner  Heald,  who  was  a  minister.  The 
old  Friend,  between  eighty  and  ninety,  has  the  use  of  his  facul- 
ties, and  appears  to  be  desirous  of  the  welfare  of  the  Society, 
and  the  maintenance  of  its  doctrines  and  testimonies. 

28th.  Jehu  Fawcett  having  made  provision  for  taking  my 
brother  and  myself  with  him  and  his  wife,  to  Mount  Pleasant, 
in  the  afternoon,  we  left  his  agreeable  residence,  and  rode  to  our 
fi'iend  R.  M.'s,  near  Hanoverton,  about  twelve  miles  from 
Salem. 

29th.  We  took  an  early  start,  having  a  long  day's  drive  be- 
fore us  J  over  a  hilly  country,  the  weather  warm  and  very  dry, 
and  the  roads  dusty.  At  the  tavern  where  we  dined,  water  was 
Bcarce.  Towards  evening,  we  got  to  a  Friend's  house,  not  far 
from  Smithfield,  and  were  kindly  received.  Here  the  drought 
was  so  great,  that  there  was  nothing  left  in  the  fields  that  the 
cattle  could  subsist  on  ;  and  they  told  us  they  had  been  obliged 
to  give  them  hay,  &c.,  for  about  three  weeks.  Water  was  also 
so  scarce,  that  they  had  to  drive  their  herds  and  flocks  some 
miles  to  get  suflScient  for  them.  The  appearance  of  the  country 
was  desolate  and  mournful ;  and  I  thought  should  induce  a  hum- 
ble consideration  of  our  dependence  on  Divine  Providence  for 
the  means  to  sustain  life;  and  also  self-examination  of  our  ac- 
tions, in  the  light  of  the  Lord,  that  wo  may  profit  by  the  dis- 
pensations of  his  chastising  hand;  and  experience  greater 
redemption  from  the  love  of  the  world,  and  devote  our  time  and 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  609 

our  talents  more  constantly  to  the  work  which  He  would  ap- 
point for  us  to  do. 

30th.  We  attended  Smithfield  Meeting,  which  was  larger 
than  usual,  a  marriage  being  accomplished,  which  drew  some 
to  it.  Feeling  a  concern  gathering  over  my  mind,  for  some  who 
had  known  better  days,  and  on  account  of  the  great  change  that 
had  taken  place  in  the  membei's,  in  part  produced  hy  the  death 
of  some  substantial  ministers,  I  was  led  to  advert  to  it,  and  men- 
tioned the  language  of  Scripture,  "  Your  fathers,  where  are  they  ; 
and  the  prophets,  do  they  live  forever?"  Those  were  removed 
to  their  everlasting  reward;  and  there  was  but  one  way  by 
which  any  could  be  prepared  to  succeed  them,  in  these  stations 
in* the  church,  and  that  was  by  submitting  to  the  humbling,  re- 
generating power  of  the  grace  of  God.  Some  were  called  upon 
to  recur  to  the  kindness  of  their  youth,  the  love  of  their  espous- 
als, how  they  followed  the  Lord  in  his  leadings  into  the  wilder- 
ness ;  and  to  examine  whether  the  same  love  and  devoteduess 
to  Him  was  now  felt,  which  they  then  experienced.  If  not, 
there  was  nothing  in  the  world  that  could  make  up  for  their 
loss  ;  and  if  in  his  continued  mercy,  they  were  favored  with 
renewed  visitations  of  his  love,  and  the  calls  of  his  Holy  Sj^irit, 
it  would  be  their  highest  interest  to  yield  to  them,  that  they- 
might  be  favored  with  the  enjoyment  of  the  true  peace  and 
heavenly  love  they  had  once  known. 

31st.  Attended  the  meeting  at  Harrisville,  and  returned  to 
N.  H.'s,  whei'e  we  staid  that  night ;  and  next  morning  were 
taken  by  him  to  Flushing,  where  we  had  an  appointed  meeting, 
which  was  a  favored  time  in  testimony  and  supplication. 

Ninth  month  2d.  Seventh-day.  Eode  to  Mount  Pleasant, 
and  put  up  at  the  school-house,  and  I  attended  the  Yearl}'-  Meet- 
ing of  Ministers  and  Elders. 

First-day.     Two  large  meetings  for  worship  were  held. 

9th.  The  Yearly  Meeting  was  held  this  week ;  but  little 
business  being  transacted  on  second  and  third-days.  Forty- 
two  representatives  met ;  and  twelve  of  them,  contrary  to  the 
expressed  opinions  of  the  others,  determined  to  take  forward 
the  names  of  two  men,  for  clerk  and  assistant,  which  the  others 
protested  against ;  and  twenty-eight  desired  a  Friend  to  report 
that  the  representatives  were  not  able  to  agree ;  which  was 
done.  The  existing  clerk  informed  the  meeting,  that  according 
to  the  practice  of  that  Yearly  Meeting,  he  should  make  a  min- 


610  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

lite  continuing  and  apj)ointing  the  present  clerks,  B.  Iloyle  and 
William  S.  Bates,  as  clerk  and  assistant;  with  which  many- 
Friends  expressed  their  unity.  The  two  members,  nominated 
by  the  twelve  representatives,  being  urged  by  their  party,  to 
take  their  seats  at  the  table,  went  up  and  sat  alongside  of  B.  H.  ; 
when  he  informed  them  that  their  attempt  was  an  act  of  sepa- 
ration. Their  proceeding  was  spoken  against ;  but  being  re- 
peatedly called  upon  to  make  a  minute,  one  of  them  made  an 
entry  of  their  being  reported  by  a  part  of  the  representatives 
for  clerks,  and  that  they  were  appointed  ;  Friends,  in  the  mean- 
time, objecting  to  it.  After  sitting  between  three  and  four 
hours,  the  meeting  adjourned,  B.  Hoyle  making  the  minute. 
Previously  two  women  Friends  inquired  the  hour  to  which  m^n 
Friends  would  adjourn,  but  the  meeting  not  having  decided, 
they  were  requested  to  adjourn  to  the  same  hour  at  which 
the  men's  meeting  should  decide  to  convene.  AVhen  Friends  left 
the  house,  the  separatists  kept  their  seats,  and  adjourned  to 
eight  o'clock;  two  hours  earlier  than  Friends  had  agreed  to 
meet.  The  separatists  met  accordingly,  and  broke  up  their 
meeting,  just  as  we  were  collecting,  which  was  considerate  on 
their  part. 

My  feelings  were  mournful  at  witnessing  another  separation 
in  that  house,  after  a  lapse  of  twenty-six  years ;  yet  I  could 
not  see  that  Friends  could  have  acted  in  any  other  way,  con- 
sistently with  order,  and  the  practice  of  their  own  Yearly 
Meeting.  The  meeting  read  the  epistles  addressed  to  it ;  read 
the  Queries  and  Answers  thereto ;  decided  to  establish  a  new 
Quarterly  Meeting,  to  be  composed  of  that  part  of  Stillwater 
Quarterly  Meeting,  which  lies  on  the  west  side  of  the  Muskin- 
gum Tliver;  appointed  a  committee  to  visit  and  aid  the  subordi- 
nate meetings,  in  this  season  of  severe  trial ;  with  divers  other 
subjects,  including  epistles  to  the  other  Yearly  Meetings,  and 
concluded  under  a  solemn  quiet. 

Our  friend  ILL.,  residing  near  Mount  Pleasant,  having  offer- 
ed to  take  lis  in  his  carriage  to  the  meetings  in  Stillwater  Quar- 
terly Meeting,  we  rode  out  in  the  afternoon  to  a  Friend's,  at 
Plainfield.  The  next  morning,  before  leaving  this  family,  I  had 
an  opportunity  with  them,  encouraging  the  young  Friends  to 
greater  dedication,  and  a  deeper  indwelling  with  the  Spirit  of 
Christ,  that  they  may  be  prepared  thereby,  to  discharge  their 
duties  in  the  church,  and  to  their  children. 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  611 

10th.  "We  reached  B.  H.'s  about  ten  o'clock,  and  went  to 
their  meeting  at  Stillwater;  which  was  a  pretty  large  company. 
It  was  a  laborious  time  to  me,  yet  attended,  I  hope,  with  en- 
couragement to  the  burden-beai-ers,  and  the  sincere-hearted 
among  them.  In  the  afternoon,  w^e  visited  AVm.  Green,  and  his 
wife  and  family,  who  are  rightly  concerned  and  interesting 
Friends;  the  visit  Avas  to  my  satisfaction,  a  number  of  young 
persons  coming  in. 

11th.  We  set  out  pretty  early  this  morning,  for  the  Muskin- 
gum settlements,  having  the  company  of  several  Friends  return- 
ing to  their  homes  beyond  that  river,  and  rode  about  forty  miles, 
dining  at  a  tavern,  and  lodged  at  a  house  of  private  entertain- 
ment. The  landlord  was  a  Methodist,  and  an  intelHgent  man  ; 
with  whom  I  had  some  conversation  on  the  doctrine  of  christian 
perfection,  and  being  made  free  from  sin  in  this  life.  He  thought 
there  was  danger  of  a  man  thinking  himself  free  from  sin,  and 
trusting  to  his  own  righteousness.  I  told  him  the  more  we 
were  brought  to  experience  the  sanctifying  power  of  Divine 
Grace,  the  more  humble  would  be  our  opinion  of  ourselves  ;  and 
the  more  we  should  depend  upon  the  Lord  Jesus  to  make,  and 
to  keep  us  so.  Christ  said  to  the  people,  "  Be  ye  perfect,  even 
as  your  Father,  which  ia  in  heaven,  is  perfect."  He  loved  the 
church  and  gave  Himself  for  it,  that  He  might  present  it  to 
Himself  a  glorious  church,  not  having  spot  or  wrinkle,  or  any 
such  thing,  but  that  it  should  be  holy  and  without  blemish.  Also, 
that  He  might  purify  unto  Himself  a  peculiar  people,  zealous 
of  good  works.  He  did  not  deny  this,  yet  did  not  seem  quite 
ready  to  receive  the  doctrine.  Next  morning  we  had  fui-ther 
convei'sation  on  another  point,  in  which  he  was  at  difficulty, 
and  said  he  thought  the  passage  I  quoted,  respecting  being  per- 
fect, was  designed  for  the  apostles.  I  reminded  him  that  it  was 
contained  in  the  Sermon  on  the  Mount,  which  was  addi-essed  to 
all  his  disciples,  and  was  applicable  to  the  multitude,  as  well 
as  to  us,  also,  in  this  day.  We  heard  afterwards  that  he  ex- 
pressed much  satisfaction  with  our  visit,  to  some  Friends  who 
called  and  took  breakfast  with  them  after  we  had  gone.  It  is 
always  cheering  to  meet  with  sincere,  religious  people,  let  their 
christian  profession  be  as  it  may,  and  to  find  they  have  some 
experience  of  the  work  in  themselves. 

12th.     We  rode  to  McConnellsville,  crossed  the  Muskingum, 


612  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

and  put  up  at  our  frieud  John  Patton's,  who  belongs  to  Hope- 
well Meeting. 

13th.  Had  an  appointed  meeting  here,  in  which  I  felt  de- 
pressed, also  not  well  in  health.  But  I  was  raised  up  to  declare 
the  way  of  salvation,  to  the  disobedient,  and  the  awful  conse- 
quences of  out-sinning  the  day  of  their  visitation.  The  honest- 
hearted,  and  the  poor  of  the  flock,  were  exhorted  to  hold  fast 
the  grain  of  true  faith,  in  their  lowest  seasons ;  and  the  Lord 
would  assuredly  come  again  to  them ;  the  meal  in  the  barrel  should 
not  waste,  nor  the  cruse  of  oil  fail,  until  He  sent  forth  fresh 
supplies  of  temporal  and  spiritual  food.  Some  saluted  us  with 
much  affection,  and  their  countenances  showed  they  had  felt  the 
tendering  power  of  Truth,'  to  contrite  their  spirits.  J.  P.  and 
his  wife,  met  us  here,  and  took  us  to  their  house  at  Pennsville, 
where  we  were  kindly  and  agreeably  entertained. 

l-4th.  Attended  Pennsville  Monthly  Meeting.  In  the  first 
meeting,  I  could  come  at  nothing  like  authority  for  the  work 
of  the  ministry,  and  at  a  suitable  time.  Friends  proceeded 
in  transacting  the  business.  Near  the  close,  I  was  impressed 
with  a  concern  to  call  Friends  to  a  closer  attention  to  their  re- 
ligious duties ;  that  they  might  show  forth  the  excellent  fruits 
of  the  Spirit,  by  setting  the  candle  on  the  candlestick,  that  all 
might  see  the  light;  not  putting  it  under  a  bed  of  ease,  or  under 
a  bushel,  in  the  multitude  of  worldly  pursuits.  Christ  told  his 
disciples,  they  were  the  light  of  the  world,  and  that  they  were 
to  let  their  light  shine,  that  others,  seeing  their  good  works,  may 
glorify  our  Father,  which  is  in  heaven.  I  was  also  concerned 
to  remind  parents  of  the  responsibility  of  their  station,  as  shep- 
herds and  shepherdesses  over  the  lambs  committed  to  their 
trust ;  of  the  necessity  of  setting  them  a  proper  example,  of 
restraining  them  from  evil,  and  to  bring  them  up  in  the  nurture 
and  admonition  of  the  Lord. 

16th.  We  attended  Chesterfield  Monthly  Meeting;  in  the 
first  sitting,  I  was  renewedly  helped  to  preach  the  gospel  of  life 
and  salvation,  to  comfort  the  moui*ners  in  Zion,  and  to  stir  up 
the  young  and  the  middle-aged  to  greater  faithfulness.  If  any 
good  is  done,  it  is  from  the  Lord.  We  are  unprofitable  ser- 
vants; He  can  work  with  or  without  us.  In  the  afternoon,  T. 
P.  went  with  us  to  Plymouth. 

17th.     Eode  down  to  a  nieeting  called  Southland,  being  first- 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  613 

ilay.  Tliis  was  a  Uiborious  time  to  me;  it  seemed  hard  to  find 
tlie  stepping  sIodos. 

18th.  Attended  Plymouth  Monthly  Meeting;  which  Avas  quite 
large,  many  goodly  looking  young  men  belonging  to  it.  I  had 
'service  among  them  relating  to  the  occupancy  of  gifts  in  the 
cluirch,  bestowed  by  our  adorable  Head,  and  Minister  of  the 
sanctuary,  upon  those  whom  He  has  prepared,  by  the  washing 
of  regeneration,  and  the  renewing  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  to  receive 
them.  I  believe  there  were  those  in  that  meeting  whom,  if 
they  continue  faithful,  He  would  make  judges  and  counsellors, 
as  they  steadfastly  followed  his  Divine  leadings.  The  business 
was  transacted  with  religious  weight,  and  sweetness  of  spirit 
and  manner  tOAvai'ds  one  another.  Several  Friends  from  other 
meetings  were  there.  The  Friends  with  whom  we  took  dinner, 
were  truly  kind,  in  accommodating  us  with  an  early  start  after 
the  meeting,  to  enable  us  to  get  on  that  afternoon,  so  as  to  reach 
Somerset  by  the  next  evening. 

We  got  a  list  of  the  towns  to  enquire  for  on  our  w^ay,  and  by 
industrious  travelling,  reached  a  house  of  private  entertainment, 
about  dusk,  having  crossed  the  Muskingum,  and  ridden  about 
seventeen  or  eighteen  miles. 

19th.  Eose  early,  but  the  tediousness  of  those  who  prepared, 
breakfast,  detained  us  unnecessarily.  We  rode  about  twenty-five 
miles  before  we  could  obtain  food  for  ourselves  and  horses,  with- 
out stopping  too  early  in  the  day.  The  road  over  which  we 
travelled,  was  in  bad  condition,  in  some  places,  and  very  hilly; 
there  being  no  place  in  this  half-day's  drive,  in  which  there  was 
half  a  mile  of  level,  plain  road  continuous.  We  set  out  again, 
and  when  we  drew  near  to  Somerset,  the  road  improved,  though 
still  crossing  a  continuation  of  high  hills.  It  became  so  dark 
that  my  brother  was  obliged,  in  the  last  three-quarters  of  a  mile, 
to  walk  in  the  middle  of  the  road,  before  the  horses,  to  enable 
the  Friend  to  decide  where  to  drive  ;  but  we  got  to  T.  P.'s  safely, 
and  felt  grateful  at  again  reaching  the  pleasant  habitation  of  our 
friends,  where  we  were  kindly  received  and  comfortably  accom- 
modated. 

20th.  We  had  five  miles  to  ride  to  the  place  where  their 
Preparative  Meeting  was  held  to-day.  The  company  was  small, 
and  according  to  my  feelings,  the  stream  of  Divine  life  was  low. 
1  M^as  reminded  of  the  low  state  of  the  springs  and  streams 
through  the  country  where  we  had  travelled,  and  referred  some 
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614  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

of  them,  to  the  consideration,  whethei"  their  condition,  in  a 
spiritual  sense,  might  not  bear  some  resemblance  to  it.  I  hope 
some  were  aroused  to  look  more  seriously  into  their  own  condi- 
tion, and  seek  more  ardently  for  the  streams  of  that  river  which 
maketh  glad  the  city  of  God  ;  like  David,  who  said ;  "  As  the  hart 
panteth  after  the  water  brooks,  so  panteth  my  soul  after  thee, 
O  Grod;  my  soul  thirsteth  for  the  living  God." 

We  dined  in  company  with  a  number  of  Friends,  at  the  house 
of  a  widow  woman,  and  I  had  conversation  with  them  on  the 
importance  of  Fi-iends  endeavoring  to  keep  together  in  near 
unity  with  one  another.  I  advised  them,  in  performing  their 
duties  when  visiting  their  divided  meetings,  in  order  to  keep 
Friends  from  being  scattered,  to  be  swift  to  hear,  and  slow  to 
speak ;  for  solidity  and  inwardness  of  spirit,  would  have  more 
effect  to  convince  gainsayers,  than  many  words. 

21st.  Went  to  the  Eidge  Meeting ;  and  was  there  introduced 
into  much  sympathy  with  the  burden-bearers ;  to  whom  the  lan- 
guage of  encouragement  flowed  freely,  under  the  humbling 
power  of  Divine  love,  and  in  the  fellowship  of  suffering  ;  I  hope 
to  the  refreshment  and  strengthening  of  some,  though  I  was  left 
under  feelings  of  weakness  and  poverty. 

Towards  evening,  we  took  leave  of  these  Friends,  rode  to 
B.  H.'s,  at  Stillwater,  and  were  cheered  in  getting  under  his 
roof.  Our  friend  A.  G.,  having  agreed  to  take  us,  in  his  car- 
riage, to  Brownsville,  had  returned  home  to  prepare,  and  be- 
fore bed-time  met  us  here  ;  a  further  proof  of  the  disinterested 
kindness  of  Friends  towards  dependent  travellers,  in  carrying 
us  from  place  to  place  ;  our  friend  II.  L.,  being  obliged,  after 
leaving  us  at  St.  Clairsville,  to  return  to  his  home.  We  rose 
pretty  early  next  morning,  and  proceeded  to  that  place,  where 
having  dined  and  fed  our  horses,  we  parted  with  our  much 
esteemed  friend  H.  L.,  of  whose  kind  attentions  and  assist- 
ance, we  had  so  freely  partaken,  and  for  which  we  expressed 
our  grateful  acknowledgments.  We  had  a  pleasant  ride  of  about 
twenty-six  miles,  to  a  little  village  called  Alexandria,  and  put 
up  at  an  inn  of  tolerable  comfort. 

23d.  Got  away  from  this  place  early  after  breakfast,  passed 
through  a  town  called  Washington,  and  about  four  miles  be- 
yond, got  a  humble  dinner  at  an  old  worn  out  inn,  and  then 
wended  our  way  over  hill  and  dale,  to  the  Monongahela  River, 
and  crossing  it  on  a  fine  bridge,  opposite  to  Brownsville,  we 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  615 

reached  the  residence  of  our  friends  W.  D.  and  wife,  who  re- 
ceived us  with  much  cordiality.  I  had  never  before  been  at 
their  house,  but  found  it  a  pleasant  home  for  christian  travellers 
on  religious  errands.  W.  agreed  to  release  A.  Gr.,  and  take  us 
in  his  carriage  to  the  two  meetings  we  proposed  being  at  before 
the  finishing  of  this  journey. 

24th.  Before  leaving,  on  the  following  morning,  we  went 
into  the  residence  of  Wm.'s  aged  father ;  where  I  was  led  to 
hold  up  the  importance  of  waiting  upon  the  Lord,  that  the 
work  of  preparation  for  a  better  world,  may  be  perfected,  and 
Divine  refreshment  partaken  of  daily  from  his  hand.  On  our 
return,  we  dropped  into  silence,  and  a  word  of  counsel  and 
encouragement  arose  in  my  heart  for  those  dear  Friends,  under 
their  tried  situation ;  brought  about  by  the  late  separation ; 
there  being  but  themselves  and  one  other  family,  likely  to  remain 
with  Friends  belonging  to  Ohio  Yearly  Meeting,  in  this  particu- 
lar meeting ;  as  we  were  informed. 

The  road  to  Providence  meeting-house  is  very  hilly,  and  the 
distance  seven  or  eight  miles,  so  that  we  did  not  get  there  until 
the  Friends  were  nearly  all  convened.  On  sitting  with  them,  I 
felt  for  the  little  remnant  who  love  the  Truth  and  seek  its  pros- 
perity, and  now  have  new  difficulties  to  encounter,  in  the  pros- 
pect of  another  division  of  their  reduced  Quarterly  Meeting.  I 
was  led  to  encourage  this  class,  to  labor  to  draw  near  to  their 
Lord  and  Master;  looking  to  Him  for  guidance  in  their  religious 
duties,  and  for  the  renewal  of  their  faith  and  strength  to  do  his 
will.  He  joined  Himself  to  the  two  disciples,  as  they  walked 
from  Jerusalem  to  Emmaus  and  were  sad,  under  the  loss  of  their 
Master,  as  they  supposed ;  and  He  opened  to  them  the  Scrip- 
tures, in  the  prophets  and  the  Psalms,  concerning  Himself;  so 
that  when  He  disappeared,  after  blessing  and  breaking  the 
bread  at  the  table,  they  knew  it  was  He,  and  said,  "  Did  not 
our  hearts  burn  within  us,  while  He  talked  with  us  by  the  way, 
and  while  He  opened  to  us  the  Scriptures  ?"  He  is  as  near  to 
his  children,  watching  over  them,  at  this  day  as  ever ;  and  He 
will  keep  and  console  them,  as  they  hold  fast  their  love  and  al- 
legiance to  Him.  Some  states  of  a  different  character  were 
also  spoken  to. 

We  had  rather  a  tedious  ride  to  Sewiekly ;  the  hills  rising 
from  the  different  streams  being  long  and  high  ;  yet  with  dili- 
gence we  arrived  at  G-.  G.'s,  about  dusk;  and  were  glad  to  find 


616  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

ourselves  at  the  door  of  kind  and  hospitable  Friends,  willing  to 
take  i;s  in,  and  make  us  comfortable  and  welcome.  Enquiry- 
was  made  if  we  could  get  a  meeting  there  next  day,  at  the  usual 
hour,  and  being  assented  to,  they  sent  out  word  that  evening, 
to  spread  notice  of  it  early  next  morning. 

25th.  We  went  to  the  meeting-house,  and  found  a  pretty 
large  company  for  that  place ;  with  whom  w^e  sat  in  silence  for 
a  considerable  time,  in  a  low  place;  the  quickening  power  of 
Christ  seeming  to  be  much  out  of  sight  and  feeling.  At  length 
1  was  enabled  to  labor  among  them,  to  show  the  spirit  and  ele- 
ment in  which  a  true  christian  lives ;  wherein  he  is  enabled  to 
worship  God  in  spirit  and  in  truth,  out  of  meeting  as  well  as  in 
meeting,  to  the  refreshment  and  strength  of  his  own  soul,  and 
also  for  the  help  of  others.  A  w^arning  was  also  held  up  against 
the  inordinate  pursuit  and  love  of  lawful  things ;  by  which,  even 
those  who  have  known  and  loved  the  Truth,  may  lose  ground, 
and  become  captivated  with  worldly  pursuits.  I  felt  drawn, 
though  in  weakness,  to  bend  the  knee,  and  to  pray  for  those  on 
whom  the  support  of  the  ark  of  the  testimonies  chiefly  rested, 
in  that  place ;  that  their  faith  and  devotion  to  the  cause  of 
Christ  might  be  increased;  and  for  those  who  are  afar  off,  wast- 
ing their  substance;  that  they  might  arise  and  come  to  the 
Father,  and  acknowledge' they  were  unwoi-thy  to  be  called  his 
sons,  and  ask  that  He  would  make  them  his  hired  servants ; 
also  for  all  now  before  the  Lord  ;  that  He  would  keep  us  through 
the  remaining  tribulations  of  this  life,  and  prepare  us  to  mingle 
with  the  just  of  all  generations,  in  praising  and  gloi-ifying  his 
great  Name,  with  the  Lamb,  world  without  end;  Amen.  I 
came  away  peaceful,  though  poor  and  empty ;  which  is  a  safe 
state,  and  I  believe  is  often  dispensed  by  Him  who  knows  what 
is  in  man,  and  what  is  best  for  our  humiliation  before  Him; 
that  self  may  be  kept  in  abasement ;  and  we  be  sensible  that  we 
are  unprofitable  servants,  that  all  good  comes  from  Him,  and 
all  praise  and  glory  is  due  to  Him  alone. 

We  dined  with  B.  C  and  family,  where  several  Friends  came. 
Just  as  we  were  about  to  come  away,  I  felt  constrained  to 
address  the  parents  and  children ;  to  encourage  the  former  to 
w^atch  over  and  restrain  the  latter  from  wrong  things,  and  to 
live  under  a  proper  concern  to  draw  them  to  Christ,  that  Ho 
might  lay  his  Divine  hand  upon  them,  and  bless  them.  It  had 
a  tendering  effect  upon  the  mother  and  some  of  the  daughters, 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  617 

for  which  I  was  glad,  and  confirmed  that  I  was  in  my  right 
place. 

26th.  A  station  on  the  Pennsylvania  Eailroad,  being  about 
seven  miles  distant  from  G.  G.'s,  some  of  the  fVimily  rose  early, 
to  give  us  breakfast ;  and  our  kind  friend  took  us  there  in^his 
carriage,  in  time  to  meet  the  train  for  Philadelphia.  After 
taking  leave,  we  started  a  little  after  eight  o'clock,  and  got 
to  our  beloved  homes,  between  one  and  two  o'clock,  next  morn- 
ing. I  found  my  dear  wife  and  children  in  usual  good  health, 
and  felt  thankful  in  being  restored  to  them  in  safety,  and  in 
the  peacefulness  and  true  comfort,  which  the  Lord  bestows  for 
the  performance  of  his  requirings. 

Eleventh  month  6th.  The  Quarterly  Meeting  was  held  this 
morning.  There  was  not  much  business  to  occupy  the  last 
sitting ;  and  after  it  was  gone  through,  I  returned  the  minute 
fui'nished  me  to  make  the  visit  in  Ohio  ;  informing  that  it  had 
been  accomplished  to  my  own  peace  and  satisfaction. 

14th.  My  wife  and  myself  went  to  Salem,  to  visit  our  belov- 
ed friend  Martha  Wistar,  and  also  some  of  our  friends  and  con- 
nections at  Greenwich.  In  seasons  of  great  discouragement,  it 
is  strengthening  to  them  that  fear  the  Lord,  and  think  upon  his 
name,  to  speak  to  one  another  of  those  things  that  lie  nearest 
to  their  hearts ;  not  only  because  it  is  declared  that  a  book  of 
remembrance  is  written  before  Him,  who  hearkens  and  hears; 
but  also  because  in  their  different  conditions  they  minister  sup- 
port to  the  oppressed  spirits,  and  cheer  them  at  times  on  their 
way. 

15th.  We  attended  the  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and 
Elders,  at  Salem,  in  which  we  were  silent. 

16th.  Was  held  the  Quarterly  Meeting  for  discipline.  In  the 
first  meeting,  I  was  engaged  to  revive  the  exhortation  of  the 
apostle,  "  If  we  live  in  the  Spirit,  let  us  also  walk  in  the  Spirit;" 
and  to  enforce  the  importance  of  showing  by  our  conduct  and 
conversation,  and  the  Aveightiness  of  our  spirits,  that  we  have 
been  with  the  Lord,  and  that  He  is  with  us.  It  is  the  want  of 
bringing  forth  the  fruits  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  that  keeps  the 
Society  in  weakness,  and  impairs  its  usefulness  in  the  world, 
and  greatly  disables  the  members  from  aiding  each  other  to- 
wards a  growth  in  the  Truth. 

At  the  house  of  our  cousin  George  Bacon,  at  Greenwich,  the 
old-fashioned,  sincere  hospitality  is  found ;  he  and  his  wife  be- 


618  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM   EVANS. 

ing  honestly  concerned,  and  cordial  in  receiving  their  friends. 
We  attended  their  meeting  on  first-day ;  in  which  we  had  some 
service;  the  company  assembled  being  larger  than  usual.  I 
was  led  to  advert  to  the  negligence  of  many  in  making  a 
proper  use  of  the  outward  means  dispensed  by  the  Head  of 
the  church  for  our  benefit,  esiDCcially  the  frequent  reading  of  the 
Holy  Scriptures ;  the  fear  attending  me,  that  very  many  seldom 
look  into  their  bibles;  although  the  Holy  Scriptures  were  given 
by  Divine  inspiration,  and  are  profitable  for  doctrine,  for  re- 
proof, for  correction,  and  for  instruction  in  righteousness,  that 
the  man  of  God  may  be  perfect,  thoroughly  furnished  unto  every 
good  work. 

Twelfth  month  10th.  At  our  first-day  meeting,  this  morn- 
ing, after  long  waiting,  in  which  many  things  passed  before  me, 
and  the  feeling  of  a  disposition  to  put  by  the  opening,  I  was 
constrained  to  rise  with  the  expressions  used  by  one  of  our  an- 
cient Friends,  "  There  is  a  faith  that  overcomes  the  world,  and 
there  is  a  faith  that  is  overcome  by  the  world."  It  is  a  great 
favor  to  be  possessed  of  the  knowledge  of  the  doctrines  of  the 
everlasting  gospel,  as  recorded  in  the  Holy  Scriptures,  and  for 
which  we  are  bound  to  be  thankful ;  but  the  faith  which  gives 
us  the  victory  over  the  world,  the  flesh  and  the  devil,  is  produ- 
ced by  the  operation  of  the  Spirit  of  Christ  in  the  heart.  This 
Spirit  reveals  those  things  which  it  requires  us  to  forsake,  and 
gives  us,  at  the  same  time,  if  we  receive  it,  faith  to  believe  that 
what  is  required  is  the  Divine  will ;  and  as  we  are  obedient, 
brings  us  out  of  our  fallen  condition,  and  graduall}^  opens  to 
us  the  Scriptui'es  according  to  the  Lord's  will,  and  enables  us 
availingly  to  believe  in  the  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  and  in  the  autho- 
rity of  the  Holy  Scriptures,  and  to  profit  by  them.  By  the 
obedience  of  faith,  we  experience  a  growth  in  grace,  and  are 
made  victorious  over  Satan  and  all  his  temptations;  and  jiarti- 
cipate  in  the  promise  of  the  Son  of  God,  "  To  him  that  over- 
cometh,  will  I  grant  to  sit  with  me  in  my  throne,  even  as  I  also 
overcame,  and  am  set  down  with  my  Father  in  his  throne." 
The  divinity,  atonement,  intercession  and  advocacy  of  our  Lord 
Jesus  Christ,  who  was  crucified  without  the  gates  of  Jerusalem, 
a  propitiatory  ofi^ering  for  the  sin  of  the  world,  and  is  now  glori- 
fied at  the  right  hand  of  the  Father,  was  also  plainly  testified  to 
and  held  forth  according  to  the  Scriptures.  These  things  were 
delivered  in  humility,  as  they  were  brought  before  me,  I  trust, 


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by  the  good  Eeinembraneor,  and  reached  the  hearts  of  some 
present,  to  their  comfort  and  satisfaction.  It  is  good  to  be  faith- 
ful to  the  pointings  of  the  Divine  finger,  in  childlike  simplicity, 
not  knowing  what  is  the  Lord's  design,  and  the  consequences 
that  may  grow  out  of  it. 

21st.  We  have  had  some  very  cold  weather,  and  so  many 
people  being  out  of  emploj'-ment,  there  is  reason  to  apprehend 
there  will  be  great  suffering ;  but  I  hope  those  who  have  the 
means  to  spare,  will  be  alive  to  their  wants,  and  strive  to  pro- 
vide for  them.  Owing  in  part  to  the  wars  in  Em-ope,  the  price 
of  provisions  is  much  above  the  usual  standard ;  which  in- 
creases the  difficulties  of  the  poor,  and  the  laboring  man,  and 
lessens  the  ability  of  others  to  aid  them.  But  if  there  is  a  heart 
to  give,  in  those  of  moderate  means,  they  will  economize,  and 
find  portions  to  bestow  on  the  poor. 

This  day,  I  attended  the  Arch  Street  Meeting,  in  much  desti- 
tution, and  was  furnished,  I  thought,  with  strength  and  autho- 
rity to  encoui'age  others  to  endure  temptation,  and  to  strive  to 
keep  the  faith.  The  dear  children  were  also  invited  to  yield  to 
their  Saviour's  requirings,  that  they  may  be  prepared,  in  hi's 
time,  to  be  made  instrumental  in  turning  many  to  righteousness. 
They  who  do  so,  shall  shine  as  the  brightness  of  the  firmament, 
and  as  the  stars  for  ever  and  ever. 

31  St.  The  last  day  of  the  year,  and  the  weather  now  remark- 
ably fine.  Our  meeting  this  morning,  at  Orange  Street,  was 
pretty  large  for  us ;  and  a  time  of  favor  and  gracious  conde- , 
scension  to  our  low  estate,  it  proved  to  be.  The  breathing  of 
my  spirit  was,  that  the  Lord  would  visit  our  Society,  and  pour 
out  afresh  of  his  Spirit  upon  sons  and  daughters,  and  prepare 
many  to  sound  his  praise,  and  to  tell  to  others  his  wondrous 
works  in  their  souls. 

1855,  Second  month  8th.  The  weather  has  been  extremely 
cold  for  several  days,  the  mercury  in  some  parts  of  the  city, 
being  below  zero ;  and  notwithstanding  the  severe  cold,  snow 
and  hail  have  fallen.  The  sufferings  of  the  poor  are  great,  and 
much  money  has  been  raised  and  applied  for  their  relief.  I 
have  not  heard  of  any  being  frozen  to  death  ;  but  some  are  re- 
ported to  have  suffered  staiwation,  being  unwilling  to  let  their 
condition  be  known. 

Went  to  Abington  Quarterly  Meeting.  I  was  enabled  to  open 
the  great  importance  of  partaking  of  the  Divine  life,  w^hich 


620  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Christ  declared  He  came  that  his  sheep  might  have,  and  moi'e 
abundantly  than  under  the  jjreceding  dispensation.  Those  who 
are  united  to  Him  as  members  of  his  bod}-,  are  kept  alive  unto 
God  by  the  life  of  Christ,  that  flows  from  Him  into  them  ;  and 
as  they  submit  to  his  humbling  dispensations  and  baptisms,  they 
are  prepared  to  hear  his  voice,  and  to  distinguish  it  fi'om  all 
other  voices. 

In  the  second  meeting,  the  beauty  and  excellency  of  our  dis- 
cipline and  order,  were  upheld  ;  conforming  as  they  do,  to  the 
doctrines  of  Christ  and  his  apostles;  and  which  all  among  us, 
who  are  alive  in  the  Ti'uth,  will  feel  bound  to  suj^port,  as  a  trust 
and  duty  given  to  us,  which  is  sacred. 

26th.  Eode  out  to  SjHnngfield,  and  attended  their  Monthly 
Meeting.  I  was  drawn  forth  in  sj^mpathy  with  those  who  love 
the  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  but  are  in  danger  of  turning  aside,  from 
the  discouragements  of  the  day ;  as  though  their  forefathers  had 
not  di'unk  as  bitter  cups,  and  it  was  easier  then  than  now  to  do 
the  Divine  will.  But  I  was  led  to  declare,  that  He  who  called 
to  any  duty,  was  as  compassionate  and  tender  to  his  children 
as  ever;  and  would  always  make  way  for  them,  and  give 
strength  to  perform  it,  as  a  single  eye  was  kept  directed  unto 
Him. 

Third  month  12th.  This  day  being  Haddonfield  Monthly 
Meeting,  I  rose  early,  crossed  the  Delaware,  and  by  the  cars, 
reached  the  village  about  eight  o'clock.  We  had  a  good  meet- 
ing; in  which  the  call  to  greater  dedication  was  extended,  and 
prayer  offered  for  the  young  people,  and  the  discouraged  bur- 
den-bearers, whose  hands  were  ready  to  hang  down. 

20th.  Went  to  the  Northern  District  Meeting;  where  the 
necessity  of  the  inward  work  of  religion  was  opened  ;  in  which 
the  axe  is  laid  to  the  root  of  the  trees,  and  every  tree  that 
bringeth  not  forth  good  fruit  is  to  be  hewn  down  and  cast  into 
the  fire.  Sound  doctrine,  held  in  the  head,  and  on  the  tongue, 
will  avail  but  little.  We  must  submit  to  Him  who  baptizes  with 
the  Holy  Ghost  and  fire;  who  gathers  the  wheat  into  the  gar- 
ner and  burns  up  the  chaff  with  unquenchable  fire.  In  this  way 
only,  shall  we  know  the  possibility  of  being  made  free  from  sin 
in  this  life,  and  true  witnesses  of  the  Loixl's  saving  power,  and 
of  the  ti-uth  of  the  doctrines  of  the  everlasting  gospel.  I  ex- 
pressed the  belief,  that  oiir  religious  Society  would  not  be  per- 
mitted to  be  laid  waste;  but  from  among  the  pots,  and  as  from 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  621 

the  stones  of  the  streets,  the  Lord  would  continue  to  raise  up 
those  whom  He  w'ould  make  living  ministers,  and  discerning 
elders  in  the  church. 

Fifth  month  12th.  Went  out  to  Springfield,  and  spent  a  short 
time  very  cheeringly  with  our  beloved  brother  and  sister,  Jo- 
seph and  Grace  Evans.  We  find  a  little  intercourse  between 
town  and  country  relations,  revives  and  animates  each  other  to 
hold  on  in  the  good  pathway,  and  imparts  comfort  and  strength, 
in  the  unity  of  the  Spirit  in  the  bond  of  peace. 

14th.  Went  with  them  to  the  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Ministers 
and  Elders,  at  Concord.  We  sat  a  long  time  in  silence ;  and 
after  the  Queries  were  read  and  answered,  and  the  business  got 
through,  I  ventured  to  speak  on  the  responsibility  of  the  sta- 
tions of  ministers  and  elders.  If  I  know  anything  of  the  nature 
of  gospel  ministry,  it  is  that  only  which  is  opened  in  the 
soul  by  the  great  Minister  of  the  sanctuary,  and  which  He  au- 
thorizes to  be  given  to  the  people,  as  it  is  given  to  us ;  and  the 
design  of  it  is  to  gather  souls  to  Christ.  Elders  are  to  receive 
the  gift  of  spiritual  discernment,  and  to  aid  and  counsel  minis- 
ters, under  the  Lord's  direction. 

15th.  Was  held  the  meeting  for  business ;  in  which  I  was 
engaged  to  address  the  younger  members.  I  felt  remarkably 
peaceful,  in  having  labored  for  the  encouragement  of  the  young 
people  who  love  their  Lord,  and  to  awaken  the  rebellious  to 
their  true  conditions. 

Seventh  month  4th.  This  afternoon,  I  went  to  attend,  from 
his  late  dwelling,  at  Westfield,  the  burial  of  our  friend  Samuel 
Leeds,  a  minister ;  who  was  taken  sick  before  our  Yearly  Meet- 
ing. .  He  is  reported  to  have  said  little  throughout  his  sickness, 
appearing  to  be  abstracted  from  worldly  things,  and  very  much 
kept  in  a  quiet  frame  of  mind. 

The  removal  of  the  servants  of  Christ  from  among  us,  one 
after  another,  was  very  affecting  to  me,  as  I  stood  by  the  grave, 
and  saw  his  remains  lowered  into  the  earth.  The  spirit  that 
often  had  been  baptized  for  the  dead,  and  for  the  living,  tribu- 
lated  seed,  was  now  gathei'ed  unto  God,  and  to  his  Christ,  among 
the  blessed  of  all  generations.  Will  not  the  Lord  have  compassion 
upon  his  church  and  people,  and  give  evidence  that  He  has  not 
forgotten  their  desolate  condition,  by  pouring  out  of  his  Spirit 
on  sons  and  daughters,  and  giving  gifts  for  the  work  of  the  min- 


622  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

istry,  and  the  edification  of  the  body  of  Christ.  Even  so,  O 
Lord !     Amen. 

20th.  for  many  days,  little  pleasant  bread  has  been  parta- 
ken of.  Our  religious  meetings,  now  much  reduced  by  many 
members  having  removed  into  the  country,  or  travelling  for 
pleasure  and  health,  have  often  to  me  felt  destitute  of  the  sensi- 
ble evidence  of  the  Divine  presence  ;  so  that  fears  have  prevail- 
ed, of  being  deserted  by  the  everlasting  Shepherd.  Then  again, 
I  have  been  afraid  to  abandon  the  watch  and  the  struggle,  lest 
indifference  and  the  total  loss  of  spiritual  life  may  ensue.  Of 
late,  in  the  midst  of  many  fears,  I  have  thought  the  Lord's 
mercy  and  watchful  care  were  not  withdrawn,  by  feeling  a  lit- 
tle ability  to  look  to  Ilim,  and  to  put  up  secret  prayer,  accom- 
panied with  contrition  of  spirit,  that  He  would  continue  to  re- 
gard an  unworthy  creature,  and  defend  and  keep  from  falling, 
one  whom  Satan  seems  constantly  striving  to  cast  down  and 
destroy. 

The  trials  of  this  day  are  hard  to  bear,  but  if  they  drive  us 
moj:'e  and  more  to  the  Master,  and  keep  out  a  light  spirit,  and 
deepen  us  in  the  blessed  Truth,  so  that  our  example  will  be  ef- 
fectual to  draw  others  to  the  love  of  it,  they  will  be  great  bless- 
ings to  us,  and  fit  us  for  greater  service  in  the  Lord's  church 
and  vineyard.  We  have  depended  much  on  one  another,  in- 
stead of  relying  ujjon  the  Lord  alone  for  guidance,  wisdom  and 
strength  ;  and  He  has  been  taking  from  us  fathers  and  mothers, 
and  permitting  the  spirit  of  separation  to  get  in,  by  which  many 
Friends  have  been  alienated  from  each  other.  The  unity  of  the 
Spirit  being  greatly  lost,  the  strength  which  it  gives  is  much 
withdrawn.  There  is  no  way  by  which  the  strength  of  the 
church  can  be  restored,  but  by  the  members  coming  back  to  the 
first  princij)le,  of  individually  waiting  upon  the  Lord,  and  seek- 
ing to  receive  from  Him  the  spirit  of  prayer,  that  He  would  re- 
turn to  us,  and  show  us  our  real  condition  ;  what  He  would 
have  us  to  come  out  of,  and  the  high  and  holy  way  He  would 
have  us  to  walk  in.  His  mercies  are  the  same  from  generation 
to  generation  ;  and  when  we  are  rightly  humbled  and  brought 
back,  He  will  condescend  again  to  our  low  estate,  and  lift  us  up, 
and  put  songs  of  praise  into  our  mouths ;  and  the  children  Avill 
be  enabled  to  join  in  thanksgiving  and  praise  to  his  great  and 
ever-adorable  JSTamo. 

Eighth  month  4lh.     Our  Select  Quarterly  Meeting  was  held 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  623 

in  silence,  and  felt  to  me  to  be  a  low  time,  little  evidence  of  Di- 
vine consolation  stirring  amongst  us. 

5th.  First-day  morning,  at  our  own  meeting,  I  felt  drawn  to 
revive  the  injunction,  "  Be  still,  and  know  that  I  am  God;"  also 
the  gracious  declaration,  "I  am  God,  and  change  not,  therefore 
ye  sons  of  Jacob  are  not  consumed."  The  indispensable  need 
of  this  inward  stillness  and  constant  waiting  upon  the  Lord, 
that  we  may  know  Ilim,  through  the  operation  of  his  own 
Spirit  upon  our  hearts,  was  held  up ;  by  which,  in  prayer  to 
Him,  we  shall  be  delivered  from  the  power  of  the  enemy,  who 
M'ould  desti'oy  us  by  his  temptations,  and  lead  us  to  cast  away 
our  confidence  in  the  Lord's  mercy  and  protecting  power. 

Gth.  I  went  to  our  Quarterly  Meeting,  under  depression  and 
fear.  There  was  a  season  of  solid  quiet  over  the  meeting; 
during  which,  I  believe,  souls  were  brought  to  hunger  and  strug- 
gle for  a  blessing.  Communications  were  delivered  which 
directed  to  the  great  work  of  salvation.  Some  were  warned  of 
the  consequences  of  being  ashamed  of  Christ  before  men,  in  deny- 
ing the  simplicity  w4iich  He  requires,  though  they  might  con- 
fess Him  with  the  tongue.  I  rejoiced  in  the  evidence  furnished, 
that  the  Lord  was  still  mindful  of  us,  and  extended  his  mercy 
towards  us.  How  is  this  meeting  changed  by  the  removal  of 
substantial  and  dignified  ministers  and  elders  by  death ;  but  I 
trust  others  are  preparing  for  service  in  Christ's  church.  • 

16th.  Having  some  pointings  to  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting, 
and  feeling  tender  sympathy  with  discouraged  ones  there,  I 
wtnt  to  Woodbury.  The  meeting  was  about  the  usual  size,  and 
the  Lord  condescended  to  give  the  word,  and  authority  to  de- 
clare it.  I  felt  engaged  to  press  upon  all,  the  need  of  being 
diligent  in  the  work  of  their  soul's  salvation,  which  no  man  can 
do  for  us.  The  Lord's  quickening  power,  I  believe,  was  felt 
among  us,  and  Friends  appeared  to  be  glad  to  have  us  with 
them. 

21st.  I  was  at  the  iSTorth  Meeting;  in  which  I  was  led  to 
warn  some  of  the  danger  of  unwatchfulness,  and  taking  flight 
in  the  Avinter  season,  or  on  the  sabbath-day.  Man  is  not  to  live 
by  bread  alone,  but  by  every  word  that  proceedeth  out  of  the 
mouth  of  God.  "We  must  endure  patiently  his  appointed  means 
for  our  refinement,  that  we  may  be  prepared  for  his  return  to 
our  souls,  and  be  preserved  from  losing  the  little  we  hud  already 
gained. 


624  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

29th.  Many  of  our  friends  have  been  absent  from  the  city 
this  summer,  and  though  we  have  enjoj^ed  much  peace,  the  want 
of  their  society,  and  the  smallness  of  our  meetings,  make  a  blank 
that  causes  us  to  feel  some  languor  and  emptiness,  which  is  de- 
pressing. As  the  true  harmony  and  fellowship  subsist  in  the 
Society,  we  shall  be  more  one  another's  strength  and  joy 
whether  present  or  absent.  But  the  present  sense  of  weakness 
may  contribute  to  our  humiliation,  and  safe  keeping  on  the 
watch. 

Ninth  month  12th.  Eode  up  to  Medford,  and  attended  Had- 
donfield  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders,  in  which 
we  felt  much  with  a  suffei"ing  remnant  there,  to  whom  my  Avife 
ministered  in  a  consoling  manner.  Went  to  the  mansion  of  our 
beloved  friend  Lydia  Stokes.  The  society  of  this  aged  Friend, 
as  well  as  of  some  others,  was  attended  with  feelings  of  peace- 
fulness  and  sweet  unity.  She  is  another  of  the  pillars  in  the 
Lord's  house,  who  has  a  heavy  burden  to  bear,  and  who  we  can- 
not expect  will  be  much  longer  continued  in  this  militant  state. 
Here  we  heard  the  affecting  intelligence  of  the  death  of  our 
much  valued  friend,  Sarah  liillman,  of  the  Northern  District; 
a  sound  minister  of  the  gospel,  and  possessing  a  clear  under- 
standing in  matters  pertaining  to  the  service  of  the  church,  be- 
yond most  of  her  years.  Her  removal  was  quite  a  shock  to  me, 
though  I  had  heard  she  was  very  ill ;  yet  secretly  hoped  it 
might  be  consistent  with  the  Divine  will,  to  prolong  her  life  to 
old  age,  for  the  church's  sake,  which  feels  the  need  of  the  help 
of  such  exercised  ones. 

13th.  Went  to  the  Quarterly  Meeting,  under  heaviness  of 
heart.  It  was  a  large  collection  of  people,  and  a  sense  that  in- 
dividual concern  for  their  own  salvation,  was  greatly  wanting 
in  a  large  number,  was  the  prevailing  feeling  of  my  mind. 
After  a  time  of  silence,  I  believed  it  right  to  rise  with  the  testi- 
mony, that  religion  is  an  internal  work,  between  the  soul  and 
its  Almighty  Creator;  and  was  led  to  open  the  doctrine,  that  in 
his  mercy,  He  gives  every  one  a  sight  of  his  condition  in  the 
fallen,  transgressing  nature,  and  if  he  receives  the  Lord  Jesus 
in  his  appearance  in  the  heart.  He  not  only  shows  him  his  sins, 
but  will  give  him  power  to  forsake  them,  and  grant  repentance 
and  forgiveness.  He  breaks  down  the  kingdom  of  Satan,  casts 
him  out,  and  prepares  the  soul,  by  the  baptism  of  the  Holy 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  625 

Ghost  and  fire,  to  bo  a  temple  for  him,  by  his  Holy  Spirit,  to 
dwell  in. 

Tenth  month  1st.  The  printed  minutes  of  Ohio  Yearly  Meet- 
ing, which  have  been  received,  are  comforting,  in  the  belief 
that  Friends  there  had  been  favored  with  the  presence  of  the 
Head  of  the  church,  qualifying  them  to  transact  their  concerns 
for  the  edification  of  their  members,  and  the  exaltation  of  the 
Lord's  name  and  honor.  Their  trials  are  great,  from  having 
been  wrongfully  rejected  by  other  Yearly  Meetings,  while  those 
who  separated  from  them  have  been  acknowledged  as  a  Yearly 
Meeting.  I  hope  the  Lord  will  judge  between  them,  and  grant 
patience  and  faith  to  his  afilicted  children,  to  hold  on  in  the 
right  waj',  to  the  support  of  his  cause,  and  the  growth  of  the 
members  in  the  Truth. 

18th.  Feeling  drawn  to  attend  the  burial  of  our  late  beloved 
friend,  Mai'garet  M.  Smith,  my  wife  and  myself  went  up  to  Bur- 
lington for  that  purpose  this  morning.  A  terrible  catastrophe 
occurred  on  the  JSTew  York  Eailroad,  a  few  miles  north  of  this 
town,  by  which  a  number  were  killed,  and  others  wounded. 
Many  of  them  were  brought  to  Burlington,  and  this  dear  Friend, 
whose  heart  was  ever  ready  to  sympathize  with  the  sufferer,  had 
a  man  and  his  wife,  in  a  maimed  condition,  brought  to  her 
house,  which  she  gave  up  almost  entirely  to  them,  their  connexions 
and  servants  ;  herself  rendering  much  assistance  in  nursing  them. 
A  scene  so  affecting  and  so  different  from  anything  she  had  par- 
ticipated in,  by  which  her  feelings  conld  not  but  be  powerfully 
wrought  upon,  proved  too  great  a  strain  for  her  nervous  sys- 
tem; and  in  a  short  time  after  all  were  removed  from  her  house, 
she  became  indisposed.  Medical  skill  proving  unavailing,  she 
gradually  sank  away,  beyond  the  control  of  human  remedies, 
and  departed  this  life  on  the  evening  of  the  15th. 

She  was  a  woman  of  remarkable  philanthropy  and  kindness 
to  all,  especially  the  distressed  and  the  poor ;  and  a  humble,  self- 
denying  follower  of  Christ,  shown  by  her  steady,  consistent 
walk  through  life ;  one  of  the  pure  in  heart,  and  of  the  salt  of 
the  earth  ;  possessed  of  a  good  understanding  and  discernment 
in  religious  things.  She  maintained  an  undeviating  testimony 
against  the  attempted  innovations  in  principle  made  upon  the 
faith  of  Friends ;  and  was  a  comforter  of  others  who  took  the 
same  stand.  Her  views  of  the  plainness  and  simplicity  which 
the  Truth  leads  into,  did  not  admit  of  making  unnecessary  dis- 


626  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

play,  while  true  comfort  and  abundance  were  provided  by  her, 
Thus  another  of  the  true  seed  of  Christ's  kingdom,  has  been 
gathered  to  her  everlasting  rest  in  Him,  among  the  children  of 
the  first  resurrection ;  not  by  works  of  righteousness  that  she 
had  done,  but  according  to  the  mercy  of  God,  by  the  washing 
of  regeneration,  and  the  renewing  of  the  Holy  Ghost ;  which 
He  hath  shed  on  us  abundantly,  through  our  Lord  Jesus 
Christ.  I  believed  it  right  to  bear  testimony,  at  her  grave,  of 
the  belief,  that  she  was  gone  to  the  multitude  that  surround  the 
holy  throne  ;  being  made  a  partaker  of  the  salvation  purchased 
for  us,  through  the  jn-ecious  blood  of  Christ.  It  is  not  our  place 
to  question  the  right  of  Him  who  rules  in  the  armies  of  heaven, 
and  among  the  kingdoms  of  men,  to  call  away  the  members  of 
the  militant  church,  when  He  pleases;  but  every  one  removed, 
is  the  taking  away  of  salt  from  among  us,  and  should  incite  us 
to  ponder  our  true  condition,  and  to  ask,  in  the  spirit  of  prayer, 
of  Him  to  supply  our  needs,  and  to  raise  up  others  to  fill  the 
vacancies  made  by  the  transition  of  faithful  servants  to  the 
church  ti'iumphant  in  heaven. 

Eleventh  month  4th.  At  our  meeting  this  morning,  (first-day,) 
I  was  constrained  again  to  warn  some,  that  there  were  but 
twelve  hours  in  the  day,  in  which  men  may  work,  and  then  the 
night  Cometh  wherein  no  man  can  work.  That  their  day  was 
passing  away,  and  it  was  evident  they  were  neglecting  the  busi- 
ness of  salvation,  in  the  pursuit  and  love  of  the  things  of  the 
world.  None  knew  when  their  day  would  expire ;  it  may  come 
to  a  close  unexpectedly,  and  if  laid  on  a  death  bed,  with  the 
work  unaccomplished,  awful  must  be  the  prospect  of  a  never- 
ending  eternity.  Many  have  been  landed  in  that  condition, 
when  they  would  have  given  everj^thing  for  a  little  time,  to  do 
this  all-important  work.  Some  were  pleaded  with  in  the  love 
of  the  gospel,  to  give  up  all  that  the  Lord's  controversy  was 
with,  and  submit  to  the  terms  of  salvation,  while  the  day  lasted. 
My  dear  wife  knelt  and  su^iplicated,  that  if  any  had  been  drawn 
to  this  meeting,  and  were  made  sensible  that  the  shades  of  the 
evening  had  come  upon  them,  and  the  groat  work  of  salvation 
was  not  done,  they  might  yield  to  the  convicting  power  of  the 
Holy  Spirit,  afid  before  it  was  too  late,  show  forth  the  goodness 
and  mercy  of  God,  in  plucking  them  as  brands  from  the  burning  j 
by  walking  in  his  fear,  and  drawing  others  to  glorify  God,  on 


JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM   EVANS.  627 

their  behulf.  It  was  a  solemn,  impressive  time,  and  I  hoped 
some  were  reached. 

5th.  The  meeting  for  worship,  before  entering  on  the  busi- 
ness of  our  Quarterly  Meeting,  to-day,  was  a  solid  and  instruc- 
tive season. 

18th.  I  have  felt  much  emptied  of  Divine  consolation  and 
strength,  for  days  past,  both  in  meeting  and  out  of  it.  Eefrain- 
ing  from  much  conversation,  and  endcavoi'ing  to  draw  near  to 
the  Lord  in  spirit,  I  have  believed  to  be  the  safest  place  for 
me  ;  and  I  trust,  that  preservation  on  the  watch  has  been  ex- 
perienced. The  prospect  of  religious  service  is  much  with- 
drawn; and  discouragement  as  to  any  benefit  arising  from  it, 
when  the  fresh  anointing  is  felt,  is  often  the  accompaniment  of 
my  mind ;  but  I  endeavor  to  hold  on  my  way,  and  to  seek  for 
ability  to  trust  in  the  never-failing  Helper  of  the  poor  and 
needy. 

20th.  My  dear  wife  feeling  drawn  to  attend  the  Quarterly 
Meeting  at  Rahway,  we  set  off  this  morning  in  the  cars,  and 
got  to  our  friends,  Joseph  and  Martha  Shotwell's,  about  noon, 
where  we  put  up.  Next  day  we  were  at  their  Select  Meeting  ; 
in  which  we  both  had  some  service,  encouraging  the  few  who 
felt  poor  in  spirit,  and  were  mourning  for  the  desolations  of  our 
Society.  Also  holding  up  the  testimony  of  our  blessed  Saviour, 
that  without  Him  we  can  do  nothing ;  and  hence  the  need  of 
w^aiting  for  the  arising  of  his  life  and  power,  to  quicken  and 
qualify  for  the  work  He  would  bid  us  to  do. 

22d.  The  Quarterly  Meeting  was  a  very  small  company ;  but 
few  there  from  Shrewsbury  and  Plainfield;  all  the  meetings 
being  in  a  dwindling  condition. 

Twelfth  month  7th.  Having  been  at  Westtown,  attending 
the  meeting  of  the  committee,  which  prevented  me  from  being 
at  our  usual  week-day  meeting,  I  went  this  morning  to  that  in 
Arch  Street;  which  was  small  for  that  large  house.  We  sat 
more  than  an  hour  in  silence,  during  which  the  circumstance 
of  Christ  calling  his  disciples,  sheep,  and  on  commissioning  them 
to  go  forth,  telling  them,  "Behold,  I  send  you  forth  as  sheep  in 
the  midst  of  wolves  ;  be  ye  therefore  wise  as  serpents,  and 
harmless  as  doves,"  was  brought  before  me.  I  felt  fearful  of 
speaking,  lest  I  might  act  without  his  authority,  and  thus  in- 
jure the  good  cause ;  so  that  I  seemed  likely  to  come  away 
without  breaking  the  silence.     But  finally  the  fear  of  putting 


628  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

by  a  right  impression,  induced  me  to  stand  up  with  those  words, 
and  to  show  that  the  true  disci2:)les,  who  keep  in  the  Spirit  of 
their  Divine  Master,  in  times  of  suffering  and  persecution,  were 
like  sheep  in  the  midst  of  wolves ;  and  they  were  to  be  wise  as, 
but  not  in  the  serpent's  wisdom,  but  in  that  which  cometh  from 
Him,  who  is  the  wisdom  of  God,  and  the  power  of  Grod  ;  and  to 
be  clothed  with  the  harmlessness  of  the  dove ;  showing  the  na- 
ture of  Him  who  is  the  Lamb  of  God,  that  taketh  away  the  sin 
of  the  world.  Though  not  exposed  to  outward  persecution  at 
this  day,  yet  there  is  much  suffering  to  be  endured ;  and  when 
the  cup  that  is  to  be  partaken  of,  for  the  body's  sake,  which  is 
the  church,  is  presented,  we  are  to  drink  it  with  resignation  to 
Him,  and  it  will  contribute  to  our  humiliation  and  preservation 
in  Christ.  When  suffering  is  withdrawn,  how  liable  are  we  to 
take  our  ease  in  the  comforts  with  which  we  are  surrounded. 
The  nearer  we  draw  to  the  r-Iose  of  our  journey,  the  more  need 
there  is  to  be  clad  with  the  holy,  harmless  and  undefiled  nature 
and  spirit  of  Christ.  When  the  disciples  returned  from  the  ac- 
complishment of  their  mission,  and  told  their  Lord  that  even 
the  devils  were  subject  to  them,  through  his  name;  He  said, 
"Eejoice  not  that  the  spirits  are  subject  unto  you,  but  rather 
rejoice  because  your  names  are  written  in  heaven."  This  is  the 
all-important  object  of  our  lives,  to  be  prepared,  by  his  power 
giving  us  the  victory  over  all  the  power  of  the  enemy,  to  have 
our  names  recorded  in  the  Lamb's  book  of  life.  Nothing  is 
worthy  of  competition  with  this.  No  name  or  fame  among 
men ;  all  that  our  companions  may  say  in  our  favor,  are  nothing. 
We  must  individually  stand  before  the  tribunal  of  Jesus  Christ, 
and  receive  a  reward  according  to  our  deeds ;  we  can  have  none 
of  them  to  plead  our  cause  there. 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  629 

CnAPTEE   XXXI. 
1855—1857. 

Religious  Engagements  at  and  about  Home. 

1855,  Twelfth  Tiionlh  10th.  Feeling  drawn  to  attend  Had- 
donfield  Monthly  Meeting,  I  went  over  to  it  this  morning.  The 
company  was  smaller  than  usual.  This  is  discouraging  to  those 
who  are  constrained  to  endeavor  to  keep  up  their  religious 
meetings,  and  to  do  what  their  hands  find  to  do,  in  support  of 
the  cause  of  Christ.  They  go  through  much  mental  exercise 
on  account  of  it,  often  fearing  that  their  meetings  will  dwindle 
away,  and  the  members  become  scattered  to  the  world.  For 
this  class,  I  felt  much,  Avhile  sitting  with  them,  and  was  led  to 
show  that  the  Lord's  people,  in  many  instances,  had  passed 
through  much  humiliation  and  bitter  suffering  before  He  saw 
tit  to  manifest  Himself  for  their  deliverance.  The  children  of 
Israel  in  Egypt,  and  the  Jews  in  the  reign  of  Ahasuerus,  ap- 
peared to  be  exposed  to  destruction.  Moses  and  Mordecai  were 
brought  very  low,  before  they  were  used  as  instruments  in  the 
Lord's  hand,  in  bringing  about  the  liberation  of  that  people 
from  bondage,  and  the  murderous  designs  of  Haaman ;  but  the 
Lord  made  way  for  them,  and  He  can  do  it  in  this  day,  for  us, 
when  his  time  comes.  We  must  learn  to  bear  afl3iction,  and  to 
wait  upon  Him,  and  as  we  are  enabled,  pray  to  Him,  to  give  us 
faith  and  patience,  and  to  extend  his  compassion  to  his  tribula- 
ted  children,  for  their  support  and  consolation. 

21st.  For  some  days  past,  it  seemed  out  of  my  power  to  come 
at  inward,  humble  waiting  upon  the  Loi'd,  or  to  feel  the  spirit 
of  prayer  in  tender  cries  unto  Him  for  help.  Our  Meeting  for 
Sufferings,  to-day,  called  forth  but  little  religious  feeling  and 
exercise;  the  subjects  which  claimed  its  attention,  being  miuch 
of  an  outward  character.  I  thought  the  day  for  my  taking  part 
in  the  services  of  Society  was  drawing  to  a  close.  It  is  like 
being  stripped  of  all  armor  and  qualification  ;  which  will  no 
doubt  be  placed  on  others,  who  will  be  called  into  the  Lord's 
work.  If  I  can  be  favored  to  retire  to  the  inner  temple,  and 
partake  of  the  cup  of  suffering,  for  my  own  purification,  more 
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630  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

and  more  experiencing  the  silence  of  all  flesh,  and  keeping  stead- 
fastly upon  the  watch-tower,  to  see  what  the  Lord  shall  say 
unto  nie,  if  He  condescend  to  sjieak,  and  what  I  shall  answer 
when  I  am  reproved,  preservation  and  greater  deepening  in  the 
Divine  life,  I  humbly  hope,  may  be  more  fully  known. 

23d.  Having  for  some  time  had  a  draft  to  Cropwell  Meet- 
ing, I  went  there  this  morning,  first-day.  I  was  brought  into 
sympathy  with  those  who  love  the  Lord  Jesus,  and  feel  bound 
to  endeavor  to  hold  their  meetings  according  to  our  testimony  to 
inward  spiritual  worship,  and  when  able  to  attend,  cannot  stay 
from  them.  To  these,  I  was  led  to  minister,  I  hope,  a  cup  of 
consolation  and  encouragement ;  that  they  might  hold  on  faith- 
fully, setting  a  good  example  to  the  young  people,  that  they 
may  be  gathered  to  Christ,  and  a  band  of  living  witnesses  be 
raised  up  among  them.  Invitation  was  also  extended  to  the 
3'oung  people,  who  are  favored  with  clear  convictions  of  the 
Holy  Spirit,  setting  their  sins  in  order  before  them,  to  jneld  to 
the  Divine  will,  and  let  the  Lord  make  them  what  He  would 
have  them  to  be  ;  and  they  would  know  Him  to  effect  the  work 
of  sanctification,  to  their  own  peace,  and  the  comfort  of  the 
church.  I  was  also  bowed  in  thanksgiving  to  the  Father  of 
mercies,  that  there  were  preserved  in  that  place  a  remnant,  upon 
whom  rested  a  concern  to  be  found  in  their  allotment ;  and 
humble  praj^er  was  put  up,  that  in  his  mercy.  He  would  sustain 
these,  and  make  them  instrumental  in  gathering  the  children 
and  the  young  peojile  to  his  beloved  Son,  that  they  may  be  pre- 
pared to  occupy  their  places  in  the  church,  and  support  the  cause 
and  testimonies  of  Truth. 

1856,  First  month  8th.  The  great  importance  of  being  pre- 
served from  the  power  of  the  tempter,  came  over  me  with  much 
Aveight  this  morning,  before  1  rose ;  and  I  was  brought  to  put 
up  fervent,  mental  cries  to  the  God  of  all  our  sure  mercies,  that 
He  would  not  suflTerme  to  fall  into  temptation  ;  that  in  unmer- 
ited mercy.  He  would  forgive  and  blot  out  my  sins,  and  remem- 
ber them  no  more  ;  and  that  whatever  He  saw  meet,  to  humble 
and  keep  me  on  the  watch,  He  would,  in  his  tender  compassion, 
administer,  for  my  preservation  from  evil.  I  remembered  some 
who  had  been  highly  favored,  and  had  afterwards  slidden  from 
the  foundation.  I  thought  of  our  beloved  friend  Thomas  Kite, 
how  he  had  been  taken  away  before  he  reached  my  age,  in 
peace  and  brightness;  and  it  was  to  me  more  desirable  to  be 


JOURNAL    OP    WILLIAM    EVANS.  631 

removed  from  this  Bcene,  before  anything  should  dim  the  char- 
acter, which  through  grace,  we  may  have  been  favored  to  attain, 
than  to  be  continued  here  to  old  age,  and  lose  the  life  and  vir- 
tue of  religion,  which  had  been  our  experience  to  possess.  He 
who,  of  his  own  good  pleasure,  begins  the  work  of  regeneration, 
and  carries  it  on  to  its  perfection,  can  alone  keep  us  from  falling, 
and  in  the  end  present  us  faultless  before  the  thi-one  of  his 
glory,  with  exceeding  joy.  May  it  be  my  experience,  though 
unworthy  of  the  least  of  all  his  favors. 

20th,  We  have  had  very  severe  weather,  at  diflPerent  times, 
since  the  beginning  of  the  year;  the  mercury  having  been  seve- 
ral degrees  below  zero  in  the  city,  and  still  colder  in  parts  of 
the  neighboring  country.  Much  snow  has  fallen,  making  trav- 
elling in  many  places  very  difficult,  particularly  on  some  rail- 
roads :  also  encumbering  our  streets,  which  have  been  covered 
with  an  unusual  thickness  of  ice.  Many  ways  are  adopted  to 
meet  the  necessities  of  the  poor,  though  there  is  not  so  much 
street  begging  as  last  winter.  It  is  evident,  the  more  that  is 
done  for  those  beggars,  the  more  importunate  they  become; 
availing  themselves  of  every  source  of  supply  they  can;  by 
which,  unworthy  persons  often  deprive  more  deserving  objects 
of  what  they  should  receive ;  but  it  would  be  wrong  to  allow 
any  to  suffer  from  want,  however  unjustifiable  their  course 
may  be. 

On  first-day  morning,  the  17th,  I  was  again  engaged  to  preach 
the  everlasting  gospel,  both  concerning  the  coming  of  the  Son 
of  God  in  the  flesh ;  his  propitiatory  death  for  the  sins  of  the 
whole  world ;  his  glorious  advocacy  at  the  right  hand  of  the 
Father,  and  as  being  the  Source  of  all  saving  knowledge  of  God, 
by  the  immediate  revelation  of  his  Holy  Spirit  in  the  heart.  It 
is  the  grace  that  comes  by  Jesus  Christ  alone,  that  can  impart 
the  saving  knowledge  that  is  life  eternal.  The  heart  must  re- 
ceive Christ  in  his  spiritual  appearance,  submit  to  his  will,  for- 
sake all  and  follow  Him,  in  order  to  receive  this  knowledge  of 
God,  and  hold  communion  with  Him,  through  our  Lord  Jesus 
Christ.  Many  are  willing  to  believe  the  doctrines  of  the  New 
Testament,  but  refuse  to  deny  themselves,  forsake  sin,  and  fol- 
low the  Lamb  of  God  whithersoever  He  leads ;  and  thus  they 
fail  to  become  partakers  of  the  fulness  of  the  blessing  of  the 
gospel  of  Christ.  Oh,  the  want  of  the  j)ure  and  undefiled  life 
of  Christ  Jesus,  ruling  in  the  professors  of  his  name  I 


632  JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Third  month  12th.  The  weather  this  week  has  been  very 
cold  for  the  time  of  year  ;  the  mercury  in  thermometers  in  the 
city,  being  but  six  to  nine  degi-ees  above  zero,  for  one  or  two 
days,  and  in  the  country,  at  a  degree  or  two  below  zero.  There 
has  been  much  difficulty  in  opening  the  navigation  of  the  Dela- 
ware. Vessels  which  have  been  at  the  breakwater  many  weeks, 
have  now  been  towed  up  by  ice-boats;  and  though  it  is  still 
quite  cold,  it  is  hoped  the  channel  may  be  kept  open,  and  that 
laboring  men  may  have  oj^portunity  to  obtain  employment,  to 
keep  them  from  suffering ;  of  which  it  is  to  be  feared  there  have 
been  not  a  few  instances  this  winter.  It  has  been  throughout  a 
severe  winter ;  long  and  tedious. 

13th.  I  went  to  Iladdonfield  this  morning,  and  attended  the 
Quai'terly  Meeting  held  there,  which  was  large,  several  Friends 
from  two  or  three  other  Quarters  being  there.  In  the  second 
meeting,  it  appeared  to  be  my  place,  to  call  Friends  to  the 
quickening,  heart-changing  power  of  the  Holy  Spirit;  which 
prepared  the  early  Friends  to  understand  and  to  open  to  tho 
people,  the  doctrines  and  the  nature  of  the  gospel  dispensation. 
It  is  the  same  Divine  life  that  can  open  them  to  us,  and  which 
will  bind  us  conscientiously  to  maintain  them  before  the  world, 
and  to  all  people  ;  iiot  in  word  only,  but  by  consistent  lives  and 
convei'sation.  Returned  home  in  the  evening,  thankful  we  were 
permitted  to  land  safely,  there  being  much  heavy  ice  in  the 
river. 

15th.  This  evening,  near  nine  o'clock,  the  steamboat  in 
which  we  had  crossed  the  river,  in  going  to  and  from  Iladdon- 
field, took  fire.  Being  old,  and  the  timber  very  dry,  the  flames 
spread  rapidly,  and  the  captain  not  being  able  to  get  her  through 
the  canal  in  the  island  opposite  the  city,  on  account  of  the  ice, 
an  attempt  was  made  to  run  her  back  to  the  wharf;  but  the 
steersman's  house  was  soon  enveloped  in  the  flame,  so  that  he 
was  driven  from  the  wheel ;  and  thus  being  left  to  the  current, 
which  turned  her  from  her  course,  and  swept  her  off  again  into 
the  stream,  before  any  could  spring  to  the  wharf,  which  was  by 
some  attempted,  she  drifted  away,  and  was  finally  grounded  on 
the  bar.  There  was  said  to  have  been  one  hundred  persons  on 
board,  sixty -two  of  whom  it  is  supposed  were  lost,  cither  by 
being  burned  to  death,  or  by  being  drowned,  after  jumping  into 
the  river.  Boats  of  ditferent  descriptions  were  put  off  for  their 
relief,  but  being  night,  and  probably  but  few  at  hand,  the  de- 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  633 

struction  of  life  was  fearful.  Such  an  awful  event  has  never  be- 
fore occurred  on  our  river,  that  we  have  any  account  of.  Death, 
overtaking  so  many,  Avho  could  have  had  no  apprehension  of 
it,  a  few  minutes  before  leaving  the  wharf,  and  under  such 
dreadful  circumstances,  had  much  effect  upon  the  public  mind, 
as  well  as  bringing  deep  distress  on  surviving  connections  and 
friends. 

18th.  I  went  to  the  North  Meeting,  under  some  trial  of 
faith.  It  was  a  large  collection,  many  school  children  being 
there.  The  circumstance  of  parents  being  rebuked  by  some,  for 
bringing  their  children  to  the  Saviour,  that  He  might  lay  his 
hand  on  them  and  bless  them,  was  presented  to  my  mind  ;  and 
after  waiting,  and  trying  the  fleece  wet  and  dry,  the  subject 
was  opened  ;  and  the  danger  alluded  to,  of  persons  placing  stum- 
bling-blocks in  the  way  of  the  children,  whose  minds  are  brought 
under  Divine  conviction  ;  and  thereby  turning  them  aside  from 
their  Saviour.  The  mercy  and  goodness  of  our  Heavenly  Fa- 
ther, in  watching  over  and  warning  young  people  of  the  temp- 
tations of  Satan,  and  the  enticements  of  wicked  persons ;  of 
which  I  could  testify  from  experience,  when  an  appi-entice  boy, 
and  the  Lord's  defence,  vouchsafed  by  the  horror  suddenly 
brought  over  me,  were  referred  to  ;  and  all  pleaded  with  to 
mind  the  visitations  and  requirings  of  the  Most  High  extended 
to  them.  Ability  was  graciously  granted  to  preach  the  gospel, 
under  the  quickening  power  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  which  reached 
and  tendered  the  hearts  of  some,  and  I  came  home  thankful  for 
the  unmerited  favor. 

23d.  It  is  not  the  hearers,  but  the  doers,  of  the  law,  that  are 
justified.  As  the  body  without  the  spirit  is  dead,  so  faith  with- 
out works  is  dead  also.  It  is  those  who  do  the  sayings  of  Christ, 
that  build  upon  the  rock ;  and  when  the  floods  beat  upon  their 
house,  it  will  not  fall,  because  it  is  founded  upon  a  rock. 

30th.  On  fifth-day,  the  27th,  I  was  at  the  Philadelphia 
Monthly  Meeting.  I  felt  required  to  mention  the  fasting,  al- 
most to  famishing,  which  the  Lord's  children  had  at  times  to 
endure ;  but  that  it  was  a  great  mercy  to  have  preserved  a  hun- 
ger and  thirst  after  righteousness,  for  in  his  time  we  shall  be 
filled.  The  subject  opened  so  as  to  show  that  whatever  were 
our  growths,  experiences  or  gifts,  we  can  do  nothing,  and  are 
nothing,  without  Christ.  The  goodness  of  the  Lord,  in  filling 
my  heart  with  these  Divine  things,  was  humbling,  and  renew- 


634  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.        ^ 

edly  manifested  his  watchiag  care  ovei',  and  preserving  goodness 
towards  his  poor,  dependent  children. 

After  so  severe  a  winter,  it  has  been  cause  of  gratitude,  that 
the  great  quantity  of  snow  and  ice  has  so  gradually  dissolved 
and  passed  away,  as  to  produce  but  little  damage.  How  merci- 
ful is  our  Father  in  heaven  towards  poor,  sinful,  rebellious  man ! 
and  how  ought  we  to  lay  to  heart,  the  withholding  of  his  judg- 
ments and  anger,  for  the  wickedness  that  prevails  in  the  land  : 
to  humble  ourselves  and  implore  his  forgiveness  of  our  sins,  and 
for  strength  to  forsake  them,  and  to  walk  uprightly  before  Him  ; 
bringing  forth  the  fruits  of  holiness,  to  the  praise  of  his  great 
and  glorious  Name. 

Fourth  month  28th.  Our  Yearly  Meeting  was  held  last 
week ;  in  which  I  was  again  continued  clerk,  and  I  thought  I 
had  never  passed  through  so  much  suffering,  from  day  to  day, 
as  I  did  through  the  whole  of  its  sessions. 

Accompanying  the  London  epistle,  was  a  printed  statement 
of  the  reasons  governing  that  meeting,  in  its  acknowledgment 
of  the  separate  meeting  in  Ohio ;  which  some  wished  to  have 
read.  After  it  was  deliberately  read,  Samuel  Bettle,  Si*.,  ex- 
pressed his  dissent  from  their  conclusion  to  own  that  party  in 
Ohio,  and  bore  a  very  decided  testimony  against  separations  in 
our  religious  Society ;  as  they  were  no  remedy  of  evils  or  diffi- 
culties. Our  place  was  to  bear,  and  patiently  suffer  until  the 
Lord  brought  relief.  He  referred  to  George  Fox's  epistle,  writ- 
ten from  Amsterdam,  against  a  spirit  that  was  seeking  to  pro- 
mote divisions  and  separations  in  the  Society,  at  that  day.  I 
think  that  the  manner  in  which  separations,  and  their  conse- 
quences, were  treated,  had  a  useful  effect  upon  many  minds. 

Seventh  month  9th.  This  morning  we  were  favored  with  the 
cheering  and  strengthening  presence  of  the  Lord,  at  our  fourth- 
day  meeting  at  Orange  street.  I  was  impressed  with  the  belief 
that  the  Lord  is  at  work  in  the  hearts  of  many,  to  prepare  them 
for  service  in  his  church,  as  they  dedicate  themselves  unto  Him. 
What  is  wanting,  is  for  every  one  to  look  into  his  own  heart; 
not  to  be  looking  out  to  see  what  others  are  to  do.  When  Moses 
was  told  that  Eldad  and  Medad  prophesied  in  the  camp,  Joshua 
said,  "M}^  lord  Moses  forbid  them."  But  Moses  said  unto  him, 
"Enviest  thou  for  my  sake?  Would  God  that  all  the  Lord's 
people  were  prophets,  and  that  the  Lord  would  put  his  Spirit 
upon  them!"     Though  it  is  not  to  be  expected  that  every  on© 


JOURNAL    OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  635 

will  be  made  a  vocal  minister  of  the  Gospel,  yet  every  submissive 
soul  would  be  favored  with  a  measure  of  the  spirit  of  discern- 
ment, and  under  the  Divine  influence,  would  be  quulilied,  at 
times,  to  speak  of  what  the  Lord  had  done  for  it,  to  the  instruc- 
tion and  comibrt  of  other  seeking  ones;  and  1  believe  more  min- 
isters would  be  raised  up  to  preach  the  everlasting  Gospel,  as 
the  visible  church  was  more  generally  gathered  into  obedience 
to  the  blessed  and  adorable  Head. 

25th.  Poverty  of  spirit,  and  the  feelings  of  mourning  over 
the  present  state  of  the  Society,  have  been  my  portion.  The 
weight  of  discouragement  at  times,  seems  heavy  to  bear,  so  that 
there  is  a  secret  lonsinff  for  a  release.  Oh !  for  a  renewed  evi- 
dence  that  Divine  regard  is  not  withdrawn,  but  that  His  mercy 
is  lengthened  out  stiU.  Nothing  seems  to  sustain  the  poor, 
tribulated  soul,  like  a  secret,  quickening  sense  that  the  Lord  is 
near,  watching  over  and  defending  us.  The  devil  is  walking 
about,  as  a  roaring  lion,  seeking  to  devour  us,  and  to  prevail  on 
us  to  cast  away  our  faith  and  hope,  and  no  longer  to  look  to  the 
Lord  for  help  ;  and  in  these  days  of  darkness  and  fear,  true,  ex- 
perienced Friends,  seem  to  be  few.  But  like  Job,  may  we,  in  the 
Lord's  wa}"  and  time,  witness  a  change,  and  our  last  state  bo 
better  than  it  was  in  the  beginning. 

29th.  For  several  weeks  we  have  had  very  warm  weather, 
the  mercury  almost  daily  being  from  ninety  to  one  hundred  de- 
grees in  the  shade,  and  but  little  rain  has  fallen  within  the  last 
three  weeks  ;  so  that  the  ground  has  become  much  parched,  and 
vegetation  dried ;  creating  fears,  in  some  places,  of  the  loss  of 
the  crops,  and  the  necessary  supply  of  grass  for  the  cattle. 
Such  heat,  and  the  rain  withheld,  show  us  how  dependent  we  are 
upon  Divine  Providence,  and  the  need  of  remembering  this  con- 
stant dependence,  and  of  receiving  with  more  thankfulness, 
than  it  is  to  be  feared  many  do,  the  temporal  as  well  as  spiritual 
favors  that  arc  bestowed  upon  us.  How  easily  could  He  cut  off 
our  supplies  of  food,  and  command  a  famine  in  the  land  ;  so  that 
life  would  be  in  danger.  We  have  been  fed  to  the  full,  and  it 
may  be,  have  forgotten,  that  all  we  enjoy  is  the  bounty  of  heaven  ; 
and  have  continued  to  live  too  much  as  if  there  was  no  danger, 
but  that  we  had  our  blessings  at  command.  But  the  Lord's  mercy 
is  lengthened  out  to  a  wicked  and  gainsaying  people.  To-day 
some  rain  has  fallen,  and  the  weather  being  clouded,  we  have 
hope  for  more.     The  little  lightning  and  thunder  we  have  had 


636  JOURNAL   OF   AVILLIAM   EVANS. 

this  season  is  quite  remarkable  ;  no  heavy  thunder-gusts  have 
occurred  in  this  part  of  the  country. 

Eighth  month  3d.  Quite  a  heavy  shower  with  lightning,  this 
afternoon  ;  very  refreshing  to  vegetation. 

4th.  Our  Quarterly  Meeting  was  rather  a  heavy  time  ;  though 
jiot  without  some  encouragement,  through  instrumental  labor  of 
others. 

20th.  This  week  I  went  to  the  Northern  District,  and  the 
Arch  Street  Meetings,  feeling  the  pointing  of  the  Divine  finger, 
under  a  sense  of  much  weakness  and  poverty.  When  I  sat 
down  in  the  meetings,  I  was  tried  with  many  things  rushing 
into  my  mind,  producing  discouragement,  and  a  sense  of  great 
unworthiness,  and  incajiacity  for  the  Lord's  work.  What  I  had 
to  say,  which  I  believe  was  from  the  Lord's  putting  forth,  was 
all  brought  into  my  mind,  after  getting  out  other  things,  by  the 
secret  working  of  the  Holy  Spirit.  I  believe  some  were  brought 
under  serious  feelings,  and  I  hope  some  were  comforted,  and 
others  animated  to  look  into  their  own  conditions,  whether  their 
work  is  going  on  with  the  day.  I  came  away  from  both  meet- 
ings, peaceful. 

On  the  22d  my  wife  and  myself  went  on  a  visit  to  our  friends 
J.  B.  and  wife,  at  Columbus,  New  Jersey.  It  pi'oved  a  pleasant 
interview,  and  interchange  of  sentiment  and  feeling.  They  are 
honestly  concerned  for  the  right  maintenance  of  the  cause  of 
Truth,  as  our  first  Friends  were  bound  to  support  and  jjromul- 
gate  it  to  the  world. 

On  the  24th,  rode  thence  to  Rancocas,  and  attended  the  week- 
day meeting ;  in  which,  through  condescending  goodness  and 
love,  we  were  engaged  in  the  ministry;  and  several  Friends  ex- 
pressed their  gladness  at  our  stopping  in  with  them.  Many  of 
the  meetings  within  our  Yearly  Meeting,  have  no  minister  ;  and 
though  the  life  and  growth  of  true  religion  are  not  dejiendent 
on  ministers  ;  yet  were  the  inembers  living  daily  under  the  sub- 
jecting power  of  Christ,  we  may  believe  that  more  gifts  would  be 
given,  both  for  the  ministry  and  the  cldei'ship.  To  the  primi- 
tive church  they  were  dispensed  for  the  building  of  it  up;  for 
the  instruction  and  feeding  of  the  children,  the  lambs  of  the 
flock  ;  and  they  would  be  continued  to  be  given  for  the  praise 
and  glory  of  the  Great  Head,  and  for  the  promotion  of  his 
cause,  were  the  members  prepared  to  receive  them.  But  tho 
things  of  this  fading  world,  the  love  of  case  and  creaturoly  en? 


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joyments,  absorb  the  thoughts  and  affections  of  many,  whose 
hearts  are  not  open  to  lot  the  King  of  glory  come  in,  and  set  up 
his  kingdom  there.  Thus  the  all-important  work  of  sanctifi- 
cation  is  obstructed ;  and  such  remain  unfit  to  receive  gifts,  and 
therefore  cannot  occupy  them;  and  the  glory  which  would  rest 
upon  us  as  a  religious  body,  were  we  faithful  to  the  Lord,  does 
not  appear  among  us  as  it  has  in  days  past. 

Tenth  month  2d.  This  morning  I  was  drawn  into  a  consid- 
eration of  the  continued  mercy  and  goodness  of  the  Lord,  ex- 
tended to  me  from  childhood  up  to  this  day.  I  have  been  de- 
livered from  many  temptations  and  evils,  and  provided  with 
ever^'thing  necessary  for  my  comfort  and  subsistence  through 
life  ;  and  experienced  the  Lord  to  be  with  me  in  many  trials,  and 
strippings,  and  baptisms,  in  the  work  of  regeneration.  My  faith 
was  renewed  ia  his  condescending  goodness  and  preserving 
power;  and  that  those  who  hold  out  to  the  end  shall  die  in  the 
arms  of  their  Saviour, 

5th.  This  da}'  I  am  sixty-nine  years  old,  and  have  been  re- 
markably blessed  with  health,  and  with  many  outward  and 
spiritual  comforts ;  for  which  I  have  great  cause  to  devote  my- 
self, and  all  that  I  have,  to  the  Lord's  disposal  and  service ;  and 
to  return  gratitude  and  thanksgiving  to  Him  for  all  his  mercies, 
which  ai'e  new  every  morning.  May  my  dear  children,  be  induced 
by  Divine  grace,  to  surrender  themselves  entirely  to  his  blessed 
will,  and  thereby  be  prepared  to  take  their  places  in  the  church 
of  Christ,  in  the  support  and  promotion  of  the  great  cause  of 
truth  and  righteousness.  And  may  lie,  who  began  the  work 
of  regeneration  at  an  early  period  of  my  life,  unworthy  as  I 
am  of  the  least  of  all  his  favors,  continue  to  be  round  about, 
and  preserve  me  to  the  end ;  that  I  may  never  be  permitted  to 
do  anything  to  bring  the  least  stain  upon  the  truth,  or  its  holy 
cause ;  but  by,  and  through  the  Lord's  power,  be  kept  in  the 
low  valley  of  humility,  looking  to  and  relying  tipon  Him  daily 
for  his  guidance,  and  the  sustaining  virtue  of  his  Divine  life. 

Eleventh  month  16th.  This  morning,  (first-day,)  the  Lord 
condescended,  I  believe,  to  draw  near  again  ;  bringing  me  under 
exercise  for  individuals  in  our  meeting,  who  are  at  times  brought 
to  feel  their  undone  condition,  and  to  long  for  deliverance  from 
spiritual  bondage;  and  in  the  openings  of  his  Spirit,  I  was  led 
to  minister  to  such,  and  to  point  out  that  there  is  no  way  by 
which  we  can  be  released  from  the  bondage  of  sin  and  corrup- 


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tion,  but  by  coming  to  Christ  Jesus  in  his  appearance  in  the 
heart ;  talcing  his  yolce  upon  us,  denying  ourselves  and  follow- 
ing Him  in  the  way  of  regeneration.  I  trust  the  solemnizing 
power  of  Christ  went  over  the  meeting  ;  and  my  dear  wife  was 
prostrated  in  supplication  for  the  children,  and  the  rebellious. 
We  had  cause  humbly  to  thank  the  Lord  for  the  renewed  man- 
ifestation of  his  Divine  regard  and  condescension,  to  us  poor  un- 
worthy creatures,  and  to  breathe  in  spirit,  that  He  would  con- 
tinue his  humbling  and  preserving  power,  to  keep  us  in  his  fear 
and  favor. 

27th.  Felt  drawn  to  attend  the  Arch  Street  Meeting.  Pretty 
Boon  after  being  seated,  the  cxjjressions  of  our  Lord  presented: 
"Except  a  corn  of  wheat  fail  into  the  ground  and  die,  it  abideth 
alone  ;  but  if  it  die,  it  bi'ingcth  forth  much  fruit."  The  apostle 
declared  that  he  died  daily,  and  asked  the  believers,  "Know  ye 
not  that  so  many  of  us  as  were  baptized  into  Jesus  Christ,  were 
baptized  into  his  death ;  therefore  we  are  buried  with  Him  by 
baptism  into  death ;  that  like  as  Christ  was  raised  from  the 
dead  by  the  glory  of  the  Father,  even  so  we  also  should  walk 
in  newness  of  life."  The  dealings  of  the  Head  of  the  church, 
with  the  members  of  his  body,  are  a  mystery  to  the  natural,  un- 
regenerate  man,  which  he  cannot  understand,  nor  believe  in. 
They  are  known  only  through  living  experience  ;  and  those  who 
submit  to  his  humbling,  reducing  baptisms  into  death,  as  they 
abide  under  them  in  patience,  when  they  have  accomplished  his 
purpose.  He  will  raise  them  up  out  of  this  death,  by  his  power, 
into  newness  of  life.  Thus  He  prepares  the  creature  for  his 
service,  and  carries  forward  the  work  of  sanctification.  These, 
know  Him  to  be  the  author  and  the  finisher  of  their  faith,  and 
can  believe  and  savingly  understand  the  testimony  of  the  Holy 
Scriptures,  concerning  the  mysterious  operations  of  the  Holy 
Spirit,  and  bear  a  true  declaration  concerning  them. 

Twelfth  month  13th,  Since  my  return  from  attending  the 
School  Committee  at  Westtown,  I  have  been  quite  unwell,  and 
the  apprehension  that  mj'  day  was  drawing  to  a  close,  has  been 
much  upon  my  mind.  There  are  so  many  trials  and  distressing 
feelings  arising  from  the  state  of  our  poor  Society,  that  some- 
times I  seem  ready  to  desire  to  be  permitted  to  depart  and  bo 
with  Christ,  if  the  right  time  was  come,  and  through  his  un- 
merited mercy,  He  would  prepare  me  for  the  awful  change. 
Excepting  the  prcciousncss  of  my  dear  wife  and  children,  and 


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other  near  connections,  there  seems  nothing  to  attach  me  to  the 
world.  I  have  been  provided  with  everything  necessary  for 
comfort  in  this  life,  but  they  are  only  for  this  life ;  and  when 
the  end  comes,  they  are  of  no  value  to  the  immortal  soul.  To 
be  washed,  and  sanctified,  and  justified,  in  the  name  of  the  Lord 
Jesus,  and  by  the  Spirit  of  our  God,  is  the  one  great  thing  need- 
ful. May  this  be  mj'  blessed  experience  before  the  close  comes, 
so  that  an  entrance  may  be  administered  into  the  everlasting 
kingdom  of  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  among  the  generations  of 
the  blessed. 

28th.  I  have  been  wrapped  up  in  silence  for  weeks.  To-day, 
there  seemed  a  little  opening  to  point  out  the  necessity  of  doing 
the  work  which  every  one  is  called  to  perform ;  by  which  our 
own  salvation,  and  that  of  others,  will  be  promoted. 

1857,  Second  month  2d.  We  had  an  uncommonly  large  Quar- 
terly Meeting,  which  was  held  in  great  stillness  to  the  close. 
In  that  for  discipline,  our  aged  friend  S.  Bettle,  Sr.,  advocated 
some  of  the  testimonies  borne  by  Fi'iends,  and  counselled  the 
young  people  against  attending  certain  lectures,  now  become 
numerous,  and  which,  in  his  opinion,  w^ere  likely  to  draw  the 
mind  from  the  retirement  and  i-eligious  exercise,  necessary  for  a 
growth  in  the  Divine  life.  I  added  the  expression  of  my  unity 
with  what  he  said ;  and  that  I  believed  every  one  who  had  sub- 
mitted to  the  power  of  Divine  grace,  if  they  looked  back  at 
their  first  espousals  to  Christ,  would  see  they  were  then  brought 
under  conscientious  scruples,  to  do  nothing  that  would  bring  a 
blemish  on  their  religious  px'ofession  ;  and  as  they  kept  to  this, 
they  were  preserved  out  of  many  temptations  they  had  not  fore- 
seen. 

9th.  Went  to  Concord,  and  attended  the  Quarterly  Meeting 
for  Ministers  and  Elders ;  and  was  exercised  on  the  importance 
of  the  duties  of  elders,  and  of  their  faithful  discharge  of  them. 
They  were  reminded  of  the  advice  to  watch  over  one  another 
for  good ;  to  warn  those  who  run  into  words  without  life  and 
power,  that  we  may  be  helpful  to  one  another ;  and  be  united 
in  true  love  and  fellowship. 

lOth.  The  Meeting  for  Discipline  was  unusually  small,  occa- 
sioned by  the  difficulty  of  getting  through  some  of  the  roads, 
now  much  obstructed  b}^  snow  and  ice,  which  probably  discour- 
aged many  from  coming.  I  had  something  to  communicate 
in  the  second  meeting,  on  the  exercise  of  the  discipline,  and  the 


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requisite  qualification  for  service  in  the  church,  which  is  only- 
received  from  the  great  Head.  This  is  to  be  waited  for  in  rever- 
ent silence  befoi^e  Him,  who  opens  to  us  our  respective  duties, 
and  gives  ability  to  perform  them. 

Third  month  8th.  Many  of  the  sins  of  my  youth  have  beeii 
brought  into  remembrance  this  day,  producing  the  question, 
whether  they  have  been  forgiven  ;  under  which,  a  degree  of 
humiliation  was  felt,  and  desires  raised  before  the  Lord,  that  his 
mercy  may  be  extended,  so  that  they  may  be  blotted  out  and 
cast  behind  his  back.  I  remembered  that  Job  was  made  to 
possess  the  sins  of  his  youth,  after  the  testimony  had  been  pro- 
nounced, that  he  was  a  perfect,  and  an  upright  man ;  doubtless 
to  show  him  his  nothingness,  and  that  he  had  no  ground  to  rest 
upon,  but  the  mercies  and  forgiveness  of  God.  When  he  was 
thoroughly  humbled,  in  the  end  of  this  severe  dispensation,  he 
said,  "  I  have  heard  of  thee  by  the  hearing  of  the  ear,  but  now 
mine  eye  seeth  theo;  wherefore  I  abhor  myself,  and  repent  in 
dust  and  ashes ;"  and  "  The  Lord  turned  his  captivity,  and  gave 
him  twice  as  much  as  he  had  before."  May  I  know  again  and 
again  the  washing  of  regeneration  and  the  renewing  of  the  Holy 
Ghost,  and  thereby  be  enabled  to  confess  my  sins  unto  God,  and 
receive  his  forgiveness  and  pardon,  through  the  blood  of  his 
adorable  Son.  our  Redeemer  and  Saviour,  Jesus  Christ. 

10th.  Feeling  a  draft  in  my  mind,  I  sat  with  the  Friends  of 
the  North  Meeting,  being  their  mid-week  meeting.  Sympathy 
with  the  burden-bearers,  clothed  my  mind;  also  for  the  dear 
visited  children,  who  have  few  fathers  and  mothers  to  look  up 
to.  The  language  of  encouragement  arose  in  my  heart,  "Thus 
Baith  the  Lord,  that  created  thee,  O  Jacob,  Fear  not,  for  I 
have  redeemed  thee,  I  have  called  thee  by  thj''  name;  thou  art 
mine.  When  thou  passest  through  the  waters,  I  will  be  with 
thee,  and  through  the  rivers,  they  shall  not  overflow  thee  ;  when 
thou  walkest  through  the  fire,  thou  shalt  not  be  burned,  neither 
shall  the  flame  kindle  upon  thee." 

Fifth  month  19th.  Was  held  our  Meeting  for  Sufferings;  in 
which  our  friend  W.  G.,  from  Ireland,  had  a  little  service.  It 
felt  to  me  that  the  time  was  come,  for  me  to  be  i^elcased  from 
the  clerkship;  and  proposing  that  a  committee  bo  appointed  to 
bring  forward  a  Friend  to  serve  in  my  place,  it  was  done. 

21st.  This  has  been  a  day  of  poverty,  and  seemingly  striving 
for  bread  in  vain  ;  but  in  the  evening,  at  the  close  of  our  read- 


JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS.  641 

ing  in  the  Xcw  Testajnent,  the  impression  came  sweetly  over 
my  mind,  it  is  a  blessing  to  have  the  Son  of  Peace  to  take  up 
his  abode  iu  our  habitation;  which  I  felt  fresh  desires  may  bo 
more  and  more  known  by  every  one  of  us,  in  our  individual  ex- 
perience.    Without  it  there  is  no  true  happiness. 

22d.  There  seemed  to  be  a  renewed  qualification  to  encourage 
Friends  to  hold  fast  their  confidence  in  the  oranii:)otcnt  Captain 
of  Salvation.  He  delivered  his  people  out  of  the  hands  of  their 
enemies,  in  days  of  old.  He  raised  up  our  Society  to  promul- 
gate anew,  the  truths  of  the  everlasting  gospel,  and  He  can  now 
deliver  us  from  our  trials  and  dilficulties,  and  raise  up  others  to 
declare  the  same  blessed  doctrines  and  testimonies;  as  we  give 
up  to  his  holy  will,  made  know^u  in  our  hearts. 

Eighth  month  13tli.  Feeling  an  intimation  to  attend  the 
Quarterly  Meeting  of  Salem,  I  went  to  Woodbury  this  morning, 
and  sat  down  in  the  meeting,  under  a  sense  of  its,  and  my  own 
stripped  condition;  and  the  few  there  are  left  to  visit  Friends 
in  ditferent  places.  We  sat  an  hour  in  silence,  when  it  seemed 
to  be  my  business,  to  set  forth  the  inward  work  of  religion  upon 
the  heart ;  and  that  where  it  is  submitted  to,  it  leads  into  retire- 
ment before  the  Lord  ;  in  which  the  spirit  of  prayer  is  at  times 
given,  to  ask  forgiveness  for  past  sins,  and  for  strength  to  resist 
the  enemy  and  his  temptations.  The  people  of  the  w^orld  are 
looking  out  for  the  faults  of  others,  and  feeding  upon  them ;  but 
the  Lord's  visited  and  faithful  children  are  concerned  to  have 
their  own  hearts  searched,  that  everything  contrary  to  his  will 
may  be  done  away,  and  they  made  to  bi-ing  forth  the  fruits  of 
his  Spirit,  to  the  praise  of  his  great  Name.  Their  language  is, 
''  Search  me,  O  God,  and  know  my  heart;  try  me  and  know  my 
thoughts,  and  see  if  there  be  any  wicked  way  in  me,  and  lead 
me  in  the  way  everlasting."  The  tribulated  seed  were  encour- 
aged to  trust  in  the  Lord,  and  to  look  to  Him  daily,  for  the 
arising  of  his  power  to  help  them  in  their  trials,  and  to  gather 
the  children.  The  latter  wei'e  persuaded  to  obey  the  offers  of 
Divine  grace  and  mercy,  which  are  of  more  value  than  anything 
in  this  world.  These  are  the  days  of  the  Son  of  JMan  to  their 
souls,  which  we  have  no  powder  to  command,  and  if  rejected, 
know  not  that  they  will  ever  be  renewed.  I  thought  the  ten- 
dering power  of  Christ  was  felt  by  many  among  them,  for  which 
we  have  cause  to  be  thankful  to  the  great  Lord  of  the  harvest. 
Ninth  month  14th.     Feeling  a  pointing  of  the  Divine  finger 


642  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

to  Haddonfield  Monthly  and  Quarterly  Meetings,  I  went  over 
the  river  this  morning,  and  attended  their  Monthly  Meeting 
In  the  first  sitting  I  was  drawn  to  address  them  on  the  import- 
ance of  each  one  laboring  in  his  own  vineyai'd,  while  the  call 
was  extended.  If  any,  by  the  renewed  visitations  of  Divine 
grace,  were  brought  to  sec  that  their  time  had  been  spent  with- 
out this  labor,  and  that  the  eleventh  hour  of  the  day  was  at 
hand,  it  was  all  important  they  should  obey  the  call,  to  enter 
into  their  viue^^ard  and  there  work,  that  they  may  obtain  the 
reward  at  the  end  of  the  day. 

On  fourth-day  morning,  w^ent  to  Medford,  where  the  Quar- 
terly Meeting  is  to  be  held  at  this  time. 

16th.  The  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders  was  small.  After 
the  Queries  and  Answers  had  been  read,  I  had  some  remarks 
to  make  on  the  essential  need  of  keeping  in  the  life  of  Truth. 
That  a  profession  however  sound,  would  avail  little,  if  we  were 
not  dwelling  in  Christ  and  pi'oducing  the  fruits  of  his  Spirit. 

The  Quarterly  Meeting  was  larger  than  any  other  of  those  in 
the  country.  We  sat  long  in  silence.  When  it  seemed  near 
time  to  close  the  partition,  I  had  an  impression  to  rise,  and 
though  it  was  rather  laborious  service,  I  adverted  to  the  import- 
ance of  Friends,  in  their  social  circles,  putting  a  guard  over 
themselves,  to  avoid  lightness,  and  to  abstain  from  too  much 
conversation.  After  this,  the  way  opened  to  address  different 
states,  and  to  hold  up  the  importance  of  not  suffering  the  world, 
in  its  lawful  or  unlawful  concerns,  to  hinder  us  from  performing 
our  duties  to  our  Heavenly  Father ;  that  the  work  of  salvation 
may  be  carried  on,  and  we  be  filliiig  up  the  j^laces  assigned  us 
in  the  church  of  Christ.     I  felt  peaceful  and  easy. 

29th.  F'or  a  week  past  there  has  been  much  distress,  owing  to 
the  failure  of  some  moneyed  institutions,  and  of  men  in  large 
business,  and  the  refusal  of  our  banks  to  redeem  their  notes  in 
specie.  For  several  years  some  merchants  have  been  borrowing 
large  sums  of  monc}^,  to  enable  them  to  engage  in  extensive  spec- 
ulations in  various  ways ;  in  stocks,  in  flour,  sugars,  and  in  a 
great  expansion  of  manufacturing  establishments.  The  price,  of 
articles  of  food,  and  other  necessaries  in  living,  have  been  greatly 
enhanced.  Now,  many  of  the  highest  standing  as  merchants, 
having  failed  to  meet  their  engagements,  and  the  banks  sus- 
pending specie  payments,  confidence  in  tliem  has  been  shaken; 
creating  embarrassment  from  the  want  of  a  reliable  medium  of 


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circulation.  Thus  by  raising  the  price  of  the  necessaries  of  life, 
an  unwarrantable  tax  was  laid  on  the  people,  w^hen  there  had 
been  no  scarcity;  and  when  the  men  engaged  in  these  specula- 
tions could  no  longer  obtain  loans  of  money,  to  maintain  their 
control  over  those  articles,  a  general  breaking  up  has  followed; 
manufactures  have  stopped,  mechanics  and  others  have  been 
thrown  out  of  employment,  and  money  transactions  involved  in 
confusion.  It  is  remai'kable  that  many  of  those  considered  the 
most  wealthy,  and  the  most  sagacious  and  competent  as  mer- 
chants, have  been  the  first  to  become  embarrassed;  by  whom, 
many  of  the  smaller  traders,  have  been  involved  in  great  diffi- 
culties, and  losses.  We  have  been  going  on  with  high  heads,  as 
if  nothing  could  arrest  our  progress  in  excessive  ti-ade ;  but  the 
Lord  has  his  Avay  in  the  clouds,  and  thick  darkness,  and  He 
uses  the  means  to  bring  down  the  lofty  from  their  great  exalta- 
tion, and  to  chastise  the  people  for  -their  worldly-mi ndedness, 
their  rebellion,  and  their  slighting  of  Him  and  their  duty  which 
they  daily  owe  to  Him. 

I  went  this  morning  to  the  Northern  District  Meeting;  and 
was  led  to  entreat  the  young  people  to  give  up  to  the  Lord  in 
the  day  of  their  visitation,  and  they  would  gradually  know  a 
growth  in  the  Truth.  Joseph  Avho  was  hated  of  his  brethren, 
was  through  faithfulness  to  his  God,  prepared  to  be  as  a  saviour 
to  his  father's  house,  and  governor  over  Egypt ;  having  suffered 
persecution  and  imprisonment  for  standing  firm  to  the  Divine 
will.  He  could  not  foresee  that  which  was  afar  off,  respecting 
himself,  but  by  obedience  he  was  kept  in  purity,  and  grew  in 
wisdom;  so  that  his  father,  on  his  death-bed,  compared  him  to 
"A  fruitful  bough  by  a  well,  whose  branches  run  over  the  wall: 
the  archers  have  sorely  grieved  him,  and  shot  at  him,  and  hated 
him  ;  but  his  bow  abode  in  strength,  and  the  arms  of  his  hands 
were  made  strong,  by  the  hands  of  the  mighty  God  of  Jacob." 
While  a  lad,  he  was  cruelly  treated  by  his  brethren,  some  of 
whom  would  have  destroyed  him.  But  he  was  preserved  in  the 
fear  of  the  Lord,  and  the  Lord  watched  over  him  ;  and  in  process 
of  time,  made  use  of  him,  when  way  was  to  be  made  to  keep  the 
people  alive  in  famine.  He  became  the  instrument  in  the  Divine 
hand,  of  keeping  his  father's  family  in  the  great  dearth  which 
spread  over  the  country.  Many  young  people  in  minding  the 
guidance  of  their  Saviour,  have  steadily  advanced  in  religious 
growth,  until,  as  they  grew  in  years,  they  have  become  pillars  in 


644  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS. 

the  Lord's  house,  and  instruments  in  his  hand  to  rebuke  trans- 
gressors, and  to  draw  souls  to  Christ. 

Tenth  month.  The  pecuniary  distress  continues  to  increase, 
and  one  failure  makes  way  for  another,  so  that  people  are  left 
in  uncertainty  who  shall  next  come  to  a  stop.  Business  has  ex- 
perienced a  great  check,  even  with  those  whose  affairs  are  in  a 
safe  condition  J  it  being  difficult  to  know  whom  it  would  be  safe 
to  trust.  Such  a  week  has  not  been  known  by  the  present  gen- 
eration, and  well  will  it  be,  if  reckless  and  unjjrincipled  men, 
who  have  too  little  regarded  the  law  of  righteousness  and  jus- 
tice, ai*e  brought  to  a  full  sense  of  their  wn'ong  doings,  the 
emptiness  of  all  worldly  aggrandisement,  and  the  paramount 
importance  of  working  out  their  salvation  with  fear  and  trem- 
bling before  God. 

5th.  This  day,  I  am  seventy  years  old,  and  through  mercy 
have  been  favored  with  almost  continued  health  ;  for  which  and 
many  other  blessings,  I  have  cause  for  deep  gratitude  and 
thankfulness  to  the  Father  of  mercies.  May  I  be  still  enabled, 
by  the  help  of  his  Holy  Spirit,  to  walk  humbly  before  Him  ;  bo 
kept  from  bringing  any  shade  upon  the  blessed  truth,  but  in  re- 
verent, daily  prostration,  bring  forth  fruits  of  righteousness,  to 
the  glory  and  honor  of  his  great  Name. 

15th.  It  was  unlookcd  for  to  feel  my  mind  turned  to  the 
Arch  Street  Meeting,  this  morning;  but  though  things  in  the 
outward  were  dark  and  gloomy,  I  thought  the  truth  and  its 
cause,  and  the  salvation  of  souls,  I'emained  to  be  of  as  great  im- 
portance as  ever;  and  the  Lord  could  manifest  Himself  for  our 
good,  notwithstanding  surrounding  discouragements.  The  na- 
ture and  efficacy  of  true  faith  were  brought  before  me,  and  after 
a  time  of  inward  waiting,  the  impression  was  felt  to  rise  with 
the  testimony  of  the  apostle,  that  "By  grace  are  ye  saved, 
through  faith,  and  that  not  of  ourselves ;  it  is  the  gift  of  God  ;" 
also  the  declaration  of  the  wonderful  power  of  foith,  exempli- 
fied in  the  experiences  of  the  holy  ancients,  who  through  it, 
wrought  righteousness,  stopped  the  mouths  of  lions,  &c.  This 
faith  in  God  remains  to  be  the  same,  and  it  is  dispensed  to  his 
children  by  the  Captain  of  their  salvation,  and  becomes  their 
victory,  as  they  follow  Him  in  the  regeneration.  Mere  belief 
in  the  truths  of  the  Holy  Scriptures,  though  of  inestimable 
value,  is  not  sufficient,  without  coming  to  Christ  and  receiving 
life  and  power  from  Him.    Some  were  invited  to  examine  them- 


OUUXAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  6-45 

selves,  Avhelhei*  anything  had  drawn  them  away  from  the  devo- 
tion and  faithfulness  to  Christ,  which  they  had  known  in  years 
past ;  whether  their  worldly  pursuits  had  ,sup])re8scd  the  love 
and  allegiance  they  once  bore  to  Him.  The  obedient  ones  were 
encouraged  to  keep  fast  hold  of  the  shield  of  faith,  and  to  put 
their  trust  in  the  Lord,  who  is  as  near  to  his  children  to  pi"^ 
serve  and  defend  them,  as  He  ever  was,  though  they  may  not 
perceive  it;  but  in  his  time,  He  will  manifest  Himself  to  their 
joy  and  consolation.  I  trust  the  power  of  Truth  was  felt  to  be 
in  good  measui'e  over  the  meeting,  and  I  came  away  in  peace. 

Eleventh  month  22d.  Fervent  desires  have  been  almost  un- 
remitting, that  the  Lord  would  not  let  me  be  overcome  by  any 
temptation  which  the  evil  one  may  present.  I  feel  the  neces- 
sity of  watching  over  my  thoughts  and  words,  as  well  as  actions, 
wherever  I  go;  in  the  street,  in  the  market-house,  at  the  store, 
at  home  and  in  company,  lest  anything  should  slip  from  me  that 
would  injure  another,  or  wound  my  own  soul. 

28th.  For  several  daj'S  I  have  had  my  mind  turned  towards 
Mansfield  Meeting  and  Burlington  Quarter,  but  labored  under 
concern  lest  I  should  be  mistaken.  As  the  time  drew  near,  I  felt 
most  easy  to  set  off.  On  first-day,  I  attended  Mansfield  meet- 
ing, Avhich  was  pretty  large  for  the  country.  I  was  led  to  ad- 
dress the  company,  under  feelings  of  affectionate  solicitude  for 
their  present  and  everlasting  w^elfare ;  and  to  bend  the  knee  in 
supplication  to  the  Father  of  mei'cies,  for  the  extendings  of  Di- 
vine help,  to  the  livingl}'  exercised  among  them.  I  hoped  the 
feeling  of  the  humbling  power  of  Christ  was  spi-ead  over  us. 

30th.     Attended  the  Select  Meeting  at  Burlington. 

Twelfth  month  1st.  Went  to  the  Quarterly  Meeting,  under 
a  sense  of  weakness,  and  with  desire  to  be  preserved  in  my 
place,  not  attempting  to  do  anj'thing  without  the  Lord's  bid- 
ding. 

I  was  led  to  declare,  that  whatever  might  be  the  difficulties 
we  may  have  to  contend  with,  if  faithful  to  our  Lord  and  Mas- 
ter, He  will  cast  up  a  plain  path  before  us,  and  strengthen  us 
to  renounce  all  that  He  calls  us  to  part  with,  though  as  dear  as 
a  right  hand  or  a  right  eye,  and  give  us  his  peace ;  and  through 
perseverance,  under  the  guidance  of  his  Spirit,  an  establishment 
in  Christ  will  be  come  to.  He  will  give  us  power  over  all  the 
power  of  the  enemy,  as  He  declared  to  his  disciples;  and  as  we 
were  bought  with  a  price,  even  the  precious  blood  of  Christ,  aa 
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646  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS, 

a  lamb  without  blemish  and  without  spot,  we  are  to  glorify 
God  in  our  bodies  and  in  our  spirits,  which  arc  his. 

Throughout  this  little  visit,  I  was  favored  with  inward  quiet 
and  watchfulness  before  the  Lord ;  and  in  the  retrospect,  was 
clothed  with  peace. 

8th.  My  wife  and  I  went  to  Westtown,  and  met  Friends  on 
the  committee. 

9th.  In  the  course  of  its  deliberation,  the  disposition  man- 
ifested by  some  of  the  scholars,  to  bring  and  wear  clothing 
at  the  school,  which  is  not  suitable,  as  regards  plainness,  engaged 
our  consideration.  It  Avas  manifest,  that  an  unabated  concer.n 
pervaded  the  committee,  to  maintain  the  testimonies  of  the  Soci- 
ety, in  conducting  this  seminary,  according  to  their  original  stan- 
dard. The  unity  and  solemnity  that  spread  over  us,  were  com- 
forting and  strengthening.  It  has  generally  been  the  case  that 
Friends  have  been  bound  together  in  sweet  fellowship,  in  con- 
ducting the  affairs  of  this  institution,  and  in  their  interest  for 
the  best  welfare  of  the  children. 

13th.  This  morning  we  had  quite  a  large  meeting,  which, 
through  Divine  goodness,  was  a  favored,  solemn  time.  The 
faithful  occupancy  of  the  gift  bestowed  upon  each  one,  in  whose 
heart,  the  preparing  work  of  sanctification  has  been  carried  on, 
was  held  forth,  as  indispensable  to  a  growth  in  the  Divine  life. 
"Feed  the  flock  of  God  which  is  among  you,  taking  the  over- 
sight thereof,  not  by  constraint,  but  willingly;  not  for  filthy 
lucre,  but  of  a  ready  mind.  Neither  as  being  lords  over  God's 
heritage,  but  being  ensamples  to  the  flock.  And  when  tho 
chief  Shepherd  shall  appear,  ye  also  shall  receive  a  crown  of 
glory  that  fadeth  not  away." 


JOL'RN'ATi   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  Gil 

CHAPTER    XX  XI  I. 

1857—1859. 
Religious  Engagements  at  and  about  Home. 

1857,  Twelfth  month  20th.  Very  unexpectedly,  this  morn- 
ing, I  felt  a  pointing  to  go  and  sit  with  the  few  Friends  com- 
posing Newton  Meeting.  There  was  but  little  time  to  get  ready, 
but  I  had  the  impression,  that  if  it  was  the  Lord's  will  for  me  to 
go,  I  should  be  there  in  time.  The  steamboat  was  just  putting 
off  as  I  came  near  the  wharf,  but  they  held  on  for  me,  and  I 
reached  the  meeting-house  in  good  time.  It  was  mournful  to 
sec  the  reduced  state  of  the  meeting,  and  I  was  brought  into 
sympathy  with  some,  upon  whom  the  weight  of  holding  it 
mainly  rested.  The  conviction  came  over  me,  that  some  were, 
at  times,  clearly  convinced  of  the  emptiness  and  insufficiency 
of  worldly  possessions,  to  give  substantial  peace ;  and  also  of  the 
calls  of  the  Lord  to  come  away  from  such  enjoyments,  and  give 
themselves  up  to  serve  the  Lord,  who  alone  can  grant  peace, 
and  make  them  fit  to  do  his  will ;  and  as  lights  in  the  world,  to 
glorify  Hira  in  their  day.  They  were  spoken  to  in  the  jiersua- 
sive  spirit  of  the  gospel,  to  deny  themselves,  take  up  the  cross 
and  follow  their  dear  Redeemer.  The  burden-bearers  were  en- 
couraged to  hold  on  their  way  faithfully  in  the  discharge  of 
their  religious  duties.  Supplication  w^as  made  to  the  Lord  to 
renew  his  visitations  to  the  rebellious  and  negligent,  and  to 
comfort  and  strengthen  those  who  are  often  cast  down  and  af- 
flicted. 

1858,  First  month  30th.  Was  held  the  Select  Quarterly  Meet- 
ing ;  in  which  some  remarks  were  made  on  the  need  of  a  faithful 
observance  of  plainness  of  dress  and  manners,  in  the  bringing 
up  of  our  children.  Harmony  was  felt  to  prevail.  Still  there 
was  a  feeling  of  suffering,  on  account  of  the  working  of  a  wrona: 
spirit  in  the  Society  at  lai'ge. 

Second  month  1st.  We  had  a  large  Quarterly  Meeting ;  many 
of  our  young  members,  and  some  Friends  from  the  country 
being  at  it.  Great  stillness  spread  over  us.  Several  ministers 
from  the  country  attended ;  and  in  the  second  meeting  com- 


G48  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

niunicated  their  exercises  on  different  subjects.  I  felt  drawn  to 
call  the  attention  of  the  young  people  to  the  daily  reading  of 
the  Holy  Scriptures,  in  a  serious  manner,  with  their  hearts 
lifted  up  to  their  Heavenly  Father,  to  open  and  apply  them  to 
their  conditions,  by  his  Spirit  in  their  hearts.  The  more  we 
are  obedient  to  this  Spirit,  by  which  the  Lord's  will  is  made 
known,  and  by  which  strength  is  given  to  perform  it,  the  more 
w^e  shall  love  to  read  the  Scriptures ;  which  were  given  by  in- 
spiration of  God,  and  are  able  to  make  wise  unto  salvation, 
through  faith  which  is  in  Christ  Jesus.  The  Holy  Spirit  will 
bind  us  to  make  use  of  the  means  which  the  Lord  has  provided 
for  our  help  in  the  way  and  work  of  salvation ;  requiring  the 
attendance  of  our  meetings  for  worship  and  discipline,  and  the 
support  of  all  our  testimonies. 

The  attendance  of  so  many,  I  thought  was  evidence  that  they 
continued  to  feel  a  deep  interest  in  the  welfare  of  the  Society, 
and  the  maintenance  of  its  j)rinciples. 

Third  month  19th.  Was  held  our  Meeting  for  Sufferings  ;  to 
which  was  offered,  An  Appeal  to  the  citizens  of  the  United 
States,  on  behalf  of  the  colored  people;  embracing  the  slave 
trade  and  slavery,  by  the  committee  which  had  been  under  ap- 
pointment several  months,  but  had  been  detained  from  accom- 
jjlishing  the  object,  by  not  receiving  the  African  Eeports  expect- 
ed from  England.  We  were  informed  that  they  had  arrived  ; 
having  been  furnished  by  the  officers  having  them  in  charge, 
without  expense.  The  address  was  acceptable  to  the  meeting, 
united  with,  and  directed  to  be  laid  before  the  Yearly  Meeting. 
I  thought  the  testimony  against  slavery,  being  founded  on  the 
commands  of  our  Saviour,  as  laid  down  in  the  Holy  Scriptures, 
would  have  a  good  effect  upon  many  Christians  of  other  deno- 
minations. In  the  midst  of  so  much  attempted  defence  of 
slavery,  by  those  who  hold  the  colored  people  as  property,  it 
was  felt  to  be  our  duty,  afresh  to  let  the  public  know,  that  we 
continue  to  reject  and  oppose  human  bondage  on  Scripture 
ground,  and  a  conscientious  belief  that  slavery  is  a  violation  of 
the  rights  of  the  African  race ;  equally  with  the  rest  of  man- 
kind, the  objects  of  Divine  mercy  and  regard,  and  entitled  to 
freedom,  and  the  exercise  of  their  mental  and  physical  powers. 

28th.  In  meeting,  this  morning,  I  felt  an  affectionate  draft 
towards  the  young  people  ;  that  they  might  not  give  way  to  the 
temptation  to  abandon  the  path  of  obedience  to  their  Lord,  in 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  G49 

the  time  of  dose  trial.  David's  testimonj'  was  brought  to  my 
remembrance:  "The  Lord  is  my  ShejDherd,  I  shall  not  want. 
He  maketb  me  to  lie  down  in  green  pastures;  He  leadcth  mo 
beside  the  still  waters;  He  restoreth  my  sonl.  He  leadeth  mo 
in  the  paths  of  righteousness  for  his  name's  sake."  "  Surel}^ 
mercj^  and  goodness  shall  follow  me  all  the  days  of  iwy  life  ;  and 
I  shall  dwell  in  the  house  of  the  Lord  forever ;"  which  I  was 
led  to  revive  for  their  comfort  and  strength.  This  has  been  the 
experience  of  the  Lord's  children  in  all  ages;  and  as  they  jier- 
severed  in  following  their  Shepherd,  and  the  Bishop  of  their 
souls,  faithfully  and  in  humilit}*,  they  grew  from  stature  to  sta- 
ture in  the  Truth  ;  were  blessed  from  youth  to  old  age,  and 
made  useful  in  his  church  and  household ;  and  when  the  end 
came,  they  died  in  peace  and  hope  of  everlasting  blessedness. 

Fourth  month  Ist.  This  morning  I  went  to  the  Arch  Street 
Meeting,  feeling,  as  I  believed,  the  pointing  of  the  Divine  finger 
towards  it,  yet  had  some  searching  of  heart  to  guard  against 
being  mistaken.  After  a  time  of  silent  waiting,  I  felt  drawn 
to  bear  testimonj^  to  the  peculiar  characteristic  of  the  gospel 
dispensation  ;  that  every  member  of  the  body  and  church  of 
Christ,  has  access  to  the  living  Spring  of  consolation  and 
strength,  in  himself;  and  may  realize  the  declai'ation  of  Christ, 
"The  water  that  I  shall  give  him  shall  be  in  him  a  well  of 
water,  springing  up  into  everlasting  life ;"  and  thereby  is  fav- 
ored at  times  with  rejoicing  in  himself  and  not  in  another.  The 
servants  of  Christ  have  their  trials  and  seasons  of  spiritual  pov- 
erty, necessary  for  their  humiliation,  and  to  show  them  that 
they  can  do  nothing  without  their  Lord  and  Master;  but  He 
will  never  be  unmindful  of  them;  and  in  his  time  will  again 
come,  with  healing  in  his  wings;  and  they  know  Him  by  the 
quickening  virtue  of  his  power,  w^hen  He  does  appear  in  them. 
The  eminent  servant  and  prophet  of  the  living  God  declared, 
that  "Although  the  fig  tree  shall  not  blossom,  neither  shall  fruit 
be  in  the  vines;  the  labor  of  the  olive  shall  fail,  and  the  fields 
shall  yield  no  meat ;  the  flock  shall  be  cut  otf  from  the  fold,  and 
there  shall  be  no  herd  in  the  stalls;  yet  I  will  rejoice  in  the 
Lord  ;  I  will  joy  in  the  God  of  my  salvation."  This  rejoicing 
was  by  the  immediate,  tendering  operation  of  the  Holy  Spirit  in 
himself;  and  this  rejoicing  will  continue  to  bo  the  experience 
of  the  Lord's  children,  as  they  abide  in  Christ,  holding  fust  their 
confidence  firm,  by  his  holy  help. 


650  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

8th.  "Was  at  Westtown,  and  found  the  school  pretty  satis- 
factory, as  relates  to  the  advance  of  the  pupils  in  their  studies. 
Changes  are  taking  place  in  the  home  education  of  children ;  the 
parents,  in  many  cases,  neither  look  nor  act  like  true  Friends, 
and  their  example  must  draw  their  children  into  much  liberty, 
and  turn  them  away  from  the  humble,  plain  way  of  living 
and  dressing,  which  they  ought  to  observe.  This  defective 
home  education  prepares  many  children  to  disregard  the  regu- 
lations of  this  school,  and  the  care  and  authority  of  the  teachers, 
and  must  contribute  to  disqualify  them  for  the  steady  pursuit 
of  their  studies.  Thus  the  trouble  of  the  caretakers  is  greatly 
increased,  and  the  benefits  are  not  fully  derived  from  the  insti- 
tution, which  the  provisions  there  made  for  a  liberal  and  guarded 
education,  would  confer.  The  unsettled  state  of  our  Society,  pro- 
duced by  attempted  changes  in  our  religious  doctrines  and  tes- 
timonies, and  by  the  love  and  pursuit  of  the  world,  doubtless 
acts  unfavorably  upon  many  parents  and  their  offspring ;  and 
which  we  cannot  exj)ect  to  see  corrected,  but  by  submission  to 
the  convicting  j)Ower  of  the  Lord's  spirit,  operating  on  the 
heart ;  and  the  steady  faithfulness  of  the  conscientious  and  reli- 
giously-exercised members.  Instead  of  looking  abroad  for  de- 
fects in  others,  it  is  important  we  should  keep  inward  to  the 
Lord ;  setting  a  proper  example ;  and  as  we  may  be  enabled, 
put  up  our  prayers  to  Ilim  for  our  own  preservation  ;  and  that 
lie  would  turn  the  hearts  of  the  people  to  Himself,  and  bring 
our  religious  Society  out  of  its  present  wilderness  state. 

14th.  Our  Yearly  Meeting  is  near  at  hand.  There  seem 
to  be  comparatively  few  true  standard-bearers  and  sympathiz- 
ers. Some  si^eak  of  the  discipline  as  being  of  little  importance, 
when  it  conflicts  with  their  disorganizing  views,  and  thus  are 
ready  to  set  up  their  imaginations  for  revelation,  and  above  the 
united  judgment  and  wisdom  dispensed  to  the  church  in  ita 
brighter  days.  It  is  not  in  man  to  control  the  winds  and  waves ; 
the  Lord  alone  can  rebuke  them.  May  all  our  afflictions  drive 
us  nearer  to  Him,  lead  us  to  put  up  our  prayers  for  his  sustain- 
ing help,  and  to  place  our  trust  in  his  mercy  and  goodness.  "We 
can  do  nothing  for  ourselves  or  for  others,  without  Him ;  and 
may  He  renew  our  faith,  and  never  withdraw  his  Hoi}''  Spirit 
from  us;  in  unmerited  loving  kindness  keep  us  together  as  a 
body,  travailing  in  spirit  for  his  cause,  and  the  real  welfare  of 
each  other. 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  G51 

19th.  Tho  Yearly  Meeting  convened,  and  was  a  largo  body. 
It  opened  with  solemnity.  Samuel  Bottle,  Sr.,  called  our  atten- 
tion to  the  belief  of  Friends,  that  it  was  the  Lord's  work  for 
which  we  were  assembled ;  and  exhorted,  to  let  it  bo  done  in 
his  fear,  with  decencj',  forbearance,  and  love  of  each  other. 
Though  some  objections  were  made,  an  epistle  from  Dublin,  and 
a  minute  from  London,  informing  they  had  not  written  an  epis- 
tle to  us,  were  read.  In  the  afternoon,  the  representatives  re- 
ported, that  way  did  not  open  to  propose  any  change  of  clerks, 
and  they  were  accordingly  continued.  The  minutes  of  the 
Meeting  for  Sutferings  being  read,  the  addi-ess  to  the  citizens  of 
the  United  States,  on  the  colored  races,  embracing  a  strong 
testimony  against  slavery  and  the  slave  trade,  was  adopted,  and 
the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  directed  to  have  printed  a  sufficient 
number  for  circulation. 

"While  the  state  of  the  inferior  meetings,  as  brought  before 
the  Yearly  Meeting,  by  the  answers  to  the  Queries,  in  the  dif- 
ferent reports,  was  under  consideration,  a  good  degree  of  solem- 
nity was  over  the  meeting,  and  an  interest  manifested  in 
the  different  subjects ;  under  which  Friends  spoke  suitably  to 
them.  When  the  business  was  finished,  and  the  minute  of  the 
exercise  of  the  meeting  was  read,  a  deep  silence  follow^ed,  and 
expression  of  unity  with  it;  when  the  meeting  closed,  under  the 
covering  of  this  solemnity.  We  have  cause  to  return  thanks  to 
our  Heavenly  Father,  for  his  unmerited  condescension  to  us 
poor,  unworthy  creatures. 

Fifth  month  6th.  This  being  the  time  of  Evesham  Monthly 
Meeting,  I  attended  it.  I  was  engaged  to  warn  Friends  of  the 
enemy's  temptation,  to  induce  the  travailing  seed,  to  let  go  their 
hope  and  belief  that  the  Lord  is  near  to  support  and  preserve 
us ;  and  to  persuade  them  that  He  is  about  to  forsake  and  cast 
off  this  people ;  by  giving  way  to  which,  they  would  soon  aban- 
don their  exercise  of  spirit,  for  their  own  spiritual  welfare,  and 
for  the  cause'  sake.  The  living  members  of  the  visible  chui'ch 
have  been  enabled  to  feel  and  to  mourn  over  the  degeneracy 
which  from  time  to  time  has  crept  in  among  its  members.  The 
prophet  saw  the  state  of  the  house  of  Isi-ael,  under  the  vision  of 
a  valley  full  of  dry  bones,  and  he  said,  "Can  these  dry  bones 
live  ?"  But  when  he  prophesied  at  the  Divine  command,  there 
followed  a  shaking,  and  bone  came  to  its  bone,  sinews  and  flesh 
came  upon  them,  and  the  breath  of  life  was  breathed  into  them, 


652  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

and  they  became  a  living  army.  We  ought  to  maintain  the 
faith,  that  our  Heavenly  Fathcx"  is  as  merciful  and  kind  to  the 
souls  of  the  children  of  men,  at  this  day,  as  lie  was  to  our  fore- 
fathers ;  when  He  gathered  them  out  of  different  denomina- 
tions, and  made  them  a  people  to  stand  for  his  honor.  He  will 
assuredly  visit  the  children,  by  his  good  Spirit ;  and  if  they 
submit  to  his  will  and  guidance,  will  also  make  them  vessels  for 
his  use. 

20th.  This  morning,  feeling  an  imj^ression  to  go  to  the  Arch 
Street  Meeting,  I  gave  up  to  it;  and  after  a  time  of  silence,  the 
efficacy  and  importance  of  knowing  Divine  love  to  pervade  our 
hearts,  by  which  only  we  can  experience  happiness  in  this 
life,  and  a  hojoe  of  blessedness  in  that  which  is  to  come,  impress- 
ed my  mind,  and  I  rose  with  it.  As  proof  of  its  abiding  influ- 
ence in  our  hearts,  our  Saviour  told  his  disciples,  "  If  a  man  love 
me,  he  will  keep  my  words,  and  my  Father  will  love  him,  and 
we  will  come  unto  him,  and  make  our  abode  with  him." 
Blessed  experience !  to  know  the  Lord  to  tabernacle  with  us, 
and  to  set  up  his  kingdom  in  the  heart.  When  this  is  the  case, 
we  cannot  encourage  feelings  of  enmity  towards  any,  but  will 
be  led  to  desire  the  redemption  of  others  from  all  evil,  and  to  bo 
brought  into  the  same  experience  of  Divine  love  with  ourselves. 
"  God  is  love,  and  he  that  dwellethin  love  dwelleth  in  God  and 
God  in  him."  "  Perfect  love  casteth  out  fear ;  because  fear  hath 
torment."  A  violation  of  the  Divine  law  produces  fear  of  the 
jDresence  of  our  Almighty  Judge;  as  Adam  was  afraid  when  he 
heai'd  the  Lord's  voice  in  the  garden,  after  having  transgressed. 
"The  wicked  flee  when  no  man  pursueth;"  conscious  of  his 
guilt,  he  is  afraid,  and  suffereth  torment.  "  But  the  righteous 
is  bold  as  a  lion;"  not  bold  from  reliance  on  natural  energy  of 
body  or  mind,  but  from  conscious  innocency  ;  perfect  love  of 
his  Maker,  and  obedience  to  his  will  having  banished  all  fear. 
If  we  look  back  to  the  beginning  of  the  Lord's  work  in  us,  wo 
may  see  how  our  hearts  glowed  with  love  to  Him  ;  and  in  the 
heavenly  enjoyment  which  He  gave  us,  our  desires  extended  to 
the  whole  human  family,  that  all  might  be  brought  to  partake 
of  the  Lord's  goodness,  as  we  then  felt  it.  Surely  no  change 
has  taken  place  in  Him,  or  in  the  power  and  effects  of  his  Spirit 
upon  the  heart;  and  if  we  have  changed  and  lost  those  precious 
feelings,  the  cause  is  in  and  from  ourselves.  I  expres^sed  the 
desire  for  us  all,  that  as  wo  are  drawing  to  our  everlasting  re- 


JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS.  653 

ward,  Avc  might  know  this  love  to  increase  towards  all;  that  we 
might,  as  our  fii'st  Friends  did,  realize  the  testimony  of  our 
Saviour,  "  By  this  shall  all  men  know  that  ye  are  my  disciples, 
if  ye  have  love  one  towards  another." 

Sixth  month  9th.  Having  been  preparing  to  take  up  a  sum- 
mer residence  in  Marple,  m}'  family  moved  out  on  the  7th.  My 
W'ife's  health  having  been  for  some  time  impaired,  and  the  hot 
weather,  and  confinement  in  the  city,  increasing  the  symptoms 
of  her  disease,  it  was  very  desirable  to  try  what  the  quiet  of  the 
countr}'  and  a  change  of  atmosphere  would  do,  for  her  comfort 
and  the  improvement  of  her  health. 

Seventh  month  28th.  I  am  convinced,  that  the  vast  business 
into  which  some  enter,  is  a  great  departure  from  the  humility 
and  self-denial  which  become  a  christian ;  and  the  disposi- 
tion to  overlook  this  departure,  and  frame  excuses  for  it,  is  an 
evidence  that  the  conscientious  obligation,  which  Friends  in 
the  beginning,  felt  and  acted  up  to,  has  been  much  lost  among 
many  business  men.  But  I  trust  the  Lord  will  preserve  faith- 
ful Friends,  and  raise  up  among  the  young  people,  those  who 
will  be  brought,  by  the  convicting  power  of  the  Holy  Spirit,  to 
keep  in  moderation,  in  their  trade  or  business ;  and  therein 
show  the  excellency  of  the  religion  of  the  Lord  Jesus,  and  that 
their  eyes  are  directed  to  a  heavenly  inheritance,  above  every- 
thing in  this  state  of  being.  How  has  the  desire  after  riches 
drawn  hundreds  away  from  the  work  of  salvation,  and  a  steady 
walking  with  God.  In  this  way  the  glory  has  departed  from 
man}',  and  the  strength  and  ancient  dignity  of  our  religious 
Society  become  greatly  eclipsed. 

31st.  Was  held  our  Select  Quarterly  Meeting,  which  was 
small;  but  I  felt  constrained  to  encourage  Friends  in  the  dis- 
charge of  all  their  religious  duties,  looking  to  the  Lord  for  his 
blessing  to  rest  upon  us. 

Eighth  month  1st.  I  went  to  Germantown  Meeting,  sensible 
of  poverty  and  weakness.  After  a  time  of  silent  waiting,  the 
Lord  opened  the  way  to  invite  the  people  to  come  to  Christ ; 
who  when  in  the  prepared  body,  invited  those  who  labored  and 
were  heavy  laden,  to  come  unto  Him,  take  his  yoke  upon 
them,  and  learn  of  Him,  and  they  should  find  rest  to  their  souls. 
He  alone  can  grant  a  sight  of  our  sinful  condition,  give  repen- 
tance, and  bring  man  back  into  the  image  of  God,  which  was 
lost  by  transgression.     It  was  a  season  of  unusual  oi^enness 


654  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

and  freedom  in  pi-eacliing  the  gospel  of  life  and  salvation, 
through  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  both  with  reference  to  his 
coming  and  suffering  in  the  flesh,  and  now  in  his  spiritual  ap- 
pearance in  the  heart,  to  regenerate  and  sanctify  it,  and  set  up 
his  holy  kingdom,  in  place  of  the  kingdom  of  Satan.  Much 
solemnity  spread  over  us,  and  there  were  those  thankful  for 
the  favor  conferred  on  us  by  the  Lord,  at  this  time. 

10th.  In  the  Quarterly  Meeting  held  at  Concord,  this  morn- 
ing, I  felt  much  for  the  young  people,  wdio  had  given  up  to 
serve  the  Lord,  3'et  were  buffeted  by  the  temptations  of  Satan, 
and  the  floods  of  discouragement  which  the  dragon  was  casting 
out  of  his  mouth,  if  possible  to  destroy  the  true  seed ;  and  I 
was  led  to  counsel  them  to  gather  inward  to  the  Lord,  and  He 
would  lift  up  a  standard  against  the  enemy,  defend  and  deliver 
them.  It  is  through  ti'ibulation  the  righteous  enter  the  kingdom 
in  this  life,  and  in  the  world  to  come.  The  Lord  on  high  is 
mightier  than  the  noise  of  many  waters ;  and  we  have  a  High 
Priest  touched  with  a  feeling  of  our  infirmities,  who  knoweth 
that  without  Him  we  can  do  nothing.  He  constantly  watches 
over  his  devoted  children ;  andihough  at  times  He  hideth  his  face 
from  them,  yet  with  everlasting  kindness  and  compassion  will  Ho 
have  mercy  upon  them.  There  is  no  new  way  to  the  kingdom, 
nor  any  new  doctrine  to  be  preached.  It  is  the  same  strait  gate 
and  narrow  way  which  our  fathers  entered  and  walked  in  ;  who 
have  been  gathered  among  the  spirits  of  the  just  made  perfect. 
As  we  are  faithful  in  a  little,  we  shall  be  made  rulers  over  more, 
and  by  the  baptism  af  the  Holy  Ghost  and  fire,  be  prepared  like 
the  wheat,  to  be  gathered  into  the  garner,  where  none  can  hurt 
or  annoy  us. 

Ninth  month  13th.  We  have  been  at  Marple  three  months ; 
most  of  which  time  we  have  attended  the  meeting  here  with 
satisfaction  ;  a  number  not  members  generally  coming  on  first- 
day,  so  that  the  meeting  has  been  larger  than  is  common. 
Thei-e  seems  to  be  a  temporary  stir  on  the  subject  of  religion 
among  other  people  in  several  places,  both  in  England  and  in 
this  land;  and  if  the  Lord  sees  fit  to  work  by  his  own  invisible 
power  on  their  hearts.  He  may  also  make  way  for  his  servants  to 
labor  with  some  effect,  to  gather  in  various  neighborhoods,  those 
who  have  been  very  indifferent  to  their  soul's  salvation.  It 
would  be  a  great  comfort  to  see  young  and  old  bending  to  the 
yoke  of  Christ,  and  bo  thereby  preparing  to  join  the  Lamb's 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  655 

array,  in  spreading  his  kingdom  in  the  earth.  Helpers  may 
thus  be  raised  up  in  our  Society,  to  maintain  its  principles  and. 
order,  and  to  fill  the  places  of  those  who  have  fallen  away  from 
the  Truth,  or  have  been  removed  from  works  to  rewards. 

30th.  After  spending  about  four  months  at  Marple,  very 
agreeably,  we  returned  to  the  city,  and  soon  felt  ourselves  very 
comfortable  under  our  own  roof;  having  cause  to  thank  our 
heavenly  Father  for  the  many  blessings  lie  has  granted  us,  both 
in  renewing  our  health,  and  giving  us  to  enjoy  other  temporal 
and  spiritual  gifts.  May  we,  through  his  2:)ardoning  mercy  in 
Christ  Jesus  our  Saviour,  and  the  continued  influences  of  his 
IIolj'  Spirit,  be  more  and  more  sanctified,  and  made  devoted  to 
his  service,  that  our  salvation  may  be  wrought  out  with  fear  and 
trembling ;  that  our  lives  may  be  to  his  glory,  and  when  the  end 
comes,  we  may,  through  his  unmerited  mercy,  be  admitted  among 
the  blessed  in  the  realms  of  eternal  light,  peace  and  joy  unspeak- 
able, and  full  of  glory. 

Eleventh  month  1-lth.  At  our  first-day  morning  meeting,  un- 
der a  view  of  the  uncertainty  of  life,  and  the  great  importanoe  of 
being  prepared  to  meet  death,  I  felt  constrained  to  revive  the 
language  of  the  prophet,  "  The  voice  said.  Cry.  And  he  said,  what 
shall  I  cry?  All  flesh  is  grass,  and  all  the  goodliness  thereof  is  as 
the  flower  of  the  field  ;"  "  The  grass  withereth,  the  flower  fadeth; 
but  the  word  of  our  God  shall  stand  forever;"  and  to  impress 
upon  all  the  danger  of  living  at  ease  and  in  indifference,  in  our 
outward  comforts ;  putting  off"  the  work  of  salvation,  and  being 
thoughtless  of  the  certainty  of  death,  which  may  be  nearer  than 
we  imagine  :  when  wealth,  worldly  honor  and  friends,  cannot 
defend  us  from  its  stroke. 

Twelfth  month  12tli.  In  our  first-day  morning  meeting,  my 
mind  was  clothed  with  strong  desire,  that  the  true  spiritual  nature 
and  power  of  the  gospel  dispensation,  might  be  more  generally 
and  deeply  felt  among  us;  bringing  all  into  a  fervent  travail  of 
soul,  to  experience  the  work  of  regeneration,  and  more  intimate 
communion  with  the  Father  of  spirits,  than  is  known  by  the 
professors  of  the  christian  name  generally.  It  is  said,  "Jesus 
stood  and  cried,  If  any  man  thirst,  let  him  come  unto  me,  and 
drink  ;"  and  on  another  occasion.  He  said,  "  Whosoever  drinketh 
of  the  water  that  I  shall  give  him,  shall  never  thirst;"  that  is, 
for  any  other;  '•  But  the  water  that  I  shall  give  him,  shall  be  in 
him  a  well  of  water,  springing  up  into  everlasting  life ;"  and  out 


656  JOIRNAY,    OF    Wn.l.lAM    KVAXS. 

of  tho  beliovor  in  Ilim.  He  dochirod,  "Shall  flow  rivoi-s  of  living 
wator."  llo  spoke  of  the  Spirit,  which  they  tluit  believe  in 
Him,  should  receive,  after  his  glorification.  And  the  same 
disciple  that  recorded  these  sayings  of  his  Divine  Master,  fur- 
ther testifies  in  the  Revelations  made  to  him.  '-And  the  Spirit 
and  the  bride  say,  Come.  And  let  him  that  heareth.  sa}-.  Come. 
And  let  him  that  is  athirst,  come.  And  whosoever  will,  let  ; 
him  take  the  water  of  life  freely.'"  I  was  drawn  to  show  that 
we  are  not  dependent  on  man.  to  obtain  the  life  and  spirit, 
which  alone  can  nourish  the  soul  unto  everlasting  life;  but  that 
it  is  through  tho  nioroy  and  goodness  of  the  Saviour,  the  iledi- 
ator  between  our  Heavenly  Father  and  our  immortal  souls,  that 
a  meas^ure  of  his  Holy  Spirit  is  granted  unto  us:  by  obedience 
to  which,  the  work  of  regeneration  is  efl'ected  in  us.  and  tho 
soul  thereby  renewed  up  into  the  image  of  God,  which  Adam 
lost  by  transgression.  Thus  we  are  truly  brought  into  the  gos- 
pel dispensation ;  which  is  a  dispensation  of  life,  and  spirit  and 
power;  for  Christ  came,  that  his  "Sheep  might  have  life,  and 
that  they  might  have  it  more  abundantly."  Hereby  we  aro 
made  members  of  his  mystical  body,  the  church  ;  and  as  wo 
keep  our  places,  will  be  ministers  of  righteousness  and  of  the 
Spirit.  It  appeared  to  me  very  important  that  all  should  thus 
become  worshippers  of  the  Father  in  spirit  and  in  truth ;  and 
though  it  might  be  in  silence,  we  would,  at  times,  experience 
mental  prayer  and  praise,  like  a  cloud  of  incense,  to  rise  from 
our  assemblies  before  the  throne,  which  would  find  acceptance 
with  Him. 

ITih.  In  our  ^looting  for  Sufferings  hold  to-day.  after  a  bo- 
loved  Friend  had  oxprossod  a  desire,  that  Friends  might  booome 
a  more  united  body,  supporting  our  principles  and  testimonies, 
and  keeping  in  their  tents  like  Israel  of  old  ;  where,  it  was  said, 
no  divination  or  enchantment  can  prevail  against  them  ;  I  felt 
constrained  to  add  my  dosiro.  that  we  might,  individually,  more 
fully  experience  a  participation  of  the  Divine,  inward  life,  for 
which  our  Saviour  came,  that  his  sheep  might  abundantly  par- 
take of  it.  In  this,  we  should  know  the  unity  of  the  Spirit,  in 
the  bond  of  peace,  and  resist  all  attempted  innovations  upon  our 
doctrines  and  testimonies.  Our  ancient  Friends  were  raised  up 
to  call  the  people  to  tho  inward  participation  of  the  life  and 
power  of  godliness;  but  it  is  to  be  foarod.  that  many  among  us 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EYASS.  G57 

liave  fallen  short  ofthiisi  which  i,s  the  reason  they  liave  let 
th(jBe  tcMtimoniew  fall  from  their  hands. 

Jiy  a  letter  received  from  a  Friend  in  Ii'cland,  I  understand 
there  iH  a  probability  of  London  Yearly  Meeting  so  altering  its 
diiscipline,  as  to  allow  of  racinbers  marrying  those  not  in  mem- 
bership ;  and  doing  away  the  Query  respecting  plainness  of 
speeeli,  behavior  and  apparel.  The  prospect  for  our  Society, 
should  these  changes  take  place,  looks  gloomy  and  discouraging  j 
yet  I  hope  there  will  be  many,  who  will  be  stirred  up  and 
strengthejjed  to  stand  firmly,  in  the  meekness  and  constancy  of 
true  wisdom,  in  the  defence  and  maintenance  of  all  our  testi- 
monies, as  required  of  our  forefathers,  to  hold  up  to  the  world. 
But  it  would  seem  that  our  trials  and  sufferings  are  increasing, 
rather  than  diminishing. 

1859,  First  month  9th.  First-day,  we  had  a  favored  meeting 
this  morning.  It  was  a  solemn  time,  for  which  we  must  account. 
The  administration  of  poverty  and  humiliation  were  the  whole- 
some food  dispensed  to  me.  It  is  a  great  favor  to  be  emptied 
of  self,  and  renewedly  brought  to  a  sense  of  our  nothingness. 
There  is  preservation  in  it. 

IGth.  We  had  a  pretty  large  meeting  this  morning,  first- 
day;  in  which  it  felt  to  me,  there  were  strangers  seeking  some- 
thing on  which  they  might  rest  their  tossed  minds.  From  these 
feelings,  I  thought  the  Lord  was  bringing  some  sinful  persona 
under  conviction  and  remorse  for  their  transgressions,  and  if 
they  would  yield  to  the  administration  of  condemnation.  He 
would  prepare  them  for  the  gifts  of  repentance  and  forgiveness 
of  sin  ;  and  by  the  washing  of  regeneration  and  the  renewing 
of  the  Holy  Ghost,  sanctify  and  make  them  fit  temples  for  Him, 
by  his  Spirit,  to  dwell  in.  I  felt  impelled  to  address  such  a 
state,  and  to  labor  to  persuade  them  to  stand  still  and  wait  for 
the  salvation  of  God.  jS'ot  to  look  abroad  for  anything  to 
satisfy  the  mind,  or  which  would  stifle  conviction,  or  act  as  a 
substitute  for  true  settlement  on  the  right  foundation.  But  to 
keep  inward,  under  the  operation  of  the  Lord's  mighty  hand  ; 
turning  their  back  on  temptation,  and  following  Christ  in  the 
path  of  holiness;  who  would  give  peace  to  the  troubled  spirit, 
and  establish  them  upon  Himself,  the  Rock  ;  against  which  the 
gates  of  hell  shall  never  prevail.  He  will  never  permit  the 
powers  of  darkness  to  overcome  hie  children,  if  they  look  daily 


658  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

unto  Him  for  preservatioa,  putting  up  their  prayers  to  Him, 
morning  by  morning. 

It  seemed  to  me  that  the  Shepherd  of  Israel  was  still  round 
about  us,  oifering  his  love  and  mercy ;  and  were  He  received 
into  the  heart  and  obeyed,  He  would  gather  many  to  his  fold, 
and  show  others  that  He  had  not  forsaken  us  as  a  people. 
Through  the  power  of  his  Spirit  we  should  be  instrumental  in 
tui-ning  many  to  righteousness,  showing  forth  his  praise. 

23d.  Apprehending  it  to  be  a  pointing  of  duty,  I  went  over 
to  Newton  Meeting,  being  first-day.  The  company  assembled 
was  small.  I  felt  unfit  for  public  service  ;  but  in  a  feeling  of 
great  unworthiness,  I  was  quickened  by  the  revival  of  the  Mas- 
ter's language  to  his  disciples,  "  What  I  say  unto  you,  I  say  unto 
all,  Watch;"  "Watch  and  pray,  lest  ye  enter  into  temptation." 
I  was  much  humbled,  and  thereby  in  a  better  condition  to  com- 
municate what  opened  on  my  mind  ;  under  a  clothing  of  charit}', 
and  sympathy  with  the  little  remnant ;  some  of  whom  appeared 
to  me  to  feel  their  weakness  and  stripped  state ;  neither  Withers 
nor  mothers  in  religious  experience  and  weight  among  them. 
Afterwards  I  was  bowed  in  supplication,  that  merciful  help  might 
be  bestowed  on  all  of  us. 

Second  month  20th.  Deep  inward  trials  have  much  attended 
me  for  weeks  past,  under  which  sti'ong  cries  have  been  put  up 
to  the  Lord  for  preservation.  I  believe  my  mental  breathings 
to  the  Father  of  mercies  have  been  heard,  and  though  at  times 
surrounded  by  clouds,  a  ray  of  light  would  break  through,  and 
tenderness  of  spirit  before  the  Lord  would  be  felt,  creating  feel- 
ings of  gratitude ;  and  thanksgiving  to  Him  for  his  mercy,  would 
overflow  my  heart.  These  dispensations,  I  believe,  are  designed 
for  my  humiliation,  to  bring  mo  back  to  my  horn  book,  as  dear 
William  Savery  said  on  his  death-bed  ;  which  saying,  I  had  re- 
vived in  our  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders,  held 
the  forepart  of  this  month.  May  the  Lord  make  me  more  and 
more  willing  to  submit  to,  and  abide  under  all  his  baptisms,  to 
reduce  and  keep  me  in  the  state  of  a  little  child ;  constantly 
looking  to  Him  for  preservation,  and  for  daily  bread ;  and  that 
his  Holy  Spirit  may  keep  me  from  being  caught  by  any  snaro 
of  the  cruel  enemy. 

On  the  16th,  I  attended  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting.  At  the 
reading  of  the  answers  to  the  Queries,  the  awfulness  of  a  parent, 
at  the  approach  of  death,  seeing  that  ho  had  neglected  the  re- 


JOURNAL   OF    ■'.VILLTAM    EVANS.  659 

ligious  care  and  restraint  of  his  children,  and  had  b}'  his  own 
example,  led  them  into  the  world,  instead  of  bringing  them  to 
Christ,  came  over  me  in  so  serious  a  manner,  that  I  was  led  to 
open  and  press  the  consideration  of  it  upon  some  present.  The 
preservation  and  right  training  of  children  often  greatly  de- 
pend on  the  religious  example  of  their  parents;  and  not  only 
their  benefit,  but  the  clearness  of  the  parents  from  condemna- 
tion, at  that  awful  hour,  and  the  belief  they  had  done  what  they 
could,  must  be  of  unspeakable  importance. 

Third  month  27th.  The  Lord  can  raise  up  his  servants,  and 
give  them  power  to  preach  his  Avord,  over  all  the  opposing 
powers  of  darkness,  and  the  secret  resistance  that  others  may 
cherish,  who  feel  coldness  and  indifference  towards  them.  True 
ministers  of  the  gospel  have  nothing  in  view,  but  to  comply 
with  the  Lord's  will,  that  they  may  be  found  clear  in  the  day 
of  account.  The  spirit  of  opposition  to  such  is  felt  at  times  in 
meetings,  and  may  be  pei-mitted  to  close  up  the  way  for  gospel 
service;  but  they  who  indulge  it  will  bring  flatness  over  them- 
selves, and  have  to  suffer  for  their  wrong  opposition  to  the 
Lord's  children  and  servants.  How  different  is  the  state  of 
meetings,  where  brethren  and  sisters  draw  near  to  one  another 
in  heart  and  spirit,  like  holding  up  each  other's  hands,  travail- 
ing together  for  the  arising  of  Divine  life,  and  rejoicing  when 
the  Lord  opens  the  way  for  the  current  of  true  baptizing  min- 
istry to  flow  freely.  Elders  are  appointed  to  watch  over  the 
ministry,  to  guard  and  counsel  ministers,  when  needed;  if  they 
have  left  the  gift,  or  said  anything  not  according  to  sound  doc- 
trine ;  but  this  is  not  all  their  duty.  They  have  as  much  need 
as  any  others,  to  watch  over  themselves,  that  they  may  know 
what  spirit  rules  and  actuates  them;  and  they  are  to  give  them- 
selves up  to  sympathize  with  the  ministers,  and  to  share  in 
bearing  the  burdens  which  they  are  brought  under ;  by  which 
they  may  be  preserved  from  judging  in  their  own  will  and  tem- 
per, and  may  be  made  instrumental  to  help  them,  and  by  a  har- 
monious labor  and  travail  of  soul,  assist  in  bringing  to  the  birth 
the  concerns  which  ministers  are  brought  under.  Hereby  they 
are  fellow-helpers  in  the  Lord;  and  when  ministers  are  raised 
up  by  their  Divine  Master  in  his  authority,  then  a  harmonious 
exercise  is  again  known  in  the  preaching  of  the  gospel,  the  great 
Kame  is  exalted,  and  the  baptizing  power  goes  over  the  meet- 
ing.    Ministers  and  elders  thus  fulfil  their  respective  services, 


660  JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM   EVANS. 

and  contribute  to  each  other's  growth  and  establishment  in  the 
blessed  Truth.  The  one  preaching  what  the  Holy  Spirit  opens 
to  them,  and  the  other  keeping  close  to  them  in  spirit,  to  aid 
and  steady  them  in  their  work,  that  they  may  not  give  out,  nor 
deviate  from  the  line  of  service  appointed  them  by  the  Great 
Minister  of  the  Sanctuary. 

Fourth  month.  ,  Heaviness  of  spirit  has  been  my  portion  at 
times,  on  account  of  our  poor  Society.  There  seems  little  to 
inspire  with  hope,  that  it  will  soon  rise  out  of  its  depressed  con- 
dition. Yet,  evidence  is  granted  from  time  to  time,  that  the  ever- 
lasting Arm  is  underneath,  and  that  the  Lord  sustains  and  pre- 
serves his  afflicted  children.  I  have  passed  through  low  places, 
but  have  been  kej^t  from  casting  away  my  confidence,  having  in 
mercy  had  it  renewed. 

18th.     Commenced  the  Yearly  Meeting  for  business. 

The  Meeting  for  Sufferings  having  prepared  an  enlarged  edi- 
tion of  the  Book  of  Advices,  first  issued  about  fifty  years  since, 
the  Yearly  Meeting  directed  it  to  be  distributed  by  the  Monthly 
Meetings  among  their  members ;  which  I  hope  will  be  useful, 
in  reviving  and  seriously  impressing  on  their  minds  the  import- 
ance of  our  christian  testimonies.  The  consideration  of  the 
state  of  the  subordinate  meetings,  on  reading  the  Queries  and 
the  replies,  Avas'''solidly  gone  through,  without  much  remark 
being  made. 

On  fifth-day  afternoon,  after  the  consideration  of  the  use  of 
spirituous  liquors  by  the  members,  and  the  school  education  of 
the  children  belonging  to  the  meeting,  the  minute  on  the  state 
of  things  among  us,  as  exhibited  by  the  replies  to  the  Queries, 
was  read ;  and  after  sitting  some  time  in  much  quiet  and  solem- 
nity, the  meeting  concluded.  We  have  cause  for  much  thank- 
fulness, that  the  meeting  was  favored  with  the  degree  of  unity 
and  solid  weight  that  prevailed. 

Fifth  month  18th.  I  am  afraid  there  is  a  disjiosition  in  some, 
to  speak  highly  of  a  belief  in  the  sufferings  of  our  blessed  Saviour, 
without  inculcating  submission  to  his  crucifying  power  inwardly 
revealed  ;  the  baptism  of  the  Holy  Ghost  and  fire.  It  is  by  the 
latter,  that  the  chaff  is  burnt  up,  every  defilement  is  removed,  and 
we  arc  prepared  to  receive  the  fulness  of  the  blessings  of  the  gos- 
pel of  Christ,  and  the  benefits  of  his  sufferings  and  death.  The 
gift  of  grace  comes  by  Him,  by  which  we  are  made  new  crea- 
tures; for  if  any  man  be  in  Christ,  he  is  a  now  creature;  old 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  G61 

things  are  done  away,  and  all  things  are  become  new,  and  all 
things  of  God,  who  hath  reconciled  us  to  Himself  by  Jesus 
Christ. 

Sixth  month  17th.  AVas  held  our  Meeting  for  Sufferings;  ia 
which  was  mentioned  the  circumstance,  of  some  young  mem- 
bers having  inadvertentlj'  paid  their  militia  fines,  connected 
as  it  had  been,  with  the  personal  tax,  without  being  specified. 
The  meeting  made  a  short  minute  to  incite  Friends  to  a  faithful 
support  of  our  testimonj'  against  wars  and  fightings,  and  to  put 
them  on  their  guard  against  paying  such  fine. 

23d.  A  war  having  broken  out  in  Europe,  between  the 
French  and  Austrians,  occasioning  gi'cat  destruction  of  life;  it 
produces  mournful  feelings,  on  account  of  the  slaughter  of  human 
beings,  having  immortal  souls  to  be  saved  or  lost;  and  for  the 
unenlightened  condition  of  those  engaged  in  it.  To  me  it  is  in- 
conceivable, how  man  can  be  so  lost  to  the  common  feelings  of 
humanity,  and  the  awfulness  of  rushing  souls  into  eternity,  as 
to  destroy  wantonly,  without  any  fear  of  Divine  vengeance,  his 
fellow  man  ;  especially,  when  we  remember  the  declaration  of  the 
apostle,  '-Ye  know  that  no  murderer  hath  eternal  life  abiding 
in  him."  What  an  unchristian  spirit  must  he  have,  w^ho  can 
urge  men  under  his  command,  to  fire  into  an  army,  probably* 
striking  down  thousands,  or  placing  his  army  in  the  position  of 
being  destroyed  in  the  same  way  by  their  opponents.  What 
account  can  such  commanders,  and  their  military  subordinates, 
give  to  the  Almighty  Creator  of  us  all,  for  the  dreadful  caz-nage, 
by  which  suddenly  and  barbarously,  thousands  of  their  fellow 
creatures  are  deprived  of  life ;  over  whose  existence  they  have 
no  right  of  control.  How  needful  for  christians  to  walk  hum- 
bly before  the  Lord,  asking  of  Him,  strength  and  wisdom  to  do 
his  will,  and  to  show  forth  to  those  around  them,  the  fruits  of 
his  Holy  Spirit,  that  the  kingdom  of  Christ,  the  Prince  of 
Peace,  may  be  spread  in  the  earth,  by  their  obedience  to  Him. 

25th.  Went  to  the  Arch  Street  Meeting  this  morning,  under 
feelings  of  sympathy  with  Friends  there,  now  much  reduced  in 
number.  The  fear  of  putting  forth  a  hand  unbidden  was  felt, 
and  I  strove  to  keep  inward  before  the  Lord,  waiting  to  see 
what  He  would  do;  until  the  intimation  to  rise  impelled  me  to 
stand  up,  and  to  say  to  the  fearful  ones,  that  whatever  might 
be  our  fears  and  apprehensions  of  danger  to  ourselves,  or  to  the 
church  and  cause  of  Christ,  the  foundation  of  God  standeth  sure, 
43 


662  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

having  this  seal,  the  Lord  knoweth  them  that  are  his.  He 
knows  their  afflictions,  and  if  tliey  Avait  upon  Him,  He  will  keep 
tliem  in  the  hollow  of  his  Omnipotent  hand.  Ho  has  always 
regarded  the  fears  of  his  trembliijg  children,  and  to  his  imme- 
diate followers,  Christ  said,  "  Fear  not  little  flock,  it  is  your 
Father's  good  pleasure  to  give  you  the  kingdom."  Friends  were 
encouraged  to  wait  upon  the  Lord,  and  put  their  trust  in  Him. 

2Sth.  Went  to  the  N^orth  Meeting  this  morning,  having  had, 
the  preceding  day,  a  pointing  to  go  there,  which  was  revived 
this  morning.  I  desired  to  obey  it  in  simplicity,  yet  to  be  pre- 
served from  making  any  mistake.  The  importance  of  daily 
learning  the  lesson  of  dwelling  in  our  own  hearts  with  Christ 
the  Seed,  that  we  may  be  taught  of  Him,  who  declared  Himself 
to  be  meek  and  lowly  of  heart,  was  brought  before  me,  and 
opened  to  the  meeting.  It  is  only  while  we  are  thus  kept  with 
Him,  that  we  can  sympathize  with  others,  and  travail  with  the 
Seed  for  its  arising  into  dominion;  and  being  made  sensible  of 
our  own  frailties,  and  the  meekness  and  gentleness  of  Christ 
abounding  in  us,  the  rough  Esau  nature  will  be  more  and  more 
subdued,  and  the  peace  of  God,  Avhich  is  substantial  happiness, 
will  be  enjoyed  in  ourselves,  and  with  those  of  like  experience, 
in  whose  society  we  mingle.  We  shall  be  in  a  state  to  receive 
warning  of  any  temptation  that  awaits  us,  and  immediately  to 
put  up  our  prayers  for  preservation,  looking  to  the  blessed 
Saviour  for  his  aid ;  and  He  will  deliver  us.  What  harmony 
and  sweet  enjojnnent  prevail  among  the  j^eople,  who  are  brought 
into  such  a  case ! 

Eighth  month  7th.  At  our  first-day  meeting,  the  Avay  open- 
ed to  hold  up  the  great  im2)ortanee  of  doing  our  duty  Avhile  the 
day  lasts,  both  for  our  own  sake  and  that  of  others  ;  for  we  know 
not  how  short  the  time  may  be  that  will  be  allotted  us  to  do  the 
Lord's  work  in  ;  and  through  his  mercy  to  repent  of  and  forsake 
our  sins  and  transgressions,  that  we  may  obtain  forgiveness, 
through  the  propitiatory  suffering  of  the  Saviour,  and  cume  to 
know  our  salvation  wrought  out  by  Him. 

Ninth  month  4th.  Attended  the  first-day  meeting  at  Ger- 
mantown,  which  was  quite  large.  After  a  time  of  silent  wait- 
ing, I  was  enabled  to  bear  testimony  to  Christ,  who  was  given 
for  God's  salvation  to  the  end  of  the  earth ;  whom  "  God  hath 
highly  exalted  and  given  Him  a  name,  that  is  above  every 
name;   that  at  the  name  of  Jesus  every  knee  shall  bow,  of 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  C63 

tilings  in  heaven,  and  things  in  earth,  and  things  under  the 
earth;  and  that  every  tongue  shall  confess  that  Jesus  Christ  is 
Lord,  to  the  glory  of  God  the  Father."  However  his  children 
may  be  tried,  and  at  times  cast  doAvn,  surrounded  l>y  many  fears, 
lie  will  be  near  to  support  them,  and  make  the  humiliating  dis- 
pensations which  they  endure,  a  blessing.  I  believed  there 
were  those  for  whom  my  desire  was,  that  they  would  not  let  go 
their  hope  and  confidence  in  Him,  who  is  emi:»haticaliy  called 
the  Captain  of  salvation  ;  who  would  fight  all  their  battles  for 
them,  and  cany  them  through  to  the  end.  He  declared  that 
on  Himself  the  Eock,  He  Avould  build  his  church,  and  the  gates 
of  hell  shall  not  prevail  against  it. 

11th.  During  the  meeting,  this  morning,  my  mind  was  much 
occupied  with  the  consideration  of  the  evil  heart  of  unbelief  in 
those  who  are  departing  from  the  living  God,  and  violating  his 
law  made  known  to  them.  The  enemy  presents  his  temptations 
to  induce  them  to  gratify  the  carnal  appetite,  and  persuades 
them  it  will  confer  happiness ;  and  there  will  be  no  danger  of 
Divine  judgment  falling  upon  them.  But  our  Saviour  pronounced 
him  a  liar  and  the  father  of  lies  ;  for  there  is  no  truth  in  him. 
"We  sat  a  long  time  in  silence,  during  which  some  strangers 
came  in.  I  was  afraid  to  leave  the  meeting,  without  rising  to 
open  the  subjects  that  had  been  resting  on  my  mind,  and  to  hold 
up  the  continued  mercy  of  Almighty  God,  in  following  rebel- 
lious man,  and  bringing  him  under  compunction  for  sin  and 
transgression. 

15th.  We  had  little  business  to  occupy  our  attention  at  our 
Meeting  for  Sufferings  to-day.  When  it  was  finished,  the  clerk 
made  some  observations  upon  the  necessity  of  every  one  coming- 
more  under  a  travail  of  spirit  for  his  own  sake,  and  for  the  cause 
of  Christ.  Much  had  been  rightly  said,  about  doctrines,  but  he 
believed  that  more  of  the  life  was  needed ;  and  it  was  only  as 
Friends  are  brought  individually  to  jiartake  of  it,  that  the  So- 
ciety would  be  restored  to  its  former  condition.  S.  C.  spoke 
after  him,  expressing  that  the  design  of  our  Society  being  raised 
up,  was  to  promote  the  gospel  of  the  grace  of  God  ;  and  its  work 
in  thQ  hearts  of  the  people;  corresponding  with  what  had  been 
already  expressed. 

I  adverted  to  the  coming  of  Friends  from  England  to  Penn- 
sylvania and  New  Jersey,  in  the  early  settlement  of  this  coun- 
try, with  the  view  of  settling  where  they  could  hold  and  spread 


664  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

their  religious  principles  and  testimonies,  out  of  the  way  of  per- 
secution ;  and  that  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting  had  always 
supported  those  principles  and  testimonies.  I  desired  that  we 
should  firmly  hold  to  our  ancient  doctrines  and  testimonies, 
under  the  guidance  of  the  Head  of  the  church,  whatever  eftorts 
others  might  make  to  introduce  changes.  As  we  keep  to  our 
individual  exercise,  to  know  the  life  of  the  great  Head  to  pre- 
vail, we  shall  be  more  and  more  united  to  one  another,  and  still 
be  examples  for  others  to  look  to  and  follow.  AVe  sat  for  a 
time,  under  feelings  of  solemnity  and  tender  fellowship ;  when 
David  Cope  said,  he  believed  he  would  not  be  easy  to  leave  the 
meeting,  without  saying,  he  united  with  what  had  been  said, 
and  added  the  expression  of  some  similar  sentiments. 

Friends  parted  under  feelings  of  unity ;  one  remarking  to  me, 
before  he  left  his  seat,  that  he  had  not  known  what  the  meeting 
would  find  to  do,  but  he  loved  to  have  such  feelings  as  he  then 
experienced  ;  and  many  others  spoke  of  it  as  a  good  meeting. 


CHAPTEE    XXXIII. 

1859—1862. 
Religious  Engagements  at  and  about  Home. 

1859,  Tenth  month  5th.  This  day  completes  my  seventy-se- 
cond year.  Seldom  since  the  work  of  religion  was  begun  in 
me,  have  I  experienced  more  humbling  dispensations  than  for 
several  weeks  past.  My  soul  has  been,  as  it  were,  poured  out 
before  the  Lord,  day  and  night,  beseeching  Him  that  He  would 
defend  me  against  temptation,  and  bring  me  down  into  low 
places  ;  that  every  impurity  may  be  removed,  and  every  chaffy 
thing  in  me  may  be  burned  up  with  unquenchable  fire.  My 
secret  cries  have  been  unto  Him,  that  whatever  He  may  see 
necessary,  may  be  administered,  to  keep  mo  from  falling,  or 
bringing  any  reproach  upon  the  blessed  cause  of  truth  and 
righteousness,  of  which  I  have  made  profession,  and  testified  be- 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  665 

fore  many  -witnesses.  I  have  thought  there  was  evidence  that 
the  Lord's  watchful  care  and  mercy  Avcre  over  nie ;  and  hope  and 
trust  have  been  at  times  felt,  that  his  everlasting  arm,  though 
invisible,  is  underneath  ;  supporting  and  defending  a  poor  crea- 
ture, who  is  unworthy  of  the  least  of  all  his  favors ;  that  I  shall 
be  preserved  again  to  behold  the  light  of  his  glorious  counten- 
ance, and  be  authorized  to  declare  to  others  of  what  He  has 
done  and  will  do  for  those  who  call  upon  Him  in  sincerity  and 
truth,  and  wait  for  the  renewing  of  that  life  which  is  hid  with 
Christ  in  God. 

In  the  afternoon  of  first-day,  the  6th,  I  was  veiy  unexpect- 
edly raised  up  to  bear  testimony,  to  the  essential  necessity  of 
coming  to  the  inward,  living  and  saving  knowledge  of  God,  and 
of  his  dear  Son  Jesus  Christ.  The  possession  of  the  Holy  Scrip- 
tures is  an  unspeakable  favor,  especially  to  the  soul  that  is  obe- 
dient to  the  manifestations  of  the  Holy  Spirit ;  and  we  may  see 
that  their  testimony  points  to  the  inward  work,  and  the  indwell- 
ing of  God  with  man  by  his  Spirit.  "  If  any  man  love  me," 
said  Christ,  "he  will  keep  my  words,  and  my  Father  will  lovo 
him,  and  we  will  come  unto  him,  and  make  our  abode  with 
him."  Again,  on  another  occasion,  He  said  to  his  disciples,  "  I 
am  the  Vine,  ye  are  the  branches;"  "As  the  branch  cannot 
bear  fruit,  except  it  abide  in  the  Vine,  no  more  can  ye,  except 
ye  abide  in  me."  Only  as  we  experience  the  cleansing  opera- 
tion of  the  Word,  that  is  quick  and  powerful,  can  we  become 
living  branches  of  the  true  Vine,  and  members  of  the  church  of 
which  Christ  is  the  adorable  Head,  and  know  the  work  of  rege- 
neration perfected  in  us.  In  this  way  we  come  to  the  true  and 
saving  knowledge  of  God  and  of  Christ;  and  persevering  in 
faith  and  obedience,  witness  an  establishment  in  the  Truth,  and 
the  Lord  Jesus  to  be  the  Author  and  the  Finisher  of  our  faith; 
fitting  the  soul  for  an  admittance  into  one  of  the  mansions  which 
He  prepares  for  his  devoted,  faithful  children,  in  his  Father's 
house. 

Eleventh  month.  Our  Select  Quarterly  Meeting,  held  on  the 
5th,  was  attended  with  religious  exercise  for  our  own  preserva- 
tion out  of  all  snares,  and  that  we  might  be  kept  inward  to  the 
Lord  ;  waiting  steadfastly  for  his  putting  forth  in  the  service  to 
which  He  would  appoint  us  ;  that  nothing  that  man  can  do  in 
his  own  will,  might  be  substituted  for  it. 

29th.     I  was  at  the  North  Meeting ;  in  which  ability  was  re- 


666  JOURNAL   OF   "WILLIAM    EVANS. 

newed  to  preach  the  gospel.  A  warning  Avas  given  against  a 
worldly  spirit;  that  instead  of  being  faithful  stewards  of  the 
means  entrusted  to  them,  some  may  be  refraining  to  dispense 
for  the  benefit  of  others,  that  portion  which  their  Lord  would 
require  them  to  give,  in  supplying  their  needs.  Some  are  in- 
dulging in  luxurious  living,  and  in  costly  furniture  of  their 
houses.  Our  Saviour  and  his  disciples  set  the  example  of  using 
simj)lefare,  and  possessing  little  earthly  treasure.  Inasmuch 
as  we  brought  nothing  into  this  world,  and  could  carry  nothing 
out,  it  was  our  duty  to  be  faithful  in  the  proper  use  of  what  wo 
held  in  trust.  My  mind  was  clothed  with  love  towards  all,  and 
sincerely  desired  we  might  experience  a  united  travail  for  the 
advancement  of  the  cause  of  Christ,  and  for  one  another's  good. 

Twelfth  month  31st.  For  about  a  week,  I  have  been  affected 
with  dizziness,  to  a  greater  degree  than  ever  before.  The  un- 
certainty of  what  serious  consequences  might  follow,  at  this 
period  of  life,  has  brought  over  me  feelings  of  solemnity,  in  the 
thought  that  the  end  may  come  suddenly,  and  how  soon,  I  could, 
not  foresee.  It  induces  self-examination ;  and  the  need  to  be  pre- 
pared for  that  awful  event,  has  dwelt  impressively  on  my  mind. 
Feelings  of  resignation  to  the  Divine  will,  have  been  experi- 
enced, in  the  hope  that  mercy  and  goodness  will  attend  me; 
and  that  when  the  close  comes,  there  will  be  a  blessed  hope  of 
catering  into  rest,  and  knowing  all  my  sins  to  have  been  for- 
given, and  washed  away  by  the  blood  of  the  Lamb ;  who  died 
for  our  sins,  and  rose  again  for  our  justification. 

18G0,  First  month  11th.  My  appearances  in  the  ministry  are 
not  frequent,  being  mostly  silent,  in  our  religious  meetings  ; 
often  fearing  whether  we  are  sufiiciently  favored  in  them,  with 
a  living  travail  of  spirit  for  ability  to  worship  the  Father  ac- 
ceptably, and  knowing  our  Divine  Master  to  be  in  the  midst. 
I  have  been  afraid,  on  ni}^  own  account,  and  for  some  others, 
whether  the  world  is  properly  kopt  out;  and  a  sufficient  exer- 
cise steadily  maintained,  to  draw  near  to  the  Lord,  so  as  to  feel 
a  true,  harmonious  labor  to  perform  spiritual  worship,  and  to 
strengthen  one  another  to  discharge  our  respective  duties.  But 
the  Lord  is  merciful  to  us  poor,  unworthy  creatures,  and  is  still 
opening,  at  times,  the  spring  of  gospel  ministry.  To-day,  the 
deep  and  weighty  testimony  of  the  apostle,  with  Avhich  ho  com- 
mences his  epistle  to  the  Hebrews,  setting  forth  the  Godhead  of 
our  Lord  Jesus  Christ,  by  whom  the  worlds  were  made;   his 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  G67 

purging  oui*  sins,  and  his  glorification  at  the  right  hand  of  the 
Father,  opened  veiy  impressively  upon  my  mind  ;  but  "which, 
from  its  awful n ess,  I  felt  afraid  to  communicate.  After  a  time, 
however,  I  was  most  easy  to  submit  to  the  imprc&sion  ;  desiring 
to  deliver,  in  childlike  simplicit}',  what  would  be  gradually 
opened  to  me,  without  any  embellishment  or  human  devising. 
I  believe  the  Lord  helped  me,  and  a  measure  of  his  baptizing 
power  was  spread  over  the  meeting;  and  when  it  was  through, 
I  breathed  for  preservation,  in  a  solemn  frame  of  mind. 

28th.  For  many  weeks  our  country  has  been  kept  in  agita- 
tion by  threats  of  the  Soutliern  members  in  Congress,  to  bi-eak 
up  the  Union,  and  their  intention  to  set  np  a  distinct  govern- 
ment, composed  of  the  Slave  States.  Political  disputation,  and 
bitter  charges  against  one  another,  have  not  only  hindered  the 
choice  of  a  Speaker  in  the  House  of  Eepresentatives,  but  they 
have  brought  great  disti'ess  on  the  minds  of  many  persons  in 
all  the  States.  All  slaveholders  are  not  favorable  to  a  dissolu- 
tion of  the  federal  compact;  and  in  the  Southern  as  well  as  in 
the  ^'^r+^.-.crn  States,  serious  api:)rehensions  must  be  entertained 
respecting  such  an  event,  and  of  the  dreadful  consequences  that 
would  attend  it,  accompanied  by  convulsions,  and  probable 
bloodshed,  should  the  tie  that  has  bound  the  States  together,  be 
dissevered,  and  every  State  left  to  its  own  course.  The  hearts 
of  men  are  in  the  hand.s  of  the  great  Arbiter  of  nations,  and 
He  only  can  restrain  the  wrath  of  man,  and  keep  wicked  men 
from  breakino;  down  the  o-overnment.  But  all  kinds  of  abomi- 
nations  have  gone  over  the  land;  in  the  Free  States,  and  among 
slaves  and  their  masters.  Nothing  but  unmerited  merc}^  can 
withhold  the  indignation  due  to  our  sins,  and  prevent  unprin- 
cipled men  from  laying  the  country  waste.  It  is  hoped  that 
time,  and  the  cool  arguments  of  some  influential  men,  are  work- 
ing changes  in  the  wishes  of  inconsiderate,  headstrong  dema- 
gogues, and  that  they  will  be  brought  to  the  exei-cise  of  their 
sober  senses,  so  as  to  abandon  their  wicked  projects.  The  re- 
turn of  harmonj^,  and  the  prevalence  of  peace,  will  be  an  unspeak- 
able blessing. 

Second  month  4th.  Our  Quarterl}^  Meeting  of  Ministers  and 
Elders  was  small,  several  members  being  away  from  indisposi- 
tion. There  was  an  exercise  in  the  meeting,  and  communica- 
tions were  made  in  support  of  our  testimony  to  a  living  gospel 
ministry,  and  the  worship  which  is  in  spirit  and  in  truth. 


668  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

6th.  But  little  was  said  in  the  ministry  at  the  Quarterly 
Meeting  for  discipline.  Wo  got  through  with  the  Queries  satis- 
factorily. 

15th.  Snow  fell;  but  feeling  an  affectionate  and  sympathetic 
draft  to  the  Friends  of  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting,  I  went  to 
Woodbury,  this  morning.  In  their  little  Select  Meeting,  the 
spirit  of  tender  feeling  went  forth  for  the  consolation  of  the  few 
tribulated  companions  of  their  Lord  and  Master. 

In  the  meeting  for  worship,  preceding  that  for  business,  I  felt 
impressed  to  revive  the  language  of  our  Saviour,  "I  am  the 
way,  the  truth,  and  the  life;  no  man  cometh  unto  the  Father 
but  by  me ;"  also,  "  No  man  knoweth  the  Son  but  the  Father  ; 
neither  knoweth  any  man  the  Father  save  the  Son,  and  he  to 
whomsoever  the  Son  will  reveal  Ilim."  Showing  that  it  is  by 
the  revelation  of  Christ  by  his  Spirit  in  the  heart  of  man,  that 
the  saving  knowledge  of  God  and  of  his  beloved  Son,  is  commu- 
nicated and  received.  There  it  is  He  shows  man  his  condition; 
what  the  Divine  w41l  concerning  him  is ;  and  as  He  is  received, 
He  gives  power  to  come  out  of  all  evil,  and  to  do  his  will,  iu 
following  Him  in  all  his  requirings.  In  this  w^ay  Christ  be- 
comes man's  Saviour  and  Sanctifier,  and  leads  him  along,  step  by 
step,  in  the  way  of  salvation  ;  opening  to  him  those  things  that 
belong  to  his  peace,  building  him  up,  and  establishing  him  as  a 
member  of  his  church,  upon  the  immutable  foundation,  which  is 
Himself  Thus  he  is  made  a  partaker  of  the  mercy  of  God,  and 
the  faith  of  which  Christ  is  the  Author. 

The  business  of  the  Quarterly  Meeting  was  conducted  with 
religious  weight;  and,  I  hoped,  to  the  strength  and  encourage- 
ment of  Friends.  Eeturned  home  with  feelings  of  peace,  and 
hoping  for  preservation  out  of  all  evil. 

In  the  latter  part  of  this  month,  I  made  a  visit  to  our  Spring- 
field brothers  and  sisters ;  attended  their  meeting  on  first-day, 
and  their  Monthly  Meeting  on  second-day;  in  both  of  which  I 
had  some  service  in  the  ministry  of  the  gospel;  endeavoring  to 
strengthen  all  classes,  to  greater  faithfulness  in  performing  their 
religious  duties,  that  the  world  may  be  kept  under  foot,  and  by 
laboring  in  the  Lord's  vineyard,  fruit  may  be  gathered  unto  life 
eternal. 

Third  month  8th.  I  went  to  the  Arch  Street  Meeting,  and 
was  engaged  in  holding  up  the  favor  of  having  a  High  Priest 
that  is  touched  with  a  feeling  of  our  infirmities,  and  was  tempt- 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS.  6G9 

ed  in  all  points  like  unto  us,  yet  without  sin  ;  one  who  is  able 
to  succor  them  that  are  tempted,  and  who  come  unto  God  by 
Him.  The  more  we  have  partaken  of  his  love  and  forgiveness, 
the  more  we  shall  feel  for  others,  and  at  seasons  desire  their 
forgiveness,  and  participation  of  the  same  love  and  mercy  of 
God,  in  and  through  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ.  The  meeting  was 
still  and  solemn. 

At  my  own  meeting  I  have  been  much  shut  up.  The  with- 
drawing of  the  sensible  flow  of  Divine  life,  is  doubtless  for 
our  good,  and  to  show  us  that  we  have  no  power  to  command 
rain  from  heaven  ;  and  that  the  people  are  to  be  turned  to  the 
Fountain  of  living  water  in  themselves,  for  refreshment  and 
strength.  We  all  have  need  to  desire  to  be  searched  by  the 
Holy  Spirit,  that  Satan  may  not  be  permitted  to  deceive  us  in 
relation  to  our  own  state  ;  but  through  the  continued  mercy  and 
condescension  of  the  Lord  our  God,  we  may  be  bowed  in  fear 
and  reverence  before  Him  ;  and  daily  put  up  our  prayers  for 
help  to  fight  the  good  fight  of  faith  ;  that  we  may  know  Satan 
to  be  put  down  and  trodden  under  foot. 

12th.  Feeling  a  draft  in  my  mind  to  attend  Haddonfield 
Quarterly  Meeting,  I  crossed  the  river  this  morning.  The  Se- 
lect Quarter  was  small,  only  five  men  and  perhaps  eight  or  nine 
women  of  their  own  members,  were  present. 

15th.  The  meeting  held  this  morning  was,  I  think,  unusually 
large,  many  young  people  attending  and  sitting  in  a  solid  man- 
ner. I  felt  drawn  to  speak  of  the  different  periods  of  life, — 
youth  and  old  age, — and  the  unspeakable  comfort  and  peace  of 
being  able  to  look  to  the  close,  with  humble  trust  of  being  ad- 
mitted into  the  everlasting  kingdom  of  the  Redeemer.  To  be 
thus  favored,  it  is  important  to  lay  the  foundation  in  early  life; 
and  the  visitations  of  the  Holy  Spirit  are  extended  to  young 
people,  even  w^hen  they  have  few  opportunities  of  receiving  in- 
struction from  mingling  with  religious  friends.  The  Lord  con- 
descends to  commune  with  them,  and  to  show  them  his  blessed 
will,  in  relation  to  those  things  which  are  wrong,  and  his  con- 
troversy is  with.  If  they  obey,  He  gives  power  lo  resist  temp- 
tations, and  turn  the  back  upon  them,  and  thus  prepares  them 
to  perform  his  will. 

It  seemed  to  me,  the  Lord  was  regarding  our  present  low 
state,  and  would  visit  sons  and  daughters,  and  bring  them  out, 
to  exalt  and  honor  his  name  and  cause ;  and  raise  us  up  as  out 


670  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

of  the  miry  cla}',  and  make  his  glory  to  shiue  among  us,  as  in 
days  of  old,  as  in  former  generations. 

16th.  Was  held  our  Meeting  for  Sufferings ;  which  united 
with  a  concise  declaration  of  the  rise  and  faith  of  our  Society, 
designed  for  insertion  in  the  American  Encyclopedia,  printing 
in  New  York.  Also,  a  minute,  setting  forth  our  disunity  with 
all  wars,  fightings  and  bloodshed  ;  the  use  of  violent  means  to 
obtain  the  freedom  of  the  slaves,  or  for  putting  down  or  setting 
up  governments ;  and  also  with  certain  letters  and  paragraphs, 
inserted  in  some  newspapers,  which  are  opposed  to  our  princi- 
ples on  these  points,  and  which  essays  were  written  in  the  style 
of  Friends ;  all  which  we  deny.  The  minute  was  directed  to  be 
printed  and  circulated. 

Fourth  month  8th.  The  anticipation  of  our  ajiproaching 
Yearly  Meeting,  has  been,  at  times,  attended  with  feelings  of 
much  concern.  There  has  been  a  great  stripping  of  members 
of  enlarged  experience,  and  understanding  in  the  management 
of  the  affairs  of  the  church,  under  the  direction  of  the  great 
Head.  There  is  a  spirit  seeking  to  lay  waste  Friends,  who  can- 
not unite  with  new  principles  and  practices,  or  a  dividing,  scat- 
tering disposition.  Yet  I  believe  the  Lord  has  not  forgotten 
to  be  gracious,  but  as  we  are  brought  low,  and  keep  sensible  that 
we  can  do  nothing  without  Him,  He  helps  us,  and  gives  a  little 
renewal  of  our  faith. 

This  morning,  in  our  meeting,  the  Master  was  pleased,  by  his 
quickening  power,  to  renew  my  faith,  and  to  raise  me  up  to  set 
forth  the  doctrine  of  his  immediate  guidance,  protection,  and  re- 
generating work  by  his  Holy  Spirit ;  both  to  reprove  the  world 
of  sin,  of  righteousness  and  judgment;  and  as  it  is  submitted  to, 
its  leading  into  all  truths,  its  taking  of  his  mj'steries  and  showing 
them  to  his  obedient  children,  and  bringing  all  things  to  remem- 
brance, whatsoever  He  has  said  unto  us.  Our  Saviour  said, 
"  If  ye  being  evil,  know  how  to  give  good  gifts  to  your  children, 
how  much  more  shall  j^our  Heavenly  Father  give  the  Holy 
Spirit  to  them  that  ask  Him."  I  felt  particularly  for  our  dear 
young  Friends,  desiring  that  the  things  of  the  world  nui}'  not 
be  permitted  to  separate  them  from  the  love  of  God  in  Christ 
Jesus;  but  that  they  may  steadily  take  up  the  cross,  deny 
themselves,  and  follow  Christ  in  the  way  He  would  lea<:l  them. 
The  renewed  evidence  that  the  Lord's  mercy  and  goodness  are 
not  withdrawn,  comforted  and  cheered  my  mind,  and  lilted  up 


JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM    EVANS.  GTl 

mj'  head,  in  holy  hope  and  trust,  that  lie  would  continue  to  help 
iu  every  time  of  need. 

13lh.  Our  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  held  to-day,  was  unusu- 
ally small.  1  thouglit  there  was  a  feeling  of  unity  among  us, 
in  finishing  our  business,  preparatory  to  the  Yearly  Meeting 
near  at  hand. 

1-ith.  The  Yearly-  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders  was  also 
Bmall ;  yet  wo  were  favored  with  holy  help  ;  under  which  I  was 
enabled  to  set  forth  the  qualilication  and  authority  of  a  minis- 
ter of  Christ.  Unsound  doctrine  could  not  be  gospel  ministry, 
nor  could  sentiments,  sound  in  themselves,  hut  declared  without 
Divine  authority,  have  a  baptizing  effect  upon  the  audience,  and 
be  received  as  the  preaching  of  the  gospel  of  Christ.  While  it 
is  needful  to  guard  against  creaturely  activity,  it  is  also  neces- 
sary to  be  aware  of  the  suggestions  of  Satan,  who  would  induce 
the  timid,  cautious  ones,  to  hold  back  from,  their  duty  ;  and 
thereb}'  lose  their  strength,  and  the  meeting  be  deprived  of 
what  the  Head  of  the  church  designed  for  its  comfort  and  help. 

16th.  The  Yearly  Meeting  convened,  Avhich  was  large,  and 
over  the  minds  of  Friends,  the  wing  of  Ancient  Kindness  was 
spread.  There  was.  an  ingathering  to  Christ,  and  solemnity 
and  weight  were  felt.  The  representatives  were  called  ;  the 
minutes  of  their  appointment,  and  one  of  the  rejDorts  were  read. 
In  the  afternoon,  the  minutes  of  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  were 
brought  before  the  meeting,  and  much  united  with.  On  the 
17th,  the  meeting  entered  upon  the  consideration  of  the  Queries 
and  Answers ;  during  which,  many  Friends  were  led  into  a 
lively  exercise,  on  account  of  the  subordinate  meetings  and  their 
members;  and  ability  was  given  to  administer  counsel  and 
warning  upon  many  jDoints,  and  to  encourage  Friends  to  greater 
dedication  to  the  cause  of  Truth,  and  the  discharge  of  their  re- 
ligious duties.  It  was  a  favored  season  ;  so  that  many  thought 
they  had  not  attended  such  a  sitting;  and  others,  that  it  resem- 
bled some  of  former  days.  It  was  cause  of  thankfulness,  that 
the  Master  condescended  to  our  low  estate,  and  showed  that  He 
had  not  forsaken  us.     19th  of  the  month  the  meeting  closed. 

Fifth  month  3d.  I  went  to  the  Arch  Street  Meeting,  and  sat 
a  good  while  in  poverty.  The  danger  of  being  deceived  in  our 
estimate  of  our  own  condition,  and  by  the  flatteries  and  good 
opinions  of  others,  so  as  to  settle  down  in  ease,  and  unconcern- 
edness,  under  the  belief  that  our  spiritual  state  is  better  than  it 


672  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

is  in  the  sight  of  the  Lord,  was  brought  before  me.  As  time 
"was  steadily  2:»assing  away,  and  carrying  all  of  us  nearer  to  the 
end  of  our  pilgrimage,  and  the  eternal  world,  it  was  of  the 
greatest  moment  we  should  seriously  lay  it  to  heart ;  and,  above 
all  things,  be  desirous  that  the  Lord  would  give  us  a  true  sight 
of  oui'selves,  and  bring  us  under  a  fervent  concern  to  have  our 
garments  washed,  and  the  heart  cleansed  by  the  baptism  of  the  ;. 
Holy  Ghost  and  fire;  that  it  may  be  prepared  for  the  Lord  of 
life  and  glory  to  take  possession  of  "  If  I  wash  thee  not,"  said 
Christ  to  Peter,  ''  thou  hast  no  part  in  me."  "  He  that  believeth 
and  is  baptized,  shall  be  saved."  I  felt  strong  desires  that  every 
one  might  be  brought  to  submit  to  this  baptism,  and  experience 
a  right  sense  of  his  state  ;  and  that  the  Lord  would  accomplish 
his  w^ork  of  sanctification  in  every  one.  I  hoped  that  the 
awakening  power  of  the  Holy  Spirit  attended,  and  raised  de- 
sires after  righteousness  ;  and  that  when  the  end  comes,  we  may 
be  found  clothed  with  the  pure,  white  linen,  so  as  to  join  the 
just,  who  surround  the  holy  throne. 

5th.  Our  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Ministei's  and  Elders  was 
held.  Through  mercy,  we  were  a  little  helped,  and  departed 
under  a  sense  of  the  Lord's  goodness  to  us,  unworthy  as  we  are 
of  the  least  of  all  his  favors. 

Seventh  month  18th.  I  felt  lonely  in  the  midst  of  company; 
which  tended  to  turn  my  thoughts  inward  to  feel  after  the 
Lord,  who  in  liis  merciful  condescension,  gave  me  a  quickening 
sense  of  his  presence ;  which  tendered  and  filled  my  heart  with 
gratitude  to  Him  for  his  unmerited,  mei^ciful  regai'd.  How  little 
and  low,  and  as  nothing,  do  we  feel  when  He  condescends  to 
appear.  This  is  the  knowledge  of  God,  and  of  Jesus  Christ, 
through  his  blessed  Spirit,  that  is  life  eternal  to  the  soul,  and 
far  bej^ond  all  opinions  that  man  forms,  without  the  immediate 
manifestation  of  his  Spii'it. 

22nd.  Our  meeting  at  Orange  Street  is  greatly  reduced. 
After  sitting  a  long  time ;  the  constraining  power  of  Christ  led 
m.e  to  break  the  silence  on  behalf  of  those  who  at  times  are 
brought  to  long  for  a  knowledge  of  the  right  way  of  the  Lord, 
and  to  obtain  reconciliation  with  Him,  and  a  sense  of  his  Divine 
approbation.  It  is  He  who  begets  these  hungerings  after  right- 
eousness; and  He  alone  can  satisfy  them  ;  and  as  He  is  obeyed 
in  all  his  requirings.  He  will  meet  the  penitent,  humbled  soul, 
with  the  reward  of  sweet  peace. 


JOURNAL   OP    WILLIAM    EVANS.  673 

23rd.  Our  little  Select  Preparative  Meeting  was  held  this 
morning,  with  evidences  of  fellowship,  and  desire  for  the  right 
support  of  the  cause  of  Christ. 

Eighth  month  20th.  For  weeks  past  the  enemy  seems  to 
have  been  let  loose  upon  me ;  and  at  times  I  greatly  desired  his 
presentations  might  be  removed  from  me.  This  dispensation 
gave  me  a  renewed  sense  of  my  own  nothingness,  and  of  the 
great  need  of  steady  watchfulness  and  prayer  to  the  Lord,  for 
his  merciful  regard  and  preservation.  The  case  of  the  Apostle 
Paul,  to  whom  was  given  a  thorn  in  the  flesh,  a  messenger  of 
Satan  sent  to  buffet  hira,  le.st  he  should  be  exalted  above  meas- 
ure, was  lately  brought  into  remembrance  ;  and  that  he  had  be- 
sought the  Lord  thrice,  that  it  might  depart  from  him  ;  but  the 
Lord  said  unto  him,  "  My  gx-ace  is  sufficient  for  thee,  ray  strength 
is  made  perfect  in  weakness ;"  which  gave  mo  the  hope  the 
present  trial  hrfd  been  permitted  for  my  humiliation. 

31st.  My  wife  and  daughter,  who  went  to  Cresson,  on  the 
Alleghany  Mountain,  about  two  weeks  ago,  returned  this  after- 
noon. Their  safe  arrival,  and  the  improvement  of  my  Avife's 
health,  afforded  me  much  satisfaction.  The  change  to  the 
atmosphere  on  an  elevated  point  of  mountainous  country, 
seemed  to  effect  a  decided  alteration  in  my  wife's  feelings  • 
which  was  cause  of  thankfulness  to  our  Heavenly  Father  ;  both 
for  her  release  from  very  distressing  sensations,  and  for  our 
comfort  in  the  prospect  of  her  health  being  restored,  so  as  to 
enable  her  to  pursue  her  duties,  and  contribute  to  the  happiness 
of  her  family.  May  it  please  the  compassionate  Shepherd  of 
his  flock,  to  continue  his  blessing  to  rest  upon  us,  and  keep  us 
on  every  hand. 

Ninth  month  2nd.  Our  first-day  morning  meeting  was  a 
favored  opportunity ;  my  wife  being  engaged  in  testimony  to 
the  continued  merciful  visitations  of  the  Lord  to  the  souls  Ho 
has  made,  even  to  the  rebellious.  I  was  drawn  to  kneel  in  vocal 
supplication  to  the  Father  of  mercies ;  to  regard  with  compassion 
our  low  estate,  who  have  no  power  to  keep  ourselves;  and  when 
the  enemy  comes  like  a  flood  to  destroy  the  souls  which  God 
has  made.  He  would  in  renewed  mercy  lift  up  his  Holy  Spirit 
as  a  standard  against  him ;  warn  us  of  his  temptations,  and 
enable  us  to  resist  them ;  that  we  may  glorify  Him  who  alone 
is  forever  worthy.  These  acts  are  very  humiliating  to  me,  and 
are  entered  upon  with  fear  and  reverence. 


674  JOURNAL    OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Eleventh  montli  12th.  Eodo  to  Concord,  and  sat  with  the 
Ministers  and  Elders  iu  their  Quarterly  Meeting.  Next  day  the 
Quarterly  Meeting  for  worship  and  discipline,  was  a  solid, 
favored  time ;  in  which  the  gospel  stream  flowed  impressively 
upon  many  hearts.  My  sister,  11.  Ehoads,  closed  in  solemn 
supplication.  I  believe  it  was  a  season  of  the  renewal  of  strength 
and  refreshment  to  the  livingly  exercised  and  rightly  gathered 
members.  On  the  14th,  we  went  to  our  friend  Charles  Down- 
ing's,  and  lodged,  in  order  to  be  at  Cain  Quarter. 

15th.  In  the  select  meeting,  after  the  Queries  and  Answers 
were  gone  through,  I  felt  engaged  to  speak  on  the  efficacy  of 
faith ;  that  it  Avas  not  only  the  substance  of  things  hoped  for, 
and  the  evidence  of  things  not  seen,  but  by  it,  the  Lord's  chil- 
dren in  all  ages,  obtained  the  victory  over  their  enemies  Avithin 
and  without ;  and  as  we  keep  this  faith,  looking  to  the  Lord 
alone  for  preservation  and  deliverance,  under  the  many  afHictions 
that  may  attend  us,  He  will  arise  and  carry  us  safely  through. 
Above  all,  said  the  apostle,  taking  the  shield  of  faith.  We  have 
had  many  extraordinarily  gifted  men  and  women  among  us, 
and  perhaps,  have  been  confiding  improperly  in  them  ;  but  they 
have  been  removed  from  the  church  militant,  and  our  depend- 
ance  must  be  turned  to,  and  placed  upon  the  Lord  alone.  In 
his  time  He  can  again  give  gifts  to  sons  and  daughters,  and 
qualif}^  them  for  his  service ;  and  beautify  the  house  of  his  glory 
where  his  honor  dwells. 

The  Quarterly  Meeting  convened  next  day.  I  was  silent  in 
both  meetings.  It  was  distressing  to  see  so  many  young  people 
leavino-  the  house,  as  the  partitions  were  closing;  and  some  of 
the  members  not  returning  for  some  time;  even  after  a  messen- 
ger had  been  sent  to  desire  them  to  come  in.  It  is  discouraging 
that  so  little  effect  seemed  to  follow  the  affectionate  labor 
bestowed  upon  them  by  exercised  servants,  and  ministers  of  the 
gospel  of  Christ. 

18th.  The  different  reports  of  the  men  sent  by  Moses  to  search 
the  land  of  Canaan,  are  descriptive  of  the  different  voices  there 
are  in  Christendom,  on  the  subject  of  religion  ;  producing  their 
respective  effects  upon  the  people.  Those  who  made  false 
reports  were  not  permitted  to  enter  the  jii-omised  land ;  by 
whom  the  people  were  discouraged,  and  though  entreated  by 
Caleb  and  Joshua,  would  not  go  up  and  take  possession  of  it; 
but,  refusing  to  obey  the  will  of  the  Lord,  they  were  turned  into 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM    EVANS.  C75 

the  wiklerncss,  us  many  now  arc,  in  a  epi ritual  sense.  WIicu 
they  found  what  awaited  them  for  their  disobedienee,  they  de- 
termined to  go  u]i  in  their  own  wills;  but  having  taken  the 
government  into  their  own  hands,  many  were  slain  by  their 
enemies,  "vvlio  met  and  destroyed  them  ;  and  the  rest  were  turned 
back,  to  perish  in  their  wilderness  abode.  So  it  seems  to  me, 
that  sueh  as  disregard  the  voice  of  the  Holy  Spirit  in  their 
hearts,  and  refuse  to  obey  the  Lord's  will,  arc  left  in  a  bewil- 
dered condition,  and  fail  to  find  the  state  of  rest  and  peace  which 
those  do  who  go  forward  at  the  Lord's  bidding.  They  are  left 
in  a  way  to  be  destroyed,  if  they  continue  unwilling  to  receive 
the  Saviour,  when  He  shall  again  visit  their  souls  with  the  offers 
of  his  mercy  and  saving  light. 

Twelfth  month  2nd.  This  has  been  a  day  of  deep  proving, 
and  fears.  In  the  afternoon  meeting,  a  warning  was  held  forth 
to  those  who  arc  at  ease ;  neglecting  their  day's  work,  and  the 
calls  of  Divine  grace  in  the  heart.  Our  Saviour  said,  "That 
many  shall  come  from  the  east  and  the  west,  and  shall  sit  down 
with  Abraham,  Isaac  and  Jacob,  in  the  kingdom  of  heaven  ;  but 
the  children  of  the  kingdom  shall  be  cast  out  into  outer  dark- 
ness;" those  who  have  had  many  invitations  of  the  Grace  of 
God,  but  after  having  these  favors,  have  put  off  a  compliance 
with  the  Divine  call,  to  a  period  at  which  they  may  think  it 
will  suit  their  convenience;  while  they  know  not  at  what  hour 
the  Son  of  Man  may  come  to  call  them  to  judgment.  Some 
comfort  was  handed  to  the  suffering  seed,  who  arc  bearing  heavy 
burdens  ;  who  are  let  down  into  low  places ;  and  under  a  sense 
of  their  nothingness,  and  the  dangers  that  surround  them,  are 
crying  to  the  Lord  for  protection  against  the  assaults  of  the  evil 
one. 

17th.  After  a  visit  to  Westtown ;  I  returned  with  some  cold, 
and  have  since  been  unwell ;  affected  with  dizziness,  and  some 
oppression.  It  seemed  like  the  gradual  breaking  down  of  the 
tabernacle  ;  in  which  my  sight,  and  hearing,  and  nervous  system, 
are  giving  way ;  and  my  thoughts  w^ere  directed  towards  the 
end  of  my  pilgrimage.  I  was  brought  to  a  very  low  estimate 
of  myself;  craving  that  the  Lord's  mercy  might  be  extended  to 
me,  a  poor  unworthy  creature ;  and  that  my  sins,  even  the  sins 
of  my  youth,  might  be  forgiven,  and  washed  away  by  my  dear 
and  holy  Redeemer;  I  having  nothing  of  my  own  to  rely  upon. 


676  JOURNAI,   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

My  feelings  were  peaceful,  in  the  midst  of  poverty  and  great 
un  worthiness. 

1861,  First  month  16th.  This  morning  we  have  received  the 
affecting  intelligence  of  the  decease  of  our  beloved  and  honorable 
brother,  Joseph  Khoads,  after  about  thirty-six  hours  sickness.  He 
was  a  man  of  remarkable  uprightness  in  his  dealings  ;  showing 
much  consideration  for  the  necessities  of  those  employed  by  him. 
He  was  possessed  of  good  understanding,  and  fond  of  useful  read- 
ing ;  and  was  strictly  careful  in  his  conversation  to  avoid  saying 
anything  to  the  prejudice  of  others  ;  so  that  he  was  more  noted 
for  his  silence  in  company,  and  in  meetings  for  discipline,  than 
for  much  speaking.  As  an  elder,  though  his  diflSdence  withheld 
him  from  much  activity  in  that  important  station,  yet  he  gave 
evidence  that  he  was  sound  in  principle,  and  steadfast  in  sup- 
porting the  testimonies  and  discipline  of  our  religious  Society. 
He  accompanied  me  in  several  religious  visits,  and  always  main- 
tained much  equanimity,  and  a  solid  exemplary  deportment, 
wherever  we  went;  expressing  his  comfort  when  meetings  were 
got  through,  under  feelings  of  the  authority  and  help  of  the 
Head  of  the  church. 

Second  month  2nd.  Our  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Ministers 
and  Elders,  was  very  small;  nine  or  ten  of  the  members  being  ab- 
sent; and  though  1  believe  Divine  help  was  with  us,  the  feeling 
of  the  state  of  the  meeting  was  trying. 

4th.  The  meetings  for  worship  and  for  discipline,  were  pretty 
satisfactory;  some  of  the  ministry  being  lively. 

7th.  I  attended  Abington  Quarterly  Meeting;  which  was 
smaller  than  I  expected,  considering  how  many  citizens  have 
removed  to  Germantown.  I  was  brought  into  near  sympathy 
with  some  in  the  meeting,  who  are  baptized  into  low  places,  and 
partake  of  much  discouragement  on  account  of  the  degeneracy 
in  the  present  day.  I  hope  the  Lord  extended  a  hand  of  help ; 
and  the  meeting  was  ended  with  prayer  for  the  Lord's  continued 
mercy  and  preserving  power.  Some  exercise  prevailed  in  the 
second  meeting  for  the  support  of  our  testimonies,  I  came 
away  with  the  hope  that  I  had  been  in  my  place. 

15th.  On  the  13th  and  14th,  I  attended  Salem  Quarterly 
Meeting,  held  at  Woodbury.  There  were  present  at  the  Select 
Meeting,  three  men  and  four  women  Friends  ;  some  being  kept 
away  by  indisposition.  The  number  of  aged,  experienced  Friends 
in  the  stations  of  minister  and  elder,  and  those  truly  prepared 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS.  677 

for  those  stations,  has  become  much  reduced  in  our  Yearly  Meet- 
ing ;  yet  among  the  young  people,  we  may  hope  the  preparing 
hand  is  at  work,  to  fit  them  for  service  in  the  militant  church. 
Friends  who  are  rightly  exercised  for  the  cause  of  Truth,  are 
often  brought  low  ;  and  put  up  their  secret  petitions  to  the  Lord 
of  the  harvest,  that  He  would  send  forth  laborers  into  his  har- 
vest field.  I  thought  the  Master  of  assemblies  helped  us,  and 
enabled  us  to  minister  to  the  people. 

I  returned  home  -in  the  afternoon,  with  peaceful  feelings. 

Third  month  14th.  Attended  Haddonfield  Quarterl}-  Meet- 
ing; in  the  first  part  of  which,  my  wife  was  engaged  in  humble 
supplication  to  the  Lord,  for  the  extendings  of  his  Divine  help 
to  the  burden  bearers;  and  for  the  gathering  of  the  childi'en. 

In  the  meeting  for  business,  I  thought  it  right  to  revive  the 
injunction  of  our  blessed  Lord,  '-What  I  say  unto  you,  I  say 
unto  all,  Watch."  "  Watch  and  pray,  lest  3'e  enter  into  tempta- 
tion." It  is  not  beginning  well,  and  running  well  for  a  time; 
but  those  who  held  out  to  the  end,  that  shall  be  saved.  lie  also 
said  to  one  of  the  churches,  "Because  thou  hast  ke}^  the  word 
of  m}'  patience,  I  also  will  keep  thee  from  the  hour  of  tempta- 
tion, which  shall  come  upon  all  the  world ;  to  try  them  that 
dwell  upon  the  earth."  Satan  hates  this  religious  Society,  and 
is  trying  to  lay  it  waste ;  but  He  that  sitteth  in  the  heavens 
shall  laugh ;  the  Lord  shall  have  them  in  derision  who  join  in 
this  Avork.  I  encouraged  Friends  to  keep  inward,  in  their  tents, 
with  their  eye  to  the  Lord.  I  believed  his  hand  was  stretched 
out  to  sons  and  daughters;  whom  He  was  bringing  under  exer- 
cise, to  prepare  them  for  his  services  ;  and  reminded  them  of  the 
importance  of  keeping  near  to  one  another,  and  to  submit  to  the 
work  of  Divine  Grace  in  the  heart ;  that  so  they  might  be  washed 
and  sanctified,  and  justified,  in  the  name  of  the  Lord  Jesus,  and 
by  the  spirit  of  our  God.  This  would  unite  us  together  in  the 
bond  of  peace. 

Fifth  month  28th.  I  went  to  the  Northern  District,  where  I 
was  exercised  on  the  importance  of  learning  and  practising 
patience  and  resignation  to  the  Divine  Will.  That  as  we  quietlj- 
bore  the  afllictions  and  sufferings  that  come  upon  us,  the  Lord 
would  sanctify  them  to  us,  and  finally  turn  Satan  backward  ; 
releasing  us  from  his  buffetings  and  temptations ;  and  causing 
his  own  peace  and  love  to  flow  into  our  hearts.  This  would 
keep  out  all  enmity  towards  others.  And  as  we  were  drawing 
44 


678  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

nearer  every  day  to  the  judgment  seat  of  Christ,  we  should 
strive  to  have  our  hearts  sweetened  by  his  love  ;  and  herein  the 
unity  of  the  Spirit  would  increase  among  us.  We  shall  never 
become  the  Society  we  were  in  the  beginning,  unless  all  ill-will 
is  cast  out,  and  we  show  forth  the  fruits  of  the  Spirit  of  the 
Lamb,  as  Friends  did  then,  under  contumely,  reproach  and 
persecution,  which  had  a  powerful  effect  to  con\'ince  others  of 
the  truth  of  their  principles ;  and  draw  many  to  join  them. 

Sixth  month  4th.  The  weathei*,  almost  through  the  w^iole 
Spring,  had  been  very  changeable  ;  about  double  the  usual  depth 
of  rain  having  fallen.  A  cloudy,  dull  atmosphere  has  been  de- 
pressing ;  and  with  the  mournful  state  of  the  country,  makes  every 
thing  around  us  give  the  feeling  of  sadness.  War  with  the  South- 
ern States  has  greatly  injured  trade  and  commerce  ;  involving  the 
Government  in  a  great  debt;  and  bringing  want  and  distress 
upon  many  people.  Engagements  between  several  small  bodies 
of  troops,  have  been  attended  Avith  desti'uction  of  human  life, 
which  administers  increased  sorrow.  Men  shooting  or  cutting 
one  another  down,  simply  to  gain  the  ascendancy,  and  to  drive 
ihe  survivors  from  their  position,  is  like  the  thoughtless  cruelty 
of  the  beasts ;  and  shows  a  total  absence  of  all  respect  for  the 
value  of  an  immortal  soul,  the  design  of  the  Great  Creator  in 
giving  existence  to  it,  and  the  inconceivable  awfulness  of  being 
ushered  into  his  dread  presence,  either  to  join  the  saints  in  light, 
or  to  be  condemned  to  everlasting  separation  from  the  joys  of 
his  salvation.  Civil  war  has  never  before  been  known  in  this 
country  ;  hoAV  far  it  may  sj)read,  and  in  what  destruction  it  may 
involve  the  inhabitants,  we  cannot  foresee ;  but  at  the  present 
time  there  are  few  indications  that  it  will  be  speedily  brought 
to  a  close.  Our  hope  and  trust  can  be  rightly  placed  in  the 
Lord  alone.  He  only  can  restrain  the  wrath  of  wicked  men, 
defeat  their  evil  designs,  and  deliver  out  of  their  hands  his 
children,  who  have  none  in  heaven  to  look  to  but  Him  ;  and 
dare  not  resort  to  the  arm  of  flesh  to  defeiid  themselves.  Friends 
in  this  part  of  the  country  have  been  free  from  any  apprehen- 
sions of  danger,  so  far  j  and  I  think,  maintain  a  state  of  quiet- 
ness and  watchfulness,  so  as  not  to  baulk  their  testimony  to 
the  goveniment  of  the  Prince  of  Peace. 

10th.  We  are  sometimes  in  danger  of  overvaluing  ourselves 
and  our  attainments,  and  of  being  over-estimated  by  our  kind- 
hearted  friends  j  all  of  which  have  their  dangerous  effects,  if 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS.  €79 

not  prevented  by  the  daily  watch,  in  the  fear  of  the  Lord.  This 
morning,  I  was  particular!}''  abased,  under  a  review  of  some  of 
the  sins  of  my  youth,  and  the  feeling  that  what  I  had  done  in 
the  persuasion  of  religious  duty,  when  the  candle  of  the  Lord 
shone  about  me,  and  opened  the  way  to  perform  what  He  re- 
quired of  me,  was  of  but  little  avail.  I  felt  very  much  bereft 
of  evidence  of  Divine  regard,  so  that  it  was  difficult  to  believe 
I  was  an  object  of  the  Lord's  continued  mercy  and  approbation. 
But  as  I  have  often  recommended  the  essential  necessity  of  ex- 
periencing the  baptisms  of  the  Holy  Ghost  and  fire,  in  order  to 
consume  thoroughly  every  impurity,  I  desired  to  abide  under 
the  present  humiliating  feelings,  and  secretly  breathed  that  th« 
Lord  would  not  forsake  me ;  but  would  cut  short  the  thread  of 
my  life,  rather  than  permit  Satan  to  bring  reproach  by  me,  upon 
the  blessed  truth,  as  professed  by  our  Society. 

It  has  been  a  day  of  close  besetmcnt,  but  this  evening  secret 
hope  has  been  felt,  that  the  everlasting  arm  is  still  round  about, 
and  will  sustain  and  defend  me,  a  poor  unworthy  one,  against 
the  assaults  of  the  enemy ;  and  in  unmerited  mercy,  wash  away 
and  pardon  my  many  deviations  and  shortcomings,  through  tho 
spirit  of  judgment  and  burning,  and  by  the  precious  blood  of  the 
Lamb.  We  are  nothing,  Christ  is  all ;  and  without  his  imme- 
diate help,  we  can  do  nothing  that  is  good. 

13th.  Fueling  my  mind  drawn  to  the  Arch  Street  Meeting,  I 
went,  and  through  the  condescending  goodness  of  the  blessed 
Shepherd  of  the  sheep,  I  was  enabled  to  hold  forth  the  lan- 
guage of  encouragement  to  those  who  love  the  Lord  Jesus ;  of 
whom  I  believed  there  were  many  preserved.  The  testimony 
of  the  apostle  was  revived  ;  that  "  Tribulation  worketh  patience, 
and  patience  experience,  and  experience,  hope  ;  and  hope  maketh 
not  ashamed,  because  the  love  of  God  is  shed  abroad  in  our 
hearts,  by  the  Holy  Ghost,  which  is  given  unto  us."  "Whatever 
may  be  our  tribulations,  as  this  love  abides  in  us,  we  shall  not 
only  love  God  above  everything  else,  but  be  brought  to  love  all 
men  ;  so  as  to  desire  their  salvation.  This  path,  as  we  keep  the 
faith  and  patience  of  the  saints,  is  a  glorious  path,  and  will  shine 
more  and  more  unto  the  perfect  day ;  in  which  we  shall  be  made 
victorious  over  all  the  temptations  of  Satan ;  and  be  kept  to  the 
end,  through  the  intercession  of  Christ,  who  bore  the  cross  for 
our  sakes,  and  is  sot  down  at  the  right  hand  of  tho  Father, 
making  intercession  for  us  poor  unworthy  creatures. 


680  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM    EVANS. 

Seventh  month  3d.  My  brother  Joseph  took  me  to  Chester 
Meeting.  "VYe  found  a  larger  company  convened  than  I  had  ex- 
pected. My  heart  was  replenished  with  love,  drawing  me  to  visit 
them ;  and  the  language  of  the  Master,  and  of  his  disciple  was 
brought  before  me,  "  By  this  shall  all  men  know  that  ye  are  my 
discijiles,  if  ye  have  love  one  to  another;"  "Little  children  love 
one  another ;"  "  We  know  that  we  have  passed  from  death  unto 
life,  because  we  love  the  brethren."  The  essential  importance  of 
having  our  hearts  filled  with  love  to  our  Heavenly  Father,  and 
showing  its  fruits  by  keeping  his  commandments,  were  oj)ened 
to  the  company;  with  sincere  desires  that  love  might  increase 
more  and  more,  and  unite  them  together.  The  qualification  for 
usefulness  in  the  church,  and  the  happiness  of  individuals,  meet- 
ings and  neighborhoods,  greatly  depend  upon  it.  Prayer  was 
offered  to  the  Father  of  mercies,  to  watch  over  and  defend  us 
against  the  temjitations  of  Satan ;  and  enable  us  to  walk  in 
holy  fear,  and  to  be  instrumental  in  spreading  the  kingdom  of 
the  Messiah ;  by  living  up  to,  and  supporting  the  principles  and 
testimonies  of  the  gospel. 

Attended  our  Select  Preparative  Meeting  on  the  22d,  and  our 
Monthly  Meeting  on  the  24th ;  in  which  the  usual  business  of 
replying  to  the  Queries,  was  harmoniously  attended  to.  I  also 
attended  the  North  Monthly  Meeting,  and  that  held  at  Arch 
Street;  in  which  a  fresh  ability  was  funiished  to  preach  the 
gospel,  and  to  labor  for  the  support  of  our  christian  testimonies. 

Eighth  month  11th.  At  the  first-day  meeting  at  Springfield; 
which  was  pretty  well  attended.  The  doctrine  of  regeneration, 
and  knowing  the  i)ivine  influence  of  the  Holy  Spirit  in  the 
lieart,  was  preached,  to  those  present.  It  was  shown  that  as  we 
live  and  walk  in  it,  th-e  heavenly  nature  of  the  Spirit  of  Christ 
will  subdue  our  passions  and  propensities;  and  enable  us  to  loVe 
our  enemies,  to  pray  for  them  that  despitefully  use  and  perse- 
cute us ;  that  so  we  may  be  the  children  of  our  Father  which  is 
in  heaven  ;  who  makes  his  sun  to  shine  on  the  evil  and  on  the 
good,  and  sendeth  rain  on  the  just  and  on  the  unjust.  True 
christians  cannot  draw  the  sword  against  any,  but  would  seek 
the  good  of  all,  and  to  be  instruments  for  spreading  the  king- 
dom of  Christ  in  the  earth. 

12th.  With  our  brother  and  sister,  J.  and  G.  B.,  my  wife  and 
I,  left   home   for   Concord,  to  attend  the  Quarterly  Meeting; 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS.  681 

where  we  stopped  at  our  dear  friend's  N.  Sharplcssj  and  then 
attended  the  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders. 

13th.  The  forepart  of  the  Quarterly  Meeting  was  silent, 
except  two  short  communications.  Feelings  of  distress  pre- 
vailed over  many;  the  spring  of  Divine  life  being  closed  by 
some  cause.  The  usual  business  was  transacted,  and  towards 
the  close,  I  felt  constaincd  to  advert  to  our  testimony  to  the 
peaceable  reign  of  the  Messiah;  and  to  show  the  essential  im- 
portance of  maintaining  love  and  unity  amongst  ourselves,  if 
we  desire  to  bear  this  testimony  faithfully,  before  the  world. 
Even  under  a  former  dispensation,  it  was  said,  "Behold  how 
good  and  how  pleasant  it  is  for  brethren  to  dwell  together  in 
unity.  It  is  like  the  precious  ointment  upon  the  head,  that  ran 
down  upon  the  beard,  even  Aaron's  beard,  that  went  down  to  the 
skirts  of  his  garments.  As  the  deAv  of  Hermon,  and  as  the  dew 
that  descended  upon  the  mountains  of  Zion;  for  there  the  Lord 
commanded  the  blessing,  even  life  forevermore."  We  have  need 
of  individual  examination,  and  watchfulness,  to  guai'd  us  against 
giving  way  to  any  spirit  or  practice,  that  Avould  lay  waste  the 
Society  or  hurt  its  members. 

22d.  Being  prevented  from  attending  my  own,  I  went  to  the 
Arch  Street  Meeting ;  which  was  very  small,  the  weather  being 
wet ;  but  the  comforting  influence  of  Divine  Good  was  spread 
over  us.  "  Why  art  thou  cast  down,  oh,  my  soul;  and  why  art 
thou  disquieted  within  me !  Hope  thou  in  God,  for  I  shall  yet 
praise  Him,  who  is  the  health  of  ni}'  countenance  and  ray  God." 
These  expressions  of  the  P.salmist  were  brought  before  me,  as 
applicable  to  the  low  state  of  some  present;  and  in  simplicity 
and  godly  sincerity,  I  revived  them,  and  was  led  to  encourage 
all  to  keep  the  faith  which  had  been  given  to  them ;  and  the 
Lord  who  knows  our  impotency,  will  keep  us  by  his  invisible 
power,  and  defend  us  against  all  the  devices  of  the  enemy. 
"  As  the  mountains  are  round  about  Jerusalem,  so  the  Lord  is 
round  about  his  people,  from  henceforth  even  forever."  A  feel- 
ing of  humble,  childlike  tenderness  seemed  to  be  spread  over  us 
at  the  close  of  the  meeting,  which  had  a  uniting  effect,  and  was 
a  sweet  reward. 

Xinth  month  9th.  This  morning,  I  went  to  my  friends  S. 
and  B.  ^Nicholson,  at  Haddonfield,  and  attended  their  Monthly 
Meeting.  The  necessity  of  bearing  patiently  the  light  afflic- 
tions, which  are  but  for  a  moment,  that  we  may  be  humbled, 


682  JOURNAL   OP   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

emiDtied  of  all  self-confidence,  and  brought  to  see  that  we  are 
nothing,  whatever  may  have  been  our  gifts,  and  past  exjjerience, 
was  revived  in  my  mind ;  and  believing  that  there  were  those 
among  us,  who  were  enduring  suffering,  and  watching  unto 
prayer  for  their  own  preservation,  and  for  the  spreading  of  the 
Redeemer's  kingdom,  I  was  induced  to  address  them  in  the  sym- 
path}^  and  fellowship  of  the  gospel ;  reminding  them,  that  it 
had  been  the  lot  of  the  Lord's  children  in  all  generations.  The 
"fathers  wei^e  under  the  cloud,  and  all  passed  through  the  sea, 
and  were  all  baptized  unto  Moses  in  the  cloud,  and  in  the  sea; 
and  did  all  eat  the  same  spiritual  meat,  and  did  all  drink  the  same 
spiritual  drink ;  for  they  drank  of  that  Eock  that  followed  them  ; 
and  that  Rock  was  Christ."  As  we  are  baptized  by  one  Spirit 
into  one  body,  and  made  to  drink  into  one  Spirit,  we  experi- 
ence the  love  and  fellowship  of  the  gospel,  to  circulate  as  from 
vessel  to  vessel.  Poverty  and  emptiness  had  been  my  feelings 
in  coming  to  the  meeting,  and  in  sitting  there;  but  1  hoped 
there  was  something  of  the  springing  up  of  Divine  life,  and  that 
we  were  a  little  cheered  together. 

Eleventh  month.  In  contemplating  the  trials  and  overturn- 
ings  to  which  our  religious  Society  has  been  subjected  for  many 
years  in  this  country,  I  was  made  to  believe  a  few  days  since, 
that  the  gracious  Shepherd  was  still  near  to  us,  and  that  the 
time  was  not  very  far  off,  when  He  Avould  go  through  his  flock, 
and  renew  the  visistations  of  his  love  to  the  younger  members. 
That  He  would  bestow  gifts  ujjon  them,  to  be  occupied  in  his 
church  ;  and  prepare  and  send  forth  servants  to  proclaim  and 
spread  the  doctrines  of  the  gospel,  and  his  blessed  cause,  from 
sea  to  sea;  and  from  the  rivers  to  the  ends  of  the  earth. 
Hereby  the  beauty,  and  strength,  and  influence  of  our  Society, 
in  this  Yearly  Meeting,  and  in  this  city,  will  be  restored;  and 
a  body  of  solid  and  deeply  experienced  men  and  women,  it 
appeared  to  mc,  Avould  be  again  raised  up  as  standard  bearers, 
and  watchmen  upon  the  walls  of  Zion.  May  the  Lord  hasten  it 
in  his  time  and  way ;  and  enable  us  to  continue  to  bear  patiently 
the  sufferings  that  remain  for  us  to  endure ;  for  our  own  sakes, 
and  for  one  another,  whatever  they  may  bo. 

4th.  The  Quarterly  Meeting  for  Discipline,  was  a  season  of 
favor.  The  spring  of  gospel  ministry  was  afresh  opened ;  in 
which  several  wei-e  made  partakers;  and  the  oj^en  service  was 
closed  with  prayer,  that  He,  who  in  mercy  had  visited  us  in 


JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS,  683 

early  days,  and  been  with  us  all  our  life,  unto  this  day,  would 
continue  to  watch  over  us,  warn  us  of  surrounding  dangers,  and 
deliver  us  from  them ;  and  that  He  would  visit  the  young  peo- 
l)le,  and  raise  up  instruments  in  his  blessed  cause;  to  join  in 
spreading  the  kingdom  of  his  dear  Son,  our  Lord  Jesus  Christ, 
from  sea  to  sea,  and  from  the  rivers  to  the  ends  of  the  earth. 
Much  weight  and  solemn  quiet  continued  throughout  both 
meetings;  and  Friends  spoke  of  it  to  one  another  as  a  time  of 
comfort  and  encouragement. 

Having  received  an  invitation  from  our  dear  friend,  Martha 
Wistar,  to  accompany  S.  and  B.  Nicholson,  in  a  visit  to  her, 
at  her  residence,  near  Salem,  N.  Jersey,  on  the  11th,  my  dear 
wife  and  I  went  to  Haddonfield  ;  hoping  that  the  ride  and  visit 
would  be  reviving  and  invigorating  to  my  wife's  health,  which 
had  been  in  a  precarious  state  for  several  years. 

On  the  12th,  we  rode  down  to  Martha  Wistar's;  my  wife  con- 
versed very  cheerfully,  appearing  to  enjoy  the  ride,  and  remark- 
ing on  the  beauty  of  the  country,  as  we  passed  through  it. 
Next  da}^,  the  13th,  we  all  attended  the  Quarterly  Meeting  of 
Ministers  and  Elders  held  in  Salem  ;  towards  the  close  of  w^hich, 
after  a  Friend  had  spoken  to  one  of  the  Queries,  my  wife  made 
some  remarks  in  unison  with  what  had  been  said;  and  then 
added  ;  that  during  the  time  we  had  been  sitting  together,  she 
had  dwelt  much  on  the  language,  "Men  ought  alwaj's  to  pray 
and  not  to  faint."  That  while  she  had  no  unity  with  the  spirit 
of  activity  that  was  so  much  abroad  in  the  present  day,  which 
would  lead  to  the  repetition  of  mere  words  ;  she  believed  the 
state  of  the  church  called  for  deep  indwelling,  and  travail  of 
spirit,  before  the  Lord;  to  this  she  encouraged  all,  and  said  she 
believed  there  were  some  struggling  ones  there  who  were 
silently  pleading,  as  at  the  Master's  feet,  for  preservation  ;  beg- 
ging for  themselves  and  for  the  church.  The  Lord  regardeth 
such  as  these,  and  would  regard  them.  The}^  wear  their  sack- 
cloth underneath,  and  that  is  right ;  and  such  Avere  the  salt  of  the 
earth.  And  although  discouragement  might  so  abound,  that 
some  who  were  so  exercised,  might  conclude  they  w^ere  among 
the  hindermost  of  the  flock,  or  might  even  doubt  whether  they 
were  of  the  flock  of  Christ,  yet  as  they  struggled  to  maintain 
the  warfare,  preservation  woiild  be  experienced.  That  it  was 
in  the  night  season,  Jacob  wrestled  with  the  angel ;  and  it  w^as 
declared  of  him,  "As  a  prince,  hast  thou  power  with  God,  and 


684  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

hast  prevailed."  She  mentioned  what  a  mercy  it  was,  that  we 
have  an  High  Priest,  who  is  touched  with  a  feeling  of  our  in- 
firmities; and  she  wished  to  encourage  all,  to  persevere  in  this 
deep,  inward,  fervent  prayer.  She  did  believe,  that  as  such  au 
exercise  was  maintained  by  those  who  mourned  for  the  desola- 
tion of  Zion,  judges  would  be  raised  up,  as  at  the  first,  and 
counsellors  as  at  the  beginning:  adding  "It  is  my  firm  belief, 
and  faith,  that  it  will  be  so;  though  I  may  not  live  to  see  it,  yet 
it  will  be  so." 

We  returned  to  Martha  Wistar's,  and  dined ;  and  towards 
evening  went  to  S.  D.'s,  where  we  took  tea,  and  passed  the 
evening  in  cheerful  conversation,  and  then  returned  to  our 
lodgings.  "We  retired  at  usual  bed-time,  when  my  dear  wife 
seemed  as  well  as  she  had  been  for  some  time ;  but  a  little  after 
two  o'clock,  she  awoke  with  uncomfortable  feelings,  and  appeared 
unable  to  bear  a  recumbent  position.  Yarious  means  were  tried 
to  renew  the  impeded  circulation,  but  in  vain  ;  and  she  quietly 
expired  without  any  apparent  pain  or  struggle,  in  about  an  hour 
after  she  first  showed  difficulty  of  breathing. 

To  me,  the  breaking  of  a  tie,  that  made  us  one  flesh,  and  in 
which  we  w^ere  affectionatel}^  united  in  the  one  Spirit,  and  fellow- 
ship of  the  pure  gos2)el  of  Christ,  was  a  deeply  aftecting  and  unex- 
pected event.  But  though  deeply  aflSicted,  the  Lord  Avas  merciful, 
in  sustaining  my  poor  soul  above  the  billows;  and  enabling  mo 
to  look  to  Him  for  suj^port  and  preservation,  now  my  most  faith- 
ful companion,  and  cheerful,  experienced  counsellor  and  com- 
forter was  taken  away,  in  the  ordering  of  his  inscrutable  wisdom. 
No  one  who  has  not  had  such  a  valuable  and  closely  united  help- 
meet, tbrough  many  spiritual  trials,  can  be  sensible  of  the  losa 
I  sustained,  and  tbe  depth  of  aftliction  into  which  I  have  been 
plunged  by  the  removal  of  my  dear  wife.  She  was  a  mother  in 
Israel ;  a  cherisher  of  the  children  in  the  early  buddings  of  the 
fruits  of  the  Spirit,  in  their  tender  minds  ;  and  an  cncourager  and 
strengthencr  of  the  weary  traveller,  bearing  burdens  for  Zion's 
sake,  and  the  support  and  spreading  of  the  lledeemer's  cause  of 
truth  and  righteousness  in  the  earth,  in  our  own  Sociely  ;  and 
also  as  she  came  into  their  company,  among  those  of  other  re- 
ligious denominations. 

A  messenger  was  sent  to  Philadelphia  next  morning,  to  con- 
vey the  sorrowful  intelligence  to  my  brothers,  and  by  them  to 
our  beloved  children  ;  to  whom  it  was  a  great  shock.     Several 


JOURNAL   OF    WILLIAM   EVANS.  685 

came  down  to  us  that  evening,  and  next  morning  we  accompa- 
nied the  remains  in  the  steamboat,  to  the  city;  where  we  met 
others  at  oar  house,  clothed  with  sadness.  On  landing  at  tho 
Avharf,  I  recollected  that  I  went  away,  as  it  were,  full,  and  now 
returned  empty,  as  to  any  feeling  of  earthly  cnjoj-ment.  As  I 
rode  down  the  street,  loaded  with  deep  affliction,  a  voice  passed 
through  my  mind,  as  if  uttered  by  one  of  the  heavenly  company, 
"She  is  among  the  glorified  in  light."  This  was  a  most  quickening 
salutation,  and  while  it  gave  evidence  that  the  redeemed  spii'it  of 
ni}'  precious,  departed  one,  was  partaking  of  the  joys  of  God's 
salvation,  with  the  countless  multitude  with  palms  in  their  hands, 
of  which  she  had  often  borne  testimony  in  her  gospel  ministry^; 
it  also  showed  that  through  the  same  unmerited  mercy  and  con- 
descension, I  was  not  overlooked  or  forgotten  in  my  deep  dis- 
tress. It  raised  thanksgiving  and  praise  to  the  Lord  my  God, 
who  had  been  with  me  all  my  life-long ;  fed  me  and  kept  me 
unto  this  day ;  in  tho  hope  that  He  would  still  condescend  to  be 
with  me,  and  keep  my  head  above  the  billows,  and  preserve  me 
as  in  the  hollow  of  his  omnipotent  Hand,  so  that  I  may  be  en- 
abled to  fill  up  the  measure  of  suff'ering  and  duty  that  He  may 
allot ;  know  all  my  sins  to  be  forgiven,  and  my  garments  washed 
and  made  white  in  the  blood  of  tho  Lamb,  and  be  accepted  at 
last  through  Him,  my  gracious  Eedeemer. 

The  interment  took  place  on  second-day  the  18th  of  the 
Eleventh  month.  Great  interest  and  love  for  her  were  mani- 
fested, in  the  very  large  compan}',  who  convened  at  that  time, 
and  viewed  her  placid,  sweet  countenance,  over  which  many 
tears  were  shed,  in  the  remembrance  of  her  christian  spirit,  and 
fervent  labors  for  the  good  of  souls.  Before  the  company  left 
the  house,  several  Friends,  well  acquainted  with  her,  bore  tes- 
timony to  her  religious  standing  and  worth,  as  a  servant  of 
Christ;  who  neither  turned  to  the  right  hand  nor  to  the  left, 
but  faithfully  discharged  her  duty  to  her  Lord  and  Master,  for 
the  good  of  souls,  and  the  support  and  spreading  of  his  blessed 
cause. 

1862.  Many  deep  baptisms  have  I  passed  through,  and  feel- 
ings of  great  loneliness,  since  the  death  of  m^^  beloved  and  val- 
uable wife ;  Avho  was  a  great  support  and  comfort  to  me,  in  our 
united  travail  for  the  salvation  of  our  own  souls,  and  of  our 
dear  children,  as  well  as  of  othei's.  But  though  greatly  stripped 
at  times,  the  Lord's  mercy  and  compassion  towards  a  poor  crea- 


686  JOURNAL   OF   WILLIAM   EVANS. 

ture,  have  not  been  withdrawn.  I  have  been  enabled  to  put  up 
breathings  of  spirit  to  Him  for  preservation  to  the  end. 

Our  Yeai'ly  Meeting  held  in  the  Fourth  month  this  year,  was 
often  favored  with  solemnity  and  religious  weight.  The  first 
sitting  was  attended  with  feelings  of  strong  desire  for  the  res- 
toration of  unity  through  the  Yearly  Meetings.  Friends  were 
much  tendered,  particularly  the  young  people ;  and  one  or  two 
expressed  their  hope  of  the  return  of  true  fellowship.  The 
presence  of  the  Great  Head  of  the  church  was  remarkably  felt 
over  the  meeting. 

Fifth  month.  Feeling  my  mind  drawn  into  sympathy  with 
Friends  of  Abington  Quarter,  I  attended  that  meeting,  and  in  the 
love  of  the  gospel,  was  enabled  to  visit  the  tribulated  members ; 
w^ho,  like  their  brethren  and  sisters  elsewhere,  have  to  drink  of 
the  cup  of  suffering  and  fear,  for  the  good  cause'  sake.  I  believe 
holy  help  was  extended,  and  we  were  baptized  by  the  one 
Spirit  into  one  body,  and  were  enabled  to  thank  oilr  Holy  Helper, 
and  to  take  a  little  fresh  oourage. 


CONCLUSION. 

The  last  entry  made  by  my  brother  in  his  diary,  was  that 
dated  Fifth  month,  1866.  His  sight  had  been  long  impaired  by 
cataract  in  one  eye,  and  the  incipient  stage  of  the  same  disease 
in  the  other.  The  loss  sustained  by  the  death  of  his  beloved 
and  valuable  wife,  though  borne  with  christian  ];)atience  and 
resignation,  as  the  infirmities  of  old  age  pressed  upon  him,  was 
an  ever  present  source  of  sorrow;  which,  with  the  irreparable 
shock  given  to  his  nervous  system  by  her  sudden  and  unex- 
pected removal,  soon  greatly  affected  his  general  health.  His 
sight  failed  rapidly,  and  it  was  not  long  ere  he  was  unable  to  see 
to  read  or  to  write.  To  one  whose  mind  had  alwaj^s  been  ac- 
tive, and  who  had  accustomed  himself  to  employ  much  time  in 
the  use  of  the  pen,  or  in  the  perusal  of  books  congenial  with 
the  tone  of  his  thoughts  and  feelings,  this  privation  was  keenly 
felt.  But  as  he  was  thus  cut  off  from  some  outward  sources  of 
mental  enjoj^ment,  his  attention  was  more  and  more  withdrawn 
from  external  things,  and  in  reverent  retirement  before  the 
Lord,  centered  on  the  inward  manifestations  of  his  Spirit.  In 
this  deep  introversion,  he  was  often  brought  into  low  places, 
and  close  searching  of  heart ;  renewing  those  humiliating  views 
of  himself,  of  his  attainments  in  the  way  of  holiness,  and  of  his 
faithfulness  in  occupying  the  gifts,  and  making  a  right  return 
for  the  manifold  mercies  bestowed  upon  him;  of  which  he  often 
speaks  in  his  Journal.  Not,  as  he  said,  that  he  found  any  thing 
laid  to  his  charge,  or  that  there  was  any  known  duty  Avhich  he 
had  refused  to  perform;  but  such  was  his  sense  of  the  frailty  of 
human  nature,  and  the  awfulness  of  the  soul,  when  unclothed 
of  mortality,  being  ushered  into  the  immediate  presence  of  in- 
finite and  immaculate  Purit}',  that  he  felt  there  could  be  no  hope 
for  him,  nor  for  any,  but  as  in  immeasurable  condescension,  an 
undoubted  assurance  was  granted  of  accei^tance,  through  that 
Saviour  who  died  for  poor,  lost  man,  and  whose  mercy  covered 
the  judgment  seat. 

Although  much  restricted  by  want  of  sight,  and  the  continued, 


688  CONCLUSION. 

though  gradual,  decline  of  strength,  from  going  far  from  home, 
he  continued  frequently  to  attend  different  meetings  in  the  city, 
and  occasionally  visited  one  or  more  in  the  country,  at  no  great 
distance.  It  was  always  a  source  of  satisfaction  to  him  thus  to 
mingle  with  his  friends,  to  unite  with  them  in  waiting  on  the 
Lord,  and  in  seeking  for  ability  to  render  to  Him  acceptable 
worship)  in  spirit  and  in  truth.  i 

The  Fi'iends  of  the  respe<itive  meetings,  to  which  he  belonged, 
testif}"  respecting  him  and  his  services  during  that  period,  that, 
"His  ministry,  though  not  frequent,  continued  to  be  lively  and 
weighty ;  sometimes  inviting  the  young  to  take  the  yoke  of 
Christ  upon  them,  so  that  they  might  secure  the  proper  enjoy- 
ment of  the  things  of  this  world,  and  a  well-grounded  hope  of 
admittance  into  the  company  of  saints  and  angels  hereafter ;  and 
calling  on  his  fellow  members,  not  to  rest  satisfied  with  anything 
short  of  complete  sanctification  ;  that  being  grafted  into  Christ, 
the  living  Vine,  they  might  be  made  fruit-bearing  branches,  and 
through  the  renewings  of  the  Holy  Ghost,  bring  forth  much 
fruit,  to  the  glory  of  God  the  Father.  In  the  Sowings  of  gos- 
pel love  towards  his  fellow  men,  and  especially  towards  those 
of  the  same  household  of  faith,  he  often  expressed  his  fervent 
desire  for  their  establishment  and  growth  in  the  unchangeable 
Truth  ;  on  several  occasions  remarking,  he  felt  that  if  he  had 
but  bodily  ability,  and  it  was  his  Master's  will,  he  would  cheer- 
fully go  forth  once  more  through  the  Society,  to  preach  the  glad 
tidings  of  salvation."* 

The  last  time  he  got  out  to  meeting,  was  in  the  afternoon  of 
first-day  the  30th  of  the  Twelfth  month,  186G.  A  few  days 
after,  he  rode  to  the  residence  of  two  women  Friends,  members 
of  the  same  meeting  with  himself,  who  had  been  sometime  con- 
fined by  indisposition,  where  he  was  engaged  in  the  ministry. 
This  was  the  last  visit  he  made.  The  next  morning.  First  month 
6th,  1867,  he  was  seized  with  great  difficulty  of  breathing,  and 
from  that  time  the  diseago  that  finally  terminated  his  life,  was 
rapidly  developed. 

As  the  circulation  became  more  and  more  impeded,  the  dif- 
ficulty of  breathing  increased ;  and  about  the  middle  of  the 
Third  month,  he  became  unable  to  bear  a  recumbent  position, 
so  that  for  more  than  two  weeks  he  remained  almost  constantly 

*  See  Memorial.  »  '  * 


CONCLUSION.  689 

in  a  siitiiif!^  position,  enduring  great  weariness  and  oppression. 
The  remedies  resorted  to  were,  however,  so  far  successful  in  re- 
lieving the  severity  of  his  symptoms,  as  to  allow  him  again  to 
recline  in  bed.  Though  free  from  acute  pain,  his  sulforiiig  was 
great,  and  was  borne  without  murmuring,  he  often  remarking, 
that  though  he  found  the  infirmities  of  the  flesh  as  much  as  ho 
could  well  endure,  they  were  doubtless  permitted  in  Divine  wis- 
dom, and  were  intended  for  his  further  refinement. 

During  his  long  confinement,  he  continued  to  maintain  a  lively 
interest  in  the  welfare  of  our  religious  Societ}-;  manifesting  on 
difterent  occasions,  the  earnest  travail  of  his  soul,  that  Friends 
might  be  drawn  more  nearly  together  in  the  fellowship  of  the 
gospel,  and  be  willing  faithfully  to  support  the  doctrines  and 
testimonies,  which  he  believed  the  great  Head  of  the  Church 
had  raised  up  the  Society  to  exemplify  to  the  world.  He  was 
frequently  visited  by  many  of  his  beloved  fellow  members,  min- 
isters and  others,  and  many  precious  opportunities  were  thus 
afforded  for  retirement  before  the  Lord ;  and  not  unfrequently 
he  was  clothed  with  ability  to  minister  to  those  present;  as 
were  others  to  speak  in  the  language  of  comfort  and  encourage- 
ment to  him.  On  more  than  one  occasion  he  expressed  his 
earnest  desire  that  nothing  might  be  said  by  way  of  commenda- 
tion ;  nor,  unless  they  felt  Divinely  authorized,  should  any  speak 
as  though  his  salvation  was  secured  ;  for  he  felt  that  the  watch 
and  the  warfare  must  be  continued  to  the  end,  if  the  crown  im- 
mortal was-,  through  mercy,  obtained.  Notwithstanding  these 
humble  views  of  himself,  and  the  care  he  manifested  not  to  pre- 
sume on  any  past  experiences,  he  on  more  than  one  occasion  in- 
timated that  his  gracious  Master  liad  given  him  the  assurance, 
that  when  done  with  time,  he  should  be  admitted  into  everlast- 
ing rest. 

During  the  time  of  holding  the  Yearly  Meeting  in  the  Fourth 
month  of  1867,  he  was  frequently  brought  under  much  exercise. 
The  separation  from  his  friends,  Avhen  thus  gathered  to  transact 
the  aflfairs  of  the  church,  a  work  which  had  long  been  dear  and 
deeply  interesting  to  him,  was  keenly  felt,  but  was  borne  with 
patience  and  resignation.  At  different  times  his  spirit  was 
bowed  in  sympathy  with  his  brethren,  earnestl}'  desiring  that 
the  different  important  subjects  before  the  meeting  might  be  re- 
sulted in  the  authorit}'  of  Truth ;  and  rejoicing  when  he  heard 
of  seasons  of  Divine  favor  being  granted  to  the  assembly. 


690  CONCLUSION. 

Two  Friends,  one  of  them  a  minister,  having  called  to  see 
him,  after  the  Yeai'ly  Meeting,  he  manifested  that  he  still  che- 
rished the  concern  he  had  long  felt,  for  the  right  education  of 
the  children  of  Friends,  by  addressing  one  of  them,  whom  he 
was  told  had  been  appointed  on  the  committee  having  the  over- 
sight of  Westtown  Boarding  School ;  encouraging  him  to  bear 
in  mind,  while  employed  in  the  business  necessary  in  carrying 
on  the  school,  that  there  was  matter  of  more  serious  importance 
connected  with  it;  and  that  if  he  was  concerned  to  seek  for 
Divine  counsel  in  attending  to  that,  he  might  himself  ex^ieri- 
enee  a  growth  in  the  Truth ;  reminding  him  of  the  expression 
of  Thomas  Scattergood,  in  the  early  days  of  the  Institution, 
"  That  if  Friends  were  faithful  to  their  principles  in  conducting 
it,  it  was  a  plantation  the  Lord  would  bless."  The  minister 
having  addressed  him  in  an  encouraging  manner,  after  a  little 
pause,  he  said  in  a  broken  voice,  "May  the  Lord  in  his  unmerited 
mercy  remove  and  forgive  all  those  things  which  are  contrary 
to  his  Divine  will ;  that  we  may,  through  mercy,  unmerited 
mercy,  know  a  preparation  for  an  admittance  into  his  kingdom 
of  rest  and  peace." 

During  the  last  few  days  of  his  life,  he  conversed  but  little; 
not  only  because  the  oppression  made  it  diflScult  for  him  to  speak, 
but  his  mind  appeared  to  be  fixed  in  the  contemplation  of  the 
change  that  awaited  him,  and  in  being  fervently  engaged  to  be 
found  ready  when  the  summons  came. 

His  decease  took  place  on  the  morning  of  the  12th  of  the 
Fifth  month,  1867,  in  the  81st  year  of  his  age.  "Blessed  are 
the  dead  which  die  in  the  Lord,  from  henceforth;  yea  saith  the 
Spirit,  that  they  may  rest  from  their  labors,  and  their  works  do 
follow  them." 


INDEX. 


A. 

Alexander,  Ann,  Prophecy  of Page     18 

AxLEN,  Charles,  accompanies  William  Evans  to  Baltimore 220 

B. 

Barton,  Elizabeth,  Religious  visit  of,  to  Baltimore,  Yearly  Meeting 93 

Marriage  of,  to  William  Evans 93 

Barton,  Rebecca,  Notice  of  the  death  and  character  of 580 

Bettle,  Sasiuel,  Sr.,  Originates  the  establishment  of  the  Book  Store 309 

Notice  of  a  communication  from,  in  Philadelphia  Quarterly  Meeting  489 
Notice  of  remarks  of,  on  the  epistle  received  from  London,  inform- 
ing they  had  acknowledged  the  separate  meeting  in  Ohio 634 

Britain,  Great,  War  with,  in  1812 28 

Bullock,  John,  Notice  of  the  death  of 398 

C. 

Carpenter,  Mary,  Notice  of  the  death  of. 446 

Cassin,  Isabel,  Notice  of  her  being  at  Philadelphia  Quarter 321 

Coggeshall,  Elizabeth,  visit  to,  by  William  Evans 186 

Comfort,  Ezra,  Testimony  of 402 

Cope,  Henrt,  accompanies  William  Evans  to  North  Carolina  in  1830 112 

Accompanies  William  Evans  to  Ohio 165 

Accompanies  William  Evans  to  Virginia 224 

Narrow  escape  of 225 

Accompanies  William  Evans  to  Indiana 312 

Accompanies  William  Evans  to  North  Carolina 405 

Cox,  John,  Notice  of 200 

D. 

Dean,  Lydia,  Notice  of  the  sickness  and  death  ©f 328 

(691) 


692  INDEX. 


E. 

Elkinton,  Joseph,  accompanies  "William  Evans  to  the  meetings  in  the 

Northwestern  parts  of  New  York  Yearly  Meeting 333 

Accompanies  William  Evans  to  Indiana  and  Iowa 498 

Emlen,  Sarah,  Notice  of  the  death  of 498 

Evans,  Jonathan,  Letter  from,  to  his  son  William 9 

Letter  from,  to  his  son  William 10 

Views  of,  respecting  the  ministry 63 

Advice  of,  to  his  son  William,  when  going  on  a  religious  visit 83 

Opens  in  his  monthly  meeting  the  disorder  produced  by  E.  Hicks 

and  his  doctrines 103 

Compiles  the  Journal  of  William  Savery 187 

Sentiments  of,  respecting   those  who  do  not  steadily  support   the 

discipline 195 

Last  sickness,  death,  and  character  of 210,  211 

Evans,  Hannah,  Letter  of,  to  her  son  William 9 

Letter  of,  to  her  son  William 10 

Religious  visit  of,  to  several  Quarterly  Meetings 42 

Keligious  visit  of,  to  New  York  Yearly  Meeting 43 

Interview  of,  with  E.  Ilicks 44 

Testimony  of,  to  the  divinity  of  Christ  and  the  blessedness  of  the 

plan  of  salvation 91 

Evans,  William,  Parentage  and  birth  of— Dislike  of,  to  being  restrained 

— Principles  instilled  by  the  mother  of. 6 

Sent  to  board  with  P.  &  H.  Price 7 

Remarks   of,  on   the   care   necessary   where   children  are   placed 

— Sent  to  Westtown.     Amusements,  &c.,  while  there 8 

Enters  a  counting-house. 1 1 

Goes  apprentice  to  a  druggist — Temptations  of — Remarkable  pre- 
servation from 12 

Religious  education  of — Powerful  visitation  of,  when  reading  Wm. 

Leddra's  epistle 13 

Change  produced  in — Distress  of,  after  yielding  to  temptation 14 

Views  of  Divine  worship  in  which  educated — Opportunity  for  com- 

.     pany  of  Friends 15 

Induced  to  attend  Methodist  meeting — Views  of,  respecting  them — 

also  respecting  Friends  going  to  other  places  of  worship — Dealings 

of  the  Lord  with 16 

Opening  to,  of  the  power  of  temptation,  and  of  Grace — Concern  of. 

to  attend  meetings  for  discipline 17 

Visits  of,  to  Rebecca  Jones 19 

Visits   of,  to  T.    Scattcrgood — Views   opened  to,  of  the   duty  of 

Friends  when  acting  in  a  church  capacity 20 

Views  of,  respecting  gospel  ministry — Accompanies  his  mother  to 

Cain— Sent  to  Oley 21 

View  of  future  call  to  the  ministry 22 


INDEX.  693 

Evans,  William — (contimied). 

Loses  his  belief  in  Christ 23 

Sudden    restoration    of  faith    in   Christ — View   of,    respecting    the 

origin  and  ground  of  faitli 24 

Conitnenccs  business — Scruples  relative  to  business 25 

Divine  promise  to,  that  he  should   never  want  food  and  raiment — 

Marriage  of,  to  Deborah  Musgrave 26 

Visit  of,  to  Long  Branch — Remarks  of,  respecting  visits  to  such 

places — Prostration-of  business  of,  by  the  war 28 

Accompanies  his  motlier  on  a  religious  visit  to  Salem,  &c. — Pro- 
posed change  of  business  by 29 

Uneasiness  of,  at  the  prospect  of  changing  his  business 30 

Declines  proceeding — Escape  thereby — Reflections  on  war 31 

Brought  before  a  Court  Martial — Further  remarks  on  war 32-35 

Commencement  of  the  last  sickness  of  the  first  wife  of 35 

Character  and  convincemcnt  of  the  wife  of 36,  37 

Account  by,  of  the  last  sickness  and  death  of  his  first  wife 38-42 

Accompanies  his  mother  on  a  religious  visit  to  several  Quarterly 

Meetings 42 

Accompanies    his    mother   and    S.   Wilson  to  New  York   Yearly 

Meeting 43 

Accompanies  his  mother  and  H.  Shinn  to  New  England 44 

First  appearance  of,  in  the  ministry 45 

Prospect  of  being  called  to  the  work  of  the  ministry 46 

First  appearance  in  the  ministry  in  his  own  meeting — Views  of,  of 

the  alone  means  for  obtaining  a  saving  knowledge  of  Jesus  Christ  47 

Views  of,  respecting  some  of  the  causes  of  weakness  in  the  Society  48 

Remarks  of,  on  Humility 49 

Remarks  of,  on  the  introduction  of  unsound  doctrine — Notice  of 

the  death  of  Sarah  Wilson 50 

Views  of,  respecting  Divine  Worship,  and  on  waiting  on  the  Lord  52 
Visit  of,  to  a  sister-in-law  in  Ohio — Attends  Ohio  Yearly  Meeting  53 
Account  of,  respecting  some  views  expressed  by  E.  Hicks — Con- 
versation with  him  respecting  them 54 

Remarks  of,  on  instances  of  falling  away  from  the  truth — Neces- 
sity of  humility  and  a  constant  watch 55,  56 

On  the  effects  of  a  worldly  spirit — Dispensation  for  preparing  for 

service — Appointed  to  visit  families  in  the  Monthly  Meeting 57 

Remarks  of,  on  the  needful  preparation  for  service 58 

Humbling  dispensation  endured  by 59 

Attacked  by  malignant  fever — Severe  proving 60 

On  the  tribulation  accompanying  regeneration 61 

Conversation  of,  with  his  father  respecting  the  ministry,  &c 63 

Sudden  closing  of  an  opening  to,  while  speaking  in  meeting 64 

Letter  received  by,  from  a  Friend  in  relation  to  the  above-men- 
tioned trial 65 

Comparison  drawn  by,  between  the  preparation  of  vessels  to  leave 

their  moorings  and  preparation  to  minister 66 

45 


69-1  INDEX. 

Evans,  William — {continued). 

Reflections  of.  on  some  close  trials  entlured 67 

Acknowledged  as  a  minister — Baptism  necessary  to  prepare  for  the 

work 68 

Some  notice  by,  of  the  Yearly  Meeting  of  Philadelphia  in  1822 69 

Mortifying  fears  of,  from  supposed  falling  short  in  ministerial  ser- 
vice at  a  meeting 70 

Notice  by,  of  the  defection  and  ranterisra  of  some  Friends  in  New 
England 71 

Observations  of,  on  the  spread  of  unsound  doctrines  through  the 
Society 72 

Sentiments  of,  respecting  primitive  Friends,  and  present  degene- 
racy, and  denial  of  Divinity  of  Christ 74,  75 

Account  by,  of  proceedings  of  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  in  relation 
to  "Paul  and  Amicus" 76 

Notice  by,  of  the  fruits  of  the  visit  of  E.  Hicks  to  Philadelphia — 
Some  account  of  Yearly  Meeting  of  1823 77-79 

Spread  of  spirit  of  disaffection  to  the  principles  of  the  Society  in 
Philadelphia  Quarter — Visit  of,  to  Wm.  Forster,  Jr 79 

Visits  Washington  under  appointment  of  Meeting  for  Sufferings — 
Exercises  of,  in  different  meetings 81 

Attends  Baltimore  Yearly  Meeting — Concern  while  there 82 

Advice  to,  by  his  father  as  to  the  course  to  be  pursued  while  out  on 
a  religious  visit 83 

Remarks  of,  on  the  condition  of,  and  the  sentiments  of  some,  ex- 
pressed in  Philadelphia  Quarterly  Meeting 84 

Attends  Concord  and  Haddonfield  Quarterly  Meetings 85 

Notice  of  Yearly  Meeting  of  1824 86-88 

Letter  from,  to  his  brother  Thomas 88 

Visit  to  Rhode  Island  Yearly  Meeting,  and  some  meetings  belong- 
ing to  it 90 

First  meeting  appointed  by — Testimony  of  the  mother  of,  to  the 
divinity  of  Christ,  and  the  wisdom  of  the  gospel  plan  of  sal- 
vation        91 

Circumstance  mentioned  by,  showing  the  communion  of  rightly 
exercised  spirits 92 

Marriage  of  to  E.  Barton — Notice  by,  of  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meet- 
ing in  1825 9.3 

proposes  to  visit  the  meetings  of  Philadelphia  Quarter,  but  stopped 
in  the  meeting  by  the  disaffected  members — Opens  in  the  Select 
Quarterly  Meeting  his  concern  respecting  the  spread  of  principles 
of  infidelity 95 

Notice  b}',  of  religious  communications  by  R.  Jordan  and  Elizabeth 
Robson  in  the  Select  Yearly  Meeting  of  1825 96 

Some  notice  by,  of  the  Yearly  Meeting  of  1825 97-99 

Testimony  by,  to  the  value  of  the  Holy  Scriptures 98 

Attends  New  York  Yearly  Meeting — Spirit  of  disaffection  mani- 
fested therein 100 


INDEX.  695 

Evans,  William— (con//nucrf). 

Remarks  by,  on  the  progress  of  the  spirit  of  infidelity — Notice  by, 
of  an  attempt  to  make  new  appointments  in  the  Meeting   for 

Sufferings 101 

Notice  by,  of  death  of  R.  Jordan 102 

Attends  some  meetings  in  company  with  G.  and  A.  Jones 103 

Notice  by,   of  a  distressing  communication  made  in  Philadelphia 

Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders 104 

Testimony  borne  by,   in  Concord  Quarterly  Meeting  against  the 

unsound  opinions  prevailing  in  the  Society 105 

Account  by,  of  the  Yearly  Meeting  of  1827 106-108 

Notice  by,  of  Philadelphia  Quarterly  Meeting,  5th  month,  1827 108 

Account  by,  of  the  attempt  made  by  the  Separatists  to  obtain  part  of 
the  property  belonging  to  the  Southern  District  Monthly  Meet- 
ing     109 

Notice  by,   of  the   holding  of  Abington  Quarterly  Meeting,    5th 

month,  1827 110 

Attends  the  Conference  of  Delegates  from  the  Yearly  Meetings  held 

in  Ohio  in  1828 Ill 

Attends  Conference  of  similar  delegates  held  in  Philadelphia  in  1829 
— Sets  out  on  a  religious  visit  to  North  Carolina  Yearly  Meeting 

and  a  few  of  its  branches 112 

Some  notice  by,  of  proceedings  in  North  Carolina  Yearly  Meet- 
ing     113,114 

Enters  on  a  religious  visit  to  the  meetings  in  New  England 115 

Some  account  by,  of  meetings  attended  in  New  England,  and  of 

exercises  therein 115-124 

Liberated  to  make  a  visit  to  Friends  in  New  York  and  Vermont — 

Trial  to  leave  home 124 

Account  by,  of  the  meetings  attended  and  religious  exercises  passed 

through  during  this  journey 124-163 

Remarks  of,  on  the  injurious  effects  of  speculation  in  property 125 

Meets  with  the  widow  of  David  Sands 126 

Visit  of  to  Anne  Thorne 132 

Remarks  of,  on  the  necessity  of  restraining  children  ;  and  on  the 
great  loss  sustained  by  not  obliging  the  pupils  to  dress  plain  in 

schools  under  the  control  of  Friends 136 

Visit  of,  to  the  widow  of  H.Hull 138 

Observations  of,   on  the  many  advantages  enjoyed  by  Friends  in 

Philadelphia,  and  their  responsibilities 140 

Conversation  of,  with  a  Friend  on  the  doctrine  of  Immediate  Reve- 
lation     143 

Remarks  of,  on  the  duty  of  parents  to  give  their  children  a  good 

education — Consequences  of  a  neglect  of  education 145 

Remarks  of,  on  contracted  habits,  and  views  of,  life  especially  with- 
out religion 147 

Remarks  of,  on  Friends  becoming  absorbed  in  any  one  thing,  as 


696  INDEX. 

Evans,  William — (continued). 

Abolition,  Temperance,  &c.,  and  joining  with  other  professors  in 

plans  to  promote  that  object 148-9 

Eemarks  of,  on  the  duty  of  Friends  attending  properly  to  appoint- 
ments made  in  meetings 153 

Notice  by,  of  the  great  fire  in  New  York — Reached  home  from  New 

York 163 

Unites  with  his  brother  Thomas  in  a  periodical  publication  of  the 
approved  writings  of  Friends — Attends  the  Yearly  Meeting  in 

New  York 164 

Leaves  home  on  a  religious  visit  to  Ohio — Account  of  visit 165-175 

Notice  by,  of  Ohio  Yearly  Meeting 166,  167 

Some  account  by,  of  Mildred  Ratcliff 168 

Views  of,  respecting  the  members  of  Red  Stone  Quarterly  Meeting  173 
Returns    home    from  the  visit  in    Ohio — Attends    by  appointment 

Shrewsbury  and  Rahway  Quarterly  Meeting,  &c 175 

Notice  by,  of  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting  1837 176 

Notice  by,  of  the  sickness  and  death  of  J.  Gibbons  177 

Reflections  of,  on  the  events  of  his  life,  and  on  the  prevalence  of  a 

worldly  spirit 177-8 

Reflections  of,  on  the  state  of  the  country 179-80 

Liberated  to  attend  New  England  Yearly  Meeting  and  a  few  of  its 

meetings 180 

Some  account  by,  of  New  England  Yearly  Meeting 181-183 

Visit  of,  to  Elizabeth  Coggeshall — Returns  home  from  New  Eng- 
land      186 

Goes  as  one  of  a  deputation  sent  to  the  convention  at  Harrisburg....   187 

Visits  Evesham  Meeting 188 

Visits  Abington 188 

Visits  Salem  and  Burlington  Quarterly  Meetings 190 

Visits  Haddonfield  Quarterly  Meeting 191 

Reasons  given  by,  why  spiritual  gifts  are  not  bestowed — Visit  of,  to 

Wilmington  Meeting 193 

Liberated  to  visit  the  meetings  of  Haddonfield  and  Burlington  Quar- 
terly Meetings 196-209 

Visit  of,  to  John  Cox 200 

Leaves  home  on  a  Committee  to  visit  Muncy  and  Exeter  Monthly 

Meetings  and  branches 201 

Notice  by,  of  Ellen  McCarty,  and  some  of  her  religious  service....  202 

Finishes  the  visit — Reflections  on  the  State  of  the  Society,  &c 204 

Accompanies  his  wife  on   a  religious  visit  to  Nine  Partners  and 

Stanford  Quarterly  Meetings,  New  York 206 

Religious  exercise  at  Westtown  School 208 

Views  of,  respecting  the  state  of  the  Society,  and  of  the  ministry...  209 
Liberated  to  visit  Cain  and  Concord  Quarterly  Meetings  and  their 
branches — Account  by,  of  the  sickness,  death  and  character  of 
his  father 210,  211 


INDEX.  697 

Evans,  "William — (continued). 

Sets  out  on  the  visit  to  Cain  and  Concord 211 

Finishes  the  visit,  and  returns  home — Feelings  of,  at  the  approach 

of  the  Yearly  Meeting — Notice  of  Yearly  Meeting  of  1839 216 

Feelings  of,  in  regard  to  Jacob  Green — Attends  Abington  Quarterly 

Meeting 217 

Attends  Bucks  Quarter 218 

Lesson  taught  to,  respecting  speaking  in  meeting — Visits  Haddon- 

field  Quarterly  Meeting 219 

Notice  by,  of  Yearly  Meeting  of  1840 — Pays   a  religious  visit  to 

Baltimore  Quarterly  Meeting  and  branches 220 

Sets  out  on  a  religious  visit  to  Westbury  and  Purchase  Quarterly 

Meetings,  and  some  of  their  branches 221 

Trial  of  faith  and  patience  of 222 

Exercise  of,  at  Westtown 223 

Notice  by,  of  Yearly  Meeting  of  1841 224 

Religious  visit  by,  to  Virginia  Yearly  Meeting 224-226 

Narrow  escape  of  companion  of 225 

Notice  by,  of  Virginia  Yearly  Meeting 226 

Last  sickness,  character  and  death  of  the  oldest  son  of 226-228 

Liberated  to  visit  the  Yearly  Meetings  of  Virginia  and  North  Caro- 
lina and  their  branches — Remarks  on  the  unity  of  Friends  with 

such  concerns 228 

Account  of  visit  228-271 

Discouraging  thoughts  of,  in  contemplation  of  the  journey 229 

Conversation  of,  with  a  colored  blacksmith — Visits  N.  Neal,  who 

had  had  some  of  the  banished  Friends  at  his  house 230 

Conversation  of,  with  two  persons  in  Virginia  respecting  slavery...   231 
Conversation  of,  with  a  tavern  keeper  respecting  the  Indians  and 

Slavery 232 

Remarks  of,  on  the  Natural  Bridge — Conversation  of,  with  a  tavern 

keeper  relative  to  Quakers 233 

Views  of,  respecting  the  assertion  of  slaveholders  that  they  would 

free  their  slaves  if  they  knew  how  it  could  be  done 234 

Remarks  of,  respecting  the  difficulties  surrounding  Friends  of  Lost 

Creek  Quarter — Visit  of,  to  a  school  there,  and  reflections  on 

education 237 

Remarks  of,  on  the  loss  sustained  by  the  Society  and  its  members, 

where  the  discipline  is  not  prqperly  supported 238,  239 

Observations  of,  on  the  scenery  observed  from  the  top  of  the  Blue 

Ridge 240 

Notice  by,  of  a  Moravian  settlement 242 

Painful  accident  to 243 

Reflections  on  such  trials 244 

Notice  by,  of  the  Yearly  Meeting  of  North  Carolina — Remarks  by, 

on  the  value  of  education 245 

Meets  with  Abner  Heald  and  D.  Fawcet,  of  Ohio 254 


698  INDEX. 

Evans,  William — (continued). 

Turns  back  to  visit  a  meeting 256 

Remarks  of,  respecting  the  comfortless  condition  of  tlie   meeting- 
houses    259 

Disquieting  fears  while  at  Rich  Square  Meeting 260 

Remarks  of,  respecting  the  evils   attending  Friends  who  settle  far 

away  from  meetings  and  society  of  Friends 261 

Remarks  of,  on  the  doubtful  advantages  to  Friends  to  emigrate,  and 

on  the  lessening  of  meetings 262,  263 

Entertainment  of,  at  a  storekeeper's  in  Virginia,  and  conversation 

with  him 267 

Fears  of,  respecting  the  safety,  &c.,  of  his  family 269 

Return  home  from  Virginia 271 

Notice  by,  of  an  epistle  prepared  and  sent  to  the  Meeting  for  Suf- 
ferings in  London,  calling  attention  to  publications  by  some  of 

their  members  containing  unsound  doctrines 272 

Visits  by  appointment  the  Preparative  Meeting  of  Ministers  and 

Elders  at  Muncy 272 

Attends  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting 273 

Second  religious  visit  in  the  limits  of  Ohio  Yearly  Meeting — Dis- 
couraging considerations  respecting  leaving  home 274-304 

Conversation  with  some  slaveholders 274 

Character  of  the  concern  of 276 

Conversation  of,  with  a  fellow-traveller  on  governmental  policy, 

war,  &c 277 

At  Short  Creek  Quarterly  Meeting 278 

Attends  Stillwater  Quarterly  Meeting 284 

Visit  at  J.  Edgerton's,  whose  daughter  was  deceased 288 

Turns  back  to  visit  some  meetings 289 

Some  remarks   on  the  effects,  where  frugal  habits  degenerate  into 

penuriousness 292 

Caution  given  to,  by  a  Friend  after  a  meeting 294 

Feelings  of,   at    Rapp's   Settlement — Dangerous   situation    on    the 

road 301 

Visit  to  Mildred  Ratcliff — Interesting'  conversation 302 

Reaches  home  from  Ohio 304 

Notice  by,  of  the  concern  in  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  relating  to 
a  work  written  by  Dr.  Ash,  of  England,  and  the  spread  of  un- 
sound doctrines 304 

Notice  by,  of  the  proceedings  of  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  and  of 

the  Yearly  Meeting  of  1843 305 

Refining  dispensation  to 306 

Attends  New  York  Yearly  Meeting 307 

Service  of,  at  the  meeting 308 

Notice  by,  of  the  care  of  the  Book  Committee — Of  the  establishment 

of  the  Book  Store 309 

Visit  of,  to  Springfield,  and  religious  exercise  there 310 


INDEX.  699 

Evans,  Willi  am— (continued). 

Attends  Concord  Quarterly  Meeting — Liberated  to  attend  Indiana 

Yearly  Meeting 311 

Attends  Western  Quarterly  Meeting — Starts  for  Indiana 312 

Notice  by,  of  journey  to  Richmond,  Indiana 312-314 

Visit  of,  to  Ann  Shipley 314 

Notice  by,  of  the  meetings  at  Indiana  Yearly  Meeting 315,  316 

Return  to  Cincinnati 316 

Religious  labor  with  the  members  there 317 

Danger  encountered  by,  on  the  Ohio 318 

Arrives  at  home 318 

Visit  to  Westtown 319 

Religious  exercise  at  his  own  meeting 320 

Notice  of  Philadelphia  Quarterly  Meeting 321 

Attends  a  meeting  for  laborers  appointed  by  R.  Priestman 322 

Notice  by,  of  Yearly  Meeting  of  Philadelphia  in  1844 — Of  a  remon- 
strance by  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  against  the  annexation  of 

Texas — Blessings  of  a  religious  life 323 

Visit  of,  to  S.  Emlen,  about  to  embark  for  England 325 

Remarks  of,  on  the  changes  taking  place  among  Friends  of  Phila- 
delphia     326 

Notice  by,  of  his  wife's  visiting  families  at  Woodbury 327 

Notice  by,  of  Lydia  Dean,  of  Philadelphia  Quarterly  Meeting 328 

Attendance  of  Concord  and  Western  Quarterly  Meetings 329 

Burning  of  the  Store  of 330 

Attends  Haddonfield  Quarterly  Meeting 331 

Liberated  to  visit  the  Northwestern  Meetings  in  New  York — Leaves 

home 333 

Passage  of,  up  the  Hudson 334 

Account  by,  of  this  journey 333-374 

Attends  Le  Ray  Quarterly  Meeting 336 

Service  of,  at  Skaneateles 337 

Remarks  of,  on  the  eager  pursuit  of  wealth 341 

Remarks  of,  on  the  danger  of  being  absorbed  in  works  of  philan- 
thropy      342 

View  of  the  Niagara — Notice  by,  of  a  destructive  flood  at  BuflFalo  347 

Difficulties  in  travelling 349 

Feelings  of,  when  standing  by  Niagara  Falls 350 

Remarks  by,  on  those  who  let  fall  our  testimonies,  and  amalgamate 

with  other  professors 351 

Meets  with  a  damaging  accident  to  their  carriage 352 

Depressing  fears  of 353 

Difficulties  of,  in  travelling,  from  snow  and  ice 356-7 

Severe  cold  mentioned  by 358 

Remarks  by,  on  the  evils  of  marrying  out  of  the  Society 360 

Account  received  by,  from  a  Friend  of  his  settling  in  Canada 361 

Attends  the  Half  Year's  Meeting  in  Canada 362-3 


700  INDEX, 

Evans,  William — {continued) . 

Notice  by,  of  severe  cold,  and  of  the  disadvantage  of  living  in  new 

settlements 364 

Notice  by,  of  hardships  encountered,  and  of  the  great  responsibility 

of  parents  how  the  children  are  cared  for 365 

Difficulty  and  peril  encountered  in  a  severe  snow-storm., 366 

Becomes  sick,  faith  closely  tried — Severe  cold 387 

Reassured  by  a  Divine  promise 368 

Returns  into  the  United  States 369 

Difficulty  of  travelling  in  deep  snow  or  hail,  mentioned  by 370 

Gets  back  to  Butternuts — Sell  their  carriage  and  horses 373 

Notice  by,  of  John  Wood — Arrives  at  home 374 

Sense  of,  of  the  want  of  the  life  of  religion  among  Friends 375 

Accompanies  his  wife  on  a  visit  to  Exeter  and  Maiden  Creek  Meet- 
ings     376 

Service  of,  at  Western  Meeting 377 

Remarks  of,  on  the  social  intercourse  between  the  true  disciples  of 

Christ 378 

Notice  by,  of  exercises  at  his  own  and  other  meetings 379-380 

Attends  Bucks  and  Haddontield  Quarterly  Meetings 381 

Remarks  of,  respecting  Ann  Jones,  of  Stockport,  England o82 

Service  of,  at  Germantown  Meeting  and  Arch  street 383 

Notice  by,  of  the  death,  &c.,  of  Hannah  L.  Smith 385 

Attends  Evesham  Meeting  and  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting 387 

Attends  the  Western  Quarterly  Meeting 388 

Attends  Haddontield  Monthly  Meeting 389 

Notice  by,  of  the  first  meeting  of  the  committee  appointed  by  the 

Meeting  for  Sufferings  to  examine  certain  doctrinal  works 390 

Pays  a  religious  visit  to  Stanford  Quarterly  Meeting,  New  York  391-395 

Notice  by,  of  a  visit  paid  to  two  ancient  Friends 394 

Remarks  on  sense  of  desertion,  and  on  the  state  of  the  Society 395 

Attends  Abington  Quarterly  Meeting 397 

Notice  by,  of  John  Bullock 398 

Notice  by,  of  the  Yearly  Meeting  of  Philadelphia  in  1847 399 

Attends  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting — Notice  of  the  death  of  Ann 

Scattergood 400 

Visit  of,  and  wife  to  Greenwich  and  Salem 401 

Notice  of  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  when  final  action  was  taken 

on  "  The  Appeal  for  the  Ancient  Doctrines" 402 

Second  religious  visit  to  North  Carolina 405-415 

Conversation  of,  with  the  Governor  of  Virginia 406 

Some  account  by,  of  the  Yearly  Meeting  of  North  Carolina 407-409 

Religious  services  of,  and  the  different  meetings  attended 409-415 

Returns  home 415 

Confinement  of,  at  business — Cause  for  humiliation  to 416 

Attends  Shrewsbury  and  Rahway  Quarterly  Meeting 417 

Notice  by,  of  a  pleasant  incident 418 

Extract  from  a  letter  of,  to  a  Friend ...  419 


INDEX.  701 

Evans,  William — (continued). 

Service  of,  at  Plymouth  Monthly  Meeting — Notice  by,  of  Hannah 

Williams 421 

Views  of,  respecting  separations 422 

Religious  service  of,  at  Birmingham 423 

Attends  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting •, 426 

Closing  up  of  a  prospect  of  a  religious  visit  by,  remarks  thereon...  427 
Notice  by,  of  a  letter  received  from  England,  giving  a  view  of  the 

state  of  things  among  Friends  there 429 

Views  of,  respecting  the  lapsed  condition  of  the   Society,  and  on 

Divine  worship , 430 

Attends  several  meetings  iu  Haddonfield  Quarter 4-32 

Reflections  of,  on  the  authority  of  true  ministry— On  the  means  of 

preservation 434 

Trial  of  faith  of — Exercise  on  behalf  of  the  young  people 43.5 

Advice  of,  to  two  young  Friends 437 

Remarks  of,  on  the  Legal  and  Gospel  Dispensations 438 

Notice    by,    of    Philadelphia   Yearly    Meeting    of    Ministers   and 

Elders  in  1849— Service  of,  in  it 439-440 

Notice  by,  of  the  Yearly  Meeting  of  1849 — Authority  for  speaking 

to  the  affairs  of  the  Church 441 

Remarks  by,  ou  reading  letters  of  Sarah  L.  Grubb 442 

Views  of,  in  relation  to  the  evil  effects  of  the  exposure  of  young 

people  at  places  of  public  resort,  as  sea  shore,  &c 444 

Notice  by,  of  the  character  and  services  of  S.  L.  Grubb 445 

Notice  by,  of  the  death  of  Sarah  Emlen,  and  of  Mary  Carpenter...  446 
Notice  of  Philadelphia  Quarterly  Meeting — Attends  Salem  Quarter  447 

Thoughts  of,  respecting  the  state  of  the  Society 448 

Notice  by,  of  the  death  and  character  of  Margaret  Hutchinson 449 

Visit  by  appointment  to  the  members  of  Muucy  Monthly  Meeting — 

Some  conversation  with  Jesse  Haines 4.50 

Exercise  of,  at  Muncy  Monthly  Meeting 452 

Exercise  of,  at  Philadelphia  Quarterly  Meeting 453 

Humiliating  exercises  endured  by 456 

Notice  by,  of  H.  Rhoads'  religious  concern  to  visit  Great   Britain....458 
Attends  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting — Comforted  by  the  ministry  of 

H.  Haines 459 

Liberated  to  pay  a  religious  visit  to  the  meetings  of  Friends  in  New 

Jersey 460 

Account  by,  of  this  visit 461-475 

Attends  Haddonfield  Quarterly  Meeting 461 

Notice  by,  of  the  meetings  along  the  sea  shore 461-463 

Remarks  ou  the  need  of  more  religious  depth,  and  less  of  the  love 

of  the  world 467 

Visit  of,  to  John  Sheppard 469 

Visit  of,  to  Rebecca  Hubbs 470 

Notice  by,  of  Yearly  Meeting  of  1850 471 

Attends  Burlington  Quarterly  Meeting 471 


702  INDEX. 

Evans,  William — (continued). 

Mournful  exercises  of. 475 

Notice  by,  of  the  departure  of  H.  Rhoads  for  England 476 

Notice  b}',  of  a  great  fire  in  Philadelphia 478 

Kcmarks  by,  on   the  ceremonies  observed  in  Philadelphia  on  the 

occasion  of  the  death  of  the  President  of  the  United  States 479 

Attends  Concord  Quarterly  Meeting 480 

Attends  the  Western  Quarterly  Meeting 481 

Kcligious  exercise  in  his  own  meeting 483 

Keflections  on  the  unsettled  condition  of  the  governments  of  Christ- 
endom    485 

Undeniable  evidence   given  to,   of  the  Lord's  gracious  regard  of 
him,  and  of  his  exercises  for  the  Society — Necessity  for  Friends  to 

stand  boldly  for  their  religion 485,  486 

Remarks  by,  on  the  necessity  for  divine  direction  in  visiting  meet- 
ings   487 

Remarks  of,  on  the  spirit  of  separation,  and  the  value  of  keeping 

the  Society  an  united  body 488-9 

Notice  by,  of  Philadelphia  Quarterly  Meeting 489 

Attends  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting 491 

Attends  Concord  Quarterly  Meeting — Remarks  of,  on  separation...  492 

Notice  of  the  Yearly  Meeting  in  Philadelphia  in  1851 495 

Notice  by,  of  the  death  and  character  of  Robert  Smith 496 

Liberated  to  visit  the  meetings  composing  Indiana  Yearly  Meeting  496 

Leaves  home — Account  of  this  journey 498-545 

Notice  by,  of  rough  roads  and  beautiful  scenery 499 

Notice  of  character  of  the  country  and  improvements 500 

Solemn  feelings  of,  at  the  sudden  death  of  a  Friend 501 

Attends  Select  Quarterly  Meeting  at  Gilead 503 

Attends  Alum  Creek  Quarterly  Meeting 504 

Account  given  to,  by  a  Friend  of  his  journey  from  Bush  River,  South 
Carolina,  with  some  colored  people,  and  of  his  manner  of  life  for 

some  time  after  settling  in  Ohio 507 

Lonely  feelings  of,  when  about  to  enter  the  prairies 514 

Commences  crossing   the  state    of    Illinois — Dangers   of,    on    the 

prairies 516 

Remarks  on  low  condition  in  morals  among  many — Providential 

meeting  of,  with  one  who  gave  right  directions  of  the  way  to  go...  517 

Difficulties  in  reaching  and  crossing  the  Illinois  River 518 

Travelling  through  water 518 

Detention  in  crossing  the  Mississippi — Meets  some  Canada  Friends 

at  whose  house  he  had  been  in  Canada 519 

Carriage  of,  broken  in  a  slough 520 

Attends  the  Quarterly  Meeting  at  Salem 524 

Reflections  by,  on  the  propriety  of  Friends  being  pioneers  in  set- 
tling new  countries 526 

Recrosses  the  Mississippi  at  Muscatine 527 

Interesting  incidents  in  the  family  of  a  person  not  a  Friend 528 


INDEX.  703 

Evans,  William — (continnecr). 

End  of  the  return  journey  across  the  prairies 529 

Diingerous  accident  to  one  of  the  horses  of. 533 

Attendance  and  services  at  various  meetings 534-543 

Notice  of  Indiana  Yearly  Electing  by 544 

Arrival  at  home  of 545 

Reflections  of,  on  the  approach  of  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting,  and 

the  spirit  of  separation 546 

Notice  by,  of  the  Yearly  Meeting 548 

Told  "  The  Lord  spoke  through  you  to-day"  by  a  stranger,  after  a 

meeting  at  Arch  street 550 

Attendance  and  services  of,  at  meetings  in  or  near  the  city 551-556 

Reflections  of,  on  the  many  privileges  attached  to  membersliip  in 

the  Society  of  Friends 556 

Visit  to,  and  character  of  Hannah  Gibbons 558 

Reflections  by,  on  the  danger  of  the  possession  of  riches 560 

Remarks  by,  on  the  rise,  the  preservation  of  Friends,  and  the  re- 
sponsibilities attached  to  them  561 

By  appointment,  visits  with  others  the  families  of  the  Monthly  Meet- 
ing    562 

Liberated  to  visit  the  meetings  of  Concord,  Cain   and   Western 

Quarterly  Meetings 563 

Character  of  Hinchman  Haines  by 563 

Sets  out  on  the  visit  to  the  meetings  of  the  three  Quarterly  Meet- 
ings   564 

Account  by,  of  the  meetings  attended  and  services  therein 564-576 

Attends  Concord  Quarterly  Meeting — Thoughts  on  war 567 

Attends  Cain  Quarterly  Meeting 568 

Attends  the  Western  Quarterly  Meeting 571 

Fears  of,  respecting  the  spread  of  unsound  sentiments  entertained  by 
persons  living  within  the  limits  of  the  Western  Quarterly  Meet- 
ing    573 

Returns  home 576 

Notice  of  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting  of  1853 577 

Reminiscences  interesting  to,  of  R.  Jordan  and  T.  Scattergood 578 

Attends  Haddonfield  Quarterly  Meeting 579 

Notice  of  the  death  of  the  mother-in-law  of 580 

Remarks  of,  on  the  observance  of  the  4th  of  the  7th  month 581 

Notice  by,  of  Philadelphia  Quarterly  Meeting 583 

Attends  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting 584 

Remarks  of,  on  separation 585 

Remarks  of,  on  the  diff'erence  between  the  thankful  and  the  unthank- 
ful— Contriting  sense  of  mercies,  of 588 

Sense  of  desertion  felt  by 589 

Attends  a  few  meetings  in  New  Jersey 590-591 

Sad  i-eflections  of,  when  at  Fallsington = 592 

Notice  by,  of  the  religious  concern  of  the  committee  having  the 
oversight  of  Westtown 594 


704  INDEX. 

Evans,  William — (continued) . 

Remarks  of,  on  readiug  the  proofs  for  a  new  edition  of  Piety  Pro- 
moted    596 

Remarks  of,  on  the  proposed  violation  of  the  Missouri  Compromise  596 

Notice-by,  of  the  death  and  services  of  William  Forster 598 

Attends  Concord  Quarterly  Meeting 598 

Notice  by,  of  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting  of  1854 ." 600 

Reflections  of,  on  the  distribution  of  Piety  Promoted 601 

Attends  Galloway  Meeting 603 

Liberated  to  attend  Ohio  Yearly  Meeting 604 

Letter  to,  from  H.  Gibbons 605 

Sets  out  for  Ohio — Account  by,  of  meetings  and  services 606-617 

Notice  by,  of  great  drought  in  Ohio 608 

Notice  by,  of  Ohio  Yearly  Meeting 609,  610 

Conversation  of,  with  a  religious  Methodist 611 

Returns  home 617 

Attends  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting 617 

Services  of,  at  meetings  near  home 618-620 

Attends  Concord  Quarterly  Meeting 621 

Notice  by,  of  the  death  of  Samuel  Leeds 621 

Exercises  of,  respecting  the  state  of  the  Society 622 

Notice    by,    of  Philadelphia   Quarterly    Meeting  —  Attends    Salem 

Quarterly  Meeting 623 

Attends  Haddonfield  Quarterly  Meeting — Notice  by,  of  the  death 

of  Sarah  Hillman 624 

Notice  by,  of  Ohio  Yearly  Meeting 625 

Notice  by,  of  the  sickness,   death  and  character  of  Margaret  M. 

Smith 625 

Season  of  stripping  with — Attends  Shrewsbury  and  Rahway  Quar- 
terly Meeting 627 

Peeling  of,  like  being  retired  from  labor 629 

Sense  of,  of  the  need  of  Divine  preservation 630 

Notice  by,  of  severe  cold  and  its  effects 631 

Attends  Haddonfield  Quarterly  Meeting — Notice  by,  of  the  destruc- 
tion of  a  steamboat  on  the  Delaware 632 

Notice  by,  of  the  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting  of  1856 634 

Impressions  made  on,  in  his  own  nieeting 634 

Reflections  by,  on  the  mercies  extended  to  him  through  life 637 

Notice  by,  of   Philadelphia  Quarterly  Meeting — Attends  Concord 

Quarterly  Meeting 639 

Attends  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting 641 

Attends  Haddonfield  Quarterly  Meeting 642 

Observations  by,  on  the  pecuniary  troubles  in  Philadelphia 642,  644 

Attends  Burlington  Quarterly  Meeting 645 

Notice  of  Philadelphia  Quarterly  Meeting 647 

Notice  of  the  "  Appeal  to  the  citizens  of  the  United  States  on  behalf 
of  the  colored  people" 648 


INDEX.  705 

Evans,  William — (continued). 

Remarks  of,  on  tlie  dol'ective  character  of  home  education  among 

many  Friends 650 

Notice  by,  of  Thiladelphia  Yearly  Meeting  of  1857 657 

Remarks  by,  on  over-extended  business 653 

Attends  Concord  Quarterly  Meeting 654 

Notice  by,  of  a  religious  exercise  in  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings 656 

Thoughts  of,  on  hearing  of  proposed  changes  in  England 657 

Humiliating  exercises 658 

Attends  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting 658 

Reflections  of,  on  unity,  and  Ministers  and  Elders 659 

Notice  by,  of  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting  of  1859 660 

Remarks  of,  on  war 661 

Notice  by,  of  the  concern  in  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings,  that  Friends 

keep  to  their  original  faith 663 

Thoughts  produced  in,  by  his  advanced  age 664 

Reflection  of,  on  the  warnings  that  the  end  is  approaching 666 

Remarks  of,  on  the  threatening  political  condition  of  the  country..   667 

Attends  Salem  Quarterly  Meeting 668 

Attends  Haddonfield  Quarterly  Meeting 669 

Notice  by,  of  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting  of  1860 , 671 

Trials  of,  through  temptation 673 

Attends  Concord  Quarterly  Meeting 674 

Notice  by,  of  the  death  and  character  of  Joseph  Rhoads 676 

Attends  Abington  and  Salem  Quarterly  Meetings 676 

Attends  H;  ddonfield  Quarterly  Meeting 677 

Reflections  of,  on  the  civil  war 678 

Thoughts  of,  on  the  danger  of  over-valuation 678 

Attends  Concord  Quarterly  Meeting 681 

Reflections  of,  on  the  trials  to  which  the  Society  of  Friends  is  sub- 
jected    682 

Visit  of,  with  his  wife  to  Salem — Ministerial  labor  of  his  wife  in 

the  Quarterly  Meeting  of  Ministers  and  Elders 683 

Sudden  decease  of  the  wife  of 684 

Deep  affliction  of,  and  gracious  announcement  to 685 

Attends  Abington  Quarterly  Meeting 686 

Last  days,  sickness  and  death  of 687-690 

F. 

Fawcet,  David,  meets  William  Evans  in  North  Carolina 254 

Accompanies  William  Evans  to  some  meetings  in  Ohio 299 

FoKSTEE,  William,  Jr..  attends  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting  in  1823 79 

At  Rhode  Island  Yearly  Meeting 90 

Notice  of  the  death  and  services  of. 597,  598 

Friends  of  remarkable  character  and  gifts  in  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meet- 
ing       15 

Imposition  upon  and  heavy  fines  of 45 


706  INDEX. 


G. 


Gibbons,  Joseph,  Notice  of  the  sickness  aud  death  of. 177 

Gibbons,  Hannah,  Notice  of. 558 

Grant,  Dk.,  Sentiments  of,  respecting  slavery,  and  practice  of 268 

Green,  Jacob,  Attends  Philadelphia  Quarterly  Meeting 217 

H. 

Hackek,  Jeremiah,  Accompanies  William  Evans  through  Virginia  and 

North  Carolina 229 

Haines,  Jesse,  Conversation  with 450 

Haines,  Hinchman,  Notice  of  a  communication  by 459 

Death  and  character  of 563 

Halleck,  Isaac,  Account  given  by,  of  an  Indian's  description  of  David 

Bacon 131 

Heald,  Abner,  Meets  William  Evans  in  North  Carolina 254 

Healy,  Christophek,  Notice  of 381 

Testimony  of,  in  tlie  Meeting  for  Sufferings 402 

Hicks,  I:lias,  Interview  with,  by  H.  Evans 44 

A  visit  of,  to  Philadelphia — Unsound  sentiments  held  by,  testified  to 

by  J.  Whitall 73 

Hilles,  Samuel,  Accompanies  William  Evans  into  New  York  State 221 

Hillman,  Sakah,  Death  and  character  of 624 

HoKNE,  Susanna,  Family  visit  by 27 

Sudden  death  of  the  companion  of. 28 

Hull,  Hbnrt,  Widow  of,  visit  to,  by  William  Evans 138,  159 

HuBBS,  Rebecca,  Visit  to,  by  William  Evans 470 

J. 

Jackson,  William,  Testimony  of,  respecting  Ann  Jones 382 

Notice  of 572 

Jones,  Rebecca,  Notice  of— Advice  given  by,  to  William  Evans 19 

Jones,  George  and  Ann,  Attend  Philadelphia  Quarterly  Meeting 102 

Jones,  Ann,  Notice  of  the  death  of,  and  remarks  on  the  character  of. 382 

Jordan,  Richard,  Substance  of  discourse  by,  at  Newtown 80 

Substance  of  discourse  by,  in  the  Select  Yearly  Meeting  of  1825 96 

Death  of 102 

£. 

Ketser,  Abraham,  Notice  of 

Kite,  Thomas,  Opens  a  concern  in  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  respecting 

a  book  published  by  Dr.  Ash 304 

In  company  with  William  Evans  attends  New  York  Yearly  Meeting  307 
Also  Indiana  Yearly  Meeting 31 1 

Kitely,  Elizabeth,  Visit  to,  by  William  Evans 203 

L. 

Leddra,  William,  Epistle  of,  effect  produced  on  William  Evans  by  reading     1 3 
Leeds,  Samuel,  Notice  of  the  death  of 621 


INDEX.  707 

M. 

McCarty,  Ellen,  Religious  service  of,  at  a  militia  muster 202 

MiLFORD,  New — Origin  of  the  meeting  established  at 132 

MusGRAVE,  Deborah,  Marriage  of,  to  William  Evans 26 

Last  sickness  and  death  of. 38-42 

MusGKAVE,  Aaron,  Death  of 44 

N. 

Neal,    Lewis,  Informs   William    Evans  of  the  banished  Friends,  who 

were  at  his  house 230 

Nicholson,  Samuel,  Accompanies  William  Evans  in  New  Jersey 460 

P. 

Pkiestman,  Rachel,  Meeting  held  by,  in  Philadelphia  for  laborers 322 

B. 

Ratcliff,  Mildred,  Some  account  of 168 

Reeve,  Josiah  and  Elizabeth,  Character  of,  given  by  William  Evans  183 

Reeve,  Josiah,  Death  of 221 

Rhoads,  Joseph,  Marriage  of,  to  Hannah  Evans,  Jr 49 

Death  and  character  of 676 

RoBSON,  Elizabeth,  Remarkable  anecdote  narrated  by 87 

Religious  engagement  of,  in  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting  in  1825  97 

Religious  service  of,  in  Philadelphia  Quarterly  Meeting 99 

Religious  communication  of,  to  Philadelphia  Select  Quarterly  Meet- 
ing    108 

B. 

Sands,  David,  Visit  of,  to  Philadelphia 22 

Notice  of  widow  of 127 

Savert,  W^illiam,  Notice  of  last  public  sermon  of 18 

ScATTERGOOD,  Thomas,  Peculiar  gift  of 15 

Character  and  manner  of 20 

Family  visit  by,  communication  to  William  and  D.  Evans 27 

Death  of 35 

Scattergood,  Ann,  Notice  of  the  death  of 400 

ScoTTON,  Robert,  Some  notice  of  a  communication  from 454 

Shipley,  Ann,  Visit  to,  by  William  Evans 314 

Sheppard,  John,  Notice  of. 469 

Shoemaker,  Charles,  Character  of 189 

Smith,  Hannah  L.,  Notice  of 385 

Smith,  Margaret  M.,  Sickness,  death,  and  character  of 625 

Smith,  Robert,  death  and  character  of 496 

Snowdon,  Joseph,  Accompanies  William  Evans  to  New  England 115 

Accompanies  William  Evans  to  New  York  and  Vermont 124 

Accompanies  William  Evans  to  New  England  Yearly  Meeting 180 


708  INDEX. 

Snowdon,  Joseph — (continued). 

Accompanies  William  Evans  to  Stanford  Quarterly  Meeting,  New 

York 391 

Stkvenson,  Isaac,  Substance  of  sermon  by 86 

Students,  Convinced  by  Barclay's  Apology,  and  set  up  a  meeting 132 

SuiPEKiNGS,  The  Meeting  for — Action  of,  in  relation  to  "Paul  and 

Amicus"  76 

Sends  to  Washington  for  information  ixlative  to  the  foreign  slave 

trade 81 

Disorderly  attempt  made  to  introduce  new  members  into 101 

Committee  appointed  by,  on  account  of  the  separation  in  1827 — 

Epistle  issued  by 110 

Statement  of  the  cause  and  progress  of  the  separation,  by Ill 

Issues  an  address  relative  to  slavery,  and  the  treatment  of  the  Indians  175 

Sends  a  memorial  to  the  State  Convention  at  Harrisburg 180 

Introduction   into,  of  concern  on  account  of  the  spread  of  works 

containing  unsound  doctrines 191 

Concern  of,  for  the  more  extensive  distribution  of  the  approved 
writings  of  Friends,  and  the  establishment  of  an  office  for  their 

sale 195 

Notice  of  an  epistle  of,  to  the  Meeting  for  Sufferings  in  London, 

relative  to  the  publication  of  unsound  doctrine 272 

Concern  of,  on  account  of  slavery,  particularly  in  the  State  of  De- 
laware    275 

Concern  of,  on  account  of  Dr.  Ash's  attack  on  Barclay,  &c. — 
Appoints  a  committee  to  draw  up  a  declaration  of  the  doctrines 

and  testimonies  held  by  Friends 304 

Adopts  the  account  drawn  up  of  the  Rise  and  Progress  of  the  Abo- 
lition of  Slavery  among  Friends — Also,  "The  Ancient  Testi- 
mony" of  the  Society  of  Friends 305 

Remonstrates  against  the  junction  of  Texas  and  the  United  States  323 

Addresses  the  young  men  liable  to  military  duty 327 

Final  action  of,  in  relation  to  the  "  Appeal  for  the  Ancient  Doc- 
trines"    402 

Continued  concern  of,  on  account  of  slavery  and  the  slave  trade....  404 
Exercise  in,   on   account  of  the  threatened  repeal   of  the  laws  in 

Pennsylvania  against  kidnapping 468 

Memorial  of,  against  the  repeal  of  laws  against  kidnapping 468 

Interest  of,  in  the  circulation  of  the  approved  writings  of  Friends...   495 
Appoints  a  committee  to  prepare  an  epistle  of  counsel  and  encour- 
agement   576 

Religious  concern  in 577 

Presents    a   remonstrance    against    the  extension    of  slavery    into 

Nebraska  Territory 597 

Adopts  an  Appeal  on  behalf  of  the  Colored  Races 648 

Issues  a  new  and  enlarged  edition  of  "  Advices" 660 

Approves  a  concise  declaration  of  the  rise  and  faith  of  Friends 
prepared  for  a  periodical 670 


INDEX.  709 


Talcot,  Joseph,  Visit  to,  by  William  Evans 339 

Thoene,  Anne,  Visit  to,  by  William  Evans,  prior  to  her  embarkation 

for  England 132 

W. 

Wareington,  Heney,  Accompanies  William  Evans  to  the  meetings  of 

Haddonfield  and  Burlington  Quarterly  Meetings 196 

Notice  of < 474 

Wheeler,  Daniel,  Arrives  in  Philadelphia 210 

Whitall,  Joseph,  Testimony  of,  respecting  the  unsoundness  of  E.  Hicks.     73 

Notice  of... 273 

Williams,  Hannah,  Notice  of 4^1 

Wilson,  Sarah,  Accompanied  by  William  Evans  to  New  York  Yearly 

Meeting 43 

Death  of 50 

WiTHT,  George,  Attends  Philadelphia  Yearly  Meeting 69 

Wood,  John,  Notice  of. 374 


Yearly  Meeting,  Baltimore,  Visit  to,  by  William  Evans 82 

Deputations  from  Baltimore  and  North  Carolina,  to  Philadelphia 

Yearly  Meeting 549 

Indiana,  Visit  to,  by  William  Evans 315,  544 

New  England,  William  Evans  accompanies  his  mother  to 44 

«           "           Religious  visit  to,  by  William  Evans 90 

'«           "           Second  religious  visit  to,  by  William  Evans 181 

New  York,  William  Evans  accompanies  his  mother  to 43 

"         "       Religious  visit  to,  by  William  Evans 100 

"         "       Second  religious  visit  to,  by  William  Evans 307 

Ohio,  Notice  of 53 

"      Religious  visit  to,  by  William  Evans 166 

"      Second  religious  visit  to,  by  William  Evans 609 

Philadelphia,  Notice  of,  in  1822 69 

Notice  of,  in  1823 71 

Notice  of,  in  1824 86 

Notice  of,  in  1825 92 

Notice  of,  in  1826 97 

Notice  of,  in  1827 106 

Notice  of,  in  1837 176 

Notice  of,  in  1839 216 

Notice  of,  in  1840 220 

Notice  of,  in  1841 224 

Notice  of,  in  1843 305 

Notice  of,  in  1844 323 

Notice  of,  in  1847 399 

Notice  of,  in  1849 439 

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710  INDEX. 

Yearly  Meeting,  Philadelphia — (continued). 

Notice  of,  in  1851 495 

Notice  of,  in  1852 548 

Notice  of,  in  1853 577 

Notice  of,  in  1854 600 

Notice  of,  in  1856 634 

Notice  of,  in  1858 651 

Notice  of,  in  1859 »■ 660 

Notice  of,  in  1860 671 

ViBGiNiA,  Religious  visit  paid  to,  by  William  Evans 226 


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